#that being said i dont disagree that its probably quite annoying at times

[13eyond13]

Lawlight likers may be an insufferable presence in the fandom to other kinds of Death Note heads, but be serious, how much of the longevity of the fandom do you think this ship is actually responsible for?

#i would venture to say a great deal of the longevity #that's all im sayin hahaha #that being said i dont disagree that its probably quite annoying at times #if youre someone who just finds it like nails on a chalkboard or sthg... #but i feel like a lot of what death note is known and loved and remembered for is this relationship specifically... #remove it from the story/fandom altogether and i dont think it would still be nearly as much of a thing #as it is now even 20 years down the road #lawlight #death note #p

[caelumsnuff]

I wish I could get paid like $16,000 (after taxes) or more a month for mediocre plotting, weak characterization, and once-a-month subpar audio porn like this basic and uninspired creative. This is quite bitter of course lol because his work was a fixation of mine for awhile until I realized how not great a lot of it is if you think about anything for more than two seconds and I also watched a lot of the podcast and realized he’s not a particularly kind person either lol.

It does have a little bite to it, but i don’t disagree with you. once again, under the cut because i am so so opinionated and i love ranting.

God i wish i could get paid that much too like gahddamn.

I sometimes wish i could say that his work was just a hyper fixation of mine, but at some point along the way it became closer to that of a special interest. I have quite a lot of fun criticizing and analyzing his work now, critically engaging with it (both being critical of it and having my brain on while i listen so i realize how bad it is at times lol) has become something i enjoy thoroughly. Good brain exercise.

I never was a patreon and im not going to be so i don’t know about the quality of his audio porn but like. I have GWA for that LMAO.

I agree about the mediocre plotting, ive talked plenty on this blog about how his plots are so often mediocre. I think a lot of them fall through because of the fandom reaction to them, or even their potential reactions. Which is a shame because Im of the opinion that he writes darker stuff better, but he doesn’t even just fumble the ball like he fucking drops it sometimes. (Fucking Marcus. Kody.) (the weak ass shit with inversion having no major consequences. Kill some characters you pussy) I think one of the reasons his plots are mediocre is because of the lack of consequences, of actual gravity and stakes. We never kill anyone. No one sustains permanent injuries. We need some kind of fear lingering over us that is palpable and that feels probable, something that has us sitting on the edge of our seats. But he tiptoes around doing things like this, and it has happened so often that we have settled in our comfort that no one important is going to get hurt, and nothing is going to change radically. Honestly it’d be a great time to do so now that we’re comfortable, but i doubt he will. Kill a listener. Kill a major speaker. Give someone permanent injuries. Fuck up relationships beyond repair. Have some horrible secret be revealed, betrayal and hurt and all that jazz. I havent listened to the Avior finale yet, but from the opinions ive seen from people i respect i dont have my hope very high.

Yeah if you think about any plot related stuff theres a 90% chance the floor is going to collapse out from under you. Its actually genuinely impressive how badly this man can fuck up an allegory, gotta give him props for that.

I feel like his characterization fumbles as well a lot of the time, his characters start off with so much personality and quirks and then he starts really fleshing them out and then……. They get buffed and smoothed out. At least thats what it feels like with all the fluffy, no plot comfort audios with little plot in between for months at a time. I do genuinely enjoy a lot of the characters (or the earlier, more full renditions of them. Or just the idea i have of them in my head) but i still think lately they’ve gone down hill. And i hope thats a trend that ends.

I’ve said it in anons to other people so if thats why this sounds familiar, its because it was me lmao, but i don’t particularly care for Erik’s personality all that much. I tried watching his livestreams way back, but i didnt last long because his chat is fucking annoying ass all hell and he wasn’t entertaining enough to justify me staying (for reference, i watch streams a lot. Ive moderated streams, Ive seen very annoying chats. His is horrible). I watched the podcast for a while but i just got sick of his and odies personalities. Hes kinda boring and comes off as fake to me. I wont assert that i know what hes actually like, i dont know the guy and it literally could just be general dislike (we’re human, it happens). I just tend to separate the artist from the art with this one. Its whateves.

But aside from all that, i hope that you still find some kind of joy in staying here if you choose to do so. Maybe its the fanfics, or you critiquing and analyzing the frankly subpar content, or maybe you make art of your own or play with what these characters could be like little dolls in your head, as long as it brings you joy.

Thank you for the ask anon! 💕

#ask #anon #i may have ranted a little. just a smidge like…. thiiiiiis 🤏 much #yall gotta know as soon as i published this my tumblr mobile app fucking crashed 💀

[steelycunt]

I remember you doing a list of popular Remus headcanons you disagreed with/unpopular Remus headcanons that I really enjoyed so I was wondering if you could do the same for Sirius (who I know is not *quite* your terrible wonderful blorbo man in the same way but whom I think you get dead-on)

ooh hi!! certainly!! thank u!! as u say i don't claim to know sirius black personally as i do remus lupin but i do spend a lot of time in his head when writing so!! like with the remus post, i dont really think my sirius hcs are particularly unique/out there, rather there are just a couple common sirius hcs that im not a fan of. under the cut again!!

starting with stuff i don't like: this common thing now of portraying sirius as some excitable, annoying idiot who needs to copy other people's essays, contrasted by a remus who seems perpetually tired of/irritated by him. i dont know why this has arisen (yes i do: mischaracterisation via the incorrect quote format...) but yeah i hate it. it makes no sense. he's canonically extremely intelligent, his lack of study is down to not needing to study rather than being thick lol. emotionally when it comes to relationships he can be dumb / idiotic / oblivious whatever but he's not a ditz.

thing i do love: its tiny and silly but any mention of sirius' posh accent is <33 i enjoy leaning into that this guy speaks like the queen he speaks like an old-fashioned british radio presenter he can use all the slang he wants its still coming out in an RP accent babs! extra: french sirius! loml have yet to explore his true frenchness its on my list <3

very strong opinions on what music he listened to which i have discussed before in answer to this ask but the long and short of it: personally do not think he would have listened to queen i know that is a popular headcanon but it confuses me a little!! also same as remus he's soo pretentious abt that stuff they're the bitchiest little couple they think theyre soo cultured and sophisticated they're really annoying together actually

again another dumb small thing but i like writing sirius as left-handed. idk. feels like it makes sense though i also like giving this hc to regulus instead but. just plays into the odd one out sort of position he has in the black family i can imagine governesses forcing him to write with his right.

have ALSO talked about this before but...i do not hc him as ever playing on the quidditch team. that posh little dandy cunt was not getting up with james at 5am to train in the mud on a january morning it is not an activity he would have enjoyed it never happened sorry xx also on the topic!! insanely muscular sirius? why! no! when! he is not thin the way remus is thin (twig u can snap in half no muscles brittle little matchstick boy) and hes probably a bit leaner but like...especially as a teenager he was not a bodybuilder he was just pretty and well-proportioned why would he have a six pack at fifteen.

beginning to realise this is just me repeating old things ive said but...again...love-loyal sirius. not at all a dealbreaker i will both read and write a sluttier sirius but...love-loyal sirius fics ARE always my favourite simply because he IS loyal like a dog he WAS put there to obsess over remus thats his whole job and purpose and i enjoy watching him do that <3

he will always have one gay little earring there is actually nothing you can do about that

people should let him be a tosser more. he was a fucking arse when he was a teenager he was angry and also he had the capacity to be a bit cruel. its okay to make him do things that are a bit wrong/unlikeable they are characters and more than than they are often teenage characters. does anyone have a perfect moral compass as a teenager? or ever, really?

NEARLY FORGOT AUROR SIRIUS HAHAHA yeah i HATE auror sirius!! sirius was not a cop not once not ever especially not for a goverment that a) did not recognise his boyfriend as a human being and b) terrorised his godson!! never happened he was never a cop and also remus never married a cop either!!

he was a little bit in love with james and it wasnt strictly platonic its about time we all get to grips with that

immediately want to disclose that this is not my own headcanon at all but the hc in gamesformay's atyd that sirius (and much of the black family) had haemophilia as a result of all the inbreeding is incredibly clever imo...especially what the fic then does with snape and the sectumsempra spell i just think that was a brilliant hc in that fic!!

i always imagine him being unexpectedly sentimental. like he will keep little things and mementos and worthless stuff that you would not expect him to because of its sentimental value. he kept lots of the notes remus passed him in class and the eye for that sort of thing also made him a surprisingly good gift giver.

he's neater than remus. his handwriting is all ridiculously elegant cursive and but he's also tidier. he would have been reprimanded for having a messy room as a kid and even if he starts rebelling with his bedroom decor as a teen he never quite shakes the need to fold his shirts etc.

as an adult he can cook!! which is just as well because remus cant for shit its embarrassing actually he's soo terrible. however, on the other hand, sirius cannot swim!!

LAST point gosh im so sorry can you tell i have a day off today but: that dumb fucking line jkr put in about 'ooo thats when sirius had short hair!!1!!' she is a fucking liar and that never happened. he never had short hair idk if he had to cut it during the first war but by choice he NEVER had short hair she doesnt know what she's talking about.

SO fucking sorry about how long that was!! its all i got off the top of my head but yeah!! i feel like this was longer than my remus post this guy is actually insane!! beloved mutuals who are better acquainted with sirius than i...feel free to correct me/add on any thoughts u have <33

#s #it baffles me that there are people interested in what i have to say about these characters! but its always fun so thank u babe!! #telegram #anon #god i cant believe i nearly forgot cop sirius hahaha. absolutely not r/s were not cops they never dated cops full stop thank you! #ill be back in like an hour having remembered something else i just know it. this is why i need mutuals to fill in the gaps

[phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust]

Aunt Mimi's Influence & The Jim McCartney Hypocrisy - a response

Hiya @quacka-quacka - some of the posts you included here (x) were written by me, and this isn’t a bitchy call-out and im not annoyed at you or anything, but I literally just wanted to respond to and clarify some of my points. I see a lot of similar arguments to yours floating around tumblr, so your post is really just more of a framework that id like to use to address some broader responses; this post isn’t entirely just directed at you or anything, so if I get off track from your initial post, thats why <3

Reading back on some of things I wrote (which can originally be found here (x)), I cringe. I disagree with, and take back some of my statements - though with others, I still agree with what I said, I just feel I should have been more articulate. I think when I wrote that though, I was still at a point where I was a little nervous with Tumblr, and hadn’t really come to any convinced conclusions regarding the Beatles as people, so I was very hesitant to make any sweeping statements. But to add some clarity to some of my points:

My intention when I say Mimi was abusive (or at the very least, a negative impact on Johns mental well-being) is not to deny that there was any love between them, and it is not to vilify her. But I just think if we want to understand John, and understand what led to a lot of his insecurity and abandonment issues that followed him throughout his life, we have to recognise the influence Mimi Smiths upbringing might have had on John.

I get this quite often, where I say Mimi was abusive, and people take that to mean that I hate Mimi, or that I don’t think she loved John, or that she was the only negative impact on his life - I dont mean any of these things. Im not contemptuous towards Mimi, and im not without any measure of empathy for her - but that doesn’t negate the argument that Mimi could be cruel and damaging towards John.

Verbal/emotional abuse is difficult to recognise and measure - if our partners hit us, its easier to recognise that something is wrong. Mimi never hit John, but there is still plenty to suggest abusive patterns of behaviour in her upbringing of John. But as you also invoked in your post, there is still plenty to suggest she could also be a loving and caring parent. We should recognise though that love and cruelty can co-exist, neither necessarily negates the other. But if we want to understand what events in Johns childhood led to him growing up to become a deeply insecure, abusive, and mentally ill adult, we should be discussing Mimi too. We shouldn't just brush off Mimi's impact by saying things along the lines, "There was this incident where she did something wonderful for John" or "John allegedly called her every week until he died" - these are notable and should be taken into account when discussing Mimi, but they are not the totality of her influence on him.

But perhaps she was the best parenting John could’ve accessed at that time - Alf wasn’t around, and though Julia Baird portrayed her mother in a glorified-light, im not really sure how accurate that portrayal is, or whether she was just being idealistic. I wouldn’t know if John might have turned out to be more mentally and emotionally stable if he had been raised by Alf or Julia, but its not really something im interested in deeply contemplating, because its not something that could ever really be confirmed. But I am more drawn towards believing that Mimi probably was the best parent John could’ve been raised by at that time, though that doesn’t mean I can’t acknowledge she still had a negative influence John, even if worse parents exist.

I also accept that Mimi was raising a child in the 40s and 50s, and to add to this, John could be a pretty disruptive adolescent. I understand that, and I do think its true that we shouldn’t judge people from a modern standard - but im not interested in judging her, I only aim to understand her influence and impact upon John, of which I feel was largely negative.

As for the comparison I made towards Mimi and Livia Soprano, I cringe at that now and in retrospect, I don’t really agree - but at the time, it felt like a framework to understand Mimi from. In my defence though, I never intended for it to be taken literally (and I might not have even gotten to the point in the show where Livia tries to get Tony whacked lol), but I do still agree with it in the sense that Mimi could be a derogatory and upsetting force, and as Cynthia Lennon once said of her, “She was hard to please, easily disappointed, and she would make it known” - which isn’t dissimilar to Livia Soprano. Is it a bit of a cringe comparison? Yeah. But do I still agree? To some degree, yes, albeit only as a hyperbole. (Perhaps its notable that David Chase even based Livia off of his own mother; he admits too that his portrayal of her is inaccurate, but again, its a framework to project onto).

Another point id like to address, is the argument that its unfair to criticise Mimi whilst remaining uncritical of someone like Jim McCartney. I personally do criticise Jim (and ive spoken in the past about him hitting Paul, but also the amount of control he had over Paul). But I don't think its as simple as were just choosing to vilify one party (Mimi) whilst allowing the other (Jim) a pass.

To elaborate, im less vocally critical of someone like Alf Lennon, not because I think him abandoning John is fine and he gets a pass - but just because there isn’t much to say or analyse with him. He left, it wasn’t right, and im sure it hurt John in the long run (as we see in this interview (x), it instilled an insecurity in him), but there really just isn’t all that much to say about his parenting, other then that he was abandoning. I can’t analyse much there.

And to some degree, id say the same is true for Jim McCartney. Not that he was an abandoning parent (because he wasn’t), but that I just don’t have as much to say about him, cause I don’t have that much access information on him. Whilst I recognise that there are a few anecdotes here and there alluding to or outright remarking abusive behaviour from Jim McCartney, there just isn’t as much of it - and so there just isn’t tons for me to analyse about him, because for the most part Paul and Mike have tried to maintain an idealistic image of their upbringing, with the exception of their mothers death, and the occasional “slip up” in interviews. Thats not to say I think Jim was a perfect parent, or that he didn’t negatively influence Paul, or that he wasn’t abusive - because interviews like this (x) suggest otherwise. But I just tend to refrain from discussing his influence on Paul, because quite simply: I just don’t know enough. If there were more quotes denoting abusive behaviour from him, id probably have about as much to say on him as I do with Mimi - but there just aren’t, and so theres only so much I can say about him and his relationship with Paul.

And whilst I get what people are saying when they compare the criticisms of Mimi to the lack of criticisms towards Jim, I just feel like it can often be used almost just to shut down the conversation about Mimi's influence, and that just feels deceptive and dismissive to me. I get what people are saying in illustrating the point that its hypocritical to remain passive to, or even as you pointed out in your post, to dismiss Jims behaviours - but as ive illustrated above, I don't think its an active decision every person is making, I just think its that there isn't much information on him, which makes discussing him more of a task. I have made efforts to research Jim McCartney more thoroughly, and to try and get a more nuanced and clear understanding of his personality - but even after having read Angie McCartneys book ("My Long And Winding Road"), as well as any other extract I can find relating to Jim, I just don't have a clear picture of who he was as a parent. Whereas with Mimi, I have access to consistent anecdotal information on her from the likes of John, Paul, George, Cynthia, Julia Baird, Pete Shotton etc. and ive tried to take all their information on her into account whilst forming an opinion on her; overall ive been able to come to a far more nuanced conclusion concerning Mimi then I have with Jim.

I have more elaborated in more detail my thoughts on Aunt Mimis influence in this post (x) if anyone is interested in reading that.

TL;DR - I have no contempt towards Mimi, and I do believe she genuinely loved and cared for John - but that doesn't mean I don't feel she could still be a damaging influence towards him. And the reason why I don't tend to discuss in as much depth the influence people like Jim McCartney had upon Paul, is just because there aren't as many accounts of him, and there just isn't as much information on him, and so I really just can't come to a thorough conclusion on him.

#hope this cleared things up #not just for the person im responding to specifically but just for a lot of people #who seem to think I hate mimi #I don't! #but I just think her influence on John was complicated #good and bad #and I like to discuss that #cw abuse #aunt mimi #mimi smith #@quacka quacka #johns psyche #cynthia lennon #beatles #psychology #jim mccartney

[anotherhellchild]

📁❤️ I really like your head canons and wanted to see if you had any about Bakugou’s home life

oh boy okay well, tbh im in camp 'mitsuki and masaru bakugou are assholes' so disclaimer right away: This is not a mitsuki/masaru friendly post.

also, i got most my inspiration/ideas from Sif, her hc's and fics are amazing.

This is gonna be very general probably and also pretty messy/ all over the place but if anyone wants me to elaborate or clarify then just lmk. 

ALRIGHT SO, first and foremost, i think the bakugou’s r really neglectful. Theyve always worked very busy jobs together in the fashion industry and they go on lots of work trips and stuff. i think that from the moment they deemed it possible, mitsuki and masaru have been letting katsuki stay home alone for long periods of time. as katsuki kept getting older and more independent (which he had to be) I imagine theyd gradually start leaving for longer and longer. 

also, i think that the communication in the house is TERRIBLE. like, often times mitsuki and masaru would just not inform katsuki of their whereabouts and katsuki wouldnt inform them of his either cause,, nobody ever asked/cared. So most of the time katsuki’d just find out his parents are gone whenever theyre literally not there and then its just like, ‘shit, nobody made dinner’. or smth. 

and, obviously, the bad communication does not stop there. I feel like especially when he was younger, mitsuki would contradict herself on lots of things (as lots of parents do) like ”you are the child and i am the adult, therefore you must listen to me” but then she’s also like “You are not a child, stop acting like one and get your shit together”. Little katsuki would get so frustrated at this and so confused. I imagine that eventually he’d realize he can never be in the right with her, and thats when he starts resenting her a lot which builds up.

oh btw, I should mention; i dont think katsuki was planned at all. I dont think that mitsuku or masaru wanted to have a kid but then they did and it kinda threw their life around (obviously). mostly for mitsuki i think this effected her career quite heavily for a time and she’s blamed that on katsuki ever since. so she’s always resented him on a level.

But yeah, as i was saying, i think mitsuki and masaru r those types of people that were just never fit to be parents. they dont have the patience or care that u need for a child and it shows. I think masaru is the type to ignore and mitsuki is the type to get frustated too easily and lose her cool. So whenever katsuki was being ‘annoying’ or ‘bad’ he’d immediately be shut up or ignored. No time for explanations or reasoning.

Now, if we go back a step,, katsuki is a super independent kid. a consequence to this is that he’s had to teach himself a lot of things and sometimes those things just arent right. He doesnt know that though because he’s had to collect his knowledge from all over the place, which he thinks is normal. so then for example: maybe he’s fought with a kid at school and the bakugou’s are called. They’re both extremely mad at him but he doesnt understand why. If he gets hit, why would he not be allowed to hit too? Is that not how it works? WOuldn’t that be unfair?

but yeah, because he’s basically had to figure the world out himself, with mostly bad influences to look up to. he’s got a pretty messed up worldview. 

Now, i ALSO think that despite mitsuki and masaru not really caring about katuski in general, they DO want to have that ‘we have a good kid’ status, yknow? like, they cant have katsuki embarrassing them or something. I think he’d be dragged along to a lot of places he never wanted to go (dinners, fashion shows, whatever) and forced to wear all fancy clothes and act all neat with no reward. consequences for ‘being a little bitch’ as his mom puts it, are not pretty.

he’s a smart and talented kid too though, and it seems, even to masaru and mitsuki, like he doesnt have to do much for it. which makes them think he’s lazy and stuff and thats not good. so they expect him to work for everything he does at 100% . again, consequences are not pretty.

generally as well, i think there are so many fights in the house. katuski speaks up whenever he disagrees with bullshit and even though he’s never won an argument, he’s always wanted to. so he’s not going to stop. 

so yeah, basically theyre strict, neglectful and abusive. There are extreme’s they go to, and because katsuki is just the type to disobey shit he doesnt agree with, those are often used.

It’s been said by Sif before, but i really like the idea that todoroki and bakugou both had bad childhoods but in opposite directions. Thats probably the best way to describe it.

Actually, Ive had a fic in my head for a long time that would partly focus on katsuki’s entire childhood and kinda explain my thoughts on it

But anyway, this is getting ridiculously long and i probably have more i could say plus i can definitely go into more detail. as you can see though, my thoughts are a fucking mess. hopefully this made some sense. again, let me know if u wanna know more! :)

#tw: abuse #tw: neglect #this is a very fanon idea btw #pls dont take anything too srsly #bakugu katsuki #ALSO THANK YOU ANON :)) #bakugou mitsuki #bakugu masaru #i coulda probably yeeted the 'katsuki gets kidnapped a lot' hc in there #honestly everybody should just check sifs stuff #her brain is too big #bakugou katsuki headcanons #bnha headcanons #im legitimately not sure if this even makes any sense #im sleepy so

[ilikezodiacs]

How will the zodiac signs feel when they are tired of being pushed around by people who are supposed to care for them? (Example, being pushed around by a parent to do college but the kid doesn’t want to go to college)

I think everyone deals things their own way based on how and where they were raised. this is more of an psychology question. but i'll do my best to link this with each individual zodiac sign!

Aries

They do their best to keep cool and probably wont say anything at all in the beginning. Even though they might regret this later. They know its useless and not worthy if they get into a huge argument every second someone annoys the Aries. I'ts not that they let go, they just need want to prevent this control handle at any cost.

Taurus

Boundaries and limits are very important to the Taurus. When people ignore these boundaries, the taurus will become tempered and will speak out harsh words. At that moment they wont look to the past of future anymore. They're done. The problem with this attitude is that they'll probably regret their behavior soon or later (or not).

Gemini

They're the kind of people that will immediately ask reasoning. They'll probably have a conversation to defense themselves a bit. So that they can express what bothers them. But the gemini might humble themselves down since they probably put other people on their nerves quit often.

Cancer

Most likely to blame themselves in every way. which is not the case at all. They probably not talk back in the first place and will go with it for now. But after some time the cancer will analyse the whole situation once more and realize that they need to step up to make chances. which they do.

Leo

They hate when someone pushes them to change their ambitions. Leo's have a strong will and would not accept when someone ruins it for them. They will try to reason with the person at first, trying to understand them. however if they will stand up for themselves if they disagree.

Virgo

They always realize what was wrong after the situation which makes them doubt their social skills. "i could've said this... i could've said that.." Virgos are overthinkers and critical so at first they limit their interactions, this is because they need time to say the right thing at the right time.

Libra

They will stay quiet, looking for a tiny detail or mistake so they can back themselves up in a subtle way. They dont want to cause any angry negotiations on the way. Thats why they're most likely to stay quiet along the way.

Scorpio

Avoid confrontation at all cost. they're unbothered to even react on something they have to say. They'll keep their profile low and will find a way to get what they want, regardless what other people will think of them.

Sagittarius

very versatile people and know how to interact in different situations, however they will probably jump way to fast into conclusions. which will mislead the whole situation. its important. when pushed too far, the Sagittarius will follow their gut and cause a catastrophe.

Capricorn

Will try not to get upset, probably getting confused if they should listen to their heart or choose to think rationally. They dont like being picked on, but they also need enough proof to get into action.

Aquarius

Once they set their point they wont forgive the people who ignore those. Thats why these signs are pretty quickly done with people. once things are too much for the aquarius they will just emotionally and mentally detach themselves from that person

Pisces

They will probably plan everything ahead if things will go down. but since their imagination is bigger than the realization.. things will take alot longer than expected. they will block this person and leave themselves in a loop of free imagination. hoping one day the stress will come to an end.

#zodiacs #zodiac #astrology #advice #psychology #aries #taurus #gemini #cancer #leo #libra #virgo #scorpio #sagittarius #aquarius #capricorn #pisces

[south-park-meta]

Kenny!!

Why I like them I think Kenny's a sweet character. He acts out a bit, but really doesn't hurt people the way the other boys can. There's truthfully not a lot of meat to his character in some ways, but I think he genuinely loves his friends, despite knowing that Stan and Kyle will always pick each other and Cartman doesn't really care about him most of the time. There's something soft, sweet, and a bit sad about him being the odd man out in his friend group.

Why I don’t He's another character I don't really dislike even when I roll my eyes at him. But a criticism for his character is that imo he's kind of petty/passive aggressive. It's one of those things that's kind of hard to really critique since his characterization isn't as developed as the other boys, but I do think if he was just kind of annoyed with his friends he'd roll his eyes but say 'nothing' was wrong and then complain about them to the other friends (Cartman if he's mad at Stan or Kyle, Stan and Kyle if he's mad at Cartman).

Favorite episode (scene if movie) Black Friday/ A Song of Ass and Fire/ Titties and Dragons/Coon vs. Coon and Friends/ Coon 2: Hindsight/Mysterion Rises

Favorite season/movie Bigger Longer and Uncut

Favorite line Okay this is a long one but: Kenny My dearest friends,:I am living amongst the natives in the remote and tiny island of Kava'i. What can I tell you of this mysterious island and its people? It is a place of wonder, and yet to the outsider like me, a place of odd tradition. The people here are peaceful and joyous, and seem to care little for the rush and worry of the outside world. Their diet is mostly an odd mixture of coconut milk, pineapple juice, and vodka, which they call the chi-chi. As for Butters, he is quickly learning the ways of his ancestors, and seems to be feeling better with every passing day. He still seems quite angry at times, but luckily his ceremony will finally take place on the morrow. The sheer dramatics plus Stan's "On the morrow"? What the fuck is wrong with Kenny? Really gets me.

Favorite outfit

OTP If I had to pick I'd go with Stenny, more in the capacity of fwb than real dating, but I've read a few fics where I like them as endgame. That said, I don't particularly ship him with anyone and tend to see him as being more into girls than boys.

Brotp Stenny

Head Canon Most of his acting out is to get the attention of his parents. He really, really wants them to take care of him, but is getting more and more resigned to the fact that they won't. He tries to induce a miscarriage in his mom to keep from sharing attention, when he experiments with sex or drugs it's often in his home where his parents SHOULD be the ones noticing, when he acts out in school the pranks are the sort that would probably get his parents called.

Unpopular opinion Tbh idk what the popular takes on Kenny are right now lol. I guess I disagree with Kenny being too good for the other three/that he'll hate it if he finds out about the custody arrangement. I think he'll actually like them treating him like their kid if they keep up their custody roles because it's giving him attention that they usually don't. That said, I also think treating Kenny as completely blameless oddly enough ties into the problems he tends to have in canon. The ways he acts out are regularly ignored by both his parents and his friends-- even when Stan gets pissed at Cartman for the period prank they pulled on their teacher, he's solidly on Kenny's side the entire episode instead of just being done with all three of his friends despite the fact Kenny did it WITH Cartman. The lack of acknowledging when Kenny does things wrong is a problem in the canon to the end that it feeds into him just being straight up ignored entirely, so ignoring them in fandom, interestingly, has the similar problem in that it prevents him from being seen as a whole person.

A wish More character development.

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen Killing him off for keeps.

5 words to best describe them Caring, forgotten, silly, theatrical, lonely

My nickname for them None

#kenny mccormick

[sapphicambitions]

hey! hey! why do you hate the television format??

Ah yes, thank you for reminding me

I would like to state for the record before we begin that this is my personal reasons for not enjoying the format of television and not “why television is bad'' because im sure there's many people whose reasoning for liking TV is the same as my reasons for disliking them. please dont get mad at me if you disagree lmao

I feel like the short answer could be: “I have a degree in theatre and i prefer books” 

But really i hate the fact that the story is subject to change via outside forces.

In a well written play or book, there is a beginning, middle and end. It is a complete story that has been well thought out and woven together. Every detail is important and makes sense dramaturgically. You have your characters and your plot and nothing about that changes. We’re taught in Theatre School (TM) that the playwright is the first artist, and everything goes back to the playwright’s words. The story cannot change because of outside forces and it will not change over time. Once a book has been published, it is done. And yeah in theatre, a play can be done by many people with multiple interpretations of the story but it always goes back to the playwright’s words as they are the first artist and it is about honoring those words. Yada yada. you get it.

TV is always subject to change. Actors leave because there was drama on set or because they have other projects to work on. Writers change and the tone of the show changes. Or they go to a different network and the show changes. You never know how long the show is actually going to go so it could be cancelled in the middle of an important plot they never got to wrap up or the show could extend past the original plot idea and the seasons get more and more ridiculous as they’re just trying to come up with shit to do so they can keep the show running.

Like supernatural, which went on for far too fucking long and just kept spitting out nonsense when they could have wrapped up in season five.

Like the Vampire Diaries, where the main fucking character Elena Gilbert left the show (which was ridiculous!!) or when her little brother Jeremy was just like written out of the show and then never talked about again like what the hell

Like Timeless, which got cancelled after two seasons and left so many loose ends (they had to like, beg for a movie to wrap everything up) 

Like the Magicians, which just, like, sigh. Y’all know. I don’t want to get into it. Y’all know. 

Hell, even Parks and Rec, with Ann and Chris leaving the show. If Parks and Rec had been a book Ann would have never left!!! Never!!! 

Characters get pregnant because the actors who play them get pregnant and suddenly THAT’s the plot line of the season. (Wynonna Earp, Brooklyn 99, The Office, How I Met Your Mother, Sex and The City, Bones, Friends, The Big Bang Theory, Once Upon A Time, Charmed, The Vampire Diaries, Parks and Rec, Grey’s Anatomy, The X-Files, Yes I Looked Up This List To Prove My Point)

If an actor breaks their foot then the writers have to change the plot. Everything about the story is subject to change due to outside forces and that might be a selling point for some people but i do not vibe with it!! 

And also, you’re watching the story unfold over the course of time and something could change halfway through the season and they abandon the really cool plot they were working on to suddenly set up a way for them to kill off the main character of the show. (okay apparently i do want to get into it with the magicians).

Like call me a snob but i like a concise arch! Something that the show is working towards, the story that they’re telling and the thesis of the show, and the end goal they’re working towards. I just honestly don’t like the “stories wrap up in one season and will we get another? Maybe? Okay yes we will so let’s come up with a new big bad for the characters to fight who’s got ideas” or like if you get seven seasons into a show and they’re like “And here’s my long lost sister that ive literally never mentioned before but we needed something exciting for the plot so here she is!” like i hate that shit. I know my old roommate loooooved when TV shows pulled twists like that so im not saying it’s bad writing im saying I personally hate this style of writing. 

I just keep throwing in these disclaimers so no one gets pissy at me lmao 

I think what caused me to realize and put a name to these feelings was watching the Schitt’s Creek Finale. I love Schitt’s Creek because it feels like one concise story. The characters all grow and develop and have an arch and at the natural conclusion of that arch, the story wrapped up. I loved that shit. It was a game changer for me. Any other show would have kept going and the tone of the show would have been totally different and frankly im glad they wrapped it up when they did and as they did. It was a perfect ending. 

I haven’t really watched the Good Place but I’m told similar things about it. 

Avatar the Last Airbender which we can all agree is the greatest show ever written had a clear plotline throughout the whole series and a goal they were working towards even if they did have side plots, it was all building up to one endgame. And it was stellar. 

I also recently rewatched parks and rec which is one of my favorite shows of all time and i do truly love it but like the whole point of the show originally was that they were gonna build a park and there were times in the show that they just totally forgot about that goal to work on other storylines until they were like ANN’S LEAVING WE GOTTA BREAK GROUND. That’s annoying! And once parks and rec started getting really popular and making more money they were able to be like “let’s send them to england! France! DC! Scotland! San Francisco! Let’s bring in Michelle Obama and Joe Biden and John McCain and Madeleine Albright! Which like all of that was really cool and some of the best parts of the series but also just another example of how the show changed over time as they got more name recognition and money. 

Also lmao i just had the thought that it doesn't really matter what community did because the point of that show was to be batshit and they succeeded spectacularly. What a good time. Just had to add that in there. 

So yeah that’s why i hate the television format because everything is subject to change from the plot to the tone to the writing to the characters and a lot of times there isn’t a clear narrative arch as they’re just coming up with nonsense to keep the show going and i just don’t vibe with that. 

So if i hate the television format why do i still watch it, you ask? You never shut about tv shows on your blog and yet here you are declaring that you hate them. What’s up with that. Well, the answer is simple. I have major FOMO. Also lmao quite honestly i just recently came to these conclusions and put words to these feelings during the quarantine so after 23 years of being pissy at tv shows all the time i honestly probably will watch less of it. I probably wont stop completely tho. Ive already said that im not gonna watch tv shows with queer characters until the show is over and its been confirmed for me that the show treats its queer characters and viewers with respect and dignity and i stand by that. (It’s the only reason why ive started to watch black sails.) im for sure never watching another cw show again. I have literally never finished a CW show because something has happened in it halfway through that pissed me off so much i never finished the series

So that’s my opinion does anyone also feel the same way? I feel like im crazy

#lesbianlaynie #laynie rose answers #laynie's essays #why i hate the television format

[icyhotmindfreak]

Joker//Reddie (it) crossover

This is a rough skeleton of the first chapter for a crossover idea I had. Joker and IT. The loss of Eddie and the fact that he never told him how he held and that he has still never come out to his friends slowly driving him to madness. I'll probably go back to this and add more detailing. If people like this one I'll go and add a chapter two so please let me know your opinions on what I have so far, please leave comments, they are appreciated.

Completely italicized paragraphs/stand alone sentences are Eddie's voice

AO3: BeepBeepHitoshi

Mature rating for suggestive humor and dark thoughts

Richie taps his foot in the psychiatrist office, cigarette between his fingers 

He knows Eddie hated it when he smoked, but maybe that's just another reason he smoked even more now that he was gone. He could almost hear Eddie's scolding voice in his head telling him all the ways consequences he could suffer from smoking

You could get cancer, asshole, dont you care about that? One day you're going to get a 'smoker voice' where you always sound like a cat scratched the back of your throat and it'll be even more annoying to listen to you constantly talk! Worst of all, you're effecting me with secondhand smoke so put it out, dickface! 

Richie chuckles softly to himself so the psychiatrist repeats "Mr Tozier, I asked if you brought your journal." 

He looks at her, annoyed that she interrupted the thoughts in his head. "If you ever listened, you'd remember I told you that journals are stupid."

"So you didn't bring it?"

Richie rolled his eyes and put the cigarette in his mouth so he could use his hands to search his bag for the brown book she so desperately wanted to see. "I don't think you are going to see what you're hoping to see in there." He said, actually being honest as he tossed the book onto her desk.

He didn't use it as a journal, he wasn't going to give in to it's stupidities. But he did take advantage of having it to use it as a joke book. 

Finally started writing your own material, huh asshole?

The woman's face twisted slightly into a face of distaste as she skimmed over its messy pages. There was quite a variety of concerning offensive things in there but the one she chose to mention was one that struck a personal nerve. "I see you mention in here fucking your psychiatrist. Says then you'll finally get a good session from her?" 

Richie snickers a bit to himself to see her bothered by this. "Heh, you see, its irony. I wouldn't want my dick anywhere near you, but sometimes humor is twisted like that." 

"Richard, why do you come here?" She slid the book back to him, trying to contain her own annoyance and act professional. 

"Dont call me that." He took it, returning it to his bag. 

"Can you answer my question?"

He rolled his eyes, annoyed both by her and the fact that his cigarette was low, forcing him to put it out in the ashtray on her desk. "I come here because my friends said I needed therapy." He said slowly, betrayal laced in his voice. 

"Do you disagree?"

"I think I let them take me to a few therapy sessions and now I'm stuck coming to see you every week for medications I dont want."

"Does the medication not help?" 

"No, it doesn't fucking help. Medication doesn't change the world it changes a person, I can take all the fucking pills in the world and I'll still have to face the fact that he isn't here." 

In his opinion, Mike and Ben did him wrong by dragging him out of the sewers that day. He would have been happier to stay there with Eddie until the end. Eddie hated the dark, he hated being alone. Yet they forced Richie to leave him there. Then they had the audacity to say he needed therapy to help him cope. 

The psychiatrist, whose name Richie hadn't bothered to memorize despite how long he'd been coming to see her, sighed and scribbled out on a bit of thin paper before handing it to him. "Here's your prescription, Mr. Tozier. Our time is up for this week." 

#joker crossover #reddie #richie tozier #bill hader #eddie kaspbrak dies #eddie kaspbrak #joaquin phoenix joker #joker #it chapter two #it chapter one #jack dylan grazer #finn wolfhard #closeted richie tozier #mature #opinions #give me feedback #Reddie angst #angst #it chapter two ending #stephen king #it chapter 2 ending #spoilers

[negasonicimagines]

Hello / Wonderwall

good fucking night I haven’t posted in like a bajillion years I’m so sorry jdklfldkfjs “anyways here’s wonderwall” (lol anyone remember that meme) anyways this is inspired by two things 

1) this request:  i just listened to adele and my heart is shattered and my angsty soul loves it so could i ask you to write ellie x reader where they're not dating but reader has a crush on ellie and she finds out but neither of them want to be in a relationship because 'feeling things sucks and i dont wanna' something like that because they're both really closed off tough people. and they love eachother and dont want to and its complicated and ugh ANGSTY. im really sorry i hope you're having a great day!!😀💞💞 [btw sorry if i didn’t fill this properly i did my best but my writers’ block is literally THE WORST and has been for a really long time(duh)]

2) This really cool mashup of Adele’s “Hello” and everyone’s favorite Oasis song, “Wonderwall.” It fucking slaps and TOTALLY suits this imagine. If there’s any way you could listen to it and read this at the same time, I recommend it. It’s what I listening to when I was writing it (that and Adele’s “Chasing Pavements.”)

Anyways, enjoy! Who knows when the next one’ll be out, amiright?

Ellie didn’t like love. Even platonic or familial love was shrugged off. It just… Wasn’t her thing. It was too dangerous for mutants, the world. Forget emotions.

You’re new here, at the school. Wade’s forced you to quit your previous line of work, saying that “you’re too damn young to be killin’ people for a living!” You’d rolled your eyes, but agreed that a break would be nice. So, now, you’re being shown around by a charmingly bitchy girl that’s around your age, maybe a smidge older.

“This is the art room, and, um, that about covers it. So, uh, just go away now.”

“Are you not going to show me where my room is?” You ask, letting your eyebrows arch skeptically.

“And how would I know where your room is?” She inquires in response. Where she was the rude kind of standoffish, you were the polite, distant type.

“It’s the same as yours, Negasonic,” you carefully inform her, gauging her reaction.

“It’s- It’s what?”

“Did no one tell you?” you wonder. “That’s weird.”

“Very. Whatever, come on. At least you’re not extra annoying,” she sighs, and you follow her down to the dorms, your suitcase rolling behind you.

“Thanks,” you chuckle a little, and she twitches, her eyes flickering to yours for a moment. The ghost of a smile phases across her lips, disappearing just as subtly as it appeared.

“Alright, now…” She looks at her phone. “Yeah, now, it’s time for training. Depending on your mentor, you’ll have different times. Who’s your mentor?”

“Oh, uh, Emma Frost?” You tell her looking at your schedule.

“You’ll be with me, then. Training with me. Piotr and Ms. Frost’s students train together, I guess because they both have weird skin. Emma’s is temporary, but still. Let’s move.”

“Okay,” you respond, walking with her to the gym.

“If you need any sort of protective gear, it’ll be in the closet by the entrance.”

“I think I’ll be alright,” you say, taking what she said more as a challenge than a helpful tip. She scoffs, rolling her eyes.

But when you catch a glimpse of the light smirk she’s wearing, electricity sparks through you. (Not literally, don’t worry. Your mutation is different and not embarrassing in that way.)

Two weeks later, you and Ellie are fast friends...And maybe more.

“Gaga okay?” she asks.

“Duh!” you respond, scrolling through your twitter feed. “So, whose stans are we trolling tonight?”

“What’s your mutation, anyway? You never did say.”

“Ah, it’s lame,” you brush her off.

“Wade doesn’t think it’s lame… But that’s not really saying much, is it? Damn, sorry,” Ellie chuckles. She smiles more around you than anyone else, but you’re not sure why. Not yet.

“I just… People tend to think less of me when they hear. It’s a bit destructive.”

“You did not just say that to me,” Ellie delivers a surprisingly good rebuttal.

“Well, uh… Basically, by coming into direct contact with it through touch, I can temporarily gain access to their abilities and sometimes even their knowledge. If I consume it, it lasts longer or can even be permanent. Kinda perfect for a kill-for-hire. Not so much for a normal high school girl, though,” you admit shyly. Ellie’s dead silent.

You look to your crush, nervously, and she looks awe-struck.

“That’s so fucking cool. I wish I could become stronger by giving someone a bloody nose. I’d do it all the time. No wonder you killed people for a living.”

“If only everyone saw it that way,” you tell her with a relieved smile. “I can’t believe the stoic Ellie Phimister just called me cool.” Don’t blush, Y/N, don’t blush, you beg yourself.

“Don’t let it get to your head. I once called Wilson cool.”

“He’s not so bad. He’s the reason I’m here.”

“He is?” Remind me to thank him, she thinks. “Hey, listen. I know we didn’t get off to the best start, and uh… I just wanted to say that… I think you’re really awesome.”

“Well, thank-”

“No, that’s not what I wanted to say. What I wanted to say is that, uh… I’m not really much of a romantic or anything, but I really like you. And I normally wouldn’t ever tell a girl that I liked I like her, because then she would stop talking to me and also hate me forever, I think. But you seem…  Different.”

Oh shit. You’re glad your crush likes you back, but...I know what I have to do. I just fucking hate it. “Listen, I’m sorry for giving you the wrong impression, but I don’t like you that way. At all. You’re just my roommate that I really like as a friend. We probably wouldn’t even be friends if we weren’t roommates.”

“But we are roommates.”

“Then I should probably change rooms.”

“Wow. I never thought I’d be the asshole who turns into a, well, a fucking asshole when I get rejected, but I guess I am that kind of asshole. Maybe it’s because I know you’re full of shit. Fuck you, Y/N.”

You sigh, and she turns the music off as you leave the room, making your way to the offices. It’s the early evening, so it’s likely either Jean Grey or Professor Xavier is still in their office.

An hour later, you return. Your efforts were fruitless.

*Guess it’s likely time to make with the apologies, see if she’ll at least treat me with civility after the stunt I pulled.*

“I tried to get a room change. It looks like there isn’t anywhere else for me to go.”

“Then just get out of the school, you murderous scum,” Ellie fires.

*Guess not.*

“Oh shit,” you say, trying not to let the hurt show. She knew how insecure you were, how you just knew that’s what everyone here really thought about you. You’d told her that. Foolishly opened up to her, knowing it’d end like this, or worse.

But in the end, you knew you deserved it for pushing her away. Shattering her blackened heart.

“You’re right. I’ll start packing my things now.”

*Wait,* Ellie thought, but her pride had its hand over her mouth. Don’t go. Don’t be like everyone else.

But, faster than she thought possible, you’re out the door. Guess you hadn’t taken root in this place as deeply as she’d fooled herself.

There’s a knock on the door about ten minutes later.

“Go away!” Ellie yells, throwing a random textbook at the door.

“Why did Y/N leave?” Wade asks through said door.

“Because she’s a stupid fucking liar! Go away!”

“Oh yeah? Well, that stupid fucking liar is gonna get us both in trouble if she we don’t retrieve her, so get the hell up, Negasonic Punkass Mean Teen Queen!”

Ellie begrudgingly gets off her ass and opens the door, hoping that Wade doesn’t notice the eyeliner that’s lightly stained her cheeks, or, at least, that he doesn’t point it out. He seems to have enough courtesy to do at least the latter.

“Tracked her phone to here,” He says, looking at his own phone and walking towards a door. Ellie follows, but stands off to the side when he opens the door.

“Go away.”

“That’s funny, that’s exactly what your little girlfriend said when I knocked on her door.”

“She’s not my girlfriend,” you disagree.

“Then why are you running away? You only run away when you like someone, you’re always willing to stick around for a fight. It used to be a good quality, when you were doing a job no kid should be doing. I really should’ve pulled you outta that life sooner, but I knew you wouldn’t’ve listened to me,” Wade admits, unintentionally explaining a *lot* about you.

“She’s not like you, Wade. She can die. I’m not risking that for some cheesy teen romance that’ll probably last around two dates and then fizzle off into us being acquaintances,” you argue, peeking out the window to notice you ex-friend, ex-something, at least, outside. Shit. But you know the truth:

“If you really felt that way, kid, you wouldn’t bother running away.” He continues in a grave, lowered tone: “You wouldn’t have bothered hurting her. If you were anyone else, I’d’ve kicked your stupid ass. You’re lucky.”

“I wouldn’t consider myself lucky.”

“Ellie fucking Phimister told you that she liked you. Like, as a person. You’re luckier than anyone else I’ve ever met.”

You roll your eyes. “Just go away. And take Ellie fucking Phimister with you.”

“Can’t say I didn’t try, kid.”

“I wouldn’t bother telling anyone about this. Go,” you say, slamming the door in his face and sliding down it to the ground, hiding your face in your hands. Your life was so unbelievably fucked.

You let yourself cry, thinking no one’s there to listen. And then there’s a knock on the window. You look to find Ellie there.

“Let me in, asshole,” she says, her voice muffled by the glass. You open the door, too tired to say no. You were so tired, you realized. Tired of running. Tired of fighting. Tired of being so fucking alone.

“You fucking idiot,” she says, pulling you in for a hug, her head buried in your chest. “You fucking idiot.” She pulls away, telling you: “You keep forgetting that I’m just as tough as you are. What am I gonna have to, arm wrestle you?”

You laugh harder than you should, the laughter dissolving into tears.

“I’m so sorry,” you tell her.”I just- I’m not used to people being safe around me. I’m so used to being the most dangerous person in the room, I- I’m sorry for forgetting that you’re- You’re a fucking force of nature, E. I’ll do anything for you to forgive me for being such a fucking scumbag.”

“Just shut up with the apologies, okay? You- Make it up to me by paying for our first date, yeah?”

“I really don’t think it’s a good idea-”

“Well, I do. And, listen: I’m sorry, too. I should’ve realized that just throwing my feelings on you wasn’t the best course of action. I’m not the only person in the world with people issues, and I seem to forget that sometimes. So, let’s have people issues together, okay?”

“I-”

She fixes you with an impatient stare.

“Okay,” you sigh, smiling. “I paid for a night here, do you just want to stay?”

“Yeah. I’d like that, actually. I…”She hesitates, searching your expression for something. “I call big spoon.”

#ellie phimister #ellie phimister imagine #ellie phimister x reader #negasonic teenage warhead #negasonic teenage warhead x reader #negasonic teenage warhead imagine #negasonicteenageimagines #x men #fanfiction #x reader #imagine #marvel #marvel fanfiction #x men fanfiction #deadpool #deadpool fanfiction

[heddo-pewpewpew-gudbye]

Hey can you talk about what it is like for you to be a core 4 and an ENTP? Cuz core 4s are said to be so protective of their emotions forming the basis for their significant identity, setting them aside from others I want to know how NeTi works with a 4 core.

Oh cool, my first ask!

I honestly don’t know how to answer this, but I’ll do my best. I guess I’ll just try to explain who I am (?) in the abstract and hope that’s good enough.

I mean, I’ve always typed as a lot of different things MBTI wise, but I figured out ENTP based on how my life has worked out in the big picture: when I was a kid, I was a really energetic kid, but I was always playing in an imaginative way, and loved to immerse myself in different worlds. As I grew up I became a lot more logical and withdrawn, and was quite the nerd, especially in middle school. Around the end of high school to now (middle of college) I’m starting to become a lot more social and getting good at it, and I kind of get the whole “ExTP being manipulative” thing (and perhaps more importantly I had started consciously caring what people thought of me to an extent that was probably unhealthy. I was flooded with a deep necessity to care about other people’s feelings/what others thought of me and I just didn’t know how to deal with it). Even though I’m not doing it with malicious intent, I’m beginning to instinctively understand how to act to get people to like me. Another thing that makes sense for me being an ENTP is the way I loop Ne-Fe and I definitely grip Si, I become super withdrawn and just watch sitcoms until I pass out. Personality Hacker has a diagram about your different functions and how you should use them based on their position and it really helped me realize I need to start using Ti in social situations and only use Fe with people I’m comfortable with or if I’m already using Ne and and Ti in a healthy way.

I really think the best way to type yourself is to look at how you’ve developed in the long term over the years. @confusedinfj has a good post about how kids of different main functions act, and I really do think that your main function shows up when you’re a toddler. Something else I’ve noticed is that you tend to consciously focus on your next developing function. When I was developing into my Ti stage I was really focused on reading and learning as much as I could. When I started to develop my Fe later on, I really focused on figuring out how to socialize and where I fit into the world, and as much as I hate to admit it what I did that people liked and didn’t like, having good hygiene and getting a good body, etc. It’s weird, but it seems to me that when you’re in a certain stage you start developing the next function by consciously focusing on it and eventually it just becomes a part of you (this is all anecdotal of course, so I suppose some people may disagree).

Now as for your actual question, I’m not sure how being a 4 fits into all of this, so I guess I’ll just list the reasons I felt like it makes sense. First and foremost, when I took the keys2cognition test my Fi was off the charts, and I found this really weird:

Furthermore, when I read the type description for INFP both on his website and 16 personalities, it did ring true in a weird way. Now, I know most people will say you shouldn’t trust the tests and I 100% agree, so I’m really just saying this to show my journey of figuring out what I think is my being a type 4.

Secondly, I took the RHETI enneagram test from the Enneagram Institute and got a type 4 much higher than other options:

What was crazy about this one was how it explained the way I act with people I get too close to down to a tee: I have a REALLY bad habit of idealizing people, getting really close to them, and then when I’m around them too long little things about them start to annoy the bejeezus out of me and I start to avoid them (I know it’s really shitty and I’ve been working on it). Also, isolation is how this type gets away from their problems and it’s definitely what I do.

The last thing that sort of helps the idea along is that I did some career services evaluations to determine what field I should go into and one of the tests I took was the Clifton Strengths assessment. You have to pay for it but it’s actually extremely helpful, at least in my experience; it basically tells you what your top strengths are. My number 1 strength was individualization: basically I can look st myself and others and determine what their good at, what their bad at, their aspirations, worst fears, etc. and this makes me really good at team building and such. It explained why I love self-discovery and MBTI and all this personality stuff despite most ENTPs probably not really caring.

I would say some miscellaneous reasons that I think I’m a type 4 have to do with how I understand Enneagram to work with MBTI: I think MBTI is how a person operates, and Enneagram is what DRIVES them, or is the “why” behind the “how” of MBTI. For me, I definitely seem to operate in an ENTP way, and when it comes down to functions an how they work together they seem to make sense for me. Besides this though, other ENTP stuff is very unlike me. For instance, I’m always trying to define myself, and take pride in my own originality; maybe less so trying to be unique, but more so trying to figure out who I am and separate myself from the rest of the pack and be the greatest version of myself so to speak. Another good example is how I play video games. Other ENTPs seem to enjoy video games for letting themselves take on different personas and try different things, and I do this to an EXTENT. The reality though is that I’m trying to figure out who I am the whole time, and I want to do this in order to be able to discover and define myself. For instance, I love Skyrim, but if I ever create a character who does things like murder innocent people, steals, etc. I have to design the character as some other person; when I create a character as myself, I have to follow my own moral code (even though it’s a damn video game) or else I feel icky. Actually, to be completely honest, I feel this way even if it’s just because my character isn’t what I would imagine I would be like in that world. I always feel gross when I’m playing and maybe I’ll try to use a sword and shield for a while but the whole time I’m just like “this ISNT ME” and it bothers me a lot. Idk I guess it always comes back to wanting to really discover who I am and trying to define myself so that I can discover what makes me special and use it to live my best life. It’s just like I have this constant subconscious drive to figure out who I am and be myself like doing so can allow me to overcome any obstacle.

I hope this is what you wanted, I kinda just took what you said loosely and ranted. Feel free to ask more questions (also I hope I’m doing this right since it’s my first ask 🙃). I know there’s Enneagram/MBTI purists out there that say only certain MBTI types can fit into certain Enneagrams, and perhaps they’re right too. I’m still on what I guess you could call my “journey of self-discovery” and what’s more important to me than being right is getting it right, so I’d love to hear anyone’s two cents on the subject.

[vibranium-coochie]

HELP! I need advice? My boyfriend got a relaxer for the first time and his hair is short and got small burns on his scalp and ear. I have a feeling he might do it from now on until infinity+ because he doesn’t like his curly hair. I’m afraid of all the chemicals because after a bunch of times people can lose their hair and get scars and all that bad jazz. (1/2)

Ok i can't say much concretely just on this because there isnt much info. But its cute that you care about ur bf that much. That being said i assume you're not black because off my head most black people i know wouldn't need advice other than in practical terms which im not really equiped to give. But basically you are right about relaxing and the damages it causes. But basically what i can say is; depending on who he is theres a probability the first time was enough to make him regret it. From there on the relaxed hair is generally much weaker and its legitimately easier to just cut and regrow it because it will break and fall apart from what i know. The scalp will need healing and there are many resources to be found here diff kinds of oils you cam use but generally in time it will heal normally. If thats not the case and he has some serious issue with his hair, then thats tragic but depending on his hair type porosity strength etc. What he could do as a temporary solution is go get it straightened or curled with those heat based thingies i forget the name in english. They will give heat damage to the hair. Which can be minimised with some conditioners. But generally its much less damaging to the hair and esp the scalp than relaxants. Idk how big the hair is for it to be feasible at home but most saloons can deal with any size. If that can be presented as an option maybe he'll go for it. I also know that if you use relaxants made for kids and leave them for less time than on the box the damge will be minimised and i think there are hair protective things you can use. My older sister did it once and it didn't leave noticeable damage on the scalp. And the hair lasted longer before falling but since then she quit. Henny ways. Like ideally the heat thingies dont damage the scalp that i know off unless they r being rly badly used but the hair won't be healthy. From here i can say a good to go is the natural hair movement which honestly can get all kinds of miraculous depending on what and how you use but its heavily dependent on self determination and personal research from your bf esp since some of the products used are pricey and reading up isnt too entertaining unless you're into it but there are many options there you can achieve a lot w hair if you put enough effort and stuff. That being said as to how you'll approach it not being black you can if you are subtle enough expose him to the options he has. He is obviously insecure about it so idk how pointed you are allowed to be without interfering with his own struggles and put him off. On the other hand if you have black friends into the natural hair movement thing you can just introduce them to each other and im fairly certain they will do a better job than Jehovah witnesses in spreading the gospel. In general just being supportive of afros and other similar hairstyles around him goes a long way. If you are black though you can just talk to him about it even though it may be annoying and ultimately not ur decision. Anyway mutuals; thots? Like ultimately y'all are likely to understand this much better than I even if you disagree pls say so. Also i hate to tag but @themoufofthesouth i thi k your input would be valued specifically.

[allofbeercom]

Things I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self About Calvinism (Or: How to Be Less of a Jerk)

ShareTweet

When I first understood the Doctrines of Grace (more commonly known as Calvinism and/or Reformed theology), I felt like I had entered The Matrix (minus Keanu Reeves).

It was as if multiple puzzle pieces were clicking into place and a single, unified picture was becoming clear. Things that seemed somewhat confusingly jumbled, like the various covenants, Israels rejection of Christ, and weird statements in the book of Romans, suddenly came together, like in a television show when an enlightened detective starts drawing lines between various mug shots and newspaper clippings while heart-thumping music plays in the background.

Picture this, except with pages of scripture

All this was a big deal to me, and I quickly came to the conclusion that it was my mission from God to convert every person in existence to Calvinism. As you can imagine, this made me quite a pleasant person (insert record scratch noise).

As Ive gotten older, slightly more godly and slightly less annoying, Ive come to a few realizations about the place the Doctrines of Grace should hold in my life.

I wish I could go back in time and communicate these things to my younger self, although my younger self probably would have fiercely debated my older self and then come away concluding my older self was a moron.

What would I tell my younger self?

Calvinism Matters, but Its Not Everything

I treated the Doctrines of Grace as if they were the sum and substance of Christianity. As if when Jesus was asked about the greatest commandment, he said, Be sure you believe in electionand total depravity!

This full-throated zeal for all things Calvinist caused me to look down on those who were far more godly than me yet maybe didnt agree with me on every point of doctrine.

Sure, youve given your entire life to serve orphans and widows in Cameroon, but you dont believe in election, so whats the point?

Meanwhile, Im sitting in my living room, wearing sweatpants and sipping coffee while I readSystematic Theology.

It was absolutely pathetic.

I still believe that the Doctrines of Grace arecrucially important to understanding Scripture, but there are other astonishingly important elements to following Jesus.

Like love. Mercy. Justice. Generosity. Serving. Compassion.

Calvinism should NOT be the dominant theme in everything I do as a Christian. Rather, it should the background track, like the bass line in a Daft Punk song. Or, as John Newton said:

I am more of a Calvinist than anything else; but I use my Calvinism in my writing and preaching as I use this sugar. I do not give it alone, and whole; but mixed, and diluted I think these doctrines should be in a sermon like sugar in a dish of tea, which sweetens every drop, but is no where to be found in a lumptasted everywhere, though prominent nowhere.

Its Not My Job to Convert the World to Calvinism

For a brief time, I became the Mormon missionary of Calvinism (minus the weird name tag and odd underwear). I thought it was my job to convert all people to the gospel of Reformed doctrine, and if they didnt convert, I became frustrated.

If someone disagreed with me, my brain began generating thoughts like this:

Why cant they see it?!? They must be spiritually defective! They must be, like, a baby Christian or something! Have they not accepted John Piper into their hearts? Maybe if I just speak louder and longer, I can convince them of the truth.

I foolishly assumed that it was my God-given responsibility to make sure that every person I knew fully agreed with everything I thought. As if I somehow had cornered the market on all sound doctrine and biblical understanding.

This is incredibly ironic given that the very heart of Reformed theology says God gets all the glory because he is the one ultimately responsible for all the saving, changing and preserving. Its like Alanis Morissette said: Isnt it ironic?

Yes, yes it is.

I dont debate about Reformed theology much these days. Ill happily discuss it with someone who wants to, but I know that I cant convince or change any person.

If you want to chat about Calvinism, lets grab a beer (a requirement of being Reformed) and well hash it out.

Calvinism Is Not Required for Godliness

Some of the most godly, prayerful, loving, generous people I know, do not believe in Reformed theology. These people are so godly and so spirit-filled that they make me look like a headhunting pagan who plays with ouija boards for fun.

The truth is, godliness and Calvinism dont necessarily go together. Calvinists have a somewhat well-earned reputation as pompous, self-righteous windbags who would rather write 10,000-word screeds than actually serve someone.

When I was younger, I assumed that a person who didnt embrace Reformed theology was somehow less mature or godly than me. I look back and shudder.

I was the windbag.

I was the one who loved hearing myself talk.

I was the one who liked to toss around fancy theological words (double reprobation anyone?).

It was both terrifically ungodly and tremendously obnoxious. If you were at the business end of my weaponized Calvinism, I apologize.

I still fully embrace Reformed theology, but I now realize that its no longer necessary for godliness.

When John Wesley (an Arminian) was asked whether he thought he would see George Whitefield (a Calvinist)in heaven, hesaid, No. Then he said:

Do not misunderstand me, madam; George Whitefield was so bright a star in the firmament of Gods glory, and will stand so near the throne, that one like me, who am less than the least, will never catch a glimpse of him

I feel the same, but in the opposite direction. I expect I wont see many of my fellow believers in heaven who dont believe in Reformed theology because they will be much nearer the throne than me.

Calvinism Isnt The Solution for Every Problem

When I first truly understood that God is sovereign over all things, that was a great comfort to me. God is working all things together for my good. God is the one responsible for saving people. God is in control of governments and presidential candidates (thank goodness!).

But too often, I treated the Doctrines of Grace as the cure-all medicine for every spiritual problem.

Youre struggling with worry? Dont you believe God is sovereign?

Youre struggling with anger? Dont you believe in total depravity?

Youre worried about whether youll make it to the end? Dont you believe in perseverance of the saints?

You get the point. Calvinism became my miracle pill that I dispensed freely. No matter the circumstances, I was always quick to whip out my bottle of Reformed theology from my fanny pack of systematic theology (I think that analogy works).

I somehow failed to grasp that truth always goes down better when its preceded by grace, love, compassion, and the bearing of burdens. Grace is the spoonful of sugar that makes the medicine of truth go down. Love, compassion, and empathy make it so much easier to hear truth.

Now I still talk encourage people with those same biblical truths, but not before I spend plenty of time simply listening and bearing burdens.

In the End

When Jesus returns and all is said and done, I dont think well be debating the finer points of theology. Well be so enraptured with the glory of God that not much else will matter.

Until then, Ill seek to continue to learn from those who are more godly than me. By Gods grace, in 10 years Ill be less of apompous windbag than I am now.

Now if youll excuse me, I need to drink a craft beer while listening to a John Piper sermon.

ShareTweet

from All Of Beer http://allofbeer.com/things-i-wish-i-could-tell-my-younger-self-about-calvinism-or-how-to-be-less-of-a-jerk/

[survivorindia]

His attitude? It ain't helping his whiny ass. - Julia (Episode 6)

I'm still angry espically jaiden he can go fuck Off i hate him like please go block me some more jaiden with your dumbass

Ruben is the most self righteous asshole I've ever met in a game and it pisses me off so bad that he gets to walk around like he is the shit, when in reality the bitch amounts to probably nothing in this game past the new Parvati tribe. His attitude? It ain't helping his whiny ass. It's so annoying like i swear he can quit complaining about challenges he dosent like and maybe actually try and win them by a landslide and not by a point, than we would really not have to go to tribal? I hate having to be nice to him because he is soo fucking annoying. Go back to your other community than bitch if you don't like this one. Fuck off.

I feel like every fucking confessional I make is to bash these people but I honestly don't like them. My game is in their own hands, and I can be leaving because of it. Like go ahead and form your all newbie alliance, see where it gets you and your dumb fucking asses in the merge when you have majority returnees. And not to mention I bet sarah wouldn't be happy if i left

Mastermind was great, I was surprisingly really good at it!!! Getting a tie for the lowest score on my tribe also makes me look good, so that's a plus! 

Well here we are, the dreaded tribal council once again. But WHEW, what a round. So Jaiden has hopefully been called out on all his shit. Me Dom Sarah and Julia all compared notes and i think we've established that he his a lil shit and none of us trust him. Ummm Whitney is probably going this round, probably unanimous with her self voting. I think it should be fine everyone seems to realize she is just given up. So i think I should be safe this round. let's see what happens :)

http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/mreidjr/78051217/7913/7913_900.gif So I just went on call with Dom. And you know what he told me? He said that Sarah and Julia have told him everything I said about him. From how I felt like he was too much, how I didn't like him at all, how I wanted to use him to get further in the game. All that shit. That's why I voted for him, according to them. It's real funny because for a while, I did believe those things to be true. Sarah was the first person I talked to about all that. I thought she was my friend, I really did. But I see why she's on the villains tribe, because she's a heartless, cold-blooded viper. The entire Dom vote came as a result of her and Julia wanting him gone. Certainly, I didn't help with them coming to that decision, but it's become evident to me that this is the person everyone parades around and claims to be best friends with. We talk about that Bangladesh final tribal where Sarah cries over how Eddie betrayed her so badly, but then here she is, acting like a complete hypocrite. She can say that these two situations are not the same, which they are not, but the knife she plunged into my back burns the same. I can't say that I didn't see this coming. I fucked up, so it makes sense why everything spilled out in front of me on the dirt floor. Now I have to work on making people like me again, because I don't think they'll trust me for a while. We can say that I have a long road ahead before I can regain their trust, but the truth is that I have a much steeper path to the finish than before. They might not ever trust me, so I need to give them a reason to understand me. I don't know how, but I'll try. I'll take the knife that was firmly planted in my back and return it to its rightful owner one day. I did these things for her, and while she was always on my hit list, no matter that she was low, I think she's found her way to the top. Karma is a bitch, and so is she. Maybe I won't win this fight, but I think I'll die trying, and I'm at peace with that.

So last tribal council was....interesting lol. Going into tribal council I had Alex trying hard as fuck to get Dom/Me and Lexi/Robin to split our votes. I could tell he knew we were all close and when he suggested the girls vote this way and boys vote this way plan, I immediately caught onto what he was trying to do. He definitely had a hidden agenda. What I didn't think about at the time and I should have, but how did he find out about the four of us being close. And my question was answered when one, Jaiden tried getting me to throw my vote on Alex and two, Jaiden fucking voted with Johnny, Alex, and Julia against Dom. This pissed me off because I trusted Jaiden with every ounce of my soul. Between him and the other 3 people of my "alliance", I thought they were all the only people I could trust in the game. Yet he went behind my back and tried voting Dom out. Luckily Dom pulled out his idol, took out Johnny, and gave us the majority going into future tribals. However my trust for Jaiden is gone. And Alex/Julia are both viewed as shady fucks in this game in my eyes. I see how they wanna play the game now, which is fine because they are so predictable... Anyway with Johnny gone, it gave my crew the numbers despite Jaiden playing both sides HARD. He made it clear that he was closer to Alex/Julia when they both told me everything I had said to Jaiden while Jaiden was not telling me this. It's fucked up, because Jaiden went from on of my closest allies to one of the shadiest guys I know. Still, I kinda need to keep him on the good side with me because I already don't know many peeps in this game. Moving on to the next challenge it was revealed as the "Heroes Challenge." Everybody said it was a potential swap with the volunteers from each tribe being captains. And even if that wasn't true, I was confident that whomever competes for their tribe will also receive a clue to the idol. Therefore rather either of those two were true or not, I wasn't about to risk someone like Alex or Jaiden getting that advantage. So obviously I volunteered, despite me thinking I would probably lose or even throw the challenge lol. However I ended up BARELY winning the challenge. I decided I wanted to win it for two reason. One, if I won I might receive an idol clue and Two, I wanted to send the other tribe to tribal to hopefully see Whitney or Liam voted out as I knew they were apparently targets. Plus I guess I sort of wanted to look like a Hero of the tribe. So moving forward, I think I want to lose challenges more. I don't want to miss an opportunity to get out Julia or Alex (thinking that keeping Jaiden around might be smarter for me personally. Especially since Jaiden now has a fucked relationship with Alex/Julia). Still, if it's another volunteer type thing my allies HAS to be the ones to volunteer lmao. The idol must stay out of their hands!!!!

Let this flu kill me. I can't even think rn.

yes im crazy

Watching the NBA Dunk Contest as I write this, but a lot has happened as of late. My #1, Alex, is now in a compromising position given the last tribal on his swapped tribe. Jaden is a snake. I'll finish this confessional after tribal. The Liam vote is mine by the way!

I can't wait for this merge to come up soon. I definitely thought we were swapping with it when Ruben/Sarah went head to head. Now that we didn't, I guarantee the two of them got some special prize for putting their head on the line there. I just need to make the merge or swap with Gavin. Us two are really tight and there's a lot of things that can go wrong to where we can't meet back up and run things. So I'm just praying at this point.

Welp we're voting for Whitney because she is dead as fuck.

Oh no we lost for once. Whitney is prob going tonight cuz who even is she? We dont know.

Hello again, we’re going to tribal for the first time as swapped tribes, which is the thing I dread most in the game. It’s so irritating because I can’t connect with these people excluding Jordan. Casey is never on to talk about the game and doesn’t seem like she ever wants to strategize which is annoying due to the fact that she is the only one from my original tribe. We also have Sarah who I’ve heard speaks to everyone in the game and will barely talk to me. Liam and Whitney haven’t replied to me and Whitney just has not been online at all. Gavin speaks to me every once in awhile but rarely about game and is acting overly suspicious after I notified him I heard Whitney from multiple people. He didn’t agree and didn’t disagree so he does not trust me and does not seem to want to vote Whitney lmao. He can go soon enough even though we could align and make a big move against people who are noticeably aligned with a large majority of the cast. I hate people who want to float by and do nothing while they get played by these power players; it just dulls the experience. I like a lot of the people on the other tribe so being swapped onto this tribe was just a big letdown. Here’s to hoping I’m not voted off over someone who’s never here which would be embarrassing but more so to the ones who don’t know what a big move is.

As for me personally, I’ve been trying to play the dumb role and acting as if I don’t have a clue as to what’s going on most of the time. I also let others see me as trustworthy, make alliances for me so they cannot be traced back to me starting them and will let Jordan assume that I’m his puppet. I considered voting Jordan so I could blame the vote on someone else and I would assume he would believe me over others since we’ve had multiple heart to hearts. It’d bring some necessary fun into this game because quite frankly it’s been dull. The only reason I could not go through it was due to the weird prior connections everyone has had from original tribes and the way the votes would shake down wasn’t 100% so if they decide not to vote Whitney then it would unravel and such. I’ll just try to keep myself safe for now and then would have enough time to make big moves further down the road. Perhaps Whitney could hold off on coming online for a little while longer and just be removed?

I'm so happy I've gotten this far in the game! I'm guaranteed 15th place at this point I believe which is much better than I had anticipated after going through the struggles of being on the bottom in the Nayak tribe. I'm glad we won immunity but I'm also concerned. Jaiden doesn't seem to be doing too well. It looks like a lot of person issues exploded between him and a few other people. Game wise, this is great for me because people play with their emotions so they're more likely to want to get rid of him than me. He's like a meat shield for me. I've talked to him though and I feel bad. It's an online game and I don't think people should be taking these things personally. This should be fun and not affecting someone's mental health negatively. I hope he feels better and that he finds some way to get himself in a better position in the game. I wouldn't mind helping him out with that.

So jaiden betrayed us in the last vote and we had no clue dom was getting votes until the last minute so good thing he played his idol. I wish ruben would of lost that duel challenge so we could of sent julia or alex out the door. Keeping jaiden is beneficial since her and dom will just be at each other and not us.

#youdontgetmycrownjustcause