#also i cant believe i colored this whole thing who am i

[boxwinebaddie]

How does Sheila and Gerald feel about Raven/Crimson Dawn

definitely not....Good things.

at least...

...not at first.

i mean, for one, isaac broflovski literally worships every beautiful cinnamon scented little breath raven makes out of that smirking, knee-jerking, puffed out, pierced up, pretty boy mouth of his and in turn, worships every mismatched sock worn, worn-out blood moon crimson dawn red doc marten-ador(n)ed step that his beloved raven of crimson dawn takes on planet earth. his world; we just live in it ofc.

according to raven superfan ike, who...should he hear so much as a *jingle* from the silver moon charms hanging from the back of said ravenstan signature doc martens or even the faintest little wind chime of emo boy earrings twinklin musically as another bitter breeze rolls by, ike will come a'running...in a pair of red doc martens.

...except his aren't broken in from nonstop marathon running and matrix dodging hoards of insane dawn spawn/tryin to get to taco bell in between sets ( even tho he knos he's not allowed to do that )

so, needless to say, ike is in...terrible foot pain.

but he is Also IN a brand new crimson dawn t-shirt.

signed by all the boys, and ofc, #baeven.

whose obnoxious, sharpied star-A signature can be seen from space.

care to comment, astrophysics major craig? he's interning @ nasa :)

anyways, that of course, was bad enough. because while ike is a free agent and basically able to do whatever he wants on account of his parent's obsession w/ helicopter parenting and suicide-watching kyle...wearin all black, sulking around and blaring satanic punk rock music at 3am on a school night...was def starting to tip the scales.

...but again, *sheila vc* boys will be boys, she had her own little rebellious streak back in jersey as swoww tittybang; it'd pass.

...however, it did Naught pass! and neither is super genius, giga iq ike because he started SKIPPING SCHOOL bc education systems are vegetation systems and institutions of oppression and depression.

and yet, cuttin class & saying fuck school was still not what grounded ike. not wearing all black, not blasting crimson dawn, not blowing off school or bleaching his hair...no, the straw that broke the camel's back, the thing that finally had good son ike overtake kyle for the first time in nearly 17 years and steal the title of bad son

...was when ike...STUCK A SAFETY PIN THRU HIS LIP.

SO HE COULD LOOK LIKE!!!!

RAVEN!

OF!

CRIMSON!

DAWN!!!!!!!!!!!!

oooooooooOOOOOOOF! and guess when ike did it?

right when kyle and stan walked through the broflovski front doors. and i bet you anything, ravenstan was in the LEAST pc outfit ever. best case scenario, he was in a crimson dawn shirt, a slightly less slutty pair of the signature raven tiny vegan leather hooker prostitute pants for nasty boys that need jesus and an open black puffer jacket...worst case scenario he was wearing...sigh

the support rock, fuck a rockstar tank top ;)...fml.

either way, he is def wearing a fishnet undershirt so you can see all his crazy tattoos, every obscene emo boy piercing is on his face, his nails are chipped/pitch black, his eyeliner in smudged, all his luggage is coffin shaped with 666 patched all over it and...his hair is BLUE.

so uh...not looking super kosher or ready for temple. HELPPPPP.

yeeeah, sheila is not super stoked on him, especially as she's mopping up ike's lip blood with a rag...oh my god, stan is So HORRIFIED. like not only am in my hometown which i haven't been to since i killed my sister and disappeared, i am also in my best friend's old house, speaking to my best friend's mom who doesn't know i'm her son's dead super best friend and just thinks i'm an obnoxious celebrity who ruined both her kids lives and HATES ME shdlkshds...i'm sorry, bb.

she does say "you know, sweetie, you really do have a beautiful voice and a Very handsome face. it's just a shame you've got schmutz all over your eyes and turned your head into a pin cushion! oy vey, what would ya mother say, young man?" *finger waggin, hand on hip*

ravenstan, half laughing half crying, "not much" :')

anyways, because of the mishap with the hotel rooms, all of the south parkian rm college students are putting up a member of cd or another...celebrity. ( fun fact, call girl is also coming xx more on that )

and jersey got super lucky and pulled raven's name out of his hat.

anyways, them living together and sleeping in the same room, the tension is so crazy especially since...

listen.

don't kill me.

but you know how i am. and the boys were too happy when they were secretly dating ( which is the arc right before this ) so uh...now they are Not dating...and also very unhappy. haha! fun! slay! <3

so uhhhh...spending that much time in close quarters! whew!

also, for context purposes, kyle, at this point, knows raven is his stan.

nOT THAT IT MATTERS BC KYLE IS MAD AT HIM!!!!!!!

but, that’s not important rn, what's important rn, is stan and kyle’s parents who...ya, starting with sheila, was not team raven when he showed up but...kyle's secret sweetness is also hers. and she did care a lot about stan when he was 'alive', so sheila does warm up to raven slowly but surely. mostly bc he is...ofc, an angel.

he stopped all his shows just so he could make ike's birthday the best ever and play at his winter formal in their nowhere town as like, one of the most famous people in the world currently. despite seeming like a bad influence, he actually is a very good influence on ike from that point forward, makes him refocus on his studies and says it is punk rock to learn and go to school ( it does make him very introspective about school since, bc he was, yknow, dead, he couldn't go to traditional school and it is the point of the plot where rae thinks a lot abt...going to school/wishing he could go to school )

ravenstan is also really polite to everyone and rizzes sheila in spanish a lot haha. he is not that good at doing chores as a disaster person, but he always offers to do the dishes and help sheila cook. mrs. broflovski calling jersey over like "look, bubbeleh! i put oreb in your special apron...since you never wear it >.>" ft. stan winking at kyle in the skull and cross bones standana in the blue star of david apron that matches his blue beautiful blue ass eyes and sticky-uppy, tousled hair with the fkn schmatta slung over his shoulder...

*jersey inner monologue* killmekillmeKILLMEKIIIIILLLLMEEE

btw, sheila's lil nickname for stan is raven in hebrew...she is also slowly teaching him hebrew...he's not that good at it but he's so cute.

also speaking of cooking n dinner — dinner specifically. i think they are having a special hannukah gathering/some kind of pre-bday dinner for ike & stan's really nervous...what's new…and he wants to impress the broflovskis and not look like an emo rockstar dirt bag,

so when dinner starts and everyone's sitting down, stan's running a little late and kyle rolls his eyes like, ofc, he's fucking late, that fucking asshole...but then stan has his little she's all that moment coming down the staircase all slow and shy and tentative...

...and he's wearing the ravesey hate suit, all pressed ( or idk he tried sheila taught him how to use the iron but stan x chores is a notp ) all buttoned up ( the tie is in knot tho, he does not know how to tie a tie ) his hair is a fluffy and brushed ( wow! stan showered! clap pls! ) NONE OF HIS PIERCINGS ARE IN, none of the like 9 earrings, no eyebrow piercing, none of the nose piercings, NOT EVEN THE LIP PIERCING, WOW, no eye makeup, and awkwardly shuffles into his seat across from kyle, adhd boy fiddling w/ the buttons on the sleeve of his dress shirt and is like "i'm sorry, i'm late!"

and everyone is just STARING AT HIM BC OH MY GOD, STANLEY MARSH AKA RAVEN LOOKS SOOOO GOOD, OH MY GOD!!!! and sheila ofc is like oH MY GOODNESS!! YOU LOOK SO HANDSOME OREV!!! EVERYONE DOESNT HE LOOK DARLING!!!! DONTCHA THINK HE LOOKS PERFECT, BUBBLA?! *stares at ky expectantly*

and he, does, ofc, as always, look perfect to kyle, but rem(inescent) of the ravesey hate, while stan does look put together, stan is meant to look like he's falling apart and messy and sloppy, bc that's his authentic self and that's how he's comfortable...and that's how kyle likes him, very much of course...i'd say love, but...he can't lmao! so kyle just says "yeah, maybe if his tie was tied right." >.> *eyeroll*

prompting a sheila eyeroll bc ffs kyle, stop being RUDE to our guest.

or as sheila calls him, their “chosuve gest" <3 or very important guest *sheila vc* oh, and you too, ike! ( smh its his birthday dinner :/ ) and kyle's mom is like "okay, sit down!! go eat!!! don't be shy!!!" gesturing to all this table of food and all the in laws, like both sets of grand parents, aunts, uncles, zayde and...bubbe?

am i gonna revive cleo?

...but interestingly enough, stan, who can eat enough for an entire super bowl stadium, both teams, audience members n staff included, is not eating so sheila is like *squints* "do you not like dinner, orev?"

and stan is like 'AhaHAHahAHHAha!!! no, no!!! it looks--wow! everything looks really delicious! i was just...admiring it! and this silverwear, it's really...w-wowza! the ingraving is very—“

then jersey cuts him off, harsh, deadpan like:

"ma, raven's...Vegan...remember?"

and sheila immediately pales like "oh! OH! i'm so sorry! we haven't had a vegetarian type here since s--"

ALMOST SAYS THE S WORD!!! which is FORBIDDEN IN THE BROFLOVSKI HOUSE!!! which is good, thank god, bc no one can find out raven is stan...and there's this picture on the wall behind sheila's head of stan and kyle on the night before stan disappeared in their sadie hawkins dance outfits, doing awkward prom poses AAA.

but sheila deflects hard like "here, honey! have some salad!" but i think the dressing is like, ceaser or something and stan still can't eat it oh my god and she's freaking out, trying to get up from the table to rapid fire cook something for stan and he's like "NONONONO!!! it's okay, i'm really not that hungry! it's fine, it's, uh--i can have these!" and takes an apple form the center of the apple — AND ITS THE GODDAMN CENTERPIECE OH MY GOD, so kyle is sniiiiickering.

but stan doesn't even have time to snicker back, bc they're all focused on stan not eating, so they're not noticing kyle just pushing all his stew and stuff around the plate, trying to artfully rearrange it so it looks like he's really digging in...everyone is fooled.

not stan tho...stan is really worried, staring hard and so kyle mouths "stop staring at me." glaring at him oh my god...drama. boooys :(((

they also keep accidentally playing footsie under the table, smh.

BUT I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT GERALD YET!!! and gerald is talking, talking shop, trying to get raven/cd to hire him as their personal lawyer because while gerald does not like raven at all, he has been sort of quiet and cordial because he's being sneaky/strategic and all he sees is dollar signs, business opportunities. he knows that raven is rich and that cd is like the biggest rock band in the world rn. so he wants a cut of those profits and so he's laying it on thick. he also never bothered to learn raven's name and thinks it's raymond.

sheila is piiiiissed like, gerald, no talking about work at the table! we have guests over, it's impolite! and it's ikey's birthday dinner >:(

in between that there's lots of dinner table talk, ZAYDE ASKS IF RAVESEY ARE DATING and kyle is like "no that's a stupid rumor from the internet. raven is actually dating..." *sips wine* "Call Girl."

thERE IS SO MUCH TENSION, OH MY GOD!!!!! sheila is bummed, she's team ravesey, ike is also bummed, he is also team ravesey, grandparents are equal parts bummed and relieved, but none more than gerald who is like "thank god, i was worried bc of all the rings and the fruity color of your hair, that you might be…Queer."

and stan is like aHhahaaha!!!! whew! pls pass the WINE

there's additional important talk about ike and college ( ike is a year younger than all his friends bc he's smart and skipped a grade ) they are discussing him being a doctor like he chose it. kyle, ofc, knows he wants to be a journalist so he's like "has anyone asked IKE what he wants?!" bc kyle has had a little too much wine at dinner omg, so he's just starting all kinds of problems, i'm screeeeeaaaaaming. it comes out that ike wants to be a journalist. it's a mess.

kyle and gerald start fighting with each other, also gerald has been slyly putting kyle down all night and belittling him to look big. nitpicking him, playing down his accomplishments, being a dick. basically insinuating that compared to stan who is a fucking rockstar with millions of dollars, kyle is basically a joke and kyle is just Taking It in a way that kyle neeeever does, but it's his dad, he feels 7 years old again and is shutting down, you can see his eyes dim

aND STAN EXPLOOOOOOOOOOODES!!!!! LUNGES OVER AND PUUUUNCHES, PACIFIST STAN PUUUUNCHES GERALD IN THE FACE, PUTS HIM AGAINST THE WALL FIST FULL OF HIS SHIRT IN HIS HANDS, ABSOLUTELY SEETHING. and he is like! fuck you, gerald! kyle is one million times the man you will ever be! he is kind and wonderful and hardworking and fucking BRILLIANT!!! he is the best person on earth and YOU ARE LUCKY TO CALL HIM A SON, YOU WASHED UP, MALE PATTERN BALDING PINCHE PENDEJO!!!

everyone is shocked!!! everyone is STUUUUUNNED!!!! oh my god!!!! no one more than kyle whose heart is beating so fast. but anyways, stan just tries to compose himself and straighten his suit out, like, mrs. broflovski dinner ( the centerpiece apple he ate ) was delicious, everyone i am so sorry and happy birthday ike. AND WALKS OUT

anyways, uh...i hope that answers your question.

-uncle nina, angst queen and incitor of VIOLENCE!!!

#WOOOOOORRRLDSTAAAAAAAR!!! #viva la revolución babey! #i am sorry this was poorly typed and crazy but do u see the vision also i am sorry abt the plot holes #i didn't want to give you too much at once #i love stan w the blue hair sm also fun fact he dyed it blue bc its yerseys favorite color...not knowing its bc its his eye color #stan and sheila bonding is so cute #she does tell him often that he reminds her of a boy she knew #kyles best friend from before the fire #and stan is like ahahaha whew #also the pronoun thing for stan is hard for her but she tries #for kyle which is nice #BUT YEAH THE BOYS ARE FIGHITNG BC NEWS DROPS THAT RAVEN OF CRIMSON DAWN IS DATING POP PRINCESS IT GIRL CALL GIRL #its a whole mess it happens a lil before the plane ride over #so kyle is not on speaking terms w stan at all #its a whole mess #SPEAKING OF MESSES but first speaking of cleaning up nicely HELLLLOOOO GENTLEMAN STAN I LOVE U QUE QUAPISIMO #is it hot in here or is it just THE FLAMES FROM HELL BC THATS WHAT THAT DINNER PARTY IS GOING UP IN #i cant believe stan HIT someone and it was GERALD #insanity...pls note kyle follows him out...do they make up #who knows...i hope they makeout tho smh

[hotchs-big-hands]

ngl i would genuinely get off to making haley jealous and angry because of how fucking easy it is. my personal hc here but i think she was controlling and thought she had hotch wrapped around her finger and it infuriated her that his job was the only thing he refused to listen to her about. i also think she tried to baby trap him with jack in the assumption that would "fix" their marriage and when it only made it worse she blamed aaron for never being home when she easily couldve hired a nanny or regular babysitter so she could work or do whatever. i believe she cheated bc of that one phone call to their house when hotch answered and it was a random man asking for haley before hanging up and the look hotch gave her like yeah he knew she was fucking around too. i think it made her even angrier that when she filed for divorce hotch didnt even fight her onit! didnt ask to work things out or for counseling or anything. just "okay ill sign the papers when i get back from this case"

now assuming reader is mid twenties i think your very existence would have her enraged. aaron seems happier and even healthier. hes got more color in his face, hes put on some healthy weight, he smiles and laughs now, he takes more time off work, his life has clearly significantly improve since she left him and she cant fucking stand it. she thought she was the best thing that ever happened to him and now shes seeing in real time she's actually the worst thing ♥️♥️

and you thinks its funny as hell to watch a 40 year old woman with a whole ass kid be that bent out of fucking shape because the man SHE LEFT is fine without her. like yes maam i am younger than you, hotter than you, nicer than you AND i can ride the dick just right. stay pressed bitch 💕. and when she tries interfering in your relationship hotch asks you to put up with it just for a bit because he knows hack is still adjusting to coparenting and he wants the best for his son so you let him handle his exwife until she crosses a line and tries to accuse you of some shit and aaron finally puts his foot down and haley cant believe that shes really lost complete control over aaron (haha fuck you haley)

like i fantasize about a situation where haley is trying SOOOO hard to break yall up and drive a wedge between you two and it isnt until jacks birthday or some big family function aaron brought you too and haley cant help it but lowkey stalk yall all night and so youre like "aaron watch this" and you drag him off to some secluded corner and hes like ??? but you tell him "hold on baby give it a minute. bet you anything haley pops up" and then once you hear footsteps you give aaron a big fat smooch and surprise surprise!! whos coming around the corner? why its haleys stalker ass following you two like a creep!

i literally just want to cuck haleys pathetic ass because fuck her and her scraggly blonde hair and that nappy ass wig she had on in witness protection with her no-style-no-personality-all-about-me havin ass 😒😒😒😒

sorry this is such a convoluted mess i just hate that lady 😭😭

I NEEDN'T SAY MORE THIS IS EXACTLY MY THOTS I WANT THAT WOMAN SEEEETHING AT THE SIGHT OF AARON BEING HAPPY AND THRIVING. SHE WOULD ABSOLUTELY BE THE CRAZY EX WHO PROBABLY ENDS UP HARASSING YOU.

The SECOND she says smth nasty abt you Aaron is soooooo fucking pissed. She insults you saying you're just a whore sleeping with Aaron for his money (and cuz us babes are plus-size queens she HATES THAT) and that Aaron is not attracted to you.

And Aaron OOF he takes her to one side and tells her she is fucking nothing but the mother of his child now. That YOU are his everything. YOU make him the man he is now. He's fucking happy with you as the love of his life and that Haley made him chronically stressed and depressed and almost completely ruined his self esteem. He warns her to back the fuck off from him and reader. He does not want any communication with her unless it's to do with Jack. End of.

#cutie kenzie #aaron hotchner x reader #aaron hotchner #💌 ah asks #aaron hotch x reader #aaron hotchner imagine

[httpknjoon]

hey, how are you? i cant believe the a listers is coming to an end, ill miss those two 🥹 can we have more proof??

note | hi, love. i'm doing well. thanks for asking 💗 me too but I am so excited for you guys to see the finale! and since I'm posting it really soon, this will be the last proof I'll be posting 😌 tysm for sending this!

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Proof no. 11 [BUG BITES]

@/sunnysidejin: the audacity of this man to walk to the airport with a hickey on his neck

2020. Jin was photographed by the waiting press when he arrived at an airport in California, wearing a simple cardigan over his plain white shirt and pants. His face was covered with sunglasses and a face mask since he doesn’t want to show his post-sleep face. He even has a cap on for his unstyled hair. But the only thing he left uncovered revealed something.

Just below his left jaw, a couple of reddish bruises can be seen exposed. It’s not that big. But it was noticeable due to its color. The fans had a laugh at it, joking about the fact that it might be hickeys. Shippers also pointed you as the suspect for the bruises. 

@/1204zip: didn’t even bother to hide it with concealer 😭

@/mundanemundane: i just know yn is laughing at home, seeing y'all's reaction to those hickeys

Months later, you went live on Instagram. You were doing your makeup for a simple day in your life when a viewer noticed something on your collarbone. It was a dark blueish small spot on your skin.

“What’s… on your… collarbone?” you read the live comment as you apply moisturizer. “Oh, it’s a bug bite, people. I went hiking with friends last week and leaned on the wrong tree. It was horrible. But it’s better now!”

As usual, some fans claimed it was probably a hickey (from your secret partner or maybe *coughs* Jin who they said is getting back to you). But there are still people who believed your reason behind it. To be fair, you did post a nature picture on your Instagram Stories related to your hiking with friends before the whole live thing.

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[boul3vvard]

wish you were here

Rengoku x Fem reader

(One shot) - angst/ fluff ig

☆ Synopsis: y/n struggles with the acceptance of death

☆ warning(s): canon character death , mentions of depression etc. reader is a women so there is usage of fem pronoun’s

☆y/n = your name

☆words: 1000+

☆notes: proofread enough also might be punctuation errors I’m tired y’all some characters who speak more are color coded💀

You were heading out on a mission, getting the things you needed to pack up before your departure. you were going to make your way through the woods when you saw a boy walking towards you in the distance. "hey Tanjiro" you shouted running up to him. He looked up at you with a saddened look "is everything okay?" "y/n" he looked down at his feet. "tanjiro hey, is everything alright" she put her hands on his shoulders "Rengoku-" "what? What's wrong with Kyo" "Tanjiro please" y/n asked hurriedly as anxiety started to creep up her spine "Rengoku's gone" y/n couldn't believe what she was hearing it felt like the entire world stopped and swallowed her whole. "tha- that cant be he promised me he'd be back" "this can't be possible where is he?" "y/n" she looked into the boy's eyes not seeing a hint of lies". y/n started to choke on her tears. tanjiro hugged the girl wishing she could feel the sorrow and apologies through it. he felt horrible having to be the one to rely upon such news. he could smell how deeply in love they were with each other both scents being identical. "here. He wanted me to give you this" she unwrapped the cloth. Inside was his sword's guard. y/n fell to her knees and hugged the guard tightly. "oh Kyojuro what am I gonna do" 

 

          After her mission y/n decided it was best to get her mind off of his death so she tried to avoid it. spending most of her time at Mitsuri's estate. "how about we decorate some cookies" "y/n" "OOO or we could make those western-style desserts I know how much you like sweets we could make all of your favorites." "y/n" "or maybe we coul-" "Y/N!!!" "hmm?" y/n froze in her tracks she didn't expect Mitsuri to raise her voice like that. she never took her as the serious type. "y/n I'm so sorry I just needed to get your attention" "oh, what's wrong?" sitting down patting the seat right next to her, Mitsuri sat down. "don't you think you should at least talk to someone about it" Mitsuri knew that y/n had been avoiding her emotions since Rengoku's passing. "talk about what?" y/n said with a fake smile "you know...Rengoku" "there's nothing to talk about" "come on y/n you know you have people who are willing to listen, we are here for you. you can't keep lying to yourself, the pain is not gonna go away if you keep avoiding it.” "you just don't understand” "WELL THEN HELP ME UNDERSTAND PLEASE I WANT TO HELP," Mitsuri said with her arms in the air. y/n stared at the girl before speaking "it's just- i-" y/n felt her tears beginning to pool at her eyes. "you can take your time" "IT FEELS LIKE- IT FEELS LIKE MY HEART IS GONNA EXPLODE OUT OF MY CHEST IT FEELS LIKE I CAN'T BREATHE, AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AT ALL" y/n sobbed heavily "oh y/n" Mitsuri hugged the girl so tight she was close to crushing her spine "I don't know what to do" she repeated into Mitsuri’s chest. y/n cried for a while. y/n finally got herself together feeling embarrassed about the snot she left on Mitsuri's uniform. "I'm so sorry mitsuri I think I'm gonna head home for the night" "oh, okay I'm right here if you need anything don't be afraid to reach out okay".

          y/n isolated herself from everyone she never really left her house unless she had a mission other than that she barricaded herself in her room. on those days it was so hard for her to get out of bed she lost the motivation, she felt lifeless. On some days, she even convinced herself that she had no purpose and that she'd be better off dead. y/n knew it was wrong to believe those things, she knew Rengoku would want her to live her life to the fullest. So why was it so hard? all of y/n's friends grew worried since they have not seen their friend in quite some time, some of them even stopping by to check up on her. "yoo-hoo y/n are you in there?" y/n groaned "go away Shinobu, I don't want to talk to anyone right now" "see I told you it would be a waste of our time if she refuses to open up" Tengen said walking away. "Y/N IF YOU DONT OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW I'LL BREAK IT DOWN" *was that Makio?* y/n thought "y/n please let us in we brought some food," Hina said "oh please don't tell me Shinobu brought a whole entourage with her” y/n facepalmed as she went to open the door a little. "what do you guys want," y/n said stoned face "please let us in I refuse to speak to a door. we just wanted to check up on you since neither of us has seen you in days" Shinobu spoke. "I'm fine. go away" y/n was about to slam the door until Tengen slid his hand in quick enough to stop it. "Gotta be quicker than that" Tengen smirked. y/n rolled her eyes and backed away from the door. Suma immediately ran up to the girl and clung to her tightly "WE MISSED YOU SO MUCH Y/N YOU HAVEN'T STOPPED BY RECENTLY WE WERE SO WORRIED AND SAD" Suma cried into y/n's chest. "STOP THAT" Makio yelled, aggressively prying the girl's arms off y/n. "YOU SEE HOW MEAN SHE IS TO ME TENGEN SAMA" Suma wailed. y/n chuckled at the interaction unraveling in front of her. "see there's that beautiful smile, I knew you still had it in you," Tengen said "so y/n are you ready to talk?" Shinobu said with a smile y/n inhaled deeply tears starting to pool in her eyes at the thought... "yea" 

          later that evening y/n had felt 10 times lighter having poured her heart out to all of them about how she was holding herself up. Some of them felt a deep pity for her because they know exactly how it felt to lose someone so close to you, someone that completed you. all of them have been in y/n's shoes before. some more times than others. She didn't feel embarrassed at all, finally revealing a side only Kyojuro had seen. y/n had finally realized that she no longer had to face any of this alone and that her friends were willing to let her share some of that burden with them and if that's what it takes to finally get their friend back they'd gladly accept it. y/n was not the only one who lost someone that day, they too lost their friend, a close friend.

bonus paragraph*

       

          y/n visited Rengoku's grave after months of stalling, she knew that once she saw his burial sight reality would struck in making her worst nightmare come true. but this time y/n visited him with a new attitude. She paid her respects to him and then sat down next to his hakaishi telling him about everything she had gone through since he's been gone. " it's been a long time since you and I have had some alone time huh?" y/n said scooting close to his grave "these past couple of months have been the hardest without you, you know. but everyone has done their best to help me are friends are amazing" she giggled resting her head on it smiling ahead. "I was trapped in a complete funk without you. I even started slacking on my training which is fine, Tengen offered to train with me even taking me in as his tsugoku." the girl said happily. "Mitsuri gave me a bunch of recipes to try and they were pretty good I also have been spending most of my time at the butterfly estate. The girls have been wonderful company," y/n rambled, elbowing his grave. "things haven't been easy since you left but with the help of our friends I have been able to take it one step at a time I truly do miss you kyo, every day" y/n felt a warm breeze capturing her in what almost felt like a hug. "I wish you were here," y/n spoke as she closed her eyes.

©Boul3vvard. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. SO ANY FORM OF PLAGIARISM OF MY CONTENT WILL NOT BE TOLERATED.

#hashira x reader #rengoku fanart #rengoku x y/n #rengokukyoujorou #kimetsu rengoku #demon slayer rengoku #rengoku fluff #kyojuro headcanons #demon slayer kyojuro #kyojuro icons #yandere hashira #hashira smut #flame hashira #angst

[chefeader]

life update:

hi y'all,

honestly i haven't been posting because im so caught up in studying for the back to back mocks, i have 2 in a week, yesterdays mock i scored so less, way less than my expectation , and way less than what i worked for, i had 3 days and trust me despite putting my everything and feeling confident i got nothing ( the fruit of hardwork) despite having such bad period cramps and wanting to rest i went to extreme 12 hours of study, and its disappointing that it did not pay back atleast in the form of a good score but rather a very low score.

i cried yesterday after coming home, if people are able to score 500-600 above why am i not,honeslty the thought of suici*e came to my mind too, but im not a loser, i cant give up after wasting so much of my dads money and putting in sm effort, then had to restart studying for the next mock, it aint full syllabus, its just some chapters compiled, im going to focus more on question practice.

i want to reach out to this ex bestfriend of mine whom i hold as close in my heart and as my elder sis, but idk if she feels the same and the last convo we had she clearly didn't want me in her life, but i feel mixed reaction from her recently when we spoke through an anonymous platform. but reaching out to her can make someone close to me upset and angry with me. i think im just on my period mood swings and feeling lonely , having no one to believe in me and motivate and love me.

take care everyone, good luck to all neet aspirants, may we pass with flying colors and get selected ! <3

my senior advised that they purposely make such hard papers , neet is easier than this, if you're able to solve pyqs and past papers then you're good. also i saw a video where a girl was in the top 20 the whole year and she got 603 or less in real neet cus she stopped focusing on ncert and went to jee adv level q for neet, and a girl who used to get 400s went to 700 in real neet by focusing on ncert so anything can happen, a miracle or a bad thing too , so dont stop believing in god and yourself.

Thankyou for reading if you did.

#neetexam #neetcore #i need sleep #study aesthetic #neetpreparation #physics #student #period cramps #period pain #scores #chemistry #biology

[scarlett-vixen]

aaaa can i request fluff for prompt y with solomon? if you cant think of one for him levi would be great too! thank you!!

AKJSSJAN ANON PLEASE IT WAS SO HARD TO CHOOSE!! Also this is my first official time writing for Solomon so I hope you enjoy it!💖 be gentle with me @mrningstar since you asked to be tagged💖

Prompt: Y- Yes

Pairing: Solomon x Gn!reader

Genre: Fluff

“You’re wrong.”

“What?? No! I’m totally right!”

“Normally, yes you are, but in this case you’re wrong and I can prove it!” Solomon chuckled.

“You can try but you won’t! I live with him, I think I would know this by now!” You scoffed, the two of you had been bickering like this for a while.

“I’ve known him since before you were born, I think I know what color Asmo’s eyes are.”

“That doesn’t mean anything, I know I’m right! In fact, I’m so confident that I’m right that I’m willing to make a deal!” You smirked while crossing your arms, the only other person aside from Mammon who liked to make bets against the brothers was Solomon so you knew he would take it.

“Oh? Is that so, let’s hear your deal then.” Solomon sat back in his chair, his eyes fixed on you.

“If I’m right, then you have to complete all my assignments for the next month!”

“And when you’re wrong?” He teased.

“If I’m wrong, I’ll give you a yes day.”

Solomon tilted his head and leaned forward on the table.

“I’m sorry….a what?”

“A yes day, it’s one whole day where anything you ask of me I have to say yes.” You explained. Solomon’s eyes widened and a devious smile appeared on his face.

“A rather bold offer to make when you have a very slim chance of winning.”

“That’s how confident I am! I know I’m right so I know I’ll never have to give you that.”

“Alright then,” Solomon sat up straight. “if you’re so confident, let’s find out shall we?”

“ASMODEUS!” The two of you yelled practically in unison at the demon sitting on the other end of the table. The three of you had been hanging out downtown, this little argument began when you stopped to eat dinner, Asmo had been busy taking selfies trying to get the perfect one to post and had completely tuned you both out.

“What?! Is the lighting bad??” Asmo dropped his phone and looked at you both in horror, to your dismay he also just lost you the bet.

“I told you his eyes weren’t pink.” Solomon gave you a smug look. You groaned and threw your head in your hands, he would never let you live this down.

“Pink?! Ooooh that does sound super cute!! I’ll see if I can find some cute contacts like that OH! Or Solomon you could change the color with a spell right?” Asmodeus was oblivious to your current state of sorrow and was already browsing the web to find pink contact lenses.

“I’ll see what I can do, for now you two better head home. After all,” Solomon stood to leave but turned to look at you. “One of you has to get ready for our date tomorrow.”

“IT’S NOT A DATE!” You called out as he walked off.

•••

The next morning you met Solomon at the front of Purgatory Hall, he promised to make it easy on you but you didn’t believe him for a minute.

The day started off simple, he asked you to join him while he bought ingredients for a few potions and he asked you to help him reorganize his collection of spell books, then things became more challenging.

Towards the end of the day Solomon asked you to help him test a few new potions he was working on, none of them too dangerous, the worst one just turned your hair a different color for a few hours.

The only time you regretted making this deal was when he asked you to join him for a home made dinner…that he cooked. You forced yourself through the dinner, grimacing with every bite but making sure to finish your plate, that was part of the deal after all.

“I have to say I’m rather impressed by how much you said yes to today. A few things I threw in knowing you would refuse but you proved me wrong!” Solomon praised as he sat next to you on the couch.

“Yeah well, you have two hours left until this day ends, so what other awful things do you plan on asking me to do?” You rolled your eyes.

“Actually, I thought I would let you head home. I’ve put you through enough already.”

“Seriously? That’s it? You’re just going to let me leave??” You were a little surprised, you assumed he would put you through a much more difficult task to end the day.

“Yep. You’re free to go.”

You jumped up and headed for the door, you had enjoyed your day with Solomon but your body was starting to give out on you, sleep never sounded so good.

“After,” Solomon continued. “One last request.”

You stopped in your tracks, you should have known better than that, he loved to toy with you.

“You’re not going to make me embarrass myself in front of the angels are you?” You turned to face Solomon, finding him with a rather mischievous grin on his face.

“No, nothing like that.” He chuckled. He tapped the seat next to him where you had been sitting, gesturing for you to return.

“What horrifying thing are you going to ask me to do then?” You plopped down on the couch, your head thrown back in defeat.

“I don’t think it’s too horrible, though that’s open to interpretation I suppose.”

“What exactly does that mean?” You rolled your head to face him, squinting your eyes in suspicion.

“Like I already said, I’m very impressed by how much you’ve agreed to.” Solomon shifted on the couch so that his body faced you. “I want to see just how far that goes though.”

“Oh?” You sat up, instantly feeling you face become hot. You tried to play off your embarrassment, hoping to distract him from your red cheeks. “What kind of human do you take me for?”

“Don’t worry, it’s nothing too scandalous.” He laughed. “For my last request, I want you to kiss me.”

So much for distracting him from your cheeks, your entire face went red this time. He knew exactly how to tease you, there was no way he was serious.

“You can always say no,” he propped his arm up on the back of the couch and smirked “but you did make a deal remember? You say yes all day?”

There was no way you’d let him hold this over you. Two could play this game. You felt your heart speed you, your mind went blank and your body moved on its own. Your hands shot out and grabbed onto his shirt, you pulled him in quick before he could give some smartass comment, your lips collided with his and for a minute you thought all of Purgatory Hall could hear your heart pounding.

You started to pull away but Solomon reached a hand up and gently placed it on the back of your head, pulling you in closer as he took control of the kiss, his free hand cupped your cheek while the other became tangled in your hair. Your hands were still gripping his shirt, your heart was still racing, but your mind was no longer blank.

All you could think about was how soft this kiss was even with the intensity of the moment, the smallest noise escaped your throat and you felt Solomon smile against your lips. He slowly released you from his hold, a grin still on his face.

“I guess this was a date, huh?” His bright pink cheeks betrayed his pompous tone. “I guess you were able to handle all my requests, you’re free to go.”

You made your way towards the door trying to even your breathing. On your way back to the House of Lamentation you kept playing the evening over in your head, you couldn’t help but smile, everything went exactly the way you had hoped.

You would never tell Solomon, but you let him win. He didn’t need to know that you were fully aware what color Asmo’s eyes were, he didn’t need to know you had played up the argument just to propose that specific deal, he didn’t need to know you had done this all in hopes he would stop harassing you and finally kiss you. He definitely didn’t need to know that you would think about that kiss every time you saw him now.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #omswd #obey me fanfic #obey me solomon #omswd solomon #obey me solomon x reader #obey me solomon x mc #om! solomon #kats 200+ event

[whats-it-mean]

MUU THEORY/ANALYSIS

The COLORED is the thoughts of a friend of mine. The rest is me expanding on their thoughts!!!

The main interpretation I see is that what we saw in After Pain and Mu's more timid behavior is an act, this is a good interpretation! but my main thoughts after seeing It's Not My Fault were that it's perfectly possible for both of Mu's videos to exist together in the same timeline

1- I think it's worth noting in Mu's first drama audio she's panicked and quiet at first, needing to be reassured that she won't be hurt. This is fully reasonable, she's in Milgram lol. But I do think it's worth noting that while, as many have pointed out, her "I never did anything wrong" mentality was always there, it primarily comes out after she is questioned about her murder directly

2- in It's Not My Fault, Mu's eyes are green like they normally are until after her murder, in which they become pink and blue for a shot.

3- After that, her bug version is shown emerging from a cocoon

In my head currently, Mu was part of a group of friends that picked on another student, then Mu had the situation flipped on her. The repeated mention of sorry not reaching anyone is related to that, with her classmates possibly not caring that she's being bullied because she was once a bully herself, despite her remorse for her actions. She reaches out to the girl in forgot the name of who from here on will be called A, because A stood up for the girl her group picked on in the past, or at the very least openly expressed disgust for their actions while they were still ongoing. A pulls away, deeming her unforgivable for what she's done (heh), and Mu, as we all know, kills her. I think it's perfectly expected for Mu to withdraw into a the personality she had when she was the bully on not the one being bullied. After all, she spent an unknowable amount of time being punished excessively while actively repenting. Sorry never reached anyone, so why would she return to that? 

Basically my point is I don't really see Mu's timid behavior as a front, I see the opposite, in which her smug, avoidant behavior is the front. The front which Mu herself either is unaware of or unable to acknowledge, to the point where it's just another part of her psyche.

Was the innocent verdict pushing her further into this? Yes. Do I think another innocent verdict would help her? No. Do I think her guilty verdict will help her? Hell fucking no.

(hey, hey!! Mairu's thoughts on this start here)

Yeah, so- in one of her voice dramas (i cant remember which) she also adamantly explains that she never PHYSICALLY bullied anyone, which was clearly what she had done to her.

and then there’s the whole theory of Muu being in love with Rei which i am a FIRM BELIEVER IN!!!

Aside from all the results of the bullying both two and from Muu, we never get a true reason for why they’re being bullied- and as a kid who was been bullied my entire life i have my theories about that. My theory is that, Rei was always out as being gay/bi, and therefore received bullying over that. Muu was in the closet at the time, and upon realizing her friends were making fun of Rei for the same thing thought she HAD to join in because she didn’t want her friends to reject her and to lose her place as the popular girl, but over time she had a crush on Rei. I feel like i don’t have to explain my reasoning for this because she literally says ‘i love you’ while looking directly at Rei. That said, she felt guilty for bullying rei and eventually confessed. Rei always viewed Muu as one of the bullies, and rejected her, leading to Muu getting bullied by her friends. She desperately asks Rei for help and apologizes in hopes that the bullying would stop, but to no avail and over time starts blaming Rei- and, driven crazy by the bullying… yk. killed her.

again, thats all just theorizing, but it doesn’t make sense that people were getting bullied over nothing- when you get bullied, they’re always making fun of specific. and from first hand experience, its pretty common to be bullied for being gay and much more plausible than any of the other theories regarding why Rei was bullied.

All that said, this would give more backing to the idea that the confident queen bee Muu was really just a front, and the Muu we saw in after pain was the real her. We can’t exactly blame her for believing in the delusion she did nothing wrong after trial one since she was in a terrible mental state and wouldn’t have been able to process the information properly regardless.

#⤥ Mairu Thinks ? #Milgram #Milgram Project #milgram theory #milgram analysis #milgram muu #muu #muu kusonoki #after pain #its not my fault #its not my fault milgram #milgram thoughts #milgram ramblings #milgram trial 1 #milgram trial 2

[feelingdeath]

The last one (for a while)

I have zero drafts now, fewish followers, and this is going to be my 385th post.

I am logging off of tumblr, for a good bit. I did think about deleting my account, but i have people on here that i care about and who care about me (also i remember when @doritosaftersex deactivated his account and i felt bad). So instead ill come back in maybe a few months or years, or maybe never depends on well lol if i actually kms. Although don't worry i really doubt i have the time or energy for that. Before i go though i lowkey realised that i haven't ever spoken about like the well other side of me. The parts that i don't tumblr about. So here's this post- an Introduction and a Good-Bye.

My name's Piki, and that's me in the pfp { One of the good days}.

i like cats. (I think most people would start off like that).

M a living cliche and also a hypocrite cos i hate cliches and i literally wanna do something different, but oops =).

I have been in two relationships, second one going on right now, been over six months (and i think this is the last one because i might marry him [ totally will] and i couldn't ask for anyone more better).

I think I am an extrovert ? I don't really know. Making tumble mutuals was so hard for me i literally have only one ( @mqstermindswift ).

i like cyanide, the color and the song and the vibe. (My favourite artists are The Chainsmokers, Linkin Park, MGK, OH AND JAKEHILL [i love jake hill])

I like Italian food and will. eat. anything. that has cheese. I am kinda vegetarian though, i don't like the idea of eating an animal who probably had a family but i absolutely HATE animals as a whole (ref to point 3 about me being a hypocrite)

I hate everyone and everything, the first thing that i said to morphi and it also got me my nickname piki - which means m picky about everything.

i also love doing everything (fk m confusing). i dance, and love to cook, and i draw really well, and i can play the guitar, i learnt the violin nd the piano too a bit, i like debating a lot, and volunteering for things.

On the surface my life seems great, but then comes the well the stuff- i mean clearly it would take you a few scrolls across my blog to see how er bad it really gets but well-

I might have bpd? i am not sure.

i feel terribly lonely sometimes and also inferior to everyone around me.

my parents are not the greatest people out there. they both have done stuff that well i wont type it out here of course, but its bad.

the above thing dig this really deep pit of trust issues and well now i believe in tragedies more than hope ( morphi hates that but he'll get it once he knows)

i have tried to km, when i was younger. And if i had a penny for everytime i thought about killing myself elon musk and i would be homies.

i am really gorey, and i like horror movies and the gore and CNC and stuff.

i cant open up. too many expectations.

i get really low sometimes and i end up saying stuff or doing stuff and i don't particularly remember why or what i did, and so i poof (another thing morphi hates).

i hurt myself a lot which probably comes from point 6.

Sounds like two different people now. There is SO MUCH i haven't told about me, but if you have even like read this at all. M lowkey impressed. I am not going to go in and fix my spelling mistakes and capitalisation so go figure.

OKAY GOODBYE.

#goodbye

[slowjamastan]

My favorite color is green. I play violin, though not very well. I love dogs, and volunteer at an animal shelter. I'm into sci fi and my favorite author is Ursula K. LeGuin.  I also like Batman comics.

And I also happen to be a FTM transgender man.  What you folks would call a TIF.

Ever since I was 10, before i even knew why, I hated my body. For years of my life, I had daydreams of taking a kitchen knife to my chest and cutting off the breasts. I tried to kill myself twice.

That changed 3 years ago.  I realized I was trans and bought myself a binder.

When it's on, I feel relief. I dont think of the kitchen knife. I'm not too depressed to get out of bed.

But after 8 hours, I have to take it off.

I plan on getting top surgery so this relief can stay.

I should note- this isn't about sexism or anything of the sort. Both my parents were outspoken feminists, and I've been fortunate enough to always live in progressive areas.

This is about people. And if transitioning can keep people like me from killing themselves? I'm all for it.

you seem to be engaging in good faith, so im gonna take you serious and not just be a dick. but man, this is my blog where i have fun and post memes. i hate doing this and am annoyed u sent this at all. theres so many radfem blogs that love discourse and im sooo lukewarm, im radfem-adjacent at best. im a fandom blogger at heart bro. who tf are you lol

first of all i do not care about your life story. youre like "please please see me as a person, we kweer transes are real people, i hope you can understand that even though youre a horrible evil t*rf. im reaching out to u because i believe theres still good in ur heart uwu" you people r annoyinggg

its not like i lack empathy, i was dysphoric and suicidal for a whole decade of my life and mostly surrounded myself with people who felt the same. what changed for me is realizing that my internal feelings about the gender-flavor of my soul didnt mean a goddamn thing and werent worth dwelling on. im a person and my body is female. at first i still wanted to change myself. i switched to id-ing as transmed, i was ready to acknowledge that i was born a girl at least but i knew so strongly that i wanted to pass as male and that it would make me more comfortable in my body. i was completely sure i was a man.

now ofc body dysmorphia is different for everyone but i really think no matter how fucked up your brain gets about how you naturally look, changing your body with medical intervention isnt the best answer. theres so many side effects and complications with each transition step. taking T in a female body can really fuck you up medically. keep yourself informed about what youre doing and think about if theres less expensive and drastic ways to go about fixing what makes you uncomfortable about the way you're perceived. and not to be insensitive, but if you have a history of s*xual assault, that can also be a very real reason for disconnect from your secondary sexual characteristics and ive met enough people that struggle with that sort of ptsd that manifests as wanting to trans their gender that i would rly think about where the desire to become male comes from. it could be a lot of things, and it can feel so real and valid dont get me wrong—but could fade away with time and/or therapy, leaving you reverse-dysphoric about your changed body

committing to being a transsexual while young is a tricky thing. i trust youve already thought it through but goddamn i promise you everything in life changes so much all the time. maybe this wont for you! but it might!!! it did for me and thats terrifying!!!!! identifying as trans is very much the current "its not a phase mom!" thing that teenagers do and you cant convince me otherwise btw. this isnt to say genuine trans people arent real and dont exist. and medically transitioned people definitely do, bc its exploded in popularity. but most of yall are a joke to anyone with a brain sorry lol most people are humoring you guys but would never admit it. this is a fate i wouldnt wish on anyone. being trans is cringe. or it will be soon, trust me

tldr i desisted from being trans myself after a full decade of self-id, various pronouns, etc. so i know where youre coming from. then when i started anxiety medication it helped boost me out of that spiral, which if u havent gotten medicated for other underlying issues i suggest you look into before jumping into hormones/surgery. ive heard that ocd can make u obsess about breasts and want them gone and stuff like that. body dysmorphia in any flavor is a bitch! im wishing you the best anon

also, read some self help literature instead of just fiction. i recommend 7 habits of highly effective people by steven covey. i read this for college and it fr made me a more functional person when i was still FtM and deeply depressed

edit: for the record im not gender conforming to femininity now. i see that misconception a lot, and forget that most ppl dont know what radfem types actually believe. i dress however i want, i just am not delusional about how i want people to address me. im just a lesbian 🫶

#mail #post #this is a little incoherent but im trying to be honest with u brotha ok ur a man u can take it #t

[eryanlainfa]

I am once again revisiting a random Airigo AU for funsies. Its the normal storyline but soulmates are a thing. With the trope of people only seeing in shades of grey until they find their soulmate. But make it ot3 so they each get one primary color to start with, its their eye color, so when you find your soulmate the first time you see the new colors is in their eyes.

(Okay so this was supposed to be a brief haha what if but it ended up being me summarizing their whole original timeline but soulmates are a thing. So it's longer than I intended-)

𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧

Aiden and Var get together much faster because of it, they're young and stupid and who are they to contradict the universe ? They do enjoy each others company and eventually fall in love. But that's not fun, so to compensate I decided whenever one of them gets close to death the other lose the sight of their respective color. Which happens way too many times to them- and all the drama of the series happens, to a point their bond seems more like a curse than a blessing.

So they break up, maybe its for the best, maybe the universe made a mistake, plus they still cant see every color so it must be proof something is wrong. They're fine just being friends, really, or at least they want to believe they are. Meanwhile the colors are slowly fading to the gray they used to be.

Then starts their journey through the 7 kingdoms and arrives Hugo. Who, of course, Varian encounters when the thief is stealing the fire totem from him. And oh when they realise they're soulmates it catches them off guard a LOT. Its difficult to tell which of them hates the idea the most but they're definetly not happy about it.

Hugo is already having a crisis for multiple reasons then Donella sends him to join the little group and he genuinely didnt think it could get worse but then he meets Aiden who is ALSO apparently his soulmate ?? And he's genuinely considering walking away before its too late but how could he go against Donella's orders uh.

Anyway. Just to say I want Hugo mad at the idea of being 'forced' to be with someone by the universe. I feel like he'd secretly like the idea of having a soulmate, someone bond to you no matter how terrible you are? Sure. But then there's the concept HE is the one bonded to someone and there is a lack of control he despises. And then he discovers his soulmates are two goodie two shoes who lived in a castle and they're both practically already together ?? The universe is obviously messing with him.

So you have Hugo trying to use their soul connection to his advantage, Varian who really starts to believe he must be cursed and doesnt want to mess things more, and Aiden who's deep in denial and would rather focus on the concept maybe soulmates are bullshit or the universe really just made a mistake.

But time passes and they go through so much together they all get closer and even if they aren't in love they're at least friends. Very close friends even, but nothing more, obviously- but the colors are back and they're bright, and maybe, just maybe, no mistakes were made and the three of them could really be happy together, maybe they could make that work and they're the best thing to ever happen to each others.

Until they finally complete their quest and they get access to the eternal library. Donella reveals Hugo's betrayal and that Aiden knew about it but told no one. Varian gets mad about it and locks himself in the library. Aiden and Hugo also fight and ends up going on separate ways. They were right since the beggining, this whole thing was a mistake.

Maybe a day or two passes before the color blue disappear from Aiden and Hugo's vision. Something is wrong, they must go back, they must see Varian. The possession happened, his body is there but not his mind, his soul is like asleep. Of course no one from the squad is letting that happen. They're going to get him back and they're going to talk and deal with their bullcrap. Together. And they do.

It takes some time before the three idiots get back together romantically but they get there, eventually, and the world has never been more beautiful and colorful than it is now to them.

The end. Congrats you survived :)

[On a side note I really like the idea of soulmates being a thing but still needing efforts for the relationship to work. Maybe it can happen to have soulmates but after a while of not putting in the work the bond gets broken and you get assigned someone else. Maybe you can really fall for someone who isnt your soulmate but your love is so strong the bond still appears at some point.]

#lets imagine daltonism isnt a thing in that world fjfkdldkdk #writing this I realise it barely changes their original timeline 😭 it just gives me one or two cool scenes more I'd like to picture #eryanbles #airigo #airigo soulmate au #canon x oc #eryanwrites #long post

[shameboree]

hey kels i was scrolling through my dash and then i caught a glimpse of your new fallon drawing and i want you to know that i went absolutely buckwild and then i scrolled further to see the whole drawing and i'm pretty sure i squealed. kels ever since ive started following you and your art and fallon have slowly nestled yourself inside my brain its amazing how excited i get whenever u upload a new drawing. also ive noticed that i'm slowly but surely starting to sound more and more unhinged and wild like you. how the fuck do you have so much influence on me. 

ALSO i love the new fallon drawing!! you are so right blue gold and white are just her colours they fit her v well!! and i love how much texture you used throughout the whole drawing and her shoes are AWESOME!! also love the whole winter fairy-ish vibe <3

ALSO i was wondering if you could like sort of,, idk explain your drawing process on this drawing? like if you did the colouring first or the lineart and stuff bc i just love how it turned out and id love to try something similar!!

AW!!! i am so hype for my awful girl to be Enjoyed so much!! she is my favorite dressup doll i love to play barbies with her most of all heheh. also i am THRILLED that my Unhinged and Unwell nature have rubbed off on u. i know i am a Strong personality and it makes me V POLARIZING (i am either LOVED or LOATHED i havent met many ppl who are just like meh abt me. i am an Experience) and its always a DELIGHT when someone finds my feral animal traits endearing or positive and kind of picks up on them. i think because life is short that we should all be as bananas as we please at any point in time. PURE ID HERE BABY

AND TY TY!! my girl has a strong aesthetic and this piece kind of went a liiiiittle against some of that (its a lot of hard angles vs i normally give her a lot of ovals and rounded edges) but for the setting its appropriate bc im trying to give her a bit more of a """"harsh"""" or """"severe"""" vibe (like as harsh and severe as she can possibly look which isnt very). i LOVE to use texture brushes they are such an easy way to get out of drawing details myself because i am SO lazy!!

okay i “”answered”” this i GUESS technically because i typed words in response but its a whole lot of jack shit so like. here ya go. SORRY PAL. 

here are some more shoes as u can see i basically draw her in the same ones always except when i draw her in a plugsuit

OKAY THE DRAW IN QUESTION i kind of cheated on bc i literally just traced over one of my older draws i did for a very obscure au i made of who made me a princess (i am always doing such ridiculously niche shit i love to sit in my little sandbox and have no one else understand my barbie rps) BUT the process is the same as basically every draw i do like this. it is very simple so dont worry (or do, maybe)

i use 1-3 layers at a time and then immediately merge when i feel like im done and LIVE W MY MISTAKES if not!! anyway prepare to be massively underwhelmed heh

this is so funny i cant believe i literally traced my own drawing im a fuckin FRAUD im the laziest bitch i know. anyway. my sketches are way messier than this but it always starts out either scratch ass lines or color blocking w this bright ass magenta bc thats what feels right!!!!!!

HERES THE LAYERS I USED LOL i do all textures n shit as a clipping mask so actually i used 4 layers for this bc id set down one texture or pattern that was gonna overlap on a diff layer so i wouldnt have to work harder to erase and then BLINDLY MERGED to make things more difficult if actually i fucked up before that!!! work smarter not harder except when it is absolutely braindead to do otherwise is my motto

IF IM DOIN SMTH NICER like this then i usually make sure all my lines connect (this is also why i do a lot of angles and simple clear shapes when i draw) so i can set that layer as reference and USE THE FUCKING FILL TOOL BAYBEEEEE!!!!! this also makes it easier to fuck around with COLOR imho bc you can just rapidly swatch with zero efforts. i Love to take shortcuts. i Love to be lazy. i HIGHLY rec this, if i have colored smth that stays in the lines then its bc i connected the lineart and used the bucket fill underneath. if my lines dont connect sometimes ill make a temp line and erase after i filled. im dedicated. ALSO u can see here that my patterns layer is all overlapping and fucked up bc i didnt check and erase fully but i use p limited palettes in general so... IT DIDNT MATTER THIS TIME!!!!!!!!. 

anyway after all that i lock the lineart layer if i havent already and color some of the lines for some PIZAZZ. easy way to immediately fake effort i do love to do that

HERES AN ACTUALLY MESSY SKETCH:

 i do all of my fucking draws on the same canvas bc im a horrible little beast, so the only reason i didnt erase the sketch and use it for the colors layer was bc there were others on that layer already and i didnt wanna scoot them so i could cap the finished draw. i did NOT connect my lines for this one i colored like a toddler. who gives a shit we all die in the end anyway!!! 

YOU DIDNT ASK FOR THIS BUT LINELESS MY LOVE... i just color blocked for this one alas i do not have process caps, i will do that next time i draw i guess if anyone wants that!!? i typically only use a single layer for lineless- block out the shape, alpha lock, then color and carve from there. EASY PEASY!! ive shown it before but i spent all my formative draw years on v limited feature programs (mspaint, oekaki, TEGAKI MOST OF ALL) so i dont explore tools much and do what seems easiest and most intuitive to me... im sorry i dont have any sick tricks or real process i am but a feral little clown drawing in the DIRT. also here is the tegaki overlay i use whenever i am Blocked or fatigued w procreate layout. it makes me feel NOSTALGIC and INSPIRED so i do this instead of like, actually getting on tegs2

this ended up long as fuck and FOR WHAT?? its just 10 images and several paragraphs of “sorry im the laziest fucker ALIVE”

#idk what to say here every time i type anything i thnk it makes me seem just completely detached from reality #its not untrue i GUESS. im Unwell but in a stable SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETED THERAPY AND HAVING FUN WITH IT kind of way #kels talks #damn sorry anon this was a whole lot of not answering you at all

[thetenamongstthesethrees]

Here's my semi-finished drawing of my main character! Ima delete this post and repost it with a quote once this is done, but basically im taking SVTFOE's idea on the whole "a wand that changes form depending on the user" thing and i wanted to know, based on appearance, what do yall think her wand might look like?? Personally my idea was to design it a bit off of Eclipsas design and wing it from there but i wanna know yalls opinion. Also, the wand does kinda take form from the users personality and backstory, so while im not gonna say much abt her backstory so i can have the joy of keeping it secret(or at least i wouldn't say it in a public thread...) I am gonna give a bit for yall to go off of:

•Color Scheme is Magenta/Purple/Indigo + Black + (maybe) White + (rarely) pink + (rarely) ocean blue/aqua

•Is meant to be the goddess of night/goddess of all magic and witchcraft (still in indecisive mode)

•Is based off of me so absolutely has S/A trauma, abandonment issues, Daddy/Mommy issues, attachment issues, Anxiety, Depression, and more!

•likes flowers, the water, {"dark"} magic, stars, space, the night

•Got a villian arc where she became a corrupted ruler(to say the least), and mass murderer, died 2-3 times, and got "reborn"/revived at LEAST 4-6 times

•Believes theyre a martyr, is in fact, a pathetic loser who pushes herself away from anyone

•Hates herself and starts the story grieving the death of her lover, and then the mid-beginning is spent mourning her sibling and end-beginning was spent reuniting and moving on with loved ones

•Can be unintentionally manipulative (picked it up from her mother), Compassionate, Creative, Curious, GREAT at acting(had to do it her whole life), Ambitious, Pessimisticly Realistic, Persistent, Stubborn, Intelligent/"Gifted", Thoughtful, Messy, Perseverant, Emotionally Distant, Ignorant(?), Quiet, Eccentric(??), Cold, Overworking, Insomniac/Sleep Deprived, Indecisive, Impulsive(sometimes, not most of the time tho), Overthinker, Amoral(..at least, during her lil villian arc), (mostly) Cynical, Cunning, Miserable, Ambivert, Impressionable(at least in the beginning), Witty, Outspoken(this only happens later on tho), Unpredictably Predictale(in the beginning and middle), Authoritarian(villian arc), "Obidient", Progressive(?), Reserved, (at times) Hypocritical (mostly in beginning, villian arc and beg-end), Self-Aware, Depressed, Anxious, Determined, Devoted, 'Elegant'

I cant really remember anything much out of this to say, so do with this what u will. Anything is helpful, especially specific combinations for the wand design/sketches with lil notes beside it, but its also fine without!!! Also sorry if this is wayy too much to ask for, but it'd help alot!

#oc artwork #ocs #oc artist #oc art #i love my ocs #book series #i need to start writing again #angst writing #writer problems #writerscommunity #writer things #writers and poets #writers on tumblr #writerslife #writers #artistsupport #artist on tumblr #artists on tumblr #beginner artist #small artist #female artists #fine art #digital art #my art #my artwrok #fan art #artwork #art #galaxy art #pretty

[what-if-nct]

hiiii is it ok if i ask for some advice? im sorry im gonna sound rambly but uhhh i'm 14 and starting high school next year (which i alrdy dont feel too good abt haha) and my (overbearing asian) parents are going to send me to this private lutheran hs instead of the public one i was supposed to go to bc its more upper class and smart (?). tbh i was genuinely surprised that i liked the school, academic-wise, and i rlly liked that i had the space in my schedule to take more fine arts classes (i dont have any in my hs) but like the first thing the principal said to me was that i "needed to learn to be a good christian". a whole hour each week is dedicated to jesus and i just know my atheist ass is going to be uncomfortable asf. first, one of my best friends has a thing for jesus (he says jesus is too hot to be straight 😭) and i cant tell if hes joking anymore, and second, i dont have a problem with people who are religious, but i do when they are flat out hateful and harrassing people from communities they "dont agree with", and i just know the people preaching at this school are the latter.

also rn i am the *only* poc in my entire school, and i noticed there were a lot more asian students and students of color, so hopefully there'll be less kids pulling at their eyes or calling me slurs :D

anyways i not a fan of the fact that "homosexual behavior on or off campus" warranted for expulsion, since i am a *very* queer and bisexual individual. at my current school, i dont really need to hide my gayness bc no one cares, and my teachers are accepting (my homeroom teachers a lesbian lol <33). i dont think i can handle having to hide such a big part of my identity at home *and* at school :( too add to that i really suck at making friends, so being somewhere without people i'm comfortable with, my anxiety gets really bad, and i just shut down completely.

my hs is p rundown (like most public highschools are) and the classes are average at best, so idk man, im torn :( i dont know if i should suck it up and go to lutheran school bc their good academics, or ✨be myself✨ and go to p shitty school :/

i dont know what to do (or if i can even do anything) abt it i just dont feel too good about this :( you've mentioned you went to a christian school, so do you have any advice? even if you dont, thank you so so much for listening to me rant for a moment there <33 i really treasure you and your blog, atp you feel like the big sister i've never had. i love youuuu <333

That is such a sticky situation. Cause maybe you can try to persuade your parents especially since they'll be paying for the private school on top of college tuition in the future, it can be a huge selling point. I know that's how I won in the decision of beauty school over college it's cheaper. And christian and catholic schools are heavily based in religion like it's a huge part of it so if you don't believe in it it can be absolutely mind numbing. I actually didn't go to Christian school, actually wasn't forced to go to church as a child, I was like 11 and for some reason told grandma Christianity is responsible for all the bad things that happened in the world. Which is wild that I even was able to come to that conclusion as a child she just brushed me off. But I did go to church summer camp to be with my friends which my friend and I got scolded for holding hands but she was just leading me through the crowd of people. So that's still unfortunately a huge part of christian beliefs

the thing that really caught me off guard is the homosexual activity off campus can lead to expulsion. On campus like sucks but is expected of a christian school sadly. But off campus in your day to day life is like your actions off campus shouldn't be judged by the school. Like I can't wrap my mind around that. I think since you have a whole summer maybe look for more schools you can attend I remember doing this in middle school because my home high school was an F school so you could choose any high school within a certain range. You'd be really surprised with how many schools are around you I'm assuming you're in the us but I'm sure everywhere has a ton of schools. And look for a school that holds some of what your parents want and also your own values and needs for your education. And maybe your parents seeing you take initiative might be an extra point.

If your parents are deadset on it. I think try to make the best out of it as much as you can usually there's a group of people in the same boat you're in where their parents forced them to be there. Trust me no matter where you go you will always be drawn to those like you every single time. But if you do get the choice of going to the original public school firstly screw every single racist little bitch who does that to you that is horrid I am so sorry you have to endure that. People suck. But you can also learn extra independently I always did that cause I was a bit ahead of my class. But I really think researching more schools in your area would help you find the perfect school for you. I personally was in love with Waldorf schools they're more creative led schools and freer, I wanted to go to one so badly. So figure out the exact kind of education you want like a magnet school, charter school it doesn't hurt to see how receptive your parents will be to it.

I really hope this helped at all and I hope it works out well for you. And Awwww it's so sweet you see me as a big sister, I gladly be your big sister, love you too🌸🌸🌸

[sereniv]

Hi this is the same anon that came to you questions my identity maybe I should give myself an anon? I would like to drop by often and chat a bit about identity and such. Maybe 🦪. I tried to take your advice and go on Reddit and see if I could listen to the community and such but I can’t help but feel that the community has a bit of racism going on. I just searched afro indigenous to see if I could find more people with my struggles or more people who have gone though the exact same thing of me but the first thing that popped up was about a show of indigenous people and I tried to scroll through it with a open mind and open heart but I can’t say I don’t feel hurt by the comments a bit. They seem to separate black indigenous people as just black and internally don’t seem to claim them. They called it “indigenous shows” and how indigenous people needed their own shows and how we already have a ton of our own. And I get it I do but it also feels like they just don’t want to add black mvskoke to their show and- I’ll leave a quoted comment that kinda deflated me. “There are plenty of "black shows". This show is for us indigenous. I don't believe it needs more representation of anyone else except for more indigenous people. Some groups are over represented, we are not in that category. If it were me, I'd show less of other races and try to bring more native talent into the world. But, that's just my opinion. Love the earth and each other” and then another comment under that one being “1 agree. There are black shows with black creators, black actors, and that talk about black issues. This is a show about Indigenous creators, Indigenous actors, that talk about Indigenous issues. Everyone deserve to see a show about people like them created by people like them. Rez Dogs is that for Indigenous people.” I don’t think I’m welcomed and I don’t think I would ever be “like them”. -🦪

I am so sorry i didnt warn you. There is a lot of anti-black racism in the native community unfortunately but i KNOW there has to be afro-native groups out there. Because there are black natives ive seen articles of them talking about their experiences, as a black person, as a native person, and as a black native person.

Im sorry that you had to read that i truly am. You DO belong and not as a side note or asterisk. As a whole person

And these are the same people, the ones youve come across, that uphold colonialist ideas like one drop rule and blood quantum, that which in the end works against them.

You might have an easier time in the subreddit MixedRace, but i totally understand being turned off and wary, so dont do that unless youre prepared for anymore of that. Because i cant say there wont be but id like to think its better, since its mixed people of all kinds talking and not 'pure natives 🙄'

if you want i could make a post asking around for afro indigenous spaces or subreddit or forums, lurk a bit and vet it for you. I know youre very shy, but i could maybe find a few options that you can choose from hopefully

And what they said is wrong. Yes rez dogs is more geared towards ppl who grew up on the rez, but that shouldnt exclude black natives. Your blackness doesnt diminish or is even always seperate from your indigeny. Not to mention not everyone grew up on the rez. Not everyone grew up with their culture. And also it seems rez dogs still plays into colorism but i could be wrong.

Rez dogs is great im sure. and not everyone has to be represented all the time. But if we were to say it focuses just on ppl from a rez then that includes black natives who grew up on the rez. That is a fact.

There are black natives who have grown up on a reservation, whole families! They are native they are indigenous as a whole person. And they want to uphold white supremacist type bullshit to keep the 'purity'. its just plain bigotry

Because you KNOW that not everyone on that cast is 100% native theres got to be someone whos mixed. and its like does that automatically disqualify them as part of the native representation?

Native is all skin tones. Its all hair styles. Its all clothing type all music types all accents. Its also all over the place.

You have these assholes say that someone who doesnt give a shit about being native yet is 100% in blood, has more worth as a voice than someone who is low BQ but helps the community and is deep within their culture or wtvr- even someone with low BQ and born on the rez they will claim fraud.

that makes no sense.

But nonetheless, i cant imagine the hurt you must feel. And i wish there was something more i could do to help.

Just remember that at the end of the day, you have to know in your gut and your brain and your soul that they are wrong. That they are bigots. Black native people are native. Not part. Whole. Being black doesnt take away or diminish being native at ALL.

What i tell everyone is, you are what native looks like. In experience, in physical appearance, in all ways.

Again im so sorry for not telling you and you had to experience that. Just know there are other black natives, of every tribe. There are articles on their experiences. Just dont read the comments

#ask #anon #anti blackness #oyster

[italianpitbullartworks]

Something I found hiding in a sketchbook! Again with those Prismacolor pencils. I stopped using them after this year because I actually did not like them! You'll notice that this looks a lot like the 2005 wolf, just better anatomy. I realized that 2005 was kind of my last year for full body drawings and also the last year that I put a lot of effort into my art with creating entire scenes. I ended up ditching that and doing just tons of headshots because they were just faster and less work. It took me many years to break myself of doing only headshots as the bulk of what I produced.

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Also again with the whole feeling like hyper realism was something I HAD to do. I felt trapped in that cycle where I had to do ONLY traditional art, ONLY hyper realism, and ONLY use big fancy brands of supplies because that's what people demanded from popular artists at the time. By this point in my art journey, I stopped doing things because I enjoyed them and all I cared about was what other people thought of my illustrations. That's a super toxic mindset to get trapped in 💔 My life through teenage years and most of my 20s was also depressing and toxic but we dont need to get into those details. I bring it up because your personal life DOES affect the quality of your work!

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This is also another example of expensive art supplies will not automatically make you some pro-level artist. Its VERY clear that I used very basic coloring techniques on this, the sketch itself was sloppy, and it was just thrown together with no real effort. It holds better anatomy than just a few years before it, but it was still extremely low quality. Its actually depressing to look back at old art and be able to see where it all derailed for me. Art was no longer fun. It became an OCD "chore" for me where I was constantly pushing myself saying "this is not good enough" instead of allowing natural growth to happen. I had bigger growth from 2001 to 2004 than I have from 2004 to about 2018!

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What you have going on in your head matters more than you think. I should have taken a break and sorted out my real life issues at the time. Instead, I chose the unhealthy route of ignoring them thinking that if I just ignored it, the problems would go away. They did not go away. They only got worse and turned into a decade long derailment. This is the part where I remind you PLEASE CARE ABOUT THE KIND OF COMPANIONS YOU KEEP. Not everybody is your friend for the right reasons. If your friends cant be supportive of you emotionally during tough times and all they have to say is negative things such as blaming you for being in a toxic, abusive relationship, they're not your friends. If all they say is negative toxic things blaming you for the way your toxic family treats you, they are not your friends. Be aware of red flags. Have a support group of close friends. Have people who you can trust to talk about whats going on AND take a break from projects until you have that sorted out! THERE IS NO SHAME IN TAKING A MENTAL HEALTH BREAK!

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Don't be stupid and push yourself to keep faking it. My biggest regret with my art is doing that. I pretended for years that I was fine, everything was fine, that I was happy. I had a lot of close friends at the time try to tell me that things were falling apart, but I didnt want to believe it. Young adulthood is hard. A lot of things can happen as you're trying to figure out what to do with your life. The one thing that WAS my fault was neglecting myself AND neglecting my projects. I cannot begin to tell you how many things have gone neglected since 2005 and its truly heartbreaking to face that now in the 2020s. Part of fixing that is publicly admitting these failures. The next step in fixing that is picking up the pieces of a broken past and now having supportive friends and a supportive partner. My art no longer has to suffer and my quality when I am happy is a complete 180 of this hot mess. Its hard to admit that my quality has sucked for so long, but its true!

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Your progress and growth in art will stop if you are constantly stressed. You will always be burnt out. The more you create during burnout, the more angry and frustrated you will become. Social media always demands (the machine of it, not the people using it) that you CONSTANTLY post and will make you feel like a failure if you do not have daily content or even hourly content. Go hang out with friends and family. Go on vacations. Go play videogames. Go outside! You dont need the internet 24-7. It will be here when you get back. Take👏mental👏health👏breaks👏. You are not a machine. You have needs. Stop ignoring them. Its so easy to get trapped in this endless loop and its very hard to get out of it 🧡

[boldlylovingdestiny]

Ya no it's crazy how life goes. I find it amazing that at one time in my life I had to make an appointment to see my grandkids cause I was doing dirt and respected my family enough to clear my house out because you don't want them to feel uncomfortable or get them involved in illegal things or even be around it. Yet I'm supposed to be uncomfortable if I wanna see mine. For once in my life according to some I'm doing right I'm busting my ass daily I don't have to worry about illegal shit I own my first car, at 50 legally I have my own place, I pay my way because someone believed in me and wants good for me. It floors me to see people's true colors. Abuse a child it's cool, we forgive you. But be uncomfortable and not want to be involved in things you don't agree with or be around someone ya know purposefully have done things to make your life harder. And still do. regardless if they shit on your family name. Like it was nothing. Man if all I do is stay away cause your in the wrong or ya cant respect me then then what's the issue I'm not that Scott there always has to be something wrong with so you can egerly fix. I don't need your fixing that roll for you is obsolete. You will not do me wrong and because of having nothing or no one I stay or forgive and forget. For the last twenty years I did what you preached to people and the ones I love I couldnt Do. Like my lifes a game. I'm doing what ya said you wanted but it's always gonna be something from the shit shitty things you tell people to the shitty things you have done behind my back to make my life harder. Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean it hasn't been brought to my attention. Over and over. The things is even thru all of it. I'm still here. The easy thing would of been to not be here. I've grown thru it all. Every down and every up. After this month I will not be a convicted drug dealer. For pot. And I get non of that time back the way it effected my life. In this small town. My best bet was to leave. But I didn't so if my kids and grandkids aren't important to me then why why for Heaven sake am I still here I'm sorry I haven't done things that you needed from me. I didn't even do things how I wanted them done for me. Can't it just be he fucked up his whole life. And is still trudging along staying a float be enough? Really for fucksake. I've learned we aren't all the same. People talk a big game. And watch it happen. There is a code on the streets but you fuck with mine and there is no code. I've learned Most don't stand on it. They lie, lend a hand, overlook it because they don't wanna get involved, or get things, it makes

life a little easier. Are you shitting me really. If I didn't love my grandkids then why do I question my family's sense. You have children. Ya just gonna let that slide. Dad? 💯. You gonna get yours right, tell yourself whatever you want . The sad thing is that peace a shit is taking yours to the grave . ... And your letting him. You have had years to get that back so I no my knowledge goes unheard. Ya got your family involved, your wife's family involved. You lost a loyal friend probably many to be honest. And someone that loved you truely loved you for you bro. To my son and oldest. Thank you for your forgiveness thru the years and understanding it's a learning process and for the knowledge that there has always been someone who loved me. And was there. No expectations just Ones of love. I'm so proud of both you becuase you overcame many things. You have always been you. You have made mistakes and own them...... That's a very important quality and you learn from it. You have compassion for others. To ci, I have always loved you. But I'm aware we also don't have to like eachother. We have that right. I miss you very much but I don't even no if that person exist anymore. But I pray someday the you I new before life changed you. Or molded you finds it's way back. I hope you realize owning it let's it go.

#fuckchildabuse