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mooshywrites · 3 months

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Could I request headcanons of gn s/o in a poly! relationship with Dammon, Rolan, and Zevlor where they're quietly asking Rolan & Zevlor to save them from Dammon's strong grip when they see them? Dammon had a lot of requests while s/o was busy helping others so both of them were so exhausted that they fell asleep together after talking. They woke up & tried to slip out but failed XD

Adorable. So so SWEET. I’m putting in blurb, I hope that’s okay!

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It would’ve been days since you and Dammon had a break at the shop. You had recently set up an apothecary alongside the Tiefling’s blacksmith shop, excited to be working closer to Dammon. This meant you could spend more time together. Throughout the days, Rolan and Zevlor would also visit the two of you, bringing flowers or a baked surprise. Lately, though, the shops were almost to busy to eat dinner, let alone spend time with your other two men.

As you looked across your stall to see Dammon, pity rose in your chest. He looked as exhausted as you felt, black soot smudged across his forehead as he sharpened the latest commissioned blade. You had just finished your own work, finally nailing the potion your last customer asked for. You gave it to them with a smile, flipping your ‘Open for business sign’ happily.

You wiped your hands against your apron, walking the short distance to Dammon’s blacksmith. “Almost done?” You called out.

Dammon lifted his head with a smile, nodding, “Just finished the last of the sharpening.”

He held up the sword toward the light, carefully checking over it for any imperfections. It was nice seeing how passionate he was with his work, but you didn’t miss the dark circles under his eyes.

“Do you have any more orders after that?” You asked, getting closer to gaze at the blade. It was beautiful, swirls of grey winding through the hardened steel.

“No .” He shook his head. “After this one, I’m finally free. At least till tomorrow.” He chuckled.

You followed close behind as he sat the sword on a display before plopping down into the chair close by. He patted his lap, giving you a tired smile. You sat down carefully, not wanting to aggravated his most likely exhausted muscles.

“Sorry.” He murmured. “I’m covered in soot but I need a minute before I get ready for bed.”

“Bed?” You laughed, pointing out the window to the sun still an hour or two away from setting. “It’s still hours from time to sleep.”

Dammon poked at your sides gently, giving you a out, “With as many orders as we had, I deserve to sleep for a week.”

You shrugged, snuggling closer into his chest. “I suppose you’re right. You should’ve seen the way my last customer acted. You would’ve thought they had never been out in public. I can’t believe the nerve of some people.”

Dammon’s arms wrapped comfortably around you, leaning back to get comfortable, “I’d quite enjoy to hear about it, my love.” He sighed.

You spent the next hour chatting his ear off. You wen’t back and forth between complaining about the day, explaining customer gossip, expressing your enjoyment for the kind people that visited the shop. It took you more time than you cared to admit to hear Dammon’s soft snores. You focused back on his face, realizing he had probably been asleep for most of the time you had been talking. You chuckled and kissed his nose, resting your head against the top of a chair.

If you were going to nap, you couldn’t think of a better place to be than Dammon’s arms.

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When you eyes fluttered open, the sun had fallen below the skyline. Deep purples and reds painted the walls through the window, reflecting beautifully across all of Dammon’s projects.

Your attention flitted to the noise that had woken you up, the door swinging open softly. Rolan and Zevlor’s heads popped in, both smiling a s they met your gaze. You smiled back softly, bringing your finger to your lips before pointing back at the sleeping Tiefling holding you. The other two walked further into the room, Rolan putting his hand’s on his hips disapprovingly.

“Did Dammon forget he was supposed to come to dinner with all of us?” Rolan whisper yelled.

You shook your head softly, “He hasn’t been able to sleep we’ve been so busy. I’ll get up and we can grab something for him to eat in the morning.”

Zevlor nodded, walking forward, holding out his hand. “Here, darling, I’ll help you up.”

You took his hand and tried to stand, realizing very quickly that there was something wrong. You looked down to see Dammon’s arms still wrapped tightly around you. You tried to stand again, stifling a giggle when you realized how stiff his embrace was.

You were hopelessly stuck.

You looked back to Zevlor and Rolan pleadingly, seeing Rolan stifle back his own laugh. “I suppose working as a blacksmith all this time has made him a little too strong.”

You gave Rolan a halfhearted glare, hissing under your breath. “Don’t tease me, help me get out without waking him.” You demanded

Zevlor brought his hand to his mouth, contemplating the problem before him. “What do you think, Rolan?”

Rolan shrugged, giving you a smirk. “I think we should leave them.”

Your jaw dropped, realizing he was planning to leave you stuck in Dammon’s arms until he woke up. You suppose there were more uncomfortable places to be stuck.

“You’re not leaving me here.” You gaped.

Zevlor gave you a pity filled smile, “We can bring you back something to eat.”

You turned your glare to Zevlor, “You too?” You asked incredulously, your voice rising a note.

You felt Dammon stir under you, causing you to clamp your mouth shut and freeze. You turned to see if the Tiefling awoke and you were greeted with his eyes fluttering open. He brought up a hand to rub his eyes sleepily, releasing you from his death grip.

Rolan rolled his eyes, Zevlor smiled, and you kissed Dammon’s cheek sweetly as he tried to wake completely.

“What’s wrong? Is it time for breakfast?”

#dammon #zevlor #Rolan #dammon x reader #zevlor x reader #rolan x reader #baldurs gate #tiefling bachelors #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #baldurs gate x reader #bg3 fanfiction #bg3 blurb

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matan4il · 1 year

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Why I will never give up on Canon Buddie..... Listen I am just a little straight girl who grew up on romance novels. You want Eddie with a women. Well, I mean Vanessa was perfect if you were a writer.

One dare I say she was a better version of Anna and 2 with a little manipulation she could be the girl version of Buck. I mean no one ever could, so don't come for me with pitchforks I just meant in general. She was beautiful, fun, a little heartbroken and didn't add stress to Eddie. Telling the story?? So easy it's a tale as old as time. She shares his culture so let's fake date to throw our tias off. Become friends. Maybe meet Chris. Maybe hesitate to do more because she's jaded and worried it won't work out and how will that effect Chris. Like I have seriously read this story a million times yet the writers never pull the trigger.

My second thing. Again I am a moderately attractive straight single girl. It is not that hard for me to find a relationship. I can throw a rock and find companionship you know?? No disservice to us straights it's just facts. So the fact that the writers intentionally get this wrong while being so loud about the couch screams volumes to me. Especially when you couple it with the fact these 2 do not wing man for each other, talk about sex lives and only refer to the significant other to tell them to dump them. That is the loudest part about their living in each other's back pocket BFF forever relationship. I mean Eddie couldn't even process Buck taking care of himself.

In conclusion 911 if you want me to stop shipping them this all on you. I mean I will never stop. But you could at least try!!

Awww, Nonnie! :D Welcome to the hopeless romantics club! We got comfy cushions for you, as well as cookies. ;)

Regarding Vanessa, yeah. I have seen plenty of rom coms that start off with the exactly interaction she and Eddie had. He's not ready, she's not ready, they come to the date with the intent to let each other down easy, and when they realize they were never an option for the other person, it intrigues them. It could have easily developed in the direction of "instead of going through this repeatedly, how about we fake date to get our Tias off our cases?" and slowly falling for each other. TBH, I wouldn't have been surprised if that's what 911 would go with, since so many shows would. I'm glad it didn't, that the point really was to help Eddie progress on his romantic journey rather than set him up with yet another LI.

I agree with you! I already thought it was eyebrow raising when 911 let Buddie be single throughout the entirety of s3 and a respectable chunk of 4a. Now in s6, they're both once again very single. And we're talking young, good looking, heroic firefighters. It should not be hard for them to find romance, yet out of almost 5 seasons of them being on the show together, roughly 2.5 they spend with both of them being single men. When they're the only single members of the main cast! That is VERY unusual, it's not the route most TV shows would take with their only single characters, you know? That Buck and Eddie are directly responsible for this state of double singleness a part of the time just makes it all more hilarious. XD

I've said it before, I will always ship Buddie. Which means as long as the show is on air and both of their characters are alive, I will hope for canon Buddie. But even if that doesn't happen, Buddie is canon to me. The show has written and filmed their epic love story, and I can't unsee that no matter what. In my head, it will always be just a matter of time before these two morons figure it out.

Thank you so much for this ask, lovely! Have a wonderful day. As always, my ask tag. xoxox

#buddie #911meta #buddie meta #911 meta #9-1-1 #evan buckley #eddie diaz #edmundo diaz #evan buck buckley #911 #ask #anon ask #911onabc #911 on abc #911abc #911 abc

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egg-emperor · 1 year

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we have been let in on some of game Eggman's types and nobody talks about them but me lmfao

he's into buff guys- he has a hallway dedicated to toned male torsos

some of the few things that don't have his face slapped on them despite it being everywhere in the Egg Carrier with his logo and he has done that with plenty of other statues too. so he just wanted a whole hallway of statues of men's bodies that aren't his okay 🤨🏳️‍🌈

he has gone after so many monstrous beastly guys repeatedly partly because he's a monsterfucker

I guess the Titans count too but I'm too fuckin lazy to get pics of all of them

with this amount of repetition, wanting them for their power, and desiring to harness and own and control them- I dunno man it kinda makes it start to seem like a fetish thing but hey I'm not kink shaming lol. and he sounded very thrilled by Chaos and Dark Gaia and also dove right into the embrace of the Time Eater without hesitation the second he found him in space

he can't interact much with the massive monsters so it's probably more about the excitement of releasing those and harnessing them when it comes to those- but as for the ones that have sizable bodies (somewhat because I mean they're probably still pretty big 😳) like these three...

I think he would ;) like a champion

I mean Bowser and Zavok are a combination of buff and monster guys so. 👀 no surprise that they're the two he's repeatedly teamed up with, he went on a date with Bowser in London, and why he seems to have this weird thing and obsession for Zavok to chase after him like Amy to Sonic djsbsbkbfksbf

he would've loved the fucking huge ancients RIP

that's why he sounded so dramatic and solemn in the memo talking about them being wiped out, he realized how big and tall they must've been and was devastated that he was never going to be able to get some 😔

and the most obvious is he's in love with HIMSELF, so much that he's one of the biggest egotists of all time. he's so gay for himself, he calls himself handsome, compliments himself and everything he does and talks about himself with such adoration all the time

despite their clashes you can just tell something was going on between them in Generations too. OBVIOUSLY, nobody is hotter to him than himself and he'd jump at the chance to go fuck himself

and he likes men that get right down to business 🌈🏳️‍🌈🌈🏳️‍🌈🌈🏳️‍🌈🌈🏳️‍🌈🌈

I just wanted this part because it's his gayest line but it is exactly what he tries to do with all those guys so it all adds up see? XD

and a bonus is that he programmed his Egg Pawns with libido so something is definitely up with that too

in conclusion: he likes monstrous beastly guys just like his grandpa so I guess it runs in the family, and he also likes big buff guys, men that get right down to business which can both represent being aroallo and just being eager to get down and also how he wants an evil partner to take over the world with, he does weird things with robots, and most importantly he loves HIMSELF of course!!!

#you totally asked for this you're welcome #dr eggman #eggman #dr robotnik #dr. eggman #monsterfucker #my post #headcanons #pride

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kitkatopinions · 1 year

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Ooh! New ask game!

Ironwood, obviously. And Qrow too.

Alrighty, these are my boys!

Let's do Ironwood first for the new ask game

1: sexuality headcanon

I headcanon Ironwood to be bisexual with a preference for men.

2: otp

Ironqrow for life. They are just so great as a ship, with all the 'mutual pining, not actually unrequited they're just both idiots, bickering divored-couple-energy that still allows for the spark of new love, the matching color scheme they had in their first looks, the way they look at each other, the freaking hug! It's an amazing ship.

3: brotp

Ironwood and Winter. A lot of people ship them and I can see why, but even though I've long headcanoned them to be the same age, in my head they're just very close friends, close to brother and sister, which makes him accidentally want to favor Weiss and Whitley when he knows them. XD

4: notp

Ironwood and Robyn. Blegh.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

James uses the training facility at Atlas Academy sometimes and will indulge students that want to spar with him. He's always careful and takes things easy on them, and always lets them get in hits to build their self-confidence.

6: favorite line from this character

"You have two choices: Defend your kingdom and your school, or save yourselves. ...No one will fault you if you leave."

This line is so very James at his best, aggggh! Because it starts out professional and stern, not exactly harsh but more blunt, and then the students all give each other these worried anxious looks, and he softens so clearly in his tone and tells them no one is gonna think less of them, that it isn't their job or their duty or morally right to endanger themselves, and that if they make the choice to leave they can. These kids are seventeen, this might be one of the only times in the first seven seasons that anybody told these kids it's okay to prioritize their own lives.

7: one way in which I relate to this character

I am also kind of socially awkward! Ironwood with his tie adjusting and struggling in conversations and kind of stiff deliveries of things like 'it's good to see you again'... Me too, buddy, I also have no idea how to talk to people. XD

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

The villain arc, ugh. What a terribly written final arc to have. It's always embarrassing to have to specify that I like Ironwood outside of his stupid badly done rushed villain arc that turned him into a boring two dimensional evil-laughing rando with a giant gun-gun using his two remaining braincells to do pointlessly evil things just to get at teenagers. Like??? Cringe.

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

Problematic fave. Even at IW's very best, he still was flawed in some fun ways, he could do the wrong thing, he could do the right thing but do it in a way that makes you go 'huh.' (Gonna be honest, although I love cinnamon rolls, they're not half as interesting as problematic faves.) XD Aaaand at Ironwood's worst, he was a pointlessly evil stuck up bastard trying to kill and torture people for very little reason, and not in a fun way.

Now for Qrow

1: sexuality headcanon

I headcanon Qrow as bisexual as well, and I also headcanon him as having only realized he was bisexual as a grown adult (partially because Qrow is one of my faves and I project onto my faves, and I only realized I was bi when I was a grown adult. XD)

2: otp

Ironqrow again. XD This ship is just so good that it's my number one fave for both characters.

3: brotp

Qrow and Ozpin. This is a ship that I could see myself enjoying, but what I enjoy even more is them as close friends, with Qrow looking to Oz for guidance and as an authority figure and then the roles reverse when Ozpin gets put into a teenage body and suddenly Qrow is the guide in charge.

4: notp

Funnily enough, this one is also Robyn. Qrow and Robyn started being a ship when she caused a fight and then partially due to her actions, the queercoded Clover was brutally murdered, and then Clover and Qrow spent an entire season doing next to nothing but talking to each other despite their relationship mattering less than any other relationship Qrow had that could've gotten developed, and Robyn compared her problems with her active truth-telling semblance to Qrow's "I hurt everyone around me" problems caused by the passive semblance that makes his life harder despite him not doing anything, and then she was like "don't be sad that your actions helped the Salem worshipper brutally murder your friend, he was probably secretly evil and bad and you're better than that despite the fact that I've known you for like a day." Like, their relationship is nothing but angering for me. XD

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

I have this headcanon that Qrow doesn't realize it, but his bad luck semblance tends to react to large emotions he has. He still absolutely can't control it, but when he's calm and casual and cool, his semblance affects him and the world around him a bit less, and when he's really angry or really sad or even really happy his semblance kicks up and sometimes does really big things like cause unexpected rainstorms and make the electricity in buildings go out and stuff like that.

6: favorite line from this character

Raven: "They were your family." Qrow: "You have a very skewed perception of that word." Maybe it's just because this line fits into my headcanons, but I love it because Qrow's past easily lends itself to him having been abused by the people in the Branwen Camp, and then acquired a found family in Team STRQ and Ozpin, and now he has Yang and Ruby and he was involved in picking up the pieces when Raven left and then again when Summer died, which was probably devastating for him. I also just like Qrow's quippy nature and I like that at least someone was calling out Raven on her BS.

7: one way in which I relate to this character

Despite the fact that I've projected onto Qrow, we actually don't have very many similarities. But I'd say that although it's not nearly to the point of Qrow's own issues, I also struggle with feeling like a burden to the people around me and too much of a mess to deal with. I like writing for Qrow partially because it's a good way to explore those feelings.

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

"The size of the waitress's skirt length" Ulgh, gag me with a spoon. The at the time all male writers and one with a particularly bad past regarding misogyny on a show concepted by a guy who likes animating a seventeen year old woman character's boobs to bounce around to a jeering laughing cheering crowd... Yeah, no thanks. I much prefer writing my version of Qrow to flirt a lot but know where the line is and not do things like talk about how hot he finds miniskirts on service workers to his two underage nieces.

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

Problematic fave for sure. Even at his best, Qrow is a rough-around-the-ages spy with shady connections blindly following a leader and not seeing much wrong with getting kids involved who also picks fights with people and is drowning in his own emotional problems in ways that have negative effects on the people around him. But Qrow also (especially in the third and in the eighth season) like it or not also suffers from the problems of the writers, whether that's never giving a damn about inequality, objectifying service workers in a funny story to his underage nieces, seeming weak willed and hypocritical due to the writer's misuse or retconnings or making him go along with whatever Ruby says after Argus, or actively aiding a servant of Salem in volume seven and losing all his braincells in the process so the writers can force it to happen. Either way, Qrow is very problematic, in some fun and interesting ways and some not so fun ways.

#rwde #canoncrit james ironwood #canoncrit qrow branwen

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indecisive-dizzy · 4 months

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I’m brainrotting over Howdy and Eddie so have some ideas

The main idea I’ve been having is how they ended up experimenting and dating each other, because that’s a pretty big jump lmao

I imagine a while after Howdy moved in, he and Eddie would hang out all the time. They were basically attached at the hip, that’s how close they were

I mean, could you blame them? They literally lived together and they were best friends, of course they wanted to do stuff together

After a while, and after Howdy and Eddie had a heart to heart about what happened, me thinks Howdy was developing a crush but didn’t really realize it was a crush

He’d say stuff like: “yeah, of course I wanna hold his hand and kiss him and spend every minute of the day with him but isn’t that what all best friends think?”

It took Eddie’s siblings literally spelling it out to him to realize it was a crush :,)

Howdy’s freaking out about it because he’s scared of what’s gonna happen when Eddie finds out, what if he gets weirded out and doesn’t want to be around him anymore? He’s worried to ruin their friendship

Plus he’s still struggling with understanding how he feels sexuality wise. He likes girls still, but he has no idea if he likes guys in general of if he just likes Eddie because of everything that’s happened and how Eddie’s his best friend (only friend /j)

Still, I imagine Eddie finds out one way or another (he’s crushing too but it’s slightly more blatant as he’s 100% sure he likes men at this point)

They definitely need to talk about it but just don’t know how or when to do so 🥲🥲

👏Oblivious👏Howdy👏Is👏Peak👏Howdy. I swear this man knows nothing until it's spelled out with a PowerPoint Presentation lmao XD

maybe Eddie's siblings help him figure it out, telling him it's fine/normal to like girls and boys. but they couldn't tell him if what just an Eddie thing bc who knows. Howdy still panics bc he has a crush on his best friend but he'll figure it out, right?

Eddie on the other hand is just quietly sitting there wondering if he should say anything about his own crush on Howdy. He doesn't want to scare him ya know? cuz at this point he isn't sure Howdy likes guys.

When they do tell each other it's awkward but also wholesome. Eddie is so understanding and probably the best guy to have your first gay crisis about. He's such a sweetheart and he's happy to just talk it through

They try dating and once they get into the swing of things not only does Howdy better understand his sexuality, but they are insufferable.

You thought they were attached at hip before, good god they can't do anything without touching. Hands are everywhere. Other hands, hips, back, hair. Eddie practically moved in to Howdy's room so they can cuddle.

idk how they break up, but I imagine it's just an "oh we really like cuddling n spending time together but I'm not like In Love with you." They love each other, but they later understand they're not In love. Which is fine! They keep cuddling though, bc I live to normalize platonic cuddling.

#a bit long but they deserve it #also bc this ask took a bit to get to so longer answer to make up for it!#srry i just really want them to cuddle sobs #it sounds like a dream sigh #but yeah they're definitely awkward in the beginning #but they figure it out! and become the most annoying people in the house #Eddie's siblings are 5 seconds away from throwing them into the yard at any moment #its hilarious lmao #welcome home #eddie dear #howdy pillar #eddie x howdy #dizztalkstoomuch #neon child

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fantomette22 · 1 year

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Heyy, how/when you realised you were aro and ace? It is always interesting for me to listen to how people found themselves. (I still haven't xD)

Alright it's time !

Ok so I actually got lot to say and could talk about that subject for hours lol but the more I thought about it the more I have to say and the more some specifics things exhaust me and remind me of not really great stuff so let's keep it simple ! (+ there's a few personal stuff I don't wanna discuss publicly

Process to do a whole explanation on aromantism and asexuality in the first part...

First should i explain simply what is asexuality and aromantism are 🤔 ? I can understand it can be a bit complex for people who don't know what it is. Even I got confused at times XD

I will try to explain really simply here and I'm not the best at explaining stuff. So for more info there's the Aven website for exemple and there's many other cool sources online 👍

So to put it really really simply someone asexual is someone who don't feel or experience sexual attraction ((like most people.)) (Most of the time it don't ever happened at all but it can be extremely rare (gray ace) or it happened only get it if you're really close to someone (Demi ace).

The way I personally saw it is that I'm not going to go somewhere and want to hook up with the first nice/pretty person I meet in a bar and is interest in me or smt for exemple XD. (I know it's really cliché sorry, glad to know not everyone actually do that too lol but you get the idea. It happened to some people and it's ok I hope they have lots of fun everyone ! 👍 Really when I was a kid it got me super confused to see that in movies and still today I'm like ?????? ok sure ??? have fun ??? like theoricaly I know it work but I can't experience it .I can't relate, that would be just forcing myself do something I don't wanna do.)

Asexual can still experience romantic attraction and want to do normal dating stuff too. Like it's just there's not that super interest in the other thing you know XD they're not after you're booty (I can't believe I'm writing this)

And aromantic is really similar, it's when someone who don't experience romantic attraction ((like most people)). Or some do experience it really rarely or after a really close bond with smn. Still they can experience sexual attraction.

Personally I found hard to understand why people would date smn when they don't know each other very well? And then learn to really know each other when they date? That's completely ok but I really can't imagine myself with someone who's not a close friend of mine that & I knew for a while at the very least. Like what if you find out they're not a good person or an absolute idiot or you realize your life projects are incompatibles?? That's too scary for me💀

Like I understand how that work theorically but if a friend tell me they had a crush on smn we saw like just a few times I would bet so confuse.

Then aroace is well both things XD

Disclaimer : yes an aromantic person can still enjoy/want to date someone and an asexual person can still have/want and enjoy being intimate with someone. Some on the contrary are completely revulsed by it that and will never want to do that. And for some it depends. It's kinda a spectrum and depends what the person is comfortable with and might depends a bit of the other partner too. + people grow and a few things might fluctuate or not.

It's all about feeling ATTRACTION. Like for exemple a hetero girl (normally) is not going to be attracted to like another girl. And a gay man will be well attracted to men. What people don't always equal what they're attract too.

Still you know you can have aesthetic attention and stuff like that. Like : oh that person look pretty or pleasing to look at #stantardbeauty stuff made by society. But I don't find them hot💀 dafuq does that even mean XD (now I think I might get it. I'm unsure lol) More likely that I would very much prefer to be friends with smn really out of the standard look for exemple.

I won't see a person (ok more a picture or smt) with less clothes on for exemple and be like "oh" 😳. Like that's just a person WHAT DO YOU MEAN ???????

The closet I get too is : oh this characters (maybe work for people too) look super cool ! 👀🥺idk how to explain they look so cool and nice and pretty. Hm

+omg teenager (pre teens especially) talking about s3x all the time omg 💀 why?! Like it annoyed me so much I just wanted to talk about manga, books, movies and video games XD when it's serious convo it's cool but I didn't get it and those dumb jokes 😂 (some ace do many jokes too depends of the person). I really didn't like the subject at all (especially in not fiction) but now I'm way more ok with it in fiction now 👍 and with it in general I I think? (the jokes I mean)

I know my ideas of romance and all (in fiction hm) is the most vanilla and fluff things ever too (ok I imagined angst in my head smt) XD but I also need moments to compensate you know ^^' ?

OK now that the presentation is done. let's answer to the main question XD. I hope I explain correctly ahaha 😅 (I can't even do that easily in real life...)

Well, I think I kinda knew something was up when I was a pre teenager but I didn't knew the right terms at the time. I didn't knew/understood that most people were well allo sexual/romantic (who experience romantic and sexual attraction easly👍 the opposite of ace and aro)

So I fully realized I was ace then aro (some times after) and came across the terms in hm 2017 if I remember correctly ? Or wait maybe in 2018? (thank you teenager crisis and depressed state I can't remember this period well !) So when I was 16+ after my first year of high school. (But like first and last time I had a boyfriend I was like 10 years old lmao. I liked him but I was happy because everyone was happy you. Almost got with a friend at 12 but didn't work out. )

So hm high school happen and some of my friends and I got new cool friends and we become a super group of friends ! (only like a fw couples formed and it's cute <3 and I thought I had a crush and 1 if not 2 of my new friends 💀 that was a platonic crush Fantomette you didn't wanted do to anything with them pat pat

Then months later I come across the sacred word ! 🙏 : asexual

"Oh wait that's me" -big aro and ace moment (and much later aromantic)

Still figuring things out today because it's quite complex but yeah 100% sure I'm on the acespec spectrum. And well I don't really experience this types of attraction for what I'm aware of. But who knows it is possible I found someone I feel comfortable and close enough with to be in a relationship (even a queer platonic relation ship hehe) but well I don't wanna bet on thet so who knows.

I think I have friends on the spectrum (irl) too but sadly we didn't really talked about it that much.. only with a few non close friend from high school and we kinda loose touch. But I'm happy I know more people who well understand. My friends we really acceptant but some didn't all really fully understand and I can understand that but somedays were not fun XD but well they're great friends (+ with well a few people who are themself queer or really understanding of that it help. But it's nothing compared to the dumbasses who were really not nice (the worst if that some saying the most mean thing were even lgbt+ themself 😭and I could say nothing like I couldn't just came out to them not a good idea I hate most of my classmates from 2020-2022 sorry guys <;/3 and I can't really blame my relatives who didn't understand well, they might try their but it's complicated

+ I can count the people who show interest in me (that I'm aware of) since high school on my fingers. Like some days I really wanna have a soulsmate or smt (or maybe someone I will be close to but at our rhythm) because yes having someone to share your life with can be cool and sounds nice? but the second someone (I don't know well) show interest in me I'm like :

NO THANK YOU I'M NOT INTEREST HELP WHAT DO I DO

Somedays I think meh maybe I could try ??? but idk.

So well if that happened that happened cool ! if that don't happened that don't happened ! I just wish people just weren't annoying about it. The "have you a boyfriend ?" question traumatized me I think XD I mean it's not like the first question I would ask smn, but when it's been a while you saw a friend or relatives or are knowing someone slowly it can be important to know if they share they're life with smn, normal. So in normal circumstance I wouldn't mind but hm... the commentaries after 🙄, when I answer "no" sometimes it's gold ! Like don't ask me why ! bruh do I ask why you don't have/have a boyfriend/girlfriend or why you're married or why you have children???? or how don't worry you will find the right one later ! LIKE please don't. I understood super late it's actually reassuring for allo but it's not for me 😅 Like I wish too smt lol but there's lot of chance it don't happened too so pls. Can people just say it's ok if that don't happened more ;-; that you can be happy and accomplish great things on while living on your own (or not the usual family definition) and it's ok ?

Sorry for the rant just don't do that to people whatever their orientation are you don't know know what they have going on in life. Just a "ok" and move on. Or I guess you could ask more but only if the person wanna talk about it you know. So yeah when someone ask me the question (more when it's relatives I know well) it really really annoy me all the time. But well I was lucky it could been worse. Still not cool but I wish everyone didn't had go through more awful things.

(Also strangely maybe I dodge huge bullets because I just wasn't interest to the first person who came so... fair enough. And damn how do you know smn crush on you or smn else ?? I am so bad to saw that thing XD)

Ok that was long I ramble a bit XD I just needed to express myself x) I will stop here.

I have a lot on the heart and not lying some days it's hard I wish it was simpler but I don't see how I could be happy otherwise. (SO goal n°1 in my life : finish study, have a job, a house & adopt cats or smt. Optional goal : maybe found a fellow person to hang hung with me ! Or at least cool friends x)

And I'm so happy to knew otherace and aro and aroace persons online 🥺❤️ and really supportive person in general.

So yes I'm glad I learned about this and hope I can help people to learn a bit about it as well. It's really important for many. And I wish there were more stuff about it. It's complicated to understand what you cannot fully understand and ever experiment but it's important to just be kind and open and to accepted.

So love you everyone bye bye~

#warning vague mention of acephobia and arophobia but nothing too harmful. It's more misunderstanding of it #asexual #aroace #aromanitc #aromantism #asexuality #so I actually did smt way too long lol #yetting this bye idk what I'm saying anymore I'm tired #won't talk about too much personal stuff either here It's more a share cool fandom stuff blog. but it's good to do so at times #it's my view on things too it's differents for many persons #lots of things I didn't talk about too but goos enough #also it’s ok to take the time to figure things out 👍

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tinytinybumblebee · 2 years

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Jack-Jack thinks Stede's rules are very stupid and annoying, he's just getting in the way of having fun!! Eddie didn't have naps before he met Stede and he looks so happy running around he doesn't need to sleep all day!! But then he sees an overtired Ed tantrum and maybe mum is right on just this one small thing this time

Oh noooo xD

Jack-Jack sees rules as sooooo boring! Stede has soooo many, they're silly and no baby needs that many!

So, perhaps the ship is docked and Stede has to go do some pirate stuff on land- so, Button's is in charge. And, Ed is a tyke and he's playing with Jack and having soooo much fun! But, it's getting close to his nap time, something one of the other crewmates mention to Jack.

To which Jack is like, "Pffff this tyke having a nap? He doesn't even look tired! Mum just makes him nap because he doesn't know how to have fun! Aint that right Eddie?"

And Ed nods just because he doesn't want to stop playing xD

Buuuut a couple hours later- Jack-jack gets to meet an overtired Ed. Jack playfully teases the tyke and that is just thr tipping point for the tyke! And, Ed is crying, throwing a fit, just very upset and overwhelmed!

Thankfully Stede juuust returned so, Mama steps in and scoops up his fitting tyke, cooing and softly talking to Ed.

"Oh my, I know that cry, did my little squid miss his nap? My, you must be very tired, yeah? How about Mama gets you all cozy and we can have an early night-night?" He says as the two men are heading below deck.

Leaving Jack so stand there and realize that maaaaaybe Stede has /one or two/ rules that miight be right to have- xD

#agere #age regression #fandom agere #sfw #mailbox #ofmd #edward trench #calico jack

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ahufflepuffhobbit · 2 years

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Soundtrack for the Kitty Bilbo fic then? 🥺😍

Okay! Links included! I will be straight up for all these soundtracks, I don't have any lyricless ones. Instrumentals are for me in the background while I'm reading or something, I don't put them on fic playlists. So this is an 8 song playlist:

Read the fic here!

Character Intro Songs King and Lionheart by Of Monsters and Men - I MEAN. You knew this was going to be on the playlist, right? Do I need to explain why?

Human by Daughter - I knew, as soon as I started making the playlist for this WIP, this song was going to be on it. Bilbo will definitely have a period where he's like "okay, so I'm just going to be a cat forever" and worries about what that'll mean. (I guess all the humor in this story is gonna come from Thorin >.>)

Arms Tonite by Mother Mother - This is the most Thorin/Bagginshield song. I have it on this (one of the first songs because I imagine it playing as they're on Ravenhill) as well as my playlist for I'll Die to Care for You, because. Well. The lyrics.

Conflict Song Control by Halsey - You know, I would say the main conflict actually is prompted by Thranduil, but it brings up all of Thorin's bad feelings about himself, which I think this song sums up pretty well XD

Scene Songs Daylily by Movements - A later scene, but at some point, Thorin will be outside with kitty!Bilbo, and Bilbo will just feel thankful that they can be together and he can see Thorin in the sunlight, even if he is stuck by his side in cat form.

Oleander by Mother Mother - Look, Thorin goes through his own (somewhat brief because he has a new cat!) angsty period when he finds out Bilbo 'left' and feels pretty awful. This is the song for that scene.

Animal by Troye Sivan - I don't know what scene in particular this will be, but I imagine it playing in the background one of the times that kitty!Bilbo is on Thorin's bed while he's recovering. Thorin would be talking to the cat, and Bilbo would be so charmed and that is when he realizes how much he loves Thorin.

Clearest Blue by CHVRCHES - This is the big scene! Bilbo will eventually get turned back into a hobbit and they're gonna confess their feelings! I just think that this song has the perfect vibes for that scene and this also just feels really good for Bagginshield.

Ask me about my playlist for my WIPs and posted works!

#my fic stuff #bagginshield #weekend wips #cat!au

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atxxzist · 2 years

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Right I actually came across your account while browsing Seonghwa's tag, but one of my San biased friends said they had read one of your San fics before. Maybe I should let them know you have a new one!

I think this is quite common, people who are friends mistake friendships for romantic feelings or lust gets in the way and things become complicated. I'm glad Y/N and HJ realized it early on. Neither of them was a bad person, they just had an idealized vision of one another like you said, so no surprise it didn't work out. I think they were both too similar and too different if that makes sense.

I see, the grip fuck/bad boys have on many writers is very strong 😀 I don't mind this trope if they're not just a walking red flag from the beginning to the end and Y/Ns know how to stand their ground. ETL can be very very good, that's why I gravitated towards Blacklist after all. In the end, it doesn't matter how you start, but how you finish. So Blacklist turned out nice in my opinion.

And I appreciate long answers, so don't apologize! 💞 btw, I have a hedgehog I named after Seonghwa hence my emoji choice - 🦔

skskdjskd plsss 😭 not y'all talking about my fics. im even more embarrassed she read my san one, haha. ok but hopefully this new one will be alright. i think.

and honestly. some ppl r just better off as friends, which is why when they try to give a relationship a go and it doesn't work out, they end up resenting one another. speaking from experience. had hongjoong and y/n gave it a go (which tbh i did considered making them actually get together at one point) they wouldn't have worked out anyways. so their downfall was truly a blessing in disguise.

the hold toxic men; badboy/fuckboy has over me is unreal, it's not even funny. more so if there's angst. i do like getting my feelings hurt ngl 💀 BUT only if it's San. i am a little biased and will admit i do mostly only read fics for him, which is why i mostly write for him as well. I agree tho. I love a good ETL and the ending is really what make it or break it.

and omgggg 😭😭 that's way too cute. now im just imagining a little seonghwa hedgehog running around. plssss. 💖💖

maybeee if in the future i come back with another seonghwa piece, i'll be waiting to hear from u again XD i swear, that man has tumblr atinys on a chokehold (i see lots of fic 4 him)

#ask[💌]#anon[🦔]#🖤blacklist🖤

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abrushwithdeath · 2 years

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What plots do you want to write most? Are there any characters you want to write with Rogue?

Tossing this under a read more in case it gets a little long but...

I'm gonna start by mentioning characters I'd like to write with because that's easy as fuck: anyone! Like, I'd love to write more of her with Destiny and/or Mystique, obviously. Or Kurt! God, I'd love to get some sibling bonding / stupidity with Kurt xD But, overall? I've got no real preferences :) Though other X-Men would be great!

Plots are a little trickier because, depending on the situation, the other person and I might have to actually talk it out a little before actually writing it? Or at least discuss it a bit as we go. Both of which are GREAT because I love talking plots with people! But it does make it hard to mention anything too specific.

Some things I'd absolutely fucking love though are, like:

Anything including someone entering and enduring her mindscape. Telepaths have a notoriously difficult time getting into her head because of the chaos and because of her mental defenses. She's on guard in her own mind basically 24/7. And even when they do get in, it can be a lot to handle because it's just so much fucking noise constantly. It's why she doesn't get much sleep (unless either she's too depressed to give a fuck about the noise and just... succumbs to it, more or less. Or, sometimes, sleeping near someone else helps because she feels more at ease and it helps her keep her own thoughts at the forefront of her mind, even while she sleeps. Because, to be honest, even while she's sleeping she's actively thinking as opposed to passively doing it because she has to or she risks getting lost. That, in itself, is exhausting). I love the idea of someone just unwittingly walking into that, or not realizing the extent of the issue until they're in it. She's usually really good at keeping herself together and seeming, for the most part, pretty normal on the outside. Like, when she first takes on another personality, it might take her a few moments to get control of it, but once she does it almost appears to people on the outside as if there's no more struggle, like she's totally fine. She's been wearing "masks" her whole damn life- even before her powers manifested- so it's easy for her to play it off. Of course, in order to get into her head in the first place, they'd either have to be stronger than her mental defenses (which have been difficult for even Xavier to get through) or she'd have to trust them enough to let them in. Alternately, if you catch her in a bad enough mental state she might just have let the walls crumble enough that someone can slip in without much hassle, so...

Brotherhood stuff. Now, here, I'm not talking full blown villainess, yet. I'm talking about one of the following: 1) Her time with the Brotherhood when she was younger. When she cared more about winning her mothers' affections than about what she was actually doing. A time when she was naive and far more easily manipulated because she just wanted to be loved. 2) Any time post-Carol, pre-X-Men. So during that period of time where she was losing control of not only the powers she'd taken from Carol, but of herself. The times that she felt like a passenger in her own body. This was a super crucial time period in her life, to be honest. And it was Mystique's apparent lack of concern for her mental wellbeing that eventually pushed Rogue to go to Charles in the first place. So either exploring that or, like, exploring the opposite. That is to say: how things would have been different if she'd felt listened to and supported through her ordeal to the point of not leaving to get help from Charles. 3) Never getting the help she needed and, instead, staying with the Brotherhood. This could end any number of ways. I do feel like this is, ultimately, the path that could have led her to not just being the kind of "bad guy" she'd been up to that point, but into eventually growing cruel and callous and uncaring. It's the path that would have been most likely to lead her from being a girl who desired love and affection to becoming entirely detached from the world and everyone in it. BUT that's not the only way things could have ended! There's a "What If" comic where Carol takes over (and she eventually ends up with Captain America???). And, again, if she had had the kind of support she needed from the start, maybe she could have learned, on her own, to control her powers? This one is pretty much wide open to whatever, ya know? 4) Choosing to return to the Brotherhood after getting help. For some reason, this is particularly interesting to me, to be honest? Mostly because I feel like this was definitely possible. She wasn't easily accepted into the X-Men, after all. Hell, half the team threatened to fucking quit when Charles said he was tossing her onto the team. So she felt alienated all over again. She was alone. And there's even a part, while saving Mariko, that she said something along the lines of "joke's on you, they don't care whether I live or die" because that's sincerely what she thought- if she died, the X-Men wouldn't fucking care. And, hell, maybe the Brotherhood wouldn't, either. No one would. If it hadn't been for that moment where Logan finally accepted her, saved her life... she might have either gotten herself killed just to prove herself... or maybe she would have gone back to her mother? That would have been even more likely if she felt she had a friend / friends inside the Brotherhood. So- she gets just enough help to keep control away from Carol's persona... and then she goes back because she feels like she doesn't belong with the X-Men, anyway. It's not like they want her there.

Lastly, just straight up fucking, god awful, full villain mode! I don't really have to say much more, I don't think lol Just, her recklessly stealing powers, draining lives, having to deal with the consequences of hundreds of people screaming and agonizing inside of her head, driving her to a breaking point... which just leads to her all but shutting down emotionally. Of course, I also love the idea of someone saving her from it, because she's lost herself almost completely by that point. OR Someone she used to love, someone who knew her before everything went to hell, having to be the one to kill her. Complete with that soft, thankful, little, smile as her mind clears and, for just a few seconds before she dies, her mind is finally quiet. That's about all I can think of right now, but I'll reblog this and add more as I think of 'em!

#wanted plots #((I should have answered this yesterday but- at least it's answered NOW!#When I should have been in bed an hour ago lmao.#ANYWAY- yeah! Just throw ideas at me! I'm always 100000000000% open to 'em!))#Oh wait- it was SUNDAY when I reblogged the ''ask me anything'' meme. So I guess I should have answered this on SUNDAY.#Well anon- if you're out there #I hope you see that I've answered this lol))

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x-reader-theater · 3 years

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Hey first I want to tell you that I love your blog and writing so thank you for writing and sharing it with us!!!

And I was wondering maybe a Spencer x reader or a team x reader and the reader got a high emotional intelligence and it's help on cases but they realize to do so the reader had to put a little bit of themselves like if the case really rough they're more tired and just angst cause of that but a fluffy happy ending please?

Thank love you take care and drink water 💙

This reader is gender neutral since a gender was not specified. Also this is purely platonic but if you want some PolyBAU at some point in the future I am so down. I really hope I did this justice!

Warnings: Mentions vomiting.

@mystic-writes I love you. That's all. Also they edited this. XD

"So, how did you know Grant?" you ask the woman sitting in front of you. "He was my boyfriend. We've been dating for three years…" the woman says and you can see the sadness in her watery eyes. You feel your heart clench for her. "I can't believe he's dead…"

JJ looks at you, concerned when you don't tell her your follow up statement, so she says for you, "Grant was murdered by an unsub who's been proving these men are unfaithful."

"What? Grant would- he wouldn't- you don't mean…" the woman trails off, and she puts her head in her hands as she begins to sob.

You feel your chest tighten and you suddenly feel like you can't breathe. You shut your eyes before wrenching them open and getting out of your chair, beelining it out of the small room. You run through the precinct and out through the front doors into the cold, winter air of New York City. What you hoped would be less stuffy is actually worse, and you look around for a trashcan.

Seeing one, you bend over it and vomit up your breakfast. Or what little is left of it.

As your body heaves, you feel a comforting hand on your back and Emily says quietly, "Shhh, it's okay…"

You cough a couple times as your body tries to expel anything else, but nothing comes up. Eventually, you're just panting over and spitting into the trash can every few seconds. You pull away and sigh deeply, taking the handed napkin and wiping your mouth with it.

"Are you okay?" Emily asks and you nod.

"Yeah. Yeah. I'm just not feeling very good," you say, and she nods, rubbing your back again.

"Let's get you back inside and I'll get you some tea…"

You wave her off. "I can go back in on my own."

She looks at you dubiously before nodding. "Alright. I get you one of those expensive Starbucks teas you like." You nod at her, thankful, and walk slowly back inside.

You make your way into the back where the team has been set up, and you sit in one of the uncomfortable chairs, putting your head in your arms. You hear the door open and looking up you expect it to be Emily, but you see Derek instead. You groan and put your head back in your arms.

"Woah, what's the matter with you?" He asks.

"Go away."

You hear the chair next to yours pull out and he says, "No, something's wrong. Are you okay?"

You look up at him and snap with a glare, "I'm *fine* Morgan. Leave me alone."

He frowns as well, though a lot less maliciously and says, "Okay, what we're not going to do is yell at each other."

You look over at Derek from your arms and mutter, "Sorry."

"So, what's wrong?" He places a hand on your shoulder and you sigh.

"I just don't feel very good. I think I had a panic attack…" you trail off, looking away from him. He squeezes your shoulder and you lean into the touch.

"Is there anything I can do to help?" You shake your head and he squeezes your shoulder again before letting go.

He goes to leave, but you call out, "Wait." He stops and looks back at you right as he's at the door. "Can you turn off the lights?"

He nods and smiles, doing as you ask, plunging you into near darkness. You're so incredibly thankful for the darkness. The headache that's pounding at your temples lessens slightly.

The door opens again and something is placed in front of you. Looking up, you see it's a hot Starbucks drink and you grab it, wrapping your fingers around it. It's too hot to drink, but it gives you some feeling in your fingers.

Emily quickly leaves the room, passing Hotch who enters next. He goes to flick on the lights, but at your very visible wince, doesn't. He walks over to the table and sits down in front of you.

"JJ said you ran out of your interview…" Hotch says calmly and you nod. "Is there a reason why?"

You pause at that, trying to pinpoint the exact thing that made you run out. But, it isn't just one thing. It's multiple.

"I just- she lost her boyfriend. They were probably going to get engaged, get married, and the whole time he was cheating on her. First she has to deal with the fact he's dead, and now that he's been cheating on her this whole time, and god! What if it isn't such a bad thing he's dead! I mean, what if he deserves it!" you exclaim.

"You don't mean that." Hotch says it as a statement, not a question, and it makes you pause.

You sigh. "No. I don't. I just- I feel her pain. And I'm just… overwhelmed I guess."

Hotch nods. "Go back to the hotel. We can handle the case. Take Reid with you. You're rooming together and he needs sleep as well."

You frown. "Are you sure? I'm able to help I-"

"I'm sure," Hotch cuts you off. "You need sleep. He does too."

And with that, Hotch gets up and leaves the room. You sigh and grab everything you need before leaving. You blink as the bright fluorescent lights of the station only help to aggravate your headache, but you walk over to Spencer and place a hand on his shoulder.

"We're supposed to go back to the hotel," you say.

He frowns. "I still have work to do. I'm in the middle of our geo-profile."

You shrug. "Hotch's orders. And besides. You only have two bodies. You'll need a third if that's ever going to be accurate. Come on. Get some sleep," you say, squeezing his shoulder and pulling him towards the door.

"Okay, okay. Let me get my stuff."

You nod and wait for him to put his files into his messages bag and slip it over his head, before walking over to you.

You leave the precinct and start the short walk to the hotel. Spencer bumps his shoulder with yours, his hands in his pockets, as he asks, "Everything alright?"

You nod and put your own hands in your pockets, the chill of the air biting into your skin. "Yeah. I just… this case is really difficult. And having to talk to the victim's families… I guess it's just too much this time," you explain. "I just feel too much and I don't want to. Usually I can tell what someone is thinking and empathize with them, even the unsubs, and it gets us out of plenty of scrapes, but today I just… don't care about the victim. Like, I feel like I don't care if they live or die. And… and that scares me."

You sigh as you pour your feelings out to Spencer, who reaches over and wraps an arm around you. He stops and pulls you into a hug, something he's only done once, and you wrap your arms around his middle.

"It's okay to be scared," he murmurs and you nod. He holds you for a few more moments before pulling away and smiling at you. "Let's get some dinner before we go to sleep. We could both eat, and we're not technically working right now…"

You smile and nod, squeezing his arm as he leads the way.

#bau x reader #bau x you #bau x y/n #bau x gendee neutral reader #criminal minds reader insert #criminal minds x y/n #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds #my work #my writing

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bleulone · 3 years

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Can we talk about about how Colin looked in ep 1 when he first saw Marina compared to how he looked when he saw Pen in ep 8. Almost the exact same look! Of course his look to Penelope is probably more about his guilt because he brushed her off when she tried to warn him but still..progress! Lol and then when he's getting ready to leave for Greece, he glanced towards Penelope's home. I think they're having Colin's feelings for her grow gradually in the show instead of all of a sudden like in the books.

Hey! Thank you for this insightful ask of yours :) Sorry for the late answer, I took a long time to write this— without further ado, here we go!

Indeed, Polin is first and foremost a story of gazes, those gazes being of many natures. Whether they are love ones, friendly ones, admirative ones or lustful ones, looking imposes itself to be a huge parameter in Penelope and Colin’s love story.

In order to understand that on screen, film-making has at its disposal a very rich and smart langage of its own. Sometimes, comparision helps to underlines the differences between one character’s relationship with person A mirorring person B. I feel like Shondaland and Chris Van Dussen wanted to introduce the audience to the evolution of our Bridgerton men’s perception of Love. For instance, while Anthony views attachement— to Siena— as a way to escape his responsibilities before becoming his villain (...until our queen ma’am Kate Sheffield comes to the picture), Benedict doesn’t comprehend this universal concept and prefers to enjoy the many physical pleasures life can offer. In other words, the older brothers already explored their sexuality here and there, making them the infamous rakes that they are. As for Colin, it’s a complete other thing.

Colin is young. Very young. At 21, he’s just left Eton College and barely knows anything of the world nor women. Like Anthony said in 1x06, Colin hasn’t been taken to brothels which is a very important step in the building of young men’s sentimental and sexual education during that time period. Since he missed this essential step, our sweet/immature boy has no clue about how to deal sagaciously with his feelings and his “foolish” impulses, baring his naivety. At this point of the story, we can easily come to the conclusion that Colin is a virgin who can’t drive XD. He’s just a child overcame by his passions, a hopelessly romantic who rushes things without taking the time to properly court or know his significant other. And his off-screen flirtation with those supposed numerous girls in London isn’t of any help to justify his (oh so little) experience. So when he sees Marina, he’s so struck by her... mainly by her alluring appearance. And he doesn’t seem to let his eyes nor mind go beyond her exquisite beauty.

In this perspective, the whole Colin/Marina storyline can be perceived as a parallelism to the Pen/Colin’s one. In 1x01, he is immediatley smitten with a dancing Miss Thompson, which happens to be ironically the same case with a 17 year-old Pen but with him. We got to see her, a few moments ago, dreamily looking at him from the back of the dancefloor (echoeing the episode where she fell madly in love with him after he fell off his horse at Hyde Park). She’s charmed by his dashing look and his kindness, yet she doesn’t seem to know anything else about him considering the rare conversations they share. Her burning gaze fits the original story from Julia Quinn’s books because in Romancing Mister Bridgerton, the 28 year-old spinster Penelope do realize later on that Colin is more than a good looking man : he’s a human who possesses a temper and flaws.

Either way, both of our boos are portrayed as hopelessly young people in love who childishly idealize the objects of their affection.

In 1x08, it’s the other way around. It’s Colin who sees Pen first, her who appears to wear the yellow dress’ lookalike from the pilot—what an interesting call back ^^. With his mouth slightly agape and his eyes wide open, we can catch sight of the timid spark of a change in his gaze : Colin Bridgerton notices Penelope Featherington. He‘s touched by the realization that she cares about him. It would be rather inappropriate of me to say that Colin is already in love with her. However, in the finale, I do believe that he’s more struck by her high level of deep care for him than her beauty.

We are thus able to spot two big differences in Colin’s relationship with women in this season : when his attraction to Marina was purely physical and rushed, his attraction with Penelope is more emotional and slow. And for now, he comes to cherish his special bond with her, especially after she tried to warn him of the dangerous trap he was about to fall into. Even if he just sees her as his younger sister’s best friend right now, Pen matters in his life. And it’s still a little yet important progress for sure.

Speaking of which, I agree with you that this look of awe as well as realization is mostly mixed up with guilt. Since he didn’t take into account her words, he felt the strong need to apologize. But bear in mind that guilt formulates a considerable part in Colin’s feelings for Pen... and it’s only the very beginning. In the future, he’ll blame himself for not seeing her as the beautiful goddess and siren that she is in the first place. He’ll blame himself for not reciprocating the feelings for her.... Though at the moment, due to his lack of experience with women, Colin is oblivious to Pen’s obvious signs of sorrow when he told her he’s leaving for Greece/Cyprus. Next time, he’ll detect her sadness and won’t let her go, I’m sure of it (if he doesn’t I’ll riot).

Furthermore, I’m so glad you brought up the scene where Colin glances at the Featherington house. I had the same thought as well. When you put this still and the one where Pen is crying while looking at her window side by side, it even seems like they’re looking at each other. In a way, it implicitly confirms Pen’s key role in his final decision... After all, she’s the one who inadvertently inspired him right ?

The act of traveling has always been seen as cathartic since leaving home to discover yourself allows you to heal your broken heart and soul. It’s natural for Colin to do this. To make his first real steps into the world. His choice is quite relatable more than it is essential for his arc in the series. I can’t wait for him to come back all changed, hot ^^ and mature. I think, like you said, they are planning on making him progressively falling in love with her. Colin’s feelings will gradually leave the platonic zone to explore and officially stay in the intimate zone throughout the seasons.

Overall, the Colin/Marina and Colin/Penelope parallel in s1 mostly helps viewers to compare the way Colin evolves from being a stubborn naive boy to a heartbroken young man who’s aware of his crutial need for Experience. His coming of age, just like Pen’s, has just begun. And they will surely lead to our boy changing himself into the true charming rake that he’s meant to be and our girl into a more confident woman. Consequently, I think their story won’t take 10 years but rather at the very least 5 years perhaps to fit the TV timeline. Once Polin will finally be able to discuss, we’ll hopefully get to see more interesting nuances and shades added to the portrait they painted of one another over the years. They’re indispensable to the slow build up of their emotions/attraction as well as the shattering of their childish idealization/perception of each other.

All in all, I’m so loving the fact that season 1 beautifully sets up the importance of the gaze in Polin’s love story. This first installment is like an expository scene of a play. It leaves a trail of clues and pieces of information here and there at the reach every viewers who can pick them up and analyze what can be the main themes which will determine one character’s story arc/romance. With Polin we have : admiration, wit, love and friendship, desillusionment. (I know they are more but it’s all I can think of rn lol).

If we’re already emotional messes just with the mere power of them looking at each other, imagine when they’ll actually talk and share real conversations. It’s going to be a long way to canon but luv me some good fluffy angsty steamy slow burn :) ✨ I hope this long of mine answers your ask ahah, even if I talked about many things other than just Polin’s looks. Also, sorry if you spot some grammatical mistakes, English is not my first language.

#bleulone answers #anon #ask #meta and gush #polin #polin meta #colin x penelope #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #julia quinn #romancing mister bridgerton #bridgerton #shondaland #chris van dusen

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sp-ud · 2 years

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THAT WAS SO GOOD but also so bad but also SO GOOD.

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- [Cartoonish awooga noises] Mr. Cicle my beloved deranged radio host and his ad orable pinstriped outfit and his deranged enthusiastic pessimism M w a h! Mwah! The best part of the entire thing love him cherish him always.

- Tubbo shouldn't have agreed to come, the only person who can make humor out of their technical issues is Fundy, thanks.

- We still have a lack of coordination in terms of everyone being entirely too fucking inattentive and loud even after being told to pause and pay attention.

- Dream was AMAZING! He fixed his voice changer. Dream XD needs a cooler outfit ngl but STILL!! Also lampshading Connor for time traveler numero dos.

- The anime about-to-bust voice bit was incredibly annoying but they're young adult men who am I to judge, fine, they had a good time.

- ORION DIED TOO SOON THIS IS A TRAGEDY. C'EST UNE DISASTRE.

- The set design AND game mechanics used were magnificent, I like mazes and traps and games way better than basic PVP.

This is a big step up from season 1 so far, most of the problem lies in casting and focus.

im just imagining u like a teenage girl on her bed with one of the phones with the curly cords lying on ur stomach kicking ur feet in the air whenever u talk about mr. cicle/cycle.

yeah tubbo honestly should have sat this one out. theres humor out of ur tech errors then theres just adding too much noise to an already overlapping conversation.

honestly i was shocked how railroad-y karl still had to be. surely these guys realize that the point of a LITERAL MAZE is to get to the end. right???

bro that voice. hated that shit. oh my god.

TRUE

yeah they were so amazing KARL DIDNT FUCKING CREDIT THEM IN THE FUCKING CREDITS. they at least better have gotten paid a shit ton if they weren't even fucking credited.

yeah, the actual quality seems to generally improved (except for the many minutes with karl writing in silence and no narration. karl fix ur shit not everyone wants to read Minecraft text as its being written), it was really the people who made this tftsmp feel shit imo.

#asks #tftsmp critical

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shrubdoesstuff · 3 years

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Hello

This is gonna be a Miraculous Ladybug rant.

We're talking about Marinette/Ladybug and Adrien/Chat Noir

Ok, getting right into it, let's start off with Adrien/Chat Noir. Why does my dude BARELY get screen time? I feel like there's such a missed opportunity with him. Why don't we get to focus in how he feels? When he's Chat Noir, you can tell the relationship with him and Ladybug isn't really that healthy. How come he tries his best, and is probably one of the reasons that they can save Paris in the first place, and Ladybug just brushes him off? Like, she acts as if Adrien's contribution doesn't even matter, and they don't focus on how HE feels. "Oh look, he keeps pestering Ladybug, what a jerk", "Ladybug just brushed him off like he was nothing, HAHA so funny!". Like seriously, can you imagine how he feels? It would be interesting if they had an episode where he just snaps, (as Chat Noir maybe??), and Ladybug realizes that she's been being such a jerk to him the whole time. They make it seem like "none of this would be possible without Ladybug", but what about her L I T E R A L P A R T N E R. Ladybug doesn't even TREAT Chat as an equal, she treats him as her student, or like a lesser being. A pest. Let's move onto Adrien, no Plagg...no Chat Noir..... just Adrien. My dude seems like an emotionless jerk. Ok, well not exactly... but most of the time. It kinda seems like they're trying to push him to the side. I get that they're promoting girl power, and trying to support that, and that's AWESOME! Women are awesome, men are awesome, genderfluid people are awesome, non-binary people are awesome, and so on! They're not bringing women up, they're bringing men down. Give Adrien a personality! Make a understanding between him and Marinette, and get him to show his true colors around her! Do SOMETHING, because whatever's going on, is just making people dislike Adrien.

Also, can we NOT make Marinette that awkward?

Like, geez dude. I get being awkward around your crush and what not, but this is taking it to a new level. I feel like there should be another episode featuring Marinette and Adrien doing something that they really like to do, together, and Adrien sees her real personality, because this is just going too far. I'm not really gonna talk about this specific topic anymore, because this is kind of just a minor opinion I had. I know earlier I was talking about Ladybug being kind of rude to Chat, but you could say, in her defense, people expect her to be perfect all the time. And that she has a fear of being rejected, and emotional troubles of her own. Now, here's what I think would be great. That's right, this is the ultimate fandom rant, we're adding in a headcannon. (Don't @ me lol)

An Episode I Really Wanna See Happen:

-Them fighting an akuma (then winning), and Ladybug poking fun at him/putting him down (with innocent enough intentions this time, although she's tired from fighting.)

-Him just busting and scream-crying his feelings

-Him almost getting taken over by an akuma

-Ladybug helps

-They're about to de-transform, so boi, BYE

-Ladybug trying to confront him BUT

-Great, now there's someone else who got taken over by an akuma, and there's this awkward tension between the two

-A reporter mentioing it

-After the day has been saved, Ladybug finally confronting him

-More crying, and yelling, and confessions of feelings from our cat boi

-Ladybug apologzing, and them talking it out a little

-Chat Noir kind of asking Ladybug how SHE feels

-She talks about her fear of rejection, and how she's been feeling

-It's just a vent party by now

-Marinette and Adrien hanging out the next day, and having a good time, because both of them are feeling much better

-Adrien understanding Marinette more

-Him becoming really close to her, and he shows his true fun personality

-This might kind of be two episodes, but oh well

-Sue me man

-This headcannon is now over lol

Tell me if you guys wanna hear my take about Kagami and Luka next, because I'd really love to!

You don't have to agree with me, and I'd love to hear your opinions.

I'm probably just gonna do a Kagami and Luka one anways XD

Anyhow, I hope you have a great rest of your day! Bye for now friends.

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When you get pretty much told you make a person feel physically uncomfortable and full of anxiety- it's understandable that you'll feel bad.

But when that person WON'T give valid reasons, hasn't told you why and refuses to engage in convo so you can solve it- are you really the weirdo- or are they?

Now, I gotta say- I'm 5'7, a bit buxom and a bit awkward af.

You know that kid doing yoga/foam sword fights on your lawn at 6 am? That's me.

I have no qualms about my weirdness. At 28, I learned to stop questioning it.

Because when you have Aspergers, you can either become a miserable fuck who makes everyone else's lives miserable out of your own lack of understanding how conversation works OR you can try to fit. And while you do, make people laugh.

My dark humor was what actually saved me. And I went from a girl who was usually in a hovel and obsessed with dark things like Silent Hill and death to helping people conquer their fears. And teaching them what was behind all that gory stuff that scared them in a horror movie.

Despite that, I occassionally am still considered a bit scary to those who don't know me. Especially if they haven't met me in person. Because trust me- meeting me in person- you'll find I'm talkative but bashful when complimented. (I especially blush when I'm in cosplay and someone who knows me compliments my outfit.)

I hide constantly behind a belief that I'm tough. That nothing scares me and that I've waded my way through the goriest films that would make you lose your lunch to. Don't ever call me on that. I'll fumble up nervously- citing A Serbian Film as my darkest film.

But for God's sake, I wish people looked deeper. I wish they saw that I have repulsions, fears, hopes and dreams. Just like them.

You know someone tapped my shoulder a few days ago to get my attention and it put me in a foul mood? I don't like being touched. By anyone. It's an Aspie thing.

You remember that? Well that's me internally anytime someone touches me.

Regardless- past that is someone who covers her eyes during horror movies, loves Cardcaptor Sakura and has celestial bedsheets. I write so much smut and sketch so many outfit designs, I have the gray pencil stain down the side of my palm.

And as I hide myself in Silent Hill, that is my attempt to indicate to you I feel detached and unwanted. I realize it's subtle. I realize my depression buries itself even in things I love- but it's those very monsters that have taught me to be strong.

Those things that go bump in the night? I know them. I was them. And I only really become them over again when someone puts me under harsh lighting. In essence- I turn into the scary thing you project me as to get you to leave me alone if you're going to hurt me. As long as you try to understand- I won't. But the minute you become intolerant- I turn on you the same way you have to me.

I've heard in the Amazon- if you cross a snakes' path once- you never go back that same way. For a long time, I was that kind. You could cross me once, and I would make you regret it when returning.

I was quick to bite, wound and emotionally wreck people in a show of empty pride or vindictiveness.

I hurt people.

And cried everytime my proverbial knife went in them. Wishing they would leave me alone. Wishing the world in one hand would leave me alone while in the other, wishing they would try to see past my surface. All the while- self-sabatoging each time things fell apart.

I became a hermit in any way I could. My bed was my refuge. Curled up in the fetal position often as my clean clothes laid on the floor.

I stopped caring. And stopped allowing love to fill my life. All the king's horses and all the king's men indeed could never put me together again.

It was only after medication and therapy that I began to rise from that. I was who had to fix myself.

I was shown love by people who healed themselves and wanted only to help me understand the thing I feared.

Love scared me. And as my best friend has made my wallpaper- it rings true.

"How can anyone be afraid of love?" "How can they not?"

It was love and acceptance that pushed out fear and hatred. The hug you never got but could feel your friend 100 or so miles away give you when your world broke.

Do you know how hard it is to hug someone so tight, all their pieces come flying home? How much that takes and to have them finally understand they're loved?

The person who does it saves you. They don't save you from life or depression- they save you feom yourself.

As my world brightened, my fandoms brightened. And there, FFXV came into view. Bright colors and fun and a dark antagonist. I have the best of both worlds in that fandom. Between Prompto or Ardyn.

And lemme tell you.

....

It's hard choices, man xD

But symbolic. One is light while the other is dark.

So now we come to the conclusion.

Earlier, and for a week now- I have been treated as weird. Unwanted. And not told why.

I have wracked my brain trying to figure out why someone who doesn't even know me- I make nervous. They have made me cry, be in a bad mood and in general- not want to go on the Discord server we share.

But tonight- something turned in me. My give-a-shit light flicked off.

And then I realized it-

I don't give a fuck if they're afraid of me. They don't know me. And eventually- they're going to wear themselves out scared of someone simply wanting their own acceptance.

When someone says what they said to me- it stings. Oh, it stings. But try this on for size-

(Continued in next post.)

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