#i probably need therapy

[cool-alligator]

my biggest kin lolz

#mlp #mlp g4 #fluttershy #my little pony #i probably need therapy #luv her #mlp fanart

[emo4converse]

Y’all ever ship a fictional ship so hard that when you actually watch the show again your wondering why they have no screen time together when they are literally married with kids? No, just me then?

#anime #gay pride #fiction #ranpoe #shin soukoku #soukoku #bakudeku #i probably need therapy

[weirdcatperson1]

Tuesday is a day for trying to find what you’ve lost. Tear through your house, dress in clothes you haven't worn in years, reenact situations from your childhood and try to get them to turn out differently. You will get it all back. You will finally have lost nothing. It's all possible and it’s all healthy.

God way to punch me in the gut WTNV

I’m going to think about this for the next several days.

#wtnv #welcome to night vale #episode 55 #wtnv ep 55 #quote #podcast #healing #i probably need therapy

[your-average-art-dealer]

Oh lord he comin'-

#shadow the hedgehog #he is now just a little guy #maybe even a little man #he's so babygirl #he comin #wonder if I can do others like this #maybe..... #sonic the hedgehog #yeah #i probably wont #i probably need therapy #my art #my artwork #YourAverageArtScribbles

[thegirlwholivesin-delusion]

#mental health #dark humor #emotional support #that's so me #I have them on all my devices lol #memes #I probably need therapy #lol #relatable #emotions #thegirlwholivesin delusion

[klaustheclock]

Ok I'm sorry to like the 1 person reading this at the moment but-

Why do people think being the favorite and golden child is a good thing?

Because I'm sorry but its the worst thing ever.

Ok I'm sorry I not trying to sound rude or inconsiderate or selfish but it's really bad and I just need to rant my heart out.

Also my situation is a little different because I got really old parents(I'm talking in their 50s).

Ok so let's start with being the "favorite child". Also I'm sorry to all the people who had to deal with worst favoritism and being the unloved child. Ok so I know being the favorite sounds amazing on surface value but it's not. I'm the youngest and you probably expect me to be a spoiled brat who gets everything and narcissistic because I'm the "favorite". But that's far from the truth. I don't get everything I want, I have extremely low self esteem and I'm not a spoiled brat. I honestly used to this that all the stereo types about favored and gifted children were true but now I realize that for me and some others it's not. I used to beat myself up for these things and tbh I still do even though I've come to terms with the fact that there not true.

This is probably due to my siblings. I have two older sisters, both of which are in high school. Because my parents favor me more I have a strained relationship with them(if you can even call it that). There both incredibly bitchy to me and shit. There rude and they criticize my every more. They beat me down whenever they get a chance, even if I'm already at rock bottom. This is probably because they think they have to make me suffer because of our parents. Which isn't fair at all. I can’t even talk to them about my feelings because they'll use it against me or they just call me sensitive and won't give two fucks. They talk to eachother about there feelings and experiences all the time and just disclude me. They also talk about me behind my back and even to our parents. At first when I was younger I thought it was just them joking around with me but I realized when I got older that it wasn't. However my parents "favor" isn't even really big. Our parents still buy then what they want despite saying they wouldn’t. So they beg and get a lot of things but the moment I ask for a book or something there mad at me and calling me a spoiled brat. Which leads me to my next point.

Being the golden/gifted child

If I had a dollar for everytime I had a mental breakdown because of my grades I'd be a million air.

So I have something called academic validation. Meaning that my self worth is solely dependent on my grades. I was always a nerd but this is just to much. My oldest sister used to be in the same role but the pressure was lighter. So when she got into high school she said fuck school and started skipping classes and shit. This was bad but it didn't help that my brother who is 21 now did the same thing but worse. It started with my brother so our parents started to put pressure on my oldest sister and me, the youngest. They said the the middle child grades were fine even though they were lower the both of ours. We were always straight A students but then my sister decided she didn't care anymore that left all the pressure on me. I was only in 5th grade at the time so it was a lot on me. When I talked to my sister about it all she said was "don't care, deal with it". And so I did.

All my middle school years was just academics. I went to a Ib league school so the work was harder than your average American school. I sill managed to keep all A's but I wasn't happy at all. I never got anything for my academics anyway. My parents just brushed it off and said, "Your smart you should get these grades anyway. We shouldn't have to be expected to give you something." All I asked for was a good job or something like that. That night I broke down completely. Then I finally realized that no matter what I do ill never be good enough for anybody. I had no good traits about me. I hear no talent, I wasn't pretty, and I wasn't really a fun person to be around. I over thought everything I did so whenever we played games I couldn't deal with the pressure. Once one of my friends told me "your the only person who I know can make the game hangman unfun." It was supposed to be a joke and we laughed it off but that made me want to cry. That day i realized from another friend that we kinda grew up to fast. Looking at it now I didn’t really have a child hood. I was always fored to play catch up with my older siblings. I always had to be on par with them to even be looked at as a human being.

I was always the one people looked for help to with was good(I love helping people) but it kinda became overwhelming. I kinda just hide it with jokes about myself. I'm the therapist friend but yet I can't tell people my feelings. I can’t talk to my parents, my sisters, my friends, and I don't have a lover. They'll either just brush it off or not care at all. It hurts a lot. This leads me to often be confined and left alone with my emotions.

Which leads to me today. The me currently writing this long ass Ted talk. I have terrible anxiety and zero self worth and I feel the need to be validated with my grades and by the people around me. But even with all this I still feel empty. Like it's just hard. I turn to books and history to try and distract me but that can only take you so far. Also I find myself comparing myself to my friends because my parents always compared me to my siblings. I feel the emine pressure to fit into the mold my teachers, friends, and parents think I am and want. I work as hard as I can but it feels like I always come short.

I apologize sincerely if this comes off as selfish or narcissistic.

I wanna try and over come this and gain confidence in myself but it seems impossible. I'm still only in the 8th grade so maybe it'll finally dawn on me. It's just wherever I try to reach out for help I feel so selfish and entitled. It's like a voice in the back of your mind telling you "People deal with so much worse than this and you have the audacity to cry at these things? You shouldn't feel this way just suck it up. Your just weak, nothings wrong with you."

Thank you for listening to my rant, I apologize for wasting your time.

#i made this instead of sleeping #small rant #long reads #unpopular take #im so tired #im sorry #academic validation #i probably need therapy #gifted kid problems #gifted kid burnout

[nerrissadevampyre]

yeah sure escapism to the extreme is unhealthy but what if i like daydreaming and imagining myself in my favourite show or movie just long enough to keep my tears from falling or take a few deep breaths calmly, then go back to this terrible boring dystopia we all seem to be bound in and continue the pursue of my best possible future in the said boring dystopia so it at least becomes a bit comfortable to live in

#diary entry #random thoughts #spilled thoughts #random though of the day #trying to feel better #escapism #i probably need therapy #i probably need sleep

[diabolicjoy]

having the worst time tbh

#i probably need therapy #but finding good therapists is so hard and. can't afford that rn #idk why i said probably like no i definitely need some help loool #sad posting

[ominisstanforever]

Does anybody else take another look at Ominis's face before heading into work to get them through the day? Just me?

#Ominis gaunt #hogwarts legacy #i probably need therapy

[tropiyas]

I have to get better at no closure... talking to someone for a week and getting unmatched with no explanation or ceremony it's probably just like normal right

#you can tell I haven't been journaling recently #i probably need therapy #or at least a guideline on how hurt I should be feeling when minor bad (but not intentionally harmful) things happen to me

[derpdonaby]

Some facts and headcanons about different MCU show characters that I think about a lot

Matt Murdock (Daredevil)

1. This man can taste things in the air. (That's literally it. Just that short sentence fuels so many thoughts in my mind)

2. He sleeps on silk sheets because cotton feels like sandpaper on his skin. (This makes me wonder what other simple everyday things are just sensory hell for this poor martyr of a man.)

3. Human Disaster Matt Murdock is the sluttiest fictional character I've ever loved. Actually he might be the only fictional slut that has my mind in a vice like grip.

Frank Castle (The Punisher)

1. He knows how to play the guitar and it sings to the hopeless romantic that is me.

2. I'm only on episode one of The Punisher and I love how they showed how soft he could be on multiple occasions and then would follow it with just how brutal he is also capable of being. (I love the fics where Frank is dom-ing it up but I firmly believe that if he learned to care for you it would be sweet and passion filled. Mans would give you a cavity.)

3. Best dad in the world. (He would have a mug, shirt, hoodie, etc.)

Steven Grant/Marc Spector (Moon Knight)

1. Marc is so emotionally constipated and it's not even funny. I can't wait to see him loosen up, he deserves it.

2. Steven is such a shy boi but if you asked and reassured him you could get him to ramble for hours about anything he's knowledgeable of. (I love dorky characters like his because I adore listening to people talk about things they love.)

3. They fight over the body like how my brother's fight over the PlayStation.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk

(none of the gifs are mine)

#matt murdock #matthew murdock #human disaster matt murdock #frank castle #steven grant #marc spector #daredevil #the punisher #punisher #moon knight #mentally ill men #i love these men so much #headcanon #headcannons #i probably need therapy

[averysmolbear]

I hate that I apparently have daddy issues and so if there’s a male character in some media who either reluctantly becomes a father figure and does it so goddamn well or just comes across like they’d be a good dad in my opinion and I’m immediately sitting here like “fuck me, daddy” and …. and …. ugh!

#tessie rambles #this explains so many of my faves #because either they’re in a found family #or they’re absolutely an amazing father figure to another character #or they seem like they’d be a good dad #i probably need therapy

[hoodedfigure-no99]

Falling in some kind of “oh my god a parental figure” hole with an entity who stole babies in the 80s/90s

#the mandela catalogue #an intruder #intruder #i probably need therapy #but I’ll just ride this high like #imagine if the intruder was your dad #cuz i am rn #dad can i please stay up another 30 minutes I’m not tired

[aroace-hoe]

i need more friends who have had sex and just think that shit is horrible

up until this point i was legit convinced that everyone was in on a funny little bit that sex felt good, cuz theres no way that's true

i've had sex before (more than once, with both penises and vaginas, so i don't think it was a "the other person sucked at it" situation) and thought it was, at best, boring af

bUT NOW my friends are losing their virginity too and thinking its the most amazing experience in the world and im just-

i feel like i lost allies in a war i didn't even know i was fighting

#sex is overrated #i probably need therapy #sex repulsed #am i just ace #sex is bad anyway #dont have sex #it could lead to children #and no one likes that #asexual #aroace #acespec #vent post #vent

[moony-t0ast]

Me: *shares extremely traumatic life altering event*

Shan: 👁️👄👁️

Me: PLS ITS FUNNY 🙂🤭

#i probably need therapy #… #shan tag

[shybasementkid]

I wanna see more cute spinjitsu brothers moments

#lord garmadon #wu garmadon #i actually need it #more than life #i probably need therapy