#actual ptsd

[khaire-traveler]

PTSD is so annoying because you could be having a super chill day with absolutely nothing going wrong, and your brain is all of the sudden like, "Hey, do you remember that time-" and then you're stuck disassociating for the rest of the damn day. 😮‍💨

#ptsd #not helpol #mental health #mental illness #actual ptsd

[s0rethroat]

I will never be okay

#trauma blog #trauma #trauma vent #depression #traumacore blog #actually abused #actual ptsd #ptsd #actual trauma #childhood trauma #vent blog #vent #trauma survivor

[iknownotthesemyhands]

the way sibling abuse is erased constantly and treated as "normal"... to all my fellow survivors of sibling abuse: I see you. You didn't and don't deserve this. You shouldn't have been made to feel unsafe in your own home. You shouldn't have to feel like people laugh about your abuse. You shouldn't feel like you're not allowed to talk about it. I'm sorry this happened to you.

#It just makes me so so so mad #Sibling abuse #actual ptsd #cocsa survivor #txt

[poetemauditde21siecle]

#my art shit #antiart #complex ptsd #ptsd #actual ptsd #victim blaming #rapesurvivor #catholic guilt #catholic #preachers daughter #ethel cain #lana del rey #coquette #dollette #trauma #Traumacore #ventcore #cultcore #nicole dollanganger #morute

[ptsd-culture-is]

sa ptsd culture is being triggered by the smallest things that go against you consent

#ptsd culture is #actual ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd #trauma #panic disorder #mine #sa mention #sa ptsd

[bloodpen-to-paper]

Cannot describe the gut punch of dread seeing the new egg tasks having the Purgatory layout

#actual ptsd #liveblogging #mcyt #qsmp

[alizjay]

Back in mid-August, I purchased a 30-pack of band-aids (and a tube of antibiotic cream) to have with me for when/if I SH at work.

I used my 3rd to last one today...that doesn't include the ones I needed at home, not to mention all the times I probably should've patched myself up and didn't.

I'm 36!!!! I feel like such a fucking failure!

#actual ptsd #abuse survivor #childhood ptsd #trauma #child abuse #mental health #actually traumatized #ptsd

[somebucky]

I hate having a chronic illness because when I have really bad PTSD and depressive episodes that include self-harming thoughts, I cant turn to anyone but my therapist.

Because she is paid to listen to me "talk about my health" while my friends and family "dont wanna hear it". So dont ask how ive been doing if you dont care about my whole being.

#chronic illness #ptsd #actual ptsd #heart failure #self harm #depression #ngl i disassociated during my last couple phone calls with friends cause they were venting and i had no energy or empathy to give #excuse my existence #i dont want to be here

[crowcussion]

idk if any other csa/cocsa survivors have this, but like i don’t like the way my clothes touch me, and i don’t like how sometimes how i sit ends up with my foot on my crotch. is that just me?

(edited because i recently figured out about cocsa and that being what happened to me)

#csa survivor #actuallytraumatized #actual ptsd #csa vent #kinda #?

[behind-closed-doors-ask]

Hey y’all!! So today I had an episode of ptsd!!!/srs/I got an actual diagnosis year 1/2 ago

I am NOT breaking my streak of doing one art a day!!!! Though do know that it might be something simple and fun like void (not gonna do the most recent one i’m just going to do ONE)

#help #actual ptsd #actually diagnosed

[youforgotthepixels]

its extremely unfair that once i have left a toxic situation, the perpetrators go on living their lives exactly how it was, yet i relive the same incidents every day.

they continue to live carefree, stick to their routines—however bitter and hateful it is. While I go about my day, finally free to feel everything, breaking down at the littlest of things. a cabinet slamming too hard, coconut oil, belts, the smell of urine, over explaining myself, eating something carb-heavy, cinnamon, burning noodles, taking too long to get ready, sleeping in past 9am, mispronouncing something, or a bruise on my arm.

It’s almost as I never left at all.

#ptsd recovery #actual ptsd #cptsd vent #vent post #anorexcya #emotional abuse

[s0rethroat]

#depression #actual ptsd #traumacore aesthetic #traumacore #traumacore blog #actual trauma #ptsd #childhood trauma #sa survivor

[iknownotthesemyhands]

regressing less comes with a certain feeling of grief for me... I miss the little kid I could be, while at the same time recognising that this is a wonderful step in my healing journey. I know it probably doesn't mean I will never regress again (at least at this point in my life) but it definitely feels a little heavy..

#i remember one time crying to my bf while regressed #about how child me was scared of having to leave forever #and she just wanted to keep being allowed to be herself #i definitely made my peace with it a little more now #but yeah... i miss her a little #agere #actual ptsd #ace writes #age regression

[call-me-maggie13]

Okay so it’s been a few days but I’m still really upset about a comment I got on AO3 the other day. If you don’t have the emotional space or just don’t want to read my rant, please ignore this and have a wonderful weekend.

It was essentially “You shouldn’t write about your traumatic experiences and should talk to a therapist instead.”

Bestie. Where do you think I got the idea? Hayley looked me in the eye and said “you like writing? You should rewrite your experiences with happier endings.”

I said “so stop the trauma before it hurts me?”

Hayley said “no. Do not erase your trauma, but write that your character heals regardless. That your character is loved regardless. That your character learns to be happy regardless.”

So I will continue to write about my traumatic experiences in a way that is safe, healing, and non-triggering for me. I tag everything as accurately as I can so people can avoid potential triggers, so if you don’t want to read about something. Just don’t? Like don’t read the story? But don’t come into my comments, which are almost always the best part of my day, and post negative stuff and try to tell me I’m coping wrong. Maybe writing about your traumatic experiences is bad for you, maybe it makes you worse and sets you back weeks — or even months — in your healing journey, but I’m not you, bestie. Writing has always been my biggest outlet. And, I hate to break it to you, but most famous books you’ve read were probably the author’s outlet about something, ever heard of Anne Frank or Ayn Rand? They both wrote about their traumas, are you gunna dig them up and tell them it’s not healthy and they should just keep those emotions inside of them until they can’t stand being alive any longer?

Like seriously, you don’t know me. You’re not my mom or my girlfriend or my best friend or my literal therapist, you do not know what is good for me nor what is bad for me. So don’t try to tell me what I should and shouldn’t do. Just mind your business.

#I have spent the last three days seriously considering taking the fic down bc of this comment #I have never doubted myself as much as I did in the first three hours after that comment #now I’m just angry #ao3fic #ao3 update #ao3 fanfic #ao3 fic #ao3 author #ao3 works #ao3 #ao3 writer #ao3 stuff #actually traumatized #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #actually depressed #actual trauma #actual cptsd #actual ptsd #actual depression

[poetemauditde21siecle]

#my art shit #mochette #coquette #nicole dollanganger #dollette #actual ptsd #ptsd #preachers daughter #trauma #Traumacore #dirtcore #decaycore #childhood trauma #ventcore #abuse victim #rapesurvivor

[ptsd-culture-is]

PTSD culture is your parents recalling how bubbly and outgoing you were when you were younger and asking what happened, and you not having the heart to say it was the trauma they gave you.

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#ptsd culture is #actual ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd #trauma #panic disorder #anon submission #family tw