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△ for Mura: of all the things your father did to you and forced you to do, what left the longest lasting (emotional) wounds?
10/10 v uncomfy [this got long, 910 words long, so under the read more it goes ]
Mura shifts in her chair. she clearly has to think about this deeply, but after a deep breath she starts talking.
"When i was still new to this world, he visited me and my lady mother. his hand dwarfed my shoulder as he made me look him in the eye, and he gave me my first order."
She looks away before starting her next sentence, a stiffness to her jaw, "prove that you are worthy of my blood in your veins"
"I cant have been more than a few winters old, a midwinter child. The darkest night of the year" she looks like she has had many people comment on that. she laughed bitterly, "my first encounter with my father, a threat and a challenge."
She looks into your eyes, the white and pink of her eyes no less startling for their mixing, her full gaze unsettling, "for those who haven't spent a century learning to interpret my father, the challenge was to be better than the failures i had the... pleasure of witnessing the downfalls of" unspoken, that she had orchestrated many of those downfalls herself, later on.
She shakes her head to dislodge the bloodstains and screams of what in another life would have been her siblings, but in this were just nameless warnings and examples.
"A threat that i could not be seen to fail, like them, as i carry part of him, and no part of him can fail. a threat that my punishment would be all the more severe for my special status-" another bitter laugh "- after all, the higher the tower, the further to fall"
She shifts again in her chair, frowning. "Ha. i suppose that's not the whole truth." a pause, "well it is one truth. having me be born to be his weapon is the reason I'm like... well this" she gestures to herself, a sneer on her lips.
with a sigh she continues "but when has this damned potion made it easy for me."
"Three decades is a long time to spend with one person, or at least it was for me. the only constants i had was my father, his favored didn't stay that way for long, and shot lifespans got shorter around him"
"i suppose i had my mother, ill as she was, always their to give me the education on how to be a proper eleven lady" Mura's grimace speaks for itself on her feelings about her mother. she moves on quickly, preferring to speak of the next uncomfortable topic than the one just hinted at.
"i was still a child in eleven years, and i had lacked consistent companionship. i let my guard down." her head shakes, "not really. well i did, just not at the start. it was a mission, like many others."
the slight tremor of her voice makes it clear it didn't stay that way
"but a year is a long time to deceive someone, let alone thirty. its not wise to lie completely for such a long time, as holes are bound to form, suspicions too,"
"He never disproved. not explicitly. he gained much from that relationship, much that no-one else could have got him, for i was the best of his tools, for better or worse,"
"Still, those gains ran out eventually." Mura's voice is almost a whisper now, low and catching on words. like a lover confessing a secret in the dead of night.
"our time together ran out eventually" her stony face was mistakable for a statue, her voice stiff too.
She hasn't looked at you for a while now, her eyes almost closed.
"that's your answer. damn you." her bitter laugh from earlier is nothing compared to the dry cackle that emerges from her mouth "that's all your getting. your close enough. you can say it yourself. i will no-"
something tripped her tongue, she tries again, carefully enunciating her words, "I will n-"
she jumps up and slams her fist on the table, blood from where her nails had been digging into her palms, shining in the light, shining like her eyes, their full force now upon you once again.
"When he ordered- When He ordered me to kill Her" her voice trembles with fury, but its loud now, and growing louder
"When i dug that blade into her throat. That's whats done the most damage." Her canines shine in the light to, "when he told me to kill Her and I JUST DID IT" shes yelling now, but then her voice breaks on the last word and her next are back to a whisper, her eyes away from yours,
"He- He didn't even need to force me. The threat was always there. It was always there. Since i was born, since he first put his hand on my shoulder, he could do anything to me, make me do anything."
"He made me kill her. He made me kill the only part of myself that was good"
"And the true worst part? he made me love him for doing it. he made me grateful for the chance to prove myself to him. he acknowledged me as his daughter, as his success."
This time her laugh was wet enough to be mistaken for a sob, "All i had to do was kill her. All i had to do was damn myself."
you barely hear it, one last confession from the wicked woman before you, "and i didn't even hesitate"
[there's three answers. the worst thing he did to her was make her be born. the thing that left the most scars was him ordering her to kill her friend, and the worst thing he made her do was manipulate her into sacrificing her friend for his acceptance willingly]
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endmylifelad · 1 year
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The BatKids once said…
Part 5!
Dick (25): if you’re not at least a little bit gay for your friends, then what kind of friend are you?
Jason (19): I’m not like other girls. Unlike them basic bitches, I don’t die when I’m killed.
Stephanie (18): I was so caught up on being gay that I forgot I’m bi.
Cass (18): I warned you, I’m perfect.
Duke (16): alrighty, so according to my school, it is the students responsibility to contact the department to let them know there’s a power outage or the internet is down so they can deal with it. However, if you’re like me or have any basic computer skills, you may be wondering… HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO EMAIL THE DEPARTMENT??
Tim (16): I hate when people ask me, 'What did you do today?' Buddy listen, I woke up at noon and then it was five p.m., okay? I don't KNOW!
Damian (14): army, attack! *unleashes hoard of rabid raccoons*
When I post these I try putting them in order of age. Decided to check if I was right and I sorta was? Didn’t know Cass and Steph’s age, and while checking I decided to go through everyone else’s age as well. I was off with Dick, Jason and Damian on how I imagined them to be.
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emmafallsinlove · 7 months
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the fact that the only thing i made myself for breakfast this week is toast with extra cheese and tomato is embarrassing
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saintvampy · 5 months
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my new skincare routine plan thing is only $21 a month? i am making money moves yall
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beemintty · 8 months
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Only 21 days... that's only 3 weeks.... that's less than a month!
It's not enough time!
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thedreadvampy · 2 years
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glad that Jay is around to help me with planning my Please Diagnose Me pitch bc when we ask 'how is this negatively affecting your life' I'm like hm. can't open jars bc my fingers come out of joint. can't have sex without my hip dislocating. it's fairly inconvenient that all shoes make my feet bleed and I can't brush my teeth without tearing up my gums.
and they're like. yes these are all good points you should mention. have you considered that Being In Constant Pain is also an effect it has on your life?
yeah. hadn't thought of that cause it doesn't actually stop me doing things most of the time. but now that you point it out, that is only bc I'm incredibly stubborn and don't take care of myself. so yeah.
they very astutely pointed out that a major part of lifelong disability is that you develop a lot of coping strategies to the point that you kind of don't notice that some things are affecting you bc you've found ways around them that mean you can still do the things you're trying to do. but that doesn't mean that they're not affecting you or that a doctor is not going to want to hear about them.
it's really easy to normalise stuff is the thing. like as per my bio I refer to myself as 'slightly disabled' a lot bc I am still. broadly speaking. capable of doing most things. it's just that it's often painful/exhausting, I need a lot of workarounds, and I can't sustain it long term.
but the thing is that uhhhhhhh that's only """slightly disabled"""" if I assume other people are also struggling with those things but maybe slightly less.
one of the revelatory things about having these conversations is how much I'm finding that many people don't even have a slight manifestation of these issues.
like it doesn't hurt people's hands At All trying to open a stiff jar lid or clap or pick something up at a slightly wrong angle. other people Aren't In Pain unless something's actually wrong. to most people 'my feet hurt after a 10 hr standing shift' doesn't mean 'my feet and legs physically will not take my weight for 48 hours after a 10 hr standing shift'. some people's feet just never bleed at all unless their shoes are WILDLY the wrong size. when most people say 'I'm tired' they mean 'I'm ready to take a break' not 'I feel whole-body sick and it's a painful struggle to string a whole thought together and I will feel unbearably ill if I move or open my eyes.'
like there's a lot of situations where I only register as Problems the things that I legitimately can't work around or ignore. like I started using a cane bc I was uncontrollably falling in the street bc my knees and ankles would just give way without warning. but now I have the cane so I've stopped noticing that - my legs still sometimes abruptly lose integrity but I can catch myself with the stick so I no longer fall (except occasionally when I trip myself up or I'm wearing inappropriately high shoes that make an ankle slippage harder to correct for) so I don't. consider it a thing that greatly affects my life. but like. it is, right? it's a thing I have to account for that other people don't. idk. it's all very interesting.
#red said#disability#also you know. I'm 29 and still just now realising that stuff that's affected me since i was 6 or 7 at most is Actually An Issue#so idk that's also interesting#bc none of this is new#i don't generally notice New Symptoms i notice that Other People Don't Have This Thing#or sometimes i try and do something I've not done much before and go 'huh. that's a problem.'#like i always had trouble with pain and instability in my legs and feet on long cafe shifts#but as a teenager i did 1-2 8hr shifts a week which knackered me but was manageable#and at 21 i tried to hold down a job doing 5 10-12 hr shifts a week and it fucking destroyed me#literally. i would spend all the time i wasn't at work in bed bc i was in so much pain#i missed a bunch of shifts bc i wasn't physically able to walk two streets to work let alone actually do a shift#like i called in stock several times bc the pain was so bad it took me like an hour to get from the kitchen to the bathroom#*sick#and obviously i got fired within a month#but like. that was the first time i registered that this was harder for me to do than other people.#even though I'd had a similar job with similar physical strains for i think 5 years as a Saturday job?#bc it has to get to the intensity that you CAN'T just work through it in order to register as a limitation. at least for me.#bc i naturally just assume that everyone feels some degree of this shitty and they're just hiding it better than me#bc I'm trying to hide it and get on with things! don't want to be a whiner!#so it's only when it gets to the point that no amount of willpower will make it hideable that you notice that nobody else has it at all#bc you will say to someone 'i am experiencing The Suffering very strongly today you know we've all been there haha'#and they'll be like 'what's The Suffering? that sounds like you have a serious medical condition'#and I'm like 'no dude no I'm not explaining it well. you know the Suffering? the Suffering that we all get#as a natural consequence of this everyday task? well I'm being a bit pathetic about it today so i can't move and it hurts to breathe'#and they're like 'no i literally have never heard of the Suffering'#shocked pikachu emoji
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cithaerons · 1 year
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a list of “slow fashion” companies that are sustainable and made of good materials just came up on my dash and i clicked around just out of curiosity and like idk it was very interesting, i guess a sober reminder of the fundamental tension at the heart of so much of fashion capitalism - it’s not bad for clothing to cost money, it’s actually good and necessary because it means the people who make them are being paid, the clothing is being made from quality materials, etc. clothing - like food - requires a tremendous amount of labor and that should be acknowledged and respected. however it does unfortunately mean that i personally cannot dream of buying said clothing. 
screenshot not to “cancel” these companies because i’m glad they exist and they have every right to charge as much as they do but just to illustrate what i mean:
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(i’ll add that there were a small number on this list that were more affordable and that’s great!)
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eddiemunsn · 2 years
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newtness532 · 1 year
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saddragonhours · 19 days
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see i dont flirt with anyone bc i genuinely believe that others find me disgusting and would be grossed out if i even tried
im sure thats the reason noone tries approaching me either bc theyre afraid my gross me would somehow rub off on them
idk maybe it has to do with being the fat kid all my life that noone wants to hang out with as friends much less date
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reesestshirt · 5 months
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When I was in middle school, I tried to learn how to crochet. I knew how to knit already, so I figured ‘how hard could it be’ and used my Christmas money on a brand new set of aluminum hooks and a how-to book.
To say it was difficult was an understatement. I spent hours pouring over my book, begging to gain some inkling of understanding from what felt like incomprehensible runes. My reward? One lopsided trapezoid of lumpy fabric and a resolve to never pick up a crochet hook again.
And so life went on, I finished middle school and high school without giving crochet so much as a second glance. In college, I read about how crochet couldn’t be replicated by a machine, it was unique in a way that knitting and many other fiber arts weren’t.
For Christmas last year, my girlfriend gave me what I now consider to be my most prized possession: a crocheted plush of my favorite pokemon. I raved over her skills and, since she never learned how to knit, we decided to have a yarn date at some point and teach each other our respective skills.
We never did get around to that yarn date. She passed a few months after our declaration, leaving me to inherit what was left of her yarn.
Nearly a decade after my initial attempt, I got ready for the toughest battle of my life. My weapons? One skein of yarn, a YouTube video, and a crochet hook that I had somehow never gotten rid of.
I slowly made my way through the video, redoing my work a couple times until I was satisfied with my product: a small, slightly misshapen rectangle.
I looked at my pristinely-made pokemon plush with hope for the first time in months and thought to myself, ‘maybe crocheting isn’t the hardest thing in the world, maybe you were just 12.’
Maybe this isn’t the hardest thing in the world. Maybe I’m just 21.
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cakeandpi · 5 months
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Love misreading dates and panicking as a result
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for the new year, i have decided to make a couple edits and additions to the almighty Calendar. happy 2024.
IT JUST HAPPENS
DAY 15 GIVE IT UP FOR DAY 15
Thursday the 20th
The Fifth of Wednesday
Second Week of May: Eurovision
Sometime in June: That One Halloween Post Starts Circulating
Sometime in July: Dancing Pumpkin Man Video/Gif
WEEKLY EVENTS (at least the ones i celebrate)
Every Monday: Garfield Hates Mondays
Every Tuesday: Tom Servo Tuesday
Every Wednesday: It Is Wednesday My Dudes
Every Thursday: Out of Touch Thursday
Every Friday: Flat Fuck Friday
Every Saturday: Sea Slug Saturday
Every Sunday: Energy Sword Sunday
YEARLY EVENTS
January 1: Copyright Expiration Day
January 8: Spiders Georg Day
January 16: Appreciate a Dragon Day
January 18: Bug Race
January 29: Threshold Day
All of February: Funguary
ALSO All of February: Femslash February
February 3: WOE, VANILLA EXTRACT BE UPON YE
February 13: Galentines Day
February 14: Aromantic/Asexual Day
March 9: Miku Day
March 10: Mario Day
March 14: Pi Day
March 15: Ides of March
March 23: Ever Given Got Stuck Today
April 1: Mishapocalypse
April 2: Dashcon Announcement Anniversary
April 3: Dannypocalypse
April 8: Rex Manning Day
ALSO April 8: MARGARET THATCHER IS DEAD
April 13: Neil Banging Out The Tunes
ALSO April 13: Homestuck Day
April 20: haha 420 blaze it
April 25: The Perfect Date
April 28: Ed Balls Day
April 30: It's Gonna Be May
All of May: Mermay
May 3: Beginning of Dracula Daily
May 4: May the 4th Be With You
May 5: Revenge of the Fifth
May 25: The Glorious 25th of May
All of June: Pride Month
ALSO All of June: IT'S HALLOWEEN TIME TO GET SPOOKY
June 5: Barricade Day
ALSO June 5: RONALD REAGAN IS DEAD
June 12: Another Homestuck Day
June 16: Let Papyrus Say Fuck
June 22: Summerween
All of July: Disability Pride Month
July 13-15: Dashcon Anniversary
July 20: Moon Landing
September 8: The Queen Is Dead and Sans Undertale Killed Her
September 11: Mole Interest Monday
September 19: Talk Like A Pirate Day
September 21: DO YOU REMEMBER-
All of October: SKELETON WAR
ALSO All of October: People Draw A Lot Month? (so many names)
October 3: Mean Girls Day
ALSO October 3: Fullmetal Alchemist Day
October 13: Treat Yo' Self
October 20: Unnecessary Feelings Day
October 31: HALLOWEEN
November 5: honestly what didn't happen that day
November 19: Goncharov
November 29: HENRY KISSINGER IS DEAD
All of December: Will the Gävle Goat Get Destroyed Again?
December 10: Please, It's Christmas
December 12: Hawaii Part 2
December 23: Christmas Adam
December 24: ALMOST CHRISTMAS MEANS IT WASN'T CHRISTMAS
ALSO December 24: Cabinet Man Day
December 27: Porn Ban Effective Today
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febuwhump · 5 months
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FEBUWHUMP 2024 PROMPT LIST
this year's prompts were chosen through a suggestion poll (in which we recevied 2,281 prompts) and a subsequent vote, where over 1,000 people voted for their favourites. the top 29 make up the core prompts, and a mixture of the next most popular - and this blog's personal favourites - have become the alternates
i’m so excited to see what you all create with these prompts, and hope they’re inspiring enough to trigger a whole month’s worth of creativity for you! if you have any questions, please check out the blog's faq before sending an ask, or check out the previously asked questions on the blog!
please note: this year, notifying the blog of completionist status will happen through a google form that will be released closer to the end of febuwhump.
full write-up of prompts and rules under the cut:
FEBUWHUMP 2024 PROMPTS:
DAY 1: helpless
DAY 2: solitary confinement
DAY 3: "bite down on this"
DAY 4: obedience
DAY 5: rope burns
DAY 6: "you lied to me"
DAY 7: suffering in silence
DAY 8: "why won't it stop?"
DAY 9: bees
DAY 10: killing in self defence
DAY 11: time loop
DAY 12: semi-conscious
DAY 13: "you weren't supposed to get hurt"
DAY 14: blood-stained tiles
DAY 15: "who did this to you?"
DAY 16: came back wrong
DAY 17: hostage situation
DAY 18: too weak to move
DAY 19: "please don't"
DAY 20: truth serum
DAY 21: unresponsive
DAY 22: "you weren't meant to be there"
DAY 23: presumed dead
DAY 24: "i'm doing this because i care about you"
DAY 25: waterboarding
DAY 26: "help them"
DAY 27: left for dead
DAY 28: "no... not like this"
DAY 29: not allowed to die
ALTERNATE PROMPTS:
is there a specific day’s prompt you don’t want to fill? here are ten alternatives you can switch them out for!
ALT 1: human shield
ALT 2: "i love you"
ALT 3: found footage
ALT 4: human weapon
ALT 5: cpr
ALT 6: immortality
ALT 7: last words
ALT 8: killing game
ALT 9: lightning strike
ALT 10: last man standing
RULES:
SOFT RULES:
prompts should be answered in the form of whump
creators can produce whatever kind of media they want
you don’t have to complete all the prompts! you can create however much you want to
you can use the prompts after the event ends and can complete them in tandem with any other event
you can post on any platform you want, however this blog will only be sharing those posted on tumblr
if you want to be featured on the hall of fame then you have until the 3rd of March to inform this blog that you completed all the days
if you have questions consult the faq before asking
HARD RULES: (specifically for being featured on the blog)
when uploading febuwhump content to tumblr, please use the tags:
febuwhump (i’ll also be checking febuwhump2024)
the relevant day’s tag e.g. febuwhumpday1, febuwhumpday2…
nsfw (if relevant)
and any trigger warnings that may be important!
you can also tag the blog, @febuwhump
i cannot guarantee your work will be archived on the blog because I have no idea how many participants there will be. a random selection of works tagged in accordance to the rules above will be reblogged every day of february.
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breelandwalker · 5 months
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2024 Witches' Calendar
For all my witches out there, here's a handy list of the 2024 dates for the solstices, quarter days, full and new moons, and special events. I've listed my sources at the bottom.
Dates and times for all events are calculated for Eastern Standard Time, USA, Northern Hemisphere. Adjust for your location as needed and check the DarkSky Placefinder to see what special events will be visible in your area. Enjoy!
Solstices, Harvests, and Quarter Days
February 1-2 - Imbolc / Candlemas
March 19 - Spring Equinox / Ostara
April 30-May 1 - Beltane / May Day
June 20 - Summer Solstice / Midsummer / Litha
August 1 - Lughnasadh / Lammas / Summer Harvest
September 22 - Autumn Equinox / Mabon / Fall Harvest
October 31 - Samhain / Halloween / Final Harvest
December 21 - Winter Solstice / Yule
Full Moons
January 25 - Wolf Moon ♌
February 24 - Snow Moon ♍
March 25 - Worm Moon ♎
April 23 - Pink Moon ♏
May 23 - Flower Moon ♐
June 21 - Strawberry Moon ♑
July 21 - Thunder Moon (aka Buck Moon) ♑
August 19 - Sturgeon Moon* ♒
September 17 - Harvest Moon* ♓
October 17 - Hunter's Moon (aka Blood Moon)* ♈
November 15 - Frost Moon (or Beaver Moon)* ♉
December 15 - Cold Moon ♊
*- Supermoon
Fun Fact: The title of Harvest Moon is given to either the September or October full moon, whichever falls closest to the autumn equinox. Once again this year, that month will be September.
New Moons
January 11 ♑
February 9 ♒
March 10 ♓
April 8 ♈
May 7 ♉
June 6 ♊
July 5 ♋
August 4 ♌
September 2 ♍
October 2 ♎
November 1 ♏
December 1 ♐
December 30 (black moon) ♑
Special Celestial Events
January 3-4 - Quadrantids meteor shower peak
March 25 - Penumbral Lunar Eclipse
April 8 - Total solar eclipse
April 22-23 - Lyrids meteor shower peak
May 6-7 - Eta Aquarids meteor shower peak
August 11-13 - Perseids meteor shower peak
August 19 - Sturgeon Supermoon / Seasonal Blue Moon
September 17 - Harvest Supermoon / Penumbral Lunar Eclipse
October 2 - "Ring of Fire" solar eclipse
October 17 - Hunter's Supermoon
October 21-22 - Orionids meteor shower peak
November 15 - Frost Supermoon
November 16-17 - Leonids meteor shower peak
December 13-14 - Geminids meteor shower peak
December 30 - Black Moon
(Check the DarkSky Placefinder to see what will be visible in your area!)
Mercury Retrogrades (in case you need them)
April 1 - April 24
August 4 - August 27
November 25 - December 15
Happy Witching!
SOURCES & FURTHER READING:
Bree's Lunar Calendar Series
Bree's Secular Celebrations Series
Moon Info - Full Moon Dates for 2024
Calendar-12 - 2024 Moon Phases
Full Moonology - 2024 Full Moon Calendar
AstroStyle - All the 2024 Full Moons
Your Zodiac Sign - Astrology Calendar 2024
Old Farmer's Almanac - Mercury Retrograde Dates 2023-2024
Lonely Planet - Best Star-gazing Events of 2024
Sea and Sky - Astronomy Calendar of Celestial Events 2024
DarkSky International - Dark Sky Placefinder for Stargazing
Pagan Grimoire - Wheel of the Year: The 8 Festivals in the Wiccan Calendar (2024 Edition)
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EDIT: Mercury is stationed direct on Jan 1st, 2024. The source I used which stated it was in retrograde until the 18th had a typo.
EDIT: Fixed the zodiac signs for the full moons using a new source.
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wagpastie · 1 year
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what the fuck
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