#the state of Joy

[thebibliosphere]

I just want to take a moment to say thank you to everyone who supports my work. Because of how well Phangs is still doing, almost two years after its debut, I was able to go out tonight to the appliance store and replace our broken washing machine. Amazingly, they had one in stock and it's arriving Saturday.

We still have to put it on store credit, but thanks to everyone who supports my patreon, my ko-fi, and who buys my books and honestly keeps the hype train running (y'all are way better at promo than me!) we were able to do so without the floods of tears and financial panic that was our daily existence for a very long time. I was even able to help Mothman buy some parts for his new computer, which is a truly wonderful feeling, because I can't remember the last time we bought something for him.

The last seven years were basically spent funneling everything we had into keeping me alive and doing emergency repairs on the house. It was nice to buy him something for a change.

Anyway.

Thank you. You've made my world so much better, and I'm glad you seem to enjoy my silly words. I'm going to go write more of them.

#the house that cthulhu built #the state of joy

[odinsblog]

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#politics #palestine #gaza #israel #dabke #dance #🇵🇸 #palestinian joy is resistance #resistance #resist #israel is a terrorist state #israel is an apartheid state #collective punishment #never again #never again to anyone

[awesomecooperlove]

Every recipient is on Epstein’s flight log … including Barack Obama.

Was this some sort of back door sicko “Island participation” award?

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[tsparrisx]

Y'all are not ready for all this beauty 🥰

#trans pride #trans rights #transgirl #transisbeautiful #transsexual #trans nsft #trans #nonbinary #transmasc #transblr #trans joy #trans man #transgender #tumblr fyp #trending #viral #united states #united kingdom #18+ content

[soldier-poet-king]

Ppl are always like noooo self love is bad and we have to be giving and altruistic and always considerate etc etc and like all of those things are true to a certain extent, but when you're a super serious kid who took it too literally and became a hypermoral adult it's just like

Well *I* like me and that's all that matters, regardless of what anyone else says

#the duality of fran #yes yes im a virtue ethics bitch and it's ultima abt balance #ultimately* #and yes yes disclaimer about things like. tattoos and clothing. not war crimes and murder #which shouldnt need to be said. but yknow. webbed site #ANYWAY I LIKE ME. I AM LEARNING TO REALLY LIKE THE ME I AM BECOMING #becoming is inherently a state of loss but it is also a state of joy

[sourcetwo]

hey, don't cry. soldier's big beautiful smile, okay? <3

#tf2 #this has been on my mind for the last three days. look at his big beautiful smile okay??? #do you see it. do you see his smile #peace and love on planet earth is real #ive been in a rough state of mind lately. ive seen this sfm plenty of times but it just hit different for me this time #like yknow maybe its not all bad! i need to find joy in the little things just like soldier getting excited about bread #like right now! im just getting excited about silly sfms i like. man.... #sorry. i had a moment in the tags #if you've read this far. have a wonderful day smile and take care of yourself please #brighton.txt #tf2 soldier

[aurosoulart]

one of the things I wasn't prepared for as a trans person in a big industry was the absolutely OVERWHELMING emotions around being accepted for who I am. ;__; some highlights from the past couple months:

a prominent speaker at a UK media company showing my work to his son, casually saying: "Do you like this picture? Ewan drew it." I've never spoken to this man, but he respects me enough to not only show my work to his child - but to future students as well. these kids are going to grow up knowing the work of a publicly trans artist, and with any luck it will be normal to them.

Tilt Five publicly replying to my TDOV post with THIS, from their official corporate account.

Tilt Five also featuring me in a blog post on their website, and using they/them pronouns!!!!

and even more Tilt Five positivity: being INVITED TO DEMO IN-PERSON AT GDC FOR HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE. I'm in this picture but you can barely see me because of the crowd. again, I'm visibly trans here - long hair, stubble, voice deepened by testosterone... and it was a non-issue.

and lastly: not only being able to publicly fundraise for LGBTQ+ causes like the Club Q healing fund without fear, but actually receiving support & donations from my employer while I do so. technically, I get PAID to fundraise as long as I use Figmin XR, like with Cover The World With Flowers!

and that's just a handful of examples!!! there was also the whole getting accepted into AR House thing (where I'm one of MULTIPLE trans people in the community), and then PERFORMING LIVE at the Marriott HQ, and then my art making it onto Adam Savage's youtube channel???!?!

I keep saying this, but I legitimately don't have words for the level of gratitude I feel. I've had other trans folks reach out and say that my visibility gives them courage, which makes me want to fight even harder to show that trans joy is REAL and POSSIBLE and that there is still so much love, despite everything.

I don't want to take for granted that it is still very much radical to just exist publicly as a trans person - and even more radical to exist publicly as a HAPPY trans person. I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared being in this position, but at least I know I'm not alone. there are still so many good people fighting for us.

#auropost #lgbtq #lgbt #trans #trans pride #trans joy #trans positivity #idk what else to tag this as i'm just feelin Feels yknow #thank you if you've read this far it means a lot to me #i've been wanting to make this post for awhile but kept getting overwhelmed thinking about it #but the news about what's happening in florida and also like. other red states and anti-trans legislation #just totally took me out last week #so i wanted to try and put some good out there to fight how hopeless it made me feel #things hurt but there's still love. there's always love!!!!!!!

[scattered-winter]

there's something sooooooo heartbreaking about quests as a narrative piece. you set out on this journey to rescue someone or defeat a great evil and along the way you face hardship and horror and you grieve and fight and love and lose and then when it's all over you come home. everything is the same as when you left, but you're so irrevocably different that you no longer fit in the one place you used to be truly at peace. you're tired from your journey but you find no rest or recovery, only ghosts. and you almost wish for another quest, another dangerous mission, because at least then you know your purpose.

#hi sorry i just rewatched the lord of the rings trilogy and im in A State #its just. the concept of leaving your home with your 3 friends to go on a quest for something you don't understand. #you're all plucky and full of life and hope. #and then you're beaten down and nearly killed and you don't know if anyone's still alive or if you're the last of your friends left. #and you suffer. oh do you suffer. #and when the battle's over and it's time to come home you don't recognize the person you were when you left. #you're too traumatized and haunted by everything you've seen; everything you've suffered; everything you've done to survive #and you're a ghost in your own home because nobody from your hometown can understand. #and it's so painful and you're so so tired that when you have a chance to move on to leave your friends behind #for the sake of getting some goddamn peace ... #well what else can you do but take it? #im just oughoughoughoughough #this applies to both frodo and bilbo i think #the dichotomy of the scene where bilbo is Leaving the shire (running and shouting for joy because he's going on an ADVENTURE!) #and when he returns (beaten down and grieving and lost. a stranger in his own home.) #literally makes me gnawwww #im feeling some kinda WAY #winter speaks #tropes #on knights #<- rich inner world

[fauxpapillons]

Comm for @lunaticpsyker08

an absolutely normal day under the snow! Poor sandalphon gets into situations.... and might need to wash his hair after Belial beast has decided to just staaaaaare the cup the other made for himself. SDÑFDKSÑFDFF thit was so fun to draw!!!!!!

#commission #granblue fantasy #gbf #sandalphon #sandalphon gbf #Beast belial #My greatest joy is drawing sandalphon in various state of exhasperation before he's had enough™ #he may be inmortal but 100% he grows grey hairs the more situations™ happens to him

[thebibliosphere]

Hey gang, sorry if you're sending messages or emails, but my head is splitting. I managed an hour of computer work today before the pain became unbearable, so I'm going to dial things back for a bit.

I'm still here and still kicking, but if you see less of me, don't worry. I'm just trying to rest my eyes/brain to see if it helps the current spate of migraines I can't seem to get to go away.

Inbox is closed, so I can work through the current backlog when I have spoons <3

#chronic health tag #the state of joy #state of the blog #life is suffering right now #pardon any typos this was dictated

[pomdor]

i love wilds amber earrings i think bc they dont really do much aside from defence. like he really is just a guy yk. just wants to armour up and look stylish doing it and honestly dont we all?

#i feel like i always draw wild looking pissy #it is his default state in my head #also one day i will draw backgrounds #not today though it does not spark joy #tloz my art #linked universe #wild lu #lu wild #wild linked universe #linked universe wild

[awesomecooperlove]

“THE BRUTAL INVASION ON IRACK… I MEAN, ON UKRAINE” 👿BUSH 👿SENIOR SAIS … THESE PEOPLE ARE 👿👿👿

#the invasion of Irak #the invasion of Ukraine #all planned by the deep state’s oligarchs #demons rule #wake up humanity #wake up america #these people are evil #pure evil #do you want to be free #do you want to enjoy life #what do you want : wealth health love respect joy peace #fight for it #stand up #speak truth #standup #never be silent #thé deep state’s oligarchs are committing crimes against humanity right before your eyes in your backyard #are going to let them take over the world #are you going to let them inoculate you your children every six months with dangerous substances #the time to fight for justice freedom harmony and peace is NOW #thé deep state puppets fight teeth and nails to defend their freedom their wealth their rights to do as they please including killing you #are awakened yet #what it will take for you humanity to understand that we are in a digital emotional physical and psychological world war III #doing nothing is no longer an option #the only way for humans to end the misery violence drugs poverty diseases child abuse child/human trafficking child/human/animal sacrifices #is to fight back stay united strong and never give up #you matter #your child’s lives matter #fight for justice #speaktruth

[fatuismooches]

sorry, ik that signora is y'know, dead and all, but fragile!reader + her crimson moths made me have a rlly sad realization.

due to your sick nature, rosalyne had asked you to stay in snezhnaya while she goes to inazuma. she presses a kiss against your forehead, murmuring that it would only take a month or two, and she'll be sure to bring back souvenirs for you. she assures you that nothing will hurt her, and that she will come back to you.

and while you're in snezhnaya, worried over your lover in inazuma, you're still comforted by the fact that rosalyne has left several crimson moths behind to watch over you. she has always had a protective streak, but your fragility makes her that much more overprotective of you. they flutter and fly whenever they want, but at night, they sleep by your side, providing rosalyne's familiar warmth that so easily lulls you to slumber.

and because, her crimson moths had been with you for so long, it was almost incomprehensible that they would one day leave. but on that one fateful day, when they slowly died out right in front of your eyes, you realized how foolish you had been. with shaky hands, you reach out to try and grab onto them, but one by one, they disintegrate into ash in the palm of your hand, until only one remains.

you're going insane, rightfully so, but you try and keep calm to await for her return, bc you want to have hope. you couldn't—no, you wouldn't let this get you sick. rosalyne must be fine, she absolutely has to be. you pray to the gods, to the tsaritsa, for your beloved rosalyne's return, but the dread building in the pit of your stomach only grows as time goes on. and on one fortunate day, you feel well enough to head outside, if only for a moment, only to accidentally overhear some fatui recruits saying that, "the fair lady has been killed by the electro archon—"

and suddenly, your world comes crashing down.

tbh, i don't rlly like signora that much?? like i don't hate her, i don't love her, i'm vv neutral on her but this idea has been infesting my mind for like,, a week and it has def softened my opinion on her. i hope this has brought you joy(?) or sorrow(?) idk tbh, i hope you enjoy this word vomit lol

UM ANON?? FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T LIKE SIGNORA THAT MUCH YOU WROTE THIS SO WELL?!?! My gosh i didn't realize how much angst potential Signora and fragile reader could have... she is super overprotective because she already lost the first person she loved... and now her next lover is not one of the best health... The Gods are laughing in her face right now :(

Rosalyne leaving you to go to other nations was nothing new, she had gone to Mondstadt and Liyue, and been successful in her mission both times. Every time she came back and smiled, in that way that said "I told you so. See, there's no need to worry about me, darling." You would still be overcome by a sense of relief as she kissed you all over, both of you have missed each other terribly.

So really, when Signora left for Inazuma, it wasn't any different. It was going to be the same old mission - infiltrate the nation, get the Gnosis, and return. She's done it once, she's done it twice, she can definitely do it thrice. But still, you were worried. You were always worried about her. You knew she was strong, very much so compared to you, but still... Though, at the very least you had some company. Some pieces of her in a way. Although Signora's moths would burn any enemy she encounters, for you, they remain a comfortable heat that only makes you feel loved. Also, the moths were not only warm and cuddly but fun to watch. You liked to watch them fly around your room... they were even stronger than you gave them credit for as a bunch of them could carry certain items to you.

You remember the first moth that fizzed out very clearly. You were confused at first - Signora never burned away any of her moths when she was away from you. But then in only a matter of minutes, another one goes. And another. And another. All burning away in a few seconds. By now, you're panicking, trying to cup them in your hands. protect them somehow but soon enough, it was as if they never existed before. You remember what Rosalyne said - her moths will always be near as long as she still lives in this world. Your throat dries up at what this means.

You try not to let your mind go there because you were already getting a headache and fever from the implications. Please, you pray to the Tsaritsa, please let Rosalyne be okay. Please let her walk through that door again and give you that same smirk. She'll bring back so many gifts for you, and maybe she'll get a small break from her Fatui duties because of how successful she's been. And maybe you two could go out somewhere nice. Just please, let her be alive.

When you learned what really happened, you weren't sure if you were going to have any strength to live anymore.

#smooches talks #fragile reader <3 #signora love notes <3 #yea this definitely brought me joy! *laughs as i wipe my tears away* #ummm but she gets revived in natlan!! i saw her there guys!! #and then she comes back to you and her heart just squeezes at your current state... she is so sorry

[edslacefront]

Izzy Hands fucks me up bc Everytime I'm over here happily thinking/ typing away about Ed and Stede, feet swinging back and forth humming to myself, I slowly turn and there's Izzy, lurking in the corner, making my silly show infinitely more fucked up when I start thinking about his role in it and my head starts spinning and echoing in my mind is David Jenkins saying "Stede, Izzy, and Ed are ultimately in an arc together" and I'm like oh god oh goD OH NOFUCK OHGODOH NO THE TEXT IS OVERWHELMING STOP ITHURTS

#this isn't Izzy hate btw I live in a state of Izzy neutrality as he brings me both joy and dread but mostly anxiety #blackbonnet #steddyhands #gentlebeard #ed x stede #izzy hands #ofmd #ofmd s2 #stede bonnet #ed teach #edward teach #ofmd izzy

[whereismyhat5678]

Idk about you guys but these little fuckers have been invading my head for like AGES BRO-

HELP ME I NEED TO SPRAY THEM WITH PESTICIDE- 😭😭/aff

#ANTONBLAST #I did this in a classroom that was NOT my own 👁️👁️ #They moved my first period to another class today- It was WEIRD #Anyways- OH YEAH I did the state test! #wasn’t bad! I jumped with joy when I finished and went to the bathroom (legit leaped I was so happy it was over) #Anyways yeah. Thinking about these lil guys 24/7 Someone needs to get them OUT MY BRAIN 💀🙏🙏 #Anton #Dynamite Anton #Annie #Dynamite Annie

[alilarew23]

my mom and i were out for a walk and saw a hoodie in a shop window that said, “happy to be here,” except my mom misread it as, “happy to be her” and was laughing at the thought of a hoodie that said that but i was like…wait. same though. 💅🏼 clothing line dropping 2024?

#loassumption #law of assumption #loa #manifestation #loassblog #loa tumblr #loablr #loa blog #neville goddard #edward art #self concept #mindset #states of consciousness #imagination #self love #self respect #joy #happiness #being #goddess #god consciousness #god #queen