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I know I'm late as f**k but... I just saw the last episode of Sherlock yesterday and I don't seem to be able to recover from it. Like yeah, I was fond of the Johnlock ship and in the 4 season suddenly it sunk. The authors just had to pull out of the hat Irene Adler, I thought she was gone 4ever but no! In the second episode Sherlock received a message from her and in the third episode it is implied that they had sex!!!!! And in the last minute of the last episode we can see he is typing "you know where to find me" (my mistake, this text it was to Lestrade 🤣 as I watched the last season now and the other three years and years ago, I didn't notice it was the same scene from the first season... A nice way to say that no matter what happens and the changes that take place, something never change). There my ship was pulverised and I can't recover from it.

Just WHY? We didn't hear from her for a long time and then this! Untill these scenes I was still able to dream about Johnlock, but now it's impossible. I can no more make this couple work in my head.

Yeah, John was married, John had a lot of girlfriends (all of them left him because he was too much into Sherlock lol) and John kept saying "I'm not gay!" but it's different... John goes from one woman to another easily, and even though he married, he is now a widower with child.

But Sherlock... I think he is really engaged in relationships. He started off not caring about others but in John he found a flatmate, a colleague, a partner in crime, a friend... And from there he starts to open to other people too, and when he cares I think he does totally, there no half measures for him. He was convinced he needed no one, he thought that emotions and feelings were useless, an hindrance to logic. He believed that all he needed was himself. But then John happened and all his beliefs shattered and his traumatised heart warmed up. If it wasn't for Watson, Sherlock wouldn't be alive, if it wasn't for Watson he probably wouldn't have opened up to The Woman. He got involved with John and he started to feel, to be emotionally alive.

So to hell with Irene Adler, I hate that she popped up like that at the end and destroyed all my fantasies. I can't erase her because she is canon 😭

I just want John and Sherlock together forever with no one in between. The hurt in Sherlock eyes is real at John and Mary's wedding, like there is no place for him anymore, like he is losing someone really important, like he doesn't want to let go and he is feeling lonely. Why did they bring Irene Adler up like that...

#sadgirl #johnlock #john watson #sherlock holmes #bbc sherlock #sherlock fandom #sherlock #delusional #hearbroken #shipping #no ship #irene adler #feelings #e.s. #sadness #relationship #bromance #sherlock4season #4season #last season #last episode #the final problem #my thoughts #my ramblings #i am sherlocked #sherlocked

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Ci ho stretti così forte nel mio pugno per non perderci, che avevo i crampi. Le unghie scavavano nella pelle. Faceva male. Se questo però voleva dire non rinunciare a noi, non perderti, allora non importava. Ma tu... tu hai rotto una dopo l'altra le mie dita, finché, impotente, non ho potuto fare altro che guardare mentre scivolavamo via, lontani. E nonostante tutto questo, nonostante sia stato tu, impugnando un martello, a fracassarmi la mano, la colpa è ricaduta su di me, io che non sono riuscita a mantenere la presa.

#e.s. #tristezza #triste realtà #delusione #amarezza #triste verità #triste consapevolezza #fine di una storia #fine di una relazione #fa male #testardaggine #sofferenza #malessere #sto male #riflessione personale #frasi tristi #triste #sono stanca #sono idiota #sfogo #pensiero #parole #cuore #cuore a pezzi #cuore rotto #cuore che piange #sentimenti #amore triste #amore #perle ai porci

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This anxiety is so unbearable.. it feels like someone is stepping on my chest, crushing me. I feel so suffocated, breathing is hard, my head is in turmoil and my heart is racing like it's going to tear apart.

Am I to live like this, like a prisoner of my own mind? A cage from where I'm unable to escape... This anguish about living is maddening.

#e.s. #madness #bpd vent #bpd problems #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd #borderline personality disorder #disturbo borderline #maddening #broken mind #sadness #sad thoughts #anxiety #ansia #anxiety attack #anguish #anxiety desorder #this is unbearable #hurts #hurting #hurtful #suffering

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Se gli occhi sono lo specchio dell'anima, o io ne sono priva o la gente è analfabeta e non sa leggere ciò che porto dentro.

#anima #triste realtà #occhi #specchio dell'anima #analfabetismo #triste consapevolezza #tristezza #delusione #gente che delude #mondo interiore #animo #senz'anima #indifferenza #superficie #superficiale #superficialità #e.s.

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Why does it always seems like it's the end of the world, like I'm going to drop dead, mentally exhausted and pained? And yet here I am, going through some other shit again... I know it's just "a moment", but this moment is tearing me apart. I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. The hurt is killing me.

#borderline personality disorder #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd thoughts #bpd #i'm sad #sadness #im hurtin #i cant

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I so fucking hate myself because I'm hurting and I'm doing nothing about it. I'm hurting and here I am. I know in my fucking mind what I should do to be better... Running away from this place, cutting ties with more than one or two people. And yet I'm incapable of doing so. My mind is so fucked up that it does really seems as if I like it this way. Maybe this is all I know and I can't let it go. Yet ... The only way I can see to escape from my inadequacy is death.

#im hurtin #hurts #hurtful #e.s. #hurtquotes #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd vent #bpd #helplessness #this is hell #this is unhealthy #i'm sad #sad #sadness #sorrow

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Persone, esseri estremamente rimpiazzabili.

#delusione #tristezza #sadnees #triste realtà #e.s. #disillusione #riflessione #amarezza #triste verità #triste consapevolezza #schifo #frasi tristi

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Nell'epoca digitale, in cui la vita virtuale conta più di quella reale, si pensa che bloccare contatti, cancellare conversazioni ed eliminare delle foto equivalga a gettare un colpo di spugna su tutto... Modificare il passato, rendere dei trascorsi inesistenti. Che senso di potere e di controllo che dà compiere tali azioni, come se la vita fosse un racconto di fantasia che stiamo redigendo e in cui possiamo cassare le cose che non ci piacciono, spostare dei fatti in altri punti del testo, rivisitare la scena. Ma questa è solo una facciata, non la vita.

In verità si stanno solo rimuovendo, per modo di dire inoltre, dei dati dalla rete, dei post dai social media. Le persone non sono fatte di byte, bensì di carne e raschiare dai propri account e dalle proprie pagine degli attimi immortalati e caricati non servirà a togliere degli accadimenti dal vissuto, a cambiarlo. Ciò che è successo è successo, che ce ne sia o meno prova; delle parole sono state pronunciate, dei momenti hanno avuto luogo, del tempo è stato condiviso... Si può formattare un telefono, una memoria esterna... Ma non si può rinnegare il passato. Le tracce restano dentro di noi, con noi.

#delusione #e.s. #tristezza #triste realtà #disillusione #dbp #riflessione #spunti di riflessione #riflessione personale #frasi riflessive #momento sfogo

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"I'm just a would've been, could've been, should've been, never was and never ever will be."

Bring Me The Horizon, "And The Snakes Start To Sing"

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It hurts so much that I want to hurt myself in the hope of purging me of this sorrow. I want to bleed it all out and welcome the numbness.

#sad #sorrow #sad quotes #sadnees #im hurtin #hurts #hurtful #self arm #hopelessness #heartbroken #heartache #you broke my heart #you broke my trust #you broke my soul #you broke me #shatteredmindandbrokendreams #picking up the pieces #e.s. #borderline personality disorder #bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #actually bpd

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In attesa sull'unico binario di una piccola stazione, le campane risuonano, il profumo dei fiori aleggia nella brezza e tra le fronde degli alberi gli uccellini cantano. Mi circonda la primavera, ma dentro è pieno inverno.

#inverno #primavera #stazione #binario #tristezza #depressione #frasi tristi #e.s. #infelicità

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I miss you. But you're not mine anymore. You're not by my side anymore. You left and walked away. What to do with this troublesome sense of loss?

Miss you ... These words linger in my mind but I can't say them. I can only swallow them back where they belong, locked inside me. Killing me slowly.

#e.s. #sad tumblr #i'm sad #sad now #i miss u #just some silly little thoughts #crappost #missing #heartache #heartbroken #unspoken #killing me #sadness

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A sapere che era tutta una farsa, almeno mi sceglievo un coprotagonista più bello.

#e.s. #stronzi #frasi stronze #stronzaggine #ex stronzo #ex di merda #cattiveria #persone di merda #schifo #attori #farsa #finzione #comparsa #delusione #rabbia #le persone se ne vanno #disillusione #stronzo di merda #citazioni stronze #stronzo #commedia

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Phones are full of LIES

#phone #mobile phones #lies #sadnees #i'm sad #e.s. #delusione #triste realtà #triste verità #tristezza #triste #triste consapevolezza #sad tumblr #sad truth #truthbetold #truthoflife #exposing the truth #people lie #sad memories

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Please, be kind. Don't come tonight and let me sleep peacefully. I can't bear to see you anymore. What's worse is that it's not the lovely and tender you that I used to know but the one I hate the most. The harsh and disrespectful one. The one who only likes to hurt me. I don't know this person and I don't want to see them anymore. Just stay at bay and away from my dreams, because you keep on turning them in nightmares. I can't go on like this. Give me some peace of mind.

#i just want to sleep #nightmare #dreams #stay away #sadnees #i need sleep #sleepless #e.s. #torment #want to sleep #leave me alone #peaceofmind #hurts #hateful #i hate him #i hate my brain #i'm sad