#because I want to realease it into the wild

[lowkeyclueless5137]

Some ansty angst today

Yesterday, @spirtworld wanted for me to unleash some raw Floyd angst into the wild and see how everything will go down... So here we go :3

This is one of my favorite headcannon-theories that will play as a base in here, even if I believe it was debunked to not be real... But... Lemme have it... Because yes... It was inspired by some pretty fanart on pinterest, but I lost the links ;-;

I wrote this on discord... Explaining it in depth and how dark it could get...

But we aren't getting into the dark part for now :3

We will have a tiny weny oneshot of how everything played out after I explain everything.

Also... This might be hints about my pttw comic... So if you wanna figure it out... Go ahead and read it...

But if you don't want some slight spoiler hints... I recommend you shouldn't read it...

That was a warning!

Under the cut I'll explain it. (copy pasted from my notes and edited accordingly)

Anyway!

I headcannon heavily that Floyd is actually really aware of his public image. Like he is aware people fear him, he is aware other students would rather dig their own graves than hang out with him... He has that scary aura around him.

And that is a thing Floyd hates, because this is exactly a trait of the Diasomnia students... He tries his best to be playful and snuggle himself into social circles, but he does not really succeed so easy, which makes his moods to alter more, yet Floyd sees how Jade and Azul manage so well to blend in, making him a bit envious.

Because they were since start in Octavinelle (here's where the theory comes :3)

My theory is this: Floyd was sorted at first in Diasomnia (I say it because he really fits the vibe of scary, but actually a quirky guy)

But imagine how the world would crash onto him once he hears that. That Azul, his dear friend that even changed and grew before Floyd's own eyes and Jade, his own twin, his half, his family, the 2 most precious of persons Floyd ever had in his life... To be separated from him in a different dorm. That's how he made that commotion at the sorting ceremony, getting on Riddle's nerves and having his first taste of the 'off with your head'.

He started to feel conscious of his appearance, of his public image since that day. He didn't want to talk with silver(his roimmate) at all. He didn't want to get out of bed, he didn't want to eat, he didn't even want to touch his magic pen. He would even resort to running away and breaking into Octavinelle just to be with Jade and Azul.

Just to try and feel like he belongs somewhere, where he is actually loved for who he is.

Azul wasn't ignoring any of this. He was really concerned. And while Jade was aiding to his brother's pitiful state, Azul was trying his best, skimming through everything and putting all of his efforts into finding something that would priquire Malleus's interest enough, so he could trade it for his approval of moving Floyd into Octavinelle.

Azul tricked his way and made his reputation of being 'shady' just to become Dormhead and have the authority necessary to get Crowley and convince Malleus to let Floyd transfer to Octavinelle.

All, of course in the best of discrecy.

Of course this incident was hidden and most of the students remember only that Floyd caused a stirr at the ceremony just because he angered Riddle. No one actually paid mind to which dorm Floyd was sorted.

But Floyd couldn't shake that feeling that he doesn't belomg in there... He hates that he feels like he doesn't fit.

He hates himself for not making enough efforts to fit.

And sometimes, when emotions drive him off, his magic pen will turn a bright green instead of the usual white gem, typical Octavinelle, which would scare him, thinking that he'll have to go back in Diasomnia.

Jade forgot about the incident and decided that it was better if it wasn't brought anymore. Azul was keeping the contract(which wasn't out of his um) with Malleus and Crowley about the transfer, buried deep in the safe of his office.

Now imagine chapter 3... But Leona and Ruggie get their hands into that transfer contract too. And by destroying it, they force Floyd to go back to Diasomnia unknowingly.

Now let's see the little oneshot:

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Blot

Chaos

A mess everywhere you would look. That's how one would describe the scene left behind Azul's overBlot. One would expect that the Dormhead of Octavinelle wouldn't spiral in such a ravenous crying fit for just a contracts. And even after he was brought back to normal, Azul scrambled, under everyone's judging glares, to the pile of golden sand, grabbing it and digging through it.

He was desperate. There must be in there! There must be at least a little intact piece he could use magic to restore it. No? It has to be!

"Azul! Azul! Snap out of it! Look at me..." Jade was the first one who grabbed his friend by the shoulders, shaking him to gain his attention. Floyd was right next to Azul, getting a more firmer grip onto him than his twin, to have Azul in a somewhat reassurance, which didn't work.

"I-it's gone... It's destroyed... We lost it... We can't retrieve it... It's gone!" Azul started to mumble as his inky tears were rolling over his cheeks, the boy leaning onto Floyd as he was crying silently, mumbling in between heavy breaths about 'the lost object'.

Jade looked at the pile of sand, then at Floyd. At the poor clueless Floyd. Eyes landed onto his twin's breast pocket before teeth grittered with anger.

Getting up in a flash, Jade grabbed Leona by the neck. "Do you even realise what you've done?! ANSWER ME!" the boy screamed, which was a shock for everyone. Jade usually was the more collected one, yet right now, the eel was seconds away from just leaving Leona headless for real.

"Jade! Stop it! What has even gotten into ya?!" Floyd had to leave Azul's side to stop his brother as the others joined in separating the 2. Jade was struggling under the other's grip, trying to get his hand onto Leona, with a deep rage bubbling under his skin.

"oh... Did I come at the wrong time?" a voice piped in.

Azul froze in place as well as Jade, both of them eyeing Lilia with sheer fear. This was really happening. "What's the silence for? I thought you would be more happy to see me..." Lilia mumbled. "What's with you in here? The lounge's closed..." Floyd mused, still clueless.

"Oh... Dear... You don't know? I came to pick you up..."

Words that sunk into Floyd's mind like an arrow. His stomach was burying itself and his heart was squeezed in fear at those words coming from Lilia's mouth. "This is a joke... No? Jade? Azul? It's a joke... Right? It's a bad joke, guys..." Floyd said with a strained smile.

Yet Azul only looked down as well s Jade. "I am... So sorry, Floyd... I did everything I could..." Azul mumbled through tears. Jade only was silent as he made a small motion to his breast pocket, where his magic pen was. Floyd followed with his hand the said gazes that were targeted to his own pocket, fearfully touching his pen and getting it out. Tears were building in his eyes as Floyd lowered his own gaze onto the said pen.

The gem was green... A bright green Floyd oh so feared.

"No... Nonono... This can't be... You promised me... You told me we will be forever together... Right?" The boy said as tears stained his cheeks, falling on the ground. The silence though, was enough to shatter Floyd's heart.

"Floyd... I-" "No... You promised me, Jade! WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME?!" Floyd screamed as he pushed away his twin's attempt at a hug, then throwing his own pen on the ground. "I'm sick of this pity! Just leave me alone! All of you!" The boy declared as he turned onto his heel and ran away from Octavinelle.

"Vangrouge... Please... There must be a way to keep him..." Azul begged, on his knees, to the said Fae. "I am afraid the terms of the contract were all broken... I cannot do anything about it..." Lilia mused with a sigh. Jade only hugged Azul, caressing gently the head of the other to attempt at calming down the crying male. "Everyone... I advise you to get out immediately... Octavinelle will no longer welcome guests from other dorms for the rest of the day." The vice mused as he shooed away everyone. Lilia though, stood at the same spot.

Exhaling, the Fae crossed his arms. "It's pitiful from you... Such a sight..." "You have no words in this..." Jade snarled back. "You will have to embrace it... For his own good..." Lilia mused. Azul only wiped his tears with a trembling arm as he looked at Jade.

"He will have to accept it... Weather Floyd likes it or not..."

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That's it for today :D

*hands tissues*

And here for y'all :3

#twisted wonderland #twst #twst floyd #floyd leech #azul ashengrotto #twst azul #jade leech #twst jade #lilia vanrouge #twst lilia #twst leona #twst ruggie #floyd angst #because I want to realease it into the wild #and see what happens #>:3 #I feel evil for some reason #but I am also holding the endings from being realeased too... so I guess that might be the motive #clownery hours with angst on main :D

[mathmodder]

Mods in coming

Ok, i have to explain when the mods and what mods i’m making right now, because there are at least 4 mods that i’m focusing on hahaha

This will be the realease order for now (it can be change in any day hahaha):

1- Lightning Mod (not a lighting mod, i mean ⚡️⚡️⚡️⚡️🌩️) plus zombie rising effects (you will see what i mean)

2- Fireworks when a sim eat from a foodtruck (yes, i will explain later with a video)

3- Sims 3 Skyrim Expansion Pack: Dragons in the world (it can be delay because i want to add a lot of things and i’m having a lot of ideas from you guys hahaha)

4- Sims 3 Get Wild Expansion Pack: Animals in the world (i have made at least 70 animals for now, it is a lot, but i need to have more time to enhance the details in animation and ideas for more animals)

I have a lot of more projects in making than these 4, but i will focus on then to release all in at least 2 months (i hope so lol).

#ts3 wip #effects #sims3 #dragons #lightning #birds #fireworks

[art-of-mathematics]

Today I have met my third part of myself - an alter? I don't know.

Today happened something very painful, my sister went into a very hurtful argument, because I told her why I couldn't visit her as I intended. Before, she complained about me 'being unreliable because I don't give a fuck". Which is neither true nor any sort of helpful. I am FUCKING struggling to survive! My nervous system is severely fucked. I cannot even walk properly, without unbearable exhaustion and almost collapsing, prolonged delirium, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I am far closer to dying than she can ever imagine.

She is too privileged and projects on herself.

Then when I told her I am severely weak and I try my best to keep that relationship working... she just said: "You just try to appear kind, offer to 'do something positive for me', just so you can burden me with your nonsensical terror 24/7. I do not have the strength to listen to that bullshit! "...

24/7 is so far from truth... She dismisses my struggles, because she projects it entirely on herself. And I fucking try my best to offer support for her....

But perhaps I am just people pleasing my abuser.

It hurts, as you can clearly see how bad she thinks of me. And that I am already lost and doomed in her eyes. It's no wonder, why more and more people and physicians advice her to do therapy. She has some serious personality-impacting bad coping mechanism issues. And I do not want to play her therapist in form of a punching bag.

I went into a heavy rollercoaster of meltdown and wild dissociation right after. Could not talk, only gibberish. My cramps were becoming awful.

My dad was just confused and annoyed again." Ah a drama again, how moronic"... they talked shit I had to endure. I screamt and somehow I could manage to make them call my mom. After that a lot of loud verbal discourse happened and I can't remember much, only fragments. Only that I was not myself. The words outta my mouth were of different accent, and it often switched between different types of voice usage and 'argumentation' - a heavily emotionalized one - I think it is my protector/guardian that intervened and kept their verbal abuse back to themselves. I can't remember much, but the fragments...

I don't know.

My sister told me I am a iteral burden.

And it shows. I take that as the final push to realease me from my abusive traumatic past and present.

They helped me see it is not worth holding on to something they have given up already.

They gave up on me, because sadly, it confronts them with their own issues they flee from. And they refuse to fight their own demons.

To help both myself and my sister our ways have to depart.

Now I am in that psychiatric hospital which I have serious fear of due to unfortunate abuse.

I was so afraid. Yet, I had luck with the psychiatrist I encountered, and the way I could verbally exchange my thoughts.

I was honest. And told her some important parts about the trauma. She asked me about the HRT I started 2 months ago, and if I think it could be related. I told her, that I can finally wake up from the nightmare of pretending to be something i never were, and which hurted and alienated me from all I really am. And it also helps me to allow myself to be(come) the authentic neurodivergent me, I neglected and imprisined in myself, just tu ensure mere survival.

I wake up now. Wake up from a nightmare. Sure it's tough, but so is every 'birth'...

She asked me if I want to die. And I honestly said: I never wanted to. I want to live! And that dream becomes reality now. In all the disaster I witness currently, my realistic optimism that everything will turn out well, feels more real than ever!

I have finally found myself. And now we will work on coming to know us. Maybe antagonization was never the desire of any of my alter egos... Maybe they are just turbulences within my own system induced by unbearable outside turbulence.

Maybe we've done well with healing ourselves enough to cooperate and improve each other, through self-reference somehow...

Each alter has their own desire and role. Each of them a psychotherapist in some means themselves. Maybe we found a common ground to withstand the unbearable turbulence of our traumatizing environment.

Maybe metacognition has succeeded in some way to 'synchronize the superposed waves' that is me. Maybe I've found my wave function now.

I have found peace within myself.

Better times will emerge. We withstanded the storm, but somehow found a way to not crumble and decay... We interwove each other. We are a trefoil möbius band - just "3" sides of one and the same.

These three fuckers really did it! Damn nerds! Our science really helped 'treat ourselves'.

#dissociation #metacognition #multiplicity #trefoil mobius #becoming myself #elliot.exe is loading..

[bjornswoman]

Precious

Requested by none.

Author's note: Hey guys! I hope you like this one that's about my baby. I hope you like what I am writing. Also, thank you so much for your support. Have a good day!

Pairing: Modern!Bjorn x Reader.

Genre: Modern, smut, drama, angst, romance.

Summary: Bjorn gets mad because another man is pursuing you.

Warnings: Smut, unprotected sex, strong language, mentions of death, a little bit mention of cruelty.

He grabbed your arm firmly and stopped you inches away from him. You frowned and tried to free yourself from that filthy man, but his grip was too strong to let go of it. You looked around, trying to find your man, but thankfully he was nowhere to be found. If he was, this man would be dead. His brothers were there, but none really paid attention to you. You eyed him annoyed. That man had pursued you since the first time he stepped to your home to discuss business with Bjorn. Luckily, Bjorn understood nothing, or that was what you believed.

In fact Bjorn had understood everything. He could see the way this bastard looked at him woman. You tried to turn him down politely, but he didn't let you alone. He was pain in the ass. He was dangerous, but you weren't afraid of him. You feared Bjorn's wrath. When he was angry he could make Ivar's all cruel thoughts reality. You had confessed a moment of his wrath only once all this years that you were together.

"What do you want from me?" You almost yelled and tried to free your arm from him. He pulled you closer to him and resisted more. He smirked.

"Darling, this isn't what you deserve." He spoke and he pointed to the Hall. His tone was intimidating and it enraged you more. You liked this place, it was your home. He took a sip from his whiskey and turned back to you. "Come with me. Let's go out of here. I can give you what you actually deserve, woman." He continued speaking and leaned closer to you. You would push him back, but someone else noticed and did it for you. It was Ubbe, and not only him, all the Ragnarssons came to your rescue, even Ivar. You appreciated that.

Dustin finally freed your hand and you stepped away from him, near Sigurd. All brothers was angry, except Ivar who was smirking.

"What's going on here?" Ubbe asked and crossed his hands on his chest. Hvitserk clicked his tongue at the words of his brother. They knew exactly what was happening here, they weren't fools.

"You doesn't even have to ask brother. It is pretty obvious." He spoke and placed his glass of whiskey on the table. Then he looked at Dustin again, he was angry. You were his sister-in-law, his older brother's wife, Bjorn's wife.

"I know Hvitserk, I just want him saying it and then we will act the way we should when someone dishonors (Y/N)." Ubbe spoke, his gaze was stuck to Dustin. He was reading him. There wasn't a lot of things to read actually. He was just a bloody bastard who seeked more power and wanted to take Kattegat and you. You came out of nowhere, he had never thought Bjorn Lothbrok would have a woman like you.

When he heard Ubbe's words he laughed. He was mocking Ubbe. Someone else laughed too behind Dustin, your husband. Bjorn was standing there, laughing the same way Dustin was, but it wasn't meant for Ubbe but for Dustin.

Dustin stopped laughing and turned to face Bjorn, even Ivar stopped smirking and was frowned. From the look on Bjorn's face you knew that he was angry. Actually, the right word was mad. Only once again all these years you had seen this look on his face. That day Bjorn was mad because someone had killed his father. He and his brothers avenged for their father death in the most cruel way.

"I learned that you trying to steal my woman and I heard that you proposed to leave with you. Am I right brothers?" He started talking harshly. You reached him and touched his shoulder, his eyes didn't let go of Dustin's figure. His brothers didn't speak.

"For once in your life Bjorn." Ivar mocked, all this scene entertained him. Bjorn was mad and he didn't intent yo keep it to himself. You tried to get his attention, but he wouldn't stop. He wouldn't lose you. He didn't want you to go. He loved you so much to bear your leaving. You wouldn't leave him never and he knew it. He wasn't an easy person to cooperate with but you loved him, all of him and he did the same.

"Shut up Ivar!" He yelled. You closed your eyes, trying to calm yourself down. You had to be calm, you had to calm Bjorn down too. That would be difficult. "Out brothers. I will handle this myself." He spoke again and without protests his brothers stepped out of there, but not you. You stayed there, next to your husband.

"Bjorn, my love....." You talked to him softly and caressed his shoulder gently. He looked at you for first time that night, his dark blue eyes laid on your face. He reached your hand and took it inside his, he caressed it. He leaned closer to you and kissed your forehead. He muttered something thay you didn't really listened. Then he turned to Dustin again. Bjorn took his dagger off and pointed Dustin.

"Tell me, Dustin, which hand of yours touched my precious wife?" Bjorn asked in stable tone of voice and started circling about Dustin, who had said no word to Bjorn. "Well, if you don't tell me which one it is, I will cut them both and believe me it would pleasure me doing it but not you. So tell me which one touched my (Y/N)." He spoke and sat on a chair, drinking some whiskey and gazing at Dustin. He would do it. Bjorn was a man that was keeping his word. He had always been doing what he was saying. He had told you before that he would kill any man who will try to take you away from him and was about to do it.

Dustin giggled and then frowned when Bjorn didn't move or did anything else. He was just drinking and caressing your hand on his shoulder. Bjorn knew exactly what he was going to say and was ready to answer.

"What do you thing that you are going to achieve, Lothbrok? I have men all over your precious city, waiting for an order to take it over and kill everyone you love, even that beautiful wife of yours. What do you think that they would do when they won't hear from me?" He spoke. He thought that he caught Bjorn off guard, but in fact he did nothing. Bjorn knew everything about this. That was where he was. He took care of this matter. Dustin was smirking and so did Bjorn. On the other hand, you were confused and afraid of what would happen next. Bjorn turned to you and looked into your eyes for a moment.

"Close your eyes, my love, you don't have to see that, please." He spoke to you and you nodded, but before you close them, you saw a huge chest. It seemed heavy. You closed your eyes tightly.

Inside that chest were the heads of the men Dustin was talking about only some moments earlier. His eyes got widened. He didn't expect that, he thought Bjorn a dumb man, but he wasn't. When the chest were closed you opened your eyes.

He stood up and came closer to you, his lips pressed to yours in a rough kiss. He lifted you and placed you on the table. He stopped kissing your lips and placed his lips on your neck. He licked, bit and kissed random spots there and you tried not to moan, never forgetting that Dustin was there watching you. You tried to stop Bjorn, but your strong husband continued to attacking on your neck.

"Bjorn stop! We aren't alone!" You whispered to him. He groaned and stopped whatever he was doing. He looked at him and then at you.

"He wants to have you, but he has to know that you belong with me, by my side." He spoke and grabbed the fabric of your dress, he lifted it and took off your panties. He slipped two fingers in you. He formed rough circles with his skilled fingers inside of you and you were moaning. He loved seeing you like that because of him, because of his fingers inside you. You were close to your release, but Bjorn had another plans. He removed his fingers from you and you cried, you were so close to your release and he pulled his fingers out of you. You had forgotten about Dustin watching Bjorn and you doing things like that.

He took off his jeans and boxers and stroked his erected member. He thrusted roughly inside you and you screamed because of the pleasure he was giving you. He continued thrusting you into you in a fast and wild pace. He placed his hand on your neck and squeezed it, slightly. You were screaming his name as he was claiming you harshly on that table. Your nails were leaving little marks on his back. You were about to release yourself again. Your walls clenched aroun his member and your hands grabbed his shoulders. He thrusted again and you released yourself, screaming louder than before his name. He seemed to enjoy it, so much that after some more thrusted he realeased himself too inside you. He kissed your mouth again.

"Go home and I will be there soon to continue what we have started. I have to finish him." He spoke and dressed himself, you did the same. You looked at Dustin before you leave. When you left, Bjorn took on his hand his dagger again.

"Now tell which one it was. I don't have all night as you heard, my woman is waiting." Bjorn said with a smirk on his face.

#bjorn lothbrok #bjorn ragnarsson #bjorn ironside #vikings bjorn #bjorn imagine #bjorn x reader #vikings imagine #vikings x reader

[vikingqueer]

music recommendations because i have some thoughts™

i don't wanna be that person who's like "my music taste is so weird lol" but i find that very often most of my friends don't really care for the music i like so i thought i'd just make a long ass post about it on tumblr instead. Fair warning, I'm very passionate about MIKA and The Mechanisms and so this very quickly got VERY long because it is part of my ongoing campaign to convince people to listen to mika and the mechs.

1) MIKA in general, but especially My Name Is Michael Holbrook (2019) and No Place In Heaven (2015) (especially the Deluxe version!!)

MIKA is a kind of British singer (half Lebanese, grew up in France blabla), and you probably know him for Grace Kelly and Relax, Take It Easy from his first album Life In Cartoon Motion from 2007. He writes a lot of FUN music, interspersed with the occasional slightly sadder song, especially when looking at an album like No Place In Heaven, which contains a lot of songs with gay themes, resulting in some songs that are just a little bit ouch. He's originally classically trained and has a frankly RIDICULOUS range and idk he just writes very good pop music. Also I have so much respect for that time he talked about how a lot of pop is very fake, with like expensive cars and stilettos and mini skirts in the snow and said "Because I walk down the street, and I don't see any of that. I see fat women and gay men. I don't know... That's real". He's written 5 albums; My Name Is Michael Holbrook (2019), No Place In Heaven (2015), The Origin Of Love (2012), The Boy Who Knew Too Much (2009), and Life In Cartoon Motion (2007).

For starters, I recommend listening to Last Party, Origin Of Love, Grace Kelly, Blame It On The Girls, Blue, Happy Ending, Pick Up Off The Floor, Last Party, Underwater, Tomorrow and Tiny Love (yes this is a long list but i REALLY love MIKA). If you want a slightly broader palette that's not just my favourites, I recommend the Mika starter pack on spotify.

2) The Mechanisms. I warn you. I am making this a thing. I have been obsessed with the mechs since last march.

Boy, where to start? The Mechanisms were a British 9 member space pirate story-telling cabaret that "died" in January 2020. They rewrite songs to fit retellings of various stories. I don't even know what genre I'd describe them as, but probably folk but steam-punk?? Their 4 "main" albums are concept albums, and I honestly just recommend listening to the from beginning to end in chronological order. A good way to get into the mechs is also to listen to UDAD and then watching the live show on youtube or alternately try giving Death To The Mechanisms a listen, to get good quality live show audio of TBI and various other stuff. Also, it was streamed on YouTube and someone combined the footage with the album audio and it rocks. Really, I think the mechs' best selling points are honestly just their concept albums:

Once Upon a Time (In Space) Their first album from 2012. I'd say this is the most "easily digestible" for the general public, since it's a retelling of various fairytales. So, what if Old King Cole was in fact not merry, but rather a cold-blooded dictator, intent on colonising as much of the galaxy as possible. What if Snow White was a general, looking to avenge what King Cole did to her sister, Rose. What if Cinderella was to be wedded to Rose the day that King Cole attacked in order to kidnap Rose? But y'know, In Space and also like every other mechs album it's a beautiful tragedy. Fave songs are Old King Cole, Pump Shanty, and No Happy Ending.

Ulysses Dies at Dawn You guessed it, it's a story about Odysseus, or Ulysses because I guess Ulysses is easier to rhyme or fit in the meter or something, idk. Ulysses is a war hero of unknown gender who is said to keep something that could take down the corrupt Olympians, meanest families in the City, in a vault to which only they know the passcode. Oedipus, Heracles, Orpheus, and Ariadne have been hired by Hades, who happens to be The Mechs' quartermaster Ashes O'Reilly, to get into Ulysses' vault. I didn't care much for udad at first, but honestly it's got some real bangers and the story is really good. UDAD weirdly stands out as the only of the concept albums to not feature any gay relationships, per se. Fave songs are Riddle of the Sphinx, Favoured Son, and Underworld Blues.

High Noon over Camelot This is my favourite mehcs album. So basically, this is Arthurian legend, but it's a space western and Jonny D'Ville does a bad southern accent. This is the story of the cowboy lovers Arther, Lancelot, and Guinevere searching for the Galfridian Restricted Acces Interface Login, or GRAIL, in order to stop their world from falling into the sun. Meanwhile, Mordred and Gawaine are ruling Camelot, and Mordred has convinced Gawaine to try to establish peace with the Saxons by whom Mordred was raised, but Gawaine hates viciously. If you love getting your heart broken and songs by a fucking off the rails batshit preacher I HIGHLY recommend hnoc. Fave songs are Gunfight at the Dolorous Guard, Blood and Whiskey, and Once and Future King. Honorary mention for Hellfire because it awakens something animalistic in me.

The Bifrost Incident TBI is the frankly only good adaptation of norse mythology I've ever known of, and I say that as Dane who was literally forced to learn things about norse mythology in school because it's my heritage or whatever. I've been listening to TBI a lot lately because it's VERY good. It's definitely the most refined of the mechs' albums (because it's the newest) but also I just love a little bit of cosmic horror. 80 years ago, Odin, the All-Mother, ruler of Asgaard, launched a train through the wormhole Bifrost that would reduce the travel between Asgaard and Midgaard from 3 months to 3 days, but things didn't go quite as planned. Lyfrassir Edda of the New Midgaard Transport Police is trying to solve the case of why suddenly the train has arrived 80 years late; to figure out whether it was accident or maybe it was sabotaged by Loki, who was allegedly sentence to death her murder of Baldur, by the Midgaardian resistance led by Loki's wife Sigyn, or maybe by Thor, who was to take over after Odin, and who holds quite the grudge because he used to be a friend of Loki's. You might've heard the song Thor from this album, it's apparently quite popular. Fave songs are Loki, Ragnarok III: Strange Meeting, and Ragnarok V: End of The Line. Yet again an honorary mention: Red Signal because while Lovecraft was a bitch, his invocations are fucking RAW.

Basically, the Mechanisms do all of their performances in character as captain first mate Jonny D'Ville, quartermaster Ashes O'Reilly, pilot DrumBot Brian, master-at-arms Gunpowder Tim, science officer Raphaella la Cognizi, doctor Baron Marius Von Raum (neither a baron, nor a doctor), archivist Ivy Alexandria, engineer Nastya Rasputina, and The Toy Soldier, who is, as usual, present. You can find very obscure lore about the crew of the Aurora here, tidbits on Tales To Be Told and TTBT Vol. 2, such as One Eyed Jacks, The Ignominious Demise of Dr. Pilchard, Gunpowder Tim vs. The Moon Kaiser, Lucky Sevens, and Lost in the Cosmos.

If you feel like listening to a full 40-50 minute album to find out if you like a band is a bit much, I recommend listening to one of the mini stories Alice, Swan Song, or Frankenstein, which are about 12, 5 and 9:30 minutes respectively.

3) The Amazing Devil You know that guy who played Jaskier in the Witcher? I got into The Amazing Devil from spotify recommending them because I listened to the mechs, and apparently Joey Batey from The Amazing Devil is the same Joey Batey who was in the Witcher. Both him and Madeleine Hyland are VERY talented singers and songwriters and their second album The Horror and the Wild makes me go out into the forest and SCREAM. I listened to it on repeat for like a month straight. I guess they'd also be considered folk, but like. New Folk. Also yes, this is another British artist, I don't know why I'm like this. I've never really gotten that into their first album, Love Run, but King slaps. As I understand there's this whole lore about the Blue Furious Boy and Scarlet Scarlet, Joey and Madeleine respectively, but unlike the Mechanisms it's actually possible to find out things about the actual real people and harder to find the obscure lore? I'm open for people to please help me. Fave songs are The Horror and the Wild, Farewell Wanderlust, and That Unwanted Animal, which is literally a third of their second album, but again. I haven't really listened to Love Run that much, and I just LOVE the harmonies on THATW. (also im gay and dramatic leave me alone)

4) dodie I have so much love for this woman. Like many others, I first knew dodie as doddleoddle on youtube. I think I first stumbled across her in probably 2015, because I distinctly already knew her before she released her first EP Sick of Losing Soulmates in 2016. I think I watched probably every video she's ever made in the span of a few weeks. I just loved her quiet sound and was absolutely HOOKED. Also she's actually the reason I got into MIKA originally, so thanks for that. Dodie just realeased her first album Build A Problem (in addition to her three EP's; the one mentioned above, You, and Human) and it slaps. Yes dodie is also British Fave songs are probably Monster, Rainbow, and In The Middle.

5) Cladia Boleyn Unfortunately, Claudia Boleyn only has three singles and that's it. She's been making content on youtube for quite a while, and that's how I first discovered her. I don't know what genre her music is, but I like it. The songs are Celesta, George, and Mother Maiden Crone, of which the latter is my favourite. I'm not saying Claudia Boleyn invented women in 2017 when she released Mother Maiden Crone, but she did. Also you guessed it, Claudia Boleyn is British.

6) Hozier I'm not about to tell you about Hozier. You know who he is. Listen to Nina Cried Power, Angel Of Small Death & The Codeine Scene, and Shrike. Also Hozier isn't stricly British in that he is definitely from A British Isle, but Ireland is not part of the UK. Give me a break.

7) Oh Land Oh Land IS DANISH. I like her early music best, because I'm not that into the electronic sound. I guess Oh Land is just you regular old pop, but with the occasional weird vibe? Oddly enough, I like her first album Fauna best. Unfortunately I haven't really listened to her newest album Family Tree much, but it seems good? Fave songs are Frostbite, Love You Better and Family Tree. I cried on the bus, first time I listened to the Danish version of Love You Better, Elsker Dig Mer because my mother tongue always just hits harder. Also Frostbite is Oh Land doing a duet with herself which is pretty cool.

8) Oysterband This is a live recommendation. I mean they're a decent folk band and all, but they're a fucking experience live. If you like folk and you ever get the opportunity to see Oysterband live, do it. Unfortunately, yes. They are British. Either way, they are incredible on a scene and I think they deserve a mention for that.

9) Ben Platt Honestly don't know much about this guy, but he's not British and he was in Dear Evan Hansen. He released an album in 2019, Sing To Me Instead, and I just think it's a good album, there isn't really not much more to it. Fave songs are Grow As We Go, Bad Habit, and In Case You Don't Live Forever.

and thats all for now. this has been a ramble. shout out to you if you actually read all of this, especially the mechs part.

#music stuff #amalie.txt #music recommendations #mika #the mechanisms #the amazing devil #dodie #claudia boleyn #hozier #oh land #oysterband #ben platt

[hyuckcherie]

l.donghyuck || good morning

» genre : fluff

» prompt : just some morning fluff with zero plot

» warnings : switching between past and present tense😔, literally zero plot, the ending feels kind of abrupt

on mornings that neither of you have anything planned

at least for a few hours

waking up happens naturally

the sunshine filtering through the curtains you picked out to match your room rouses you

the want to sleep more is always there, but the need to see your personal sunshine is greater

so you turn in his embrace

his arm hooked around your waist and the leg wrapped over near your hip make it a little difficult

such a koala :(

but you manage after a couple years of practice

your warm hands cup his face delicately, so as not to wake him

you like just studying his face in the morning

it helps you prepare for the day and tells you everything will be okay

but after a couple minutes you start pressing kisses all over

and he slowly starts to wake up

his eyelids flutter like gentle butterfly wings

and as he feels you pressing kisses with your lips or nose

a sleepy smile grows on his lips

“morning,” he whispers, his voice deeper from sleep

his eyes finally open to behold the sight of you

he may be your and everyone’s sun,, but you’re his

his sun, moon, and stars.

and he thinks you’re most beautiful when you’re barely awake, face inches from his own

you wrap your arms around his torso and he pulls you in closer

“good morning,” you say back, a blissful smile of your own

“how did you sleep”

“good. i dreamt we went on a picnic by the river. it was really nice.”

haechan hums

“how about we do that?”

“really?”

despite the new plans you stay there in each other’s arms, talking about the dreams you had and catching up on notifications.

once you’d both woken up sufficiently, it was time to get ready for the day

the first thing you did on slow mornings was take a shower together

haechan poured some shampoo in his palm and began lathering your wet hair

while you grabbed the loofa and honey and vanilla body wash

haechan giggled as he tried to make your hair stand with the shampoo still in

you roll your eyes but soon your giggles join his.

he sings off and on to random songs popping into his head

sometimes asking you to sing along with him if you know the song.

once your hair is rinsed out and the conditioner is in, you repeat the process on haechan

you like making his hair spiky, always surprised by how good it looks on him.

you give him an extra long scalp massage as you do his hair

for all his hard work,

and wet kisses pressed between bouts of giggling.

with you both rinsed off and wrapped in fluffy towels

and after a five minute hug because y’all clingy

you pull out the blow dryer.

haechan starts on your hair first because it’s longer and takes a while to dry compared to his

you sit on the bathroom counter just staring into his sparkly eyes

they’re the most beautiful you’ve ever seen

they’re deep and hold so much within them.

the color of his eyes in the bathroom lighting is different from any other and you love them even more.

haechan stands between your legs

your fingers brushing his bare skin at the top of his towel

when your hair has been mostly dried, you let haechan clip it out of your face

you asked him before why he doesn’t just let you do it

he ignored your question with just a soft smile

so you let him do it, which gives you a chance to sneak a couple kisses to his cheek.

haechan remained standing before you as you did his hair, your fingers ruffling his thick locks while the hot air dried them.

it was his turn to stare at you,

the way you bite the inside of your bottom lip with concentration

the way your eyes occasionally flicker around the room before focusing back on your task

he loves it. he loves you. you and your habits that make his heart go wild.

-

you brush your teeth next

“it’s almost time to go visit the dentist,” you mention while it’s on your mind

haechan is quiet for a moment while he rinses his mouth out

“why did the king go to the dentist?”

you roll your eyes, knowing there’s a joke coming

“because that’s you and it’s time for you to go back,” you somehow manage to say around the toothbrush in your mouth

haechan skips over your comment about him being compared to a king

“to get a new crown”

he immediately dissolves into loud giggles, totally absorbed in his own joke

you choke, coughing and spitting out the toothpaste into the sink

this of course makes you laugh and him laugh harder, him sinking to the floor with one arm barely hanging onto the counter

you kick him

not enough to hurt him in any way though

“it wasn’t even that funny,” you whine, pushing him with your toes

“get up before your towel falls off”

he takes a breath long enough to say “wouldn’t you love that”

you smack him this time.

-

your tummy is growling by the time you finish applying your moisturizer

“time for breakfast i guess,” haechan chuckles

he’s pulling you out of the bathroom and bedroom before you can blink

“wait, baby. i need clothes” you laugh

“why? it’s just us”

“babe. i’m not going without clothes”

haechan pouts and sulks to the closet to pull out a shirt for you and a pair of sweatpants for himself, a pair of boxers for each of you

“there. better?” he asks once you’re both dressed

“i’d prefer a bra”

“nope”

he pulls you out of the room and to the kitchen

-

one of haechans absolute favorite things to do for you is cook

he’s already the type of person to express his love through actions

like cuddles and kisses and random gifts

but cooking for you is a whole new level

he loves when you’re attached to him while he’s cooking

so that’s what you do.

your hands rest on his tummy and your cheek is pressed against the back of his shoulder

you graze your lips across his skin occasionally as you sway to the music playing from haechan’s phone

you speak over the low music, talking about things that are happening in your workplace, or even about the dog you saw when you went to lunch the other day

“are you almost done?” you piped up, poking him in the side

he caves away from the prodding touch

“almost, baby”

you sigh and tilt your head back so it’s your chin resting against his back

your hands run up and down his chest, patting every couple seconds as you heave out another sigh

haechan shivers at your touch, making you giggle

you switch to tickling him

“yah! babyy” he whines

when you don’t stop, he turns around in your arms

his hands grip your shoulders as he leads you backwards until you’re pressed against the counter

you look up at him, wondering what he’s going to do

if you were expecting a kiss, it ain’t it.

instead, his hands fall to your waist and he hoists you up to sit on the counter

“you stay, before i burn the food”

you pout of course

because now what :(

but you sit there like a good girl

watching as he cooks

you think it’s taking forever but you don’t mind.

and each time he passes by

you manage to wrap your legs around his waist and pull him in

with him standing right before you, your legs still hooked around his torso

you kiss his nose once before moving straight to his lips

you cut it short reluctantly, but knowing full well it leaves haechan wanting more than it does you

so he’s whining and chasing after your lips when you pull back

“ah ah, the foods going to burn,” you say cheekily, realeasing him

haechan levels a glare at you but the food really is about to burn so he has to go

so he begrudgingly turns away

you do it a couple more times, knowing that your teasing is frustrating him

until your breakfast (which consists of several dishes) is done

and he’s turning the stove off and returning to your arms

where he kisses you softly

like you might shatter,

taking you by surprise.

you gasp when he hooks his hands under you legs and picks you up

he sets you down on a chair at the dining room table

kissing your cheeks a few times before returning to the kitchen

he comes back with dishes of food, taking two or three trips to bring them all

your stomach growls again at the sight

“wow baby, you made a lot”

haechan seats himself next to you

“i figured what we don’t eat, we can bring to the picnic with us”

-

with bellies full and happy

it’s time to actually get dressed for the day

the weather is really nice with spring in full bloom

so the flowy skirt you bought last week is perfect.

you hum as you pull the items from the closet, haechan still choosing between two shirts

“which one do you think?”

you look over your shoulder, shirt halfway off

“the white one. it does wonders for your skin tone”

“you think?”

“i know”

when you’re both dressed you start on your makeup

while haechan comes behind you to drape his arms over your shoulders

“can i do your hair?”

you look up at him through the mirror

“you want to?” he nods. “sure baby ^^”

his gentle fingers pull off the headband you’d put on to keep your hair out of your face

and gathers your strands.

“is a braid okay?”

“it’s whatever you want to do”

so while you’re finishing your makeup, haechan’s nimble fingers twist your hair into a simple plait

“so pretty” he breathes when he’s done

he presses a few kisses to your shoulder

“i should have you do my hair more often” you say, seeing how well he did it

“maybe you should”

#yuck i dont know about the ending #but anyway im whipped for this boy 😔 #haechan #lee donghyuck #lee haechan #haechan x reader #haechan x you #donghyuck #donghyuck x reader #donghyuck x you #haechan fanfic #donghyuck fanfic #haechan fluff #donghyuck fluff #nct #nct x reader #nct haechan #nct fluff #haechan imagines #donghyuck imagines #nct dream #nct dream x reader #nct dream fluff #puffpuff #my writing

[clareisa]

The Sweetest Victory - Jaebum and Yugyeom (Jus2)

Request: (anon request):   Hiiii can you please do Jus2 breeding #53. Because I can't be the only one who needs Jus2 smut even if it's a prompt I really need one. Thank you😊😊😊

A/N: Hey! You are not the only one who needs this, sweetie. Those two together are deadly combination.

Prompts:  53.“A bet’s a bet, and I won, so you know what that means. I get to fill you with my cum, any hole of my choosing.”

Warning: This contains NSFW content. Do not engage in my works if you are underage. Read to your own discretion.

“If I’ll win this round, I can do anything I want to you? Deal?” Jaebum smirked at you, holding his cards. You nodded because you thought that the worst thing he could do was flick your forehead or splash you with water. Yugyeom sat next to you and with pout said, “Why you sitting on the floor when my lap is right here. It’s much more better than cold floor.” he said cutely with innocent eyes. Jaebum just rolled his eyes. “It’s lucky lap, Y/N. You’ll win.” he winked at you cutely. You giggled and with smile you sat into his lap. He automatically put his hands on your waist. And of course you lost. Even with help of Yugyeom...

“Okay what do you want?” you asked with pout. Jaebum smirked and nodded at Yugyeom. Younger male bit his bottom lip and his big hands moved from your waist and grabbed your breasts harshly as he started sucking on your neck. You gasped in shock and tried to move but the man holding you was much stronger. Jaebum smirked, leaned close to your face and took your chin to his palm. His eyes were dark, something evil behind them. “A bet’s a bet, and I won, so you know what that means. I get to fill you with my cum, any hole of my choosing.” his evil smile widened along with your scared expression. 

You were shocked but you would lie if you would tell that you didn’t become wet after his words. Jaebum slowly leaned closer to your face, “Kiss me, princess.” he whispered and you, to his surprise, took his cheeks and connected your lips without hesistation. Yugyeom loved the view and soon he was whining because he was the one that wanted occupying your lips and not his leader. 

“Look how cute and whiny our Yugyeom is.” Jaebum smirked as he broke the kiss. “Want to switch places?” Jaebum asked and younger male nodded. As you three stood up you immediately started  taking off their clothes making them smile. You blushed hard when you were taking oof theor boxers, seeing their half-hard lenghts for the first time. Jaebum sat down and sat you on his lap, your back facing him. 

He were playing with your clit until he was satisfied with your wetness leaking out of you. “I’ll fuck this pretty pussy, it will be so full of my seed. And while I’ll be doing that you’ll put this mouth to use.” he smirked. As he said it Yugyeom was already rubbing his hard member against your lips. You opened wide for him. They both entered your needy holes at the same time making you moan and clench around them. They both realeased an animalistic growl. Jaebum took the flesh of your thighs and started pounding to your insides without mercy. Yugyeom on the other hand took your hair harshly and held your head still while fucking your throat with smile on his face. 

They both were so selfish, they were concentrating only on their orgasms but you didn’t mind. You loved the way they were using you. You felt proud that your body was making them this wild and crazy. Yes, you were a sub but you felt so powerful. These two men was completely addicted to you, to your body. Jaebum’s moans became more frequent and his pace sloppier as he was close to his orgasm. “Fuck baby girl. So close, I’ll give you everything. Wanna be full of my seed? Nice full and pregnant, princess?” he chuckled. You moaned around Yugyeom as you heard those words. Younger male was close as well, you could tell. “Fuck, suck harder, Y/N!” he whined out and slapped your breasts. 

The second their warm cum filled both of your pussy and mouth you came from the feeling as well. Like a good girl you swalloed all of Yugyeom’s and milked out Jaebum’s cum by clenching around him. “Second round?” you asked innocently making both males smirk.

#got7 #got7 smut #got7 smut drabble #got7 drabbles #got7 scenarios #got7 imagines #got7 yugyeom #got7 jaebum #jaebum #yugyeom #jaebum smut #yugyeom smut

[spookyspaghetti-hcs]

Homieslice!!! Welcome back!!!!! If any asshole anons come back I'll beat them with a baseball bat!! I request hoodskie if requests are open (I think you like that ship? Go wild)

*quiet sobbing* i had to mentally double check i was thinking about the right pairing it's been too long

• Their number one hobby is trash talking the others

• Mean gays club

• They try to cuddle.... they do not cuddle well. Masky rolls off the bed and Hoodie likes to starfish out

• One time, they were out of bullets and starting to get cornered..... Hoodie, dumb bitch, just picked up masky and swung him into the enemies

•effective? Yes. Ever repeated? Thank god no

• Hoodie is really good at painting, but dear fuck if Masky gets one more painting of a sunrise/sunset for his birthday he is going to scream

• If they see each other out in public, they'll literally act like they've never seen each other before. Out on a mission trying to track down two separate targets? Nothing

• One time they did see each other, but it was... a bit late. they absolutely collided into each other, giving their respective victims a major shock as the creepy masked fucks KOed each other. The victims teamed up, and yeah, they died shortly after, but they died together :)

• However, their protective levels are 100+++

• Jeff like. breathes near Masky, and Hoodie is already throwing hands 

• Not even like jealous “"wasn't he flirting with you???” just more of like a “"let's do it baby i know the law” kinda protective

• Hoodie likes spiders,,, Masky is afraid of them. He says “"oh babe you've shown me the light they're cool now : )” but there's a reason he calls Hoodie over to come meet a “"new friend” whenever he sees a spider. Not because Masky is afraid, he just wants Hoodie to have the honor of realeasing it :)

• they're probably married in some form or another, but completely forgot about it 

#marble hornets #headcanons #masky #hoodie #tim wright #brian thomas #hoodsky #moody

[allatariel]

Beth and Saint Catherine of Alexandria

I wrote this nearly three years ago and it has been languishing in my google docs waiting to be made tumblr-ready ever since. I have not updated the content appreciably, so it may very well contain outdated theories or speculations long since proven false or at the very least ill-timed, but it feels like unfinished business. I'd rather realease it into the wild than delete all this work. To my knowledge, no one else has yet touched on at least the visual connections herein, but I have been out of touch with TWD and the fandom for a few years now, for various reasons. Thank you for your indulgence.

Apologies if I'm rehashing old information; I looked and couldn't find anything like this, but maybe I ain't looking right.

Special thanks to @bethgreenewarriorprincess and @bethgreeneishopeunseen for listening to me ramble about this and all your help!

The image below of Beth waking up in the hospital never appeared in the show, but has been used often promotionally (here, here, and here for a start), even years later (on August 7, 2016) with the tweet of the Beth's Journey video originally posted to YouTube on November 30, 2014 after 5x08 Coda aired.

She looks altogether more beatific than Rick did in roughly the same situation. See how the light, almost heavenly in nature, illuminates her clean face, smooth brow, and shiny hair and reflects in her eyes, giving them a diffused look, as though she’s looking at something no one else can see, like an apparition. Contrast this with Rick bathed in wan light, sweaty and unkempt, his brow furrowed in confusion and dawning alarm, as he takes in the evidence of neglect in the room around him that is plain for us to see in the ensuing shots.

I knew I'd seen this image somewhere before, and I know it's a very typical depiction of beatific passion, many examples of which can be found in religious art and throughout art history (e.g., here, here, here, and here). But it specifically looks, to me, most like Raphael's Saint Catherine of Alexandria. (for an additional analysis of Beth's saintly framing supported by connections to another saint, St. Mary Frances, see here)

This is a cropped screenshot of the full image found on Wikipedia. Note that another depiction by Caravaggio, whose The Denial of Saint Peter figures very prominently in 5x04 Slabtown (for an analysis of the use of this painting in 5x04, see here), is linked from that page and vice versa, but not any other artist's versions, of which there are many (see here, here, and here for a few). (It is also interesting to note that Caravaggio's The Denial of Saint Peter is housed at the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York City, and though it has toured, it has never been exhibited at the High Museum of Art in Atlanta, Georgia. The High does have another painting titled The Denial of St. Peter in its collection, which was painted some twenty years later by Nicolas Tournier who was influenced by Caravaggio's work.)

Saint Catherine of Alexandria is a bit of a mythic figure; the following summary of her life is quoted from the Wikipedia page for her, with citations included linked within.

Legend

According to the traditional narrative, Catherine was the daughter of Constus, the governor of Alexandrian Egypt during the reign of the emperor Maximian (286–305).[6] From a young age she had devoted herself to study. A vision of the Madonna and Child persuaded her to become a Christian. When the persecutions began under Maxentius, she went to the emperor and rebuked him for his cruelty. The emperor summoned fifty of the best pagan philosophers and orators to dispute with her, hoping that they would refute her pro-Christian arguments, but Catherine won the debate. Several of her adversaries, conquered by her eloquence, declared themselves Christians and were at once put to death.[7]

Torture and martyrdom Catherine was then scourged and imprisoned, during which time over 200 people came to see her, including Maxentius' wife, Valeria Maximilla; all converted to Christianity and were subsequently martyred.[8] Upon the failure of Maxentius to make Catherine yield by way of torture, he tried to win the beautiful and wise princess over by proposing marriage. The saint refused, declaring that her spouse was Jesus Christ, to whom she had consecrated her virginity. The furious emperor condemned Catherine to death on a spiked breaking wheel, but, at her touch, it shattered.[7] Maxentius finally had her beheaded.

Burial A tradition dating to about 800 states that angels carried her corpse to Mount Sinai. Her body was discovered around the year 800 at Mount Sinai, with hair still growing and a constant stream of healing oil issuing from her body.[9] In the 6th century, the Eastern Emperor Justinian had established what is now Saint Catherine's Monastery in Egypt (which is in fact dedicated to the Transfiguration of Christ).

She is generally believed to have been eighteen at the time of her death. Her feast day is November 25, and in celebration of this day in France, unmarried women pray for her intercession to find them husbands. These unmarried women are referred to as “Catherinettes” and their friends make elaborate hats, or bonnets, for them, using the colors yellow for faith and green for wisdom. The Catherinettes are crowned with these bonnets and make pilgrimages to St. Catherine’s statue in their local churches. Also of note and pertaining to France, she is believed to have appeared to Joan of Arc.

Saint Catherine has patronage over many things; because of her chastity, she is the patroness of unmarried women; because of her scholarship and skill in debate, she is the patroness of apologists, archivists, educators, female students, jurists, lawyers, librarians, libraries, philosophers, preachers, scholars, schoolchildren, scribes, secretaries, stenographers, and theologians; because of her association with the breaking wheel and wheels in general, she is the patroness of craftsmen who work with a wheel (potters, spinners), mechanics, millers, and wheelwrights; because of her beheading, she is patroness of knife sharpeners; because of her martyrdom, she is the patroness of dying people and nurses; because of a tradition in France on her feast day relating to her patronage of unmarried women, she is patroness of milliners, hat-makers, tanners, and haberdashers.

She is associated with a number of items, or attributes, and when depicted in art these items are often shown with her. A crown, either atop her head or at her feet, denoting her royal birth; a book, held open or closed in her hands, and perhaps her arguing with the pagan philosophers denoting her eloquence and wisdom; a bridal veil and ring denoting her mystical marriage to Jesus Christ; a dove as one legend states she was fed by a dove while imprisoned; a scourge, the breaking wheel, either whole or itself broken at her touch, and the sword that finally ended her life by decapitation; (hailstones are also listed in places, I got nothing). The type of firework known as the Catherine wheel is named for her.

Additional references for information about Saint Catherine of Alexandria can be found here, here, here, and here.

And now for the parallels, the reason I’m boring you all (all two of you) with these details about a long dead, and likely entirely legendary figure.

Like Saint Catherine, Beth is the daughter of a leader. Hershel Greene, initially of the Greene family farm and later of the prison. Before the fall of civilization, Beth was a student and after she doesn’t start out understanding what’s really going on in the apocalypse. When faced with it, she thinks she wants to die, but when she tries to kill herself she has an epiphany and chooses to live; this is rather like Saint Catherine’s path to conversion, in how she devotes her life to learning, then experiences a vision and becomes Christian.

Beth was “imprisoned” in Grady Memorial Hospital, was beaten, but never broken. Carol and the others "visited her" in her prison and she converted people, like Noah and Dr. Edwards, to another way of thinking. She broke their system by challenging it and getting Dawn killed after having killed the biggest offenders, Gorman and O'Donnell. She was shot, but didn’t die. Saint Catherine was imprisoned and tortured, many came to visit her and were converted. They tried to execute her and she not only survived, she broke the tool of her execution, symbolically breaking their system. Both were eighteen at the time of their imprisonment and attempted execution.

Beth was carried out of the hospital by Daryl, who wears angel wings, and left in a trunk after running from 800 walkers. She wasn't dead so her body would not corrupt. Additionally, she is immune to the infection and incorruptible by it (another way she “breaks the wheel” by breaking the infection). Her immunity will be the source of the cure and thus heal others. Saint Catherine's body was carried to Mount Sinai by angels and was found incorrupt and issuing healing oil in the year 800.

The mystical marriage of Saint Catherine is interesting; one variation on her conversion involves her search for a husband that matched her in intellect, nobility, and beauty and a hermit in the desert who, after a vision of Jesus Christ and the Virgin Mary, went to Saint Catherine and told her of the spouse she desired. This hermit eventually baptised her, preparing her for her mystical marriage to Jesus. C@rol, who was a hermit for a while, brought Beth’s knife (an attribute of Saint Catherine, a small sword) to Daryl, giving him his lady’s favor, essentially marrying them (more here).

Saint Catherine’s reason for her refusal of the offer of marriage from the man who was trying to have her executed makes me think of the metas about 4x12 Still and the blood splatter on the white sweater foreshadowing Beth losing her virginity with Daryl (here and here, though there are more). I can just imagine Negan asking her to join his harem and Beth refusing by saying she's already promised to someone.

Bonus connections!

Beth’s father, Hershel, was beheaded with a sword like Saint Catherine; I know this isn’t a direct parallel as this happened to her father and not her, but I think the connection is solid enough with him being her father and her having watched it happen.

The spoked breaking wheel rather resembles a clock, which is heavily connected with Beth.

Saint Catherine appeared to Joan of Arc and counseled her; in 5x04 Slabtown Beth brought some small comfort to Joan during her confinement after her amputation.

Coda aired on November 30, the Sunday following Saint Catherine’s feast day of November 25.

Saint Catherine is a patroness of mechanics, and Daryl, Beth’s apocalypse husband, is the mechanic of the group (bonus bonus, he rides motorcycles which have spoked wheels like the breaking wheel).

The blond walker in the yellow wheelchair (mentioned here, here, and here, towards the bottom in all three) with the wounded left foot in 4x06 Live Bait is connected with Beth through her signature yellow color and wounded left foot in 5x13 Alone, and the spoked wheels of the wheelchair resemble the breaking wheel, symbolically representing the hospital and foreshadowing her breaking of it.

In Raphael’s Saint Catherine of Alexandria, there is a braid in Catherine's hair that starts at her left temple; Beth often wore a braid on the left side in her ponytail.

The traditional colors of the bonnets made for the Catherinettes celebrating Saint Catherine’s day in France were yellow for faith and green for wisdom; Beth has been strongly associated with yellow and faith and her last name is Greene. Also both she and her father have been associated with wisdom.

Not to mention the St. Catherine of ALEXANDRIA thing.

The final parallel I would like to highlight is the breaking of the wheel as the breaking of the cycle the show is currently stuck in, like a pair of millstones, the runner stone circling on the bedstone seemingly endlessly. The official synopsis for season 7 says “This half season is about these characters starting over. The overall theme of the season is beginning again.” The first episode of season 6 was called First Time Again. In season 5 after Terminus they begin again together. The Governor destroys the prison and they are forced to begin again, scattered. How many times will we take it once again from the top, everyone? (Washington D.C. = D.C. = da Capo, anyone? “Da Capo” is Italian for “from the head” and shares the same Latin root with “decapitate.”)

I mean, that's what the comic has done, over and over and over again; the war with the governor, All Out War, The Whisperer War—same shit different day. Abraham references this in his speech in 5x02 Strangers, “Wake up in the morning, fight the undead pricks, forage for food, go to sleep at night with two eyes open, rinse and repeat?” as encouragement to get them to join his mission to D.C.

Beth’s return is a way to break that cycle for the show—in the endless string of deaths and losses, finally they get someone back.

Morgan says, “People can come back, Rick.” in 6x15 East. Morgan says it to Rick just like Rick said it to the governor when he came to take the prison. Rick says, "Everyone who's alive right now. Everyone who's made it this far. We've all done the worst kinds of things just to stay alive. But we can still come back. We're not too far gone. We get to come back. I know... we all can change." in 4x08 Too Far Gone.

In 6x15 East, Morgan also says, "It—it's all a circle. Everything gets a return." Everything comes full circle with Beth’s survival, she’s not just “another dead girl” as she says in 4x12 Still.

The circle, the cycle, the wheel—Beth will break the wheel just like St. Catherine of Alexandria. Once more from the beginning, but skip to a different ending (da Capo al Coda).

#team delusional #team defiance #meta #beth greene #st. catherine of alexandria #religious symbolism #parallels #long post #i hope the read more works #i made this #this draft is nearly three years old #better late than never #I don't even watch this show anymore but this draft was taunting me

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Confession

Drabble game! I had this laying around waiting for me to realease it. I got too inspired! I hope you like it even though I got kinda fluffy at the start! @francais404francais

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Jung Hoseok was your best friend from all your life and he was also your neighbor. You literally could open your windows and talk all night long through it since your houses were side by side.

You went to school together and now were even going to the same university. You were inseparable. His sister was your brother’s girlfriend and everyone in the family teased you that you would end up marrying Hoseok but you always took that as a joke, you didn’t think he was interested in you in those ways.

Tonight was your prom night and, of course, Hoseok was your prom date. He asked you in such a funny way. One day you were at the cafeteria eating lunch with your friends when suddenly he appeared with a boombox, blasted some music, got on the table, started dancing sexy for you and then his friends appeared holding a big poster that said “Can I have your prom dance?”. You couldn’t say no, besides he was your best friend after all.

There you were with your long pretty dress, your hairdo and perfect makeup waiting for him.

The doorbell rang and suddenly you felt butterflies in your stomach. You felt weird because it was only Hoseok but for some reason he was making you nervous.

Your mom opened the door to reveal a Hoseok in a tuxedo, looking more hansome than ever, holding your corsage. As soon as he saw you his jaw dropped dramatically. “Wow! Y/N you look gorgeous oh my god!”.

You blushed and smiled. “You look handsome yourself, Hoseok.”

“Shall we go? The limo is waiting for us,” he said while making you take his arm like the whole gentleman he was. Your parents were wild taking pictures and you both were as nervous and embarrassed. Finally you got into the limo and headed to the prom.

It was a wild night, full of drinking, dancing and laughter. You never left Hoseoks side and apparently he was happy about it.

As the prom ended you headed to a beach that was near, your heals in your hands while you were barefoot from the pain you had from so much dancing. Hoseok walked by your side, talking about nonsense. You sat on the sand with your pretty dress, not caring about anything. Hoseok sat by your side and for a moment you were both silent.

“Y/N...” he broke the silence.

“Yeah?”

“I-I have something to tell you,” he said kinda nervous.

“What is it?”

“Promise me you won’t panic and that nothing will change after this.” He held out his pinky finger. You were scared of what he was going to say, usually your pinky promises were as valid as anything serious. You trusted Hoseok so you interlocked pinkies, “Promise.”

“Y/N... i like you.”

You thought he was joking and said “Aww Hoseok, I like you too!”

“No Y/N, you don’t understand. I really like you as in more than friends, as I want to date you.”

Silence grew between you two. You sat there looking at the waves, thinking in what to say.

Hoseok was an splendid man, he spoiled you, he was always there for you, he listened to you, he supported you and he knew you really well. Physically he was hot, his smile was the best.

Considering you got nervous before when he picked you up, did you liked Hoseok? You started thinking about him in those ways. Taking his delicate hands, kissing his heart shaped lips, being under his perfect body... you started blushing at the thought, you were thankful that you were just under the moonlight and he couldn’t see you well.

“Say something please,” he said almost as a whisper. You took his hand, lacing fingers, he looked at you shocked.

“Hoseok, I would be honored to date you.”

He smiled, “So is that a yes?”

“It is.”

“Thank God! I was so nervous.”

“Silly!” You pushed him and he pushed you back making you fall completely to the sand. He started to tickle you. Your laughs sounded through all the place “Hoseok stop!!! HAHAHAH!”

He got on top of you, his thighs on each side of you, his expression changing to a serious one. He started getting closer to your face. You pulled him by the tie “Just kiss me already,” you smiled and he also smiled.

His lips touched yours tenderly, they started moving in synchronization with yours, slowly, taking their time to know each other. He then pulled away, looking directly to your eyes, you passed your fingers through his hair.

“You know how much I dreamt about this? It feels surreal,” he said.

You caressed his face, “We should go to the hotel room, it’s getting kinda cold.”

“Sure, let’s go.”

You never planned this, you never thought it would be so fast, but here you were kissing wildly, under Hoseok.

“Let me peel off your dress huh?” he said while kissing your neck. “You look beautiful in it but it’s bothering us already, don’t you think?” You just nodded out of breath.

“Get up,” he commanded and you obeyed. He was sitting on the edge of the bed holding your hips. “Turn around please.” He spun you, his hands running up your back, looking for the zipper. When his fingers found it, he started unzipping it slowly, enjoying every inch of skin exposed to him. He then slid the sleeves off your shoulders, his hands caressing down your arms. Your dress fell graciously, pooling on your feet. He then spun you again so now you were facing him.

Looking at you dazzled, eyes shining he said “Wow, you’re a goddess.” His hands held you still, then he started kissing your belly, going up your torso and down again kissing your thighs. “You’re beautiful Y/N” he whispered on your skin making you smile. “Come,” he invited you to the bed again.

He was kissing you again, his tongue reaching yours. Your hands started to unbutton his shirt and when his abs were finally exposed your hands were touching him everywhere. He was nervous, you could tell by the way his hands trembled. He was trying to unclasp your bra but his trembling hands didn’t help much. He finally did, his hands taking your bra and throwing it to the floor. He stopped everything to just look at you which made you a little uncomfortable.

“Relax, you’re beautiful. It’s just I still can’t believe it.”

You just smiled at him but then asked “Can you take off your pants? I feel like you’re still dressed while I’m here almost naked.”

“Sure, anything’s to make you comfortable.” He then unbuttoned his pants. He was struggling to take them off which made you laugh. “They don’t want to leave apparently,” he said being funny.

He started kissing you again, his mouth running from your mouth, to your neck to then reach your breasts. He looked at you directly into your eyes while taking a nipple inside his mouth, his tongue swirling around it and then he sucked it. You moaned from how sexy he looked “Ah~ Hoseok.” He winked at you and then moved to give attention to your other nipple. His hand moved down your torso, reaching between your legs, his fingers trying to get into your panties. They were spreading your folds to find your bundle of nerves and when they did he started drawing circles on it. A gasp escaped from your lips from the sudden shot of pleasure you were feeling. “Wow, you’re so wet.” He continued with this for a while until he knew you were ready to take his fingers.

A finger slipped into you making you hiss. He then started pumping it inside you, making you go crazy.

“You’re so tight Jagiya, are you a virgin?”.

“Hoseok, please don’t stop, your fingers feel so good,” you begged suddenly feeling surprised by your own words.

“I need to know baby, I need to prepare you well.”

“Yes, I am.” Feeling a little embarrassed of your confession.

“It’s okay, nothing to be ashamed of. Im happy I get to be your first,” he said proudly.

He then kneeled on the bed to take off your underwear. He grabbed it and then pull it down your legs, making you raise a little to finally take it off. You closed your legs feeling a little conscious. He started kissing your legs, down from your foot up to your knee then to your thigh. “Open them babygirl, it’s okay,” he whispered sweetly, caressing your thighs. You complied giving him access to your core.

He started running his nose, leaving butterfly kisses up you thighs until his mouth reached to your center. His hands still trembled while holding your legs apart. “Are you nervous Hoseok?” You asked him.

“I am. Having a goddess with you on bed is not easy.” You smiled at his response, he could always make you smile even in situations like these.

His finger started going up your slit, exploring you, his mouth dangerously close to your core. His fingers spread you and then his tongue started licking you. A sudden moan grew out of your throat. His tongue lapping on your clit furiously. Your breathing started to grow uneven and then you gasped when he suddenly sucked on you. “Oh Fuck!”

He was licking you faster, sometimes sucking, sometimes nibbling, making you a moan mess, his hands were pressing your thighs down to avoid them to close. “Ah! Hoseok it feels too good!” He grunted “Fuck, you’re really wet. You’re so ready.”

He stopped making you grunt of frustration. He laughed at your reaction “Patience Jagi, Im going to make you feel good with other things.”

“I want to suck you,” you said surprising him. He smirked and laid back on the bed. “Come, It’s waiting for you.” His voice sounded so sexy it made you shiver.

Taking the elastic of his boxers in your hands, you slid them down his legs, his erection springing free. You couldn’t avoid blushing a little when you saw his dick, it was perfect. “Like what you see?” He said laughing a little. “I love what I see,” you replied taking him by the base, his eyes very attentive on every move you made. You gave him a lick from the base to the tip, his mouth forming an o. Your tongue started swirling around his tip, he looked at you amazed, his hand taking your hair out of your face. You then took him into your mouth, going as down as you could his breathing stopped for a moment and when you went back up, sucking him, he let out a shaky moan “Ah~ yes!”

You started bobbing on him, he was biting his lower lip. He arched a little, his back going back “Shit! Jagi stop! You’re gonna make me cum. You’re so good!” You let go of him with a pop, leaving his gasping. “Wow! You’re really good, but now I’m going to take you all. Come, lie down.”

Suddenly you got nervous, he saw it in your eyes “Relax, you’re going to be okay. Unless you don’t want this, I can always wait until you’re ready.” He was so sweet, what did you do to deserve him?

“Im okay don’t worry. I’m just a little nervous.” He smiled and kissed you, “I’ll be back in a second.”

He got off the bed and went to look for something in his wallet. He climbed back into the bed with the tinfoil package, knowing what it was made you more nervous. He opened it and rolled it down his length.

“You’re ready?” You nodded out of words.

“Spread your legs for me baby.” His words were making you go insane, you sighed. “It’s going to be okay, Im going slowly okay?” He caressed your cheek.

He placed himself between your legs, you were watching every move he made. He started to rub his tip on your core, looking for your entrance, you let out a heavy sigh. “Relax, trust me.”

He then eased into you slowly. You flinched a little at the pain from the stretch. “Shit! Hoseok! It hurts!” You whimpered.

“Ah~Jagi, relax, you’re clenching me,” he whimpered too. You started taking deep breaths to ease the pain. When it stopped you nodded, he felt you relax and continued to go into you. “You’re okay?” he whispered. “Mjm,” you managed to say.

He started moving in and out slowly. It was starting to feel good. “You’re so tight, wow.”

“Mmmff! It feels so good,” you moaned.

He took that as a hint to go a little faster. His hips moved sinfully. This new feeling was something you wanted to repeat over and over again.

“You look amazing my love,” he said pounding into you. You both were a sinful melody, combining moans, sighs grunts and whimpers. His moans were driving you insane. “Shit Hoseok, you’re driving me insane! Please don’t stop!”

He shifted his position to one where he could reach deeper into you, putting one of your legs on his shoulder. He was reaching your sweet spot, that spot you didn’t know it was reachable. “Fuck! Hoseok! Right there!” you screamed.

“You like it there? Yeah?” he said in a breathy moan.

“Uuuu! Harder please!”

Hoseok was now hitting you harder, the hotel bed moving with you. Your hands were scratching his back, your nails digging deep leaving marks and he moaned because of it “Fuck! Y/N!”

You then felt a knot in your stomach, trying to be freed. Hoseok noticed you were clenching “Are you gonna cum babygirl?” He started going faster, trying to make you reach your high. “Oh fuck! Hoseok!”

Your legs started trembling, you were on the edge of exploding. “Cum baby, let go,” he whispered in your ear. Yo felt your eyes roll, your body stiffened and a scream left your lips. A shiver ran through all of your body and then a feeling of relaxation took over your body.

Hoseok’s cursings brought you back to reality “Fuuuuck! Im gonna cum baby.” You couldn’t talk, you were too fucked up at the moment. He crashed on you, the sexiest moan sprouting from his lips, you felt him pulsing into you. He started kissing your cheeks, your neck, wherever his lips reached. He pulled out off you, taking off the condom, making a knot and throwing it into a trashcan.

He came back to the bed to cuddle you.

“How do you feel?” he asked while caressing your hair.

“I feel amazing, though Im a little tired.”

“Let’s sleep it off, yeah?”

“We should.”

He closed his eyes, you were studying him, how perfect he looked so close and so innocent. “Hoseok?”

“Yeah Jagiya?”

“Do you still like me?”

He opened one eye to look at you, “I like you even more now.” He then rolled over, pecked your lips and you both went to sleep.

#bts fanfic #bts imagines #bts reactions #bts smut #bts scenarios #j hope #hoseok #jung hoseok #hoseok fanfic #hoseok smut #bts jhope #jhope imagine #jhope scenarios

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Chernobyl disaster and documentary about wildlife taking over

The Chernobyl disaster was caused by a nuclear accident that occurred on Saturday 26th April 1986, at the No. 4 reactor in the Chernobyl nuclear power plant, near the city of Pripyat in the north of the Ukrainian SSR. It is considered the worst nuclear disaster in history and was caused by one of only two nuclear energy accidents rated at seven (the maximum severity) the accident started during a safety test on a nuclear reactor, which was commonly used throughout the Soviet Union. The test was a simulation of an electrical power outage to aid the development of a safety procedure for maintaining reactor cooling water circulation until the back up electrical generatiors could provide power. This gap was about one minute and had been identified as a potential safety problem that could cause the nuclear reactor core to overheat. It was hoped to prove during a scheduled reactor power down that the residual rotational energy in a turbine generator could provide enough power to cover the gap. Three such tests had been conducted since 1982, but they had failed to provide a solution. On this fourth attempt, an unexpected 10 hour delay meant that an unprepared operating shift was on duty. During the planned decrease of reactor power in preparation for the electrical test, the power unexpectedly dropped to a near zero level. The operators were able to only partially restore the specified test power, which put the reactor in a potentially unstable condion. This risk was not made evident in the operation instructions, so the operators proceeded with the electrical test. Upon test completion, the operators triggered a reactor shutdown, but a combination of unstable conditions and reactor design flaws caused an uncontrolled nuclear chain reaction instead. A large amount of energy was suddenly released, vaporising super heated cooling water and rupturing the reactor core in a highly destructive steam explosion. This was immediately followed by an open air reactor core fire that realeased considerable airborne radioactive contamination for about nine days that precipitated onto parts of the USSR and Western Europe, especially Belarus, 16km away, where around 70% landed, before being finally contained on 4th may 1986. The fire gradually realeased about the same amount of contamination as the initial explosion. As a result of rising ambient radiation levels off site, a 10 kilometre radius exclusion zone was created 36 hours after the accident. About 49,000 people were evacuated from the area, primarily from Pripyat. The exclusion zone was later increased to 30 kilometres radius when a further 68,000 people were evacuated from the wider area. The reactor explosion killed two of the reactor operating staff. In the emergency response that followed, 134 station staff and firemen were hospitalised with acute radiation syndrome due to absorbing high doses of ionising radiation. Of these 134 people, 28 died in the days to months afterward and approximately 14 suspected radiation induced cancer deaths followed within the next 10 years. Among the wider population, an excess of 15 childhood thyroid cancer deaths were documented as of 2011. The Chernobyl disaster is considered the worst nuclear power plant accident in history, both in terms in cost and casualties. The initial emergency response, together with layer decontamination of the environment, ultimately involved more then 500,000 personnel and cost an estimated 18 billion soviet rubles (roughly US 68billion dollars in 2019)

I decided to watch a documentary of the Chernobyl disaster and how the animals and the wildlife is taking back over. The documentary is called wildlife disaster: how animals reclaimed Chernobyl| free documentary nature. on this documentary it said about things like, most animals like cats are still there probably won’t see another human in there life and that life continues as normal but nature outside has started to win back the land as there is no one there. Creatures are coming in like brown bears even though the people who lived there didn’t want them too. The animals are reapering since the humans left. Animals ransack the abandoned rooms and houses to find food, but bears aren’t just the only animals which has found the ghost town as it’s a perfect sanctuary for animals. Beyond the houses and gardens there are other numerous species that are reappearing in healthy numbers among them are elk and deer both would of been hunted as they would of been so close to human habitation but not anymore. Incredibly rare horses can be found here too, there the only true species that would of been the same as an original wild horse they were first at Chernobyl in 1998, because the exclusion zone had started to show signs that it is an unnatural sanctuary for other species. To everyone’s surprise as the houses and roads disappeared beneath a miniature forest Mother Nature started to reclaim this place from the ground up. Plants flourished and provided food for insects and the food chain has gradually established with such extraordinary varsity that has stunned the scientists, what they saw was nothing like the nuclear desert that they expected. They even found endangered species over 40 animals that were listed as protected. What man had abandoned, nature now embraced to create a remakeable, and self made haven, where for many years to come the wildlife can live understurbed by man. From the smallest pollinators to large grazing species and even predators like the wolf. A lot of animals there are independent and have left their families. This environmental tragedy is bitter, sweet a man made disaster that ruined this place and made it inhabitable for people but turned it into a unique sanctuary for wildlife. Remarkably nature has licked its wounds and fought back to reclaim this place and while we might not know what lies ahead for the radioactive animals of Chernobyl but we do know now that there are a lot more of them then there used to be and that means that there’s plenty to eat. Every meal that the animals eat has to be hunted down but that’s not as easy as you may think, when the people left there the rodent population declined. The Chernobyl disaster couldn’t of happened in a worse time as it happened in April (spring) so everything was coming out of hibination and vulnerable flowers were just coming into bloom. The forest floor with its fresh new growth soon intensified radiation. The animals in the exclusion zone are all radioactive. If the predators catch and eat mice or rabbits which live underground in burrows it means that they are full of radioactivity as the ground is still full of chemicals. One fast track for radiation entering the food chain has been through fungi, along with bacteria they are nature’s most prolific decomposes so there role in circulating radioactivity through the environment is crustal, they absorb radioactivity just as they would nutrients directly from the ground. Wild bore now thrive in the zones forests, one of there favourite foods is mushrooms and they can absorb 30 times of levels of radioactivity during the peak grow season. Despite the fact wild bore east mushrooms they have emmense power and sharp tusks so that makes them extremely dangerous even to alone wolves.

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Yugyeomie Wolf AU.

Just a little wolf imagine, born out of my yugyeom feels

Summary : Gyeomie is your bestfriend, and he’s with you for the first time during the full moon.

Warnings: None.

genre : Fluffy-suggestive.

It’s been quite some time since you moved in the small appartment that you shared with your best friend, so you two knew each others perfectly by now, and most importantly you had no secrets for each other. You knew about Yugyeom’s “fur problem” as you liked to call it. You were used to him going away for two days during the full moon , but you never knew what he was doing during those two days . You never dared to ask and he never talked about it .

But this time, it was different. A very strong storm was raging outside, the tv news advising people to stay at  home and reporting about the most dangerous zones, one them being the one you lived in. You could hear the roof cracking and the wind making the widow stores screaming in agony. Yugyeom was in his room and refused to get out of it . You tried to convince him to get out but he locked himself and kept saying he didn’t feel well and not to bother him. You craved his cuddles, the warmness and feeling of security his arms could bring you. It has been a few hours and you were getting a bit worried so you went back to his door and asked in a small voice:

«aren’t you hungry? Thristy? Do you need anything?»

he only grunted in response and you sighed in defeat, going back to your room and went under your  blanket, as if it could protect you from the storm. You were almost asleep despite the storm, when a noise in the living room woke you up again. You thought yugyeom finally went out his room so you went to check on him . As soon as you openned your room’s door you fell on yugyeom’s eyes fixed on you. He looked… scared , a bit angry and something else that you couldn’t name. Like a wild animal caught in the headlights. But his eyes quickly changed into a deep determined gaze, a smirk forming on his lips .

One second later he was pinning you on a wall, kissing you wildly . It surprised you so much but you couldn’t help to melt in the kiss as his hands were roaming your body. It felt havenly, and you couldn’t bring yourself to stop him. He pushed you onto your bed, laid on top of you as his right hand slided up your tight, and you moanned his name out of anticipation. At the sound of his name Yugyeom came back to his senses and immediatly stood  up, shocked.

«Y/N… I’m so so sorry, I didn’t mean to, I’m…»

You looked, at him finally realising what happened and saw his panicked face that had nothing to do with his devilish smirk a few minutes ago. He looked at you like a lost puppy for a few seconds before literally running away and locking himself back into his room. You imediatly ran after him, banging on the door and calling his name. He didn’t respond for a long time after a good hour, you heard him again.

«Y/N» he whispered

«Yes?» you answered as quietly as him, hoping he would explain.

«You want to now why I always go away during the full moon?»

«Yes.» You finally said after a long moment of reflexion, afraid to learn something that would make you look at your bestfriend in a different way.

«The full moon… it makes us crazy, kind of. It turns us into beasts, as we go by instincs, by impulses , and it becomes very hard to control it. Sexual desires, the urge to fight, to get angry, suicidal thoughts. Anything can happen. I go because I don’t want to hurt you, Y/N.»

«To say you dare to complain of me being moody on my period!!» you try to crack a joke in hopes of relieving the tension, and even thought it’s bad you can hear his cute laugh from the other side of the door .

« Ah Y/N I’m really sorry for jumping on you earlier, but it drives me crazy to see you in that t shirt of mine when i’m already so horny… I hope you’re not hating me right now» he said with a small laugh.

you blushed really hard at his words, your eyes looking down at your bare legs, the feeling of yugyeom touching you coming back into your mind. All you could manage to answer was a strangled «No no don’t worry!»

«Mmmh Y/N?» He called you hesitantly

«yep?»

«Can I be honnest?»

«Sure!»

« I think you should go lock yourself into your room ‘cause all I can think about right now is fucking you.»

«GOSH, YUGYEOM!» you protested, half laughing and half scolding him. You could hear his laugh behind his door. «Fine, I’m going!» you said .

You were finally deep into dreamland when knocks on the front door woke you up again. You got out of bed to go check the front door where you looked throught the peephole to see a group of tall strong men . From what you could see they were more than four, and did not looked like they were here to have fun, so you decided to act as if you were not here . You turned around to go back to bed when you fell on a very angry yugyeom, which made you realease a small scream of surprise, as his eyes looked mad and his posture as if he was ready to attack . He started to look at the door, growling like a dog would do.

It would have been funny if he didn’t looked so scary.

His growls were answered by others growls from the mens behind the door. And you understood that the mens probably came here for Yugyeom, and that they would probably fight.

Really you would have laughed at how weird the scene was but there was too much of an heavy atmosphere for you to even smile at the situation.

«Yugyeom…?» You asked, slowly coming closer to him.You knew you shouldn’t have but he was your best friend and you knew deep down he would never hurt you. His eyes turned to you and imediatly softenned, which made you smile.

« Yugyeom, You can’t fight them they’re too many …» His hands were already on the lock . « It’s too dangerous!» I insisted.

«Go back to your room» he ordered, his voice strangely low, hands still on the lock.  

«Yugyeom.» you said firmly, putting yourself in front of him, blocking his access to the door.

You could hear the guys calling yugyeom out behind the door and you saw it was driving him nuts.

He looked at you before grabbing your waist and push you against his body, his face merely a few centimeters away from your face.

«Would you rather have me to fuck you then?» he spat, still glaring at you.

You needed to distract him. And you couldn’t said you didn’t like it, earlier . So you decided to play along, if it could keep him away from death, you thought. You lifted your chin, looking straight into his eyes before saying a determined « Yes.»

It definitely destabilized him, his grip loosening from your waist and his eyes wide. But it shortly after he suddenly grabbed you to throw you on his shoulder and took you to your room . He put you back on your feets, kissing you while pinning you against the door . You could feel your heart beating like crazy and your body aching for his touches . However, he suddenly took a step back, smirking at you while lifting his hand. It took you a second to realise it was your room key he had in his hand, and when you did he hurried out the room and closed the door . You yelled at him, trying to open it but it was locked already.

«Don’t worry Y/N, I can beat them !» he said and you could hear the smile in his voice . This idiot.

You stood in front of your door helpless, worried to death when hearing the lound thumps of the guys fighting. You guessed they were in the living room now, as the sound kept getting louder .

You listenned with worry when you heard a small whine and the sounds of hits slowly coming to a stop. « You lost » said an unknow voice . « What do you have to offer» Another guy asked. «I already know what I want» , stated a third person. There was a small moment of silence, before someone kikcked your door open. You heard yugyeom protest and telling you to run before he was silenced by one of the guy. You wanted to run but they were blocking the only issues so you just took a few step back until you were stopped by the wall.one of the guys grabbed you by the arms and dragged you into the livig room. You tried to call for help, screaming but they shut you up quickly. You saw your best friend’s bloody body laying in the middle of your living room and desesperatly tried to wrestle out of their grip, crying at the sight.

«Look what we’ve got gyeomie! Guys we’re lucky she’s very pretty!» He laughed loudly stroking my cheek with a fake smile on his lips. A tall black haired one that was holding yugyeom down stood up and took the mens away from me. He aproached to whatch me carefully, then turned to the others .

«We can’t do anything to her. She’s his mate, can’t you feel it?» He scolded them.

You didn’t knew what he exactly meant by that but by the look on his face, it seemed to have a lot of effect on Yugyeom.

«Yeah you got your revange anyway, let’s just go, hyung. The neighbors might have called the cops with her screams. » said a young blond one.

«Fine» the seemingly oldest one sighed . «let’s go to the whorehouse, then .» they all agreed and went out the door, amically punching each others in the arms and laughing with each others. When they completly left the corridor, you finally reacted and went to close and lock the door. You laid on the door a moment, trying to overcome the shock of what you lived .  

You woken up from your thoughts by Yugyeom grunting in pain as he tried to pull himself up. You went to help him up to sit him on the sofa and left to get the first aid kit . You started to clean up his wounds, blushing slightly when he had to remove his bloodied shirt to clean the wounds on his back and chest. You knew that the wounds would heal quickly due to the werewolf side of him, but it always surpised you how quick it was. The wounds were already puffy pink scars . No words was spoken during that time, since you were still quite angry at him for not lisenning to you, and locking you in your room .

You finished treating his wounds and stood up to go back to your room but yugyeom held your hand, bringing you back to your seat. Without a word, he pulled you on his laps and buried his head in the crook of your neck .

«I’m sorry». He sobbed.

You sighed deeply and began to gently play with his hair while cuddling him. You stayed like this for an hour or two, silently comforting each others. The storm had almost stopped so you ended up falling asleep on the sofa, his arms holding you tight, feeling secure against his chest.

You woke up to the smell of pizza and when you openned your eyes, a smiling Yugyeom was holding a big pizza under your nose. On the pizza a “forgive me ” was written in pieces of bacon, which made me burst out of laughing .

«How can I not forgive you!» I laughed, taking a big slice of pizza.

He sat next to you, put the pizza on the coffee table and clung on your waist as you tried to reach for the remote to watch the news about the storm. You watched the TV news talking about the damages, and pictures of cars destroyed and houses without roof.

You turned to look at Yugyeom, his arms still around your waist  and remembered that “mate” thing the guy talked about yerstuday, so you decided to ask.

«What is this mate thing by the way? Are the werewolf’s bestfriends untouchable? There’s werewolf laws?» you asked, laughing at how silly that sounded.

«You know…Wolves, as well as dogs, are very loyals…»

«So I’m your master?» I asked , laughing even more .

«No. This is serious Y/N, please stop making fun of me» he whinned.

«Ok ok I’m sorry I’ll stop.» I sat still and looked at him seriously for him to go on.

«So, they’re loyals and deeply attached to their partener. Werewolve’s mate are life parteners of wolves , they’re essential to them, and hurting a wolf mate is forbidden, because it is cowardly, and the most cruel thing you can do to a wolf.»

«How can the guy could possibly «feel» that link?» You asked, curious.

« Uuuuh. He didn’t exactly “felt” it » You were slightly surprised at how usneasy Yuyeom looked right now.

«He smelled the kind of powerful sexual tension there was between us. There’s a certain smell that indicate that you’re mine, on you, and werewolf can smell it ,they reconize your indentity, in  way.  you see it’s a bit like dogs when they smell each other’s b-

OKAY I got it please, you don’t have to compare it to this ! » you interrupted, red as a tomato.

«Does that mean … wait .Does that mean…?» you paused

«I love you .» He said with a triumphant smile.  

«I love you and you’re mine!» He exclaimed trapping you in arms while doing a psycho laugh.

You laughed at his childlishness and started to pepper small kisses on his face to which he responded by laying you on the sofa to kiss you passionately .

«Hey it’s not the full moon anymore!» you protested, fakely shocked.

«You don’t need the full moon to drive me crazy. » he said with a smirk, before kissing the top of your nose and you snuggled in his embrace, happy.

#yugyeom #gyeomie #got7 #imagine #kpop #fanfic #kim yugyeom #got7 senarios #got7 fic

[spiralingworm]

Let's Switch it up!

So us you probably all know I like Nintendo products. There are couple of reasons for that, but I think nostalgia has a lot to do with it. I liked playing games like Contra or Mario in my younger times, because those games were simply fun. Nintendo still has some great ideas when it comes to game designing. I think Splatoon is one of the prime examples here.

(You’re a kid, you’re a squid now!)

For those of you that don't know about what game am I talking now Splatoon is a team based platforming arena shooter about squids. Oh and paintball... You win by covering map with your team colour, and by turning into a squid you can swin in your paint for higher movement speed and longer jumps. If this very brief explanation doesn't seem exciting for you it's okay, because I really think you need to play it or extensively watch to understand. This whole bizzare concept for a game came from young team of game designers in Nintendo. In the world of really violent shooters like Titanfall 2, Doom or Battlefield the non-violent route seems risky to say the least. Nintendo is known from this high risk high reward move or in other words cheese.

(Triforce... cheese joke...)

Nintendo's whole bussines relies on three fundamentals let's call this a Triforce for humour purposes.

Zelda

Link started his adventure on Nintendo Entertainment System with Legend of Zelda and it quickly proved everyone that he is here to stay. There is something magical about all those games starring Link. Maybe it is everyone's dream for the grand adventure where you save a princess. You know the one that takes place in a kingdom far, far away. You just pick up a sword and charge into unknown. Is it safe out there? Of course not and that is why you have a sword. Maybe it is the fact that Link is just another random noname boy and he simply believes that what he is doing is right. By the way this is courage App... back to the point. I know that this seems like a typical  story in typical world by lazy writer, but I don't know it just works. It is simple and it is fun.

Mario

Platformer about a plumber who saves a princess, but in Mario defense those games actually have very little story to it. This game is all about precise jumps and last second decisions. Nobody actually cares who Mario is, why he is here or why the hell he has a mustache. He just is here to beat King Koopa and his minions and free princess Peach from her prison. Ridiculous? Of course it is, but again this a game about story. Everyone plays Mario for great level design and interesting mechanics or power ups. Thanks to the succes of the first game Mario became an icon for Nintendo. So much so the company venture into other genres with him like kart racing or RPG. He even was briefly considered as a playable character fo Splatoon and thank Jim they went with squids. Mario is on the front line for gaming not just for Nintendo.

Gimmicks

Wait, what? Yes, I think that trying to be as innovative as possible with every product is the fundament of Nintendo and it is the most important one for them. It is at the same time a blessing and a curse for them. I mean just look at the Wii succes versus Wii U failure. Yeah the marketing for the latter was just so painly bad that it is hard to even comprehend, but it is also showing the mentality of Nintendo “Play big or don't even bother”. They create hardware that relies on some new interesting idea and then they will try to build a game that use it to its fullest potential. Most of the times this approach really works and we receive a well balanced gameplay that is just fun to play around. The problem appears when N will try to reinvent a wheel and gameplay will suffer because they refuse to use schematics that simply work. Nintendo is Nintendo biggest enemy in this situations.

(That was actually very good)

Okay so with all that in mind let's talk march 3rd and the upcoming release of Nintendo Switch. Brand new hybrid of handheld and stationary console which was, for a very long time, known under a codename NX. As, hopefully, you can see the premise is simple but actually really exciting. Play your games on a TV and when you need to leave your home just snap Joycon's on the console and take your game with you. Even the click sound is something that still sits in my head and does not want to leave. I don't know this console just spoke to me when on october 20th this clip saw the light of day. It was awesome till like 5 minutes after the clip realeased. It went only down for me after that.

(My excellent hype versus time line)

I think the biggest problem for me is the attitude that Nintendo presented after that. They simply refused to say anything about their shiny new console until January 12th. They didn't want to comment on anything, not even a confirmation that Skyrim would be ported for the device. Why would you show gameplay of a game if you aren't ready to acknowledge it will be on your console. You could say that they wanted to avoid drowning in sea of mud that is christmas, but for me this just shows that you don't believe in your product. You don't have anything new this holiday season so why in the hell you go silent? Okay so maybe this is just my gamer ADHD speaking. Maybe the January presentation will be awesome and it will be all fine.

(I feel kinda meh..)

Well... yes and no. The price is actually quite nice and of course the games are actually really interesting. Of course we already knew a lot about Breath of the Wild and it actually looks really good from gameplay perspective. There is of course new Mario game which looks really weird and awesome at the same time. The hat throwing in particular seems like a mechanic that can provide really hard and really satisfying manouvers. Splatoon is coming back with some more splatting and while it looks like just more of the same it is fine, because this game is just that good. Of course Nintendo wouldn't be itself if it didn't introduce something entirely new to the table.

(Arms a new IP)

Arms is game about putting on some boxing gloves and stepping on a ring to fight 1on1 with some absurd enemy. Oh and your character is also absurd just to let you know. I mean the over stylisation is fine, because at this point you just don't expect anything else from Nintendo. Not to mention that they are the company that actually can deliver when it comes down to simple fun from gameplay. So actually while Arms may as well seem really stupid it can actually work pretty well.

(Series of mini games.)

1-2 Switch is actually series of mini games that tries to show off what an actual hardware can do. In most cases you don't even need to look on the screen to play. There are games like cow milking, wizard fight, cowboy quick draw... Simple stuff that will entertain your guests for like an hour and it will be put back to the box and never shown again. In their defense Wii Sports is on the second place when it comes to copies sold, but it also was bundled to Wii for a very long time. 1-2 is not budled it is a stand-alone product with MSRP 49.99. This is a lot I don't care how many mini games are there.

(Those are of course included in base console, but additional cost...)

I think this is the problem I have with Switch the cost is low, but not as low to reason day one/year one purchase. It may seem like there is a lot games coming to Switch now in March, but no. Mario will be released in holiday season. Arms will be month or two after Switch and the same goes for Mario Kart. Splatoon 2? Summer 2017. Of all that games only Zelda and 1-2 Switch  is coming day one. No, wait Bomberman R... wait no... Do I want to count it? Well early adopters sure as hell will need to do it because there is nothing else they will be able to do with this device.

(Wii U got crap for too big controller. How is it any different?)

There will be no video apps available for them at launch and before you ask. No, not even Youtube. Meaning that you are either happy with Zelda or will use Switch as shiny statue on your shelf. I don't expect Zelda to suck as the matter of fact I can safely claim this will GOTY for 2017, but some choice would be nice. Surely we can compromise I mean Wii U had some awesome internet browser and almost everything worked there. There is only one small exception for this Nintendo Switch will not feature aa internet browser on launch. If and when it will appear remains a secret. Not that you could use internet on the go. Switch will not have sim card slot for 3G or something like that. So maybe let's turn to third parties, indies of this world.

(The indies)

So there will be World of Goo on day one, great. Except people that would want to play this game already did on other devices. We have Binding of Isaac great game that will debut on march 17th, but wait currently only for NA region. Despite claiming on the presentation that will not be region locked we still need to jump through hoopes of company own regional politics. I would be lying if I said that I wasn't sometimes pissed on Sony for the very same thing, but I swear Nintendo is worse. We also have Shovel Knight great game... here actually have a list and sort by date here. It seems like a lot but keep in my mind that most of those are just rereleased products. Please don't exactly believe people saying something along the line of “X game is amazing I bought it on y, z and t, and I will buy it for Switch”. I mean maybe believe them, but are you seriously consider them sane? For comparison PS4 here, and of course sort by date and look at day one/month one anything after that is pointless.

(JoyCon)

Remember when I said that the biggest enemy of Nintendo is Nintendo? I think the villain strikes again. Aside the horrendous accessory prices for Switch. Single Joycons that presumably are perfect for a grown-up. Like hell they are... There is the problem of power. There is reason as to why specifics about GPU or CPU can be found only in rumours and leaks. Official specifications here basicly says “Yes, we have a GPU here.”... Well I hope so. The internet got mad about Mohammad Alavi comment "No. F*** no. No you're not going to be able to fit Titanfall on it. That's the same Zelda from the Wii U [laughs].". This is Respawn Entertainment senior designer saying no to prospect of porting TF2 to Switch. Just to let you know they did exceptional optimisation for PS4 in my eyes. You receive nice 60 FPS and I swear sometimes I blinked and missed the load times for couple MP matches. The amount of work needed to downgrade a game like this so it will work like this is absurd and not worth the money. AAA developers would need to create games specifically for Switch and they will not create games for a platform that doesn't sold well. It didn't sold well because people are not especially keened on buying Nintendo only exclusive device... I mean I have Wii U, but I am not entirely sane... exactly... So the playerbase will stay low and... You see where I am going here? Okay, but you could say Wii and try to shut me down this way.

(Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii)

Well the whole premise of motion controls simply worked for everyone. Gramma, granda, mother, father, uncle, three year old sister, that cousin that hate games. Pretty much all of them know how to swing a tennis racket or play golf using Wiimote. The stereotypical housewives played Wii Sports to stay fit and it was a perfect sell. I mean if there was one thing that nerds don't do is exercise. So no I don't think Switch even remotely compares to what Wii have to offer. Not to mention that those housewives does not have any reason to buy a new shiny box. At this point I am fairly convinced that Nintendo hardware would endure atomic bomb, napalm strike, Cyclops laser beam, dropping from 100 meters and Hugh Jackman.

(That’s right!)

As always only time will tell if Nintendo is a genius or they will need to live through another generation of weak sales. I wish I was wrong. I wish that Switch will be a great game changer, but at this point I think there only be one true game changer. Pokemon. If there ever was a franchise that literally moved consoles and people bought a device only to play one game it is this one. It would also need to come with the news of killing New 3DS. It is possible, but when?

#nintendo #nintendo switch #pokemon #teamrocket #splatoon

[crystalizedmoon-x]

How was your day babe?

It was meh. I feel a bit defeated from today. I didn't bath, I didn't have any me time other than right now while I'm pumping but that isn't exactly me time 😅 I couldn't settle the baby today, i couldn't figure out what was wrong, so that's shit and I'm her mum so I should know. I couldn't tame my wild child son from misbehaving. I currently can't seem to pump more than an ounce, boobs won't let me, probably because I'm stressed and when stressed apparently oxytocin isn't realeased so your body doesn't produce. I just want to go to bed and try to relax and have a great night sleep and baby sleep amazing too😥 I've had a teary day and multiple times I've almost started crying infront of people. I'm also nervous to go home, especially after today. 😥 But I know it needs to be done sooner rather than later. I just wanna get home. Get everything in and sorted out back in places it all needs to be, organised immediately so can relax, then try to resettle in again with a newborn the best I can. I feel like I just need some me time to replenish as I'm wearing thin. I need an hour long Epsom salt and bubbles bath to relax and watch programmes to completely shut off, then get out and pamper myself some more, not have to rush to feed baby 😑 then slowly pamper myself and maybe chill in bed either napping or just relaxing by myself. A good 2-3 hours me time. It's hard tho because I couldn't even look after two kids by myself let alone expecting my other half to. I couldn't and wouldn't relax. 😑😭 Only way I would maybe possibly is if my eldest was asleep but he wouldn't sleep that long anyway so I could only do it in evening when he's gone to bed or contained in his cot.

[hesareal-nowhereman]

I’m done

Fuck being the nice guy. I’ll respect you give you the kindness you deserve but fuck whatever you and the world thinks of me . After 28 years on this planet I’ve seen my share of BS. People will always be people . Everyone will let you down. Everyone will try and throw shackles over you. You know why? Because they’re scared . They are scared because we’re wild at our core. Freedom scares them. To be a care free and confident intimidates them . It makes them quiver in their seat .

From now on I promise myself to stop giving fucks about anything . If it’s meant to be it’s meant to be. I realease myself from the constricts that other have put on me. From the shackles I voluntarily let other put on myself . Im me and i know who i am . Fuck what they all think . I’m making changes for myself . So I can have peace when I am alone . So I don’t feel the pressure and anxiety of trying to live up to someone I am not and trying to control situations and shitty people .

God , I’m ready. Forgive me for the realness that is coming my way . I will no longer stand for bullshit. Let me speak confidently through you and always express my real genuine feelings. That’s what people will connect to. I hope to connect with other souls in the same space as I am . Let those who are not meant to be in my life leave. I don’t want them in my circle or in my life. Let me forget them as they show their true colors and let me stand confidently next to those who really wish me well and support me . I can’t change my physical but i can change my mind set.

Fuck them all. Let them do their own shit and let them burn themselves to the ground I am no longer pulling no one up .