#because its valid and i do stim with them

[nanowrimo]

4 Tips for Autistic Writers

Autistic writers can face unique challenges when it comes to writing. NaNo Participant Auden Halligan has tips to handle some of those challenges!

So, you’ve just sat down at your desk, all ready to work on your next chapter, but you just can’t seem to start. Something is itching at your brain, and no matter how hard you think, you can’t figure it out. For autistic writers, that itch might be even harder to get around when compounded with autistic inertia, introspection issues, and sensory processing disorder — even if we were super excited to get started, sometimes the stumbling blocks are enough to keep us from going anywhere at all.

Here are four tips to identify your struggles and work around them rather than against them as an autistic writer!

1. Schedule your writing time appropriately

While keeping a schedule can help you stave off unwanted change in your routine, the need to switch to another task when the clock strikes the hour sometimes feels like a monumental task, one that eventually becomes detrimental to your creative pursuits.

If switching tasks is the biggest hurdle to your writing, setting a designated writing time with no other plans around it could do the trick. Oftentimes, just one hour of time to transition from doing dishes to sitting down at your computer to write is exactly what you need to get past that point and find your writing headspace.

2. Make sure your sensory environment is right

Sometimes getting into that writing headspace is harder than normal, but you can’t put your finger on a reason. Chances are, you’re not quite ready until you have your sensory needs met and you can fully focus on your story.

Personally, I like to be on the couch with my water bottle, a playlist at just the right volume, and a comfortable jacket or hoodie on. For you, the ideal sensory space might involve a desk and a snack, a pet nearby, and a quiet room. For others, it could be outside or even at a library or coffee shop. Autistic people are all different and so are their sensory needs, so this one is super subjective — do what works best for you!

3. Take breaks often

Writing can be exhausting, and if you’re struggling to keep going, you might need to take a pause. If you’re like me and struggle with remembering to hydrate and eat once you’re deep in a task, use your break to get some water and a snack. If you’re having trouble staying focused, get up and move around and stim or go outside to give your brain a reset. If you feel like you’ve gotten some good progress done, however small, reward yourself — do something related to your special interest, dance with a pet, and celebrate your little (or big!) win!

The pomodoro method is a good way to keep yourself from working too long without a break, and if that doesn’t work for you, methods like the Eisenhower method with breaks interspersed and even simply inserting breaks into your scheduled writing time are just as valid.

4. Don’t be afraid to skip around

Another thing that often trips us autistic people up is needing to follow the story down its natural progression, from start to middle all the way to the finish. But inevitably, once we’ve gotten past the initial excitement of having the project started, we hit a stumbling block…and the project gets abandoned. I’ve left behind countless projects because I lost interest after hitting a scene I wasn’t excited for after just a few chapters.

To combat this, try writing out of order! Skip ahead to the scene directly after your stumbling block. You could also skip to the next scene your favorite character is in or even to the climax if it helps you move forward. If you’re having trouble putting your first words down, try writing a random scene in the middle of your story to get into the groove of writing your characters.

Alternately, if you can’t abide by the out of order method and really need to get your characters from Point A to Point B, try putting the scene you’re stuck on in brackets. For example:

[Character 1 and Character 2 fight over the decision to kick Character 3 off the team. 2 leaves in anger.]

It’s simple, efficient, and gets you out of that particular rut so you can keep moving toward that sweet, sweet conversation you’ve wanted to write since Day 1.

Now go forth and write, my friends!

Auden Halligan is a creator through and through. She’s been writing her entire life, but didn’t start participating in NaNoWriMo until 2017–right now she’s working on developing a TV series (or two!) and has several novels and short films in the drafting phase. Auden is currently a college student studying film production and hoping to minor in disability studies. You can find her on her very sparse Twitter at ink.and.spite. Photo by Lisa Fotios from Pexels

If you’re an autistic writer, check out the Pillow Fort in the NaNoWriMo forums! It’s a group for people who are neurodivergent, have disabilities, mental health concerns, or physical challenges that affect their lives.

#nanowrimo #camp nanowrimo #writing #autistic writers #writing advice #by nano guest #Auden Halligan #neurodivergent writers

[donniesexceptionalmind]

Hello there~ I’m currently in the process of getting diagnosed (or at least checked out for) autism. Also anxiety and adhd, the former I definitely have, and I think I may be some form of AuDHD. My parents were very traditional growing up and my father still thinks being neurodivergent is “bad” and the main emotional manipulation in my relationship with my parents comes from my mom. I came out to them around this time last year as bi and that was an emotional rollercoaster. It took me almost two years of asking to finally get a therapist (after I told my school counselor I was feeling really, really really really bad, and she intervened) and another half year for my therapist to convince my parents to get a diagnosis checkout. I was wondering if you had any tips for autistics (or possible autistics) with non-supportive parents, like subtle ways to stim or deal with meltdowns without getting yelled at,

And my parents aren’t bad all time around— it’s sort of like your relationship with Splinter where you crave his approval more than life but also know he could be a bit of a better dad, except maybe worse bc my parents are like Mother Gothel. Emotional manipulation is… nice

Sorry for the long rant lol— I just went on an hour-long rabbit hole about your tips for autistic peeps and figured I’d try an ask of my own. Have a peaceful day, and remember you’re so amazing! Seriously, I’ve developed so many stims and mannerisms from you and it’s been one of my hyperfixations for months now. I’m rambling now. Ok thanks byeeeeeee! 💜

There's no need to apologise for a long rant! I appreciate the trust & the courage it might have taken to actually reach out! /g YOU ARE VALID.

First:

"Every human, in the entire history of the universe, stims."

So, stim away. If you need it to feel regulated & calm - then DO IT.

Personal note: All stimming behaviours besides harmful stimming should be respected. There should be no right stim or wrong stim. Of course, if a certain stim is hurting another person (say because you are chirping like a bird & it's hurting their ears, then you should stim another way).

STIMMING SHOULD NOT BE FORBIDDEN AS IT IS VITAL FOR THE AUTISTIC PERSON.

Moving on.

Subtle ways to stim:

Tapping your foot/ leg (its a stim many people show when they are nervous, it's "a common behaviour"

Clicking a pen (careful, it can be annoying)

Wiggling your fingers/ toes - I like to call it finger dancing

Tapping your fingers

Soft humming

Chewing gum

Rubbing your hands together (can be seen as a sign of being cold as well)

Fiddling with your clothes

Twirling your hair (if you have long hair) or just touching your hair

Fiddling with a keychain, anxiety ring (those are not pricey & they can help a lot!) or other jewelry

Having a small comfort item with you to touch, maybe a textured stone or a smooth one

There are also many small fidgets which can be hidden in your hand or are very quiet:

Again, the anxiety or fidget ring

Stress balls are always a good option (just don't use the ones with air or orbeez inside, those make noises - I enjoy them)

Marble & Mesh, tangles

Bike chain fidgets

Acupressure rings or bracelets

Moochis (these squishy little animals, things)

Rainbow hedgeballs

A fidget pad (I have one in the shape of a gaming controller, so good) or a fidget cube

A Rubics cube - YES I know, it's a puzzle AND big, but you don't have to solve it (it's easy), just twisting the blocks around can be a good way to stim too. There are also smaller ones available that you can put on a keychain, though I prefer the original

#donnie answers #donnies exceptional mind #donnies special interests #autism #autism awareness #stimming #neurodivergent stuff #autism things #rottmnt autistic donnie #rise autistic donnie #autistic donatello #stimming is normal #neurodiversity

[thekeeperof-thefandoms]

Fine. I need mutuals to lose my sanity with so I give you my Hazbin Hotel hcs based off my OCs.

Please I am so fucking abnormal about my OCs and would love to elaborate on them any time!!! Please if you want specifics about their interactions with their respective partner or character sheets (I cant draw vivzie style good and I have some generic AI art of them I refuse to post it because I don't believe in using ai art for anything other than private use. I paid money for the one that's my profile pic cuz its my dnd character.)

Vox with a big tiddy goth girlfriend reader. Short, chubby, v insecure. Also feral adhd gremlin who copes with dark humor. Makes Vox's ADHD worse. They give each other vocal stims. Call and response echolalia. Vox is constantly assaulted by memes now. Honesly they bring out the inner goblin in each other but it's fine cuz it helps Vox unwind and emotionally regulate finally. She's bi too so anytime Vox (who canonically is more into men) finds a guy he likes they can totally bring him in for a threesome. She leans towards women so it goes both ways. She's a sub for women but tops for men (especially Vox's bratty ass).

Alastor with a skinny non binary autistic person. People mistake them for a twink. Some days they're more fem cuz they want to be pretty. Usually anxious, quiet, enjoys reading and listening to Alastor's music or radio static. Then you get them to unmask and they're a barely stable perpetually exhausted creature thriving off of caffeine and memes. Alastor adores their chaos and listening to them ramble. Appreciates they try to find modern culture he'd relate to and enjoy. They spend time co-existing to bond, doing their own thing next to each other. No pressure to initiate intimacy or anything other than friendship. Autistic person gets a lot of Alastor's sensory ick (esp about touch) without being nosy and just accepts their murder gremlin radio friend. (Accidental platonic partners).

Valentino getting a fucking therapist (he needs one. I see the bi-polar theory and as some one who worked with bipolar people I can see it but he could just be a terrible person). That therapist having two main personalities after death (based on a book a read where a person's ghost was split into two people from before and after their trauma). Both are qualified therapists. One's a 2000s emo boy who's esthetic is Laughing Jack. Except plot twist they're from the south (based on a kid I knew in high school). Puts Vox in his place more often than not by just tying him up and whisking him away to have his tantrums in private (they probably [definitely] fucked.) Tough love kinda but in a way that actuall forces Valentino to confront his issues and deal with it. The other is basically if Harley Quinn got a Homestuck Trickster design. Very sweet. Very blunt. Chaos incarnate. Elaborately finds ways to put Valentino in situations that make him uncomfortable so he has to deal with them and then pavloving him with candy or sex when he's a good person. They're both helping in their own way because now Valentino has to think about his actions, emotionally regulate, and is rewarded for good behavior. The whole dynamic is cute and sexy but also kinda twisted.

Plot twist, Alastor's accidental QPR, Vox's chaos thicc witch, and the unhinged therapy duo are all besties from when they were alive and it means Vox and Alastor have to be civil to each other cuz their partners are friends and they don't wanna upset them.

Bonus points cuz they make friends with Angel and Angel gets to watch two candy themed clowns walk his boss's ass like a dog.

Lucifer gets the AUDHD diagnosis he didn't know he needed ("oh, that's what's wrong with me"), lots of comfort and validation, and a healthy dose of therapy as well.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel oc #hazbin hotel valentino #vox x reader #valentino x reader #alastor x reader

[dyad-tmesis]

going feral over your fusion au its so unique! do you have any little funfacts/random info bits about the au? id love to hear them!!

Oh why thank you! I love when people froth at the mouth over my stuff 💕 y’all are too sweet

Ohohohoh boy alright here’s some little bits of ideas I had for the fused au

So as said before Jekyll and Hyde are still separate people, they have aspects that resemble a system with perma co-fronting to it (I’m not a system myself but I always try to double check with my partner who is part of one to make sure I’m not doing anything dumb with this. If there’s anything at all that seems inaccurate or anything like that feel free to let me know. I just included it because I feel it’s the best way to explain how they function in this state)

Again as mentioned before they have their own separate voices and are fully capable of taking turns speaking with said voices, however if they become stressed or can’t decide the right words to say right away they’ll just start talking over eachother as seen in the comic with Jasper. When they get tired or unfocused they have a habit of mumbling to themselves.

They upgraded pronouns lol, he/him and they/them

Early on when they were still freshly fused Hj7 would leak every now and again from their face, hence the stains you see on their shirt in the comic (“mom I frew up :(“)

Taking the Hj7 does pretty much nothing now apart from a small boost in their stamina, boost in strength, and some leaking from the face, splitting the human soul involved tapping into the bodies hidden strengths after all

Both Jekyll and Hyde have equal control over their body, so sometimes there are moments where Hyde will use one hand to reach for something shiny to steal observe and Jekyll uses the other hand to swat it away

Their current height is somewhere between the two of them, so their clothes are either just a smidge too big or a smidge too small. Hyde likes to look like a Christmas themed disaster while Jekyll tries to give their now mixed wardrobe some cohesion (with Rachel’s help)

Since they’re both technically in a new body and both are experiencing things at once they can sometimes get sensory overload

Once things calm down it’s more or less a “this is our get along shirt” sort of deal and are forced to confront how unfairly they’ve both been treating eachother, this was all caused by Jekyll trying to permanently get rid of Hyde after all.

While Hyde is still technically a part of Jekyll they’ve spent a whole two years growing in different directions as people, they have the same roots but their branches are entirely different and can’t assimilate back together seamlessly (which is something that I always disagreed with when looking at other fused aus, they’re still all cool and valid tho)

They develop a habit of biting their lip in order to prevent themselves from unintentionally speaking with both voices, they can now also have proper internal dialogue together but sometimes that’s hard to keep quiet.

I already like the ASD hcs (may or may not be projecting) people give the two of them so…they like to stim

I think that wraps it up for now! If you have any specific questions about some of this stuff ask away

#the glass scientists #jekyll and hyde #dr jekyll and mr hyde #henry jekyll #edward hyde #tgs #tgs jekyll #tgs hyde #the glass scientists au #tgs au #fused au #dyads inquiries #anon #system #i wanna make sure I don’t do anything dumb and I’m always willing to learn #so please please please let me know if any of the system aspects of this are inaccurate #autism hcs

[bunhype]

Hey, Laplace. You said something a while ago that I'm still thinking about. In a response to an ask, you said that masking feels like roleplaying and not like "multiple people". Could you go on? And while you're at it, define masking for us, would you?

Thank you in advance.

-Psy

Masking is just. Putting on a specific affection (usually to mask symptoms that are "inappropriate") for a situation. Like if you're around homophobic family maybe you avoid your queer mannerisms. If you're autistic and in public where stimming would be "disruptive" you mask by not doing it. I'm not really the best person to define masking. To be honest with you. But any "role" you take on to avoid something disruptive or unsafe in a situation? That's masking.

I'm going to describe my experience with masking. I'm plural, and this will not necessarily be true for all plurals, or even match up with what singlets experience. But for me, it's like roleplaying a dnd character. I have like. A bunch of fake shit set up for each mask so that I'm playing a realistic role - I have different opinions and mannerisms sometimes, but it's all by choice and made up. It doesn't feel like being multiple people, it feels like playing dnd as a character. I'm in control of it. My headmates experience the same when masking as our "singletsona" who is "me", since I'm the... I don't like using host, honestly? For us, host just means "person whose life it is", and this is my life. My headmates are all here to help me with the things I need in my life. They're accessibility tools for me, in a way. So they pretend to be the fake mask I made up, because its not any of us, its just a role we play. They never pretend to be like.... me, the actual person. I don't pretend to be them. The masks are all seperate, fake entities that we wear sometimes.

Sometimes I know that members of systems mask as other members - this is, to my understanding, more common with traumagenic & disordered systems - often, those two go hand in hand. This is also usually for safety reasons - when systems are covert, they can't afford to be out and known, especially if they're still in bad situations. So often, even with systems, headmates who mask as each other are still playing a role.

There are reasons other than plurality that can make masking feel like multiple people - however, depersonalization and derealization have crossover with plurality, and so can delusions, and honestly so can hallucinations from schizophrenia! None of these issues are completely seperate because they effect similar parts of the brain. I think that if masking feels like multiple people, then there is probably something going on, and exploring that being plurality maybe isn't bad, even if you're wrong. ESPECIALLY if you end up being wrong. It's okay to wonder and try things out. You aren't like.... hurting anyone by exploring the possibility.

There are also ways of becoming plural if you want to - daemonism especially is very popular. So are soulbonds. Daemonism is creating a mental construct, most often an animal, to interact with. Soulbonds are making a mental connection, most often a sort of telephone line, with a fictional character. The way this manifests is usually the thing where people talk about "characters writing themselves". Not everyone believes in these sorts of connections - it gets into the realm of spirituality for most, honestly. But people have been creating thoughtforms for centuries, you can find mention of them in most cultures.

The whole "tulpa" thing too - I'm not here to debate tulpamancy, but the western version of tulpamancy based on the Buddhist practice is heavily practiced. That's just a fact. Tulpas are just another type of thoughtform. What you call them is ultimately not important, most of the time.

Chosen plurality is a valid, healthy coping mechanism. There are even published psychological techniques based around it. The family system or whatever... breaking your brain and reactions down into parts, or something? I haven't really researched it. My plurality and spiritual practice are a circle, and most of my research focuses on that aspect.

I cannot answer what it feels like for disordered systems to mask. I'm not disordered. Maybe one of the other plurals I know of who are out on the site can answer that part for you if they feel comfortable? This is not an invitation to go ask anyone that - just putting the option for them to reply to this post.

#my 'you can just be plural if you want' agenda #ooc #not rp

[who-is-shades]

raz dnd 15

before we even started we argued if spaghetti are a dish or the noodle. send ask to chara and frisk blog please xD

last time, wheatley shared feelings and senna didnt handle it well!

android 'well that went well' thanks buddy. wheatley is making pathetic noises behind a tree hes so upset. 'you'll just make fun of me!' 'your not wrong, but tell me anyway.' 'i told them how i feel please dont make fun of me right now do that later.'

zen sighs and goes after senna. parsley and teya are still blue screening lol. he barely finds her curled under a tree, head in lap. he tries to get her attention. 'you good dog?' she muffled tells him to leave her alone.

zen sits by her patiently. sennas crying slowly dies down, lots of sniffling. she rubs her eyes and apologizes for running off. he says its fine and it was a lot from wheatley.

meanwhile parsley goes to talk to wheatley. 'you alright?' 'i feel better now that-' he points to android lol. parsley squints at android 'you feel better because android talked to you?' wheatley nods lol. parsley keeps squinting at him. 'do we mean the same person?' 'i want to be friends with all of you. as im sure you can tell.' but he retracts in on himself. he apologizes for violating their boundaries since people dont get so attached so fast. parsley feels awkward. 'its fine?' hes so awkward lol. parsley says nice talking to ya and he walks away lol. SP is so sad 'family broke?'

back to zen and senna! zen says 'it mustve been a lot knowing how much you mean to wheatley. i know you didnt react very well to it but i want your thoughts on it.' senna sighs. 'its not natural, not to organics. i know he wasnt lying, and that scares me the most.' 'it scares you how much he cares about you. do you feel you dont deserve it?'

senna looks at zen surprised, then looks down ashamed. 'i dont think wheatley fully understands whats happening here.' 'you can try, hes very willing to listen.' senna buries her face in her hands. 'i feel like were taking advantage of his...naivetity. he might feel compelled to be our 'friends' because of his loneliness.' 'that invalidates how he feels. he sees you as friends, being alone doesnt make his feelings anymore valid than someone you've known for longer. perhaps in time we will see how he feels later with compansionship once hes in the network. for now, dont disregard it so quickly. give him the chance, if for his sake not yours.'

senna sighs and stands up 'i know, its not fair to him.' 'what will you do now?' 'i must speak to him. its important to speak to him about. hes worth speaking to.' 'hopefully we can be friends as well!' senna snorts at this, cheering up a little.

meanwhile, wheatley and SP are pacing lol. zen and senna run into teya! she came looking for senna awww. he says teya is a good friend. senna looks so guilty and looks down she feels so bad sksksk. teya walks back with us. they get back to the path pog. parsley is patting SP on the head nice.

android asks senns if shes done with her little fit. teya sends a message to senna but she doesnt respond. wheatley hits android telling him not to be mean to senna. wheatley looks at senna but then looks away. 'h-hello, are you feeling better?' senna chews on her lip, thinking. wheatley steps back. senna takes a deep breath and steps forward. 'you and i need to talk.' she motions for him to follow and they step from the group a little.

wheatley looks so scared. 'im not angry and it was very sweet of you to share your feelings with us.' wheatley nods. 'i dont think you love me, not truly. love for me takes time, patience, work.' wheatley is stimming oh no. senna begins pacing. 'i am uncomfortable with how you feel. we havent known each other very long.' wheatley shrinks a little so senna walks forward and softens her tone. 'i do wanna be your friend, i promise. i wanna work on that with you.' senna opens for a hug and he does. 'if your ever unsure where our friendship is, im willing to connect to the network and you can feel my true feelings.' wheatley says she doesnt have to reciprotrate but she says she wants too one day.

SP trungles over and hugs senna's leg. senna smiles softly and pats them on the head. wheatley picks up SP and they go rejoin the group. (wheatley is taking the worse mental options about this oh no)

something glowing blue is coming toward us from the forest! battle positions! its spingledorf! or something that looks like him? see-through and glowing blue? he looks exhausted and asks for our assistance. senna pokes him but it goes through him. a projection! he says hes stuck oh no. he goes from super old to super young then back to normal. 'that artifact i went looking for? doesnt like me very much.' android groans and doesnt want us helping him cause crazy shit happens. lead the way spingledorf!

in a clearing is an old ruined temple. big square pyramid temple with an hourglass on top. 'i disabled the traps dont worry.' in the opening theres a bunch of broken traps lol. goddamn indianna jones. parsley teases wheatley with a dead snake. then he throws one at teya.

we get to the central chamber. a giant hourglass surrounded by giant stone rings. spingledorfs body floating next to it, glowing blue. a stasis? before spingledorf can say anything, parsley walks up and tries to smash it. it glows brightly and parsley starts floating. dumbass. spingledorf needs us to get near it as well. teya's like okie dokie. parsley is still conscious lol. teya starts glowing and floating.

zen shrugs, grabs android, and drags him into it! wheatley noticably steps back, hesistant. spingledorf assures him its safe, depending on where we end up. senna and wheatley hop in. the artifact emits an expanding field and the world changes around us. we drop to the ground.

its a burning town! people impaled on spikes! the symbol from the fish villiage! senna is gritting her teeth hard unhappily. then the world warps. its another burning place! someplace teya recognizes! firbolgs running! then scene change! suddenly in a nice wheat field. a bunch of old rusted constructs. wheatley makes a loud noise and runs forward a little. 'this is where i woke up!'

spingledorf is out of statis too hes just exhausted but normal. 'the artifact is currently looking through our personal historys for somewhere to hide. it had trouble with me since im not from here.' it cuts out of the field and now its a magical forest. the feywilds. a castle. parsley goes 'ah shit.' we see parsleys mother come out! before parsley can act the world changes again. it shines bright enough to blind us then disappears.

were in a BIG kingdom. wheatley is established to some sort of connection? just people talking not like the network. wheatley is making concerned noises. 'um hello, who is this?' someones talking to him! the city is pretty advanced. sci-fi meets medieval. bunch of constructs that look like wheatley! wheatley grabs the nearest person and just starts dragging them out of the street. its parsley. 'i dont think you should use my name here' oh no wheatley. 'follow me.'

spingledorf says this isnt wheatleys history, this is someone elses, cause he wouldnt be here if it was. time for a head count! android is gone oh no this is his history. spingledorf says nothing we do here will affect the future its in a seperate bubble. but the person whos missing will be doing their normal role as they were here and they probably wont remember. we gotta find the artifact. android wont know or remember us. wheatley says hes probably beyond our reach, cause he wasnt made here.

we hear a voice 'who are you?' oh fuck baby android. hes wearing robes. 'are you new to the city?' teya used hidden step to hide lol. senna stammers for a moment then says 'y-yes i am.' 'welcome to the holy city of the god of constructs!' senna is bewildered and shakes his hand. parsley also greets android and tries to get his name. android still knows fey trickery lol and says no. but he does tell us his name anyway. Gen. Short for Genesis.

senna side eyes zen who just shrugs. he wasnt here for this. he looks at the both of us and is surprised to see zen. 'ah another one to add to the family!' oh no! BIG HUG AAAA!!! 'theres only a handful of us right now but its good to have another to the family. and your so advanced!' zen is so awkward. gen likes the additional arms lol. senna and wheatley are blue screening lol. teya pops out, hiding behind senna a little lol. 'oh i didnt notice you! pleased to meet all of you! what are your names?' senna introduces herself and teya. wheatley manages to say his name is wheatley and says he chose the name himself.

android gives wheatley a questioning look and asks his designation. oh no. wheatley stutters he had a malfunction and cant remember anything. 'you should seek out repairs immediately, why are you out here?' 'i am a support unit, to aid my unit mates by casting spells to help their offensive abilities.' 'ah your one of THOSE units arent you?' he says he knows they need these units thanks to THEM but he doesnt like it. 'i am right here sir.' 'dont call me sir im not one of your commanders.' android says to take wheatley for repairs and to give us the tour.

SP rolls up and hugs androids leg. 'its been too long since ive had repairs.' The City Of Novis. spingledorf whispers to us that we can still die here, so behave. wheatley gives parsley a stern glare. android also tells us to behave or else security will interfere. senna asks him to tell her the history of the city.

he doesnt know much before his god took it, but it is very advanced and technological. god took a liking to the people here and decided to guide them and teach them. they made robots like wheatley, not android. theres a great church where the organics worship the god. its nice for him to watch their achievements. he was ecastatic to see them make robots. he doesnt consider them alive though. wheatley angrily shouts that hes RIGHT here. parsley comments hes an asshole.

he says they only mimic. wheatley is vibrating in rage. senna stands defensively in front of wheatley. teya switches subjects and says god must be happy to have made android. senna grabs wheatleys hand. 'so what is your god like?' android of course starts gushing. wheatley speaks up he wants to get repaired soon. we see robots like wheatley just doing various jobs. and some humans!

as we pass we hear conversations. a construct is badly damaged and is being going to be fucking scrapped. 'understood i will shut down immediately.' wheatley has a thousand yard stare. his eye has a new pattern. its fuzzy. teya sends a message to wheatley reminding him this isnt real. senna has a super fake smile plastered on. 'does it matter?' says wheatley.

android points out a big bulky robot like wheatley saying its an enforcer. 'unregistered personal detected. identify yourselves immediately.' android says they are with him. it stands down and goes back into patrol mode. yep dont cause trouble. spingledorf reminds us its not an illusion. wheatley is still watching the enforcer.

we get to a massive building. he wants to just leave wheatley here. wheatley says he was escorting us and wants to stay with us. android says he should just explain his objective, unit. wheatley says his memory got messed up. 'i cant believe they let a damaged unit escort them, but fine.' bunch of humans repairing robots and stuff.

android approaches and says wheatley needs repairs. he says wheatleys design is unusual. newer. cant believe its already damaged. HE SHUT HIM OFF! senna is gripping the wrists of teya and parsley. he hooks something into wheatleys head. 'wow thats a lot of corrupted memory wtf has it been through.' android shrugs and says it was escorting us. the human asks if we registered yet. android says were with him so its fine.

teya says he came to us this way. 'who was his handler?' hes only been around for 9 days now and id prefer if he wasnt altered too much.' parsley speaks up 'we brought him to be repaired. and its classified information.' senna speaks up and appears elegantly noble. parsley and teya are her underlings and that the info IS classified. accepted good. 'what are these time stamps?' so much is wrong. most is corrupted beyond repair. 'i would prefer you did not. any changes could make him less useful to me.' 'so your his handler?' teya speaks up that shes keeping it on the downlow. 'im surprised the military isnt on the field but whatever.'

he fixed what he could without a reset and offers to fix the eye. senna goes and inspects all the eyes. senna scoffs and says none of them are good enough. one has circuits goddamn. senna looks over at zen but he shrugs but a small thumbs up. we take the circuit eye. all done! he offers to clean it but senna says itll get dirty again anyway.

turned on! now we go on our way. teya tries to ask about artifacts but parsley elbows her in the ribs. too hard. teya gets shoved way back but senna catches her. the guy says parsley is really strong. 'handlers will you please act more professional.' wheatley is so done with us. senna gives parsley a death stare 'i will see you in my office later.'

he notices SP. parsley says its a classified experiment. wheatley says its a prototype and picks up SP. senna says he cant look at it as its not for public use. parsley tries to get the guys name goddammit. android steps in 'stop causing trouble.' senna messages wheatley what happaned.

as we walk we see cafe's and stuff. android asks why we lied, why are we here. wheatley says he didnt wanna be reset. teya says he shouldnt have to know. android says if were here to harm his god itll be a problem. wheatley pulls out his token and shows it to android. he knows his god touched it somehow but isnt sure what it is. wheatley says god gave them to us. parsley says were on a mission from god but were not supposed to talk about it. teya says were not here for a fight, we just wanna go home.

he tosses the token back to wheatley and just looks pissed. he says he would know about it. now hes circling us. parsley says we have to finish our mission first and its top secret. wheatley asks android to connect him in. oh god. but theres no connection here. welp were fucked. he pulls out a device to speak to his god. wheatley clicks his own token. it makes a ping and a projection. its a man in a lab coat. oh god robot god it works here wtf.

'who is this how did you get this connection, this isnt registered.' 'will you allow us to explain?' android is baffled. 'ill give you a chance to explain.' teya says he will know us just not yet. yep from the future, on a mission from him. wheatley keeps speaking. us champions. to fight a threat. controlling robots. he stops him. 'wait, zorbolt? your accusing the king of these crimes?' king?! wheatley says he has no memory of a king. WHEATLEY DISAPPEARS!

hes standing before robot god! parsley presses his token but no response. teya holds her crystal and faces android.

robot god asks if wheatley is speaking the truth. yep. wheatley says he doesnt remember this place at all and we got sent here by an artifact and we have to find it so we can go back home. if we dont go back then zorbolt will win and hes turning robots against him. he grabs wheatleys hand. way more intense energy. the will of god as he looks through his being. he finally lets go 'so what you say is true.' he hasnt seen the artifact but will have gen help us. wheatley thanks him and he gets a fond look awwwww. HE HUGS WHEATLEY AWWWW. and asks him to forgive android.

wheatley is back yay! senna asks if hes ok and he says he feels a little better. he turns to android and says 'well?' androids device ping and god tells him to help us. hes told its complicated and to just help for now. wheatley tells android he can believe what he wants, just dont say it to his face.

android says were gonna ask the king for help. spingledorf says it has a giant hourglass and a bunch of disks. he also says he wanted the device to help teya. and to help stabilize that rift. going back there made him realize how much he missed them awww. he will reward us for the trouble when were done.

were heading toward a big castle. a big ass antenna. android gets pinged by another robot. it says the king ordered an assault on another kingdom! the army was defensive only! against the noble ember?! we head toward the castle.

parsley turns to senna and squints at her but shes right behind android. teya and zen try to make wheatley go forward. hes freaking out. 'you cant stop this it already happaned.' he says he needs to stop her? zen tells him whoever it was they died long ago. he looks off into the distance and starts walking.

we barge into the throne room. the king looks like cave johnson lol. android yells at zorbolt. teya whispers to parsley if killing him now counts. 'oh you mean zorbolt not android.' guys please.

zorbolt is caught offguard a moment and says he has to expand his kingdom if he wants to combat the noble ember. android says the robots were for defending novis only. 'why shouldnt i dammit?! we need to take the fight to them!' 'you wont be using the constructs god showed you how to make to kill innocents!' 'the winners decide who the innocents are.'

android is pinged again. its god and hes pissed. parsley: is that god? holy shit. god yells at zorbolt. he yells back. 'im done working under you! im the damn king and we dont need you anymore! our robots are better!' parsley thinks their exes. his strange crown pulses and he commands his royal units to seize us!

android immediately manages to kill a bunch of them?! he points a sword at the king. 'how dare you defy our god?!' roll initiative!

teya sets a robot on fire. the king says their fire resistant and he calls us idiots. senna witchbolts the same robot. no effect? darn immune to lightning too. he pulls out the fucking artifact goddammit. spingledorf says he can totally use it but parsley makes him shut up. zen punches the same robot. we made raz lower the ac cause he didnt fucking see it before jesus. only one hits. parsley enters a rage and uses wild magic! whenever something hits him they take psychic damage, then he chucks a javelin into its head. missed. then sword.

the king keeps trying to make the artifact work. a blue beam goes out and hits teya and she looks smaller and alive. oh god is she a kid?! senna gets shocking bolted dammit. but they miss lol. teya is under attack! frick. wheatley casts sanctuary on teya. teya is back under attack dammit. missed tho! the king orders whoever built the robots to miss to be executed. he also asks why wheatley and SP are defective. wheatley yells he will never be one of his again. the crown pulses again dammit. wheatley resists whatever the crown was trying to do to him. 'fuck you!' yeah get his ass wheatley! spingledorf splashes acid on a robot pog.

teya does big psychic damage nice then she turns invisible. senna uses frost but its resistance. zen hits once and gives them some dents. the king crowns again dammit. wheatley resists again fuck yeah. he fiddles the artifact again and hits senna but she looks the same. elves live a long time lol. android yells at the king to cease. the king orders the assault goddamn. parsley reckless attacks cool. hit one.

spingledorf gets multiattacked but he reacts and uses multishield. android charges the king and shoots the crown! all the constructs in the castle seem to break free. the robot android is stabbing is afraid and says it doesnt wanna die. the robots we were fighting stop and drop. 'its going...dark.' android is in disbelief. senna is covering her mouth shes so sad. his regret. android is freaking out. the crown kept them alive. now android is fucking enraged. no wonder he hates organics. 'why give them feelings only to supress them?!' he wanted them to think but not freely. 'you damn organics.' oh no its starting.

wheatley picks up one of the robots greatswords and starts screaming and charges at the king! the artifact blasts at wheatley but parsley flies in to block it! failed! wheatley is rusting away FUCK. he keeps moving forward. 'this is for chell!' bits are falling off as he keeps trying to get at him. android cuts the kings hand off, refusing to let him kill another robot. a giant hand comes from the sky and all the constructs stop moving.

wheatley....also shuts off. if we get the artifact, it will be undone. but...the king vows revenge. he pushes a button and disappears. theres a big boom. theres a big army with the noble ember symbol. their assaulting the city. people screaming in the streets.

spingledorf grabs the artifact. wheatley is back to normal but hes still off. senna scoops him up, horrified. were back to the temple. android is there shocked. wheatley finally comes online. wheatley asks if we killed him, even if it didnt matter. senna lies and says yes. android is having a moment and grabs wheatley and asks if hes ok. wheatley tackles him in a hug and sobs. android apologizes to him for the words he said. then he realizes where and when he is and cuts all of that off.

senna kneels down by wheatley, unsure how to help. wheatley suddenly clicks his token. he lost connection with android and zen. wheatley is just sobbing and tries to explain, to ask about his friend. 'slow down wheatley.' zen walks over and brings wheatley into the network. god is very confused and ashamed.

'so you saw.' wheatley finally breaks down. his handler. his friends. all gone. god says he had to or more would have died. hes also frustrated that zorbolt somehow survived. the place were going is the old ruins of that kingdom. 'i hate that place.' wheatley says he will kill him with his own bare hands, then hes coming home.

god apologizes for lying to us. senna barely restrains her sobs and shakes her head. teya nods in understanding. he asks if we will continue the quest. parsley says someone needs to kill the bastard, might as well be us. teya says consider him dead. senna gives a hearthy thump on the front of her armor. 'take care of him' wheatley and gen. wheatley asks android if he wants him to forget his name. he doesnt wanna be called by that old name anymore. 'were all dead anyway.' yowch. zen goes to comfort android. he tells him to forgive himself. he asks us to be kind to him. then hes gone.

parsley says he will go set up camp and walks out, kinda awkward. spingledorf puts the artifact away and says they can use his magic mansion if needed. wheatley is hesistant. turned down now hes sad. wheatley totally distrusts him sad! he leaves in the doors. teya goes to fuck off in the woods. senna says a prayer for the long departed.

elder your time is come now I am filled with sorrow weary eyes need resting heart has become grey and slow in waking sleep is freedom

we sing, rejoice we tell the tales we laugh and cry we love one more day

#senna #dnd #dnd adventures

[solarishashernoseinabook]

Sooo @the-lavender-creator has tagged me in an ask game and asked me to answer all of it. And I will! Here's a link to the ask game if you want to reblog it so you don't have to go digging through my blog.

And with that, here we go! :3

deep fic writer asks

1. what’s the fic youre most proud of? Ah...I think The Ward Ghost, it's taken a lot of plotting and I've had to think hard about how the characters would be after the major changes to canon I've made, but people say they love how the characters turned out so I feel like all the hard work has been worth it :D

2. what’s a fic that took you to an emotional/dark/hard place? Honestly? The Royal Ranger has done that a couple of times, because I have to do a lot of hard thinking about my autism, how dismissive people can get about it, and once I had to really try and get across what sensory overload is like for me and ended up actually going into sensory overload D:

For all that it's been really great writing it because I get to play with my writing style a bit and get to give myself some validation lol

3. what fic are you emotionally attached to? Most of them tbh. But The Royal Ranger has made me the most friends, so that's got a special place in my heart :D

4. what fic of your own do you read for comfort? The Prince of Clonmel or The Flower in Her Hair most often :D But mostly I go back and read bits of my multi-chaps, like some of the more emotional chapters of The Ward Ghost

5. what fic of your own won’t you read?

Pretty much any of my FFN ones, because gosh what was I thinking. From my ao3 era, I don't really reread Coming Home very much. I'm just not very satisfied with how it turned out

6. what’s the hardest part of the writing process for you? The beginning. oh my god the beginning. trying to start anything just feels very awkward D:

7. how does receiving or not receiving feedback/support impact you? When a fic or a chapter gets no interaction, I wonder if it was actually all that good. But even just one comment makes me feel like all the writing was worth it :3

8. does anyone in your personal life know you write fic? if not, would you tell anyone? My mom knows! ...and wants to read The Ward Ghost :"D My friend also knows and I talk to her a bit about the writing process

9. what’s your writing process like? It's really not special lol. I'll just type away, or handwrite some scenes and transcribe them later. I occasionally write things out of order - if I'm super stuck on something, I'll write a later scene until I can talk it over with my beta readers - but I try to stick to writing mainly in order and I try not to skip ahead more than a scene at a time

10. how has writing positively impacted your mental health or overall mood? Writing is generally pretty calming for me, because both typing and handwriting are stims for me, but writing The Royal Ranger in particular has led to me becoming a lot more comfortable being openly autistic, despite what i said about it higher up :"D Its just been extremely validating

11. Has a fic you’ve written ever caused issues/controversy? The Royal Ranger caused controversy before it even came out! I initially wasn't going to do very much with it, because I thought it would just be a simple love story and wasn't sure what I could do with it, but I brought up in the Ranger's Apprentice discord server that I headcanoned Halt as autistic and someone lost their shit over it lmao. After getting push back from everyone else involved in the conversation, the person insulted us and left the server

Jokes on them tho cuz that was what inspired me to actually write it instead of just thinking about it lmao

12. What’s your perfect environment to create/write? Anywhere with a pen, a notebook, a warm drink and my cat <3

13. Do you take pride in your writing, or does it embarrass you? Why? I mostly feel proud! Based on the responses I get from my writing, I'm consistently achieving my goals with it (people enjoy the things I want to be romantic, feel emotional over the things I want to be emotional, hate the people I want them to hate, etc.) so I consider myself capable :3

14. Do you compare yourself to other writers? In a positive or negative way? Only if I read anything by Terry Pratchett, at which case I start to wonder if I could ever write anything that good XD But usually I don't compare myself to anyone, because I consider writing styles to be very personal things that heavily depend on what you want to do with a story

15. How do you think your writing as improved over time? I think I've gotten a lot better at characterisation! Especially with Halt, because he's fairly sarcastic in canon but I wasn't confident in my ability to make him all that sarcastic in my writing until recently

16. Do you re-read old fics? Is there a time in your writing you won’t go back to? I reread them a lot! But only my ao3 ones. I can't get through a few sentences of any of my FFN stories because my writing was just not very good back then lshglsgh

17. What’s the best engagement/interaction/feedback you’ve received from someone who’s read your work? This review, which kicked off my friendship with @rangerangel! When I saw it I spent a solid forty-five minutes just happy stimming and couldn't respond at all because every time I tried typing anything I got overtaken with happy stims again :'D <3

Genuinely just cannot stop rotting about how The Royal Ranger fic by @solarishashernoseinabook has the most accurate and well thought through depiction of autism I’ve ever encountered in media to this day. As an autistic person myself it genuinely made me cry at certain points because of how nonjudgmentally and gently it depicted Halt’s autism. I just think about it every day and it feels like a big warm hug.

18. Do you only write when you’re inspired, or do you try and sit down at specific times and write no matter what? I try and write whenever! I've figured out enough tricks by now that I don't get bogged down by writer's block as much. Plus with multi-chaps I don't have the luxury of waiting till I'm inspired to write. Currently I'm trying to write at least a few sentences per day

19. If you could write an ideal fic, what would it include? Um. That's hard to say! Because I want different things out of different fics. Sometimes I want something with plot, or romance, or angst. So there's no one-size-fits-all "perfect fic" that could include anything specific XD

20. What’s the greatest gift you’ve gotten from your writing? My friendship/marriage with @rangerangel :3 <3

#asks #ask games #this is a long one lol #sorry for the tags angel <3

[sassycordy]

I 100% remember DH saying he played Rodney on the spectrum. Even if he didn't, just the stimming he does constantly with his hands, the rocking motions, the complete lack of filter, and sometimes very black and white view of social situations.

Very on spectrum.

I am glad you agree with the possibility. John strikes me as someone on the spectrum for sure but with a childhood focused on learning social skills. For example, those born biologically female on the spectrum tend to be better socially because social skills is a focus people tend to do with biologically female kids (dumb.) Because of this, many of them are never diagnosed because they are better at masking. Considering his childhood I feel like this makes sense. 🧡

( I think i've actually seen david use the stimming hand motions in other roles as well which i think is fun aha) but yes! I think rodney is 100% on the spectrum and I doubt anyone could raise a valid argument against this headcanon lmfao.

ooooh woah there's a lot to discuss here ahha and i 100% agree! i like to believe his dad had some sort of military career before retiring and becoming the figurehead of some evil conglomerate. bc of this and where john lived, and his dad's growing business, i think john had to learn at a young age how to interact with people at fancy ass events lol. (also where he learned how to put up that charming mask so people wouldn't see how miserable he was underneath). so this hc lines up pretty well!

there's SO much of john's character that lines up with some of the more "traditional female" traits of autism. (side not its honestly pretty unfortunate that its extremely difficult to diagnose women with autism). but apparently a major difference between "men and women" w/ autism is the ability to camouflage their symptoms (at least according to my prior knowledge and some research I did! correct me if im wrong PLEASE). which is like hello. that is john in a nutshell. also reminding himself to make eye contact in conversations and preparing phrases to use in advance which again is uhhh. *looks straight into camera* classic john sheppard!

also there's the more known traits of autism as well that I think match up with john's character + behavior! resistance to touch, difficulty with discerning emotion, and even his hyperfixation with flying! so yea 100000000000% agree that both rodney AND john are somewhere on the spectrum. and im grateful that (for the most part I think?) everyone on tumblr seems to agree ahha.

once again thank you for sending this ask 💘💘

#sassy cordy responds #asks #i've been so ia pls #but i swear i love asks and especially ones surrounding topics that aren't as widely talked about #delving into john's psyche is one of my favorite pastimes actually lmfao #stargate atlantis #john sheppard

[squirrelkiln-art]

Unearthed Revision - Chapter 1 Notes

If you haven’t read Chapter 1 of the Unearthed Revision, read it here! This post is gonna have some behind the scenes details and minor spoilers for the chapter it’s about.

Since this is the first chapter behind-the-scenes post, I’ll explain the premise. These posts will have a link to the chapter/s they’re talking about, a quick note by me, and after a ‘read more’ will have my thoughts on things. (I usually have more to say than I feel appropriate putting in AO3 notes so I’m using this.) Later chapters will have more visuals in the way of art and concept work. The first few, however, will be all or majorly text. Anyway, onto the post.

Oh boy, the start of the adventure! I’ve read this chapter so many times it actually bores me, in both the old version and the revision. Still, I like how I revised it from the original. For now, here’s some notes I took or remembered while doing this. They’re pretty rambly, but if you’ve read Unearthed you’ll be used to me doing that anyway! I’m aware I’m more excited about these notes than others but it’s nice putting them out there.

Minor spoilers ahead!

This chapter was stuck in my drafts upon its initial writing years ago because I struggle so much with titles I couldn’t even think of the proper name for Unearthed. And to think I wanna give them chapter names now. Ha! We’ll see.

For some reason the talk of the stakeout business at the start of the chapter really messed with my sense of timing in this fic. It still does, actually, and I have a written timeline because of it.) I’ll probably share that in a future post once I neaten it up a bit.) Though the entirety of Unearthed takes place over the course of only a few days, I like making timelines for multi-chapter fics.

Ben's stimming when he’s anxious (clawing at his arms, pulling his hair and clothes) is a reference to what I do, or rather did, when I was majorly struggling with my health. It's not stated in the fic itself but my version of Ben is often based on myself via projecting, including my autism and ADHD. I’m the author I say what disorders my protagonist has! (/lh)

Even in the first chapter, Rook’s improvement between versions is practically tangible.  In the Old fic, he brushed Ben off because he was impatient and didn't really take Ben seriously. Here, he does acknowledge and validate Ben’s concerns, but only denies them because he believes that they're still unlikely. As a result, he insists Ben gets sleep for his own wellbeing and not to get rid of him.

“The human curled around his spare pillow and clutched it for some sort of comfort, a life raft in the raging black ocean of his furiously beating heart." Theatre/musical kids might recognize some of this line. It’s a reference to the song Lifeboat from the Heather’s musical (TW for that song) thanks to my working on that musical in school, around the time I wrote this fic. This song got stuck in my head SO much during revisions lol.

"...And, fortunately, he didn’t find himself trying to hero in his sleep again…" This is a simple callback to an OS episode, Midnight Madness!

"...His eyes scanned the various squares of paper from top to bottom–dancing groups, physical therapy, an advert for a lost Galvan Organization table, a single card from a trading card game..." This line about the trading card is a small, admittedly silly reference to the Yu-Gi-Oh! GX abridged series by ShadyVox. These abridged YGO series shaped my sense of humor growing up more than I’d like to admit.

"He could recognize it as something he had unfortunately felt nearly every day since he was ten years old. It was fear." This line was more for the emotional impact overall, but is a sight reference to the game OFF. The line it’s referencing goes, “He has your eyes... They are full of fear.”

For the first couple chapters I plan on posting their BTS Notes today and editing the AO3 chapters themselves to include a link to their respective Tumblr post. Anyways, thanks for reading if you’ve gotten this far. I hope you can enjoy the rest of the Unearthed Revision as well as the notes I leave behind.

#Shut up Sky #Unearthed Behind The Scenes

[caelumsnuff]

Hi, sorry this is a long ask but I really appreciated your posts! The daemon/demon allegory had been bothering me since that storyline started but I hadn't really been able to articulate why, and it brought a lot of other issues to light for me as well!

(Personally I never finished the freelancer series because the whole bridging/SA allegory really made me angry so I appreciate that someone else also saw the reasons why that decision was... poor to say the least).

And definitely agreed about the over-polarization of characters into good vs. bad!

I feel like a lot of the story decisions are based on the fact that many people are self-inserting, which unfortunately means reducing a lot of the nuance and gray aspects that would be more interesting to explore. Like with Vincent and Lovely- from a self-insert perspective, it's more 'romantic' and comforting to think that your partner would have as limited a power divide between you as possible and would take steps to ensure that, even though narratively it's not as interesting a choice. Which is also why I think the Bright Eyes storyline was axed, and why Love's obsession code was removed, and why I'm afraid that Darlin's story resolution is just going to fade into some milquetoast version of "love fixes everything!" rather than what it could have been- because people are putting themselves in the place of the listeners, it reinforces the idea that to like a character you have to endorse and agree with all their actions, so necessarily any character doing "bad" things or making darker decisions is a "bad person" and people don't want to imagine themself as a "bad person", no matter what that does to the story being told.

Honestly, Sam and Darlin' are my favorite characters which is why it pains me that their story is edging dangerously close to "I got into a relationship and it solved all my problems!" rather than two people with trust issues and unresolved trauma finding a friend when they needed one and that relationship slowly blossoming into something more as both of them come to terms with the things that are haunting them (which I agree would make more sense if Sam had either been turned more recently or if it had been clearly established that the clan is more loose-knit and not in fact a workable support system for him); honestly when the story started and it said slow burn I kind of thought they wouldn't start dating until much later, maybe even after things with Quinn came to a head, and I'm a bit disappointed we only got about 2 audios of them interacting pre-relationship. (Also I have a lot of problems with the way things between Darlin' and the pack were "resolved" in one frankly condescending and empty speech about family but I won't get into it here)

Anyway sorry again for the long message but thank you for your posts!

No need to apologize for the long message, i appreciate them You’re welcome for the posts, im happy to know that some people really enjoy them and that they’re making people think a little. Apparently a handful of people have dropped the Freelancer series because of the choices that were made in it, which is valid. I’m not exactly happy that its so bad that so many of us see issue with it, but i am glad to know im not the only person who feels it was wrong. I’m not neccesarily concerned about people self-inserting into listener characters, that is what they are for, Redacted made all content gender neutral and as inclusive as possible for this exact purpose. I think some of the issues with story-telling and overpolarization with characters does stim from Redacted’s desire to write content as inclusive as possible though. I respect this decision and desire, but i don’t think you can ever please everyone when it comes to the type of content you make without sanitizing a lot of it. Maybe this opinion stims from my general ‘doesn’t give a fuck’ attitude about creation, but he really could have just gone for it and made characters grayer (especially ones the listeners have romantic relationships with), regardless of whether or not it brings in a larger audience and pleases the most amount of people. It would be generally better from a story telling perspective. We already have ASMR content (from other creators) that caters specifically to a certain audience that excludes a lot of people (content that is very gendered, content that is racially specific with blushing and hair, etc etc), I think making content that is gender-neutral with some more complicated and grayer characters is a good middle ground, a niche that Redacted can fill. Maybe with Redacted leaving the discord server, he’ll be seeing a lot less of peoples opinions personally, and will start writing content that better fits his writing style and his characters again. It’s something that i would be really happy to see again, genuinely. Because i love Darlin’ and Sam so much is definitely the reason im concerned about where their story is going. But again, maybe Redacted distancing himself from the fanbase will save some storylines. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who knows tho Thanks again for the ask 💖

#anon #ask #redacted asmr

[donniesexceptionalmind]

hi! its donnie, but I've got a weird question,,

whats the best thing to do during a meltdown?

i just figured out these episodes ive been having are most likely meltdowns and i have no idea what to do. (hooray!) i literally threw my phone and cracked it. i understand if youre uncomfortable replying! im just looking for advice, thanks!

-donanon

Greetings, Donanon!

I'm glad you asked & hopefully I can help you out. I'm sad to hear you struggle. Maybe it comforts you to know that I struggle with meltdowns, too? You are not alone. 💜

It isn't a weird question! I made this blog to spread awareness & show the 'inside view' of autism, as well as share the fun that is life in the Hamato household.

Let's begin! (/ ￣▽￣)/

Let's define what a 'Meltdown' is first:

Meltdowns can also occur as a result of periods of masking.

A meltdown is an intense response to an overwhelming situation - social, emotional, or/and physical. It happens when an autistic person becomes overwhelmed by their current situation & temporarily loses control of their behaviour. 

This loss of control can be expressed verbally (eg shouting, screaming, crying), physically (eg kicking, lashing out, biting) or in both ways.

Meltdowns are not temper tantrums. They are not bad, manipulative or naughty!

Meltdowns are not the only way we autistics may express feeling overwhelmed. We may also refuse to interact, withdraw from situations we find challenging, or avoid them altogether. Which are all valid!

The 6 stages of Meltdowns:

Triggers: anything that stresses you - can be sensory, emotional, and/ or social.

The Rumbling: if you identify your stress at this stage, you MAY be able to prevent a meltdown from taking place- it takes a lot of self-awareness

Loss of Control: from here, it's only down the spiral, the stress keeps adding up & you can't turn back

The Meltdown

De-Escalation: a period that varies greatly in time, in which you calm down from your meltdown

Recovery: You're beginning to slowly feel better & you might feel guilty about the happenings before & during your meltdown

Here's what I do when I have a meltdown:

Removal: I retreat to my safe space (sometimes with help of my brothers), where I am safe to scream & move without hurting myself

Meet my sensory needs: I turn on my noise-cancelling headphones or music, get my fidgets, & comfort items to ground myself

Let the energy & tension out: I stim & I try to feel my emotions & express them - screaming, crying, ...

I won't talk to anyone to save energy (also because I can't think logically)

I try not to 'eat it up' (as in masking it or trying to internalise it)

Letting myself rest: especially after a meltdown I'm very drained & sleepy, I may have a headache too, so any medication treating that is nice to have nearby

Also, important advice: Have someone informed about it so they can check on you.

Maybe a "Meltdown Plan" would be beneficial?

Mine includes triggers, signs of a meltdown, what I need from others & aftercare.

It's important to note that despite all your efforts, you will still experience meltdowns & shutdowns. It's a normal part of being autistic (frustrating & sad, I know). What you can change is your self-observation & your mindset. Be compassionate & kind with yourself - I know it can be hard. Autism is a disability.

Feel free to ask if you want further advice, I could've written an entire novella about it.

I can recommend the book "The Neurodivergent Friendly Workbook of DBT Skills" by Sonny Jane Wise, if you want to work on self-awareness & improving your well-being as a autistic or neurodivergent.

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[anxiouslyextroverted]

any hot takes about anything?

I got heaps but the main 2 I've been thinking of currently have been.

I do not like people who tell me that me saying "I have autism" is bad.

I do not like the quote 'practice makes perfect'

So the first one about autism. I got my autism diagnosed at 6 and from that point onwards especially at school, my autism was seen by everyone as just my identity, I was called autistic as an insult on the daily basis and multiple slurs. so the idea that people are trying to say to me that "I'm autistic > I have autism" is weird to me cuz not only have I experienced more ableism from people that have used the "identity first" language, but I also have used these terms interchangeably. Its not that I see autism as a disease, I just used them interchangeably. but I always prefered saying "I have autism" because it makes me feel more comfortable seeing Autism as this extra thing to me rather than just my whole identity because my whole life I've had to convince so many people that no, autism is not just my identity, I have a personality outside of my autism diagnosis ffs. So yeah. Whenever psychologists and people in general saw me as "autistic" that was fine until they made it my entire being. My parents, friends, helper teachers would always say "Oh you're shy right now, thats you being autistic" "oh you're talking a lot its cuz you're autistic" , "You're not introverted, you're autistic." Its fine to use identity first language ofc if it validates you to be proud of autism, but I wish ppl would undestand that there are so many people that are uncomfortable with just being seen as 'autistic' as their identity, when I just can't see autism as my identity. So many times where I've had to tell people all my life "I'm me. My autism BARELY effects me." and im sorry if that is insensitive but its an objective fact for me that my autism does not effect me nearly as much as my helper teachers, friends and family claimed it did. I hope that explains why I just get so annoyed when people try to change my way of seeing it srry. Autism is not who I am. I'm me before my autism. Personality comes first.

And the second one about the practice makes perfect. I have been drawing since I was 7 years old. I drew on the daily basis both digitally and traditionally and I'm 20 now and you'd think I'd be at a pro level since I have been drawing every single day since 7 but no... I'm barely even intermediate. I'm average, I can't even draw angles or perspective and it took me last week to actually know how to draw lighting + lineart. So Practice doesn't always make perfect. What makes you good at things is practicing the right way. My years of drawing never worked out because I am naturally a messy person who can't draw angles and shit like that, I was learning how to draw overall rather than focusing on fundamentals (watching tutorials on how to draw manga chars rather than tutorials on anatomy ect is oof), I treated art like a stim rather than actually focusing like I would dissociate always and not think whilst drawing, memory bad, I have blind optimism which is just seeing things as way better than they really are. It srsly didn't help that so many of my friends learnt how to draw like a pro within 2 WEEKS which was insane to me. So yeah I just hate that quote. I'd ague that even practicing the right way may not even work either, some people just arent born for certain things. Like aphantasia and dyslcalculia seriously impact my ability to draw. Oh and this didn't just happen with drawing but with dancing too, I danced ever since 3 and I should be a pro but I'm not and all my practice amounted to nothing.

so ye theres some takes ig. The 2nd ones less controversial but I just feel so strongly about it cuz im sick of artists in particular getting told "just try" "just draw everyday" "just practice" and fuck it, its how i feel about exposure therapy too. I did performing in front people + public speaking since i was 9 and it never once improved my social anxiety infact I'm pret sure it made it worse. "oh you have social anxiety. just do confident things" bro that doesn't always work for peoplee

#ask #long posts ty for the ask

[donotlookatmyface]

09 / 13 - 9 : 46 p.m.

i got my appendix removed last month. and i think i have a thing for my friend. ive slept with her before, in the time i was with bunny and he begged for a “sexy threesome” so i got drunk one day and just did it. i dont remember very much of it since it was years ago, it was before we both moved into the apartment but anyways, it was an okay experience. shes beautiful, and is always so nice to me. but when i have memories of her, us being together i felt wanted, i felt like i was the center of attention. but that was years ago, it happened once and its tainted with the pervert of my ex. 

after the break up, i set up an online profile, this was months after the break up and i was told by my ex that i should sleep with others other than him. so i did, and i found a couple. the same day i texted them i went over and had sex. when i first got there she let me shower and let me borrow a tshirt and shorts since i had just gotten off of work. i thought that was so polite of her, we had a conversation before anything, they smoked some weed, i didnt want to smoke since it triggers my hypomania. but it was a while, i was with a girl for the second time but this time i was sober. i wasnt really interested in the guy but she was nice. she was soft and i wanted to make her feel good. she was nervous because at the time i was about 85 - 90 pounds, besides that it was just something that happened. thinking back to these two instances i just felt lost. nothing i did was worth it, it didnt make me any more happier or less lonely. 

bat is pretty, she is high maintenance but so am i. that doesnt mean that she doesnt deserve someone good, even when we had our issues when we lived together for a very short month, she would clean the house when i was away, since i work 11 hrs a day, leave early in the morning, come back at night. she would do dishes or clean the restroom, she would even do the floors. and she would seek validation. 

anyways i just texted her about just feeling nervous talking to her and thinking about her, of course she told me that shes talking to someone else so shes not seeking a relationship with me but she is interested in having a fling. i told her i understand and that im interested in the fling too, but i do feel just awkward about it since its been about a year since ive had sex. 

its weird. im scared to be taken advantage of again, im scared of being in a relationship, ive forgotten what sex feels like, i crave attention, i want to go out and party, i want to drink, i want to do impulsive things, i think about having sex all the time, i want to clean my room but instead i rot in my bed or just play games all day and night, i get no sleep, i dont wash my hair, i let the water bottles accumulate by desk, my stimming is getting worse and i feel lonely. 

i wonder if i’ll be okay in a year from now, if i’ll find someone. if i’ll still be single, if i’ll be happier. 

i think i just have appearance issues. i cant seem to embrace my gender, ive stopped taking care of my skin and everything i wear seems like a costume no matter what i wear. theres not one day i dont get reminded of my weight gain, i weigh 117 now, and i am glad about it, everyone is. but i hate that once i wear something not baggy someone says “ oh youve gained weight” which i know they mean it in a “good for you” but it feels just awkward. one of my friends also made a very common comment/joke from high school to me and i let it get to me, but i just ignored it. 

i feel alone, i feel lost.

all i do is work and stay home. i do go out with friends, but thats just sometimes. like maybe once a month, since most of them are busy with school. which my friends want me to go back to, they tell me to get a couple classes in the collage that theyre going to and i want to i just dont know what i would do or study. i was thinking maybe business or marketing. i do want to want to take animation if i could again, since i dropped out for a DUMB ASS reason. also i need to keep drawing instead of playing splatoon or valorant haha. 

i dont think im depressed, just lost and with out purpose. ive tried to get back into homestuck but goddamn, its so damn long. but thats what made me happy, so maybe i just need something else to obsess over. in a healthy, normal way. 

i also want to write songs but once i start recording i remember how much i hate my voice, i mean i do like it its just weird 

[murdickdocked]

if you’re still taking prompts, maybe one where you introduce eddie to your friends? and maybe after meeting them he ends up getting a lil intimidated (and ultimately insecure), but he still tries to be supportive.

i just thought it’d be cute to have a lil story where reader tries to make him see see himself the way she does. i love your writing and look forward to reading what else you put out!

*Waves* hi i'm not dead, I'm just busy with my research paper and exam week is coming up :)) took some time off my schedules to write this, i hope you enjoy.

yeah, I love dnd

| Game Night with Friends | Edward Nashton / The Riddler x Reader

Word Count: 1.2k

Warnings: Nothing, unless you count social anxiety and kind of nagging eddie about his internet friends smh

Tonight is game night with your friends, a homebrew tabletop campaign. You thought you would bring Eddie along to introduce him to them, considering they were kind of nerds too (and honestly, he needs REAL friends, not just the ones talking to him during his streams).

At first, Edward outright refused.

“I’ll just ruin your night, Hun.” He whispered. Tired, gentle, green eyes stared into yours. He tilted his head as your hand crept up to cup his cheek; he sighed contently, “and you know I don’t like crowds…”

“Eddie, I know that the moment I leave, you’ll put on your green suit and talk to strangers online. It’s way better to join us tonight, it’ll be fun!”

Edward furrowed his eyebrows at the mention of his peers, he crinkled his nose (cutely, may I add) and fixed you with a weak glare, not liking how you talked of the people he shows his darker side to.

“I’ll just feel alienated and they’ll make fun of me...” He trailed off; his eyes glazed over as he felt himself getting stuck in his own mind. “Eddie… nonsense. They’re nice people, they know you’re coming. You’ll fit right in,” you grabbed his hands and put them on your cheeks, turning your head to face his right hand and giving each of his fingers a kiss, “you won’t be a bother, they’d love for you to join us.”

He sighed. He felt himself lean forward until his forehead touched yours, angling his face to brush his lips against the tip of your nose.

“Okay.”

-

Edward could feel himself freezing up as they approached their destination: the apartment of your friend downtown. You practically dragged him as he slowly transformed into a statue out of social anxiety.

As you raised your fist to knock on the door, Edward suddenly grabbed your wrist, turning towards you with worried eyes.

“I think we should just cancel—”

The door swings open to reveal your friend who welcomes the both of you with a warm grin. They call your name enthusiastically before opening the door wider for both of you to enter.

“Come in! Come in, we already got everything prepared!”

At a round table, friendly eyes turned towards you and Edward, most straying on the man behind you whose arms stuck close to his sides, trying to make himself look smaller. Some waved at you, others uttering greetings as some of them scooted over to give you and Edward space on the table.

You grabbed Edward’s hand, having him sit beside you and one of your friends who greeted him with a genial smile.

“So, you’re the man we’ve been hearing about…”

Heads turn towards a woman with red hair whose boots perched on the table, clad in leather and cotton, an eyepatch in one eye, and an intricate dagger in one hand that she played with refined fingers.

Edward nodded, eyes staying on the dagger as he leaned closer to you.

“What’s with her?” He whispered, the woman smirks as she sees him getting uncomfortable.

You sighed, opening your backpack and pulling out a stack of papers filled with information for tonight’s game.

“She’s a roleplayer, Eddie, she’s allowed to be like this.”

He nodded, regarding her with curious eyes. She narrowed her eye at him, a shark smirk as she grabbed something from her belt: a paper with her character information, besides it, a self-portrait of herself styled like an old wanted poster. Jewel Seaskin, Wanted Dead or Alive. 600 Gold.

“This lil’ group don’t take kindly to snitches, no matter how pre’dy they are…” Jewel stabbed the dagger on the table, making your friend who opened the door for you groan and complain in the background “I just got that made!”

“Are ye a snitch, boy?” She leaned towards him, towering over him in mock intimidation.

“N-no…” Edward’s eyes are cast down, his shoulders tensed. You laid a comforting hand on his thigh.

“What’s yer name?”

“Edward Nas—”

You interrupt him and he looked at you. You gestured towards the stacked paper on the table in front of the two of you.

A lightbulb appeared on Edward’s head as he realized what he was supposed to do.

“M-my name’s Earl Nygma!” He blurted out, unsure how the others would react.

Jewel raised her eyebrows, an impressed smirk on her face as she sat properly on her seat, removing the dagger by dragging it towards the edge of the table, ignoring the frustrated agony of its owner.

“Welcome to the party, Earl Nygma.”

-

You are all having a blast. It was Eddie’s first campaign ever and you were proud to see him talk to others when he could. Most of the time, he would talk to you in reply to someone’s inquiry towards him, but you chastise him playfully to answer them directly instead, making him blush in embarrassment every time.

The party just defeated a Kraken and from its beak out comes a cultist with an octopus head. It considered you with a mysterious stare before saying that the party must pass each riddle it states or else it will summon its Dark Lord.

You turned to look at Eddie and find him perked up, eager to hear the riddles. A content smile graced your lips as you squeezed his hand under the table.

He answers each riddle effortlessly, much to the dismay of the Dungeon Master who desperately wanted another fight. Your friends cheered and congratulated him on his cleverness, having him jump in surprise as one of them clasped his shoulder. For the first time this night, he smiled happily and nodded his head as a bow of gratitude.

-

It was time to leave, the campaign was a one-shot and therefore meant that it didn’t need to continue for the next game night, your friend made sure of it in case not everyone would come back for the next meeting.

You walked out with Edward clinging to your arm, a pep in his steps as he waved a timid goodbye to your friends, one of them shouting after the two of you to let Edward be the Dungeon Master next time, making him flush and chuckle, flattered.

“You were quite the charmer tonight, darl.” You purred, leaning your head against his shoulder as you both walked home.

He nodded, his posture going back to its frequent stance, a façade of innocence and awkwardness.

“I-I think I liked that, the game, I mean.” His eyes darted down, starting to walk at a slower pace. You frowned, pouting as you turned toward him.

“What’s wrong, hun?”

“I just think that I ruined it, sometimes, it was my first time in a group like that and I feel like I was hogging too much time a-and…” he trailed off as if his brain was trying to find a reason for his self-loathing.

You wrapped your arms around his middle, burying your face against his chest in an attempt of comfort.

“You didn’t, darl. They loved you, I could tell. Hell, they even told me they’d love to play with you again next time!”

“Really?” He mumbled, saying it more to himself than you.

“Yeah, baby, yeah.” You leaned forward and kissed his cheek, stepping away and looping your arm with his and continuing your previous pace.

“I’d love that.”

“I know you do.”

#edward nygma #Edward Nashton #the riddler #edward nashton #the riddler x reader #edward nashton x reader #the batman #edward nygma x reader #the batman 2022 #eddie nashton x reader #x reader #edward nashton x you #love the fact that the gif called dice stim toys #because its valid and i do stim with them

[catboyantichrist]

Hi there! Can you please do relationship headcanons of a gender neutral MC with autism and ADHD dating the seven brothers? I’d love to see more positive writing of a neurodivergent MC and how each of the brothers would love and respect them regardless of their disabilities. Feel free to do this if you want to. If not, that’s ok! Have a great day! 😁👍🌷🌹🌺🌸🌼🌻🌷🌹🌻🌼🌸🌺

This ask literally made me squeal- my neurodivergent ass is gonna have way too much fun with this- LMAO Just a warning, I'm basing this mainly off of my personal experiences (I have ADHD and am possibly getting tested for atypical autism in the future.). Ill try to be as broad as possible but I'd just like to give a heads up.

Just know that if you don't relate to this post or something in it, that doesn't mean you aren't valid! Everyone experiences neurodivergencey differently ^^

☆The Brothers Dating A GN!MC With Autism & ADHD☆

Day-to-day life has always been a struggle. As it feels like no human truly understands why you function the way you do. From bosses, to teachers, to neurotypical friends. Life can feel draining and like a chore when you're living in a world that doesn't function the way you do.

Then your world literally changes. You're in the devildom now. Most people would be terrified that they're living in a house full of demons. But you weren't. You felt like you finally belonged, and eventually you finally found love. Something that people assumed you'd never be able to find. Well jokes on them because your lover treats you with so much respect and kindness, and of course you do the same. This is some of what your lover does that just makes your heart spin:

Lucifer:

-Much to your dismay, before Lucifer started to get to know you he was similar to the humans you've encountered in the past. This doesn't last long though as one of the brothers (most likely Leviathan or Mammon) try to explain. He begins to go a bit easier on you, and also falls for you.

-When you guys start dating, he makes it his goal to help make your day-to-day life easier. Dare I say, he takes pride in it. (Hahahah aren't I funny?)

-He notices how you need a schedule to function, but how much you hate schedules. So with your permission, he makes a loose schedule and follows it WITH you. It simultaneously helps you function more than usual, and it helps Lucifer take breaks when he needs to.

-You two begin to do everything together, as doing stuff together and holding each other accountable is a lot easier than doing it alone

-If someone ever dares to make a rude comment about you Lucifer will um... "take care of them".

-If you ever get overstimulated from the environment you're in, Lucifer keeps his office wide open as a quiet place for you. He keeps a weighted blanket, some headphones and any stim toys you usually use in a corner of his office. If you're not comfortable with them out in the open he'll keep them in a special box somewhere in his office that others can't get into.

Mammon:

-Executive Dysfunction gang! The both of you are relieved that you understand each other and some dumbass wont just go "jUsT gEt Up aNd dO iT!"

-If you guys are struggling with it at different times, you'll try to help each other do small tasks that require very limited effort so that one of you don't get overwhelmed and stressed out. If its a particularly difficult day, you'll just stay there to support the other if they want that.

-If both of you are struggling that day, you do nothing ✨together✨ and just vibe with each others company.

-This man brings you shiny things. They don't even have to be worth anything, they're just shiny. You proceed to do the same. You two now have a designated spot for shiny things you bring each other. If you have an interest in art, you and him will probably end up using the shiny objects as art projects.

-A LOT of impulse shopping. You guys enable each other. Although you quickly realize that you impulse shop for each other. Every second day you end up bringing each other gifts and laughing about it after.

Leviathan:

-Y'know that arm thing two neurodivergent people do when they find out that the other person is neurodivergent? Yeah you two did that. And still continue to do that. It's your greeting now.

-You two spend tons of time either cuddling and talking about your special interests together, or both of you are pacing around Levi's room talking about your special interests together.

-And if you end up having the same special interest?? Oh man the serotonin you two both get just being AROUND each other.

-If you have a hard time around tons of people (in general or just at certain times) he's more than willing to share his room with you and for you two to do online school together. I mean hey, doing school by yourself online is difficult. (Even if it's more comfortable for you both)

-Will he get you a matching pair of noise cancelling headphones if you have auditory sensory issues, or if you just like the pressure on your head. (I don't know if that's a neurodivergent thing but I will wear my headphones just so that I feel some sort of pressure on my head)

-You both communicate what you need, and whether you need alone time or not. Making sure not to trigger any form of rejection sensitivity dysphoria for eachother.

Satan:

-If you were one of those neurodivergent kids that spent all of their time in the library, going through books like wildfire in middle school, get ready for that to be reignited.

-You two will read together all the time, and if you're having a day where you're more fidgety and don't wanna stay still, Satan is more than happy reading to you while you pace around.

-Satan has a natural curiosity, and loves to learn about anything that he doesn't already know about. So if you have a special interest about your own neurodivergency, he is more than happy to listen to you ramble about your life experiences and symptoms.

-Honestly, it doesn't even have to be about neurodivergency, Satan is happy to listen and learn about anything you're interested currently.

-If you aren't big on physical affection from humans or, well... humanoid people, that's perfectly fine! That's what animals are for! He'll take you to a cat cafe and will enjoy spending time with the animals with you.

-Similar to Lucifer, if anyone makes a comment about the way you act, they wont live to see another day. Unlike Lucifer, the demons who say these comments don't even finish their sentence. They're dead before MC blinks.

Asmodeus:

-When Asmodeus finds out that you have sensory issues that affect what you wear, he decides to hand-make clothes with fabrics of your choice. He has no issue with you prioritizing comfort over appearance, but if you want to put effort into your appearance and texture is stopping you, he's more than happy to design some stuff for you.

-Asmodeus has always been a touchy person, but if you aren't comfortable with that he'd never force you to cuddle. If you are interested in physical affection one of his favourite things to do is put makeup on your face, or just touch your face.

-Speaking of which, if you ever impulsively cut your hair whether it be from breakdown, normal impulsivity, or sensory issues with your hair being longer. He'll always help you cut your hair. He wants to make sure that once you cut it, you wont regret it the next day.

-Depending on whether you like going outside or not (or if its depending on the day) he's more than happy to take you to the fall! He'll make sure you're always comfortable and if you need the attention diverted from you if you need a break!

-If you don't like going outside, Asmo will dedicate certain nights for just you two to hang out. He can always energy match you. Hyperactive? Oh he's right there with you bouncing of the walls. Calmer? He doesn't mind just vibing with you. Comfort? Oh you've come to the right guy.

-Asmodeus is very emotionally intelligent, it may have originally been for the wrong purposes (charming others) but now he can use it to help you work through issues with socializing with others, past traumas from other people, he'll always do his best to support you as long as you'd do the same for him!

Beelzebub:

-Beel is always well meaning, but whether you're neurodivergent or neurotypical, communication is key with him. So, if you're unintentionally blunt to neurotypical people, that's exactly what Beel needs and wants. He knows you don't mean it out of harm, you're just trying to state your boundaries.

-Do you need a weighted blanket? This man will become the weighted blanket. He wants to make sure you're comfortable at all times!

-If you have trouble eating, Beel is here to help. If you take meds for ADHD and they make you lose your appetite, or just general forgetfulness, he'll remind you to have at least some sort of small snack throughout the day. Nothing too filling, just enough so that you aren't running on zero food throughout the day.

-All the go-to and comfort foods that you had in the human world? Beel would make it his MISSION to get them, and TONS of it too. It's the only food in the house he wont eat because he knows how important it is to you. He will tear up a bit if you offer to share though.

-If you're in a hyperactive mood, or anxious, Beel will convince you to do some light exercise with him to help calm you down

Belphegor:

-If you have trouble sleeping, Belphie will definitely try and help. Ranging from cuddling, aroma therapy, getting Beel to do exercise with you. To more magical means (if you're comfortable with it) like sleeping powder.

-If you just have a different internal clock than the average person, that's fine too! It may be permanent but that's okay- Belphie will sleep at any time with you.

-Isn't generally a social person so if you're not that big of a fan of social interaction you don't have to worry. Belphie would even do online school with you!

-He would let you use his pillows and blankets to stim if that's something you're interested in. He'd also listen to you ramble about your interests while doing so! As long as you don't mind him talking about the stars afterwards.

-Definitely the most blunt out of his brothers, so communication wouldn't be an issue between you two. If his bluntness is a bit too harsh for you he'll try to tone it down a bit, but it would probably just end up as him trying to explain the reasoning behind the bluntness and how it's not out of harm.

#neurodivergent!MC obey me #obey me #obey me headcanons #obey me imagines #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me shall we date #obey me x reader

[gh0st-patr0l]

ADHD in DSMP

So about a week back, I made a post about Karl Jacobs (a bit of a passive aggressive one, I’ll admit, but I think it was justified), complaining that a lot of the ‘criticism’ I see about Karl is actually rather insensitive towards his ADHD. I got a lot of responses to that post, and the most common sources of confusion I saw were:

People not understanding what I was saying they should avoid being judgmental of, or-

People who didn’t know that Karl had ADHD or didn’t understand which behaviors were caused by it.

First of all, Karl has confirmed that he has ADHD.

(NOTE: Yes, I know he said ADD. ADD and ADHD used to be categorized as separate disorders, but in the most recent edition of the DSM, it was decided that they are both simply subtypes of the same disorder- ADHD is the correct technical term. ADD is still sometimes used as shorthand by some practitioners to diagnose primarily-inattentive ADHD, but it's a bit outdated.)

Secondly, that original post made me realize that a lot of people who may be well-meaning may genuinely not fully understand ADHD and its symptoms as well as they want to or think they might. If you aren’t aware, Karl isn’t the only one in the DSMP with ADHD- to my understanding, both Technoblade and Dream have confirmed that they have it as well. So, I thought it would be helpful to put together a comprehensive crash-course on ADHD symptoms and how they effect people’s behavior!

Now, before we go further, I want to address something- as I said earlier, I saw some people unsure of whether certain behaviors are ADHD or “just his personality”. I feel the need to point this out above the read more so people will see it. To answer this question, as someone with ADHD;

A lot of times, it’s both. ADHD is a neurodevelopmental disorder, meaning that it’s caused by the way your brain developed from birth. A lot of the symptoms and effects of ADHD are extremely influential towards the way we think, act, and behave, to the point where “symptoms” and “normal behavior” really don’t have a clean differentiation. This is why it’s technically classified as a ‘disorder’, instead of an illness. While certain aspects of it can require treatment, the condition itself as a whole is not something to be mitigated or eliminated- it’s a part of who we are as a person. This is also why sometimes, even if you don’t have ADHD, you’ll look at certain specific behaviors or experiences and go “Oh, but I do that too!”. A lot of ADHD ‘symptoms’ are just a bunch of normal traits or behaviors, but in combination with each other and some actually problematic aspects, form the appearance of the disorder.

So, what are you allowed to nitpick about it? Well, there’s no real ‘authority’ on this, and even if there was it certainly wouldn’t be me. But if you want my opinion? Nothing.

See, here’s the thing- what I was trying to say when I made that post was not that you can’t be critical of Karl. If you want to say something about his Actions, his Ideals, or the content he creates- sure, go for it, that’s fair. I will agree that there are some very valid and constructive points to be made. But when you post ‘criticism’ about the way he speaks, his interests or preoccupations, his personal behaviors? That’s not criticism. That’s just judging someone.

And you’re allowed to think that stuff! Nobody can control what annoys or bothers them. It doesn’t necessarily make you a bad person. But you don’t need to be vocal about it. You can keep your mean thoughts to yourself. And if you do make posts or communities or whatever about judging someone for things they can’t change about themselves, don’t call it “criticism” or try to morally justify it. It’s not productive or righteous, it’s just rude. Nothing else.

Anyway. Back to Education!

The following will be a descriptive list of visible ADHD behaviors, using Karl’s behavior as examples.

I feel the need to add a disclaimer here- I am not a mental health professional. However! I have ADHD myself, I have taken some psychology courses and done a Lot of research into this stuff, and I’m the daughter of a therapist with access to a DSM. While I’m not an expert, I’d like to think I’m fairly well versed and knowledgeable on at least ADHD. (That being said, if by chance anyone who Is a professional sees this post and notices mistakes, by all means let me know and I’ll fix it!!)

WHAT IS ADHD?

You’re here for the behaviors more than the science, so I’ll keep this short and sweet. ADHD is Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (Known in the past as Attention Deficit Disorder). Despite its name, the root problem of ADHD is not in the person’s ability to pay attention, but their brain’s capability to manage itself. In simple terms, people with ADHD have a lot less control over what their brain does and wants. This results in some behavioral differences along with some personal challenges, namely a difficulty with attentiveness and self-discipline.

Now, onto the symptoms!

ATTENTION

This is perhaps the most visible and pervasive of the ADHD symptoms, hence why it’s the namesake. Inattention is a lack of focus and an inability to stay present and occupied with certain tasks or thoughts.

Because ADHD impairs self-management of the brain, people with it have an extremely hard time directing themselves anywhere but where their brain instinctively wants to go. This results in inattentiveness and the easiness of distraction that is often mocked or stereotyped for people with ADHD.

Here are some examples of how Karl can sometimes display his inattentiveness;

When he has an idea that he seems passionate about, only to drop it or switch to something totally different without warning soon after (either forgetting or getting bored of his original idea).

When he sets out to do something like a build, works on it for a short amount of time, and then immediately gives up or gets someone else to do it.

When someone else is talking and he totally zones out. (NOTE: While I wont make a whole section for it because it’s not easily observable, maladaptive (constant and intrusive) daydreaming is a common ADHD symptom as well!)

It’s important to remember that the whole problem with ADHD is that we can’t control when or what we focus on. When someone with ADHD zones out during a conversation or activity, it doesn’t mean they’re doing it on purpose, and they likely don’t mean any offense! We often are trying our best to listen or participate, but our brain just wont cooperate.

However, inattention is not the only way ADHD effects our focus. There’s also what’s called hyperfocus or hyperfixation, which is when we are so absorbed into a single subject, task, or idea that it is extremely difficult to get us to think about or do anything else. This is usually because our brains have found something that is getting those satisfaction chemicals flowing, and it’s clinging to that with everything it’s got.

People with ADHD will often experience brief periods of hyperfocus. Think of how Karl talks about spending hours straight working on a build or project without eating or drinking, or how he’ll sit down to play a game with someone and end up going six hours without even noticing.

There are also hyperfixations, where someone with ADHD becomes extremely preoccupied with a certain subject, topic, etc. for a period of time. These can be short term- personally, my hyperfixation can sometimes change as quickly as a couple weeks at a time. However, it can also be long term. Karl has been obsessed with Survivor since the second grade- not to mention his memorabilia, rambling, and constant references to Kingdom Hearts.

HYPERACTIVITY/STIMMING

This is a BIG one for Karl. I should clarify; ‘stimming’ is not a technical term, and in professional situations these behaviors are just referred to as Hyperactivity. However, I personally like the term stimming much more and find it far more accurate to what the behaviors actually are, so I’ll be using that instead for this post.

If you’re not already familiar, ‘stimming’ (derived from ‘stimulation’) is an unofficial term used to describe consistent and abnormal patterns of physical and vocal behavior typically expressed by people with ADHD and ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). This includes things that people usually call fidgets or tics.

(NOTE: There are differences in how people with those two disorders stim. This post will explain stimming specifically from an ADHD perspective! ASD stimming is caused by very different factors and presents itself in much different ways. Do your own research if you’re curious!) 

There are two major observable forms of stimming- physical and vocal. Karl expresses both VERY often! I’ll use examples for each type;

Physical Stims: Flapping his hands/arms, jumping up and down when he’s excited, twisting around into odd positions in his chair, throwing, hitting, or tapping things, standing up and pacing around when he’s hyped up or laughing, twisting his rings, etc.

Vocal Stims: When he gets excited and repeats a certain phrase incessantly (Think any variation of “I’m popping off”), making certain repetitive noises while he’s focused on something or bored (”la la la”, the meow-noises, the weird heart-beat noise, etc.), singing or humming, tongue clicking.

It should be noted here that it’s pretty common for people with ADHD to get “stuck” on certain phrases or noises, and be unable to stop repeating them (reminiscent of echolalia, a symptom of ASD, but not the same thing). Think of how Karl might sometimes keep making a weird noise for an extended period of time even though it’s not that funny, or that one time he was physically struggling to keep himself from singing the Bakugan theme. These repetitions are completely impulsive and trust me, we usually know how annoying it is while we’re doing it, but we physically cannot stop.

ADHD stims are caused by the fact that the barrier between our brain and body is much weaker than a normal person’s. Because of this, most ADHD stims are actually very positive expressions of joy, excitement, or enthusiasm! Y’know how when you get excited, you feel like you wanna jump or dance? The ‘hyperactivity’ of ADHD is basically just that, but we don’t have the self-control to Not do it.

Stims can be caused by negative feelings like overstimulation, but in ADHD this is not nearly as common. Usually, the most negative reason we’ll stim is when we’re bored- in that case, our brain isn’t getting the Constant Stimulation that it naturally wants, so stimming is a way to make our own.

Whatever the cause, stimming is natural and impulsive. While different people experience it to varying degrees, those who regularly stim typically have little to no control over it. Suppressing stims is very hard and very frustrating to do.

Besides that, like I said- ADHD stims are often an expression of joy, excitement, or enthusiasm. They’re a beautiful thing that shouldn’t be seen as shameful or annoying!

BEHAVIORAL DIFFICULTIES

ADHD is a disorder which causes a lack of self-control. Naturally, this means that people with ADHD are inherently reckless, impulsive, and struggle with a lack of self-discipline that they cannot fix.

Of course, people with ADHD do still have some level of self-control, and they are still responsible for conscious, long-term behavioral patterns and decisions. However, in regards to most things, they are much, much less capable of controlling themselves than an average neurotypical person is.

These are some examples of how this will often present itself in Karl;

Excessive rambling, dragging on a joke or conversation when it could and should probably have been dropped, etc.

Speaking over or interrupting other people (NOTE: As someone with ADHD- THIS IS ALMOST ALWAYS UNINTENTIONAL. I know it can seem rude or annoying but I promise, 90% of the time if someone with ADHD talks over you, they either didn’t realize or physically couldn’t help it. Please try to be patient!)

Lack of awareness towards social cues (NOTE: Unlike ASD, in which the person is incapable of/has problems fully understanding social cues, ADHD results in a lack of awareness. For whatever reason, we’re often just not paying close enough attention to pick up on things like body language, tone of speech, and facial expression as well as we would normally.)

Indecisiveness and overthinking

Bluntness, lack of subtlety

Unintentional dismissiveness, accidentally ignoring things/people (NOTE: Again, this behavior is purely accidental. In this case, it’s usually just the person genuinely not hearing or processing things.)

Making noises, speaking, joking, etc. at inappropriate times

There’s probably more, but I think you get the idea by now. A lot of the time, behavior which results from ADHD can be seen as rude, lazy, dismissive, or otherwise intentionally harmful. In reality, we just aren’t wired to navigate common social interaction with grace.

In Karl’s case, he’s clearly an incredibly sweet, empathetic, and kind-hearted person, if the various close friends who have talked about him are to be believed. Just because he talks over people or makes a poorly timed joke, that doesn’t mean he meant any harm. 

I think that’s about it for how much I wanted to point out! You can do more research if you’re curious, but I feel like this post should be enough to tell you what to keep in mind and be understanding about when talking about/making judgements on Karl, and other people with ADHD.

#sorry if this is longwinded but I had a lot to say so [shrug] #karl jacobs #dsmp #dream smp #dreamwastaken #ghost.txt