#he doesn't really care about the motives of the cult he just doesn't want to think about the future anymore

[keii]

Mint Eye Yoosung making a reappearance. Despite the red flags in his head, he keeps coming back to MC's quarters since Saeran is usually busy to check up on her.

#um that's just water-- i swear #yoosung joins mint eye bc he trusts V LESS than Rika #Bc to him at least Rika is clear w her intentions despite how horrible they are than V is w his lies #he doesn't really care about the motives of the cult he just doesn't want to think about the future anymore #instead he wants to live for his own selfish intentions along w capturing V #messing w MC is just an added bonus to him joining mint eye #he thinks mc is stupid and easy but v entertaining #he asks her how much does she hate her life to willingly come w strangers to this strange isolated building #yoosung still portrays his good boy persona when he's out and about in order to get ppl into the cult #Saeran was the one who targeted MC first but Yoosung was the one who convinced her to join #i don't have hcs until i start typing in the tags LOL i could go on and on AHAHA #killamonart #art #fanart #mystic messenger #mysme #yoosung #yoosung kim #artists on tumblr

[divorcemotif]

one of the most interesting facets of martins character imo is that for how much his identity is centred around caring for & about other ppl, he's actually remarkably impatient, quick to frustration, and dismissive when he doesn't understand them. theres definitely a thing where martin believes he knows better than the people around him when he really just wants things to be simpler: he's ready to dig his heels in and dismiss other ppl/ideas as irrational when he's unwilling to actually engage with them or challenge his own worldview. he's sometimes right in a broad sense about jons actions being bad for him--in season 4, like, yeah, impulsively jumping on a boat to norway to antagonize an evil cult is pretty dangerous and maybe jon & basira should have thought it through a bit more beforehand. but hes unable to connect the dots himself abt why jon might do that; he's immediately too exasperated with the situation to really engage with it past insistence on the righteousness of his own perspective. which is kind of a dangerous tendency in combination with how broadly unwilling he is to examine his own motivations either: he doesnt think he's important enough for his actions to really matter, but they do, and his motivations are more complicated than wanting everyone to be ok--more than hes willing to admit to himself. season 4 is so interesting for how ready he is to dismiss challenges to his perception of jon: jon would only have fed on jess tyrell if he was possessed, jon would never really want to escape the institute with him. in 158 when he calls jon his reason it's kind of double-edged: how much is it that he would do anything to protect jon, and how much is protecting jon his justification for continuing to indulge his passive suicidality via self-isolation? if he wants jon at a safe distance where he can sacrifice himself for him without having to actually face him, then certainly knowing better than jon means he never has to engage with what jon like. actually wants or is doing

#martin's not big on change #a kind of control. etc #tma #the magnus archives #martin blackwood #op

[yaraneechan]

Lemme talk about Serizawa and Reigen's slow burn relationship actually, because there's something cool about how they met each other at the right time when it comes to their character arcs and the way they grew as characters fit together (1.8k words)

So from the very beginning, we see Reigen's main character flaws in telling Mob to come to work on short notice, ignoring Mob asking him to stop.

And when Mob tells him that he's worried he's wasting his youth, Reigen encourages him to stick with going home club, says Mob doesn't need to have a life outside of work cause just learning how to use his powers from Reigen is enough. Because If Mob has no other commitments, then he has more time for his job at spirits and such. for Reigen, it's half about the money half about Reigen wanting company

he's not intentionally malicious, but he's isolating Mob and is in the way of his growth.

Mob doesn't go by his advice and joins a club anyway.

other times Reigen does have a positive influence on Mob's growth when gives good advice otherwise and takes responsibility. (See after lol cult arc, after teru fight, end of 7th div arc)

In urban legends arc, spirits and such starts getting more work because they got more famous. Reigen ends up getting Mob to stay overtime till it's night and didn't even have time to get him soba. the arc ends with him realizing he fucked up. Mob is growing up and is trying to understand himself, and he's losing his sense of self in how he feels distant from both spirits and humans, they time they spend hanging out is much more important than jobs, then they do go get soba.

then Mogami arc happens: 1) Mob experiences being all alone and says he will appreciate the people in his life more. 2) back in lol cult he refused to acknowledge humans can be bad and that it wasn't Tsubomi who was mean but it must've been an evil spirit. in Mogami arc he accepted that Minori was really bad but people can change.

So in separation arc, 1) when Mob again tells Reigen not to call him on short notice (again) cause he was hanging out with friends, Reigen felt threatened. he's losing his monopoly on Mob. He tells him that they must be using him (he's projecting) and that he should should cut contact with them for it (this comes back to bite him)

2) Mob recognizes Reigen has said something bad and needs to change. the theme of recognizing someone can say something terrible and can still change carries over from lol cult arc to Mogami arc to separation arc and he stops coming to spirits and such.

at the press conference, Reigen realizes he was holding Mob back from his growth/ experiencing the world, and realizes that he should acknowledge that Mob has grown instead of being in his way.

Afterwards, Reigen did change and have a character development. he even lies about having free time so he can help out Mob practicing for the marathon (an anime added detail shows his calendar mostly booked)

now lets talk about Serizawa

Serizawa works for Touichirou, and while Touichirou is helping him with using his powers and gives motivating advice that helps him be more confident, he's still isolating him, preventing him from experiencing the outside world so he can stay reliant on him. The umbrella both helps him go outside but is also an extension of his room. He just wants Serizawa's loyalty and he wants to use him as spare battery. He tells him he needs to not hold back on using powers and that he can be stronger by being arrogant and self centered like him (this will come back to bite him)

when Serizawa protects Reigen, he has grown within Touichirou's advice and ideals, so Serizawa tries to tell Touichirou that he's grown and gotten more couragous thanks to Touichirou's support, that he did it in good faith and that they all are on the same side. but Touichirou didn't actually care about Serizawa, and because Serizawa gaining courage/ Serizawa growing means Touichirou can't unconditionally use him anymore, Touichirou considered Serizawa's action a betrayal.

at the end of wd arc, Touichirou had realized he was in the wrong. and to cleanly break off their relationship, he tells Serizawa that he only saw him as a tool, so he shouldn't feel indebted to him for anything.

Touichirou's last advice for him, an advice he intentionally didn't give him when he was using him, is to not to let others take advantage of him.

So after wd arc, Serizawa starts working for Reigen at spirits and such, now the manga goes right ahead to Serizawa's first job at the office, Reigen calls out Serizawa for not telling him there's a curse and Serizawa is still confused what he's supposed to be doing and the dynamic and etiquette at the office. But the anime has the ova events happen before this

In the onsen ova, Serizawa has done his research on how to be a good employee and even has notes in his sleeve. one of the things he learnt from it is that he's just supposed to follow boss's orders (which honestly I'd say he should've already figured out why not to do that, but the ova is more or less filler (aka has character development constraints). but anyway this caused the miscommunication between him and Reigen about the whole spirit trapped him in a never ending train thing. Reigen explains that he appreciates and even needs for Serizawa to have his own thoughts and to voice them.

this genuine and equal relationship-literally same eye level- contrasts with Touichirou and Serizawa's relationship and is similar to Reigen and Mob's relationship.

later, Mob has to fill out a future prospects form. at first Reigen tells him not to worry as he can just keep working at spirits and such.

Reigen had grown because of his separation arc experience. when Serizawa and Mob talk about their worries about their future, Reigen assures Mob that he doesn't have to keep working for him. And Serizawa was there for this conversation.

soon after, Serizawa tells Reigen he will start taking night classes so that he doesn't have to rely on Reigen all the time. He has the courage to do so after dealing with the client who worried he wasted his life and after seeing Reigen support Mob's choice even if he leaves spirits and such.

he is also taking Touichirou's advice, because if he has different things going for him it would be harder for him to get taken advantage of. he's not putting all his eggs in one basket, if he's going to keep working for spirits and such, it'll be because he wants to and not because he's trapped there as he has no qualifications for anywhere else.

and Reigen isn't offended or threatened by this. he recognizes that Serizawa is improving himself, is supportive, and adjusts the work schedule even though its inconvenient. he doesn't brush him off or tells him that he already has a job, the same way he used to brush off Mob thinking about joining a club or wanting to hang out with friends.

When Serizawa and mob talk about their lives....Reigen feels lonely, but he's not going to lean into old habits to pressure or guilt them into spending more time at spirits and such just because he's lonely. but instead, he uses an I statement, acknowledging that he feels bored instead of telling them to spend more time in the office, dissmissing their lives and trying to keep them from growing so that they stay close to him. My guy went to therapy!

he does regret it immediately because Mob tells him he's getting popular and Reigen is like "okay that's cool thanks for telling me you can leave now no I'm not jealous or anything" but baby steps lol

broccoli arc happens, and we Reigen relapses, in the anime, it happens with similar framing as separation arc.

and like Reigen putting Mob down is separation arc saying he's just being taken advantage of and doesn't have friends, here Reigen is putting Mob down by pointing out that psycho helmet is doing something Mob can't do, leading people- a jab at him thinking he's getting popular.

Reigen tells Mob he's not going with him to the divine tree, expecting Mob won't go where he doesn't, assuming that he can hold Mob back.

Because broccoli arc is about how someone can get carried away and about empty relationship through brainwashing/idolization/worship and inability to be honest with someone and call them out on them getting carried away.

on that note there's Reigen wanted to be special but getting carried away in isolating mob and not accepting that Mob has his own life, Touichirou saw himself as main character and put down Serizawa (shoutout to Dimple calling Serizawa's dependency on Touichirou brainwashing), and finally Dimple controlling everyone to believe in him as a god.

though the theme applies to all of them the story focuses on Dimple and Mob in this arc and how you can't have a genuine relationship with the idolization power dynamic and that's lonely.

Mob can and had already called Reigen out back in separation arc. Serizawa was less direct about it but he stood up to Touichirou too when he had protected Reigen.

It's interesting how we don't see Serizawa in broccoli arc....

after that in alien arc, Reigen asks Serizawa to go out together for drinks. Serizawa refuses saying he has plans with friends.

I know this scene is famous as a serirei rejection BUT It's important that Serizawa can say no without worrying about Reigen's reaction. the point is that Reigen doesn't brush off Serizawa's choice to go out with friends. because that was a character flaw of his that was called out when he had brushed off Mob's friends in separation arc. It's a test and Reigen passed.

luckily for Reigen he does end up not spending new years alone cause Mob and his friends needed a ride, funny how that worked out.

in confession arc, after gave advice and Serizawa gave love advice to Mob (noting that Serizawa told him than his feelings are true if they'rethe same no matter what anyone tells him, and Reigen's advice is to be honest to her), Reigen asks Serizawa about relationships and Serizawa says he'd never been interested in anyone. Reigen tells Serizawa that he hopes to be a partner in a relationship where one doesn't distort the other.

IT'S ABOUT THEM. this whole time they've been subtly establishing their boundaries and figuring out how not to fall into their past mistakes and they can be partners in a healthy relationship where they don't distort each other.

Finally here's a translation note about Serizawa saying he drifted towards this job in the REIGEN manga

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #serirei #mp100 meta #mp100 analysis #mine #kageyama shigeo #suzuki touichirou #reached image limit

[thosewildcharms]

Ugh the comparisons are so annoying. You’ll still find people insisting Shane was just ahead of Rick in terms of adapting to a brutal world. When it’s clear the ZA broke Shane, he never really measured his choices and didn’t wanted to help anyone at all. He was a coward and acted first as a coping mechanism not because he was an efficient leader.

say that anon! it's honestly not only annoying but a little troubling to me when people compare rick to shane or worse, n*gan because what do you mean shane was right and rick needed to be more like him? what do you mean if we watched the show from negan's pov we'd be on his side and see rick as the villain? no the fuck he wasn't and no the fuck i would not!

the show establishes very early that yes, violence is necessary. and since that's the case, to differentiate between the rick/the people we're supposed to love and the actual villains we have to look at their motivation. rick has been incredibly violent, but his motivation is always to protect, not only his immediately family, but anyone who becomes part of his community. the group flocked to rick instead of shane from the very beginning because he cared about everybody's welfare, unlike shane whose motivations were ultimately selfish. i always think about his last scene with rick, how shane says he's better for lori and carl, like he wants to possess what is rick's - hence why he sexually assaults lori in the CDC. he didn't love her, he felt he was owed her. the way shane so quickly and easily abandoned all sense of right and wrong and adjusted to brutality was a red flag, not something to emulate. to reiterate the parallel they drew between shane and beale in the towl finale, shane was willing to sacrifice other people (his own people!) for his own survival. we should see this as a bad thing. by contrast we know, empirically, that rick would sooner sacrifice himself than anyone he considered himself responsible for (see: the bridge). the argument that rick needed to learn to be more like shane just doesn't track for me: we saw in nebraska when he killed those two men in the bar without blinking that he was perfectly capable of doing what needed to be done. we saw it when he was the one to step up and kill sophia when she came out of the barn while shane just looked at his feet. if anything, killing shane taught rick just how far rick was willing to go. as he said in his dream sequence in 9x05, it had to be him. he had to stay alive to keep protecting the people he loved no matter what, even if it meant killing his best friend. that's his motivation.

as for n*egan. well. i can't believe in the year 2024 people are still not understanding that rick fucking grimes would never have subordinates, let alone force them to refer to themselves by using his own name. he'd never kill a child to prove a point and force submission, and would never, ever force women to become his wives and have sex with him whenever he wants via coercion because rick grimes would never sexually assault someone. do you honestly think daryl, glenn, maggie, carol, hershel, anyone in team family would have stayed with rick if he was capable of any of that? do you think michonne would have let him within fifty feet of her, let alone put an entire baby in her if that was the type of person he was? the same michonne who arguably has the best instincts of anyone on the show? who sniffed out the governer's bullshit immediately? no. when shown an alternate reality where she became a savior instead of part of team family, michonne called it hell. she only feels safe when she's with rick.

n*gan's whole thing reeks of egotism and a need for power - seeing his people as cogs in a machine meant to be put to work and terrorized and abused only to be told it's all for their own benefit. the saviors are a cult, whereas rick genuinely sees and treats his people as his family. rick's people not only love him, they're not afraid of him. they know that when he does go too far they are safe to tell him so, and that he will listen (even if it takes him a minute). rick admits he deserved it when michonne knocked him out at alexandria, and being a farmer at the prison was basically the apocalyptic equivalent of wearing the grippy socks and he did it without complaint. he lets himself be guided. as hershel said, he gets to come back, and he always does, because for rick ego and power have nothing to do with why he does the things he does. he doesn't enjoy it - it traumatizes him and he has to recover from it. this is not a person on a power trip who needs to be eliminated, but a person who is respected and as a result cared for because he does what needs to be done - things other people might not be capable of doing - but for the right reasons.

all of this is why the towl finale had to happen that way btw. not just because it was set up from the very first episode from a writing/narrative standpoint (and i'll let the much more qualified @starfruit-green speak on the socio-political aspects) but because there's no way rick and michonne grimes would ever hear the words coming out of beale's mouth and not immediately lunge. that finale painstakingly spelled out, slowly while using small words so people could understand, that rick and michonne's sword, their violence, is the necessary kind that protects, that eliminates the real threat. beale, shane, n*gan? they are the threat.

anyway. thank you to @starfruit-green and @redding for the encouragement <3

#answered #like are people okay? genuinely? #also didn't n*gan have a backstory ep and it just made him worse lmao like #idk man i just don't get it #richonne #the ones who live

[icarus-star]

nsfw alphabet // kappa

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

he's so much sweeter than you'd think. he definitely gets super messy, so he'd wipe away all of the cum, spit and blood. maybe kiss you (take you in the shower for another round).

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

fem!reader: he loves your waist. he likes to wrap his arms around you in public, or around other cult members. he likes to squeeze you during sex too. masc!reader: your chest. he absolutely loves to tease your nipples. let it be with his mouth or fingers, he doesn't care. he loves to make you squirm. gn!reader: your neck is his favorite. he loves biting, sucking and kissing it. he'll leave marks all over it just for everyone else to see.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

he absolutely loves to paint your body with his cum. he'll cum everywhere on you. your face, your thighs, your belly. literally anywhere he can. he does love cumming inside of you too, of course.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

he has no secrets. he wants to do something certain during sex? he's barely even gonna talk to you about it, he's just gonna do it.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

MAD experience, man. he's so so good. he's had sex with nearly everyone in his cult, probably a bunch of strangers etc. just know, he's gonna make you feel real good.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

doggy. he loves to pull your hair and wrap his hand around your throat from behind. if i'm being honest, he likes any position. cowgirl, 69, missionary, face off, reverse cowgirl. he'll fuck you in any position possible.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

maybe. he's not necessarily playful or anything, just super sadistic. like if you had cum so many times to the point that you were crying, he'd laugh at you (then wipe your tears away, maybe kiss your neck and keep fuckin' you).

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

!!HAPPY TRAIL!! he definitely doesn't shave often, maybe he trims it every once in awhile, but he definitely has plenty of hair down there. and as mentioned, that man has a glorious happy trail. and he KNOWS you like it. i don't know how clean he is though...

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

not really. he's like a wild animal in bed, but if he does really really care about you, and you maybe had a really bad day, he would be a little more slow and gentle.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

no. he never really does. if he's horny, there's gonna be SOMEONE around that he can fuck. you're always his first thought of course, but if your not around and you wont be for awhile, he's probably gonna get down with someone else in his cult. he's super casual about sex with other people.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

ohh boy. i'm not even gonna go into all of them, just take a list; dacryphilia, somnophilia, biting, blood play, knife play, spit play, hair pulling, spanking/slapping, wax play, anal, voyeurism, bondage. pretty much all of them are both giving and receiving.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

anywhere. he's the nastiest, most shameless man ever. he'd fuck you in front of a group of people, and he probably will sometime throughout your relationship.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

he loves when you sit on his lap. especially if you wiggle your butt against his dick. but honestly, he'd fuck you whenever. he'd just shove his dick down your throat until it's hard.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

pretty much nothing. he's down for nearly anything and everything. he'd probably only say no to stuff like scat/watersports.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

he absolutely loves when you give him head. he pushes your head all the way down to make you gag and slobber all over his cock. he likes it messy. fem!reader: this man could make you cum in under a minute. his tongue is so focused on your clit, and his fingers are buried so deep inside of your cunt. he keep eating you out until he makes you squirt, even if you never have before. he doesn't care how long it takes. masc!reader: oh he makes your dick feel so good. he deep throats you like an absolute pro. like, he knows what he's doing. he bobs his head up and down, barely even gagging when your tip hits the back of his throat. and he most definitely massages your balls. he loves to swallow up all of your cum.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

he's like a wild beast. he fucks you so fast and hard that every thought in your brain is knocked straight out of your head. i mean, he completely ravages you.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

sure, he's always down. of course, after you both cum he's just gonna keep fucking you. so it's never really a quickie with him.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

literally any risk you can think of, he would take.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

he can last SO long. too long. maybe.. 5 rounds. too too much.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

i'm kind of in the middle on this one, but i'm gonna say no. he thinks he's better than any dildo, vibrator, cockring, nipples clamps etc. he wants to make you cum. but he definitely has ropes and ribbons of sorts. also handcuffs!!

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

biggest tease ever. he'll let you cum one time, and then edge you for hours and hours. he also likes edging himself. but thats not the point.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

nasty dirty groans and grunts. you guys know the sound he made when he was cutting off that guys arm? yeah, that. that's how he sound.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

fuck his ass. it's one of the few things that'll actually get him to submit. at first he's a bit of a power bottom, but after a little bit he'll turn into pure putty. and fuck him with the biggest dildo you can find (if you're pegging him).

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

above average girth, 8' inches, dark red tip. easy, next question.

he'll fuck you wherever and whenever, he's also horny honestly. 9/10

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

i don't think he's really one to fall asleep after sex.

#i ❤ rory culkin #rory culkin #rory culkin x reader #rory culkin smut #rory culkin kappa #kappa black mirror #kappa smut #rory culkin black mirror

[makingfanfictionstosleep]

My First But Not My Last.

Pairing : Gojo x Femreader, Geto x Femreader

Setting : Started from Pre-Cult Suguru Geto // Modified that Kenjaku will not totally take over Geto's subconscious later on // Girl bff Shoko, Mei Mei & Utahime, Strong sorcerer reader // Death, Murder Spree, Romance, Lemons.

Rating : Mature || m i n o r s d o n o t i n t e r a c t

Part 2 : Why?

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How did it turn out this way?

You sat on your couch..

On yours & his couch..

Where you would talk about random stuff...

Where you would sit lazily with a book on one hand, while the other mssages his head on your lap...

Where you would argue about something petty which xh would turn into a passionate make out session...

Where he would sit down surfing tv channels while you sit comfortably on his lap, his other hand caressing your thighs...

Where you would find him asleep while waiting for you on days when you did missions apart...

Yours & Suguru's.

Now, you don't know what you did wrong & when did it all fall apart.

You were there as much as Satoru was, as he is an unofficial resident in your place.

You were beside him, always.

How could you have missed it?

You knew his smiles were fake.

His cheerful attitude was a mask.

You knew it, but you trusted his words every time you asked.

"Baby, you worry too much."

"I'm fine, really."

"I love that you care about me, but I'm just tired. That's all. I promise, baby."

Because you wanted to believe that he truly was fine.

Even if your gut tells you that something was wrong.

If only you knew that night would be the last time time you'd hug him, see him, kiss him, make love to him...

If only you knew, then you would never have let him go.

"Come on baby," he rasped against your ear, "I want to hear you.," while he pumped his fingers inside you, rubbing the spot that made your eyes roll at the back of your skull, whimpering as he continuously fuck you with his long, calloused fingers, making you cum in seconds.

You breathed heavily, legs still shaking as he went down on you, hands spreading your legs in front of him, his tongue tracing your wet entrance.

Only then did you undertand why he took his time. It was passionate, it was raw. He traced every part of your body, marked every inch of your body - like memorizing it.

Because it was the last time he would make love to you.

"Mmmm, Suguru," you moaned as you bounced on his huge shaft, your ass tingling from being slapped by his big hands, "Oh fuuuuck," you held on to his shoulders for your dear life as he gripped your ass & thrusted into you mercilessly.

"Like that, baby?"

"Mhmmm," you half moaned, half nodded as he hit your sensitjve spot over & over with his poweful thrusts, "Oh Suguru, yes please please please baby."

You came on his member as he kept his pace using your juices as a lubricant. He bit your shoulder as you dug your nails into his back hissing at the pain & pleasure.

He flipped you on all fours, pushing your head down the bed as he slammed himself into you, making you cry his name. He slapped your ass over & over but you couldn't care less because it feels so good.

If only you knew.

If only you pressed for more... For him to spill it out because you can feel that something is wrong & that he doesn't have to hide from you... That you love him very much that you wanted to carry whatever burdens him together.

Satoru knew how you feel because he is as guilty & puzzled as you are.

You woke up alone in that big bed.

Drawers empty.

His number unattended.

No leads.

No residuals.

Nothing.

"Suguru Geto murdered his entire family along with many other non-sorcerers."

Only then you heard the news from Yaga-sensei...

You couldn't believe it.

Because he's your Suguru.

Your gentle giant.

"... Sentenced to death."

Your safe haven.

Your rock.

Shoko tried to call you, but Suguru stopped her because he said he might be swayed from his motive, from the path that he chose to take.

She said that he knew that you would do everything to stop him, to change his mind & that you would win. But that will make him miserable.

That will make him full of regrets

Full of 'what ifs'.

You loved him

You still do.

But maybe it was not enough for him.

And that broke your heart into pieces.

Because Suguru Geto was your first.

And you always thought he would be your last.

A/N : Typed on my phone. Gradually proofreading typos. Please bear with me.

#geto suguru #suguru geto smut #jjk suguru #getou suguru x reader #suguru geto x y/n #suguru geto x afab #suguru geto x femreader #suguru geto x you #jjk geto #suguru geto x reader #geto smut #geto x reader #jujutsu geto #gojo satoru #gojo x you #gojo x reader #gojo x y/n #gojo satoru smut #gojo smut #jjk gojo #jujutsu gojo #jjk smut #jjk

[asingleshampdition]

Sympathy for Jin Shirato

In all honesty, I actually feel just as, if not worse for Jin, than I do Chidori; especially in Reload, despite Chidori being the most fleshed out of the Strega three. This character analysis will not include developments from Shadow Cry, as I'm not aware of most of its contents enough to include it. (P.S. There are no visuals because for some reason, Tumblr doesn't want to save with them.) I think the motivations of the three Strega members are very important. All of them came from the same background, as child experiments; and thus, we can draw fair conclusions from them.

Takaya wants to get back at the world for hurting him. He's a man who is very weak-willed, and wishes for death, as long as it means others come along with him. He's adopted this view in which his only purpose in life is to bring everyone down with him: as he's been granted the power to do such (in the form of Hypnos), he's under the impression that his life is meaningless otherwise. This is why he's so unwilling to give up the Dark Hour to SEES; he's unwilling to start over, because in his mind, he's built up meaning for himself. Takaya doesn't really care for anyone; everyone he comes across, to him, is either an asset he can use to achieve his goal (Jin and Chidori), or an obstacle (SEES). As much as I'd like to believe Takaya genuinely did care for Jin and Chidori, I can't see it. At the end of the game, Takaya becomes a cult leader; Strega had always had parallels to such, and cult leaders, like Takaya, don't typically care about their followers. Rather, they see them as tools, to get their way. From my point of view, Takaya is an irredeemable piece of garbage, in the games, and cannot compare to Jin or Chidori in terms of sympathizing potential. As previously stated, I'm not accounting for Shadow Cry in this post, so I don't really know how the pathetic wet cat man is portrayed there. Chidori's motivation is that she, quite literally, has no motivation. She finds no purpose in life, and therefore, doesn't really care what happens either way. In her eyes, dying just means she'll never wake up again, and the end of the Dark Hour? "Cool, more days to live until I inevitably die," is probably what she would've made of it. Either that, or, "oh no, Medea!" Chidori's motivations are so radically different than both Takaya and Jin's motivations, and I believe this is why she was able to break away from such a cynical, nihilistic line of thought, much more easily than the other two. The only reason she followed, and was loyal, to Strega, was because Jin and Takaya were similar to her. Other than that, she held no regard for them, and did not consider them friends. It did not matter, to her, who she followed. If Takaya had been a better guy, maybe with hopes of reform, she probably would've turned out better as well. The only person she really cared about, until Junpei, was herself; as selfish as that sounds. She considers Medea her only true friend, as a representation of how she isolates herself, in order to not be afraid of death. So, where does that leave Jin? I believe Jin, unlike Takaya and Chidori, possesses a trait that neither of the other two have: genuine care for the few people close to him. The reason Jin doesn't want the Dark Hour to disappear is very similar to Takaya's; however, as shown in Reload, this isn't really the case. We have to remember that Takaya, essentially being a cult leader, even before he starts such, is incredibly manipulative and charismatic. Think of Jin as a young, impressionable dude, who is at an incredibly low point in his life; someone who is emotionally vulnerable, someone who can be targeted. The perfect candidate for a potential cult member. Then comes along Takaya: someone who is kind to him. Someone who treats him with dignity, with respect; someone who is there for him when he needs it most. Someone who 'saves' him. Kind of like Chidori, I believe Jin could've fallen for anyone; it didn't have to be for Takaya, it just had to be someone who was kind to him during the darkest time of his life. Unfortunately for him, Takaya does not truly care for him, unlike the vice versa, and whatever kindness Jin experienced from Takaya may or may not have been an act of manipulation. Kind of like how cults usually target young, impressionable, emotionally vulnerable individuals. Jin was manipulated into siding with Takaya; and kind of like a cult member and a cult leader, the member would align with the leader's ideals. Therefore, I do not believe Jin's true reason for standing against the Dark Hour's absence is the same as Takaya's.

This is not to say Jin doesn't have a 'real' reason; unlike Chidori, I believe he does. His statements on 10/31, being: "If the Dark Hour disappears, we might forget everything that happened, won't we? / I'd forget you and Chidori, the things we did together, our time at the facility... All of it." I find this line an incredibly simple way of painting Jin in a sympathetic way; and yet, it's incredibly tactful. Jin values the time he's spent with Takaya and Chidori; he values them. To him, they're like family. They are what SEES is to Makoto/the protagonist: his friends, the only friends he's ever had, and he'd rather die than forget about them. The only problem is that both Takaya and Chidori hold little to no regard for him. I'm somewhat sure he knows this, and yet, he still chooses to view them in such a way; even after Chidori pays virtually no mind to him as a person, and when Takaya separates from him in the final stretch of Tartarus, knowing that Jin would probably die.

This conclusion does raise some questions, though; when Chidori sacrificed herself for Junpei, why didn't Jin say anything? Rather, why didn't he try and stop her? After all, he's mostly silent, and Takaya does most of the talking during the sequence. Strega's philosophy on death is to not fear it, as it is inevitable. Perhaps this is also why Jin does not show sadness when Chidori dies? To Jin, as well as Takaya and Chidori, they've accepted that they will all die someday, because of the suppressants, as well as their Personas. Jin doesn't view Chidori's death as sad, not because he doesn't care for her, but because Strega has already established that death is inevitable for people like them. Another potential reason for Jin supposedly not caring for Chidori's death is the presence of Takaya. As a cult member is to a cult leader, Jin is dependent on Takaya. Since Takaya only views Chidori as a pawn, perhaps Jin would take on Takaya's view on the matter; to Jin, Takaya is wiser than anyone else. I really can't think of any other reasons as to why Jin wouldn't show much emotion during Chidori's death, other than either one: Jin specifically referring to Takaya, and only adding Chidori in as an afterthought, in his quote, or two: bad writing. The first one I doubt, as I feel like Jin would be one of the last people to tell a half-truth (to Takaya, of all people, to boot); especially since his last name is Shirato (white door), referring to how he can't keep his fatass mouth shut when talking about important information with SEES. I don't really think the writers would make such an oversight; adding Jin's sympathetic statement, and then forgetting to make him sympathetic otherwise. Not saying it's not possible; it definitely was, considering the quality of the villains' writing in the older versions of Persona 3. I just find it unlikely. This all just goes to show that Jin could've ended up just like the SEES members, if not to a greater extent than Chidori. He loved the ones he was close to, and he believed in bonds, to some extent. Of course, maybe not in the way SEES does, but the point is that he did; and bonds are the entire premise of the Persona series. Takaya never believed in bonds at all, throughout the entire game; he's too focused on himself, so he's out of the question. Chidori doesn't believe in bonds until Junpei shows up, even with Jin and Takaya in the picture. Jin is the only Strega member who would go as far to die for his found family, the only member who loved his companions from the start.

The more I think about it, the less I really blame Jin for who he became. Like I've mentioned before, you have to think of Jin as a cult member. A cult member who was 'indoctrinated' by Takaya, because he was naive, impressionable, and a lost soul; looking for someone to love him, respect him, stay by his side, and 'save' him. Would you fault a lost soul, someone who is incredibly emotionally vulnerable, as well as naive, for being manipulated into a cult? Sure, you could view Jin as 'stupid' for falling for Takaya, but that's the thing: people who become cult members aren't always stupid. They could be the brightest, most mature person you know; and that's not the point. Cults target people who are lonely; who want love. No matter how bright, mature, talented, well-read you are; at the end of the day, you are not immune to manipulation, if the manipulators pull the right strings. I think that's what's most scary about Jin: his story revolves around how someone so bright, so talented, someone who was one the right track, who more or less had the right mindset about relationships, was thrown off course, because he was also lonely, naive, and lost. It's very similar to many people who join cults; his character, even in Reload, can be written off as just some cynical, Takaya-obsessed bomb maniac, kind of like how a lot of people write cult members off as off-putting, evil, and sadistic. I think Reload did a terrific job at exploring this part of his character, even if it was just a few extra scenes. Or maybe I'm just overanalyzing because he's my favorite character lmao, who knows?

#jin shirato #takaya sakaki #chidori yoshino #persona 3 #p3r #strega #character analysis #AUGH WHY DID JIN HAVE TO DIE AAAAA #I WAS OK WITH HIM DYING IN THE ORIGINAL GAMES BUT THEN THEY GAVE HIM COOL ART AND MADE HIM A GOOD CHARACTER #BRUHHHHHHHHHHHH

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So I realized that I never shared my Blood & Gold re-read thoughts due to shadow-ban issues on the old blog, thoughts under the cut! It's long!

It was interesting to read this immediately after TVA, it really highlighted Anne's talent for developing distinct voices for her characters as the two books are so different in structure and voice. Where TVA is fevered and rambling with tonnes of evocative metaphor this is logically ordered and somewhat detached. This has none of Lestat's conspiratorial chumminess interspersed with catastrophic existential crises, none of Louis' melancholy poeticism, we're just getting straight facts from Mr Marius . So Marius' voice is a bit drier than a lot of the other narrators in the chronicles but that does feel correct and it gives the book a bit of a cosier and more chill vibe than most of the other entries. It's like story time with Marius. 

It's interesting that this one isn't framed as a book being written for publication but as a quiet and private conversation between a lonely guy and a stranger who showed up on his door step happy to listen to him. I think that makes sense for Marius, he doesn't seem like he would publish his life story, he's too private and he would probably have been more tactful land less honest about certain things if it was for publication - less interesting for us!

You do still have to read a lot of his inner journey between the lines nonetheless. He's not really telling you how he was doing day to day after he abandoned Pandora entirely (following an argument about how to deal with the emerging cult of satan worshippers) then spent centuries in Rome pretending he wasn't dying for Avicus' (and Mael's?) company while letting partying mortals have run of his house as he painted the walls subconsciously with dozens of Pandora faces... but you can imagine, he's probably not feeling great!

It was fascinating to get more detail on how he was recruited to be keeper of the parents and to see his tense arms-length relationship with Mael play out over the years. Eudoxia is a great addition to the story as brief as her time in it is and getting his version of Armand's story is very welcome (and of course interesting to contrast with Armand's telling). Getting more Bianca was also welcome, she's such a big presence in TVA, I liked getting Marius' perspective there. 

I've got some of the same kind of complaints I had with TVA about what was left out. I guess that structuring a life story that spans millenia is no easy task and it's inevitable that some stuff is gonna get left out. Anne probably didn't want to rehash the same events form different perspectives over and over again but I really was disappointed that the narrative doesn't touch on his thoughts on his reunion with Armand in QotD, the brief Night Island coven times, how Daniel came to be in his care (???), his reaction to Armand's suicide attempt (!?), how was it that he and Santino ended up being the team on clean up duty together for that anyway (???), his reaction to learning that Armand was in fact alive(!) and his subsequent turning of Benji and Sybelle.

Marius:

And Pandora of course, I hadn't read her book at the time of reading this so I was disappointed about how little detail we get on the centuries they spent together. You can imagine his motivations for leaving a lot of this stuff out, it seems that some things are still too painful to talk about and he is also telling a specific story to a specific audience here (to influence a particular outcome, perhaps? *squints suspiciously at Marius*) so it makes sense for him to brush over or leave some things out entirely but it's not always the most satisfying result for a reader that's already invested in these characters and their stories.

The framing device with Thorne is great, I can't emphasize enough how immediately I fell in love with this guy, this stoic but sensitive viking titan of a vampire. I found the final chapter to be the most exciting really, I guess because where most of the story is Marius explaining from his perspective why he's alone (apart from Daniel who doesn't count because he's too obsessed with his model cities, sorry Daniel!), it's all a foregone conclusion where we're heading and we know what happens to most of the major characters but once we get back to Thorne's contemporary POV hey, anything can happen! And thanks to Thorne, stuff does happen! He's kind of the MVP of this book. We also get a teeny bit of Daniel in the framing chapters at the start of the book and hey, it's nice to see him alive and still sassy, if a little worse for wear.

Overall I find it a pretty enjoyable vampire chronicle. I do love the lore of Anne's vampire universe, how rich it is both with historical details and with her own world building and Marius is, of course, very key to it as guardian of the parents for millennia, so I do want to know everything about him and I'm glad this book was written to give us more of his story. His chronicle of his very lonely life, caused in no small part by his own stubbornness and terror of losing control is sad and often frustrating but I did find all of it a compelling read. He's a very strange guy and it really is fascinating to get more of his perspective, even if he doesn't quite have the zazz of a Lestat or the poetry of a Louis.

#b&g thoughts #marius #armand #thorne #daniel molloy #pandora #eudoxia #vampire chronicles #vc memes #mael

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Starved

*materializes into existence*

Hey :D

[beware, this is long]

Idk if you're doing prompts rn (if not, that's okay; remember to take care of yourself). But if you are, may I request some Creativitwins h/c? – oatmeal-stans-the-trash-rat [i'm not putting the whole req here just cause she LONG]

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Warnings: starvation, intrusive thoughts, panic attacks, body horror (sort of), nightmares

Pairings: none

Word Count: 4250

For Remus, tending to the nightmare realm is just another chore. Eldritch monstrosities, terrifying landscapes, that's just how it is.

But when a new destination appears one night as he's going about his rounds, well, he has to stop in to investigate. What he finds is a horrifying town that has an almost cult-like relationship with hunger. One of the Sides, clearly, suffers from a particularly terrible strain of intrusive thoughts, but who?

    "I mean, it just makes sense, really."

Roman snarls, throwing himself against the invisible barrier, but it shimmers mockingly as he's forced to claw and screech in vain, soundless behind its impassable force. On the other side, close enough that he could reach out and touch him—so close, so fucking close—Remus smiles.

"Of course," Logan says softly, reaching out to cup Remus's face as though he's precious, "the Creativity unbound by the shackles of expectation, what else could we hope for?"

"And the passion!" Patton claps his hands, each one making the barrier thunder against Roman's palms. "Where else are we going to find someone with this much drive and motivation?"

"I know, maybe we'll actually see finished products once in a while," Virgil snickers, playfully elbowing Remus in the ribs as a dagger lodges itself in Roman's side.

He howls in pain, still scrabbling at the wall, but it's no use; Remus isn't even looking at him anymore, no one is, they're all too focused on each other, on how perfect Remus fits in now that they're stopping to look at it, and that's what he wants, that's good, he missed his brother so much, he wants him back, he wants him back, he just wants—he wants—

But he's a fool, and he didn't specify that he's selfish enough to want to keep both things.

And now, as he watches Remus pulled into Patton's arms, as he watches Logan smile gently and ruffle his hair, as he watches Virgil grin and rub his hands together gleefully, as he watches Janus turn to look at him—

Janus stares at him through the barrier, a smirk playing on his lips. But it's not a cruel smirk, not a malicious smile, it's the crooked smile every hero has just as they deliver the last quip of the movie.

"Oh, Roman," he whispers, even as his words ring in Roman's ears, "thank god you don't have a mustache."

Roman wakes up.

He's shaking. He's burning under the sheet. He's panting like he's run for his life. He's frozen. He can't move. Why should he move? The barrier will stop him. Wait, no, that's when he's asleep. He's not asleep anymore. He's not, is he? He's so cold. He's so hot. He's so scared.

God, he's so scared.

But why is he so scared? Is it the fact that Remus was accepted? How awful is he, to be scared of that? To be scared that if they find out how wonderful Remus truly is—and he is, Remus is so, so, so wonderful, he is and Roman loves him—that they'll want to keep Remus and get rid of him? That's awful of him! He's not supposed to be scared of his brother being accepted, he's supposed to look forward to it! He's not—he's not—

He's crying, isn't he? That's why he's still shaking. He's scared. He's scared and he's awful and he's crying, why is he crying? What right does he have to cry? Crying is for people who are hurting and deserve comfort. What comfort does he deserve? Because his Imagination conjured up some horrifying reality for him, so horrifying that he got to watch his brother finally get the love and acceptance he deserves and the natural consequences of it? What right does he have to demand comfort after that? He doesn't. He should stop crying. He should stop. Right now.

Oh, god, he can't stop crying.

He's still hurting. His chest is still burning. Why can't he breathe properly? This is stupid; if he's going to be as selfish and needy as he is, he should at least be breathing properly. He can't pretend to be anything other than helpless, can he, that he would steal the air from others' lungs and then not have the decency to breathe it properly? How cruel of him. How unjust of him. How awful he must be.

He should be locked behind a barrier. He should be pushed far away from everyone else. Then he couldn't hurt them. Then his hurt would only hurt him. Then he could be as messy and needy and selfish as he had to be and he would only cause himself pain. That was right. That was better. He should—he should have—should he have realized this years ago? How awful he is, how much he deserves to be put behind a barrier?

The room is closing in. The walls are getting closer. His bed is shrinking. The blankets are pressing him down into the floor, he can't breathe, he can't breathe, he can't breathe—

He can't hear anything. Oh, god, has it happened already? No, no, he wasn't ready—he was just thinking about it, that didn't mean he wanted to go right now—no, he wants one last chance to say goodbye, he's sorry, he's sorry, he's so sorry—

It's so cold.

It's so cold.

***

    Remus whistles under his breath as he steers the little rudder on the wooden dinghy, around the desecrated shell of some great eldritch beast. He gives the scale an absentminded pat as he drifts by, resolving to come back and check on it later. Perusing his nightmare gallery never did get old, but as far as dreams went, there were certainly better ones to be had. After all, hardly anyone wants to go to work as soon as they fall asleep.

"Win some, lose some," he remarks to the bear cub sitting in the bottom of the boat next to him. The bear cub growls low in its throat and gnaws on a spare bone. "Atta boy."

As he turns to go back towards the mainland, he catches sight of something rising up out of the water to his left. Looking over, he blinks in surprise to see a skeletal forest framing a new mouth of the river, long and jagged shadows reaching out over the water's surface. Frowning, he steers the boat over there, watching as the trees coalesce to form the silhouette of a starving bear. His bear cub lets out a low snuffling noise and shifts closer to his leg. He rubs its head and frowns as they drift under the bear's snarling mouth.

"Do you know what this is?" The bear cub huffs. "Huh. Me neither."

Surprisingly enough, the river ends at a seemingly normal dock. Well, normal for everyone else, in here, that's a little strange. Crowds mill about, each talking gruffly to their immediate neighbor, and someone throws Remus a small rope to tie off his dinghy. He does, the bear cub lingering close to his heels as he starts to walk into the town. Thankfully, he's not in his costume, but a set of plainclothes that he quickly shuffles around to hide the eldritch goo.

The air swirls with a strange miasma, not quite visible enough to put his finger on, but—there's something here. A feeling, almost, a terrible energy that permeates everything he can see. Most wear some sort of face covering, a scarf pulled up over their mouths, or hats worn so low he can only see glimpses of their chin. Those that don't are haggard, bone-weary, with eyes sunken and pulsating deep within their sockets. He can see what should be market stalls hanging their striped banners, but nothing looks to be on sale.

"Good thinking," he hears a raspy voice to his side, and he turns to see a crew of urchins smirking and huffing at him, "having a cub for you, or you for the cub."

His cub—he looks down to see where the cub should've been only to see it's wandered off, sniffing at something, and now whining and growling as a group of long-fingered strangers inch towards it, their mouths open. He whistles sharply and the cub turns tail and runs back to him, gnawing gently on his pants leg.

"Stay close," he bids under his breath as they keep walking, "I don't know what's going on here."

He keeps walking. The bustling streets fade quickly into tiny alleyways, each blocked off by a different makeshift wall that looks like it's designed to be lifted back and forth, a strange gate of sorts. Big, bulky things, the kind that would take at least two strong people to lift. He glances around at the twig-thin limbs and skeletal muscles he can see of the few people that aren't wearing big coats and proper clothes. As he nears one, he frowns. It's made of what looks to be old hide, bound and lashed together with something, but what could possibly be—

A low moaning and the murmur of a crowd.

He turns again, his cub at his side, looking for the source of the commotion. Down the main street a ways, at the mouth of presumably another alley, he sees a group of people peering at something. With one hand tangled in the fur at the cub's neck, he walks over and shoulders his way in to see what's so fascinating.

His eyes widen.

An old man, an old man, who looks barely alive save for the hysterical zeal in his eyes, is hobbling after something rolling along the ground. Every time he's about to pick it up, one of the men in some sort of uniform comes up and kicks it further away from him. The thing rolls through all manner of filth and still the old man hobbles after it. A sick sort of fascination takes hold of Remus's stomach—he should put a stop to this, shouldn't he?—but he finds himself paralyzed, only able to hold his bear cub close.

As the man continues to hobble, he lets go of his cloak. His ribs stand out starkly, each vertebra of his spine clearly visible, and someone in the crowd quickly snatches it up, hoarding it to their chest as a few squabble for it until the uniformed man barks at them to settle down. The man hobbles on, undeterred.

Another shadow lengthens on the ground.

Remus is one of the few that turn to look.

Another man, tall and whip-thin, with an ashen-gray face and monstrous dignity, walks slowly after the pair. His coat, fasted together with large gold buttons down the length of him, flutters in the breeze as though he would blow away at any moment. His hands, the same ashen color as his face, clasp in front of him. A gold signet ring gleams from his finger.

Who, Remus thinks as he clutches the bear cub, who has the sense to be utterly silent, the fuck do you think you are?

"Do you see," the man whispers, his voice picking through the crowd as a centipede picks through the undergrowth on the forest floor, "how desperate we become if we are slaves to our hunger?"

The man in uniform kicks the thing through a puddle that Remus is going to believe is water. The older man still hobbles after it.

"How low our standards become, how quickly we become nothing but beasts, savage and primitive? And how unhappy we are…" The gold signet ring catches another flash of light. "And we are never sated once we give into the need to feed."

The old man finally catches the thing. It drips and cracks with who knows what and still he shoves it in his mouth as though it were the finest feast in all the land. As the crumbs and sludge drip down his face, Remus realizes that it once might have passed for bread.

"And look," says the man as the old figure lets out a howl of despair, "it is never worth the price it takes to feed it."

For even that short hobble seems to have sapped the last of the life force from the old man's wheezing lungs and he keels over right there, still moaning and twitching as the bread rolls limply away from his hands. The uniformed man stands over the corpse and raises a whistle to his lips.

"We are the masters of our own hunger," drones that fucking whisper as many-limbed shadows materialize from the other end of the alley, "until it becomes master of us."

The crowd turns away in shocked horror as the spider-shadow-demon beasts fall upon the corpse. Remus watches the man impassively observing it, idly toying with that fucking golden ring. Then, as if Remus were invisible, he turns and walks back into the crowd, the beasts scuttling after him.

"So," Remus murmurs to the bear cub who was thankfully too short to see any of that, "that was fucking weird."

This isn't one of his. Obviously, because then he would've known what the fuck to expect. As it stands, he can only drift to a somewhat abandoned corner and stare around, trying to discern who this might belong to.

Hunger, that was clearly a theme here. Starvation, almost, given how little food there seems to be and how everyone keeps looking at his bear cub. But a culturally enforced starvation, given by the weird cult vibes of the creepy dude with the ring—a religious figure, maybe? And some nonsense about being masters of hunger, so clearly there was prestige given to being hungry but not giving into it. Those who outwardly expressed their hunger being shamed—well, shamed and humiliated and executed for it.

The bear cub whimpers and Remus crouches down, letting it snuffle into his neck as he strokes its shoulder. A cart drives by with a fancy-looking crest on one side and he squints to make out 'By the Grace of N. Schaumburg' as it passes.

"That must be creepy dude," he murmurs as the bear cub growls, "yeah? What do we think, who's hungry?"

He looks around again. Despite the fact that it's pretty mild weather, everyone's bundled up as though it were the dead of winter. Those that don't wear thick heavy coats huddle together, shivering, mindless mumbling coming from the groups. If he listens closely enough, he can just make out the words, but they don't make any sense.

The bear cub whuffs and tugs on his sleeve.

"What?"

The cub sniffs at a piece of paper blown closer to them. Remus picks it up. It's a pamphlet of some sort with the same crest, announcing an earlier enforced curfew. On the back is a short verse.

Selfishly feed and forever go hungry.

Free and unshackled by hunger are we.

Feeding the beast is an endless task.

Embrace the hunger and be free at last.

"Free from what," Remus whispers to the cub as he finishes reading, "having a body with needs?"

The cub just whines. Remus rubs its head and pockets the pamphlet, standing up slowly and looking around. Okay, so definitely shame associated with needing to feed, something about trying and failing to sate the hunger only leading to it growing, okay…definitely more guilt flying around here than he'd like but they were raised Catholic, so that's not completely unbelievable…

"You there." The uniformed man from before jerks his head at the cub. "What's with the animal?"

"'S my emotional support bear."

The man frowns. "Your what?"

"Nasty business," Remus says instead, nodding toward where the corpse used to be, "does that happen often in this part of town?"

"Not as often as it used to, population's getting better. Since Schaumburg came out with the pills instead of the rations it's been easier to keep the worst of them down." The man glances behind him. "Still. There'll always be a few of them."

"Is that why the new curfew's been enacted?"

"Well, it always gets worse at night, you know. That's when all the rational thought leaves these people and they start scrabbling about for something to feed on. Makes it easier to manage if they're all already indoors, you see."

Okay, so something about not being around others at night, okay, who do we know that's been skipping out of things lately?

"And I've never seen him around either," Remus says, lowering his voice a bit as he nods toward the direction that creepy dude went off in, "is that normal around here too?"

"Oh, Schaumburg doesn't normally come out—" bingo— "but with all the panic about that cold front last night, well…I guess he thought it was necessary."

Cold front last night, cold front last night…what happened last night?

It was movie night last night. Did someone get freaked out by the movie? But it was The Sea Beast, it had cleared everyone's trigger list, everyone had enjoyed it, was that the problem? Or was it something else?

"Now, you seem like a nice enough man—" Remus tries not to take offense, this seems like a good thing in this case— "so I'll just let you off with a word to the wise: get that bear of yours registered with an approved tag or someone's liable to tear it apart, you hear?"

Remus just nods as the official turns away. He looks down at his cub, who's all but cuddling his leg, and glances around.

Several people hug their cloaks or bags close to their chests. A few more stand so close their arms are near around each other as the carts and wagons drive by. A parent tucks their child into a fold of their coat. He remembers the feeling of being snuggled on the couch and how cold it had been when he got up to get a drink. He pulls out the pamphlet and looks closely at the crest, fingers tracing an upside-down crown with teeth mangling the metal.

As if on cue, he hears Roman scream.

***

    Virgil huffs, turning over in bed. Remus must be busy tonight; his mouth's been filled with bitter-tasting grossness all evening. Every now and again he gets this awful roaring emptiness in his stomach and he just wants to sleep. He's almost ready to storm down there and tell him to knock whatever he's doing off, it can wait until tomorrow, when he suddenly hears someone scream.

That's…not what Remus's screams sound like.

***

    Remus shakes himself awake, grabs his trusty teddy bear, and sinks right into Roman's room. Immediately he's prying Roman's hands away from his face, letting out these soothing little noises and trying to get his attention.

"Hey, hey, Roro, shh, shh, it's okay, c'mere." Roman gasps and shakes and Remus leans in to kiss his forehead. "Hey, hey, c'mon, Ro-Bro, it's just me. It's just me, hey, can you look at me?"

"Re?"

"Yeah, Roro, it's just me, it's just me. Hey, you're doing so good, can you listen to my voice? Just listen to me, I'm right here, we're in your room, we're safe, you're safe, we're all okay." He nudges the teddy bear into Roman's lap and nuzzles it under Roman's chin. "See? All good."

Roman's hands are shaking and in the distance, Remus hears the echo of Schaumburg's voice. He growls and reaches out, taking Roman's hands and looping them around his neck, pulling his brother into a cuddle.

"Hey, Roro, you stay right here with me. Can you do that? Can you hold onto me?"

"It's so cold, Re—it's so—so cold—"

"Shh, it's okay, you can be warm now. I'm warm, right?"

"You're so warm—how are you so warm—"

"Come steal all my warmth, okay? Come steal all of it, it's all for you, I'm gonna give it to you." Remus tucks Roman's head under his chin and rocks him slightly back and forth. "There, there you go, shh, shh, it's okay, Roro."

"I'm sorry," Roman gasps out and Remus's chest aches, "I'm sorry, I'm awful, I'm so sorry!"

"You're not awful, Roro. Nope, no disagreeing," he says softly as Roman opens his mouth to protest, "you're not awful. You had a really fucked up nightmare and your intrusive thoughts are way too loud but you're not awful."

Roman freezes. "You—you saw it?"

"I didn't see your nightmare, no, but I—your intrusive thoughts made a place in my nightmare realm and I saw that."

"I'm so sorry—"

"Hey," Remus murmurs, pulling him back enough to cup his face and make him look at his eyes, "don't apologize for the shit your brain does, okay? You're safe here with me. I'm gonna be right here, okay? I got you."

To his dismay, Roman's lower lip trembles and big tears bubble at the corners of his eyes again. "B-but I—"

"Roman?" That's Virgil's voice, why the fuck is he—oh, right, panic. "Princey?"

"Hey, shh," Remus soothes as Roman tries to hide in the lea of him, "hey, it's okay. I won't let him hurt you."

"Remus? Is that you?"

"Yeah. What do you want?"

"I heard the scream, I've been feeling his panic—look, I don't wanna shout through the door, can I come in?"

"Can he?" Roman takes a little too long to nod but he does. "Yeah, Virgil, get in here."

Virgil slips through the door and takes one look at Remus hovering protectively over his brother and immediately changes into the softest hoodie and sweatpants he has. He crouches down so it's easier for Roman to look at him and his voice drops to a low rumble.

"Hey, Princey," he says gently as Roman turns to look at him, "seems like you're having a real rough time right now, can I come help?"

"S-sorry."

"It's okay, bud, I'm not mad. You're gonna be okay. I just wanna help."

"I won't let him hurt you," Remus whispers, rubbing his back, "you're safe here."

It takes another long moment, but Roman slowly reaches out a hand and Virgil takes it, letting Roman draw him onto the bed. He joins Remus in rubbing up and down Roman's back, gently carding his fingers through his hair.

"Hey, Princey," he murmurs, still speaking softly, "you have a bad dream? Yeah? You wanna talk about it?"

Roman shakes his head.

"Can I ask Remus what's going on? Yeah? Thanks, bud."

Remus sighs, letting Roman cuddle into him. "He's not been having a good time recently, what with…everything going on. I think Patton and Janus blowing up about selfish stuff got into his head and Logan's whole…deal about rising above what he calls 'base' needs isn't helping."

"…yeah, shit, that sounds—that's not great."

"And, you know, being insulted and belittled every time he opens his mouth isn't helping either," Remus adds, glaring at Virgil as he winces.

"I know. I—fuck."

"Yeah. So be really fucking careful right now."

"Hey, Roman," Virgil calls softly, giving Roman the gentlest shake to get his attention, "hey, Princey, can you look at me for a second?"

Roman's head peeks out and Virgil smiles, reaching out to wipe a tear from his cheek.

"Hey, there, bud. You're okay. Was what Remus said right, are you—is shit a little too much right now?" Roman nods. "You want some reassurance, or do you just want us to be here?"

"'M sorry," Roman mumbles, "'m not—'m not trying to be needy."

"You're not being needy, Princey, you're upset and you want to be comforted. That's not needy."

"Or selfish either," Remus says when fucking Schaumburg starts whispering again, "you're allowed to want things and have them. That's not something to be ashamed of or feel guilty for."

"Shit," he hears Virgil mutter under his breath before there's another set of arms around Roman, "no, Princey, you're not bad for wanting things. Is this—I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner. I shouldn't have left you alone for movie night last night either."

Right. Right, everyone else had cuddled up on the couch and Roman had arrived later when there was no room—fuck, Roro, I'm so sorry.

"It's okay, bud, you're okay. You're okay, you're safe, we're not going anywhere."

"I'm sorry," Roman cries out, hiding his face in the teddy bear, "I'm not—I'm trying, I'm trying, but it's so cold, I'm sorry—"

"Don't be sorry for wanting," Remus scolds lightly, glancing at Virgil who nods and starts gathering the blankets, "you're allowed to want things. And you just had a nightmare, that's an automatic you-get-cuddles-now. We can figure everything else out tomorrow, okay?"

Finally, finally Roman sniffles and looks up at both of them. "You guys really don't mind?"

"Nope!"

"Nah," Virgil says, ruffling his hair, "come cuddle, Princey."

As they all start to get ready to fall back asleep, Remus makes eye contact with Virgil. Virgil nods as Roman starts to doze—poor Roro, he must be so tired—and they close their eyes together.

***

    Remus's bear cub growls lightly at Virgil as they reappear in the abandoned corner, but he pats its head. "He's a friend, it's okay."

"Yeesh," Virgil mutters, looking around, "this whole place feels like panic attack, is it always like this?"

"Roman's just really not having a good time right now. Just be glad you weren't here earlier."

"You know what, I'm not even gonna ask." Virgil takes a deep breath and tugs a little on his jacket, glancing around. "So! What's the plan?"

"I'm feeling like some anti-government arson and a side of political assassination, how about you?"

"Let's go start a riot."

The bear cub growls, swelling and growing until it's the size of a nearby wagon and Remus grins.

We gotcha, Roro. Sweet dreams.

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[shannankle]

My Running Thoughts on DFF (Episode 5)

It's interesting to see their early motivations and varying levels of investment in this project

We also are getting insight into who is a follower or not. Cause from what Por said to convince Tee, it seems like Jin wants to do the project but not if Tee doesn't

Interesting that we first see non as a reflection as if he is a ghost or not fully present

Awww he's so awkward. Interesting that they play his entrance kind of creepy awkward

Clearly there's something between him and Jin sparking. Does that mean Phee is non? Or will he be a target? So much to speculate on, I got to be patient

And clearly these guys are assholes at least Top and Por, geeze guys

Jin seems like the only nice one here, waiting for that shoe to drop, cause he seems like a follower maybe

Oh what a cool shot with the 2 hallways. One side with people the other where Non is alone. Like his reflection, he's separated socially. And Jin is crossing that threshold

Oh and they're pulling in the use of reflection again. This time Jin is with Non but separated from Por

Jin seems to know a lot about Non's interests. I mean he was reading a book but does Jin know this stuff from rumors or is he already observing him

Por is taking on a weird level of authority and acting like he's doing this for Non and his benefit

Okay how conscious is Jin of the fact that he is flirting?

Oh another catholic school eh? Shadow parallels, hello. But it does fit the fact that this is pulling on Western slasher horror.

I really want to know what the writing on the board says, especially since we get the contrast of Por vs Non writing something

Okay so even the Janta cult stuff came from Non so like clearly its not necessarily based in legends about the forest near Por's cabin. That does make me less inclined to think the cult stuff is part of a supernatural component (though I do still think there is some element of the supernatural).

Por clearly trying to fight for leadership and control by harassing Non over the ending and physical copies. And here goes Top. Aww Jin's at least standing up for him a little, but maybe fight back a bit more

Oh and Non's so resigned telling them to call him whatever, I'm adopting him immediately and all these other boys are on my shit list

Okay what's Tee's deal? They lingered on him a bit too long

Noticeable that Fluke isn't actively bullying but being a bystander

Another shot of Non very boxed in and isolated with life and motion outside that (cars this case)

And Jin crosses into that space again. Even the first shot of non as a reflection was boxed in the door frame .

Oh it's the same spot as earlier but from a different angle, love that

Awww Jin's little half wave after non turned, boy is crushing

And now Jin is alone in the boxed in space.

Over to Non's house, there're 2 kids in the photos so maybe the killer is Non's sibling? Ah an older brother, New living on his own and struggling. But clearly Non is poor compared to these other boys

Wait I need to go back and see what Fluke said about Tee's dad, cause what if he's a debt collector and somehow related to Non's family's issues with money

Wait did New actually go abroad and is struggling or are they lying to Non?

Hmm pills, so are we going with mental illness here? How very Trin. I mean they could be anything but still. Hopefully this is a good rep not a "the mentally I'll kid cracked" narrative

Oh someone with just a heart for a name in his phone, and they know he takes meds. A boyfriend? Crush? At least someone who cares about him most likely, who might want revenge (could it be one of our new boys?). It's clearly not Jin since he texts next.

And look at that face drop out of a smile. So at this point it might be one sided on Jin's part?

Oh he's wearing a red bracelet I wonder if that'll come back at some point. His backpack is also red, so we could call that his color.

Jin half standing up to his friends and half letting them still kind of win.

Uh oh dragging him to cram school to bully him more uggg

God they're treating him like he's physically dirty. Which is a contrast with Jin who openly touches Non. Ooof brings back memories of kids doing this shit in middle school.

Jin just sort of nodding in encouragement, like dude you need new friends

Are they going to get pissed when he shows them up and not pay the class fee?

Oh I like the teacher telling Top he asked Non his name

Is this the teacher Jin saw in the temple? I'll have to go back and check.

Okay a slight change in tone, why cause he knows math? What the fuck are Por and Top up to?

Another boxy shot, lovely

Okay meds again, does that say diazepam? No it's lorazepam, which is used for anxiety

20 seconds into a call with Por(?) And non is asleep, can't blame him

Ugg okay yeah they decided to play nice for their own benefit

Interesting that only Non and Tee have stronger colors in this scene, especially the redish brown color, what's their connection going to be?

This cram teacher knows how to market his class, just plaster his face all over 😅

Mmm maybe don't offer him a ride this feels iffy and icky

Tee in a gambling house. Is this the family business?

Oh shit was the mule Non's brother and now they'll go after his parents. No, Tee will pick Non to open the account for his uncle

Okay Tee's actually in a bind too, his dad needs meds and he's basically working for his uncle. But maybe go do any other job. This does explain why he's so grumpy and stingy with where he spends his time and effort.

Wait so in the film each character will see the mask differently so does that mean there're 5 different masks? It certainly brings up similar questions and themes about perception in the present.

Non wasn't even in the pitching room, ooof

Polaroid photo, a Shutter reference? Jin, I'm watching you bystander boy!!!

Ditch these guys, Jin. And maybe stand your ground and don't agree to not invite Non. And there he goes silently folding.

Tee needs the money from the film and Por is clearly more interested in just getting the fancy camera, which the proceeds will largely go towards paying back

Jin putting Non in the camera box, I'm getting more Shutter flashbacks

A shadow and boxed in Tee now, he's feeling the pressure

Who just leaves that expensive of a camera unattended? I guess a rich boy

Oh Top, parading as a hero and defender but literally one of the first ones to run. And then the one to kill one of said friends. And of course he breaks the camera and is too scared so he ropes Tee in to protect him

Guys maybe try taking the camera to a shop first, see how much a repair costs. Still might be a lost cause but better than just assuming you'll have to pay for an entirely new one

Fluke pfhdkfk the consumate bystander, he's bystandering so hard he jump scared Top lol. Interesting that he really hasn't talked much this whole flashback

Jin at least being a little smart and catching on that Tee is being suspicious.

Okay Fluke flipping Top off was great? But he's still not helping so still a dick

Oh no the heart person isn't there when Non needs him 💔

Oh shoot Non, please don't take that much. Sighs in relief

Aww Jin is trying to help but doesn't really get poverty huh

They're boxed in visually again but Non is sort of slipping out of the light

Oh, this time Non finally smiles for Jin. Are the feelings starting to shift on Non's end?

And we're back to feeling cornered.

Tee you realize that sounds as incredibly sketchy as it actually is

Is that a bruise or a birthmark on Tee's arm?

Well at least Tee isn't denying that it's not entirely legal, still lying about the risks though

Tee continues to be number 1 on my shit list, but Por and Top aren't far behind

#dff the series #dead friend forever #my posts #my reactions #dff episode 5

[goshdangronpa]

any of the warriors of hope because those little buggers have been on my mind for months and they won't leave help

(obvs no sexuality stuff because come on man)

Hi, friend! Any of the Warriors of Hope? How about ... all of them?!

Like-like headcanon: Masaru still thinks liking girls is icky and he's not yet aware that boys can like boys. Jataro believes that cooties are real and the grossest cooties are his own. Kotoko is clearly enthusiastic about girls but will have to really sort some stuff out as she gets older. Nagisa was never the type to think that like-liking someone is gross - he's always wanted to get married. Monaca sees the human heart as just another instrument she can play ... but she'll mellow out if given enough time and care, and then, who knows?

Gender headcanon: Masaru is the boyest boy to ever boy ... which is what I tried to be and look how I turned out lmao. Jataro is cis, but his takes on gender are so galaxy-brained that you wouldn't believe he's not on Tumblr. Kotoko will adopt more androgynous affects over time, exploring cuteness outside of traditional femininity. Nagisa can go on for a long time about his view of his own gender, but if asked to summarize, he'd say he doesn't have one. With little to go on besides my own intuition, I'm surprisingly confident that Monaca is a trans boy.

One ship I have with them: Eh, kinda weird to ship them with anyone since they're little kids. Even Kotoko, who at one point in her boss battle declares that she wants to have children with Monaca, probably doesn't like her as much by the end of UDG. Same with Nagisa, poor guy ... but they've all still got each other.

One BroTP I have with them: Gonna use this section to declare which DR teen they'd get along with (note: I haven't played much of DRS). Masaru would be thrilled by Kazuichi, a neon-haired, shark-toothed, funny-voiced goblin man who builds robots, and Kazuichi would rather embarrassingly treasure the validation from a pretty cool kid. Angie would love love love Jataro, though anyone who knows her will make sure someone else supervises them so that arts-n-crafts playtime doesn't become Baby's Second Cult. I think Sayaka and Kotoko would have a lot that they can talk about together, and I believe she'd do everything she can to nurture and protect the kid. Nekomaru and Akane would be a refreshing pair for Nagisa: they'd focus on training his body rather than his mind, but in a way that's actually healthy and clearly caring. Monaca should probably be kept away from most people for now, but Hajime is uniquely suited to be friendly with her ... so they can wax about Nagito's weirdness together.

One NoTP I have with them: I guess anyone? Since, again, they're little kids?

Random headcanon: When Masaru goes on long walks, he looks for long sticks to carry and will exchange them for even bigger ones he finds along the way. Jataro's reading comprehension is poor, but he can already do basic algebra. Kotoko's never felt safer on a film set than when she played a creepy kid in an R-rated horror movie. Nagisa can take catnaps on command for the same reason soldiers do: they never know when their next chance to catch some sleep could be. Monaca may be the rare person who would become a kinder and gentler human being by joining a school theater program.

General opinion: Suitably creepy in their roles as antagonists to Komaru and Toko, crushingly sympathetic in their motivations, and really fun on their own. The Warriors of Hope are just one reason why I'd urge people to try Ultra Despair Girls, even with all the game's faults (especially the ones related to the WoH themselves). It's incredible that Kotoko can be my favorite for her winning personality despite how tastelessly the writers treat her. Jataro also has one of my favorite character voices in Danganronpa, not referring to the vocal performance (which is great!), but to his almost Dadaist dialogue. Ah, I like 'em all!

#warriors of hope #masaru daimon #jataro kemuri #kotoko utsugi #nagisa shingetsu #monaca towa #danganronpa #ultra despair girls #udg #headcanons #thanks for asking!

[hollow-keys]

I'm reading New Teen Titans and I finally got to the part that Joey's in (three cheers everybody!) and I have thoughts/feelings on how they treat him as a disabled character.

What really sticks out for me is how little he gets to define himself or choose his own path.

Marv Wolfman had a strict policy of not letting him have any thought bubbles and only showed his thoughts through narration. All the other characters have thought bubbles, but he doesn't and I can only assume it's because he's mute.

His thoughts are always shown via narration which keeps a level of separation between us and the character. Like this:

[Tales of the Teen Titans #45]

And Wolfman knows how important thought boxes are with other characters:

[New Teen Titans (1984) #13]

He's not allowed to actually explore and resolve his personal conflicts and he rarely gets to disagree or have his own ideas. He's usually going along with what everyone else wants.

He's introduced going along with what his mother wants. She describes him, she introduces him. She's not acting as an interpreter either, she's talking over him. The narrative isn't self aware about how he's treated, it just is. She talks, she acts, she has her motivations explained. His muteness is her motivation for revenge. Joey is just an extension of her, not allowed to define himself or his motives.

He was then run out of the Titans because they thought he was a traitor. Does he get to confront them about it? No.

He ends up on a mission with his mother where she tries to get him to kill someone who tortured her and he refuses. Then he chooses to save an art collection rather than capture him. And yes it's nice to get these character moments, but where's the confrontation + resolution between him and his mother? It's up in the air.

During the trial of Deathstroke he's the only Titan who's not present because he's being questioned by Interpol. This should be an important moment for him but he's not there.

And when the Trigon fight's over, Jericho is in hospital while all the others (including Lilith and Terry, who's literally not even a hero) get to have the post Trigon "talk about our feelings" chat but he doesn't. They don't hold the chat in the hospital or wait for him to recover. He's just left behind.

We're shown his insecurity over his masculinity, how his parents tried to force him to be like them and made him feel ashamed for not being manly enough, but he doesn't get to reach a resolution. He doesn't get to have his "what my parents said and did was wrong" moment. It's in the air. Things kind of just happen to him.

He's also framed as fundamentally pure, rarely getting to be angry and never hateful like literally every other character gets to be.

[Tales of the Teen Titans #44]

Ironically, this is a very condescending way of speaking about him, but we are meant to take her word as true. No one on earth has never had a condescending thought, to separate him from those very human feelings and to treat him like he's pure is to dehumanise him.

He's a pacifist who doesn't care for violence but was forced to train for it against his will. Literally, why are you a hero if you didn't even want to learn how to fight? What changed for you? How do you reconcile your distaste for violence with your violence? There's no answer. His opinion doesn't matter. His mother wants him to fight, so he does.

The conflict between Cyborg and his dad who wanted him to be a scientist while he wanted to be an athlete is shown. They do fight over it and there is a resolution.

The conflict between Raven, her cults strict pacifism, her preference for non violence and the violence she commits is shown. She is conflicted, always musing over it and we get to hear her thoughts about it from her.

Jericho, however, is put in these conflicts without genuine exploration. There's no catharsis, there's no resolution. It just is. He just is.

He doesn't get to be angry at his mum, dad or genuinely argue with his fellow titans. He doesn't get to mess up and be emotional. Every other character gets this. Not him.

Like yes, he does have his moments sometimes but there's a huge disparity between him and other characters.

This all plays into tropes about disabled people. The idea disabled people either have to be beacons of perfection who inspire everyone else to be better or are discarded as needlessly bitter and angry, with this either being an explanation for their evil if they're a villain (Komand'r), or a flaw they need to get over if they're a hero (Cyborg). The idea that disabled people cannot make their own choices or have autonomy over their own destinies. The idea that disabled people have less of an internal life and aren't as complex as abled people.

Let Joey be a three dimensional person with complex motivations who is angry and hateful sometimes. Who gets to actually confront people, add to the conversation and have his own thoughts.

#yes i know cyborg is also disabled but in a different way and that affects how he's treated #joey wilson #joseph wilson #jericho #dc comics #ableism #titans #new teen titans #meta #long post #📨

[ultfreakme]

"Sure. So for Geto it's mostly that I don't like villains with a bigoted ideology and he's too incompetent to even fall in the "love to hate" category. Really, the worst thing a villain can be is incompetent and Geto in Vol 0 is barely better than your average disney villain. Doesn't help that he never gets pushback on his ideals. Gojo tells him in Premature Death that killing people is bad, but that's it. He spouts his bullshit about how genocide is totally necessary and Yuuta stands there like "idk you might be right, but you want to kill people I care about and that's the real crime here". Nobody really engages with his ideology except Yuki I guess, but that was before he became an antagonist. I could forgive that to a degree if he was at least a real threat, but he isn't. You don't get any of that with Geto, he's not even fun to hate because he barely provides any pushback. He's a bad villain and I dislike him as a person as well. His descent into embracing the superiority of sorcerers and resolving to kill all non-sorcerers was well written, but I don't feel for him at all. Good riddance to the guy, I'm glad he's now dead both in body and mind."

I was so sad, when reading this, what do you think?

Hm, I think whomever said this obviously has their own reasons for disliking Geto and I'm cool with that. I really don't want to like, argue this specifically and try to come up with something that's like "um actually, you're wrong" because this is how they view the story and Geto's character. I personally am partial to evil characters as long as I think they're fun. But I do want to engage with this, and I'm thinking that's what you want too Anon?

To break it down:

Geto's incompetent and acts like a Disney villain I understand why it can come off like that. Disney villains usually have simple, straightforward motives, the older 2-D ones acted flamboyant and show-y, in which case Geto fits into it all. I think the OP meant his reasons are shallow but I think Hidden Inventory gives you a perfect, deep insight into his spiral and how he ends up being so extreme. Geto seems incompetent but to put into perspective, he's been working on this cult for 10 years(and is rather successful), when he was fighting Yuuta, he was also technically simultaneously fighting literally every sorcerer in Tokyo and Kyoto. There's been hints throughout the movie and especially in the light novel, that Geto wasn't exactly fighting to win. He's not in his right mind like you can see it in the way he is towards the end of the fight. Gojo says Geto doesn't want to be saved. I think Geto could have survived after fighting Yuuta, he had just lost an arm and yeah that's a devastating blow but JJK characters have moved pretty well for a good while after worse injuries(Nanami was half burned and was fighting, Toji was literally speaking with his guts blown out, Todo had his hand chopped off, there's probably more I'm forgetting). Geto COULD have gotten out but as we established from Hidden Inventory, he would allow Gojo to kill him, that part stands above his own ideologies. It's subtext, but it's like Geto was giving up. He wasn't intending on winning, he even made escape plans for all his cult family members but not for himself? That's not something a man who's sure of victory does.

Geto doesn't get pushback Oh he absolutely does. No one's engaging with him on his ideologies on-screen, sure, but Geto atp is not someone you could reason with. Shoko engages with him, calls him out on how childish he is but Geto doesn't engage he straight up ignores her and just politely chuckles, he doesn't want to. It's a dead-end and that's what extremism does to you. On top of that, it's been explicitly stated that the sorcerers agree with him on some level. Nanami still respects him, Shoko worries about him, Gojo too. Because they know where he's coming from. His end goals are stupid but the starting- getting tired of being exploited and being forced to watch everyone you know and love die for ZERO credit or help, is exhausting. No one pushes back because no one can wholeheartedly oppose the root of his problems and they don't WANT to. If Geto isn't listening, and a good chunk of the adult sorcerers who can speak with him don't want to, what's the point of forcing an engagement? We as the audience know why he's wrong, it doesn't need to be spelled out in a conversation with Geto specifically. There are other parts of the story that engage with the argument itself, but Geto isn't present. Ultimately, the ideology is refuted very thoroughly by Kenjaku, Yuki and Gojo! In the anime episode where Yuuji got his heart-ripped out and is in Shoko's office about to be examined, Gojo tells Ijichi "hey, I could just kill everyone and do what I want but that's inefficient. what I can do instead is build a good, strong community of sorcerers who use trust and teamwork to change the system from within" or smthg like that. That's Gojo refuting Geto's way of working. Yuuta does say "hey back off stop hurting my friends" but like, it's obvious he's also talking about every other non-sorcerer, he's just using his friends as a launch-point. The movie shows Maki specifically because we've built an emotional connection to her, so the idea of a character we and the MC knows personally dying puts into perspective the devastation of Geto's plans. It's hard to understand the effects of killing every non-sorcerer- the scale is too big(it's why kids shows can say "we're ending the universe!" but not "I'm going to rip your mother apart limb from limb", one feels worse), so we concentrate it on one person and now we can imagine the horror every other person will feel.

Geto doesn't give pushback It's because he doesn't give a shit what others think. If you wanna join, go ahead, if you don't, well he doesn't care to convert you. Even with Yuuta, on the surface it looks like recruitment but his final plan is killing Yuuta to get Rika. He didn't even seem serious in his talk with Yuuta. Geto doesn't argue being like "hey MY way is the high way" because sorcerers aren't his final enemy. They can believe whatever they want, as long as they don't get in his way. He lets his cult members and his daughters engage with non-sorcerers and doesn't push his ideologies on them. He doesn't engage with non-sorcerers because their opinions mean nothing to him. Geto's oddly lax about his ideologies(hence the split in his cult family on whether they should respect Geto's body as Kenjaku or follow his ideals, if Geto was stricter this wouldn't even be in question). There's also the fact that Geto's self-aware enough to know that his goals are fucking ridiculous. It's why he doesn't ask Gojo to join him, or even Shoko. Isn't it odd that he points out that Gojo's very capable of following through Geto's plans, but Geto doesn't ask his bff4ever to even consider this? Gojo ASKS him "hey explain yourself" but Geto chooses not to. He's thinking of himself as this martyr who's gonna go on this dangerous, impossible path to create a world where the people he loves, the sorcerers, are safe. His cult, his ideologies, it didn't make him happy. He thought this is the sacrifice that needed to be made and he was willing to bear the burden. His ideologies are like his power; they put him above others by destroying him.

The rest is OP expressing they dislike his character and that's cool, that's their choice and me liking him or contesting this is not to change their minds, just to....idk engage with this because I think it's fun.

I like Geto because of these things. I'm reasoning all this but I know he's evil, irredeemable, but I think he's a prime example of how selflessness can go horribly wrong when you don't engage and communicate. We see how lonely he is, how isolated the JJK society makes their sorcerers. Perhaps this lack of communication and engagement with his ideologies with Geto himself in-story is intentional- I think it is because the manga's all about love and loneliness when it comes to the special grades, the distance power creates.

Thanks for the ask Anon, I think it's best to ignore people who dislike characters we like, it's always going to drive us around in circles trying to discredit or disprove them XDXD(I did this with Jiang Cheng from Mo Dao Zu Shi, and it was really draining after a while).

Geto my belove pookie princess criminal!

#geto suguru #riki asks #jjk meta

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[hopefully this ask is anon] was there ever even any sort of rent agreement between opa and jolly?

regardless if there was and 18 is "adult", it seems seems really obvious to me that jolly couldn't even pay it and the gaping age gap there between 19 and 37, plus the older person playing the victim, when they are irresponsible to even "take in" the younger person, is something else. was he expecting jolly to act 37?

i'm really baffled that guy ever had a wife and child [which he chose glip's discord, etc over] because he can't even understand basics at his big age and make mature choices himself?

i had a whole rant [but I'm tired and condensing it] about how these guys are carrying on like they are these big saviours, saving people from "abusers" and taking them in, like what they were drawing up trying to rope rina into, when it's actually more like, really transparent, alterior motive, escapism online crap to prop up thier weird rp cult or get whatever from these young people. rina for example turned out to be a decent artist, as were others and i have no doubt that plays a part in how "useful" someone is to them.

they really should not be offering that kind of "support" to anyone like that, they clearly aren't really people who can offer it in the first place and are likely to turn on those same people they acted like needed to be "saved"? like, c'mon now.

According to Jolly when they initially moved in with him it was a "hey pay what you can until you get on your feet" sorta deal, with the 800$ figure coming in later.....despite Jolly working job that would in no way be able to afford 800$ a month and not remotely be considered 'on their feet' yet.

Dude I'm gonna be real, I think Opa just wanted a barely legal sexual partner and got impatient of Jolly not reciprocating. Opa and Jolly where doing sexual roleplays before they moved in together, and Opa showed Jolly his junk within a week of them moving in together. The dude had a goal in mind.

You're spot on about the savior complex thing. When they help someone with an abusive situation, it seems to always include an ulterior motive.

Jolly was in an abusive situation. Opa 'helped' them by putting them in a different abusive situation by having them move in with him across different states. With the ulterior motive of gaining control over Jolly and potentially gaining a barely-legal sexual partner as well. Jolly had no family in their new home, no one in their corner locally who could help them who wasn't Flora. Opa had complete control over them.

Rina was in a situation Glip considered to be abusive. Glip wanted to 'help' her by putting them in what would be a different abusive situation by having her move in with them across the country. With the ulterior motive of gaining control over Rina and getting cheap art from her for their webcomic. Rina would have had no family in their new home, no one in her corner locally who could help her who wasn't Flora. Glip would have had complete control over her.

It's even more transparent when small scale like with Vinnie, @duskittycat put it best.

'We can't be in contact if you're apparently dating Jolly, I need to state plainly you are putting yourself in a position to be exploited....You're worthy of care from people who will not exploit you.'

This is such an unhelpful and manipulative sentiment.

They fluff up their language with pretty words about 'caring' and 'feelings', but at the end of the day - this is just a forced 'Them or Us' gambit. Vinnie cannot be friends with Glip / Woz / Ko'nai / Gabby / Opa if Vinnie is also separately courting Jolly. It doesn't matter if Vinnie doesn't mention Jolly around them. It's not about anything Vinnie actually did to them.

It's about the fact they can't control Vinnie. It's a hail-mary to try to regain that control. Nothing more. Nothing less.

#floraverse #glitchedpuppet #forbidden flora #forbiddenflora #foxflux #pengosolvent #fox flux #sorry for taking so long to get to this ask #ive been really exhausted lately

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ooo can I hear about the bap crew?

OF COURSE <333 i loveeee talking about the bap crew thank youuuu

okay so first off general warnings for the podcasts and all my posts about it for the most part <3 there are mentions of cults, death/murder, religion (and the like) and i think thats it mostly? (as a general) but sometimes it can be a lot, take care of yourself yall <33 and the rest is under the cut there is a lot <3

with that out of the way i guess if you didn't know already lol !! they are my podcast ocs !!! i'm in the works of creating a horror <3 podcast that takes place in an amusement park with 5 main characters and a god <3

so this post here explains a lot about the main characters personalities and stuff and the tags #brickwoods and #bap on my tumblr have some other posts related to the crew <3 recently i've been doing some extra stuff for fleshing out their families who will eventually be showing up in podcast and i can do a quick over view of them here tho <3

oh and not necessarily crew related but the length of podcast <333 imma ramble about that for a sec <3 so season 1 is going to be all amusement park stuff and the last episode of that season will be a major plot point/death (sorta setting the darker/more dramatic scene for s2) s2 is also amusement park shenanigans however now that the stakes have been raised the rest of the cast is pretty scared now yk. but they have still their motivations for wanting to get out and so <3

s3 is going to be after our final girl rebecca escapes the park and tries to a) sorta solve why that happened in the first place (why them. who is the god etc etc) and b) try to give closure to the others families so yeah. plus some other plots things yk <3

and then s4 will most likely be rebecca trying to stop/take down the cult because she doesn't want something like this to happen again and the ending is in workshop <33 (aka i can't decide between like. a couple possible endings i have planned but main plot won't change despite which one i eventually choose :))

okay so back to the crew lol <33 since that other post explains a lot of basic stuff about them feel free to ask specific questions about them now that you have info about them <3 but for now family time !!!

(specific warnings for this area some bad parents mentioned)

so david <3 ae is an only child with 2 moms, they are very sweet and amazing and extremely Extremely heartbroken when david never comes home after the park and stuff. they definitely had like plans for college visits and they had a car ready for when david was going to get aer license. the two of them are going to be pretty sad to write for in s3 i think but also i love them as characters (i was posting about them like last week lol they are very cute and fun when they arent sad </3)

hmm sophia's family <3 so her dad was born into the cult when it was a bit less strict (he was 'home-schooled' by the cult but also was allowed out bc his family is a main influential family) and her mom married in. they aren't the nicest parents by a long shot, and they only respect sophia because she became the leader. sophia does have a sibling however she doesn't know about them bc their parents kept them separate in order not to 'taint' sophia's godly touch

rebecca's family doesn't have too much going on, it is also an only child and her parents have been active in her life, not as great/caring as davids parents yet not uncaring either. rebecca really just lived with them her whole life and doesn't totally feel like it connected with its parents in any important way tbh

sunni ! so sunni grew up with only his mom and his sister and after the incident with carter (wait did i tell yall that was her name yet. thats the mutual best friends name in case i Didnt say that already <3) sunni's sister Mary ended up moving out with a friend and not keeping in touch with sunni or their mom again. she also changed her last name as soon as she legally could. but yeah so sunni doesn't have a very close relationship with his mom either and he has no relationship with his sister anymore which upests him a lot but he also keeps this close to him

and blair <3 so blair has 2 brothers (twins age 10 (i think)) named ben and bruno (named by My twin siblings so) and their parents are pretty bad. blair is very protective of their younger brothers and has been trying for a while to save up enough to move all of them out but hasn't quite yet. they fight really hard in the park to try and get out because they do not want to leave their brothers with out someone else to help and be there with them.

and i think thats it for a basic run over of all their families and the characters in general a bit <3 :)) feel free to ask any questions based on this post, the last post or like. literally anything <33 they are my passion project and i love BAP sooo very much <3

#camera asks #whittingsonder #thank you SO much for the ask whit !! #also this took forever to type out i apologize </3 #anyways woo !! i love them lots <3 #also there are Probably spelling/grammar errors im so sorry lol </3 #brickwoods #bap asks #bap

[enpr-ss]

At the start of his World Domination, right after the announcement, when everyone's cheering him on, Touichirou is thinking: where is his son, why wasn't he there to support him on? :(

More Suzuki Touichirou / Claw thoughts (unorganized because I gave up lol)

Suzuki promised money and power. 100M Yen (to Joseph) isn't much. Going to assume USD.

Touichirou is mostly in Japan? Or was he scouting for a long time? Shou seems to be based in Japan ("when are you coming back to Japan?") and his dad too.

Cults founded in the past 20 years are part of Claw as funding. Also other powerful people are sponsors hoping to secure a spot in the new world order?

Did Claw fill the power gap after Mogami?

10 foreign mercenaries willing to go with Claw. In the entire world. What is this statistic.

48 YEARS OLD??!! HE STARTED WHEN HE WAS 28?

Touichirou began the official announcement even before his son thought he would (because Shou thought they would be done by then)

Interestingly, the 7th division doesn't know much about the Super 5. Seems like Touichirou really was personally recruiting

TOUICHIROU IS INCREDIBLY SENTIMENTAL AND SILLY IN HIS MOTIVATIONS, EVEN IF HIS METHODS ARE LOGICAL AND RUTHLESS.

Consider: Omurice, hometown, not killing / scarring Shou, conquering the world just to win an argument with his wife

TONKOTSU CITY?!?!?!

Touichirou jokes around and is joked with (kinda) with the Super 5. He's emotionally honest and communicative with them. Informal too. Probably because he doesn't care about their opinion of him.

Shibata isn't an idiot (ish)

Shou rebelled and ran away from home multiple times to avoid attending meetings LOL. And Touichirou just let him, because he eventually came back and life went on. Touichirou probably thought this was just more of the same.

No wonder Shou thinks his dad is cringe, imagine hearing this sort of advice sincerely from his dad for YEARS. Bet his mom heard it from Shou secondhand and was like don't listen to your dad that's some middle school mindset. I know you don't know what middle school is but trust your mother on this. He wasn't like that when I married him but that is why I left.

Touichirou does neglect Shou but wasn't straight up abusing him… until he does rip

And Shou hits right back (verbally I mean), and like dang. Kid has a point there.

Touichirou can do all 5 elements (wind fire ice lightning earth [aka telekinesis])

Even Serizawa knows about Shou's rebelliousness

TIME FOR SOME DISCIPLINE

Well at least Touichirou did his research on espers and governments. Even if he's bad at it

Touichirou is willing to engage and talk to Shou… honestly better than even my parents.

Touichirou wanted the area evacuated to not escalate things that quickly and to prevent infiltration

Did Touichirou force everyone to dress nicely for his bland welcoming parties…

Shou never wins verbally with Touichirou.. ouch.

Was Touichirou a pacifist before? Dude really thought he could conquer the world and get his wife back… basically area man doesn't want to admit he lost the 5-year argument with his wife

Obviously we know why Touichirou flashback-ed to when his wife left. But why did he think about the cat / gentle moment?

The utter "what." of Touichirou's face when Shou casually goes yeah I see mom regularly LOL. Angst DENIED.

#Suzuki Touichirou #Suzuki Shou #Shou's Mother #enpr-ss #mp100