#ur literally no better than a straight homophobe

[b1mbodoll]

might just remove my sexuality from my pinned bc getting death threats over my self expression is insane

#idk if they are but if that anon was a queer person thats just crazy #like getting hate like tjat is expected from straight ppl but if u were a part of the lgbt community and chose to send me that… #ur literally no better than a straight homophobe #its so stupid to me like getting messages like that isnt gonna change my #mind about MY sexuality . #i actually care so much about that like damn youre really so lonely and miserable yourself that you have to say it to me… okay dumbass #if they send something else they r getting blocks real quick #anyway if ur gonna send hate to people at least fucking own it #dont hide behind an anonymous message lmfaoo if u gonna tell me to kill myself then say it to my fuckin face lol bum #deleting later #♡.gabi speaks

[krashoutluv]

comic!jason todd x m!indie rock singer/guitarist reader

cold weather - glass beach

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🪐⁠☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ warnings ; sfw (none)

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🪐⁠☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ contents ; hc’s totally not based off glass beach lyrics haha thats so cheesy whaat lololo…

I love the way you make me feel when I’m staring at my screen.

At 4AM, trying not to fall asleep

And you hit me up just to see if I’m OK

JASON TODD CODED SOOO BAAADD

literally how the crushes form for both sides

jason has like an inner psyche where he just fuckin knows when youre awake

if you ask him he’ll probably say something stupid like ‘i can hear your (guitar)/(voice)’ and he’s nowhere around you

and his heart throbs whenever you two stay texting for waayy tooooo loonggg, starts cheesing and shit

NEERRRDD

average jason todd text

When I keep you up sending Mamegoma Lines

You know it's shit like that that makes me wanna be alive

JASON TODD CODED LINE. CANON CANON.

he responds through his helmet while he’s kicking ass

it gets so common to a point where he ends up having a full blown convo w/ you using those stupid fuckin stickers

bug him late at night !!

he’ll tell you to gts but he’d be lying if he says it doesn’t make his heart melt when u send him these little fucks.

So I'll call in sick again just to spend the day with you

100% he’ll call a day off to hang with you

whether its showing up to your show then hitting a bar, 100%,

i need jason todd in a relationship where he just drops everything for his s/o,

fuck the mission!! he wants to listen to those fucking vocals for an hour or you shredding ur guitar!!

he’s fucking around in an arcade with you till 11pm

hes a little ass at mario kart, better with motorcycle games,

BRING HIM TO ANY SHOOTER ONES WHERE U HOLD THE GUN AND UR GETTING WAAAASHHHEDD.

he has the most fun with the halo ones or the walking dead ones

weirdly good at the multiplayer pacman games

AMAZING AT GALAXIA ILL DIE ON THIS HILLL

Wanna say I think it's so gay that we really both feel the same way

That I feel like we're more than just friends

It took too long to realize

I didn't miss the cold weather, I just missed you

Jason was never homophobic and or totally against the idea of him being gay

i dont think he was ever in a gay relationship b4 you two

bc most of the vigilante guys he met were trying to fight him or absolute dick heads,

n’ most of the male figures in his life weren’t the absolute best.

so there wasn’t tooo much room for crushing on a guy too easily

if you’d ask him abt his sexuality its smthn like ‘i think im straight but i dunno what if im not.’

heres how i think it starts ;)

you’re preforming at a bar, n’ ofc jason todd can admit when a guys cute/attractive, any guy could do that

and maybe its ur guitar or your vocals but he cant stop watching (he convinces himself its your talent which is reasonably not gay)

maybe one coincidence leads to another and you two chat and go out at times, he pulls up to your shows more.

and the whole time he thinks he’s just acknowledging that your a very attractive person,

notthin crazy to admit ya homie has mad kisssble lips after starin at them for a sec too long. lol. haha. hm.

and i think the thought really hits him when he’s out of gotham for a mission. and he’s craving your presence

he texts you but you dont respond, fuck right you have a show and the timezone difference—

n he gets fuckin, ANTSY and SAD.

he tries to smoke a cig to fuck off

but he cant stop thinking about that one night where he brings you to his favorite rooftop view of the city,

how those sly stupid jokes slip from your mouth like honey,

the way you glance at him and the moonlight on your skin

how he got that random need to just lean into your lips

and— (GAY REALIZATION PANICC) <- link

'Cause I don't need the cold weather like I need you

And I don't need the sweater weather I just need you

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na

Fuck! Hahahaha

hes unlabeled your honor.

#im not gay you are! #jason todd x reader #red hood x reader #jason todd x you #red hood x you #jason todd x m!reader #red hood x m!reader #jason todd x male reader #red hood x male reader #jason todd headcanons #red hood headcanons #krashoutluv

[bitethedevil]

what annoys me the most about "canonically bad in bed", a list

- this is coming from hist LITERAL DILDO, like sorry he is not trying to pleasure his dildo, DO YOU PLEASE YOUR DILDO OR YOURSELF WHEN U GET OFF??? (totally understand haarlep is unhappy #freehaarlep but that is not the topic of this treatise)

- masturbation is always auto-erotic. e.g. almost all pornography directed at straight men shows men glorification of THEIR role in a sex situation, almost all erotica directed at straight women shows THEM being desired, it is always abt u and ur ego

- being "good" or "bad" in bed is a normative bullshit question I am frankly annoyed tav can even ask, because different people like different things, and this game is otherwise a lot better written about sex and gender stuff. also if you play haarlep's game, tav lies there like a starfish doing nothing at all, and haarlep likes it?? we should get rid of normative sexual evaluations of others smh

- there are people who like topping, people who like bottoming, frankly this is kinda toxic homophobic/misogynistic "haha, he was the one *getting* fucked all the time" implying a. the fuck-ee is dominated by the fuck-er and fucking is a violent act of dominance (untrue), and b. bottoms are somehow lesser than tops? so much wrong with this!!

- if I recall correctly haarlep just says raphael was bad in bed and always on bottom, and nothing about how long he lasts, and then the only way tav can use this knowledge to provoke raphael is by ASSUMING he doesn't last for very long, which is like wtf? why would u shame someone with some made-up toxic sex norms/assume they try to last when they masturbate? (even in case haarlep does say raphael cums too soon, shaming people for cumming too quick is such an incredibly mean thing, they can't control it)

- it is kinda sad (and toxic ngl) that raphael cares about haarlep so much and can't deny him anything and is so obsessed with this person who hates him and is dependent on him, giving strong toxic hetero relationship vibes. raphael, u can't have a relationship with someone who u control baby that is just not how it works lil guy, are u too scared u are not good enough for someone who will choose u of their own free will, are u scared they will leave u babygirl

to conclude we know absolutely nothing about raphael's sexual preferences, we just know haarlep is (rightfully) angry at him and being a slave, and raphael has ego issues which like come one we already knew that from day 1

I’m completely with you anon. The only thing I would like to comment on (and this is just my own interpretation) is the fact that Raphael can’t deny Haarlep anything. I don’t think that’s out of any fondness, I completely think its through Haarlep’s magic…which…just kind of makes it worse since Haarlep is there to spy on him for Mephistopheles. You saw how hard it was for Tav to deny him use of their body and mind. I’d imagine it works the same way with Raph, even though he’s a cambion. In my mind, the whole dynamic between Haarlep and Raph is fucked and Raphael is just trying to make the most out of a bad situation (I wrote a whole post on it a little while back, but it is of course just my own interpretation). Which just makes it even WORSE that Tav behaves the way they do about the whole thing. Like damn. I’d be mad as hell too.

I might write a standalone post on the weird discourse on Raphael’s sex-life at some point because it does somewhat fascinate me. Everyone is entitled to their own interpretation of any work, and that is something I hold sacred. What bothers me sometimes is the way that people talk about it. For example, the problematic way of portraying tops/bottoms and the shaming part that you also talked about in this ask.  

What bothers me even more is when people feel the need to drag that interpretation into fan-spaces to reduce the character to just those aspects as a “gotcha”. I don’t know if that is just me, but if there’s characters that I don’t like, I don’t even use their tags. I’ve written a couple of hate posts on the Emperor. They might show up under the tag just because Tumblr’s algorithm is weird, but I’ve never tagged them with the character’s name, just in case there are fans who use the tag and find that annoying.

Anyway…Thank you so much for the ask! I completely agree with you.

#ask #raphael bg3 #raphael the cambion #bg3 raphael #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[a-small-batch-of-dragons]

Homophobia feat. Queer Teacher Alliance

Prompts: hi, sorry if requests aren’t open, but you wrote a fic called Homphobia feat. A Two Hour Math Test and it’s honestly been one of my comfort fics, and I wanted to request something kind of similar? A human au where one of the sides (preferably patton but you can do whichever character you want!) accidentally outs himself while arguing with a homophobic teacher about LGBTQ stuff and starts getting bullied for it by the students and the teacher. The other sides (actually good teachers) find him having a breakdown and comfort him and stand up for him against the other teacher, and it’s just emotional hurt/comfort and validation all around. Absolutely no pressure to do this if you don’t want to/it’s too similar to the other one /gen! wishing you a lovely day :D - anon

hello there! first not-anon fic request so I'm kind of panicking a little but it's fine!! anyway, I've recently reread Homophobia feat. a 2-hour Math Test, and it's been really comforting for a person who grew up and went to school in a very rural part of America (eugh republicans everywhere). I was wondering if you would be willing to write another work in that realm of Virgil suddenly having this insanely elaborate (insanely gay) support system that he didn't think was possible. or him turn table-ing on that support system and helping them with their problems. idk just something I've been thinking about! love ur stuff and I hope you'll take my request into consideration!! <3 - vinnbee631

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Warnings: homophobic language, outing, panic attacks/anxiety attacks

Pairings: gen

Word Count: 5851

Listen, all high school days suck, this one was just shaping up to suck more than literally all of the other ones ever. Namely, he was stuck in a class where not only was there a homophobic argument going on—as in, both sides are being homophobic and just debating on how best to be homophobic—but the teacher is doing literally fucking nothing to stop them. 

Okay, first off? There’s actually nothing wrong with not being straight. Big mind shock there to some people apparently, but yeah, nope. Nothing wrong with not wanting to get into a relationship or have sex with the opposite gender. 

Second, there’s no curing it because there’s nothing wrong with not being straight. There aren’t some fucking factory settings you can just reset to default and everything’s all heterosexual and cisgender again. 

And third, there’s never a good reason to be using slurs in a classroom. Never. 

All things that Virgil would love to say out loud but he’s currently seething a bit too much at no one else saying a goddamn thing. Especially the teacher. Come on, the teacher is supposed to be the one educating everyone, that includes educating bigots on their ignorance so they can, you know, not be ignorant and bigoted anymore? Ring any bells literally at all?

Apparently not because it’s been ten fucking minutes of this shit and the teacher hasn’t even so much as blinked. 

Eventually, Virgil gets fucking sick of this—fair—and raises his hand to ask to go to the bathroom. Which is another stupid thing about high school because why in the fuck should I have to ask to go to the bathroom? What else am I gonna do, fucking piss myself in the middle of the classroom? Hell no. 

The teacher waves offhandedly and he gets up to go, but not before one of them catches sight of him leaving and decides, like an idiot, to try and involve him in the conversation. 

“Hey, Virgil! Virgil, you think I’m right, don’t you?”

“Uh, I haven’t super been paying attention.” Which is true. 

“Where’re you going? Class isn’t over yet.”

Oh, don’t I know it. “Bathroom.”

“You’re not going to meet up with someone for, y’know, reasons are you?”

There are somehow more discreet and much better ways to ask if someone in your high school class is going to hook up with someone in the bathroom, and Virgil would prefer hearing literally any of them right now. 

“Oh my god, Kyle, you can’t just say something like that.”

Thank you, other homophobe. 

“Besides, Virgil would never be gay. He’s a good person!”

Okay, back to fuck you, other homophobe. 

“You can’t just blame sexuality on morality! You can’t just automatically assume all bad people are going to be gay or that all good people aren’t gay!”

That on its own as a sentence? Fine. Sure. Whatever. In the context of this conversation? Virgil really wants to throw a desk at Kyle’s head. He tries to just continue out of the classroom, but Kyle catches him by the sleeve and he grits his teeth. 

“Dude, seriously I’m just trying to use the bathroom. Lemme go.”

“Wait, wait, hold on, you gotta convince Leslie that I’m right.”

Virgil doesn’t have to do shit. 

“Look,” Leslie says like she’s talking to a person incapable of understanding any sort of logic, “if you make bad choices, you just have to recognize why they’re bad and then you’ll come to your senses enough not to do it anymore. If you just give someone the space and support they need to understand why the choices they’re making are bad for them, they’ll realize that they need to stop making those choices.”

“You do realize that most of them don’t give a shit about what’s good or bad, right? They like it, they enjoy it, they’re not gonna want to change. You can’t just make someone change their sexuality, that’s not how it works.”

Again, single sentences by itself? Fine. Hell, Virgil might say something similar. But right now? The way it’s being used? Kyle’s face really looks like it needs a desk in it right now. 

“Virgil, you agree with me, right?” 

No, Leslie, I sure the fuck don’t. 

“If gay people would just…understand that their lifestyle is unsustainable and unsatisfying, they wouldn’t be gay anymore. It’s the same with alcohol and drugs and all that stuff. If you understand why it’s bad for you, you won’t do it anymore.”

Virgil blinks once. Twice. 

You ever just…need a moment to process how much stupid someone just said to you? Like you need to take a second to look at the massive suitcase in front of you before deciding it’s too much to unpack and just throwing it all in the dumpster?

“That’s the stupidest shit I’ve ever heard,” Kyle says—which is fair— “gay people are criminals. They’re breaking the law and they should be punished for it,” which is not fair. 

“Actually,” Virgil says, still trying to tug his sleeve away, “it is legal now. Gay marriage is legal, Kyle.”

“Yeah, but so was slavery at one point. Doesn’t make it right.”

“Did you just compare gay marriage to slavery and think it was a good comparison?”

Kyle waves his hand like that just dismisses Virgil’s very good point about false equivalence. “And it’s against religious law too.”

“You do realize that we live in a secular state, right?”

“What’s that mean?”

“There’s a separation of church and state. Religion doesn’t govern, it doesn’t make the laws. We have religious freedom for a reason. And there are plenty of other religions in the country that—“

“Okay, okay, but like, it’s still wrong.”

“Why?”

Kyle looks at him strangely. “Dude, why are you so upset?”

“I dunno, maybe because both of you are being idiots? There’s nothing wrong with being gay!”

“There’s nothing wrong with people who are gay, no,” Leslie says quickly, as if he’s agreeing with her, “but if they made better choices then—“

“You’re wrong too,” Virgil says, “being gay isn’t a choice. You don’t just wake up and choose to be gay.”

“Hah! See?”

“I’m not agreeing with either of you, you’re both wrong. Now I really need to pee so if you’ll excuse me—“

“Dude, just tell us why you’re so upset about this and we’ll—“ 

He sees the moment Kyle’s eyes widen and his sleeve is let go like it’s gonna burn him. 

“No,” he says, shaking his head, “no, no, no, you can’t be, we’ve—we’ve shared a locker room, there’s no way.”

“What are you talking about, Kyle? I told you, there’s no way Virgil’s gay, he’s a good person.”

“What part of sexuality isn’t morality did you not get,” Kyle hisses, “he’s—oh my god, I’m gonna throw up.”

“Virgil, just tell him you’re not gay.” Leslie looks up at him. “You’re not, right? You’re not gay, are you?”

Now, see, here’s what Virgil should do. He should just shake his head and tell them they’re both fucking idiots and go to the bathroom. He should be like ‘that’s none of your goddamn business’ and leave. Hell, maybe he should just say that no, he’s not gay, so they’ll let him get out. 

He doesn’t do any of those things. He just stands there. 

“Oh goodness,” Leslie mumbles like she’s about to faint, “no, no, Virgil, you can’t.”

“Get the hell away from me,” Kyle spits, shoving himself into another chair, “get your goddamn hands off me.”

“You grabbed me,” Virgil points out, “I was just trying to leave.”

“Virgil, Virgil, sit down—“

“Don’t fucking tell him to sit down! I don’t want that anywhere near me!”

“Excuse me,” the teacher says, finally, like he’s just pulled his head out of his goddamned ass, “you three need to be quiet. Virgil, if you’re going to the bathroom, go.”

“Go and don’t come back,” Kyle spits, “I don’t want any of your gay shit near me.”

See, now, Virgil expects the teacher to, you know, maybe tell him off for swearing, at least? 

“…Kyle, it’s not nice to be throwing around accusations like that.”

“It’s not an accusation if it’s true!” 

The teacher looks up at Virgil. Virgil looks back at him. 

Come on, man, just…just don’t be a piece of shit. 

“…Virgil, when you return, why don’t you and I take a walk down to the counselor’s office so we can discuss your…mental health. I understand that high school is a very challenging time—“

Virgil tunes out the rest of whatever the fuck the teacher is spouting because oh my fucking god. He turns around and flees to the safety of the hallway. 

Fucking go. Doesn’t matter where just fucking get the fuck out of this place and away from those assholes before you die. 

His heart is fucking pounding and he wants to slam his head into the wall until he gets their stupid fucking voices out of his head and he hates this, he hates this. 

He doesn’t know where his feet are taking him but a chill breeze tells him he’s near the east wing. The science classrooms and art classrooms are over here. They keep the windows open for the fumes. Right. That’s where he is. That’s all the way on the other side of the school. Great. Fun. This is fine. 

He sinks into a crouch near one of the corners out of sight of the rest of the hallway. His lungs still aren’t cooperating. This is fine. This is fine. This is fine. 

He curls himself into a ball. He pulls his hoodie tightly around him. He yanks on the strings until he can feel the hood digging into his head. 

If he just stays here, if he stays a little bad where no one can find him, he’ll be safe. 

“Whoa, hey, pretty sure you can’t be here, bud.”

Nope. No more teachers. He’s just gonna stay still and not move. 

“C’mon, you don’t want detention, I don’t wanna write you up, let’s just get you back to where you need to go, okay?”

There’s a hand on his shoulder that’s trying to get him to look up and Virgil doesn’t care anymore, he’d rather be in detention than go back to his class right now. 

“Hey, it’s—wait, V?”

That’s Mr. Dagenheart, isn’t it? He’s the art teacher, right. Okay. Probably not gonna get dragged off to the principal right away. 

“V, can you look at me?”

Virgil peels himself up from where his face is plastered in his knees and stares up at Mr. Dagenheart. There’s a green streak across his mustache. 

“You…got paint,” he mumbles in a ruined voice, raising a trembling hand to tap his upper lip. 

Mr. Dagenheart just stares down at him. “V, you look awful.”

“…’anks.”

“No, wait, what happened? C’mon, come up off the floor, it’s even grosser than me. C’mere, come in here, come talk to me.”

Virgil lets himself get scraped off the floor and helped into the art room, sat on a stool as Mr. Dagenheart blusters around trying to find a cup that hasn’t got paint or paint thinner in it. Eventually there’s a clean plastic cup shoved gently into his hands as he tries to get the shaking back under control. 

“Drink up, it’s safe. Promise. Got a fresh one just for you.” 

“Thanks.”

Mr. Dagenheart watches as he drains the cup, quickly filling it up with more and setting it on the table. “Now, why don’t you tell me what you’re doing all the way over here? I’m not supposed to catch sight of you until after lunch when you and your other gremlins go bother Mackenzie next door.”

“I, um…”

How in the fuck is he supposed to explain what just happened?

“…I was trying to go to the bathroom.”

“Bathroom ain’t over her, V.”

“I know.”

“Did you get lost? Did you have a panic attack?”

“…kind of?”

Mr. Dagenheart nudges him gently. “I’m only gonna be able to do so much if you don’t tell me what’s going on, V.”

Virgil toys with the plastic cup, one of the edges almost tearing under his fingers. “I’m…I’m not bad, am I?”

“Are you bad? Whoa, hey, no, no, no, I didn’t mean it like that,” he says quickly, reaching out to put a hand on Virgil’s shoulder, “I just…you just surprised me, that’s all. No, V, you’re not bad.”

“I’m not a bad person?”

Mr. Dagenheart frowns but shakes his head. “No, Virgil, you’re not a bad person. Why are you asking me that?”

“E-even if I’m…if I’m gay?”

Silence. 

Fuck. I fucked it up. I fucked it up so bad and now I’m gonna have to run again. 

“Virgil,” Mr. Dagenheart says, looking more serious than he’s ever seen him before, “you are not a bad person. You are not a bad person, do you hear me? It doesn’t matter what your sexuality is, you are not a bad person. Being gay does not make you a bad person, you understand?”

Virgil just nods, a bit dazed by the sudden intensity. 

“Can you say that with me?”

“Being gay d-doesn’t make me a bad person,” Virgil stammers, “but—“

“No buts, V. Being gay doesn’t make you a bad person.”

“It doesn’t?”

“No, Virgil. Being gay isn’t bad. It’s just gay. Nothing wrong with being gay. Promise.”

And to his absolute horror, Virgil sniffles. 

“Oh, hey, c’mere, come gimme a hug. Oh, hey…” Mr. Dagenheart gathers him in for a gross and messy hug and it’s the best thing that’s happened to Virgil all day. “There, that’s better, right?”

“‘M sorry for—for crying you.”

“Hey, it’s my job to be gross, I don’t care.” He pulls back and pushes the cup of water at him. “Drink. I’ll get you a tissue.”

One tissue box and several cups of water later, Virgil rubs his eyes and takes a deep breath. Mr. Dagenheart watches him carefully, nodding when Virgil glances over at him. 

“Did someone say something to you? Is that why—“ he waves a hand at Virgil’s general messiness— “this happened?”

“…yeah.”

“Can I call your homeroom teacher? He should know about it.”

“W-wait, what?”

“Virgil, if someone’s being openly homophobic, I need to tell someone. Especially since it led to you getting hurt.”

“B-but I’m fine.” Mr. Dagenheart gives him a look. “…do you really have to tell him?”

“I should,” he says, softer now, “but we can wait a bit if you’d rather do that.”

Virgil toys with the strings on his hoodie. “…you can tell him.”

“Thanks.” Mr. Dagenheart picks up the phone and dials a number. “Mr. Everheart? Patton, yeah, listen, can you come down to my room? Need to talk to you about something. Okay, great.”

He hangs up the phone and turns back to Virgil. 

“He’ll be down in a moment.”

“And he—“ god, this is such a stupid question— “he’ll be—he’ll be fine?”

Mr. Dagenheart rests a hand on his shoulder again. “Yeah, V. He’s gonna be on your side about all this, I promise.”

Virgil nods, his eyes on the door. 

“Hey.” Mr. Dagenheart nudges him. “I’m really proud of you, okay? Coming out is really hard, especially when it’s like this. Thank you for being willing to share this with me.”

“…didn’t feel fair not to?”

Mr. Dagenheart shakes his head. “It’s your life, Virgil. Your moment. Your coming out. There’s no shame in staying in the closet if it isn’t safe to be out of it.”

“R-really?”

“Really.”

A few seconds later, there’s a knock on the door, swinging open to reveal a concerned-looking Mr. Everheart who only grows more concerned when he sees Virgil sitting there, very obviously have-been-crying.

“Virgil? What’s going on, are you alright?”

“Yeah, yeah, ‘m fine, I just—“ goddamnit, why is your soft concern making me cry again— “I jus’—I—“

“Hey, it’s alright, kiddo, you take your time.” Mr. Everheart rubs his back as he glances up, watching Mr. Dagenheart push more water toward him. “What happened? Panic attack?”

“Do you want me to tell him,” Mr. Dagenheart asks quietly, “or do you want to?”

Virgil shuffles, pulling his hoodie a bit tighter around his shoulders refusing to meet their gazes. 

“Got outed during a homophonic argument,” he mumbles, “went…bad.”

“Oh, kiddo, I’m so sorry that happened. Are you okay?” Virgil just shrugs. “Yeah, well, I suppose that’s fair.”

“Better now.”

“I’m glad.”

“…do I still have to go back to class?”

“No,” Mr. Dagenheart says just as Mr. Everheart says, “goodness, no.”

“Yay.”

“It’s almost lunch, anyway,” Mr. Everheart continues, glancing at the clock, “if Mr. Dagenheart doesn’t mind us invading his classroom a little longer…”

“God no. Stay all you want. I don’t have anyone in here until last period.”

“Thanks.”

He pats Virgil’s shoulder. “’Course. Do you want to get your lunch? You hungry?”

“Not really. ‘M fine.”

“You should try and eat something,” Mr. Everheart encourages, “just to keep your strength up.”

“Maybe later.”

“Alright, later it is, then.” 

Virgil has a sneaking suspicion he’s gonna get held to that. 

“Who was it,” Mr. Everheart continues, “that was involved?”

“…um…”

“I get not being a snitch,” Mr. Dagenheart says, “but these people are using homophobic language on campus and they’re bullying you. That’s not acceptable, Virgil.”

“No, it’s not. And I can’t let it happen. Especially if they start doing it more.”

Virgil chews his lip. “K-Kyle and Leslie,” he mumbles, “a-and…”

“And…?” Mr. Everheart prompts. “I can keep your name out of it, if that’ll make you feel better.”

“…the, um…the teacher kinda…joined in too.”

“He did fucking what?”

“Remus,” Mr. Everheart hisses even though the hand on Virgil’s shoulder has tightened significantly, “language.”

“I’m not gonna give a shit about language if I’m getting told one of my colleagues is being homophobic,” Mr. Dagenheart seethes, “especially to a student!”

“Guys,” Virgil says a bit desperately, “it’s not—“

“Don’t you dare finish that sentence, Virgil. This is a big deal and it’s not okay.”

“He’s right,” Mr. Everheart says, “this is unacceptable, Virgil.”

He gentles a bit when he sees how obviously upset Virgil is about all of this. 

“Hey,” he says, rubbing his back again, “thank you for telling us. We’re not going to bring your name into it when we take it up with the Dean, but you know we can’t let this happen again, right?”

Virgil nods, feeling tears well up behind his eyes again as he fiddles with the empty plastic cup. Mr. Everheart makes a sympathetic noise. 

“Do you want a hug?”

“…sure.”

Why does he give such good hugs? This isn’t fair. I’m just gonna cry again. Nope, no more crying over those assholes, they don’t deserve it. 

“There’s another sink in the back,” Mr. Dagenheart suggests, taking the now-mangled cup from him, “it’s cleaner. There are towels back there too, clean ones. Why don’t you go wash your face off? It might feel better.”

“O-okay.” He glances up with a watery smile. “Are you gonna wash the paint off too?”

“I think I like it, actually. Makes my face look more interesting.”

Virgil manages a laugh as he heads to the back room, listening to the two of them start talking quietly. Okay. Okay, this is fine. This actually turned out…kind of okay. Mr. Dagenheart seems pissed but not at him and Mr. Everheart seems like he wants to help and not make a big deal out of it. Good. These are both good things. He can work with this. Everything might actually turn out okay.

He turns on the tap and shoves up his sleeves, splashing the cold water on his face and dabbing it off with a towel. He’s just about to hang it back over the rail when he hears the door open again. 

“There you are, I thought we’d have to search the whole building for you!”

“He left a note saying he’d be down here, it wasn’t exactly a stellar deduction.”

“Mm, and we all know who the expert at those is.”

Nope. Nevermind. He takes it back. This is not okay. This is very much no okay. No okays here.

He knows who just walked in. 

That was Mr. Prince, Mr. Mackenzie, and Mr. DeLuca. Shit. 

What in the fuck are they all doing here? Do they all meet up for lunch or some shit? Fuck, that’s exactly what’s going on, isn’t it? They’re all here for their lunch break and that means Virgil’s gonna have to find somewhere else to hide for the rest of the day and shit, he’s not gonna be able to make it out of this room without anyone noticing, is he?

Fuck, why did it have to be them?

‘Cause Mr. Prince is gonna wanna know exactly what’s going on and he’s—god, extra doesn’t even begin to cover it and he may or may not be part of the reason Virgil realized he was gay in the first place, how in the fuck is he supposed to explain what’s going on?

And Mr. Mackenzie is super fucking serious and no-laughing all the time, he’s not gonna react well to Virgil being all emotional and crying and being upset about things, not when he’s got work to do and he has his class later, fuck. 

And Mr. DeLuca is fucking scary. Fuck, he’s given Virgil panic attacks before, he fucking eats students alive if they try and pull dramatics in his classroom, he’s so fucked. 

“What are you doing here, anyway? Normally, we’re the ones who come to meet you.”

Don’t tell them I’m here. Please, for the love of god, don’t tell them. 

“I got called down,” Mr. Everheart says, “Remus wanted to talk about something.”

“Oh?” Mr. Prince must pull out a stool or something. “Do tell.”

No. Don’t tell. Don’t say shit.

“Whatever it is, surely it can wait until we’re at lunch,” Mr. DeLuca says smoothly—yes, please, leave so I can run out of here— “now, if you don’t mind, shall we?”

“Gimme a second.”

Virgil has about two seconds before Mr. Dagenheart appears around the corner and shuts the door to the back room, coming over and taking the towel from his hands. 

“Hey,” he says quietly, “look at me, Virgil.”

The others are still here. They could hear him. 

“Hey.” Virgil’s eyes snap to his. “There. Good. Can you take a deep breath for me?”

Breathing is stupid. 

“Come on, in and out, you can do it.”

He can hear them talking through the door. Did Mr. Everheart just say there’s a student back there? Shit, he did. They’re talking about it now. Fuck, why did they have to talk about it?

“Virgil,” Mr. Dagenheart says firmly, “you’re panicking. Come on, just focus on me. Breathe in…”

Slowly, Virgil lets him walk him through a breathing exercise, squeezing his hands to make sure he can still move them and everything. But Virgil can still hear the others talking so his gaze keeps darting to the side and eventually Mr. Dagenheart asks if he wants them kicked out.

“N-no, you’ve—you have lunch plans—“

“You’re more important than my damn lunch plans, Virgil, now do you want me to kick them out?”

“…can you just make them be quiet?”

And of course he goes right over to the door, throws it open, and yells: “all of you shut the fuck up, you’re making it worse.”

“That is not what I meant,” Virgil hisses when he comes back over looking way too pleased with himself. 

“Yeah, but I don’t get enough excuses to do that anyway. Now,” he says, reaching out to take his shoulders, “you doing okay? If you wanna hide in here for the rest of the day that’s fine with me, we just gotta get some food in you first.”

As appealing as it sounds, it does smell like paint fumes in here and Virgil’s few remaining braincells would appreciate not being murdered. 

“Okay,” is the response he gets when he says as much—slightly edited, thank you— “do you wanna come back to the front now? You don’t have to tell ‘em anything, but they are gonna ask you what’s wrong.”

“Why?”

“Aside from the fact that you’ve kinda obviously been having a panic attack—“ rude but okay— “they’re gonna care, Virgil. And they’ll be on your side too, okay?”

“…they will?”

“Yeah, V. Promise they will.”

“How obvious is it that I’ve been crying?”

“…listen I’m not a very good liar, V, but you do look okay.”

Virgil glances around for anything that might be vaguely a mirror and gives up, pulling his hoodie down to cover his shaking hands and following Mr. Dagenheart back to the front of the art room. 

As soon as he gets through the doorway and feels all of the eyes looking at him, though, he wants to shrivel up and disappear. 

“Virgil?” Oh, hey, Mr. Prince, what’s going on? “Virgil, is that you? Are you alright?”

No, as a matter of fact, I am most certainly not. “…yeah.”

“You don’t have to lie to us, Virgil,” comes Mr. DeLuca’s voice and Virgil isn’t quick enough to stop his flinch. 

“What’s happened,” Mr. Prince asks as really fucking warm hands land on his shoulders and steer him to a stool, “what’s wrong?”

“Let’s not overwhelm him,” he hears Mr. Dageheart hiss, “c’mon, Ro, don’t be an idiot.”

“Oh, y’know,” Virgil tries, aiming for casual nihilism and missing by a few major philosophical paradigm shifts, “getting homophobic comments hurled at me, trying not to have an existential breakdown, just your every day high school things.”

“Someone was using homophobic language to bully you?” Mr. Prince’s grip suddenly tightens on his shoulder. “Did they out you as well?”

“…kinda outed myself by accident, but…”

“No, Virgil that’s not—look at me.” 

He looks up because he’s a fucking idiot and sees Mr. Prince staring at him all soft and concerned and he is going to die, this is how. 

“Do not ever blame yourself for other people’s ignorance,” he says firmly, holding eye contact, “you are not to blame for their shortcomings and it is not your job to make them understand just how little they know. That’s not your responsibility nor should you feel like it is.”

“…okay.”

“He’s right,” Mr. DeLuca says and since fucking when has he been that soft, “don’t spend your time trying to make other people better, it’s a thankless job with no reward.”

“…aren’t you a teacher?”

“I said better, not smarter.” But then he’s reaching over and carefully pulling Virgil’s collar away from his neck so it doesn’t choke him, and he’s still looking at him with a soft expression and Virgil is really confused, because why is Mr. DeLuca not skinning him alive right now, “Virgil, look at me.”

The concern is getting stronger, he can see it. 

“Hey,” he says and how is his voice getting softer, “hey, what’s the matter? What’s scaring you right now?”

“I believe we are.” 

Mr. Mackenzie, always there with the great observation skills. No wonder he’s a science teacher. 

“Give him some space,” he says, and sure enough everyone except Mr. Prince backs up a little, “let him breathe.”

“Hey,” Mr. Prince murmurs, still rubbing Virgil’s back, “it’s okay. We’re right here. You just take your time, okay? No rush.”

Fuck it. I just got outed, had homophobic insults hurled at me, and I’m currently in the middle of a bunch of mental breakdowns. I’m allowed to be a mess. 

Virgil buries his face in his hands and takes several heaving breaths, trying to focus more on the faint waxy smell of oil pastels and the warmth of the hand between his shoulders. There are a few quiet murmurs around him but other than that, he’s given the space he needs to process what’s going on. 

When he finally raises his head, it’s to a tissue box and another cup of water, both of which he accepts gratefully and tries to be a bit more of a person. When he’s gotten as far as he’s gonna get with that, Mr. Prince ruffles his hair and smiles at him. 

Not now, gay panic. Please for the love of fuck not now. 

“Virgil,” Mr. Mackenzie says, also speaking softly, what the fuck is this, “aside from my class, what else do you have this afternoon?”

“Uh…a study period.”

“Are any of you free this last period?”

“I am,” Mr. DeLuca says, “I’ve got one class and that’s it.”

“I would not be opposed to you skipping class today,” and what in the actual good fuck is happening, who are you and what have you done with my science teacher, “considering this is just to be a recap mainly for students who failed coursework for the last week and your scores were exemplary.”

“I—uh—what?”

“He’s saying there’s no reason for you to sit next to homophobes if you don’t want to,” Mr. Dagenheart says, “and so you can spend the first period here with me—if you want, and then Janus’ll take you for the second one.”

“Or we can go see Dr. Picani and see if he’ll write you a note to let you go early.”

Hold on. Back up. 

Slow down. 

“What’s going on?”

“You’ve just been through a traumatizing experience,” Mr. Mackenzie says, “and therefore are not in an opportune place to learn or benefit in any way from school. The solution I’m proposing is that you spend the rest of the day away from any of the students who could harm you further, be that spending time with Mr. Dagenheart and Mr. DeLuca, or by being excused for the rest of the day.”

Virgil blinks. Okay, yeah, that makes sense, but… “Why?”

“Because your well-being should come before your academics.” He tilts his head when Virgil stares at him like he’s grown two. “What’s that look for?”

“I dunno,” he says warily, “something about one teacher being homophobic and then a whole bunch of them being weirdly out-of-character supportive.”

“A teacher was part of this?”

“Name, Virgil,” Mr. DeLuca says firmly, “now.”

“Don’t scare him,” Mr. Mackenzie chides, seemingly focusing on the second part of that, “Virgil, if we have behaved or acted in any sort of way to make you believe that we would not support you for something like this, we deeply apologize.”

“It’s our job to make students feel like they have a safe learning environment,” Mr. Everheart says—right, he’s here too.

“Though I do want to know the teacher’s name,” Mr. Prince adds. 

“…why are you guys doing this?”

Mr. Prince looks at him for a second, before a small smile comes to his face. “Raise your hand if you’re gay.”

Virgil’s eyes widen as every single one of their hands goes up. 

“Virgil,” he prompts gently, “did you hear me?”

“Do not pressure someone to come out,” Mr. Dagenheart hisses, “what is wrong with you, Ro?”

“Right, right, sorry.”

“N-no, no, I—“ Virgil slowly raises his hand too— “I got it.”

“See?” Mr. Mackenzie smiles. “We’re with you, Virgil.”

“And whoever that teacher is,” Mr. DeLuca says in his scary voice, “he most certainly will be taught a lesson of his own.”

The cheesy villain line makes Virgil snort as he lowers his hand. “Thanks, guys.”

“Think nothing of it.” Mr. Dagenheart taps the table. “Now, I need food and I’m pretty sure everyone else does too.”

“Virgil, did you bring a lunch?”

“…nope.”

“Great, what’s your favorite kind of pizza?”

“My what now?”

“Thursday is pizza day,” Mr. Prince says by way of explanation as Mr. Mackenzie starts typing on his phone, “and it’s not my week to pay.”

“Excuse you?”

“No, I looked at the calendar, I’m next week.”

“Are you sure?”

“Hey, no, wait, I paid last week, so it is Ro’s week.”

“It is not!”

Mr. DeLuca rolls his eyes fondly as the others dissolve into bickering, beckoning a baffled Virgil over to him. “Are you alright, now?”

“…still a bit confused and upset, but…yeah? I think so? I mean, pizza sounds good.”

“I mean it, Virgil,” Mr. DeLuca says, reaching out to ruffle his hair, “if anyone ever says something like that to you again, I don’t care who it is. You come and you tell one of us, do you understand?”

“Mhm.”

“Good.”

“You…you really don’t mind me being in your classroom at the end of the day?”

“Of course not, sweetie.”

What the fuck—why are petnames happening? Oh, shit, I’m crying again. Oh, fuck, that’s why. Shit. 

“It’s going to be okay,” Mr. DeLuca murmurs as he slides the tissue box back over, “everything’s going to be okay.”

Maybe…maybe yeah. Maybe it will. Maybe this day won’t be so bad after all. 

Maybe this day is going to be pizza with his cool gay teachers. Maybe it’s going to be spending one period helping Mr. Dagenheart go through some of the old artwork from long-graduated students to decide what to put up on the wall and what to toss. Maybe it’s going to be spending the other with Mr. DeLuca who is secretly a big dorky goofball who likes bad math puns and the same science fiction TV shows that Virgil does. 

Maybe today’s gonna be okay. 

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[starry-sky-orchestra]

Let's make smiles bloom, anytime, everywhere! (WONDERHOY~!★)

welcome to my blog! (or welcome back if you knew me before i went by this user)

name: christy or papu either is fine

pronouns: she/her

sexuality: pansexual omniromantic

i am certified the prettiest princess in the entire world. bow down to me or else you get the guillotine grrr

-pls use tone tags when ur talking to me it makes a big big difference!!!!!

-possibly neurodivergent

-uh i apologize a lot and im really sensitive so. uh. jus like reassure me a lot ig

-if you call me a dry texter i will literally block you. /j but srsly not every1 is the best at talking..

-i have an agere blog which is basically my alt so follow that one if u want too. or not.

DNI: proshippers, anti antis(?? idk what this means but i see this in a lot of profiles), freakstarries, whatever weird pjsk fans call themselves, basic dni criteria ykyk, if u think age regression is a kink. it isn't. go fuck yoursel- if you support Sara_mjrb/lord_sara_gaming or mizumi-kagaho

social time whoohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

discord: ask in dms

youtube: pan_pan_papu

tumblr: ur here already.

wattpad: coming soon?? maybe????????

fandoms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

project sekai

danganronpa (well. barely.)

anime in general but most of the subreddits on reddit fucking suck. theyre all either weirdos or homophobic (as in, i like yuri but yaoi is EWWWWW guys cant like guys!! i wld fuck alstolfo tho)

bubble guppies

rugrats

mewkledreamy

sanrio in general

im joining a lot of fandoms every day. too many to remember

parappa the rapper

cardcaptor sakura

mario

nintendo

animal crossing

shima shima tora no shimajiro

ojamajo doremi

little witch academia

idolmaster

ummmm im hypersexual so like im more. weirder. than other people

fanfic writer. kind of. i have 200 million fankids and i will write about them ALL

i am probably the only shima shima tora no shimajiro fan ever. like im being serious its not that well known out of japan

i like karaoke!!!!!! kind of! its fun <3

also. i am being serious about potty training being my special intrest. pls dont think im weird.

if u ever wonder why all my fankids are so young/why i usually draw pjsk characters younger than they acc are then. ur reason is here.

-my art is fucking ass. like seriously its so terrible its the worst thing you have ever see

-i love emukasa (pjsk ship) like so much. LIKE SO MUCH. THEY ARE THE BEST M/F PJSK SHIP RIGHT NEXT TO RUINENE AND TOUKOHA

-speaking of, if u dont like wxs m/f or vbs m/f dni. like imagine being pressed over two teenagers kissing. that is so silly. anyways most of my ships are m/f i dont know why i have a lot of m/m and f/f ships tho. there is no way you can convince me haruka kiritani is straight she is a girl kisser. same w airi.

-mahou shoujo has my heart and soul <33

-i love ken shiraishi. whoever made an's dad design i love you so much he is such a dilf bro

-professional shitposter

-this is rlly cringe to admit. but. im one of those fictional other people ig? my f/o is arisa mochida from the hit game idolmaster cinderella girls starlight stage

anyways my tags are

fanfics - fanfics. obvi.

ok thats it idk what else to write

oh damn i made this too long. anyways. heres my carrd. it looks better on phone.

ok goodbye

#intro post #introduction #introductory post #intro

[semitransparent-glob]

i think byakuya is gay and has a lot of internalized homophobia but not towards other ppl, just specifically himself. Like he's like "yeah i don't care if ur gay that's cool that's fine. but I'M not gay. I promise.(lying)"

He holds no specific ill will towards ppl bc they are gay or bi or whatever else but he thinks it's literally impossible for himself in particular to be gay. He's not homophobic but he IS in complete denial about himself. Like it hasnt even crossed his mind that he also can be gay. And not because he thinks he is better than others (he does, but not bc he thinks he's straight) and therefore cant be gay, but like.. he just convinced himself that he is straight and won't budge an inch on the issue. It's because he believes he has to create the next gen of the togami name and i could be emo about it but because it's byakuya and I like watching him drop his ice cream i am going to instead bully him a bit for it.

He tells makoto "Oh, no, I've never been interested in girls. Sometimes I do get crushes on men. But I am straight. You will never convince me otherwise." and makoto just has to sit there like. 😐 "ok." because he has no idea how to even BEGIN unpacking all that.

[transinclusionary]

You hate Terfs so much but make ur whole blog about them and obsessing over them Lmao pathetic get a life

wait okay let's get the hypocrisy straight. By your definition, you would also be making men your whole personality because you "obsess" over it by discussing sexism (towards cis women lets be honest).

So what you're saying is that you complaining about men isn't obsession it's social justice. But me complaining about terfs terfs is obsessing? But if a blog was kill all men you wouldnt see a problem with that? It's cause you genuinely can't see the benefit in advocating for male rights for marginalized men. Yes becky, that does exist. Men can be marginalized while also benefitting from the patriarchy. Dont understand why I gotta remind every terf to the concept of intersectionality.

See it's the fucken hypocrisy for me with you terfs. I cannot stand how your rules only apply to you and no one else. You do realize that that rhetoric is literally used to devalue discussions led by marginalized communities towards their oppressors.

You know why? It's because you are literally the hate group. But you're even worse than other hate groups because of the amount of emotional manipulation. You accuse people of the same things you're guilty of because you know 'if I accuse someone of being obsessed, it will cover up for the fact that I'm literally foaming at the mouth thinking about trans people.'

I genuinely do not understand why you think you're better than a conservative transphobe. It baffles me that you wholeheartedly believe you're better than anyone when you are literally the WORST parts of every discussion you're apart of outside of your echo chamber. Without fail every discussion you have with someone who doesn't agree with you falls back to 'very homophobic or sexist of you.' But never catch you saying the word cissexist, racist, or intersexist. If something doesn't match your world view, you discard it.

You say "women can be more than what society tells them they can be!!" Then turn around and harass women online because they're trans. Make it make sense. The whole terf movement is laughable because of how polarized it is. You don't have an identity. You can't believe what you say about sexism and homophobia if you perpetuate your "justifiable" bigotry. Get real. No one respects you because you're a bigoted "social justice" group.

Can you fucking imagine if neonazis advocated for anti homophobia but still hated different ethnic groups? Or violent transphobes (you) railing against sexism? Time and time again, when I make this comparison a terf will say "not you comparing women to nazis" and not listen to a word I say. I stand by that comparison however. You are dangerous to the well being of trans people, thus you are no better than other hate groups.

Your willful misconception to human nature is baffling. I have no idea how every terf has an argument against why women committing crimes isn't indicative of all women but what one trans person does somehow means all trans people are like the one (1) person you talked to. Go fuck yourself for real and get the fuck off my blog.

#cissexism tw #ask answered #radfem tw #terf tw #radfem mention #transmisogyny tw #intersexism tw #abelism mention #anti-Semitism mention

[denizenhardwick]

I posted 5,707 times in 2022

That's 4,556 more posts than 2021!

931 posts created (16%)

4,776 posts reblogged (84%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@playtwewy

@vivi-mire

@the-queen-is-off-duty

@an-aura-about-you

@goldensunset

I tagged 2,255 of my posts in 2022

#twewy - 524 posts

#dusty plays final remix - 286 posts

#joshua kiryu - 240 posts

#neku sakuraba - 194 posts

#cats - 134 posts

#neo twewy - 115 posts

#shiki misaki - 113 posts

#personal - 97 posts

#princess tutu - 95 posts

#joshneku - 83 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#bruh my dumb ass misread this as 'why is shooting ur friend (friendship edition) so much harder than shooting ur friend (romantic edition)'

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

my favorite thing in sky is when you become friends with someone and then they take your hand and just start taking you somewhere. where are we going? idk, but this is my bestie now, and i trust them. if we run into a dark dragon and get attacked, well, at least we're doing it together!

138 notes - Posted November 17, 2022

#4

it’s about being bitter and alone for years, isolating yourself form the world and other people because you’ve learned that friendship hurts, connection hurts, and no one would understand you anyways, right? so why bother? no one gets it.

and then! then you meet someone who does understand you. who does get it. and you fucking hate him. he is the most callous, selfish, insufferable asshole you’ve ever met but he fucking understands you better than anyone else ever has and you hate it. you hate that you see yourself in him because you don’t want to be like that anymore. you’ve grown, you’ve changed, is that really who you are? or who you were? because underneath all of that cruelness, you hold similar ideas about the world, but where you’ve started to look up and see the good in that world, he’s firmly stuck in the opposite direction.

this is what you could have become, and you realize it’s not what you want to be.

hnnnnn i’m going to shred a log between my teeth like i’m a woodchipper.

220 notes - Posted May 4, 2022

#3

for a game from 2007 with no explicit rep, twewy sure is queer as hell. one of the main characters is heavily gay-coded and literally every other mc can easily be read as queer in some way, from rhyme being referred to as “gender non-specific or something in the middle” during an interview, beat having a deadname and being considered a disappointment to his family, shiki’s insecurity manifesting in her inhabiting a body that literally isn’t hers, neku... okay, i actually can’t explain why he comes across so strongly as bi, but he does. and i think that’s all really, really cool.

also the fact that joshua’s character still holds up, even in 2022, is pretty fucking incredible. like, "gay-coded villain who constantly hits on the main character” is just straight-up a homophobic trope, but he’s not a homophobic caricature somehow. despite being very enigmatic, his character is handled with the same respect as everyone else’s and, importantly, he’s never portrayed as creepy or predatory. not even when we find out that he is the villain and he did kill neku.

idk. i guess i’m just glad that i can still enjoy twewy in 2022 without a blatant homophobic elephant in the room knocking shit over.

247 notes - Posted June 19, 2022

#2

it’s me boy i’m the ps5

403 notes - Posted February 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

don’t you hate it when that happens

464 notes - Posted January 17, 2022

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[menalez]

okay abt the whole lesbian/bisexual thing. I grew up in a very religious setting, I'm bi and my older sister is a lesbian. She came out at 18 and my parents were upset/ashamed and just wouldn't bring it up, until she eventually saved enough to move out and cut contact. I came out as bisexual and my parents went nuts. they knew I was attracted to men, so they completely shut down any contact with girls my age that weren't completely straight-laced and began the process of betrothing me to another man in the community. I had to literally escape rather than the slow exit my sister got.

if i could go back I'd tell younger me to identify as lesbian, to save a lot of pain

okay several questions.

1. is it possible the reason they went nuts is bc they already dealt with their other daughter coming out, and then cutting ties with them? thus cementing the idea that they didn’t take enough of a stance to somehow “save” her?

2. wouldn’t a better thing to do if you could go back have been to not come out at all, knowing ur parents were so homophobic to the point where your sister had to cut ties with them? how do u know you coming out as a lesbian wouldn’t have also resulted in them doing the same? considering ur sister came out first and then left & cut ties, i can’t imagine they’d quietly wait for u to do the same if u were a lesbian. it’s not that uncommon for the older sibling that came out first to escape more easily & quietly from what ive seen.

#like if they were capable of doing that to u why do u think they wouldn’t have done it if u were a lesbian #ur sister leaving quietly seems like it probably would’ve made them even more alert and extreme against that stuff

[jellyjam]

the thing abt boyfriends is that I wouldn’t like it if it was abt straight people either like I understand what you’re getting at but

i see ur point anon and it's ok if it isn't ur thing (god knows it isn't mine) but that isn't the problem,the thing is there's a constant pattern with queer media where ppl tend to criticize them heavily for no reason.no matter the queer media no matter what it's about ppl WILL find something wrong with it and drag it down to hell.it happened to legend of korra it happened to steven universe it happened to she ra and boyfriends and heartstopper and and i can name SO many queer media that gets this treatment.and when it's happened so many times it really isn't a coincidence,ppl put queer mediaa to impossible high standards and will flame it literally no matter what.people will make jokes about how a media with zero queer characters or that's queercoded at most is "better rep" than media with literal explicit queer characters.and i feel like when it's become such a constant thing it IS a case of homophobia and a lot of the time internalized bc other queers just don't fully realize the harm they're spreading.they're spreading the same rehtoric homophobes are and it's just frustrating seeing queer media constantly put down when cishet media doesn't face the same treatment

#like it's fine if u personally don't like it boyfriends totally doesn't seem like my thing #but it's more of a cultural thing and how the masses treat it

[lilium-major]

my “glee” sexuality headcanons

MR. SCHUE - straight. and probably thought being super straight was a good thing when that was happening on tiktok a few months ago and he only stopped calling himself that when he started getting cancelled (again)

FINN - straight. but in a “aw token straight of the friendgroup” way and not a “lol ur straight ok” way

PUCK - straight, in an “lol ur straight ok” way. i wouldn’t put him past experimenting though. he probably did.

KURT - gay. i don’t know i feel like explanations are not necessary, he is exclusively homosexual i think.

BLAINE - this is tricky bevause my first instinct would be to say he’s also exclusively gay but i am hesitant to say that also. so maybe homoflexible? like he only sees himself setting with a man but he has short-lived interest in women. or is that just gay with comphet idk i’m a confused lesbian so me too blaine

ARTIE - pan? like i didn’t like any of his relationships on the show but i don’t feel like i see him with any of the guys on the show either. i feel like he definitely could have ended up with a person of any gender. so i’m gonna say pan. also he was definitely a gsa kid i said what i said

SAM - bi. chaotic bisexual energy through and through. i don’t know who i ship him with… maybe tina? maybe? it’s better than artina fs. i don’t ship blam, though, so i’m sorry if you came here for that.

BEISTE - gay? bevause i think he really into cooter in the beginning of that relationship. but i feel like he identifies as queer and just leaves it at that. i don’t really know though.

JESSE - bisexual through and through, i will not be taking questions at this time.

MIKE - straight? i really did like mike x tina. maybe heteroflexible though, or bi, with a heavier preference for women.

JOE - straight. and homophobic tbh. let’s not forget his first appearance.

JAKE - straight. again, like his brother, you can bet your ass he experimented with guys though. and denied it later.

RYDER - bi, i think. i don’t have a lot to say about his character in general, but i can see him ending up with a guy or a girl.

RORY - straight. hehe he loves women.

RACHEL - okay so i always thought she was straight while watching the show but then i fell in love with faberry and i now hc her as omniromantic, demisexual. i could go on and on and i might make another post about this later but yeah that’s my hc.

QUINN - is a lesbian. obviously. but i feel like she only uses the terms lesbian or sapphic to define her sexuality, i just feel like she wouldn’t call herself “queer” or “gay”

SANTANA - lesbian, but she does use queer and gay to describe herself. maybe moreso than lesbian, and she doesn’t use terms like sapphic or wlw at all.

BRITTANY - yeah i like her canon description. bi!

TINA - pan! i don’t really have an explanation, i just think she just wants to love and doesn’t care who.

SUGAR - straight. but she’s giving gsa vibes, so i’m thinking she’s one of those straight girls who comes out as bi but is repulsed by the idea of dating/sex with women. again, gsa kid.

UNIQUE - hmmm i want to say she’s unlabeled. she’s giving gay vibes, but i also think she definitely likes men to an extent. so yeah i’m going with unlabeled for unique.

MERCEDES - i think straight for mercedes. she’s definitely kissed a girl once but it wasn’t her cup of tea.

SUE - i think sue is aromantic, and heterosexual. which i guess is ironic considering she’s played by an irl lesbian but jane lynch is just so good. sue shows love in a lot of other (and often very strange) ways, and i think the reason that her storyline wasn’t romantic was because she just didn’t feel that. she didn’t need that in her life.

MARLEY - i think she’s pan! but everybody thought she was straight for a good year, and people started calling her the token straight of the friendgroup and she was like no actually i am gay

KITTY - the reason i hate her is because she’s like quinn, but straight. that literally takes away all the fun.

EMMA - straight. there is literally nothing more to say about that. no she likes men. she might be demisexual though. or maybe a sex-neutral asexual.

TERRI - i’m not going to lie she’s giving gay bimbo a little bit and i’m not against it. i’m probably going to regret saying that, though. uh…

#klaine #faberry #anti blam #glee #sexuality headcanons #glee sexuality headcanons #gay #bisexual #pansexual #omnisexual #lesbian #queer #lgbtq #lgbtqia+ #britanna #quintana #rachel berry #kurt hummel #quinn fabray #finn hudson #santana lopez #brittany s. pierce #mr schue

[bicultureblog]

okay this is probably not the right place to ask LMAO but i literally contemplate my sexuality every week. I feel like my attraction is a lot less strong for women that it’s almost invisible, and along with that, i only feel attracted to two women right now. I’m also only attracted to two guys rn, but i feel like I’m attracted to guys more often and more strongly. I know that could just mean that I have a preference with guys but idk. Also i grew up desiring relationships with guys plus i have to admit im sorta homophobic internally but to MYSELF. Like im fine with other people dating whoever they want but imagining myself with a woman just doesnt sit right with me for some reason. But at the same time im pretty sure im attracted to these two women.

In conclusion, im confused as heck and im sorry for taking up ur inbox space lmaooo

first i’d like to reassure you that internalized homophobia doesn’t make you evil, you don’t have to prove that you’re a good person, you don’t have to atone for the sin of growing up in a world that teaches you to hate yourself. you obviously don’t believe in homophobia, you’ve just internalized a heterosexist bias and it’s hurting you. you know to treat other queer folks with respect and you deserve equal respect and kindness and help unlearning that shame, not further shame for somehow disrespecting other gays by proxy, jesus christ. you are not an enemy to queers. you don’t sound like a homphobe, you sound like another queer person who has been hurt by homophobia. you are not a villain. please don’t feel ashamed, please don’t blame yourself for the harm done to you as if it’s really you hurting other people.

and on the topic of sexuality, it sounds like you like girls! you might like boys a lot more than girls, but you do like a couple girls, and that’s queer enough for me. i would guess your internalized homophobia influences that perception and could be causing you to repress and downplay your attraction to girls, but it could also just be that you like guys more, and that’s totally fine. even if it is the internalized homophobia, that takes time to unlearn, and you shouldn’t force yourself to rush it. i took a long time to accept that i like guys and it doesn’t make me evil or dangerous or weak. i needed a transitional period. i tried to go straight from “100% monosexual allergic-to-men lesbian” to “proud slutty bisexual” and it didn’t fucking work. shaming myself for having internalized biphobia didn’t undo it. i was scared, i felt like a traitor. what i needed was to relax. i needed a middle ground to teach me that it wasn’t all or nothing, that i didn’t need to stress myself out and punish myself for not being “better.” i needed the term “bisexual lesbian,” because the word “lesbian” was such a core part of my identity, i couldn’t just rip it out. now i feel whole and at home in my bisexuality, precisely because i know i can come back to lesbianism whenever i want to. it was like a kid who needs their mom to come with them on the first day of school before they feel safe going alone. another example: i’ve always hated the word “wife,” my whole life. i hated the idea of being called a wife. i dreaded getting married and having to put up with being called a wife. one day i realized i didn’t have to! i realized that even if i was a married woman one day, i didn’t have to call myself a wife if i didn’t want to. i could be a partner, or a spouse, or a female husband. since i realized that, i don’t hate the word wife anymore. i feel much better about it. i feel ok with the idea of being called a wife, because i know that it’s my choice. i don’t have to be forced into anything i don’t want. you will probably need some kind of transition like that. it’ll take a while to accept yourself and get comfortable in your own skin. the important thing is that it’s your choice. you don’t “have” to do anything. you don’t have a responsibility to be a model queer. do whatever makes you comfortable.

#juno speaks #ask #i'm sorry i took so long! #and that the answer is so rambly lmao #i hope i'm still in time to be of help #not gimmick

[angelhummel]

unpopular opinion: I have trouble seeing brittana as a serious longterm relationship

they just feed into each others delusions and worst behaviours because they won't ever call each other out on their shit

like when brittany goes against what kurt wants for his campaign posters, instead of giving brittany a reality check Santana says something like 'omg Kurt's 100% the wrong one here for not seeing how smart u are xx'

then their fans will be like 'wow Santana's the only one who sees how truly big brain brittany actually is, the definition of a healthy unproblematic couple’

if finn said to rachel ‘ur right rachel, sending sunshine to a crackhouse was the best thing for the team, ur such a consideration person’ i don’t think people would have a problem seeing why that’s just a couple feeding into bad behaviours but uwu sapphic cheerleaders <3

that might be an extreme example but when you look at how santana won’t get mad at brittany for releasing a their sex tape it just comes across as santana wants to coddle brittany and treat her like a child rather than an equal,

and then when brittany is still saying that santana is actually nice person underneath after being straight up told how santana is just taking advantage of her, it doesn’t seem like Brittany has any genuine reason for thinking that Santana is nice and is in fact just too dumb to understand why Santana isn’t nice

they were a surface level couple being all 'uwu we love each other so much, scissoring lol xx' but have no substance, they just don't act like people in a serious relationship would

sorry this is a bit long and really salty, i’ve just held onto this frustration about the whole ‘Santana is the only one who sees how smart Brittany is and Brittany is the only one who sees how nice Santana is’ ‘they’re the most realistic glee couple’ ‘they carried the show’ thing that in recent times has popped up more and more especially with the glee fandom on tiktok

to each their own but for the life of me i just don’t understand it

I literally don’t have anything to add. That’s pretty much every major complaint I have with them. And summed up better than I’ve ever said it so thank you lol

Santana will be racist, ableist, fatphobic, antisemitic, even homophobic and lowkey transphobic with some of the shit she says about Kurt and Rachel and then Brittany will be like “she’s actually a good person” and shippers are like “awww Brittany’s the only one that sees Santana for who she really is uwu they’re perfect!” 

and Brittany will ruin Kurt’s campaign, cheat on her partner, release Santana’s sex tape without her permission, try to out Santana multiple times, go behind Santana’s back to talk to her abuela when Santana has clearly stated she doesn’t want that, and also just be rude at best, racist and bigoted at worst whenever she opens her mouth to talk to someone never mind the actual insane shit like accusing a teacher of sexual assault or beating another student with an umbrella. And Santana will be like *literal crickets* and the fandom is like “omggg Santana loves her girl! she’s so whipped! she knows brittany is a genius!” 

and omg i know i always clown on people who spin klaine as abusive and come up with ridiculous shit but brittana?? like brittany gets so much fucking worse without santana and still acts like just as shitty a person as ever. meanwhile santana’s glowing up in ny working and going to school and making career moves and actually kind of being a decent person. and then the second she’s back with brittany, brittany is whispering a few sweet words to her and telling her to ditch her real life, dragging her off on a fucking vacation. and then in s6 they’re meaner than ever! it’s disgusting and i hate it :)

#glee #anti brittana #lol brittana #anti brittany pierce #lol brittany pierce #anti santana lopez #lol santana lopez #asks #answered #my thoughts #long post #youre so right op omg #glad im not the only oneee #also this post isnt really anti santana #its stating straight up facts lol #Anonymous

[luna-lovvegood]

can i hear some of your mean james hc’s

omg sure!!!

hes literally sooooo misogynistic. he calls any girl who won't go out with him (basically any girl with any self respect etc) a bitch dyke cunt etc etc. he has literally hexed girls for turning him down. sirius is super supportive of him hes always like "oh my god what's wrong with that bitch she deserved it if u had asked ME out I would've obviously said yes (if I was a girl duh im not gay LMAO)" and then he stops doing that once he realizes hes gay in love with james etc . one time to lily he yelled at her like "WILL U GO OUT WITH ME" and pushed her over and kicked her in the shins and then remus was like "I dont think thats a good strategy" and hes like ur right maybe being nice will work better and he becomes a Nice Guy.

he is also sooooo homophobic until sirius comes out to him. sirius literally just changes his opinions overnight in his sixth year after he realizes hes gay he comes out the morning after and he yells at james for being homophobic even though literally yesterday he'd called lily evans a dyke for turning james down again and called peter like. twenty different slurs. so james is like omg ok ur right. "gay men are SOOOO cool. I love them. it would be so cool to be attracted to men because women suck. youre so lucky." and he and sirius r like the most misogynistic straight and gay guy ever. s/j switch from calling r/p homophobic slurs to misogynistic/lesbophobic slurs because they still hate women etc.

james thinks hes the most oppressed person in the universe. he doesnt think hes privileged at all and he often talks about how easy it is to be a woman and how feminism is stupid bc women r privileged. he thinks hes allowed to say mudblood bc hes a "blood traitor" etc . every once in a while remus will talk about how it is to be a werewolf and James will interrupt and be like "but do you understand how hard it is for ME? I literally have to keep your secret." I also agree with Eli I think he definitely sided with sirius on the prank. remus gets mad at him a lot but james is always "shut up I didn't do anything. you're being overemotional. what are you, a girl? stop overreacting oh my god"

he and lily get married (she proposes so suddenly because the night before she'd kissed mary macdonald and being a lesbian is scary for her) and one night she tells him "I think im a lesbian" and hes like "why would anyone love women? isn't it bad enough to be one? sometimes I wish I was a woman so I could love men." and then he goes on a long rant about sirius etc etc.

when harry is born he immediately leaves. he goes straight to sirius and remus' and james and sirius kiss as soon as he opens the door. sirius is like you should stay in my room remus can take the guest room. remus hates james for it and he hates sirius too because now they only care about each other and after a bit remus is like "I think im going to live peter" and james is like "no obviously you're staying here why would you leave." then goes back to talking to sirius

he doesnt actually care particularly about the war other than to be seen as a hero. mostly he just wants his friends to be safe BUT he has so much of a savior complex he often puts them and others in dangerous situations just to save them. that was another reason he sided with sirius he loved being noble and a hero saving snape while also getting to put him in a horrible situation <3 anyway thats all I got for now

#politically correct #I MEAN THIS ALL IN SUCH A GOOD WAY THOUGH. LIKE HES THE MOST SEXIST FUCKING NICE GUY EVER BUT HES MY POOR LITTLE MISOGYNY MISOGYNY #im so sick of boring character flaws like being a murderer or whatever. make them huge lesbophobes. /j #however I am kinda serious lmao #uhhh #misogyny tw #d slur tw #homophobia tw #im so sorry I make him such a bad person Ihfdgkjhskdfjhg

[selkiecoded]

As someone who has read horimiya, ur right. I believe my exact reaction was something like "oh this is interesting and a cool concept where are they gonna go with this??" to "ah. Okay. Sure." Like it wasn't like the worst thing ever but it also wasn't great and I'm sure if a reread it i would be deeply uncomfortable with some of the implications...but god it had potential (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ

no exactly. IT HAD POTENTIAL!!! It had potential to be a deeper story, and thats the worst part. im more sympathetic to the original webcomic bc clearly the author was just going in without a big plan and thats fine, BUT! that means i have to be harsher on the manga (and anime, but i havent finished past e2 so) because it HAD the full story laid out for it. the point of adaptations is to convey a certain idea differently than the source material, and the manga shouldve taken this foundation and adapted it towards a more meaningful story. but nooo…

the suggested premise was that of private identity, and thats an interesting springboard for conflict, but like. nothing happened. it was serious in the very begining and in the very end. after like, volume four (and even then im being generous) it was nothing but pure uninteresting filler, loss of previously established characterization, and extremely weird and abusive tendancies from one of the main characters (i dont like talking abt the weird kink shit bc it makes me uncomfortable but.. yeah..)

like. if the story had bothered to follow issues established from the very beginning to their obvious emotional root, it wouldve been a stronger story. miyamura managed to get the better exploration of his issues - and it really wasnt all that great - from the depression, lonliness, and self harm. but i think the problem is, the author wasnt quite sure what to do with hori, and when shes one half of literally the title “horimiya” this is a big issue. i mean, its all right there. her parents are working all day so shes the one caring for her little brother, taking care of chores, dinner, etc. this, and she clearly tries to go for a cleaner image at school. but the story couldnt figure out how to take her issues seriously, so it never even tried. i mean, eventually they started bringing her parents back into the story which is like! so wrong i dont even know where to start! i mean thats literally a foundational part of her issues, and they got brought back!!!! i fucking hate her dad by the way i hate him so much.

horimiya just needed to like, actually care about hori and miyamuras problems, and not obscure this by “ohhhh whats side character number twelve doing this time!?!?!?!?” every other chapter. ive seen a couple of reviews that marvel at the fact that its gasp, a romance anime where, double gasp the couple gets together before the end of the show? scandalous! ten stars! but even though the issues w horimiya were ignorable for the first couple of chapters, them getting together made the story lose any and all sense of acceleration and thus made every issue of the story that much more obvious. and then there was filler. for sixteen volumes.

again, not even MENTIONING the weird kink shit the author inserted or the like weird homophobic jokes or how hori isnt a tsundere or whatever shes straight up abusive. tip: i am so fucking mad.

#I Can Fix It Though #GRAGGHH ANIME. bad stories are bad BUT STORIES THAT COULDVE BEEN GOOD.. *STRANGLES* #horimiya #ask me no questions and ill tell you no lies #horis parents need to need a divorce and she needs to dislike them and her school and home selves need to be more distant #there are soooo many chapters where its like. yes! yes follow this thread PLEASE #like the chapter where hori rips up her future plans paper TIE THAT IN WITH HER PARENT ISSUES! #MAKE HER FEEL LIKE HER LIFE IS GOING TO BE NOTHING BUT BEING A HOUSEWIFE FOREVER! #and on the miyamura end MAKE HIM NOT FEEL LIKE HES GOING TO LIVE VERY LONG! #like they followed that thread a littl bit with his tattoos and earrings but NOT ENOUGH!!! MAKE IT STRONGER! #put your back into it jesus h. christ!!!!! #raughhhhhh

[dreamgirledward]

"my homophobic tv show is better than urs" ok guess i didn't get the memo that we've all been shot like 8 years into the past and we're pitting unrelated pieces of media against each other like children again but im just gonna say comparing spn to good omens/hannibal (all 3 of which i have watched) is just rly dumb bc while they all fall into the queerbaiting trap, two of the three of these never had real intentions on making their lead couples anything other than ambiguous and just played with tension and subtlety. pls dont forget every major network KNOWS how to reel in queer fans with bait (pun not intended) and they KNOW it'll work if it can pass undetected under the radar of their intended straight cis audiences. gomens is my fav book but did I ever expect crowley and aziraphale to actually date in the show? absolutely not. did the baiting surprise me? absolutely not lol. while these remarks about spn sucking are funny bc you think one is more poetic and dark and pleasing to the eye or on the other hand more campy or WHATEVER than spn generally, like cool but people are excited bc what's going on rn isnt NORMAL. a love story blossomed between a gay angel and a repressed bisexual man that wasnt MEANT to originally, like deancas wasn't INTENDED for endgame cas wasnt even supposed to make it past a few eps originally, and that's what makes it so special for people. we've talked about how cas is literally the only character within the spn story that had actual free will and used it for and to love, but the love they had for each other became so immense even WITH the chucked lines and hundreds of rewrites to appease a homophobic network that it spilled through the cracks regardless. we get excited over these released scripts bc they're a reminder that some of these writers were always in our corner, we were never crazy and they KEPT ON TRYING to make it happen.

edit*: basically what im trying to say is all of yall basically look like you're looking down on spn via classism and elitism like fucking chill we're all losers on the hellsite you are not special

#im not trying to be aggressive about this or anything like im literally a fan of all three #but its so frustrating when i see people compare things that shouldnt be compared #like if you like gomens or hannibal better FINE just dont rain on hellers' parade lmao #like just let people be emotional and excited and heartbroken over something that was a part of a lot of our lives for a rly long time 🥲 #spn #hannibal #good omens #destiel #deancas #like YES all three are homophobic but like pls #sammy.txt