#ah. pain

[drenched-in-sunlight]

somos livres como girassóis de Van Gogh

(we are free like Van Gogh’s sunflowers)

#spiderman across the spiderverse #punkflower #hobie brown #miles molares #albi’s art #hobie is 17 #that’s a tag now because some ppl keep applying their headass misinfo/headcanon on my art #I’m drawing a 17 YEARS OLD #also I fought with the colour slider for a whole week for this #nursing the worst headache rn #ah art how you pain me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile. #This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature. #But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly' #My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out. #Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth. #I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity- #-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly. #Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose. #You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards. #Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever. #To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss. #Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'.

[invinciblerodent]

"I'll make a save here and try breaking up with Astarion, just to see the dialogue- I could see him get kinda nasty about it, but I honestly don't know what to expect so---"

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#-ke me back but that didn't fit #astarion #squirrel plays bg3 #when i tell you i reloaded so fucking fast..... #curse my curiosity #jesus fucking christ he's so RESIGNED #it's such an “ah; there it is. yeah can't say I'm surprised but it was nice while it lasted” #it sounds a bit mean but i fully thought he'd get at least a bit nasty about it #(the breakup also doesn't seem to have any options that nets disapproval???) #(which is just..... sad) #(it'd be so much less painful if he could at least hate you for it you know) #(this boy's self-esteem is -as we say in my country- beneath the miner frog's asscheeks) #(and now i need to go spend some time kneeling on the floor sobbing please do excuse me)

[ghost-bxrd]

Two birds of a different feather 🪶

#ah yes the pain of loving your enemy #but is it truly pain if the other doesn’t know about it? #digital art #Tim drake #bernard dowd #TimBer #TimBern #Tim drake and Bernard dowd #court of owls #coo #coo Bernard #robin tim drake #painting #illustration #drawing #art #fanart #angst #Batman #the court of owls #I refuse to work on this for another second lmao

[harmonysanreads]

Yandere!Aventurine who proposes an irresistible offer to your debt-ridden father in a bustling casino. Should he win, he'll be forgiven of his liability. However, as the round skids to an end, your father is subjected to further humiliation as instead of money, Aventurine demands you as his prize.

#ah yes. the smug bastards with an air whimsy who hide an ocean worth of pain behind their smiles. i can just sense it. #aventurine is like... a mix of yelan and lyney #.......if he turns out to be an entp i'll lose it #yandere #yandere concepts #yandere hsr #yandere aventurine #yandere aventurine x reader #aventurine x reader #yandere honkai star rail #yandere hsr x reader #aventurine

[fala-alfredo-pasta]

komaeda: So yeah, basically thats how I died

sans: *wait did the poison happen before or after the fire?

komaeda: Oh, like during the fire

Two idiots your honor

#fifthdarkdevaofdestruction #sans #nagito komaeda #sansmaeda #undertale #danganronpa #komaeda nagito #sans undertale #fala replies #req art #coming up with these puns was mildly painful lol #in a good way maybe #pls get the last pun pls #a e i o queue #just realized i forgot nagi's square #ah well #homicidal it's a pun on homi-

[koroart]

Middle of the night Fraldarius fam feels — goodnight everyone 💤🌙

#ah ha ha #I’m in pain #Rodrigue hasn’t held his son in years #and Felix had nearly forgotten the warmth of his fathers embrace #and then it all came rushing back #ow #goodnight 😴 #:: my art #fe3h #fire emblem three houses #fire emblem #felix hugo fraldarius #rodrigue achille fraldarius #fe3h felix #fe3h rodrigue #rodrigue fe3h #felix fe3h #fe3wh #fire emblem warriors three hopes #ugh that’s a mouthful

[ohitslen]

Promises

He should know better. 

Wolfwood has seen Vash make promises, or hear about the ones he has made in the past. He has also seen the end of each one and how every single time the outcome is less than what was promised. 

Vash likes to say embellished words, with a soft and determined voice that lures you into his hopes and dreams, it almost feels like a spell, as if he was calling for you to come closer and believe him. But Wolfwood knows better.

He believes in him, but Vash is much closer to being an idealistic dreamer than a realistic person like he is. He might not be aware of it, but his beautiful promises of a better future give people hope, a hope that is usually embraced with things like disappointment and abandonment. 

He doesn’t think that Vash does it with the intent of looking for any of those things. Far from it, he might even do the impossible in order to accomplish said promises, but life is too short and humans are too mortal for his wishes, so in the end, most of Vash’s promises end up being empty or they come to haunt him as a reminder of his failed vows. He admires the man, for his perseverance and idealism, but he also hates the man, for his stubbornness and lies. 

Wolfwood knows all of this perfectly to a tee. And yet, he has also found himself being drawn to his world. Because he also dreams of it.

A world in where his always present calls for love and peace exist, a world that is far more kind than what he might deserve, a world in where the kids can be happy and roam around without any worry in their heads, a world in where he can peacefully turn grey with age and his hands can shed the harsh callouses of his life. Who knows, maybe a world in where he and Vash can finally know the peace that was taken away from them, in where they can share the calmness that comes with the passage of time, indulging in every tick of the clock welcoming with open arms whatever comes their way without any fear.

It is a beautiful promise. But Wolfwood is a person that has to keep his feet on the ground, indulging in “what ifs” would only make things harder than what they had to be. He can’t have any ifs if he can’t make it through the now. And by the way he is carrying his present, he is doubtful he will even get to see a shed of that promised world that Vash tries to drag him into. So why mourn something he doesn’t even have, or will ever have for that matter.

He hates the way Vash seems to promise things so easily. His tongue silky and pliant, slipping divine words one after the other, promises way too big for what that barren world can actually fit. 

But when Vash talks to him in that holy voice of his, when he hears him say “It’s okay, everything will be alright, I promise” so gently right on his ear, while he holds his face so tenderly making him focus on him and nothing else, he wants to believe him.

He has seen the end of his promises. He knows how impossible they are. But for once, he wants to believe it too. Believe in that loving world that will cradle them both until they fall asleep, listening to the soft sound of the wind laughing while the moons smile upon them. 

So he allows himself to indulge in the warmth of his palms, leaning into the comfort of his existence, feeling the soft air of Vash’s breaths against his skin while their foreheads meet in a touch that feels like a hot brand that will melt him.

For an instant, he allows himself to be selfish and believe that maybe, that is how living in that world Vash so desperately fights for would be. Soft and warm, making him feel safe in the hollow of Vash’s hands where the world seems to fit so well. A world where the blue sky is a blanket that covers the love and care that is nestled in it like the one in Vash’s eyes. He wants to see that world.

For now, he will selfishly think that the world that fits in Vash’s hands is right there in where he is holding him, where his blue eyes are drowning in the light of the sunset dripping with love and care while looking at him, that the gentle touch of Vash’s thumb wiping his tears is the same as the kiss of that laughing wind in that distant future, where the smile of his eyes overcomes the smile of the moons.

He should know better. But he loves the thought of that world. And he hopes that Vash will get to see that world, because that gentle sight is more fitting for someone like him than the one of his violent world.

He promises to himself that he will do what it takes for that day to be possible. Even if the end of that promise will be empty for Nicholas, he knows it will be a full one for Vash. So it really isn’t that empty for him after all.

He hates his lies, and he hates how true they sound, but Vash’s embellished words are far sweeter than his bitter thoughts so they feel better on his insides, almost like a balm that cares for the wounds of his throbbing, painful reality.

He should know better.

But aren’t humans weak at the promise of love?

#yeah….mm…mhm yeah #my thoughts were going crazy with this one. because WW crying is something that has me week on the knees #WEAK FFS #also the thought of him becoming bare and emotional at the hands of Vash makes me want to jump around until I pass out #think of it. he is afraid of him in a way. but he trusts him so deeply too it’s such a contrasting and little contradictory thing #more like. denial after denial but yk what I mean. because that’s the whole post #also as a fun fact. while on the making of this thing the line of “it’s okay. everything will be alright. I promise #it’s meant to be said by Vash to WW #but also I did it considering that a)Vash is saying it to himself as well and b)it’s something WW wants to say to Vash as well #they are both incredibly pained men and they know it but don’t adress it. so verbally saying such words to each other issssUUUEHWHAGAH #ah yes. the intimacy of being emotionally vulnerable with the person who you would trust your life to but never openly say shit to eachother #isn’t that such an amazing flavor? I won’t lie to you it’s one of my favorites #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #wolfwood #nicholas trigun #nicholas the punisher #lenssi writes #lenssi draws #trigun 2023 #trigun 98 #because I did a mishmash on WW design bc this is meant to be TriStamp time skip in my mind #his eyes were originally their canon steel blue/grayish tone. but while doing the lighting the brown looked gorgeous #i couldn’t help myself so I left it that way. because there is something so beautiful abt his eyes shining like that in #the afternoon light while he becomes undone under the sunset ya feel me? #OHFUCKIALMOSTFORGOT another little detail. Vash’s right hand doesn’t have a glove and it’s on purpose btw you’re welcome

[hellcifrogs]

"We can't fail!"

Hey, remember when the self sacrificing team leader talk was about schoool bullies and homework?

#RWBY #team jnpr #team rwby #my art #ah yes pain time #When you rewatch a series you love #And some old lines suddenly hit in a completely different way #And you cry

[ask-the-rag-dolly]

" oh no people will get weirded out by how much i like to torment this ragdoll " i say to myself , even though i Just cultivated an audience of people who loves ragdoll torment

#[ ooc ] #clutching my papers of whump ideas like “ ..... they don't know how much i'm holding back ” #ah . you hide your pain and repress everything for the sake of everyone around you who you think needs comfort more ? #i'm beaming you with ' everything gets spilled out in the most inconvenient time possible where everyone witnesses it '

[hey-its-me-rolly-polly]

my leg. mylegithurtswhy. Why?? There's So Much Pain in my leg!

Did you shoot me?!? Did you actually shoot me?!?

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS-DID YOU REALLY SHOOT ME???

AAAAAAAAAAAA

#me posting #trigun #ah the fucking bone pain #and muscle ! double whammy #a classique if i do say so

[saltpepperbeard]

Ed and Stede + Heart Eyes 😍

For @ella-doe <3

#OFMD #Our Flag Means Death #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #ofmdedit #ofmdaily #ofmdblog #Taika Waititi #Rhys Darby #Edit #HAPPY BIRTHDAY WIFFEEEYY #Have a HEFTY amount of heart eyes <3 #I was over here chewing on my computer because I was like oh god oh god what do I do I already did STIDDIES #But then I was like ah yes #WHY NOT MAKE 20 GIFS OF LOVE #BECAUSE ILYSM #photoshop was screaming in pain but we made it work #WE MADE IT WORK #Also I very much needed to experiment with gifs within gifs so it was PERFECT #MUCH LOVE MUCH LOVE <3

[canisalbus]

I remember getting nosebleeds every so often last year and it always freaked people out and the only thing I could do was laugh it off while I put a bunch of napkins of some ice cream place to my nose so I absolutely relate Machete in that nosebleed comic

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#ough sorry to hear that! I hope you're doing better now and the nosebleeds have stopped #I've only gotten them a handful of times but they aren't fun #they are a little spooky #the way they start out of nowhere #and the fact you can't see the direct source of the bleeding because it's coming from inside of your head #if you get a cut it's much easier to go 🩸👀 and think to yourself 'ah yea it's just a scratch no worries' #and press on it to make it stop bleeding and maybe put a bandaid if you think it needs that #pains that you can't see with your eyes are more confusing and alarming #at least to me I don't know if this is making any sense #maybe I'm just lizard brained #answered #anonymous

[kaiscumsock]

your camera roll if you were evan peters girlfriend

#why is this my camera roll and i’m not his girlfriend #😭 #can you tell i’m single and sad #anyway a perfect dream #finding these photos were actually fun #but also painful because whoever took them really does know him #slay #ahs #evan peters #evan peters smut #ahs edit #kai anderson #sarah paulson #ahs fandom #evan peters x reader #tate langdon #evan peters imagine #ahs fic #ahs 11 #ahs smut #ahs coven #ahs cult #tate ahs #tate and violet #kit walker #james patrick march #lily rabe #kyle spencer

[samglyph]

So how are my fellow hunter kinnies doing on this fine October evening.

#I’m LOSING IT!!!!! #the owl house spoilers #the owl house #toh spoilers #thanks to them #toh #toh hunter #ok but listen #listen. we know palisman souls remain sentient after being consumed. he’s still in there. they’re together. ah #also can hunter do magic now? #anyway I am going t see if I can use this to process some of my own grief from the loss of a pet recently. #sorry for over sharing in the tags but you know. I’m in physical pain. so

[mochinon-yah]

— YOUR LOVE.

(Alhaitham x Reader)

Your love was as passionate as the golden light shining through the open windows as you and your lover both lovingly look at each other in the morning. It was like this every single day. No amount of anger, fights, and pettiness could dissolve such wondrous moment from both of your life. You loved him, and he did too. He alone believed that it was an unbreakable fact.

He also remembered how much you loved every other little things in the world. The way your eyes would shine brightly at the sight of a cat. Your cat, to be exact. You always said that its grey fur reminded you of him, even the cat's stoic-like personality was similar to him as well. It was funny, really. He never liked it when people speak nonsense, just like what you did then, but oh boy, did he fell deeper in love with you after you said that. It was truly funny. Love had always been such a foreign concept, yet he tried to learn it as best as he could. He wanted to love you as much as you do to him. But with you now gone, who will be the one to teach him?

He can't let another have a go through his heart. You were already enough. It was only you who could fill that empty abyss of a heart. Knowing that there was no way of bringing you back, he fell into a lonely road of remembrance. He missed you all too well. He missed you every time his consciousness returned after being woken up from his slumber. He missed you. Your warm embrace was now left with him only trying to gain warmth from the sun's light.

From the start of the morning till the end of the moon shining, he missed you. It was just you, you, and you in his mind.

You just loved too much, and it hurts him. The blues, the greens, the greys, and even him. He, who you said was one of the most insufferable men that you've known, was loved by such a charming person. He was loved by none other than you. So, with you now gone, he couldn't quite imagine how hard the pain would inflict itself on him. Ironically enough, it went beyond the imagined.

Maybe that was why he stayed coop up inside his house after the announcement of your death. Maybe that was why all the mirrors inside his house was thrown away into the storage room. Maybe that was why he couldn't look at himself normally anymore. He, himself, reminded him of you. The way you would always compliment his cat-like eyes, his grey hair, and his cold yet warm approach made him stayed in that particular past—not wanting to move into a future where you did not exist. He did not want to exist.

All he wanted now was to be by your side, yet that was impossible. After all, he promised you. He promised to live well, even if you were gone now.

"I tried to live as best as I could, love, but it's hard. With you gone, I feel like the whole world has stopped working too. It was all too sudden, and I was forced to try and accept it. But, I just can't. Now, I'm sitting here on our old couch, looking through the window as the light of the sun hits me once again. Yet, there's something missing. After looking around, i found the problem. It's you, my dear. You are not in my arms, and it pains me to realise that. I cannot live without you, but you made me promise that exact reality. I have to go on living in this pathetic world with you not in it. Ah... I miss you, love, and I miss your love."

- Alhaitham, your beloved.

#reli-writes #genshin #genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #alhaitham #al haitham #alhaitham x reader #al haitham x reader #alhaitham fic #alhaitham angst #tbh i was only picturing the idea of someone so sad that it pains them to see their reflection on the mirror because they got reminded of #their beloved every time they see themself so in the end they just put away every mirrors in their house to stop themself from getting hurt #i don't know if this is good tho #i hope everyone likes it qwq #ah yeah #the last line is from haitham's diary #he tried writing one ever since you died #btw i did not checkt for any spelling grammar mistakes so if you do find one just go shhhh