#i thought it didn't make sense

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[broken-heart-raven-queen]

Andrew and Neil marring in Vegas just because they don't really care and followed a too drunk Kevin to one of the chappels.

Matt stealing the Elvis costume at 3 am and Dan filming him instead of the wedding.

#that's it #that's the post #it doesn't make sense #and i don’t care #it was funny #Nicky was mad because no one thought of waking him up #Aaron didn't want to go #but he went anyways #aftg #all for the game #aftg brainrot #nora sakavic #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #kevin day #matt boyd #dan wilds #drunk foxes

[maerhiya]

in regards to the constant dismissal of his aroace identity, i hate it when alastor 'fans' say and use the excuse: "he's fictional, he won't get offended."

like, you're right, but it can and will offend us.

when you see yourself being represented on screen, of course you'd feel enthusiastic about it — representation allows individuals to see themselves reflected in the media they consume, validating their identities and experiences. but when so many people take that representation and decide to disregard and discard it, it is so fucking frustrating. we finally have another character to be part of the tiny amount of representation we have, but then people don't even care about how much it means to us? like yeah, alastor won't get offended because he's not real, but it frustrates and annoys us. do you realize that it's also technically invalidating the aroace community? that you're invalidating our feelings? imagine feeling like you're finally being seen because your orientation is finally being represented in media, and people just decide to blatantly ignore, discard, and invalidate it.

media has such a powerful influence on real life, representation being a prevalent factor of it. there are numerous posts that dictate how people went to watch a movie/show or read a book just because a character depicts their identity in it — obviously, being represented is an incredibly uplifting and validating experience.

which is why seeing an aroace character in a popular show is so meaningful to us because we live in a world where romance and sex are literally everywhere and prioritized above all else. (and it's pretty obvious that alastor's on the repulsed end of the spectrum, but even if he wasn't, at least make an effort to acknowledge his sexuality instead of continuing to portray him as allo; aroace folks can be in relationships but it's not going to be the same thing with allos' experiences.)

any and every representation matters, but why does that seem to stop at people under the aroace spectrum? like y'all can't even let us appreciate the scraps of representation we have. we barely have any, so are we really that dramatic for being upset at how people easily disregard and dismiss our identities that are being depicted on screen just like that? is it truly wrong of us to want to defend and maintain the little representation we have?

#like imagine if i asked you ab your fav character and then i said i hated them and proceeded to insult them #wouldn't that irritate you even just a bit and maybe even come to their defense? #like why would you be offended when they're not even real lmaoo #they're fictional and won't get offended but if you love that character then YOU might feel offended and maybe even defend them #ok now take that situation and put it into this context #except it's much more meaningful bc it's about representation #just a random thought #i'm not against shipping him or finding him attractive (bc same LMAO) or the fanart btw #i just hate it when people use bs excuses to justify their obvious dismissal & indifference towards aro/ace rep #like at least acknowledge his identity :(( #sorry for the long ass rant and if some parts don't make sense i'm not in the best mood rn lol #and i've been wanting to get this off my chest for a while #didn't know double standards were a thing when it came to representation.... #but here we are #alastor #aroace alastor #aroace #asexual #aromantic #asexuality #aromanticism #arospec #aspec #alastor hazbin hotel #aromantic alastor #asexual alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #aroacespec #queer

[numberonepartyboy]

'kai raised nya alone' is such bs. oh yeah those other village people wouldn't fucking help two babies who's parents are missing. they totally wouldn't provide them food and help them to get enrolled in school or help with their home.

(( i do hc that kai and nya grew up very fast, being too mature for their age and having no close friends with others bc of their more adult behavior. both of them are school dropouts (kai dropped out in middle school and nya in highschool.) ))

#ninjago #im having a fever BUT IDC. i have an headache and i read some bs so i have to write shit #probs gonna write an entire jiang sibs post with my hcs/reimagined au #rant #btw not a hate post #kai jiang #nya jiang #uhshvhhh sorry if this post didn't make sense i had to rewrite my thoughts like. 4 times #probably gonna delete laterrrrr #this take just makes me want to make a njg oc that helped raise them goddamn

[scooterpengie]

Redraw of one of my favourite moments in Succession because Roman's my favourite and I wanted to practise drawing him but then I got too involved and turned it into a whole comic and I don't even really like how it turned out but I spent too long on it to not post it 😭

I wish I could do something more creative than just redrawing scenes from the show but I find the characters so difficult to write 😭 like I'm genuinely jealous of people who can write good fanfiction of them

#NO SPOILERS i still haven't finished!! #succession #succession hbo #roman roy #gerri kellman #succession fanart #romangerri #i don't ship them but this scene is objectively a bit romangerri so i wanted to tag #comics #my art #considering i wanted to practise drawing Roman #this was actually a really annoying scene like his hair doesn't usually look like that #at least i can draw gerri now #i hope the composition/movement makes sense here i had to adapt the scene for comic form #like i put way too much thought into this #and it took me like 9 hours to nightshade #these two make me insane actually #love how he says “it's a lot to think about” at the end #like what is there to think about?? what has he even said?? #i headcanon this was a real proposal #he just talked himself out of it once she didn't say yes

[sergle]

I really truly, from the bottom of my heart, hate you bitches so much, because on the tiktok of literally COCK AND BALL jokes w brittany broski, there were a few notes/messages like this:

And I KNOW you don't think anyone's going to check. You had someone go into your askbox and say "hiii brittany broski is shitty about palestine she's really ignorant :/" and you went oh omg I didn't know!! thanks for telling me! So I checked! This is in reference to her talking in her podcast, because people were asking why she hadn't done any big press statements about Palestine, you didn't retweet this or that, you must not care, don't you care, what's your stance, etc etc please say more OKAY COOL. So what's going on there? What did Brittany say on her podcast? Is she a Bad Person? Can I have some transcript, please? ____ "Hey guys, before we get into this week's episode, I want to talk to you about the ongoing and prolonged suffering and loss of life in Gaza, in Israel, and the oppression of Palestinian people widespread. I don't ever want it to be a question that I would ever not be against the oppression of any group of people, that I would ever stand on the side of the oppressor." "There was a lot of fear of misusing my platform." ... "I will admit that I was nervous to talk about it, because I don't want to say the wrong thing. And this is too fucking serious of an issue to misspeak, or to spread misinformation, or to speak over or for someone." ... "So I want to take a moment on my biggest platform- which is this podcast, to say that I stand with the people of Palestine, I stand for the liberation of Palestinian people." ... "Every day, to log on to social media, and be just inundated with graphic, unimaginable violence, and loss, and grief, it's just--There are no words." ... "And I feel helpless. That's part of it too, when you feel helpless, the last thing you want to do is talk to people about it-- but visibility is a resource in and of itself. And I can offer that." ... "The outpouring of rage and passion online, and anger at what's happening, I would argue needs to be dedicated and focused on our elected officials. We live in a democracy- albeit an inherently flawed one- we live in a democracy where we have elected officials who were elected and put in power to represent us, and if we feel misrepresented, if we feel underrepresented in foreign affairs? These officials have public phone numbers and emails. There are scripts available online to express your disdain and your rage, and unfortunately that's one of the only ways we'll see actionable change."   "If you expected more from me, it's a terrible feeling- but I don't want to center myself, this needs to be all eyes on Palestine right now, where the real activism is happening. I would encourage you to follow journalists that are on the ground, people who are in Gaza, we need to be listening to them. I would also hope that we're at a point in this conversation where I can express my desire to stand in solidarity with the people of Palestine and that NOT meaning or suggesting or condoning anti-Semitism of any kind. There's a rise of anti-Semitism and islamophobia in the United States and it's just-- it's disgusting, and it's scary, so I want that to be said too. I just wanted to share that I am experiencing part of this collective sense of helplessness and hopelessness-- but it DOESN'T HAVE to be hopeless. I'm going to include a phone number in the description of this episode where, if you don't know the name of your senators or your Congressman, it's never too late to learn, and you can reach out to them." _______ Hm. What a bitch!! Yeah, just so ignorant and uncaring. Obviously she's not keeping up with anything. Should've retweeted more shit ig!

#sergle.txt #I will turn off reblogs on this so fucking fast I swear to god. I have a gun. I needed to complain about this #up in my notes and my asks bc you already didn't like somebody and you believe what ppl say on anon indiscriminately. #so what I'm hearing is she didn't talk about it enough / didn't put out statements soon enough. I see. #basically a criminal offense. she should get the electric chair ig #god I mean. if my thing was comedy and I had a big audience I don't think I'd know how/when/if to do basically a #Press Conference on Literal Genocide or if I should not make it about me and my thoughts? but do shit in the small ways I can #what do you even say... I think what she said here makes sense. but maybe I'm not reading it with enough bad faith #like oh my god. OH MY GOD #so no I'm not gonna delete the clips I posted what. the fuck are we talking about #''she was frustrated on ig stories that ppl were messaging her to put out a statement'' yeah... yeah. frustration. in response to so much #bad faith directed at you. hundreds of thousands of people all saying shit At You like it all rests on you #and being told to say these words so if you say them they will be empty. myeah what a bitch basically #I personally would not experience a human emotion in response to this.

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[skrunksthatwunk]

office harlot mine yoshitaka

#i hope the colored annotations make sense but if not blue thoughts are daigo thoughts and orange thoughts are mine thoughts #he was adjusting his garters in a break room or something and daigo walked in. poor mine #hello minedai nation #im going to make fun of mine now hope that's okay #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #like a dragon #dojima daigo #mine yoshitaka #minedai #daigo dojima #yoshitaka mine #yakuza 3 #skrunkart #this looks like one of those football play charts. anyway #was going to do this while listening to a homework thing but uh. lol i didn't.. so im gonna go do that now

[synesthete-sylke]

i wanted to make a journal-themed entry for the victory curse, since i have smajor brainrot all of the time and i felt like it was a somewhat missed opportunity for angst :]

plus it's a cool concept, if people like it i might do the canary curse and a few others!

(shoutout to my brother for doing the 'laurel' and then proceeding to fail every other word he tried-)

text under cut because i was going for style, not legibility :P

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The "Victory" Curse

Top: Cursebearer and allies are predisposed to victory in the Life games; often results in repetitive loss of allies or partners, as well as those who See attempting to take advantage of the cursebearer. Strong-willed and fiercely loyal, even to the death.

Note: Curse is warded off but not cancelled by Canary curse; effects unknown. Range is possibly extended?

Side: Resists Boogey curse!

Photo: Current recipient is aware; has become sacrificial and borderline su*cidal.

#scott smajor #smajor1995 #smajor fanart #traffic life #traffic life fanart #last life #last life fanart #double life #double life fanart #sylke's art #laurel curse #did you know laurel leaves and bay leaves are the same thing? #i didn't but now i want to make a lil angsty comic about a bay leaf tea dragon being a reminder of scott's curse #also i thought using the laurel curse idea would be fun with the liml ending #since martyn is a listener #and it would make sense for the watchers to want him to use scott like that #plus the degree scott sacrifices himself/his time for other people is. #definitely higher than it should be #also the vibe of an ink- and blood-stained journal page about an ancient curse that the bearer doesn't know how to deal with... #best vibe

[4lph4kidz]

been pondering this one for a while and i'm not sure where i stand on it myself so i want to know what people think about this, so (assuming there's no good way to represent hal as an artificial intelligence /non-human entity/extension of dirk):

feel free to share thoughts in the tags & replies!

#ignore the typo in the question. i'm sick. #on my week off. which is fun. #anyway i have thoughts on this as a twin. i wouldn't be opposed to making them twins but it's a Very Different Kind of Conflict #being a twin does mean constantly being compared when ur growing up which does things to ur sense of self but not like That #to clarify i would only count the third option as hal being a distinct personality or seperate character. something with agency #as opposed to exploring dirk's self expression and self hatred through different avenues a la detective pony. bc that's not a Hal #if that makes sense #didn't make 'why are you writing no-sburb aus' an option because i feel like thats a bit mean but tbh its a difficult conflict to translate

[civetside]

im bout to do my physical media rant baybe i keep trying to find some of my favorite cartoons n shit on DVD and SOO many of them only have like the first season and maybe the second physically and IM LIKE WHAT you went ahead and made a DVD for this series but couldn't be bothered to do like??? the rest of it??? and i ALMOST understand it ya know you wanna release the first season and see if it sells well before going and doing the rest, but also that's dumb? i don't wanna own only ONE SEASON if im going to buy a dvd for a series esp one that's already finished, i want to be sure it's THE WHOLE THING i'm not going to buy just a lil bit im going to wait for the full series to buy it so i know when im rewatching i don't have to like stop half way through and go watch the rest of it ONLINE GRRR GRRR do the full series or don't do it AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!! im about to start buying bootlegs

#civetrambling #physical media #sorry i started collecting DVDs like last year and now im a nerd about it #just lIKE WHY #cant believe kipo age of wonderbeasts got a full series release on DVD but bojack fucking horseman didn't #i mean they are for very different people of course but like in the sense that they are both popular animated netflix series #like i was waiting for infinity train to fully release on DVD to watch it since i thought that would be fun but now im just gonna have to #fucking pirate it i GUESS #witch i dont have a problem doing but i like collecting things okay #love cartoon network for actually bothering to make good dvd box sets for their popular series you go kings #i need DVD bonus features or im going to die

[neatokeanosocks]

i have finally seen Every Single Godzilla movie ever made. ask me anything

#i watched godzilla vs kong 2021 today #my first thought is: why is the american trilogy so inconsistent with its hollow earth theory. #is it a bunch of huge deep caves? is it a big gap where the core should be? #is the earth a matryoshka doll and the gap between outer and inner earth is hollow earth #and for some reason BOTH sides of the gap have their own gravities #even tho you could keep the direction of gravity the same and jsut make the “floor” of hollow earth the surface of the inner matryoshka? #WHERES THE LIGHT COMING FROM ?? #why can kaiju easily handle an 'entire planets gravity' when most state-of-the-art helicopters cant #you can chuck a bug out a window and it's fine. you can chuck an elephant out a window and it's dead. but a huge ape falling miles? #thats fiiiine #also why is kong an ape and godzilla a marine reptile but all kaiju have a 'lineage' that lets em sense each other and fight #they barely have the same niche why are they territorial #god i wish i was related to godzilla. and if kong is then i definitely am! #but idk. i didn't watch the kong movie. i only watch godzilla movies #shitpost

[muninnhuginn]

the way teru was introduced proclaiming himself as the ‘main character of this world’ because he was the most powerful person he knew until he met mob. and mob was a threat to him and ultimately to this mindset so he tried to take him down. but even when mob collapsed teru didn’t win because mob refused to fight him and so teru couldn’t prove power to power that he was “better”. instead, when ??? came out, teru was stripped to his core and shown that he was ultimately unimportant in this world.

and in the most recent episode this entire situation is flipped. teru has entirely shunned his old philosophy because mob taught him that he’s not all-powerful, he’s just an average guy. that’s his new identity. but his new philosophy where he chooses to prioritise saving people over fighting back is the most main character thing he has done in the series. teru is yet again broken down to his rawest, but this time, he wins.

#mp100 spoilers #mob psycho 100 spoilers #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #idk idk something about how teru didn't even see mob as a rival at first until he 'earnt' it #threat -> rival -> admiration #and visually the entire scene is call backs. the stripping and strangulation and destruction #the motivations may differ but visually it's just his intro through a funhouse mirror #and that makes it the perfect lens through which to close the circle on his arc #anyway I'll try and say something that makes more sense later but rn im just spaghetti throwing thoughts at the wall #also also 'use your powers against me'. the spin on that line. I love it

[shadow-the-crow]

I am fucking going to write an analysis of every single sentence Michael says in mag 101. There’s just so much there.

The second last sentence of his statement. "Reduced once again to feeding on the unsuspecting and confused." You wouldn’t think twice about that, right?

But. Maybe i’m reading too much into this. But. The unsuspecting and confused. Isn’t that the definition of Michael Shelley??!!

It hated being reduced to doing this. What does that mean? It can’t have had pity for his victims, right? Probably not. I think it hated taking advantage of people like Michael Shelley specifically. Because now, with his memories, it knew what it was like to be him. And because it was feeling his emotions, it started to despise people like Gertrude, who took advantage of and betrayed naive, trusting people.

But… it was one of those things itself. Before becoming Michael, it had already fed on thousands, maybe millions of those people among all the others. And it had to continue doing so, because that’s just its nature.

It hated beings like itself because it had Michael’s mind. It also hated Michael’s mind. It hated having to be this kind of person. It hated being someone who hated what it was. God this is just a loop of self-hatred wtf? This creature needs a hug! Now!

#with every michael analysis post i write i unlock another layer of projecting onto it lmao #(to be clear i don’t hate myself. i’m fine.) #i hope i didn't loose you somewhere in the hatred spiral lol #srsly i hope this makes sense to anyone besides me #tma #the magnus archives #tma podcast #michael distortion #tma spoilers #tma thoughts #mag 101 #another twist #michael shelley

[hororona]

nico robin and her smile

hiiii ok has anyone else ever thought about the person robin was before joining the straw hats? like who she was when she was at her worst? because i do. a lot. so go along with me here

from her introduction, robin has this very small smile that feels cunning and is seemingly meant to taunt luffy and co. it creates a sense that there's a canyon's depth of difference in power between her and the others.

robin's is a subtle character in her expressions compared to most other major characters in the series. and i think it fits her background of having to work in subterfuge. (???)

she maintains this expression throughout multiple scenes. the same shape of her smile that is so exact that it has to be with intention. this is the face of ms. all sunday. this is the person robin had to be in order to survive.

and yet each one still has it's differences and that's robin being not so perfect at hiding her true feelings (which btw i love that robin will always be exactly who she is). she's stressed or even strained at times. while also feeling perfectly at ease, but still performing a role.

i think for the most part. robin didn't mind what she had to do or who she had to be. because she's pragmatic, but she was definitely bothered by vivi and the strawhats. they're the ones who cause robin to show anything other than that static smile. notably when she is faced with vivi and luffy's determination.

and i've rambled about it once before robin is a kind woman at heart and who has a soft spot for the crew + vivi. their earnestness breaks through her own desire/need to not care for the effect her actions have on the lives of others.

notably the only times robin does seem to genuinely smile is in small sudden outbursts around luffy when something he does makes her laugh.

and throughout the rest of the alabasta arc. robin's clearly uncomfortable with facing the real destruction of alabasta at crocodile and her hands. later revealing that she never planned on helping him obtain the poseidon weapon. she never once smiles, instead dropping everything to focus on getting to the poneglyph.

after that though? she does her miss all sunday smile one last time when she asks luffy to join his crew. it's a famous panel, we all know it, we all love it.

the longer robin was with the straw hats. the more she began to genuinely smile. it's well established that being on the crew brought back joy and laughter into robin's life, that being with them gave her a reason to live again. but it was a slow start until we got to see this robin more often and more freely who is cheered by everyone's bright youth and excitement in being alive in a ways that she never had been allowed.

#one piece #nico robin #i've been working on this one slowly but surely #please i hope this makes sense and i'm not like alone here #using inconsistent sources because i'm not the biggest fan of viz's translation but sometimes have to read it #i haven't read onigashima yet so i can't talk about it with surety just yet but robin also has the habit of using accessories to denote whe #she isn't being herself. #it's why robin stopped wearing the cowboy hats post w7/enies lobby. despite the fact that the she looked so good in it. #i think in onigashima (and vaugely post-ts when she's in hiding) it was her sunglasses btw #i thought this would be longer tbh and it could be but i got impatient and didn't want to wait til later #the full better version is the version of this is made as a total nico robin character study that tracks from her character intro to now

[drinkingdeadpeopletea]

man not to read too much into spahr's "there was a reason i picked him" about phineas but. i am always keeping in mind that spahr pulled phineas out of the delta personally. he didn't meet phineas as a prospective adsecla he met him as a scared little kid! maybe it wasn't so much that spahr actually thought phineas was the best choice as that he really wanted to believe he was. maybe without even being aware of it! how could he not want to believe in the rags to riches of it all? something that started with that scared little kid HE was able to help save? a tangible representation--beyond valor--of something good he did? but now of course that whole narrative has crumbled around him! phineas did something horrible (that was all spahr's fault as far as he's concerned) and now phineas is dead! that's it! story over! :)

#man i can't wait for him to see phineas again. i hope phineas is ACTIVELY in the middle of some traitorous activity when it happens. #or actively falling through a field of mica i'd settle for that too! #this whole post was almost in the tags of my last reblog but then i came to my senses and realized i should spare op and make my own. #midst #midst podcast #midst spoilers #midst podcast spoilers #i think there's also something to be said for phineas's desperation and drive being a quality spahr might have seen as an asset #that fire that propelled him to try so hard the entire time! something that spahr seems to relate to and so probably thought #would make phineas an even better adsecla! worked for jonas didn't it? :)))))))