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Sanderstober Art Prompts 2020
Amidst all the editing and business, I haven’t forgotten to at least begin a list of Inktober prompts for you all this month! I’ll be adding more as I go! And, of course, like always, even if we’ve passed by a certain date (like, for instance, if it’s October 9th, but you wanna share a prompt from October 1st), that’s, of COURSE, fine! And, also of course, you can always join and do prompts at any time, this is purely for fun! The list has now been completed!
Oct. 1st - Take your profile pic or a favorite profile pic in the past and create a spooky version! Double dog dare you to use it as your actual profile pic.
Oct. 2nd - Create a Suit or Dress inspired by a specific candy bar wrapper design!
Oct. 3rd - This year could almost BE a scary movie. I shudder to put this as a prompt… but what would a poster for that movie look like?
Oct. 4th - Because I think the world just needs more of this, I want you to try and create the most wholesome or cute image you can. Little animals? Yes please. Feel-good scenarios? YES PLEASE. This one’s vague, but I don’t care! Lol
Oct. 5th - Take a traditional scary tale (“The Headless Horseman”, “Frankenstein”, “Dracula” ) and portray a plot point or poke fun at a character or characters from the story in the form of a MEME!
Oct. 6th - Nightmare Before Christmas was a tale about if Halloween took over Christmas and made so many traditionally Christmas-y. What if the reverse happened? What would Christmas make Halloween to look like?
Oct. 7th - Avatar: The Last Airbender experienced a renaissance this year! So, in tribute to that, take any character from any other piece of media (animation, TV, movie, etc.) and depict THEM if they also were an uber fan of ATLA this year!
Oct. 8th - What do you think the Sanders Sides characters’ Halloween costumes would be this year??
Oct. 9th - What if the personification of the Moon came to Earth to experience the daytime? What if the personification of the Sun came to Earth to experience the nighttime?
Oct. 10th - Take your Zodiac sign… and make it FASHION!
Oct. 11th - Please depict any Halloween monster, traditional or from a movie, and how they’re currently dealing or adapting to life in 2020
Oct. 12th - Take any character from a fave piece of media of yours and create a Tarot card for that character!
Oct. 13th - Many of us have stories we’ve created in connection with certain songs we’ve heard. For this day, try depicting even just a scene of that story and what song inspired it! If you can’t recall any story connected with a song you’ve heard, maybe just make one up in connection with a fave song of yours!
Oct. 14th - Take a famous painting from any time in history… and October-fy it (Halloween-y or Fall-y would be awesome)
Oct. 15th - Take an ordinary, every day location or refuge (a playground, a library, a treehouse, etc.) and depict the landscape of an entire world based on that location
Oct. 16th - Two games that have helped distract us and gave us much-needed entertainment this year are Animal Crossing: New Horizons and Among Us! What if the characters from Animal Crossing… were in Among Us?
Oct. 17th - Contrarily… what if the characters from Among Us… were in Animal Crossing?
Oct. 18th - A perennial favorite - Depict your OTP and how they’re enjoying Halloween this year. Coordinating costumes? Maybe 2020 is affecting how they celebrate?
Oct. 19th - Take one of your favorite characters from any piece of media. What piece of social media would they thrive on? You could depict either what their media might look like if you’re seeing it on your phone or you can depict them filming or writing for that piece of social media!
Oct. 20th - draw your home state, province, county, or country... if it were a PERSON
Oct. 21st - I definitely have been seeing an upsurge in Uno card usage this year, especially the Reverse card. Take one or several characters, maybe all from the same series, or different characters from different series, and depict them on Uno cards that best reflect their personalities! Make a super cool Uno deck or just one cool Uno card!
Oct. 22nd - Take one (or more) of the Seven Deadly Sins [Greed, Wrath, Gluttony, Sloth, Lust, Pride, Envy] and personify them!
Oct. 23rd - There’s been a lot of movies that have taken fairy tales and modernized them for present day. What if we took a fairy tale… and put it in the distant future??
Oct. 24th - Take a non-human character from any piece of media, and depict how they’d look as a human!!
Oct. 25th - POETRY PROMPT - I wanted to include something on this list that focused a bit more on writing than art, but you are MORE than welcome to create artwork to accompany this. I think we all have one or two specific moments from a piece of media (tv show, movie, video game, book, etc.) that has affected us in such a poignant way that it lives in our minds rent free. Create a poem describing the events of this moment, trying to capture the very magic that impacted you so much.
Oct. 26th - What would a Disney character’s outfit be if they were a member of the Avengers?
Oct. 27th - What would a specific Avenger’s look be, if they were in a Disney movie??
Oct. 28th - There are traditional fears, the ones that comprise many a horror movie… and then there are more niche/unconventional fears, specific to you as a person. They can be potentially silly, or irrational, or conceptual… what would a movie poster look like with that fear being the main featured threat??
Oct. 29th - WRITING/POETRY PROMPT - Wanted to throw at least one more of these in here! Through writing (and, of course, artwork, if you’d prefer!), detail a beloved memory you have connected with either Autumn or Halloween.
Oct. 30th - There has almost been a Pokemon made to pay tribute to almost every animal or inanimate object (sword, lawnmower, sandcastle, key ring, magnets, etc.). Nevertheless, create a Pokemon from SOME object or animal that hasn’t been made and give it a name! Bonus points if you can then create an evolved form of it!
Oct. 31st - It is HALLOWEEN, baby!! Take any character(s), from media or your own OCs, and depict them celebrating Halloween!! It can be them celebrating in quarantine, or out and about since it’s fantastical, just aim for it to be wholesome and Halloween-y. We could always use a bit more of that on the 31st of October!!
I hope you all enjoy this list! Can’t wait to see what you all make! It’s always so much fun to see your creations. If you’d like me to see them, you can use this weird hashtag name #Sanderstober.
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your berdly headcanons... hand 'em over. silly or serious or all of the above i just enjoy your thoughts about the birdboy!!!!!
you know not what you are unleashing. breaks my hands
- first things first... this kid is a bi trans boy. and he’s autistic. and he has adhd. AND-
- one of his most common stims is hand flapping and he'll also like, drum his hands against desks and tables. lots of hand and arm movement in general
- he pulls his feathers out when he gets nervous but otherwise they don’t really fall out just like, randomly. unlike noelle, who does shed in the springtime. he (playfully) complains about all the fur she leaves on his clothes
- if you startle him he’ll let out a little chirp. kris thinks this is Really funny and because noelle isn’t as easily startled by their pranks anymore (she's built up a tolerance over the years), they’ve shifted gears and now spend their time scaring berdly
- there’s also a good chance he’ll chirp mid-yawn or something
- just like ~500 other people i think berdly has a knack for english over other subjects. he’s probably in that phase where he thinks big words and convoluted sentence structure makes his writing better, but he’s growing out of it
- (or that’s how he is about his academic writing, because there’s a specific audience there he feels the need to “impress”; he might approach his fictional writing differently [because he definitely jots down short stories and poems whenever he can])
- noelle tutors him in math and science, and in turn he actually helps her with essay writing. she’s good on her own, but with berdly’s edits and suggestions, her papers go from a B to an A+
- oh on that note, i disagree with the notion that berdly is naturally good at english and views it as a lesser subject. i think he sees every school subject as vital and he takes a lot of pride in his vocabulary and literature analysis. his problem is he Hates to admit that he’s good at english and not so much everything else. he needs to be good at it all or he's not smart enough
- and actually? he is good at math and science. he says noelle helps him Study. this tells me that he does in fact learn the material; he just needs to spend more time with it and have it taught to him in a different way. but since it doesn’t click instantly in his head the way it seems to for noelle, he’s like “im not good at this and im not really smart”
- the thing he tends to look down on is his creative writing. it’s not doing anything for his academic career. it’s just fun and makes him happy. but that’s silly, isn’t it... he can’t seem to make himself stop and give up on it forever though. he writes and he writes annnnnd he doesn’t show anybody <3 except noelle, but she’s only seen like, 2 pages of stuff he’s written for fun. and it took a lot of coaxing from her before he let her see even that much (she really liked it. she's always trying to get him to show her more)
- he's pretty artistically inclined, all in all! he doesn't really let himself pursue those budding skills freely but they are there... ofc he loves video games and when he gets older and gets over himself a bit he'll probably end up in that industry! in story writing... or character design. or you know what. both
- i dont. know SHIT about video games but he probably feels the need to pretend to be super into extra hard games and he keeps up with all the new stuff that comes out but in reality he enjoys more retro stuff... from when games were allowed to just be like. idk. Fun. im thinking his favorites would be like spyro or gex
- he’s also on the cross country team. have i talked about this? i forgor 💀 don’t ask me where he gets the time to go to practice or meets (? does cross country have meets. or is that just track and field. im not looking this up) because like where does he get the time to do literally anything
- i just think... he is the type of nerd who is also sporty in a lot of ways. listen. do you see how strong he is in the dark world? wish fulfillment my ass that’s coming from somewhere idc
- anyway he and jockington are buddies. berdly is used to people being pushed away by his attitude and *ahem* Complex, but jockington is so easygoing he just... doesn’t care. which takes berdly by surprise. jockington ends up being the second person who berdly feels completely comfortable around and he drops The Act when it's just them
- from personal experience he probably spends a lot of his time at his library job bored. really bored. the work they let library aides/etc do is very menial. time-consuming, and there’s always a lot of it, but like. *falls asleep in the middle of my shelf reading* anyway the library in hometown probably sees even fewer patrons than the one i work at, and the amount of reshelving and shelf reading he’d have to do would be soooo minimal. he probably just sits at that desk most of the time. he tinkers with his homework, but he either can’t focus or it’s something he needs to ask noelle about. so he’s currently working on reading every single book in the library catalogue in alphabetical order to pass the time
- he has teeth. like. he has a full set of teeth. this is canon but it seems everyone wants to ignore it and i’m not going to let you. is it a little bit horrid? yeah. but stop taking away his teeth he needs those (the idea that they’re retractable is so bad it’s really funny and im kinda obsessed with it so i’ll accept that too)
- *ignoring that he calls himself a bluebird and that his head shape and white arm stripes are reminiscent of a blue jay* SO ANYWAY his feather pattern In My Head most closely resembles a beautiful nuthatch. why? idk
- just. imagine more blue and less black
- yyoouuuuu probably already know my thoughts regarding his family and how he must have been raised and yeah i guess? he? still lives. there. i guess there’s a shadow of his mother just in the back of my head. i don’t think we should talk about her.
- he’s an only child, though he has always kinda wanted a little sibling... he’d be a good big brother
- (fun fact: in my swap au, this desire for a little sibling is what makes him bond with clover the way he does. the little sister[s] he always wanted)
- LET’S TALK ABOUT SWATCH i think swatch adopts him. i think swatch steps in as a guardian figure to all the kiddos but with berdly something clicks in their head and they’re like “okay. come here. *scoops him up*” and i’ve talked about this before but im not shutting up about it.
- berdly spent the whole time in cyber world trying to gain queen’s approval and affection but after everything’s said and done, he realized he never had to go to all those lengths for swatch to notice him. they’ve had their wing held out for him all along; he finally backtracks and ducks underneath it. he feels safe around them :)
- i say after because in my little made-up world noelle and berdly don’t walk away from cyber world thinking it was a dream. or maybe they do, but come on it’d only take one of them mentioning one detail from the “crazy dream” they had for the other to be like “wait. what was your dream about? because um...” so like. in a normal or neutral route, they get their own little rooms in castletown and!! i think it would be so fun if, in-between Serious Plot, you could go to castletown and find both of them hanging out. interacting with the different npcs and stuff. berdly can often be found in the cafe, behind the counter with swatch ^^ he’s learning how to make all the different drinks and desserts... (swatch is the host but they probably know how to make everything served there right? right.)
- alternatively, he's being carted around by one or two of the swatchlings because they all fuss over him a little bit
- speaking of the neutral route. i don’t think. that’s the only time he sustains damage from that damn plug. like uh.... that’s not a very. small thing to have done to your body. electrocution or not. yeah
- i don’t think he can fly. his “wings” function too much like hands to work for flight. whatever the fuck he was doing after noelle and susie’s ferris wheel ride was him using his wind magic to like, propel himself up into the air and then steadily drop himself back to the ground a little bit at a time! so it’s a dark world only thing. if he had that same magic in the light world, then he could i guess. but it’s still also not actual flight and he can't stay in the air very long. but it doesn’t seem like monsters have magic anymore...?? or at least they just never use it....?? (????)
- oh and about his dark world magic. i don’t think of it as just wind magic. i see it as like. full-on storm elemental magic. he just doesn’t use any of the more standard ~stormy~ abilities because [this has been redacted because it's a spoiler for my befriend berdly route fic and normally i don’t care about spoilers for fics but i care about this one. sorry]
- he’s sensitive to the cold but it’s okay because noelle and her family give him like 10 brand new, very warm, and very fluffy christmas sweaters of varying degrees of ugliness every year. his wardrobe is just as festive as noelle’s at this point
- rudy isn’t amused by berdly’s Antics but noelle has kinda dragged him into the family anyway. his presence at their house on christmas eve is tolerated
uh. is. is that enough headcanons for you
#he's my special little guy idk what to tell you#do i want to tag these.yeah sure#deltarune#berdly#mailbox#TALKS FOREVER
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Good morning/night Danny I hope you're doing well! Congratulations on hitting a follower milestone, this shipping event is so kind of you to do, and I can't wait to see all the writing you have in store for us in the future.
I am tall vegetarian w dark curls and green-ish kinda scary looking doll eyes hahaha (they look like 👁️👁️). I would say I'm a very loving, sensitive, loyal and individualistic person and I really want to make people feel happy and like they can talk to me. I love hearing people talk about their interests. My fave things to do are watch movies, play video games, talk to my friends, travel, drink, play with my aquabeads, make people laugh, shop for free people, volunteer and bake Betty Crocker mix cakes LOL.
I study English lit and my favorite stuff to read is Medieval stories and poems. I love horror, it's my favorite genre of movies, shows, games and watching a horror movie is usually comforting to me. I love movies in general and I could talk about them for hours on end. I also love plays and musicals. My favorite thing to do with someone would be to watch a movie, play or musical with them, especially if they picked it. I'm also a night owl.
My top kink is probably breeding cuz the idea of being "claimed" makes me absolutely feral. I'm also a sub. Tell me what to do and you bet I'll do it.
Hahaha sorry this is a lot. Thank you very much!! Congrats again!
Ahahahahhaaaa!!! Wether you like it or NOT your ship is with OTTR!LETO!!!! (my own Frankenstein creation. No objections allowed.) But a subservient little thing like you?? With great taste in art?? You're done for.
He's a tough customer. A rough customer. A customer who will put all the employees to the wall. But he's YOURS.
You meet at an open house showing in L.A. You go to these things from time to time for the free champagne and the freedom it gives you to pretend you live a different life. You buy a dress you can't afford on Rodeo Dr. And you park your Civic a few blocks away for good measure.
At this particular showing in Venice Hills you're standing in the backyard, admiring the sunset, and when you turn around- you run into a man in a dark black tailored ensemble. Cut to form, toe to tip; chain as gold as his skin.
"Hi, sorry" you breathe out, intimidated by his presence.
You don't hear what he has to say in return, hurrying inside and up to the second floor.
While you're admiring the closet space of the master bedroom you turn again to find- him. Closer than he was the last time.
You mutter your apologies and make your way downstairs to the kitchen, where the free wine is pouring, and the avocado toast-ettes are being served.
He comes up behind you once again, and you swear it's on purpose.
So you boldly ask him, "what do you WANT?"
He chuckles behind a ringed fist, covering his mouth and says,
"allow me"
and tucks the tag of your borrowed dress into the top hem. where it was SUPPOSED to be. Christ.
"Thanks" you mutter through a mouth of avocado toast.
His smile is all but laughter, but he asks you with earnestness,
"You come to these things often?"
You decide to be honest with this man who is keeping your secrets.
"yes, actually. nearly every weekend."
"so? how does it compare?"
You're a bit taken aback, thinking that he might be messing with you. But it doesn't seem like he is...
"It's a very good house." you admit
"Ocean view" you say at the same time. You both laugh.
"my assistant... he scheduled me for this place. Didn't know if it was the right fit though...."
You nod. An assistant, huh? you chew on your toast.
"Let me buy it for you?" He asks, with adoration towards you.
"THE HOUSE?!" you've been propositioned on sugar daddy sites but this is somethi-
He laughs, "No, silly girl. The dress. Let me buy it for you. It suits you."
God, his smile is so captivating. So warm behind the beard.
"I don't know... I think I'll buy it myself. Seems pretty lucky."
He smiles at you adoringly.
"Then at the very least let me take you out to dinner, so you have somewhere to show it off."
You swallow your toast and acknowledge him with an admiring look,
"Alright then"
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Some things I wish I had known before getting sucked into the whole “dark academia” business:
I waited a very long time to start posting here because It just seemed necessary to wait a bit since DA exploded out of nowhere last year. I just couldn’t bring myself to write when I was so disgusted with the community. Now that it seems like we are out of fashion again (lol) I decided it could be worth giving this blog a try.
Also, almost everything I say here goes for pretty much any change in lifestyle, and these are just some general guidelines that I find particularly easy to follow, but do what works best for you!
1 - You DON’T have to spend all of your money to fit into this “aesthetic”.
The biggest problem with what is now called dark academia (but really, it has been a thing for such a long time) is that people put it in the same category as, for instance, VSCO girls or Indie (not that there is any problem with these aesthetics in specific, they are actually quite cute!). I know this sounds like rubbish, but DA really is a little bit more than that. The clothing/visual part of it may be important to some, but the way you choose to live your life and the hobbies you opt to engage with are crucial for everyone!
That being said, don’t spend a ridiculous amount of money on expensive linen shirts and fancy blazers. You don’t need a brand new pair of Oxfords or a 100% leather messenger bag to consider yourself DA. Start small, then make investments if you find it to be worth it. That brings us to our second point:
2 - Find your favourite aspect of the community.
I know it can be very overwhelming to adhere to any new style of living, but there are some easier ways to make a smoother transition (also, you don’t really want everyone to notice that you went from water to wine in one week, and then back to water after two more because you felt lost amidst all of those weird nerds you found on Tumblr, right?).
Begin with figuring out what part of the lifestyle you identify with the most. Is it the musical part? Classical dance? Are you into poetry? Books? History?
Once you have that done (I plan on doing posts on all of those topics and more, so stay tuned!), narrow it down until you find the very core of your interest. For example, I absolutely love literature, but what do I love about it? Is it the writing part? The reading part? Both? Do I have a favourite style? If the answer for the previous question is ‘no’, try to find one! There are so many amazing styles and eras to explore!
After determining what is/are your main interests, make sure to find time to fit them into your life. Buy more books, if possible. There are also public libraries with a great variety of literature to choose from! If you already do that, I encourage you to try getting out of your comfort zone and attempting something new. Why not experiment reading a different style of books? Or maybe getting into the more poetic part of literature?
3 - Get into it!
Have you found your main interest? Great! Now it may be time to actually get into the fashion aspect of the whole thing. Also, remember that, although it is not a requirement per say, being academically successful is something you may want to achieve, so put some effort into that as well.
I won’t get too much into the fashion rabbithole, but I may write something about it later. In the meantime, you can definitely find some great guides on different DA related blogs.
4 - Don’t adhere to all the negative habits that DA romanticizes.
We all know that mental illness and self destructive behaviors are heavily romanticised, and I will say this from the bottom of my heart: DO NOT LET YOUR MENTAL HEALTH SLIP BECAUSE OF SOME 15 YEAR OLD ON TUMBLR! Trust me, it is NOT worth it.
Cigarettes, alcohol, coffee, all-nighters, heavier drugs. All of that may seem cool and edgy from the outside (why people think that, I could not tell you), but it can also defeat the main purpose of DA and, even worse, ruin your physical and mental health for good. How are you going to stay ahead in school and go to Oxford if you are too busy partying and snorting coke? You will get a sore nose and a big hole in your pocket, that’s all.
Nihilism is another one. Note that I said “nihilism”, not "existentialism" (more on that coming in the future). If you enjoy pondering the reason for human existence and you question the religious beliefs that control our society, welcome to the club! But please, please, don’t let that get too much in your head. Existential depression is a very painful and difficult thing to deal with. It will take away any joy you may find and it is not in any way productive. If you have it, you will know what I mean. Thinking about it sometimes, writing poems, debating with friends, that’s all good, even encouraged, but don’t let it go to your head and become a problem. Not worth it.
Some extra things I would like to mention:
1 - Don’t force yourself into doing or enjoying anything. Sure, reading is good, but if it isn’t enjoyable there is no reason to become obsessed with it! DA should not be a burden.
2 - Stay away from the eurocentric ideals that come with the community. Racism is bad even if you want to live in the 1800s. There is simply no excuse to think that European culture is richer or more refined than any other. Remember that the only reason you think that is because some rich, old, white men decided to murder and opress millions of different people for pure egoism. Not really something to be proud of.
Also, if you are thinking “Yeah, whatever, but English culture is a lot nicer than Mexican, or Indian culture”, then you should probably reevaluate the reasons for your interest in DA.
3 - Don’t be mean to people just because you think it fits with your all-new pretentious and arrogant character. I don’t care if you want to be perceived as such, but it can be very bad in the long-run. Just be aware of that.
And most importantly, don’t let DA take away your personality! It’s okay to like video games and read gossip magazines every once in a while. It is also okay to be yourself. You don’t have to (and probably shouldn't) get rid of all the qualities that make you unique (yes, this is a cliche, but there is a reason why people say it all the time). Be silly, say dumb things and play minecraft with your friends all night, for godsakes!
“This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.”
(Hamlet - Polonius, act 1 scene 3)
-- Shakespeare, William
Memento Mori, dear villains.
#dark acadamia aesthetic#dark academia#chaotic academia#light academia#romantic academia#cottage academia#art academia#classic academia#aesthetic#guide#vintage aesthetic#literature#poetry#classic
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Hey! Would love to get a matchup for your event if that’s okay! :)
5’6, medium dirty blonde straight hair, hazel eyes, pale skin, glasses, female, kinda scrawny
INFJ, type 4
Aquarius sun, Scorpio moon, Taurus rising
Pet peeves: people speaking over me, insensitivity to feelings
Hobbies and interests: crocheting, painting, video games, hiking, playing with animals
Top 5 favorite songs: Why Worry and NME (set it off), Victorious (PATD), Toxic (Britney Spears), Sarcasm (Get Scared) (all very hard songs for someone who’s very soft)
Goal: To start my own wildlife rehabilitation center or animal sanctuary
Romance is finding your person; the person who, despite their flaws, you want to love and cherish for your whole life
Favorite childhood memory: Summers with my step siblings where we’d spend the whole day in the pool or jumping on the trampoline, then coming home to a good meal and an evening of Minecraft and indoor games.
Poem/song: this is very silly- but I’m named after the song Jessie’s Girl, so I identify with that 😅 but also I love Two Headed Calf… hits me right in the heart 😭
Soulmate message: Dear soulmate, where have you been? I’ll wait as long as it takes, but you should probably find me first. I get lost very easily… hope you’re the better one at directions!
Thank you for joining the event! First off, GIRL YOUR MUSIC TASTE IS IMMACULATE OMG. Second off, I feel you on the two headed calf. That poem hits hard. Anyways I hope you like your matchup and once again sorry for being late on these!
Looks like somebody left you something...
Sitting on your desk is a gift box and a letter. The box is overall beautifully wrapped with a purple bow, save for a few mishaps. Whoever wrapped it seemed to struggle with making it look as pretty as possible. On top of the box, tucked underneath the bow is an envelope. Unlike the box, it’s plain and has nothing on it except for your name. The writing on the letter inside of it starts off in pretty cursive before quickly turning to scribble, but easy to read writing. It reads:
“Dearest Jess,
How are you this beautiful day? I’m sure you’re looking as radiant as any other day. I’m sending this letter to... he’s finally gone. Ugh. Sorry about that. Rook was starin’ over my shoulder making me write all that sappy stuff. I dunno when he’s gonna be coming back though so I gotta make this as fast as possible. So I’ve been wanting to ask you somethin’ lately. Would ya mind being my Valentine? It’s cheesy and stuff, I know. But I just wonder what it’d be like. Imagine one day you get your animal sanctuary! It could be a great addition to the apple farm! And we could go on all the hikes and road trips we want to! And I might not be the manliest now, but one day I hope I can be the manliest I can be for you. But I hope you like me as I am too. It’d be no good likin’ someone for something they aren’t yet, right? Anyways maybe we can go on a walk together later? Just two of us?
P.S.: I hope you like the gifts. Looks like Vil’s lessons were good for somethin’ after all.”
It’s signed with a little apple in the corner.
Inside the gift box is two items. The first is a freshly carved apple. It’s been carved into an intricate and beautiful rose. Each individual petal is as thin as a real one and the care put in this work of artistry is apparent. The second gift is a bag. It has a long strap so that you may wear it on your shoulder and can be opened and closed with a draw string. The bag itself is made out of a plain light beige material that’s a little coarse. But the bag itself is far from plain; it’s adorned with embroidery. Little flowers in the corners of the bag, little woodland creatures and birds are sewn all over the bag. But at the center of attention, is the sewing of a bright red apple.
Your Valentine is Epel Felmier
Author’s Note: I’m sorry if this is OOC or doesn’t fit. I tried my hardest!
#twisted wonderland matchup#twst matchup#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland scenarios#twisted wonderland x reader#twst#twst x reader#romantic matchups#valentines#Valentine’s matchup#event#twst epel#epel x reader#epel felmier#twisted wonderland epel#🍋🌼
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okay i'm already procrastinating and i don't plan on sleeping any time soon so here we go.
☆ ✩ my personal ranking for every season 1 Sanders Sides episode. ✩ ☆
i think it's going to be pretty similar to @dukeofonions' but let's see if i find something new to contribute haha. i see you didn't include that one about Patton in the Big Game or whatever, so i'm not including it either xd. also i think i'm going to count Accepting Anxiety as one episode only.
edit: i finished and now i dare you to drink a shot of water every time i say the word spanish or a version of the word comfort and become very well hydrated.
#16 I'm in a Disney Show
(i agree with dukeofonions here) i always forget this episode exists. it was ok in terms of being happy for real life Thomas but as a Sanders Sides episode it didn't do anything. the sides were just giving their opinions but it wasn't very funny or interesting. also i'm bitter because it made me look up the episode he was in and i didn't like it at all. i don't know if i'm too old for those Disney shows now but Thomas was literally the only good part of it, everything else was really dull and boring imo. a waste of time.
however, Logan supporting clickbait is one of the funniest things ever, and i'll never forget it.
#15 Becoming A Cartoon
i didn't hate this episode but it was just .. meh.. you know? several factors contribute to this. one, i couldn't feel much nostalgia for Butch Hartman's shows because i watched them in Spanish, and everything feels really weird when they speak English, i don't like how my old cartoons sound in English. two, it was disappointing to me because we were all desperately waiting for Plot™ and instead they give us this short episode about nothing (oh how the tables have turned now it's the other way around haha). and three, i didn't like the style of the animation :/ their faces and expressions freaked me out, Roman's douchey face still haunts me.
#14 Way Too Adult
here i'm biased because i don't like Patton much, and i didn't back when i watched the series the first time either, so this video was a little disappointingwithout the rest. also it wasn't relatable to me because i am still too young and dependent on my parents haha. but Patton is funny and it's funny to laugh at Thomas' struggling.
#13 The Dark Side of Disney
i've never been a fan of Disney movies. i actually never watched Mulan or the Lion King or Aladdin as a kid, so meh. i liked the ending, though, it was cool to see Virgil have fun and be right for once. it does make me a bit uncomfortable because the way Thomas tries too hard with Virgil's mouth movements and his low voice reminds me of a guy that had made me v uncomfortable not long before watching that video. so an icky feel overall.
#12 A New Year of Lying to Myself
this video was actually kind of fogettable to me. i had a hard time connecting the voices in the song to the characters and idk. i don't love it nor hate it, just .. neutral.
#11 My True Identity
pretty much the same opinion as dukeofonions, again. it's a good introduction and it's good that it was the beginning of it all but on its own it's not very special. i think it's awesome on Thomas to have come up with such a clever idea, like choosing the dad, the teacher and the prince and putting them together and match them with thoughts?? that fit so perfectly?? it really is just very impressive when you think about it, that it was just a random idea he had for a short 5 minute video.
#10 Taking on Anxiety
i liked this video a lot because when i watched it i had recently been a lot on tumblr, and found out through relatable posts that i had anxiety. so watching this video was really fun and it made me happy to feel so seen, specially the intro when Thomas just talks about what it's like to have Anxiety and Virgil is so smug about it.
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okay now that those are out of the way things are going to get hard... all the following i love with all my heart so i'm going to rank them based on the smallest things.
#9 Growing Up
once more, Patton isn't my favorite. so that's why i'm putting this here, plus the echo at the end askjhsahg, but i love love this video. i remember we were waiting and oh so ready for the angst of nobody taking Patton seriously. and we received!! i love that though Roman and Logan are antagonists here, they're both so happy about Thomas wanting to have a healthy life. and i just adore the way Logan admits his mistake at the end and asks Patton directly. my heart... also aw.. the nostalgia. i remember none of us knew how to spell Patton's name and were writing it in very funny ways until Thomas and Joan told us lol.
#8 The Mind vs The Heart
when i watched this video the first times i didn't like it much, because i only had eyes for Virgil, but later i came back to it and loved it. so taking that into account i'm putting it here. logicality was the first ship i ever shipped in the show because i saw a gifset on tumblr of Patton screaming "what do you know about love?!" and Logan "apparently more than YOU" and the caption said "MARRIED", and i thought hey yeah... anyway. i love them. they're both my dads since that day.
this video is so so so relatable and i love it. Logan and Patton are so much fun arguing and i love how they compromise at the end and work together. im reconsidering.. i might move it higher? no, fine i'll leave it here.
#7 Making Some Changes
this video was absolutely hilarious. i personally couldn't see it as the Sides still once they were acted by Thomas' friends, i enjoyed it more as that bunch being silly and trying to be the sides but failing in so many ways, while sometimes nailing stuff suddenly. i really don't take this one too seriously as an episode. except Joan!Logan and Valerie!Logan, my beloved... i love how Joan acted as Logan and their voice and that they kept their ace ring on.. there's a reason i had them as my icon for so long. and Valerie looks a bit (a lot) like me with the glasses and dressed in dark colors, plus she spoke Spanish and there's .. no words to describe the joy i felt when seeing/hearing that. wait i'm getting emotional...
#6 My Personality Q&A
when i watched this Virgil was my favorite side and i didn't care much about the rest lol. when i heard his answers i related to him SO much it was scary, and also his voice is so soft and it was all very comforting. it was also when i first starting looking at Logan with more attention, because when he brought up Big Hero 6 and Fall Out Boy and said he didn't sing and would recite it like a poem? it only took a couple seconds but my brain said "me" and never went back.
now this video is a little underwhelming to watch for me, most of the appeal for me was in finding out the answers, and also watching it when we didn't know a lot about the sides. now we know more and want to know more so it's not as fun to me as it was first.
i wish so bad they'd do another one, although i know it would be more difficult with a much bigger audience, i think they can manage and i just need it. the chaos.. the energy.. they all being so savage with each other, learning little random facts about them you didn't expect.. i need it.
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oh boy top 5 here we go. the next three are practically a tie. i can't choose.
#5 Alone on Valentines Day
i love Valerie, and the idea of this video was perfect and so perfectly excecuted. every side just giving their crazy opinions on how to woo a random stranger, i laughed SO much. first with Logan speaking simlish out of nowhere? at that point i didn't know practically anything about the sims except that it was some video game and the whiplash of Logan going AYO and the rest killed me. then when Roman whipped out that dialogue in Spanish??? my life was completed. i've never felt more happy than i did in that moment gosh. just the hilarity of Roman's drama, the shock of them speaking Spanish suddenly like that, the absolute JOY of seeing a creator i like speak (may i say) perfect Spanish, the other characters' faces after that.. never been happier.
also the conclusion was so cute. Virgil solving the whole problem without wanting to. i loved it.
#4 Am I Original
i think this video speaks for itself. it was fun to watch them all do the ideas Roman had, plus Logan and Virgil nodding at each other, (i love them so much), plus the angst at the end of Roman's perfectionism, plus Roman's just perfect name. this video has it all.
i think Thomas posted it kind of late at night and i watched it at 7am in the classroom as i waited for my classmates to arrive and the class to start. (i usually was like 40 minutes early to school due to mom’s work). i had to contain my laughter and it wasn’t easy.
#3 Losing My Motivation
i started loving this video after a while, when Logan passed Virgil in the position for my favorite side. but once he did this episode was beautiful. it's so funny and i love Logan and Patton's dynamic so much. and the video also so damn relatable in general. i felt so seen with it because they named all the problems i have when procrastinating, down to Patton's vague explanation of his feelings, it's exactly how i feel every time i want to do stuff. and the plot twist! i can hear the dramatic sound effect and see how they all turn to Logan clearly in my head, and it always makes me smile. plus there's so much Logan angst that can be dug up and overanalized. i love to watch it over and over.
#2 Accepting Anxiety
this video was perfect. everything we wanted. we knew it was coming and it delivered perfectly, better than any fanfic done in the waiting time. the week between the parts was agonizing but in a fun way somehow. i remember precisely when i was watching part 2 in my living room. i screamed. and i cried, a lot. i was feeling terrible at that time in my life and Thomas was such a comforting presence and i can't begin to describe how this episode made me feel.
and later it is always fun to rewatch with all their different reactions to being in Virgil's room, the energy of that was on point. Thomas is such a great actor and the characters where just amazingly performed. plus it gave so much to talk adn think about, the idea of the rooms, lots lots of insight into the characters, foreshadowing, so much. it's just perfect i have nothing else to say.
#1 (for purely emotional reasons, ironically) My Negative Thinking
i think Accepting Anxiety is the best episode of the season objectively but my favorite is My Negative Thinking. because i love Virgil and Logan so much and seeing them argue together was and is great. the comfort.. i can't repeat that word enough throughout this post. it's such a soft video while not being overwhelming with Patton and Roman's outbursts. just quiet (mostly) and clear and with perfectly timed humour.
Logan my beloved.. learning spanish... helping me with my own anxiety.. and their debate was so good. and the fact that they were friends i- i can't. Virgil didn't think Logan liked him and Logan told him explicitly that he did and the casual softness of it i cant even. Logan is happy that he tried.. it's just marvelous. Virgil and Logan as best friends will always be my favorite pair, and their dynamic will always be what i strive for in any relationship i might form, with both sides silently comforting each other within their own limits and realistic perspectives. so nice.
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so yeah. that's all. thank you if you read all the way up to here. ♡ ♡ ♡
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Please on GAWD send in requests for writing
Cause I have a list of 161 relationship hc and they're judt SITTING THERE and i am so bored. I just. Please. I have broadened my writing availabilities. To Haikyuu!, BNHA, Kuroko's Basketball, Marvel, Ouran High School Host Club, Cells At Work, Yuri On Ice, istg i will write a good omens short story fanfiction if you so will.
1. hugs you all the time, even if they're a sweaty mess
2 . comes to your place and will shamelessly have dance parties and sing offs in your room
3. brings you tea or coffee to you every morning at school
4. (specifically haikyuu) worries about you when you go to practice or games because they dont want you to get hit by a ball
5. always makes sure you have water and have had enough to drink and enough sleep
6. whenever your phone is left with them they spams selfies so it fills up your storage
7. if you're too tired, they'll do your face routine for you
8. doesn't let you wear anything too tight or revealing
9. pretty much asks you to wear their hoodies, sweatpants, etc. because its "too cold"
10. (specifically haikyuu) y'all both send each other videos of the teams dumb moments
11. likes to bake with you late at night, like 3 in the morning or midnight sort of time
12. loves to go to trendy stores with you
13. at first panicked about kissing
14. loves to watch fireworks with you
15. you dance to kpop together
16. send each other Instagram posts of kittens
17. loves when you play with their hair
18. talks to you until you fall asleep
19. buys you plushies
20. long conversations about stupid things
21. you both end up having the same silly idea at the same time "great minds think alike"
22. always wants to be near you
23. bad pick up lines
24. loves to listen to you when you ramble about literally anything
25. wants everyone to know that you're theirs
26. long bicycling trips
27. watching cat videos together
28. is secretly really into art and likes drawing sketches of you all the time
29. Ther would be so many vine references
30. stereotypical starbucks dates
31. sometimes a little too honest when shopping
32. you always insult each other jokingly (but never seriously)
33. blushes anytime you say something cute
34. secretly writes little songs and poems about you
35. concert dates
36. they'll steal YOUR clothes and then never return them, but you see them wearing it every now and then
36. playfully calls you idiot
37. kisses you on the too of the head alot
38. (specifically haikyuu) loves when you watch him practice
39. actually really shy
40. talks to you about their insecurities
41. you often go to the nearest cafe together
42. gets jealous very fast
43. likes it when you fall asleep in their arms
44. a lot of short but sweet kisses
45. watching youtube videos in bed
46. always wants you to sing along to his songs
47. is sometimes a little unconfident and needs your encouragement
48. challenges you on building card house
49. loves to scare you by suddenly hugging you from behind
50. Lots of horror movie marathons
51. you often play with their hair give them weird hair styles
52. can always tell if theres something wrong and wants to help
53. loves to brag about you
54. carries you on their shoulders
55. They're tall so they always tease you when you want to kiss him
56. pillow fights
57. Loves buying you small keychains
58. Gives you self picked bouquets
59. ruffles your hair alot
60. constantly wants to play games with you
61. strokes your hair subconsciously
62. really, REALLY supportive of everything you do
63. asks for your advice
64. you once made him a bracelet and he wears it every day
65. never leaves your side and makes you soup when you're sick
66. always walks you home to make sure you're safe
67. always wants you to try their food
68. randomly starts singing Disney song duets and wants you to join in
69. loves to tease you in front of others
70. calls you weird nicknames
71. his snapchat story is filled with photos of you
72. mcdonalds dates
73. carries you when you get too tired
75. (specifically haikyuu) you bring him and the team snacks after practice
76. still blushes when you kiss
77. REALLY bad at flirting, but tries really hard to flirt anyways
78. you have to watch trash tv shows with them
79. possessive
80. goes with you to concerts and puts you on their shoulders
81. lots of piggy back rides
82. loves when you fall sleep asleep on them
83. you convince him to do silly stuff with you
84. buys you ice cream
85. goes to aquariums with you
86. loves to cuddle and watch action movies together
87. LOTS of compliments
88. always challenges you to everything
89. absolutely loves your cooking
90 you help them style their hair
91. you help him calm down when he gets anxious
92. takes you to ramen shops frequently
93. always insists on carrying your bags
94. listen to music together alot
95. calls you dumbass and beautiful in the same sentence
96. cant say no to you
97. texts with you all night
98. tries to stay serious but ends up laughing around you
99. goes with you to karaoke bars
100. trusts you like no one else
101. stares at you and when you ask what's wrong they just tell you you're beautiful
102. overprotective af
103. loves to go on night walks with you
104. you helped them accept themselves
105. needs you in their arms to fall asleep
106. wraps you in alot of blankets when you're sad
107. you always need to make sure they takes care of themselves
108. you sit on their lap majority of the time
109. (or alternatively) sits on your lap majority of the time
110. gets really angry really easily if someone is rude to you in any way
111. they play with your hands when they're nervous
112. worries about you 24/7
113. knows all your thoughts
114. bad/sexual jokes
115. they always fall asleep on your chest
116. stargazing dates
117. good morning/good night texts
118. lots of baking together
119. yall have a scrapbook about your relationship with photos from all your dates and stuff
120. matching outfits
121. calls you just to hear your voice
122. takes secret photos of you (but tells you about them after)
123. cuddly af when they're sleepy
124. lots of inside jokes
125. amusement park dates
126. they need alot of affection and hugs
127. tickle attacks
128. cant get seriously mad at you
129. made you cry once and felt really bad about it
130. zoo dates
131. adores your smile even when you hate it
132. always knows how to make you laugh
133. loves to prank other with you
134. arm wrestles you alot
135. not very romantic but they try their best
136. weekend road trips
137. always steals your pens
138. kiss attacks
139. makes you lunch every day
140. gives the best hugs
141. buys you little gifts (scented candles, necklaces, etc)
145. deep conversations late at night
146. loves to go to small restaurants with you
147. lots of cheek kisses
148. lots of praise
149. so many selfies
150. loves to show off in front of you
151. you always buy them weird shirts and they love them
152. you go to restaurants very frequently
153. please make sure they dont do anything stupid
154. when you watch action movies he gets really excited
155. lots of cuddling
156. (specifically haikyuu) loves to play beach volleyball with you in the summer
157. takes Polaroid pictures of you and has a collage
158. loves to give you head pats
159. they could spend hours just cuddling you
160. sometimes struggles with their confidence and talks with you about it
161. they reads to you from books they're reading
162. smiles to themselves every time you do something stupid (after scolding you of course)
163. dont really go on dates as you guys prefer staying at home and cuddling
164. really protective, even though they don't show it
I just.,,,,,, need something.
@autumnandhotchocolate 👀👀👀👀 you're my best story supplier, you got any ideas?
#Big brain#But also#small brain#anime#marvel#Writing#Cells at work#Bnha#Haikyuu#Kurokos basketball#Ohshc#Yoi#Good omens#🍄🐸🐝#🙌
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I have broadened my writing availabilities; Haikyuu!, BNHA, Kuroko's Basketball, MCU, Ouran High School Host Club, Cells At Work, Yuri On Ice, Alita: battle angel, Detroit: Become Human,Demon Slayer, and Maze Runner! Just a little rerun on my list of prompts, and feel free to ask for personal ones as well!
1. hugs you all the time, even if they're a sweaty mess
2 . comes to your place and will shamelessly have dance parties and sing offs in your room
3. brings you tea or coffee to you every morning at school
4. (specifically haikyuu) worries about you when you go to practice or games because they dont want you to get hit by a ball
5. always makes sure you have water and have had enough to drink and enough sleep
6. whenever your phone is left with them they spams selfies so it fills up your storage
7. if you're too tired, they'll do your face routine for you
8. doesn't let you wear anything too tight or revealing
9. pretty much asks you to wear their hoodies, sweatpants, etc. because its "too cold"
10. (specifically haikyuu) y'all both send each other videos of the teams dumb moments
11. likes to bake with you late at night, like 3 in the morning or midnight sort of time
12. loves to go to trendy stores with you
13. at first panicked about kissing
14. loves to watch fireworks with you
15. you dance to kpop together
16. send each other Instagram posts of kittens
17. loves when you play with their hair
18. talks to you until you fall asleep
19. buys you plushies
20. long conversations about stupid things
21. you both end up having the same silly idea at the same time "great minds think alike"
22. always wants to be near you
23. bad pick up lines
24. loves to listen to you when you ramble about literally anything
25. wants everyone to know that you're theirs
26. long bicycling trips
27. watching cat videos together
28. is secretly really into art and likes drawing sketches of you all the time
29. Ther would be so many vine references
30. stereotypical starbucks dates
31. sometimes a little too honest when shopping
32. you always insult each other jokingly (but never seriously)
33. blushes anytime you say something cute
34. secretly writes little songs and poems about you
35. concert dates
36. they'll steal YOUR clothes and then never return them, but you see them wearing it every now and then
37. playfully calls you idiot
38. kisses you on the too of the head alot
39. (specifically haikyuu) loves when you watch him practice
40. actually really shy
41. talks to you about their insecurities
42. you often go to the nearest cafe together
43. gets jealous very fast
44. likes it when you fall asleep in their arms
45. a lot of short but sweet kisses
46. watching youtube videos in bed
47. always wants you to sing along to his songs
48. is sometimes a little unconfident and needs your encouragement
49. challenges you on building card house
50. loves to scare you by suddenly hugging you from behind
51. Lots of horror movie marathons
52. you often play with their hair give them weird hair styles
53. can always tell if theres something wrong and wants to help
54. loves to brag about you
55. carries you on their shoulders
56. They're tall so they always tease you when you want to kiss him
57. pillow fights
58. Loves buying you small keychains
59. Gives you self picked bouquets
60. ruffles your hair alot
61. constantly wants to play games with you
62. strokes your hair subconsciously
63. really, REALLY supportive of everything you do
64. asks for your advice
65. you once made him a bracelet and he wears it every day
66. never leaves your side and makes you soup when you're sick
67. always walks you home to make sure you're safe
68. always wants you to try their food
69. randomly starts singing Disney song duets and wants you to join in
70. loves to tease you in front of others
71. calls you weird nicknames
72. his snapchat story is filled with photos of you
73. mcdonalds dates
74. carries you when you get too tired
75. (specifically haikyuu) you bring him and the team snacks after practice
76. still blushes when you kiss
77. REALLY bad at flirting, but tries really hard to flirt anyways
78. you have to watch trash tv shows with them
79. possessive
80. goes with you to concerts and puts you on their shoulders
81. lots of piggy back rides
82. loves when you fall sleep asleep on them
83. you convince him to do silly stuff with you
84. buys you ice cream
85. goes to aquariums with you
86. loves to cuddle and watch action movies together
87. LOTS of compliments
88. always challenges you to everything
89. absolutely loves your cooking
90 you help them style their hair
91. you help him calm down when he gets anxious
92. takes you to ramen shops frequently
93. always insists on carrying your bags
94. listen to music together alot
95. calls you dumbass and beautiful in the same sentence
96. cant say no to you
97. texts with you all night
98. tries to stay serious but ends up laughing around you
99. goes with you to karaoke bars
100. trusts you like no one else
101. stares at you and when you ask what's wrong they just tell you you're beautiful
102. overprotective af
103. loves to go on night walks with you
104. you helped them accept themselves
105. needs you in their arms to fall asleep
106. wraps you in alot of blankets when you're sad
107. you always need to make sure they takes care of themselves
108. you sit on their lap majority of the time
109. (or alternatively) sits on your lap majority of the time
110. gets really angry really easily if someone is rude to you in any way
111. they play with your hands when they're nervous
112. worries about you 24/7
113. knows all your thoughts
114. bad/sexual jokes
115. they always fall asleep on your chest
116. stargazing dates
117. good morning/good night texts
118. lots of baking together
119. yall have a scrapbook about your relationship with photos from all your dates and stuff
120. matching outfits
121. calls you just to hear your voice
122. takes secret photos of you (but tells you about them after)
123. cuddly af when they're sleepy
124. lots of inside jokes
125. amusement park dates
126. they need alot of affection and hugs
127. tickle attacks
128. cant get seriously mad at you
129. made you cry once and felt really bad about it
130. zoo dates
131. adores your smile even when you hate it
132. always knows how to make you laugh
133. loves to prank other with you
134. arm wrestles you alot
135. not very romantic but they try their best
136. weekend road trips
137. always steals your pens
138. kiss attacks
139. makes you lunch every day
140. gives the best hugs
141. buys you little gifts (scented candles, necklaces, etc)
142. deep conversations late at night
143. loves to go to small restaurants with you
144. lots of cheek kisses
145. lots of praise
146. so many selfies
147. loves to show off in front of you
148. you always buy them weird shirts and they love them
149. you go to restaurants very frequently
150. please make sure they dont do anything stupid
151. when you watch action movies he gets really excited
152. lots of cuddling
153. (specifically haikyuu) loves to play beach volleyball with you in the summer
154. takes Polaroid pictures of you and has a collage
155. loves to give you head pats
156. they could spend hours just cuddling you
157. sometimes struggles with their confidence and talks with you about it
158. they reads to you from books they're reading
159. smiles to themselves every time you do something stupid (after scolding you of course)
160. dont really go on dates as you guys prefer staying at home and cuddling
161. really protective, even though they don't show it
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the magician, the high priestess, the emperor and the hanged man!
the magician: have you ever written a poem or song about somebody else?
not that i remember???? i dont think ive ever written a song and i HATED writing poems during my writing class in high school. but i do have a poem written into the notes on my phone that i came up with during a dream about some butch woman i had never met lmao. so i guess the dream butch if that counts. oh also all the silly songs i sing to my dog of course
the high priestess: what is your dream date?
SCIENCE MUSEUM!!!!!!!! like we have a super shitty little natural history museum on campus that has just the WORST taxidermy but also like skeletons and birds eggs and stuff and. i mean revealing all my secrets here but ive brought MANY dates here. like at least four different girls probably lmaooo
the emperor: what are some names that you like?
well obviously i named myself luka so that one :))) for girls names ive always loved anya. but i was literally JUST telling a friend that if i ever turned out to be a binary trans man i’d probably go with the name that no one ever likes but that ive named almost all video game characters since i was a kid - cooper
the hanged man: favorite movie soundtrack?
this is hard because i usually listen to video game OSTs but. mmmmm. maybe howls moving castle?? i listen to joe hisaishi’s stuff a lot, especially when im trying to sleep
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lust is love adjacent | knj
PAIRING: Kim Namjoon X Reader
WORD COUNT: 4.2k
GENRE: smut, fluff, fwb (kinda)
RATING: 18+
WARNING: mostly sex, some plot, dom/sub undertones, dom!namjoon, daddy kink, unconfessed feelings, overstimulation, oral (f receiving), fingering (f receiving), dirty talk, unprotected sex, fluffy ending
SUMMARY: During a group vacation, Y/N and NJ are pretending/denying they aren’t in love and they innocently think their friend group is clueless about their feelings. [made for @bangtan-headquarters Bangtan Boardwalk Summer!]
The bonfire was supposed to be a calm event. Less than a dozen friends on the beach spending a much-needed vacation together. Nothing full of tension.
Nevertheless, you sat across the fire from Namjoon. The reddish-orange flames illuminate both pairs of eyes as you stare at each other. Knowing what the other wanted. It was an open secret of sorts. Everyone knew you and Namjoon were together.
But not together. Not really, at least.
You had never put words to what you were. Never told anyone either. But they knew. They knew because at least once a week Namjoon would try to sneak you into the dorm when he thought everyone was asleep. But Jungkook was awake and focused on a video game that wasn’t loud enough to muffle out the sound of the front door opening and closing. And Yoongi, taking a break from creating music, hadn’t soundproofed his room well enough to miss the stifled giggles and whispers of ‘I missed you’ as you two made your way into Namjoon’s room. Hoseok was always up early in the mornings, scrolling through his phone when Namjoon helped you sneak out every day. He had almost caught you once and decided from then on he’d wait in his room a little longer in the mornings so his friend had a few extra ‘see you soon’ kisses before leading you out the door.
They knew. They all knew very well. This is why no one was really surprised that you two were so focused on each other during what was supposed to be a group event. Sure, they found it a little annoying. But they hoped, secretly, that you two would muster up the courage to tell them what was going on. But they didn’t know the two of you needed to figure it out first.
Namjoon was too kind. You were sure of that. So giving, so considerate, never pushing. Until you asked him. Until the nights you had him fully alone and didn’t need to worry about being too loud and alerting one of the other members. He could make you loud. Too loud. So loud it was embarrassing the first few times until he was able to convince you that he loved how loud you were because he knew that was all him. Kim Namjoon. The man with a million perfectly placed words who had never told you how he felt for you. Not really, at least. He had written you many poems. Just songs without the music, he said. Sometimes you received them in writing, a piece of nice cardstock, words written delicately in black ink, stamped and sent to your mailbox even though you had seen him in between the sending and delivery of the letter. Sometimes you got poems in text messages sent 5 minutes before your lunch break because he wanted you to have something to smile about so you didn’t stress out about work during your 30 minutes of rest. Sometimes they were voice memos sent at 2 AM. His voice sleepy but he’d tell you he couldn’t rest until he told you. He’d ask you why you were up so late when you’d reply thanking him for the words and you’d tell him you couldn’t rest until you heard him.
But he never told you, in simple words, how he felt about you. Instead, his fingers would lace with yours when you tried to stop gripping the bedsheets so tight you were sure they’d rip and he’d look deep into your eyes as you cried out in bliss and he’d tell you how beautiful you looked for him. Just for him. On occasion, he’d make you repeat it, make you tell him that you were really just for him. You’d comply, no hesitation. Because you truly believed you were just for him. Only him. But he had never claimed you as his. Never gave you a reason to tell guys that were hitting on you that you were happily taken. Instead, he’d let you fall into his arms after a particularly hard day at work and cry into his chest and he’d tell you. “I’ve got you. I’ve always got you. I’m always here.” And he’d put on your favorite movie, grab your favorite snacks, cuddle in your favorite position, and hold you until you fell asleep. And he’d hold you until the sun rose in the morning and you’d have to part ways.
Even now, separated only by a pile of burning logs, you were sure you were staring right into his soul, begging it to tell you how he felt. But his soul stayed silent. It didn’t tell you how you were the first thing on his mind in the mornings. It didn’t tell you how many nights he stayed awake in hotel rooms in a different time zone waiting for you to get off work just so he could hear your voice before he went to bed. It didn’t tell you how many scraps of paper inked with words spilling his heart out to you went into the garbage as he insisted they weren’t good enough for you. His soul didn’t tell you how after every live performance he’d ask if you had watched, he’d ask if you liked it, if you thought he did well. It didn’t tell you how long he would spend on cloud nine when you told him you loved it and he did so well.
Jin broke you out of your thoughts, “I’m getting tired.” He stood up, stretching with a groan. It was growing late, and perhaps he was tired of watching you and Namjoon try to figure out telepathy.
“Alright, old man.” A friend of the group laughed as Yoongi and Jimin took it upon themselves to put the fire out and you all started to clean up the empty beer bottles and towels. The rented beach house was spacious. It was a beach mansion, you thought when you had arrived. It had 2 guest houses so everyone got their own space, even if it was just a cornered off living room. It was amazing you guys found the place.
The movement from the hot summer air into the cool air-conditioned house made you shiver. A motion that didn’t go unnoticed by Namjoon. Looking over at you making sure nothing had gone wrong but not missing the way your nipples had pebbled under the thin cotton of your tank top. How could he miss that? He couldn’t. He knew your body too well. Knew exactly how your breasts would feel in his hands, how your nipples would feel between his teeth as he tugged just slightly. He knew just how you’d moan when he’d do it.
“Y/N.” He muttered, stopping you from going into your room. Taehyung pretends he doesn’t notice you two stopped in the hallway as he slips into his room, closing the door and hoping you two take it somewhere that he can’t hear you.
“What is it?” You look up at him, a silly question. You knew what he wanted, you knew exactly what he had stopped you for. Not that you minded, of course. But you knew he wasn’t about to ask if he could borrow a pair of headphones but rather if he could borrow your company for the night.
“Come to mine.” His voice lowered, it wasn’t a question. He didn’t need to ask anyway, he knew you’d do it. He lowered his mouth to your ear. “No one else is there, you can be as loud as you want.” His lips nipped at your neck. Namjoon was in the pool house rather than an actual bedroom. It wasn’t large enough for two beds and the older pull out sofa was plenty for him especially when it meant no one had to share a space. You knew he truly meant you could be loud when you were in there. It was nearly soundproof and everyone else would be inside their own rooms. Earlier in the trip, the door had closed with the radio blaring inside and it became silent.
“What if I don’t want to?” You tease, he lets out a soft groan. Annoyed that you would deny both of you the inevitable pleasure for even a moment longer. He doesn’t respond. Verbally, that is. He just wraps his lips around that certain spot on your neck and sucks just how you like it. His teeth softly grazing the skin while you try to suppress a moan.
“C’mon.” Namjoon tells you, grabbing your hand and leading you away with him. As the door closes to the pool house and Namjoon pulls the curtains shut. You allow yourself to gaze at the man. Selfishly, so. You’d spent so much of the trip pretending you weren’t so utterly entranced by him. Pretending you didn’t know how he looked naked, sweat still beaded on his skin from a performance, his breath hardly calmed since he had just gotten off stage but he insisted he needed you. You had to act as if you weren’t completely in lov--
“See something you like?” His voice breaks your trance. He pulls his shirt over his head in one swift motion. Exposing his broad chest to you.
“I sure do.” You smile as he crosses the room to where you sit on the sofabed.
“Good,” he pushes you to lay down, climbing on top of you. Your body trapped between his biceps, “It’d be such a shame if you didn’t like the body that’s going to wreck yours tonight.” He bends his head down to kiss your lips. Softly, delicately, as if his words didn’t give a different plan for the night. His tongue grazes yours and you can still taste a hint of the beer. “Let’s get you out of these.” He starts tugging at your clothing. A tanktop way too thin for his liking and shorts way too short for his liking. Clothes he’d rather you not wear around a group of horny guys but you weren’t his to argue with about that. He kinda hoped you wore them just to tease him. You were. Of course. No one else’s attention mattered. You could walk into a room and get 50 of the most eligible bachelors hard in an instant but it wouldn’t matter unless it was him.
“Don’t rip. I’ve still gotta leave in the morning.” You say, he had a habit of ripping your clothes. Sometimes on purpose, sometimes an accident. You keep telling yourself not to wear such thin panties if you don’t want him to rip them. But you wear them, nevertheless.
“Or don’t leave.” He suggests once you’re naked under him. You look at him questioningly. Recognizing that’s not an option. “I could tell them you got sick.” He reasons.
“And went to your room?” You question, helping him remove his pants.
“We’ll figure it out later.” A usually so well-prepared man who often found himself so unprepared and okay with it when it came to you. “Now,” he stands up, biting his lip as he looks at you. One hand palming his cock through his boxers, “anything else you want to say? Or can I eat you out now?” There was an obvious answer but he didn’t even wait for it. Instead, he sinks to his knees at the foot of the bed and pulls you by your hips right up to his waiting mouth. The first lick at your waiting pussy was his favorite taste. And every lick after that too.
“Fuck.” You mutter. You’re not sure you’ll ever get used to his tongue on you. The way his hands dig at your skin, not letting you move away from him even a little. He forces you to fall victim to his mouth. One hard suck at your clit has you quickly slapping a hand over your mouth to muffle the noises. He doesn’t like that. He wants to hear how good he’s making you feel just as much as he wants to taste it. He reaches up with one hand, not slowing, and slaps at your arm. Light enough so he doesn’t hurt you (there’s a time for that later), but hard enough that you know exactly what he wants. His hand doesn’t fall back to your hip though. It moves lower and you feel his fingers circle at your entrance. His mouth moves away before he lets his fingers dip into your core. He wants to watch your face as he does it. You lock eyes with him, his mouth is shiny from your wetness. Once he has your attention, he pushes two long fingers inside of you and basks in the way your back curves at the intrusion. An inhale and soon a longing exhale as the pleasure moved through you.
“You look so beautiful.” He says quietly, to himself more than to you. He becomes mesmerized in the way his fingers pump in and out of you. He pulls his fingers out of you completely, watching long thin strings of your juices connect his fingertips to your pussy. You whine, not wanting to be empty any longer. Namjoon’s eyes meet yours again. A cocky grin on his face as you start pleading for him to keep going. “So needy.” He says, using a scolding tone as if you had done something wrong. As if he didn’t love just how needy you are for him. Namjoon gets onto the bed and motions for you to shift up so your legs are no longer hanging over the end. Now face to face, Namjoon slides his fingers back inside of you. As much as he enjoyed how your lips parted and moans and sighs of pleasure fell out, he couldn’t help but kiss you. He felt as if he could kiss you forever and forever wouldn’t be long enough to fully satisfy him. He quickens the pace of his fingers, curling at just the right angle making you moan into his mouth. He runs his other hand up the side of your body, stopping at your breast and gripping it tightly. The sudden harshness would’ve made you jolt if you had anywhere to move. Namjoon kneads the flesh in his hand, massaging the pain away. When he stops kissing you, you want to protest but before you can his lips are trailing light kisses from the side of your mouth, across your cheek, and down to your neck.
“Namjoon…” His name falls from your lips as his lips attach to your neck. His fingers are still pumping away inside your pussy and his other hand is now pulling at your nipple. “Namjoon!” You say a bit louder as all the sensations start to build up and you reach your heights.
“Cum for me.” Namjoon responds, he moves his head back up to watch you. His demand breaks the spell holding you back and you let go. Clenching around his fingers, back arching. He doesn’t stop finger fucking you, making sure you ride out your orgasm fully. When he’s sure that you’ve finished, he kisses you softly. “Good girl.” He says as if you’re finished for the night. But you know better. You didn’t need to open your eyes to know he was moving down the bed and in between your legs. You hold your breath, waiting to feel his mouth on you. You know you’re dripping, he loved how wet you got after you came. And you’re sure he’s trying to memorize how you look right now.
You knew it was coming and yet you were still so unprepared. “Fuck!” You yell, louder than you wanted when his mouth comes in contact with your pussy. Top lip right above your clit and bottom lip under your hole. He moves his lips like he’s french kissing. Tongue prodding at your hole just a little. A wet noise reaches your ears when he pulls away.
“Taste so good, baby.” He tells you. “Think you can cum again? Cum on my tongue?” He asks, it’s not really a question. You nod, though. Maybe your brain is still clouded from the first orgasm to realize what you were agreeing to, a night of overstimulation. You’re almost two orgasms in and he hasn’t even fucked you yet. You feel his mouth back on you and try to, weakly, shift your hips away. Your body reacting instinctively. Namjoon’s arms make sure you don’t go anywhere but further into his mouth though.
“Please, please, please.” Your hands move into his hair. You’re not sure if you’re begging him to stop or begging him for more. A little of both. As much as your body wants to move away from the stimulation, your brain wants more. Your brain wants everything Namjoon can give you. His tongue swirls around your throbbing clit and he basks in the sounds you make. The second orgasm follows the first one closely, you wonder with the bit of energy you have left to do so, if you’ll have recovery time between the inevitable third orgasm. “I’m c--” You can’t finish your sentence, but he knows. He can feel you clenching, ready to release into his waiting mouth.
“That’s it. Cum on daddy’s tongue.” Namjoon briefly moves his mouth from you just to wrap his plump lips around your clit and gives it a harsh suck. You moan, more of a scream, much louder than intended as you cum. He slows his actions, letting you calm before he removes all stimuli. If it wasn’t for him trying to waive the pain of overstimulation, he’d stay between your legs much longer tasting your release. “Did so good, babydoll.” He praises as he moves away. Your chest rises and falls as your vision clears.
“Joonie…” You say as he moves up the bed back to you.
“I’m right here.” He tells you, kissing a tear off of your rosy cheeks. His arms wrap around you. “Think you can go again?” He asks, it’s a genuine question this time. Most other guys you’ve been with would make you feel like there was a right answer and a wrong answer. Not Namjoon. There were a few occasions where you said you couldn’t and he was perfectly fine though he hadn’t had his own release. Held you through the night. Texted you the next day. No harsh feelings.
“Yeah.” You answer.
“Babydoll.” He cups your cheeks so you look at him. “I don’t think I’ve seen you cum so hard from just my mouth. Are you sure you’re okay?”
“I want you. I want more.” You try your best to reassure him.
“We can--”
“Please, daddy.” You move your hips up as best you can to grind against his still clothed cock. Letting him know just how serious you are. Namjoon laughs, it’s a low chuckle.
“Alright,” he bites his inner cheek, “if you want it that way, I’ll give it to you that way.” He slides his underwear off. “Just can’t get enough, huh?” He asks as he positions himself between your legs. Either of his hands on your thighs. “Look at you, your legs haven’t even stopped shaking and that pretty pussy is still dripping and yet you want more. Such a little slut.” He moves your legs up so your thighs are near your chest and your calves rest on his broad shoulders.
“Just for you.” You tell him, whispering as if it’s a secret. Maybe it is.
“My pretty little slut.” He hums as the head of his cock gently pushes at your entrance. You squirm as best you can under his hold trying to help speed him along. “Hold on, I’ll give you what you want, babydoll. You’re so impatient.” He scolds you with a smirk.
“Wanna feel you in me, daddy.” You whine while he drags the dark pink tip along your folds, loving how it looks and feels as your juices coat him.
“I know, I know. Daddy’s gonna fill you real good.” You hardly have time to really see his jaw clench before you feel him push into you. Just the head pops in but it’s enough to make you let out a long moan. Namjoon moves slowly, fucking just the tip into you. “Still so damn tight.” He groans.
“More, please. Need more, daddy.” The shallow penetration isn’t enough to fulfill the need for yet another orgasm. He listens, thankfully. Pushing another inch in. Some nights, he rushes to fuck you, pushing in all at once and pounding away like a jackrabbit. Other nights, like tonight, he loves how you try to move toward him to get him deeper and he wants to feel every inch of you. He fucks an inch in, pulls out until just the head sits at your entrance, then he fucks another inch in and repeats the process until he’s finally, after what feels like years, fully inside of you. You would bet money that you could see the imprint of his dick through your stomach. You’re always amazed at just how far he can go into you, and always amazed at how good it feels.
“Your little cunt’s taking me so well, doll.” He says, leaning down so your foreheads are pressed together. One hand on one of your thighs, the other lightly placed on your neck. “I don’t think I can go on tour, gotta stay with you, keep you stretched out.” He murmurs as he starts speeding up.
“Daddy!” You cry out, your hand clasps his bicep as the slight pain of his ruthless fucking turns to pleasure.
“Clenching already? Just a little cum machine tonight, aren’t you?” He repositions so he’s keeling in front of you, pushing your legs as far back as they’ll go and he’s hitting new depth. You can’t even moan, you want to, you feel like you’re screaming but your vocal cords won’t let you. Namjoon bites his lip, watching as your eyes roll back and your legs start quivering. “Gonna cum on daddy’s cock, gonna make daddy’s cock all nice and wet, aren’t you?”
“Oh my-- Fuck! Daddy!” You yell as you hit a third orgasm. Namjoon doesn’t slow. In fact, if anything, he speeds up. Praises leave his mouth as keeps abusing your pussy.
“One more, babydoll. Just one more.” He grunts. “Fuck. You’re so beautiful. My beautiful baby girl.” It’s the smack to your clit that does it. You’re not quite sure if you actually came or just got really close but just as Namjoon starts filling you up, your vision goes black. It’s not the first time you’ve passed out during sex. Though the first was terrifying to Namjoon, he’s bragged about both occasions he’s managed to fuck you so good you blackout. It’s roughly 5 seconds later when you come to enough to feel his cum dripping down your thighs and Namjoon pulling you into his chest. Not a bad way to gain consciousness.
“Joon…” You mutter, letting him know you’re awake.
“Shh, I got you.” His hands run up and down your back as he lays you both down. He on his back and you curled into his side. “Just lay here a bit, then we’ll get all cleaned up.” His voice is soothing and you wonder how you can convince him to record an audiobook for you.
You two don’t end up getting cleaned, both falling asleep in sheets you’re sure to be disgusted by in the morning. Namjoon’s phone wakes him up and you soon after. “Morning, doll.” He says with a sleepy smile and gives your nose a small peck. It’s too loving for people who are still considered ‘fuck-buddies’. You don’t mind. Of course, you don’t. How could you? And he doesn’t mind either. And that’s all that matters, right?
“Too early.” You mumble, snuggling back into his side.
“You don’t even know what time it is.” A laugh rumbles through his chest.
“Early.”
“We’ve gotta get up.” Namjoon rolls himself and you over so he’s on top of you.
“Do we?” You cock an eyebrow at him.
“Weren’t you the one who was trying to figure out how to go back to the main house undetected?”
“We’ll figure it out.” You shrug as best you can from under him.
“Or,” he hums, “we could just tell them how in love I am with you and they can fill in the rest.” He suggests. He sounds confident but you can practically hear his heart racing at the confession.
“You love me?”
“I’m in love with you.” Namjoon clarifies.
“Good.” You smile.
His eyebrows furrow. “Good?”
“‘Cause I’m in love with you too.” You lean up to kiss him.
“Does that mean you’re my girlfriend now?”
“I think so.” You giggle.
He breaks into a smile. “I think this is cause for celebration.” Namjoon decides.
“Celebration?”
“Of course!” He says as if it’s obvious. “How should we celebrate, my love?”
“I think a shower.” You wince thinking about the dried remnants of the night before.
“A celebratory shower it is!” He scoops you up into his arms leading you to not your first shower together. But the first one as an official couple.
FIN.
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you cannot just say it's not the best and then have me just staring at it for five next hours ISLSNSJWNSJSJSNKSSJSJ please PLEASE where am i supossed to start FIRST OF ALL WHICH PARALLEL UNIVERSE YOU'RE LIVING IN THAT YOU MANAGED TO MAKE MAGENTAS LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL I JUST CANNOT UNDERSTAND HOW KAJSJSKS i'm really saying this seriously right now but this gifset made me tear up because i notice every single detail and it overwhelmed me to the very ends of my nerve endings KSJSKSK BECAUSE– 😔 skin color, suit color, hair color, lip color, mic color, sharpening, background, lighting, contrast, exposure.... all of it is just so beautifully composed and i don't think anyone could ever make something this amazing, especially looking at raw footage like comparing your gif to video frame it's just.. insane. you have magic hands and big brain that's all i have to say and i think it's truly one of my favorite sets of yours
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when i tell you that writing this one took me like... two hours. but it was totally worth it and purely out of love for your stuff. anyway, i deserve a kiss on the forehead 😌
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great expectations, d.d.
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Write something about david surprising his girlfriend with a surprise trip to like hawaii cos its her dream vacation and when the vlog goes up people compare it to the vacation dav and liza took and it makes her upset and her cheers her up. ( She wasnt a public figure and people didnt think they should be together)
disclaimer: angst & fluff. david being cute af.
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“Okay, give it to me.” You sat down by the corner of his bed, putting both of your hands out and closing your eyes. You smiled to yourself. “That’s what she said.”
David burst out laughing. “Can you be serious for one minute?”
“You’re one to talk,” You opened your eyes and gave him a dirty look. “By the way, I just want to say on the record that David promised that nothing gross was about to happen here. I wanted to put this out there so he can be held accountable if I have a heart attack.”
David couldn’t stop laughing, so he pointed the camera to himself. “I did promise that, unfortunately, so I had to put the anaconda away.”
“That’s what she said.” You laughed and slapped yourself. “Bad (Y/N). Alright, me-serious. Go.”
“You know how our friends say we’re really annoying with the whole anniversary every month?” David started and you nodded. “So, I had this really fun idea, which actually makes me a genius.”
“Show off.” You commented under your breath and he chuckled.
“So I decided to combine our fourth month anniversary with your birthday and…” David put two plane tickets on your hands.
You looked at David, confused and then took one second to read the tickets. Your mouth instantly dropped. “What the fuck? Oh sorry.” David laughed. “Wait, are you serious? Is this real?”
“Yes, baby!” David was loving how shocked and paralyzed you were.
“This says Hawaii in it.” You commented, looking at it, trying to find any clues that it was a fake ticket for a prank.
David turned the camera to himself. “She’ll get there, just give her a minute.”
“Are we going to Hawaii?” You looked at your boyfriend, puppy eyes and jaw to the floor.
“Yeap, we’re spending 7 days in a mansion in Hawaii.” David told you and the new information just hit you even harder?
“What the fuck?” You were looking away, shocked. David burst out laughing again.
Cut to you guys on the plane, first class tickets, with a fake flower on your ear, being all excited and childish. David ordered two glasses of champagne for the both of you.
“This is literally so extra,” You laughed, posing as some fancy old lady, then doing a british accent. “David, dear, would you please take care of my ponies for the summer. I’m spending it in my mansion in Dubai. I miss my liquid gold pool.”
“Why are you british?” David was laughing so much.
“I’m not talking like Dom to try and look fancy, silly.” You joked around, then smiling to your boyfriend.
You arrived to Hawaii, rented a porsche, headed to the rental house in Kamuela. David filmed you driving there, your hair flying on the wind, loving how big the smile on your face was. The drive was about 50 minutes, which earned some shots from the road, the two of you singing to Ariana’s songs and being overall weirdos.
David filmed your whole reaction to the massive mansion just for the two of you. Feelings every feeling known to man at once, you couldn’t help the tears of happiness when you saw how beautiful everything was. It had an infinity pool, a jacuzzi, a green big yard, enormous rooms with an amazing view to the sea and sunset. David didn’t want to tell you the day price of the rental at first, but you managed to get it out of him, shocked when he told you it was US$1.5k for the night.
It was a lot of money, but you made a 7-days schedule to enjoy the most of it and have so much footage for his vlogs that the trip would end up paying itself. Honestly, you were always amazed by how David never really thought twice about spending money on you and making sure that he was doing it because he loved to. Rarely spending on himself, this was just as rewarding to him.
The next three vlogs were filled with the funniest moments of you guys snorkeling, golfing, hiking, sightseeing, watching cultural concerts, doing surf lessons (which turned out horribly), visiting local markets even going on a helicopter ride, even though you were scared to death of the height.
On the fourth day, you woke up before David did. You just took one moment to watch him sleep, so peacefully, next to you. You knew how lucky you were to have him in your life, but not because he was a successful youtuber or because he had money. When you met him, randomly at a friend’s friend party, you didn’t even knew who he was and you loved him instantly, his humor and charm sweeping you off your feet.
Even though you weren’t a public figure nor ever was used to having cameras around, you got used to it, compromising for your relationship with him, knowing how this was basically his entire life.
“You know I can feel you staring at me, right, creep?” David said, eyes still closed but a little smirk lurking in his lips.
“I’m trying to decide when to murder you, that’s all.” You softly joked as you ran your fingertips over his cheeks. David loved your dark humor and laughed to himself, taking your hand and kissing it.
“Good morning my favorite serial killer.” He lazily opened his eyes.
“Good morning pretty boy.” You gave him a long peck on the lips. “Did I tell you how much I love you yet?”
“Not today, no.” David snuggled closer to you, humming happily when you started caressing his hair.
“I do. I love how you do that little smile with your tongue hanging and how no matter what you do to your hair, it always kinda looks both great and like you’re turning into a mad scientist.” David chuckled, hiding his face on your neck. “I love how you’re always looking to hold my hand, even when you don’t realize it.”
“Tell me more,” David gave you a sweet kiss on the neck.
“I love how you respect and love me. How you look at me with those shiny brown eyes and how those are the reason I never can’t get mad at you, which by itself makes me mad.” You sighed, then laughed. “And how selfless you are, how much you care for your friends even if sometimes you try to not to show it too much.”
“You wanna know what I love about you?” David looked up at you, his hair looking like he was definitely a mad scientist, which instantly made you chuckle. “I love your butt.”
You burst out laughing, putting your hand on his face. “Asshole, I was here pouring my heart out like a good old Todd Smith poem and you do me like that.” David chuckled for a good minute, hiding his face again and holding you tight. “My butt is pretty good, I guess.”
David nodded and you pulled his hair. “Ouch, (Y/N), the fuck.” He looked back at you. “Wait, do it again.” You rolled your eyes and tried to let go of him, only earning you deathly tickles.
Since his next posting day was tomorrow, you reserved half the day for David to edit some of the footage of the trip to post. The video was up early in the morning, after long hours of editing, so through the first couple of hours since the video was up, David was asleep on your bed.
Curiosity always got the best of you and you checked the video again, loving the whole montages and fun moments, but your attention soon focusing on the mean comments.
Can someone make an edit with all the same scenes from this vlog and David and Liza’s vlog in Hawaii? lol
Someone tell David he found a gold digger, plz.
She’s trying too hard to replace Liza, never gonna happen hun.
Who’s gonna tell her the minute Liza calls David will drop her ass? lmao
All this money dropping on what’s-her-name. Not even that pretty tbh.
Damn she must have a top sex game to whip him up like that.
How’s it like being a long-ass rebound for David while Liza is away?
This is literally the same trip he did with Liza wtf
David can do so much better she doesn’t deserve him
I kinda like her but she’s clearly after his clout
Every word was a knife to the heart, over and over and over again. It broke your heart how much comparison there was between you and Liza, and how come most of his fans never accepted you. This wasn’t the first time you read mean comments, but this time it was deeper. They knew exactly how to hurt you.
You were sitting by yourself by the porch, looking out of the amazing view of Hawaii, a dream come true for you. Wrapped up in a small blanket, you couldn’t help but cry to yourself. The feeling you had is that your relationship was doomed for the start and that you’d never live up to his fans’ expectations because you simply wasn’t Liza.
“There you are, I’ve been looking all over for you.” David made his way towards you.
You quickly cleaned the running tears, knowing it wasn’t doing much, since your face was read and swollen. David was taken aback by the sudden change of pace.
“Wow, (Y/N), are you okay? What happened?” Sitting by your side in the porch chair, his brows were furrowed, worried.
“Nothing, sweetie. I’m just thinking about everything and feeling so happy about this trip and how much I don’t deserve you for being so amazing.” You were a terrible liar and he knew you pretty well.
“I appreciate the compliments, but I don’t like when you lie to me.” David caressed your thigh, comforting. “We don’t keep secrets, remember?”
“I’m going to be fine, I promise. I just need one moment.” You laughed and cleaned the tears again.
“(Y/N).” That was all he said.
You sighed, knowing you wouldn’t get out of this so easily. Deciding to comply, you read him all the youtube comments you had read. David tried to speak in between, but you stopped him until you went through all of it. His hands slid through his face in frustration.
“I’m so sorry you have to go through this, baby.” He held your hand. “You don’t deserve this kind of hate. This is all my fault. I should’ve kept our relationship to ourselves.”
“This is not your fault. I love our relationship and I love our dynamic and somehow you made me love being in the vlogs. You know I support you no matter what, but I feel like I’m facing a war and losing everyday. No matter what I do, I’ll never be Liza. They’ll never accept me for me. I’ll always live down to unreachable expectations because I’m not famous nor funny enough or pretty enough or skinny enough.”
“You know I don’t care about any of that, isn’t that enough?” David’s heart was shattered by watching you cry like that, seeing how much you were hurting.
You caressed his hand with your thumb and smiled to yourself, though still sad. “Dave, when you introduced me to your life, I had no idea what any of this meant. You taught me a lot about how your life works and I adapted, because I wanted this, us. It’s so hard to be used to the cameras, the need for content, the clickbait, but I did it because I love you. You’re always enough for me, but I know I feel like I’m not enough for you.”
“(Y/N), don’t say that…” His eyes were starting to tear up.
“No, it’s okay. I understand. This is a big part of your life, it’s your career. You’d never ask me to give up on my job or personal dreams, neither would I.” You took a deep breath. “But I try to be strong and… T-to try and ignore all the hate, but it’s just so many comments. Instagram, youtube, twitter. The good ones are so rare.”
David didn’t know what to say. Your tears were rolling down your face again. “I know I shouldn’t look at it, but it’s stronger than me. I just wanted them to give me one real chance, you know?”
“Come here.” He said, pulling you up for a tight hug. “I know this sucks and it’s hurting you and I hate it, because you’re amazing and you don’t deserve any of this.” He caressed your hair. “You wanna know what I love about you? Besides your butt, I mean.”
You looked up and chuckled lightly. David cleaned the tears away.
“I love that you always check me when I’m being an idiot. You always give me your honest opinion. You treat my friends like family. You stay up late with me when I’m editing even if you sleep by the couch with me, because you don’t want me to be alone.” David caressed your cheeks. “You have the prettiest smile and seeing it instantly makes me happy, no matter what. You motivate me and inspire me. I love how you cook for me and how you’re always talking with my mom, letting her know I’m being healthy. How much my parents and siblings love you.”
You sighed, happy. You gave him a soft kiss on the lips.
“I love how you make me think about having kids, because I often see how much of a great mom you’d be. I love planning with you, surprising you, thinking about our future together, because I know that if I wanted to drop this whole thing tomorrow, you’d be there for me.” David kissed you again. “You’ll never be Liza and I love you for it, because I don’t want you to be. I want you to be you, because that’s who I fell madly in love with.”
“Oh my God. I’m crying more now, stupid. Look what you did.” Chuckling softly, you hugged him tight again. He returned the hug.
“I’m sorry these haters keep hurting you, but I promise I’ll be here to kick their ass and assure you that you’re absolutely amazing, okay?” David pointed out.
You nodded, overwhelmed by how much you loved that boy. “I love you, stupid.” You smiled.
“I love you too, dumbass.” David smiled and kissed all over your face.
#david dobrik#david dobrik x reader#david dobrik fluff#david dobrik angst#david dobrik one shot#david dobrik fanfic#david dobrik imagine#david dobrik imagines#vlog squad#liza koshy#request
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I’ve been loving your stuff but I love the romantic stuff the most >\\\
hohoho, i love writing about some mushy sith lords myself.. 👀 i’m goin all out, y’all.
vader: vader approaches you one day at home, asking you to assist him with the TV. he “just can’t get it to turn on”. thoroughly confused, you easily turn it on and are met with something on the screen. there is a short movie reel playing of all the moments you’ve shared with vader, from vacation trips to silly domestic moments. it’s mostly shots of you, focusing on your adorable smile. as the film ends, he takes your hands in both of his, placing a small object in your palm…
sidious: surprisingly private with his proposal, leaving the grand public displays for the actual marriage. it is less of a question and more of a quiet demand, you kneeling before him as he announces his choice of royal consort...
maul: dancing is a somewhat recent passion of his--which, of course, is even better when done with you. one night, while you are walking hand in hand beneath the night sky, he turns to you with a contemplative look in his yellow eyes. he takes your other hand and leads you into a slow dance, humming a soft melody for the two of you to waltz to. maul’s eyes almost water with emotion as he stops humming, murmuring his proclamation of love for you while reaching into his pocket..
savage: marriage is something of a privilege on dathomir. it was never practiced between the brothers and sisters, and the sisters didn’t quite approve of brothers becoming bonded mates. needless to say, savage is absolutely enamored with the act of proposal. with everyone’s help, savage reserves a private evening at the local gardens, setting up candles for your twilight stroll down the path. then, of course, when the two of you get to a gazebo, he gets down on one knee..
asajj: she takes you to dathomir for a routine visit to her clan, but the sisters are strangely absent. feigning ignorance, asajj suggests checking the local springs for everyone. when you arrive, you are greeted with the sight of all the sisters surrounding a glowing pool of water, wafts of sweet incense and flowers drifting around you.. they softly hum a sort of chant as asajj leads you into the water, reciting a traditional dathomir stanza of proposal..
dooku: as usual, count dooku invites you to listen to one of his new piano compositions. he always uses it as an excuse to be sappy or make you laugh (and brush his ego, of course). this time… as you sit next to him, watching him plunk the keys and listening to his voice… it feels different. it is more sincere, more vulnerable and emotional than his usual work. you stare at him in a daze as it ends, only to find that a ring has been placed in your hands..
kylo: as nerdy as it sounds, some of the best times you had together were during video game sessions. so many hours spent on the couch or at the table with your laptops, laughing at the dumb shenanigans you get up to. kylo is excited to show you a new mod he’s installed in one of your games (with grandpa’s help of course). it leads you through beautiful scenery, hilarious recreations of past high jinks, and mushy professions of love. and, at the end, giant text spelling a certain question…
nihilus: while it saddens him that he doesn’t remember enough about his past life to share old cultural traditions, he takes it upon himself to create new ones with you. both of you love to cruise the galaxy and watch planets come and go, drifting peacefully in a quiet little cruiser.. on one of those days, you notice him concentrating hard with the force—bewildered, you watch as an empty TIE fighter flies in front of the ship, leaving behind an unusually colorful gas trail that spells something in Sith script…
grievous: kaleesh courting rituals are as complicated as they are full of passion. so, when grievous invites you to hunt him with his own swords, you simply smile to yourself and play along. you chase him through the woods, his weapons a comfortable weight in your hands. eventually, you are able to find him, and the two of you enter a duel, grinning and breathless, until grievous lays beneath you. it isn’t until you see the look in his eyes as he kneels before you that you realize there’s more to this than you thought..
inquisitor: he takes you to his home planet, landing at a quiet place away from the large cities. it’s an undergound lake, silent and pitch-black save for tiny beams of sunlight, shimmering like stars on the pool. tenderly, the inquisitor leads you into the water, laying his hands on your waist with reverence. the two of you stay like that for a while until he starts murmuring something in Utapese, his voice reverberating against the cavern walls and filling you with a feeling of warmth. that’s when you see the ring in his hands..
lana: she plans the whole moment, starting with a trip to scarif for the two of you. of course, things don’t go all according to lana’s script, leaving her increasingly frustrated. nonetheless, she leaves you her proposal in the form of a poem (a casual hobby of hers turned magnificent work of writing for this occasion), slipping out on the patio to await your answer. the look on your face as you run outside into her arms makes it all worth it.
#chibi-chan-blogs#ask#proposal#we are getting DISGUSTINGLY ROMANTIC AND SAPPY#kylo probably proposes in minecraft because fuck you#also there are two proposals in bodies of water because also fuck you#long post#sith#darth vader#darth sidious#darth maul#savage opress#asajj ventress#dooku#kylo#darth nihilus#general grievous#grand inquisitor#lana beniko#s/o
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Be silly with me. Kiss me in the middle of the street. Meet my family, let me steal your clothes, have water balloon fights with me. Let’s go to museums, aquariums, forests, lakes, and mountains. Explore with me. Go on adventures with me. Let me make you feel wanted. Let me write you letters, songs, and poems when I can’t figure out what I’m trying to say to you face to face. Let me in. Tell me your secrets, your goals, your conspiracies, and your fears. Tell me about your dreams. Let me take you to all my favorite places and let’s make memories there that we will never forget. Walk down Main Street at Disneyland with me. Watch me get way too excited when we go on the toy story rides. Let me be grumpy because you beat me in the game and let me be happy even though you probably let me win. Dance with me in the middle of a crowd. Let me kiss you in the middle of your sentences because I can’t stand another second without tasting you on my lips. Let me play with your hair as you fall asleep. Let me look at you.. Study you. Learn the ways you move and your little habits that you don’t realize you do. Tell me when I’m being an asshole. Let me know when you’re not feeling it. Let me know when I’m stealing your heart. Show me that I can still make you melt even though you’re already my girl. Steal my hat, push me in the water, take my phone and leave me notes or take hundreds of selfies. Draw me pictures when you’re bored in class. Skate with me, surf with me, sing along to our favorite songs with me. Sing to strangers with me when were stopped next to them. Don’t be afraid to look silly… Because even though some stranger is looking at us thinking “what the hell are they on?” Chances are I’m falling head over heels in love with you. Tell me that you want me. Lay on my chest. Get tangled up with me as we fall asleep. Push me off of you because it’s too hot to be cuddling. Always kiss me goodnight. Introduce me to your family. Watch me play video games with your younger siblings. Let me talk to your parents. Let them question me. Take me to the zoo. Watch me talk to the monkeys and giraffes like they can understand me. Let me love you. Let me show you that I care. Let me buy you things that you don’t need. Let me spoil you. Let me run into every vans store that I see and spend way too much time in there. Drag me into the stores you like and punch me in the arm because I keep asking if you’re done yet even though it’s only been ten minutes. Let me sing you a song I’m writing and restart like 6 times because It’s not coming out the way i want it to. Let me wake you up with 150 kisses. Let me tickle you because I love the sound of your laughter. Get dressy with me. Stay inside and watch netflix with me. Kiss me in the rain, under the fireworks, and at stop lights. Don’t be afraid to jump. I will be right there next to you. Don’t be afraid to fall. I promise I will catch you. Don’t be afraid to give me all of you. I will give you every part of me. Take a chance with me.
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Return to Paradise -- Chapter Twenty-Four
Masterlist Previous
Warnings: It’s the last chapter, so that’s sad
Word Count: 2305
“Well, this summer was the greatest so far,” I smile at the Bangtan Boys and Nari. “Thank you all so much for the amazing memories. Next year can’t come soon enough.”
“Are you done with the bullshit?” Emily chuckles. “I know we are in an airport, but I don’t want a short meaningless goodbye.”
I giggle, “Yeah, I’m done. Okay, time to say goodbye to you all one on one.”
We all scatter, and the first person I am able to talk to is Seokjin.
“You seem to be doing a lot better than last night,” Seokjin smiles. “I’m glad that you are okay.”
“Thank you for being such a good friend,” I smile back. “I needed you last night to be there and mom me.”
He chuckles, “That’s what I’m here for. Don’t let the others know I said this, but mom of Bangtan is me. You needed care, and I supplied.”
“Thank you for all you’ve done for me this summer. You were always there to take care of me when the other boys didn’t understand that I needed rest.”
“You are Nari’s cousin, so I have to take good care of you. You are family now.”
I take a step closer to me, wrapping my arms around his torso. “I’m going to miss you.”
Seokjin’s arms wrap around me, giving me a quick squeeze. “I am going to miss you too, Amber.”
We break our hug, and he kisses the top of my head. One last smile is exchanged between us before I move onto another boy.
“Hobi, it seems like we just started to get to know each other. Now I have to leave,” I pout.
“No, no pout,” Hoseok gently pinches my cheeks and makes a silly face.
I burst into giggles and squirm in his grasp. “Hobi,” I swat at his hands.
“What was that?” He chuckles.
“Hobi-oppa, please,” I whine.
Hoseok pulls his hands away and pats the top of my head. “I’m going to miss you kid. We grew closer this summer, and I’m glad we could.”
“Me too,” I grin.
He pulls me in for a hug, kissing the top of my head. “Stay happy, okay?”
“I’ll try my hardest.”
Our hug breaks and he pushes me over to Namjoon.
“My best friend’s boyfriend that helped us translate for so many months,” I say.
“It was my pleasure,” Namjoon nods. “Now, you don’t need my help at all, and that gives me mixed emotions. I’m proud, nonetheless. You girls worked so hard to be able to talk to us.”
“Thank you. I like talking to you guys and having to learn Korean was a great experience with my best friend. And I don’t think it is over yet.”
“I bet it was. Learning a language with someone else is no doubt fun.”
“She’s going to miss you more than me, but I am going to miss you all the same.”
“I’ll miss you too. I mean, you are the reason I have a girlfriend and am in love.”
I giggle, “That’s true. They say everything happens for a reason.”
Namjoon pulls me in for a quick hug, ruffling my hair before stepping back. “You have some more boys to say goodbye to. Don’t let me hold you up.”
“Never,” I grin, turning on my heel to find another boy.
“I’m here,” Jungkook grabs my wrist and spins me around to face him.
“Kookie, goodness, I’m going to miss you too,” I bite the inside of my lip for a few seconds. “We finally could talk this summer, and you cheered me up so much.”
“Well, I enjoyed talking to you. Girls make me nervous, but I think because you are dating Taehyung, I know you will only be my friend. You aren’t talking to me for any other reason. I like that.”
“You are kind of awkward around girls,” I chuckle. “Seriously, thank you for all the kind words over the past few months. I can’t wait to play more video games with you. You have to Skype often so that you can tell me how cute I am and all that.”
“You are cute. Overly cute, sometimes. You know how to have fun, and your dancing is great. It’s going to be great when you move here.”
I smile, bring the boy in for a tight hug. “I know. Just have to graduate. That’s what stands in the way now.”
“You can do that, easy. You’re so smart, it will be a breeze,” Jungkook pats my back a few times.
We break the hug, and I can’t help but lean up to kiss Jungkook’s cheek.
“Oh, so sly,” he chuckles, his cheeks reddening in seconds. “Such a cutie, you are.”
“That’s why people love me,” I smirk, skipping over to Jimin.
“Hello, adorable girl,” Jimin smiles. “This is a sad day, but we seem to all be so happy.”
“Well, we are coming back for sure next year. This isn’t the last time we will see each other in person. I can’t stay away from your sexy face.”
“Oh,” he giggles, cheeks reddening and his shoulders shrugging up to try to hide his face. “You always say that.”
“It’s true. You are good looking, Chim-Chim. I know you struggles to believe it, just like I do, but it is true. You are perfect just the way you are.”
He pulls me into a hug, picking me up off the ground and spinning around a few times. “That’s so sweet of you. You are so nice and make me so happy. I’ll need to talk to you a lot over the time you’re away. Help me become okay with me.”
“I will try,” I giggle. “Now put me down. Jimin, please. You are so goofy.”
Jimin places me down on the ground. “The first plane you can get when you graduate, get it. I need you back here as soon as possible.”
I kiss his cheek, “Sure thing, Jiminie. I’ll be back as soon as possible. I need you all too.”
He giggles, walking off with a red face.
“You have a crazy effect on these boys,” Nari steps up to me. “You are going to have to move here for them more than anything. Tell your parents that if they have any hesitation.”
“I think they’ll get the message next year when I only buy a ticket to fly here,” I sigh, leaning into my cousin.
“I’m sure they’ll take that well. You need to tell them outright.”
“Eh, they should be able to figure it out that I love Taehyung with all my being, and that I need to be over here with him.”
“Tell them that then. They need to know you aren’t going to college right away. You can’t avoid this topic forever, Amber.”
I stand up, shrugging as I turn away. “I’ll do whatever it takes to make sure I end up here for the rest of my life. I’ll talk to them. Sometime next year. Promise.”
Before Nari can reply, I walk over to Yoongi.
“Little one, we are going to have to Skype and call each other a lot,” Yoongi runs his fingers though the edge of my hair, starting at my temple.
�� “Of course, I need to hear your voice a few times a week to get by. A Skype session a week should be good.”
“This summer doesn’t feel like it should be ending. I don’t want my sister to go.”
“I don’t want to leave my brother, but this will be the last time. I am going to be by your sides all the time when I come back.”
“Love makes you do crazy things,” Yoongi grins.
“Like run a few miles in the rain,” I chuckle. “Thank you for taking care of me these past months. For letting me talk certain topics out. Thanks for being here for me when I needed you. For being the best brother I have ever had. Thank you, Yoongi. I don’t know what I would do without you, and I am glad I don’t have to know.”
“I like taking care of you,” Yoongi pulls me into his chest. “I like protecting you. Talking about my problems to you feels natural. I can only talk to Namjoon so much. Thank you for letting me be your brother. Having a little sister is nice. Especially when it is you.”
I tightly grip the back of his shirt, trying so hard not to cry. “I love you, Yoongi. I’ll be back sooner than either of us can write a song.”
“You are going to write a song?” He gives me a squeeze before peeling me off him.
“Maybe,” I lightly slap his chest. “We’ll have to see. I think I’ll stick to poems.”
Yoongi leans in and kisses the corner of my mouth. “Your boyfriend is waiting for you, so I am going to let you go to him. I love you, little one.” He pulls away, a gummy smile on his face. “Taehyung is waiting. Call me as soon as you can.”
I nod, “Will do.”
Yoongi pats my shoulder before turning me around and shoving me towards Taehyung.
“Saved the best for last, I see,” Taehyung smirks, but tears are welling up in his eyes.
“Last time we will have to do this,” I grab one of his hands. “You have been one amazing boyfriend, Tae-Tae. So caring and kind to me, and I know that I have a lot off with me. You don’t care though. You love me for all I am, and help me through hard times. Your kisses and cuddles, your kind words and everything you give me. Thank you. You’ve made my life so much better. I am so much happier with you in my life,” I quickly wipe the tears off my face.
“This is the last time, jagi. Once you come back next year, I am taking you everywhere we go. You are the only girl I need in my life. I love you beyond words. We can make it through being apart one last time if it means we never have to be apart again.”
“Kiss me, one last time,” I whisper. “Please. It doesn’t matter who sees. Everybody knows now.”
“They do, and I will protect you from any hate.”
“I hope Army are above that. I make you happy.”
“The happiest,” he mumble. “I love you.”
“I love you too,” I smile.
Taehyung crashes our lips together in a passionate kiss. It’s just like in the movies where the couple ahs to leave each other, so the kiss for the last time is filled with so much love. His hands grip my waist as my arms go around his neck. It is the perfect way to end an amazing trip.
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“Nine more months, how many days is that?” I bring down my tray table and place my laptop on it.
“That is math I do not want to do right now,” Emily sighs, placing her book on her lap. “What do you need your laptop out for?”
“To cheek emails,” I shrug. “Hm, what do we have?”
“Don’t you only ever get emails from YouTube?”
“Mainly, but today I have two not from YouTube,” I click on the one from Big Hit.
“What is the boy’s company doing emailing you?” Emily leans over to look at my screen.
I read the email as quickly as possible, picking up on ‘back-up dancer’ right away. “I think I have a job next year,” I smile. “I guess it was worth asking.”
“I think so,” she pats my shoulder. “Blue Rose is going to become big.”
“Oh, shut up,” I giggle. “Dancing with the boys will be so much fun. Going to the studio will have true purpose.”
Emily chuckles, “What was the other email?”
I click back to all my emails, opening up the other email form an address I don’t know. “Whelp, I’m so glad this started out with Korean, and then apologizes for it because they know I probably can’t read it.”
“Shush and read,” she flicks my arm.
I take a few minutes to real the email in quiet. My heart swells when I read who it is from, and even more when I realize why.
“Look at you, getting emails from boys of different groups,” Emily leans away.
“Vernon Hansol from Seventeen wants my advice to help him get a girl,” I happily sigh. “Because Tae and I were outed, he found out about me. Now he wants my help. That is crazy.”
“You have to help him,” she says.
“I know, I am,” I roll my eyes. “I don’t know how much help I am going to be.”
“I’ll help if you need any. What does he need?”
“The girl he wants has been his friend for years. They are both half Korean, which made them bond early on. Gah, I want to talk to her, but I don’t think that would be a good idea for me to reach out randomly.”
“They understand each other because they are different.”
“Yes. He wants to know if them being best friend is all there is, or if he has a chance. He’s afraid because he is an up and coming idol she will reject him. He wants to know why I went with Tae.”
“Better get to it. You still have a few hours to kill.”
I hit the reply button, stretching my fingers to get ready for typing. “It seems that returning to paradise has made our lives so much better.”
“Your life got a little better more than me.”
I giggle, “I guess. Next year, you’ll figure out what you want to do with your life.”
“Hopefully next year we are stuck where we belong.”
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And that is it, the last chapter. I can’t believe it is over, but there is another one: Stuck. Coming January of 2020. If you like these characters, look out for it. Until then, I hope you enjoyed reading! :D
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Is there any way to stop myself from having suicidal thoughts? Like, without medication or therapy? I read that we're supposedly in control of all our thoughts, but it really feels like it just pops into my head randomly and I can't will it away and its really uncomfortable and hard to ignore.
In the long term, not really. In order to fully recover from suicidal ideation, you’re likely to need some combination of therapy, medication, and lifestyle changes. I know that reaching out to a therapist can be daunting, but I promise it’s the best thing you can do for yourself. If you’re in the US, you can check with your insurance to see which therapists are in your network in order to find one that’s currently doing online therapy sessions. You might also be able to find free group therapy that’s conducting sessions online.
While you find a therapist, though, there are some things you can try on your own.
First, if you haven’t already, please tell a friend or family member what you’re going through. Having a strong support system is really important for your mental health. It’s also a good idea to have the number of the local Suicide Prevention line in your phone. Many of them now do texting as well as phone calls, and it’s a good system to have in place when you’re really struggling.
Other things that might be a good idea:
Track your mood. If you can notice when your mood is dipping, you may be able to intervene before you start feeling suicidal. It can also help you to identify triggers so that you can better avoid them in the future.
Develop a safety plan. This worksheet is a good place to start.
Find activities to deter suicidal thoughts. What this might be depends on what you like, but maybe it’s listening to music really loudly so that you can’t think about anything else, or playing a video game that takes up a lot of cognitive energy, or going for a run. Something that lets you block out your thoughts for a little bit. It can also help to do a centering exercise.
Make a “distraction box” . Fill a box with things that provide comfort, remind you of the good things in your life, and help lift your mood. You can include anything meaningful and helpful to you, e.g. a book, photos, letters, poems, music, whatever works. If you can, have something in the box that engages each of your senses.
Make your home safe. As much as you can, remove anything you might use to hurt yourself, including pills, knives, razors, or firearms.
Remind yourself that people do get through this. Over 90% of people who survive a potentially lethal suicide attempt do not go on to attempt suicide again. Most people who have been suicidal in their lives recover, and you can, too. Even though it can seem like there isn’t, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, and it’s important to keep that in sight.
When you’re in the middle of a suicidal crisis: Remind yourself that the crisis is temporary and that even problems that seem hopeless have solutions. Remind yourself that this is your brain lying to you, and that you have to do your best not to believe it.
Ask yourself: are these thoughts facts or my opinion? What has helped me feel better in the past? What can I do right now that will help me feel better? What gives my life meaning? What are my goals, dreams, and values?
Then, distract yourself. Suicidal urges usually pass within 5-10 minutes, so if you can distract yourself for that long, you can make it through. Something that can help is to identify items around you. It will feel dumb in the moment, but describing things can help your brain focus on something else and calm down. Try identifying 5 things you can see, 4 things you can hear, 3 things you can touch, things you can smell or taste, and then take 1 breath. Then focus on your breath until you feel calmer.
Practice mental healthcare. Make a schedule and do your best to stick to it, exercise (even if it’s just a five minute walk), eat a balanced diet, get exposure to the sun, meditate (Headspace or Calm are good apps to start with), journaling (get your feelings out of your head and onto the page), gratitude (write down three things you’re grateful for, even if they’re super small and silly), and do things you used to enjoy.
Try to avoid: being alone, drugs, alcohol and doing things that will make you feel worse (listening to sad music/watching sad shows, reading text messages with a person you no longer talk to)
Other worksheets and resources that may be helpful: another safety plan worksheet, alternative thoughts and actions worksheet, crisis management plan, and CBT worksheets.
I know this is a ton of stuff I just threw at you, and I hope it’s not too overwhelming. You don’t have to do all of these things- even just one is better than nothing. But I hope something on here helps you.
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