#(in his mind)

[dollopheadedmerlin]

Personally, I hate when people say that Merlin is king of the druids. Merlin isn't meant to be a king. He's meant to serve. Serve Arthur. Serve magic. Serve the earth beneath his feet and the waters falling from the skies. He gives and sacrifices and fuels the world around him.

King is objectively Arthur's role, and I think making Merlin a ruler of another people kind of dampens that. Merlin would not be king of the druids, he would be on his knees and beg and convince those with magic to follow his king. Even if Merlin is a god, he will always hold Arthur up high upon his shoulders. Worship him in my stead.

#mine #merlin #is it healthy? #probably not #but I'm not here to argue #Merlin's mental health #I'm here to argue #that Merlin sees nothing in himself #aside from his devotion for Arthur #all he is worth is in Arthur #in his mind

[photozoi]

"Ah Hah!"

"Prepare to meet your doom!"

"Have at you!"

"My work here is done."

Mr Mung, Silken Windhound, 5 months and Hero in his own mind. Appearances by sisters Fava Bean and Adzuki

#Mr Mung #Fava #Adzuki #sighthound #silken windhound #photozoi #original photos #11-14-23 #derring do #in his mind

[dcandyland]

when he wakes up are you at least going to question him more? cause he said some stuff that not even we were expecting him to say

I'm planning to ask him about how safely turn Y/N into candy. That's a big concern right now.

#dca!candyland #ask #anon #moondrop #fnaf moondrop #Family Reunion Arc #Plotless #In His Mind

[sapphire-weapon]

More things I didn’t discover until my 10th playthrough:

When Ashley wakes up at the beginning of chapter 14

you know like

when Leon is sitting on the floor at her bedside, and he’s winded and his vision is blurring and he’s actively planning his suicide and probably wondering at what point he should actually pull the trigger so that he does it before he turns, and he’s very likely just hoping and praying that Ada will actually come through for him post-mortem and get Ashley home in his stead

yeah so like when she wakes up during that

and Leon’s name is the first thing out of her mouth? She doesn’t just say his name. She also puts a hand on his shoulder

and that’s when he perks up and gets up and his symptoms suddenly all vanish and I want to fuckgin throw up now that I’ve noticed it.

I’ve talked before about how Ashley is Leon’s anchor to reality, but that is actually literally true in this instance. When Leon sat down and flipped his gun around and pulled the slide back, he was checking to make sure that a round was chambered. Then he takes a deep, steadying breath.

This happens just after his suppressant wore off, and there was no way for him to know when Ashley was going to wake up. It could’ve been hours. And by then, it would’ve been too late for him.

He was checking for a round in the chamber so that he could use it on himself if it came down to it.

Canonically, this isn’t the first time he's considered suicide. In RE6, he admits that he considered it (”a few times, actually”) while still in Raccoon City, and also just after escaping. So, when he’s sitting there at Ashley’s bedside, he isn’t considering suicide with a “I hope it doesn’t come to this” mentality -- it’s more of a “It was probably always going to end like this anyway” one.

And I can say that with confidence because it’s the closest he ever gets to actually turning (prior to his hallucinations at the very end of chapter 15) -- and it seems to be entirely self-inflicted. On some level, mentally, he’s already given up.

But then it’s her touch and her voice that clears his vision, steadies his breathing, chases away the pain and weakness that caused him to sit in the first place, and even brings a smile to his face. Suddenly, he’s fine. And he doesn’t have another fit like that again, outside of Saddler deliberately causing one.

And I just

I think about that in tandem with how bad his mental health gets later in the series -- how dark his depression gets in some canon installments, how profoundly his trauma manifests, and how he tries to self-medicate with liquor until it turns into a problem that just gets worse and worse and worse as the years go by.

And I just have to wonder if he’d have ever gotten that bad if he hadn’t walked away from Ashley at some nebulous point after RE4.

#resident evil 4 #leon kennedy #ashley graham #meta analysis #this post is basically just like a supplementary post to the last one i made about this #but i just #it wasn't just ashley waking up that pulled leon back #it was her hand on his shoulder #her touch to steady him #so that he could physically feel that things were okay #and that shit is so fucking powerful bro #and like #i know that sherry also kept leon's suicidal ideation at bay #but that's so fucking different #because she did that for him and then #in his mind #he failed her #and all that depression and self-loathing just came back #it's a huge part of the reason why he becomes a fucking deadbeat re: sherry #he can't bear to see her or talk to her because all he can think about is how badly he fucked up her life #and so no matter what sherry does or says to him now #she can't fight back those demons anymore #because now #in some ways #she's one of them #leon's relationship with ashley isn't like that though #imagine how much better off he'd be if he'd have kept her in his life #and i could go on and on and on about the power of intimacy #and how much of a difference it would make if she wasn't just around to talk to when he needed someone #but if she could still touch him

[flock-of-cassowaries]

The abusive [partner]’s problem with anger is almost always the opposite of what is commonly believed. The reality is:

YOUR ABUSVE PARTNER DOESN’T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ANGER. [They have] A PROBLEM WITH YOUR ANGER.

One of the basic human rights [they] take from you is the right to be angry at them.

- Lundy Bancroft, “Why Does He Do That? - Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men”, 2002. Available in PDF format here [archive.org link]

The gendered language really marks the book out as being 22 years old, but there are some very good insights in it - this one, in particular.

#my ex said he had too much empathy #but what was really going on is that he would lose his shit any time I was showed the slightest sign of being unhappy or angry with him #exactly what’s described here #meanwhile he was just freely snap at me #and that was totally fine #in his mind #sad i am without him < sad i am with him #breakup thoughts

[floweringglass]

Thankfully my refoiling job seems to have passed the rigorous Mort inspection and I can continue on to redo the hinge I had to rip off

#stained glass #in progress pics #cause sometimes you accidentally solder a hinge solid #and just have to acknowledge #it is best to tear it off #and start over #sadly this also means tearing off the foil edge too usually #cats #cat inspector is the best inspector #in his mind

[ndostairlyrium]

Modern AU Cullen but the tartan shirt is a Burberry tartan instead

#the guy is straight as a decumanus #in his mind #that shirt is buttoned and tucked into his pants #and it's all beige and brown #colors? lmao what are colors #cullen rutherford #spritz is kicking in

[hellfire--cult]

Hi stupid question but whereabouts in part 2 does it say Eddie has clients?? I read his pov in the cafe but I thought it meant he did frequent one night stands 😂

And here it is, PART 2

I did say it fellas, but yall forgot!

not my fault!

#he did say it #in his mind #but he did #oops #diwk #do i wanna know #roe answers

[age-of-moonknight]

“Good Morning,” Moon Knight: Black, White & Blood (Vol. 1/2022), #4.

Writer: Chris Cantwell; Penciler: Alex Lins

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Moon Knight: Black White & Blood #Moon Knight comics #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Randall Spector #latest release #tw blood #cw blood #tw gore #cw gore #I mean…he’s not wrong #but all in all an EXCELLENT reference to some of the details in Randall’s first couple of appearances where Marc felt guilt for #in his mind #leading Randall down a path of violence

[shootsun]

Wukong is a moron, sure all the gods fear him and some hate him, so let's just drink this suspicious drink from a mystery God

Yeah, not the smartest move ever, but he has survived every other attempt the gods have made on his life

#in his mind #whats one more vial of poison when youve already been beheaded? #which is kinda sad #lmk #lmk monkey king #answering ask #sun rambles #love potion anon

[bitchylittlevictorianchild]

Steve's favorite song is Tainted Love and you best bet that he sings that shit just like this:

#he simply loses his mind #im talking windows down #radio all the way up #screaming at the top of his lungs #its a well-adjusted response to hearing this song #in his mind #steve harrington #stranger things

[professor-pants]

Genre of character: submissive like a guard dog is submissive

#very capable of taking care of themselves very eager to take care of someone else #would kill a man for even slightly offending their partner #does what they're told #am i on to anything here? #these people come to mind: #crowley #bucky barnes #izzy hands #the doctor #mostly when it comes to clara oswald #ronan lynch #pearl #from steven universe #romeo #except his person is mercutio not juliet #riza hawkeye

[elizabro]

aaron bushnell knew exactly what he was doing. he states his intentions with total lucidity and sense of purpose. he knows what he's about to do is extreme--he says so. he speaks calmly, but he's clearly terrified. he takes a deep breath after pouring the accelerant over himself. he has to psyche himself up to light the flame. he struggles with the lighter. he says "free palestine" normally once before he starts to scream it. even through his agony he manages to say it one last time before he stops being able to speak at all. this is a man with total conviction. he wanted to help people, in any way possible. this action was a moral one, and any news outlet painting this as simply a mental health issue is a disservice to his memory. he knew what he was doing when he burned himself in uniform. he knew that there was a chance that sacrificing his own life could go on to save many others. this was the ultimate act of selflessness, and it should be treated as such. may he rest in peace.

#death tw #aaron bushnell #I know I'm not adding anything to the conversation. but I watched the uncensored version of the footage and it won't ever leave my mind. #I do caution anyone who decides to watch the video blurred or not. his screams are not something easily forgotten #free palestine

[hansoeii]

we go just right.

#when the date went so wonderful that you don't even mind that you forgot your umbrella at home #crowley is doing his best and aziraphale appreciates it very much #aziraphale's very special version of pride and prejudice can't get wet #so you gotta use the four year old newspaper you found in your bentley #I am not mentally ready for season 2 #it will change me in a way that I cannot even explain #thank you neil gaiman love of my life fr #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens fanart #good omens 2 fanart #aziracrow fanart #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #david tenannt #micheal sheen #neil gaiman #digital art

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[guooey]

#obsessed with his mind