#i've only ever watched like two zombies movies in my life

[copperbadge]

Supposedly, people with Anphantasia don't get scared reading scary stories, or at least not much. Is that true with you if you ever read Horror?

You know, I'd never thought about it, but I suppose it is. To an extent, anyway.

Follows a discussion of my relationship to horror prose and media; if you don't know what aphantasia is, as many people coming to this tumblr don't, I have a tag for it here that may help -- it's basically the lack of a "mind's eye", a visual imagination, so I hear/read things and don't see an image of them in my mind. If you are scoffing right now that nobody actually has a mind's eye, congratulations, you may also have aphantasia. The articles linked in the tag will be useful to you.

I have definitely been scared by prose before but it's very rare, and not much since I was a child, when the stories I found scary were preying on fears I already had. I loved the Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark books, and I think it's not unusual that I found the illustrations more frightening than the prose, but the only story that ever scared me was the one about the vampire who kept trying to grab a kid through a window -- because I had a window over my bed in my childhood bedroom and I was terrified I'd look up to see someone looking down at me through it. Likewise, as an adult, the only content in horror I find scary is what I think of as "mind horror" -- the loss of faculty or the loss of awareness of faculty (think the end scene of the novel Hannibal with the brain). Which is one of my biggest fears.

I don't read much horror because generally I get bored, which has in the past made me feel faintly appalled at myself, but which now makes more sense. Certainly I have no interest in slasher-style gore in prose, because I find it uninteresting and it goes on a really long time, while I don't watch it in movies/TV because the visual is upsetting -- so if I was getting the visual from the prose I might react more emotionally. I am a fan of Stephen King but mostly his early work where he was shorter on suspense, and I was reading it because I liked the ideas and the characters. Carrie is super interesting because of the personalities involved, not because of the violence or the horror aspects. But I've never seen a movie adaptation and I can imagine I would be deeply unsettled if not distraught by certain scenes if depicted visually. Although I didn't find the Hannibal TV series super upsetting (I mostly was put off by how bad I imagined Will smelled) so perhaps body horror just doesn't do it for me.

This may also explain my hard-no on zombie media, because I'm not scared at all of zombies, I just find them boring and gross, and that leaves the post-apocalyptic humans. My hard-no on post-apocalypse anything is an aversion to imagining the end of my world, though, which isn't visual, it's conceptual, and not scary, just upsetting.

Like, people kept suggesting Zombies Run! to me when I was taking up running and -- well, one, I needed the music to keep my pace, I didn't want it interrupted. But two, I didn't see why a bunch of random groaning noises would make me run faster. If you could see zombies chasing you in your head, yeah, that'd probably be more motivating.

It kind of explains too why I haven't written much horror. I used to be very curious about how people worked out what's "scary" in horror prose and I guess part of the curiosity came from not experiencing it myself. It's tough to know how to write a scary story when stories don't scare you.

To be clear, I definitely experience fear. Reading Stephen King's "It" didn't really scare me, but there were scary moments in the film adaptations. I startle at jumpscares. There's plenty of stuff in real life that I'm scared of. And even podcasts -- I don't get mental images during podcasts like apparently most people do, but Magnus Archives got me with the "digging into your pre-existing fears" thing once or twice, and while I didn't finish The Left Right Game (I just got bored) the hitchhiker scene definitely got me. But I think, unless it's playing on something conceptual that already existed, yeah, I don't find prose particularly frightening.

Huh. This feels like the kind of thing that could have a significant impact on my creative output if I could crowbar my way into it. Knowing that I as an aphantic don't need descriptions that other people do has already, I think, impacted my editing process, but this feels like it maybe would somehow have an effect on the whole thing -- the fact that I don't experience emotions when reading in the same way other people do because I don't get the visuals is something to meditate on.

How the fuck did I ever even become a writer. Like what's up with that.

(Ironically it was X-Files fanfic. X-Files, a show that very much did scare me, for which I wrote and read a lot of fanfic, none of which did...yikes. Well, that's something to meditate on for the weekend.)

#sam has adhd #an aphantasia fantasia

[disgracefulthings]

Someone has asked me to recommend some fics, I don't think this is what they meant, but here is a list of my favorite fanfiction I have read over the years

Harry Potter

Text Talk

merlywhirls

Summary:

Sirius is in boarding school, Remus is in hospital, and they don't know each other until Sirius texts the wrong number.

My thoughts: I don't know if there is a wolfstar shipper who hasn't read this story, but it is amazing. A majority of the story is told through text messages, which is a real creative choice and I absolutely believed the author pulled it off!

I Know Not, and I Cannot Know; Yet I Live and I Love

billowsandsmoke

Summary:

Severus Snape has his emotions in check. He knows that he experiences anger and self-loathing and a bitter yearning, and that he rarely deviates from that spectrum… Until the first-year Luna Lovegood arrives to his class wearing a wreath of baby’s breath. Over the next six years, an odd friendship grows between the two, and Snape is not sure how he feels about any of it.

My thoughts: A fanfiction that explores the relationship between a student and a teacher that doesn't make it romantic??? Hallelujah, never thought I would see the day. Not gonna lie, this is my favorite fanfiction of all time. While I like Snape in the original story, he doesn't develop as a character, like, at all. Which is why I can see why people don't like him, but this story gives him some development, and his relationship with Luna is absolutely heartwarming. And to those fans who think Harry got over his abuse of Snape too fast, I recommend this to you. Not sure you know, but Snape fucking dies in the book (spoilers, I know), and the author makes sure to give Harry some development too. Bring tissues, because you're gonna cry.

The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation

we'll get him falling for a stranger (or a catfish)

sweetlolixo

Summary:

Lan Wangji: Yingying? Lan Wangji: Are you busy with class? Lan Wangji: Won’t disturb you if that’s the case. Lan Wangji: (´• ω •`) Wei Ying wants to cry. What jock uses kaomojis? Ever? Or, Wei Ying is hired by a client to catfish Lan Wangji online, as a hot girl, for revenge. Except, Lan Wangji is not the playboy jock he expected...

My thoughts: This is a pure fluffy and hilarious story. If you like it when characters face consequences for their actions, then probably skip this because people do a whole lotta shit and completely get away with it (except Su She, but fuck Su She)

how to fall in love with a catfish: a guide by wei wuxian (disaster rat)

bwyn, Yuisaki

Summary:

A new plan hatches in Wei Wuxian’s head. If this nocturnal, bottom-feeding, slimy, invasive mudcat posing as a beautiful actor thinks he can sway Wei Wuxian with animal pictures and a sob story and an unbelievably stilted way of texting with still no dick pictures in the first five minutes of conversation, he has another thing coming. Wei Wuxian’s got it, alright, he has this in the fucking bag. Wei Wuxian plots to expose a catfish using strategic memes and turtle pictures while wiggling his way out of family dinner. Lan Wangji just wants companions.

My thoughts: Another catfishing story?!?! Except not really because Wei Wuxian has issues. Not gonna lie, I've only read this once, but god damn, did it destroy me. I don't reread it because I don't like it, but because I'm afraid of feeling all those emotions again. You know how I said the last story has no consequences, well this one has all of them. Watch Wei Wuxian as he slowly destroys his life, before finally putting himself back together and allowing himself to accept love. Another story you will need tissues for.

A Corpse Called By Name

jaemyun

Summary:

A continuation of zombie drabble! She loses her brother in a hoard of the undead. She finds a corpse wearing his face in a convenience store. The corpse calls her name.

My thoughts: I hate zombie movies, but I am absolutely fine with zombie fics. The story starts like how all good Wei Wuxian stories start: with him fucking dying. Watch a dead man build a family and slowing piece himself back together (metaphorically, he isn't falling apart due to decay)

Scum Villain Self Saving System

Bros before... well everything I guess

Icannotthinkofapenname

Summary:

Shen Yuan tried not to think of his original family too often, his parents, his brothers, and sister… Nope. Done with that train of thought. He’s Shen Qingqiu now. This was a new life, and he has a new family to look after. Sometimes a family consists of 12 martial sibilings and a whole lot of disciples. Just a buncha fluff of Shen Qingqiu, Shang Qinghua, their martial sibilings and the kids. Shenanigans ensue.

My thoughts: Another purely fluffy fic, though I have to mention something I really like about it. You see, I have a bit of a pet peeve when canon divergence fanfiction basically follow all of the important plot points from the original story. This story does that, but it doesn't do the scenes in full and only really mentions that it happened, and I think it's great. I don't need to read about Sha Hualing's demon invasion for the 50th time, let's move on and get to the things that matter! Like Shang Qinghua in wedding robes. Also there's a lot of platonic cumplane, which I could never get enough of.

Recovery

Moonsheen

Summary:

Luo Binghe returns to Cang Qiong Mountain with a grievously injured Shen Qingqiu. The trouble is, it's the wrong Shen Qingqiu. AKA The original Shen Qingqiu gets a happy ending, whether he likes it or not.

My thoughts: There aren't many fanfictions I have found that depict Shen Jiu in all his cruel glory. People usually sand him down, like, 'oh, he didn't actually give Luo Binghe his cultivation notebook, that was Ming Fan', or, 'he was more neglectful than monstrous'. I don't mind these interpretations of Shen Jiu, but I feel like stories are more rewarding when you try to heal the man at his scummiest. Recovery is a multi part serious that slowly shows Shen Jiu recover (see what I did there??) from what Bingge has done to him, while also finally finding happiness with Yue Qingyuan.

We Are Not Wise

Boomchick, Suzoomie

Summary:

When Shen Qingqiu drew Shen Yuan’s soul sword, it felt like being burned from the inside out. The fire wasn’t cruel, but it was still fire—hot and destructive, searing the softest pieces of him.   When Binghe’s fingers touch the hilt, he is ready for pain. Transmigrated into a version of Proud Immortal Demon Way where cultivators manifest their own souls into spiritual weapons, Shen Yuan finds himself sort of kind of…accidentally blackmailing Shen Qingqiu into taking him on as a disciple before Luo Binghe joins the sect. That should give Shen Yuan plenty of opportunities to make sure nothing goes wrong for his favorite protagonist, right? RIGHT!? A story of twists, turns, hope, despair, and soul swords. Written for the Bingqiu Reverse Minibang 2023, illustrated and conceptualized by the incredible Suzu!

My thoughts: The last fic has Shen Jiu healing arc, this one has his father arc. Another story you need tissues for, and for multiple chapters, my god is it hard to read and cry at the same time. Another really good premise that was knocked out of the park by the authors.

pride is not the word I'm looking for

Tossawary

Summary:

Shang Qinghua goes to take a self-indulgent peek at his baby protagonist son and gets a kick to the shrivelled heart for his troubles. He gave up on changing the story years ago! Yet he finds himself helping his protagonist son's adoptive mother anyway. Just this one change won't matter too much, right? One little change leads to more. Shang Qinghua never meant to care, but he becomes invested in making sure that his new family survives the looming plot. With the changes to the world cascading around him, with his position as a traitor pulling him between his sect and a certain ice demon, and with the protagonist growing up so quickly, how is one displaced author meant to ensure that everything turns out all right? A Pre-Canon to Canon Divergence story.

My thoughts: I'm gonna be honest, this is the only story on here that I have not finished. I struggle with reading fics that are 400k words long (and by struggle I mean I don't finish them), but this is a story I come back to and reread (and attempt to finish), mostly for one arc. There is a part of the story where Shang Qinghua help look for Luo Jiahui's (Luo Binghe's mom) missing sister, and it is without a doubt the best arc I have ever read in fanfiction. If you are like me and don't like long fanfiction, I still recommend reading this story at least up to that arc, you wont regret it. I also have to say this is my favorite interpretation of Luo Binghe's mom.

Servant to a Different King

Tossawary

Summary:

As the head disciple of An Ding Peak, Shang Qinghua threw the plot out the window and abandoned his sect, and now he enjoys a luxurious life as Tianlang-Jun and Su Xiyan's most treasured and trusted advisor, as the happy couple rules over the Demon Realm together with iron fists. He has everything a transmigrator could want. Unfortunately, there's only so long that the Imperial Advisor can continue to avoid another of Tianlang-Jun's favorite underlings: Mobei-Jun, the new Northern King. An attempt on Shang Qinghua's life inside the Underground Palace itself forces him back into the company of the demon who was once destined to kill his character - and who also once promised to kill him if they ever met again.

My thoughts: Another Tossawary story! This time Shang Qinghua saves Luo Binghe's mom (wait didn't that happen in the last one?) and dad (ok, so it's different). A Moshang focus story where Shang Qinghua tries to avoid having an awkward (and possibly deadly) conversation with Mobei-Jun, which becomes an impossible task because he is now his personal guard. I love the cocenpt of having Shang Qinghua work under Tianlang-Jun, and the interactions between those two are always hilarious.

YuGiOh

An Apocalypse Means Nothing Because You Are The World In Which I Live

sitabethel

Summary:

When an old tomb-keeper steals the Millennium Tome in order to raise the dead, the gods are forced to send Atem back to the world of the living to end the crisis; however, Bakura doesn't trust him to save Marik, so the thief finds his own way back. Meanwhile, the goddess Isis makes a deal with a certain dark entity, offering him a soul in exchange for his services.

My thoughts: Ok, it's been many years since I have last read this story, but I still have to add it to my recommendations because of how batshit insane it is. This is a zombie apocalypses story taking place in yugioh, the story where everything is solved by card games. Do you know how they stop the zombie outbreak? CARD GAMES! Like holy shit, this story is crazy, but it's also on brand. I used to be into thiefshipping and other yugioh ships, so if you're like that then I definitely recommend this one.

Annnddd those are my recommendations. Feel free to judge my taste, but I will unapologetically love these stories till the day I die.

#fanfic recommendation #fanfiction #harry potter #wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin #severus snape #luna lovegood #wangxian #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mxtx #mxtx mdzs #mo dao zu shi #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mxtx svsss #scum villian self saving system #bingqiu #qijiu #moshang #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #luo binghe #shang qinghua #yue qingyuan #mobei jun #yugioh #thiefshipping #yami bakura #marik ishtar

[cryptidafter]

do u remember some time ago when we where talking about woh and its potential for a horroredit??? im gathering inspiration and ill probably ask u at some point to lend me ur expertise in that area but for now i just want to ask what u like abt horror, as a viewer! what do u enjoy? what would u like to see explored more, what have movies (or books!?) done before that excites u and that u could talk abt for hours? if u want pls do go deep into the technical aspects if u have any thoughts from a storyteller's perspective! youve shared your thoughts with me a bit before so view this as the extended cut!

Oooh yes, of course I remember (and am still incredibly excited about the idea)!

You asked for the extended cut so this is probably going to be another long one (get comfortable lol).

If we're specifically talking about film, what I like about horror as a genre is its ability to personify and often contextualize the complicated and uncomfortable emotions most of us have a difficult time unpacking. Grief, trauma, rage, anger, fear - they're all given a name and/or a face and by taking those abstract concepts and re-imagining them as something tangible and real, it provides me with a sense of catharsis that few other genres can.

More below the cut <3

I enjoy having that control. I'm choosing to sit down and watch a piece of media that will force me to confront those abstract unknowns in a way that's not as overwhelming as IRL. I've been drawn to darker themes from a young age (I think because death was something I had to grapple with when I was too young to really understand it) and I've always been fascinated by the parts of life people shy away from or outright refuse to acknowledge. I grew up on Goosebumps, Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark, and whatever vampire books I could get my hands on. Horror just hooked me.

Something I'd like to see explored more in horror is race but not in the way it's usually done. I don't want the story to be tailored for a non-black/non-poc audience. I want horror that focuses on all those nasty bits of racism that fester beneath the surface. The microaggressions and the respectability politics and the ever-looming discomfort that comes from trying to fit yourself into spaces that were never made for you in the first place. Get Out touches on some of this (hence why it's such a cultural touchstone) but even it doesn't get down into the weeds like I want. Give me the specter of racism! Make it a silent, sneaking embodiment of minstrelsy that waits in the shadows to mock you. Give me two versions of the same person: code-switching taken to its extreme. Idk, I just think there are so many terrifying but subtle ways that racism presents itself that could be personified in a way that might be hugely impactful for non-white audiences. Most people understand that slavery is bad and that you shouldn't call people slurs. Now, lets go deeper.

I've made posts about some of my favorite horror media but, like you said, I can talk about this stuff for hours and I don't think I've discussed unique types of filmmaking/writing execution before.

I'm a huge fan of psychological horror. Yes, I can get down with a good gory slasher, I LOVE zombie everything, but psychological horror is my true love. I'm a sucker for horror where something isn't quite right even if you can't put your finger on it. Something that seems ordinary and should be a safe space (like your home) suddenly becoming unfamiliar. That lingering sense of dread that comes from feeling like your surroundings are off but not knowing why or how. Seeing something that should not be possible and trying to apply logic and reason to what can never be explained. That will always fuck me up in the best ways lol. Taking the mundane and twisting it beyond recognition *chef's kiss*, I love it.

Junji Ito is one of my favorite manga writers for this reason. Not only is his art style PHENOMENAL but a lot of his stories revolve around the ordinary turned monstrous (Uzumaki, Tomie). A town that's doomed to always be consumed by spirals for reasons unknown. A girl who dies only to suddenly turn back up but something about her isn't the same. So great!

Another fantastic example of this is House of Leaves, which genuinely unnerved me so much so that I still haven't finished reading it.

The way House of Leaves has the text itself morph and change, becoming entirely nonsensical at times, really heightens the anxiety and discomfort I feel. I never know what's going to happen next, both in the actual narrative and on the page. Books have always frightened me more than visual media because my mind will always conjure up the most terrifying images imaginable lol. It's difficult to make something look as scary on screen as it does in my head (not impossible, of course, just tough).

Skinamarink is another fantastic exploration of this theme. Your home - the place where you rest, make memories, get to fully be yourself - has become a hostile environment. I won't get into how the movie is (imo) an incredibly well-done metaphor for childhood trauma (your house becomes a prison that you can't escape and your parents are demonic entities that frighten and harm you; though I can also get behind the other theory I've seen where normal things can seem more confusing and scary as a child because you have no frame of reference for what's happening). But wow this movie stuck with me. I know you're not into horror but I have to share the short film that was the inspiration behind the full-length movie to really get the message across (headphones are best because there's a lot of audio distortion).

Visually, my favorite types of horror do a lot with a little. You don't need jumpscares and buckets of fake blood to get the job done (though those are fun lol). Playing around with lighting, depth of field, focus, etc. can do a lot to make you disoriented or nervous. Take liminal spaces for instance (which I love).

There's nothing inherently strange about these images but they're unnerving. You get the sense that something could be lurking, that you might turn a corner and encounter danger. Something about being utterly alone does weird things to your brain sometimes which is really the core of what I'm getting at: good horror asks the viewer to sit with discomfort, get familiar with it.

Okay, I have rambled long enough lol. You know my DMs are always open for more discussion of this topic (especially as it pertains to WOH) <3

#asked and answered #cryptid's thoughts #horror films #horror novel #liminal spaces

[mo0nlyte]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers <3

Long sip of blood tea

Procrastinating? Okidoki.

Only because I like ya.

Thank you dear heavens for letting me procrastinate this story is killing me

An obvious one,

Slashers.

Slashers. Specifically the Sawyers. I like em' a lot just because of how they act and what they mean to me.. but Michael Myers will always have a place in my heart being the first slasher movie I've ever watched. Specifically because he reminds me of my dad a bit. Stoic, and mean.. and old.

A less obvious one.

Oingo Boingo/70's music.

(before you come at me, yes, Oingo Boingo was formed in 1972, almost all of their albums came out in the 80s tho.)

Oddly enough, 70's music. Specifically I like makin' playlists, mixed with more 2000s, 80s/70s. I love music a lot, n' often make playlists for people I like, often having a mix of songs I think they might like, n' songs they like, I'm working on one now for an Adal :3, Oingo Boingo is my favorite, besides Strawberry alarm clock, Rob Zombie.

One I haven't shared.

Art. not like drawing, but I'll take pictures from Pinterest, Google, anywhere I can find them, n' make boards. Real life physical ones. I've made two so far, one for my sister, n' one that is psychedelic purple, and a bit 80's. I'll show em' off later. I also enjoy just taking a sharpie and stickers too stuff.. uh, it's "yolo", right? Ya only live once?

One I have shared

Photography! I need to do more of it. An' I would love a photo dump for you guys. It's a thing that often is the reason I take walks, or want to get in better shape mentally n' physically.

Last one..

As any Sawyer'll tell you, Family before anything else. No matter how much you wanna rip their faces off, rip their boyfriends face off, or how much you want them to go take a long dive off the deep end. My mom keeps me sane, whilst also making me go insane, my dad is there for unspecified reasons, my brother in law is.. well he is. And my sister keeps me the most sane, whilst not being able to take a joke. Love em tho.

Family doesn't always have to be blood. Friends and best friends are also family. Isn't that right?

@adalwolfgang, @kingfisheress, @arm-t0rn-off-by-a-train

#tcmwriting

[realhankmccoy]

I wouldn't blame anyone for preferring the heteronormativity of the guy on the left to the gay guy in the baby blue shirt on the right as far as what's attractive goes --

Though do keep in mind that perhaps if you looked at it differently and he took his shirt off like he does on Grinder and Scruff, the au naturale gay boy is more of a beauty and a beast, and certainly far more suitable for the throne in Schloss Neuschwanstein, if you're of the royalist mindset that's so tragically popular these days -- it's in the eye of the beholder, you know, and you don't have to let conservative redneckia and the cross tell you what's programmatically superior and comfortable for the red-pilled all the time like some cuck would do.

I mean, who am I to deny anyone their heteronormative sense of attraction even if I'm exclusively almost attracted to gay guys (and stock photos of straight guys I can queer up in my head)

so I mean, I wouldn't blame people for just unnaturally (capitalism-and conservativism inducedly) thinking I should aspire to be the guy on the left --

nor would I blame America's deep conservatism for thinking I am 'jealous' of the guy on the left, as if I'm somehow incapable of realising that there's a cost to be paid for wanting to be a billionaire or dying early tof too much muscle and hard living --

for I do fantasise about being in all sorts of other bodies, in ways I won't even list here because you kids wouldn't be able to handle the truth of all those fantasies. If you think I've typed em all out in stories, you're quite wrong about that, as my mind's a lot more imaginatively twisted than I'd ever put on the cancel culture wreck-ya-for-life corporate internet these days.

In fact, I've thought of typing those stories out for my own ends, and for what? To sit in a secret archive forever? The bourgeois notions of what's appropriate and what's not these days are restricting and stupid, for many abhorrent things are permissible and many harmless things stoke bourgeois anxieties to the levels of a screech.

Just consider how many of you are totally fine with Tarantino films or almost every casual American violent video game or film... but how

deeply, deeply uncomfortable and upset and YOU'RE A THREAT you folks are about 10,000 things that might happen in fiction.

Stupidity is the reason we have Queen Taylor Swift and King Elon Musk. If you think I'm jealous of those two, you don't get it at all -- for I am in no way jealous of selling my soul and converting to plastic to hog billions -- but I wouldn't blame anyone for having an imagination so spectacularly conservative and inept that jealousy is thought to be my driving force -- just like my conservative dad falsely believes me to be jealous of my brother.

What's really going on is I'm merely devalued and people place no value on homosexuals, preferring a $20 t-shirt to guys like me. Being simple and selfish as they are, they think I need to be whipped with a cattle prod to become Swift, Elon, Bro and various others because they're the ones who devalue queers and think we're all just in need of 'learning' and in need of 'sucking it up and aspiring to be x y and z peoples'.

In other words, they're basically just programmatic cucks with conservative minds completely lacking in understanding, spirit, progressivism, compassion and imaginative capacity. Having any one of those 5 qualities -- along with many other qualities -- would prevent them from making such stupid and predictable (stock, mass-produced, industrial) miscalculations in regard to my nature.

When people are this childlike and limited, there's no need to defend yourself from them. An opinion that's not only wrong but wrong for the most cucked of reasons is...

well, almost pitiable.

And I hate to talk about pity in those terms, because that's almost weaponising it, even as a shield.

It's like seeing the undead, I guess -- human zombies -- when you watch a zombie movie, you kinda pity the zombies, right? I mean they could have been human if things hadn't gone horribly wrong.

I can't watch a zombie movie without some pity.

America's a zombie movie, and perhaps you are too -- or will be if you're not careful -- so please don't ever forget that.

#selfie #lgbtq community #lgbtqia #lgbt #heteronormativity #homonormativity #neuschwanstein castle #schloss neuschwanstein #lgbt writers

[fredoesque]

4, 5, 21!

4. How many WIPs do you have right now?

it depends on how you count them haha. rn i have abt 2k of a supernatural gbu fic stuck in development hell, and two other wips (gbu and the terror) that consist of a document with about 5 sentences in it each. but there's also 2 or 3 scattered ideas that aren't being written but they are being considered. in pre-production. being tenderized if you will

on top of that i've been writing some drabbles to get back into the habit, but i don't know if i'll be sharing those at all, bc i'm not sure how?? i'd wanna go about doing that

5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write?

well never is a big word bc i do love to try and make an completely out-there concept work, but i had an idea for a mean streets lighthouse au that will likely never see the light of day bc i LOST. MY NOTES. like an idiot.

the basic premise was that charlie was a lighthouse keeper and johnny was a ghost haunting the lighthouse. and basically charlie taking this lonely, awful job was still a penance thing and johnny (maybe??? i'm not as sure abt this bit) was still feared and ostracized in a way but also a bona fide menace. and they'd figure out how to build a home together <3 maybe <3

21. Have you ever deleted an entire scene after spending hours laboring over it? If so, why?

sort of?? i was fighting for my life with the ending of this place lets you down (easy). somehow i couldn't get the tone and characterization right, especially while trying to balance them with letting johnny and charlie have some sort of happy ending. i ended up scrapping everything i had and rewriting it entirely, but the actual content of the scene is still essentially the same so?? ship of theseus deleted scene ig

here's the original version if you're curious:

It’s during the feast of San fucking Genarro that Charlie shows up on Johnny’s doorstep. It’s the middle of the night, but there are still people in the street. Music and light and the smell of zeppole waft over. It’s like a slap to the face, seeing Charlie up close again—but, y’know, a slap in the face after you just called a girl fat—really, kind of inevitable. “Hey,” says Charlie, softly. “Would you still like to go see those zombies?” “Yes,” says Johnny before his brain catches up. “Guess so,” he adds after a beat. “Only if you want to watch with me.” “Yeah, sure,” says Charlie and he’s grinning in a nervous sort of way. “If you agree to make out with me in the back.” Johnny feels an answering giggle build at the base of his spine, but he keeps a straight face. “Well, I don’t know. Seems kinda like a bad idea.” “Maybe,” says Charlie, just barely rocking back and forth on his heels. “Probably.” “Alright,” says Johnny. His hearts beating like it wants out. Charlie’s face lights up with a full smile now, the big and ugly one. Johnny’s done far stupider things for far stupider reasons. “Just one problem.” Charlie’s shoulders just about shoot off into orbit. “What’s that?” he says. Johnny leans forward, just a bit. “I don’t think they’re playing that movie anymore,” he whispers. Charlie relaxes again. “No, I don’t think they are.” He grabs Johnny’s hand from across the threshold. He starts them off walking, into the crowd. “I figured there’d be another one we could catch.”

#hope this is not too much detail haha. one thing abt me is i love to talk abt writing #anyway thank you for the ask <3

[feuqueerfire]

March 2023 BL/GL Wrap-Up

A little monthly (spoilery!) wrap-up of all the shows I’ve watched or am watching in March 2023, general thoughts, and ranking of them all.

Recommendation of the month:

So Long, See You Tomorrow is only available in film festivals I think? So I had to watch it on a bootleg site but it's worth it, especially for people who like this sort of movie where young men are friends and also possibly boyfriends but are separated for reasons and then the story takes place a decade or two later a la His (2020), Your Name Engraved Herein, Life: Love On The Line, etc. This one has a fun parallel universes thing to it though but it's still got the slow, slice-of-life vibe to it rather than any hard sci-fi

Ranking

Moonlight Chicken = Derry Girls S1

Happiness = Derry Girls S2 = Derry Girls S3 = A Shoulder To Cry On = So Long, See You Tomorrow

Island Part 1

Island Part 2

The New Employee - Dropped

Average Rating: 6.4/10

MDL Updates - Added to Watchlist:

A section because I’m curious about how many shows I decide to add to my Watch List a month and also the ratio of watching them:adding them.

Island Part 1

Island Part 2

Koi Desu: Yankee-kun to Hakujou Garu: Certified Noonas recommended it and I thought it was funny that she's a blind so she's like what he's a nice guy when everybody warns her against him

Circle: The Certified Noona Natalia's favourite show and apparently it's a good sci-fi. Also a Yeo Jin-goo show

The Crowned Clown: another Yeo Jin-goo show and I've heard good things

Kingdom (2019): I liked Happiness enough and am curious about a historical zombie drama

A Shoulder to Cry On

So Long, See You Tomorrow (2021): saw a clip last month from this tweet (twitter.com/beansxooo/status/1630016040473178119) and got around to finally adding it to MDL

Our Dating Sim

Tomorrow (2022): The Certified Noona recommendation I think. Grim reapers :>

To Watch List At Start Of Month: 56

To Watch List At End Of Month: 56 (heh, it stayed the same)

Removed from To Watch List:

Self (2022) - unlikely I'll ever watch it

Our Beloved Summer (2022) - I do like exes-to-lovers which is why I originally added it but I think I'd get really frustrated with them breaking up multiple times over 16 eps (as somebody said). I saw a tiktok of them in high school years teasing each other and that was really cute though

Once Again (2022) - unlikely I'll ever watch it

Watching On-Air

Nothing

Completely Watched

Moonlight Chicken

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Feb 8, 2023 - Mar 2, 2023

Watch Via: GMMTV Youtube (free)

Watch Dates: Mar 1 - 6, 2023

Rating: 7/10

Overall Impression: It's a good one! High quality with good acting and interesting storylines that are unique in BL. It didn't hit me as hard as it seemed to hit some other people though and I'm not thinking about it much at all since finishing. I think Jim/Wen's relationship was one of the weakest aspects of the show to me because I didn't care nor did I really feel anything. I loved Heart and Li Ming, I enjoyed getting to see Jim grow and also how his relationship with Li Ming changed, I liked getting to see Wen and Alan's flashbacks and to present tense relationship, I like Gaipa showing up once in a while to be bright, I thought Gaipa and Leng's interactions were funny, I loved Li Ming as a character so much, I wished to be him so badly.

tags: moonlight chicken

Also Appears In: Moonlight Chicken Live Blogging

Island Part 1

Country: South Korean

Release Dates: Dec 30, 2022 - Jan 13, 2023

Watch Via: Amazon Prime :>

Watch Dates: Mar 14 - 15, 2023

Rating: 6/10

Overall Impression: The main female lead was whatever, wish she was just good at something. Whether it be fighting demons, fighting back via kindness and empathy, or actual power due to her status/wealth/connections. She's not the worst ever because she can still stand up for herself and she has personality but I mourn that they've written her like this. Van is just fucking boring and I don't care. My beloved Johan <3333 I liked his charming, cocky, beautiful character who was so intrigued by everything going on as if he really was 20 and curious about everything but also I liked his apprehension when it came down to it. The storyline with his brother was so T.T Also curious to see the evil brother half-demon Guntan and his sidekick niece Yeom-ji. They're both pretty cool compared to our 2 main characters. I wish the show flowed better in terms of the sequence of scenes and pacing and the main characters were more intriguing.

tags: island

Also Appears In: Island Part 1 Live Blogging

Island Part 2

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Dec 30, 2022 - Jan 13, 2023

Watch Via: Amazon Prime :>

Watch Dates: Mar 16 - 17, 2023

Rating: 5.5/10

Overall Impression: Literally how was it worse than part 1? Especially when we focused more on Guntan and Yeom-ji than fuckass Miho and Van? Maybe because of less focus on Johan (I wanna know his backstoryyyyyy) and also just incomprehensible writing/plot direction. Yeomji and Johan my beloveds + Guntan being cool were the highlights. Hated the dumbass cliffhanger ending. such a forgettable show.

tags: island (Search s2)

Also Appears In: Island Part 2 Live Blogging

Happiness 

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Nov 5, 2021 - Dec 11, 2021

Watch Via: Viki (free)

Watch Dates: Mar 18 - 23, 2023

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall Impression: Good but not great. I liked the first quarter and last quarter most because there was more action whereas the middle half was slower and was more people-based. There were different characters who had distinct personalities/circumstances and I like the fucked-in-the-head neighbours trope but most of the side characters were pretty one-dimensional. I wish we got to see some actual proper satisfying murder. The romance was barely there but it was still cute. I liked how comfortable they were with each other and I liked the platonic/non-romantic moments as well.

tags: happiness

Also Appears In: Happiness Live Blogging

Derry Girls S1

Country: UK

Release Dates: Jan 4, 2018 - Feb 8, 2018

Watch Via: :>

Watch Dates: Mar 24, 2023

Rating: 7/10

Overall Impression: This was pretty fun overall since I haven't watched much Irish television nor do I know many Irish people, so it was fun to get to peek into the culture and vibe of the 1990s Ireland through this. Also, the girls are all so different and also terrible in many ways; I do love it when characters are people I'd hate it real life and I don't think I'd be able to stand any of these people (maybe Clare, maybe James), so it's fun to see them go around wreaking havoc.

tags: derry girls

Also Appears In: Derry Girls Live Blogging

Derry Girls S2

Country: UK

Release Dates: Mar 5, 2019 - Arp 9, 2019

Watch Via: :>

Watch Dates: Mar 25, 2023

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall Impression: Still very fun, though there were some that weren't as good/funny in the middle. Liked the little emotional moment with James at the end. Love Orla being a girl who's a boy and James being a boy who's a girl (and this time he agrees to being a Derry Girl rather than them slagging him for being a girl/gay).

tags: derry girls

Also Appears In: Derry Girls Live Blogging

Derry Girls S3

Country: UK

Release Dates: Apr 12, 2023 - May 18, 2023

Watch Via: :>

Watch Dates: Mar 26, 2023

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall Impression: I don't know how to feel about the ending - it was touching but certainly a different tone than the other episodes, but it still had enough of the same vibes. It was good season but I'm not yearning for more.

tags: derry girls

Also Appears In: Derry Girls Live Blogging

The New Employee - DROPPED

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Dec 21, 2022 - Feb 1, 2023

Watch Via: Viki (free)

Watch Dates: Mar 27 - 28, 2023

Rating: --/10

Overall Impression: It's sad that I've watched worse kBLs but since I had some expectations while going into this, it's more disappointing. I don’t really care for boss/employee romances in general and i think the fact that it’s positioned as wholesome/cute here so far isn’t working for me. if you’re gonna have the boss kiss the intern out of the blue while said intern is drunk, it needs to be framed in more of a rancid way for it to still be fun; dabble more with the weird power dynamics and lean into the bad vibes lol

tags: the new employee

Also Appears In: The New Employee Live Blogging

A Shoulder to Cry On

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Mar 15, 2023 - Mar 29, 2023

Watch Via: Viki (free)

Watch Dates: Mar 28 - 29, 2023

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall Impression: I really liked the first 5 episodes when there was so much contempt but Taehyun couldn't stop himself from terrorizing or goading Da Yeol and Da Yeol couldn't stop noticing how beautiful Taehyun was, and then the friendship that bloomed in that but still with an edge. I didn't quite get the reason for separation in episode 6 and think the last episode was cutesy but out-of-character sort of. Still, overall a pretty good one; reminds me of a mix of Blueming and Utsukushii Kare. I was giddy so many times while watching this, especially the first half and was clutching my head and curling my toes despite it not being romantic, just full of tension.

tags: a shoulder to cry on

Also Appears In: A Shoulder To Cry On Live Blogging

So Long, See You Tomorrow

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Nov 4, 2021

Watch Via: :> (it's only shown in film festivals or something)

Watch Dates: Mar 31, 2023

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall Impression: No matter what I think about the story/character/acting in these types of movies like this, along with His (2020), Life: Love On The Line, Your Name Engraved Herein, they make me feel a certain way. Even if I don't cry, some parts make have slightly glassy eyes and my chest constricts with the emotions. These feel human in a specific way and I can't take it always, but these drawn-out, slice-of-life movies where young men are separated and then reunite to be friends/lovers decades later is so good. Also I thought it was funny that I kept waiting for the parallel universes to come into it without realizing when we'd slipped into a different universe lol Also, this whole movie we got to see how Kang Hyun affected Dongjoon but Dongjoon affected Kang Hyun enough for him to write about parallel universes in his novel

Also Appears In: So Long, See You Tomorrow Live Blogging

#tracking #general bl #moonlight chicken #island #happiness #derry girls #a shoulder to cry on

[oddygaul]

Planet Earth III

I don’t have too much to say here, either deeper thoughts or to record whether I liked this or not. It’s a new Planet Earth, of course it fuckin rules. So I’m mostly just going to save a bunch of pictures to remember some of the coolest bits.

I think one of the challenges you always face with nature documentaries like this is striking a balance between accessibility and novelty. I know it sounds weird to write about A Animal being accessible, but like, if you’re an adult and have watched nature documentaries your whole life, you have seen extensive footage of dolphins and lions doing their thing, and you’re mostly here for that niche shit. Still, especially for a series with as broad a scope as Planet Earth, you always have to assume it might be someone’s first nature doc, and continue to show off the amazing things some viewers may be jaded about.

In that respect, Planet Earth III strikes a really great balance between the two extremes, and had a whole host of incredible things I’d never seen. I’d seen stills of sea butterflies before, but never in my wildest dreams imagined the nightmarish way they capture prey. The section with the jacana (lilypad-jumping bird) awakened a deep, long-dormant part of my childhood that made me want to lay every pillow in the house onto the ground and jump daringly between them. The nesting ostriches felt like a clever inversion of the usual penguin childrearing we get. Even the whales, those classic standbys, feel fresh with outstanding moments like the feeding montage*.

Also, how have I never seen underwater hippo footage?? lit.

*In general, I’m always impressed how they continue to raise the bar visually. I always think “the last one looked pretty amazing - how much better could the fidelity / shot comp have gotten?”, and the answer is always “bitch YOU THOUGHT”

I’ve said this for years, but I desperately want a modern, bug-only flagship BBC documentary. Every time they do segments at that macro scale it’s fucking wild and I want to watch hours of crazy bug shit.

If anyone knows what kind of monkey this is, hit me up. They just pan by without saying anything about it as if that's not one of the craziest motherfuckers I've ever seen

That is, in fact, aerial footage of a locust swarm

The Amazon segment, in a particularly inspired choice, is shot and scored with the creeping dread of a horror movie, showing the wild jungle being slowly overtaken by endless, identical rows of nursery farms, swaying in the wind like shambling zombies.

Of course, these docs continue to be pretty bleak the longer you watch them, due to the unchecked progress of climate change. All of the BBC productions have gotten more and more frank about how critical things are for all the featured habitats, and at this point they spend nearly a fourth of the runtime pleading for intervention. Their purpose was already essentially conservationist, by preserving footage and knowledge for future generations, so I applaud them continuing to use their platform to push for awareness. I just wish any of the people with that level of power were actually watching things like this.

#will's media thoughts / virtual brain repository #shows #planet earth iii #planet earth #long post

[caribouv]

Watch a ton of shit last week because didn't feel good.

The Girl With All The Gifts One of the best "go in blind" recommendations in a long, long time.

It came from a short story named Iphigenia In Aulis later turned into a full novel. Ray Bradbury system if I've ever seen one.

It seemed like everyone was doing fungus zombies after the 2008 PLANET EARTH episode on zombie ants. Last of Us is better, but this is still good even if the ending sucks.

Studio 666 I had to turn it off. You dudes are musicians, not actors. The ego of trying to do this was a bit too much for me to handle.

Outlast s01 I absolutely despised this shit. There were no clearly defined rules of interacting with other teams. Turns out, completely randomly, you're allowed to go into someone's camp and destroy their shit right in front of them and the other person had to sit back and watch you. Even though I pirated it, I want to sue Netflix for how bullshit this was.

All Things Must Pass It's a very cool documentary and extremely thought provoking. Also, I don't feel sorry for these fucking shitheads. It's plainly clear they should've got into the business of producing alongside distributing, had not been so greedy, but whatever.

The greedy businessman bullshit like stopping the sell of singles to force people to buy albums, pushing CDs because larger profit margin, not realizing what the fuck an mp3 was, and endless expansion (debt) because "muh growth."

I'm not super down for live music because I generally don't like it, but I'm not going to ignore how important live music is and a space for live music. I just love how these greedy fucks were directly responsible for napster and later itunes and then spotify and now back to napster.

STATION ELEVEN The theme of art and humanity transcending time, place, and generations.

The use of color to help the viewer understand where in time they were: before, during, after.

The perfection and blend of a clockwork and puzzle plot with a braided narrative. I was, quite literally, losing my mind the final two episodes.

I want to pinpoint the brilliant and wonderful winter solstice episode exploring the concept of 9 months after lockdown when all these women were giving birth at the same time.

I could write about this endlessly.

The only bad thing I will say is that it dragged at times, but I feel like that is me being too ignorant of Shakespeare's work to be realizing analogies / the adaptation from same.

SWARM. I'm not privy enough with Beyonce lore fully understand it, but it's still really, really good. The Billie Eilish episode was just utterly insane.

I almost turned it off so many times in the first two episodes because of how uncomfortable it made me feel and how creepy it seemed. I'm glad I kept at it and fought through my cringe. I wish I had someone to tell me the soft spoiler of "she's a butch lesbian and Marissa is her foster sister." It would have helped to put into context what erroneously seemed to be incredibly weird and creepy scenes otherwise.

Blood Quantum The sweet justice of American fracking ruining Native American's water supply causing all the Americans who drink it to turn into zombies while Native Americans remain immune. There's so many layers to that. Hell, that sounds like real life right now.

Blending that with the newfound Native American power of fuck the white man v. no lets help them a la Xavier v. Magneto split.

It was a great idea and concept, but those unique parts were not leaned into hard enough while dumb shit zombie fight sequences we've seen a million times took center stage instead.

Run Lola Run I haven't seen this since 8th grade. It's a short and sweet movie that gives another great take on the Chaos Theory. The soundtrack is phenomenally good. Not minimalist, but still 90s german techno af.

Doom Patrol I saw the DC logo on the opener and almost turned it off. "No no no I heard Brendan Fraser is in it give it a shot." Kept watching, opening sequences talking about "You're sick of comic book heroes we know! So we made comic book heroes who are SCREW UPS!" And I thought… Misfits? Misfits was great…

15 minutes later: It's just more comic book hero bullshit. Fuck that.

The Miseducation of Cameron Post I can't relate to this at all other than to endlessly bang my head against the wall and again point out how fucking incongruent these religious fuckers are and what they do to people. I kept thinking back over and over to Dead Poets Society.

#film

[sylverfaeland]

Thank you for tagging me, @rey-jake-therapist! This is so fun, I'm so glad you did!

I had a real existential crisis when I discovered tropes and noticed I could not escape them when writing, so participating in this game now is very funny to me!

Rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic?

• -10 -> very dissuaded

• 0 - don't care either way

• 10 -> very enticed

• nope -> if it's a hard no and you'd never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you'd insta click out of the fic if it wasn't tagged

Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it's conditional.

Age Gap: -8

This one is something I find incredibly disgusting in real life and in most stories, too. If the age gap is huge and one of them is below the age of 25. But if the age gap exists because one is a human and the other is an entity or supernatural being, I'm totally in favour.

Codependency: 10

I know this is a polemic one, but I don't agree with how most people view codependency. In my opinion, as someone who believes in soulmates and romantic love being the greatest thing a living being could ever experience, codependency seems like a natural part of it to me. Dependency is very toxic when one-sided, but when it is mutual, it makes a lot of sense. To me at least! How could one survive without their soulmate? There is no life without them. That's exactly how I feel about mine.

Enemies to lovers: -9

I find this one irritating at best and borderline toxic at worst. There are some rare stories where it works (Dramione and Tomione, for example, love those), but I dislike it very strongly overall.

Enemies With Benefits: nope

I'm demisexual, so nope. It makes no sense to me. Sex is the greatest connection a human can have with another; it is magical. I don't understand how one could ever do it with someone they do not love, let alone hate. I can't even read this one. It's a real nope.

Fake Dating/Relationship: -5

I wouldn't read anything with this trope because I only read what I love, but I've watched a few silly movies with it. I didn't have to really use my brain; it was fine. It's a silly and unrealistic trope, but it's not bad or anything.

Found Family: 10

Love it. As someone who is strongly against the idea that blood equals family, this one makes me super happy!

Friends to Lovers: 5

This one depends. I really dislike the childhood friends who've never been interested in one another and suddenly fall in love. It makes no sense. Or when one of them has had a crush on the other since childhood and it's completely one-sided, but they end up together anyways because the writer is incompetent, especially if there was a better option for one of them or both. *cough* Barchie *cough*

But, if done right, this trope can be quite beautiful.

Friends with Benefits: nope

Again, sex is love. In my opinion. So nope.

Hurt/Comfort: 10

This is one of my favourites. All stories need at least a little bit of it to be good. I love it!

Love Triangle: nope

C'mon, I believe in soulmates. Loving two people at the same time makes no sense to me. And this one is horribly executed most of the time, too.

Mistaken/Hidden Identity: -5

This one paired with slowburn is the recipe for driving me insane. I'm so sorry for all the Ladybug fans. I could never. I'm too impatient.

Monster Fu... Relationship: 10

I don't know what the 'Fu' stands for, so I hope I'm understanding this correctly. But I love monsters. Especially as romantic interests. And even more so if they're incredibly powerful and ancient. Vampires, to be more exact. I love vampires. I don't know if entities and gods are included in this, though, but I love those even more than vampires. I don't like werewolves, zombies, or Frankenstein-like monsters, though.

Obsession, Possessiveness, etc: nope/10

I have two different ratings for this one because if obsession and possessiveness come with control and abuse, I hate it. It's disgusting and a nope. But if it's more of an "I love you so much I want to crawl beneath your skin", or a possessiveness that expresses itself in protectiveness and needing to keep the one you love safe, then I love it, and it is a 10.

Opposites (like grumpy x sunshine, etc): 2

This one can be really cliche, but it's cute. It doesn't annoy or bother me, but I'm not a fan of it either. It's whatever.

Poly: nope

Respect it. But it's a nope for me.

Pregnancy: nope/10

Another one with two, opposite ratings.

If it includes any type of misogyny, it's a nope. Like Bella almost dying in Twilight in order to give birth to Renaissance instead of getting rid of her. Like? If my life is at stake, I choose me. And so should all women. We should never sacrifice ourselves for our children or prioritise them above ourselves. That is a concept created by the patriarchy. It is misogyny. And it makes me really fucking mad. So if it involves any type of misogyny, I give it the most negative rating I could ever give to any trope. It's the one I hate the most.

But if the pregnancy comes as the fruit of an unconditional, epic love while the woman remains a free and independent character with a personality and a life outside of the child, then I do love it. Especially if both parents remain in love and prioritise each other first while being amazing parents to their children. It's a 10. All the precious and fragile things'verse (Morpheus x OC) is a perfect example of this.

Second Chance: 8

I love angst and tragedy with a happy ending, so a second chance is mandatory. But if cheating or betrayal of any kind is involved, it's a nope. One of the biggest nopes, in fact.

Sex to Feelings: 0

I can tolerate it if the romance builds beautifully afterwards, but I prefer feelings to sex.

Slowburn: 0

There are some I have loved. Percy and Annabeth were one of my first OTPs, but the slowburn almost made me lose my mind. I'm not patient enough for this one. I admire people who are, though. It can be beautiful, but to me, it is maddening.

Soulmates: 10

MY FAVOURITE ONE. I've been obsessed with the concept of soulmates my whole life. Need I say more?

This is the end. I don't have anyone to tag, so goodbye! This was fun!

#trope tag game #tropes #writing trope #trope talk

[callgespenst]

Finished Media, October 2022

I've gotten a lot out of posting about whatever I've read/watched/played most recently, so I'm going to try doing it as a month to month thing on here. Here's what I was doing this past month!

Tiger and Bunny 2: The rare long-awaited sequel that didn't let down ten years worth of expectations. Getting stuck in Netflix jail really killed the hype, but what can you do? I think I liked the first cour better than the second, not that the second was bad, but it felt more like a movie plot stretched out into a season. Sure hope that the third season (if that's feasible, no idea what the numbers look like on this one) doesn't take as long to drop.

Scooby Doo on Zombie Island, and the Witch's Ghost, and the Alien Invaders: apparently these were direct to video so I refer to them as OVAs, which is only reinforced by the solidly Japanese staff in the credits. All good fun. Alien Invaders was my favorite story, but Witch's Ghost had Tim Curry knocking it out of the park.

Powered Armor Dorvack: a 1984 robot cartoon that I never, ever thought I'd be able to watch with English subtitles. Two of the main mecha from the series got turned into Transformers (Whirl and Roadbuster), and that was all I knew about this going in. Lots of strong character episodes and a very unique last third. Wouldn't recommend it to anyone as their very first robot anime or anything, but if you're full up on the classics it's worth a look.

Fuuto PI: Fun enough on its own, but mostly I just want to rewatch Double now. If I hadn't sworn off the roleplay toys I would absolutely buy the Double Driver again.

Shawshank Redemption: putting this in the middle of the list really makes it stand out. I got married at the cabin shown in the opening scenes of the film where the guy's wife gets murdered, that's the main reason I wanted to see this. Sure wish America still consistently made movies like this.

Castlevania Symphony of the Night: The wonky voice acting is honestly extremely charming. Gameplay is still fun and nuanced several console generations later. Definitely want to play more from the series, but I think I'll save it for next spooky season.

One Piece Film Red: This was just a Macross movie. This is not a joke or an exaggeration. So I highly recommend it.

Dragon Ball (entire original manga): Rereading this all the way through as an adult was really eye-opening. Sure, you can really tell the points at which the editors told Toriyama "what the FUCK are you doing, buddy?" But it's still a great time, I got more than a little emotional at the climax of the final fight, even. I could probably write an essay about how Goku and Vegeta are the most mischaracterized dudes in the whole of western fandom, but not today.

That's everything! Here's what might be next:

Playing: Bayonetta 3

Watching: Witch from Mercury, Pop Team Epic, Do It Yourself!, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood

Reading: Happy Kanako's Killer Life. I might also (god help me) try and catch up on One Piece.

#gespenst media

[threeletterslife]

CHANA I sent an ask earlier on my laptop but it wOuLd not send (at least I think it didn’t??) so houhee try 2 on mobile :,) anyways I WILL NOT HESITATE TO SAY I SCREAMED WHEN YOU POSTED IGNIS FATUUS OMG I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THAT FIC JKFLDJH and I am a sucker for gigantic fics too so when I saw the whopping 26K I was like yes these are the things I live for 😎 but anyways I like how you made the apocalypse more mellow at first, which was an interesting take on zombie apocalypse fics as most of

them are all like oMG *fight pow die* in the first paragraph shjkfjdlsk :,) but also I am vEry scared for the next chapter because if the bus broke then they’re going to have to wALk to the hospital and the city’s going to be like all zombie infested ahhh although they may possibly meet more survivors at the hospital hMm honestly though I feel like the angst is really going to be strong in the second half because Ignis Fatuus means like a deceptive hope I think so why do I feel like the ending

may be like the eight of them realize they’re stuck in this zombie apocalypse world forever or something shklfjldk because I felt like most of the first part all the characters were all pretty dang hopeful that things would get better since they’ve already survived this long and for the most part stuff was running smoothly?? Jjklfdjk I feel like my theory is so small-brain though but I sWEAR this Ignis Fatuus thing must come in play somehow/be related to the tHeMe of the fic because this is

a ChAna fic and they have like 84902390490 layers of meaning sigh sigh :,) but also since JK and Y/N were alike yEah things will get better and we’ll eventually be able to play baseball again and stuff huhuhurjlkgjls I don’t know sigh I feel like the ending is going to be depressing self realization of the fact that even though they’re alive they’re going to die sooner or later/be stuck in misEry forever >:(( also quick question, for your hiatus later on, will you be active but not posting for

the time period, or will it be a complete hiatus where you won’t be active on Tumblr at all? Anyways I’m sorrY for this giant four part ask (and most of it was just me trying to express a single theory on the plot of Ignis Fatuus but rambLing about it very not - concisely lkfjklds) but I hope you have a good day/rest of the day :3 **also your HPxBTS house sorting was so accurate omg Chana sometimes I’m scared at how sharp you are for details and analysis :O

SMFH tumblr blocking asks a saga, part 69, take 420 🙄🙄 thank you for sending your message again in this amazing (monstrous-size) ask!! i LOVE rambles (i ramble all the time) so ALL TYPES OF RAMBLERS ARE WELCOME HERE

i like to think that i took a very,,, quarantine-esque take on a zombie apocalypse, which i actually find more realistic... not that it’s realistic that a zombie apocalypse will happen any time soon (but i mean, 2020 sucked this much and we still got about a month left, so we’ll have to see for sure)

aNYWAYS,, i just feel like most of the human population WOULDN’T try to butt heads with mf ZOMBIES. it would probably be more common for them to HIDE. not everyone in the world has main character syndrome 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️ (especially not me. forget being a hero/protagonist, i’m getting my ass up and RUNNING AWAY.) so i thought it would be interesting to take a less action-based route and also compensate for the grim situation with cRACK/weirdly distinctive characters)

you’re absolutely right tho! the next part is devastatingly angsty,,, like it’s the angstiest thing i’ve ever written 😀 and yes! the ignis fatuus thing rlly does play into the story in part 2. i will neither confirm nor deny your theory tho 👀👀 (#no spoilers) i WILL say that the ending is actually bittersweet, even though without context, it sounds pretty brutal. part 2′s gonna feel like a trainwreck, not gonna lie. but it’s gonna be so horrific that you’re not gonna be able to look away 😀 (i think? lol idk) it would be very VERY interesting to hear your reaction after you read part 2 and reread this ask you sent in LMAO

also! i’ll be active on tumblr (to answer asks and stalk my favorite authors) during my hiatus, but i just won’t be posting new stories. (gotta start stocking up lol.) somewhere along the lines, i’ll post a text fic that i was saving for emergencies and i’ll be updating my wips list with a NEW schedule. i’m so excited for the fics i have in store fjdskfjsdlf

AND THANK YOU!! i’ve been thinking about bangtan’s hp houses for literally like three years now. all those pent up arguments/thoughts finally got released LMAO

i did have a good day too (: thanksgiving break was a blaST!!! i wish you have an amazing day/afternoon/night! AND THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR THEORY W ME! I ENJOY READING COMMENTARIES OF MY FICS SM— ESPECIALLY IF THEY’RE UNFILTERED RAMBLES *CHEF’S KISS*

(omg after part 2 is posted, i’ll be able to explore more of my intentions in the story, jk & yn’s ambiguous relationship, the purpose of the ending, etc. i’m so excited fjslfjlsd)

#ask #🌻 anon #anon #fun fact #i've only ever watched like two zombies movies in my life #train to busan and alive #i watched them both after writing ignis fatuus #lemme just say train to busan highlighted the baseball boi idea of mine #and alive literally encompassed my whole apocalypse-quarantine thing #and also i couldn't sleep for three days after watching both movies

[damiano-mylove]

Movie Night

Pairing: Damiano David x fem!reader

Wc: 2.6k (sorry)

Cw(s): SMUT, bit of angst, swearing ofc, long for some reason, begging, not proof read

*Masterlist*

Work is a healthy habit to get into - to a certain extent. If you work to avoid your problems, that's not particularly one of the most healthy things to do. The only problem working can fix is if you're poor, but really minimum wage doesn't fix that either.

But your Damiano wasn't poor, he wasn't being paid minimum wage. You knew how much he loved working on music with his friends, but he was barely home and you missed him. Being without Damiano almost felt like being without your left arm - especially since it had been so abrupt, going from him spending a few hours writing, to spending almost a full day in the studio.

Tonight was supposed to be movie night. That Damiano had suggested. To make up for lost time.

So, you found yourself, alone, on your velvet red couch, watching Alice in Wonderland, with your cat on your lap. His purrs filled whatever wavelengths were left empty by the film, but you didn't mind that at all. Your fingers found their way into his incredibly soft fur, which felt like silk between those fingers of yours.

The clock soon struck midnight, and the film hit the end credits soon after. Damiano was still not home from the studio, which almost worried you. Almost. In the earlier days of him spending all of his time at Vic's for writing or in the studio, you had thought he'd run off with someone else. You woke up the next morning with him next to you, but that never really put that specific worry to rest.

"Romeo, Baby," you whispered to the silver tabby cat on your lap. He flicked his tail to let you know he heard you. "Dad's not home yet and I'm tired, we gotta go to bed. C'mon." Romeo only lifted his head to lay his grass green eyes on you once you stopped scratching his neck. You smiled to him, though his eyes didn't return it. "You've got half a minute before I move your furry tush."

To no one's surprise, Romeo took more than half a minute so you picked him up like a baby over your shoulder. Your palm cradled his soft feet. Like the lazy cat he was, Romeo fell back asleep on your shoulder on your short walk to your bedroom that you shared with the one and only, Damiano. He used to be a god to you, but now he was basically a roommate who you shared a kiss with every once in a while.

With Romeo asleep on the bed before you finished putting on pyjamas, you slunk off to brush your teeth. The door unlocked. Your heavy eyes cast unto the clock on the wall which read nearly half midnight.

Damiano came in like a whisper in the wind, save for the closet opening so he could deposit his coat. Shaking you head, you just finished brushing your teeth. Your mouth felt dry even though you'd just rinsed it with water.

"Cara mia," Damiano purred once his eyes caught your figure in the lamp light from the bedroom. You smiled at him and went into the bedroom to curl up with your cat and go to sleep. You had work in the morning and customers didn't appreciate workers who look like sleep-deprived zombies.

This was the first time in a long time that you didn't immediately greet him once he came through the door. So Damiano could sense a shift in the mood of the flat; really, he felt it as soon as he walked in and smelt chocolate and strong tea.

His footsteps never gave away where he was, but you could feel his presence enter the room. The bed dipped on the end just as Romeo curled further into you. When Damiano's hand held your ankle, Romeo let out a soft meow.

"What's wrong, Amore?"

"Did you forget or did you do it on purpose?" You immediately sat up as you asked the question. You were tired and to act like it was fine just wasn't in the cards tonight. Damiano's eyebrows drew together. You began to nod. "Movie night? You said you'd come home early to watch a film with us."

Damiano's face darkened in realization. You pursed your lip balm coated lips. Even Romeo could sense the tension and decided to stand up and sit square on your thighs, facing your boyfriend as if to protect you. Damiano looked to his hands which rested in his lap.

After a second, he said, "I-I thought that was tomorrow."

"Tonight was Tuesday night, now it's Wednesday morning," you muttered. Your fingers found the reassuring warmth of Romeo's fur once again and Romeo let out a rather sad sounding meow. "Oh, Romeo, don't worry. Dad just has to tell us he's sorry then we can sleep."

Both you and your cat looked to your boyfriend with tired but expectant eyes. Damiano's eyes never tore from his hands. Then it was like he was speaking to himself. "I was going to buy you flowers. And let you pick the film. And you were supposed to fall asleep on my shoulder, on the couch."

"It's okay, Dami, it's just a movie night," you told him. But your conscience caught you before you continued. Why the fuck were you reassuring him when he was the one who fucked up? Tell you that he'll be home in time for a sort of date night, then skip out. "We'll do it another night, it's all good."

"It's not all good, Y/n." One thing you could agree on tonight, though you'd never say that out loud. Finally, Damiano lifted his eyes from his soft hands. You noticed his eyes shimmer in the lamplight. "I really fucked up your night and for no good reason. I'm really sorry."

Leaning forward, you patted his arm. "Forgiven. We're adults and life gets in the way of romance."

"Not always, and not for us. I'm supposed to be the best boyfriend in the world but I've barely been a boyfriend to you at all lately, and I apologize." His words were stringing together faster in faster as he kept trying to keep his tears at bay. "It's just with the new album and everything, I'm finding out how shitty I am at balancing my life." Damiano came closer to you, holding your hand that once held his arm. "How can I make it up to you, Y/n? You're the love of my life and I don't want us to fizzle out."

For some reason, a little chuckle escaped your lips. His passion for you warmed your heart as you caught a glimpse of how you first had your heart captured by the man sitting before you. The light glittered in your eyes, for Damiano and Damiano alone. "We're not going to fizzle out over one missed movie night."

"Yes, but I've missed many of our nights, whether we made plans for them or not," Damiano rebutted. Your lips pressed together in a flat line. There was a certain ounce of truth to that statement. Damiano pressed a kiss to the back of your hand without maintaining eye contact. "Cara mia, nights are for the lovers, and I seem to have forgotten that."

His warm breath tickled the back of your hand just before his pressed more kisses to the back of your hand, then wrist, then fingers.

Sensing the warming room, Romeo left your lap. He threw you a final glance, seeming like he was making sure you didn't need him in the room to which you slightly nodded at the tabby. Romeo turned on his paws and left the room - leaving two starry-eyed partners who were still most ardently in love.

Without another word, you joined your lips with Damiano's. It had been a long while since a kiss such as this one had occurred. In the place of the usual passing kisses, this one made the love shared prominent. This kiss felt as if your Damiano was once again yours and totally yours; not as if he ever wasn't, but this was a much needed reminder of that.

Holding your face in his large hands, Damiano deepened the kiss by turning his head ever-so slightly. His tongue slid into your mouth with a passionate fervour. There was no battle for dominance, but a mutual exploration of each other's mouths.

Damiano tenderly laid you down against the pillows on your side of the bed, though his lips parted from yours which was an unhappy fate. "Do you want to go further, Cara mia? I know this doesn't equal forgiveness."

"I've never wanted anything more, Dami, my sweetest love," you promised him. Damiano smiled at your admission. He began to place gentle, loving kisses to your neck. "Only if you want to."

"Oh, trust me." Damiano nipped your collarbone, resulting in a yelp from you. You could feel his smirk against your warming skin. "I want to."

Damiano's bites roamed the skin of your chest that your tank top allowed, before you sat up to take it off. Your fingers found Damiano's soft hair as he left sloppy, wet kissed all over your now exposed chest. A bitten back moan escaped your mouth just as his tongue began to circle the tender skin of your nipple, making your back arch into the man above you.

This was an admission of your pleasure, so Damiano's mouth fully encircled your nipple as his hand that once caressed your hip, now cupped your other breast. His warm palm massaged you firmly, having Damiano's name fall from your lips. It had been a while since he'd touched you like this, with such care and attention. Every fiber of Damiano's being was now focused on making his love for you known.

When his warm mouth left your breast to be exposed to the chill of the room, his teeth grazed your sensitive nipple, having goosebumps multiply on your skin at a sky high rate. His mouth then was turned to your other breast as his other hand twisted and pinched the exposed nipple.

Your hands began trying to get his deep red shirt off, to bring his warmth to you. But before Damiano would let you have what you wanted most, he bit the sweet spot beneath your boob, no doubt leaving a mark that would be apparent the next day.

As Damiano leaned up to pull his shirt over his head, you nearly melted underneath him. His hair was already beginning to become delightfully fucked up and the look in his eye was absolutely dark. The look he gave you before joining your lips once again was full of love, accompanied by lust and desire. Damiano slid off his tight leather trousers while he was at it, allowing you to palm him through his briefs.

The kiss shared was now hungry and feverish. The nails of the unoccupied hand scratched down his back, resulting Damiano bucking his hips into your hand. You removed it, which finally gave you the glorious friction that you so completely craved. Damiano no doubt sensed this as he grabbed the back of your thigh as he continued to grind right into the thin layer that separated you both.

"Damiano, please," you nearly cried. The chuckle that came from Damiano was low and only made your panties become even more wet.

"Please what?"

"You know what I mean." He was killing you. Once the words left your lips, Damiano ground his hips into you again. "Fuck me. Fuck me, please. Please."

"See, was that so hard, Amore?" Damiano purred as he lowered the waistband of your pyjama bottoms. He threw them somewhere in the room before pressing his index finger against your clit. You tried to pull him in for a kiss, but Damiano resisted. "Ah, ah, I want to see just how much I effect you."

"You're the fucking-wow-devil himself."

Damiano's laugh bordered upon an evil one. "You love me."

"I love you, I love you so fucking much," you moaned. Damiano smiled as he lowered your grey panties. Those were discarded somewhere along with your pyjama bottoms, but you couldn't give half a fuck because Damiano's perfectly manicured finger found it's way inside of you. You bucked against his hand, making Damiano laugh.

His finger drew circles inside of you while his thumb still played with your clit. God, Damiano was so much better than your own fingers. Without a warning, another finger was added, making a sort of porn-esque moan leave you. Damiano groaned at the sound as well as the sight in front of him. Even his dreams of you weren't as good as this.

It wasn't as if he could help himself from leaning down once again and attaching his mouth to your erect nipple. Your eyes crossed at three parts of your body were on fire with immense pleasure. The flames of rapture enveloped most of your body, even your soul.

"I'm-m-m gonna cum," you cried out. Damiano smiled against your breast as his fingers began going faster. "No, no, let me cum on your cock." Damiano looked up at you with a bit of surprise. You'd never said something like that without prompt.

The needy look that painted your face was all Damiano had to see before he complied. His briefs were off in the blink of an eye and he began to pump himself just to prepare. Your legs were spread wide as you could already feel yourself drip onto the sheets below which made Damiano groan with barred teeth.

He lined himself up with your entrance and gave you one final questioning look. You nodded adamantly before he pushed himself through your folds.

Truly, you could feel your soul ascend as you remembered just how big he was. You big your lip so hard you nearly broke skin while Damiano hissed an intake of breath. He came down to your lips to taste your minty mouth just as his hips began rocking into you, first at a slow pace, then began to get closer.

Damiano's hips snapped into yours quickly, and the sound of smacking skin filled the room, along with the scent of sex and sweat. The combination of both of your moans filled each other's mouths. The bedroom was incredibly hot but somehow you were in a cold sweat, save for where your body joined with Damiano's in sweet harmony.

"Fuck, Y/n, you're so fucking tight," Damiano huffed. You clenched around his cock, only making Damiano cry out with pleasure. Your nails drew down his back, clinging him closer and closer to you with every thrust against your g-spot. Tears brimmed your eyes as a knot formed in the lower part of your stomach.

"Soon, I'm cumming soon."

"Cum on my cock, Baby, just like you want."

You could tell his thrusts were getting sloppy because he was closing in on his release as well. But you couldn't help but cum first as the knot suddenly exploded within you.

Your walls spasmed against Damiano as your release washed over you. Your legs tingled and your toes went a bit numb. Damiano then hit in you a few more times before his own seed seeped into you. It was warm and you felt incredibly full as Damiano stayed within you for an extra few seconds, before falling next to you.

"I know you said this wouldn't equal forgiveness but I'm feeling very forgiving," you sighed. Damiano chuckled and looked over at you. Your skin glowed in orgasmic radiance and your hair was completely fucked out. Damiano's heart swelled at the sight and he couldn't help but kiss you again.

He cleaned you both up after, with a warm wash cloth, and got you new pyjamas. Romeo reentered the room once the sex smell was gone and you were in Damiano's arms once again. Your cat curled between both of you in the dead of night, like the beginnings of a family.

Damiano came home Wednesday afternoon with a massive bouquet that must have cost a pretty pence, a box of Belgian chocolate and a bag of cat treats. It seemed a movie night was in order.

#damiano #damiano david #damiano x reader #damiano david fanfiction #damiano david x reader #damiano maneskin #maneskin fanfiction #maneskin #måneskin #smut #x reader

[bonnymori]

𝐌𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐲

Word count: 2760+ (i'll try to keep bigger lengths such as this one!)

Synopsis: You meet a new classmate who's working along Nanami, you think he's fun to be around, it stands the same to him about you. Later, feelings unravel.

Contents/Warnings: (1) Itadori Yuuji x gn!reader (2) FLUFF, TONS OF FLUFF - and some comfort (3) With the small participation of... Ino Takuma!! I really like him too, that's why <33333 (4) This is pretty platonic, but also not? (5) Ending turned sorta cliché... but I liked it u.u

A/N: This boy made me run rampant... to fhe point it's not single attraction anymore I just wish him happiness (smh if only my parents knew...) also next post will be Toji's fic pt. 2! Y'all see the first part is almost reaching 100 kudos????? I'M SO HAPPY EHSODJWKDKSJD- thanks for all the new followers and the support!! <33

Ever since his fake death, Itadori has been training alone with the help of Gojo - and now, he works along a freshly new face, who belongs to a senior, founds out ex-salaryman named Nanami Kento. He's far a thousand times more strict than Gojo. Itadori doesn't really likes the change, because Nanami is a person he can't get along. This whole guy's appearance scream "work 4 life"; he has proved different, now he screams "work is shit - but I gotta do it because others won't".

They've just finished cleansing the outside of a movie theater off a few curses, when Itadori hears shouting from far behind them. Two figures approach, waving excessively. He quickly picks on Nanami's tired sigh beside him.

"Nanami! We figured out you'd be here! Our mission has been finished and we wanted to catch up to have lunch together!" A male clad in a full black outfit shouts, he has brown hair and a beanie on top of his head, looking quite content.

The other person simply trots next to him in silence, approaching with a friendly smile. They notice Itadori faster than the male, smile widening and quickly waving hello, suddenly eager to reach up to them. The gesture makes the pink haired boy perk up, curious to why the other person looked so joyful. His question is easily answered, when they tug on the man's sleeve and motion to him.

"Ino, we have a third buddy!" The dude looks at him with widened eyes. "So nice to meet you, I'm Y/N L/N! It's great to see new faces around!"

Itadori smiles at your energy, knowing already he would click with you very well.

"I'm Ino Takuma, sorry for not noticing you before! Your uniform looks cool." Itadori exchanges a few compliments with Ino, before the man turns to talk with Nanami, leaving him and you together.

"Yes! I'm Sukuna's vessel, Itadori Yuuji-desu! My type of woman is Jenn-"

You turn to him. "So, are you a first year?"

"Geh? Weren't you dead though?!"

"I was!- I am!- Please keep secret."

"Okay!"

"Ahem." Nanami coughs, drawing attention. "I requested you two to not come after me today. Itadori here is the reason why."

"That's no problem, we're very capable of keeping secrets." You threw your arm over Itadori's shoulder, him nodding along with you.

"Oh really, then remember to keep quiet about it. I'll let this slide." The group of students nervously at Nanami's intimidating tone. "But, I'll get to have my break alone."

"Gah!" Ino exclaimed, watching Nanami walk away; he also left the responsability of taking care of Itadori for you two, leaving without a word. "It really had to be today, when Nanami would take us to his favorite bakery..."

"Crybaby." You teased. "Itadori here can't go outside where anyone can see him, he's dead. So, we were to order food either way because he shouldn't be left out."

"Augh okay, it would be unfair."

"So, where are you staying Itadori?"

"At Gojo's state!"

"Whoa, I've never been there before." Ino commented, waiting as you sent a message to Ijichi to pick them up.

"He's my teacher, a very cool one!"

"I imagine! Ooookay, once we get there I'll get the food."

Itadori felt as his chest would burst of excitement, finally there was people around him again, he couldn't be less happy about it.

"Sharing is caring!"

Itadori laughed as you wrestled with Takuma for some fries, netflix long forgotten in the background, as watching the banter was way more entertaining. Most of the time, Ino rambled a lot about Nanami, while he rambled a lot about Gojo. The guy even showed him the cool scar under his beanie. He felt kinda upset after explaining the exchange was just temporary, his stay under Nanami's wing wasn't decisive, and therefore, he was more like a classmate than a partner.

Itadori also learned a lot about you. He was surprised to find out that you, although energetic, was the one to speak the lesser in conversations. His surprisement grew even bigger when you told him you're a exchange student from Kyoto, arriving Tokyo about the same month as him - thankfully, you were to say for good.

Conversations flowed easily in the air, until a voice from the doorway barged in.

"Yuuji-kun! Don't forget about your lessons! Hi kids! Bye kids!" Gojo said playfully, throwing the familiar punching bear to Itadori before leaving.

"What's this thing?" Ino asked.

"It's to help me control my cursed energy. So while I watch the movies, if I don't charge it with cursed energy it punches me square in the face. I thought I had mastered this thing already, but he insist I keep training with it." Itadori grumbles.

"At least it's cute." You commented, taking a sip of your drink.

"Until it punches you in your face without warning!" The pink haired boy barks.

The talks died down, the three of you eating quietly when another movie is played on the screen. Itadori didn't bother reading the title, it was a plain one about a zombie apocalypse that got him extremely bored, yet he kept watching still so the plushie didn't punch him in the face again; he's been keeping a record since all his last cursed energy training lessons were a sucess to this day. When his head started nodding and eyelids dropping Itadori can't remember well, about fourty five minutes of movie perhaps? Make it fifty, the second slumber took over his body completely.

When he awoke once again, it was near midnight, the clock on the wall told him so. He also noticed a soft and warm surface supporting his head, figures, it's your shoulder he's resting into, he feels an arm around his own shoulders and your cheek placed upon his hair.

"Hey, it's late." You immediately notices he's awake, calling out softly. "You should sleep on your room, or something, better to your spine."

He chuckles when you poke his side. "But I'm comfortable here."

"I'm surprised, you just met me today, and now is sleeping on my shoulder."

"I'm not, that happens often to me."

"Sleeping on people's shoulders?"

"No! Making friends quickly." Itadori likes your gentle warmth, your hug, everything makes him feel at home. "I met two more people before you for two weeks, but they can't see me, because I'm dead."

"So I'll keep you company, that's my new mission."

His eyes widen at that, a oh so little blush covering the tip of his ears.

"For how many time I slept anyway?" He asks.

"About two- no, three hours. You missed two movies, and this one is about to end."

"And you stayed here the whole time?" He motions to your shoulder.

"Yep. That reminds me I gotta pee."

Itadori grumbles, but quickly lifts himself off you, respecting your needs. That gives him some time to look around, he notices Ino is gone, and the plushie sits quietly at the other side of the couch, unmoving.

"Y/N! How did you manage to make it quiet down?" He's beyond bafflet.

"...que."

"What!"

"I said!" You arrive quickly at the doorframe, hands still wet from when you washed them. "I used my innate technique."

"Oh! How is it like?"

"It's kinda funny, gimme a moment." You left to wipe off your hands, coming back in a second. "So, just like Shoko, I produce reverse curse energy, but it's quite different than hers, I can't heal people. That's why we often call it positive energy instead. I can use it to soothe off negative energy, so the bear has no cursed energy right now."

"How does it works on people?" He felt very curious about everything, asking away like a kid.

"Since everyone has negative energy, it just makes you sleepy really. But when it comes to curses it's really practical, I can either weaken it or, if the curse is like grade three or four, I can slap them off existence completely by wiping all their energy." You were naturally proud of having a such versatile power, your own energy swirling with pride around you.

"That sounds amazing! Is it why I fell asleep though?"

"Nah, only if I did it on purpose. I guess you were just tired, hope you don't mind I decided to let you rest today."

"No way, it was a good nap."

You nodded. "By the way, Ino left to attend to a drinking party, he paid for our food."

"Drinking? Is he old?"

"Yeah, he's twenty." You chuckled, already expecting that kind of reaction.

"No way! He looks young just like us!"

"That's totally my reaction after I learned he's twenty!"

After that day, you started visiting Itadori weekly to daily, after exchanging numbers he made a little group with you and Ino, naming it the "Nanami trio". But really, he exchanges more texts with you in private, be them memes, cool images he wish to share, etcetera. Although, Ino wasn't left excluded, he ofter brough his xbox to connect to Itadori's tv room and you all would spend hours playing together; he just didn't spend much time with both of you as much. And that was okay.

For a few days, your connection with Itadori died down when he didn't reply to your texts. They would remain unread for some time, the longest being half a day, until he would spam apologies then move on with the topic. That became a routine until one day when you came over to check on Itadori unnanounced, needin to ease off your worries about the boy, only to find him sobbing in the middle of a hallway, staring ahead and beyond, his back to you.

"Ita-?"

"Egh!" Startled, he scrambled to wipe his eyes, turning to you. "H-hey, um, hi."

"What happened?"

"I- he-" His eyes didn't met yours, knuckles white in a death grip. You notice he has a few bandages thrown over his face and arms. The way his shoulders are drawn, as if he wants to shrink into himself is something you've experienced before.

"Something hard to talk about?"

He nods almost immediately, head still facing down.

"It's alright, come with me." You reach for his hands, grimacing slightly when his forceful grip is now on your hand, yet you don't comment on it. He follows you through the state wordlessly.

You two stop on the same tv room, sitting down on the couch. You then guide his head to your shoulder, gently massaging his scalp with the free hand.

"It's alright."

Those two words are chanted like a prayer for the next half hour, at some point, Itadori twisted his body towards yours and unknowingly caged you between him and the sofa arm. He embraced you with a force you didn't have in you, like he didn't want to lose one another. Painful or not, not a muscle moved on your body. He needed a shoulder to cry on.

Thirty minutes passed like seconds, you peered down only to find the boy confortably napping against your bosom; at some point you just became the cold side of the pillow to him. That's alright. It brings you joy to be the mom friend anyways. So you decided to join the sleepland aswell, arms still secured around his shoulders and the back of his head.

It feels like the nap hasn't been long, though, because you can feel Itadori's grip loosening and therefore, you're awake.

"Sorry if I broke any bones, in advance."

"Wow, and you only warn me now."

He laughs at your comeback, hands still secured around your waist.

"I'm surprised you let me uh, cuddle you for comfort - and sleep. I don't understand it? You just make me sleepy." He rambled, keeping eye contact with you while his head still rests on your chest.

"That's a piece of cake when you have younger siblings who seek for you every night they get a nightmare."

"Does that mean I can come to you again if I have a nightmare?" There it is, his togepi-kirby cutesy face.

"Are you four?"

"That's mean!" Itadori blushed, squeezing you on his arms. "I like the contact. It puts me at ease."

"Mm, do you want to talk about it?"

He gulped. "No, not really."

Your peach haired friend remained silent, and so did you. It seems he doesn't intend in letting you go soon, or he just really forgot to mention it. It gives them time to think, your younger sisted used to do that sometimes, back in Kyoto.

"Y/N, wanna watch anything?"

"Sure, have you watched Parasyte before?"

"No, let's give it a try then!" Itadori glances at the remote, then back at you - making you confused over his hesitation to move. He notices you noticed it, chuckling nervously. "To be honest, I don't wanna let go."

"It's hurting my back."

"SORRY I'M SORRY!" He jumped away from you like a cat would jolt away from a cucumber, making you snicker.

"It's okay, I just wanted to change positions."

And to tease you, but he didn't need to know that part.

He glared at you with a small pout, typing the initials of Parasyte on the search bar. Outside his line of vision, you were grinning like a idiot, his sweeteness took a tow on you. All the people of Tokyo you met really held a way different spirit from your classmates in Kyoto, Itadori being the nicest of all. It's surprising him being Sukuna's vessel to begin with; being honest, you felt drawn by it.

"Y/N, it's startiiiiing." He cut your daydreaming short, slumping on your side and propping his head on your shoulder.

"This again?" You throw an arm around his shoulders, very much like the first time he cuddled himself on you.

"Don't blame me, you're the one who wanted to change positions. Guess I'll just make some alterations since I'm awake this time!" One of his arms went behind your back and circled your waist, hand resting at your hip.

"It's definely different, since the other time you drooled on me."

"Hhgh, okay okay! Let me enjoy this." For perhaps the actual first time, you're able to watch without exchanging words with one another.

And this time, it's you who's head loll to the side, nose buried on his soft rose perfumed hair. Itadori doesn't comment on it yet, his free hand moves under your legs to lift your whole body up efortlessly when he senses you have fallen asleep.

"I remember you said it's bad for my spine, I wouldn't mind it... yours however."

The boy makes a beeline to the guest room, he sighs when there is no choice but open the door with his foot. Inside, he places you carefully in the soft bed.

Before he could leave, a hand reaches up for his sleeve.

"Itadori," He turned, looking at you. "Make me company?"

He giggles softly - you think it sounds like a highschool girl. "You should start calling me by my first name!" Itadori rambles as he climbs on the bed, arms wrapping around your waist in a motion you're familiar with.

"Yuuji, I'm tired, let me sleep."

"But I wanna talk more..." He pouts. "Also, are we, um, dating?"

You wriggle around, bringing his head down to peck on his forehead, teasing. "Correction, I want to date you."

"Uh, oh." A blush coats his face so quickly, you'd say someone dumped a bucket of red paint on his face.

"Is that a no?"

"No!"

"So it is a no."

"Christ, will you stop teasing for a second, I'm trying to talk here." He makes an angry version of his togepi-kirby face, you can't help but grin.

"You amuse me, but okay. I'll do it for you."

"Thanks." He blinks, the blush slowly fading away. "You know, I lied, not about the contact, I like the contact nonetheless-"

His hand moves to play with yours, such as tapping his tips against yours, or meassuring the palms.

"-it's you who brings me comfort."

It's also your turn to blush, that line was seriously charming.

"Yeah."

"Yeah?"

"Yes, we're dating now." You respond, a little eagerly. "Can I kiss you?"

"Please."

This is the best person I could ask for, Itadori thinks, keeping his eyes open as yours shut during the kiss, whom I won't change for anything else in this world.

When you both separate, Itadori feels drowsy and sleepy. His face fits perfectly on your shoulder as always.

"Goodnight, my favorite person."

#itadori yuuji x reader #itadori x reader #itadori yuuji fluff #jjk x reader #jjk x y/n #jjk fluff #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen fanfic

[hellmothereva]

I HAVE FEELINGS! FOR ZOMBIE-ALIEN-HUMAN-HYBRIDS!!! I need to talk about Army of the Dead (2021) by Zack Snyder!!!

Lately I saw a lot of review-videos on YouTube about the Zack Snyder movie "Army of the Dead" (2021). It started with this Pitch Meeting video and now I have seen so many other people I never heard of talking about this movie I never watched. Because tbh I am TERRIFIED of the zombiegenre. I hate horrormovies! The only horrormovie I could ever watch on my own with a big grin was Scream 2 because it was so ridiculous. Also the Scream-guy stalked around like Otto Walkes, a german comedian. This took a lot of "scarieness" from it.

But Back to AOTD: Yes. I have never watched this movie. But I know everything because I watched the Making-of, reviews, clips etc. I know so much about the characters and I am so salty that the only surviver was Kate and that fucking cliffhanger made me so angry.

Ngl, this logic in this thing is a mess™️. I think Zack Snyder just had too many ideas and creative freedom in this. Also wtf, MATTHIAS SCHWEIGHÖFER???? WTF??? A GERMAN ACTOR? Named Ludwig Dieter???? 😭😂😂😂 Seriously, my motivation to watch it is 0. BUTT! I found a comment underneath the Pitch Meeting video saying something like: "Man, you haven't even mentioned the Zombie-Fetus" and I was instantly like "BITCH, the Zombie-WHAT???" and searched for it. I even found it. This could have been the end of my mini-AOTD-phase. I found what I was looking for. I found the fetus. Fetus found. Mission accomplished. I could have just forget it and laugh about it how the zombieguy showed the dead fetus around like fucking Simba.

And then I saw something in the google-picture-recommediations that touched something inside of me. A gif that reached a spot in my deepest depths, that made me feel fuzzy and happy. A gif that was pretty much this:

EXCUSE ME???? THEY'RE IN LOVE? SO I'M IN LOVE?????

This is so cute! I might cry! This touched my heart! I've been watching the damn scene the gif is from for 2 days now and I still feel so full of love for them! I was given zombies but IN LOVE!!!! ZOMBIES LOVING EACH OTHER! This scene had such an affection without them saying anything. Well... They growled a little. And tbh their growling and almost-head-rubbing had something so intimate! FFS, I felt like watching two cats greetings each other. I never saw two zombies (at least he is actually a zombie-human-alien-hybrid) showing actual love and emotion for each other. I mean maybe this isn't actually that new, IDK, I HATE ZOMBIES! BUTT!!!!! This awakend something in me and I will not stop thinking about them for at least (!!!) the next 5 minutes.

AND IT GOT BETTER!!!!

When her body was freed from her head and she screamed for him he CAME! And when he found her decapitated body he was so SAD! OUR BOY WAS DONE! And when he tried to save his baby and it died HE CRIED! ACTUAL ZOMBIETEARS!!! EMOTION! He was emotionally attached to babyfetus and his girl! HE MOURNED! MOURNING! Our boy mourned more for his baby and wifey than I did for my favourite pair of shoes when I had to throw them out. Bruh, I am still sad for him and his little fucked-up family. I would have never thought I would feel so much for zombies in love 😭

And in the end, when Lily (with zombie-queens still living head) and he were standing on the rooftop and Lily threathend to shoot zombie-queens head. COME ON!!! The looks he and his girl gave each other... I can't be the only one who thought this was very tragic and kinda sad? And when Lily threw zombie-queens head down the building and he ran for her falling head, trying to catch it in the last second and everything was slow-mo and he was unsuccessful... Bruh, that's rough, Buddy😥

FOR REAL! I don't care much about the humans in this movie but I would pay actual money to see how tf the lovestory between these 2 zombies came to be. Where are the mosterfuckers when I need them for the first time in my life??? I need fancontet! Fanfics! Fanart! Theories! Seriously, there are like 3 actual nice fanfics I could find about my zombie-otp. We need more!

ANYWAY, THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TEDTALK, GOODNIGHT!

Also I want to mention that their actors did such an good job and I actually give Zack Snyder credit for using actual humans/practical effects and not only CGI. He even used a real horse named Ace with a full zombie-body-suit. Love it!

#army of the dead #army of the dead (2021) #zack snyder #Zombies #Zombie #Zeus #Zeus/Zombie queen #Zeus/zombiequeen #Zombiequeen/zeus #zombie queen/zeus #horror #zombieromace #horrormovie #a new otp #zombielove #movie #FEELINGS #I SHIP IT #and I am sad #army of the dead zeus #army of the dead zombiequeen #zombiefetus #fetus #Embryo #zombieembryo #Feels #THEM #Athena #I think her inoffical name is Athena #alphazombie

[minisugakoobies]

Fandom Ship Tag Game

Thank you for the tags @arizonapoppy @triviafics @bonvoyagenoona 💕💕💕Some of your picks were some of my own favorite ships, and many others have opened my eyes to relationships I never considered and a few shows/movies that I need to watch!

Gonna put a read more cut here to avoid potential spoilers for X-Men, BTVS, Daredevil, iZombie, Kingsman, TVD, The Untamed, Veronica Mars, and the MCU.

First Ship: Rogue x Gambit

Comic books were really my first foray into the world of shipping. I grew up on Marvel comics, and my favorites involved the X-Men teams. They were stuffed full of angst and drama and various couplings would come and go. But my first ship was Rogue and Gambit. They were the angstiest of all couples! She literally could not touch him without sucking the life out of him! How could they ever be together? I mean, I guess they eventually worked it out, since at some point in the comics timeline they actually got married, but for a verrrry long time they were a big "will they, won't they" couple that I adored.

First OTP: Buffy x Angel

Another angsty couple. A recurring theme in my shipping! This is the big one, the be-all, end-all of my ships. My OTP, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and her vampire paramour, Angel.

Yes, I still sob at the season 2 finale, and no, I don't want to talk about it.

Your ship since the first minute: Matt x Claire

The chemistry between these two was palpable, burning up the screen from their very first interaction. Claire is one of my favorite characters from the Netflix MCU shows - I love a no-nonsense woman who is good as fuck at her job and stands up against the superheroes who insist they need to do things on their own (why are they always so stubborn?). Daredevil the show might be no more, but I still love these two.

Ship(s) you wish had become endgame: Liv x Lowell

Ohhhh, Lowell. 😭Gone too soon. He and Liv made such a great pair! Two smart, sexy zombies just trying to solve a mystery together. The way he bravely sacrificed himself to help her... ughhhhhh, when I think of what could have been if he'd only survived!

Ship you wish was canon: Roxy x Merlin

Ok, listen, I *know*. There's an age gap to consider, and also the fact that they barely have any interactions in the movies, and then for this to work, the entire second film would basically have to not exist. But I'm ok with all that. Because once I read this amazing fanfic that paired them and ever since then, I've been on Team Roxlin, full steam.

Ship that most of the fandom hates but you love: Stefan x Caroline

Everyone's always "Klaroline this" or "Stelena that," but I just ignore them and focus on my favorite pair, Steroline. Their love blossomed over the years from a true friendship, and there's something so beautiful and rare about that on a show like The Vampire Diaries. Step aside, Klaus, Stefan is her one true love!

You don't even watch the show, but you ship it: Wei Wuxian x Lan Wangji

The Untamed is in my queue to watch some day, I swear. I know I have a ton of friends who love it, so there are always gifs of it crossing my dash. I don't know anything about these two, except they're gorgeous and there seems to be a lot of longing going on and I'm here for it!

Ship you wish had a different storyline: Veronica x Logan

As Logan himself said: "I thought our story was epic. Spanning years and continents. Lives ruined, bloodshed. Epic."

It was everything. And then season four happened.

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Favorite ship that is endgame: Steve x Peggy

They are LITERALLY endgame. I don't even care about all the weird timey-wimey hoops they had to jump through for this to happen. It was worth it to see my favorite MCU characters finally get their dance.

(I am absolutely open to a Steve x Bucky x Peggy discussion. OT3 for me!)

Clean list to copy:

first ship

first OTP

your ship since the first minute

ship(s) you wish had become endgame

ship you wish was canon

ship that most of the fandom hates but you love

you don't even watch the show, but you ship it

ship you wish had a different storyline

favorite ship that is endgame

#tag games #fandom ship tag game #lovely moots #arizonapoppy #triviafics #bonvoyagenoona #my ships