#even when i'm angry

[sfsolstice]

the prayer plant in the corner

is dying i think, and i'm worried

because when i picked it out

at the nursery across town,

i had you in mind, and they say

a plant named after somebody

reflects that person's soul, so

i'm worried you're not alright;

when all i want is for you to be.

#poetblr #poets community #poets corner #poets cafe #women poets #female poets #poets of tumblr #poets on tumblr #spilled ink #spilled poem #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #poetry #poem #original poem #sfsolstice #in a mood tonight :/ #no but fr i'm really worried about the plant #i might need to repot it to see what's going on :/ #but also not a day goes by where i don't wish you well #even when i'm angry #even as things didn't turn out the way either of us wanted them to

[nbprincey]

High schoolers SUCK

#some random person said that I wanted to kill my stepmother #like that I was going to take a gun from our house and shoot her #and they tlsaid that I was a ‟loose cannon‟ and ‟mentally unstable‟ #WHO HURT YOU! #i literally pit 90% of my energy into being the kindest #best person I can be at school #and this is the SECOND time someone has messed with my stepparents #the first time someone said that I said that I felt really uncomfortable around my stepdad (my mom's boyfriend at the time) #I swear someone is out to get me #I don't even know what I did #and I'm pretty sure whoever it was doesn't even know me that well because #1 I am not a violent person #even when I'm angry #my stepmother is the bane of my existence and I still care about her and would never wish physical or mental harm upon her #2. I am absolutely petrified of firearms #I would be scared to hold a completely empty gun with the safety on #thinking about firing it #especially near another person #would straight up give me a heart attack #I'm just so tired #of everything #I'm gonna go to bed at like 8 o'clock #because I'm done with my today #princey rants

[jewishspite]

There's something very sad about the fact that most pro Palestines are generally good people. They're people I loved, artists I followed and friends I made. And one day I find out that they would prefer it if I were dead, that they'd justify it if I was a victim of october 7, that they think I don't deserve to exist.

I can't trust anyone anymore.

#ישראבלר #antisemitism #israel #judaism #leftist antisemitism #I'm not even angry now #Just...sad and resigned #They try so hard to be good but fail to see when they aren't

[uncanny-tranny]

Whenever people who are entrenched in diet culture talk about how terrible chemicals are, I just want to whip out this:

#diet culture #diet culture tw #described images #image description in alt #'it's got CHEMICALS in it' and so do you! and me too! IT'S ALL CHEMICALS ALL THE WAY DOWN #instead of running from this world we must learn to embrace it #i'm not particularly angry at people who say this because it makes me think that they're incredibly invested in diet culture... #...i just don't want the whole 'food = bad' or 'bodies = bad' to go unchallenged... #...part of the reason why diet culture seems just as prevalent now (if not moreso) is partially because it isn't really... #...challenged or questioned without provocation. it's just assumed to be correct because it makes you 'feel in control' #when chemicals are bad you can control what chemicals you consume. it's individualistic and places the blame onto you for 'being good' #it places responsibility onto the person in such a way that it becomes impossible to fulfill #it isn't that i'm upset that people want to treat their bodies in a way they think is responsible... #...moreso that the *way* they go about it ensures that they're stuck in a cycle of self-blame and even self-hatred #because the METHOD is ineffective. not the desire to treat your body well #also the state of ohio looks stupid and i do Not respect it #it looks like a ball that is simultaneously deflated and over-inflated #also their state flag looks silly to me #it looks like the person who was making it fell asleep making it #i'm just clowning on ohio at this point. have never been to ohio but. are you guys okay

[sysig]

Blind side (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Gaster #Sans closing his good eye every once in a while and keeping his blind eye open - obviously he does so in-game as well so it's a style-match #It's just interesting in the context of him being textually-confirmed blind in Handplates hehe #There's a level of vulnerability there! Not more than closing both eyes around someone - and potentially also distrust! #''I'm baring myself blind right now but /you/ don't need to know that'' - it suits him ♪ #Especially when he does it around Papyrus! Because obviously Papyrus knows about his partial blindness #But when he's trying to be duplicitous - the way he looks at him sidelong with his blind eye when he's trying to lie unsuccessfully ugh <3 #And again-again it being about how much he trusts Papyrus! That he can be a little lazy or spacey and Papyrus will help him! #Also something about his entire right side being impaired - pawing around with his plated hand for something he can't see on that side #The dynamics! Internal and external! Very good like them lots #And then there's Gaster lol ♪ Throw him into the mix I'm sure it won't make a mess at all haha #I guess he's visiting? Just spacing out - he and Sans have a lot on their minds - separately haha #I do love how Sans pushes Gaster to be kind to Papyrus - very deservedly! He wants Papyrus to be happy of course #And he's obviously still angry with Gaster a lot but how might that present itself when Papyrus is Papyrus at Gaster hehe #Even just in that small jokey way of ''you tryin' to step on my turf?'' hehehe #Especially since the comparison wouldn't even come up if he had two functioning eyes hm?? Right Gaster???? Lol #Speaking of that scene and Sans' partial blindness tho ughhughuhg <3 <3 The fact that Sans stands with Gaster to his blind side #It's the vulnerability/distaste/confidence of it all! He's grown up so much it's all right there in how he holds himself #That he either trusts Gaster enough not to attack him - starting to believe him - or that he has enough faith in himself to protect himself #And only looking at him with his peripherals unless he looks directly at him hghhhgh I am Normal about shot composition I swear lol #Also I like how that last panel turned out lol - Sans just appears at the bottom of the steps like how's it going. care to gtfo thx

[dlanadhz]

It's hard to talk about the war in Israel.

It's hard because it seems that everyone I know who IS talking about it, is 300% on the side of Palestine and Hamas, and they're sharing articles that make Israel sound like a country of barbarians.

It's hard to talk about because I have a friend who lives in Israel, who's literal job is to study Jewish history and then teach it to others. And she's been updating me (and others on her Tumblr) about her experience during the war. She's been sharing articles and videos and first hand accounts, and it all sounds directly opposite to the propaganda I see everywhere else.

It's hard because it feels like everyone I know doesn't care that it's her job to know the history and the truth. They keep sharing the antisemitic articles and cheering for the downfall of any company that half-mentions support for Israel or doesn't outright support Palestine.

For some reason, people are looking at this war that doesn't effect 90% of them and seeing it in stark black and white. They're raging against a country that has never hurt them, in defense of known terrorists that have never done anything for them.

And it blows my mind that I can't even bring up the idea that I want my friend to be happy and healthy and safe and for her life to go back to some modicum of peace and stability in the country she loves, because too many people will accuse me of supporting genocide and colonization.

Honestly, wtf is happening. It's like watching Donald Trump win the election and wondering how so many people can suddenly be racist, close-minded bigots all over again. How has America (and maybe the world?) been convinced that Israel is nothing at all but an aggressor and Palestine and Hamas are nothing at all but innocent babies in need of defense?

To all the people who claim this IS a black and white issue - honestly fuck you. No war has ever been black and white, and you fucking know it. Your brain's just gone stupid over this war for some reason.

To the civilians in Palestine, you didn't deserve the war brought to your doorstep by the terrorists among you. I wish this war would end yesterday and aid can rush to you and help you heal. You didn't (and don't) deserve to have your friends and family caught in this crossfire.

To the civilians in Israel, you have never deserved the vitriol thrown at you. And you certainly don't deserve to hear the world calling for the eradication of your country and livelihoods, all while erasing the terrible deeds done against you in this war. I wish I could erase antisemitism from the minds of everyone in the world so that you could heal from generations of degradation and mistreatment. You didn't (and don't) deserve to have your friends and family caught in this crossfire.

To anyone calling for the eradication of either nation - fuck you and your bigoted hearts. We're supposed to be spreading love, not hatred. We're supposed to care about each other, not hope missiles wipe imaginary enemies off a map.

What the actual fuck.

#Israel #ceasefire #spread love #not war #you know the propaganda is one sided when all the suggested tags to add with 'israel' are pro palestine and not at all in favor of israel #I'm not tagging palestine because as I mentioned above I'm sure I'll just get a million angry messages from people who dont even live there #I stand with peace #I stand for the victims #If you come into my messages with hate I will report and block you

[ruporas]

post ep 11

#trigun stampede #trigun #meryl stryfe #nicholas d wolfwood #vash the stampede #i cant even elaborate on this episode bc ive spent all day Thinking about it yesterday #and it made me Miserable #i just want to see vash have some autonomy again... #he is a little bit more on the quieter end for stampede as less angry about things but i dont think he's more of a coward in stampede #even though he was transported into his memories and saw and heard those terrible things from the kids and wolfwood #he was able to gather himself and keep going #his resilience has always been the strongest and also saddest thing about him #so it killed me irreversibly when he lost the one person who he could always look back to reliably #the fact knives couldnt even alter anything in rem's dialogue within those memories just stands for how strong her place is in vash's memory #and potentially knives just knows that would be too ooc of her to make in any Universe if she had something horrible. #man. I TALKED ABOUT THIS IN LIKE ALL 3 PLATFORMS. I'm alright with Knives as a character but jesus #- i did it all for you - im so sad that vash had to hear something like that. im so so sad about it #anyway i hope meryl stays safe shes done so much #i love her so much <3 #ruporas art

[lakesparkles]

Hmmm I was unsure of what I should post here first, so I’ll start with some Huntlow drawings since I already posted TOH before.

Most of these are from last year, but I still like it! And yeah, ofc I had to do animal versions for them

#huntlow #the owl house #willow park #hunter the owl house #toh #do people like this ship here?? #because people were really angry when I posted these on Instagram #I'm even a little nervous

[spielzeugkaiser]

I love your art soooo much-it gives me life!! 🥰🥰🥰

I have a question about Milek and Jaskier! Milek says they fought before Jask went missing-what did they fight about? Did Milek say something he shouldn’t have? 👀😢 is there ANGST?

Also does Geralt know Mileks plush friend is called Roach? Because surely that’s a clue that Milek is his…(I love this universe so much)!!🥹❤️❤️❤️

[MASTERPOST] That was the last conversation they had before Milek stormed out - and when he came back, Jaskier was. gone. The thing is, Jaskier knows what Milek is interested in (and he is not even wrong about that, Milek has an interest in medicine, and helping people, and I think when they met he was Shanis biggest fan) and I think Jaskier is aware that some of the conflict does have its roots in Milek not wanting to leave him, even if they get really heated and ugly in their arguments. Milek shouldn't feel like he has to care for him, or have to protect him and at times I think Jaskier feels quite ashamed, which leads him to being way too unrelenting at times - especially if he thinks he's doing something to protect Milek.

#jaskier #the witcher #geraskier lovechild #artists on tumblr #omegaverse #I think if they argue Milek is saying stuff he shouldn't all the time #I think for Milek the part that makes him feel really bad is that he KNOWS that Jaskier would always choose having him again and again #because he KNOWS that he loves him more than anything else #but he still implied that he doesn't know - and he knows what he said was cruel #but he also !! is so angry #because Jaskier always treats him like he knows what's best for him and. let it be true - it still makes him FURIOUS #he isn't a little kid anymore #and he wants to HELP he loves his father and he knows that Jaskier gives and gives and gives especially when it comes to him #he doesn't need a fancy education in an academy where he'll be just the bastard kid again #he just needs a Pa who doesn't absolutely run himself to the ground #and I think he finally wants to meet Geralt too #also I'm trying to do a thing here which I think shows how secure their relationship truly is #because Geralt sees Milek as a quite sensible (if sometimes a bit hotheaded) young man - who is quite mature for his age #which he CAN be #but Geralt is also basically a stranger even if Milek knows he's his dad - and he tries to impress him naturally - ofc he wants to be liked #with Jaskier? who has his one true emotionally secure relationship with? #moody teenanger - but also allowing himself to be childish at times - crying shouting teasing - exploding sometimes #because he never ever had to question their relationship once #he can just let loose

[ride-a-dromedary]

Halsin would tell you to go touch grass but mean it 100% sincerely.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #Halsin #go touch some grass and maybe you'll calm down #and someone just reacting so negatively to that like well you don't need to be sassy #and halsin is like ??? i'm..i'm telling you to go outside and it'll make you feel better? #i keep imagining halsin sneaking out of the elfsong to go hide in the park because it's the closest he can get to feeling #even remotely comfortable in the city and you just find him on his back staring at the peeks of sky and he looks so much better #than he did when his shirt collar was choking him and the pavement beneath him felt like a death sentence #i feel like people really get on his case for being so upset in the city and criticizing it but like...the man is literally wilting there #he's suffocating - it's like...well...like putting a bear in a cage #and expecting him to perform for you #he will be angry and wounded and try to escape #and only when you've completely throttled him into submission - broken him completely - will he stop fighting you

[blood-orange-juice]

I just realised that Childe's random and seemingly pointless FL activation (the Golden House scene and the courtroom scene) is not rage, it's panic.

That one emotion that he demonstratively lacks.

I kept wondering why did he display cold type of anger in other cases but suddenly went all out in these two situations. That's why.

Types of stress response: fight, flight, freeze, fawn, foul legacy.

(technically it falls under fight but meh)

Also, uhm, he isn't actually hot-tempered then. Or reckless.

#or maybe not panic #but some kind of reaction to helplessness #this is all for CN voiceover #in EN he's very loudly angry when he's angry #childe #tartaglia #also he treats failing a mission as something equally bad to being dead/locked up #and I'm not even sure that in fontaine he feared being locked up by itself and not being stopped from getting to the whale #(which is sort of a mission too. just a personal one) #hmmm #I have headcanons now

[fangirltothefullest]

I wish everyone who decided miss piggy needed to be thin in the middle even though she is a round-faced pig and therefore is allowed to be round and a fashion icon and diva and fabulous actress all while chubby, a very go crawl in a hole and stay there.

#looking up references of her makes me SO angry #because they keep making her skinny in the middle even when she's got large legs??? and she doesn't have to be snatched??? #and i'm just #so tired #let her be fat please #i beg of you #i don't care if she didn't start out that way #she's an icon let her be fat!

[redwinterroses]

The implications of the Watchers literally being the viewers get really meta and strange really fast if you actually follow through to some of the logical conclusions and then put them in lore-speak.

For example: the fact is that the Hermits spend a long time, sometimes years, creating a world for the entertainment of faceless beings whose names are incomprehensible strings of letters, numbers, and random words. These faceless beings leave messages that range from exclamations of delight and approval to unhinged demands, judging and consuming the hermits' work as fast as they can produce it.

And then, at the end of a season, Xisuma and co. package up the world and gift it to the Watchers to entertain them until the hermits can travel to a new realm and begin their work anew.

When you take the traits of viewers and paint them over the lore of Watchers, you create a creature (species? monster? being?) that's far more fay and uncanny than pretty much any of the usual interpretations. I've said it before and I'll probably say it again: embrace the Watcher within you. Become the unsettling eldritch being you want to see in the world.

#it's late and I'm not even sure this makes sense #but i like unpredictable fay Watchers over evil boring ones so have some late night hcs #hermitcraft #the watchers #really tempted to tag this as Martyn's lore tag but it's more about hc so I'll just drop it out there and let it be #oh: this post brought to you by scar's and Ren's and possibly Cleo's paranoia about viewers getting angry #when mumbo asked if they'd blow up his base for money lol

[purplecelestial-buddy]

It's so funny to me that the fandom has come to see Hirano as a Sasamiya promoter of sorts because while he is, it took him some time to get accustomed to the idea of them together. And while he was never a hater Sasaki's actions towards Miyano certainly used to get on his nerves.

At first he was so worried and probably even felt a little guilty because (as mentioned in the following screenshot) because the only reason why Sasaki knows which class Miya is in, is thanks to him.

But like, that's not the face of a friend that's happy to play cupid and get their two acquaintances together. Not at all, that's the face of someone who puts his sempai-kouhai relationship with Miyano over his (pseudo) friendship with Sasaki.

Hirano from the first chapters would have jailed Sasaki if he were allowed to. (And he has his reasons, Sasaki has been something since the first chapters)

Anyway, the progression of events is really interesting.

He started, quite literally, shielding Miyano from Sasaki.

Then, he came to accept their relationship.

And at the end he really was rooting for them, to the point he ended up outright lying just so Miyano could meet Sasaki and they could talk it out and confess.

#I know the point of Sasaki to Miyano is watching how their relationship develops #but I think Hirano is really important as an spectator of their relationship #everyone thought the pair was and odd couple #him too #so watching him come to terms with their relationship and finally even rooting for them is super sweet #since it shows that he let go of his prejudice (mainly against Sasaki lol) #also I love the message he leaves Sasaki #he really did his everything to give them that last little push that they so needed #and he didn't have to!!! #like two pages before that he curses them both for having never exchanged number #and still he helps them out #idk I just love to ramble about him #he gets angry easily and he lacks patience but he always does his uttermost best to help his friends #even when he isn't particularly close to miya or sasaki #the (pseudo) in pseudofriendship comes from the fact that they are som weirdos that consider each other just classmates #but that's a talk for another day #got sasamiya brainworms again #does this count as a character analysis? (lol) #Hirano might not know of relationships and social dynamics but he really cares about everyone regardless of what those people are to him #both his kohais and his classmates are people he considers precious #and people for whom he would make sacrifices #I'm sorry I just love him very much #sasaki to miyano #if Hirano Taiga has no fans I'm dead #meaning that I'll defend him till my last breath

[uncanny-tranny]

I think one of the most surprising parts of transition, specifically going on testosterone, is just how... normal it felt to me. When I was watching other people go on testosterone and describe how they felt, I anticipated that I'd feel the huge emotions, the spark, I guess. But I didn't. If anything, I went from being a neurotic mess to being... normal. Almost painfully normal. It's like I've gotten a cloth and dusted off this thing I call my body.

I honestly think it's interesting how natural I feel on testosterone. I never really thought I could feel this normal, but I do. It's like I can stand in a crowd and not feel like eyes are watching me, like ants crawling on a log.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #HAVING FEELINGS #like i watched this guy talk about how... almost explosive it feels for him on testosterone... #...and he was talking about it like 'RAAAAAGH FUCK I'M SUDDENLY FILLED WITH THE URGE TO PUNCH DRYWALL' #'ANGRY...HUNGRY' and i think that's completely fine. but it was weird when i didn't experience that #instead of being like... i guess hormonal??? i just feel like i can take a deep breath for once #(though i do relate to when he was like 'I NEED TO EAT EVERYTHING IN THE HOUSE 🤬') #but yeah... i guess this is me just being fascinated at how the same exact hormone even at the same levels will feel and look so different #like to me that's magic. like the human body is the messiest result of pure magic to me #i guess to me it's so interesting that people have an intense experience on testosterone when i just do not #(and my levels are normal for my body/age range. it is painfully in the middle of normal in fact) #(though i am overdue for labs. i was JUST talking about labs with my dad too 💀)

[spoiledskullz]

No spoilers but this happened to me in real life playing the frontiers update

#I was literally so angry and about to cry and then Knuckles showed up and my emotions did an instant 180 I'm not even exaggerating #Knuckles is hard to play as but i couldn't get angry playing as him because I can never be angry at knuckles #sonic frontiers #knuckles the echidna #I'm sorry amy and tails you simply don't hold the same space in my head that Knuckles does #sorry for what i said about you when i was angry #this dlc has hands my god #But I love you knuckles and your silly little everything