#fucking hesitate

[deityofhearts]

a helpful diagram for what I’m talking about if I say lollipop, sucker or saf-t-pop, all of these fall under the sucker category tbh but like if we’re being more specific then lollipops are the flat swirl ones, saf-t-pops are a specific enough type of sucker where it makes more sense to refer to them by name and then everything else is a sucker. If you call these something different Do Not Be A Dick To Me. everyone’s experiences aren’t universal, some people use different names and words for the same things, etc etc, please just be nice to me <3

#deity dialogue #this is a fun silly post if this turns out like my other posts on my old blog I will start publicly dragging annoying bitches I won’t #fucking hesitate

[tofixtheshadows]

I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.

Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.

Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.

Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.

I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.

He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).

First, we get this:

Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.

They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.

It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.

We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.

What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?

He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.

In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.

Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!

...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.

Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.

And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.

I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.

And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.

Meals are the privilege of the living.

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious in Dungeon #Kabru #Kabru of Utaya #Laios Touden #Dungeon Meshi meta #you can have him in the tags too. as a treat. #Dungeon Meshi spoilers #this was directly inspired by livelaughlaios's post about Kabru self harming but I decided it got too long to make it a direct reply #this is a theory I've been working on for weeks because I kept noticing this while skimming for screencaps #I'm hesitant to trigger tag this because of the way certain subcultures on tumblr operate #but if anyone needs me to add a content warning please let me know #also I included image descriptions! I did my best #I think they even help illustrate my points but my god were they sad to write. Kabru is so fucking sad you guys #musings with Dea

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

imagine getting twenty four hours of a fraction of a taste of what marginalized bloggers on this fucking site have been told "doesn't break TOS" for the past 15 years and deciding to openly threaten to just nuke the entire website lmfao

#op #you know what makes people hesitant to fork money over to tumblr? #the fact that the leadership is so incredibly out of touch with the reality of this place #that his paper thin skin chafes at the mere thought of transparency and accountability. #you're a grown man worth hundreds of millions of dollars #stop pissing and shitting in your diaper about your feelings being hurt and do your fucking job

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID in alt text, transcripts for comics also found there!]

🎉🎇HAPPY NEW YEAR!🎇🎉

Sure was a year...This is just me taking the end of year opportunity to post the various DC comics doodles that have been gathering dust in my files! Disclaimer that I'm a heathen who mostly reads batfam comics (and also a lot of. Sidekick-y stuff? Like YJ98) and these are all for fun! (Image #3 is a direct adaptation of this text post I made)

#dc comics #dc #cassandra cain #damian wayne #roy harper #lian harper #cassie sandsmark #maya ducard #flatline dc #kathy branden #...im hesitant to tag steph bc i feel like everytime i tag her the post refuses to show in her tag #stephanie brown #anyway yeah uhhh recently bought the yj98 omnibus (IT'S FUCKING HUGE) so that's why cassie redesign #years and years ago i posted a draft of a cassie redesign that's like. similar to what i have but i vastly prefer this version #OH! #i forgot to tag stephcass :( #whoopsie #but yeah i did a lot of steph reading this year (STILL SO MUCH TO DO) and ouughh boy. she's had her claws in my brain ever since #damian and dick are there. nough said #<- I'm extremely mentally ill about them there's just still a lot for me to read. i have nightwing rebirth with them! and some early b&r 09 #also robin 2021 issue. 4? i wanna say? the one where dick gives damian his bday present. makes me cry like a pressure washer #also I'm so sorry if I've somehow managed to (in my extremely limited presentation of them) present roy and lian as ooc in anyway #I've only read arsenal 1998 bc it was a mini. hit or miss but it did imprint a love of roy and lian on me #I'm only semi following the current green arrow run rn mostly for those 2 #(also sidenote the guy who writes current GA is ALSO writing B&R AND SUPERMAN??? AND A G.I JOE COMIC????- #-girl say what you want about his work it's a miracle any of it is comprehensible at all w/ all those titles going on) #(he said he's not sure how long he'll stay on GA tho. I'm also low-key not sure how long he'll stay on B&R- #-though i imagine it'll be at least a years worth bc he said that's how much notes he has for plot? also idk if many other writers at dc- #-are interested in damian rn especially next to Bruce) #HOO this got away from me I'm outta tags. uhhhh see u guys in 2014! woo!

[mcroutfits]

MY drugstore david bowie.. served pussy like no other

#my chemical romance #mcr #mcr tumblr #my chemical fucking romance #gerard way #mcr gerard #mcr gerard way #gee way #mcr gee #my chemical gee #my chemical gerard #hesitant alien

[ninjautistic]

I don't remember this but HOLY FUCKING SHIIIIIITT LLOYD WAS CONFIRMED TO BE AT LEAST 9 YEARS OLD HERE AND HE WAS ABLE TO DO THAT??? JESUS FUCK

#This might be proof that lloyd is quite jacked #i mean lloyd literally cracked the entire floor split open under ONE fucking FIST #and in dragons rising lloyd literally blocked the empress' sword on her big mech with his tiny ass gold sword #and lloyd also literally lifted and threw kai across the ship in dragons rising too.. #and in the magazine comics (not entirely canon sadly) lloyd threw a big ass enormous fucking vengestone mech in his oni form with his HANDS #ANNNNDDD lloyd can even handle the power of the source dragon in dragons rising.. #ANNNNNDD the original ending for crystallised was gonna be about lloyd lost in his oni form and beating the overlords ass and rule ninjago.. #in which apparently the ninja save him from the power of FRIENDSHIP #lloyd literally fell on piles of glass and wasn't bothered by it #HE WAS 9 AND HE FELL ON PILES OF GLASS WITH NO HESITATION!?!?! #fucking OUCH #and yet wu says lloyd is “the wise one” fuck that shit he should become a GOD #lloyd literally risked to sacrifice his life to the three dragon cores in dragons rising like holy fucking shit I'd marry him #if lloyd was a villain I'd fucking root for him so hard I'd be on my knees they should make it happen PLEASE PLES PLEASEE #sorry i love lloyd hes my wife #ninjago #ninjago fandom #lloyd garmadon #lloyd montgomery garmadon #lloyd garmadon ninjago #ninjago lloyd #lloyd ninjago #ninjago lloyd garmadon

[deserthusbands]

obi-wan, sighing and pinching the bridge of his nose: in your opinion, dear, what's the height of stupidity?

cody, turning to anakin: how tall are you?

#commander cody #star wars the clone wars #obi wan kenobi #codywan #obi wan x cody #incorrect quotes #codywan incorrect quotes #when i tell you this man didn't even hesitate !! #anakin skywalker #sorry not sorry bud #anakin: D: #obi-wan: he's 6'2. #cody: 6'2. #obi-wan: thank you dear. #cody: yw ^^ #anakin: what the fuck man– #*bows*

[docockbrainrot]

i love villains. redeemable or irredeemable. don't care. putting them in my mouth.

#lets see who are my favorites #handsome jack #vaas montenegro #doc ock #hesitant to even say billy bc hes not really a villain in the same way but #yeah sure #billy hargrove can be apart of it #i have so much love for the fucked up little guys #special mention to #oswald cobblepot #my boy

[mintaikcorpse]

I'M NEVER LETTING YALL FORGET THIS

#bro is NERVOUS #i love this scene a lot bcuz Angel said “who would wanna spend their last days NOT fucking and fighting?” #and he spent his potential last days having a drink with Husk #you could tell he thought about it tho but he hesitated bcuz he doesn't want to rush things or make things akward #THEY'RE JUST <333 #I LOVE THEM #THEY EVEN HAD THE JACKPOT THING LIKE ANGEL FOUND THE JACKPOT #DUUSHERHUTHTHSUEUFNBDD #angel dust #hazbin hotel angel dust #angel dust hazbin hotel #huskerdust #husk #hazbin hotel husk #husk hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel

[moog-enthusiast]

you don’t get to choose if you’re gay or straight.

Sunny does. If sunny says so, then you are.

#omori #omori sunny #omori kel #omori suntan #obv caption is a joke!! #selectively mute sunny is probably my favorite sunny hc #selectively mute sunny #i like drawing the asl signs! hopefully i’m doing an okay job at it. #i am learning- trying to get better! #if i fuck ip the signs please don’t hesitate to let me know i don’t like being wrong!!

[hazbingirliexoxo]

*Reader, Angel, and Husk on a heist together*

Reader: How do you think Angel will distract them?

Husk: He’ll probably, like set off an alarm or throw a rock or something. That’s what I would do

Angel: *moaning loudly and sensually at a nearby distance*

Husk: ….

Reader: ….or he could do that

#husk you shouldn’t be surprised you know this man will NOT hesitate to put on a performance #reader is amused and honestly lowkey impressed #you know angel definitely made a bet with them to see how creative he could get #obviously he won😌 #my mans gotta collect that BAG💰💰💰 #pun intended #anyway I love them and this could lowkey be considered as huskerdust x reader?? #I’m gonna say it is cause fuck it why not #huskerdust x reader #hazbin hotel #hazbin angel dust #hazbin husk #hazbin hotel x reader #huskerdust #angel dust x reader #husk x reader #angel dust x husk #fuck I forgot to mention this idea came from an incorrect quote I found online but I just added my own little ✨twist✨ to it #hazbin alastor #hazbin lucifer #hazbin vaggie #hazbin charlie #nifty hazbin hotel #hazbin sir pentious #hazbin valentino #hazbin vox

[gerardsbl00d]

look at them are you kidding me? so cutie patootie coded

#gerard way #gee way #my chemical romance #mcr #my chemical fucking romance #my chem #hesitant alien #ocsa

[omtai]

we brought too many guitars. we can’t get rid of the guitars, so………

#the jersey or bust video has been looping in my mind for days #2 in 3 tumblrinas would keep driving if they saw her at the side of the road 😢😢😢 SAD! #anyways. adventure in paint pens #omtai art #gerard way #hesitant alien #also i fucked up the face on the bindle one so. ignore the sticky note

[pinockv]

#okay #i have never seen this before #mcr #my chemical romance #gerard way #alternative rock #music #pop punk #emo #hesitant alien #rock #gerard mcr #my chemical gerard #my chem romance #gway #my chem gee #mcr gee #gee way #gee <3 #my chemical fucking romance #chemical romance #gerard way icons #mcr gerard #danger days

[cemeterything]

tbh my whole angel obsession is a lie because i'm a dragon lover at heart. if you forced me to choose it wouldn't be difficult.

#🐉 #dont get me wrong i fucking love angels but at the end of the day id pick a big warm scaly winged beast who is my friend without hesitation

[demigods-posts]

something that i would absolutely love for the show to do is to have percy and annabeth have another private moment to themselves. annabeth explaining the feud between poseidon and athena, and how it might mean that she and percy were destined to never be friends. only for percy to reassure her that their parents actions don't define them. that whatever happens in the future, he'll fight next to her. and annabeth assumes its because he needs someone who won't hesitate to make a tough decision, like he stated back at camp when he was picking people for the quest. only for him to correct her and say that it's because he considers her a friend.

#percy: whatever happens. i'll fight next to you. #annabeth: why? because you need someone who won't hesitate to push you down a flight of stairs? #percy: because you're my friend wise girl #*insert annabeth trying not to lose her cool in front if her new friend* #*percy definately noticing this about her and feeling very proud that he made her happy* #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo text post #pjo #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #percabeth headcanon #percabeth friendship #percabeth fluff #these two become the best of fucking friends for the next four years #probably pjo tv spoilers too depending on how things go #pjo tv predictions #pjo tv concept