#i am losing it oh my god

[skywalker-swift]

i rose up from the dead i do it all the time...i am getting tired even for a phoenix, rising from the ashes...

#taylor i am losing my mind for you oh my god #taylor swift

[theoldkyokodied]

Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')

#tomgreg #succession #dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel #and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited #so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate) #im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen #thats the kind of person i am #dont look at me (lying on the floor) #okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting.. #i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow.. #greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included) #greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor #i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg #only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual #oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before #but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine #i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...

[theminecraftbee]

-slamming bolt upright in a cold sweat- what do you mean verbal contracts cleo. what do you MEAN verbal contracts cleo. artists if you're doing commercial work you're A) charging much higher rates and B) making them SIGN A CONTRACT, right? right? you understand why that's VITAL, right? why having a written contract is VITAL for commercial work? you understand? you make them sign a written contract? please if you go looking in proper artist/graphic design circles i'm sure you can find a basic form that's legal in your locality and doesn't require you talk to a lawyer but if you're doing commercial work you're MAKING THEM SIGN A CONTRACT RIGHT--

#stream liveblogging #sorry someone in a chat in my discord mentioned cleo said they were using verbal contracts and my raised-by-lawyers self sat bolt upright #artists: you can get away with just an email chain with a noncommercial commission #but if you're doing someone's branding/merch/commercial work #you've both GOTTA charge WAAAAY more #and you've GOTTA have a contract #and you've GOTTA check out the rights stuff (hint: you aren't giving them perpetual rights to the design unless you're charging out the ass #i'm not an artist or a lawyer so i don't know the exact details of how this should go down but #ohhhhhhh my god. #anyway this isn't supposed to be discourse i am certain basically every youtuber does this. unfortunately. #and i don't BLAME the ones who have because they just probably hadn't realized/assumed the people they were commissioning would know #but i'm just losing my marbles for a moment don't mind me. #oh my god. #ANYWAY BACK TO MY NORMAL SCHEDULED POSTS--.

[philocalistwrites]

I CAN'T FUCKING HANDLE THIS OMG

#hannah waddingham #rebecca welton #holy fucking shit #oh my god #i will explode #shes a fucking god #how #i am literally screaming #im in awe #THE FUCKING DRESS #THE HAIR #EVERYTHING #SHE LOOKS SO GOOD #HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE #im losing my mind #women #ted lasso #im obsessed #step on me pls #golden globes

[flipomatic]

#rwby #rwby spoilers #bumbleby #blake belladonna #yang xiao long #rwby volume 9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #spoilers #rwby 9 #THE BEES OH MY GOD #I AM LOSING MY MIND #FINALLY #SADO:GJKEALNRDGKLNJAFESDJOG #]HOLY SHIT #BUMBLBY IS CANON

[thekintsugikids]

someone pointed out something i’d been delusionally thinking about patrick’s in-ears for a bit and i feel like i’m going insane

#god. can you hear me. #immediately texted rachel am i being punk’d rn bc……..ain’t no way……….. #patrick stump #fall out boy #fob #soul punk #my brain is losing functionality #like i gotta be hallucinating……. #healing tour of all time n all that oh my god #have yall already seen this probably but I HAVENT good god

[witchinatree]

who up thinking about they "why is it so easy for you to imagine losing me?" vs "i deserve to lose you, the pain caused by losing you will never outweigh all the bad i have done. it will hurt me forever but it is what i have earned." jonmartin dynamics

#i'm supposed to be writing this paper thats 20% of my history grade #but i got distracted and listened to mag199 by accident (youtube autoplay.) #and i sorta realized like #“why are you okay with losing me” vs “why am i allowed to have you” #oh my god #you know??? #the magnus archives #tma #tma spoilers #the magnus archive #jonathan sims #jon sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #jmart #tma jmart #tma 199 #mag 199 #once again hurting the jonmartin community #i am the jonmartin community #they make me ill #crying over jonmartin at least once a week

[lover-of-mine]

Not to sound crazy but already doing it, I went through most of buddies Big Conversations, and conversations when they are on the same level while sitting down are about Eddie. I explained it in more detail here, you can read it if you want. But this is about Eddie. I will bet you RIGHT NOW that this is about Eddie.

When Buck needs reassurance, they are not at the same level. Just look at the talk on the balcony after Maddie leaves in 5x04 or the kitchen talk in 6x12 or even when Buck says it would've been better if he had been shot in 4x14. Buck is looking up. ALWAYS. But when it's about Eddie, they are sitting down and on the same level. Just look at the skateboard thing on 3x12, or the talk about Ana in 5x02, or everything about Eddie's breakdown in 5x13. And they are not sitting side by side so it's not about Chris, because when it is about Chris and they are sitting down, they are on the same surface in a sense, the fountain in 2x10, the hospital bed in 4x14, even the floor in 5x10. If this is not about Eddie they really switched the rules here.

#I AM LITERALLY GOING INSANE #LIKE OH MY GOD #AND THE WAY BUCK IS LOOKING AT HIM #IM GONNA LOSE MY MIND #911 #buddie #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #buddie thoughts #911 spoilers #911 speculation #911 abc

[hayaku14]

I'M LOSING MY MIND OVER THIS CONAN x FRIEREN COVER OH MY GOD

#detective conan #sousou no frieren #dcmk #edogawa conan #frieren at the funeral #frieren #HOW DID NO ONE TELL ME THESE ARE LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THINGS TOGETHER OH MY GOOOOOD #CONAN PUTTING THAT BLUE FLOWER CROWN ON FRIEREN'S HEAD OOOOH GOD IM GONNA LOSE IT UGHHHHHH #me when i think about fantasy kaishin au meeting with frieren #AND HIMMEL MY BELOVED #OH GOOOOD #i am SOOOO NOT NORMAL ABOUT THIS #i love em ;-; #such a pretty cover ;-; #OH GOD FRIEREN IS CARRYING CONAN RAAAAAHHHH THAT IS TOO FUCKIN ADORABLE PLEASE SKDNSJJSNS #i need to lie down #dc prattles

[shesmore-shoebill]

i am. in tears from laughter over this conversation. "i'm not going down this road, i've already said enough-" cut to fifteen seconds later "-you're a sex machine-"

#smosh #smosh mouth #amanda lehan canto #shaymanda #shayne topp #I am. LOSING IT. #you can see amanda's panic rising and THEN- oh my god im laughing so hard what is this whole thing #i have so many things i wanted to clip from this but i Had to do this immediately #critical context is that before this is a convo about how when amanda panics in social situations she doubles down #and then you see a. beautiful example of it live

[celestriix]

some wrio doodles + sigewinne’s stickers

#celeste draws stuff #genshin impact #wriothesley #sigewinne #wriolette #THIS MAN OH MY GOD #losing my mind over him #help #i am not prepared to hear his voice #anyway #im so normal about him.

[legjames]

pov: you realise you are deeply in love with a demon

#good omens #crowley #aziraphale #EVERYDAY ITS A GETTING CLOSER #OH MY GOD ONLY TWO DAYS LEFT #I AM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

SO. TO KICK OFF THE WEEK OF SPECULATION BEFORE THE UPDATE DROPS.

last night i had a bit of a Revelation. literally. i borderline woke up in a cold sweat with this realization. the way i lunged for my laptop to scream at friends... ough. lets get into it

so. i do believe I've made a couple of theory posts about Barnaby not being quite as receptive to his and Wally's "forced" best friendship as Wally - since the show wrote them to be friends instead of it happening naturally. i thought it might be a point of tension for Barn. i thought a lot.

YES SO I'M TOSSING (almost) ALL OF THAT OUT THE WINDOW!

the bios state Barnaby as Wally's best friend multiple times over. it had to be regularly reinforced. their colors were chosen to mark them as friends.

but Barnaby - presumably - can't see the bios, he wouldn't know the scripts. the friendship would be natural from his perspective. how would he know otherwise? even if the relationship started out synthetic, i don't doubt that it became genuine. in the context of their world and perceptions, realistically speaking Barnaby probably wouldn't sense anything wrong.

the reminders to be best friends weren't for Barnaby.

they were for Wally.

i'm starting to suspect that Wally is Barnaby's best friend, but Barnaby isn't Wally's. i think that Wally's "best friend" is Home - or at least Wally has a closer connection to them / Home is more important to Wally than anyone else is.

i remember reading this livestream trivia (from theneighborhoodwatch's doc, if you haven't their resources yet what are you even doing?):

and i assumed it was for Barnaby's side of the relationship. but it's not, is it? it's Wally's? and it makes too much fucking Sense! it fits! i can see it perfectly! i can feel things slotting together in my mind due to this shift in perspective, and i'm scared

Barnaby probably thinks the relationship is natural, just like how he thinks he's a real person in a real world. Wally probably knows that the relationship is a role, just like how he knows he's a puppet in a false reality.

that leaves me wondering how much of it is genuine on Wally's side. i don't doubt that they really are friends, but how deep does that connection go? in the interview, Wally sounded excited/proud about having a best friend, but how much came from a place of feeling, and how much came from a place of Fulfilling The Role? how much of it is performative? how much of it is a mask?

i've been seeing everything differently. Barnaby poses for Wally the most because he has good balance and is good at staying still, not because of favoritism or because he's Wally's best friend. in the 14 (15 including the hidden halloween) audios, Barnaby consistently seeks out Wally and checks in on him. Wally seems more casual about their relationship than Barnaby is.

i'm worried that Wally values Home & You/Us over Barnaby. that Barnaby is second or third place in Wally's heart. that Wally means more to Barnaby than he means to Wally. after all, only one of them needed their relationship to be reinforced on a seemingly regular basis.

i'm confident that Wally cares about / loves Barnaby, but the question is how much? to what extent?

#IM SO FUCKING ILL. #and by worried i mean Frothing At The Mouth. that would hurt so good. it would be delicious #i mean. it makes so much fucking sense. it feels Right! #and oh the ways this could hurt barnaby #i already suspect he has some Internal insecurities and shit but. oh man. if this is true it would break his heart wouldnt it #he has his hearts on his palms but wally's hearts are hidden on the soles of his shoes.... #god. no this. this. i cant start ranting and raving about what this means for barnaby and how i think it might affect him #the picture all the pieces of What We Know About Him So Far paint #all i'll say is. comic relief characters are always a tragedy under the mask. #wh speculation #homebogging #wh theory #welcome home speculation #welcome home theory #the way i was losing my absolute shit in discord. Man. #i am continuously in premature mourning over barnaby. #eddie might be doomed by the narrative but barn is Screwed by the narrative #poor guy just can't catch a break #also the idea. the Concept. that wally might consider you/us a closer/dearer friend than barnaby #is. its. well its devastating and juicy as Fuck! #there's. there's so much to unpack here im gonna be honest #for the first time since getting into this project im feeling like im starting to see a cohesive picture #the implications. the connections. the way it ties into themes. man... oh man... And It Makes. Sense. #barnaby knows wally better than the other neighbors - Besides Home - but how much more? #does he think he knows more than he does? i mean absolutely. wally is still hardcore masking around him. #wally doesn't confide in him not really #but man. Man. oh i understand why completely. at least i like to think i do #oh boy this is gonna kill me and im gonna like it #i had this realization and i felt my neurons shift just a little. just Enough. FUCK #barnaby b beagle. baby. i am so sorry but you're gonna have a hell of a fucking time

[b4kuch1n]

sunstroll

#pokemon #swsh #rival hop #professpr hop #communication coming thru from the 32 degree C midday land #it is. kind of summer. not really but its at the door #gods. disgostang. time to draw in orange #Ive been chippin away at this one while drawing the comic so I dont like. lose my mind #and now this is done! and the comic has three pages left!! #I am Going to Do It tonite. I am Going to Get That Shit Done #tomorrow there will be sad monster for ya #but for now. theres hop in more clothes. bc I really do not give him enough #coloring this one was a Challenge lol... I got too used to the kind of color aggression goin on with leon #hop has more harmony goin on in his vibes so I had to pull some weird plays for this lmao #and then everything still ends up hypersaturated bc. well its me. this is just how I am #but I'll take it!! it was pretty fun once I sussed out a way forward. coloring is always a Time #have a good day! wish me luck! boy oh boy we sure have an evening in front of us

[doodleodds]

Me? Uploading a Halloween comic on November 18th, almost four whole-ass weeks late???? Yeah that’s uh. yup. yeah

Thanks for reading! :) <3

#persona 5 #p5 #akira kurusu #OUGH OH MY GOD ITS FINALLY. DONE. I AM LOSING MY MIND #if you've been following me for long enough: yes! this IS in fact the comic i mentioned that i was making last year. #Fun fact! This is also! The Third Draft of said comic!!! i have redrawn this thing THREE FUCKING TIMES #as a result you may notice that i uh. a) gave up on coloring this thing. no way in HELL am i coloring 30 pages. im not...strong enough #you will settle for simply having monochrome colored panels and you will LIKE IT!!!!! >:OOOOO #and b) gave up on backgrounds! yeah fuck that lmao. i am never drawing people in the monabus again and mementos can kiss my ass!!!!! #i just want to draw my silly little characters & not their environments #and you may also say: sophia. by halloween they are already in Sae's palace. why isn't goro with them and where's haru? #and to that i say shhhh suspend your disbelief. akechi is in mementos carving pumpkins to avoid trick or treaters. #and also haru isn't there because i cannot draw 6+ people in a cramped space yet!!! my art skills are Just Not There Quite Yet :( #so she's staying home and handing out fullsized candy bars to kids. that's where she is while this is all going down #'does akira know it's akechi down there?' :) that's up to you! but i WILL say that I was thinking about Akeshu when i wrote this so. :)))) #ANYWAY if you read this far in the tags im so sorry lmao. thanks for sticking around! Hope you had a happy halloween :) #hopefully i won't disappear for long this time. idk im just gonna start uploading other bullshit art in the interim between comics i guess #probably some fire emblem shit. we'll see. we'll see. anyway bye!! till next time!

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

standing next to me, olympia paris (2013) 🩶

#i don’t know why but i’ve never seen this angle of this performance before and oh my GOD #i'm losing my mind #this almost has eycte era vibes?? #also #don't even talk to me about their blissed out giddy little expressions #or the little nose nudge/hint at a kiss in that last gif #and DEFINITELY don't talk to me about alex's absolutely ridiculous smile after it either #they're utterly ridiculous and utterly in love 🥺 #milex #baby milex #am era #arctic monkeys #the last shadow puppets #tlsp #milex gifs #my gifs #lulu posts