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(via Fine! Enough is enough. Or is it? What dididonow?) My broken heart and loneliness left me vulnerable to a blindside set up by my coworkers and a new guy at the B.O.Q. who vaguely reminded me of Ed. I let things spiral too far and well that's a story...

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Fine! Enough is enough. Or is it? What dididonow?

“WHEW,” as I wipe the sweat off my brow, I now have some time and energy to write. Grandkids are a lot of work. Whoever said, “they are the joy of life,” never dealt with children of divorcing parents. Every day is a challenge and every day brings a new and often unwanted surprise. Especially if they had been raised without any sense of right or wrong. Or for that matter, self-control. Great…

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(via From friendly seas into the storms of life.) From San Diego to Virginia Beach, I learned grew and found new friends and nemeses in the Navy. But mom remained my constant tormentor and antagonist.

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From friendly seas into the storms of life.

Recently, I have received several emails from readers asking me why I have stopped writing. Writing is a love for me and I have been writing my whole life, however, I am at a phase of my life where crap happens and grandkids keep you busy. Since before the holiday season, I have been baking, shopping, and going to doctor’s appointments for myself and my husband. Time has been at a premium for me…

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(via From getting the boot to no second chances and getting carried away.) After leaving boot camp and going to A-school In San Diego, I found out what freedom felt like. Also, what life in the Navy was going to be like, and the realities I would need to face. To often there would be "no second chances."

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From getting the boot to no second chances and getting carried away.

Having never really traveled anywhere I was excited about seeing California. When we landed, I looked out the window of the plane and saw the bluest sky I had ever seen in my life. While exiting the plane there were so many new and interesting things to look at and listen to. In the terminal I noticed there was a group of people called Hare Krishnas, dressed in long oranges dresses with scarves.…

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Graduation the joy and the heartbreak

As the company prepared for graduation day excitement was high, boot camp was about to be a memory. We survived and now it was anchors away for the group that spent eight weeks together. For myself, Rachel, and Amy, we were feeling the loss of a shipmate that we had known and grown with for nine weeks. We all agreed that this graduation day would be a dedication to Kim, and we hoped, and I…

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(via Kim.) I lost a good friend at the very end of boot camp and never gave it the full acceptance, or grief it deserved; until now.

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Kim.

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season filled with family, blessings, and much love. I needed to take a break after that last blog. You see I had not thought about Kim in quite a few years and writing that last blog brought back all those emotions, and unresolved feelings. Kim was my friend and I felt guilty for many, many years after her passing. I wondered if I would have said something…

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When things get miserable, we can tend to laser focus on our own grievances. But, we shouldn't forget that others' pain may be just as horrible, or worse.

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But wait there's more! Just hang in there for a tragedy.

After the test was over, our company headed to chow for lunch, no-one was very interested in talking at lunch because the test was hard and failing it meant, one more week in boot camp and a second attempt at the Blue Jacket final exam. As we all marched back to the dorm after chow, we settled in waiting for the test results. The minutes seem to takes hours as most of us listened to tick-tock of…

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The company commanders thought that cleaning while exhausted was a new challenge for me. Well the joke was on them. Working at The Gateway Clipper Fleet more than prepared me for that. But, my mouth forgot where I was.

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Who thought Hell was seven days afield with a scrub brush and chopping knife?

As week four was ending anticipation was high for Hell Week. Another company was graduating and moving into The Fleet, while my company was preparing for week five. We were told a list would be posted and we would find our names to see where we would be for Hell Week. Once the list was posted, I noticed that this Hell Week everyone was worried about was a list of chores, they called it “field…

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(via Drilling up sailors with mountain climbers toward one hell of a week.) Who thought that the way to get to the Fleet would involve so many mountain climber steps? the uphill battle was fraught with battered egos, torn ligaments and never ending exhaustion. But, I never quit.

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Drilling up sailors with mountain climbers toward one hell of a week.

It didn’t take any of us long to figure out that boot camp was an eight week training program designed to break down the civilian bad habits that we all had grown up with. This boot camp program was a building or rebuilding of physical, mental and emotional strength. Designed to create competent sailors who would represent the United States, while serving in the Fleet across the world. “Okay,” I…

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(via Welcome to the Cradle Descending Series, Part II) Well I finally did it. Flew the coup and landed in sunny Florida. And, I would spend nine long, weeks rebuilding myself. Okay, it was boot camp. But, my mouth stayed unchanged and unwilling to stay shut.

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Welcome to the Cradle Descending Series, Part II

“Cradle Down” On December eleventh, I posted the prologue for the Cradle Descending series, Cradle Down and have not posted much else since. This past week I have had sick family members, who ran fevers around the 102.8° mark. And I have also had my end of the year doctor’s appointments. Today is Saturday, December sixteenth with no more sick family members, and the doctor’s appointments over,…

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