#the ultimate betrayal lead to leaving his best friend

[jester-d-ace]

GUYS

GUYS?!!!

Chapter 331 vs Chapter 1082 Brother against brother, who is the real coward when it's you who's the one giving up?

#the ultimate betrayal lead to leaving his best friend #this might be nothing but this parallel absolutely broke my heart #was it just as heart-breaking for them as it was for Luffy and Usopp? #the men who aren't fooled by the world and have to use their smarts to get by by bluffing their way through life? #who believe in their crew mate? #or their crew mate who goes into danger with a laid-back nature and a smile on their face who can beat any opponent #who the friend sees them give up on what's most important at a critical time? #luffy #ussop #luffy vs usopp #water 7 #buggy #shanks #shuggy #chapter 331 #chapter 1082 #one piece #manga panels #my post

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crescent | @sorryimananti-romantic

genre: prince!san x assassin!reader, fluff, angst, suggestive

length: oneshot - 17k

everyone is out for prince san’s head and you, wonderland’s assassin, known publicly as eunbi- silver rain- are chosen to be san’s personal bodyguard, to accompany him on his journey to eden to uncover secrets and a possible betrayal.

your fan, san | @hwaightme 🩶

genre: interpreter!reader, romance, fluff

length: twoshot - 9.8k

a bulletpoint-style wordstream of what it would be like if san was stanning you

sly san who sacrifices | @chaseatinydream

genre: badboy!au, romance

length: 6/6 chapters [completed] - 14.5k

to the school, he may be a bad boy, the worst of the worst, but to you, he’s choi san, father of three cats, your best friend and ultimately, the boy you love.

oh boy | @atxxzist

genre: farmboy!san, fluff, angst, suggestive

length: oneshot - 16.6k

your curious heart that's full of adventure and knowledge; of what's out there beyond the space of your room and farmhouse, find it in a boy who not only open your eyes to the world around you, but also to a longing you didn't even know was there

ch_i san | @atzfilm 🩶

genre: android!san, sci-fi, fluff, angst, smut

length: oneshot - 19k

it's 2135, one hundred years after the rise of the anarchist, a revolutionist group that tore the world in half. the creation of their andr_ids forced the poorer population to abide by the anarchist rules or face death. you, a lowly machinery worker, leave work to find a defective model, ch_i san. you're forced to make the decision of helping the andr_id model, or reporting it to the leading faction. of course you make the only sane choice – follow a robot into complete and utter peril.

in this place, full of lies | @wordstro

genre: post-apocalypse!au, ex!san, angst, trigger warnings

length: 20/20 chapters [completed] - 93.5k

when the world ends, you are left to wander like a ghost from town to town for so long, you start to believe you are the last person left on earth. at least until a group of men rob you at knifepoint, and one of the robbers is none other than your ex-boyfriend, choi san. while you spent too much time wandering ghost towns alone, the rest of the world learned to survive, for better or for worse. including san.

apple pie | @yoongiseesawmp3

genre: ex!san, fratboy!san, fluff, smut

length: oneshot - 11.5k

the cocky frat boy you dated in college might be the love of your life, but you’re not telling him that. if he wants anything from you now he’s gotta work for it, and he’s looking for a 9 to 5 in getting you back.

blushing red | @atozfic 🩶

genre: brothers!bf!san, fluff, angst, smut

length: oneshot - 11k

how did choi san go from wanting to protect you like a big brother to wanting to ruin you with his own two hands?

my way | @sorryimananti-romantic

genre: fluff, angst, violence, suggestive

length: oneshot - 18k

you, the princess of wonderland, have been betrothed to the prince of utopia for years now. however, the political relation between wonderland and utopia have never improved, and utopia keeps taking over wonderland’s land unlawfully. with your guard mingi who is also your best friend and who you have feelings for, you travel to utopia with a plan to deceive the prince and steal official documents that would be proof of their treachery, risking your life in more than one way when you can’t hold your feelings for your guard back anymore.

love you to death | @atzfilm

genre: deathreaper!mingi, fantasy, mythical, angst

length: oneshot - 25.5k

everyone who has ever loved you died horrifically. you’ve given up on love, until you find a man who keeps on saying he’s death, willing to help you. for a price, of course.

your fan, mingi | @hwaightme

genre: rapper!reader, slice of life, fluff, angst

length: twoshot - 6.7k

a bulletpoint-style wordstream of what it would be like if mingi was stanning you

hearts awakened, live alive | @sorryimananti-romantic 🩶

genre: demon!mingi, fluff, angst, suggestive

length: oneshot - 26k

you finally run away from the clutches of your stepmother and encounter mingi, infamously known as 'the child of shadows'. you join his gang of three- the high healer wooyoung and the white flame seonghwa and start living with them. you find out mingi is cursed to share a body with the shadow demon that goes by the name erebos and start falling for it and mingi eventually, though tragic consequences await you as you find out more about the demon's curse.

badboy!wooyoung | @ateezmakemeweep

genre: angst, fluff

length: oneshot - 5k

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place in me | @starrysvn

genre: chef!wooyoung x chef!reader, angst, slow burn, fluff, ex to lovers

length: oneshot - 17k

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crazy for you | @cosmicdumpling

genre: friends to lovers, romance, fluff, suggestive

length: oneshot - 8.0k

wooyoung seems to have harbored a crush on you for a while now, and as much as he hates it, he manages to hold out just fine. a trip to the beach with the rest of your friends, however, becomes a huge threat to wooyoung’s remaining resolve.

made for this | @yoongiseesawmp3

genre: churchboy!wooyoung, wingman!kyungmin, fluff, smut

length: oneshot - 10.5k

you’re volunteering for this year’s vacation bible school, and wooyoung’s little brother just so happens to be in your group. is it wrong of him to use kyungmin as his wing man? eh, who cares. wooyoung is just determined to get you to fall for him before the week is over, and he’ll do whatever it takes.

your fan, jongho | @hwaightme

genre: footballer!reader, romance, fluff

length: twoshot - 3.9k

a bulletpoint-style drabble of what it would be like to have jongho stanning you.

where do i go | @sorryimananti-romantic

genre: bodyguard!jongho, angst, fluff, violence, suggestive

length: oneshot - 23k

you’re the owner of hotel crescent in mist island, where secrets are traded. you’re infamously known as the gossip-dealer and known for manipulating people, which means you’re not safe. however, the last thing you expect is your power-hungry father to send jongho to be your bodyguard, but you suspect it’s not because he fears for your safety but because he wants to keep tabs on you as he joins prince woobin’s side while you join prince hongjoong’s side. as your father comes from eden to mist island to become the minister of foreign affairs, the political situation between the two nations worsen and you fear for war, but you risk your life for your homeland, and find jongho joining hands with you as you both uncover secrets and betrayals from your father.

time of love | @sorryimananti-romantic

genre: brother's best fried au, fluff, angst

length: oneshot - 19k

you are yeosang's little sister, adored by all his friends. you're concerned that's all you will be- even though you are close to them- especially to jongho, who you've liked since highschool. after a year gap and moving to yeosang's apartment for college, you find jongho's living with him for a few weeks as well due to a dorm situatuon. will your feelings for him resurface with all their might? will you be able to make him look at you as just you, and will you be able to win his heart?

[9:26 p.m.] | @mingtinys

genre: timestamp, sleepy!jongho, fluff

length: oneshot - 1.2k

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last updated: 25 oct 2023

#loren's fic recs #ateez fic recs #ateez fic #san x reader #mingi x reader #wooyoung x reader #jongho x reader #ateez angst #ateez fluff #ateez smut #prince ateez #badboy ateez #bodyguard ateez #android ateez #chef ateez #fratboy ateez #ateez headcanons

[melvisik]

The fandom overall seems split in their opinion of this fella:

One one side, there has been so much commentary offering sympathy and love for this poor, currently pathetic rat man. Of course, when using the word 'pathetic,' one might also include the archaic sense - he arouses pity, even if there is a connotation of contempt.

As noted, many have gone to great lengths in illustrating how he fits this definition. Some of their examples (their own commentaries and material directly from the actors and crew) have really hit home, and present a further glimpse into the man's tortured soul. Primarily in their analyses to his relationship with Blackbeard. From recollection, Con O’Neill has made at least two comparisons that have resonate brilliantly with his stans: 1) Judas’ relationship with Jesus in Jesus Christ Superstar. 2) Losing one’s best friend to someone else.

The former is a story familiar to quite a few people - Judas Iscariot started out as a follower of the prophet Jesus, but he ultimately betrayed the man he served and loved to the authorities which eventually got them both killed. In the musical, Judas does this because he’s worried that Jesus is out of control and that his leadership would lead to the group’s destruction. Another (probably more 'biblical') version presents him as a greedy, Satan-possessed bastard who just wants cash in hand, and he later regrets it when 'the devil leaves him.' Yet another interpretation is that (to Judas and many of Jesus’ followers) the idea of a Messiah is a person who will incite revolution against their oppressors (in this case the Roman Empire); but Jesus takes an entirely different path than what was expected of someone with that title. So maybe Judas was disillusioned, or he got spooked, or he thought that his actions could incite a man he admired into choosing a different course.

The Taking of Christ��(1602) by Caravaggio Whatever the reason, Judas' name remains synonymous with very concept of ‘betrayal,’ especially in regards to betraying a trusting friend/mentor/leader figure. So... yep. That fits.

Regarding the second point, Con more or less compared it to the circumstance of being incredibly lonely, then gaining a close friend only to subsequently watch them prefer to hang out with someone else. In this case, at least from Izzy's point of view, it almost turns the Judas metaphor on its head, making Blackbeard the Judas betrayer to Izzy’s… well, 'Jesus' in so many words. Guy does kinda have a bit of a god complex.

And that god complex has Izzy trying so very hard to be boss.

He’s an extremely capable person in many ways from what we’ve seen so far – an excellent swordsman, definitely knows his way around a ship, and practically the Head PR Representative to the Blackbeard brand (promoting Ed’s title and making excuses for his depressive states). But where Izzy falls short is a lack of strong leadership skills. They’re not bad so to speak, but the crew clearly hates him. He’s harsh, he makes people miserable, and if there’s any shred of kindness or compassion in him, he has to hide it. He puts up such a rough and tough front that many in the fandom interpret as a fear of inadequacy or an overblown sense of machoism (which amounts to the same thing). More than likely this is because life has taught him to behave that way. Israel Hands probably was raised in a world that forced him to either eat or be eaten. Which makes the second point even more loaded when taking into consideration just to whom Izzy is losing Blackbeard-

This guy.

Izzy a man of some learning, that much we can discern, but it’s highly doubtful that he grew up in a family of the same means as Stede Fuckin Bonnet.

Izzy has reached so high to the top as he thinks he can go - the right Hands and personal confidant of Captain Blackbeard himself, even having the privilege of addressing Blackbeard by his first name. Then comes along a ridiculous fop who not only manages to outsmart him on their first meeting but takes away his idol within only a few weeks of knowing him.

This soft-handed, smiling, upbeat ray of sunshine represents everything Izzy has been taught is weak and pitiful, and yet Izzy’s idol (and quite possibly the man he loves) is enamored with him.

In addition to all his faults, Stede Bonnet seems like a rich twat who’s gotten anything and everything he wants in life because of his privilege. He can literally afford to leave his cushy life and play dress up on a well-furnished ship. Izzy’s cruel reality is Stede’s deluded fantasy.

In short, rich-boy Stede Bonnet effortlessly gets everything that Izzy can never seem to reach, no matter how hard he tries or what strides he makes.   Not that any of this excuses Izzy's pettiness or betrayal by a long shot, but honestly who wouldn’t be driven bat-shit crazy by that? In any case, applause to the fandom's insights on this, and especially to Con O’Neill for being such a professional.   Slay, queen.

#ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #israel hands #con o'neill

[tetsunabouquet]

When Eyes Meet- Akashi Seijuro

Murasakibara - Aomine- Kuroko - Kise - Kagami - Midorima

For as long as mankind could remember, they had always had two names. One used by everyone, and one more intimate, special. The name of their soul. This was a name one would only share with their parents, perhaps a sibling or a friend as close as a sibling. But as long as people could remember having soul names, they could also remember the phenomenon that was Recognition. Recognition was when two people would lock their eyes, and somehow, they'd know the other's soul name. Recognition usually led to a lifelong romance. It was, as society dubbed it, 'the moment you knew you found your soulmate.' Many people had wondered how Recognition worked. There seemed no pattern, no rule. Some people Recognized upon first glance, others did after already knowing their partner for a while. Some even had known the person they Recognized since childhood. It just happened. However, special occasions were known to have a slight spike in Recognition rates, with everyone's spirits high in the air. This was why Rakuzan's hallways were filled with a thick sense of lovey dovey sweetness after winter break was over, several pairings having Recognized over holiday celebrations. Whilst you were happy for everyone, the amount of PDA was getting a little on your nerves. You sighed, being happy your best friend had already Recognized in middle school and that she had already grown past the most annoying stages of a budding romance. You spotted her talking to her boyfriend Kotaro in a corner of the campus grounds. You went up to them, needing the normalcy. "Please provide me a breath of non-sexually charged oxygen." You pleaded as you sat down next to her. She giggled and Kotaro grinned at you. "Is the tongue chumming getting to you?" You chuckled. "Absolutely." Kotaro was a surprising guy, despite his vast amount of energy and being a teenage boy, did value certain manners. Which is how he quickly learnt to control himself around your friend Haruna. They were like a warm, cosy fire bristling with warmth and laughter whenever you spotted them from afar. You always wondered if it would be like that for you too. You'd like to have a relationship like that. But just as you eased in their presence, the hairs on the back your neck raised themselves as they sensed someone familiar coming close. You could feel your organs freezing as you saw that familiar silhoutte. Akashi Seijuro. "Ah, L/n-san. There you are." You squeaked and turnt your attention to the prince of Rakuzan. Only to notice that A, his voice was a lot less menacing then usual and B, instead of the heterochromic stare you were used to, both his eyes were red this time. "Hi?" You replied hesitantly as Kotaro and Haruna left you in the ultimate betrayal. You watched them leave nervously. "Let me be straight forward with you. I apologize for having been so rude to you in earlier meetings. It was downright inappropriate to treat the friend of my teammate for me the way I treated you, so I am sorry." "EH? Who are you and what did you to Akashi?" He chuckled. "I suppose it would seem that way to you. It's a long story to explain, perhaps I could tell you someday." You blinked confused, as you tried to take in this new Akashi that had appeared before you. He seemed so calm and trangquil compared to before, you honestly felt yourself growing more at ease, letting down your guard. Which caused it to happen. An moment that seemed endless passed on, before Akashi offered you his arm. "It seems I missed out on quite some things because I wasn't in the right headspace. If you'd let me, I would love to explain it on a walk, Arori-tan." Your soulname sounded so beautiful rolling off of his tongue, that you accepted his offer without hesitation. "You have a lot of explaining to do, Arem." "I know, which is why I'll be buying you your lunch." You giggled at his smoothness and allowed him to lead you away.

#kuroko's basketball #knb #akashi seijuro #akashi #knb x reader #elfquest #soulmate #recognition

[justalildumpling]

chapter 33: you and me

wc: 2.3k

Red.

The colour that enveloped Donghyuck's brain causing him to fixate his attention towards the makeshift dance floor. 

For some reason, everything that had spiralled over the past few months didn't seem to matter to him anymore. From the possibility of you being the admirer or the way you had been ignoring him for the past few days, were all erased from his mind. In fact, the only thing that seemed to matter was your feelings as he witnessed the scene unfold in front of him.

You were all dressed up pretty in your sparkly white dress with a red solo cup in your hand watching your boyfriend's tongue down another girl's throat. You sat perched on the edge of the large leather couch emotionlessly, sipping on the cheap beer in the middle of the tacky coloured lights in the living room.

Donghyuck stood with his backpack hanging half hazardously over his shoulder, with his feet seemingly stuck in the hallway, a multitude of questions running in and out of his brain.

Why haven't you ripped them apart and slapped him in the face? Why haven't you run out crying yet? What in the world was going through your head?

And man, did that frustrate him. Frustrated that he could not for the life of him decipher your emotions; Hurt? Anger? Betrayal? But more so frustrated that Sunwoo had played with your feelings.

Donghyuck could feel the anger seething from the inside, how could he? The boy who had kissed her oh so lovingly at the same spot on the dance floor was now kissing some other girl without any care in the world.

You were so beautiful, so perfect in his eyes. So the fact that Sunwoo would leave you for another girl baffled him.

He should've confronted you about it from the start, he should've warned you when he had the chance, if he had stopped your relationship from happening then maybe you wouldn't have gotten hurt, maybe you would've been with him instead but he was too late, as he always was.

Donghyuck's hand tightened around the straps of his backpack, eyebrows furrowed as he stormed up behind you. He hastefully grabbed your arm, catching you off guard as you were pulled along by your wrist through the sea of grinding bodies in the living room.

"Wha- Donghyuck!"

Despite your protests and efforts to wiggling out of his grasp, you remained stuck to your best friend.

Though really, were you even surprised?

Throughout the seventeen years you've known Donghyuck, the one trait which stuck out to you the most was his godforsaken stubbornness. Though, you couldn't really complain as it was a trait you both shared.

You couldn't exactly tell whether it was a good or bad thing as this trait was the cause of most of your fights in your friendship. A big example being your exchange abroad, Donghyuck had whined and cried the weeks leading up to your flight, saying that he couldn't live without you and guilt tripped you every moment he had.

But on the other hand, it was the trait which arguably made your friendship the way it is today. With his persistent stubbornness of keeping in contact and FaceTiming everyday, you stayed closer than ever during your years abroad, which ultimately led to your decision to come home for the final years of university.

And now here you were, being dragged out of Sunwoo's house party and probably getting annihilated by whatever he had plotted in his brain.

In what felt like circles around the entirety of the party, Donghyuck eventually led you outside of the house. It was only then you realised how claustrophobic the atmosphere was as you took in the fresh scent of the blooming jacarandas by the side walk.

You stood and stared at the swaying tree branches for a short while, trying to ignore his intense stare at your figure and the stupid way it made your heart feel like it was going to explode.

It took you a few seconds to finally look into his eyes, and what you thought would be a greeting of his usual puppy-like eyes was met with a fiery gaze, fists clenched almost shaking.

Oh, you fucked up.

Was he that angry at you for ignoring him? Was this the end of your friendship forever? Did you need to get on your knees to beg for forgiveness by buying him ice cream for the next two months?

Maybe it was the suffocating silence which irked him or maybe it was the fact that you were acting completely fine after the ordeal which finally made Donghyuck break.

"Look, I led you outside because I was this close to punching the living hell out of Sunwoo."

You blinked a couple times, confusion overriding your panicked state, "Pudu, what the hell is going on?"

Donghyuck's gaze which was once intensely held at the front door, snapped to yours once again.

"Are you kidding me right now? Your boyfriend just kissed another girl in front of you!" He hissed, throwing his hands up in the air.

You shook your head in disbelief, "What on earth are you talking about? What boyfriend?"

"Sunwoo!"

Donghyuck's voice resonated down the empty streets and echoed in your mind. The two of you remained silent for a good minute, with only Donghyuck's heavy breathing filling the thick void.

It was then you felt a light giggle tickling in your throat, breaking the silence once again, "Pudu, he's not my boyfriend, it was a joke that was posted out of context."

Donghyuck stood dumbfounded, the tight grip on his backpack strap loosening before it fell to the concrete path with a thud. As your eyes met with his puzzled ones, the infectious laughter you tried holding back poured out of your lips.

“Why did he kiss you then?” His voice barely audible, cracking a few times, “Why did you let him?”

You weren’t exactly sure why you had let Sunwoo kiss you, maybe it was the alcohol that seeped into your system, maybe it was the heat of the moment or maybe it was because you felt like you owed something to him. Silence had tumbled into your conversation once again, your smile dropping as you failed to provide him with an exact reason.

“Talk to me Y/N, you can’t just do something like that and not explain it.” Donghyuck burst out, grabbing a fistful of his hair, "It's you isn't it?!"

You paused, lips wavering and eyes darting away from him to focus back on the dancing flower branches in the background.

"The letters, it was you wasn't it? I'm not going insane am I?" Donghyuck spoke again, almost desperately as his hands hovered over yours to hold.

This was it, this was the moment. The moment which could change your entire dynamic. You were stepping between the dangerous boundaries of your friendship, a place which you had protected and been terrified to confront for most of your life. 

Maybe it wasn’t too late to lie, to refute every evidence he provided to prove his point, to cackle and wave it off and gaslighting him, telling him he’s crazy and how you would never think of him in that light. 

But, you didn’t, you couldn’t. Not after everything you two had gone through the past few months, all the misunderstandings, the ignorance and the people who got tangled into your web of secrets.

"You're right." You uttered, your eyes hesitantly flickering back onto his, "It was me."

Donghyuck stood speechless for a moment, wondering if the words that you had just uttered were really true. But looking at the way you timidly stood with your fingers trembling in anticipation, he knew that it was indeed real.

“Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't think you felt the same way. You're my best friend, my platonic soulmate, someone I genuinely cannot live without, and the thought of losing you fucking scared me because…" You halted your words once again, taking a small breath in.

"Because, I love you Lee Donghyuck," You reached out to reciprocate his outstretched hand, "So much that it actually hurts."

He remained quiet, his stare softening at your touch before breaking into his pretty smile, pulling you into his arms by your wrist.

"Thank god," He muffled into your hair, tears threatening to form in the corner of his eyes as he melted into your embrace, "Thank fucking god."

Pulling away from your body, he tentatively cupped your face, bringing your faces closer. It was reminiscent of the day on the steps, the first time you had seen his face up close. The first time you noticed how his lashes fanned out so elegantly, how the tip of his nose turned upwards into the cute button you adored. 

But this time, it was his lips. It was the way he muttered “I love you” against your lips before closing the gap. The way it slotted perfectly against yours, moving in tune with one another, the way his grip on your waist hardened, tugging you closer to his broad figure as if he never wanted to let you go.

"I love you," he repeated, before pecking at the tip of your nose, "I love you so much."

Pure bliss was the only emotion you felt as he kissed you. With every lingering touch, every smile he embraced against your lips, all the doubts of him lying about his feelings faded.

It took a couple tries for you to pull away from his warmth, mostly due to Hyuck refusing to let you go. But knowing that both of you needed oxygen to live, he finally tipped his head back but his eyes never left yours. It was a moment he wanted to cherish for the rest of his life, from the way his confessions flowed out so naturally from his lips to the butterflies which tackled the walls of his chest. 

But it mostly was you, the way your eyes crinkled as your lips were etched into a smile, the way you looked oh so lovingly back at him and the way he knew that you were the one, the one who he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.

Donghyuck felt his heart flutter once again, the kaleidoscope of butterflies escaping his heart and into his stomach. God he had missed seeing your smiling face. He missed your presence, your strange jokes and just you. 

Everything felt almost perfect, you and him exchanging smiles and pleasantries once again, with all the misunderstandings cleared but one overarching question still remained unsolved.

“So what happened with Sunwoo?” He asked, unsure if he really wanted to know the answer to the question.

“Sunwoo told me he liked me,” You quietly stated, your breath shuttering, “Apparently he’s liked me for a while and he asked if he could kiss me so he could to move on.”

You recalled Sunwoo’s words on the dancefloor, the way he pulled you closer to his body with a foreign look of vulnerability in his eyes, the way his grip on your hands tightened as he confessed. 

But most of all, it was his kiss. 

You had witnessed Sunwoo kiss a variety of people in your life, though every time it always seemed to be the same. The same emotions of sexual tension and frustration, the way he gripped onto their shirts roughly and drawing back from them like nothing ever happened.

But for you it was different. It was like a sense of softness, an innocent feeling, no lingering emotions of lust or desperation. It was the way he moved against your lips cautiously, making sure you were okay with everything he was doing, if he was doing it properly, savouring every second until he pulled away with a sad smile, encouraging you to find your supposed other half.

As you began squeezing past the crowded dance floor to reach the hallway, you remembered turning to your best friend one last time, hoping that he would be happily dancing with an unfamiliar face, brushing off the way you had let him down, the way you had broken his heart a few moments back like he always did. 

But instead he stood silently in the midst of the drunken crowd, his eyes never leaving your figure with a smile on his face, not the usual flirty glint or the mischievous smirk he always wore but a genuine smile.

You could feel your tears prickling at the corners of your eyes, heart clutching up in your chest, “I thought that was the least I could do for hurting him.”

“But it doesn’t matter, cause it’ll never change the fact that I fucked up.”

A quiet sob escaped your lips as you covered your face with shaky hands, “I’m sorry Hyuck, I’m sorry for hurting you too, I’m sorry for all the misunderstanding that I caused the past few months, I’m sorry for everything.”

Within seconds you were back in Donghyuck’s arms again, with him softly patting the back of your head as you cried into his chest, “It’s okay love, I forgive you and I’m sure Sunwoo will too.”

The mention of Sunwoo’s name filled your heart with guilt, your eyes welling up in tears once again, “What if he doesn’t want to be friends with me anymore?”

Donghyuck shook his head, raising his hands to cup your face, catching the stray tears with his thumbs, “You trust me don't you?”

You dipped your head in response, with a teary attempt at a smile.

“Everything will be okay Y/N, you just need to talk to him.”

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pairing: haechan x fem! reader

synopsis: it’s no lie that haechan only started his college matchmaking business due to his nosy personality. it’s also no lie that he was a little jealous of everyone he had helped out as he had no love life of his own. well, that was until his childhood friend moved back and mysterious love notes started appearing in his matchmaking inbox… addressed to HIM?!

genre: social media au, college au, fluff, crack, one sided pining, best friends to lovers

warnings: swearing, mentions of alcohol

note: yeah... i think i went a bit too overboard with the word count when writing this but HAAHHAHA oops

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[andiwriteordie]

I know you like to write angst and fluff/whatever this will turn out to be, so I propose two options to choose from because I couldn’t decide:

1. An angst filled, heart-wrenching prompt in which Mike and Will have a fight (around the time of season 5) that parallels the rain fight, but when will leaves and Mike follows, Will is Vecna’d (bonus points if Mike says he hates him)

2. A fun, lighthearted prompt with the party at college together and Elumax and Byler engage in an April fools prank war to end all prank wars, which Dustin ultimately wins by pulling one on all of them.

It’s your choice! Whichever you’re feeling in the moment. Congrats on 1500! ❤️

hey piper! wtf was with that first prompt! why would you do that to me, huh? was that necessary? WAS IT?

(said by the woman who chose to write the first prompt instead of the second one.)

i did change a tiny part of the prompt, where it's mike who leaves this time instead of will, but otherwise, the premise is the same. and ouch ouch ouch i'm sorry for this one.

—

you went quiet, and i got mean

Mike can’t remember the last time he was this angry. 

Look… Mike knows that he’s an angry person. He’s prone to frustrated, snappy outbursts, and he’s got a bad reputation of being someone who speaks before he thinks. It’s easy for him to give into negative emotions like anger or to channel other negative emotions like sadness into anger.

Anger is something that gives the illusion of control, whereas sadness is its own beast—untameable, overwhelming, and terrifying. The feeling of anger projects itself outwards towards others, whereas sadness just… overtakes you. Anger is easier to deal with than sadness and guilt and betrayal are.

So, Mike is angry.

And he can’t remember the last time he was this angry.

His hands are trembling, clenched tightly around the stupid fucking painting that has been proudly hanging on Mike’s wall ever since it was gifted to him back in 1986. This stupid painting has traveled with him across the country in the back of Argyle’s pizza van, it’s lived with him for nearly two years in his childhood home, and it’s among one of the few things Mike had chosen to bring with him when the extended Party made the difficult decision to abandon their homes and begin using the lab as their base of operations.

This stupid fucking painting means way too fucking much to Mike, and that’s the only fucking reason he hasn’t ripped it into shreds right now.

God, he’s so fucking angry. He’s so angry, and his heart feels like one big gaping wound right now, torn open by the mortifying betrayal and humiliation caused by his best friend’s lies.

Will lied to him.

Will lied to him.

Will fucking lied to Mike.

He lied to Mike two years ago in that stupid pizza van, and he made up some bullshit story about the painting being from El and about El believing in his ability to lead the Party and about Mike’s importance to their friends. And sure, while maybe the romantic implications of those words had fizzled out once he and El broke up, Mike had still been able to hold on to the encouragement and the love that he’d felt from El’s belief in him. Maybe they weren’t meant to be boyfriend and girlfriend, but they were always meant to be friends.

And if El and the Party could believe in him, then… then maybe Mike could find the courage to keep leading them, no matter how inadequate he feels.

…

What a load of bullshit.

What a load of fucking bullshit, because El didn’t fucking commission this painting. El didn’t even realize Mike still had the painting, and she sure as hell had never seen it in her life. All those words Will had said about Mike “being the heart” and “guiding the Party” were nothing but a load of bullshit.

And Mike is angry.

…

Mike is hurt.

…

Mike is betrayed.

…

And Mike is humiliated.

But anger is the easiest emotion to deal with, so that’s exactly why Mike finds himself storming down the dimly lit hallways of Hawkins National Lab. He doesn’t even knock on Will’s door; instead, he opens it roughly, letting the door slam against the wall.

Will flinches sharply, looking up from the book he’s reading. A surprised but also confused expression forms on his face, and he narrows his eyes slightly. “Mike?” he asks. “What… what’s going on?”

“I need to talk to you,” Mike spits, barely able to keep his temper contained. “Now.”

The confusion on Will’s face grows. “Um… okay,” he says hesitantly, and he stands up, walking over to Mike. “Is… everything okay?”

A broken laugh escapes Mike’s lips. “‘Is everything okay?’” he echoes incredulously. “No, actually, everything isn’t okay, Will. Everything’s not fucking okay, because I… I just got done talking to El, and you know what? You want to know what El fucking told me?” 

A hurt look forms on Will’s face as Mike all but yells at him, and his eyes flicker to the painting in Mike’s hands. For a moment, a look of recognition flashes across his face, and Will’s eyes go wide. “Mike…”

“No.” Mike shakes his head. “No, don’t. Don’t you… don’t you dare do that, Will. Don’t you dare.”

Tears begin to well in Will’s eyes. “Mike, come on,” he pleads, his voice soft. “I’m sorry—”

“I said don’t, Will!” Mike shouts, and he shoves the painting into Will’s hands, pushing on Will’s chest, the way Will always does to Mike when they argue. “I don’t want your fucking apology, Will! No, I want you to look me in the eye and tell me why you lied to me!”

His voice cracks on those last few words, and God, Mike loathes it. He absolutely loathes the way there are tears stinging his own eyes and how there’s a lump in the back of his throat that just won’t go away. The fiery anger inside his chest spreads, but it’s not enough. It’s not enough to consume all the pain and betrayal and sadness brought on by Will’s lie.

“Mike,” Will whispers. He’s holding onto the painting with trembling hands, and he shakes his head. “I-I didn’t lie—”

“Bullshit!” Mike snaps, and he throws his hands up in the air. “That’s a load of bullshit, Will! You did! You lied to me—straight to my face! You told me El commissioned this stupid fucking painting, and… and you said all that bullshit about… about El needing me and about me… being the Party’s leader and heart… and all that shit. You lied to me, Will. You lied. And I. Want. To. Know. Why.”

Will flinches sharply, and though there are tears in Mike’s own eyes, it’s impossible to miss the way Will’s eyes fill with even more tears. He’s breathing a bit heavily, the way he does near the beginning of a panic attack, and fuck, something in the back of Mike’s mind yells at him to just stop, stop, stop, back up, apologize, don’t do this…

But Mike can’t.

Because Mike is so, so angry and so, so hurt.

God. Everything inside him hurts, and hot, salty tears sting Mike’s eyes as he and Will stand there in silence. 

Everything hurts, and Mike hates it.

So, he does the only thing he can do—the only thing that might make the pain stop.

He pours more gasoline on the fire of his anger, and he hopes that it burns away all the rest of his sadness and pain.

“So, what? Are you just going to stand there?” Mike snaps, his voice trembling. His conscience yells at him to stop. The pain yells at him to keep going. “Tell me, Will. Look me in the eye, and tell me why. Why did you lie to me? Why?”

Will blinks, and he forces himself to take a shuddered breath, holding that stupid painting close. “I can’t,” he whispers, and oh.

Oh, that’s just more gasoline on the fire.

“You can’t?” Mike echoes. “What’s that supposed to mean? You can’t tell me? Why not?”

“Mike,” Will pleads, his voice shaking. “Please… just… just trust me—”

“That’s the last thing you should be asking from me right now!” Mike snaps, clenching his fists at his side, and Will flinches, a broken look forming on his face. “You lied to me, Will, and you want me to trust you? How am I ever supposed to trust you, when you can’t even tell me why you lied?”

Once again, Will just goes quiet, and he shakes his head slightly. His hands are still clenched around that painting, and he takes a slow, deep breath—in and out. In and out.

“I’m sorry,” Will finally says, looking Mike in the eye now. His voice is still trembling, but it sounds like his mind is made up. “I’m sorry I lied to you. But I… I can’t tell you why I lied, Mike. I just can’t.”

The fire spreads inside Mike’s chest, and that lump in the back of his throat grows. For a moment, the two of them stare at each other, standing on the precipice of something that could change everything forever.

This is Mike’s last chance to turn back—to walk away from the edge and to let it go, lest he do something that he regrets.

But his heart aches, worse than it ever has before. And Will’s words—his inability to tell Mike the truth even now as he’s confronted with his own lies—feel like salt rubbed into the wound.

Mike takes the step off the edge.

“I’ll never forgive you for this,” Mike whispers, and he watches as Will’s face crumples as much as the stupid painting in his hand does. “I’m never going to forgive you for this.”

Will swallows the lump in his throat, and he holds the painting tighter, looking down. “Okay,” he whispers, his voice full of resignation. “... Okay.”

Somehow, that response hurts even more, and Mike blinks back the tears in his own eyes. The anger in his heart still burns, but it’s not enough. Nothing is enough to overtake the ache in his heart, and it fucking sucks, because all Mike wants is Will’s honesty.

The only thing that would fix this is the one thing his best friend isn’t willing to give him.

So, without another word, Mike turns and leaves the room, walking briskly down the hallway. He brushes past Jonathan, who gives him a skeptical look that Mike very pointedly chooses to ignore. He’s not in the mood for this bullshit right now, and he doesn’t want to answer anyone’s nosy questions. Right now, all Mike wants is to be alone.

Mike’s  just about to enter his own room when a yell echoes throughout the hallway.

“WILL!”

And Mike’s blood runs cold.

There’s absolutely no hesitation; it’s as if the last ten minutes never happened. Mike turns away from his door, and he sprints down the hallway back towards Will’s room and towards the sound of Jonathan’s frantic shouts.

Shit, shit, shit, shit—

By the time Mike reaches Will’s room, a few others have already crowded around the doorway in an attempt to see what’s going on. He shoves past them, right into Will’s room, and immediately, Mike’s broken, wounded heart drops to the bottom of his stomach.

Because there, frozen in a trance and standing in the middle of his bedroom with his eyes clouded over, is Will Byers.

#andi's asks #byler #byler ficlet #this was mean. #this was so so mean #i wanna keep writing it. #HELP #listen if the painting fight is even a fraction of this level of anger i'm gonna shrivel into a ball and just die

[soppingwetguywife]

you know what boggles my mind about these takes on guillermo and his great big betrayal this season? it's the fact that some people have managed to so thoroughly divorce this arc from what happened last season as if the two don't correlate. as if the fact that nandor betrayed guillermo first and in one of the worst ways he could think of has nothing to do with where they are now

okay so there are Four of these and they're all SO correct so im gonna put all of them and my thoughts under the cut (yeah i know nobody comes to my blog for Hot WWDITS Takes (or.... for anything) but this whole situation has me pressed okay) thank you so much anon i NEED to talk about this

"and i don't mean that in the way that some have meant it in a guillermo is doing this for revenge type of way but just that freddie was his last straw but instead of leaving like he would have before he decided to stay on his own terms. he decided that for once fuck what nandor wants, he'll do what he wants instead. guillermo literally started of season 4 saying he was looking out for number one and then he didn't for MONTHS but sure he's a monster for following up on his promise to himself" "and freddie isn't just some isolated incident that doesn't have any context. take this from guillermo's pov, he spent weeks (maybe months? unclear on timeline here) preparing a wedding, being asked to do impossible shit but somehow coming through and his reward was that one moment of nandor admitting he cares for him by calling him his best man (we know he meant best friend so did memo i'm sure) and then nandor had to take that away." "'cause just so we're clear best friends don't fuck your boyfriend. there might have been some extra steps there but ultimately that is what nandor did and he didn't think to stop for a second why he was doing it, if it would hurt guillermo, just nothing. so guillermo i think was back to square one, nothing has changed nandor can be kind for one second and do something so blindingly selfish and cruel the next and this fandom really expected him to lie down and take it"

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN!!! YOU GET IT ANON!

so, i must start with this. every season, almost always, continues in a sort of vacuum. not so much that there's no continuity, because there usually is! so let's just follow guillermo, because there's a point i want to make here.

S1- guillermo learns he is a slayer. S2- guillermo reveals he has spent the past summer killing vampires to keep the house safe, which leads into the finale; guillermo goes and rescues the vampires from the theatre in a Beautiful display of murder. S3- guillermo is trapped in a cage, because of that Beautiful display of murder, which leads into the finale; guillermo agrees to go away with nandor on a world trip and eventual turning (this goes wrong, which leads to) S4- guillermo finally returns from being stuck in england, a year AFTER the end of s3, which leads into the finale; guillermo goes to derek to be turned.

NOW. let's assess where the VAMPIRES start and finish throughout the seasons.

and the answer to that is; exactly where they fucking started. because s4 was right. nothing changes. colin robinson dies and is reborn and grows and in the end, he's exactly where he started. nadja grows and learns and tries to forge an identity for herself, and then she fails, and she's exactly where she started. laszlo... okay, laszlo's just along for the ride. and he LIKES where he started. nandor started as a neurotic, cool-hearted washed-up-warlord who tries to be strong, passionate, the leader that everyone looks up to. he doesn't seem to notice nobody looks up to him except guillermo, because duh, why would he notice guillermo? and every season, we're right back to where we started. we see them grow closer, and then we see them ripped apart! and every new season, we're back to joking at his expense. the only notable difference this season is that nandor sort of HAS grown more tolerant of him, a building through-line that we have only seen through guillermo, the only character that changes enough for a bond to be formed rather than assumed (ie; the foot locker, the self-help book, the being insanely jealous that laszlo is spending his time with him) (as opposed to his friendship with the vampires, one that has always been sort of assumed except for with colin robinson, something that s5e6 pretty thoroughly shattered)

this season, we are seeing the inevitability of five seasons and nearly fourteen years of guillermo assuring himself that he would get what he wanted, that he hadn't given up his family and his job and his emotions and the parts of his brain that are... well, human, for nothing. he has been promised and promised and promised that this is the time, this is when the time is right, just TRUST in the inevitability of change in a house full of people that never change and never want to. he has been growing and changing every season, growing stronger, more confident, more capable, unlike the vampires.

but because guillermo is the butt of the joke, because he HAS to be, right? because he has to always be the one that suffers (learning his bloodline kills the very thing he loves, being LOCKED UP for PROTECTING the very thing he loves, being locked in a COFFIN just when he was going to get it, and FINALLY being turned only to be turned wrong and in the most horrible, ugly way???? (well, for him, for me it was a visual treat, love me a man covered in blood)) it turns out that there's this cute little rule! one that we've never seen before (though there is some hinting toward this, i suppose, in the case of celeste, right? she never poached, only took unattached familiars. did she know? we'll never find out, i don't think!) and now the thing he loves (person he loves the most) will be his end, because of course it is, right? and of course he definitely deserves it, right? because he's the butt of the joke, the silly little human who dared to make his OWN life better rather than waiting for a day that was so clearly never gonna come unless he held them at stakepoint or he did.... exactly what he did.

nandor is the deciding factor. and from what we've seen of him for the past five seasons, he's gonna bluster and threaten and probably challenge him to a fight to the death or something stupid like that, but it's not like he has any real bite anymore anyway? but he's NEVER gonna let this go, i don't think, which is INSANE considering how much guillermo has been letting slide for YEARS in terms of his behavior.

if nandor wanted to do it himself, he should have considered 'why the hell would guillermo EVER be late to the one thing he's been telling me for years that he always wanted?'

instead we see in s4e1 that he BLAMES guillermo for leaving him, and refuses to hear anything to the contrary. and again in s5e5, he blames guillermo for not being there for them, and refuses to hear anything to the contrary. to him, the human will always be at fault, and he will always be their better, and it is going to take guillermo not BEING a human anymore to shake that out of him.

from there, it's all up to him, really! (we have to also account for the classic wwdits 'yeah they're all just idiots, they'll be totally fine with it and they'll be back to being besties by s6e2' because i have little faith in any sort of emotional continuity after every season's constant stunting of everyone's Almost-Emotional-Growth)

i genuinely do not know if this made any sense. but i wanted to talk about how the way we've watched guillermo grow and take responsibility for himself makes it so clear that he SHOULDN'T just sit down and take it, even though he seems very much like he's more than willing to. i'm not gonna touch the whole virginity and slut-shaming metaphors, because i do NOT feel qualified to discuss them, and better people have done it (though i do think a lot of them are biased toward nandor rather than guillermo) but i just think that in the lines of continuity, this was EXPECTED, and it being treated like a season-long punchline isn't particularly fair to guillermo! which is the point of the show, and the counter-point of this rant!

guillermo deserves better, he got it, and now they just have to let him HAVE it.

#wwdits meta #wwdits s5 spoilers #guillermo de la cruz #long post #wwdits rant #idk its sort of a rant #it's not NEGATIVE though i guess i can see the ways in which it might be taken that way #its more critical i guess #i'm not gonna tag it as a ship thing because it's really more a meditation on guillermo's place in the plot #thank you for the ask anon your words inspired utter insanity in my brain #anyway it's almost midnight! time to go to bed for me #if people wanna be mad abt this post pls keep it to urself or i guess send me an ask ill check it in the morning

[clazcy]

:3c

back on my system thing. we are going to elaborate on that. i only have 30 minutes so i'm speeding.

relationships part i

tyler-blurry

they hate each other. hate is a strong word. they're misguided. blurry being born from the bishops only knows how to act like they do. tyler has hope. blurry does not.

blurry's ultimate goal is to take down his/the collective's lucidity. he wants to make it easier when nico has him in his grasp. he regularly tries to kill tyler & himself, but he doesn't get enough control often to fully sabotage anything that would actually lead to their death.

they don't have compassion for each other, since blurry reminds tyler of nico & tyler is a threat to blurry's plans. over time (re. after clancy shows up) they learn to tolerate each other.

(this is all pre clancy so when that comes out i'll update)

tyler-clancy

tyler & clancy don't like each other because clancy tries too hard to be in control & enact anger on people outside of them. clancy doesn't really have hope either (at least at first) but they take it out on everybody else rather than themselves, so tyler is forced to try to control them. his solution is to leave them with blurry & let them kill him. uh oh...

clancy-blurry

this is the best one :) blurry came before clancy & is only focused on the seizings. clancy is the first (& probably only) one to show him compassion or whatever (because he 'understands' him but also has greater plans after trench happens + vaguely agrees with his point) so. he immediately gets attached. of course he'll try to be codependent for a long time but clancy is not open enough to let that happen at all. it feels like betrayal to blurry, who takes it out on himself & tyler.

tyler is mad that it's worse. that's one of the reasons he doesn't like clancy, especially after trying to banish them. unfortunate news for tyler, this only really gives clancy more power, which is how they take control.

clancy continues to dislike blurry but use him for help. they aren't friends, but they get closer. (then to me they fall in lo) (gets shot) (but that's very unnecessary for the Headcanon)

so they tolerate each other, tyler hates both of them, now has to fight 2 people retraumatizing him. then the album clancy happens & i don't know how it goes

#twenty øne piløts #twenty one pilots #clancy #tøp7 #tyler #blurryface #headcanons #system from me (old) #funny how i can just use my memories as headcanons... i'm so real for that #not epilepsy #they/them clancy real get over it #memories

[stwaidwen]

HIIII im new to this sideblog so i actually dont know ANY of ur ocs yet!!!! do u have a crash course for them pretty please

I should REALLY have an OC page oh my god. Absolutely tho! Putting it under a read more bc it's so hefty.

BG3

Serendipity, or Sera for short, is a tiefling druid about to turn 30 during the events of the game. In my setting, there's a hidden city in the desert outside of Faerûn called "Gate" which functions as the 0th circle of hell. Tieflings in this city are subjugated and oppressed by higher and more powerful devils. Sera's parents conspired for almost a decade to orchestrate their family's escape, and when she and her twin brother (Ty, short for Unity) were 15, Sera's family finally managed it. They have been functionally on the run through Faerûn ever since, alternating between living in the wilderness and stopping in large cities, where her father taught her the basics of druidic magic, being a druid himself. Sera and her brother are best friends, and for a significant part of their lives, were incredibly co-dependent. They would go everywhere together, and Ty went through a period when they were still living in Gate where he couldn't sleep unless they were sharing a bed. When they hit about 22, Ty had reached a point where his mother had imparted all her skills as a rogue, and as Ty's affinity lay more with ranger-focused abilities, he decided to leave home, and join the Harpers. Sera initially took the decision very badly, but came round to the idea, and she gave him one hell of a send-off. The space enabled both of them to grow and develop, and to discover who they were without the other. They remained incredibly close, writing to each other regularly and aiming to meet up once every couple of months. Sera's parents eventually moved to Waterdeep, because the large city held great opportunities for them, both as a diplomat and assassin respectively. Sera decided to stay in Baldur's Gate, in a small house-share in Rivington. She enjoyed her life there immensely, but the wilds continued to call to her, and when she got picked up by the Nautiloid, she was on her way to the Emerald Grove, eager to continue her druid training. Sera is autistic, wears her heart on her sleeve and has a very strong sense of self. She is confident, passionate, and makes a great effort to choose kindness wherever possible. She can also sometimes be very immature, after essentially having her childhood stolen from her. She relishes in causing mischief, has very little regard for authority and has absolutely no qualms about speaking her mind, even - or especially - when it is likely to cause trouble. Whilst on the run, her family evaded capture because they relied on the goodwill of strangers to not give them up, and as such, she values allies more than anything in the world, and considers turning on your allies to be the ultimate betrayal. After a somewhat rocky start, Astarion grows to love her deeply, even if her penchant for altruism gets on his nerves. She teaches him that world is not inherently cruel, and he teaches her that being selfish sometimes is okay. She eventually proposes to him and they are married under the full moon. Her main party is Gale, Shadowheart and Astarion.

(Dark Urge spoilers ahead)

Aviv is my Dark Urge Paladin. When she wakes up on the nautiloid with no memories, covered in scars she doesn't have any context for, Aviv is absolutely terrified. She focuses on getting off the ship, and greatly appreciates Lae'zel taking the lead. When she wakes up on the beach, still with nothing, she frantically searches her pack for something; anything. This is when she finds the written oath she swore as a Paladin. She recites it over and over, until she feels a little less alone. This becomes something she does regularly over the course of their adventures. It becomes something to cling to. A fraction of a life lost. When she does finally remember who she was, it went a little like this: Aviv was the head of the cult of Bhaal in Baldur's Gate. She was revered and worshipped, trusted with only the most secret of missions and marks. She also despised most of the ritual and ceremony, because she believed it childish, tacky and unnecessary to venerate her father, but Bhaal's followers needed performance. However, she was not a wholly willing participant. Bhaal's hold over her was incredibly strong, but wavered, and during these periods of clarity, Aviv would attempt escape. It was during one of these spells that she found her way to an order of Paladins and swore an oath of vengeance, so that she could at least attempt, on some level, to combat some of the evil she was putting into the world. She was also, during this time, tasked with infiltrating the high society of Baldur's Gate and spreading terror amongst its members with some very strategic murders. This is where she met Enver Gortash. Their attraction to each other was instant, though Aviv made him work hard to woo her. He came to accept that she would often disappear for a month or so, and then return. He did not ask for an explanation, and she did not offer one. He was furious after Orin attacked her and left her for dead, and elated when he discovered she still lived. When Aviv finally battles Orin in the temple of Bhaal, she rejects him, willingly accepting her death. But Jergal has other plans, and she rises anew, free of her father's chains. Aviv is mostly very gentle and soft spoken, and people often underestimate her, or outright dismiss her as an opponent because of her quiet demeanor. She uses this to her advantage, particularly in high society politics - Enver always affectionately referred to her as a viper - but this is largely a performance, and on the battlefield, she transforms into an unstoppable, unforgiving force. During Act I and Act II, her friendship with Gale develops into a romance and by the time the party reaches Moonrise Towers, they are hopelessly in love. Act III however, complicates things. Gale's desire to pursue godhood, and Aviv's past catching up to her at the speed of a freight train both put extraordinary tension on their blossoming relationship, and I still haven't decided if they will stay together or not. Her main party is Gale, Lae'zel and Karlach.

Pillars of Eternity

Shachar is an 70-year-old (about 35 in human years) elf rogue from Old Vailia, who sought to rebel against a tyrannical ruler that held her state under martial law. The rebellion was crushed and she barely escaped with her life, fleeing through Aedyr to the Dyrwood for safety. Initially she thinks becoming a Watcher is awful, and she spends half the first game desperate to cure herself and return to her old life, but by the end, she's much more at peace with herself. In the intervening five years between 1 and Deadfire, she's very happy at Caed Nua, and thrives as leader of the new settlement. She's sarcastic, happy-go-lucky, and does not suffer fools. She doesn't enjoy violence but will not hesitate to take life ruthlessly to ensure her and her friends' survival. Very early on, she develops a deep, romantic attraction towards Edér, but does not act on it, and does not tell anyone about it. Her best friend is Hiravias, as both of them have a very similar sense of humour and outlook. During Deadfire, she's even quicker to temper, furious with every God, and absolutely HATES boats. She very quickly makes an enemy of the Royal Deadfire Company, and Maia is only on her ship for a month or two before Shachar demands that she leave. She and Tekēhu form an intense bond, and in the moment they meet, are absolutely perfect for each other. They share a bed, and their burdens, and believe the other to be a soulmate, but are very content to go their separate ways at the end of the game, their time together and needing each other now at an end. It is only by watching her and Tekēhu together that Edér realises he's in love with Shachar, and upon hearing they have split up, makes his move on the way back to the Dyrwood. Her main party in game 1 is Aloth, Edér, Pallegina, Hiravias and Sagani, and game 2 is Aloth, Edér, Tekēhu and Xoti.

Ziva is a human priest of Eothas, who was a slave in the Deadfire Archipelago as a child and freed by the Children of the Dawnstar. She is VERY young, barely pushing 20 at the start of the first game, and really struggles with the expectation and pressure put upon her by becoming a Watcher. Edér steps into the role of big brother, which helps him heal from his conflict with his own older brother. Aloth as well, and Iselmyr especially, also step into a role as her protector, and by the end of the first game she has really grown into a confident young woman. She is deeply religious, and still takes time to pray to Eothas every day at dawn, even though it could get her killed. The second game is very complicated for her, and a lot of the confidence she found in the first game is stripped away, as she is essentially forced to go back to the place where she was enslaved. She finds a very close friend in Serafen, however, and he always finds ways to make her laugh. She is very quiet and soft spoken, is very squeamish and has a strong affinity for dogs. Her main party in game 1 is Aloth, Edér, Grieving Mother, Kana Rua and Sagani, and game 2 is Aloth, Edér, Serafen and Tekēhu.

D&D

(art by my fabulous bestie @glamfellens)

Nina Riordan is my current main character. She is a human artificer, homebrewed subclass, in her early 30s. In our setting, all magic use has to be registered and practiced with the permission of The Dimensional Eye (or just The Eye), including healing, which means many common folk could not afford those services. In the small town where Nina and her husband lived, she defied the eye by recreating magical healing with both science and herbal medicine, and this pissed a lot of people off. One day when she was collecting herbs in the woods, the Eye killed her husband and burned down her cottage and she's been on the run ever since. She made her way to a city called Fortune's Cove, where she ended up apprenticing under a famed artificer, Slim Chance the tiefling. After about two years, they had a very amicable parting (and keep in regular contact) whilst Nina moved on. She made her way to Okovo Bay, the biggest city in the region, and set up a small, free underground medical clinic in the poorest district of town, living off of donations and bartering for favours. We've just finished up the first arc of our campaign, and her clinic has grown into a small community centre and soup kitchen as well as a medical clinic, but Nina has drawn too much attention and now has to make the decision between taking a stand and systematically dismantling the Eye, or leaving the party and going on the run again. She's fiery, blunt, pragmatic, scarily intelligent and often very vindictive. At the moment she's at the start of a long, bloody path of vengeance that she has the arrogance to believe is not going to corrupt her, and will also not fix the aching void of grief inside her, no matter how much she hopes it will. Her greatest fear is that her husband is still alive, that the body she saw was not actually his, and that they will reunite but he will reject her. She would rather be dead than alive in a world where he is also alive but not with her.

Fallout New Vegas

Ari Schultz is a Jewish woman who is trying desperately to reconcile her faith in the face of being born into the post apocalypse. She believes firmly in the power of community and will not hesitate to remove anyone who threatens that, be it raiders, Legion slavers or Mr House himself. She helps as many people as she can in the wasteland, in return for a little food, a good story, and if possible, a place to sleep. She gets on really well with Veronica and Raul in particular, and her and Boone eventually start a romantic relationship, as Ari's explicitly Jewish outlook helps him overcome a lot of his guilt for Bitter Springs and forge a path forward, but this relationship is very slow burn, and takes about 3/4 of the game to come to fruition. Her chosen weapon is a baseball bat, and she takes great pleasure in bladdering people with it, and spends a lot of time maintenancing it. She's a fantastic cook, especially around a desert campfire, but doesn't really trust or use technology. She spares Benny, saves him from the Legion, and invites him to come and help her run the Strip post-game because she has no idea how to run a business, and they eventually become very close friends. She chooses the independent route and invites the Followers of the Apocalypse to set up inside the Strip in the old NCR base. She and Boone move into the Lucky 38, and she sets up a Synagogue in Freeside. Alas, I don't have any screenshots of her.

#my ocs #wow this was a lot of typing THANK U

[tanoraqui]

Your what if fics are so so good. I reread them often. I love the entire worlds you make out of a question

-@outofangband

Thank you! I love For Want Of A Nail AUs so much, ie, change one thing and see what spirals out. They’re such a good time for exploring the consequences in a story, the what-leads-to-what, and for examining the characters—what about them is fundamental to the character, and what is shaped by circumstance? What is part of them as characterization, and what is part of them as narrative function? What plot points will they always do because of who they are as a (fictional) person; what will they always do—or not do, in an au!—because to not do so would be to completely change their narrative/thematic place? What major plot points must happen, but it would ring differently if a different character did them? How would a certain plot point not happening change the events and the themes of the story? 

Eventually you start to realize that every story is an elaborately branching tree starting from the first words, potential paths of divergence in every character, every choice, every scene…and it’s so fun to explore what’s down a different path!

Also, when writing them out, I’m always picking and choosing the most interesting paths—which is a good writing technique in general. For instance, in last night’s oh-god-I-accidentally-wrote-4k Fëanor-Fingolfin Mom/Birth Order Swap…a small example is I faced the choice of, which son of Fëanor Curufinwë should Finrod be assigned Best Friends From Birth? (Taking “Finrod gets a parentally-assigned Best Friend From Birth as a staple of any timeline, not bc it’s thematic so much as bc it’s fun, but adjusting to the fact that Fëanor and Finarfin are the full-brothers in this au, and Fingolfin is Miriel’s son who hates the existence of all his half-siblings). By my personal timeline of Finwëan births, moving the House of Fëanor forward to start at Fingolfin’s birth but leaving Finarfin as-if puts Finrod between Celegorm and Caranthir, so those were my choices. Celegorm would make fun (painful) cross-timeline echoes of What Could Have Been re: What Happened In Nargothrond, and potential future-in-this-au interesting divergence or even greater betrayal…but, especially with the limited timeframe I was writing, I decided that was less good than the raw humor of the grumpiest and friendliest Finwëans being best friends. So, Caranthir is it!

(Also, obligatory reminder that Caranthir was diplomatically skilled enough to have a thriving, very profitable trade network, and the real result of a Caranthir-Finrod friendship would be a friendly, all-consuming trade empire spanning continents.)

A more notable choice, for The Argument: I actually do lean toward the position that it’s a fundamental part of Fëanor’s characterization that he’d be the one to say, “fuck this, let’s go somewhere else!” Plus I’ve established Arakáno as so firmly settled in Tirion…but that’s why I chose to flip it, because, frankly, if Curufinwë son of Indis started agitating to leave Aman, sure there’d be a fight, but I think ultimately it’d shake out to Arakáno son of Miriel being like, “Great! Good riddance! Here’s your stuff, here’s your boats I negotiated Olwë—look, Father, I’m helping. Have fun in Middle Earth! Never come back!” Not many people would go with him, even for the Silmarils, and Melkor would have them ambushed and the gems stolen the second they set foot in Beleriand, and it just wouldn’t be as interesting a story.

…Or maybe there is potential there! But the other chief problem is: the Story has then moved to Beleriand and Arakáno himself is no longer in it, and THAT fundamentally doesn’t work bc the real trick to this au, the reason I wasn’t sure it would work and frankly I’m still not sure it’d work long-term, is that the protagonist has changed. When I saw canon!Fëanor, Miriel’s son, has a literal excess of fëa energy, what I’m really doing is creating an in-world mechanism to express his role as Protagonist. Or, as Driver of the Story? Let’s use them interchangeably. Fëanor is a well-built character, so his personality and his actions and his narrative function all tie together—he makes hot-tempered decisions at key moments! He creates world-changing gems! He rouses crowds to follow him! He drives the story, and he drives it so hard that it’s driven in the direction he sets for the rest of the First Age, and for the rest of Arda that we know! (Aragorn heir of Isildur heir of Elros, whose childhood was utterly shaped by the Oath and those who followed it! The One Ring made to master the Nine, Seven, and Three, made by “Annatar” and the Gwaith-y-Mirdain because Celebrimbor chose not to say “Get thee gone” to the Maia at his door! The star-glass!)

So, what is characterization and what is narrative function? I posited: the hot temper and creative genius are fundamental characterization, but without the semi-literal Protagonist Energy, the temper is a little calmer, or at least less enduring, and less able to sway others, and the creative genius…will lead him exactly down Miriel’s road. For Fingolfin, I posited: even with extra fire in his soul, he will always be the second to lose his temper, and the one to set his feet and his people and say, “Here I stand and defend.” But I also posit: Miriel’s child, born Marred, born Too Much, feeling abandoned and robbed so early, will never be content in Valinor! And isn’t it neat to dwell on how even canon!Fëanor had so many reasons to be aligned with the Valar? (Studying in Aulë’s halls and marrying Aulendil’s daughter; one of his sons is favored by Oromë; Varda herself hallowed his greatest work…)

But after the Darkening we get to the Oath, that greatest of plot-drivers, and okay, that should really be a Protagonist thing even though the total lack of forethought is very Fëanor… I can see Curufinwë collapsed with the theft of the Silmarils, maybe even expiring (last breath, exactly a la Miriel) in Arakáno’s arms, and then the news comes about Finwë… Arakáno reacts to all of this Completely Normally, by which I mean fire, wrath, and Oaths… (though I’m not sure which sons would swear with him, and also, the wording and sentiment would be a little different, and that all matters…) They still steal the ships and kill for them, of course they do; nobody wants to cross the Ice if there’s another option and the Teleri would always fight back. Doom, fear of betrayal and theft once more of ships…

BUT THEN, even if Arakáno did burn the ships behind him, I think it IS a fundamental character aspect that, where Fëanor leaps from fiery rash decision to fiery rash decision (Alqualdondë! Losgar! Charging Balrogs!), Fingolfin makes 1 notable Terrible Idea then grits his teeth and carefully, strategically follows the fuck through (Ice, Siege)…until he EVENTUALLY hits a This Isn’t Working despair threshold, snaps, and charges Morgoth singlehandedly… In short: I don’t think Arakáno son of Miriel would get himself killed 3 days after reaching Beleriand? Which changes…everything, bc then you still have your Protagonist around, driving the plot in person rather than with the ghost of him, and idk what to do with that bc I think practically he’d do much the same as Fingolfin in canon but that doesn’t feel enough, and…

Thus, I stopped the story where I did. Also because it was 5am.

#my fic #outofangband #i have no idea if the fic i just ranted about here is the one you were thinking of when you sent this #but please enjoy this brief ramble on character exploration and story structure #and how i write aus #plus speculation on what would've happened next in aforementioned au #ha ha can you IMAGINE the level of Coping Completely Fine With This any au's child of miriel would have #to watch their much-despised younger sibling expire just the same way in their arms just after awkward spiteful but also true reconciliation #or maybe curufinwe doesn't fully expire he just passes out and can't be woken!! yeah we know how THAT story goes #same difference!!! #fire and wrath and Oaths that shape the path of history #the silmarillion #writing #ficlet #feanor and feanor’s kin #...for the record if he DID die early in beleriand i'm p sure fingon would give the crown to just-led-his-people-across-the-ice!maedhros

[odrseasonone]

DMITREI MASSARD / ALYMAR MERIET

I look at you and all I see is a dead man.

THE BASICS: 

Character’s name: Dmitrei Massard (Born: Alymar Meriet)

Physical description: Aidan Gillen

Age: 42

MBTI: INTJ - The Architect

PLOT POINTS:

1.01: Introduced via council scenes

1.03: Council gossips about Alex and DMITREI or CASSIUS reply that he isn’t going to raimbeaucourt to rule, he’s going there to die - and ALEXANDIR knows it. Highlight ALARIC vs DMITREI anti-parallels subplot throughout (ex. both are excellent lords, but ALARIC clearly cares and knows everyone personally whereas DMITREI does not, etc)

1.05: Advises Avelina against becoming a sorceress

2.02: Jon is murdered

2.03: We learn the truth about #teambeaumont

3.02: Dmitrei orders Vincent to befriend dragon riders and Dmitrei reveals to Rowena where the Degreys are

3.03: DMITREI presents himself as a friend to the S RESISTANCE (and never reveals his connection to VINCENT)

3.04: DMITREI leaves #teambeaumont in favor of ROWENA

3.05: #BRITTAdead - after all, she knows both DMITREI and ALYMAR…and recognizes the difference when she arrives in the east

3.06: DMITREI tells ROWENA of LYNESSA’s betrayal just before she annihilates the south, so she goes east instead. DMITREI takes credit for saving the south w the S RESISTANCE

3.08: LYNESSA is put to death. as the executioner raises his axe/sword to behead LYNESSA, we cut to DMITREI - at the moment her head comes off, he smirks - end of scene/ep?

4.04: ROWENA has DMITREI “leak” info to lead THE RESISTANCE into a trap

additional plots:

DMITREI fineds out about CELIA and EVIE before the escape is through - and does nothing to stop them

I think Dmitrei will also plan for Cordelia to overhear some convo between Arthur and Avelina where she accuses Arthur of murdering his parents and so Cordelia will have that going on and be even more likely to listen to Dmitrei who may even go out west with her to give her council (aka rule in the west)

dmitrei becomes warden of the east after arthur

dmitrei - disappears ‘who is alymar now?’

TRAJECTORY:

Overall Arc: The Fly on the Wall to the Man with a Plan to the Nameless Man Becoming Nameless Again

Season 1 Arc (Step 1 of 4): Season 1 Dmitrei is largely undeveloped, purposefully. He seems the most rational of Rowena's advisors (Alex aside) and he does seem to advise Avelina ... but lord knows girl needs it

Season 2 Arc (Step 2 of 4): Dmitrei's biggest plan yet has gone into action and it is revealed that he was the mastermind behind the wedding/most of teambeaumont's plans

Season 3 Arc (Step 3 of 4): Not only is Dmitrei a schemer and a murderer, he's a disloyal one, too. Dmtirei proves he's willing to shift his loyalties (and his plans) to whatever best currently suits his needs

Season 4 Arc (Step 4 of 4): Ultimately Dmitrei saddles himself to the wrong horse and Rowena and Dezod are both defeated. Dmitrei lives to die another day, but in a weird way, he's pleased b/c he wasn't betting on the resistance pulling this off and he does like being surprised (it doesn't happen often); Dmitrei survives (or does he?) and no one quite knows what becomes of him

ENGINE OF CHANGE:

Internal goal/desire: To Be King (not because he wants that job, but in this world where everyone is playing the game of thrones, he wants to throw his hat in the ring and see how far he can climb! It's not the destination for him, it is the journey)

Why can’t they get it? At the start of this journey, he is the son of a disgraced lord who betrayed his country and lost his title and lands, leaving dmitrei with nOTHING and he couldn't have been farther from his goal. When he meet him, he's made progress and now sits the Queen's own council, but he's still a far cry away from being king, himself.

What are they afraid of: Failure! Dmitrei is honestly not afraid of much, but failure is the closest thing. I think he would hate to discover he's not as smart as he thinks he is? But at the same time, if he had just been played all along, there would be some kind of satisfaction in that for him, too?? Like I think he lowkey has been wanting to find his match in this world and the greatest joy would be to outsmart them, but second to that, it would almost be to be outsmarted himself??? idk he's a weird guy!! He doesn't fear death; he doesn't fear pain; he doesn't fear loss (even for those few people he has some resemblance of affection left click clacking around in what I guess would be his heart!)

How character views the world: A chess board!!! He views everything he (and everyone else) does as a strategic move tbh

How character views self: He's definitely arrogant when it comes to himself -- he's smart, efficient, charming, and knows exactly when it benefits him to speak and when to listen.

INTERNAL: THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER

Inner motivation: Proving himself!!! HE knows that he's the greatest, but no one in Aragoth knows this (yet) and one day he will have his story told

Kryptonite: his literal name!!! and tbh, he knows it!! It has always been a liability, since he literally stole it from a dead man easily three times his age, and sooner or later, there may come a day when someone from the south finds out who he is and just might expose him!!! Taking Dmitrei's name meant he got his job/connections, but there was also great risk involved in it, too. The longer this goes unchallenged, the less worrisome it is, but it has been one of the riskier choices Dmitrei has made. And while he does pride himself on being exacting in all of his decision making, to avoid such pitfalls, there is something exciting about being a little dangerous and just seeing how much he can get away with? Sometimes, being smarter than everyone else gets so boring, you have to help the idiots out a little, just to make it fair, y'know?

What is his/her misbelief about life (to be challenged ~this season)? His greatest misbelief about life is probably the idea that he doesn't need anyone and doesn't care what happens, as long as it is part of his grand plan? I think the only thing that really starts to challenge this, is seeing James again and there is that flicker the friendship that once was?? As well as his developing relationship w/ Lynessa, because I do think he does enjoy, for a time, having a partner in crime that he actually respects on some level??? Ultimately, however, none of this ends up mattering to him and he would sell either of them to the devil for (1) corn chip

Lesson he/she needs to learn (this season): #teambeaumont is too crazy to be helpful, even with his ~guidance~

What is the best thing in his/her life? Sometimes Lynessa Beaumont; sometimes the memories of his friendship with Harrion, but ultimately the best thing is outplaying, outlasting, and outwitting every single person he's ever met!!

What is the worst thing in his/her life? Dealing with Avelina Beaumont on the daily lbr

What does she/he most often look down on people for?

What makes his/her heart feel alive? That single moment when it all comes together!! Dmitrei is a plotter, a schemer, a master of manipulation and while he accounts for many different factors and has lots of different back up plans, even he cannot take credit for the workings of the entire universe and every plan he makes, he knows that there is always a risk of failure -- of it not going exactly to plan. And while I do think he thrives under pressure and he enjoys the challenge of rearranging and plotting in the moment, there's nothing quite so satisfying as some great complex plan, panning out exactly as he foresaw.

What makes him/her feel loved, and who was the last person to make them feel that way? Dmitrei doesn't often feel loved, nor is that an emotion he often craves. His relationship with Lynessa Beaumont, which is certainly the closest thing to romantic love he's ever experienced, isn't exactly love. It's a relationship built upon lust, but also a strange sort of respect for her abilities of manipulation/deception and scheming -- but ultimately he'd rather defeat her than possess her???? I feel like the last time he felt genuine real love and returned it, was honestly when he was a kid ngl that relationship he had with harrion at that time in their lives was the purest sense of love he's ever felt!!!!!!

Top three things he/she values most in life?  His accomplishments!!!! (His literal pride and joy in his life is the fact that he was able to reconstruct himself from the ashes of another man tbh and rise to such a position in life)

#dmitrei #character arcs #he's literally a psycho but we love our evil stud muffin <3 #this was so overdue!

[lgbtqmanga]

New Releases Sep. 19, 2023

Assorted Entanglements vol. 3 by Mikanuji

Heke and Lala met as strangers in an online game— but in real life, they are a manga artist and her editor, working together as closely as any two people can. At work, they bicker and complain, day in and day out. But come nighttime, their game chat is a flood of honest feelings. Could they ever manage that face-to-face…?

The Executioner and Her Way of Life vol. 3 (manga) by Mato Sato, Ryo Mitsuya, and nilitsu

The ritual to kill Akari has begun, and everything is going smoothly. Menou believes this will finally be the end of the Otherworlder—until she receives word from Momo about Orwell’s betrayal. In the face of the archbishop’s intricately woven plan and the arsenal of taboo conjuring tools at her disposal, it seems Menou and the others won’t stand a chance. But perhaps the power in Akari is greater than even she herself realizes...

Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation vol. 3 (comic) by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu and Luo Di Cheng Qiu

Wei Wuxian’s studies come to an abrupt end when he picks a fight with a young master of the Jin Clan. A lifetime later, he wakes from his dream of days gone by to find he’s still unraveling the mystery of the ghost arm.

Following their latest lead, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji arrive in Qinghe, where they must contend with strange tombs interring sabers, terrifying man-eating walls, and bizarre sewn-up corpses. But that’s not even the worst of it. Wei Wuxian’s true identity has been revealed! How will he settle his past scores?

Manner of Death vol. 2 by Yukari Umemoto and Sammon

*FINAL VOLUME*

Bunnakit, a coroner investigating a murder case, and Tan, the man who was his prime suspect—they have formed an unlikely alliance out of both necessity and passion. But though the two are drawn to each other, more danger awaits them than ever before, and each man has his own hidden motives. When the bodies start piling up, Bun and Tan must race to find the truth, all the while coming to terms with how they really feel about each other…Will their love survive this ultimate test?

ROLL OVER AND DIE: I Will Fight for an Ordinary Life with My Love and Cursed Sword! vol. 4 (manga) by Kiki and Sunao Minakata

To vanquish the increasingly powerful Demon Lord, divine revelation ordained a party of heroes, each blessed with a unique power. That spelled trouble for Flum Apricot, a total weakling of a girl who has no idea what her power of “Reversal” even does. Betrayed and left behind with a wretched slave trader who enjoys nothing more than seeing his merchandise fight for their lives, Flum thinks all hope is lost—until she gets her hand on a massive, cursed sword. Finally, after so many years, she understands the nature of her power, and both she and her new companion Milkit are about to experience a huge “Reversal” of their fate!

Sailor Moon vol. 4 (Naoko Takeuchi Collection) by Naoko Takeuchi

Teenager Usagi is not the best athlete, she's never gotten good grades, and, well, she's a bit of a crybaby. But when she meets a talking cat, she begins a journey that will teach her she has a well of great strength just beneath the surface and the heart to inspire and stand up for her friends as Sailor Moon! The original Sailor Moon in a new, affordable edition.

SOTUS vol. 3 by BitterSweet and Kei

*Final Volume*

Freshman training is finally over, and Kongpob is thrilled to have a chance to get closer to head hazer Arthit. After the two enjoy a casual shopping trip together, Arthit ends up staying over for the night…but when Kongpob accidentally lets his feelings slip, he leaves his upperclassman confused and flustered. Though Arthit tries his best to distance himself, he knows he can only run away for so long before he must respond to Kongpob’s passions—“No matter how far you go, I want to stay right by your side.”

Until I Love Myself vol. 2 by Poppy Pesuyama

*Final Volume*

When they finally feel able to confront him about it, they get an apology but not really the closure they were looking for. It turns out his reason for upending Pesuyama’s life was simple. He just could.

Knowing that ugly truth really doesn’t help Pesuyama at all, and so now they begin a new step in their journey as a nonbinary manga artist—therapy! What will Pesuyama discover about gender, society, and loving yourself in this final volume?

The Vexations of a Shut-In Vampire Princess vol. 5 (novel) by Kotei Kobayashi and riichu

Things are finally starting to settle down for Komari after her hectic trip to the Heavenly Paradise. That is until Pope Julius VI, supreme leader of the Scared Church, shows up at the entrance to Mulnite Palace one day! And if the arrival of an important geopolitical figure wasn’t stressful enough, the Empress is nowhere to be found! Now it falls to Komari to tide things over with the guest of honor until someone can locate Mulnite’s missing Empress…

#new releases #lgbt manga #queer manga #manga #light novels

[anqelically-archived]

PAPER HEART | JEAN KIRSTEIN X FEM!INSERT

WORDS: 0.6k

CONTENT: no manga spoilers, angst

NOTE: when i saw that there was an angst collab, i just had to join ✋🏻💀 look at me doing this instead of studying for my finals 😍 also i’m rusty and this is definitely not my best work... check out @okkatsudon ‘s collab here!

he always called eren a suicidal maniac. but even after all these years, jean was jealous of that very same suicidal maniac he thought would lead everyone to hell.

everyone sat in a large cell after being locked up by the jaegerists. jean looked around, seeing artur reassure the rest of braus family that they would be okay. niccolo stood by them. mikasa and armin were sitting at a table, quiet after events they wouldn’t speak about. connie had his arms crossed as he glared at the ground… and then his eyes finally made it to [name].

he tried talking to her earlier, after she had spoken to eren with the others, but she didn’t respond. her eyes were practically screaming that she was devastated and wanted to be left alone.

but jean could recall a time where [name] was the complete opposite, and that was the time before eren came into the picture. well, the time that he wanted to recall.

it was always jean and [name]. it was the cliche falling in love with your next door neighbor, and best friend, for jean. they hung out everyday and knew almost everything about each other.

that wasn’t the case anymore.

they are still pretty close today, but there was certain things [name] began to hide from jean. the reveal of her first secret was the one that hurt him the most.

“yeah… i’m dating eren.”

jean never even figured it out from [name] herself. it had to be reiner of all people to spill the beans while they were cadets. and after that, jean found himself continuously getting hurt.

[name] and eren were in love, eren was [name]’s first, eren was who always received her first “good morning” when breakfast was being served.

each and every action made tears in his paper heart.

but even as he grew even more torn down, he wasn’t going to leave her. even being all busted up, his heart wouldn’t let him.

jean walked up to [name]. she was sitting with her knees tucked to her chest in the corner away from everyone else. [name] turned her head at him, watching as he plopped down right next to her.

“hey…” he spoke gently, a tone that he only used with her, “do you want to talk about it?”

[name] swallowed her tears, scooting closer to jean and placing her head on his shoulder. she found comfort in his warmth. in all honesty, she’d been lacking it for awhile.

“it just hurts,” she told him. “everything that eren said… he just- after everything we’ve been through, he hurt us so easily.”

‘i wouldn’t hurt you’

“what did he say to you?”

“well, he said that i was a hopeless and pathetic girl that loved him...”

‘i wouldn’t ever think that in his position’

“…he also told me that he hates me and finds the fact that i can’t hate him amusing.”

‘i would never hate you or say something like that’

“that asshole,” jean growled.

[name] smiled at him, “don’t go losing it yet. maybe you should take your anger out on me.”

he raised a brow she couldn’t see, “why would i ever be mad at you?”

her smile turned into a frown, “because in the end, i still love him. he’s run me over countless of times and left me, but i still can’t say it. i can’t say that i hate him after all his betrayals. i love the eren jaeger, the ultimate asshole.”

jean felt anguish rippling through his body. he bit his lip to prevent it from quivering. he quietly asked, “do you think you’ll love him forever?”

[name] closed her eyes, “to be honest, i think i will.”

his paper heart was then set on fire and burned to ashes.

NAVIGATION

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[loopy777]

So one of the more ambiguous parts of later MHA is Dabi's actual relationship with the league, and how he truly thinks of them, especially Twice.

In particularly, his extreme reaction to Twice death serving as the decisive turning point where he once and for all went completely off the rails as utterly nuts, leaving any bit of sanity behind, can be read two ways.

Either his words can be taken at face value, and he never gave a damn about the league, and was only pissed because twice was the single biggest ace in the hole for his ultimate goal, and his death put a massive dent in it, or he is simply coping with suddenly feeling real sadness and despair by distancing himself from Twice by saying of course i didn't care about him, of course I'm not in any emotional pain right now, and by extension emotionally distancing himself from the rest of the league(Who's potential deaths could hurt him just as much).

Adding fuel to this is how he seems to emotionally get and connect with Toga while burning down her childhood home.

Of these two interpretations, it's one or the other.

In any case, which do you find to be the more likely one?

I've wondered about this myself, and had to discuss it with my brother because I'm so conflicted about it. The thing that really stands out to me about the whole matter is that Dabi doesn't seem to blame Twice for falling for Hawks' deception and even tries to comfort the guy. I mean, in that situation -- Twice falling for a second time for someone who exploited his trust to hurt the League, and this time so disastrously that it might lead to the end of everything -- I'd probably have a level of anger at a friend for doing it, but Dabi purely blames Hawks and even acts like he's there to support Twice in the wake of the betrayal.

At the same time, I don't feel like Dabi is merely covering up his hurt at Twice's death. I think Dabi really is obsessed with his whole revenge quest, and he has such a degree of emotional detachment from other people that I don't believe he's capable of forming bonds and friendships the way normal people can. I don't think he could be such a proliferate murderer, and so blase about it, without that dysfunction. Honestly, I don't think Dabi values human life enough to make real friendships; I don't think he even fully values his own life, never mind that of his buddies in the League.

So I guess I'm splitting the difference and saying that Dabi is complicated in a very messed up kind of way, where he really is capable of seeing similarities between himself and others who aren't standing in the way of his goals, and can identify and express sympathy when they're hurt, but at the same time he doesn't really value those people enough to feel hurt from losing them. He's not a chess master considering other people as resources, he just has no capacity for grief.

Maybe the key comes down to Loss. Dabi no longer responds to it, perhaps because he already feels like he's lost everything, so all the comings and goings in his life are just rounding errors.

He can look at someone like Twice or Toga and say, "Hey, we were all hurt in the same way and that makes us cool (as long as you don't get in my way), but all of us are just dead men walking so I'm not going to climb out of my grave to attend your funeral."

Anyway, that's just my speculation. I think it's great that Twice's subplot climaxes in such a way that is so rich and rewarding for all the characters entangled in it. It makes us ponder them all in new ways, and so might be one of the best in all of MHA.

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[chaoticcosmos666]

OC Dump- Nero

(forgive me I don't have a sketch or anything yet other than a soul calibur 6 character screenshot on PlayStation)

Who is Nero?

Nero is a Demon male that can go between demon and human form. He's around 36 years old. Physicality he has white hair, has pointed elf like ears, and melanated skin. Born to a Kitsune like mother named Lanis and a time shifter demon named Reiji (who belongs to my partner). Nero has been thru hell.

Other traits?

Due to his mom and father's genes, his hair is straight and fine (also cus soul calibur has no option for textured hair other than cornrows and an Afro), colored white like his father. Eyes are blue as the daytime sky. He has multiple scars, bad daddy issues slowly being resolved, and a multitude of issues from birth.

Whats his background???

Refer to this link so you understand the conflict ❤️

Nero was born to an upper rank family in the western part of In a town couple miles from the western continent of Araphel and in a town a couple hours outside the capital, Gloomshelm. Nero was born "sleeping", aka not breathing. However with the help of temple priests he was revived. As a kid he was kinda sheltered. He was constantly sick. In world they're not sure what is wrong. However the way I wrote him is that he has a weak heart muscle and deformed valves. The reason hes alive is due to him being a demon. That's literally it. Plot armor lmao. He'd always look outside the door watching kids play. For reference here's a photo of how I imagine his door

At his childhood he was close to his father... Always training, trying to strengthen his heart but also overcome his issues. And when he was with his mother he learned how to cook and how to prepare food and know what plant is ok and what isn't. Around 7 he'd sneak out to play with other kids only that lead to them bullying him. By 10 he stood up to them. This was around the time the demon slayers came to sow chaos. His father decided to work as a double agent and dismantle from the inside. however this ultimately backfired when Nero was 13. Both him and his mom were taken to their camp to either be used as mind slave servants or just killed. To them, demons and half demons were scourges. His father couldn't put himself... Torture after torture... They finally outted his father who had to make a move. He tried killing all them but they overpowered him... Making Neros father choose... His love... Or his son. Nero only saw betrayal. Later down the line he learned that they had a plan Incase they got captured. His father never used a holy blade on his mom therefore she lived. But young Nero never saw this. He screamed out "HOW COULD YOU?!?"

Neros weak body wouldn't allow him to punch his father. this caused a riot which was not part of the plan but a welcomed one. In the chaos, Nero slipped out... His father had no idea. Thus lead Nero on a journey of him alone. Weeks of foraging... His demon side would randomly kick in. Eventually word got around to Jinn (our other OC. I will link him when I finish him)... Nero had eaten a bunch of livestock... At this point he was near feral. Jinn stepped in when he found Nero and soothed him. Having him eat and rest safely knowing that someone would protect him. Jinn was a friend of Neros family and a half blood Himself. When Nero woke he was scared but was able to eat in peace. Jinn paid off the farmer as well. Eventually Nero opened up about his anger and rage. Jinn did his best to sooth again but he knew Nero had to let it out. Eventually he suggested that Nero go to a temple and find purpose....

Nero took that advice and left for a peace temple outside the infernis capital. He stayed there until he felt he was strong enough. And by the time he did leave, news has spread that two people had taken down the remainder of the slayers. Nero was relieved and from the journey here came out with the ability to wield fire like he could shadows. However when he was inside... There was another enemy chasing him... His younger brother.

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[chuluoyi]

✎ LOVE ENTRIES — an anthology | gojo satoru

⭑ — PREMISE. a series of episodes of your life with the strongest sorcerer throughout the past and present

⭑ — GENRE. canon compliant (2006-2018), mostly fluff, suggestive content, hurt/comfort

p.s. got an idea for the next entry? drop it in my askbox!

moodboard | extra scenarios 💌 | reader’s CT | ko-fi

☆⌒.*･ entry year : 2006—2009

entry # attraction ➴ to think it started with your crush on his best friend...

entry # rivals... in love? ➴ gojo is in shambles—so suguru might have a crush on you too?

entry # say no! ೀ valentine's special ➴ valentine's is around the corner and word has it that you're going on a date with geto...? no way! gojo is going to make sure that you're saying no! ever wonder how gojo finally gets you to become his? be prepared for a confession of a lifetime!

entry # stupid liar ➴ no way. impossible. you couldn't possibly be jealous of gravure idol gojo likes so much now... or could you?

entry # love wins all (soon!) ➴ haibara's death. geto's defection. nanami's leaving. when everything goes wrong in your third year, the last thing you would expect is your boyfriend breaking up with you. but to gojo, this is a moment of truth—and through this, you'll realize why he chooses to stay with you for good

⭑ — ☁️ side stories

rivals... in love? — extended cut!

☆⌒.*･ entry year : 2010—2017

entry # finally mine 18+ (soon!) ➴ days leading to your “first time” should be filled with anticipation, and yet gojo keeps bragging about his (untested) skills in the bedroom, and of course—you refuse to lose to him!

entry # stay with me (soon!) ➴ comes the biggest conflict in your relationship when you realize that you might be pregnant. this event, for better or worse, will change the trajectory of your relationship forever

entry # wife her up (soon!) ➴ it's a canon event that animals and babies aren't particularly fond of the strongest sorcerer… but you, you’re always going to be his no matter what

entry # insatiable 18+ ➴ your boyfriend is hot and wild, and he has one problem: he always finds you too pretty to resist

entry # forever ➴ the three times he asked you to marry him

entry # newlyweds 18+ ➴ you and your new husband make out in the most inappropriate place possible

entry # my wife, all mine ೀ valentine's special ➴ years pass, but one thing that's constant is how annoyingly your husband is in love with you. with the new school year comes a fresh batch of first years, and gojo is determined to make you look at his way—he's way better than those youngsters, and he's going to show you just that!

entry # wedding anniversary 18+ ➴ seven years of dating, two years of wedded bliss, and gojo is having his greatest existential crisis yet... all because this year, you apparently have forgotten the most important day of your lives

entry # daddy-to-be ➴ in which you're worried about how he'd react to you carrying his baby

entry # sweet felicity ➴ what do you get the man who already has everything for his birthday?

entry # protect ➴ the word “protect” now means so much more to him

⭑ — ☁️ side stories

07.55 A.M — gojo cheated on you last night

12.55 P.M — first ultrasound

04.18 A.M — six weeks pregnant with gojo’s baby

08.45 P.M — cockwarming 18+

11.07 P.M — what if you get a divorce?

03.12 A.M — ungodly hour cravings

07.30 P.M — gojo vs your pregnancy hormones

before the dawn — finding out about geto's ultimate betrayal hits you hard

08.25 P.M — at the end of this pregnancy journey, you fall in love with your husband once again

⭑ — extras 💌 pregnancy diaries ❀

☆⌒.*･ entry year : 2018—present

special entry # shadow in the embers (soon!) ➴ your love story through megumi's eyes. contains extended scenes from various love entries!

entry # baby ➴ a domestic life with your husband and baby

entry # heaven's fury ➴ sometimes you forget that your husband has burdens as the strongest sorcerer alive. when he goes back home from a bad day and you're the first person he comes contact to, you're made aware of it once again

entry # wife ➴ in which the new batch of first years are unaware that their eccentric teacher’s wife is the pretty woman roaming the school grounds

entry # sick days ➴ who holds the fort when you fall sick? of course, it's your lovesick husband and baby!

entry # mission: baby steps! (soon!) ➴ the three times gojo tried to make his baby love him (and how he miserably fails)

entry # the babysitters club ➴ in which yuji, megumi and nobara are tasked with the most important mission ever by their teacher—watching over his baby son!

entry # throughout heaven and earth ➴ a sudden mission. a curse beyond your grade. all hell breaks loose when gojo realizes that there are hidden machinations behind the incident that befalls you

entry # treasure ➴ the strongest sorcerer meets his match in his petulant son, who inherits his six eyes and is having trouble with them

entry # curiosity 18+ ➴ when gojo is found out by his own son during your nighttime activities

entry # all of me (soon!) ➴ you understand that some things in marriage just needs compromise. and he soon understands too, when you're at your most vulnerable and he fails to be by your side when you need him the most

⭑ — ☁️ side stories

09.45 P.M — how scared he is to lose you

11.10 P.M — meeting the newborn for the first time

06.27 A.M — gojo with his baby in the morning

06.20 P.M — baby doesn’t let gojo kiss you

10.00 A.M — gojo trying to get his baby say his first word

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