#i don’t really know anymore

[liesandbrokenhearts]

#i don’t know what happened to this girl #well I do #but for some reason along the way the happiness drained from me completely #looking at myself now after sobbing to my mom and seeing this picture on her windowsill #i don’t really know anymore #I’ve always hated photos of me as a child because I know the abuse was happening during them and I can’t get past it #but looking at her right now it’s a different kind of hurt than even before #i don’t recognize her either

[hollowedartist]

I’ve been lacking motivation for a while. I can’t explain this I just kinda started drawing. As well as practicing shading

#hollow knight #hk quirrel #i don’t really know anymore #I’m tired man #schools comin to an end an my motivation is at an all time low #i used a few references from Google on hands an arms but I think I’m getting better at drawing them on my own

[blackberry-gingham]

Ok but the TRUE ideal male body type is any man that I can lift heavy as fuck with in the gym in the mornings, and then cuddle for warmth and snuggles with at night

#does that qualify for ‘dad bod’ #I don’t really know anymore #I don’t want to get too pithy or anything I just want to be clear and understood when I say things 😔 #esoteric posting

[jaysketches08]

Did i ever

did i ever tell you guys i got a nightcat plushie a couple months ago…

look at this fucker.

I can’t believe they turned nightcat into a marketable plushie 💔💔

#rainworld #rain world downpour #rain world nightcat #I don’t really know anymore

[idk3ither]

“fantasy high junior year this” “fantasy high junior year that” I want Fantasy High School Reunion where everyone is in their early to mid thirties and they come back to Elmville for a high school reunion

#i think it would be a fun work around because most of the cast has said that they don’t really feel comfortable playing teenagers anymore #plus I want to know how everyone turns out as adults #dimension 20 #dimension 20 fantasy high #fantasy high #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fantasy high sophomore year #d20 #dropout #college humor #youtube #dnd #dungeons and dungeons

[fawndlyvenus]

You know what’s funny? How I can say that I headcanon a character as somewhere on the ace spectrum and/or aro spectrum, and within minutes I am being treated as if I am somehow very unintelligent and know nothing of the world.

#venus speaks #ace #acespec #asexuality #aro #arospec #aromantic #asexuel #Seriously tho let me live in peace #and bonus points for people trying to tell me – someone on the ace spectrum – that I don’t know what those really are #I’m just so damn tired of not being allowed to talk about and/or bring my own headcanons to the table anymore #And it’s also not just me. I see it everywhere and it’s honestly making me upset and uncomfortable as hell

[leverage-ot3]

I’ve talked about this before but imagine what it’s like for someone in a country/place where eliot is Top Most Wanted and then your tech guy finds a breakout star baseball player on their visual scanner that looks EXACTLY like spencer. but…there’s no way that’s him, right???

and then the next year it happens again but this time it’s some one hit wonder country singer kenneth crane that has like 78 tween-run fangirl blogs dedicated to him. you see a grainy video of him being chased by a horde of screaming teenage girls and ??? no way Eliot Last Thing You’ll Ever See Spencer is a country singer star just. signing pictures of his face right…?

a few months later your intern shows you footage of an eliot lookalike who is in san lorenzo talking about how there is dog fighting in the presidential palace and you just. sigh. because of course. a scant few days later the political geography of the country changes drastically and damien moreau is imprisoned. …interesting

and then a year of silence goes by. he still shows up as blips on the radar but he must have a good hacker working for him because his tracks on the internet are expertly erased.

every time you ask through interagency channels some random interpol guy talks in (condescending?) riddles at you and it also somehow feels like he’s threatening you

and then your friend who recently got into foreign hockey teams sends you a dropyourgloves video of someone called jacques the bear. you immediately get a headache (and watch some more videos because even you can admit this guy is a good hockey player)

and you know he’s a Bad Guy but it’s been admittedly a bit entertaining seeing what claim to fame he will come upon next. and his most recent actions over the few years make you wonder.

a few months later your phone pings because multiple heads of state evacuated from DC. the reason? eliot spencer was in town. you hear two days later a bioterrorist was taken down by… the report was redacted. your hacker tells you spencer and two teammates were behind the successful operation. which, huh.

not even a full year later it is released that spencer is dead and… you don’t know how to feel.

#sorry this turned kinda angsty I just think eliot famousaliases spencer is a great reoccurring joke #eventually an indeterminate amount of months later you see him pop up again and you breathe #at this point all the intel you’ve gotten points that he’s actually doing something good with his life #like he’s changed. and you know he’s a bad guy but he’s doing things that nobody else is really capable of doing. making changes on large #and small scales #he will face consequences eventually you are sure. but his tracks are so well covered already and he’s so slippery so maybe. maybe you just #don’t make your agents work so hard to track him down #you get to know sterling a bit better (and maybe understand him a bit better too) #sterling invites you to an off the books lunch at this brewpub in portland when you’re in the states. the head chef looks familiar #it’s the best food you’ve ever tasted. because OF COURSE it is #at this point you’re not even angry. or resigned anymore. you’re slightly impressed #anyways that’s how sterling’s leverage club gains another member #(mcsweeten was the second member btw. if you’ve seen my other posts) #eliot spencer #eliot spencer meta #headcanons #humor #leverage #jim sterling #(mentioned) #the studio job #the blue line job #the three strikes job #ficlets #mine #a post not on my queue??? more likely than you think #I should make a tag for in universe pov posts #into the leverage verse #headcanons in the tags #the rundown job

[littleulvar]

glitter fish ✨

Arne belongs to @ronkoza

#i already know this post is going to get instaflagged but i’m tired of fighting the algorithm #anyway #i know mermay is over but it keeps going in my heart #turns out they’re really fun to draw as merfolk but now i don’t remember how to draw legs anymore #my art #merfolk au

[camgoloud]

colin: i’m gay

ted, radiating youth pastor energy: you know who else played for the other team?

#is this anything? i don’t even know anymore #PLEASE DO NOT MISINTERPRET I LOVED THE TED SPEECH I REALLY AND TRULY DID #i just think. in addition to saying the exact right thing to the team and especially colin re: the importance of actively supporting others #in moments like these rather than playing neutral etc. it is also just so fucking funny and so perfectly ted that he went searching #for an analogy and immediately came up with. denver broncos fans. they’re just like gay people for real #these two things can and should both be true #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #colin hughes

[phebs]

#rwby #bumbleby #yang xiao long #blake belladonna #comics #phebs' #found this amongst my scraps from ages ago i don’t really know where i was going with this comic anymore but it’s kinda cute so enjoy!

[thelotusarchives]

Sunflowers: Happiness, Hope, Eternal Devotion

Bluebells: Humility, Gratitude, Eternal Love

#bbc merlin #merlin #my art #merthur #arthur pendragon #arthur x merlin #merlin emrys #I don’t even know anymore #I really don’t know #headcanon that Arthur will eat flowers if Merlin convinces him that they will heal him

[syrasenturi]

#do I dare tag this #I was inspired #I like how I can draw them from memory #syrass #don’t expect more of this #going back to give this tags but please know i dont really post shit about dt anymore but i love my girls #ducktales #weblena

[1driedpersimmon]

I made Sesame and Sid break up as a joke but then I thought it’d be even funnier if I made a whole drama story thing out of it so here we are (my insane person doodles and notes)

(Also drk quest feels… I played lv 70 a bit ago and was absolutely screaming)

Also full name reveal for Sesame hehe! That is Saaral before he arrived in Eorzea and before he became “Sesame”!

#ff #ffxiv #he doesn’t go by Saaral anymore tho he’s like the only person that’d know the name now anyways #sesame #Sidurgu #anyways if u saw me post this already no u didn’t #ahem #also yes sidurgu sesame drama #I’m having a lot of fun I think they should argue a little too it’s gonna be great and dramatic #yum!! #mm…. I really wanna know the rest of the drk story but I don’t wanna spoil myself so… we shall see.

[anna-scribbles]

• metamorphosis cover master post •

this was an exceptionally fun project for an exceptionally beautiful work. if you haven’t read metamorphosis yet i truly don’t know what else i can do to convince you. thank you @peachcitt for going insane with me every tuesday night all summer and for the constant stream of suggestions for how to make these covers More Devastating, Somehow. metamorphosis summer may be over but i will never be normal again <3

#not that i ever was normal. but #my art #ml #miraculous ladybug #metamorphosis #adrinette #ladynoir #vicebug #ladrien #sorry to marichat. there is fake marichat #mariviolet #? #i don’t know #peach you’ve created too many sides to the lovesquare i can’t keep track anymore #anyway i really really love how these have all turned out. honestly. i was never that into illustration before but #this project has helped me find a lot of joy in it #i’ll cherish these for a long time and it’s fun that some other people liked them too :)) #happy metamorphosis summer #[redacted] fall :^) ? #cant elaborate on that ​i’m sworn to secrecy you’ll have to bug peach. #i love this story goodnight #oh also this is not the last of my metamorphosis art plans. you didn’t hear it from me but there might be an animatic in the works someday #i think my favorite covers are umm. #chapter 12 i really like a lot actually. i think it looks really interesting #chapter 13 i think the poses are really dynamic which is hard for me #and chapter 7!!!!!!! chapter 7 my beloved omg. i loved drawing that one #oh chapter 5 also. i like the composition and ladybug’s expression #and i do love chapter 16 :) i worked hard on it #sorry for tooting my own horn for like ten minutes ksndkdnf i just worked really hard on these and i’m fond of them #if anyone else has favorites i wanna hear!!!

[kiwisandpearls]

it’s kinda concerning that whenever someone has been outed as being a horrible person I have to play the game of “have they actually done horrible stuff or did they just make/like some weird fanfiction?”

#talk away ⌞🍵🍋 ⌝ #I’m talking about the springtrap and delilah artist #I don’t care much about their comic anymore #but when I saw a video titled “the dark truth behind springtrap and delilah” #i was really suspicious about whether they had actually done something or if they just made some some weird artwork/fanfiction #and that probably isn’t a good thing #anyways if anyone actually knows #please tell me what’s going on #proship #profiction #pro fiction #profic

[larapaulussen]

#gif #why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone #for what am I being punished #I am a good person #and I don’t think this suffering has any sense #it’s just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way #and the sad people always just get more trauma #I know I could have a relationship if I didn’t have such a traumatic childhood #my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes #but i don’t know what to do about it #every nice guy I met absolutely wasn’t attractive to me #and we also didn’t have anything in common #so I’m not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldn’t have worked out #and they deserve someone who actually fancies them #i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with #or who matched my preferences lookwise #it really feels like I’m simply not allowed to ever meet the right person #and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone #as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole #I just don’t have any energy left anymore #I just want to experience love so bad but can’t do these dates anymore #I’m so so tired