#thank you for the reblog!

[jaimistoryteller]

Help Please!

Hi All The past month has not been easy. Dad has been in and out of the hospital due breathing problems and chest pains (we are still hoping to get to the bottom of that). Between the weather, household chores, and driving him back and forth, my pain levels have been through the roof- the joys of living with chronic pain. To top it off, five bills processed at the same time and I am now at -$683 for my checking account plus getting hit with over draft bills as well.

Without getting too much into it, it’s been a difficult time physically, mentally and emotionally. Any and all help in the form of reblogs, donations, buying copies of my book, or commissions would be very much appreciated. Jaimi

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#gofundme #signal boost #donate #urgent #please donate #please reblog #bump #indie author #help please #please every little bit helps #even the sharing! #as that shows it to new people #Jaimi's GFM #thank you for the reblog! #filling the queue as i am getting ready to leave to visit with dad in the hospital for a bit #boost #even a little bit helps #thank you

[valeriapryanikova]

This season, on Hermitcraft...

(speedpaint)

#i never ask for reblogs But this is a special occasion so pretty please reblog reblog reblog! thank you ^_^ #hermitcraft #rendog #vintagebeef #tangotek #i'm not tagging everyone :0 those three get tags bc they were the more important ones lore-wise this season #i'm tempted to also tag grian scar and mumbo for the Exposure but i'm not gonna #edit: changed my mind i'm tagging them i have no shame #grian #goodtimeswithscar #mumbo jumbo #mcyt #fanart #special shoutout to hc recap bc i watched all of the recaps for s9 and took a Bunch of notes to figure out what and how to draw for this #(and i still didn't manage to draw everything i wanted to bc of just sheer amount of stuff that happened this season lol)

[irlwakko]

not to be all “think of the children” but the fact that companies can openly admit to using methods to intentionally form addictions in children and we’re not killing their ceos in the streets yet is astounding

#like what the fuck is a 'season pass' #bitch i'll kill you #hey people from the explore tab #read the full version of this post w/ my reblogs before you reply please? thanks #pastel's greatest hits

[chremes007]

You when your friend told you his ex turned into the moon.

ref pic:

#zuko #zukka #atla #sokka #fanart #avatar the last airbender #natla #my art #netflix atla #sketch #ian ousley #dallas liu #edit: 4k notes! what is happening! thank you guys so much for liking/reblogging my fanart ;_; didnt expect this to blow up at all

[gayfranzkafka]

The Nisenan tribe in my local area has the opportunity to purchase 232 acres located on a historic Nisenan Village site called Yulića, but they have a limited time (until April 4, 2024) to raise the needed funds. You can learn more about the fundraiser and donate here.

Especially if you have ever enjoyed any of my writing, like Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Aren't Dead, it would mean the world to me if you'd consider donating what you're able.

I'm also happy to take commissions and donate the funds in full to the fundraiser or to write anyone who sends me proof of their donation oneshots upon request; dm me or send me an ask if you're interested!

Reblogs are appreciated to spread the word. Thank you <3

#i have like no followers since remaking my blog & this is the only time i've regretted that lol so reblogs are appreciated thank you #also i realize sharing this info pinpoints the general area where i live so everyone be cool about having that info thanks 🙏🏻

[werewolfsister]

Nothing like finding a body in the trunk of your cherry red sports car after a hard day at work!

#I am HOWLING LAUGHING reading the reblog tags lmaoooooo ty everyone #Phoenix Wright #Miles Edgeworth #SL-9 Incident #Rise From the Ashes #Detective Goodman #Edit: thank you for 1k+ notes everyone!!!!! #Ace Attorney #Edit: thank you for 2k+ notes guys??!!!! #Edit: 2500+ notes?!?!? 😱 #Edit: THREE THOUSAND NOTES WTF IS GOING ON HAHAHA THANK YOU

[5weekdays]

they gotta give me more enrichment at work look what i just doodled

^ joke that would have killed in 2011

🏳️‍⚧️ this post has come out as trans 🏳️‍⚧️

#i was so proud of walter’s typing quirk that i didn’t remember to make his last name six letter #this sucks. anyway #breaking bad #homestuck #EDIT: I MISSPELLED CAPSAICIN DON'T LOOK AT ME #SECOND EDIT: a transphobe reblogged this so i just want to reiterate that all my posts are transgender #so if you enjoy my posts thanks for being an ally 🫡

[thefallling]

Dearest fellow tumblrinas, Do I have a poll for you!

Got curious.

Anyways please reblog for larger sample size

If you do I'll give you a big hug :D (with consent)

(ok just now realizing it says "less that 100" I mean less than! oopsies

#tumblr polls #please vote and reblog #yeah anyways thank you! #I was interested because I follow a LOT of blogs but I know some people are pickier.

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

#writeblr #the book.... #coming soon #hey so if ur someone who has ever said “you need to write a book” #i wrote the book #it's ... probably the best thing ive ever written #this is maybe too honest lol #okay to reblog thank you for asking i love u i am in love with u our wedding will be in may

[mariegolddoesthings]

Hey. Hey you.

I know it's hard to speak up about Palestine.

You may be scared, afraid to get backlash.

You may be a minor and have parents that are overprotective of you or worse, are neutral about the whole thing or is supportive of one side.

But you don't need to speak up about Palestine on your own post. You can always reblog a post with the click of a button. Reblog posts just like this one.

I know it's hard to do much and I know you're sometimes feeling like you aren't doing enough. But you can take it with little steps at a time.

Don't stop talking about Palestine. Your voices need to be heard.

#free palestine #palestine #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #palestine will be free #don't stop talking about palestine #free gaza #gaza #gaza genocide #ceasefire #rambles #🍉 #edit: Take this as today's strike post instead #I've lost motivation to do art #edit 2: Look at that. This post blew up. Over 700 notes now. #Thank you so much for spreading awareness! (^^) #edit 3: Saw some of y'all in the reblogs. I'm glad I can help you guys speak up. (^^)

[dogtheories]

barry berkman

#soda.txt #its been fun but i cannot stand seeing another note on this post im turning off reblogs now. goodbye sweet prince #go fight over whatever it is that i dont care about on someone elses post. thank you #and fuck annoying ass hamilton 2 pirate show fans and their show

[crafting-mojo]

The Factory!

#tango tek #tangotek #hermitcraft #minecraft fanart #mineblr #hermitblr #hermitcraft 10 #hermitcraft tango #tangotek fanart #tangotek s10 #hermitcraft season 10 #hermitcraft smp #low key regretted doing 1pt perspective for this but it was too late to change it lmao #the layers of this house are so damn complex ugh #this is fun tho wanna do more of these #and thank you bdubs for actually like. getting really wide shots that may be screenshotted your a real one for that #btw if you saw me reblog a bunch of stuff no you didnt im still getting used to having a side blog okay its hard! #bitter content #fanart #hermitcraft fanart

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Ive been spending my free time watching dracula adaptations and good god you guys were NOT kidding about them doing jonathan and mina dirty, I have watched 17 movies so far, you wanna know how many of them actually did them justice??

ONE!!! (dracula (2006) i enjoyed it a lot, I'd definitely recommend it)

#@ everyone who reblogged my one post being like 'oh op you have no idea just how dirty they did jonathan' #i know now. thanks for the warning #dracula daily

[frogs-in3-hills]

no but seriously. “unnecessary feelings” is so iconic and i love it dearly, but let’s be real i feel like “unease and uncertainty” are, like, COMPLETELY reasonable things to be feeling in edgeworth’s situation regardless of whether he is being plagued with gay visions or not. how soon we forget “i’ve never felt this way with a man before” and “when i fall under your intense gaze i feel rather bashful” and “we were intellectually attracted”. more unabashed homosexual sluttery in my fandom please

#is it too much to ask for #bonus addition ‘she taught me how to use a whip’ #thank you fradrian for existing <3 #sully is typing #dgs #klapollo #susahao #lanamia #edit: #i don’t like this post but i have heroically decided not to turn off reblogs #aa

[chloesimaginationthings]

WAKE UP,

HAIKU BOT JUST REBLOGGED ONE OF YOUR COMICS

BLESSED BY HAIKU BOT ONCE AGAIN

(here’s the post)

#ask reply #HAIKU BOT I LOVE YOU #holy shit Michael Afton haiku #genuinely the funniest thing it could of reblogged #thank you for telling me anon I would of definitely missed this otherwise #Haiku bot is a canon Michael Afton fan 💜 #makes sense robots love Michael

[shimmershy]

[Image description: digital art of Chara and Frisk from Undertale. They're posing for a photo together with matching friendship bracelets, each of which contains half of a red heart charm.

Chara has pale skin, and flowers growing on their hair and hands, with a sunset aroace flag pin on their collar. They're smiling and waving, with their other arm around Frisk's shoulder. Frisk has freckled brown skin and curly hair, smiling and winking as they make a peace sign. End description.]

Valentine's Day post except there's no romance, only bestie vibes.

#undertale #my art #safeutdr #chara dreemurr #chara #frisk #frisk dreemurr #thank you @anistarrose for the image description in the reblogs!