#and im sorry for spamming yall with this but i am. really not in a good place rn lol like at all.

[lords-plushii-pup]

I pray that these people get off your back. You keep saying that it’s a kink, which of course involves and requires consent, but they probably won’t listen to that.

I am a heterosexual man who would absolutely LOVE to have a sweet, sexy, slutty hucow housewife, but I certainly wouldn’t treat her like some cheap fleshlight or slave. If she wanted me to, I wouldn’t hesitate to pin her to the bed and flood her with my splooge, but again, ONLY if she wanted me to. I’d still value her opinions and do everything I can to make her happy, like any good husband worth a flying fuck would.

Sorry, I’m rambling. Just don’t let these people get to you. Keep being your cute hucow bimbo self👍

awwh thats so sweet of you!!

thank you for the support, i really appreciate it 🥰 my Owner has definitely made me feel better about everything and assured me that i did good and that im the bestest moo hehe 💕

i definitely dont mind rambles in my askbox, yall spam me please asks give me life 🥺

loves from moomoo town♡♡♡

#chatty cow #seriously i almost started crying when i saw that stuff #glad to know i got yall here to support me♡ #bimbo training #huc0w #hucow training #bimbo doll #bimboification #dumbification #owned sub #asks open #send asks #asks

[00belle00lovely00]

ok uhmm... This is a bit akward🥲 but can you make Bobby x Picky headcanons? Plss I need more content of them😭😭😭 Im starving😭😭😭😭

ALR YALL

LEMME RISE UP FROM HELL TO RESPOND TO ALL THESE AWSOME HEADCANONS!

AFTER A FEW MORE, LIKE A FEW 4 OR SO... I.... I UH... I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE.

TOO MANY HEADCANONS YA'LL.

I DON'T LIKE MAKING YA'LL WAIT DAYS FOR THIS IM SO SORRY

🍎❤️🩷❤️🍎🩷🍎❤️🩷❤️🍎🩷🍎❤️🩷❤️🍎🩷🍎❤️🩷❤️

The chef x the mfer who is putting love potions inside the food.

OKAY- I HAD TO THINK ABOUT THE SHIP NAME FOR SO LONG THAT I THINK I GOT IT. WHAT YA'LL THINK ABOUT ✨FILLING-LOVE✨ AS IN- FEELING LOVE AND FILLING WITH EATING TOO MUCH ARTFSUDHJGFASJDGFALSJDGFAISDHF.

They'd be watching any cooking show that has ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE DRAMA BUT IT WOULD BE FUNNY AS HELL HOW BAD THEY MESS UP THE FOOD TO THEM

Lovey-dovey and sucker for romance pansexual x "that's my lady right there you'll, can't get better than this you guys" lesbian and food enjoyer

Alright, hear me out on this one you guys. Bobby + chocolates + giving them to picky = INSTANT GIRLFRIEND!

Live laugh love country Picky. We all want a home girl to have an Applejack kind of accent. And as for Bobby?... HMMMM... I KINDA WANT HER TO BE FRENCH. IT WOULD MAKE SENSE, RIGHT? (pls, don't go after me in the comments I'm Hispanic-french myself.)

WE ALL KNOW. WE ALL KNOW PICKY GOTTA CARRY MISS LOVERGAL LIKE THE STRONG GIRL SHE IS. SHE GOTTA!!!!

let's all just agree that picky GOTTA snort when she laughs.

I always like to think that Picky is an in-denial hypocrite, especially when it comes to eating. She's the one in the group always scolding everyone for not eating healthy as it is, yet SHE is the one that sneaks on 3 AM in the middle of the night to each last week's cake from Kickin's party. And yet... rather coincidentally and out of pure chances, Bobby is a sucker for sweets too. So they just work each other out in helping each other with eating problems AND/OR trying to make an excuse to eat dessert before dinner.

PDA?... is that even a question with Bobby around?

THEY'RE SO GAY AND IN LOVE IT MAKES ME WANNA GO ARTUYIGFYDSJKAOIGFYUDJSAKJHUFVDBNSDBHJDIOFOAIHSOASJBCKJSDJFKKWJEF-

WAIT OML, THIS IS OUT OF CONTEXT BUT, I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHING. WHAT IF BOBBY LIKED GREEK MYTHOLOGY- O H... OH, SHE WOULD ABSOLUTELY ADORE EROS AND PSYCHE. GREAT ROMANCE STORY, I TELL YOU. Well, of course, it gotta be, Eros is literally in the early stages of Cupid's image.

Once again, I bestow before you one of my favourite headcanons; Bobby has separation anxiety. And BECAUSE of that she would be messaging/spamming on Picky phone about where she was, if she would come over, if she wanted HER to come over, if they wanted to hang out, etc. What was Picky doing meanwhile? The simple answer passed out on the floor after thinking it was a good idea to try to mix all fast foods known to man into a single meal.

they're both dumb but they don't know it/know it.

YOU GUYS. EVEN BOBBY WRITES FANFICS ABOUT HERSELF AND HER LOVERS. CHANGE MY MIND. YOU GUYS KNOW IT.

Picky would be so proud of pulling up Cupid herself lmao.

YOU GUYS. 👏BOBBY👏WOULD👏TOTALLY👏BOOP👏PICKY'S👏SNOUT.👏 IT GOTTA HAPPEN. EITHER A BOOP OR A KISS IT'S OUTTA HAPPEN.

I think Bobby would treat this relationship like they were in some romantic novel.

@11sugarplum11 (since you ALSO asked for it! Dw didn't forget about you!)

That's it you guys, maybe I'll be answering a few 4 or less but I'm REALLY stressed about catching up to all the commissions. I hope im not breaking anybody's hopes for all of their headcanons to be answered.

I STILL HAVE 8 MORE TO ANSWER YOU GUYS... PLEASE- I NEED TO FINISH A LOT OF STUFF.

🙏

PLEASE. PLEASE- PLEASE DONT HATE ME YALL PLEASE-

#poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime 3 #smiling critters #headcanon #picky piggy #bobby bearhug #picky piggy x bobby bearhug #bobby bearhug x picky piggy #STOP UNDERRATED SHIPS

[blujaishah]

mermaid au headcanons!!! (feel free to delete it if it annoys you)

rudy's the prince of the mermaids

mini's a student at the human university. the university uses mermaid organs for the students' studies, assuring them that they're "ethically sourced", but mini isn't convinced.

since she's blessed by the god of death (claimed as his daughter), she can feel the mermaid's spirits calling out to her, telling her that there's something fishy (bad pun, sorry) going on

rudy's sent on an investigation, as Prince, to figure out the fate of the missing mermaids

in the process, he gets captured by the human soldiers, and they want to harvest him for his organs

mini breaks him out and agrees to help him, and gather evidence against the university's mermaid hunting

during the course of their investigation, they grow to really like each other!!!

that's all i've got, sorry

these hcs are so silly im sorry for spamming ur inbox 😭🫶

So rn i am currently obsessed with the western au but i could draw some comic strips for this but if i had to write it myself then it would be exclusively romance (i dont have the brain to write a detailed plot i have a drawing mind not a writing one)

I can't write a plot like this by myself i dont have time and i can only handle one plot in my head at a time which would be the western au i also write the scripts for my own webcomic with original characters and it's incredibly difficult and time consuming

just drawing on the other hand is easy for me

@queenofapeacefuldawn SOO lmk if mermaid au webcomic is something you'd really want to see bc then I'd need a ton of help with the script and we could even talk art style and character design

def lmk i keep logs of everything yall suggest i draw so i can get to it all

#tpq #mindy #rudy x mini

[miradawhissu]

A bit of a rant post on Some YT Users bullying me for shipping Mira with Nine

so I wanted to rant abt this bc I actually had enough with them so recently I've been getting alots of hate from Two users from two users (left unnamed bc I don't want them to get attacked) two Nine x Six Shippers saying "Six x Nine ✅ ✅ ✅ Mira x Nine ❌❌❌" or "Eww you like Nine 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮" which at first I started to ignore one of them since it was 3 weeks ago from the spam hate but another person hours ago decided to attack me after I told them I respect other Nine ships as long they're respectful but they decided to spam hate again which I had enough ( I didn't snap at them bc I wanted to be nice.) and decided to report them and two comments from them that were harassing me the most

BTW I couldn't block them bc YT removed the option so it is impossible to block them for harassment and even if I reported them YT doesnt really do jack shit and just finds it nothing wrong despite they should've looked more into it

Before you say this I am Ok with Nine x Six but I HC them as siblings tho but some of these shippers are a bit toxic and If this hate from these toxic shippers decides to continue to harass me to a point I loose it and to a point that I have to move them to the DNI list (Which is pretty rare btw and dw but that could be a possibility) then yeah It would happen bc people cannot learn to be respectful

look Like I said I am fine with Nine x Six and other Nine ships (as long yall aren't Proshippers/Comshippers/Darkshippers etc) but please do not harass people for doing Nine x OC all bc they don't ship/like a ship you like and please understand that it is okay bc it's not harming anyone nor you and you don't like it just please be respectful instead of harassing them but if you can't even do that just ignore them or block them if it triggers you

I'm sorry but I am getting really tired of the harassment im getting for something that is comforting please I just want to enjoy some I Iike and enjoy :[

#mira rants 🐶 #rants #rant #rant post #personal rant #xfohv nine #nine bfb #bfb nine #nine xfohv #mira bfb #bfb mira #xfohv mira #mira xfohv #self insert #self ship #xfohv oc #bfb oc #oc x canon #xfohv nine x six #proship dni #Im getting tired tired of these haters

[nightmare8-420]

Intro

Call me J

Pronouns are he/him but they and it are fine too

I like screaming into the void known as this hellsite

somehow am still lonely while having friends

i draw and post it here sometimes

I call this an ed/sh blog but its relly just my shitty life™️ i wont ever post body checks of me or someone else. Everything that could potentially trigger someone should have a tw on it, if not lmk. I dont promote anything in my shitty life. probably not a safe space for ppl in recovery, love yall, just dont wanna trigger you

B0mblover is my writing/sometimes art blog

killmeplese34 (yes its spelled like that) is my sh blog bc worried abt being t worded

free Palestine🇵🇸

im a minor so please dont be too weird

i want to bash my head in in pavement

feel free to spam if youd like, it doesnt bother me /gen

as of feb 24 2024 im learning chinese (simplified) i might post in it, please correct me if i mess up

Dni list:

Racists

Homophobes

Transphobes

Xenophobes

ablest “people”

pedos (does that need to be said?)

conservatives (american ones specifically bc ive heard its different in other places we will not get along)

pro “life” “people”

Fbi

government in general (i will call a crack head next time bc YALL DIDNT FUCKIN SHOW UP)

Do not ask me about

•gun control (im too confused on it to have a proper stance)

•for help financially (sorry but i legit cant do jack shit about it besides reblog bro im broke af)

•real advice (i can try to help but i make things much worse)

•how i feel about Kunai Tadashi (i mean you can just it will be long)

•every illegal thing ive done (FUCK YOU FBI YOULL NEVER CATCH ME as i post my ip address)

Info

Email: [email protected]

Email2: [email protected]

Email3: (professional shitttt) [email protected]

Instagram: Insane_268_2

Discord: mocchi59

(ao3 will be hopefully added if i ever make an account)

Tags, if you need to block smth (or need an index)

•idiot ass drawing (drawing)

• j’s a bloody mess (selfharm/blood)

• j isnt suffering for once? (my infrequent high points)

• j’s crying and listening to music (music)

• j’s guchiry posting again (guchiry)

• j is down bad as fuck and doesnt know how or deal with it / really any variation of it (me being down bad for a certain someone and handing it poorly, i made the tag as a joke and just kept using it) (is private)

•cooking with j (me cooking gross shit seeing if it tastes good)

•j answers (new tag, “answering” asks)

im mostly into

Guchiry /ぐちり

Hiiragi Kirai / 柊キライ

And ¿?(wada shimon)

and i have severe trauma so i sometimes post about that 👍

I wish you luck

[lycanxlovergirl]

I have some serious problems. Like what is going on with my life wth. Its a bit too private so yk. For past 2 months I just shut down my brain and decided not to tell people how I feel I just reply with im good. (I am doing really badly like rock bottom). Bc istg EVERY TIME I TELL SOMEONE I FEEL BAD OR SOMETHING HAPPENING BAD TO ME they suddenly leave me on read or just disappear from my life. Like bitch I can listen to your problems all day but you cant give me 5 minutes? Im so done eith that. I literally have one best friend that is like an angel on earth and im so happy with having her. Cause not gonna lie everyone fake or we not that close. And so sorry that I have trust issues if it happens so many times. But yeah I know its a me problem so im no blaming anyone. Just let me please have supportive people who ACTUALLY care how im doing. The other ones? You know what I think I'm gonna drop all of them as spam. Literally dont talk to me. You dont deserve me. I rather have 1 amazing bestie and like 2 other fun people to be around than have like 20 or 15 people that I have right now. Im Literally not built for this. I need my quiet life. If you wanna be my friend please be clear from the start cause i have no time to waste. Peace yall Im going to sleep cause it was a rough day ngl.

[abdlgossipblog]

“Okay Bakery you don't have to lie like that 😂 Everyone watched you stalk and bully that girl with the blue feed out of the community before you left. You pulled a reverse Bandage and came to ABDL because you made the Agere community hate you by hounding them over "copying" you all the time. You hate Bandage but you're exactly like her. Fuck both of you.”

okayy i actually think this is pretty funny because one, it’s a blatant lie, and two, unlike a lot of you who spread lies about people on here, i actually keep proof of literally everything. even years old stuff that’s still saved in my icloud, i literally had to go through thousands of old photos on my old icloud account just to get these lmao. it’s kind of funny how you think you remember that situation when i was literally just 18. I’m almost 22 now, get a grip and maybe sit down and ask yourself what do you actually gain from lying about others so boldly on this blog.

“Girl with the blue feed” (sleepy.babey) left the community after me. she was the one who stalked and copied me when i was 18. even going to the extreme lengths as buying my used pacifier from my highlights that i was selling from a fake account, later posting it to her own account. copying my custom pacifiers that I spent ages trying to design. I’ve never called out someone for copying me before except those two people, bandage and sleepy.babey - who both went way too far with what they did, not as far as bandage, but far enough with the stalking that it genuinely disturbed me. Why are you saying i stalked and bullied her when it was the other way around? She literally apologised to me after I left the community, i had to dig hard to get the screenshots from 3 years ago but if it makes this rampant anon stop spam hating me with lies and other bs, then so be it lol. The screenshots here aren’t even all of it either.

I don’t think “everyone copies me”. Two people (one when I was literally 18) that somehow developed an infatuation with me, two people that literally apologised to me for what they did, two people that stalked me and somehow I’m the bitch?? you’re literally just mad because i know how to defend myself when i know i haven’t done anything. like sorry you were never taught to stand up for yourself before but im not like that, my biggest pet peeve is being accused of stuff i didnt do and liars, and those are things ive had to deal with constantly on this blog by people (or the same person) who literally has no idea what they’re talking about. like the fact it takes me posting so much proof to even attempt to get you to shut up is absurd, but when someone says something baseless with zero proof, you believe it? make it make sense. if i were such a bully and a bitch in agere, i wouldn’t have year long friends still here from that community, i wouldn’t have both bandage AND this girl apologise to me for what they did if i were in the wrong. i know I probably shouldn’t have replied to the anon who messaged me saying i bullied bandage out of the community, but again, one of my biggest triggers as someone who has also openly shared their struggle with bpd, is liars and getting accused of shit i didn’t do. please stop trying to dictate who i am as a person and pretending you know about certain situations because you really don’t, and that’s why im glad i still have access to my old iCloud because otherwise yall would’ve ran with that piece of “information.”

there’s been so many people in the community so far that have called out people for stalking and copying them, years ago and currently. but are they painted as bullies on here? are they painted as someone who thinks everyone copies them? no. again, you have nothing on me at all so you try to pretend I’m this and that for your own personal gain. if any of this had happened to you, the stalking, constant copying, bullying, faking dms, seeing your friends get scammed, you’d feel like human trash too :’)

#bakerydolly

[worlds-silliest-specimen]

please forgive me for spam liking i am so sorry i dont know if its annoying but it makes me worry so anyway. DAWG I JUST DID YOUR QUIZ ON UQUIZ AND I WAS LIKE DAWG!!!! SO COOL!!!! because 1 youre very much like me NOT ENTIRELY BUT STILL A LOT AND SO COOL 2 you you are cool i dont know how to words and if I saw you in person i would be really happy to meet someone like that?? like dawg?? AND I ALSO WENT THROUGH YOUR TUMBLR OF COURSE AND NOW YOURE EVEN COOLER!!! WHAT!!!! like . can we be friends or talk or something like dawg... you are so cool... like COOL TO THE LEVEL THAT IF I KNEW HOW TO FLIRT I WOULD TRY BUT I DONT KNOW💔💔💔 i am sorry again for typing a block of text i do that a lot that is my number one hobby i dont really do asks and i dont know how i IM GONNA STOP NOW SORRY

yall if u wanna be friends my dms are open! i think! pretty sure theyre open! literally just message me

[wondernus]

Hi hi im already on the taglist but i was wondering if you could change @/sapphichui to my new one, the url im sending you the ask with

Also i didnt even realize it but i wasnt following you? I love your smaus idk why i think tumblr may have unfollowed you djxnbxnx

Lastly, the jun smau, as you probably saw from my spamming of tags, which im sorry about, has me in a chokehold, i can tell you right now that it made me cry and im mto ready for what is gonna happen to vernon, and im not ready for the development of yn and juns relationship

My delusional tendencies are really kicking in with this fic, you have such an unbelievably juicy brain and you should be so so so proud of yourself!!!!

I hope you have a great week i am sending so so so much love <33333

SDLKFJSLDAASLKJF I love reading tags and I loved reading your tags. I think my favorite ones were "op ur sick" and the hai cheng ones 😭😭😭 but dw I changed your username for the tags :3

I also literally DO NOT know how to respond to people telling me that the vernon chapters made them tear up bc I was probably listening to megan thee stallion or charli while writing 💀 I'm so glad yall liked it but I'M SO SORRY. vernon's parts were thot shit fueled (which doesn't make sense I know) (but at the same time it's kinda on brand for him but asdfghjkl i'm sorRY)

also you have one of the prettiest pfps I've seen on this website omg. the transparent background x jun's head popping out of the star is just *chef's kiss from gusteau from ratatouille*

tysm for your compliments you're too kind!! they mean so much to me ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡ I hope you have an amazing start of your week :33

#FROM! - huiranghaes #TOPIC! - ifb #💌 ━ replies

[terracyte]

the shoulder pads look cool but don’t do much against the cold

#hi! #i have an art and i am back lurking on tumbgle #i dont think my little break affected too many people but thanks for being patient <3 #love yall #zuko #sokka #katara #atla #terra art #also dont mind me im gonna ramble just a tad here cause tags are cool like that hehe #to everyone who sent in nice messages thank you so so much it really means the world to me :')) #and even if you didnt i hope you know i appreciate you so much to! #im sorry for all the complaining pity posts a week ago dshgaj #i guess i was super out of it cause i normally dont really like to complain 'publicly' cause it doesnt really help anyone you know? #it just makes people uncomfortable and i go on a self pity trip #so instead ill spam cute posts and look at all the wonderful stuff my moots make <33 #which is much better than sad posting on main #so really if you ever see me being pity fishing or anything like that just give me a slap on the wrist #and also i just got to remind myself that objectively im not the best at anything. like my art or writing #and theres no need to dispute me on that! #everyone always has room to improve :) #and gues this super long goddamn ramble is just me sayin hey im back i am out of my head a little bit #and im gotta do my best to create stuff i enjoya nd hopefully you willl too!! #thank you all so much <33 #sorry for the wall of tags akdhja no one's gonna read this anyway so I'll be in the clear 😌

[kazewhara]

guys kazuha is . hes jsut so good and sweet a . nd and ayato was worried that he wouldn't be able to handle the info b . but he did anyways and. ka ,, he ,zz kazuha, he.,.. doesn't much like super busy event s ,,,, he,, he carved hi s ,, nmae into a sword as a kid and ,,, and he works so hard ... so impossibly hard.. a .n d and he ..

#z spam #im sorry im sorry i cant stop #i'll go to bed now its 1 am #im sorry yall i just love him so much #i love him i love kazuha i love him i do i really really love kazuha so much i love him

[kaebedom-me]

how would the boys react to having a rather loud and um- lewd moaning s/o like im ngl i have rather high pitched low-key pornlike moans and im kinda self conscious abt it- you don’t fell comfy answering that’s fine!!🥺 most importantly i hope this new year brings you great prospects💕

Happy new year! I hope this year treats you well uwu

i think the first time y’all have sex they don’t won’t have much expectations?

like in their heads, they’ll hc what kind of person you are in bed HAHAHA

they find out you are loud in bed they’re gonna be so happy

honestly, they’ll be happy to just have sex with you at all? they don’t really care what you sound like lMAO

definitely will try to get you to moan as loud a possible tf

they just wanna see how load you can go 

if you’re embarrassed about it immediately after they pull like a really loud moan out of you they’d be such shits about it

they’ll reassure you that they love them but will also tease the hell out of you

“Oh, is my baby that horny? do they want to get fucked that desperately? do you really need me that badly you can’t shut up”

or

“what if someone hears, huh? what will they think when they know i fuck you this good?”

or

“go on, babe. moan louder so the entire town knows we’re fucking”

ofc they’ll reassure you outside of bed that they love your moans too uwu

they want you to feel most comfy when you’re with them and they’re actually really glad if you express to them you’re a little insecure about it?

immediately starts setting up boundaries for you too, like if certain dirty talk is too humiliating or if you’d like to try being gagged and stuff

then wanna help!!! you become more comfortable in your own skin!! sweet boys!!!

#happy new year nonnie!!! #may this year be kind to you uwu #i gibe u kith <3 #ajhdild im sorry this is like so short #i've got like full week of work this week and my essay's due in 3 days and i haven't started #but i really wanted to updATe #priorities am i right #pray for me hope i get my work done soon so i can spam write til i pass tf out #anyway love yall #childe #childe x reader #kaeya #kaeya x reader #tartaglia #tartaglia x reader #childe x reader x kaeya #Slight not sfw #a little bit spicy #shanna writes

[swanqiu]

𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍, 𝐀𝐈𝐃𝐀𝐍 𝐋𝐘𝐍𝐂𝐇 !   ——— a birthday gift for @lvncher​ ❤

#elliot literally invented qu*dditch and his metas + hcs about it are second to none; JoKe WISHES she could create an international sport #the way that elliot does. that is all!!!! #@ yall idek where to start with this i just hope u all know how much i love elliot and like..... he is the biggest enabler of enablers #all my au thots and my indulgent wishlist things and my quidd / H O C K E Y AU desires and i am just. so blesst that he slides into my dms #anyway can u believe that in the 2yrs we've been friends we haven't had a single thread lmao it's literally just IM spam and me #hoe-ing out all the meme requests he sends in hahaha @ elliot this is a callout as much as it is a bday gift #HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE ILY BABE i really tried my best here babe idc that it's a day late all the love is still there <3 #also sorry there's a considerable lack of green and ireland things in this photoset but it would've ruined the aesthetic srry not srry #also you'll be proud to know the crop top photos are indeed from the MAN the BABE himself ughhhh my heart eyes know no limits #anyway don't stare at this too long or u will find all the flaws but #I HOPE U LOVE IT I HOPE U KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE U #ALSO HOPE U HAD THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVERRRRRR <3 #anyway cho loves him a lot ***I*** love him a lot and i love u a lot so. we all stay winning here is the point i think #anyway there's the rory cameo. as he DESERVES #lvncher #( sq graphics tag tbt. )

[widevibratobitch]

you have an eating disorder. you know this. you know you need to gain weight, because you are sick. you are sick and underweight and suffering.

if you were a stray cat, I'd feed you.

i won't patronize you. but sometimes it helps to hear it from someone else. you are sick, you have a mental illness, and you need help.

i hope you can keep singing. if nothing else, do it for that. eat so you can sing.

i love you. take care.

okay putting the answer under the cut cuz it's gonna be full of disordered thoughts (yes, i am aware of that), ed talk and yeah, internalised fatphobia which is Bad, and also because i dont wanna spam people's dashes with my bullshit even more than i already do.

first of all, thank you so much for this, anon, I appreciate it, I really, genuinely do. Thank you. BUT. i am not underweight.

i WISH i were because then it wouldn't be such an issue. that's the problem. i started out fat and like, fuck the BMI but just to paint the picture - after xx kg down i am still balancing on the line between "normal" and overweight. if i gain weight now, im gonna just be fat again.

and i dont want to ever go back to how i was before mostly because of how people treated me then and the comments i had to deal with. i dont wanna ever hear again that im either 'pretty for a fat girl' or 'too pretty to be fat', or that id look like [conventionally attractive blonde celebrity] if i just lost some weight. im tired of being afraid of eating in public or going shopping with my skinny friends and not being able to find a piece of fabric that fits me.

i hear so many compliments now, about how great i look and how it's good that i finally started taking care of myself (lmao sike). to so many people around me my eating disorder is a story of success and self-discipline - because i was fat and now i'm not so obviously that's a gOoD cHaNgE. and if i recover (and yes, there is no recovery without weight gain) - it's gonna be viewed as a failure.

life as a fat girl is SO much more difficult. it just is. it's a fact. people treat you differently. i've lived my whole life like that and ive suffered from it since i was a kid. i dont think i could ever go back, especially knowing now how nice it feels to live in a smaller body.

as for my singing. idk. im thigh-deep in shit rn. no matter what i do, i'll be miserable. i am miserable rn so even if i do nothing, i'll still be miserable lmao it sucks. it just sucks.

if you've made it here, thank you for your concern, i really truly do appreciate it. i hope you have a great day and thank you again. ilyt

#tw ed #tw eating disorder #tw body image #tw disordered thoughts #tw internalized fatphobia #i dont know what else to tag sorry #and im sorry for spamming yall with this but i am. really not in a good place rn lol like at all. #also damn anon i really wish i were a stray cat that some good soul would take in and pamper. alas im just a lowly human. #well shit happens

[seblore]

sometimes when im sad i just look at @whatincornation’s drawings and go through @godbastian’s sewis tag and then im happy again

#i really spammed the hell out of both of your blogs during this manchester united match 😭 #anyways I LOVE YOUS SO MUCH #thank you for everything 😭💕💕💕 #and again ANDY you are so SO talented god bless #and im really sorry for the spam 😔🤟💕 #ok lol its 4:53am over here. i am never watching a man utd game ever again i hate them so much. #goodnight yall ✨💕

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

there is a longing that lies very deep in my bones for platonic bkdk

just… hear me out okay.

bakugou getting his complete shit wrecked with guilt and shame and self-hatred once he finally can comprehend just how big of a piece of shit he was. every atom that makes him up BURNS w determination to be better, do better. he will make it up to midoroya even if it kills him (it would be what he deserves anyway if it did). everything just starts kinda falling in around him bc his whole perception of the world is changing and he’s just. he just has to deal. and he will; its the least he can do after everything he’s done.

midoriya, on the other hand, being allowed to be upset for fucking once. hes safe and okay now and bakugou doesnt hold anymore power over him, so hes allowed to seethe and grieve the childhood he didnt get to have. he gets to hate bakugou for the first time in his life, and he DOES -- very intensely, at that. he has real friends now and he knows what real love is and he gets. to. be. furious. so he is. he indulges the feeling of fire in his veins and he learns to not be afraid to scream out of frustration, especially if that frustration is because of bakugou.

eventually, though, the flames start to flicker out after months of tears and tongue lashings and ignoring each other when one isn’t a sobbing mess apologizing and the other isn’t burning alive with hateful words and a hurt heart.

from there, theyre both left in ashes from the fire that only the most passionate emotions can bring about; midoriya from hate, bakugou from self-loathing. both got their healthy dose (or maybe overdoses) of feeling what they needed to feel. so they hesitantly try to rise from those ashes together.

its hard work, trying to build something from soot, and theyre both absolutely filthy at the end of every single day, but they manage. and slowly, they construct something...functional. not good, not yet, but it’s getting there.

it’s gentle, what they build. it will fall if pressed against too harshly, but they make sure the cornerstones are strong since the support beams can’t be.

bakugou can’t give midoriya his childhood back, but he can help give him a better future. midoriya can’t give bakugou forgiveness, but he can help him to become the person he wants to be.

just...eventually they do make it somewhere. they do become friends, for real, even if they’ll never be as close as midoriya is with iida, uraraka, and todoroki; as close as bakugou is with kirishima. but theyre able to add to what they built, make it stronger.

finally the childhood friends would actually become friends.

#when will horikoshi give me rights #when will bakugou give me rights #when will midoriya get to lose his shit #i am waiting desperately please #anyway is it obvious ive stumbled into a depressive episode bc i think it is #i just keep thinking about *clenches fist* platonic bkdk and how it reminds me so much of #a friendship that could have been everything to me but instead we were both awful and both hurt and we systemically tore each other down for #11 years instead of just talking and finding even ground #oops #anyway. im really emo rn dudes #why cant bkdk be what i and her couldnt be. fuck #anyway! im projecting again. on both of them at the same time oh wow boys #im gonna look at mido content to try and feel better soo #sorry if i spam #thanks yall #c makes a word #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki #bakugou katsuki #izuku midoriya #katsuki bakugou #textpost #tp #platonic bakudeku #platonic bkdk #katsuki bakugo #bnha #boko no hero academia #my hero academia #my hero academy