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zukotheartist · 5 months

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LONG tbosas (book, mostly) post ahead, about Reaper Ash specifically

A lot of people, rightfully, point out when Reaper cuts Panem's flag and throws it on the dead kids but something that gets to me as well (that I think is a really nice touch and should be talked about more) is his other uses of the flag (in the book, anyway).

The first time he cuts the flag, it's to bargain with Lamina.

Yes, he's doing it for himself because his mentor* won't send him food (or water) unless he puts on a good show (aka killing or at least attacking another tribute), which he isn't doing, and it's been days so he needs to eat (if I remember correctly, he had been able to get a few of Lucy Gray/Jessup's extra/leftover water bottles). But he was strong and big enough to hunt down another tribute and then steal their food. Not Lamina, probably, I don't think a big guy would be able to climb a pole that well? (I feel like that'd be easier for a smaller-skinnier person like Coral but idk, i dont climb lol). Regardless, he couldve hunted any of the tributes that were on the ground.

Instead, he notices that Lamina is heavily sunburned (enough for the skin on her nose to be chipping away) and tells her that he'll get her a blanket (piece of flag) to cover herself with, in exchange for some food.

Then he cuts another piece of the flag to cover his dead peers (and ofc that's the main use of it and the most important one).

But then he also cuts a piece of the flag... for HIMSELF. Not to use as a shield from the sun or to wrap a wound or any other "logical" or "useful" reason.

He drapes the cloth on his back and wraps it around his neck.

He makes a CAPE.

And what does he do, right after?

He twirls around and tries to look back at the cape as he's twirling. Then he runs up and down a bit, with his arms out-stretched, letting the cape fly behind him.

And the next time we see him? He's still wearing the cape.

That moment speaks VOLUMES imo.

A lot of people have pointed out that Suzanne Collins does the complete opposite of the usual tropes placed upon black characters: the girls aren't the caretakers, they're the ones being taken care of by other characters (Katniss and Rue + Tresh and Rue + Reaper and Dill) and the boys aren't treated as agressive fully grown men ready to attack, they're depicted as kind and righteous boys who don't wanna cause harm > the way they show it with Reaper (tho we also see it with Tresh) is soo so... idk, I don't have the words for it.

Not only does he apologise, before the game starts, to all the tributes for having to kill them and also promises them that he'll fight the Capitol and avenge them, to then refusing to murder them during the game.

Not only does he respect his peer's dead bodies when he absolutely had no necessity to and would even get repercussions for doing it (cutting the flag = defying the Capitol = no chance of him winning aka surviving).

He's also shown to be just a kid himself.

He's in an awful situation and trying to stay kind and safe and what's a little something that he does for Himself (the ONE thing he does for himself, basically his entire time in the arena he's doing things for others, even when the thing is just refusing to murder) to cheer up? He makes himself a makeshift cape and runs and twirls around a bit.

i have... so many feelings and thoughts on his character... Suzanne Collins' pen is definition of on fire. That's all.

*btw, something that also makes me incredibly sad is how he's taking care of everyone/not harming anyone but his own mentor still won't send him food or water :( and it's especially sad when you remember that Clemensia was one of the only mentors and Capitol people shown to be Actually against the Hunger Games, at first.

She wasn't bored by them (like it can be said for Festus or Arachne) and she wasn't simply disgusted from a gore/imagery perspective (like Snow and Livia too, if I remember well).

She was actually disgusted at them from a human perspective (not nearly as much as Sejanus but still) and even asked if "the Districts hadn't suffered enough" and "why couldn't they stop now that the war was over". Meaning, she was probably gonna be a good mentor (or as good as a mentor can be) before the snakes bit her and messed her up... it's all one big tragedy🥲

EDIT: wait, she Does send food by the end! But the point stands because she sends it after she's healed more and her brain's clearer.

#reaper ash #clemensia dovecote #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #tbosas #thg series #thg #the hunger games #al's post

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deliciousdefendorinternet · 12 days

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if we do get another angst heavy tv show episode in the future then I gotta see it being their Grandma's anniversary and Bro zone not knowing about it.

like just imagine if we get another angst heavy episode like search for piece at some point in the future then one plot point I really wanna see at some point is something to do with their Grandma again now that Bro zone are around.

it could be the anniversary of their Grandmother's death since I like that plot point idea lol and with that there's a couple of options for how the story could go.

either 1. Branch spends the episode going to each of his individual Bros just sorta faking wanting to casually hang out for no real reason.

and even offering to help out when they say that their either busy with work or already have other plans but they basically politely blow him off.

leading to him acting like its no big deal and just going back on his own later on one of the Bros finishes what they were doing.

and ends up deciding to go see if Branch still wants to hang out maybe bumping into the snack pack at the village and casually hears them mention that Branch had asked each of them at different points if they wanted to hang out for the day together as well.

stating he had been acting kinda weird like offering to help do some of their boring stuff with them like their laundry or help babysitting their young cousins.

which the Bro finds suspicious so he gathers the other Bros and asks them if they had had visits from him which they all say they have and they all note he seemed a tad off and almost kinda desperate to spend the day together.

then they all head to the Bunker to see if he's in which he is tho he acts somewhat tense tho clearly trying to act normal in front of the brothers.

but they do keep pushing him for the truth and he eventually sighs and tells them that its the anniversary of when their Grandma died and that he's always found it so much harder being alone on this day.

so in the past he's usually tried to be around other people on this specific day anyway afterwards Branch is somewhat embarrassed given he feels its somewhat childish of him to not be able to handle it on his own.

anyway I find it cute to imagine it ending with the Bros promising he won't have to spend that day by himself again and they all agree to remember the date so they can all stay over together every time the day comes around every year.

or option 2. the Brothers are the ones trying to get Branch's attention maybe asking him if he wants to hang out but after being turned down by him in a somewhat weird way.

they get suspicious and won't let it go kinda leading to the same result only difference is Branch instead normally prefers to spend that particular day of the year alone.

given its what he's used to and he just prefers to deal with things away from other people.

IDK what do you think? you could argue option 2 is more consistent for the Branch we know but I just kinda like the cute idea of option 1 where he's sorta desperate to not be alone on that day.

and he nervously tries to find anyone to spend the day with no matter what he would have to do in order to spend time with them.

but ultimately no one is available and the Brothers do make the agreement to always spend that day of the year together in the end so he never has to go through it alone again.

#trolls #trolls branch #trolls brozone #dreamworks trolls #branch trolls #trolls band together #branch #trolls dreamworks #brozone #trolls 3 #trolls branch angst #trolls brozone angst #trolls angst

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nonuggetshere · 3 months

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Hi girl, I've actually been thinking about things leading up to the vessel plan in FaaF

Personally I like to believe that PK got the idea from his foresight (literally haunted by the visions). It's been showing him void, so much suffocating, overwhelming void, and the brilliant, cold, pale white (yet faint) light containing it. His child, undeniably his child, sitting upon his throne - but they're wrong, twisted, a being of void. That's where he got the idea, how he realised he can make something stronger than a kingsmould to contain her.

It was a self-fulfilling prophecy.

And it ate him up alive. Can you imagine the horror he felt when he realised what he must do? Can you imagine what he felt when he had to tell his root?

She's wanted kids for so long, with him being on the fence, leaning towards no. He didn't believe he was going to be a good father, not now, it was never the right time, maybe in the future. But he could never promise her that and even though she so wanted to be a mother she never pushed it, having children was just not something to push and she didn't want her wyrm to force himself for her.

So asking her for her assistance felt...depraved and cruel, he hated to do this. She's always wanted children and he was now asking her to have them only to make hollow husks out of them, for no other reason but to treat them like tools. It twisted him up inside but it had to be done.

And when he came to her saying he had a solution she was initially happy and didn't understand why he looked so gloom. Wasn't this a good thing? He took her to his workshop and explained, not even being able to look her in the eyes.

And, although pained, her smile never left as she gently placed a hand on his cheek and made him look at her. She agreed readily, if it was what must be done then so be it. She was his wife and companion and she will follow him through this too.

Neither of them expected that having so many clutches would impact them this much. They knew the weight of the decision but in reality it was so much harder than what they've imagined.

It was hard for her to part with their first clutch. The rest would come easier with time, they were all loved but parting with them was a must, but the first one... She's gotten so attached, and it felt shameful to admit because she knew their purpose.

"Can't we keep at least one?"

"Oh, my root..."

"I know what you'll say, but..."

"A plague is not a time to raise a child," He looked at the pristine white egg in her hands and his heart ached, "...They would be a target..."

"...You agreed to assist the Deepnest queen. Won't that child be a target as well? A full-blooded child of gods would have even more resistant to the infection-"

"I know, my root, but they would not be immune, and there are many different ways to hurt a defenceless child. The situation with Herrah is an unique one, she knows the risks and is willing to take them, but if it were up to me-"

"They would not be defenceless with us-"

"My root."

"..."

"You know we can't. Not now. What life would that child have, constantly fearing for their life, constantly being cooped up by us, not being allowed the freedoms a healthy child should have...what kind of life is that?"

"...I know...I'm sorry, it's just-"

"Don't be. Don't ever apologise for something like this, my heart, I...I know... I understand..." He gently laid a hand on top of hers, "I'm sorry too..."

I think what Herrah asked of him felt like salt in the wound.

It pained him to ask her for her permission, after his last request no less. It almost felt like he was mocking her.

But she didn't see it that way, and she readily agreed again. She was always a close part in this, he wouldn't agree to anything else, she had to be a part of this arrangement or he wouldn't let it happen. She even promised him that if Herrah decided to make him a part of this child's life she will help him raise them and love them as if they were her own.

But it still felt so cruel.

I think, even though she agreed to it and assisted, seeing Herrah pregnant with his child would...hurt. She thought she was ready, she could handle it, and if that child was in his life she would help and love them as her own, but...it still hurt so deeply, in a way she could never describe. And he could feel it, that pang of hurt and jealousy when her eyes fell to the Deepnest queen's swollen stomach. Why could she bear his child, when theirs had to be doomed to this fate?

He'd find her once, crying in their room, and she'd tried to apologise but he hushed her. He understood, she needn't apologise. He should be the one begging for her forgiveness.

"...I don't hold it against you, or her, or that child, I just...I don't know why, I..."

"I understand my love. I'm so sorry, for everything, you don't deserve this..."

"Don't speak to me as if I had no hand in all of this, I knew what your plan entailed and I agreed wholeheartedly. I'm not some poor victim, my wyrm."

"...still, it..." He feel silent for a moment, "...Once it's all over, once the infection is gone..." He looked back up at her and stroked her cheek, "We can have ano- a child. We could-"

"My wyrm," Her voice was stern yet gentle in a way, "I don't want you forcing yourself into this."

"I'm not. I promise. I...I've been thinking about this for a long while. I want this child, I want to start a family with you. There is nothing I'd love more."

"My love..."

"Once it's safe we can try again, I promise. We'll have as many as your heart desires, a big lovely family."

She scooped him up and he wrapped his arms around her, pressing their foreheads together.

"And each of them will be loved more than anything in this world. I promise you that."

She couldn't help but smile, "Hmm, as many as my heart desires, you say~?"

"...Okay maybe a little less, lest you turn me into a breeding factory."

She couldn't help but laugh at that and pulled him in closer, "Oh, but how lovely you'd look..."

"My root please-"

"I'm just teasing, my love~"

The day he returned with the vessel was another hard one in their lives. She got so used to just feeling cold disappointment from him whenever he headed for the Abyss that when she felt this strong surge of emotions she instantly knew and her stomach twisted into knots.

Roughly an hour or two later he came to her, in her little recluse in the palace. It felt relieving when he finally showed up, she could hardly relax with that constant nagging feeling at the back of her head, the anticipation of seeing th- it.

"My root."

"I take it your search is complete? You found your pure vessel?"

"...Yes. I thought you should be the first one to see it."

"Well, let's see it then."

The king turned back towards the entrance, "Pure Vessel, to my side."

A tiny masked little thing peeked from behind the corner then made its way to stand beside the king, its movements a little clumsy which was to be expected from such small, stubby little thing. The lady kneeled in front of it, studying it close.

"It's smaller than I expected..."

"From my examination it seems they're a little over five years old, must have hatched only pretty recently."

"You already gave it a mask?"

"It's a bit clunky, but it'll do until I make it a pernament one."

She reached over and undid the straps holding the mask in place before pulling it away, the little vessel squinting visibly at her in her light.

"...It's quite photosensitive, I'm afraid."

"Unserstandable," She gently lifted their chin up to get a better look. Her heart ached, it looked so much like them... "Its birthplace isn't the brightest place in the kingdom, in all fairness." She put its mask back on, gently spinning the vessel around to fasten the straps back around its head.

She stood back up, almost amused at the fact that the vessel stayed in the exact same position as she left it in, turned away from her. She used one of her roots to gently turn it back around before looking back at her husband, her face falling.

"I appreciate the gesture, my wyrm, but this seed is not of me anymore. I've done my part in creating it, but I am not its mother, I do not wish to be a part in the rest of its training."

"...I understand, my root. Well, I— should better be going, I've called for the dreamers to meet us and they should be here any moment now."

"I'll see you later tonight, my love."

"I'll see you... Vessel, after me."

She sat back down, watching as the tiny thig stumbled after its fa-...king. Her heart ached as she looked away. It was going to be much harder than she expected.

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #spooky writes #technically #the rambles got away from me

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jaiistg · 11 months

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Chapter 8

While walking to the cafe,you were really nervous.Its not that you didn't wanna meet Yoimiya's friend,but because you have social anxiety.People often mistake you as a extrovert and outgoing but really,your not.You find it hard to befriends with people,but when you are close to the person,you show them your true self.

Now at the door of the cafe you were met by Hu-tao.Your bestfriend and is also the reason why you met all these wonderful people and your no.1 supporter on doing streams.Sometimes you think that you wouldn't know what to do without her.

"Hey Y/n !! Follow me to our table" she said happily.As I followed her to our table I noticed that the only people on the table was Yoimiya, Kazuha,And Aether.I asked "Yoi where is this person you wanted us to meet?"

"She's late because of her brother.Her brother is really overprotective of her and wants to make sure that she's safe.Dont worry tho shes almost here!" I sat down next to Kazuha and Hu-tao.

A few hours have passed by and a girl went up to us.She had a ponytail and look really elegant and pretty.She sat down to the empty seat which is next to Kazuha.

"Everyone,meet my friend Ayaka!" Everyone welcomed her and said Hi to her.Ayaka was really quiet and I can tell that she is like me.When I was new to this friendgroup I was exactly like that.Quiet and afraid if I might say something wrong.While me and Kazuha talked,I included her into our Convo as I didn't want her to feel left out.

As we were talking,I saw a guy.He had purple hair,kinda short,and most importantly,looked like the guy on Childe's stream.I knew I had to talk with him to ask him questions.I had alot of questions that are still unanswered like "how do you know o/n?" "Whats your name?",ect.

"Guys I have to go,I just need to go to the bathroom" I walked up to him.

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Ayaka noticed that Kazuha was slightly sad, "Anything wrong?" She said. "No im fine,just remembered something" "he smiled sadly.

"Kazuha.I know when someone isn't fine and I can tell you aren't.I know we aren't close but feel free to let out what your feeling to me.If you don't tell anyone what your feeling its gonna be heavy to carry.Your feelings are valid." Kazuha was shocked.This was the first time someone actually cared about what he's feeling.

He sighed and told Ayaka about his problem. "Kazu,I can tell that your an amazing and respectful person.You dont deserve what your feeling and most importantly,someone who won't even return back your feelings.Im not telling you to uncrush them.But you'll just get hurt in the end.I don't want you to get hurt."

Kazu..? He thought,someone made him a nickname...? This was the first time someone made him a nickname and he promised to cherish the nickname Kazu.

"Thankyou Ayaka.Im happy that you listened to what I felt.Im grateful to have a friend like you" Ayaka smiled "Anytime Kazu."

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A few hours went by and Ayaka and Kazuha were having a convo that felt like seconds. "I feel like Y/n ditched us" Lumine said "I might know the reason,I saw Childe's friendgroup including the redflag guy she had been crushing on". "We should make an nickname for him! How about Redflag?" Everyone laughed.

It was now time to go home because the Cafe was about to close.Everyone said bye to eachother.

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+new friend unlocked.

It is my first time writing something like this,did I do well? :))

Taglist: @inferisk0 @yukiipc @lxkeeeee

Masterlist:

#genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #childe x reader #genshin smau #ajax x reader #kazuha x reader #xiao x reader #childe fluff #genshin smut #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche smau #genshin oneshots #genshin imagines

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idleorbitals · 9 months

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only friends ep 3 watch through (part 2/2)

(part 1)

got too wordy again for a single post. maybe next week I will do Less Scenes. not right now tho

*begin vid section [3/4]*

boston and nick pull up to the party in the car we understand boston and top will be banging in later tonight. nick asks about top and mew and boston says, to nick's face, that mew is soooo into top but won't admit it. then they both play at accusing the other of being into top. I don't think either of them is into top. nick is into boston and boston is into conquest

there is faint eerie music playing over this entire scene. also this shot is just....gorgeously composed. goddamn

I don't know folks boston is such a manipulative jerk. we see it right here in this scene when he tells nick he can call their relationship what he wants to keep him on the hook. but also he is broadcasting to nick over and over how casual he wants to keep this and like. I don't sympathize with boston at all but idk if nick still has a firm grasp on the moral high ground here. not least, you know, now that we know that nick is bugging boston as this conversation happens

at the party we get a brief little sandray flirting scene. sand's "I don't know, I'm not a jukebox" line is an absolute winner in my book. ray casts move into your flirt-ee's personal space, say something suggestive in a low tone, and then smirk. straight out of ayan's book. haven't counted but this has definitely happened in nearly every scene they've shared so far

*pre read more warning this got Long*

mew smells a sandray rat. ray swears he doesn't have feelings for sand and thinks he's telling the truth. top walks up and ray gives him the stink eye but cannot compete with this entirely over the top (pun intended) move from sand:

baby doesn't do subtle even though he seems to think he can

boston shows up to mess with ray so that ray will help him mess with topmew. ray says "who's sleeping with who is not my business" which is generally true and nice of him to say but you know. he's feeling it anyhow. especially as boston keeps digging in on how pathetic ray is and how manipulative top is. boston really setting himself up for the karmic retribution here

then boston proceeds back into the kitchen to mess with top about mew and ray. particularly noteworthy here is that the picture he has of them was obviously taken without permission. was this a funny little *ooh my friends are kissing each other* moment for boston?? did he have some kind of motive even then to be creepy? is this just to add to his bad guy cred? anyway he promises he has even more but he's not going to show it to top unless he comes to find him in the parking lot after the party. now nick walks in and eavesdrops on this whole conversation. mess! mess! mess!

now boston is sending nick home alone but says "i'm worried about you" and this is a lie! I think! but it's hard to be sure bc everyone's lying all over the place here. we know that boston is staying behind to try to get in top's pants and nick is staying behind to watch and no one is to be trusted. "I'm a grown up" nick says, "no one dares to hurt me" in the voice of dramatic irony. then he says "look at my face" and pouts very cutely at boston

idk this reads to me as a genuinely fond expression. dunno if that's relevant but it feels notable somehow. I guess what I'm trying to say is boston is obviously a manipulative asshole but for everything he's pulling with top-mew-ray right now the main thing he could really be accused of with nick is stringing him along. he's obsessed with top for separate reasons than nick is obsessed with him but they are looking more alike than different in this episode to me

meanwhile mew comes upon ray watching sand pack up and accuses him of having feelings again. mew is picking up on some things ray seems to still be oblivious to. but also not picking up on some other very big things??

mew says: "you can finally get rid of your loneliness" "I want you to be happy" and this absolute kicker:

yes he is, because his crush just took him around the shoulder and told him he wanted him to be happy while gazing lovingly into his eyes.

especially now that we have proof positive that something happened between them in past it makes this difficult to read. can mew possibly claim ignorance of ray's feelings atp? is he well aware but doesn't return them and is trying to be a good friend by encouraging him to pursue something with sand? what's the line here?

ray's iconic throwing of the solo cup after mew leaves with top gets cut for, according to p'jojo, shot continuity reasons. interesting because not having it there gives a minor bump to how sym/pathetic ray looks coming out of this scene. once again he gets the nicest framing here and I could be wrong but I don't think this is my bias showing

*begin vid section [4/4]*

here come ray and sand to have their weirdly wholesome dynamic where sand checks in on ray looking blue all night and ray checks in on sand getting home safely

sand is having rideshare issues and ray insists on taking him home and sand gazes longingly up at ray from like half a foot above him once again. unreal

cut to brief shot where mew insists top goes home instead of coming in with him. good job advocating for yourself mew but bad job choosing the option that leads to at least two more messes tonight alone

sandray car makeout scene (the first?? 👀👀). I wrote a lot of this up here and in the interest of not making this post any longer than it already is that's where it's going to live

but I will use just a little bit of all that space I saved on this shot of ray looking absolutely blissed out about these moves

and also these much less fun character beats. in the first one ray looks up from the phone call and there's this awful moment where we see him look over at sand like he's just remembering he's there. ray cares about sand already more than he thinks he does. but when mew calls his attention refocuses so entirely on him that sand's feelings don't even rank. this whole thing feels so real and they're playing it so well

ray chews on his bottom lip and gazes forlornly after sand as he goes but he doesn't try to stop him or fight him when he says they're better off leaving it as a one night stand. I read this as an almost thoughtful move. ray has expressed already that he'd like to keep seeing sand but that this is contingent on sand being comfortable leaving emotional involvement out of it. right now ray knows his own priority is mew, and it would be a dickish, boston-ish move to try to pin sand down by placating him on his way out

we'll see what's up next for these two though. my guess based on what we've seen so far? ray will start to pursue sand more emotionally sincerely; he will hang onto the just-friends line but justify this to himself and to sand as showing proper care toward his new friend who he also happens to want to bang. sand will be drawn back in despite his better judgement. eventually they will concede that they are not just friends any more but/and ray's feelings for and prioritization of mew will keep messing with the dynamic. sand will find out about ray's long running feelings for mew but probably not from ray himself, and he will feel hurt and used, rightfully or not. as they continue to hurt each other they will both blame themselves, sand because he thinks he should have known better and ray because he does self-hatred like it's a competitive sport

can't wait

okay final scene: boston and top have their long-teased car sex and nick stands in a lit doorway a stones throw away watching and listening to the whole thing. I have many thoughts here but instead I'm going to just take the moment to appreciate some of the mechanics of this scene bc it exemplifies how many moving pieces they are stitching together to elevate this show to the next level narratively and compositionally:

-sand slamming the door as he gets out of ray's car perfectly synched with top closing the door as he climbs into boston's car is chef's kiss

-another absolutely gorgeous shot. the contrast of this one with the same shot (see top of post) of boston and nick except we see boston and top through the windshield and the rain

-boston sitting there behind the steering wheel of his perfect little car literally and metaphorically driving the plot with his manipulations

-neo's acting in this scene holy moly

👏 CI👏 NE👏 MA

(all ofts watch throughs)

#ofts #only friends the series #sandray #raysand #firstkhaotung #ofts meta #whew oh man #can't believe there's a whole week in between these episodes i barely have time to get through the entire cycle of grief in between lmao #ofts watch through

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dragons-hoard-of-fandoms · 2 years

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Well, that...

That was something. (Cut 'cuz spoilers. Long. Small angry rant near the end.)

I can't really say it was bad, but, y'know, can't say it was all that fantastic either. Just doesn't feel like the "conclusion" it was promised as - which is honestly understandable, given that the new show is on its way. And, y'know, having to pack everything into only eleven minutes doesn't really grant ya much wiggle room. I feel like there'd be a much better payoff if it had more time to work with - twenty-two minutes like the Wil Film seasons, or a full TV movie.

It's definitely more satisfying than "Endings," tho, so I'll give it that.

I think I speak for everyone when I say I wish we'd gotten more of Oni Lloyd. Considering it was being hyped up as this big final ultimate form that may or may not end up rampaging across the city, destroying everything in sight as Lloyd takes out all the anger and frustrations that have been building up within him probably since this whole "destiny" nonsense was dropped on him, enacting a role reversal of the Kryptarium fight when Garmadon tries to face him only to finally understand exactly how he made his son feel back then when (despite Garm actually genuinely giving his all) Lloyd nearly kills him, has him by the throat and tells him "I have no father," while the Ninja are forced to confront the possibility that the only way to save their friend is to destroy him...

Yeah, Lloyd going full Oni for like five seconds only to immediately back out before actually doing anything was a letdown. But who knows, maybe they'll come back to it in the new series. Get on it, writers! Let our boy go crazy go stupid! Don't make this another Tornado of Creation!

Garmadon's second redemption certainly has room to grow. He's clearly trying, and I appreciate that, but I wish he'd made a more obvious effort that he was trying to reconcile with his son. I get that he can't just come right out and say it, not when he still can't quite comprehend just what "it" is, and I get that Lloyd wouldn't be able to just roll over and forgive him, not when he's probably still having nightmares about Seasons Eight through Ten and his whole original motivation from Season One is now his greatest fear... But still. I totally called that Christofern was serving as a stand-in for Lloyd when it came to Garmadon's feelings about him, but it felt like they were trying to push it from an allegory to a literal - pretty much any time Garm's ability to care was called into question, Christofern was the example given. The only arguable exception is that one scene with Nya, but even then, it's deflected onto Christofern so bluntly that's it's practically calling us stupid for thinking Garmadon's empathy could extend beyond his plant.

Again, tho, the new series still has a chance to remedy this. Sensei Garmadon could still return to us in some form. The Dragon half could still claw his way out of the Departed Realm, reunite with the Oni, and give Lloyd his real dad again. I like to imagine Garmadragon has been barreling across the multiverse screaming "HAVE YOU SEEN MY SON" for the past eight seasons, and the only reason he hasn't shown up yet is because there are a lot more than fourteen Realms out there. He could still turn up.

Look all I'm saying is Lloyd and Garmadon's Oni heritage has gotten its time in the spotlight, give the Dragons their turn. And while you're at it, acknowledge Wu's inhuman qualities for once. He's DragOni too.

Other Stuff I Don't Have As Much to Say About:

"Compatible" really doesn't hit as hard as Tommy was trying to convince us it would. IDK, maybe what with Zane dying every other weekend we're just desensitized to the whole ordeal. It was cute, tho, I certainly won't deny that.

Clutch still has Nadakhan's teapot. Is that ever gonna be relevant or

I can't believe they had Zane fight Mr. F and not reveal Mr. F as Echo. What do we gotta do to make them bring back Echo?!

Did they really think revealing the Overlord was responsible for the Devourer was some big unexpected twist? Pretty certain we all gathered that WAY back the first two seasons.

On that note, WOW was she-whose-name-we-do-not-speak-in-this-household's heel-face turn stupid. You were literally working with the dude who released the Devourer in the first place! If it was so easy for you to blame Lloyd for that, you should've been able to trace it back to the Overlord right from the start!

Yes I still despise she-whose-name-we-do-not-speak-in-this-household with every fiber of my being. Yes I still would've laughed and cheered if she had been murdered on-screen in such a brutal and violent manner that it never would've been allowed on television if they weren't Legos. Yes I still want Lloyd to go on an insane Oni-powered rampage with her as the first and only casualty. No I am not sorry and no I will never forgive her and no I will never accept her as anything other than the thing that ruined Garmadon. SHE IS NOT HIS DAUGHTER AND NEVER WILL BE AND I WOULD GLADLY REWRITE THE ENTIRE SHOW FROM SCRATCH TO PREVENT HER FROM EVER EXISTING

Can't say I was expecting the Ninja to lose their powers again (I figured they would've permanently gone full Dragon or something - another "dead without actually dying" case à la Nya turning into the ocean), but, y'know, can't say I'm too shocked by it either. Last time this happened was, what, Season Five? If anything they were overdue.

All in all, a decent end to a season and an alright end to an era, but not so much to an entire series like it's being billed as. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed it, and I've definitely seen worse finales (*cough cough* Star vs. the Forces of Evil *cough*), but that's not to say there isn't any wasted potential here. Maybe there wouldn't have been such high expectations if it hadn't been played up as this heart-wrenching, soul-crushing eleven-minute epic. Maybe if it'd lived up to the hype I wouldn't be writing this. Or maybe regardless of how things turned out, there would always be a little disappointment mixed into it. Who's to say, really.

Either way, the 2023 series certainly has a lot to live up to, and a fairly solid foundation to build off of. There's still a few loose ends to tie up, plot points to resolve, mysteries to uncover, stories to finish. What's up in the other Realms? Where are the Time Twins? Will we ever see Morro again?

We're just gonna have to wait and see, I suppose.

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kaeyasstarlight · 2 years

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Sounds of love(Kaeya Alberich x GN!Reader)

A.N: This is for @xiaoslxt and @adalynn-is-lost's event :)) I got Phonophobia(fear of loud noises). I hope you'll enjoy it and that I was able to fulfill the theme ^^

Warnings: Loud noises, Feeling of fear, Crying, undressing(nothing explicit), mention of alcohol consumption, Kaeya calls reader darling and love

Genre: Fluff/Comfort

Word count: 1,2 k

Disclaimer: I did some research on phonophobia, but if something is wrong, tell me so that I can fix it :))

The tavern.

It can be a relaxing place for some people, like for your boyfriend Kaeya. Although, for you, it wasn't really. You knew your boyfriend loves to go there almost every night, so you didn't want to tell him you didn't like this place because of all the noise, mostly people talking loudly, drunk people who can yell as well as get crazy and many other factors that might trigger your phonophobia. You're scared that he might think wrong of you(which he would never cause he literally adores you no matter what) and that he might think you're acting childish for being afraid of something like this(know that no matter what you are valid and no matter what you're scared of doesn't make you weak).

Usually, when he asks you if you want to go to the tavern with him you tell him that you're too tired or that you have some work to finish, etc. Except, this time you didn't have any reasons to not go cause he knows you finished your work yesterday evening and the way you look right now doesn't look like someone tired.

So that's how you got where you are right now, in the living room of the home you both share, both sat down on the couch when he says:

"I'm going to the tavern you wanna join? Diluc is going to be there and I know me and him are not on the best terms, but if you want to catch up with him, go ahead. I'm sure that he wants to see how you're doing even tho he won't admit it. Plus, drinks are on me tonight don't worry. You worked so hard lately and I want to treat my darling a bit.", he kissed your cheek. You gotta admit his offers seemed nice and maybe you're just stressing. Maybe it's not so loud and that you might have some fun. You've never really gone there so you don't actually know if it's as bad as you think it is. Also, he's right. You did wanna catch up a bit with Diluc. Some stuff happened since childhood and it's been a while since you had a real conversation with him. Plus, your lovely boyfriend is gonna be there so if anything happens you know he will do anything for you.

"Yeah let me get ready and let's go", you give him a sweet smile and head towards the room to get changed out of your pyjamas.

You both arrive at the tavern's door hand in hand and he sees that you seem a bit nervous. He looks at you.

"Hey, if you feel uncomfortable at any moment, tell me and we will go home immediately, okay sweetheart?" Sometimes you wonder how you got someone so loving as him in your life.

"Okay I promise", you give him a small smile then he squeezes your hand a bit to show you that he's here for you.

He opens the door for you like a gentleman and follows you right after. Venti and Rosaria, his drinking buddies, are here as well both sitting in front of the bar with Diluc on the other side of it. Kaeya sits down on a stool and you sit down right beside him.

"Hello dear brother, do you remember our lovely [your name]?"

"Of course I do.", he looks at you, "Hello, [your name]. It's been a while, how are you doing?", he says his tone least harsh than when he was talking to Kaeya. You both start a conversation while he serves his brother a glass of Death After Noon. Your boyfriend chats a bit with his friends while you catch up a bit with Diluc. He seems happy that you're the one taking care of his brother, but he won't tell you that tho, well not now at least. Kaeya holds your hand under the bar the whole time and you think, maybe it's not that bad. Maybe you just got stressed a bit.

After a while, an unknown figure to both you and the others at the bar appears besides Diluc.

"Ah yes, this is [insert a name]. Charles recommended them to me as a new bartender. I'm forming them tonight." You all greet them as they serve you drinks.

The evening goes on and people seem to get a bit drunker. They start to talk louder than earlier and stand on the tables to sing drunkenly. The hold you have on Kaeya’s hand starts to be a bit more strong and don’t think he didn’t notice. He looks at you to see if you're okay and you give him a small smile. He trusts you but decides to not take any more drinks for the night in case you need his full attention.

You start to hear more and more loud people talking, cheering and singing. The noises ramble in your ears and your body starts to shake with your heartbeat getting faster. The last drop that makes you panic is when Diluc's new employee drops a glass on the floor and it makes a loud noise. Your body starts to shake even more as well as your heartbeat is faster than earlier after and tears are starting to form in your eyes.

Kaeya's first priority at the moment is you as soon as he feels you shake. He brings in a corner away from people and the looks of others. Your friends leave you and Kaeya alone cause they know this is best for you. He takes your hands and asks you in a comforting voice:

"Love, can you look at me?", you look at him with teary eyes and the sight breaks a part of his heart. You have a scared look on your face and you look like you want to run away.

"We're going home, love. I'm here for you don't worry I'll take care of you."

He says his goodbyes and leaves the tavern carrying you on his back. The fresh air makes you feel a bit better and seems to calm you down. The town is quiet at this hour and the road to your shared house is not too far away.

Kaeya gently lays you on the bed and asks you if he can undress you to be in more comfortable clothes. You nod yes and he goes get a shirt and pants of his that he knows you love cause it smells like him. He gently changes your clothes and makes sure you're comfortable.

"Are you feeling better? Do you need something? Water? A blanket? Anything you need I will go get it for you."

"Just you. And maybe a hug?"

"Of course darling."

He lays down next to you in the bed and hugs you from behind while giving you relaxing touches on your skin.

"Ummm Kaeya?"

"Yes, darling?"

"Well, the reason why panicked out there is that... I have a thing called phonophobia... Basically, it means that I'm afraid of loud noises and it makes me scared... Sorry, you probably think I'm weak...", you look away from him after this last sentence

"Love, no...", he holds your cheek gently, "I would never think you're weak. We all have our fears and it's totally okay. You know I would have never judged you. I'm sorry if I made you go there and you were uncomfortable."

"No don't worry. I thought that I maybe it wasn't that bad, but now I know I might not go there for a while..."

"Don't worry it's totally okay. At least now I know about your fear and I will be there for you whenever you need"

He will always be here for you when you're afraid

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theasexuwhalestuff · 2 years

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Thoughts while watching Part VI of the Kenobi Series

Obi-Wan's proud smile as he watches Leia cheer another kid up with Lola.

Ex-fucking-cuse me how tf is Reva alive??? Everyone is not fucking Darth Maul, okay? And neither does she have two stomachs like the Grand Inquisitor so what fucking gives?? Guess surviving being impaled isn't a big deal these days, huh? I can just hear Qui-Gon looking down from Force Heaven in utter contempt. He died, but these bitches be prancing around all over the place.

Owen is so gruff but so fond of baby Luke I can't.

Obi finally ready to continue the cycle of sacrificing himself for the greater good. Yay, I guess?? Since that's who he was as a Jedi?? Going back to normal.

Lmao Beru snarking back "Whose fault is that?" when Owen says Obi-Wan's gone.

Beru pulling out a giant blaster and Owen just going O.O is my new favourite thing.

Baby Leia sad that the battered grimy old man is going out to get himself killed.

"You're ten years old. But you won't always be." Excuse you STFU how dARE.

Yay sad parting hugs.

The way he smiles and promises he'll come back. That's the our old Obi-Wan right there. Ewan McGregor go OFF.

See the Grand Inquisitor knows exactly when to STFU and keep his head. But his tiny conceding nod to Vader tho LMAO. Like okay, do as you wish dumbass.

The Lars Parents tryna seem hopeful and putting on a brave face for Luke, but you know that kid knows this might be the last time he sees 'em.

Obi-Wan's twinkly-eyed smile at finding Lola in his robe 😭😭😭 Our man is back.

Lola's nervous beep omg.

"I will do what I must," my ass. Bitch can't kill his son-brother for shit.

Omg omg the old lightsaber-over-shoulder-one-hand-out pose is BACK!!!!!

Oh, so he's suddenly back in his old form now? After being fucking roasted days ago? Nice.

Owen and Beru are such icons. Going up against an Inquisitor for their baby boy.

Okay, but Reva severed a woman's hand for talking back. And you're telling me he left Owen and Beru alive? For what reason exactly?

Run, Luke, run.

Ok NOW the duel's starting to get interesting.

Obi-Wan Kenobi fucking smiling as he flings boulders at Vader with the Force is not something I knew I needed.

What an icon. Yet he still won't be able to kill him. 😒

Reva, you're really gonna stoop as low as Anakin, huh? That's the hill you wanna die on? Killing children? Okay gurl. You do you I guess.

DARTH VADER WHEEZING AND GROANING AND TOPPLING OVER OH MY FUCKING GOD YESSSS

Obi-Wan you are such a fucking wimp oh my FUCKING God. Yes, that's the child you raised and loved. But you saw with your own eyes the kinda destruction and carnage he leaves in his wake. And still you thought he might be worth saving?? And even when you realised he couldn't be saved you just up and left????? Explain this to me. You brought fucking Darth Vader to his knees--one of the few ppl who can even do that--and yet you just chose to not kill him??? Have you learnt NOTHING from Mustafar?? You're just gonna let him crawl wheezing back to his bacta tank so he can unleash the rage he has built up for you on innocent people?? Like WHAT THE FUCK MAN. Make it make sense.

Idk why Obi-Wan and other ppl choose to see it like Vader killed Anakin BS. Vader IS Anakin. That's what he became. That's what he chose. That's who he is now. His upbringing might not have been ideal and he might have been groomed. But the choices we make are ultimately our own. Ppl be actin' like his life trauma absolves him of killing literal children lmfaoo. Carry on.

Wow. Luke lost in the desert is the ONE TIME Owen doesn't look like he's contemplating physical violence when he sees Obi-Wan.

Beru not batting an eye at all at Obi-Wan's appearance pretty much confirms she sees him around often. At the market at Anchorhead, when she's out with Luke, maybe.

Reva showing up with a slumped Luke is a sight. Owen and Beru's faces. Thinking she carried over their child's body. Good God. I'm not even a parent but man the chills. Wondering how actual parents would react upon watching that scene.

Their look of confusion, caution and wtf is wrong with you directed at Reva.

Reva seeing real parents actually loving their kid. Their whole world stopping when they think their kid's dead. 💔💔💔

Owen's final look of pure contempt and what tf do you think you accomplished at Reva. Owen, my man, pls stop being such an icon.

Reva crying and Obi-Wan comforting her is another thing I didn't know I needed.

Reva trying to get revenge by killing Vader's kid, to avenge the kids he killed, but failing cuz Luke is a kid and someone else's family is just poetic.

"He killed them all, and I couldn't do it."

And yet she's afraid of becoming the monster that slaughtered her family.

I'm actually gonna thank Star Wars for showing how deep childhood trauma and hurt run.

Vader abt to force-choke the nearest being and Palpatine just goes you seem agitated, bro.

Palpatine tryna figure out if he needs to have his pet cyborg murdered.

Alderaan my beloved.

Dang nooo why is it so beautiful it's all gonna get destroyed.

Baby Leia getting ready for her next adventure. I need more wholesome scenes like this in movies 😭❤😭❤😭❤

Ok but literally HOW did they think Vivian Lyra Blair was gonna pass for a 10-year-old??? She was eight during filming and she looks even more baby. Look at how smol she is and her chubby baby hands 😭❤😭❤😭❤

I just keep rewatching the scene and laughing. How are her chubby baby hands actually doing any fastening??

How did Breha not see the holster before? No srsly? Did Bail help her hide it? Cuz if not, what in the rich parent BS...

Wow. Imagine having loving, supportive parents when you needed it the most as a kid. Just wow.

I fucking love Alderaan so much.

OMG. THERE IT IS. THERE'S OBI-WAN. It's the same smile from ROTS--the EXACT same smile. Our man is truly back for good holy shit look at his happy smile 😭❤😭❤😭❤

HOLY FUCK his old cadence and playful tone--they're BACK. THIS IS OBI-WAN KENOBI FRIENDS. NOT BEN.

Hugging Bail 😭

Omg him just crossing his arms and giving her a playful smile. THIS is the Obi-Wan we know. This is how he is with kids.

"I think you should sleep." DAMN.

Alderaan is so beautiful, but for what? To just get destroyed. ☹

Obi-Wan's voice breaking as he talks abt the things Leia inherited from her bio parents.

"Both were exceptional people." 🤡🤡🤡

I am so sad. We coulda had so much. If Obi-Wan had just killed Anakin during Order 66, we coulda had Uncle Obi visiting Leia in Alderaan and going on adventures with her. No sad goodbyes. More Alderaan. More uncle/grandpa-niece/granddaughter shenanigans. But nO.

Sad parting hugs. AGAIN.

And Obi's just soaking it up cuz he knows this might well be the last time he sees her. Life is pain.

No. Don't let go. Of her baby hand.

Omg it's the outfit from the comics YESSS. That and the teal outfit are my fave.

He leavin' the cave 😔

Owen looking suspicious, but not as suspicious as usual .

"Take good care of him." Like they haven't been for years. Like they didn't just throw hands with an Inquisitor. Bitch STFU.

Owen doesn't like Obi-Wan. But he knows just how much that boy means to Obi-Wan. He's the son of the boy Obi-Wan himself raised. So he gives in begrudgingly and actually smiles at Obi-Wan. "BEN! You wanna meet him?" Owen Lars. What a man.

Baby Luke immediately starts smiling at him 😭😭😭

HELLO THERE

Really liking Obi's new fit.

Bro, the moment I saw Qui-Gon's blue behind HOLY FUCK. CHILLS. I had to pause and scream into my hands and get up and jump around my room. The adrenaline was too much.

And then he turned around and everything went to shit. They spent the entire budget on TBOBF on a fucking perfect-looking deepfake Luke but here we are with 40-yr-old padawan Anakin, AOTC Obi-Wan just aged up a bit, and Qui-Gon who doesn't even look like Qui-Gon. They couldn't age ANY of them down a little???

Before I bitch abt Qui-Gon, does anyone remember Liam Neeson denying being in this series?? He pulled the same thing as McGregor but that bastard not only said they couldn't afford him, but also pretended to not know abt anything going on w Star Wars rn. He literally went do ppl still like Star Wars? As if he never heard of the sequels or oh idk baby yoda??? Played a bit too dumb honey.

Anyway, back to Qui-Gon bashing. This man. Bitch sees his son for the first time in 23 years and the first thing he says is took you long enough?? No greeting, no smile, no reassurance, comfort or an apology, nothing. Bitch ditched his son with the weight of the world on his shoulders, and now after years of that same son desperately calling out to him he responds, saying Obi-Wan's the one who wasn't ready to see him. Bruh. What a fucking bitch. Srsly Qui-Gon? WTAF.

#kenobi series #kenobi spoilers #obi-wan kenobi #darth vader #owen lars #beru lars #reva #leia organa #luke skywalker #bail organa #breha organa #star wars

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tell me everything abt hicktown RIGHT NOW!!!!!

WOah calm down there friend no need to pull out the capital letters and the five (5) exclamation marks! (tysm for asking abt them they're in my head 24/7 and I'm kissing u right on ur beautiful noggin)

okay, this is really hard to explain itd be easier to show but I have ZERO (0) pages done so ur gonna have to stick with me okay pleas and thank u.

Hicktown takes place in a small town in the 80s and focuses (I'm gonna switch POVs a couple thousand times so sorry in advance) on Jacob, who has just moved into said small town to live with his stepbrother Joe and him being the amazing family man he continues his fathers legacy by leaving a child by their lonesome to go party with his friends and now Jacob's on his own so he just explores this big ass house, did I mention Joe's family is rich? Remember that.

Switch POVs we're with Joe at this random party hanging out with his girlfriend (Angie) and his BFF (Eddie) on a patio (very important detail/s). Angie fucks off to who knows where and so The Boys are alone and Eddie breaks the silence with:

"Hey, I love you man but your girlfriend is kind of a freak."

Very tactful but not tactful enough so Joe displaying a very Rare W is like "Hey man that's totally not cool what you said about someone I really care about please take that back and apologise to Angie or we won't be friends anymore." (HE DOESN'T ACTUALLY SAY THIS IT INVOLVES A LOT LESS CRITICAL THINKING) so they have a big fight Joe probably calls Eddie faggot (did I mention that Eddie's gay and has internalised homophobia running through his veins and Joe knows this and also uses this against him. Wow [I PROMISE IT GETS BETTER]) so Eddie leaves and Angie comes back.

Angie can see that he's upset so she Invites Joe to go out into the woods with her to take a breather and he Accepts.

So they go out into the woods together and they talk about anything that they can think of until Angie stops Joe. They're deep into the woods now and the only thing allowing them to see is the moonlight. It's a quiet night sans the music but even then it's been drowned out from the distance. Even the quiet chittering of wildlife is gone.

A twig snapping is what breaks Joe out of his trance.

It all happens so quickly. There's a bat cracking his skull open and white hot pain is eating him alive.

Okay, I'm gonna stop here or I'm gonna spill the entire story LOL. Sorry abt how messy and jumbled this is I'm sillay. but I gotta explain their character archetypes bc it's very important!!!

Joe's character is a spin-off of the pretty boy character he's that but awful. He's built off of being pretty, rich, privileged and WHITE (sounds silly but it fr adds to his character + I get to laugh at him)

He stops being an asshole i prommy <3333

EDDIE, my sweet boy, is the #gaybestfriend (+poc) trope

eddie loves and supports joe but also has a hard time standing up for himself and articulating how he feels to ppl and kinda just goes along with what joe does. the only reason he allows this is bc they're childhood friends (and he has a big phat crush on joe) he would not take shit from anyone else but keeping up with it is definitely wearing him down :(

things get better for all o them tho I love them too much to hurt them permanently

if you read all of this holy fuck u have my heart

#hicktown #ask #writing #jackory speaks #long post #theres more characters but this post is long enough so ill shut up #long-lost-mcguffin #asks #keegy weegy ocs

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definitely-not-captain-america · 2 years

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I should start by saying I've never seen Euphoria or Riverdale, but I have complaints nonetheless.

Why do these shows keep taking place in high school? A lot of them are oversexualized and deal with lots of drugs and alcohol, which is illegal for everyone under 21, but I think it's worse if you show minors engaging in this stuff

The actors cast in these roles are NEVER teenagers, and they're put in flawless makeup, cute and trendy outfits, with either hourglass figures or gym bods, none of which is an accurate representation of high school students

School takes up at least 7 hours of most people's days, not to mention sports, and a lot of teens work. That doesn't leave a lot of time to get up to shenanigans (tho ofc it still happens)

A lot of kids have parents to deal with, and if your parent is even somewhat strict or responsible, then getting up to shenanigans again becomes more difficult when you have adults always keeping an eye on you

Skipping class and school results in truancy and fines, and even jail time for some. High school tends to be a whole lot stricter

Now for my reasons why these shows should take place in college instead.

I didn't drink, smoke, or go to parties until college, where there could be 2-3 parties between Friday and Saturday, both in dorms and off campus. I went to a small school, so I'm sure bigger schools have even more options for parties

No parents! No one to tell us what to do! If you're on campus then there are RAs and campus security to worry about, but our RAs were chill, and unless we were too loud after quiet hours, we weren't caught (I was only ever caught once, and all they did was email me a report, no other consequences)

It's so much easier to skip classes. Oftentimes, if a professor doesn't require attendance, people won't show up. I had one 2pm class on Fridays and I skipped that a ton, and guess what? My grade never suffered. I certainly didn't get truancy or a fine

You wanna cast 20-year-olds? You can actually do that, because we are in our 20s! Fancy makeup? I knew people who do that kinda thing. Gym bods? Find a college athlete WITHOUT one. That's not to say every college student looks like this, but those guys with six packs and big chests are more common in college when our bodies are more developed

And don't ever assume that college students are smarter or more mature than high schoolers. I don't care so much what people think of me anymore, and I'm 10x more likely to play drunk catch in the hall at midnight. Or the middle of the day. Both have happened

It's easier to do sex scenes when everyone is over 18, and they play characters that are over 18. I'm not encouraging underage drinking or illegal drug use, but it's much more accessible to me than it was in high school. You wanna cast Cole Sprouse, who's pushing 30? He looks much more like a college student, I promise you're not fooling anyone by casting him as a high schooler

Also, there are people outside of high school that exist. If you want movies and shows with people that are young and stupid, I just think it makes more sense to cast legal adults to PLAY legal adults

This is simply something I feel strongly about and I decided to make a post about it

#s #euphoria #riverdale #the content in these shows can be heavy anyway #it just makes me so uncomfortable that they're playing minors #college students can literally be just as stupid but at least we're legal adults #i legit couldn't watch past the first episode of euphoria #it might've been different if they didn't portray teenagers and minors

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derealfeelz · 11 months

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Values: Friends (Kodoku's Lilacs, The Life of a Flowstar No. 28)

I know a few posts ago, I made a post called "Lone Wolf". I guess this is somewhat a sequel, especially since it's talking about my friends and that post was talking about how I wanted to be alone. I'm still the type of guy to be alone, but I still like to talk to my friends then and there, I do got the majority of one I met from school on Snapchat, since it seems like they all use it. Before I do start tho, I'm not gonna name anyone out for reasons.

Funny enough, unless someone manages to get ahold of my email or phone (if they can unlock through it), no one that I know of knows of this page lol. The reason why is because I'm a lil shy and paranoid with showing people stuff, even tho this is being posted public. I even do a bunch of other stuff online that they don't know I do, although I feel like if someone were interested enough and sits down on a computer like me, they'd probably fine out what I do, and hopefully they do that when we're all put of school if they ever do, because that'll be embarrassing.

Anyways, let's get to the topic.

I have a bunch of friends that I can value, especially my virtual friends from 2018-2021 (when we started drifting away from each other, we can still contact eac other if we wanted to). My virtual friends, at the moment of writing this, felt like my true friends, the funniest friends I had. The reason why is because the state before where I'm at now, no one really liked me, then I moved schools and I only got one friend, then moved to where I am now. I wish I could've met them irl now, it's making me a lil nostalgic with those days, playing Minecraft and a few other games, the good old days. I did have this one "friend" tho that had anger issues and although he was somewhat cool we had fun memories, I had to distance myself from him because of his issues and his response wasn't very cool, that's why I don't really go out to the virtual world to make friends.

Now onto my current irl friends, the truest ones. If you remember the situation I mentioned with me and the principal in my recent hospital trip, it was something on Snapchat and I'll explain it fully in a future post, but I accidentally had my friends involved and I thought it was GGs for me lol, but somehow it wasn't. They understood that what I did was kinda stupid, but they also knew the principal was the bigger bitch because of the situation, and I promise you he got mad over something stupid. I feel like they got my back on anything, and that they'd have a good time if I ever came over, just scared tho because my stepdad knew about them and I believe he mentioned that it might be a good idea to tell them about him.

Speaking of the last sentence, I did have a "girlfriend" (Idk if it was even a relationship tbh) for like a month, and when her mom knew about my stepdad, it didn't turn out well, not like visited us, just had her daughter ghost me and not speak to me in person. I say it's fucked up, although Idk the history, but they both could've just made up and I could've had someone for longer (The mom didn't see okay anyway). Won't talk about it anymore as it should've been kept personal and not spoken online, but fuck it, the bros had my back. Anyways, I think in my next post, I might talk about my type of gf that I may like, even tho I'm not interested in a relationship atm. Anyways, peace, always get the bros over hoes.

Sincerely, Kodoku.

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corleylexi · 1 year

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so a thing i like to do is tell stories through a playlist. i recently worked on one and it’s short but i think it’s done. idk for sure the first one i ever did has been modified since it was “done” so i’m sure i’ll keep going but for now i’m just enjoying this lil story and damn it’s good. wish i could share it w someone tho. so instead i’m making a post about it.

it will be a long one…

the hardest goodbye

Promise Me (Acoustic) - Badflower

Only Love - Badflower

right where you left me - Taylor Swift

champagne problems - Taylor Swift

Midnight Rain - Taylor Swift

Bigger Than The Whole Sky - Taylor Swift

*** if you have never heard these songs before (and you’re actually reading this and give a 💩) listen to the playlist before reading on (: ***

ik what you may be thinkin; that’s only two artists what kinda playlist is this?? but that’s actually intentional. josh is the voice of character a and taylor is the voice of character b (and in my mind they also play the characters). some context: josh’s character is wildly imaginative and quite emotional as well. the story starts w his pov - but he’s a completely unreliable narrator (we all are really and so are these characters). what you can gather from his two songs are that he’s in love w taylor’s character (obvs). but the first impression you get is he’s talkin about someone he’s loved his whole life (which he has) who has died (which is what he feels like). these characters are the ones who’s moms were best friends so they grew up as best friends and as they got older they got closer. they went away to college together fell in love it was beautiful it was comfortable it was happy.

‘promise me’ is character a asking character b to stay with him til death. she refuses. he feels the separation like it’s a death. he wanted them to stay young and stay together and go home to live the rest of their lives just like the beginning. she wants something else.

“We're getting old now (they’ve graduated college it’s time for them to move on to the next chapter)

But I don't feel it (A feels like there’s no question where his life goes next. he’s known his whole life he wanted his life w B he’s always imagined)

I say you're beautiful (I mean it’s a given)

And I still mean it (A has always loved B)

And I don't wanna know (A doesn’t want any other life than the one he’s seen for himself)

What old age feels like (he believes together they will always feel like this)

So promise me you won't (A is asking B to commit to their life together)

Give up on this life (this life as in the life he imagines they’ll have together - it’s important to remember this song and his pov is filtered completely through his emotions and imagination)

And we'll be busy tryin'

While the rest of them are dyin'

Promise me we'll never grow up

I don't wanna let go

I wanna stay young

And even when the wrinkles show up

We'll be laughing, and

We can play forever

Don't make me face the truth

I think it's obvious

That we'll stay happy

'Cause I'm the happiest

When you smile at me

And we won't end the same

A broken family

I'll never walk away

Without you with me

And times are getting harder

But I'm nothing like my father

Promise me we'll never grow up

I don't wanna fall out

I wanna make love

And even when we can't, so what?

We're together, and

Happy ever after

Don't make me face the truth

That I'm dying soon

That we're dying

Don't say goodbye (he compares death to the end of the life he imagined so it’s less a literal death of either character and more like the dream has died)

We're so much older...

All I want is one more life with you (he wants to keep the life he thought he’d have with her)

When did we get so old?

Why'd you get so sick? (not ill but he feels like she’s “sick of their relationship” bc he can’t imagine a reason for wanting anything else)

And how could you die? (how could she not want that life too?)

You promised me you'd never grow up

Now I have to let go

God, I miss you so much

And even when your heart gave out (he believes she lost love for him and that’s why she would want a life other than the one he dreamed of)

I was thinkin' how

I won't say goodbye

You promised me you'd never grow up

But you fucking grew up (she wants something else in life than what he’s imagined)

God, I miss you so much

And even when your heart gave out

I was thinkin' I'd

Love you 'til forever

And I can't face the truth

That I died with you

That you lied (we can assume from here he doesn’t believe he had any reason to think she would want something else)

You died (they broke up - again we still only have few actual details of the story)”

only love explores the way he feels in the aftermath and some time following the break up. he’s reflecting on the way he felt during the relationship and the pain he’s in since. we even get a glimpse of how it’s affecting his life as he tries to cope with and mourn the loss of the life he thought he’d have.

“Calm down, I'm okay, it's only heartbreak

Don't scheme, just mourn

The cold nights in our bed when you'd steal the blankets

I'd let you sleep warm

It's only love

It's not like I'm missing part of me

It's only love

It's heartbreak and I'm in recovery

Your eyes are better than my favorite song

I'm addicted and I'm possessive

This is no ordinary love

Calm down, breathe in

I feel like I'm dying

I miss you, come home

But it's only love

It's not like she's bleeding out of me

It's only love

I'm not dying, I'm in recovery

But I won't get better

I'm not letting go

I will be right here where you left me

Losing my home again

A life without my friend

Who I depend on, oh-oh

She's everything to me

The best I had, the worst mistake

I'm all fucked up and I'm not okay

Even my therapist said, "To hell with this"

I'm not healing

I'm dying, write me off

I'm stuttering, I'm high on drugs

Loser, lonely

It's only love

These wrist cuts won't bleed it out of me

It's only love

I'm not dying, but I'm in recovery

I won't get better, I'm not moving on

I'm the same way now that you left me

This is no ordinary love”

gotdamn that hurts.

the slight pause represents time passing and the pov shifting

right where you left me shows how B feels similarly to A after the breakup in that it felt like time stopping, life ending. character B is the storyteller of the two, so we get more details from her pov but it is still filtered through her feelings. in right where you left me, she plays the victim almost - not exactly but she’s also not entirely taking responsibility for it and instead ties it into what’s happened in the time passed. in champagne problems she reveals the depth of the situation and she takes the credit for the “betrayal”. she also reveals some of what has happened since the breakup in these songs, but w midnight rain we get the whole story. past, breakup, post breakup - all of it is revealed.

“Friends break up, friends get married

Strangers get born, strangers get buried

Trends change, rumors fly through new skies

But I'm right where you left me

Matches burn after the other

Pages turn and stick to each other

Wages earned and lessons learned

But I, I'm right where you left me

Help, I'm still at the restaurant

Still sitting in a corner I haunt

Cross-legged in the dim light

They say, "What a sad sight"

I, I swear you could hear a hair pin drop

Right when I felt the moment stop

Glass shattered on the white cloth

Everybody moved on

I, I stayed there

Dust collected on my pinned-up hair

They expected me to find somewhere

Some perspective, but I sat and stared

Right where you left me

You left me no, oh, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever

You left me, you left me no, oh, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever

Did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen?

Time went on for everybody else, she won't know it

She's still 23 inside her fantasy

How it was supposed to be

Did you hear about the girl who lives in delusion?

Break-ups happen every day, you don't have to lose it

She's still 23 inside her fantasy

And you're sitting in front of me

At the restaurant, when I was still the one you want

Cross-legged in the dim light, everything was just right

I, I could feel the mascara run

You told me that you met someone

Glass shattered on the white cloth

Everybody moved on

Help, I'm still at the restaurant

Still sitting in a corner I haunt

Cross-legged in the dim light

They say, "What a sad sight"

I, I stayed there

Dust collected on my pinned-up hair

I'm sure that you got a wife out there

Kids and Christmas, but I'm unaware

'Cause I'm right where

I cause no harm, mind my business

If our love died young, I can't bear witness

And it's been so long

But if you ever think you got it wrong

I'm right where you left me

You left me no, oh, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever

You left me

You left me no, oh, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever”

“You booked the night train for a reason

So you could sit there in this hurt

Bustling crowds or silent sleepers

You're not sure which is worse

Because I dropped your hand while dancing

Left you out there standing

Crestfallen on the landing

Champagne problems

Your mom's ring in your pocket

My picture in your wallet

Your heart was glass, I dropped it

Champagne problems

You told your family for a reason

You couldn't keep it in

Your sister splashed out on the bottle

Now no one's celebrating

Dom Pérignon, you brought it

No crowd of friends applauded

Your hometown skeptics called it

Champagne problems

You had a speech, you're speechless

Love slipped beyond your reaches

And I couldn't give a reason

Champagne problems

Your Midas touch on the Chevy door

November flush and your flannel cure

"This dorm was once a madhouse"

I made a joke, "Well, it's made for me"

How evergreen, our group of friends

Don't think we'll say that word again

And soon they'll have the nerve to deck the halls

That we once walked through

One for the money, two for the show

I never was ready, so I watch you go

Sometimes you just don't know the answer

'Til someone's on their knees and asks you

"She would've made such a lovely bride

What a shame she's fucked in the head, " they said

But you'll find the real thing instead

She'll patch up your tapestry that I shred

And hold your hand while dancing

Never leave you standing

Crestfallen on the landing

With champagne problems

Your mom's ring in your pocket

Her picture in your wallet

You won't remember all my

Champagne problems

You won't remember all my

Champagne problems”

“Rain, he wanted it comfortable

I wanted that pain

He wanted a bride

I was making my own name

Chasing that fame

He stayed the same

All of me changed like midnight

My town was a wasteland

Full of cages, full of fences

Pageant queens and big pretenders

But for some, it was paradise

My boy was a montage

A slow-motion, love potion

Jumping off things in the ocean

I broke his heart 'cause he was nice

He was sunshine, I was midnight rain

He wanted it comfortable

I wanted that pain

He wanted a bride

I was making my own name

Chasing that fame

He stayed the same

All of me changed like midnight

It came like a postcard

Picture perfect, shiny family

Holiday, peppermint candy

But for him it's every day

So I peered through a window

A deep portal, time travel

All the love we unravel

And the life I gave away

'Cause he was sunshine

I was midnight rain

He wanted it comfortable

I wanted that pain

He wanted a bride

I was making my own name

Chasing that fame

He stayed the same

All of me changed

Like midnight

Rain, he wanted it comfortable

I wanted that pain

He wanted a bride

I was making my own name

Chasing that fame

He stayed the same

All of me changed

Like midnight

I guess sometimes we all get

Just what we wanted, just what we wanted

And he never thinks of me

Except when I'm on TV

I guess sometimes we all get

Some kind of haunted, some kind of haunted

And I never think of him

Except on midnights like this (midnights like this)”

the last song was added after several listens through the playlist thus far. and while it was revealed the depths of each character’s feelings around the end of everything, it didn’t feel complete. this song is a big song for me personally and so i added it just to try it on and now i can’t imagine this playlist without it.

“No words appear before me in the aftermath

Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears

Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness

'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

What could've been, would've been you

Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia?

Did some force take you because I didn't pray?

Every single thing to come has turned into ashes

'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be

So I'll say words I don't believe

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

(What could've been, would've been)

What could've been, would've been you

(Could've been, would've been)

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you”

so the whole story really only takes place at the time of the breakup and the midnights following when the two reflect on the breakup.

so, break up… character A’s midnight breakdown… character B’s midnight heartbreaking storytelling. which took place so far after the fact bc she refused to even process it emotionally until she found out that he really did move on.

i like to imagine that now both characters are happy and grateful for the whole thing. they loved and lived a beautiful life together at the beginning. then they each got what they wanted (after lots of processing and pain, but eventually they get there). perhaps i’ll add more to show that, idk... actually i’ve already got some ideas but i’m really a perfectionist when it comes to these playlists so i need the lyrics and the vibes to flow right otherwise it won’t tell the story right. this is the first playlist tho where the irl singers are consistent with the characters. usually the characters have no gender and any gender in the song (from the singer to the pronouns used) may or may not be relevant. but the characters always have consistent vibes that are represented in the songs. this is becoming one of my favorite creative hobbies actually.

if you made it here, thank you for reading (:

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stanninghigedan · 2 years

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Choral A

I think it's been almost a year since my last translation (Filament was, I think, the last song I translated, and that's almost a year ago!), so I'm a little rusty. Forgive me and please tell me if I get the translations in this wrong huhu I really need to go back to translating :)) :((

Anyway, yeah Higedan released their new EP today!! And it includes two new songs - Choral A and Hagan! Not sure if I will be translating Hagan (I'm planning to, tho! But no promises H A H A).

Idk I just got the urge to translate Choral A today. I love the song so much it sounds like the old Higedan songs (which pulled me into the fandom!) And I have no regrets translating this because I feel like the lyrics for this song were words I needed to hear at this point in my life.

Oh and yeah, the song is gonna be used as a theme song for a movie! The lyrics of the song, as well as the composition for this, was all made by Narachan! This reflects the experiences he had as a past member of the police force marching band in their place - which is basically the plot of the movie where the song will be used :)) wbk this is Narachan's life story HAHA jk

Anyway, Imma stop talking because this might become too long and I know you guys are just here for the translation :))

As usual, translation may contain inaccuracies/mistakes. I apologize for them (as I am still learning Japanese) and if you know which ones are mistakes, I would greatly appreciate it if you would point them out so that I can improve on my Japanese.

「つまんねぇと嘆いたら　誰かが心を乾かしてる」

冷えたグラス持った友人が　疲れを浮かべ今日もつぶやく

「もうやめにしよっか」「まだやれそうさ」

いつかの子どもらの夏が浮かび消える

街を過ぎた雨と　それを待ってたような綿毛が

風に飛ばされ運ばれて　今、たどり着いたひとひら

「きっとここで会えた意味がある」と　言ってるみたいに囁くよ

「こたえておくれ」と

ふとした時に顔を出す後悔　目では見えやしないけど

それは涙や笑みに寄り添って　離れぬように語り出す

いつか思い出して　ひとつ数えて

何度もここで待ってるから

胸の宵かがりは　黒い髪を縛ったあなたが

古い写真機に閉じ込めたままで誰にも見せてないけど

次に開く時は声に出して　小さい靴を指差して

「もうやめにしようか」「まだやれそうさ」

何度も同じような夜　でもその声が繋いでいるんだ

迎えに行かなくちゃな　この想いを忘れないようにしないとな

街を過ぎた雨とそれを待ってたような綿毛が

風に飛ばされ運ばれて　今、たどり着いたひとひら

「きっとここで会えた意味がある」と

言ってるみたいに囁くよ

「こたえておくれ」と

"Tsuman ne- to nageitara dareka ga kokoro wo kawakashiteru"

Hieta gurasu motta yuujin ga tsukare wo ukabe kyou mo tsubuyaku

"Mou yame ni shiyokka" "Mada yaresou sa"

Itsuka no kodomora no natsu ga ukabi kieru

Machi wo sugita ame to sore wo matteta you na watage ga

Kaze ni tobasare hakobarete ima, tadori tsuita hitohira

"Kitto koko de aeta imi ga aru" to itteru mitai ni sasayaku yo

"Kotaete okure" to

Futoshita toki ni kao wo dasu koukai me de wa mieyashinai kedo

Sore wa namida ya emi ni yorisotte hanarenu you ni katari dasu

Itsuka omoidashite hitotsu kazoete

Nandomo koko de matteru kara

Mune no yoi kagari wa kuroi kami wo shibatta anata ga

Furui shashinki ni tojikometa mama de dare ni mo misetenai kedo

Tsugi ni hiraku toki wa koe ni dashite chiisai kutsu wo yubisashite

"Mou yame ni shiyouka" "Mada yaresou sa"

Nandomo onaji you na yoru demo sono koe ga tsunaideirunda

Mukae ni ikanakuchana kono omoi wo wasurenai you ni shinai to na

Machi wo sugita ame to sore wo matteta you na watage ga

Kaze ni tobasare hakobarete ima, tadori tsuita hitohira

"Kitto koko de aeta imi ga aru" to

Itteru mitai ni sasayaku yo

"Kotaete okure" to

"When someone says "it's boring", I become uninspired*"

A close friend, holding a cold (drink) glass, expresses their weariness and murmurs about today

"Should we give up?" "I think we can still do this"

Memories of our summers as children comes in and goes from our minds

The fluff* that seemingly waited for the rain to pass over the city

It struggled and (eventually) succeeds to reach its destination as it flies and gets carried away by the wind (called) the present

I'll quietly answer your "please answer me" with "Surely, there's a reason we met here"

On the unexpected times regrets show up on the face, though I can't see them with my eyes

It will be nestled in with the tears and smiles, and won't seem to leave when I speak

Someday I'll remember and count them one by one

Repeatedly, because I'll be here, waiting

The evening bonfire that warms my heart is the you who has their hair tied up

But I've had it locked up in an old camera without showing it to anyone else

The next time we open it up, I'll say it out loud and point at your small shoes***

"Should we give up?" "No, we can still do this"

It might end up like that night again and again, but that voice will keep us together

I need to go and see you, because I should never forget this feeling

Like those fluffy wool that seemingly waited for the rain to pass over the city

A petal struggles and (eventually) succeeds to reach its destination as it flies and gets carried away by the wind (called) now

"Surely, there's a reason we met in this place"

I answer with a whisper

As you say "please answer me"

T/N:

*Literal translation for kokoro wo kawakashiteru is "heart dries up". Reworded the phrase as such to make it short or to make it more understandable? Like imagine when someone else discredits your hard work, saying it's boring, or it's ugly, or it's not worth it, it will affect you so much - self-doubt consumes you and you become unable to do anything, no matter how much you try, nothing comes out. Your heart's dried up.

**fluff from trees (kapok?? or the likes). Its those white cotton-y/wooly thingies you see along the road at times.

***I feel like what this is trying to say is that when the topic of him capturing the other person in an old camera comes up/when they do open up/revisit the images on the old camera, and the other person knows about what the speaker did, he would try to change the topic by pointing out how small the other person's shoes/feet are to maybe hide his feelings or just to tease the other person.

#official髭男dism #official hige dandism #髭男 #choral a #Spotify

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under-sedationnn · 3 years

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the arcana: main six reacting to injured! reader

anonymous: Could u do m6 reacting to mc coming home injured? I want some hurt/comfort >:))

Warnings: talk of being injured, blood. if that bothers you or tiggers you in anyway, please scroll away! i want this to be a safe place, only :)

thanks for the request anon!! i hope you enjoy!! <3 requests for the kissing prompts and physical affection prompts are STILL OPEN. please send them in with the character of your choice (which could be any character from any series i write for) and i will create an imagine!! thanks and happy reading!!

- tries his very very best to stay calm

- you can see panic bubbling under the surface

- faust is on high alert

- slithers around your shoulders and squeezes you for a hug

- "friend! hurt!"

- doesn't immediately ask what happened, just gets you to a comfortable place to be cleaned up

- then, and only then, will he brave to ask what happened to you

- or who did this to you

- wipes the blood from your skin with very gentle swipes

- winces when you wince, and apologizes profoundly

- "Y/n, how did this happen? i thought you were just taking a quick trip to the market."

- "i fell in the market, tripped over a stone"

- "and nobody helped you?"

- in this case he's disappointed with the bystanders, but does not become angry

- in a situation where someone hurt you?

- oh god

- "Y/n, how did this happen? i thought you were just taking a quick trip to the market."

- "yeah, well, somebody had their eye on the same apple i picked up. somehow, though, they managed to push me to the ground and steal it from my hands."

- i don't even think he would know what to say

- and asra is not really the type to march out into the streets of vesuvia and seek to challenge the one who hurt you

- but he would certainly hold a grudge against whoever it was if he did find out

- and would feel absolutely awful about letting you get hurt

- his mind would race about the possibility of losing you again

- because he simply can't handle it

- and what if that person had been particularly violent or malicious? what if you had been taken??

- you'd have to comfort the hell out of him to make sure he knows that you're okay

- "asra, hey, i'm fine! i can handle myself, you know that"

- "you're right, and i know you're right. it's just hard"

- "it's still hard for me, too. the market still makes me a little nervous and i got caught a little off guard, is all"

- that would make him feel better

- would finish patching up your wounds and would make sure to bring you to julian the next day if they were too bad for him to fix or needed stitches

- would also create a special brew to help with the pain and ease you to sleep

- "why don't i go down to the market tomorrow?"

- "why? so when you pick a fight over apples, i can pay you back for all of this high quality medical treatment?"

- "well of course, surely you didn't expect all this tender love and care to be free" *wink*

- panicked doctor mode enabled

- immediately begins checking you over, asking questions

- something tells me it would be a head injury of some sort

- "oh darling, what happe- you're bleeding!"

- "julian, i'm okay! it's just a little scratch"

- "no no no you might need stitches, come sit down. i'll go get my kit!"

- there's really no use in arguing

- he has cold ass hands, so he tries to warm them up before he begins suturing the wound

- tries to be gentle, and his expert hands move quickly without any snagging

- "so, how did this happen?"

- his voice is literally trembling

- "well, i was in the clinic grabbing the list of ingredients we need for our next grocery trip and there was a puddle of... something on the floor. i slipped and hit my head on the corner of your desk"

- immediately thinks it's his fault

- like "oh shit i should have cleaned better that could have killed y/n and then what would i have done-"

- doesn't necessarily voice this, but you can tell by the silence that follows that he's feeling really guilty

- would kneel for you, head on your knees

- "y/n, i am so sorry"

- "juli, it's really okay, i should have watched where i was going"

- "i'll make sure to clean better from now on, okay?"

- would guard you throughout the night in case of concussion

- nurse juli <3

- but let's say someone had put their hands on you

- would patch you up the same way, and apologize profusely for not being there with you

- tuck you into bed and fetch mazelinka to keep an eye on you throughout the night incase of a concussion

- would most definitely be self destructive and seek that mf out

- maybe not successfully, but would try his hardest

- "i'll be back in the morning, get some rest"

- "I can find them myself if I want to, you know"

- embarrassed blush

- because he KNOWS you can take care of yourself

- "of course, but right now you're hurt. as your partner, i will do what must be done on your behalf darling"

- probably shows up the following morning with battle scars of his own

- the guards found you in the garden, passed out in the maze

- blood trickled down your arm, a large gash marking your bicep

- ran you up to the palace and immediately to the medical wing

- them]n nadia gets word

- the calm, collected queen act disappears

- abandons anything she's doing, anybody she's talking to

- "we will finish this at a different time, i have more important matters to attend to"

- she is so worried and it's honestly adorable

- very much giving "where tf are they?" energy

- god i love her so much

- anyways um

- asks the nurses over and over what happened, if you're okay, etc.

- watches the physicians and nurses like a hawk as they clean the wound and suture the cut

- and they're so intimidated lmao they never come face to face with her literally ever

- brushes your hair back from your face as they do so

- holds your hands

- would demand that you be brought to her sleeping chamber

- so that's where you wake up! how cute

- she's laying beside you, her brows furrowed

- maybe even her eyes are a little hazy

- "y/n, sweetheart, do you remember what happened?"

- patiently waits for your answer, you're still a little groggy

- you were either attacked by an animal and passed out from the fright

- or you were attacked by an armed person and was knocked out

- either way, the guards are on it

- nadia isn't letting whoever or whatever did this get away without a fight

- the palace is meant to be a safe haven for you

- for the both of you

- "well, don't you worry, we'll take care of that"

- you try to sit up but she won't let you

- "oh no, you must stay down, y/n. you are possibly concussed from the fall"

- "oh okay, sorry"

- "is there anything i can get you?"

- the countess of vesuvia, serving you in your time of need

- "just some water would be nice"

- "of course, i'll have some brought up right away"

- i literally feel like he would just start crying straight up

- cause like he has some problems anyway

- he big sad boi

- and you coming home to the hut bleeding from a gash in the arch of your foot is not helping

- picks you and carries you to the bed without a word

- just starts examining the cut

- inanna is also very concerned

- she licks the blood from the cut, she's trying to be helpful

- meanwhile muriel is stumbling around the hut looking for anything to stop the bleeding, disinfect it, bandage it, anything

- but he's not the best about keeping that stuff in stock

- keeps looking back at you with worry in his eyes

- he doesn't know what to do

- "muriel, let me see if i can contact asra. maybe he or julian can bring me a salve. i'm pretty sure i'm gonna need stitches"

- low-key makes him feel worse

- cause he feels like he's unable to care for you and keep your safe

- even tho this was just an accident

- he's breathing really fast, his anxiety creeping

- agrees anyway, but goes to get them himself

- "i'll be back soon, just keep this piece of cloth pressed against it"

- cause you're bleeding like a lot

- inanna stays behind

- he returns very quickly with julian in tow, though he doesn't look happy about it

- leaves the hut without another word

- julian gets to work immediately

- "so, you cut your foot i see"

- smartass.

- "yeah, muriel always tells me to put on shoes when i walk in the woods but i love to feel the grass beneath my feet"

- julian chuckled at this

- "and i'm assuming you, what, stepped on a rock?"

- "...yeah, sliced it right open"

- after julian is done cleaning up the cut, he tells you to just stay off of it for a while and make sure it doesn't get infected

- once he's gone, muriel trudges back into the hut

- "muriel, baby, it was just a cut it's not a big deal"

- but his eyes look hurt, and you beckon him toward the bed

- "hey," your hands on his cheeks, "i'm okay, really"

- "sorry, i just got scared. blood is still a trigger for me and since you got hurt in my woods, i felt like it was my fault"

- "muriel, of course it wasn't your fault"

- he really needed a hug

- after this instance, he made sure to keep medical supplies in the hut and you promised to try and wear shoes in the woods more often than not

- "i'll try my best to be more careful. deal?"

- sweet lil smile

- "deal."

- "oh my god, y/n, what the hell happened??"

- you were tending the garden

- without her supervision

- and the garden sheers might have sliced into the palm of your hand

- deep

- brings you over to the sink and runs water over the cut, covering it with a towel when the dripping blood had been washed away

- girl is on the move

- cause she knows what to do! love that

- low-key a main reason why julian managed to live as long as he has

- pepi is curiously perched atop one of the counters, peering down

- finds her personal first aid kit she had stashed in the bathroom

- guides you over to sit on the counter while she tries to figure out what to do

- "damn, you really cut yourself, y/n"

- "sorry! i think i just got a little carried away"

- she giggles at that, though she is still worried about the fact that it won't stop bleeding

- gently wraps the cut in gauze and adheres it together

- places a kiss to your fingertips

- "all done! no more gardening for you!"

- "hey, why not?"

- "well you don't want that cut to open back up again and again, do you?"

- "no"

- "alright then," she smiled, moving to put away the first aid kit again, "and we're going up to the palace medical wing first thing tomorrow morning to make sure it's not infected"

- eye roll

- "yes ma'am" you mocked

- even though you know it's just because she loves you

- "but since you got hurt, you want me to bake you some cookies?"

- "only if you let me eat the dough!"

- good god do i love this man

- but he is so self-absorbed it's actually insane

- and I feel like he wouldn't even notice at first

- cause he's too focused on himself

- gazing into the mirror without a care in the world when you walked in

- "y/n, thank goodness you're home, how do you feel about these pants?"

- you just hobbled to the nearest seat, hand resting over the gash on your knee

- mercedes and melchior were lazing across a rug at the base of his mirror, their attention set on you

- "u-um, yeah, they look good"

- literally just trying not to bleed out, over here

- "good? oh really, now, y/n don't they look amazing?"

- "yes, they look ama- ow, damnit"

- then he turned around

- immediate shock and worry! oh no oh no y/n is hurt!

- mercedes and melchior walked over first, whining as they took in the cut, brushing around the edges

- lucio raced over, squatting down in front of you, and began examining the cut

- "hey, hey, what happened?"

- "i accidentally tripped on my walk in the garden and scraped my knee on the cobblestone"

- he was lightly touching around the cut, gauging how sensitive it was

- when you flinched he stopped, looking into your eyes with a soft "sorry"

- "i think i need to go to the palace infirmary"

- "oh there's no need, i can take care of you!"

- you were not convinced he could take care of you, at least not well

- "uh, lucio, are you sure?"

- he looked slightly offended, at that

- "you know, y/n, i did fight in battles at one point. i have not only tended to my own wounds, but the wounds of others, as well"

- you giggled at the thought

- "much to your protest, though, i'm sure"

- he moved to the small cabinet of medical supplies in the ensuite to your bedroom, returning to your side with it in hand

- "at points, but i don't mind helping you in the slightest"

- for all of his antics, his soft side was enough to make you fall in love all over again

- and although i know he would take care of you in literally any situation, i can't say for certainty that he would stick around and place nurse lucio for long if a person had hurt you

- attacked you

- much like nadia, the guards would be sent out without a second thought, lucio leading the pack in the search for you aggressor

#the arcana nadia #the arcana julian #the arcana #the arcana imagines #the arcana headcanons #the arcane game #the arcana lucio #nadia the arcana #the arcana asra #asra the arcana #lucio montag #count lucio #lucio #portia devorak #portia headcanons #muriel the mountain man #muriel x mc #the arcana muriel #muriel

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Safe Again

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Pairing: Antonio/Fem Reader

Requested @fabyoliveira1999

Summary: Y/n is kidnapped when an undercover assignment goes wrong

¡Warnings: Swearing, mentions of blood, allusions of sexual assault, potential police brutality? All very in line with the show

A/n 1: this is a work of fiction. The gang and names used are completely made up and not meant to reflect any real persons. Thank you.

2: Part 2 will be a fluff drabble

Safe Again

A darkness overcomes you as you slip out of consciousness. The steady beeping of the machines around you are now frantic, their shrill sound piercing the ears of everyone around.

Antonio yells out your name as hospital staff force him from your room. It isn't until Hank and Kevin pull him by his shoulders does he fully retreat. He sees a familiar face in the hallway and remembers a conversation he's been meaning to have.

"Halstead!" Antonio's voice shakes in anger. He stands face to face with the younger detective. His finger accusingly pointing.

"How the hell did this happen in the first place, man? You were supposed to have her back!"

Jay's voice was quiet. "I know." He drops his head in hands. "I'm so sorry, man. I should've pulled us out of there."

"You were supposed to watch her." Antonio strains to speak, his tone is much softer this time as he fights back the tears threatening to spill. Wordlessly, he claps Jay's shoulder, giving it an affectionate and apologetic squeeze. None of this is Jay's fault. Antonio knows this and instantly regretted taking his emotions out on his colleague.

-72 hours prior-

You're sitting in the bullpen, having just been assigned to go undercover with your partner acting as your boyfriend. The idea being that the two of you would infiltrate the known drug gang the Scorpions as potential buyers and dealers for the more upscale neighborhoods the leader, Sammy, was trying to reach.

Your actual boyfriend is the first to speak. "Oh hell no. You're not doing this," Antonio tells you, earning a hard stare from you in return. "She's not doing this," he shifts his attention to Voight. "These...thugs are ruthless. They're killers."

Hank's eyebrow shoots up, wordlessly questioning Antonio. "Watch yourself there. Last I checked this was my unit. I give the orders."

"Sarge, if I may," you interrupt. "I'm willing to do this. I've successfully gone undercover before and I've gone alone," you remind not only your sergeant, but your boyfriend. "I want to do this." Your eyes fall to Antonio momentarily before looking back to Hank.

"Do whatever you need to prepare," he orders. You nod, reaching for your cell phone. Hank turns around and heads into his office. Antonio is hot on his heels, letting the door slam shut behind him after giving you a displeased look.

You huff an angry sigh. From his desk, Jay offers a sympathetic smile. "He's coming from a good place, y/n," he reminds you. "He's just scared. He knows you're more than capable of handling yourself out there."

Appreciating Jay's words, you nod your gratitude and make the call to set up this meeting.

You are fuming the entire walk up the stairs to your apartment. Antonio follows closely behind. You wait until the door closes completely before angrily spinning back in your heel to glare at him.

"Do you have any idea how demeaning and humiliating it is to not only have my boyfriend, but a superior colleague to react that way in front of my sergeant? Our sergeant? This is important, Antonio! And I'm not some rookie. I've done this before! You have no right-"

"You're right," his voice is calm and not at all what you expected to hear. "And I'm sorry, mi amor. I made sure to tell Voight before we left that I support you doing this and promised to not let my feelings compromise this case."

"Oh." You feel your anger start to dissipate. "In that case…can you order dinner, please? I'm going to take a quick shower." You stand on your tiptoes, pecking his lips softly with yours before heading to the bathroom.

Today was the day you and Jay, or rather your aliases Roxie and Ray (you relentlessly teased Jay about his lack of creativity), were meeting Sammy, having already built a rapport with some of the other members lower in the chain of command. If it went well, today should be the day you make the bust. Both of you step into the garage to meet the team and go over plans one last time. You're in a body flattering dress hitting right above your knees, Jay in a suit sans necktie.Your friends whoop and catcall Part of your personas was playing a bored, wealthy, money-motivated couple and you had to look, not just act, the part. As Antonio approaches, Jay excuses himself saying he'll be in the car waiting whenever you're ready. Antonio's voice is quiet. "There's still time. Don't do this."

"I thought you supported me."

"I did...I do! I just can't let you-"

"Let me?" You yell, earning the unwanted attention of those nearby. You shake your head, hurt and disappointment shine in y/e/c eyes. You walk away without another word, getting into the passenger side of the car

You reach the autobody garage the Scorpions use as a front. Immediately they pat you both down by a few members you've met during the time undercover. You're positive your inspection is more thorough as he squeezes your one ass cheek.

"Hey man," Jay shouts seeing you get groped.

"It's alright, babe," you wink. "Rico's only appreciating a good thing when he sees it." Rico smirks before declaring, "They're both clean."

Sammy, and another man you recognize from case files, Nic enter. "What's this? Who did you bring me?"

"These chumps are gonna be your new sellers."

Sammy's eyes hone in on you. You hold his gaze. "Hell naw," Nic says. "They brought you cops."

"Oh, please," you say, rolling your eyes. "With this face and ass-he knows, he felt it," you point to Rico, "I'm too fine to be a cop." You flash a cheeky smile.

"Bitch, shut up!" The back of his hand connects with your right cheek. The stinging causes your eyes to water. Beside you, Jay flinches; it's hard from him not to react.

'Listen man, I don't know what you think is going on. We just-"

"You can shut up, too."

You hear the unmistakable sound of a gun cocking, turning to see it pointed at Jay. Sammy gives a nod to one of the others.

"Look out," you try to warn Jay, but it's too late. The butt of a gun hits Jay in the temple and he gets kicked at the back of his knee until he falls to the ground. His head hits the cement flooring hard. You don't understand why the team hasn't busted in yet.

Nic's gaze is on you. "You testified at Dierk's hearing." His fist swings and it makes contact with your jaw. It's enough to make you sway but you remain on your feet. "He was my cousin you, stupid bitch. Get her in the car. Leave him."

As you're forced into a black SUV, you manage to choke out a weak,"Jay, " your stained voice sounding unrecognizable to your own ears.

The equipment they sent you in with was faulty. Voight was furious as was Antonio. They whole worked diligently to get video or audio, anything to keep tabs on you and Jay. It's not until the SUV, with you unbeknownst to them inside, peels out, that the whole team moves in and finds Jay bleeding and unconscious on the floor. Kevin reaches him first. "He's alive!" he shouts to the others. Adam radios for an ambo before he and the others continue to clear the building. Kevin gently shakes Jay awake. He groans, hands instantly reaching the side of his head. He makes to stand.

"Easy there, brother," Kevin warns. Jay lets Kevin help him to his feet. "We've got a bus on the way."

Jay nods, "I'm fine. Where's y/n?"

"She's not here. No one is," Hank answers as the rest of the team draw near Jay. Jay's stomach plummets as he realizes they've taken you, his partner.

"Son of a bitch!" Antonio yells, kicking an oil drum.

"We work fast to get y/l/n back," Hank declares. "Check for surveillance, witnesses. We find that SUV and we find y/n. Alive

Any means necessary. Let's move." The team disperses and his hand clasps Jay's shoulder. "You get checked out by medics first." Jay opens his mouth to argue, but shuts it quickly. He nods his compliance. Hank and Antonio follow him to the ambulance that's just arrived.

"Hey boss," Jay speaks, with a tentative glance to Antonio. "This went south when Nic recognized y/n as the detective who testified against his cousin. Hank pursed his lips, but even in his anger, the color drains from Antonio.

"Voight," Antonio's voice almost cracks.

"We'll get her back."

Bloodied and bruised, you're alive with very little clue as to where you are. Your survival skills kick in.

You take note of your surroundings. You think you're in an unfinished basement of a residence. Definitely a lower floor as you remember being tossed down a flight of stairs. Your hands are bound behind your back and tied to a support beam. The door to upstairs is locked and even if it wasn't, based on all the noise coming from the floors above you'd never make it out undetected.

The door opens and heavy footsteps make their way towards you. Nic comes into your line of vision.

You try reasoning with him, "As far as I'm concerned, nothing's been done that can't be undone. You just gotta let me go."

"You don't get it, do you? Maybe this will clear things up for you." He draws his gun, pressing it into the middle of your forehead

"But first I'm gonna fuck you real hard." His face inches from yours. Nic pulls the gun away. His stale, hot breath reeking as he stands too near. You couldn't help but scoff before you throw your head into his, headbutting him with all the might you could.

He cries out in agony.

"Stupid bitch." He backhands you. Then grabs you by the chin. His furious eyes never leave you and a rough hand claws at the skirt of your dress. You feel cold metal pressed against your thigh. "First, I'm gonna fuck that tight pussy with my gun inside you then-"

"Why?" You smirk. "Afraid you won't be able to get it up?" So much for those survival instincts. Anger flickers across his face. His free hand makes a fist. You dodge his swing and he instead makes contact with the pole. This enrages him more. Hastily Nic puts the gun back in his pants. Both his hands wrap themselves around your neck.

14 hours have gone by. That's how long it's been since Antonio's last seen you. He's hurt and getting desperate. With less than two hours of sleep (Antonio only went home after Voight said he wouldn't be any help without some rest), he was out trying to find any witnesses, checking traffic cams, and placing calls to all his CIs in hope that any of them might be able to give a lead. When one of them started stringing him along, Antonio jacked the guy up against an outside brick wall near the precinct. That's when Kim found him.

"We got something," she says in a hurry, fearing Antonio may do something he can't come back from.

The team picked up two Scorpion members and one is currently in the cage.

"Five minutes, Hank. Just give me the key and five minutes alone with this guy," Antonio pleads to his sergeant. From the cage, the Scorpion chuckles. Antonio lunges causing the chain links of the cage to rattle. He appears more animalistic than human and the laughter does immediately. "Where is she, you bastard?" Hank looks at the guy, still refusing to talk, then he unlocks the door for Antonio.

"Are you crazy? You can't let him in here with me," he shrieks.

"Your boss has one of our own. And she just so happens to be his girlfriend, so you're crazy if you think I could really stop him if I wanted to," Hank answers before moving away from the door and heading upstairs. The door barely swings open before Antonio steps inside, knocking the guy to his ass with one punch. He picks him up by the shirt collar preparing another blow when Jay and Adam come flying down the stairs.

"Get outta here!" Antonio yells.

"We got an address. Atwater and Kim they picked up another member and he talked," Adam says breathlessly. Antonio hesitates.

"C'mon on man," says Jay, "He's not worth any more of your time. If y/n's there, let's go bring her home."

Hours have passed. How many you're unsure, but as they ticked by your hopes of being found or escaping dwindled. Pain flows through your entire body. You sit on the cold, hard basement floor, unable to stand anymore. Nic had strangled you until you passed out. He never touched you like he promised and when you regained consciousness you were alone.

Shouts came from upstairs. You're unable to hear every word, but you catch enough to know they're talking about you.

"We need to move her now. We've kept her alive too long!" You hear footsteps and then the opening of the door. Nic appears before you, with a sinister grin. Your heart races as he nears. His eyes roam your body as he undoes his belt. He pulls you to your feet by your hair. A whimper escapes you and he laughs. Once again, his hands pull at the skirt of your dress. His hands travel along your thighs and ass squeezing both. His touch makes your skin crawl that you actually shudder. His fingers start to tug your underwear down when there's a commotion from upstairs.

"Freeze! Chicago PD."

"Drop the weapon!"

"On your knees! Face down."

"I said drop it!"

Your heart flutters with hope, but then shots ring out and you have no idea who's firing or what's happening up there.

"Down here!" You yell. The basement door opens.

"Chicago PD!" Antonio and Jay's voices ring out.

"One male. He's got a gun," you warn. As they rush down the stairs, Nic pulls his gun on you.

"Drop your weapon!" Jay orders. His eyes perfectly fixated on the gun in Nic's hands. Antonio eyes you carefully and while seeing you bruised and a gun to your head isn't ideal, he's relieved to see you alive. Your colleagues' guns stay fixed on your offender. "You won't be told again. Drop. Your. Weapon." Your eyes lock with your boyfriend's beautiful brown ones and you nod ever so slightly. You slide down the pole as Nic moves towards you as if he was going to use you as a shield. Both Antonio and Jay fire their guns. Blood splatters onto you. Jay moves to check the body, but all you really notice is Antonio running to you and it's honestly a beautiful sight. "Baby, baby, baby. Hang on. I got you," he soothes, working quickly to free your hands of the zip ties. Your head falls into his chest. Really your whole body just collapses into him. Antonio holds you close, careful not to embrace you too hard, but his touch has never felt better. You sob uncontrollably as he begins to rock you.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," you repeat.

"Shh. You did nothing wrong, mi amor. Shh, now, baby. I got you. You're safe again."

Immediately you're taken to the hospital. Blood is drawn,xrays taken, exams given. You've sustained several injuries, but nothing critical. Mostly you're bruised and exhausted, so when the machines you're hooked up to start beeping erratically, Antonio is confused and scared again, clearly demonstrated by that outburst directed at Jay.

He opens his mouth to apologize when Will Halstead exits your room.

"You can go back in now," he says simply.

The intelligence team looks at him, confused.

"What the hell just happened?"

"Y/n wasn't breathing properly."

"What?"

Will puts his hands up. "No no. She's fine. She can breathe. She was sleeping and wasn't breathing deep enough for the machine to register it. I promise she's fine."

There's a collective sigh of relief from everyone.

Antonio coming back into your room is a most welcoming sight. There's so much to say, but your eyelids are heavy with sleep. Instead you take his hand in yours. Antonio's free hand lovingly caresses your face.A feeling of safety washes over you and you drift off into a peaceful dream.

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