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lu-dao-writes · 3 months

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— 𝐈𝐧 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 (𝙃𝙪𝙖 𝘾𝙝𝙚𝙣𝙜)

꒰ྀི 🥀ˎˊ˗ 𝙎𝙮𝙣𝙤𝙥𝙨𝙞𝙨 He loves you not.

𝙒𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜(𝙨) Spoilers, cheating, hurt no comfort, HC’s unapologetic devotion for XL in front of you, rough sex, HC is not so great in this one, jealousy, gn!reader, mention of using sex as a coping mechanism, minimum editing.

𝘼/𝙉 I’m getting back into my danmei lmaoo. It’s nice to also post short pieces since I’ve been burnt out with long projects. So also I’m aware of the whole statute scene, but I didn’t go into depth because I’m not that far🥲. But I also appreciate all the likes I’ve gotten on my TGCF stuff! Also uh… This definitely also gave me vibes. Idek if the song works completely but it’s 🥵MINORS/AGELESS DNI! ⋆💔˚｡⋆ ྀི꒱

Edited 01/24/24: I made a whoopsie on the timeline. I mistaken chapters and pages like a dummy 😅😅. Holy balls I’m sorry y’all🤣.

Never did you imagine catching the Huā Chéng’s attention nor having his good graces.

You are nothing but a simple god in the heavens. Nothing highly praised, but important enough to be recognized and worshiped.

Of course you kept your meetings a secret and you enjoyed every small moment you had with him, after all, he is a very busy man, one of the four calamities in the ghost realm. You understand the workload.

You love him though with all his perfect and imperfections.

But…

You noticed a change as of late, and it all started when crown prince Xiè Lián arrived in the heavens for the third time apparently.

You knew very little of him initially, but you gathered the opinions of others due to the nasty things that were spewed from one mouth to another.

Obviously this wouldn’t do, so you opted to help him with the case in Mount Yujun, and you weren’t alone. Two “junior” officials also join you as well, and though they’re incredibly amusing, they’re also a headache as usual.

Anyways. While on this mission Xiè Lián was anything but what was being said in the heavens by the other gods. He’s incredibly humble, kind, has strong morals, and is charitable. A perfect friend to have in your life.

You don’t pry into his history, and you can tell he’s appreciative of that.

Once the mission is over with you come to your own conclusion and don’t regret it. You planned to even come visit him and help him out at his shrine until that familiar presence has you frozen in place.

What is Huā Chéng doing here..?

You left before you could be detected, fleeing back to your little palace and drowning yourself in your duties while unwillingly being stuck in your thoughts as well.

As days go by you note that when your beloved finally comes to you, it’s after his highness returns from another mission…

Huā Chéng is overwhelmed with emotions, that much is obvious when he grabs you so tight, his body tense and shoulders trembling just faintly.

His turmoil distracts you from your unsteady heart and you offer to remedy his burdens by being the one to lovingly service him.

But he turns your offer down.

Instead he resorts to his usual, just putting you on your hands and knees and then making you ride him with your back facing him when he grows tired of doing the work.

You’ve… Never had too much of a problem with this, the positions always hitting you deeply in those special, toe curling spots, and honestly he fucks you dumb to the point you got no thoughts.

But this didn’t soothe your paranoia, and you weren’t sure how to bring it up to him.

So you resort to soothing yourself.

‘It’s just insecurity. I’m just blowing it out of proportion.. Huā Chéng loves me.’

It only works for so long.

After that night Huā Chéng became distant again and soon did the unthinkable.

He snatched Xiè Lián from his palace where he was made to be confined in, and made a nice little show about it in the communication array.

You were dazed and hurt, not sure what his plans were and why he’s so infatuated with Xiè Lián. You weren’t sure if he wanted to hurt him or…

Or…

Your chest is heavy, but you push through and go with Fēng Xìn and Mù Qíng to find the runaway duo.

In the end, you wished to have just stayed tucked away in your palace, distracting yourself with your work for a moment longer than seeing this .

There’s many.. Many statues of Xiè Lián, all depicting a specific moment in his and Huā Chéng’s lifetime, or just because Huā Chéng wants another beautiful image of the crown prince.

It’s sick and painful. Your body trembling and your mind sinking deeper and deeper into the abyss that’s your proven thoughts.

Some can say it’s romantic.. Other can say it’s creepy. Pick your poison. But you felt humiliated above all else. It makes you question whether your relationship was even real this entire time.

When Huā Chéng makes his sudden appearance, he doesn’t even look ashamed, his attention and concern solely on Xiè Lián.

When you finally managed to leave Ghost City, like usual, you locked yourself away and finally exploded, taking your anger out on some of your furniture before sobbing on the cold floor, nothing but the shadows on the wall to comfort you in your grief.

All along Huā Chéng has been devoted to and in love with Xiè Lián.

The times you’ve had sex you’re sure he’s imagined him in your place.

In the meantime you were just something to keep him occupied until he had his chance.

You felt used and foolish and you had a tidal wave of resentment for Huā Chéng at his callousness.

And unfortunately you couldn’t help but have a little resentment for Xiè Lián…

You only distanced yourself from him and his party of growing allies, ignoring the hurt in his eyes when you brush him off, and ignoring him when he came to your palace asking for you and checking on you.

Your bitterness was just too immense.

You assume that no one knows still about you and your one sided relationship with Huā Chéng, otherwise you’re sure your doors would’ve been blown open and you’d be dragged into court for an interrogation by now.

Huā Chéng has yet to face you, and it hurts, but you’re not surprised either. You’re sure you’re not going to get an apology either.

Love truly can be a curse…

But for now you’ll let yourself mourn and stew in your anger. You’ll throw a small pity party for yourself and be a little destructive.

“Hi…! I know it’s late and this is completely random, but is that offer still available…?”

“Of course, come right on in~.”

You only hope that Péi Míng doesn’t pry too much…

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promptsforyourwhumpfic · 5 months

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The Grand A-Z List of Whump 3/3

This list contains 194 items listed R to Z

As always, I heavily encourage people to research topics thoroughly when writing. Whump is generally a 'dead dove' sort of topic, however it is important to avoid stereotypes/misinformation. This lists intention is to not glorify/romanticise sensitive topics in any way.

This is a comprehensive list of injuries, Illnesses and tropes - including those from the Whumptober 2023 trope vote!

All submissions are listed in italics, and those who wanted to be tagged will be included at the end. If you have any more submissions: please send them via DM/my ask box.

[A-H] [I-Q] [NSFW List]

List below the cut:

R

Rabies

Radiation Poisoning/Exposure

Radio Silence

Ransom Note/Video

Rashes

Recovery

Reducing breaks or dislocations (bonus: out in the field with no painkillers available)

Reflection

Rejection

Reluctant Caretaker

Reluctant Whumpee

Reminded of trauma

Reopened Wound

Repressed Emotions

Repressed trauma resurfacing

Rescue

Rescued by the enemy

Rescues gone wrong

Respiratory Distress

Restraints

Reuniting

Revenge

Ringing Ears

Ritual sacrifice

Rockslides

Role Reversal

Rope Burns

Running fingers through hair (maliciously or comfortingly)

Running Out of Air

Ruptured eardrum

S

Sacrifice

Sadistic Choice

Sartorial constraints

Scars

Scoliosis

Scraped Knees

Scratched corneas

Scratches

Seasickness

Second impact syndrome

Secrets

Sedated

Seeing double

Seizures

Self esteem issues

Self induced injury to escape

Self sacrifice

Self-aid

Self-inflicted injury (to escape)

Semi-consciousness

Sensory Deprivation/Overload

Sentimental Items

Separation

Sepsis

Servitude

Setbacks in recovery

Severed Artery

Shaking Hands

Shipwreck

Shivering

Shock

Shock collar

Shot (gun, arrow, dart, etc...)

Shrapnel (blast/wounds)

Sick/injured at a party

Skull fracture

Slapped

Sleep Deprivation

Sleep Paralysis

Sleeping in the cold

Sleeplessness

Smashing their head into a wall

Smoke Inhalation

Snake Bites

Sneezing

So sick they can barely even stand or stay awake

Significant other taking care of wounds

So weak they have to hold on to something or someone to walk

Solitary Confinement

Special object being ruined/torn apart

Spinal Cord Injury

Split lip

Sprains

Stab Wounds

Stabbed (sword, spear, knife, TRIDENT!, etc...)

Stabbed through the back by the only person the whumpee trusted

Stage fright

Stalking

Status epilepticus

Stiches

Stings (insect, creature, plants)

Stitches

Stoic/Defiant Whumpee

Stoic/Rude/Harsh Reluctant Caregiver!Mentor & Ball of Sunshine Hurt!Mentee (platonic)

Stomach ache

Stomach Ulcers (a cause for vomiting up blood)

Stomach virus

Straight Jacket

Strangling

Strangulation resulting in bruised or swollen vocal chords and loss of voice + the process of regaining your voice and everything that comes with that trauma.

Stress (this could induce headaches/general illness)

Stress Position

Stumbling

Sucking chest wound

Suffocating

Sunburn

Super glued to toilet

Surgery

Surgery gone wrong

Surrendering

Survivor's Guilt

Swollen Lymph Nodes

T

Tachycardia

Taking the bullet

TBI (traumatic brain injury)

Team as a family

Team has a certain amount of time to get to their Whumpee before they’re killed

Team teaming up to take care of sick teammate

Temporary Loss of Sense(s)

Tendonitis

Tetanus

The Final Straw

Thrown from an explosion

Time Loop

Tiny whump

Tonsillitis

Tooth knocked out

Torn Ligaments - Achilles, Meniscus etc.

Torn Muscles

Torture

Touch Aversion/Touch Starved

Tranquilizer Dart

Trap

Trapped (whether this is after an explosion, car accident, natural disaster…)

Trapped Limbs

Trapped underwater

Trauma reveal

Tremors

Trust Issues

Truth spell/serum

Tuberculosis

Twisted ankle

U

Undead (vampires and ghosts and zombies, oh my!)

Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms

Unresponsive

Upper respiratory infection

Used as bait

Usually big, strong and boisterous whumpee becomes quiet and weaker as the whumper conditions them.

UTI (Urinary Tract Infection)

V

Vampire whump

Vampires Thrall

Vehicular Accident

Venom

Vertigo

Very badly hurt and on life support - with slow recovery

Virus

Visions

Vocal chord paralysis

Vomiting/Vomiting blood

W

Waterboarding

West Nile virus

Whip scars

Whipping/Flogging

Whumpee being psychologically tortured via fake escape scenarios so when they are actually getting rescued they don't believe it. bonus point if they still don't think anything is real.

Whumpee dreams of a loved one happily inviting them “home” (They're actually dying IRL)

Whumpee getting the upper hand over whumper.

Whumpee stabbing whumper or beating their head into the ground over and over while sobbing, even when they’re clearly dead because they NEED to take their emotions out.

Whumpee turned Whumper

Whumpee watches caretaker take a bullet/hit/poison for them.

Whumper turned Caretaker

Whumper turned whumpee

Whumper with a crush

Wincing/Flinching

Wing whump

Wisdom Tooth Removal

Withdrawal

Withholding Medical Treatment

Witnessing. (Whumpee sees someone die in a brutal way. Whumpee sees someone get possessed/turned into a zombie/some other horrifying thing and they just stare horrified.)

Working for the enemy

Working through injury/illness

Working to Exhaustion

Wrists rubbed raw

Wrong Place, Wrong Time

Wrongfully Accused/Arrested

Wrongfully fired

X

Xeroderma. (Extreme sun sensitivity)

XMRV is a newly identified human retrovirus that is similar to a group of mouse retroviruses (called murine leukaemia viruses, or MLVs)

Y

Yellow Fever

Z

Zombie virus, etc.

Zoonotic Hookworm

Zoonotic illness (It’s a disease carried or transmitted by animals to humans like tularemia or psittacosis)

Zosler (Shingles)

Zygomycosis (Fungal infection)

TAG LIST: Thank you very much to the following people for submitting ideas! (I apologise if some tags did not work, I'm not sure why tumblrs not letting me tag you!)

#whump #tropes #prompts #a-z of whump #r-z #writing #ideas #angst #a-z #death tw #illness tw #injury tw #emetophobia #emeto #emeto tw #vomit tw #emetophobia tw #whump tropes

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adventuringblind · 17 days

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Jos hate jos hate jos hate

He just gives me the creeps. Like Max’s tone when talking about him reminds me of myself talking about my parents.

Detached. Wanting to move on but still try to be open about it even though it’ll make ppl ask questions especially if you avoid and don’t answer the question. (Did that make sense?)

So yeah. I don’t know him, but from what I can observe through a screen I’m not a fan.

- 🦒

IT DOESSSSS

(Hello new anon! Thanks for joining me and starting a rant!)

Don't get me STARTED on the psychology that is Max Verstappen. His mind is my obsession and how anyone could ever paint him as a villain hasn't been through trauma with a parent (or hasn't realized that they have).

Like, joking about trauma is a very clear indicator?? "My dad did that once to a mechanic??" I'm sorry??? Max, baby, that's not something you're supposed to laugh about...

Key word here is supposed. I laugh about my trauma all the time and it concerns my therapist.

It sucks that Max's personal life is out there for the media to pick apart. I've seen debates about Jos' parenting style and how he has given Max everything. I don't see any ungrateful bone in Max's body. If he was, then Jos would've been out of Max's life the second he turned eighteen.

So then people ask: if Jos is a bad parent, why is he still around Max?

Answer: Traumaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

(Rant under the cut about abuse trauma... you've been warned)

Good god, are people so ignorant? It's hard to detach from a parent! Specially one who you spent all your time with! You get used to it eventually, you figure out how to cope and then you know nothing else aside from that.

All those times Max was driving recklessly when he was younger? I've listened back to his radio. He was in fight or flight because he had learned early on that it's better to risk crashing and injuring himself then placing lower.

I did the same thing! I was good at archery. Like, I was giving adults a run for their money at the age of thirteen. I switched from a recurve bow to a compound and about two weeks before a tournament. It was an absolute pain because it was an entirely different way of shooting.

I have this memory of my dad driving me to his friends house to sight in some longer distances the day before. As in, crunch time. We were out there in the cold and rain for hours. I was sore already because constantly pulling back sixty pounds of resistance with just your arms gets tiring. I broke so many fundamental rules; the ones my instructors were specific about. However, I knew it was break myself or my dad was going to lash out.

Anyway, I tore two muscles in my dominant arm by the end of the day. I got home and my dad went to shower so I hid with my mom in the kitchen icing it to hopefully lessen the pain.

I placed second in regionals. My dad lectured me in the car on the way home. He said the injury was my own fault. The doctor I saw said they didn't know how I managed and my instructors said I couldn't shoot at the range for over a month.

My dad hailed me a hero to everyone who asked about it.

Jos Verstappen is so outwardly aggressive that anyone who has been through something similar can see what's happening. Just because he's done a lot for Max doesn't negate the other behaviors. This isn't math, you can't cross cancel, two negatives don't make a positive.

Rant over! :)

#Ren's.inbox #Ren's.thoughts #maxverstappen.things #🦒.anon

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onlyseokmins · 1 year

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too many holes to choose from • hhu

Pairing: hip hop unit x afab!reader

Genres: smut (minors dni!), fivesome w/ hhu, CRACK/HUMOR ABSOLUTE CLOWNERY don't take me or this seriously at all

Warnings: unhealthy coping mechanisms in order to take four dicks in the most impossible way = best crack content out there ❤️ kinda gross and weird if taken too seriously (don't be like mingyu)

WC: bulleted list 🤷🏻‍♀️

A/N: this is what happens when hhu are being whores onstage + @duhnova (credit to their silly sexci brain) and I are up way past our bed times... Might be expanded on seriously in the future 😅

CONCEPT: You've got four dicks for the taking and offer up your seven holes to accommodate them 🫡🫦

Mingyu:

"There's... more?"

Poor baby is baffled when you ask which of your seven holes he would prefer

Only really learned about the main three just a few weeks ago

He's so confused and unsure about what other four you're referring to

Eyes blown wide, mouth hanging open when you attempt to explain

But you decide he's a lil too dumb (affectionate) to follow

WILL take you too seriously

He's also too big for your other tiny, special holes

He can use and choose from the regular ones however he likes

Oh and he does

Proving what he learned about the three main holes very well in the end

Vernon:

Does his little eyebrow wiggle and pouty lips — you know what I'm talking about — when you say you'll take him up your nose

"You'll what?" Are... you sure?"

Listen

You're going to snort this man

You're going to make it happen

Because that's just how things should be

And he's like how and why

Will be very doubtful, concerned, amused, and somehow turned on by your absolute weirdness and tenacity

Of course, that doesn't work out but there is a hole somewhere close enough that you can accommodate him in

So your nose is somewhere involved in there but not in the dick-taking way and that's a win for all of you really

Seungcheol:

"I've got two ear holes," you inform him.

"So do I, sweetie. You're not special."

“No, you don’t get it, sweetie, 'cause you’re not hearing me obviously... I want you to stick your dick in them.”

That shuts him up real quick

He obviously doesn't think this will work

But he can't help but be curious wtf happens if he sticks his dick in one ear does it come out the other???

Listen, brain worms but like dick worms

Anyways, y'all gonna end up having a deep conversation about how this could all work while he's balls-deep inside of you so it's a win-win

Love a man with a sexci, thought-provoking brain (derogatory)

Wonwoo:

The only normal one

And by normal I mean he isn't having any of your shit

Not in his Christian Minecraft server

*pushes his glasses up anime-style*

"NOW LISTEN HERE YOU

HEATHENS — "

He's going to fix y'all make you worse

WILL educate everyone on the proper holes to fill

Various positions, many times...

Takes education very seriously

Might even find some online pdf / article for mingyu to study and you to write an essay on later

He will consider asking cheol to demonstrate along with him because he trusts the older just enough despite the morbid brain conversation

Simply pretends he does not have two ear holes to hear

Honestly though by the time he's done with you you're going to be wishing you had those four extra holes because he's a beast *sweats*

Anyways y'all have normal fivesome fun sexci time and it's even more enjoyable after having some good humored clownery beforehand 🙏🏻

#ez.creates #svt smut #seventeen smut #kpop smut #hhu smut #smut headcanons #hip hop unit smut #lmao this is just some fun for kicks and giggles jakdfjkdfj feel good crack 🤌🏻#svt.smut

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girlfromthecrypt · 9 months

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My first Writeblr tag game!!

Thanks so much for the tag @mthollowell-writes! This is one of my first ever tag-games, so I'm pumped. Also, this made me realize I rly need to do a WIP intro for my main project. It's a dark fantasy/horror with some romance, too. The working title is Fucked Up Fairytale. That aside, let's goooooo

1) What motivates you to write?

Anything and everything! Writing is my coping mechanism, for good times and bad. It helps me keep hold of happy feelings and release negative ones.

2) A line/short snippet of your writing that you are most proud/happy of. If not maybe share a line of someone else's work you love (just please credit them)

I have multiple WIPs, but I'm going to refer to the one I plan on actually turning into a book. The working title is Fucked Up Fairytale. That may undergo revisions. Anyhow, I'll share two lines/snippets, if I may! Mainly because the first one is very short indeed. Here it is:

I braced myself for stupidity, and he didn’t let me down. —This is in the main character's (Margot's) narrative inner voice during a conversation with her little brother.

And here's the other one, same chapter, same conversation! I feel like I may have gone a little overboard with Margot's world-weariness, but I kinda like it:

“The world I dream of has me making six figures at a job where my boss doesn’t need me to show him my tits,” I said, a chill creeping into my tone. “It has me going home at a reasonable hour so I can watch TV and fall asleep with a bag of spicy chips, preferably next to a spouse who doesn’t mind that they make me gassy.”

Neither of us spoke for a couple beats. Then, softly, my brother asked, "And where's the magic in that?"

"Nowhere, Callie. That's kind of the point."

3) Which OC makes you smile every time you think/talk about them and what are they like?

That would apply to Margot's love interest from Fucked Up Fairytale. He's, um… special. To me, and in general. Seeing as he's one of the Folk, it would be unwise to share his name, especially since not even Margot knows it as of right now. He calls himself the Huntsman, so that'll work for now.

He's this rather delicate-looking youngish man; slender, short and long-haired—he's quite pretty, really. And he's the smuggest, most self-satisfied dork you've ever met, but in a sweet, non-threatening way. I just love his and Margot's more wholesome exchanges. They clash a lot; she's a recent university graduate, has been a skeptic all her life and didn't mean to get roped up into any supernatural stuff, and he's this forest-dwelling fairy-like entity. But they end up being really good for each other, despite (or perhaps because of) their differences. Even though their dynamic starts off based purely on physical attraction, it grows into something more and their interactions really feel cathartic at times.

4) What process of writing do you enjoy the most?

I love what happens shortly after getting the idea for something. It's like a little twitch in the brain that grows and grows and it's just… awesome. And I'm not actually doing anything at that stage, so it's also the easiest step. Also, I just love writing dialogue.

5) What part of writing do you think you are the best at? (Yes stroke your own ego it's okay)

I think that's also writing dialogue! Not much else to say there. Oh, and nature descriptions sometimes. I've been told my nature descriptions are beautiful.

6) What is something in the writeblr community is most enjoyable?

How passionate everyone is! We all do the same thing, we write, and we all love doing it. And there's such an undertone of positivity to it all, of openness. That's really nice.

7) A writing tool/device you use that helps you with writing? (It could be speech to text, a writing program etc)

Oof. This one's too hard for me. I'm honestly struggling with a lot of writing software so… I don't have a good answer to that.

8) A piece of worldbuilding that you like in your own story? (It could be the magic system, a particular place in the story, a law etc)

The majority of Fucked Up Fairytale takes place in a single location. It's a magical forest that is its own entity, almost deity-adjacent. Certain characters worship it to gain its protection and power, but it can also be dangerous, trapping humans and turning them into so something they're… not.

I just really like that forest! I enjoy describing it, I enjoy creating new creatures it may be harboring, I enjoy lending this seemingly inanimate idyllic environment a personality that kind of shines through in a lot of scenes. I almost wish it were real. Almost.

9) What piece of advice would you say to encourage others to write if they are having a rough patch?

I'm with you.

That's all I, or anyone, can really offer, I believe. I've dealt with month-long dry spells, really horrible ones. I know it's shitty, I know it sucks. My advice, if I had any, would be to force yourself to write anyways. It's the only way to get back into it, and you should never ever give up writing. Writing is worth it.

10) Tag some people whose works you love/have been your biggest supporters

Well, obviously I'm gonna have to mention @prismatic-bell who once wrote a wonderful thirty-part fanfic to one of my stories and is, in fact, amazing. Xe has contributed greatly to a lot of my stories and I will be forever grateful for that. Also @rehnwriter who helped me set up my blog because I'm bad at internet stuff and need constant surveillance.

I'm tagging… uh… anyone who sees this and wants to participate! I'm really eager to get to know more folks from this community.

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jmdbjk · 1 year

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The air is different...

All my thoughts and ramblings have been piling up. I have had to resort to just jotting down notes. Some stuff is already outdated because: already resolved or already happened. Time is moving swiftly yet at a snail’s pace. 2025 is still an eternity away. Yet...

I was talking to my friend the other day and I remarked “it’s like there's been this paradigm shift since (Jin enlisted)... Jin is handling weapons on the daily, Jimin is blonde again, JK is too skinny, Tae eating Mexican food, we're speculating about Yoongi driving military generals around like some sort of movie plot (because we were)... it's like an alternate universe or something.

In this au fic, Jin becomes a sniper on special ops teams. Except during a mission he gives away his position when he starts laughing his windshield wiper laugh. Or better yet, he uses his windshield wiper laugh as an audible secret signal to his fellow green berets...the enemy never suspects...

Once Jimin enlists, he becomes South Korea’s own version of Mata Hari, exotic dancer turned spy and infiltrates North Korea and returns with the news that their ramyeon sucks. My god, they don’t even put eggs in it. And as I said, Yoongi ends up driving military generals around. Strangely, he’s the chauffeur that won’t shut up and gives them a more simplified and rational viewpoint of how ridiculous this all is. They actually listen. He is also in high demand making individual regiment OSTs. You know, the things they chant while they are doing marching drills...there she was just a walkin’ down the street singing do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do...

Anyway. Humor is a coping mechanism and last couple days have been very emotional. Someone please write that fanfic asap.

Let’s talk about Slender Jungkook... He’s turned into some sort of mysterious Slenderman of BTS. This gluten-free-meat-restaurant-protein-heavy diet has made him a lean mean bunny. It’s sort of startling to see slim JK juxtaposed next to the others. Especially Jimin who appears to be getting bulkier. Kookie is not filling out his puffer jackets and baggy pants...or even slim pants, as much as he used to.

Okay, here’s the deal, I understand there is content in the bank supposedly to last us until 2025... we’ll see... but I already know I am not buying Legos, special coins or Korean postage stamps. Those don’t count as content or merch. Just sayin’. I know they tried to tempt us with Cookie Kingdom nonsense but that was a washout for me.

What we did get: Indigo merch... we got Jack in the Box merch, we got Wootteo and The Astronaut merch... you know what that means? We will be getting merch for Jimin’s album... and everyone else’s as well. Jimin, if you’re reading this, I will pay money for a nice flowy robe-like garment that screams “Jimin would wear this while lounging on his couch wearing nothing else.” And jewelry, hell yes. Give me some dangly earrings that Jimin designed please. If he comes out with some sort of leather merch, the implications...(closes the door on my imagination before things get out of hand, so to speak.)

Jimin... I beg of you, please design a robe like this:

The thought of stuffed animals and pillow cases as his merch... I hope not.

I know this was days/weeks ago but WTF Yoongi? He is channeling 19th century rakish scoundrel here.

And Tae’s fo-fo and how he’s definitely catering to the wimmins. Swooning could be heard across the planet when his fo-fo hit the internet. I saw someone say Tae was not channeling Darcy, he was more of a Willoughby. If you know, you know I guess. What got me was the horse... the ultimate phallic symbol.

Now Taeyang having Jimin feature on a song for his upcoming album. I don’t know BigBang except for some negative things I’ve read. I do know who G-Dragon is. He supposedly has an apartment in the same complex with Joon and Jimin? I might be wrong about that. So we supposedly get to hear Jimin on Taeyang’s song in January. I’ll take anything. We’re desperate here.

I know this post was all over the place but that’s how I’ve been this last week or two. This time of the year also does not offer any calm respite either.

We have even more changes coming. The air is already different with our Jinnie’s military service started. The past was honestly the best, but we need to look to the future, to their future when they return to us in 2025. They will be different. We will be different. Hobi, Jin and Joon have shown us artistically how much they’ve grown this year. We supposedly still have four more artistic efforts coming before the end of 2023. And we have six more enlistment days coming.

My feelings are still raw. I know they were all emotional but my heart is still aching. I have no better words to say about being able to see all of this unfold in front of my eyes than I’m grateful to be part of it, even with how intensely emotional it is.

#slenderman JK #jimin #jungkook #jin #taehyung #yoongi

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scribe-cas · 9 months

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okay, okay, i have a question about couteau. (every time i write his name i pray i've written this correctly)

so in response to my last ask you have described him as- *checks notes* "such an ass" and "downright bastard". but from his previous descriptions he seemed like a really chill guy. i mean yeah he does some murder here and there, but even here, those are usually assholes, so there's at least the tiniest bit of good intentions there.

ANYWAY yes. my question. i am curious about his personality. could you say something more about that?? is he an ass ass or is he just insufferable but in a /affectionate way?? i am intrigued

HKSKSKNANXDD

I love the fact that I bully him enough that you asked this-

(You did write his name correct btw good job-)

Okay so here is the thing. His level of ‘bastard’ depends entirely on who you are.

He is, at all times, a bastard (affectionate). And that’s only because I know what a snarky prick he can be /w love

Just for reference, here is some of my top tier Couteau content.

Couteau is one of my favorite characters to write, in the fact that he’s usually at least a little snarky, a little full of awful humor, and a lot of heart.

He’s a dangerous guy, I’ll give him that, and his one liners as he hauls tied up men off in the back of his car are not always perfect. (I say, knowing that they rarely ever are, but no one who isn’t getting toted off to be murdered knows this he does it on purpose so that the only people who know he’s bad at improvising are dead)

Couteau has a bit of an immortality complex. He’s gotten past his ‘humanity’ and has somewhat forgotten what it’s like to just be a person. He doesn’t consider himself human, and does his best to act like one anyways.

When really, all that’s changed is his perception of himself- and despite the fact that he can punch a man in the face without feeling any remorse, and can regularly stand the crushing guilt most of us would face if we had to cook up an actual, real person for dinner- he hasn’t escaped it at all. And you can tell he cares.

He’s very good at pretending nothing bothers him, and honestly, a lot of it doesn’t, because if you partake in anything long enough, it becomes normal. And he can make the best of whatever situation is handed to him if need be. However, he is also filled with a special kind of rage from having to ‘make due’ for so long, which comes out in unhealthy coping mechanisms (like murder.)

He’s an adrenaline junkie. He can catch most people in a lie from 20 yards away from nothing but a gut feeling. If given the chance, he’d definitely be a gambling addict, but he doesn’t ever indulge. He likes to play games, and more than that, loves to travel.

I’m- I’m not positive?? but I am 90% sure he’s got autism. He’s good at being social but only because he’s thoroughly studied it, practice by practice. It comes easily to him now, but in the way a script would. He’s sound sensitive. He has his routines and despite being a bit sporadic when it comes to choices, he tends to stick to them, especially in times of need. He’s got echolalia (he repeats sounds and words he’s heard that he likes, on impulse, for no reason.) along with a million other things. But i am too sleepy to write them all rightnow.

Couteau is intelligent, but not at all mature (unless it’ll benefit him in some way.), and manipulative, but to a point. He sees it as a means to an end.

However

On the other hand, he struggles with PTSD pretty badly. He copes with dissociation, which doesn’t help with that warped self image and thinking that nothing bothers him, along with the fact that he will sometimes ignore his own boundaries, leading to him and others getting hurt.

He’s got insomnia, a touch aversion, and used to struggle massively with eating. He’s fine with and used to it now, but 300 years ago when he was dropped down into hell? He couldn’t even speak due to the amount of pressure he was under.

He’s gotten very good at managing it, and keeping his breakdowns quiet, along with finding things that make it easier, such as downing a shot of bourbon on a really bad night, or having a few puffs of a cigarette that doesn’t bother his allergies before he has to take someone out. He copes mainly with a lot of fucked up humor, although very few know him well enough to hear the jokes.

But there’s still a part of him that never got that healing break down. His closure has never come.

His main motivation is to just continue his life, because his last one ended far too soon.

And he’s working to avoid someone he cares about. But is slowly finding that just because one is gone does not mean there isn’t room for more. :>

He’s morally grey, sometimes he has to kill an innocent, and it fucks him up on the inside, but he also escorts people home and keeps drunk parents away from their children and murders men who beat their wives.

He just. Kinda is.

If you ask him, he’ll say he’s a villain, because he enjoys bringing pain.

What you consider him is none of his business.

But one time, a little girl called him a hero, and he didn’t stick around to let her see him smile.

Hope this helps!

#castalk #coutalk #couteau my beloved go back into your box #bists #blood is sweeter than silence #random dialogue #script snippets #i love him #that is all

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alexbkrieger13 · 3 months

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Both you and your brother have autism? Could you explain some of it? I feel like this is not something very explained

yep both me and my 2 brothers are on the spectrum. add to that we have 9 other cousins on varying levels on the spectrum let's just say our family didn't win the genetic lottery. The three of us are on varying levels the older of the 2 boys in nonverbal and is in a special school while the younger one is verbal and in main stream school and but has adhd and echolalia which makes life interesting to say the least.

i have Aspergers (I don't know if that's still a diagnosis you can get I don't think it is but that's what I was given over a decade ago so we're just going with that one). I was just fortunate that I was in a position that I got diagnosed failarly for a girl at 9 so I was put into intervention therapy and stuff when I was young so basically went into a boot camp for how to cope with the world and adapt so usually a lot of people are surprised when I say I'm on the spectrum because its is not particularly noticeable compared to other people who might just have a similar diagnosis to what I have because I was so young when I was able to develop coping mechanisms and learning to adapt

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in-my-feels-probably · 10 months

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Hi!!! congrats for 1200 followers! So last time I couldn’t take part in your event, congrats for your 1000 followers as well btw, but I’d like to participate again this time! Obviously only answer this if you’re okay with me participating again! I’d like to request a matchup for Bridgerton (even someone from Queen Charlotte is fine if you think they suit me better) <3

I’ll send my description again!

my pronouns are she/her and I’m asexual biromantic so any gender is fine. I’m an ESFJ and a Gemini. I have green eyes and brown hair, I have a mullet with blue strands. I dress with vintage/fairy grunge clothes. I wear lots of rings and love to exchange them with others.

I’m the mom friend of the group, always there for everyone and my friends say that I’m really good at comforting people. I’m also calm and responsible, I usually am the one that takes care of other people. I’m very optimistic, I always try to see the good in everything and I often put other’s needs before my own. I love making others laugh to lighten the situation. I don’t like when people tell me what to do and I’m not afraid to stand up for myself or for someone else. I also dislike when someone is too serious and really can’t take a joke as I tend to use humor as my coping mechanism.

All my friends tell me I’m very smart, I get very good grades and I do well in school. I also try to help my friends with study and school as much as possible. I’m also very ambitious, I always try to achieve my goals.

My love languages are, receiving, physical touch and words of affirmation and giving, quality time and words of affirmation.

I absolutely love listening to music, it helps me relax and I really like reading. I also love watching horror movies even though it’s impossible to scare me. I also play Dungeons and Dragons with my friends anytime I can. also, I absolutely love musicals and I’m definitely a theatre kid.

I really hope I did this right, have a great day :)

hi!

thank you for participating, nice to see you again :)

since you have no gender preference, i’ll tell you who i ship you with out of both the boys and the girls, and then do the full thing with who i think you’re better suited for.

i ship you with eloise and king george!

i’m gonna go with george for this, i hope that’s alright with you.

i think he’d be drawn to you visually. you’d strike him as interesting, and when he got to know you, he’d fall completely. you’d be very inviting. he needs someone calm and positive, someone caring and loving. everyone needs a mom friend, and he certainly wouldn’t turn one down. he needs someone to make him laugh and smile when he’s having a rough day—or a few rough days. you’d be like charlotte. able to stand up for him and make him feel safe when he needed you to be stronger than him. but he’d also never let you feel undervalued, and he would always make sure you were doing alright too. i think he’s got a way about him that makes him easy to open up to. you’d know you could tell him anything, and he’d know you could always work things out together.

i think george would enjoy a little bit of academic rivalry with you, or rivalry in general. he’s very well educated, especially in the sciences, and i think he enjoys being a knowledgeable person. he’d appreciate someone who could match his level of banter and intellect, and hed love a challenge. i do think overall, though, he’d appreciate a curious mind. he’d love that you were interested in learning new things, and your ambition would make him proud. if you showed any interest in his interests, he’d love that even more.

i think touch is a very special thing to george. they can be so innocent and pure. a comfort, and nothing more. his tremors would make him a bit nervous to initiate touch, though, and if you cleared his mind of any doubt by taking his hand like nothing was wrong, he’d consider it a very special thing between the two of you. i think another love language of his is words of affirmation. praise goes far with him, and he’d know that it goes far with you too. quality time is probably his third. he would like being alone with you and doing simple things. talking, fleeting touches, going for walks around the garden. hed look forward to those times when he didn’t have to worry about his duties as king and he could just be with you.

the best part of his day would be seeing you after a long day. he’d take you for a walk around the gardens, his hand in yours. he’d smile when he could fill you fiddling with one of the rings on his fingers.

“what did you do today, love? get any more of that book read?”

“i finished it,” you’d smile, making him grin.

“we’re going to need a bigger library at the rate you’re reading,” he’d tease, squeezing your hand. “did you enjoy it?”

you’d nod, gushing to him about the ending. he’d grin, seeing how excited you got talking about the characters and the story.

“i knew you’d like it.”

you’d raise a brow. “and why is that?”

“because i read it first. i had to make sure you weren’t wasting your time on something that wasn’t any good.”

you’d feel your heart flutter at his thoughtfulness, pressing yourself closer to his side. “what about you? what did you do today?”

“nothing worth talking about.”

you’d look up at him, slowing your pace. “are you sure? i’m here to listen.”

he’d smile down at you, shaking his head. “i’m sure, love. i’m having far more fun talking about you.”

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thank you again for participating! i hope you liked this :)

#king george #king george iii #bridgerton #queen charlotte #1.2k followers celebration #1.2k followers #followers celebration

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half-man-half-lime · 1 year

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@verminfang so, for context, here's the premise-

One of the Player Characters has some sort of neurological condition that causes chronic, severe anhedonia. She's used a magical amulet to drain other people's emotions, but the effect is limited and it sometimes hurts others. Recently she met a powerful witch (Hazel, from the Sepia 9 lineup) who designed a ritual to make her capable of positive feelings.

The issue is that "soft" magic in this setting is rooted in ideas, and a basic change in someone's mind with that sort of magic is going to create a capacity for joy, pleasure, etc. that's two-dimensional, without real experiences to use as reference. (using harder magic could bypass those problems, as long as you have a full understanding of every single detail of how neurobiology works, and the time to devise the very specific changes that have to happen, which is, uh, way harder) So, obviously, the solution is to round up a bunch of friends, go into everyone's minds, and collect macguffins that represent how they experience positive feelings! Nothing bad could happen along the way!

(I'd explain the Magical Item bond thing too but that's a whole other exposition dump and I still want to hold onto hope that there's a future comic I'm trying not to spoil)

So, with that in mind, this is the questionnaire:

What does your character’s Mindscape look like, roughly? Or alternatively, what people, places, events, topics, and visual motifs are a big part of their mind, stuff they regularly think about, etc.?

What does the presence of your character’s bond with their Magical Item look like in that mindscape, if they have such a bond?

What places in your character’s mind are safe, that they can retreat to? What places do they avoid?

How does your character experience good feelings? What good feelings define them? Does anything bad taint the good? What is unhealthy about those feelings, if anything? Pick an object that represents the sum of all those feelings. Where is that object stored? What stands in the way of getting to it?

The bad feelings your character experiences have been put away somewhere that they won’t affect this ritual. What form are they in, where are they stowed away, and how likely is it that they’ll get out? What’s healthy and good about those bad feelings, that shouldn’t be ignored?

A demon or demons haunt your character. It can be those same bad feelings, or even the good feelings, a traumatic memory, the awareness of someone or something bad they can’t stop thinking about, a toxic behavior, an unhealthy coping mechanism, etc. etc. What form does it take, as a living figure in your character’s mind? Does your character know it's a demon?

What hazards make your character’s mindscape hard to navigate, either for them or for others?

I thought of some others after the fact but it wasn't a huge deal. I basically translated the question answers to some descriptions of each location, sequence of events on arrival, and characters, which wasn't much work, and pretty easy. Set up a few special moves, win and loss conditions, prizes, and designed a bunch of unexpected snags and twists, and that was most of an outline!

#Excitement And Adventure #TTRPGs

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very intrigued by ——— fic title

Okay so I'm just posting the beginning of this because it wouldn't make sense if I posted any other part of it. For context I don't think I'll ever be posting this one on AO3 or anywhere else really, I wrote it as a sort of coping mechanism for some really heavy topics about homophobia and masculinity in one of my gender classes, paired with the mess that is the military and homophobia and all that jazz. It ended up turning into something large, so if anyone wants to read it I'd be willing to share it privately but I'm probably not going to do anything with it. It doesn't really serve anyone to have it published because it's pretty dark.

So anyways, here's the snippet.

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Natasha had just made it out of her squadron building when her phone lit up. She was still dressed in her flight suit, her flight bag thrown over her shoulder, her keys and phone clutched in her free hand. She’d been planning to rush home, to shower, change, and meet Bradley at his house for what was turning into their monthly tradition of eating pizza and marathoning Star Wars movies and shows. Work had run late. They were supposed to meet up at seven-thirty, it was already six-forty-five, and she still had the fifteen minute drive from base to her apartment, the fifteen minutes it would take her to shower and change, then the thirty minute drive to where Bradley was currently living with the recently promoted Rear Admiral Mitchell and Admiral Kazansky, because finding housing in San Diego was a nightmare and after the mission, the family could use some time to reconnect.

She unlocked her car, fumbling open the passenger door to dump her bag inside before she hurried to answer her phone. Her watch rumbled on her wrist to notify her of the incoming call, Jake Sersin’s face lighting up her phone screen. Why would he be calling?

“Bagman,” she answered, pressing the phone to her ear. “You finally going to join us for Star Wars night?”

The rattling intake of breath over the phone made her freeze, and Natasha went stock still with her hand on the open passenger door.

“I don’t think I can make it, Tash.” He breathed, his voice wavering and cracked, and worry went spearing through her in an instant, icy cold dread flooding her veins.

They’d managed to stay close since the mission. Hangman, Rooster, Phoenix and Bob were all within an hour drive of one another, fighting off deployments while Maverick, Iceman, Cyclone, and Warlock scrambled to get approval for a special unit that would allow them to keep the Dagger squad together, operating as a specialized team meant for high-risk missions just like the one they’d performed months ago. If they succeeded, they’d all be clustered within the same town, within the same unit, flying on one another's wings for as long as they could get away with. In the time since they’d split apart after their post-mission leave, Natasha had begun to positively ache for the rest of the team to be close together again.

“Jake,” she kept the panic out of her tone, cool and collected just like she was in the air. She closed the passenger door. “What’s wrong? Tell me what happened.”

#top gun #top gun fic asks

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blorbologist · 1 year

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26 and 37

26. You must swap one nat 1 die roll with one nat 20 die roll. They must both be from the main campaigns, but can be cross-campaign. Which are they, and why?

Ooooof, how dare you make me have to do research for this? :vvv

See, I'm torn between making them both of similar magnitude or pulling a cheap shot and taking a nat 20 that didn't matter much to swap for a nat 1 that did matter.

Okay, let's take two important ones and make them both WORSE, because I'm a bastard

For the 1 -> 20, hmmm let's say Caleb trying to persuade Essek to pretty please let him invite mages that want to kill them both onto this expedition. Gives Liam his bisexual maelstrom early, and it would so badly fuck with their dynamics. Would Caleb backshift into bad coping mechanisms? Would Essek call him out? Would Trent or Astrid or Wulf try to kill either of them? What the fuck! Just about one of the few times I think a high roll would actually be worse for everyone involved. Another that came to mind was Kaylie's initial confrontation with Scanlan. (A good one to turn into a 20 would be the Sunken Tomb 'Sam immediately jokes it's instant death and SIKE IT IS', because it would change SO MUCH of the campaign.)

For the 20 -> 1 :) well since you got me in an angsty mood :) True Love's Nat 20 made into True Love's Nat 1. Even if the roll had succeeded over-all thanks to the other contributions, I can't see Percy coming back if he didn't hear Vex specifically. We'd have Molly in Campaign 1. Vex might do something reckless and Briarwoods-esque to bring him back (winks loudly at Nova). Completely derail everything. (Of course, there's any number of villain Nat 20s turning into Nat 1s would likely be huge net positives, but I don't feel like researching any more than I already have :V)

37. You have to take a 16 hour road trip with one NPC from each campaign (all at once, ie, three other people). The NPCs cannot shorten the road trip in any way and the road trip must be via driving but you can do it in two 8 hour days and share a motel room if you'd like. Who do you pick?

... I read this as PC at first FUCK ME. Including the two I'd written for PCs + why I didnt pick my fav under the cut as a lil bonus.

a) Essek. Okay, hear me out: yes he is a war criminal, but he's also dealt with trying to get grant money and as someone procrastinating on two deadlines rn? mood. I'd poke his brain for hours about blasphemous magic if I could. Also, soup is cheap for when we're done for the day and an easy meal. I think he'd either be a perfectionist backseat driver or a panicky one and either way the research talk is worth it to me ok. I'll survive.

b) Vesper - never said specials were excluded, and she IS in her 30s by this point in the timeline! We have no clue about her personality, but I think, given her family, she's likely very smart and good conversation. Has money to throw at any problems we run into. Also allows me to get De Blorbo lore without wanting to throttle her dad. If she doesn't count because she's a Baby in the oneshot she's in, I guess Cass? Look I adore her but I worry she's never driven a day in her life + trauma + is a noble would make her a pain in the ass to be stuck in a car with, BUT I love her enough I'd take it in stride For Her.

c) Imahara Joe. Look! He's a vibe! If anything goes wrong he can fix it! He can keep conversation going! I have huge Mythbusters nostalgia!

a) Caleb! I think we could talk about our respective cats for hours, or I'd hope we could, and talk magic-science, and Keen Mind would make keeping rest stops/the time/maps/etc. in mind a breeze. And if he isn't up to talk he would just! be quiet! and read a book! which is good for my stress brain! And if both of us are overstimmed that's a 50% vote on getting people to turn the music fucking down so we can relax.

b) Fjord, actually? He's captn' Tusktooth, he knows how to organize a voyage and what goes into sharing cramped quarters with other people for hours on end and how to keep distracted and not kill eachother. Plus, Star Razor is a convenient flashlight if ever. His music selection would also likely be fun to sing as a whole car together - shanties or good roadtrip songs.

c) oufff this one's hard.

(I'm Not saying Percy because so help me I'd want to throttle him within the hour. Beau would bully me I think. Both are also so hot and my favs I think I'd die and be incapable of driving. Laudna would also make Noises with her Existing and I think I'd lose my marbles, sorry babe :c)

#ask game #campaign 1 #campaign 2 #critical role

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gracelaramusings · 2 years

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Day 1, Guatemala: En Route

Guatemala and Honduras here we come!

For some people flying is hell. I very much enjoy it. Quite a bit, even. OK, I would happily have skipped the long lines at Ben Gurion, but had I done so, I wouldn't have met Christian and Martin who were on their way to Juba, to visit a remote tribe in South Sudan that worships a special cow. Can't say I will add that as an upcoming destination, not only due to the fact that the country is at war and there likely are active travel warnings to prevent travel there, nor because my chosen veg/pescatarian lifestyle might be difficult to adhere to amidst this remote tribe, or even because I presume they do not accept Israeli passports which precludes travel with Yuval... but mostly I took pause because, when you see a grown man waiting on line to travel to a destination who is clearly highly anxious due to the multitude of unknowns that await, it definitely does not stir within me envy. Curiosity, yes. Cool that there are still relatively-unexplored off-the-beaten path travel destinations. Still, I'll let it suffice to follow Christian's instagram account to appease any whim.

The airflight attendant just led the plane in singing happy birthday (happy birthday Justina!), I believe that's a first for me. I've been on the last flight of a pilot (the plane is hosed down by the ground crew), a flight carrying a fallen soldier from Afghanistan (we remained on board and stood when the accompanying soldiers deplaned and for the coffin to be taken from the plane), and witnessed some hilarious crew or pilots who try to make the flight entertaining. But happy birthday? Not til now.

It's still the morning of the 26th and I've been flying since 1am Israel time. These hours of flight time are perfect for scribbling these words.

First, the elephant in the room. Or more accurately: the amazingly wonderful, incredibly incredible girl NOT in the room: Sheleg. Since she's spending a year of voluntary service working with the (also amazing) Jewish community of Rochester, and she just left for her post the week before we flew, needless to say, she can't join us, even for a bit. I struggled with the guilt of a family trip sans one daughter, and fight the urge to correct others, or myself, when a positive response is given or assumed after being asked if the whole family is traveling together. The present-kids came up with a brilliant idea (and for me, an acceptable coping mechanism)-- they printed out a nearly-life-size head shot of Sheleg so she could join us in at least some family photos. Yes!

And of course, there's the story behind the selection of the location(s). Actually, Guatemala has been a long-standing choice for a destination for both Yuval and me. We seriously considered it back in 2010 for our first Central America trip. But since the travel warnings at the time included kidnapping of people, including children, for the purpose of stealing their organs, well, we decided our lackadaisical parental lifestyle would not offer sufficient protection to our younguns, or at the least, the anxiety caused by the simple thought of that travel warning was enough to be a real downer. So we decided to put off Guatemala until our kids could put up a fight against any said-attempted-kidnapping, G-d forbid. At almost-24 and 20, both strong and fit, pity the person who even considers trying. They'd take a beating, I'm sure. I'd hope. Honestly, I haven't checked the travel warnings of late. But it's definitely a different story traveling as four adults.

Four adults. Is it still a family trip when you are travelling not as a whole family? And is the expression family trip misleading when the two children are, in fact, adults? Ah, the existential questions of life-long travel as a unit. I will still call it a family trip, just with lots of caveats. And soon enough (I hope?) it might be us joining them on their travels. But since they've taken a back seat (at least for now) on initiating any of the planning, I'll still call this the parents with kids trip, and not yet the opposite.

So I must admit, I have no idea where we're going or what we'll be doing. I've done no research as to what there is to do and where one should go. This is in large part because I fully trust Yuval and the great amount of reading he's done of the popular Hebrew language sites. So, stay tuned as we discover together the beauty of what awaits.

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hellerhejlesen55 · 1 year

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tumortunes · 2 years

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NED

so today marks the end of all of the horrible no good very bad days!

my end of treatment scans were as perfect as they could possibly be. nodules are gone, other unidentifiable stuff are staying the same size, there is No Evidence of Disease.

it still hasn't really hit me yet. mom burst into tears when we heard that i was NED. that the treatment worked. that things are looking good. the grandparents are so happy. nathan got choked up.

i dont really feel anything.

it was like this with all of the checkpoints/milestones that happened throughout this entire adventure. craniotomy 1, craniotomy 2, finishing radiation, finishing chemo, and all of these positive scans. my reaction was always like, meh.

i thought i would be happy once i reached this point. the official NED. everyone wants to hear that. that's the dream. right?

maybe it'll just take some time for it to fully sink in. that's kinda how i react when i take in new news. like when the first tumor board happened and i was told that my tumor was malignant and id likely need radiation and chemo. the way i react to jarring news like that is to not really have a reaction. even when i saw my big ass tumor on my first MRI scan, i was pretty calm. lol up until i had a seizure.

but i think that might have been a coping mechanism i adopted so that i could keep moving forward while everything was on fire. I think i can very effectively swallow my emotions and react calmly. find out the next step. so that's what i would do. it helped me stay focused and just keep blindly trudging forward.

i think it's only effective up to a certain point. and it's likely a survival response.

but I dont need to be in survival mode anymore.

that's the whole point of being NED. i should be happy because i can relax. i don't need to be as paranoid of the other shoe dropping. this is exactly what i wanted and i still dont feel anything.

but i think it'll take a while for me to unlearn those behaviors. they were effective when i needed to just keep on keeping on but now i think they're hindering my ability to really connect with myself and my emotional/mental status. i should probs schedule that therapy appointment with mariko.

part of me is wondering if my reaction is so lackluster bc im upset. this is how things should have been anyway. i should not have had to do this anyway. i should be entering my 2nd year of pa school instead of starting all over again. my brain shouldn't have had a tumor and i shouldn't have had to go thru this whole experience? trauma? journey? at all.

i see other people celebrating their NED status and popping confetti, champagne, screaming, eating cake. i just dont really feel like doing any of that stuff.

mom and nathan separately asked me if i wanted to do anything to celebrate today. like any special food or something. i didn't really want anything but we got boba. idk. maybe it'll feel more real once nathan and i are living at oak creek and can celebrate together.

nathan said that he also is having a hard time emotionally connecting with the news. he said that it might not hit him until we start doing things that we used to love doing together but had to put on hold. like eating out at a restaurant or hosing a dinner party or something like that.

maybe im still pouting and mourning the way things were. im not sure. i feel like that could be a contributor to my overall flat reaction.

i do enjoy sharing the news with others. they're so happy and it's fun to see their reaction even tho i dont feel that way myself. i've noticed that it does make me feel like the event is a little more real once ive told people about it. usually i like to tell meng and lisa first :)

so maybe once i start sharing the news i'll feel it now mr krabs?

im even listening to my tumor tunes playlist and i havent even cried yet. tears of joy or relief or resentment. nothing.

i got kinda close when i was talking with nathan on the phone earlier before i called meng and lisa. i was trying to figure out my lack of emotion from the NED news with him and i got a little choked up. but the underlying emotion wasn't bc of happiness. i think it might've been frustration that any of this had to happen. and relief that the weight of treatment and being strong by carrying on has been lifted. and probably a combo of lots of other emotions that i havent even figured out yet.

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