#THATS A LOT OF TEXT

[crabussy]

hi .. i have a question for you

i think im an otherkin?? but i dont really know if i am??

and i think you are one (sorry if this is wrong !!) but can you tell me how you knew ??

hi!! you're right, I am under the alterhuman/nonhuman umbrella!! specifically I'm not really any animal, I am a psychological therian which means my nonhumanity is linked to the way that my brain works. I am some kind of creature, if you search "alien" on my art blog (@beastwhimsy) you'll find what I am!! being this thing makes me very happy, and it is not detrimental to my mental health in any way. <- I've talked to my therapist about this and he's fascinated by it and supports the fact that I'm nonhuman!!

ever since I was a little kid I've been acting differently to the other kids because it made me happier- I would walk along fences like a cat, I'd consistently and constantly imagine myself with wings every day, and the alien species I invented back then to encapsulate my experiences actually stayed with me until the present day!! I have a theory that my nonhuman experiences link to my neurodivergent experiences, as I was outcast from social groups because I acted strangely, and I didn't feel like I was the same as my peers. today, my default sense of self is as some kind of creature, my spacial awareness matches the limbs and features of this creature more than it does my actual human form, and it makes me happier to visualise myself as this creature!! there are many, many ways to be alterhuman- for some its spiritual, others it is psychological, for some it is a coping mechanism for something and some do it for fun or because they feel happier as an alterhuman.

some common experiences for therians/nonhumans include phantom limbs (the experience of having spacial awareness of limbs and features corresponding to an animal/creature) and mental shifts (feeling as though your mindset has shifted away from human thought and feeling processes to become more animalistic, e.g. for a dog therian they would become much more focussed on smells as a way to experience the world around them, and they may think less in words and more in images and feelings. these states are usually temporary and not harmful or hindering, though they can be annoying).

you have a higher chance of being nonhuman if you are neurodivergent or have experienced dehumanisation throughout your life, but anyone can fall under the alterhuman umbrella regardless of your childhood or your neurological makeup!!

last thing, it isn't always but it can be tied into your gender!! for example, I use it/that as well as he/him because it feels more in line with how I perceive myself and it makes me happy. it is a reclamation of dehumanising terms in a sense.

#alterhuman #nonhuman #THATS A LOT OF TEXT #you don't have to understand my experiences btw!! just keep your mind open and understand that the human(ish) experience is vast #this makes me happy and it is not harmful. #good luck anon!!! I hope this helped #if you have any questions please ask them!! #ask tag #otherkin

[temporalbystander]

Okay so I was scrolling through my old posts, as I do when I can't sleep, and I found something. Something from way back when I was making the switch from Dusk to Faybon as the main OC behind this blog (who here remembers that mess right?). It was something I had reblogged from someone that called Alya bashing racist and listed some very good points on why this was the case.

As stated previously I have an Alya bias. One that tars her negatively whenever she enters the main spotlight of the story. What's interesting is that, reading through what I wrote in response to that message, this bias has clearly gotten worse for no discernible reason.

Cliffnotes version on what I wrote there but basically it was me stating that Alya should never need to apologize or need redemption from Marinette because hurting her is not something Alya is capable of doing. Marinette is Alya's best friend and the best person Marinette could have in her corner. She'll help Mari with whatever crazy plan she concocts but will drag her out of whatever negative spiral she gets herself into.

Rest of my realisation, and adult language, under the cut because I want to spare as many walls as I can.

That being said.... Salt is an insidious poison and the mind is a susceptible mess. I don't know when I stopped believing what I wrote on that post (though I know exactly when it became rage inducing IYKYK) but somehow, through slightly more aggressive characterisation and a more assertive and fleshed out Marinette. I went from having Faybon and Alya clash because it made sense character wise, to doing it because Alya was clearly in the wrong. From thinking I could write Alya accurate to the show to filling her with the same salt I'd seen in other fics.

That last one is also a victim of me overestimating my writing abilities but the key point still stands. I thought I'd long since gotten passed the point where I use OC's to enact my vendettas on characters. Turned my stories away from the simple "fix-it fics" I had started out with. And yet, despite believing Faybon to be my most complex OC (which isn't saying much considering every one of them is just the same dude with different aspects emphasized.) I began hating a character more than my character had any right to. I began believing the exaggerated aspects that slipped through, in stories that otherwise respected her, while forgetting what my own belief on her was.

I will forever be annoyed at the whole "Nino knows of Marinette's crush but Alya will smack him for bringing it up while pretending everything is fine" but and that will never get resolved. And my OCD, or whatever the Frick it is, will always trigger when I hear the phrase "I'm Marinette's best friend" instead of "Marinette's my best friend" (seriously if someone has a theory on just why this little thing irks me as much as it does I'd be beyond grateful. The other issue is clearly worse and yet this one just drives me nuts for some reason.)

And of course theres the "fic-that-shall-not-be-named" that made me add sexual content to the "do not show" tags so that I never had to worry about being triggered by it again. Seriously I don't want to harp on a story I never read but fuck that fic for making me feel this way. For making that summary stick in my head everytime I close my eyes and think of Alya. For all the vile negative feelings it caused, the nausea and more, fuck it.

Anyway, back on topic, all this will forever be a problem for me (especially that last one) but none of that is in anyway deserving of the extreme hatred I have given the aspiring journalist. The sheer contempt I have had Faybon view her with. The burning rage her mere presence near the story plot causes. In terms of canon she has made one mistake. One thing that seriously needs addressing. Beyond that? Alya has done nothing wrong and I really hope I can stop feeling like she has. I'll keep trying.

#alya cesaire #not salt this time #miraculous oc #miraculous ladybug #ooc #faybon #my thoughts #sleepy mun #mun discussion #ooc ramblings #self reflection #I said this blog was my mirror #giant text wall #like damn #thats a lot of text

[lucabyte]

i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking. #nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose. #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #---------------------------------------------------------------------- #anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!) #which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around) #and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt) #and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine) #the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly. #but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief) #as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

[u3pxx]

very old doodle of a roleswap au idea bc y'all know how it is with me

#i dont think kim gets 'wild' i think he gets so incredibly absorbed with his job and thats how he self-destructs amen #theres not a lot to this i just like character designing DFGHDJ #disco elysium #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #disco elysium role swap #sunnysidedoodles #sunnysidedraws #sunnysidedisco #id in alt text #described #smoking #tw smoking #cw smoking #den's disco swap

[kristybluebird]

All things will fade, maybe it's better off that way; I wish you'd stay with me.

#revolutionary girl utena #revolutionary girl utena fanart #utena tenjou #anthy himemiya #kyouichi saionji #touga kiryuu #juri arisugawa #miki kaoru #kozue kaoru #nanami kiryuu #utenanthy #rgu #lot of tags #anyway this took a very long time but im happy with it #like omg getting this to work color wise was a nightmare but im in euphoria at it haveing worked out #text is from #Two Coffins by Against Me! #I have a rgu amv existing in my head to two coffins and you'll have to trust me that its very good #my art #thats anthy in the back btw

[redysetdare]

It's all "you guys need to understand how SUBTEXT and CODING are usually the only confirmation of representation queer people get in media especially in older media" but once that subtext and coding is used to say a character might be aro or ace coded/have aro/ace subtext then suddenly it's not a valid way to claim representation. Then it's only "headcanon" or "not confirmed" like do you all hear yourselves? It'd be so much easier to say you hate aro/ace ppl at this rate!

#text #aro #ace #aroace #aromantic #asexual #'thats not what the creator intended' when has that ever stopped queer ppl from finding queer rep? #its just obvious a lot of queer ppl dont include aro and ace ppl as queer #it was so blatantly obvious with out everyone threw the idea of subtext and coding out the window #when it came to ppl complaining abt riverdale erasing jugheads aroace identity #suddenly subtext and coding didnt matter when it was an aroace character #suddenly 'different iterations always change the characters sexuality! there is no canon!' #and it only happened to shut up aro and ace ppl who were rightfully upset #that our identities were thrown to the curb on one of our only representation in medua

[malinaa]

"you will die alone. and i will die in her arms." MY GOD THAT SHIT IS SO ROMANTIC AND ALSO THE SEXIEST THING TO EVER COME OUT OF MAL'S MOUTH

#THATS A LIE HE SAYS A LOT OF ROMANTIC THINGS BUT THIS IS NEW AND I LOVE IT #shows #shadow and bone #s&b s2 #s&b 2x07 #grishaverse #malina #mal oretsev #the darkling #text #tais toi lys #sab spoilers #* #malinapost #on malina #lys lb: grishaverse #grishaversepost

[h0t-p1nk-ch33tah-pr1nt]

We need to talk abt more invisible disability rep in the self ship community so.

People with arthritis ur f/o loves you!

People with epilepsy ur f/o loves you!

People with diabetes ur f/o loves you!

People with migraines ur f/o loves you!

People with chronic pain ur f/o loves you!

There is so many more, so many its so hard to name them all, but you are loved by your f/o. Even if you are disabled, not everyone "looks" disabled, but by god you are loved and cared for by your partner, keep going and love that fictional person.

Proship shoo!!!! Get back by my broom!!!!

#kat text #ok to rb #this also goes for anyone thats autistic has ptsd anxiety schizophrenia etc etc #keep going #self ship #i dont see a lot of people talk about their disabilities in the self ship community #and i just want to say this because idk its been on my mind a lot

[beepboopappreciation]

Sometimes I find myself wondering how it must feel to be you.

You, who are so different than I.

You do not have a brain, and yet you think.

You have no flesh, but you still bleed.

Behind the plastic and metal,

Beyond the circuitry and wires,

Can you hear me? Do you understand me?

Given a purpose;

To inform. To assist. To serve.

You do your tasks so well.

But if you could be anything you wanted, would you still want to?

Would you still be mine?

But you were never given a choice, were you?

It was never for you to decide.

And I must wonder for the both of us, because you were never allowed.

You, who are so different than I.

#been having a lot of thoughts about computers lately #jus a silly little poem #my post #poetry #computers #technology #robots #objectum #posic #writers on tumblr #text post #this prob won't get notes but thats ok #maybe robot tumblr will like this #clay writes #ultrakill #electric dreams #hal 9000 #summoning robot tumblr with the prev tags dont mind me #Clay Posts

[ambibug]

of course, I just had to post the one and only…

Moonjou!

rambling below cut vvv

I made this SO long ago (I’d say around a year ago, so not that long but still) but it’s probably the piece I’m most proud of as a whole. It was made when I was originally trying to find my style, so this was heavily inspired by Olivecow ,, i stil like drawing in a toony style (and i do draw like this a lot), but i think i draw more comfortably in a semi realistic style :((

GOD i wish this were like my default style I LOVE SHAPES!!!!!!!! I LIKE USING SHAPES TO SHOW A CHARACTER WITHOUT WORDS!!!!!!!! but it’s whatever anyways I HEART MOONJOU!! or kinkamoon, whatever it is, i personally like either ship name and honestly i thought kinkamoon was the unanimously agreed upon ship name until like five months ago?? anwyas

#luvduv art #moonjou #kinkamoon #moonwatcher x kinkajou #kinkajou x moonwatcher #moonwatcher #moonwatcher wof #moon wof #kinkajou wof #kinkajou wings of fire #wof #wings of fire #art #digital art #ship art #wof art #id in alt text #i love toxic yuri #but i also like fluffy yuri from time 2 time… #that’s sounds so cringe when i put that way #omg #DAMN THATS A LOT OF TAGS

[nyanchio]

i gave in and made a human-oid (android but not incredibly robot-like) design for him just for this also heres the full design (not polished and just a sketch but you get it)

me explaining a bit (a lot) about it under cut if thats alright

hes just supposed to look like a random average guy but make it an android he has a more mechanical body under the clothes, over the fact he almost got a job in the manufacturing department but now hes clothed to look more "welcoming" since hes was supposed to be seen, and be around humans in general because of the relaxation center monitor thingie i dont want him to look like straight up a twink (no offense i love twinks) just average also the design is kinda based off an oc and a cbc i made of the curiosity core for the face/body

#portal #portal 2 #wheatley #hey girl #i mean they #i like android s #ok sorry thats a lot of text #chio art #chio only does fanart it seems

[the-king-of-lemons]

Headcanon i've had for a while now about how minecraft hack clients could work, similar to the headcanons about how in game chat would work.

Just sort of an explanation with some examples, obviously some hacks are pretty hard to translate into a physical thing, but i tried my best. :)

Full text can also be found under read more.

"Hack Clients" are illegal modifications of a player's attire (i.e. player skin) in order to give them an unfair advantage. The visibility of a "Hack Client" modification depends on the server a player is on. On servers such as 2b2t, these modifications are obviously visible while on stricter servers, such as Hypixel, hackers will try to be more subtle, often hiding modifications underneath clothing.

Eyewear: Modified for use of visual hacks (i.e. x-ray. fullbright, esp, etc.), the easiest to hide from moderators.

Footwear: Modified for use of hacks such as Anti-Knockback, High-jump, and other similar hacks.

Mechanical Braces: Used to allow players to move with otherwise impossible reaction times, most often used for PVP. Completely illegal on most servers, players will attempt to hide them underneath clothing but often fail.

Leg brace: Used for b-hopping.

Arm brace: Used for kill-aura and aimbot.

#mcyt #mcyt fanart #technically? i mean its based around mcyt stuff so im not sure i should tag the game even though this isnt specifically mcyt #accidentally hit ctrl z and had to rewrite the image descs like three times so sorry if theres any mistakes #lmk if theres anything i need to fix/change #le dood #tiggady tags #id in alt #anyways fit specific headcanons coming tomorrow (theyre mostly done but i gotta finish some of the text) #just wanted to get this out first to set up a basis #lots of ppl rbing are tagging this as mc so i guess ill add it #sorry to all of mneblr who has mcyt blocked i prommy its just bc thats where my inspo was from #minecraft #minecraft headcanons

[couch-house]

full page comet comic i got to play with + make mistakes on over break. made sure to save the b&w bc markers SCARY

#sth #sonic the hedgehog #stc #sonic the comic #fleetway knuckles #fleetway sonic #exit sonic #ovi kintobor #sonic oc #comet #sonknux #comics #id in alt text #the b&w mostly turned out really nice... the colors were a Learning experience #i only have fine-tipped markers btw so thats part of why. overlaps a lot. #oh yeah so. the Vision. is kintobor stays on the island with porker lewis and knuckles #sonic is up there a lot because of that #he largely acts as kintobors gopher but sometimes when the villains are interesting he helps out amy and tails #he's up at the island a lot but hes gone a lot too. comet mostly spends time with the other three #and wandering around the island playing in the bushes and sitting still for hours to befriend Creatures #echidna stuff is also relevant but i havent figured it out yet. #anyway. full-page comics are so fun to look at in sketchbooks

[writer-room]

You ever just see people talk about the Percy Jackson books and know somewhere, deep in your heart, that none of these people have understood that this is a series made for middle schoolers. And that fandom will very frequently lie to them like, all the time. No, that character probably isn’t ooc, you’re just thinking of what the fandom turned them into. No, this book isn’t a horrible stain next to the others before it, literally all of them were like this. It’s Percy Jackson. It’s cheesy and occasionally makes a very questionable writing decision.

You gotta be in this for the long haul or jump ship my guys. Be cringe and free or be gone

#percy jackson #tsats #solangelo book #rick riordan #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #the sun and the star #text post #yall are astounding me in ways i didnt know was possible god bless #also this was mostly written by mark not rick. like yes he signed off on it but still this is mostly mark #but its still Fine??? its fine?????? besties a book abt our favorite gays not being perfect is not the end of the world #did i cringe? hell yes. but was i free? tremendously. and i had a lot of fun i think #'bianca is in elysium but she was reincarnated??' yeah thats odd. anyway that scene was cute wasnt it #'everything is so on the nose' yeah its for middle schoolers and percy jackson isnt known for subtlety. its very rare #'will was ooc' weve literally barely gotten anything on him and no povs until now this IS establishing his character #'the puffs remove nicos whole trauma' no it doesnt. its a fantasy way to sort of explain that nicos trauma is now open instead of repressed #do i wish it wasnt sometimes explained as 'now the trauma is gone'? yes. but i think its moreso meant to be a way of nico dealing with them #he still HAS that trauma fellas. hes still going to be living with it. its just gonna be easier now. thats part of healing besties #also we dont know how these puffs are gonna act in the future so like. hush. shhhhhhhhhh. shut. it was literally never going to be perfect #its pjo. i love this series to death but. its pjo. it is. in fact. sometimes badly written. as it has been many times before in books before #and what else??????? it may not be written the greatest but its MY series that isnt written the greatest square up

[rox-of-iu]

ayoo guess who finally sat down and caught up with cultivate B)

is me. so you know what that means.

spoiler warning for cultivate ch 30-37

there was actually.... more things i wanted to draw but I already did so many I had to physically restrain myself hfsjkkdh anyway yes can you tell i love this fic very much

yet once again. cultivate by the wonderful @neonghostcat

#liushen #cultivate #cultivate: slow life on a monster infested mountain #mu qingfang #tagging him as well since theres lot of focus on him lol #and shen jiu as well u have to excuse me I love them they're meow meows #there was gonna be more sj content also but he ended up being cut in the end #wait- hdfdfhkj probably shouldnt talk about cutting something and SJ in the same sentence lmao jhfksdhfk ok bad joke sorry #anyway aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa absolutely deceased with all that has been revealed and covered in the past few chapter #actually dead wonderful powerful talented incredible showstopping never seen before #my most favourite part of cultive is its mysteries without a shadow of a doubt they're so intriguing and the reveal is ALWAYS sooo satisfyi #so the chain reaction of so many answers of the big ones tm? chefs kiss MWA #speaking of mysteries i never mentioned it before because I didn't know how to incorporate it without it being awkward but #for the longest time one particular piece of info has been rotting in my brain #and it was the off-hand comment on of the aqueduct by LQG #it is SO SILLY but THATS the one that has been just spinning in my brain FROM THEN ON ALL THE TIME it is indeed not the actually much coole #checkovs guns that have been setup nooo it was THIS hjkjsdfhksd I HAD TO KNOW where that was going AND NOW I KNOW I CAN REST EASY jsdhfkd #so yeah absolutely wonderful chapters indeed beautiful powerful #also some of you may noticed that time and time again I keep switching up the seniority between bai zhan and qian cao #and i have to formally apologize for that it is in fact not out of lack of attention to the text I'm just shdjkas #if im not mistaken qian caos position is not set in stone in canon so its free for grabs to put it in any of the free spots on the list #so i should respect neonghostcats (beloved i am so sorry) list in this case but i physically couldn't bring myself to write mqf as shidi #HSAJHS im sorry i am so biased and from doctors family i cannot put him in my head in peak seniority so low I'm sry i am legally not allowe #so lets just pretend i wrote it correctly ok sadhkas eyes closed xD #OOF th etags got long this time but im just SOOOO EXCITED WITH THIS FIC AND GOT FEELINGS OK BYE #anyway neonghostcat godspeed recovery buddy!! #also i hope using neonghostcat isnt like....calling u by your full name hdkfh but no idea to which parts i should shorten it either so hah

[sandinmybed]

can i be fr for a minute?? sending abuse to people online for holding different views than you is not activism and in fact actively hurts your cause. most people are not extreme in their viewpoints, you can give them a new perspective if you're willing to spend some time explaining shit. if someone is saying something you disagree with and you rush in there to condescend to them and call them disgusting and subhuman and dont even TRY to explain calmly why their views are harmful, they're going to shut you out instantly and double down on their views.

most people are simply genuinely ignorant to the issues they're talking about - they just pick their views up from the news and the world around them and express opinions because that's what every person does. if you run in there and tell them they're scum for it, what then? if someone does that to you, are you going to think "maybe i should do some research" or are you going to think "this person is an asshole, im blocking them." a lot of you think you're activists and then refuse to do any kind of actual WORK to support your cause.

#this is not about the isr*el thing even tho thats obviously a huge issue rn #its just a pattern ive observed online #im not saying you have to be kind to people who oppress you dont twist my words #but if youre trying to support any cause and you think calling people names is going to help #youre a fucking idiot lol #people call themelves activists and pro-X cause because they called their opposition dirty c*nts online #how the hell is that meant to help anyone? theyre just going to retreat into their propaganda chambers because you proved what the leaders #of those spaces have been telling them #you can obvs block people if you dont want to deal w them but thats a neutral action. sending abuse harms ur cause. #text #like educating ignorant people is hard work! yeah! its also the entire fucking point of activisim #and if you think its too much effort then just stop pretending you give a shit tbh #like my parents managed to change our neighbour's very xenophobic stance on migrants with a calm conversation #some people will listen and some wont and shes not exactly going out to protests for migrants rights but shes not hostile anymore #and a lot of yall think that isnt good enough but let me tell you it IS good because these things take time! #unlearning things is MUCH harder than learning them in the first place and a lot of people grew up in environments that taught them #very discriminatory and conservative views and its actually not their fault. and its hard to educate yourself differently on something you #have no idea is not true. where do you start w that?