#i am big sad rn

[capribornio]

It gives me Feelings going from the Meenkat upd8, in where they reaffirmed how much they loved each other and how despite everything they had each other through thick and think, to... this.

#I am Big Sad rn #Homestuck Beyond Canon #Upd8 #My post

[meiknshi]

throughout  ryo’s  life , tragedy  had  been  a  constant  companion. it  felt  as  though  from  the  moment  of  his  birth , he  had  been  thrust  into  a  world  of  relentless  turmoil. the  very  presence  of  yamirei  served  as  a  haunting  reminder  of  the  hardships  that  seemed  to  define  his  existence. the  news  of  itadori’s  death  had  struck  ryo  with  a  forceful  blow.  and  the  moment  he  heard  his  sister's  smile  flashed  across  his  memory.  the  loss  of  an  innocent  life  ,  a  life  snuffed  out  before  it  had  a  chance  to  fully  bloom.  he’d  been  on  a  mission  and  wrapped  it  up  quickly  when  he  thought  of  megumi  and  how  he’d  react.  the  kid  didn’t  deserve  to  go  through  something  like  this.   

❛❛  what are you doing here ?  ❜❜ / @jikoku

ryo  ascended  the  steps  with  the  cigarette  dangling  lazily  from  his  lips , the  tendrils  of  smoke  curling  and  dissipating  into  the  open  air. he  settled  down  next  to  megumi , leaning  forward  and  resting  his  elbows  on  his  knees  looked  ahead. his  words  came  out  in  a  rough , nonchalant  tone , his  usual  way  of  addressing emotional  matters.  ❛❛  wrapped  up  my  mission  early.  thought  I’d  stop  by.  ❜❜  he  was  never  one  to  excel  at  the  touchy - feely  stuff , a  trait  that  had  been  ingrained  in  him  over  the  years. his  method  of  offering  support  was  often  by  merely  being  there , by  sharing  the  silence , the  solitude , and  the  weight  of  their  shared  burdens. with  megumi it  was  no  different. 

 he  stays  silent  a  long  moment  before  taking  another  drag  and  blowing  the  smoke  off  to  the  side.  ❛❛  you  want  to  talk  about  it ?  ❜❜  he  finally asked , his  voice  carrying  the  weight  of  genuine  concern  beneath  the  layers  of  his  guarded  exterior.

#answered #verse / default #omg #idk how this got so long #anywaysss enjoy #i am big sad rn

[decisions-at-3am]

How cruel it is, To have so much love. And no one To give it to.

#writerscreed #original poem #poem #spilled ink #dark academia #poetry #my poetry #original poetry #poets on tumblr #writers and poets #my poem #writerscommunity #love poem #love notes to no one #love #just a silly little scribble #because i am feeling the big sad rn #and i would like to be productive and write instead of wallowing in sadness + insomnia in bed #also hilarious evolution here #my gp called me to tell me i'm showing signs of anxiety + depression #so i have to go in for a chat with the mental health specialist #my mum is acting very concerned lol - and whilst ik it's coming from a good place #i wish she'd stop #there's too much that i've hidden from her for various reasons #and i will not be getting into it ever - i have no resentment #if i could go back i would do it all the same #however i am considering being completely honest with the mental health person #i've never told anyone the full extent of everything and i'd like to...

[short666bread]

#drarry #draco malfoy #harry potter #draco x harry #harry x draco #sometimes self indulgent wallowing is so satisfying #a fact about me is I am literally resting on a pile like this as we speak and also I am very sad #it feels v dramatic #but actually this is just how I’ve been sleeping lol #because the bed has a big dog in it and all over it and she’s a little stinky and also not great for like skin care #and the couch is a mid century modern joint with a horrible angle and wood between each cushion it’s basically a bench #and also has dog all over it #i love her sm but I’m trying to fix my face #i am staying w someone rn #the laundry is clean btw #anyways whatever

[floating-ocean]

Me at 3am.

#food #burger #love #3am thoughts #3am things #hungry #always hungry #patrick star #chill vibes #addiction #lol #gif #me rn #why am i like this #spongebob #humor #funny #funny memes #me #big sad

[asterbats]

drew my new kitten as a “warmup” but have to stop here because shes being a rascal

#her name at the shelter was pog btw. like the game but now her full name is cricket pogchamp #cat #cricket #pets #artists on tumblr #drew some blue in her eyes. bad at picking colors from irl that much but shes got a very small blue ring in there still #though shes close to having her regular eyes. i think they will be yellow? #i love her but whew cant wait til shes big......... will probably update what she looks like #tried to make her look deliberately worried with her whiskers btw. she seems sad but she was abnormally snuggly on day 1 #she cried in the carrier and hid under my drawer for like 5 minutes then instantly got to exploring and 1 hour in she showed her belly #which. im a first time cat owner but im told thats absolutely insane for a kitten on day 1 #shes already sleeping on me and stuff and snuggling next to me.... playing w her is the hard part bc lack of energy #idk if itll ever be enough for her but i am trying! i want her to be happy. also i think rn she mostly likes me when im sitting #otherwise she darts away when i walk around. i think bc im like this weird giant to her #oh also shes apparently just tiny? bc her mom was small too so she'll probably grow up to be a small cat #everyones going on abt how my aunts cats were bigger at her age sdklfjsdlfds (8 weeks almost 9!)

[mossflower]

okay not dropping out 👍

#mostly bc i am on my period rn and i stand by the idea that you should not make big life decisions while actively bleeding and feeling sad #but also my current two career options are a) writer. which is not a stable income source. and b) librarian which i need a degree for anywa #i mean there is c) astrophysicist but atm i would rather gnaw my own arm off than stay in uni a moment longer than necessary #i do not think i am built for academia let’s just put it that way. and you kinda absolutely need a phd for astro jobs #we’ll see in 2026 i guess. i know i want to work this summer and replenish my frankly depressing savings #but the summer after i might look at work experience and placements and see if there are any astro related ones #idk. i just miss home a lot and i’m always bored and stressed and every time i think about money i feel physically unwell <3 #morganposting #i wonder if anyone actually reads these. what even are they. diary entires slash record of mental decline?? idk #if you do read them just know that this was supposed to be a fandom blog not 60% diary. i’m sorry and i love you <3

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

right i'll just say it

i don't believe that feng xin and mu qing actually hate each other. not during the events of the novel, at least.

i think xie lian thinks they hate each other, and maybe they did as kids!! but xie lian, as much as i love he, is an unreliable narrator as best, and willing to play a bit fast and loose with the truth at worst. i say this NOT as criticism!! as ive said, i love him!! i do!! he can do anything he wants and i will cheer him on!! i love it when my favs are ~problematique~ or whatever. i literally don't care!! buuuut....i ALSO don't really take everything he tells us at face value for that reason. and also. 800 years is a. very long time. too long to spend hating somebody. esp somebody ur evidently in close contact with?? somebody u share a fucking territory with, and tons of history with??? someone who has literally been there for ur entire fucking life???? ur feelings will get all twisted up, even if u don't want them to. healthy?? probably not. still true?? YEah. 😔😒😩

speaking of. it's,,,,,pretty obvious they spend a lot of time together. ''''willingly'''' or otherwise. they're completely synced up. like an ancient ipod and an old-as-fuck computer. messy and not optimised but they get the fucking job DONE don't they. and honestly their personality issues line up so well!! one jumps to conclusions, the other gets stuck on tiny details. one takes everything at face value, one overthinks everything. one wants to be needed, the other needs to be wanted. they're a match made in----

well. u know. the heavens i guess!!! 🤣🤣🤣

#i did a meta #birb still says #fengqing #fengqing meta #does this make any sense?? im having a. bad time rn and can't tell #i am writing this to distract myself from the sudden Big Sad can u tell??? lol #this is my meta for fengqing month #since i probably won't manage to contribute for real #but we'll see #i'll TRY ok?? #tgcf meta #whatever just ignore me

[recreationalfanfics]

NO BC THE WAY BANE AND TWO-FACE AND ROMAN SIONIS ARE ALL FINE IN MY EYES.

#ROMAN IS HORRIBLE YES BUT HE'S SO FUNNY IN THE COMICS I LOVE HIM. #ANS HARVEY DENT IS SUCH A SAD MAN I LOVE HIM. #AND G O D I LOVE BANE #A BIG INTELLIGENT LATINO MAN WHO WAS FORGED BY THE CRUELTY OF OTHERS!? #Y E S #I am having feelings rn #harvey dent #roman sionis #Eduardo Dorrance #Two-Face #Black Mask #Bane #Dc comics #dc x reader

[parasitic-saint]

wasting a whole week by sleeping is making me want to cry

#the parasite talks #i'm still able to do my work in a hurry but my godddddddd #this is getting so sad #i know my friends love me but i feel like such a burden and such a bore when im always like this #please i just need my 30°C spring and horrible solar rays #i still cant wake up before 12pm on those days but i am awake more at night at least #rn i will have to force staying awake #maybe energy drinks might help idk anymore #coffee doesnt really help but maybe the caffeine in those might jumpstart me #i just need to get my horrible life in order again and stop thinking how easier it will be to just kill myself #i know spring might not fix me but at least it will be a big help not having these cold temperatures (which arent really cold anyways) #but i hate anything below 25°C #i feel like that scen where will graham is crying and shaking before hving the seizure that's me but i dont have a seizure and i dont... #...look pretty im just depressed #and i am the only one who has to take my sorry ass out of this #and i know the big amount of priviledge i have to just be depressed and sleeping for a whole week in my bed without a worry and just feelin #miserable for myself and i wont be a danger to myself do it's just a spoiled brat's shit

[rose-ramblings]

you'll never guess what I've been playing lately

#goldic's drawings #vegito #dragon ball dokkan battle #good news everyone! I found a shading brush that I'm happy with! #i'll finish that other thing I keep mentioning eventually I swear I've only got 3 characters left to do on it #but uhhhhh y e a h I've been playing Dokkan for like a week and a half now (blame the content creators for making it look really fun) #I understand absolutely nothing other than 'it's a big number go brr type of game' #but it also gets me to use some strategy in my team building and fighting which I am very much enjoying so far #i didn't get Mr. Yosha himself or melty Zamasu (much to my personal sadness) but I did get a copy of Power-Awakening Piccolo #and enough of that PHY Zamasu with the tea set to rainbow him (and waaaay too many of a certain SR SSJ Goku that can awaken into SSG) #and a copy of that new Mai I guess (I'm not entirely sure how to use her properly in battle yet but I'll figure it out) #I've been calling that PHY Zamasu I mentioned 'Tea Time Zamasu' btw (mostly cuz of the tea set in his art) #oh yeah speaking of Tea Time Zamasu that man's been carrying my team in terms of eating hits like a champ so #definitely gonna be using him a lot; especially since *gestures to blog theme* he's one of my favorite villains in dragon ball #I haven't Dokkan Awakened the Piccolo at all yet (he's just a max level UR rn) but he's been pretty damn useful in taking hits himself #first unit I made an LR (besides the free one) was a Zamasu that turned into an LR Goku Black (F2P STR I think; he's my support unit rn) #I've also already collected all of Bardock's F2P crew and mostly maxed them out because I'm totally normal about it hehe #bardock's crew best crew I don't make the rules #goldic rambles #this is transparent because I couldn't figure out a decent background to give it

[tamsreblogs]

I kinda wish that,,if u blocked something or someone, all existence of that thing is gone from ur TL. like I do not want to know that this thing (that I do not want to hear of) or (this thing that is aggressively not my cup of tea) exists anymore in my periphery lol. Why is Tumblr taunting me with a greyed out 'this post is hidden because it contains a word you blocked/muted etcetc,' bec to an extent I still can guess what it is and blocking is literally supposed to help u with the out of sight, out of mind stuff, isn't it?

#listen this does include shipping #everyone deserves to live in peace with the stuff they like and they should have a choice of forgetting the stuff they dont ?? #no ill will that way #but this was mostly bec of the political stuff going on w the strike rn #like idk man this shit looks so bleak for the art/entertainment industry #will i ever get to work with a studio :') #i rbd that donationg post (and eill do it again) but now all i see are doomsday posts abt whats coming up and #...i am big sad #but also #if u are someone who dors take the time to tag ur posts #then ur the mvp m'dude #edit: the typos in these tags got progressively worse as i went on bec i was getting carsick writing this LMAO I AM SORRY

[lunarharp]

various witch stuff of the day or whatever the heck

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhh yeah just getting some stuff out of the way haha i like the first one tho. i drew something that scares me #iguin must have been involved in qifrey's thing somehow. The Lidless eye..the sight of the world..i mean i think [redacted] #and he'll be [redacted] and [redacted] will be forced to... [redacted]???!?!!? #I want to keep my theories to myself.......or do i. not being a fandom person (other than dropping my art and leaving) means i just.. #combust inside by myself with ideas and FEARS FOR THAT MAN.....CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM IM SO WORRIED IM SO... #CAN YOU LET SOMEONE HELP YOU #apparently tetia's expression in the last one is hard to understand =.= she's emotional bc she cant believe they remembered #the twin hat idea. and that she's so happy. i was thinking about how she was probably qif's first pupil so there must have been a time #where it was just her qif and oru... i DO think she is hinted strongly to be trans but even if not her mystery background is probably so sad #why would qifrey even become a teacher? his goal was the brimhats. but he keeps being distracted by kids with problem pasts so #he must have only been drawn to help tetia out of a deep sympathy. it seems at that point he and oru had drifted apart #did oru decide to be his watchful eye hearing about that or did qifrey ask him? he thought that qif had given up on brimhat stuff so.. #*mumble mumble* lately i also keep remembering oru saying something UNREAL in kitchen like 'we're finally living under the same roof' ???? #you can't just say that. what on earth. i..... whatever. i haven't even processed like 20% of my potential emotions about them #i feel so weirdly emotional today. i stopped thinking about witch hat for zuka even tho im SO hyperfixated it is genuinely PAINFUL to stop #i stopped just long enough to watch gatsby raku.... my haachan #i'm so grateful right now that i dont have any big issues in my life rn so i can get worried about manga men and sad about actors retiring #today at least i am extremely grateful. living and being alive is so so so so weird. i hope we all make it

[tastywaffles]

my delusions and daydreams are not helping anymore 👍

#comfort yt vids r kind of helping #but rn i wanna sleep but i cannot because i am just so pissed and sad 👍 #i am so sorry to u if u have a big brother like fr i dont wish that upon my enemy #i wanna sleep but i didnt have dinner cause i was just sad instead and now im hungry

[testing-tranquility]

Trass.

hi :)

#am I allowed to ask if u want to overwatch duo #sorry im so sorry I genuinely tbh dont expect u to rly answer this BUT I kinda lowkey asked u on discord like a week ago #if it was ok if I like… idk talked to u and wanted ur time like a lil baby #and I see ur on ovw rn #AND IM NOT GONNA ASK bc I don’t…. feel like I have the right to but……….. good luck out there ok and we’ll #if u wanna duo cough cough im here… aha… taah…. sweats and laughs and throws myself off a cliff #anyways. ANYWAYS. sorry sorry. sorry. ok im. im sorry. #hi #I don’t rly know what to say to u but I just #I want… anything.. idk…….. hi #I really really think im so crazy you know #i just #idk anyways alien was sick it was a fun experience w sam btw and im still drunk tee hee. if u couldnt tell #i rly do like those xenomorph critters idk why but I’ve always thought they’re so cool…….. #i mean…. acid blood…. they’re so big… BIG TEEF……… very cool…… #hhhh…..hhhhi……… <- not sad not desperate aaahahhaahaaaaaahhahhhhaaaahhahahahhahahahahaha #throws myself off a cliff regardless #beeba my beloved #answered #deedis #ew wait I was asking to duo in a tumblr ask here LOL ok sorry I don’t expect u to answer that tbh I rly don’t #I justttttt #idk #idk I just miss u so kuch I hope that’s okay and im sorry #ugh ur prly not even gonna see this I feel so stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid #I mean u prly will but maybe tomo or in quite a few hours or something or #idk I guess that’s okay #idk. idk #anyways… hi I guess

[jikigo]

you ever just see a post and just

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#Worst emoji combo ever but it’s gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up #don’t you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years you’ve only seen people the large total of…. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon #outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years! #Don’t you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid #shit like your average high schooler would do and you’re just like “oh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the #entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over you” oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking #ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so #thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck #And now I’m debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me #There. I wasn’t even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone else’s shoulder #everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and I’m just there talking to one friend who I don’t even think is my friend #“Hey man I’m really fucking sad rn can I talk to you” “womp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when #you talk about anything else about me” oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn #At least someone wants to talk to me #Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me I’ll change I’m amazing at changing my personality to fit others #promise me on that I’ve done it my entire life #Even just messaging me more than once every year and I’d consider you my best friend this is how bad I’m getting #What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I don’t care how badly you fucking word it just something #It shouldn’t be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you #Oh dear did the gc’s without me in it there’s one for every friend group I’ve ever been in why isn’t there one for the main group I’m in rn #Idfc anymore just tell me what I’m doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place #And it’s always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject #Please if you’re someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I can’t fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like #Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me #It shouldn’t be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what I’m in rn #I fucking hate everything