#what exactly am i watching

[malepresentingleg]

now his mom is singing???

#what exactly am i watching #jesus #i mean they're the cutest mother-son duo #but i mean #ahh? #leg is live blogging #leg is watching my school president #my school president #msp

[itsthislake]

“Icarus.”

it's all about freedom really

Credit goes to An Sifakah for the poem. Enjoy!

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#lake's art #happy birthday sabo! #this time actually on time wow #revolutionary sabo #one piece sabo #asl brothers #asl trio #monkey d. luffy #portgas d ace #watch me tag ace even though he barely shows up #one piece comic #one piece #one piece fanart #oh i'll confess. i traced that ship from a screencap #there's no force on earth that can make me draw a whole ass ship sorry #as always I am stupidly proud of exactly 1 (one) page and this time it's the third #but i also just love that part of the poem so i was already biased towards it before i drew it lmao #i had a whole ass explanation for the reasoning behind this comic that i wrote at like. 3 am. but fuck knows what i did with it #i contemplated colors and immediately gave up. hell nah i'm not doing that again

[lucabyte]

i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking. #nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose. #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #---------------------------------------------------------------------- #anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!) #which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around) #and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt) #and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine) #the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly. #but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief) #as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

[theoldkyokodied]

Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')

#tomgreg #succession #dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel #and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited #so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate) #im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen #thats the kind of person i am #dont look at me (lying on the floor) #okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting.. #i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow.. #greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included) #greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor #i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg #only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual #oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before #but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine #i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...

[zivazivc]

Sorry if this has already been asked before but why did the band break up? And did they break up on decent terms? Do they still talk to each other sometime?

It has been asked before, I just never answered jshfbdjcbh I'm still piecing everything together and stuff is changing or getting tweaked all the time, so I'm always super hesitant about answering these types of questions, afraid that people will take whatever I say as the final answer. So basically what I'm going to answer now will already contradict what I told some people already. And maybe in the future the story might go a little differently too (although I'm pretty satisfied with the current events)

Uhhh, get ready for a long info dump. I didn't expect I'd write this much...

Floyd basically stayed with the band for 8 years (from 14 till 22) and got pretty messed up in the process. The rest of the guys are all quite older than him so I guess I could say they were more responsible, or at least had a better understanding of their own limits (also they grew up in this kind of environment or grew up aware of it, while Floyd was oblivious and naive about all of it) and while they do get drunk and do drugs often, none of them are really dependent on them. They are also pretty good judges of character and know how to avoid trouble. Floyd on the other hand drove in with no breaks and constantly got himself in trouble that the rest (mostly Les) had to drag him out of. He also developed bipolar during this time (in my story Floyd constantly fluctuates between being saturated and being desaturated because of this) and his manic and depressive episodes started getting out of hand after his teenage years. (None of them are aware it's a mental disorder that's making him act so out of character.)

Floyd was becoming miserable because of this and all of his problems pilling up, and started blaming Les for the way he was. Les never argued this which only fueled Floyd to blame him more. In the end he was getting so frustrated and irritable that Floyd constantly tried starting arguments with him, even putting him down and getting aggressive at times because Les gets very unresponsive and closed off during personal conversations (guy is a giant onion of suppressed trauma that Floyd is hellbent on peeling open).

Eventually there was one fight too many, terrible things were said, some objects flew through the air, and Floyd walked out (or Hed kicked him out, I haven't decided yet) with the promise of going home and never seeing them again.

So, yeah, it was very messy and Floyd was the primary asshole, even though he's not really to blame either...

But Floyd didn't make it home (was too scared to sneak through Bergen Town to get to the tree (i don't think i can judge him for that either)) and he just returned to the reckless lifestyle, this time without anyone being there to keep him safe. So if he was messed up before, this is the time period where he got absolutely fucked up. This is also when he got heavily addicted to sour worms. And when he chronically slept around (half the time just to get offered free worms or have somewhere to sleep, other times because he was having manic episodes and was feeling hypersexual). (This is also potentially the period when he had the two eggs with that techno troll, but I'm still thinking if I want that to be canon to the story or not.) During this time he also grew to become very anxious and his self-confidence went to shit when he was being himself.

Then after about three years of that, he bumped into Les at some party. He wanted to dodge him out of shame but Les grabbed his arm and manhandled him outside to talk. Floyd felt like shit about the way they had split up and tried apologizing for all the stuff he had said and done to Les, but Les wasn't having any of that because he wasn't angry at Floyd, he was just worried about him. Les is also insanely empathetic like Floyd, and he knew that Floyd never really meant any of it, and that he was just looking for an outlet when he was hurting. Also he does think he is to blame for the way Floyd ended up.

Les wanted to know why he didn't go home like he had said (because that was the only reason Les had even let him walk out in the first place). A few exchanged words later and Floyd broke down telling him all the awful things he'd done, and Les promised to help him, feeling insanely guilty. Floyd wondered if he was allowed back in the band but Les made it clear that the band wasn't good for him and that he was never taking him back. Instead Les helped him go though rehab. I don't think trolls have those institutions (or at least not many are aware of them or how they work (I'm sorry but I refuse to believe the Trolls world has internet and cellphones, Mountrageons can keep that for themselves lol)), so it was more or less just Les finding Floyd a job and his own place to stay in the middle of bumfuck nowhere where he had no option but to detox, and constantly checking up on him to make sure he was doing okay. During this time they grew pretty close again. Or maybe the better term would be that Les slowly started putting his walls down again.

Hed needed a while to warm up to Floyd again. He's almost as protective of Les as Les is of him, and he resented Floyd for the way he had treated him.

Flea is pretty phlegmatic when it comes to any sort of arguing or drama. He was casual about seeing Floyd again, they were never super close anyway.

And Liv, she left the band when she and Hed broke up (haven't decided if that happened before or after Floyd left), so Floyd didn't get to see her again after bumping into Les at the party. And I haven't thought yet if they'd ever meet again somewhere later in life. But if they did, I think they'd both be happy to see each other.

Anyway...

Floyd managed to detox and successfully kept the job for about a year, but then he became manic again and messed it all up. After that he returned to his nomadic lifestyle, but he never fell as hard as those three years again. In my story Floyd's life is a constant cycle of getting his life together and fucking it up and booking to the next place. And he and Les are trapped in a never-ending cat and mouse game where they're both trying to fix each other.

So, uh, Les and Floyd are still very close and see each other somewhat often...

(sometimes monthly, sometimes yearly)

Yeah...

I am so fucking obsessed with them I'm gonna hurl. Please take this song before I combust:

#btw the status of Floyd's and Les's relationship is forever set on 'complicated' #but they are as obsessed with each other as i am obsessed with them #the song is too soft and vulnerable to be something les would sing out loud but inside he does feel it #papa roach is nu metal btw. tho idk where this song stands exactly #trolls #dreamworks trolls #ex bandmates #trolls floyd #trolls oc #les #answered #my art #btw I am only self educated on the bipolar disorder from what i've read and watched on the internet so have that in mind #my intention is to be respectful but i might not understand all of it. especially not the personal experience of those who have it #i'm just some random nerd #so in a way you could say floyd was diagnosed by a nonprofessional lol #i stayed up until 3am last night writing this #today i made the sketch that is no longer a sketch #should i put this post under a cut? it is pretty long #long post

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him..... #anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

[chirpsythismorning]

S5 opener REAL

#byler #will byers #stranger things #every season besides s4-5 opens with non main characters #for el we got a flashback of the lab followed by her perspective in the scene directly after #and I think for Will we will see something similar #with us getting the flashback of him in castle byers in the UD #followed by him in the present in the scene after #but what exactly would warrant that memory being brought up in association with Will in the present? #mayhaps his connection to the mindflayer and the UD run deeper than we realize… #it’s likely not something he could just rid himself of in s2 and now he’s all good #he literally still feels a connection to everything he is feeling #that means he is still technically at risk of being the spy in some capacity #the massacre at Hawkins lab also was a guiding force for El discovering the ‘truth’ in s4 #so it’s likely for Will this instance will operate in a way that re-contextualizes the events in the past up to now #like that time Will suggested they go to the hospital in s3 only for the flayed to be waiting for them #or how flayed Billy knew they were at the cabin… #all while Will was looking cryptic as hell in that scene watching over el #or the fact that he picked Billy in the first place the season after he focused on Will… #you know.. williams #I think the easiest way to introduce the castle Byers flashback is a dream honestly #specifically a dream within a dream #seeing that recent leak and Will looking like either he has a black or hasn’t slept in days #is giving very much ‘I am afraid to sleep bc I’m scared of what will happen’ #I think dude is not exactly possessed in the sense that we already saw in s2 with like the particicles #but he’s still vulnerable #the door is still ajar… #no but fr this idea of opening a door in your mind was so blatant in st2 AND s3b of teen wolf #I think a big part of it will be guilting Will over the fact that Will has helped him before without Will telling the others #hence his weird vibe in s3… like he’s already successfully fucked with Will post s2 potentially with us being none the wiser aka here we go

[jemmo]

when jaewon went to the river where jihyun had previously gone to explore and find himself in the city, and where they had gone together on their first tentative kinda date, and he sat there, at that place of exploration and discovery and figuratively and literally dipped his toes into the water, and all his memories of jihyun came flooding back as he explored the idea of being with him and reacquainted himself with water, something he’s always loved but is also a source of his trauma, and then that perfectly timed text came through and jihyun reaching out to him, jihyun telling him through that song that their future was their decision, that he had control, and that gave him the strength to take that opportunity…

you better believe i lost it

#I have not sobbed while watching a show like I just did watching that scene for so long #bc it’s exactly what I wanted #for jaewon to run to jihyun with all that strength and bravery and just absolutely kiss his face off #and be so absolutely unashamedly joyful about it #god this show is a fucking feast and I am never full #the eighth sense

[ryllen]

another him & also him pinning from behind coz that’s the million dollar heart throbbing position

#i think it's more superior than any '-don' #the sudden feel of having ur back towered and getting jailed by the watchful hands that placed on both of ur sides the feel that u can't run #it takes u on when u're the least defensive cause u can't exactly see what's behind ur back #sdv #stardew valley #sdv alex #sdv farmer #stardew alex #stardew farmer #stardew valley farmer #stardew valley alex #i just found this white rib knit sweater i wanted him wear #and one thing lead to another #fanart #i never wish i am better at abs and muscle dang it alexander mullner

[p4nishers]

WAIT BC NEIL GAIMAN SAID TO FAMILIARIZE OURSELVES WITH THE PLOT OF PRIDE AND PREJUDICE AS PREPARATION FOR S2... AND ONE OF THE MAJOR POINTS IN MR DARCY AND ELIZABETH'S RELATIONSHIP IS A LOVE CONFESSION THAT GETS REJECTED. 1941 SCENE

EXACTLY U GET MY BRAIN THANK YOU. AND !!! THERE ARE MULTIPLE REJECTIONS !!! I AM SO SCARED

#lizzie was literally slam ducking darcy with rejections every 10 minutes or so its so funny but also WDYM WE SHOULD WATCH IT BEFORE S2??? #WHAT EXACTLY DO U MEAN BY THAT NEIL BBG??????? WHATTAT????? #dude i am not surviving this #good omens #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #azicrow #ineffable husbands #pride and prejudice

[bethanyactually]

an incomplete list of clues in the Black Door episodes pointing to the fact that something was wrong 🚩🔎🚨

Ace flatly refusing to look at or engage with Nancy

Ace not wanting to help Nancy

Ace not caring if a mystery got solved

after an argument, Nancy being the one who walks away first

#nancydrewedit #naceedit #nancy x ace #the heartbreak of truth #nancy drew cw #this post has been in my drafts for ages waiting for me to come up with a brilliant caption but that's not happening so here we go #just--this stuff is what stood out to me MOST in 409-412 even before we knew exactly what was wrong #and on rewatch it feels even wrong-er with the context #the more I watch s4 the more I like it and the more impressed I am with the writing #this show got the short end of the stick cancellation-wise and they gave us the best possible series finale they could bless them #I do really wish we could have seen their original plan I suspect it would have been as excellent as the other season finales #but they did their level best and the s4 we got was PRETTY GREAT imo #bethanyactuallyedit #queue of themyscira

[benetnvsch]

this image was beamed into my skull right as I was tryna sleep so had to sketch it rq- may clean it up later- may not lol

#who needs sleep when u got two Guys Living in your head who u need to draw over and over again rent free? #kunikida doppo #kunikidazai #Dazai osamu #kite draws #art #fanart #bungou stray dogs #bsd #kite watches bsd #knkdz #PLS these tags are in awful order I am tired #The vision was #they are dancing together in a kitchen at night IDK #it was very specific in terms of colors and setting and :Sweats: nervous about finishing this one boys what if it doesn't look #exactly like the image I see of it in my brain #I'd have to deactivate I fear/j #leave the tumbler for ever </3 #OH Some fun kite lore #I never export my wips #I just screenshot those bad boys and send it LMAO #this one is particular cunrchy too bc I decided to sketch in a pixel brush cuz I've been working on pixel art comms #and was too lazy to switch it back #teeheee guys who are too lazy to with a brush but not too lazy to sketch and entire piece :poses: #I also drew their outfits from memory and forgor that Kunikida Does Not have dark pants and so pls ignore that #which is silly bc one of his defining traits To Me when first watching bsd was 'huh he is a lot like Tevin to me' #AND TEVIN WEARS THE NEAR EXACT SAME THING ONE COLOR THROUGH AND THROUGH </3 #I've talked about that here even goodness #wait now im thinking of knkdz as twrecks OOOOOO No that makes me sick <//3 /pos #a. t sushi would be Caleb OH GOD FUCK NOOO- :smiles: (wrote his name like that to avoid showing up in his tags

[criticalrolo]

okay well I am going to be thinking about how genuinely obsessed Deli is with Colin for this entire week

#MAKING A CHECK TO SEE IF HE WAS WATCHING AND THOUGHT IT WAS COOL??? #COLIN IS NOT EVEN PAYING ATTENTION BECAUSE HIS DAD IS THERE????? #I AM. BESIDE MYSELF #HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!! #THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IVE BEEN SAYINGGGG #the ravening war #dimension 20 #trw spoilers

[dandeyrain]

i genuinely don't mean this in a like. condescending way. but reading people talk about how Confusing and Nonsensical and Overpacked boy and the heron is make me feel insane. every single plot point is clearly spelled out; frankly, one of my only critiques of the movie is that i wish they'd left some of it LESS clear. yes, the second half is rich in dreamlike fantasy, but the story never breaks its own rules, and before every major reveal in the fantasy world theres an extremely obvious explanation — almost too on the nose to even call it foreshadowing — from somebody. like i just don't understand how anybody finds it impossibly confusing and weird and bad to engage with

#rain speaking! #ive seen ppl be like 'anything not spoonfed to the audience will confuse ppl' but it DOES spoonfeed a lot of itself to the audience! #mahito outright calls out that kiriko in the fantasy world is the same one as in the real world just at a different time #himi and mahito outright have a conversation about what their relationship is #the grannies tell mahitos dad exactly whats going on with himi in the fantasy world #and that scene was the only moment i sat in the audience and felt a little twinge of unhappiness #i was like 'oh man theyre just explaining the magic rules thats no fun' only to then come out and see ppl be like #IT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE THEY DONT EXPLAIN ANYTHING!!!!! #boy and the heron spoilers / #i dont mean this in some I Am Better At Media Than Everyone Else i just genuinely feel crazy #it feels like we watched different movies #this is how i felt after nope too seeing ppl be like The Chimp Thing Didnt Make Any Sense

[butdotheykiss]

the comments on the lack of subtitles for sign language in the same episode of heart's argument with his mom about her not learning sign language to communicate with him is so outstanding to me. like hey. the deaf & hoh community do not owe you anything.

#imagine only taking part in a conversation via context clues?? #WILD #thats how heart feels every day #what a concept #moonlight chicken #heartming #as someone who took asl classes i am honestly enjoying the lack of subs because im being made to WATCH heart speak #and hearing my own deaf teacher's experiences this exactly what she faces #its not just anger of people not understanding its anger for people not even trying #so cry about subs all you want but irl sl user dont have that luxery

[uncanny-tranny]

Honestly, attachment to sex rather than gender as a social construction won't create a utopia without the subjugation of one's presentation, background, or experience from existing. Recognizing that sex and gender are both socially constructed and while they sometimes inform one another, they won't always, and that trans people absolutely can attest to this and are integral to making change for a better world are insurmountably important. If your desire for a "better world" coincidentally doesn't include us, what you desire isn't a better world where people are free - it is subjugation by a different name.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and this is why i stopped really buying into the odea that abolishing gender alone would save us #because people still believe that sex is this Divine thing that Never Ever Is Influenced Or Is Seen Socially As Anything... #...that whatever is seen as 'right' by societal standards is inherently true... #... it's the idea that a person existing is simultaneously natural AND unnatural only in context with what /everybody else/ thinks.. #i just find that people are super enthusiastic about obtaining a utopia for them that just ~coincidentally~ will naturally exclude transness #like 'without gender you trans people wont NEED to exist 🥺🥹' and it just shows that you don't WANT a better world. #what you WANT is a hierarchy where you are naturally ordained at the top #at best it shows a lack of understanding of the trans perspective and at worst appears genocidal #exactly HOW will you prevent us from existing? because closing your ears and going 'lalala you don't exist!' obviously hasn't cut it #offtopic completely but i am watching my spotify wrapped and what the fuck #why the Fuck did i listen to time warp 314 times (i Know Why) #i am shocked that weezer wasn't in the top fove artists. i am thankful too