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gaslysainz · 8 months

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Lost (PG10) pt.2

Summary: The world is utterly unfair. He was her most prized possession, her life, her first ever commitment of love. But to him, she was just a mere person lost in his big world.

warnings: ; unrequited feelings; Pierre is a douche , arrange marriage, angst, explicit scenes and languages.

Author's Note~ Heya guys! So a few days back I posted the first chapter of my first ever fanfic! And I'm overwhelmed by the response ❤️ Really Thanks a lot to everyone who had liked the story so far. It's just the beginning of the journey, there's a lot to come. Love You All 😘 Here's my first ever story for you guys. As soon as I finish this one, I'll start taking requests maybe! Till then please show your love and support for "LOST".

Journal Entry -2

A new episode and a new day of my life. Never in my 24 years of life have I ever thought that I would have to come across this day. This awful day when i would have to sit through a whole day in my room crying my eyes out and coming out of my room only when i'm called for causes like "Julia needs a glass of water, you need to clean Julia's dress, Julia accidentally dropped food on the floor, clean up the mess" so on and so forth. Today was the day when I had to look at the most heart wrenching thing ever...

So here's what happened

*FLASHBACK*

I was reading a book in my room and suddenly someone knocked at my door. I opened the door and came across Pierre!

"H-hey! you need something?"

I noticed him looking inside my room at our wedding picture hanging on the wall right above my head. Obviously he'd be curious about my room cause he's never been inside my room before. I actually felt a little awkward so i cleared my throat to get his attention.

"Uh! yea actually Julia was having a headache, go and make some soup or something and bring it up to my room along with some medicine!" There was that tone! Full of despise for me.

"Sure" By saying that i went down to the kitchen to make some soup for her.

That's what my job in this house is after all, looking after the house and the people in it. Oh! Did I mention? We do not have any maids. Cause apparently according to my husband's mistress, I'm not any different than a maid so why waste money on hiring one? Anyways, after making the soup and being satisfied with it I went towards Pierre's room and stopped once I saw something that no married or committed person should ever see. My husband was on top of my sister thrusting deep inside her and them moaning out each other's name.

You must be thinking that what am i so shaken up about? I should've been used to this by now, Well this is the first time i'm seeing them doing it in front of my eyes. Yes i admit it that i've heard them before but seeing it live, right in front of me is a whiplash of a whole lot of negative thoughts. And what did I do in that situation? Nothing! I just closed the door silently, kept the soup and the medicine outside the room and came back to my room and cried my eyes out! Why did they have to keep the door opened? Did my husband really become so heartless? Did he really want me to see that I can never get his love? Did he really have literally shove it in my face that he belongs completely and soulfully to his mistress and I can never take her place?

Oh! and the agony! My Step sister saw me standing outside the room and smirked!

Yes she had the audacity to smirk at me....

*FLASHBACK ENDS*

I know i'm young and naive. My sister is 27 and i'm 24 years old. She's more mature than I am, sexier, prettier, and more perfect , with an hourglass figure, amazing style. But all that, with a nasty heart it seems. She can easily go out wearing anything and everything that she wants whereas I tend to gravitate towards PJ's, hoodies and oversized clothes. The only time I wear dresses are at the parties that I attend with my husband. But still, he never looks at me the same way he looks at her. She is definitely Pierre's s absolute match in all spheres. And here I am, stupid little girl crying my eyes out inside my room cause my husband is making love to my step sister.

I, Mrs. Y/n Gasly is once again LOST!

LOST in my sister's PERFECTION!

PS - Please lemme know what do you think about LOST and also let me know if you wanna be added to the tag list ❤️

@peachiicherries @crimeshowjunkie

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thelovetheystole · 4 months

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As some seem to see chemistry and cute couple potential very easily, I thought about how much I require to get even a little invested in a soap ship. Realistically, on a soap, it's possible for a couple's story to span over many years, but a lot has to click. For this reason, I don't fall easily. Below are a couple of things to remind myself why Robron worked so well, and why I'll probably never find a couple like them again.

•Both Aaron and Robert were 'A' characters, a Dingle and a Sugden with long histories on the show, therefor as much equals as two characters can be really (whereas putting Aaron with a C or even B character now will make it a very uneven pairing, as Danny is lead actor material)

•Both characters were strong/interesting enough to have stories apart from each other

•Both flawed and morally grey in some ways, as well as being likeable and rootable in others, and a lot of that is down to the actors

•Finding the right actor (for Robert) with the right chemistry to fit with Danny's Aaron was obviously something they took seriously in 2014, because simply throwing characters together without proper chemistry testing will never work the same

•As for chemistry, I need to see the sparks when they fight, when they are apart, when they talk about eachother, when they lock eyes across a room, when they are supposed to be with other people and when they down right hate eachother, not just when they flirt or kiss - Danny and Ryan had all those down

•The amount of time we got to have them for, the different eras of the relationship, was everything; affair, enemies, friends, boyfriends, exes and husbands (dads), we were so lucky

#robron

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buckttommy · 4 months

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To your point that even before the end times, Rick knew Lori was checked out of the marriage. Even when it came to light she and Shane had been hooking up, he wasn’t super shocked by it. That contrasted with his devotion to Michonne. His absolute trust in Michonne. Just him somehow knowing that even after all these YEARS, she’s still his wife. He trusts she is still taking care of Judith, of the world they built together, honoring him and their relationship and their son. That’s his teammate even if they’ve been apart for so long. He never had that with Lori. And he doesn’t even know how much she is sacrificing to come find him. Seeing her again will ignite such a fire in him. Oh I love them. The soulmatism of it all.

This is the one. This is THE one. You are so fucking correct. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I really think Shane and Lori would have ended up hooking up anyway even if the apocalypse hadn't happened, and the fact that he wasn't surprised makes me wonder at all the moments the viewer never got to see. Shane and Lori maintained that they only got together because they thought he was dead, but that type of (fast!) connection doesn't just come from nowhere. So how many moment were there between them? How many lingering looks across the dinner table? How many stolen touches? At what point did Shane decide he was a better husband for Lori really? Because it wasn't when Rick got shot. Rick getting shot just allowed him to be able to make his move without consequence. Was it when Rick was venting about his marriage problems? Was Shane sitting there thinking about all the ways he would treat Lori so much better? There's so much context "missing," but only in the vaguest sense because SO much is implied just by the fact that they got together so quickly.

So now continuing on that thought and the difference between Lori and Michonne, it all comes down to Rick's ultimate security in the relationship -- security he has with Michonne that he couldn't possibly have had with Lori. And I don't know how long Rick and Lori were supposed to have been together before the apocalypse happened, but at this point, Rick and Michonne have been apart for longer than they were ever physically together, and that's still his partner, that's still his ride or die. He's still fighting to come back to her come hell or high-water because he knows there's something to come back to, and that's the thing that fucks me up. like. The world had to end for them to find each other, but they did find each other, and they're so fucking certain of who they are and what they have that even, what? almost or over a decade of separation has only made me them grow stronger? I'm chewing GLASS. knock me the fuck out i'm DONE.

It's also worth mentioning that Rick's body wasn't even cold before Shane and Lori were knocking boots, whereas Michonne hasn't been touched sexually or romantically (minus ONE KISS with Ezekiel) since he fucking "died." Like. Let THAT one sink in.

#jack answers mail #tv: the walking dead #tv: the ones who live #lori x shane #rick x lori #richonne

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thewales · 1 year

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WOW. That's maybe the only thing I can say. WOW. And not just because of the unnecessary stories or the secrets I never thought I would know, my wow is for finally seeing and understanding the almost visceral hatred Harry feels for William. I called it envy, jealousy, resentment until a few hours ago but it's really hatred. Hate for who William is, for what he represents in the institution, in the family and in public life. I now think harry resents William because he is everything harries is not. And when I say that I don't just mean that William will one day be king, I mean that William is a respected man. Sure of who he is. With his destiny set. Whereas Harry is a big child lost in a world that he believes owes him everything. Has taken everything from him.

Although I haven't read the whole book, what little I have managed to read is enough to understand that Harry is obsessed with being the Spare, almost as much as he is obsessed with being Diana's son, we all know how obsessions end, don't we?

This book is the biggest proof that Harry will never be happy because what happy person in one of the happiest moments of his life needs his wife to reassure him that he is not the Spare? What wife needs to remind her husband at that moment that he is not a spare?

Harry, as we know, always has someone in the back of his mind ready to be blamed for something. Accountability is not something Harry understands, not when it comes to him at least, he knows all about demanding it.

I'll probably finish reading the book and come back to this post but for now, this book is nothing more than one brother's hatred for the other finally written down on paper. Harry is free but he is really free to show the world how much he hates William even though he screams he loves him. This book is nothing more than an attempt on harry's part to destroy the image he hates so much about William. The serious, responsible, private, secure man with a stable family and a secure future. The man whose ideas do materialise and who is always supported.

it's a bit sad to see the kind of a person Harry really is but that's the kind of person he is comfortable being.

#Faulty spare #the suxs

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queenoffishingandcookies · 1 month

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Umineko AU Ramblings - Genderbent Ushiromiya Family

If You Do Not Like Genderbending, Please Look Away. I'll Try My Best To Avoid Spoilers, But Please Read At Your Own Risk.

Sometimes I think about genderbending Umineko and how fucked up the dynamics would be. For the sake of simplicity and avoiding spoilers for anything during/post Alliance, I'm just looking at the Ushiromiya Family, here.

This is just me rambling here, not a true deep analysis of the characters. There'll probably be lines of thought that go nowhere.

For reasons, Kinzo would remain the same sex. However, everyone from the main family down, wouldn’t be. (Gender, on the other hand, is potentially a different story and an AU of a genderbent AU).

Krauss, Eva, Rudolf, and Rosa would be the opposite sex they are in canon. As would George, Battler, Jessica, Maria, and Ange.

This alone would massively change the family’s dynamics. Considering Kinzo’s misogynistic outlook and the fact that Japan is a primarily patriarchal society - the upbringing of the adult generation as kids, their adolescence and young adulthood, to their marriages and the birth of the cousin’s generation is all made different.

Krauss, as a girl, wouldn’t have the same sense of superiority over the rest of Kinzo’s children as he does in canon. As eldest, sure she’d have some power - but as a girl, in Kinzo’s eyes - and depending on the circumstances, even the family elders who named Kinzo as a puppet head - what use was she as an heiress?

She’d marry out of the family - or in normal cases, should have - to supply the Ushiromiya family with further connection in the upper class’s world of riches and politics.

You know who would actually, in their youth, have the most ‘power’?

Eva.

As a boy, even if Kinzo didn’t care much or pay much attention to his kids, again depending on how involved the elders were - influencing or alternatively abusing their mother with high expectations, because Kinzo had to have learned some prejudices and bias from somewhere, in turn leading to the mother’s strict expectations - Eva would have been raised as heir, not Krauss.

Whereas both Fem! Krauss and Fem! Rudolf would be expected to learn domestic skills and the basics of academics, focus on thought of child rearing and homemaking household management, becoming deft hostesses able to keep keen eyes on connections and silent lips for others but their husbands when requested -

Out of them all, it would be Eva who was expected to carry on the illustrious name of the Ushiromiya’s after Kinzo, have it soar to heights which surpassed that of its former wealth lost to the quakes. For some time, he’d be the only son in a household of three children, a single boy between two daughters.

If not by Kinzo, Eva would have been raised by his mothers - by the elders, potentially - that he was going to be the heir over his sisters, that he would continue the family name and was expected to bring them greatness through his intelligence, something that his sisters could only do in marrying well to wealthy, well-connected men.

While his sisters would be allowed to attend high school, it was Eva who would be afforded a higher education - a proper gentleman’s education. The girls wouldn’t be, had no need to be given such a thing.

Krauss, as a girl, would marry out of the family. So would Rudolf. Eva was going to be the heir, as his mother and the elders said - in this way, they would make the family - make their father - proud.

He was going to the heir.

(Which would really burn when he wasn’t, when Krauss didn’t marry out of the register, when Kinzo, for whatever damned reason, had her spouse marry into the Ushiromiya family rather than his eldest daughter out of it).

(By all means, legally he never even declared a direct heir. It’s assumed at first that it goes to Eva, and then, after Krauss’ marriage and remaining on the register, to the oldest child - strange, but not unheard of).

(I haven’t though much on it, except, perhaps, to say that Kinzo’s reason would be pure spite towards the elders - and then, simply, a lack of caring. What did it matter to him, any of it? The family, the wealth, the prestige…it was his only in name, his body forced to sow the crops the elders got to reap for their own profit).

Like their canon counterparts, though:

It’s not just Eva who is extremely prideful. Both Krauss and Rudolf are prideful, stubborn, as well.

All of the haughty superiority that Krauss throws into being the eldest, being the heir? This gets burned down into a need to prove herself as the perfect young lady, the most desirable, proper bachelorette of the upper echelons of society. The inner economy of running a household, rearing children, being a hostess - that is what she would strive for. But, similar to Eva in canon, I don't think Fem! Krauss would settle for, on several accounts, being deemed lesser than her younger brother.

She'd fight in becoming the most perfect, lovely lady - so that Kinzo and the elders could hold nothing against her, if she wished to achieve further education. What she would look into learning, I'm not sure - but it's still something to at the very least consider, whether she would strive for higher education or not.

(lowkey thinking of Eva and Krauss attending the same university or college, just to potentially get on the other's nerves and show how they are 'that much more' superior to the other).

It wouldn't give much leverage over Eva, no - why would he even deign to give the thought of a girl's know-how time out of his day? an attitude that later bites him in the ass because his only child is a girl - but leverage over Rudolf? Potentially. There, there we have things to look at.

Rudolf, as a lady, is still an incorrigible flirt. Still able to charm the pants off of literally most people - a lady by her sex, and a cougar, a carnivore, otherwise. A smoky mafia lady vibe. Flirtatious and brusque, almost. Her etiquette and the snubbing of it (examples being smoking, a bit rough and lackadaisical in regards to housekeeping and being a hostess).

Different from Krauss and Eva, Rudolf would just barely toe the line of societal propriety of an upper class lady - quite the modern woman. She'd know it all, embroidery and all that - but she'd utilize it like a spider building a web, snakes coiling around prey and paralyzing them with venom. Charming, skilled if a bit lazy at it - and deceptively clever, but deadly.

Something Krauss had reason to chide her on, at least.

A cunning flirt, to make up for Krauss' cutting etiquette and Eva's blindingly superior holier-than-thou everything. Lusting to make up for a lack of love, or affection - which, while I can't say it wasn't there, there likely wasn't much of it in the Ushiromiya Household. Just, pride and expectations and cold limitations put down as law.

That behavior they grew into is comprised of their upbringing, and attempts to - at least in part - fill voids left in them by fair lack of warmth from certain people (elders, parents, you know), and filled only with harsh and high expectations and strict limitations. Which isn't to say that at least their mother didn't care, but I still have to think on that since we get zero information of the Ushiromiya Matriarch.

Rosa would get the short end of the stick, born with a pretty decent age difference between Rudolf, who is the 'baby' of the older siblings - and all of his siblings would have their own issues by this point, learned to weaponize haughtiness and a sharp tongue and intellect and charm and lust as shields and tools.

This poor kid would be so soft, so defenseless, compared to them. Up until the circumstances involving a stuffed animal, the forest, and Maria's mom (in this case). This is me trying to avoid spoilers, because I've been there and it sucked.

I can't really say much about Rosa, here, because I just don't have a good grasp on her character. Like I said, I was spoiled for Umineko just after finishing watching Banquet - and that was some time ago, it's only recently I've begun rewatching a no-commentary playthrough (and it's primarily through the fanfiction on A03. That, more than anything else, it what inspired me to pick Umineko up again).

The siblings alone, the ways they were raised along with the expectations for them, how they coped with it - all of it is very complex in canon, and it changes with their sex, in some ways minutely and in other ways, majorly.

Then we get to look at their marriages. Which occurs after Kinzo's miraculous revival of the Ushiromiya Family's wealth - after slowly loosening and severing the puppet strings of the elders (those alive, at least?) wrapped around his limbs - and the dynamics of the family change.

Kinzo remains silent, as to the matter of naming the heir - and while Eva holds tight to the belief, and even taunts his elder sister for not yet having married...there's a sort of unstability in the air, only furthered by worsening tensions between Kinzo and his wife - and Kinzo, often, disappearing on business trips from their home.

Then comes the acquisition of Rokkenjima by Kinzo, the construction of the mansion....for reference, the Ushiromiya Mansion is built in the 1950's - '52?

The Ushiromiya family is elite, having a personal island and the head of them all is a man infamous for his sheer luck in investing and gaining great wealth in a fairly short amount of time post-war. Still, Kinzo is silent about a heir - silent about his eldest marrying outside the family....

Usually, usually, woman in japan marry outside of the family register. So first and foremost, looking at a genderbent AU, why wouldn't Krauss and Rudolf marry into the spouses' family register?

Starting with Krauss:

Canonically, Krauss marries Natsuhi because he needs a wife to have a child. Natsuhi is essentially forced into this marriage, because her family is in dire financial straits. The marriage is an arranged one, essentially meant to solve two issues. The money issue for Natsuhi's family, and the heir issue for the Ushiromiya's.

In a genderbent AU, things would work...considerably differently.

Natsuhi's family would, quite likely, be in a similar situation - but this is a demerit on their end, because it holds no benefit to Kinzo or the Ushiromiya family. By marrying Krauss off to a member of Natsu's family, a line of shinto priests (and, if I'm not wrong, once-nobles?), there's no connections in other circles of society, no wealth awaiting his daughter or a boon to the family. From a utilitarian viewpoint, it would be a worthless match...

Considering Kinzo had already thrown off the elders by now, unless he was still in the process of trying to do so, it wouldn't be even enough to spite them (unless he was going down the whole 'spite their memory' route).

So, why Krauss and Natsuhi in this au? Why would they still be Ushiromiya's? Unless, even branch family's who no longer carry the name would be there - as in Eva = heir - but I'm aiming for somewhat close to canon here, working off the assumption that Krauss + Natsuhi are still the main household - not Eva + Hideyoshi.

Then again, it could be that Kinzo compares both Natsuhi and Eva. Eva having been groomed by the elders, but Natsuhi...Natsuhi, possibly, untouched by them. Perhaps throwing a bone to an old business partner, or even just lack of really caring...that bares a lot of thinking on, trying to get more insight as to Kinzo's point of view.

That would imply a projection of disdain, of hate or anger, upon his kids though. I'm...pretty sure Kinzo just, didn't care about them much, canonically? I'm aware he was physically abusive, and the effects that had on the siblings lasted their whole lifetimes - but for Kinzo, the abuser himself? Would you remember stepping on an ant, if it was just another pest to deal with, a minor worry in a sea of major ones?

Other then stating in the episodes that they failed to live up to expectations, being vultures...not mentioning Everything Else regarding the episodes that I know the bare minimum of, so I can't give a more in-depth look into the matter.

Anyway, Krauss would be the first to marry. Krauss should have left the family register -

and it's a blow to the system, to Eva personally, when she does not. When a man comes to the mansion as his sister's husband, unable to bear the family crest, and yet it's him who will be the next family head, for all that it is Krauss who is the actual heiress.

(Really wonder what Natsuhi would find work as, though...has more common sense than Krauss though, so the disatrous application of the Ushiromiya Money by Krauss in canon wouldn't come up...)

Oh, feeling particularly evil. Eva, going to Kinzo and wondering why Kristine is still there, bring up that it was him who was the heir - and Kinzo just musing if he, himself, had ever called Eva the heir.

It was always the elders, always mother -

But never father.

Goddamn, that's crushing.

That would also possibly be a major power trip on Krauss' end, one massive 'who is superior to whom now?' type situation. And poor Natsu would get caught in the brunt of the fallout.

Two extremely prideful, extremely intelligent men. The family crest worn by one, forbidden to the other - and it was the other, and the sister, who had been chosen by the father.

...I'm picturing some pretty achillean showdowns between Natsuhi and Eva, not going to lie. Eva being angry and wondering what made Kinzo deem him worthy over his own blood son (not even factoring in his sister here), this man he didn't permit to wear the one-winged eagle. Imagine the (toxic) kabedon to be had here...

Imagine the tension, possibly causing Eva to leave the mansion - or Kinzo or his wife to arrange a marriage for him because of the growing aggression and antagonistic attitude he began to take - worse than the past. If he was fixated on being a good 'heir', why didn't he take a wife and sire a child himself, too?

Which, then leads to the consideration of Hideyoshi's character. Canonically, I believe he started making money by rolling cigars and selling them - even if his business later was a restaurant chain. This post goes into the implications that he started this around the second world war, and was an orphan or old enough to be on his own at that time. Though I think I have slightly different headcanons pertaining to age, that doesn't have much bearing on the likelihood that, canonically, he was older than Eva and decently well-off at the time of their marriage.

Eva would likely already be running his own business, in a genderbent au. I can potentially see Hideyoshi still running a business here, but...man, oh man, wouldn't a pairing like that be a smack to Eva's sensibilities and belief system. His father, pairing him up with a woman just a bit older than him - a woman who works like a businessman, too? Imagine the sheer amount of times he'd put his foot in his mouth.

Assuming, of course, Kinzo would deem a woman 'like that' who was staunchly different from how he expected women to behave, as a good match. Another possibility was that, although not officially a big part of some company or other's success, Hideyoshi was the brains behind the operation - and that's what made her a fitting wife. We don't get much of Hideyoshi's backstory, in canon. We don't get much of any spouse's backstory, really - except in specific circumstances.

...Eva and Hideyoshi, I need more time to think about.

But, in a turn of events, it's ultimately not Krauss who leaves Rokkenjima. It's Eva.

and then there's Rudolf and Rosa.

Rudolf is complicated because there are two marriages. Asumu, and Kyrie. Mentioned in the post I linked above, it's likely that they all met around college and are close in age - Kyrie knew Rudolf first, I believe. Rudolf ended up marrying Asumu though, after he unintentionally got her pregnant - though he carried on an affair with her, and likely other woman throughout it all.

In a genderbent au, Rudolf's flirtatious nature and infidelity bites back on the ass. hard. namely in the form of a pregnancy. Considering she'd be sleeping with (at least) two men, Asumu and Kyrie, either one could be the baby daddy - meaning her father would either force her to marry one of them, or Rudolf could abort the child and cover it up so no one has to know it happened at all.

Rudolf is a selfish person, who thrives off gambling to fill endless vices - namely, lust in place of love and affection, though she gets that too. A child would get in the way of that, her bed frolicking when put bluntly - not to mention Krauss and her mother scoldings and haughty attitude and Rudolf's blatant snubbery of ladylike things - no one, least of all herself, believed her fit to be a mother. abortion would come to mind, no doubt.

shit like this could get her disowned. Unlike rosa in canon, she wasn't tricked or abandoned - doesn't really have a good excuse. Rudolf literally fucked around, and found out.

In canon, this led to a blitz wedding binding him and Asumu. In a Genderbent verse, assuming an abortion couldn't be done - either because the pregnancy wasn't noticed until it was too late or for some other reason, a similar event could occur.

If Kinzo got wind of it, it would be a matter of Kyrie's family vs Asumu's - and we know more about Kyrie than Asumu's. Guess who'd possibly win out, in Kinzo's eyes? A low-middle class family, or an upperclass household with shady potential yakuza connections? I say this, because I'm pretty sure Kyrie's summary screen mentions that she and Rudolf have shady dealings or connections or something and that's how they make bank.

And she doesn't know who the baby's daddy is, had to make a choice between men she was pulling along on a string. She works with one on a regular basis, and possibly the other. Hell of a proposal, that she was pregnant.

Considering even Rudolf in canon thought that Asumu knew about the affair, there's probably always the wonder of 'is this my child?' Which is fucked up all around, because not even Rudolf would know, unless she had a little black book where she wrote down when she slept with who - but especially for Kyrie and Asumu.

If Rudolf hid it, no doubt Kinzo would suspect the truth behind the sudden wedding - if he didn't find out, during preparations or just after.

Put simply, it's a total clusterfuck of drama.

Rosa - she didn't even have the chance to get married in canon. Her boyfriend got her pregnant, and then fucking left her with debt after she took out a loan for him.

In a GB AU, this gives me several ideas. Rosa gets a girlfriend pregnant, and she leaves him with the baby. Rosa does get married, or they're forced to, but they have a divorce somewhere along the line. Darkest of all, Rosa's girlfriend/wife dies.

The lives of the Ushiromiya siblings are like a soap opera.

It's one in morning, so I'll give just a quick rundown of the cousins. Going in order of age: George, Battler, Jessica, Maria, Ange.

George is Eva's only child, and a daughter. In his younger years, what he'd deem useless as a heir - useful only in marriages. His daughter is also the most precious thing he'd ever seen or held, while also being a nail in his coffin. He might have had a child before Krauss, but it wasn't a boy - useless to Kinzo, useless to securing Eva as heir.

George is raised strictly. Very strictly, to be the perfect lady - while also educated far beyond the standards of what he'd once thought a young lady should be held to. Eva, in a genderbent world, would be a bit like Natsuhi...he'd want his daughter to be capable of standing as a powerful heiress in her own right, even if it would have been better for them both if she'd been born a boy. She'd also be held accountable for achieving impossible standards - appearances, grades... not a material want in the world, but a deep need for space to breathe.

Battler, or in this case Valor, is Rudolf and Asumu's daughter. Quite a ways down the line of succession, isn't quite raised like Eva raises George. She gets raised a bit closer to a normal child, behave in school, try to get at least a B in classes...she is cosseted by her father. Kyrie would be a little less cool to her, I think, a little warmer - namely because she could very probably be his daughter and they just didn't know - DNA testing emerged in the 80's and Valor was born in '68 or '69 I think. Heightened tensions in the Rudolf Love Triangle, though.

Would still be raised with higher expectations, though. Good etiquette, good handwriting, maybe dancing...? (these are, admittedly, more stereotypes than what I actually know of a member of the upper crust's education and extracurriculars).

I can't tell if Rudolf would be fiercely protective of Valor, a bit uncomfortable with her, or something else entirely. Fiercely protective because - possibly - Kinzo wanted her to get an abortion, uncomfortable because she had planned to get an abortion herself - and also, what Valor meant between Asumu and Kyrie and herself.

But at the same time, I feel like she'd be done to commit fraud to ruin the father of a kid who teased her daughter on the playground. Maybe because I have a broken sense of humor.

Rudolf is a selfish man, would be a selfish woman - but cares for their kids. They might not be willing to be their neck on the line for them, maybe, but also have the potential to go ballistic for them.

Jessica would be raised strictly - not as intense as 'the world will end' schooling like with George, but pretty damn close. As the next head of the family, one allowed to wear the one-winged-eagle, he has to be above and beyond reproach. Natsuhi is the strict one of his parents, more often than not dealing with the worst of Eva being Eva, but...both of them are prone to wanting to spoil him.

It took so long to conceive Jessica, for Krauss. So, so, so very long. Considering a woman's worth in the family amounted to the connections she could bring and her womb's ability to carry a child - preferably a son - it was...hard for her, especially with Eva.

Though, he did shut up for a bit after George was born.

Maria...there's a lot for Maria, and I don't actually I could analyze his upbringing and how it changes in a GB verse right now. A big aspect is Rosa's abuse and neglect, and I think a large bit of it would remain the same but....I want to read more Umineko, especially turn and banquet, to get a better grasp on it.

It's about 1:20 in the morning, and the way she's raised touches kind of close to home. Not in terms of physical abuse, or the fact that it's very very very heavily implied that Maria is neurodivergent - just some parts of it.

anyway, yeah, this is my rambling on how genderbending stuff would change a lot of things in umineko - not getting heavily into the cousin's upbringing and mental state because my laptop is about to die and I'm not well-rested enough fpr this, nor are my ideas quite as fleshed out.

Please don’t flame me if you don’t agree with this or don’t like it, but if anyone has ideas they’d like to add, I’m all ears.

#umineko no naku koro ni #umineko #umineko au ramblings #rule 63 #genderbend #their names would be different but I kept them the same here for my own sanity #seriously though #everyone needs therapy

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mermaidsirennikita · 4 months

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I’m intrigued, but do you have any as you put it “put a baby in me” books mostly Historical’s You recommend? ☺️

Yes, I love books with breeding vibes! Some books are more "the sense of breeding" whereas others are actively like... elevate your legs we're doing this.

The Courtesan Duchess by Joanna Shupe has the heroine actively trying to get pregnant, but her husband never even consummated the marriage and hasn't seen her for like six years. She learns the ways of a courtesan and visits him in Venice made up, wearing a wig, introduced as a courtesan........ and you're off to the races.

Lord of Darkness by Elizabeth Hoyt is another unconsummated marriage deal, but the heroine and hero married because she was pregnant by another man and her lover had died. Right after the marriage, she miscarried and went to live elsewhere, but now she's back a few years later because she wants a baby. It'll be all business!

Waking Up with The Duke by Lorraine Heath is obviously one of the most notable historicals with this vibe. The hero is best friends with the heroine's husband, and he got the husband into an accident years ago that left him impotent. The husband asks the hero to get the heroine pregnant so that he can have an heir and she can have a baby, and the hero and heroine reluctantly agree.......... And it goes from there. Super emotional and super hot.

Untamed by Elizabeth Lowell is a medieval with an arranged marriage plot. The hero is initially suspicious that the heroine had a lover before they married, so he wants to wait until after she has her period to have penetrative sex. But once they get going lol.................. they get goin'. He REALLY wants an heir.

The Duchess Deal by Tessa Dare. The hero is super scarred, and his fiancee ditches him right before the wedding. The heroine made the wedding dress and shows up in it for payment, and he's like ".... so I need an heir......." They're married and the entire point is for her to get pregnant.

Private Arrangements by Sherry Thomas has a married couple who's been separated for like a decade, ever since the day after their wedding. She reaches out because she wants a divorce so she can marry her lover, and her husband is like "listen, I need an heir, give me a baby stat and I'll give you your divorce after it's born". So they... get to it.

Scandal's Bride by Stephanie Laurens has a heroine who's like, a mystic, and she receives a vision that the hero is meant to father her children. But she doesn't want to marry the hero or marry at all, so she decides to have him get her pregnant without realizing it. This DOES mean she drugs him so he thinks he's dreaming the first time, and yes this is very bad, I'm not condoning it, on a fictional level it is kind of great. After the first night she tries to drug him again but he catches on beforehand and is like "why is she trying to have sex with me" and just like. Goes to fuck her anyway to try to figure out The Truth lmao because when that redhead starts getting kooky something about him feels alive inside

If you're open to something not historical:

Mafia Virgin by Mila Finelli has a couple forced to marry; they're supposed to conceive a baby within six months. They get REEEEEEEEEEEALLY into it. Like "I'm gonna give you a baby"/"give me every drop of it" into it.

Lush Money by Angelina M. Lopez. This one has a billionaire heroine seek out the prince of a small nation that is financially collapsing. She basically offers him a bailout for the country if he marries her for a year and gets her pregnant. INSANE. Great. They literally start trying within the first few pages, though he haaaates her lol.

The Winter King by C.L. Wilson is a fantasy romance modeled on medieval Northern Europe culturally, so you might still get the vibe. The hero and heroine marry to cement a truce after a big war, and she needs to get pregnant within the year.

#romance novel blogging #book recs #true life: i don't want kids but i love a breeding book #and there are tons i've read ofc that are more subtle like 'HE THOUGHT OF HER BELLY SWELLING W HIS CHILD' lol

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sisterhooddiaries · 6 months

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The Complex Jewstory Of Barbie

Barbie, the doll we all know and love. The icon that changed the way girls viewed themselves, an icon to be for many generations including having a HUGE box office! Ain't that something? She was the gift young girls would absolutely BEG their parents to get for them whether it be the holidays or birthdays.

But did you know the doll has very interesting origins? The history of Barbie is one to behold, but is she Jewish? That's the burning question everyone's been asking and the answer is, it's complicated.

Hello tigers and doves on my blog! My name is Aphrodite and today, I will be discussing the complex jewstory of Barbie and answering if Barbie is TRULY the Jewish icon we all need.

But first, let's start alllll the way to the beginning:

Ruth Handler was first born as Ruth Moskowicz on November 4th, 1916.

Ruth was born to a Polish Jewish immigrants in Colorado.

At a young age, age 16 to be exact, Ruth met her future husband, Elliot Handler. They had met at a Jewish youth dance.

Elliot was a artist, he went to art school to pursue his passion. At 22 years old, the pair were married.

Elliot as well as being the creator of Mattel, created Hot Wheels! But I'll get into that another time.

Years passed, the influence from Barbie, came from when Ruth was watching her daughter, Barbara Handler, playing with paper dolls. Noticing how her daughter found most interest in the adult paper dolls instead of the young or baby paper dolls.

Barbara, however, needed inspiration, in 1956, her and her family went on a family trip to Switzerland. A German, adult toy, named Bild Lilli.

There she had it. The perfect inspiration!

3 years later, the year was 1959—

The iconic hips and body shape was presented with her platinum blonde hair.

Barbie was born!

Barbie quickly became an icon for all the young girls across the world, for her body shape and signature face became most iconic.

Now the question still burns :

Is Barbie Jewish ?

The verdict is, it depends! Barbie can be anything or anybody, including Jewish! While Barbie is based on a Jewish woman, it's never explicitly confirmed that she is Jewish (she also has films whereas she's celebrating Christmas)

If you want your Barbie to be Jewish, then she's Jewish!

Barbie can be anyone.

Barbie has the most interesting history I've seen and she'll forever, I say, be iconic.

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you liked this little rant, I've been waiting to make this for so long!

#intersectional feminism #feminism #jewish #jewblr #jewish history

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Voiceplay Visuals: Little Mermaid Medley

I already knew right from the start that this was going to be a long post, but how am I only just now realizing that the video itself is like nearly 8 minutes long? Like I knew the Wicked Medley was one of Voiceplay's longer-length videos, but somehow I never realised that this video is in fact longer by 10 seconds! (I guess it's just so good that I never noticed!) God I hope I don't hit the picture limit on this one, because I have a lot to talk about, so let's begin!

Bit of a far cry from the Moana Medley 3 years prior, hey? (This was released in September 2020 btw). I may be wrong, but I believe this is called "we have a bigger budget now" 😂

Right, so Eli (already doing a subtle Eyebrow Raise, might I add), is dressed as Flounder, Rachel is of course Ariel, J is repping Sebastian, Layne is Chef Louis (I think that's his name), and Geoff went freaking all-out as Ursula (aka "Geoffsula"). The hair! The necklace! The airbrushing on the skin! (Seriously that ain't just a standard layer of face/body paint, there is shading going on there!)

(Also what's up with the green wristbands which I've never really acknowledged till now?)

J and Rachel echoing the "heave ho!" bit to each other (gonna try and limit my screencap-taking just a little bit, because I'll probably end up including a ton anyway)

Rachel slipped on that bracelet really smoothly, is it just me? Like girl how did you do that so easily?

Love the little detail of Rachel throwing up the fork (aka "dinglehopper") and it not coming down again. No clue how they did it

(Also that is a very pretty bracelet. And cute necklace!)

I wasn't exactly searching for this screencap, but I felt like I had to include it when I paused on it!

Layne "blowing bubbles" out his mouth!

I love J's little dance moves here 😄

Geoff on air bass again! (representing the line "the plaice play the bass")

Whose idea was this? 😂 (Layne was in charge of both the arrangement and the video, I'm guessing it was him?) And then Voiceplay stuck it on a shirt and made it into merch! (And also for J's farewell party, they got him a cake that had a picture of snail!J on it!)

We're about to get into my favourite part! (Also cool painting!)

Eli and J hamming it up as Flotsam and Jetsam 😝

J's face makes me laugh every time 😆

Purple flames in his eyes! (Voiceplay used a very similar effect last year, on Geoff again, during the Hellfire video)

Hang on what was that little move that J just did there?

"This one longing to be thinner, this one wants to get the girl, and do I help them?"

"Yes indeed"

(Also fun fact: the woman shown here is Rachel Evans, one third of the singing group The American Sirens, who collaborated with Geoff a year later on his cover of Mele Kalikimaka, and the man is her husband!)

"They come flocking to my cauldron crying SPELLS!" "Ursula please!"

(Also shoutout to Eli for the lighting design! He always does such a fantastic job!)

The colouration/tint of the lighting does really interesting things to Geoff's blueish skin colour in this video. In some shots the skin is a really vibrant colour (e.g. see a couple of the shots above), whereas in others, like this one ^ here, it almost looks close to regular skin tone.

This little moment greatly pleases my drama/theatre kid heart 😁

Not talking about vocals not talking about vocals not talking about vocals not talking about-

Okay but the signature bit was very cool, and definitely feels like something Voiceplay would not have been able to do back in 2017

Pfft 😂

Also the lighting here is making Geoff's hair (which got coloured grey for this video) look almost blonde!

Cool smoke effects!

(Also the only reason I haven't done fanart of "Geoffsula" (other than the fact that I don't wanna keep drawing him in black outfits) is that I would not be able to do the skin colouration justice here. Shoutout to Rick Underwood for the makeup!)

"Sing" (sir you're not allowed to look that pretty while looking like that!)

Yeah nah yeah they really went off with the effects on this one

I am getting dangerously close to the image limit and I don't wanna have to split this into two posts, but Layne's whole Les Poissons bit is comedy gold and screencaps don't do it justice anyway

To quote Elizabeth Zharoff: "it takes a confident man to Seagull!" 😂

Love Rachel's awkward-yet-cute little wave at the start of Kiss The Girl (and her dancing a bit further into the song!

Confusion(tm) 🤣

Firstly, Rachel's acting is 100% on-point, and second of all, I love Geoff's evil smirk here, doubly confirming that Rachel is being Vanessa, aka Ursula in disguise!

And now that "Ariel" has got her voice back, everyone else is super happy/animated, while "Ursula" is very subdued. Visual storytelling!

Just managed to avoid the image limit, thank goodness! Also J pops a bubble right at the end 😁

It's hard for me to say whether this is one of Voiceplay's best medleys or not, because how can you compare it to the Boy Band Medley or Trapped or A Chance To Fly? But I will say it is very deserving of the 5.5 million views it currently sits at on YouTube. A lot of effort went into both the arrangement and the video (well done Layne!), and honestly when it comes to Disney stuff, Voiceplay never fails!

#voiceplay #acapella #little mermaid medley #the little mermaid medley #geoff castellucci #eli jacobson #layne stein #j none #rachel potter #acaplaya analysis #voiceplay visuals

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effcrvcscents · 21 days

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glowing indigo eyes, chthonian soothing the darkest nightmares as if a lullaby. rivalry between families, confidence known through the ages that's yet to flicker or cease. familiarity of other, discomfort with the mundane. deals struck left and right, any bargain not made whole resulting in revenge that might not match the grievance issued.

𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 pandora kennedy 𝐀𝐆𝐄 appears to be mid to late 30's, is 500 - something 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 cis woman 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒 she, her 𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋 / 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 panromantic, pansexual 𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 fallyn kennedy ( mother ), miguel ( father ), ryker black ( ex husband ) 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 spent time in faerie due to the spell the seelie queen used to bring others into her realm. 0/10 stars, doesn't recommend and isn't the more kind towards the queen due to it. 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 discreet, innovative, observant, ambitious, cruel, apathetic

anna ( panda if you're lucky ) is the daughter of a prince of hell and a kennedy witch possessing double sides of magic and, as a result of her parents' coupling, a strained relationship with all of the kennedy witches. those that try to do magic in what they consider the 'right' way, whereas anna does what she feels - emotions ruling all that she does.

anna's made plenty of deals through her life, some good some bad - but all exciting. she's at an age now where any collateral for her help has to involve excitement ; not anything to do monetary and prefers the use of a barter or you scratch my back, i'll scratch yours, system. anna subscribes to the nature of her dad rather than the rules and knowledge that her mother desperately tried to pass down to her before her untimely death ; but when you spend more time with your demonic parent what else can be expected ?

anna is currently the high warlock of brooklyn, having created a name for herself as being helpful - for a price. easy to get along with, as long as the price is right, and a little quirkier than what one would expect of someone in such a position. due to her upbringing she is more solitary in nature, even more so than other warlocks, and owns a townhouse in brooklyn that she's glamoured for most of the riff raff to never be able to find.

she doesn't exactly have a familiar but years ago 'adopted' a lesser demon i.e. made a deal with that anna cemented to her own benefit, that takes the form of a norse horned viper, that if you do happen to come into her home, is often wrapped around her shoulders and can be seen slithering towards you before you notice that she's there. their name is havoc.

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒

#dih.intro #snake tw #◜ & ㅤ * 𝑖𝑣. pandora kennedy : biography ◞#gif @kbunburyhelps #psd @strifesource #psd @kapheira

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mysticalgalaxysstuff · 2 years

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The Great Bake-Off (Ethan X MC)

Pairing: Dr. Ethan Ramsey x f!MC (Dr. Marissa Sanders)

Book: Open Heart (Beyond)

Word Count: 1.6K

Rating: Fluff

Warning(s): None

Premise: Ethan makes pancakes (!!) with his daughter.

A/N: I never thought I would be writing a fic this long, because I have never considered myself as a writer. This is my first time writing something this long. If you read it, I hope you like it. Also, I would love to thank Bree for sending me the prompt and Lin for supporting me with her helpful messages. I would also love to thank Hilde ❤ Without her, I wouldn't have given Marissa a background or shared her. Also, to all the writers who inspired me to write! I love you all ❤

“Mom, can I go to school with my hair down, today?”

Their seven year old daughter, Aria looks at her mother through the mirror as she requests the said hairstyle preference.

“If that's what you want, but let me add some clips to prevent your hair falling all over your face, hmm?” Marissa suggests to which Aria nods her head enthusiastically.

It's an ordinary day at the Sanders-Ramsey household. The family is getting ready for the day as Marissa attends to her daughter's dark brown hair, while Ethan helps his son put on his favourite green shirt with his practiced hands.

Once the kids are ready, they take-off to the kitchen, running, Ethan's warning to be careful being futile.

Ethan combs his wavy brown hair, standing behind his wife while Marissa perches on the vanity chair, donning an earring on her left ear.

“I'll meet you downstairs, my love.” Ethan smiles, looking at his wife through the mirror, the smile she returns, as he leans down to kiss his wife's forehead, before heading downstairs to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, his kids eagerly waiting for him.

“So, what do you want to have for breakfast, today?”

The kids ponder over before they collectively shout together, “Pancakes!”

Whereas Ethan is not ready. Even though the man is good at almost everything, the one thing he struggles with is making the perfect pancakes. His children unbeknownst to the fact, he does not have the heart to say no to them or to tell them that he sucks at making the so-called cake.

“Fine. Pancakes it is,” he says, masterfully hiding the panic in his eyes.

“Also Dad, can I help you make them, pleaseee? ” Aria looks at her father, doe-eyed, emphasising the last word.

And Ethan can't say no to her when she is looking at him with such a twinkle in her eyes. “I see, why not? But under my very strict supervision, okay?”

“Aye aye, captain!” Aria gives her father the trademark salute. Ethan smiles, his tension faltering as he picks his daughter and sets her to sit on the kitchen counter.

“So, what are we cooking?” Marissa arrives, settling beside her son on the kitchen counter's chair.

“Dad and Aria are making pancakes.” Nathaniel responds with a gleam in his eyes.

“Pancakes?” Marissa feigns surprise.“Are you sure, Ethan?” A teasing smile breaking out on her face. “If you want, I can make them.”

“I believe I can handle it, even though I haven't made them in years." Ethan replies with a genial annoyance, while rummaging in the kitchen for the ingredients.

“If you are certain, love.” Marissa raises one of her eyebrows teasingly, meeting his eyes.

“Dad, is this your first time making pancakes? Because I have always seen mom making them for us.” Nate questions his father, already so perceptive at just five years of age.

“No, I have made them before for myself and your grandfather,” he says, while taking out flour from the pantry.

“But…” Marissa interrupts, while preparing two cups of coffee.

“Marissa…”

“…he is not good at making them,” she says with a huge grin on her face. One thing she clearly enjoys is teasing her husband, and Lord knows how much she is loving it to see him struggle the very moment. With his secret out, Ethan comes up with a feeble explanation.

“I'm not that bad! Dad clearly loves to exaggerate over it,” he retorts back.

“Oh, was he?” Marissa scrunches her face playfully.

Ethan pinches the bridge of his nose as he composes himself to say,

“Fine. The first time I did burn it, because I thought one doesn't need to flip it. I was very young. And over time it's been a hit and miss when to flip it.”

“Wow, I didn't know you were that bad!” Marissa exclaims. “And what about now?”

“One is ought to learn from their mistakes, so let me treat my family with a hearty meal.” Ethan says with a heated determination in his voice.

“Are you promising me perfect pancakes, Dr. Ethan Ramsey?”

“I am.” He says with an assertive tone.

“Well, your confidence is noted! I'll be the judge of your guys' pancakes then. What do you say, Nate, you with me?” She peers at her son for support.

“I just wanna go to school without gastroentertitis,” he naively says.

Marissa and Ethan glance at each other, before not able to control themselves and having a hearty guffaw.

“Who taught you that word, mister?” She amusingly elbows him.

“Dad did.” He giggles.

“Seriously, Ethan?”

“What? It is never too early for him to learn some medical terms.” He jested.

Marissa good-naturedly rolls her eyes before clapping her hands together, gathering attention.

“So, what are we waiting for? Let the great bake-off begin!” she announces.

The announcement declared, Ethan (along with Aria) starts preparing the breakfast. Ethan cracks the egg, adding its contents to the bowl, while Aria waits to add sugar and vanilla essence to it, holding the spoon in her tiny hand.

“Now, how much sugar will you add, Belle?” Ethan asks his daughter, looking inquisitively at her.

“One with the tablespoon?” She answers dubiously.

“Well done,” he praises his daughter with a smile.

Ethan places the bowl in front of her, while she adds the sugar to the mixing bowl. Marissa can't help but admire the sight of seeing her daughter and husband so adamant on their little mission.

The kind of little moments she cherishes to see her husband's handsome feature so serene, a pleasant calmness on his face, guiding his daughter through the process. It makes him look younger.

If somebody would have asked Marissa in her intern year if she could see Dr. Ramsey, guiding an intern so patiently, without reprimanding once, she would have considered it as a joke. Hell, Ethan would himself have laughed, given his reputation in the hospital.

But after all those years she loves to see the soft and benevolent side of her husband. The only side reserved for her and their children.

Once the batter is ready, Ethan lights on the stove, greasing the pan with oil before adding the batter. Marissa sets Ethan's preferred coffee beside him on the counter, perusing his cooking. Sensing her presence, Ethan rolls the sleeves of his shirt up, revealing his strong, sculpted arms.

The children would have assumed that their father is just making himself comfortable while he rustled up some hotcakes, but Marissa knows what he is trying to accomplish, and she is not going to be easily beguiled by it.

Two can play the game.

Before Ethan realises what his not-so innocent act transpires, she ever-so stealthily grazes her hand up his arms before leaning close, softly whispering in his ear, “Don't think you will get extra points for that, darling.” She drops the term of endearment with so much enticement that sends a shiver down his spine.

Gathering himself, he manages to utter a lone sentence, “I don't know what you're talking about?”

“Ah, don't play coy with me.”

Ethan's expression completely changes, trying to desperately pull anything from his seduction arsenal.

“If I recall one of my fond memories correctly, it worked very well on you last night.” His voice is a deep rumble.

And then there is the look he gives her. Known to only them. Amorous. Intimate. But Marissa doesn't back down easily. She alluringly smiles.

“Yes, it worked on me last night. You should come with something better now, my love.”

She pats his cheek affectionately, flaunting him a wink, before she makes her way to the seat.

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Twenty minutes later, Aria helps her dad decorate the cakes with viscously flowing honey, and fresh blueberries and strawberries, before serving it to their "judges", gazing up at them with hopeful eyes.

“I have to say you guys went all out on dressing and everything, but what matters is the taste and the time to prepare, right?”

Marissa takes a bite, keeping a stoic expression, formulating a proper response. She dramatically sighs.

“Let me be honest with you, your cooking preparation was slow and superficial. Your flipping technique, amateur at best.”

“Amateur?” Ethan feigns offence, clearly seeing through her act.

“I don't know. It tastes pretty good, mom,” Nate interjects.

Ethan and Aria snicker together. Marissa gives them a side-long glance.

“It tastes good, but still it took them a lot of time to prepare it. This is not how you are going to win MasterChef US–”

“I don't plan to go to that baseless competition.” Ethan interrupts.

“You're lucky we got ready early today because this is not gonna work if we are running late, sweetheart,” she states.

“I think it's very hard to please you, MRS. Ramsey.” Ethan responds amusingly.

“Hmm, I wonder where I got that from?” She jabs back.

The rest of the breakfast goes out with endless, harmless banter while indulging themselves with the generous meal, when it is time to head out for the day. Aria and Nathaniel run to their respective rooms to get their school bags, leaving a moment of solitary silence for their parents. Ethan takes advantage of the quietude by pulling his wife close.

“Your insightful feedback got me thinking.”

“Oh really? Enlighten me,” she leans to him, interested.

“I was wondering if you could give me private lessons.”

Marissa trails her hand over his shirt, smiling as she reminisces the moment when they first met. She feels his heartbeat reverberate through his chest.

“I don't know, Dr. Ramsey, I sincerely doubt you could afford my salary.”

He laughs, lifting her chin with utmost care, to meet his eyes. His breathtaking blues meeting her beautiful browns.

“Then I'll be gladly in your debt.”

A/N 2: Thank you so much for reading! Also, if there were any grammatical mistakes or spelling errors, I apologize. English is not my first language.

He enunciates the last sentence with so much intent, before leaning down to kiss her softly on the lips.

All of this writing has made me realise that all the writers in this fandom put a lot of hard work in their works because even though I have enjoyed the process when the idea used to pop in my head, there was a time, my brain was totally blocked. I appreciate all of you for what you do and keeping this fandom alive even after an year.❤

(Tagging in reblog)

#ethan x mc #ethan ramsey #open heart #playchoices

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Can you imagine how hilarious it would be if a few months in their relationship, neither Seijūrō nor Kōki know each other's birthday because the subject never came up whenever they talk?

Like, considering Seijūrō's upbringing, it wouldn't be a surprise if he thinks of birthdays as something trivial. Just as another regular day. Whereas for Kōki, birthdays are a milestone.

So it's November 8th, Kōki's birthday. But he's completely busy dealing with real life stuff that he entirely forgets about it... Until his co-workers surprised him with popping confettis, presents, songs & of course, a cake.

Skip to Seijūrō who just finished work, he opens his social media account just to pass time. He checks Tetsuya's post, where the light blue-haired guy celebrated & congratulated Kōki's (insert ordinal number here) birthday, surrounded with Taiga & people he don't know.

Seijūrō blinks. Today is Kōki's birthday???

He looks at the clock. It's 09:00 P.M.

Fuck. Seijūrō only has 3 hours left to find the perfect gift for Kōki.

But he's not an Akashi if he gives up. Either he tries even if it means he'll have to wait the comfort of a hot shower & his bed or he'll miss out on his BF's birthday.

Okay okay, so, besides my private hc that Kouki would rack up bills from designer brands with his husband's black credit card- I think he is someone who won't accept extravagant gifts, like, the price of it hangs over his head and he knows he won't ever be able to match it so he can't accept them.

With that option out of the window, Akashi's only remaining choice is to arrange an experience. Some phone calls later Akashi books it across the city and makes it to Kouki's apartment in a record time of 27 minutes. When Kouki opens the knock on his door he is met with the sight of a slightly frazzled Akashi holding a small bakery box. (No he absolutely did not pay the individual who was closing shop for the night 30,000 yen to let him buy a cake afterhours)

"Happy birthday, Kouki."

Confusion gives to surprise and then to joy. Kouki's chest burns with light. Uncaring to his neighbors who may be nearby or the pedestrians on the street who may look up, he leans forward and kisses Akashi. He pulls back from Akashi who is also surprised since Kouki rarely displayed affection in public- Akashi leans towards Kouki, chasing his lips a bit. He blinks open his eyes to see Kouki's bitten back smile and his feet are barely able to catch himself when Kouki pulls him into the apartment by the arm.

They spend the last couple hours of his birthday in each other’s presence simply enjoying being together because those last few hours are the loneliest as an adult on your birthday. When you can feel the echo of your voice on the walls and the touch of your loved ones from eariler is gone. You just want to be with those you love.

In the morning Kouki wakes up to the smell of something burning. He can't help but laugh as he watches Akashi attempt to scrap something black off of a pan into the sink. Frustrated he drops the pan with a dull clang. It's easy to sneak up on Akashi when he is so focused on something else, and that's just what Kouki does. He wraps his arms around his waist and buries in nose in his nape. The smell of Kouki's conditioner fills his nose. Instantly Akashi relaxes.

Almost petulantly Akashi mutters, "I was going to make you your favorite meal. It's harder than I originally thought."

Kouki's arms tighten a bit and he presses his smile into Akashi's shoulder. "Thank you for trying, but you really shouldn't be allowed in a kitchen."

Akashi hums a half agreement. He turns around and returns Kouki’s embrace.

"I might have ruined your pan."

Kouki's laugh paints the kitchen gold.

On Kouki's next day off Akashi takes him out for his "birthday date" which involves taking him on a tour of the premier train manufacturing company and entering the next top of the line model that will officially release in two months.

"I don't know how I'll be able to match that for your birthday... and when is your birthday by the way?"

"December 20th. You do not have to worry about that. I would just like to spend it with you."

"That can be arranged."

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sand--hanitizer · 2 years

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I got my gliding license issued by the Liyue Administration Department. Just like i said i would. I wanted to glide from the mountaintops with you. But today i was crying at your statue as you and that blonde boy were gliding off in the sunset.

Traveler, Aether, Honorary knight, he always made me think about you and me and how impossible it seems. He's so much older, so much stronger, so much more kind, so much more beautiful than me. He's so ethereal. He's everything I'm insecure about and he brings out the best in you. The best of you that i could never bring out, the best that I'm not allowed to see. But, he doesn't see just the best of you, does he? No, he sees the worst of you, and guides you back to the light. Aether is light and you're the stone being warmed by his warmth. Where as i am colder than the abyss.

Still , i cry, at your archon statue, wondering how am I supposed to love again. Do you listen to the prayers offered at your statues or did you abandon that when you retired? Well i suppose you did, you may be a god but you're no longer an archon.

I know that if we got together,it won't be perfect but I have never felt this way for anyone. I just can't imagine that you're living, talking about marriages and rings and starting families when you don't even know how I feel. I wanted to be the infinity to your eternal mountains. But he can always be the sun. Whereas i simply wanted to be infinite, he is.

All my friends from snezhnya are tired of seeing a harbinger wax poetic about someone unattainable. But I feel sorry for them because they'll never know you how I know you. I'll never know you like how he knows you. But sometimes i walk near your house in the suburbs imagining that I'm coming home to you, but you're home with him, he makes you soup and reminds you to take your wallet, I'm sad because now he even took away my joy of buying things for you. He unknowingly took away the one legitimate reason why I could talk to you. He's so good for you.

Red lights, wind currents, cliffs, edges , caves, I still see your face in every natural beauty of Liyue. God really made his domain in his own image. i see your face in the lakes and ponds and rivers of Liyue.

I can't walk past the places we used to go to, because i still love you . In Wanmin Restaurant i bought you lunch and I hear you laugh with so much joy because that blonde boy said something in the same booth of that same restaurant. I never made you laugh like that.

You asked me to be the best man at your wedding and i cried so much at the wedding. I lied when I said weddings make me emotional, but it was because a marriage to the god of contracts is forever, and Aether signed that dotted line,not me. I said I was sick when you had to move furniture to you and your husband's shared home. I can't do this to myself, i don't want a part in building a home that i want but can't have.

I heard you're thinking about having children. You two want one or two.

Every Monday after fighting in the golden house I can't help but shake with sobs. You shield him from me even when you're not the one actively fighting. You wear matching wedding bands while fighting.

To see you live, and be the missing puzzle piece to each other, you're the infinity to the other's eternity and I'm fleeting.

#zhongther #zhongli x aether #genshin impact #married zhongther #zhongchi angst #unrequited pining #unrequited zhongchi #zhongther fluff #unrequited love #childe pov #zhongli #aether #childe

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dearfuturehusbandblog · 1 year

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God Hates Me

Dear Future Husband,

I've talked before about how I'm gross. Let's talk about another reason why, and this one is super embarrassing, but I've been open about other gross things, so let's really get into it.

I don't shower often.

That isn't to say that I don't keep myself clean, because I do. I wash my face, I brush my teeth, I use dry shampoo, I wash my hands, I wash my feet, and I do "dry bathing" with wipes. But considering I don't live a very active lifestyle, I don't sweat much, so I don't really smell (and I have a very sensitive nose, so I know when I'm smelly), and I use deodorant and the occasional perfume. And I wear clean clothes and underwear and everything.

But I don't shower often.

And that's something that apparently comes along with depression, so yay. I'm sure we're all shocked.

Sometimes it's that I can't summon the energy to do it, which doesn't make sense, but the thought of it is overwhelming.

Sometimes it's the ADHD lack of proper executive functioning that creates the give a mouse a cookie scenario of "If I take a shower then I can't sleep in the same sheets I slept in when I was 'dirty' so if I'm going to take a shower I first have to wash my sheets, which means doing laundry and then making my bed. Also, are my towels clean? Maybe I should wash those first, which means at least two loads of laundry just to take a shower."

And as disgusting as it sounds, it makes more "sense" at that point to not shower and continue sleeping in not fresh bedding than it does to just shower and go to sleep like a normal human being.

But I also lose track of time, so what starts as a procrastination of "I don't have the energy today, so I'll do it tomorrow" can sometimes turn into "I bathed last week. Or... was it two weeks ago?"

Suffice to say, right now it's been longer than it should have been between showers. And I finally just broke down and told myself, "STOP BEING THIS WAY. Whatever happens, you will wash your sheets on motzei Shabbos and shower like a normal human being."

And then sometime around 6pm on Shabbos, my lower back started throbbing. Which it is still doing now, two days later.

Laying in weird positions can be almost painless and standing is sometimes ok, but sitting and bending over is so intensely painful.

Which means that simple things like even going to the bathroom have been almost impossible without me coming close to passing out from the pain.

Yes, I've been taking pain killers.

No, they haven't much been helping.

And I also have NO idea what brought this on. Like, none. I was sitting at the Shabbos table schmoozing and all of a sudden it wasn't comfortable to sit anymore.

I've had pain like this before, but I can usually pinpoint what I did to cause it. And yet I didn't do anything on Shabbos or Friday that would have warranted this. The closest I can come to an explanation would be that I lifted 2 packages of water bottles on Thursday, but that's something I don't do that infrequently, and it's never been a problem before. And also when I've had this in the past, I woke up with the pain whereas this just happened after I'd been up for a while.

SO, WHAT THE HELL

But you see what I'm talking about, right? I finally get my mind straight enough to DO something I know I'm supposed to do, something that's a positive in my life for self-care and outward appearances, and then BAM, God just pulls the rug out from under me. Like "Ohhhh, did you just say you were ready to be a clean person? Nooo, I'm sorry, we're just going to double down on how gross you are. Mkaybye."

Because how much grosser could you be when wiping yourself after using the bathroom is so painful you're not even sure you did a proper job of it.

Let alone bathe. Let alone do laundry and make your bed.

I guess it's almost a bracha that I'm constipated now, because at least once that poop exits my body it doesn't leave much of a residue. But when you're in so much pain that it hurts to sit or use any of your lower back muscles and pooping out hard stuff requires quite a bit of sitting and straining of the lower back muscles....

I'm miserable right now. Physically miserable.

On top of that, I had made a commitment to help a friend with something yesterday that required bending. And I made an appointment to meet with a customer today that required me to get in my car and drive to work, and of course this customer is the promptest person on the planet who gets annoyed whenever I'm late (which is my natural state of being, but at least today I have a legitimate reason) and would be pissed if I rescheduled.

And I'm so upset about this. It would be one thing if I did something outrageous and was like "ok, yeah, I did that to myself" but this doesn't even have a source that I can pinpoint! It's God giving me pain for the sake of making my life miserable and I'm so sick of it.

I've tried googling to see what kind of things can cause this kind of pain, and that's always a fun adventure because two of the first results were "lower back pain can be caused by constipation due to dehydration" and "a tumor pressing on your spine can cause serious back pain." Oh ! Fun! So either I'm not drinking enough water or I have a tumor. Greeeeeaaaaaaat.

Other causes include a twisted ovary. So, that's fun.

At this point I'm hoping for the tumor. Just kill me already and get it over with. I'm just done with all this stupidity.

-LivelyHeart

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