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mrsnancywheeler · 3 months

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Whatever you do don’t imagine Finnick and his sweet girl becoming intimate for the first time after she is sold. Don’t imagine how as soon as she feels his hands on her she cracks, don’t imagine how Finnick fears reminding her of all the clients, don’t imagine Finnicks sweet girl apologizing for not being able to give him that part of her, don’t imagine how she fights the urge to disassociate during it, don’t imagine how Finnick feels when he realizes that.

Okay…bye :)

tw nsfw and trafficking related trauma

there will be more discussions of this later on in the river but for now...

but I'm definitely not thinking about how

it's just so natural, the two of you have spent your day flirting, laughing, and you're just both in bed. you've been leaving light kisses all over each other's face, light enough to be slightly ticklish and then finnick is actually kissing you. at first it's fine, but then he's deepening it and he's already on top of you so you can feel him growing hard. how his hand that was on your hips is so close to your waist band when you're pulling away. it's too much and you're desperately wishing you weren't, but you're tearing up.

he's looking at you, confused for less then a second when he realizes what it is and off of you as fast as he can be. "I'm so sorry." And he feels so guilty for kissing you like that, for getting turned on by you.

but you're upset with yourself, he's so patient, loving, kind and you can't even be intimate with him. "No, I'm sorry, you deserve better and I really wish I could."

"You don't have to be sorry at all, sweet girl." And he's giving you tissues, making tea, making sure you have all the softest blankets, anything you need to try and help you feel somewhat better.

it takes so long for you to want to be intimate like that again and everytime you notice he might be in the mood, even though he doesn't mention it and acts like he's not, you apologize profusely for not being able to be that girlfriend which he always shuts down, soft kisses to push away your tears

nor am I thinking about

eventually one day you realize you might be finally ready, to be with him in that way again, to give the part of you that's been so hurt to someone willingly

you're sitting by each other on the couch, reading, when you softly take it from his hands and sit in his lap. he laughs lightly, "what do you need, sweet girl?" and you're kissing him and he's kissing back. it's nerve wrecking but you want him so bad, and you feel like you're finally able to try and have that. you're not sure if you can say it so you're just slowly starting to grind on top of him and eventually his hands are on your legs and he's pulling his lips away. he's getting hard and feels so guilty for it, "honey-"

"I want you, Finn." And he's staring at you long and hard trying to decipher if you mean it or just feel obligated because of how long it's been, he dreads you feeling that way. but your eyes are so pleading..

"are you sure?" you're nodding, "because we can stop at any time, I don't want to make you uncomfortable." He's nervous that he'll mess it up, he's wanted you for so long, missed the intimacy and hated himself for it.

"I'm sure." And later he's got you laid out on the bed and he'd ever so carefully taken off you clothes, kissed each part of you, praised you, muttered endless I love you's so you knew how much you meant to him. he needs you to feel loved but used. you're so grateful for it, but also you he's so slow and gentle that it's had you much to worked up with anticipation. "finnick, I'm not made of glass." you say it ever so softly.

"I know, sweet girl, I know. I just don't want to make you think of them, need you to know how much I care. You'll tell me if something's wrong right? I need to know if you need to stop and it's okay if you do."

"of course I'll tell you, Finn." and it would've been true if your body hadn't decided to go on autopilot. the moment he's finally slipped inside you, your brain takes it as a queue to leave. you don't want to, he's so sweet, and you're enjoying it, but your fighting the feeling of drifting away from your body. fighting off the daze you usually fall into and when finnick looks into your eyes he can tell. he knows what it's like, he's done it too many times to count. It's further cemented when you barely process the fact he'd stopped moving.

then his hand is softly caressing your face, his heart aching as he tries to get you fully back, "honey, we can stop it's okay." and your brain has somewhat started to settle

"no, it's okay, I'm fine, Finn. I'm sorry, just got lost."

"this is for you, sweet girl, if you don't want it, that's okay. I wanna make you feel good."

"I'm sorry." You're rubbing your face, trying to keep yourself in the moment. Then he's slowly pulling out, "Finnick..." You're so frustrated with yourself.

"just need to make sure you're okay."

He's so softly tracing calming circles onto your skin and you notice how hard he still is which makes you feel guilty. "Let me take care of you then."

Finnick looks so sad as he shakes his head, "You don't have to just get me off and then clock out for everything else, this is for you too.

"finn, I want you, I don't know why my brain is trying to escape, but I do want you." and he's making sure your being truthful again, so scared you'll lie to make him feel better, pull him into the same fantasy all those horrendous clients have

"why don't you keep your eyes on me then, sweet girl, and tell me how you feel as we go?" and you agree.

it's not necessarily the easiest bridge to cross, but it's baby steps because miss what you had and miss how much your body responded to him, so ever so slowly the two of you find a way

yeah I'm not thinking about any of that

#wanda 💋#finnick odair x reader #finnick odair #finnick odair x y/n #finnick odair fluff #finnick odair angst #finnick odair x reader fluff #finnick odair x you #finnick odair x reader angst #finnick odair fanfic #finnick x you #finnick x reader #finnick imagine #finnick odair imagine #finnick odair smut #finnick x y/n #finnick odair x reader smut #anon

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fortunatelyuniquepeach · 6 months

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How you changed me𓆩♡𓆪

pairing: simon "ghost" riley x gn!reader

cw/tags: fluff, jealousy, simon slowly healing.

a/n: please forgive any grammar or spelling mistakes . enjoyyy🫶.

You were catching up with johnny after he came back from his mission. His way of telling stories has always been funny and made everyone want to listen, and you really tried to but the sight ahead of you made you frozen in place, johnny's voice becoming a background noise.

Your secret partner of two years, Simon Riley or as everyone else calls him "Ghost" let a recruit stand too close to him, touching his arm every chance they got. It wouldn't be a big deal if it was someone else, if it wasn't the ghost himself who'd never let anyone touch him, especially a stranger he just met a few hours ago. How could he? It took you whole 3 months to just be able to pat his shoulder without feeling his body tense. And there he is, letting some recruit he doesn't even remember their name, feeling him up as they like.

You suddenly felt johnny shaking your shoulder, bringing you back to the present. "You're with me?" he said, looking a little worried. "Yeah, sorry, I just zoned out for a minute" you answered, hoping he'd believe you. Johnny knew about you and a Simon, and usually he'd keep his cool and not expose you both, but other times he liked teasing you for being in love with your lieutenant.

"I'm sorry. I think I'm a little tired, johnny. I'll be in my room, okay?", you said raising your voice a little hoping to catch your lover's attention. Johnny just nodded with a little smile, and you left walking to your room.

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You've been in your bed for two hours now, tossing around unable to fall asleep despite how tired you are. The thought of him with them burning a hole in your chest. You weren't jealous as much as you were hurt. You thought you were special with how much he let you touch him, but maybe you were wrong? Is he bored of you? does he just not love you anymore?

Your thoughts were interrupted with the sound of door knocking. You didn't want to answer as you didn't want to meet anyone, but whoever was at the door didn't stop. "come in", you said as you slowly got up, the heavy feeling in your chest getting a little less worse as the tall masked man walked in.

"Sleeping already?" he asked, sitting next to you. you just hummed not meeting his eyes, hoping he'd get a hint. "hmm? something wrong, sweetheart?" Before you gave him a sassy reply, something like 'what do you think?' You decided to just tell him the truth.You've missed him so much all you wanted was for him to make it up to you.

"You let them touch you" you said in a low voice, finally meeting his eyes. he looked at you confused, not understanding what you meant. "Who touched me, love?" his hand slowly made its way to yours, squeezing it. "The new recruit, si. Their hands were all over you." Even though you meant to keep your voice low, you couldn't help but sound angry as you remembered the sight of them touching him.

"They were? Well, i definitely didn't notice." That's it. You lost your temper. "What the hell do you mean, simon! what? you're just suddenly so comfortable with people touching you? because as i remember, it took me months , MONTHS! just for you to let me touch you and now you're ju-", he watched you ranting in anger to him, your voice so much louder now that the whole base must be hearing, but you couldn't give a shit.

"No, it's not so sudden. It's you." he interrupted you calmly in his gentle voice "I'm sorry?", he chuckled at you, squeezing your hands a little tighter. "You made me this way, lovie. i know it took us months, and i'm lucky you stuck around and didn't get bored. I got so used to your touch, to being touched that it doesn't scare me as much now. plus, i couldn't help but stare at the pretty one standing in front of me. must be why i didn't notice"

Just like that, you felt your anger melt away. You really wanted to be upset and take a stance, but it was a little difficult with how sweet he is.you made him this way, you let simon comfortable to show up instead of ghost.You showed him true love.You taught him to let himself be loved. You felt your whole face heat up at his words, a smile made its way to your mouth. "Okay fine, guess I'm not so mad anymore". He laughed this time, his hands leaving yours to hold your waist instead. He rests his forehead against yours, letting you leave his mask up and push your lips against his in a small kiss.

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bredstick · 10 months

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I love Gojo x male reader. There should be more :( I’m tired of all those gn reader fics that turn out to be female reader…

Gojo Satoru x male reader

SO TRUE!! I keep seeing them and it always dissapoints me so so much:(. Anyway, here's a little something for my male reader gojo lovers out there ;)

Gojo realises you're overworked

There's always been some work for you to do in your minimum wage job, but recently it became too much to handle. Paper work, people making fun of you and bringing even more work to your desk... it was all too much, really.

Gojo hasn't been home in a while because of a trip with his students for some kind of "training trip" or whatever he was blabbering about... it made you curious though. Why go so far away for a simple training week?

Opening your eyes, you realize you dozed off at your desk at work, mumbling curses under your breath- today Gojo was coming home-- or well,, came home already. He must be worried about you. Reaching out for your phone next to all the paperwork, you quickly check it in panic. No phonecalls whatsoever. It was almost midnight.

You worry even more- did you upset him?? Or did his travel back to you get delayed?? You were confused. Checking the texts he sent and confirming that today was the day he'd get home, you take your things and quickly hurry home, almost jogging your way down the streets.

Fumbling your keys, you try to open the door, but you realize it's already open- this made you susspicious, since you always double check if your door is locked. Silently stepping inside the house and making a mini weapon with your keys and forming a fist, you look around.. nothing out of the ord-

""HELLOOOO HANDSOME!! YOUR DEAR HUSBAND IS BACCKK- OUGHMHMHDK""

You punch his gut from the surprise, regretting it instantly,, "OH SHIT I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS YOU WHY DID YOU LEAVE IT OPEN YOU DUMB PIECE OF SHIT" complaining loudly with the embarrassment visible on your face, Gojo laughs at you. Laughs straight in your face, as he isn't phased about the punch at all.

"Do I need to remind you that I have infinity on?" he says, smug look on his face. He pranked you.

I swear I'll wipe that little smug of your face someday when I catch you offguard punk!! You say in your mind, while you croutch down with your face beetroot red, ready to die in a hole. "I'll save you the embarrassment and move on. How are you? How was your day? What did you do?" He smiles, finally looking fully at your face. Your eyebags were so so visible, your hair wasn't kept neat like he remembered, and you just looked,, unhappy. He didn't like it one bit.

"You know what... let's not talk about our days right now. You look exhausted dear.. let's get my boy to bed, okay?" he says, his voice softer and more tender. You look up at him, shocked on how well he read your desires you didn't even have time to tell. You stood up and just nodded, not saying a word-there's no words neccesary anyway.

He hugs you- genuinely and tightly, warmth embracing your body. You forgot how it felt really.

You noticed you shed a tear, one singular tear, forgetting how you actually missed his touch, his soft spoken words. Work has surrounded you in a tight grip, making you focus on just that, nothing more.

You smiled in content, and he picked you up by your thighs, slowly walking to the bedroom you two share.

He helped you dress up in your bed clothes, and helped you with your hygene routine- he kept yapping about "not taking care of yourself" and "you need to be good to myself or he'll ground me". You weren't even listening, the only thing in your mind was how you can't wait to have someone by your side again.

Your husband, your one and only, Gojo Satoru.

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

Thank you for reading this!!! If you want more, please specify what to write about with the certain character(s) :))) if anyone has any recommendations, please tell me! I'm new to this after all.

#gojo satoru x male reader #gojo satoru #satoru gojo #jjk x male reader #jjk gojo #male reader #jujutsu kaisen

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ewyband · 9 days

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explaining HRT to my parents and acceptance

hello everypony, if you don't know, im non binary. im gonna be really vulnerable here for a hot sec but i just wanted to share my experience because its something ive found very difficult to write about in musical form.

gender has always been super confusing for me and whilst there were signs of me being trans when i was younger, its only something thats become apparent in the last three years. i wont bore anyone explaining my experience of where i stand with my gender but i wanted to share my experiences with HRT and the process of telling my parents about it.

i started seriously considering HRT around around a year ago and decided to take the plunge around two months ago because every time i looked in the mirror, i noticed more chest hairs, thicker body hair, broader shoulders and a squarer jawline -- this all makes me extremely dysphoric and i hated it. the conclusion i came to was, this was all going to continue to intensify throughout me aging and so the main question was: do i want to age on testosterone or estrogen? once i started estrogen i felt so much better about myself, almost instantly (as in, within the first few days). my mood has drastically increased and i have 'breakdowns' way less now which is great!! one thing i was scared about was chest growth and the day before i started estrogen, i was very tired from a long day and had a breakdown because i was quite literally mourning my freedom. i never really have been more confident shirtless or anything but i mourned swimming in the sea, in lakes, in rivers and in tarns on the mountain tops -- the sense of freedom you feel when you're fresh out of an ice cold tarn on a mountain is indescribable. however, now i have responsibilities, i have a career i have to make work, i have people i need to please and for some reason i felt not being able to be shirtless was another freedom i could potentially have snatched away from me. when i told my mum about me starting HRT she said 'well, i'm sure you've made an informed decision so i'll just tell you the same thing i've said about weed: just be careful okay' which was a genuinely pleasant surprise when my dad found out, my mum called me saying 'just in case you get a call from your dad, he's really worried and he's been losing sleep over it. if he calls you, please dont argue with him, just agree with him for now for our sake' my dad did end up calling me and i explained everything and any worries that he had. he had a lot of questions but i managed to answer everything without getting too upset. towards the end of our call i thought he said 'i just needed you to understand' to which i replied 'yeah i understand, its okay to be anxious, because i definitely was' and he replied 'no, i said "i just needed to understand"' im really grateful for my parents being so accepting and its genuinely strengthened our relationship. even though they're pretty hit and miss with calling me my correct pronouns, they still love me and havent disowned me and im really grateful for that.

anyways, thanks for coming to my ted talk

#trans #nonbinary

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aseriesofunfortunatejan · 4 months

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Just finished watching Providence. I'll probably have some more thoughts to share about it after sleeping on it, and possibly later if I rewatch S3 again (😍).

Providence and S3 spoilers ahead!

The first thing I can't stop thinking about is that upon giving the Psycho-Pass subreddit a quick look before watching the movie, the only post I saw was about how "this movie should have come out before S3". I didn't read the body of the post in fear of spoilers, but throughout watching the movie, I kept thinking about how much I disagree with that. How insignificant would Akira be if you didn't know he was Kei's brother? How random would Atsushi be as a character if you didn't know what he meant to Arata? Imagine this random kid showing up. No one would react positively to Arata, Maiko and Kei. Akira would feel like a side-character we only cared about for a split second and Atsushi would be confusing in the wrong way. Season 3 wouldn't be the same without the mystery of Tsunemori's incarceration. Objectively a wrong take if you care about the storytelling and characters at all imo.

With that out of the way, while Providence answered some of our burning questions, some have been left unanswered, such as:

Did Gino change his haircut so drastically all of a sudden because he realised the wind blowing in his face meant he couldn't see shit?

I'd be willing to buy that he just enjoys changing styles regularly, though.

Since I'm looking at her... do we know what Frederica's deal is, exactly...? I also can't help wondering - is there a reason why Shimotsuki hates her this much? While she's always complaining over petty things, she seems to hold a pretty specific dislike towards Frederica. Is it really just her personality? (I'd be willing to buy that, too...)

I feel like we have gained a net zero information about either Homura Sr. or Jr. Or Bifrost.

I feel like I had another serious question... before I started joking about Gino's hair. It'll probably come back to me. I guess there's always "can Shou's backstory get a Moment? Anyone else remember how S2 didn't give its new cast the same amount of time S1 did? Babyboy's still kinda just Here rn."

I'm still a bit confused about Jackdaw and Vixen, and the fact that I only just realised that Vixen is a woman probably does not help.

I miss Azusawa and Obata...

Oh right, I think I remembered what I meant to talk about. There are events that clearly happened between Providence and S3 that haven't been detailed, such as Gino leaving the Bureau to join Foreign Affairs, Kunizuka running the fuck out of there or even, I believe, Arata and Kei being appointed as Inspectors. We know that Tsunemori contributed to the latter - I wonder if we may learn more about her reasoning in the future. I think we can also infer that Gino, who stated in the movie that he intends on protecting Tsunemori, had to change plans one way or another due to her arrest.

I feel like we still don't know enough about Akira's relationship to his brother or to Atsushi, and I don't know whether that will be forever left in the air of if it will be detailed. The exact implication of Stronskaya Sr. and her relationship to her daughter are also vague.

Honestly, there's a lot going on in this movie. A lot of politics... a lot of religion... and a thick wall of the story's context. It's complex, and it's interesting how Psycho-Pass is continuing in this direction that already stood out in S3.

I'll just say I'm upset about Saiga. Evil evil bad. I'm really hoping for more content with Arata, Maiko and Kei in the near future because I seriously love them!!! And I want closure for them!!!! Akira was a pretty interesting character, though his quick death was frustrating - which I assume was not not on purpose. Though it happened maybe a little too fast due to the movie format (compared to an episodic format), the revelation of his allyship was set up pretty well. Like I said, details are definitely missing - Atsushi didn't explain why Akira was so willing, and he was interrupted before he could say who he was in his own words.

It was pretty nice to see Kougami be a little cringefail. I didn't enjoy his characterisation in S3, but in Providence, it feels a lot more sensible - like he can really feel that he doesn't have control. I'm satisfied with his and Tsunemori's dynamic in the movie, wherein they care about each other deeply - dare I say, Kougami might even care a little more than she does at this point? - how does that dynamic shift feel my guy? - but Kougami's wrongdoings have weight and the narrative doesn't force him back on her. You can feel that he wants to be back, you can feel that to Tsunemori he never really left, but like I mentioned in a more personal post, Gino's her source of comfort, her trustworthy teammate; Kougami isn't welcomed back by default. This feels natural. This feels like the writing cares about their feelings.

What else... Oh yeah... Did anyone else feel like Saiga was kinda................. hot?

#psycho-pass #psycho pass #psycho-pass providence #psycho pass providence #jan essay #??? does this count? just because it's long? it's more like. jan writes. period #providence spoilers

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magical-mistakes-vm · 7 months

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A confession draws them closer

Vollrath, for his part, wasn't fairing much better and was glad this had happened in his home and not office. Being forced to cover for his reaction would have made him fuck up, he was sure. "I'll keep that in mind for the future." Would he ever, and how she affected him as well. At the moment he was trying to figure out how to not ruin things but get to talks they needed to have. Nothing since they had walked into his house has gone according to his plans, and that was a rare occurrence.

"I'm always open to bribes." Her hand that had landed on the back of his head during their kiss, lightly ruffled his hair. She was starting to get nervous again under his intense gaze, even if now there was no hostility in it at all.

"Is that so?" He slid her off the stool so she was standing pressed against him, then slowly started backing towards the coffee pot. He had an idea. Hopefully he was not as clueless at romance as he thought. "Hopefully homemade bribes work just as well as store bought." He grinned as he spun her to face the counter where the pot was then caged her against it with his arms.

The small gasp and laugh told him enough that he'd done well so far. "Maybe I can bribe you to share more about you tonight." He reached to get the mugs and placed a kiss against the side of her neck as he set them down. "I'll even trade some about me." As he started to pour the mugs, he rested his head against hers.

"I might be amenable to that trade." Mahala couldn't hide the smile in her voice as she answered him. She may have said she didn't believe in fairy tales but she almost felt like she was in on at the moment. The princess with the powerful wizard seducing her and also having fallen in love with her at first sight, only to reveal she was a sorcerss.

Finishing pouring, Vollrath wrapped his arms around her from behind. "I'm sorry that I upset you earlier." He wasn't sure where that came from. If there was something he did only slightly more frequently than kissing a woman but rarely enough no one could remember the last time, it was apologize.

"I have a feeling it won't be the last time we have a miscommunication. " She laid her arms atop his. "We have lived very different lives in different worlds." Her head leaned back against his chest. "It means a lot that you apologized though." She turned her head and tipped it back to look up at him.

"There is probably one more thing I should mention before you meet Baldur and Elmar." How did he explain this one to her? Since meeting her he could barely stop touching and placing his lips on her. Still Vollrath needed to get it out of the way. Gently kissing her upturned lips, since he very well could get smacked or pushed away shortly. It might be his last opportunity for a while.

"You're stalling." Mahala teased with a grin.

"I am. You didn't have to point it out though." He chuckled and held her slightly tighter, wondering where this ease came from. "See, they will of course mention it, and.." he lightly sighed. Swallowing hard he decided to just spit it out. "I am not normally like this around a woman. At all. Not this relaxed, not this affectionate, and," due to his nerves getting the better of him, he dropped his lips down next to her ear. "I know you won't believe this, but the last woman I kissed that wasn’t family was in college, and I've slept with a few since then. I don’t just mean on the lips, I mean anywhere, period." His eyes closed. They could be starting over from scratch in seconds and he was already missing the feel of her in his arms, the smell of the way her body chemistry interacted with the sandalwood oil she'd gotten on her during the interrupted ritual, and the feel of her skin under his lips.

Turning in his arms to face him, Mahala’s face was awash with a mixture of confusion and shock. "Are you serious right now?" Her eyes searched his face as she waited for a response. He couldn’t be, could he? He had kissed her forehead when they were still out in the woods on his property.

Normally when Vollrath heard that question it was full of sarcasm, but hers was full of confusion, as was her expression. "Yes. I told you earlier that you are very special, my little witch. Don't ask me to explain, because I can't. I'm not playing games, Mahala, I gave you my word." There was a soft sigh as he finished talking and at the end his voice sounded defeated; he wasn't sure how to feel, which was in itself a new feeling. He was a Master Warlock and head of his own company. Normally he was fully in control of everything and everyone around him. Then he found Mahayla in the forest and he felt like his world was upended.

"I didn't mean it like…now I'm the one who is sorry, Vollrath. Bad word choice." Gently one hand rose to lay on his cheek, the auburn stubble there tickling at her palm and fingertips. "I just meant it has all felt so…" she struggled to find the word without once more using a poor word choice.

"Natural." He ended the sentence for her as she nodded. "You also don't need to apologize. It seems we are both in new territory tonight." His lips formed a soft smile as his eyes softened around the edges. Vollrath didn’t believe in love at first sight, but this was definitely a new territory that he’d never been in before and he was curious exactly what this was. What he did know was that having Mahala in his arms DID feel like the most natural thing in the world and the little acts of affection required no thought like they had in relationships in the past.

“Very new. Whatever is going on between us plus this whole thing with witches, warlocks, hunters….I’m just…overwhelmed…” She closed her eyes and leaned her forehead against the middle of his chest. Her emotions were starting to get the best of her and she let out a stuttered breath, almost a dry sob as she just felt everything hitting her at once. When Vollrath’s strong, muscled arms enveloped her to hold her gently, there was something so comforting in it, and she felt herself wrapping her arms around him and just relaxing into his strength.

“I’ve got you, sweetheart.” Vollrath kissed the top of her head, his hands gently caressing her back. “How about we skip talking in here and take the coffee up to my bedroom, I have a huge sofa up there we can relax on? It’s more comfortable and not so bright. It’s my sanctuary from the world” For some reason the thought of having her wrapped up in his arms, relaxing in his room, made his heart speed. He felt a NEED to do this, to have her close and keep her that way.

When she nodded against his chest, he smiled against her hair and kissed her head again. “You are safe, Mahala, always with me.” It was a vow that went to the very core of his soul.

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seungily · 2 years

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TANGLED ATTACHMENT LHS, PSH

synopsis: sunghoon had broken up a month ago and needed time before you both actually started dating, he told you to stay aware of his bandmate, lee heeseung but what happens if you grow attached to him and find out your ‘boyfriend’s dirty secret despite you both loving eachother?

pairings: park sunghoon x afab reader x lee heeseung

genre: angst, toxic love, love triangle, slow burn, slight fluff?

warnings: toxic love, mentions of cigarette, tension, one night stands,

inspired by: @//parkjaycult ‘s “BOUNDARY_LESS PSH” and heavily inspired by ‘Friends - Chase Atlantic’

author’s note:: I RE EDITED IT HOPEFULLY ITS BETTER AND EASIER TO READ NOW 🧍🏻‍♀️

there he lies, right beside you. he looked miserable with swollen blood-red eyes and dark circles, his cheeks were tear-stained he had marks supposedly hickies all over his neck. Despite being his assistant and manager, you had no idea what he does or where he goes after 7 PM but always received a message from him after 11 PM to either pick him up from a random club or open the door because he was freezing, despite you never wanting to you always do let him in. I mean why won't you? He kept you accompanied through your lonely apartment. This was another reason you had a small minimalistic apartment you didn't want to feel lonely.

Sunghoon on the other hand had broken up with his girlfriend of two years, Hyun-hee. You weren't sure why would anyone ever leave this perfect man? But who were you to say anything throughout the following 3 months Sunghoon continued to vent to you about his now ex but never mentioned the real reason why they fell apart. Regardless you comforted him and let him stay. Enhypen's manager never really minded him staying with you as long as you both did everything behind the scenes and Sunghoon was never late for his schedules. It led to the point you knew his smell, the time he'll text you and what his comfort foods were, can we say the same about Sunghoon knowing you? I guess not but the way Sunghoon would sometimes snuggle close to you deep in his sleep it made you think if you guys were just friends or more?

Back to the present, your alarm rang waking Sunghoon up while you keep staring at his neck about the hickies or scars. "Is something wrong?" the boy asked rubbing his eyes while sitting up. "N-no you should freshen up and return to the dorms I'll drive you there" he only nodded in response and walked towards the washroom. You on the other hand just sat on the bed in denial you didn't know how to feel you knew this needed to stop before you grew more attached but you couldn't just run away.

After dropping Sunghoon at the dorms, Heeseung began to approach you "Shall we go?" the black-headed guy asked politely, "Huh?" "Oh did Jihun (manager) Hyung not inform you?" you were beyond confused when you suddenly received the message from Jihun himself.

From Jihun (Manager-nim)

> YN! You have to take care of Heeseung's schedule as Nayeon is not well and I'm busy.

*sends schedule planner*

"YN you're still here?" Sunghoon's voice returns you to Earth "Oh.. Manager Jihun just texted me, I have to take care of Heeseung's schedule as his manager is sick and your schedule is empty today" YN said "Oh ok" he said almost upset. As you were about to leave with Heeseung, Sunghoon suddenly hugged you, "don't get too close with Heeseung I'll miss you" that somehow gave you butterflies even though this was a common skinship between the both of you, maybe his words were doing the effect but why did he even tell you to be careful of Heeseung? He seemed amazing even though you didn't know him that much. You quickly hugged him back and started walking with Heeseung beside you as it must've been awkward for him.

You start the car and start driving to a studio where he is supposed to record a song cover "Off my face" by Justin Beiber, it was probably coincidental that you absolutely love that song and you were pretty excited to hear him sing it. He was extremely polite and both of you made some small talk, you were mostly closest to the maknae line and of course Sunghoon so it felt awkward at first. "Soo.. it seems that you and Sunghoon are pretty close are you guys.." "FRIENDS! yes ah-hah! " you say it in the most unconvincing way but he seems to believe it for the time being while you apologize for being loud he laughs it off and switches the topic as he could see you were quite uncomfortable. Soon enough you both arrived "Do you want to come inside?" He asked while taking the bag he decided to carry after losing his only AirPods that were in his pockets "Am I allowed to?" you ask while unbuckling the seatbelt. And here you are staring at his face while listening to his angelic vocals he maintained eye contact with you looking at the camera from time to time but looking at you as well. It somehow gives you butterflies even if you didn't know him that well. He stared at you throughout the "In love with you" part and you wouldn't lie, you felt yourself felt.

After finishing his schedule with him and dropping him off at the dorms, you went back home and decided to scroll through your notifications and schedules, it was 10:57 PM you knew he'd dm you anytime now but to your surprise, he didn't?it shocked you but you shrugged it off and just thought maybe he won't come today? even if it was unusual..

*ring ring* the bell rang as YN got up to open the door. "Open up I know you're awake," He said as if he'd breakdown any moment in a drunk as fuck voice. You open the door and he crashes down on you, completely hugging you with both of his arms and keeping his head in your nape taking in your fresh smell. "why would she leave me, was I not enough" he said in a droopy sad voice almost falling down as you carry him to sit on your couch and continue comforting him till 1 AM or until he was asleep, yes you took care of him you knew he deserved better, you just wanted him to feel loved.You took a closer look at his state, his hair looked freshly washed and fluffy eventhough it was messy, it looked as if he washed up and then went to the club, why? you'll never understand this man.he still had the scars from yesterday and maybe more? or were you just seeing things? Either way you made sure to comfort him and made him feel loved, he always appreciated these actions towards him and would often cry and tell you how much he appreciates it, you really love his vulnerable side but t hurts you to see his tears sometimes.

You woke up feelings entangled in the sheets with another figure in your bed, that being sung hoon, you brushed hair off of his face when he started to wake up thanks to the sun being brighter than usual because you didn't pull the curtains, he holds you tighter in his embrace as he whispers a quite good morning and thank you for last night, that was enough to make you melt. If anyone saw you both in this state, they'd most probably think you both are dating, you both cuddled for a while before the blonde head spoke up again "how was it with Heeseung? Did he say anything? you thought for a while before shaking your head and said "just small talk and.." "and?" "nothing that special" you lied but you didn't want to make things awkward so that's how it was before you tried to get up but sat down again when Sunghoon pulled you towards him, he held you close to his chest you could hear his heart beating and he probably could too considering how fast your heart was beating.

"Let's cuddle for a while," he said in his deep morning voice which you were used to, he snuggled closer to your neck while you couldn't even move. "Y-you have to mc today r-remember?" you mentally curse yourself for stuttering. He groans but lets you go, you exhale as you both freshen up and you decide to drive him back to the dorms, he adjusts himself in the passengers' seat as you began to drive. "I'm sorry for yesterday, I wanted to spend some time with you yesterday but-" you cut him off, "it's fine" you feel him smile through the corner of your eyes as he reaches down to your hand gently squeezing it. These small interactions meant a lot to you as they made you feel wanted. You loved it. You loved him.

As you reached the dorms, Jihun informed you that you had to take care of Heeseung's schedule today as well even if you were aSunghoon's manager, the reason was obvious. Netizens were making rumors about Sunghoon and you dating, you were pretty enough to be an idol so speculations were that you're a trainee dating him so it was understandable what Jihun was trying to do but Sunghoon was definitely not pleased but you didn't mind because you were comfortable enough around him.

The whole day was fun with Heeseung , after finishing his photoshoot he took you to a cafe and now you both were sitting on a hill just looking at Seoul from afar. Sunghoon and Heeseung were different, extremely different. While you mostly had home "dates" with Sunghoon, Heeseung took you around the city into places you never even saw or knew. Both of them were equally fun.

Heeseung broke the comforting silence with his question "Soo YN.. were you raised in Seoul?" you just dryly chuckle "No... but I always wondered how it'd be to live in Seoul and that's how i ended up here, I'm from a small island beside Jeju I came to Seoul to become a therapist or psychiatrist but I guess some dreams don't come true" you looked down and brought your knees to your chest. "Why did you suddenly become a manager, I mean it is something comepletely different from a therapist or medical field " he asked again "Mm.. I dont know.. it was because of my mother, my studies were going well until she fell sick and needed money for her medicines so I just took a job that I found" you suddenly chuckle feeling chilled by the weather, "Is she still?..." you shake your head "no.. I lost her" you say, your eyes now getting glossy. Heeseung got closer and hugged you tight "It's not your fault, you tried and id everything you could. I'm so sorry" You started crying pathetically in his embrace hugging him back, you lost your mother recently yet tried being strong, nobody had comforted you like this. None of your relatives lived with you so you kept blaming yourself. The night went on by you explaining on how alone you feel in this city and how Seoul wasn't the place for you. This felt different, new and you liked it. Sunghoon normally talked about his feelings to you and you never really minded because you wanted to protect and love him but you didn't kow how it felt to recieve the same love. Until tonight.

It soon got pretty late and you drove Heeseung to his apartment instead of the dorm as most of them were with their familes or in their apartments. You realised that the key normally stays with his manager who was sick or Jihun, Heeeng had called Jihun but he wasn't picking up. You couldn't just leave him. "YN? If you want you can go home, I'll just stay at a hotel." he said breaking your thoughts. "No no what if sasaengs find you? How about you just stay at my house for tonight?" you don't know why you suddenly said that but you guess you didn't mind his presence anymore.

"I'll sleep on the couch" you offer and bring out a pillow from your bedroom buut he snatches it from you and says "I don't want to bother you so I'll just sleep on the couch" "No what are you saying I can't do that to a guest" You say snatching ng the pillow back and it suddenly becomes a pillow tugging competition to a pillow fight. It looked like as if you both were kids but you needed to get revenge on him for hitting you on the head with the pillow. After a while of messing around you began "Okay let's just sleep on the same bed but put pillows in the middle is that okay?"you said exhausted and out of breath. THere is no way any of you would fit in your small couch so Heeseung just agreed.

Instead of sleeping you both just talked about random stuff, how Heeseung became a trainee, if you had any siblings, music taste and anything till 4 in the morning when Heeseung heard snores while he was explaing his childhood talent show. He surely adored your sleeping face and fell asleep watching you.

You had woken up to your alarm and so had Heeseung, after turning off the alarm you couldn't help but laugh at how cute Heeseung looked . "Why what's wrong?" he asked rubbing his eyes "nothing you look adorable, you can go freshen up first then i'll drive you to the dorms" he just smiled and got up unlike sunghoon who would want to sleep 10 minutes more. As you said, you dropped him off at the dorms and went to Jihun's office.

Even if you didn't say or show it you were worried about what Sunghoon did after 7 PM and so by giving the excuse of 'forgetting his schedule' you asked Jihun where he went. "Oh? you don't know? he goes to the club and then a hotel as his schedule stays empty after mc'ing." Oh. It all made sense now, all those 'scars' him always coming after showering and drunk with the smell of women's cheap perfume. But why were you feeling like this? It's not like you both were dating or anything even jf you did confess? he had rejected you. You couldn't believe it. You thought he would've moved on. You knew you weren't the only one feeling this.

"Hyung? Where have you been?" Sunghoon asked the older boy, he didn't know if he should say that he spend the night at the house of his member's 'friend' or crush but he couldn't lie to him either. "At YN's place as we forgot the keys to my apartment" he said calmly, "Oh? so that's why she didn't call me?" the older one just sighed "Sunghoon you cant expect her to only run behind you, I know you love her you should just tell her.. stop going behind her back and doing shit how would she feel if she found out?" Sunghoon just scoffed "You should be the last person to tell me this after sleeping over at her place" he said slowly getting heated up, thankfully none of the members were home, Jake, Jay and Niki were recording while Sunoo and Jungwon were at their radio show."You don't own her, I'm not here to argue about her, just stop and confess to her before she finds out herself" he tried to be calm "Hyung you don't need to tell me what to do, I know her well enough to know what to do to win her over" he said ready to walk out when- "know he?" he laughs in between before continuing " do you even know what she was going through these few months when her mother died? No, youre to hung up on Hyunhee just give YN a chance stop fucking around." Heeseung snaps back before going to his room.

Sunghoon was speechless but still mad and possibly jealous over the fact that you let Heeseng stay over so he went to meet Jihun to ask why you hadn't come yet. "Oh YN, she took a break for a week" he said before going back into a phone call about a new brand deal while Sunghoon stood confused "why would you suddenly take a break?" Completing his schedule faster than usual he drives to your place, t was 6 PM a lot eralier than he usually would come, it was raining heavily so the sky was dark already. He had a bad feeling but he had to confront you, maybe even tell his feelings like Heeseung adviced?

He twisted the door knob and surprisingly it was unlock but that wasn't more shocking than what he saw inside, you were blankly staring at the city infront of you through the window of your living room with a cigarette between your hand. "Since when did you smoke and let guys I didn't want you to be with come in your house?" you flinched but turned to face him and stood up, "Since when did you start coming so early, are you done fucking your hoes in a hotel?" you spoke quieter, looking at him with glossy eyes. "Answer the questio- YN what?" he said quite shook and taken aback by what you said.

"Tell me what youre doing on the other side." you start backing up "YN-" 'Just tell me what youre doing with those other girls!" you spoke through your tears "Tell me why youre always wasted when we talk, tell me why you only remember my name in the mornings..." "YN no listen to me I love yo-" he tries grabbing your hand but you back away, both of you pathetically crying now. "Running in circles now look what you've done... I trusted you.. and what the hell are we? tell me we werent just friends? this doesn't make no sense!" you said gripping your hair "YN I really do love you I didn't mean to- " he fell down on his knees "You said youre not ready.. I was waiting for you to move on, only to find out I'm the rebound" you laugh bitterly "YN No- please give me a chance..-" you pointed at the door "leave." he seemed shocked "Y-YN no youre not fine I can't leave." you only laughed "I'll be fine without you babe"

That's when he realised he had completely losed you..

after he felt, you decided to call heeseung

"YN? What's wrong?"

"H-hee please come ove-over"

He left.. again. like everyone does you were shaken up. The only person who gave you their attention was Sunghoon, despite not saying anything he made you feel special. you had confessed your feelings to him once and he said he needed time. what has this led to. I should've known. "YN?" Heeseung came in, he seemed shocked at your state. You were shaking a thrown cigarette on the floor while your hair was a mess, tears kept streaming down your face. He ran up to you taking you in his embrace, he didnt want someone so precious in this much pain. It hurt him too. "W-why did h-he even give m-me ho-hope?- if h-he want-ted something e-else" you spoke in broken words but Heeseng understood, he figured you found out what Sunghoon had been doing. "Shh.. it's okay you deserve better calm down" he rocked you back and forth before you calmed down just softly crying in his embrace.

You were on his lap while he held you protectively in his arms. "I know this isn't the right time but, I -I just want you to know I'm here for you.. I probably haven't loved you as long as sunghoon did but if you give me a chance i promise I'd never let you go.." Before you could say anything he attached his soft lips on yours, you didn't kiss him back. You were too taken aback. He soon detached his lips from you and said "I get it if you don't want this I'm still with you" He hugged you tighter before you spoke up "I n-need you too Heeseung but please let me heal before I trust you again.."

"I'll help you heal" He said before you fell asleep, tired from heartbreak and love yet being comforted by the person who you'll soon start loving.

you maybe truly will be fine without him

author’s note: my hand hurts but hey it was worth it, ngl i enjoyed writing this and I hope y’all like it <3 parmanent taglist is open

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stardustizuku · 11 months

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So I read the second part of your ml analysis which is very good btw, but I have two questions: 1. you say something about how Adrien would never give up being Chat bc of freedom and stuff, but he does so in syren (kind of) and in kuro neko. I mean, it would make sense that he wouldn‘t bc of the reasons you stated, I‘m there with you, but… that‘s not canon? There are instances where he gives up his hero life bc he‘s insecure of what LB thinks of him (which tbf seems ooc but still). And second, Luka didn’t know about Mari‘s secret identity at the time when they were together, and I wouldn‘t necessarily blame him for being upset at her for not being very present during their relationship. Idk maybe I misunderstood (in which case I‘m sorry) but he only learned about that later. (Or do you mean that if he was the main love interest, he would‘ve forgiven her for acting the way she did?)

I don‘t disagree with you at all, I was just confused about those two parts

I'll be honest, the original draft has been in the work for well over a few years now. So, it was initially written before season 4. Much of my information on the episodes moving forward is either clips or second-hand information.

(Being honest though, I don't feel like I miss much doing this. A lot, and I mean ALOT of MLB is padded fluff and not even good kind. I did keep up with recaps until season 4. Season 5 to me is a complete mystery. And I don't wanna find out. What little I have seen or been told, makes me question...so much).

That said.

You do have a point.

Adrien gives up "Chat Noir" on two occasions. 1) Despereada 2) Kuro-Neko.

(I'm not counting Syren because that was a threat, not really him giving it up, or following through.)

But here's the thing. We're both in the correct here. Because while Adrien "gives up" the Alter Ego of Chat Noir - in Desperada he does not give up being a Superhero.

He is just trying on a new mask. He still wants what he's always wanted "a home" and his "home" is Ladybug. He tries to please her, by being Aspik. His "wish" hasn't changed, he's figuring out if a new mask will be able to grant it.

And in the case of Kuro-Neko, I would liken it to a corrupted soul gem. Realising that the "wish" he made when he became Chat Noir is fruitless.

I said "[Ladybug] offers him [a place to belong], while Chat Noir lends him the means to show that “true self” he can’t allow to others. He would never give up his miraculous because it would mean losing all that."

But what happens if the first statement is false? What if Ladybug no longer represents a place where he belongs? What if he no longer feels like Chat Noir is his true self? If either of those fail, then what's the point of having an Alter Ego? That's when he gives it up.

The moment his wish is proven NOT to be granted by the Magical Power Up, he gives up his Alter Ego.

OOC, yes. But it has some (?) sort of internal logic.

However, the point of that specific part was simply to say that Chat Noir is a (slightly) better-constructed protagonist. Through seasons 1-3, he remains with this internal logic. Something that Marinette does not have, even at the very beginning.

Again, I do believe Kuro Neko could have worked - but giving it the 1 episode treatment ruined any shot at redemption it could have.

As for the Luka situation

I really was trying not to go into a tangent, within a tangent about how badly they handled Luka. So I sorta jumbled a lot of stuff together and mistyped a lot. It's actually quite understandable that I didn't make myself clear, I wasn't trying to.

I was vaguely gesturing at the problem. But, if you insist:

My main point is: I don't think he should feel entitled to information about his (relatively new) girlfriend.

That entire thing was, politely said, a dick move.

With my comparison to Tokyo Mew Mew, I was trying to prove that Luka did the one thing that no Magical Girl Male Lead should EVER do. It's antithetical to everything the genre stands for.

Marinette wasn't in the wrong for keeping ANY sort of secret from him that didn't relate to their relationship. Point blank. But, he feels so justified in this, that when he becomes an Akuma, he outrights forces everyone to give up Marinette's secret.

One that I would argue IS a huge deal in regards to their relationship. She still likes Adrien. But he says he already knows that.

And, apparently, does not care for it.

Okay then, why did he care for her other secret? What could have possibly been worse in his head to get into such a huge fight over?

And in the end, it doesn't even matter cause he does find out she's Ladybug afterwards!

He broke this girl's heart just bcs he couldn't handle she wasn't being 100% honest in a, what? 2-month-old relationship?

The entire thing is messy and weird, and meanspirited. I'm not a fan.

And that should be obvious. I compared Aoyama and Ichigo in a positive light to them.

I do not ship them. I don't even think they should have been endgame. I know that's an essay/rant for another day - but to somehow be worse than the most VANILLA of Magica Girl ships, the one ship anyone will tell you isn't the one they wanted. The one that everyone in the REMAKE is begging to be changed...

You fucked up.

#miraculous ladybug #askloli #mlb salt #anonask #idk if this was helpful #i mostly just have strong opinions abt magical girls and everything i say just akjlsdkljsdjsa #season 4 and season 5 have nothing of value to say change my mind i will not be watching them

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holly-louisexox · 9 months

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Ribcage X Andy Biersack- Part 12

Masterlist

"There's one thing you should know about me Delia Vincent, I don't date. Got no heart to break and emptiness is safe, keep it that way."

He was adamant in his choices…

…But then things changed.

Not my GIF

Author's Note:

Trigger Warning: This part does have a brief mention of the deadly C word (Cancer) so please look after yourselves if this is upsetting to you. Also feel free to message me if needed, I know how upsetting it can be, as someone who has lost someone near and dear to me to this dreaded disease.

Also some slightly spicy content up ahead too ;P

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Shevy created a new group chat:

Hey, why didn't we make a group chat sooner? Anyway, anyone who's up for a shopping and exploring trip today, meet downstairs at the hotel lobby in 30 minutes. x

That was the text Delia saw light up her phone; it was from Shevy. It was weird, they had done 5 out of the 8 weeks of this tour already, but the home sickness was just starting to kick in. Sure, Delia was loving this opportunity, even with Andy being a total confusing prick, and she was talking to her parents at every chance given, but right now she was wishing nothing more than to just sit in her family home's kitchen with her mum drinking coffee as they spoke about everything and anything. Sighing, she thought it best to reply to Shevy, otherwise she'd only get her tour bestie knocking on her door instead.

Hey. I won't be coming out with you all today. Gonna just take today to myself and likely talk to my parents as I'm missing them. Have fun though. x

If anyone was going to understand how Delia was feeling, it was going to be Shevy and most likely Jinxx as Delia knew he was missing his son and wife a lot.

Message from Lonny:

No stress D, hope you're okay. x

Message from Andy:

I won't be coming with you all today. Enjoy.

Typical Andy, Delia shouldn't have even been surprised, he was most likely going to hook up with some girl like always. It's not like it mattered to her anyway, truly, it did not matter to her in the slightest. Her concern at this current time was talking to her parents.

"Hey mum." Delia smiles slightly as she hears her mother pick up the phone.

"Delia! How are you doing love? We were wondering when we'd next hear from you! How's everything going? Any updates from last time?" Delia's mother asks down the phone.

"Yeah it's still great, still loving every minute of it." Delia continues to smile; of course she had not told her family about how Andy behaves, that's a small detail they did not need to know.

"I'm so glad to hear that you're enjoying it. I hope you know how proud me and your father are of you. You've worked so hard for this for so long, you really do deserve it." If Delia did not know any better she would say her mother sounded close to tears; Delia's parents always were so supportive of her life choices.

"Thanks mum, I love you." Delia starts to feel her own tears well up slightly, only 3 more weeks and she'd be home.

"Anyway I'm so sorry petal, your father and I were just about to leave for the hospital. He's got another appointment for his cancer remission, just to double check everything is still looking like the all clear."

Delia feels her smile falter slightly. 3 years ago her father was diagnosed with cancer in the prostate. Thankfully with the help of treatment he was able to beat it and had been in remission for the last 2 years, of course the fear of it coming back was always in the back of her mind. This was obviously something Delia never liked discussing with people, she was always so afraid of breaking down and seeming weak; seeming weak is definitely not something she was willing to do in front of this band, especially Andy.

"Yes, of course. Send dad my love and let me know how he gets on." Delia nods even though she was aware her mother could not see her simple reaction.

"Of course petal, I'll text you okay? I love you."

"I love you too mum." Delia smiles sadly before hearing the call end.

Petal. That was always the nickname Delia's mother had for her since Delia was a young girl. Delia's mother had always loved flowers, especially the dahlia. She had a single dahlia in her wedding boutique, which she called her good luck charm even though she knew she did not need good luck and that Delia's father was the love of her life. She knew that if she were to call her future daughter dahlia it would cause issues so that's why she chose Delia; it was so similar yet just as gorgeous in her eyes. A dahlia. The same flower on the pin that Andy had gifted her at the start of the tour.

Hearing a knock at her bedroom door Delia is instantly snapped from her thoughts. Surely it's not Shevy, they must have left by now right?

"Andy." Delia is shocked to say the least; never did she expect the selfish lead singer to be at the other side of the door.

"Hey Delia." He smiles awkwardly.

"Hey." Delia replies although it sounds more like a question.

"I um, I'm sorry about this past week. Things have been a bit weird haven't they?" He starts rocking backwards and forwards on his heels.

"Weird? You're the one who's been ignoring me!" Delia snaps slightly, she was in no mood for his confusing moods right now.

"Look Delia, I'm trying to apologise here, can you not make this hard for me?" Andy growls back slightly; as much as Delia found the guy attractive his moods really got to her. Would she lose her job if she was to swing one at him? Maybe it would knock some sense into him.

"Look Andy, whatever you have to say can it wait? I'm really not in the mood for this right now." Delia sighs; she had to be the bigger person and be civil, god knows it was rare for Andy to be the civil one.

"No it can't wait Delia." Andy remains firm but there's something that sounds vulnerable in his voice at the same time. "Look, I know I can be difficult to deal with okay? I get it. You, on the other hand, you are one of the most infuriating, most stubborn women I have ever met."

"This doesn't sound like you apologising." Delia cuts him off whilst losing her patience.

"Can you just let me finish?" Andy sighs taking a step closer to Delia and so he's inside her room. "Despite this though, I can't stop thinking about you and that is what truly confuses me."

"What?" Delia was shocked to say the least. Surely Shevy wasn't right about him?

"What the fuck have you done to me Delia Vincent?" Andy whispers slightly before shutting the door behind him and slamming his lips onto Delia's.

None of this was in Delia's plan. None of this seemed right logically, so why did it feel right to her? Delia shouldn't be kissing this asshole back, so why was she?

"If you want me to stop tell me now." Andy breaks the kiss slightly.

"I don't want you to stop Andy." Delia mutters back before she feels his lips on hers again; this time she doesn't hesitate to kiss him back and soon she feels him leading them both towards Delia's bed.

"Are you sure you're okay with this Delia? You know there's no going back after this?" Andy asks as soon as their bodies hit the double bed in Delia's hotel room.

"have you got a condom?" Delia asks to which Andy nods "Then I'm sure, I'm okay."

That was all it took for Andy to connect their lips together once more.

Yes Delia had her silly little relationships in the past and little flings but believe it or not she still sometimes felt awkward around guys. All these years her career has been more important to her than boys, whilst her friends were settling down with a family and a stable job, she was prepared to take the risk of instability to do what she loved.

So why was she doing this? Why was it with Andy of all people? Maybe the saying is true, what happens on tour stays on tour.

#andy biersack #andy black #andy bvb #cc bvb #jake bvb #jake pitts #jinxx bvb #lonny bvb #lonny eagleton #black veil brides #bvb #black veil brides fanfic #bvb fanfic

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pbandjesse · 6 months

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Do I feel better today? Sort of. My voice is not as bad today. I can actually laugh. But I think some of it was the rest. Shocking I know.

I was not doing well last night. I got a horrible ache and pain in my jaw and head (James thinks from coughing, I strained something) and had a bit of a meltdown when James fell asleep. They woke up and I flailed and hit my hand in the wall. So then I was very focused on my hand hurting so my head didn't hurt so much. James woke up before I freaked out and they got me some medicine and stayed with me until I fell asleep. It helped having them there.

The medicine put me out though. Because I slept heavy through my alarm. I don't remember anything. I woke up at 11am. Jesus.

When I did wake up I was dehydrated and a little confused. I don't sleep that late anymore and it makes me a little annoyed. But I needed it apparently and I haven't been able to take a nap since this nonsense started.

I would start making my bed but would go wash my face before I finished. I got dressed and tried to be cozy. My cough was pretty gross this morning but would improve slightly throughout the day. I'm not gaging anymore. Still hurts but it's dryer sounding.

I would have soup for brunch. I struggled the get the jar open because it had self sealed in the fridge. But I did get it open and had a nice little warm meal.

I had a plan of this afternoon to work on a very complicated paper project this afternoon. I have wanted to work on it for a while now. It's going to be my card for James for their birthday. But it did not go well at first and I was struggling.

Some of the problem is I cannot find my clear ruler. I was so upset over this. I would end up using my quilters mat and a yard stick but it was a struggle to get a perfect square.

I went through like 6 sheets of paper before I got a perfect square. And then I had to watch two videos to figure out the folding. I have never been good at origami. Which people always assume I am good at and I just consistently am not good at it??

But I did my best and after more then an hour I was finally able to figure it out. Which was thrilling. I had a lot of drawing to do next. I am excited to share it, but I will wait until Tuesday. On their actual birthday.

It is someone's birthday today though. My sister's. It makes sense she's been on my mind so much this week. I keep meeting women who remind me of her. I have to stop myself from asking to hug them. Even if she wasn't a good sister, and we were never close, I still miss living in the same world as her.

I spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out. I had a veggie hot dog. I cuddled with sweetp. It was a nice afternoon.

James got home and they had gifts!! They brought baked goods from Ginny. And they got me a snoopy puffy plush!! Love my husband.

James would hang out on the couch with me. And made us pizza which was really good. We all cuddled on the couch. Sweetp let me trim his nails with minimal complaints. And eventually I went to take a bath and wash my hair.

And now I'm hanging out in the studio. I am watching TikToks and feeling a little better. The new medicine James got me seems to have help. But now I'm going to go lay down.

Tomorrow I am going to do some art. Maybe. We'll see how I feel. Maybe I'll clean. Maybe I'll just. Do nothing.

I just hope I can feel better. I hope you all sleep well. Take care of yourself. Goodnight!

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violent--delights--violent--ends · 9 months

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PERSUASION | Hero FT Fanfic

Chapter 3

WC | 744

Jessica POV

"Every time I see you, your hands are on your face. I hope you're not upset again," he says, smiling.

"Wait, Jess, when were you upset? What did I miss?" Kristen breaks in.

"I'll tell you later," I say, looking at her with a please drop it expression. "So, what are you doing here?" I ask, then regret it because, of course, he's here to eat, plus its really none of my business.

"Just waiting on a friend." The fangirl in me wonders if it's Josephine because I know they've started filming after we collided.

"That's cool. We were trying to decide what to eat," I say instead and then add, "you're welcome to sit with us while you wait if you want."

"Thanks," he sits down across from me.

"I need to use the restroom," Kristen says, getting up and smiling.

Hero lets out a small chuckle. "Geez, can she be any more noticeable?! I'm sorry for that," I groan.

"Don't worry about it. I'm used to it. Is that your sister?" he asks.

"Nope. She's my best friend/aid."

I notice the confusion on his face, but he doesn't want to come off as rude.

"She helps me with day-to-day things, you know, because of the wheelchair."

Looking relieved that I answered his question for him, he says, "she seems pretty cool."

"Yeah, she is," I agree.

"Can I ask you something, though? It's kinda been bugging me since I saw you."

I automatically get nervous thinking, here comes the whole 'what happened to you?' I don't mind answering; it always gets asked sooner or later. I didn't expect it so soon or ever; it's not like I have a real chance with him.

"Yeah, sure."

"Why were you so upset earlier today?" I look at him surprisingly as he notices my reaction. "Of course, it's none of my business; you don't have to answer; it was just difficult to see, honestly."

"It's okay; I wasn't expecting that to be your question. I was upset about my mom. We don't get along all that well. I guess I'm not what—"

"You guys making out yet?" Kristen laughs and sits down. I roll my eyes.

Hero blushes, then say, "Jessica was just telling me about her mum."

"Ugh, that woman is such a fun sucker. Disney doesn't even like her," Kristen says while rolling her eyes.

Hero starts laughing, which makes me laugh. "You sure your friend is still coming?" I ask, trying to change the subject.

"Doesn't look like it. What are you trying to get rid of me? I thought you'd want me to stick around since I'm so gorgeous and tall," he jokes, smiling at me.

"I was stating facts. I mean, you are a model," I joke back.

"Well, while you guys have this lovely conversation, I'm ordering food. Jess, do you want the usual?" Kristen asks, getting up.

"Yeah."

"Hero, can I order you anything?"

"Uh, I guess I'll take a Philly cheesesteak," he says, pulling out his wallet.

"Don't worry about it. I got it," she says, putting her hand up.

"No way; what kind of guy you take me for? It's on me."

"Fine, fine, Mr. Macho," she says, taking his money.

While we're waiting, a girl comes up to us. "Excuse me, can I get a picture with you?" she asks nervously.

"Yeah, of course," Hero says, standing up. They both make funny faces as Hero takes the picture.

She says thank you while hugging him. "Is Jo here?" she asks with hopeful eyes.

"No, sorry," he lightly smiles.

"Oh," she answers, looking disappointed. She looks at me then, confused, which makes me look down at my fingers.

She gives Hero another hug. "Tell Jo I said hi, and I love her," she says, walking away.

"Sure thing," he smiles, sitting back down. "Sorry about that."

"Don't worry about it; I get it, honestly," I shrug. "I love how you are with your fans; you're so humble and grateful; it's cute," I say softly.

"Thanks, but I meant..." he stops.

"Oh, the look? Don't worry about it. I'm used to that," I laugh a little

"Believe it or not, I get it. I mean, I know the circumstances are different, but you kinda get used to it after a while," he says, looking at me.

I'd never thought about it like that because I'm a fan, too, but he has a point.

#kristen stewart #afternators #kstew #herofiennestiffin #hero fiennes tiffin #hero ft #heroft #after we collided #aftermovie #wattpadstories #wattapad

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Hello! I don't know if you're still doing yandere prompts. But I was looking at the post and I think "If they ever become a problem, let me know. Okay, love?" With Blue sounds really interesting.

I am!

Blueberry was the sweetest guy to you. He was your best friend, and always made sure that you were comfortable and happy, and it was so sweet!

Sure, sometimes he acted a little weird but... that's normal, right? He just sometimes got mad if you were late to their hangouts but then said that he was mad because he was worried for you! Nothing else but that... and other times he... sometimes would ask to know who you were hanging out with and at times he would jokingly steal your phone and erase numbers then get sad if you ever get mad since he didn't know that that would make you upset! He would flinch if you yelled at him looking like he was going to cry "I'm... I'm really sorry Y/n" you can't stay mad at your best friend! Even more when he looks like he's about to cry.

It had been a long time since he did that anyway, sadly you couldn't remember the number and couldn't get it back but you know, it's fine... accidents happen.

He didn't know that that was an important number. Plus, you know, if the friend wouldn't call back then maybe they weren't a friend! (He totally blocked the number before erasing it off your contacts)

Today you two were spending time together, he was rambling about all of the things that he was so excited to do today but then he noticed the fact that you weren't talking as much as you normally do, making him shut his mouth in a tight line staring at you, blinking slowly.

"Are you alright?" He asks.

You blink, a little shocked. You didn't think you would get spoken to... wait! Blueberry was talking. You look at him with big eyes, then sigh rubbing your neck "Y...Yeah, I'm okay, just... thinking" you mumble the last part "Tired because someone kept messaging me last night"

That seemed to catch his attention. He tilts his head to the side and presses closer to you "Someone's bugging you? Who are they?"

"Well, they're a friend I used to have, he started to be really... weird though. He keeps bugging me and messaging me. He won't take no for an answer, and he keeps asking me to go on a date with him. I told him that I didn't feel the same and he just won't accept that"

Blueberry doesn't answer for a few seconds, so you looked at him and felt your blood run cold.

His eyes were still shining but the normal nice blue looked like ice. His smile stretched a little, and he nods. "Okay..." he reaches over, gently brushing a bit of your hair behind your ear "If they ever become a problem, let me know. Okay, love?" his voice came out soft and slow.

The touch was so soft which caused you to lean into it. Love? He's never called you that before... "O...Okay" you mumble, nuzzling into his hand a little.

He leans forward, pressing a 'kiss' against your forehead "Now come on, stop thinking about him! This is our time to hang out. Maybe he'll leave you alone! You have to tell me who he is though" his voice back to the normal loudness that you were used to from him.

You laugh softly, nodding "Okay, I'll tell you later" you were happy you had such a good friend! And when that guy goes missing a few days later, you're both so confused but... at least he isn't bugging you anymore.

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Reunited-Ging Freecss x Reader (Hunter x Hunter)

Summary: On the hunt for a certain hunter who disappeared years ago you are forced to stop your trip and head back to Whale Island. (More will be updated on my ao3 account)

"How is life treating you Gon? I hope it's better than mine, though I'm sure you shouldn't be worrying about things since you have your friend with you. After all you've always been a boy who gets along with everyone. I'm still surprised at how far you've become! You are a hunter now and words can't describe my happiness. I'm sorry we had a short meeting back then but I promise that we'll see each other again soon."

I hummed to myself and finished writing the letter. We'll be seeing each other in a few months hopefully. I leaned back in my seat and glanced over to the window to my side, a lovely sunset fell across the city i was currently at.

"I better head over and deliver this letter or it'll never arrive on time." Speaking to myself as usual was when I got up and exited my room to head to the small familiar shop I've been countless of times.

As soon as I entered I was met with the kind old man sitting behind the counter, "Miss (Y/N)! Here to deliver another letter? You're brother must be lucky to have someone like you."

I smiled and handed the small envelope to him. "He's a really special boy. You see it hasn't been long since he became a hunter."

"A hunter?! How old is he?"

"He's around ten. Don't worry, I've been a hunter way longer than him!" I exclaimed and saw the old man confused.

"Longer than your brother?! What is your exact age then?"

I hummed and shook my head. "It's rude to ask a lady her name, let's just say I'm older than you might think."

The man sighed and smiles nonetheless, "I can't argue with you then. Oh! Now that I remember you received this." I looked back and saw him holding another blue colored envelope.

I took it from his hands and eagerly opened to read what it said. God knows foe how long he's had this with him, the poor man recently has been having trouble remembering most things. My dark eyes read what was written down on the letter.

"I've been fine don't worry! Killua and I have been training at Heaven's Arena, I finally mastered a bit of Nen, two people I met helped us out a lot. Yesterday I even had the chance to fight! Though, I'm sorry to say that I lost, but I've met many new friends! Killua and I are about to head back home, so don't be upset if you don't hear nothing from me! I know how much you work and I don't want to-"

"He's heading back home?!" I gritted my teeth and ripped the letter in my hands making the poor old man jump from his seat. I dug into my pockets and took out some money and handed it to him.

"I guess my visit was extremely short. I'll be back before you know it!"

The man smiled through his glasses and waved, "Safe travels Miss!"

With that I was running across the city to get the first ticket I could buy to head back home. Whale Island. It's been over two years since I last made it back, what's back at home anyways?!

I frowned and crossed my arms over my chest. I imagined Gon would head back to another one of his friends place, seems like he truly misses Mito and Grandmother. I rested my head on my seat and felt the boat I was in rocking back and forth. I groaned and felt my face turning green, I'm getting sea sick again.

Without a warning I jumped out of my seat and started to throw up all outside to the ocean ahead of me.

"Thank you for sailing with us! We hope we made the best out of your trip!" One of the ladies working at the boat exclaimed at all of us walking out. I groaned to myself and didn't feel like talking at the moment.

"Miss (Y/N)?! I didn't expect to see you again!" One of the fishermen noticed me and he genuinely seemed confused.

What is that supposed to mean? Did he seriously think I would abandon this dump?

"I decided to visit the family for a bit." I lied through my smile and waved at him.

"Well, you certainly haven't aged a bit. Welcome back to Whale Island then! I'm sure Gon will be happy to see you again."

I nodded my head and began to walk all up to the familiar house above the mountain. Due to some problem back at the boat we were delayed, so now the sun was setting. I'm sure my surprise will shock them.

The house seemed to get closer and closer the more I began to walk, and in just a few minutes I raced inside and opened the door wide. "Where's Gon?!"

Mito and Grandma stared at where I was standing. Both their expression turned from confused to happiness. "(Y/N)" Mito stammered my name and before I could say anything else she wrapped her arms around me.

I remained frozen not exactly being used to being hugged. I gently patted her back and waved at Grandma. "I see you both have been living well on your own."

"Yes, thank you for all the money you've been sending." Mito stood back and I stared back at her. "Gon and his friend arrived early this morning, don't worry he's out in the woods as usual."

"Here I'll bring you some tea!" Mito ran to the kitchen to fetch some tea for me. Grandma smiled sadly at me while I began to look around the house. Nothing seems to have changed yet I feel so weird being here.

Mito entered the room and both her and Grandma sat on the table since they forced me to not go and look for Gon. "We definitely didn't expect you to come, Gon told me you've been out helping him out. You saw him for only two days correct?"

It had been 1 year since I haven't seen before we saw each other briefly after he graduated one of the first parts of the hunter exam.

"You are correct."

"Have you been helping him with finding Ging?"

I gritted my teeth and turned my hands into fists. "No. I've been lying to him.."

Mito looked concerned at why I would lie. "But why-"

"He left this family! Do you really think I want my son to chase after his father who abandoned him?! I gave up on finding him many years ago, I could care less on what he's up to."

"(Y/N), you haven't exactly been present in Gon's life either." Grandma said making me shut up. I pouted and crossed my arms over my chest. She always likes to say how much of a teenager I like to act due to me being childish at times.

Grandma is Ging's grandmother not mine. She's seen the negative and positive side of both of us. "I'm not justifying on only you. Yes, you didn't abandon Gon like Ging did but you act more of a sister to your son."

I continued to remain silent. I hate to admit it but she's right. Mito has been playing the mother role for me all this time. I honestly don't care about Ging anymore but I'm still hurt that he abandoned me when I just had given birth to Gon.

Him continuing to be a hunter never stopped.

I was too young back then to see things clear, I regret many things but having Gon was never one of them.

Even if I don't want to, I must let Gon know the truth and everything I can remember about his father. I have to be a real mother now. All these years I've been putting a facade, back in the day I used to be so cheery and happy, making everyone's lives a bit happier. Later on I began tough to read, really showed any emotion and spoke bluntly.

I still remember Grandma teasing me a few years back when she started to see my son grow up.

"I still remember when you and Ging met. You used to follow him everywhere and tease him he would get all flustered and try to push you away." Was some words Grandma used to say along with-

"He definitely has your personality." She used to say when Gon started to grow up. That's what I love about him.

So I will say when he was growing up it was hard for me to even look at him since in appearances he looks nothing like me. I'll do my best to be present in his life.

"I'll go searching for him it's getting late." I excused myself and exited the house in search for my son.

I began to remember one of the many places he likes to stay. Above one of the waterfalls, so I began making my way to work.

"So what are you planning to do next?" I heard a voice say when I began to get closer, when I picked my head out I noticed Gon was with another boy.

"Well, I'll be going to Yorknew to find my father."

"I'm coming with you then. I'm quite jealous of you actually."

"Hmm how so?"

"Well, you have a nice family..tell me how is your mother?" His friend asked.

I froze in my spot for shivers, oh I hope he doesn't say anything weird! I glanced back and saw Gon hum before he smiled and kept staring up the beautiful sky.

"Hmm she's a hard woman to figure out..but she's extremely strong! Sure, she wasn't exactly the one who raised me but I respect her nonetheless. I don't blame her if she didn't want to stay, she was doing the best she could to raise me on her own."

Tears began to flow down my face and before I knew it I began to quietly sniff. I wiped my tears and felt a pang in my heart, I didn't expect Gon to say that about me.

I calmed myself down and began to step out of my hiding spot, making both boys look back surprised. "M-Mom?!" Gon looked at me all happy.

"Hello my son." I waved and smiled. Gon smiled wide and jumped up on his feet and pounced over me, he had a strong grip around my waist. I hesitated for a bit but I gave in and hugged him back.

"She's you're mom?!" The boy next to Gon exclaimed looking very much surprised.

It was getting a bit chilly so I made both boys enter back home. Mito had finished dinner and I was cleaning the place up and organizing Gon's room. I watched him pacing back and forth with a smile on his face while his friend was making himself comfortable in the room.

"So, how long will you be staying?" I spoke up making Gon look back at me.

"Maybe a month. After that I'm going to look for Dad." I frowned not exactly happy at what he desired. Mito came over to me and handed me the one item I was never able to open, a small box.

"This is something Ging left. He only said to give it to you once you became a Hunter."

"My dad left this for me?" Gon looked down at the box.

I patted at the seat next to me. "I think it's time I tell you all I know about your father." Gon slowly took a seat in front of me and patiently waited for me to speak.

"Ging is Mito's cousin, not his sister like you mostly believed. Grandma as you know stills speaks fondly of him…"

"The first memory I had of your father was back when I was studying, a few kids who live close to me used to tease me often, I would always cry and go to my parents but nothing was solved. That's until one day your father stepped up to those kids who had pushed me down on the dirt, he's always been hard to read but the first thing I knew when I saw him was that he would be my best friend. I remember him getting a bit annoyed at me following him around often, though he got used to it after time. To not make things longer, soon enough he left for the hunter exam but never quite made it clear what he wanted."

Gon continued to remain silent. "A later on I had you and after that I too left the island to take the hunters exam. It wasn't easy for me at all but I did everything I could to become a hunter, for the first few years I began to ask if anyone had seen your father but got no response. I've been jumping from place to police ever since not because I wanted to find him, i gave up on that a while ago. I continued moving forward because of you, so we could have enough money to eat."

Mito also began fill in on the rest alongside Grandma. I noticed Gon staring at the small box in his hands, "I'm sorry I lied to you about all of this."

Gon placed the box in his lap staring at me with not a frown but with a smile. "Ging! Mom! I want you to tell me everything about him, what else was he liked when little?! Mito, you can tell me too!!"

"Well, Mito and I used to follow him everywhere. Mito would often get lost in the woods so Ging would go look for her and always knew exactly where she was. I always remained behind holding onto his hand even when he tried to pull it back."

I couldn't help but blush at the innocent and loving memory. We spent hours talking and I was growing tired and Gon continued father. "Gon, it's getting late it's time for your bedtime."

"Ahh but I'm not little anymore."

I gave him an angry look and Gon shrieked and raced off to bed. I smiled to myself and followed him into his bedroom. I opened the door and noticed his friend fast asleep, Gon was already getting ready to rest up.

"We can talk tomorrow early if you want." I hummed and noticed he had the box laying on his chest. I sadly smiled at him and patted his head, "I was never able to open that box, so I do hope you'll be able to."

"Do you still love him?"

I took a sharp breath since I certainly didn't expect Gon to ask me that. I stared back and him and all I could see was Ging. I tried to smile but couldn't.

"Goodnight, son. I'll see you tomorrow bright and early."

"Goodnight Mom." Gon whispered and waved a little. I smiled at him and quietly closed the door, I fell down at my knees once I was on the other side. I was met by silence and the quiet sound of the fireplace in the room.

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