he wants to not be a pirate anymore but being a pirate is all he's known all his life, and seeing stede re experience that high, the high that he voluntarily left, the high he would never get again because he would never be a fresh novice in the field who made everyone's head turn? There's jealousy there and regret and righteous anger of "I thought we wanted the same things", there's the sense of love conquers some but not all, fuck me
head in hands. the fitpac date was supposed to be TODAY. they even got as far as to call it a date to forever's face. they've been making such huge strides with their relationship lately. and now pac is gone and fit is alone and i'm going to fucking CRY