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brooooswriting · 9 months

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Sam and Tara know you aren’t eating properly. You last ate only dinner during Tuesday. It is now Saturday, and they decide to ask if you are ok, to hear that you relapsed.

Can reader be dating Tara.

Wreck

Tara carpenter x reader (Romantic), Sam Carpenter x reader (platonic)

Tw: anorexia, ed

If you have problems like these, please talk to somebody. You’re loved and needed.

“We should talk to her” Sam mumbled to Tara as they sat at the kitchen table during dinner time. They had plates full of food in front of them, food that you cooked. Your plate sat opposite to Tara, empty. There has barely been any food on it as you claimed that you already ate a lot during cooking. They believed you the first few times, you did cook for over 2 hours but when they noticed your constant dizziness they started to watch you while cooking. To no surprise, you didn’t eat during cooking.

Suddenly, a lot of things started make more sense. You were really moody lately, snapping at everybody for small coincidences, you were constantly tired, had lost a lot of weight, you were dizzy and you had a lot of trouble concentrating. The only really calorie intake you had was from the alcohol on the party at Friday Tara figured which made her shiver.

“When’s the last time we saw her eat?” Sam asked her sister, scared of the answer. Truth be told, she was vary if you in the beginning but you were quick to make her like you. You were the nicest 17 year old she’s ever met and the fact that you were starving yourself broke her terribly. She couldn’t imagine how Tara must feel.

“I think Tuesday, we had breakfast for our anniversary. After that, she avoided every meal she normally had with us. I-I just thought she was stressed, I thought that that was the reason she lost weight” Tara rambled on. She didn’t know how to deal with this, she loved you more than she loved anything else. Ever. You were the only person that could make her talk after the first attack, and she hated the fact that she wasn’t there for you at the moment. Her face was covered in tears, she didn’t notice that she started crying. Only when a tear landed on her hand.

Sam didn’t have the heart to tell Tara that she heard you throw up directly after “dinner” yesterday but she decided that there was no avoiding it. “She threw up yesterday. After she ate the three spoons of plain rice, I heard her when I got my hoodie. I tried to deny it but there’s no use” she told Tara with a heavy heart.

“She threw up?” Tara chocked down a sob, she was scared and angry and sad and disappointed. “We should talk to her, now” she sighed out and wiped her face. The brunette opened her phone camera to check her face, her eyes were swollen and red, there were still tear stains on her cheeks and her nose was running.

“Clean yourself up first okay? It’s hard but we have to stay strong for her” Sam told her and both of them went to clean themselves up.

“Ready?” The older woman asked, knowing the answer. Nobody could ever be ready for a discussion like this but there was no way around it so they had to suck it up. Tara gave her a timid nod and knocked on the door waiting for a come in.

When the come in came, they found you sitting on a yoga mat doing sit-ups. “How can I help you?” You asked out of breath, acting as if everything was alright. There was a moment of silence where both of them just stared at you. Your sport bra was showing of most of your body, your rips were showing and your chest bones were pretty visible, it looked unhealthy. The way they stared at you made you uncomfortable causing you to grab your shirt from the bed and tug it onto your body.

“We gotta talk, come here please baby” Tara mumbled as she sat on your bed and petted the space between her and Sam. You looked between them, something was off you figured.

“Look, im kinda in the middle of something right-“ you stopped yourself when you was the look on Tara’s face. She looked so sad and hurt that you couldn’t bring yourself to keep talking. Instead you stood up and sat down between the siblings, careful that your body wouldn’t touch either of them.

“We noticed that your behavior has been… off lately. You’re barely eating y/n” Sam started, her voice was soft and held a lot of comfort. Tara grabbed your hand, squeezing it thingy, hoping to give you comfort too.

“We also heard you throw up after eating Love” Tara said and then there was silence. You were staring off into the nothingness while the siblings exchanged a quick look. “What’s going on inside that pretty head of yours?” Normally you would have laughed about a sentence like that but you didn’t quite feel like laughing.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” you still didn’t look at either of them. You were scared of their reaction, scared that they were going to hate you or be disappointed of you.

“Y/n, I can see your rips, all of them. I haven’t really seen you eat since Tuesday, it’s Saturday” Sam said and just as you were about to deny your stomach growled, a clear sign of hunger. A sigh escaped the older woman, “I’m going to get you something to eat” she told you and started to stand up.

“NO. I don’t want anything” you quickly said, slightly panicked which caused Sam to stop in her tracks.

“No, go get her something” Tara decided as she wrapped you up in her arms. You struggled, trying to get out of her hold, trying to get away from her but it was no use. No matter how much you pushed at her chest she didn’t budge. You were to exhausted to bring up any more strength. “Honey, you can’t even push me away. You’re exhausted. Whatever was going on has to stop alright? What happened?” She asked you, her hand rubbing up and down your back. Even through the shirt she could feel your spine.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” you mumbled into your girlfriend, an obvious lie. She sighed and pulled you even closer, placing a careful kiss at the top of your head. Her hands moved to grab your waist but she hör herself from doing it. Scared of how it’d feel.

“You gotta tell me what happened. Please baby” she sounded so sad that you broke. You started to cry and sob into her, pulling her closer to you. In her arms everything felt like it was alright.

“I-I didn’t fit into the sweater you brought me last anniversary. I mean, I did fit into it. But it was tight, way tighter than before. I’ve gotten fat, I didn’t wanna embarrass you” you explained through tears and sniffles making it hard to understand you bug she still did. And suddenly everything made sense, or atleast a bit.

“The blue one?” She asked and you nodded. She sighed suddenly feeling guilty. “Y/n, my love, I washed it wrong. It was the night before our anniversary this year, I accidentally washed it to hot which caused it to shrink. It had nothing to do with you baby. I promise. But even if, you’d still be beautiful if you had gained weight. Because you’re the most beautiful person ever. Nothing could ever change that” she told you, her eyes told you that she was telling the truth. That she meant every word she said.

“It shrank?” You asked through tears slightly laughing. Tara nodded with a small smile which turned bigger when you sighed in relief, your tears becoming less.

“Here” Sam mumbled as sat down with a banana and some nuts in hand, she didn’t want to upset your stomach after not eating for a while. She had listened to your conversation from the door and while she was relieved that the trigger was now figured out she still knew that this wasn’t going to be over this quick. “We should still talk about therapy” she said into the room, to no one particular.

You immediately tensed in Tara’s arms but the way she carefully kissed your head reassured you and made you relax again. “We will talk about that tomorrow” she decided as you carefully are your banana.

It felt good to eat, it felt right at the moment. You knew that in a couple of minutes or hours you were going to feel guilty but you also knew that Sam and Tara would be there to make you feel alright again. “Thank you” you told them as you finished eating. “For everything” you added as you gave Sam a small smile and a hug. The woman pulled you into her chest and kissed the top of your head in such a loving way that you could cry again.

“I’ll leave you two alone now. Call if you need anything” she told you as she parted from you, saying goodnight to her sister before leaving the room. You and Tara left alone.

“Let’s get ready for bed alright?” She said and you nodded before disappearing to take a shower and brush your teeth. In that time Tara changed her cloths and when you were done in the bathroom you changed while she brushed her teeth.

But when Tara reappeared in the bedroom you stood in front of the mirror without a shirt, looking at yourself. She was quick to come up behind you and hug you close to her body. She kept whispering words and phrases like ‘you’re beautiful’ and ‘I love you the way you are’ into your ear until you finally tested your eyes away from your reflection to turn around in her arms. “I love you” you mumbled and kissed her deeply. In that moment Everything just felt right and you nearly forgot about the whole eating thing.

“Let’s Go to bed” you laid in bed, cuddled into Tara that night and you felt loved and beautiful for the first time in a while. Sure, there was still a lot to be figured out but you knew that Sam and Tara would always have your back, no matter what or when.

#reader insert #brooooswriting #jenna ortega x reader #sam carpenter x reader #tara carpenter x reader #tara carpenter #tara carpenter x y/n #tara carpenter x you

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 5 months

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WIBTA for profiting off of a genocide if im also taking action against it?

yes, this is about palestine. i'm an american nonblack poc (not palestinian) and im pro palestine. i have a knack for jewelry and crafts and stuff so i made some pins and necklaces and patches of the flags/colors etc for myself to show my support for palestine. i had dropped jewelry making a while ago and getting back into it is fun and i want to support palestine so i want to keep making them.

however, this takes time and money, and when i make the stuff...well it just doesnt make sense for me to wear five different necklaces of a similar style even if the pattern is different. i don't have any friends to give them to and my family members are either zionists or "staying neutral". i considered giving them away but idk how to do that efficiently and without it being weird? and also i dont really want to give my hard work and supplies to random people.

would i be an asshole for selling my stuff? i would keep the prices fair, probably like a dollar per item for supplies costs and then like 8 or 9 dollars per hour i spend on them (usually half an hour/an hour per item). so like 5-10 dollars. im a broke college student so this would help me out, but im not starving or anything. mostly i just want fair compensation for my work.

i have bought from palestinian shops, donated to urnwa, put up posters, discussed the issue with people irl, contacted representatives, etc. ive done pretty much everything im able to do in support of the cause. i was thinking about donating a portion of the sales to various palestinian orgs or something?

tldr: is it ok for me to make items in support of palestine and make money off it if i use the money for both personal use and to donate back to palestine?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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absurdumsid · 3 months

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I AM HERE TO ASK ABOUT YOUR AU'S TELL ME ALL ABOUT THEM THEY LOOK SO NICE I WANNA KNOW THE STORIES I WANNA MAKE FAN ART

SHOW MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE *SHAKES YOUR DOOR KNOBS* LET ME KNOWWWWWWWWWWW AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OUHFHGFH OK BAR SANSES (BS AU) LORE TIME

The simplest ? explanation for it is Dust becomes Evil Ccino where his AU's Grillby's becomes Nightmare's "headquarters" but also other AU Hoppers' (like Error and um. one of my ocs) one stop bar. Dust is evil Ccino.... (I love putting characters in roles that theyre not supposed to have)

This takes place mostly in Dusttale and Farmtale with character focus shifting between the bad sanses. It was born from an extremely old fanfic I rediscovered (and never published, thank goodness) and built up from these two asks (Dust's tab, Dust's cooking/drinking) from the official ask-dusttale blog.

I've got some plot I'd like to hide for now so you can instead have a summary of the current state of the au !

BS AU LORE !!

Dust lives in an abandoned AU where the human has not come back. In order to pass time, he decides to take up bartending by himself (for himself). He finds some of Grillby's recipes at the back of the bar and "borrows" an apron while he fails time and again but keeps mixing drinks. Alcohol is alcohol after all.

Eventually, Nightmare stumbles into Dust's AU with an injured Killer who was shot by several of Dream's arrows. Dust confronts the two and initiates a fight, assuming that they were enemies and honestly a bit freaked out by them having his face. After a "scuffle," Killer almost dying, and a lot of negotiation from Nightmare, Dust allows them to stay at the inn.

Dust, after figuring out Nightmare and Killer are broke and probably starving, invites them to Grillby's (which surprises the two. Killer actually thought he was planning to poison them). But this eventually becomes somewhat routine-like, with Nightmare and Killer getting somewhat comfortable with Dust, though he still keeps his distance.

Some time later, Nightmare goes out to see if he can get some supplies to repay Dust, hopping through several AUs but unfortunately running into Dream in one of them. This starts a chase that ends with Nightmare in HorrorTale, where he kidnaps the Sans that just happened to see him and his brother. He immediately goes back to DustTale, which, because of the absence of positive emotions, Dream is unable to access.

Horror, startled by the new environment, two more doppelgangers, and the dust leaving him struggling for breath, attacks Nightmare and defends himself (justifiably so, the kidnapping was irrational, and now Nightmare can't bring Horror back to his AU). Nightmare once again negotiates a way for them to coexist and Dust offers to let Horror sleep at his house, saying that he usually sleeps at sentry stations anyway.

AFTER THIS IS SILLY PLOT STUFF !!

if u wanna read more um,,,, many of my saejun headcanons are actually canon in this AU,,,,,,, so u should go read those,,,,,,,,,,

ALSOO it's very VERY old but this is what the sillies look like in this AU ! I plan on revamping this for the site im making hehe (cross comes in at SOME POINT but we dont talk about that yet)

and if u wanna see the older bs related posts (because i didnt.... tag them properly) heres a bunch of links for things that are canon in this

Main BS Posts: 1 2 3 4

Stuff abt that Old Fic: 1 2 3

Saejun Existing: 1 2

BS Horror: 1 2 3(blood tw)

#bar sanses #bad sanses #undertale au #sans au #sid answers #u can RLLY tell i have a favourite #anyway thank u for asking now i have a sort of. master list. thing. for bs au #anyWAY THABK U TYSM TYY I HAVE SO MANY AUS HONESTLY I RLLY NEED TO MAKE LORE DUMPS FOR ALL OF THEM BEVAUSE I FORGET MY OWN STORIES....

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dogloveri23 · 1 year

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I have a request hehe. I got the idea while I'm having a body ache lol.

Can you make a fluff moment either Zhongli or Cyno taking care of S/O who always have body ache, and sometime have zero energy to do anything. Sometime they can't even do anything because too tired and ache so hard.

Hope you read this^^

Care

pairing: Zhongli x reader

A/n: so due to school work I haven't had time to play genshin as frequently. I haven't really understood cyno, which is why I chose to write for zhongli. I also get the sense this wasn't what you were going for but im still trash at writing fluff. Please bear with me!Also hope you're feeling better @starrygalaxysworld

Written by @dogloveri23

UID: 627473190

"Ugh", you grunted as your muscles ached again. The pain was a harsh reminder of the adventure you had returned from. Just last week you were running through the forest with Dehya and the traveller having a fun time and now you couldn't move without having tears stream down your face. Just trying to get up from the bed was proving to be an issue. You lay on your back, staring blankly at the ceiling letting out a soft sigh, silently cursing the Ruin drake for catching you off guard.

You take a deep and clench your teeth forcing yourself to sit up and rest your back on the bed frame.

The sound of the busy streets of Liyue could be heard along with the chirping of birds and the crashing of the gentle waves. The golden rays of sunlight broke into your room. Usually, you'd get up to look at the scenery, but you didn't want to. The thought of the pain that would follow was discouraging enough. If not for Zhongli bringing you food, you'd prefer to starve to death than get up and cook something. You closed your eyes briefly as you relax, enjoying the atmosphere.

The door creaked open and the sound of footsteps followed causing you to open your eyes. "My love, are you ok?", a familiar voice asked causing you to take a deep breath. You endured the pain as you slowly turned your head to face him. Zhongli had gotten his answer just from looking at you. "It appears your situation hasn't gotten that much better", Zhongli said as he walked to the bed. He gently placed his hand on yours and leaned over, placing a kiss on your forehead. "It still hurts like hell", You say, pain evident in your voice as you look at him. "Perhaps, I should try a different type of tea today. I should have a recipe to help with aching and help you recover strength", Zhongli said as he gently ran over your cheek with his thumb.

Zhongli had tried different tea recipes to help you get better but to no avail. It was odd, unlike the archon was used to. His only comfort was that body ache was the only issue and you seemed to be in good health. "It seems we may have to cancel our walk to the harbour", You said sadly as you couldn't see yourself going on any date outside of the four walls of your bedroom. " I see, it seems I should change our plans to something indoors", Zhongli said as he slowly withdrew his hand from your cheek and placed it on his chin.

As Zhongli pondered, the room grew silent only being filled with the sounds of the outside world. What could the two of you do together that wouldn't cause too much stress on you and didn't require movement on your end? The both of you sat in silence and for a few minutes, there was no answer. As much as you loved him, you had no intention of doing anything today. You closed your eyes briefly and relaxed, not noticing his gold eyes studying your movements.

You hummed to yourself softly before feeling the bed dip. You felt Zhongli manoeuvre you from where you were to a new position. Your back laid on his chest as his soft breaths tickled your face. Neither of you spoke but you knew that this was the best decision. Resting in each others' arms enjoying the silent company.

#zhonglixreader #zhongli x gn!reader #zhongli x reader angst #zhongli x reader #zhongli #genshin fluff #diluc fluff #kaeya fluff #genshin impact venti #genshin impact #genshin impact kaeya #genshin x reader #genshin x you #genshinimpactimagines #genshinimagines #morax x you #morax x reader #geo archon

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21stcenturyschizoidfag · 6 months

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OK SO. HERE IS.. avery 21stcenturyschizoidfags very silly impromptu mewtuals hunger games simulator thingulator post. this thing was fucking long i didnt realise maybe i'm just crazy and beautiful. will post the next bit after

AS A REMINDER HERE IS THE ROSTER.. i didnt really have any specific metric for who i added i just added who i thought would find this funny to be totally honest. and the caroline polacheks mole v azealia banks spoon thing is a reference to this i just find it really funny because i dont personally like caroline polacheks music also i ahve a facial mole like hers too. OK LETS BEGIN. BTW click on the images to see them better :)

da bloodbath

shaan being so scary like halloween time... ANA FUCKING DOWN LIKE STRAIGHT AWAY due to famed non-binary lesbian ally nicolas cage dracula in the movie renfield 2023... papa pavel and baby emilio working together ahh so cutes.. ram said im NOT starving in here. dee plans to FIGHT. everyone else gets the hell out of there

I FUCKING STRANGLED ISA TO DEATH ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ann doing everyone a favor and scaring that mole out of here.. aviv and cassis working together awww so friendlys. Someone gave proxy bombs which is very scary dont trust him with those his icon is the joker for a reason

day one and fallen tributes

dee and pavel each get stuff from one of numerous stans worldwide. mia sneaks up on mr. flow3 while hes busy writing dracula flow 4.. mr cage dracula and my friend olive feeling adventurous. mariam gets craftyyy and ellie wellie is homesick for equestria.. scott is a feminist as expected and scare-ah lives to see another day

cassis doing some tom and jerry stuff to accy OKAYY.. carolines mole uses its connections to caroline polachek proper (its attached to her face -_-) to get UNFAIR support from a stan. Nobody is surprised. BIGENDER TEAMUP from me and shaan.. I dont know how xe can bear to be around me after i STRANGLED ISA. TO DEATH. The oomfs are going hunting.. and then proxy takes my son hunting. I SURE HOPE NOTHING HAPPENS TO MY SON. & we mourn the loss of two souls. gone too soon.. gone too soon

night one

this broke my heart the fact that emilio is having trouble sleeping like EMILIOOO ): I LOVE YOU.. max doing everyone a favor by killing carolines mole BUT with the INCREDIBLY tragic loss of ELLIEEE.. mia and proxy chilling.. vi being an incredible chef and resourceful at that. is anyone surprised (smiles beautifully). the INSANE triple combo death of two incredible gay men and a beautiful and insane bigender. TRAGIC TRAGIC SHIT? Pavel spares the life of mr. flow3. Cassis has a little nap in a tree.. mariam having a mariam moment and ram REFUSING to allow it. mariam LIVES. ann like vi is very skilled in the kitchen and everyone claps and smiles. Me and that FUCKING spoon seem to have hit it off

day two and fallen tributes

emilio, accy & cassis are feeling adventurous asf.. me + olive + ram + sarah decide its time for food innit. AVIV PAVEL DEE AND MIA DIE. JUST LIKE THAT? THEY JUST DIE. THEY JSUT DIED? LIKE THAT. THEYRE DEAD NOW. LIKE BYE EVERYONE THEYRE JUST DEAD? i will mourn them. mariam and max are IN. THE TRENCHES. watch out please.. proxy and mr. flow3 are getting their battle tactics in

Rest in peace to these fucking legends. We lost so many in ONE FUCKING ROUND. so many incredible individuals just gone like that. Greyed out pavel kitten and slay sister callie is making me scream laughing. Scoot and paddington greyed out is like who are these two little scamps. Good lord. GOOD LORD.

night two

Ram is sick what the hell when did that happen. IM IN TEARS OVER MARIAM BEGGING ANOTHER PERSON TO KILL HER. LIKE GIRL I KNOW ITS THE HUNGER GAMES BUT IM IN TEARS RIGHT NOW CAN YOU STOP? & LIKE ASKING MY SON TOO?? trenches. cassis sabotages THE SAD FROWNER scare-ah (maybe its for the best..) A spoon climbs a tree. i would love to see that. mr flow3 and ann also climb trees.. Olive is so focking cold. Dogboy bonding.. theyre giving proxy more fucking explosives i swear to g-d. OK accy looking at the night sky did make me a bit emotional because like he IS an alien.. is he homesick too? im so sorry. they took your ufo away from you to put you in these sick and twisted games..

TO BE CONTINUED..

#averyposting #sillies

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yulgurr · 2 months

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i doodled.. things.. unorganized thoughts about my tav (her name is Ellana) with typos probably but ignore these i typed it out at 3am

more thoughts under the cut

ok first of all this is what my blonde elf girl.png looks like i think she pretty

OK SO HEAR ME OUT when i was 13 i first started playing fantasy rpgs like this with character creators and the first character i made was a blonde elf in dragon age inquisition and she had a default name (Ellana)

i have so many good memories about dragon age but i never got to finish it because right before the final boss fight the laptop broke down and i was devastated sad and. sad. so i decided that my first Tav would be a reincarnation of og Ellana. a blonde (half) elf with facial paintings.

im not familiar with bg3 world building like, AT ALL but im having some lore packed for her. a bit. she is half elf but both of her parents and 6 siblings are elves (but we don't talk about that). she studied magic and then left the city to live in the forest for a few years (she has wooden elvish ancestry so it wasn't a problem), and then one day she woke up on a ship with a worm in her brain (there's more ofc but im saving it for later so i can draw it)

she is. very stupid. silly even. no thoughts in that brain. the worm is starving. her resting expression is just a deadpan smile. she may appear scheming but there are no thoughts.

somehow i ended up being on very good terms with gale so i guess they'll be great frens :] i also started romancing karlach yippe my beloved lesbians iwant what they have<3

#yulgurr art #oc stuff #?? i guess??#bg3 tav #tav: ellana

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artsybelle1015 · 1 year

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i have a wendy’s interview soon and i shfjjsbsdbjjxjsks

anyways, let me tell you guys about my fav twisted wonderland characters and why

1. Jade

love me a more quiet and polite character, also he likes mushrooms!! green flag would let him rant to me about them

2. Jamil

*bites lip* he so sexc. ok BUT, he’s a really flawed and dynamic character, i enjoy his worst moments too bc hehe messy person

3. Vil

idk him to a full extent bc i just started chapter 5, he pretty tho and i love his sass, also he’s a very consistent character and awesome fanfic material

4. Trey

UNDERRATED!!!! he’s so adorable and i like how despite how nice his friendship with riddle is he’s still a flawed friend and accidentally enabled. you can tell he’s passionate and wouldn’t trauma dump on us either

5. Malleus

like most people, love him. i find him really funny actually, like sir ur so goofy no wonder ur lonely. anyways i like his passions and threats can’t wait for my heart to be broken by him some day

6. Idia

i relate to him sm more after reading his ceremonial vignettes, like bro anxiety fr and like i feel awful people just SHAME HIM?? HELP HIM??

7. Kalim

he’s so silly also give me money i’m broke

8. Floyd

ok but who doesn’t like floyd??

9. jack/ruggie

too close in liking, but i want more of this duo IM STARVING!! anyways, they solo and you don’t L, jack is so cute and i love ruggie’s nature

10. Epel

only country boy i accept (/hj) he’s so interesting and i really am cheering him on like he’s my son bc i want him to be strong and able to stand up for himself more, when the mountain event came out today i was so pump bc epel was front and center. he’s such a good boy all the pats in the world for him

in conclusion

best characters = insecure

#twisted wonderland #twst wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland disney #twst disney #disney twst #twisted wonderland characters #jade leech #floyd leech #epel felmier #jack howl #ruggie bucchi #jamil viper #malleus draconia #kalim al asim #idia shroud #vil shoenheit #trey clover

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stegosauwus · 1 year

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TW: weight, ana, other sad shit :/

I'm the lowest I've ever weighed and I can't get past the melancholy feeling. I thought I was better. I thought I was at my best. But maybe I'm at my worst and I have no idea how to cope with that. I live on my own and god is it so fucking easy to starve myself. And oh does it help that I'm broke and ass at asking for help because god forbid anyone know I'm anything other than ok. I feel like utter despair and complete euphoria all in one. I'm the lowest I've ever weighed (except for when I was born she a fucking g#10pounder😩) and I can't contain how proud of myself I am. I worked for YEARS for this stupid shit and now that it's here I hate myself for how much of ME I let waste away. I finally want to be ok, to be better. At least for my other depressive habits, but god is it so hard to let go of this one little shitty craving. I can't stop needing a lower number, a smaller body, a thinner waist. I'm so sick and tired of being sick, IM SO TIRED OF MY HEAD BEING SICK. I just want to be ok, so badly. I just want to be better.

#selfharn #tw selfhate #model thin #tw eating things #tw sad shit #tw ana shit #thinspo #thinpro #thinspi #i will be skiny #i want to be okay

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slowjamastan · 1 year

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your mind….. but fr theyve been alive for a combined 2000+ years who fuckin knows if they're brothers… and like if you wanna define it as being derived from one common ancestor(mama scandia) then you could say that fra.nce, s.pain, ro.mania, portu.gal, and the ital.ies are all brothers too. imho since europe is an incestuous cesspool, how they act towards each other is more important than any debatable genetic relationships(if they have genetics the same way humans do???). like yeah ger.many prus.sia austr.ia switzerl.and and liec.htenstein are all """related""" but lutz n gil and lili n vasch are distinctly siblings where gil n rod or lutz n lili are not. idk its all very strange BUT my point is to say they don't have a brotherly relationship i guess???

(you know exactly who this is but im sending it anon bc i dont wanna be accused of inc.est shipping)

hiiiiii bestie im finally d*nn*r posting are u proud of me <3

>if they have genetics the same way humans do

now im not saying the ic*land DNA strips are meant to be taken literally, but i think its fun to take them at face value. it helps that i know fuck all about genetics so i throw on "magical realism" seasoning to cover the fact it makes no sense and call it a day

tldr i personally dont think it has much to do with a common "nation ancestor" but more like the relationships between the original breakoff tribes that would go on to become distinct groups. and the sooner they became distinct groups, the more closely related the Guys would be... or something.

see ive always loved the idea that roaming hunter-gatherer groups each had their own guardian spirit Fella and as the groups collaborated and settled into agriculture, one Guy would become dominant and the others would fade/die/age normally. survival of the strongest cultural identity. so in my mind, to be first-degree related "brothers" it would go like, a group broke off of My Group and immediately You appeared. for example with (mostly)n*rwegian settled ic*land. (and the strip is about ic*land going "idk im pretty sure i was there before your people got there" and getting btfo) you know what i mean? & it would be statistically unlikely for that brother to survive with you for 1500 years so what nor and den have is special. ofc assuming they mean "brother" literally and not as an honorary title which im always split about for like every chr. like calling a family friend "uncle" or yk...adoption. its all ambiguous but thats ok, its vibes

but all this is also why i like ancient r0me being a "grandpa" rather than a father. implying there was a generation between that wasn't strong enough and got absorbed. ooooooh

>you could say that fra.nce, s.pain, ro.mania, portu.gal, and the ital.ies are all brothers too

to me they are, just a further removed. i couldn't tell you how far but i know it in my heart. we're all children of jesus or whatever its fine

>BUT my point is to say they don't have a brotherly relationship

HARD disagree i think scand!navia has very brotherly vibes but again yeah its ambiguous so idc, im not the type to ship-war or nitpick. but in my ideal vision they all annoy each other on purpose for eternity and none of them rly understand the others but they know each other better than anyone else and thats what matters. familial n5 is my favorite h*talia dynamic ever but i settle for ships bc im starved for content

>how they act towards each other is more important than any debatable genetic relationships

and even how they act/feel about each other is all canonically ambiguous :( we live in a cursed fucking fandom. "europe is an incestuous cesspool" yes and they're all my little hapsburgian freaks. Send Post

#post #aph #'i dont want to be accused of ****** shipping' I Understand. thank u for accepting the last tier on my denn0r post w/o question

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mysouleaten · 3 months

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THIEF !! [part one]

PLATONIC! pet shop owners! baji, chifuyu and kazutora x teen!reader

summary... [name] has been stealing from a pet shop to feed strays around her home for a while and the pet shop owners are curious about who could be stealing pet food… that only costs one-thousand yen… [name] thinks it's expensive! :( but baji says otherwise!!

warnings... fluff, lots of curing from baji, baji is about to burst a vein

a.n... shouldn't I be finishing my other stories instead of writing more? yes. am I going to? nope.

[part one] [part two] [part three] ...

the pet food thief strikes again..

this time stealing dog food and a couple of toys. baji stared at the half-empty shelf of dog food with a scowl

"fucking asshole! they stole again!" baji yelled, smoke practically coming from the top of his head

this has been going on for a year, five months, and two weeks--kazutora has been keeping track--chifuyu walks up to the hot-headed baji with a box of cat food that might get stolen later in a couple of days

"Im not sure how they're getting past the cameras," he says to baji

baji turns to look at chifuyu "we need to start walking around the shop while there are customers here! or that thief we keep stealing!"

"dunno how that's gonna help," kazutora said, wiping his hands on his apron

"then what do you propose? better not be that's stupid trap again.." baji said and kazutora's cheeks heated up in embarrassment

"I-I was just-I thought-.." kazutora stuttered in embarrassment and chifuyu patted his back with false reassurement

a couple of months ago kazutora set up a trap for the thief butttt.. it didn't work

he placed pretty expensive pet food up against the window of the pet shop and a camera near the bag and waited at the counter for the thief to show up

but a couple of older women came in, in need of help, and of course, kazutora had helped them and in the process, he forgot about the expensive pet food that was getting stolen

when he came back to the counter he didn't notice the pet food was missing and the camera too, until chifuyu asked about it and then it hit kazutora that the pet food was missing now

this got him a long talk from baji who was fuming..

"I didn't think they would also steal the camera..." kazutora scratched the back of his head sheepishly

chifuyu gave a small shake of his head and baji clicked his tongue

"who would steal pet food that's not even expensive!!" baji hissed out again

"one-thousand yen is the cheapest pet food anyone can get!" baji turned around and marched away from the half-empty shelf with annoyance

the two others followed him "maybe they're a broke college student?" chifuyu said

"college students are broke but not that broke! plus the nearest college is- what like twenty minutes away? no one would bother!" baji said, he had a light frown when he sat down on the chair behind the counter

"I'll keep watch, you two don't know how to catch a thief," baji said and the other two gave him looks but didn't say much else

"ok well don't strange the thief alright? we gotta at least ask questions before making them into cat food" chifuyu chuckles and kazutora gives a small laugh

baji looked at the door with intensity

he was ready to beat the information out of this thief! but now that he was sitting--hunched over with his elbow on the counter and soft music playing--he wondered why they were stealing non-expensive pet food

maybe they were doing a good deed with the pet food? like feeding the strays? but he was already doing that around their area! them having bowls out in front of their pet store and in an alleyway next to the shop

so why would they be stealing? he thought back to chifuyu's words

'college student'

he huffs, that could be right maybe they didn't have enough money to pay for the pet food for their own pet, but why get a pet if you can't even have the money to take care of the said pet

it made him mad just thinking of the poor animal that could be starving because of that bastard...

he leaned back in his chair and stared at the ceiling above

' ding dingg '

baji straightened his back to look at the person who entered through the door into the pet shop

"oh ryusei" baji said

"heeyy baji" ryusei smiled, he walked over to the counter "how's it goin'? caught your thief yet?"

baji shook his head and ryusei gave a small laugh "having a tough time?"

chifuyu and kazutora both came to the front counter to butt into the conversation that baji and ryusei were having together

but they didn't notice that the thief-- whom the pet shop owners had been hunting-- just entered the shop with other customers to cover them and their thievery

"HOW- WHAT- FUCK!?" baji yelled from the back of the shop

"did they get in again!?" chifuyu yelled from the front counter

"fuck yes they did!!" baji yelled back

"huh, who got in?" takemichi asked, "we have a thief, whoever they are has been stealing from here for the last year" chifuyu answered

ryusei giggled from his seat behind the counter "wow I thought I would have noticed them"

some of the past toman members came into the pet shop to talk to the three owners and it seems the thief took advantage of that

"they must have taken advantage of the rush hour you guys were having and the fact we were all talking after as well," kisaki said as he fixed his glasses and hanma chuckled

"sneaky bastard huh?" hanma said

"how long has this been happening?" mikey asked, he was standing next to draken and mitsuya

"one year, five months, and two weeks," kazutora said, everyone looked at him with raised brows

"oh..ah I have been counting for fun," he said and some chuckled at his statement

"oh well, would you look at that!" baji yelled from the back again

baji then came back to the front with a small sticky note in his hand

"huh whats that?" chifuyu asked, "that bastard left us a note!" baji hissed

he showed it to chifuyu, then he passed it around to the others and they all chuckled at the note and some even laughed!

your shit is very expensive >:(

- your local pet shop thief

lol

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sajaffery · 7 months

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4...

i miss my old laptop. bastard collapesed on me six months ago and i’m stuck using my dads piece of shit. i keep putting off going to the apple store (yes it was a mac. i wasnt always a cheap broke, starving writer[make that pretend writer as i havent actually been published anywhere]) because i’m terrified that theyll tell me that there’s nothing that can be done and i’ll just have to buy a new one. as if i have grand to throw away! oh and something about sweat shop and kids being paid 1p an hour etc etc. lets not forget that! ok im going to cheat and read back on what i was writing before my fucking laptop froze because i’m blanking and that seemed fairly intresting, sorry. not like you care anyway its not like you had to pay for this. always remember something else is only a click away. im wrting this for me not for you. yes I lie aswell. i thought i should let that in evetually, fairly early, of coures i’m writing for you. its why all writers write, to feel worthwhile, to feel substantial and influential. and to get laid ofcourse. define me, define me, love me, love me! thats from friends by the way, no cliched literary refernce today just shitty tv references. OH SHITTY TV. thats what i was talking about, how i use shitty tv as a dont do guide for my writing. i didnt have to cheeat after all. or maybe i did and i’m just an unreliable narrator. hehehehehe you’ll never know. wow i need to stop watching bad tv. i should cancel Netflix. its got so much shit on it. i know seven pounds a month isnt much but still, more then half of thee stuff there is crap and i really dont like how they moniter peoples watching habits to make more crap tv because lets face it most people watch crap tv. oh you know its true, dont call me an elitist, fucking shit like coronation street and eastenders have been running for years and making millions and its just crap. I’d like someone to find me a fucking square with four or five streets ofshooting from it with as many fires, rapes, murders, kidnappings and robberies and i’ll withdraw this post altogether. i’ll leave tumblr even. i’d bitch about corrie except i dont know anything about it, yes yes i used to watch eastenders, get over it, everyoe goes through that phase and that shit is addictive. i’m getting tired. and i need to find more hastags. what the hell is spilled ink? it sounds cool at first, but if you think too much about it, it starts feeling a little silly. oh unless its like one of those ink blots, the kind that shrinks use in bad TV, fuck i’m starting to reapeat myself, which means i should stop wrting this, i’m done for the day. i miss word count. hahaha that came from the heart. if its like an ink blot then its pretty cool. thats essentially what this is i suppose. and ink blot giving anyone reading it a glimpse into me. okay i’ve added it. i’m tempted to add inblot aswell but then i dont want to run the joke too much. i wish i could remember what theyre called. i know it starts with an R. there an o a c and ch in there too. Roch something. i hate it when that happens

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apipedreamxx · 7 months

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ok so this might be a little weird but. i feel like tumblr is the only community thatll be really truły honest with me. so here it goes.

im currently in a happy relationship with a person whos very considerate, giving, funny, entertaining - all the cool and nice things for a partner to be. i kinda have a problem with how liike distant this relationship feels? we've not argued once since we started dating and i feel like its because we don't get that involved. but my partner's been open about the fact that they struggle with sharing emotions so ive been screwing up my courage to start being the more engaged one, i guees i can put it.

during the summer, mine and partner's vacation plans almost didnt overlap so we ended up almost not seeing each other. i was quite unhappy with that and i know they were as well. also an important fact i guess is that every year since i was like 6 i go to this summer camp. right nów im what you would call a counselor or sth like that, english doesnt always make sense. and my exboyfriend, the only man ive ever introduced to my family (bc they dont know im pan) is also a counselor at the same camp.

i was the one who broke up with the guy and id never ever go back to that relationship, but i can admit that the physical side of it was always easy for us. like not even the sex, just the casual touching and being together. so this year, almost two years after our break-up, while i was missing my partner, who i hadnt seen in three weeks, i was reluctant to be firm in pulling away from the easiness of hugging and laying together, things like that. i didnt necessarily go over the boundaries of being friendly and affectionate - at least, you know, my boundaries, since everyone has different ones, but, the thing is, this guy isn't completely over me yet. and well, he was always sort of pushy, but i dont know, the physical contact felt really good. i was told by friends that i look better and that im less irritable, all because some guy whos frankly a lot annoying hugged me tightly enough?

so what im focusing on and what i need advice with are two things:

1) id hate for this to be like a heteronormative thing, you know? has anyone experienced something like, theres one person whos just better at touching you than other? am i just touch starved?

2) i will ofc be talking to my partner when we see each other soon, but what do yall think are the odds theyd see this whole thing as cheating? i just. dont wanna hurt them

thank you very much for reading, if u got this far, and i would really like some advice, or maybe just to know of a similar experience. anyway. thank you

#advice #relationship advice #lgbtqia #struggles #this turned into an aita story almost but like hell im going to reddit #help please

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loudinmyhead · 9 months

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Hi. I’ve had a horrible day and I needed to share what was bothering me, well what has been bothering me for 12 years. You don’t have to respond but idk, you can post this idc anymore

I don’t know how to get away, my whole family treats me like dirt and it’s been this way for 12 years, (im 16), and they just won’t stop. My mom and dad hate that I’m lesbian, they constantly make comments saying “oh but we’re not sure on the liking girls stuff” and I tell them that it’s not ok but they don’t care, they yell at me for wanting anything rainbow colored when I don’t even get rainbow colored things cause im gay, they won’t let my brother know about anything and he’s being taught that being homo isnt ok because we never talk about it. My mom likes to point out every single thing wrong with my appearance and threaten to take away things and in the case of the topic being my hair, she threatens to shave it all off while im sleeping (she isn’t joking) I just started school back up last week and everything I had last year broke over the summer, im under constant pressure from my parents to make them proud, my dad tells me it’s irrational to fear men when no it’s not, im terrified of men, and women, people in general, I don’t belong in society at all, Im touch starved and I want a hug so damn bad but I can’t cause my body jerks away from people, my head constantly tells me im good enough and im doing good and then everyone else tells me the exact opposite. My mom and dad leave my sister (12) and my brother (8) for me to take care of every day and they don’t give a damn about me, they don’t listen to me at all. And when I start to yell IM the one who gets in trouble. I can’t eat, I’ve lost my ability to hold food, I’m not hungry ever, good makes me sick. I can’t sleep or have an hour at peace, my thoughts either run fast or empty. i deeply want to be gone but i can’t leave my siblings, no matter how horrible they treat me they are still my kids, my sister even calls me her second mom. I had no childhood, i had to grow up fast in order to not be left behind, i never got to have Barbie dolls and watch Disney channel, i was always alone and i fake a smile everywhere i go, i want to drown and just not exist. No one will ever love me as much as I love them and i know that, but it’s hard knowing no one cares about me at all. I want a hug. I really really really just want to lay down and cry, I only want a hug. All I ask is that my parents some some love at least. Maybe just a little attention. I need a hug, please.

I’m so sorry, anon. You’re safe here <3 remember that family isn’t always blood, and one day you will have the freedom to find your own - one that will never make you feel shame for being LGBTQ+ I’m truly sorry you’ve had to deal with so much already. You’re still a kid tho, it’s not too late to enjoy the rest of your teenage years. I know that probably feels impossible given the current circumstances, but promise you’ll stick around, ok? Not to be cliché, but things WILL get better in so many ways you can’t imagine. Life is full of surprises and you’ll find joy again. You are valid and safe!

#anon #vent #inboxopen #trauma

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