#im never safe i will never be safe

[dream-sans-mogai]

Im so fucking tired of allistic people man...

They always present like 2 choices for you and go on for days about how they understand either choice, they won't judge you no matter what you pick and how they'll be fine regardless then act all disappointed and whiney when you make that choice and they didn't get the answer they wanted.

I'm sorry, how was I supposed to know that was the wrong choice™️. If you wanted me to do something why didn't you say it. I don't care about all your little social shit, be honest with me. I didn't choose based on your wants when I don't know what you want. I made the "selfish" choice despite everyone around me saying they supported my decision and totally understood. Then I'm the bad guy. For making a choice. That I was assured over and over again that I wasn't going to be judged for.... I'm so tired of this... I'm so tired of allistic people setting these fucking landmines for me. Like they enjoy my suffering. I always get fucking burned in these situations. I can either just do what I think they want with varying response or I can be honest and unmask and do what I think is best for me then they all collectively sigh and look away like Im the disappointment...

If it's not truly safe, don't fucking tell me I'm safe. If I truely won't be judged, don't judge me. If I can't safely unmask, don't tell me to be myself and make my own choices. Even allistic people who had no fucking skin in this game judged me. I chose the option that was best for me and now I'm the villain. Again. Fuck allistic people man, fuck those wishy-washy judgey ass people.

#clover speaks #clover vents #its ok they said just do whats best for you they said #and my dumbass was just like yeah sure 😚 and now im looked at like a monster for taking a choice they gave me #and encouraged me to take! ill support you no matter what my ass #it makes me feel so fucking unsafe in my chocies like a fucking saw trap #its always multiple choice questions and nothinge ever seems like the right choice #they are always wrong and everyone always despises me abit afterwards #even when i know i didnt do anything wrong i didnt hurt anyone and i made a chocie for me #its all supports and i love yous and its oks up until the tism comes back out and i get the cold shoulder #i get the look aways and the silence #they know they are hurting me and they dont care about the betrayal i feel over being basically lied to #i know its your choice but i felt like- ok then why didnt you say anything BEFORE I MADE THE CHOICE #FUCK ALLISTIC PEOPLE IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THEIR QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS GAMES THAT MAKE ME LOOK HORRIBLE FOR NO REASON #IM SORRY I DIDNT READ YOUR EXPRESSION ITS ALMOST LIKE I HAVE A MODERATE MENTAL DISABILITY THAT PREVENTS ME FROM RWADING EXPRESSIONS #i just wanna say or do something right and they always judge me no matter what #im never safe around these people because everything is always watched and judged according to their morals and what they would choose #as if their morals are superior to mine because they are fine with throwing themselves at trains over nothing and im kot #fuck allistic people man #im so stupid for believing them and thinking this time ill be safe... #im never safe i will never be safe #im always so scared of looking like a stone faced unfeeling monster who dosent love anyone or anything and they always make me into it #no matter what i do or how much i try to express it #i feel things i love people im not a robot #this hurts so much... #sorry for the total lack of context but you dont need any #i dont want or need any more allistic judgement

[civetcider]

making new OCs to cope with how bad i wanna be fishing right now (she/her for both)

#butch oc #butch4butch #anthro #safe fur work #furryart #civetworks #i dont have names for them yet #but im thinking ill just name them classic dude bro names or something like that #im so bad at making comics please be no typos ill die if there are #i had to not only do more then one background but also draw a car my hand will never recover #oakley and traver

[glitchdollmemoria]

please can we stop describing bigots as delusional. please. im so fucking tired. someone being sucked into a hate group surrounded by others who believe minorities should be oppressed and encouraging them to believe in conspiracy theories that the rest of the group believes, is fundamentally different from someone having a mental illness that causes delusions.

delusions, by definition, cannot be explained by things like cultural background - such as having a belief constantly reinforced by intentional attempts to rationalize it for the sake of maintaining power over minorities. yes, someone can be both delusional and a bigot, and yes conspiracy theories can feed into delusions, but the two are not fucking synonymous.

i did not spend my teen years convinced that i was being stalked by demons just to hear so many of you people equate my disability with incel behavior and genocidal propaganda. stop reinforcing harmful connotations about mental health struggles.

#ok to rb #mental health advocate #mental health advocacy #mental health awareness #ableism cw #sanism cw #madpunk #neuropunk #actually delusional #actually schizospec #im not gonna interact with the post that prompted this #because i do agree with everything that was said and dont want to sound like im defending the assholes discussed #but i also am still fucking pissed about seeing a bunch of misogynistic jackasses compared to a disability #which has caused me immense fear and suffering #and guess what! my delusions were never ''women shouldnt have rights'' or whatever else #bc thats not a delusion thats a tool of the partriarchy to maintain the status quo #genocide cw #to be safe

[bedazzlecunt]

i really do have to emphasize that like. horny tumblr is a fucking horrible place to learn about kink. at least half the people here have never had sex (or done kink without sex) beyond sexting on omegle, and even the ones who do have any experience with sex and and kink and IRL kink spaces (including myself!) are mostly engaging in fantasy and theatre and performance. that's fine! that's fun! there's nothing wrong with that. but i do worry so much about all the 18 yr olds i see on here who've never had sex, many of whom have never been in a relationship, and who are building ideas about kink and sex and health based on the most deranged fantasy-of-the-sort-you-literally-cannot-do-safely-irl tumblr posts. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not take any tumblr posts as actual kink education, including and sometimes especially the ones claiming to be actual kink education. there are actual books and groups and dungeons for that.

#wren speaking! #im not saying that theres 0 good advice but i am saying that like #there is so little good advice compared 2 the utter nonsense #'how to safely choke someone' you cannot safely choke someone. it is literally impossible #'aftercare guide!' clearly written by someone who has never so much as gotten 2 third base let alone done aftercare #'what to do if you cant communicate with ur dom' the only thing To Do in that situation is not 2 play

[explodingstarlight]

doodling teetles

And here are some close-ups (might put them on their own backgrounds one day, but it's 5 AM and I'm tired so):

#i am the modern lazarus #crawling out of my cave and im feeling just fine- #behold: teetles #you know that emotion when a skittish cat decides to get in your lap? that's the emotion Raph is feeling rn #they're all so precious to me #i'll never be over that deleted mikey-centric episode where he gets a pet robot #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #explodingstar art #rottmnt donnie #rise nova #rise donnie #rise raph #rise leo #rise mikey #save rise of the tmnt #rottmnt michelangelo #rottmnt rapheal #rottmnt leonardo #donatello tmnt #cw eyestrain #<- playing it safe

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

satoru is a puppydog who pretends to be a big bad wolf and suguru is a wolf pretending to be a domesticated dog, hiding his claws and the snap of his jaw (doctors come in and start pulling me away)

#IM SO RIGHT THOUGH #gojo is just a puppy he makes himself seem bigger and badder but he is a sweet little thing . doesnt even bite #suguru though…. #sugu smiles w no teeth and speaks in soft vowels but theres something untamed abt him. something u can almost see if u pay attention #hes a fox hes a wolf hes a beast <33333 hes never quite what u think he is !! #i think his devotion borders on feral i think he would rip people apart to keep u safe #mother wolf coded <333 #can u tell i feel normal abt them tonight 😔😔

[fortheloveofexy]

it's a pet peeve of mine when ppl frame Andrew as hating Aaron and being needlessly cruel to him... bc while yes, their relationship is fractured and strained, Andrew genuinely cares about his brother and wants the best for him, he just doesn't know how to show that in a normal way.

like he might not know how to express it in a healthy manner but Andrew LOVES Aaron, like he truly just wants Aaron to be healthy and safe. It's like, his whole Thing. Aaron is one of the most important people in his life. Andrew wants him around. He'd do anything to protect him.

I guarantee Andrew wants to be emotionally close to Aaron too, he just doesn't have the tools to do that and the thought of letting someone in terrifies him. He also has no concept of what a healthy sibling relationship looks like, so he has no frame of reference to work from.

#i love bickering twinyards as much as the next guy but sometimes ppl write andrew has if he thinks aaron is a waste of space #and that just isn't true #andrew values his brother #he wouldn't insist on keeping aaron close if he didn't #when ppl do this is just so obvious to me that they're using andrew as a mouthpiece for their own dislike of aaron #and like ok yeah you're entitled to not like a character i guess #but it's just so wildly out of character to me for andrew to treat aaron like shit for no reason beyond Being Cruel #like yeah andrew can be mean when he's feeling defensive or trying to make a point #and yeah he can treat people like shit if he's got a reason to justify it like Keeping People Safe #but he's not needlessly cruel to the people closest to him without cause #like neil says #everything andrew does #he does For A Reason #even neil isn't needlessly mean to aaron tbh #like he doesn't like aaron much at certain points but if he picks a fight with aaron it's never without cause #and he's genuinely happy for aaron when things work out with katelyn in the end #and he wants aaron to have a relationship with andrew as well! like it's important to neil that the twins have a healthy bond!! #anyway im getting off my soapbox now this is just something i was thinking about today a Lot #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court

[suntails]

pietà

#TY LETTIE FOR THE COMM AND FOR THIS ABSOLUTE TREASURE OF A REQUEST. IM SO ILL ITS SO SICK AND TWISTED (POSITIVE) #silver in the depths of despair but still holding his father close. with love and compassion and mourning who he is and what has happened #surrounded by the nothingness. nothing but blot and misery. lilia still untouched and kept safe. the lil halo glow OUGUGHH #the RING being blotted. the blot winding up his arm like the pricked finger on the spindle iM GNAWINF THE BARS OF MY CAGE GRGAHGAHH #WHEN I TELL U THIS IS THE SINGLE BEST COMM REQUEST IN THE HISTORY OF EVER. WHEN I TELL U LETTIES MIND IS SO POWERFUL #im normal. ty b i love u so much <3 #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #lilia vanrouge #suntails #i will never be normal again. hope this helps

[shepscapades]

GLAD EVERYONE ENJOYED THE ANDROID INFO UPDATE ABOUT INTERFACING DFGJNDGKGNMXGHNCBNM

#dbhc #dbhc sillies #the shepherd #my sona #art escapades #IM DEAD #dbhc doc #dbhc etho #there was a point I was working on pt 6 and I realized I never. talked about it #and I was like oh my god only detroit fans are gonna. know #erm #I should really do something about that #THERE WERE A FEW PEOPLE WHO CALLED IT OUT BEFORE PT 6 EVEN DROPPED #LIKE #‘hm. interesting you added that last part. interesting. hm. hm.’ LMAO #glad it did it’s job #I wanted to emphasize in that post how like. NOT OKAY it is to force interface with someone #it’s very… idk if violating is the right word but I think it would feel very invasive/uncomfortable #if it’s not something you asked for yknow #ANYWAY IM INSANE #etho and doc WILL make up. eventually. #if I may. doc ‘no we aren’t telling anyone what happened. it’s not a threat to them anyways and this isn’t the first time I’ve replaced this #arm. it’s nothing the other hermits need to worry about’ 77 #you better let xisuma comfort you. i dont know if it’s safe to have another guys trauma in your brain. you should get that checked out

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

hey i got really sad about baby world being bmo's wish. thats actually awful. jake. safe. thats what prismo got out of that wish.

i clearly couldnt keep my energy up through the end of this but i still. wanted to. p.ost, it. before fnc tomorrow. :]

#me: i stopped filling up my queue bc my standards suddenly got higher #me posting comics that make me antsy cuz i just know i could make them better but i NEVER WILL: aha #this was a discord rant i just cut up and drew panels for. does it make any sense. i hateee formatting comics but im learning slowly #adventure time #fionna and cake #bmo #prismo #finn #jake #also the gumball guardians. and lich!billy. but #oh also secret baby magic man. hi baby magic man #digital #i mean i can see it being sillyfunny but i decided its actually sad. he wants jake to be safe. #and prismos like hell yeah dude ill drink to that! (bursts into divine tears)

[yourpaceangel]

The thing about “nothing lasts forever” is that neither of them are listening

#ineffable husbands #this has been said 1000 times but im going to say it again #aziraphale is saying ‘im willing to give up this shop and everything i hold dear on earth to keep you safe with me’ #and crowley is saying ‘this is our place and this is where we exist together and you cannot give that up for false safety by people that #will betray you’ #and they’re not LISTENING to each other #god im going to be fucking sick #they’re always talking but never about what’s actually important #they can hear each other but they’re not listening

[foolsocracy]

I can't help but notice you haven't posted any angst in a while and I'm suspicious

whipped this one up just for u anon

#a guy can only post 3 happy artworks before the people get concerned..... #LMAOOO jokes jokes #heres a .. colored sketch? #anyway behold the recurring dream ive given pete where hes ummmmmmmmmmmm inside uncle bens ribcage #i think abt it all the time but ive never actually done anything w it so here we go #blood #gore #not actually i dont think but im straying on the safe side #i messed around w it enough where u cant even see any organs or anything (much) #bones #idk #skeleton #i feel like thats everything maybe #ask to tag #might make a nice finished piece w this who knows #anon #asks #thanks for the ask! #glad to know angst is still my brand #such is life as a noir blog #peter benjamin parker #spiderman noir #spider man noir #spider noir #my art #bOOM thats so many tags #double art night guys who cheered #this and the stupid ass music one LMAOO the range #made this in an hour and a half lets see what i think of it in the morning when i wake up lol

[hazelcallahan]

i don't wanna have any adventures unless they're with you. / i am, and have been for some time, just totally, ridiculously, desperately in love with you.

#willow #willowedit #tanthamore #kit x jade #jade claymore #kit tanthalos #** #y'all mind if i. ahem. #every night in my dreams i see you i feel you that is how i know you go on far across the distance and spaces between us you have come to s #how you go on near far wherever you are i believe that the heart does go on once more you open the door and you're here in my heart and my #heart will go on and on love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime and never let go til we're gone love was when i loved you one t #rue time i hold to in my life we'll always go on near far wherever you are i believe that the heart does go on (why does the heart go on) #once more you open the door and you're here in my heart and my heart will go on and on YOU'RE HERE THERE'S NOTHING I FEAR AND I KNOW THAT M #Y HEART WILL GO ON WE'LL STAY FOREVER THIS WAY YOU ARE SAFE IN MY HEART AND MY HEART WILL GO ON AND ON #ok full disclosure i wrote these tags yesterday before jons tweets #but im keeping them bc i think its silly

[probably-a-plant-thing]

dysfunctional bitches

#texas chainsaw massacre #slasher #slashers #bubba sawyer #chop top sawyer #nubbins sawyer #drayton sawyer #cw corpse #idk just tagging that to be safe #this movie is how i found out that themeparks can apparently go underground #im in cali so ive never heard of such a thing in my life #fuckin earthquake central over here #anyway why did they jerky nubbins #literally the only reason i can think of as to why he looks alright 14 years later

[ghosts-in-our-town]

uhhhhh i got bored and made a crystallised version of the plural rings so that's cool.

(if anyone wants a set with a different theme or images im willing to make some, just send a message into my askbox or dm me. (ill also do flags if you really want.))

#did some art #plural gang #pluralgang #plurality #plural system #actually plural #plural community #endo safe #plural rings #can you tell i never tag things? i dont know what im doing

[petewentzisblack1312]

i dont think this is relatable to anyone but a lot of people i encounter have never heard of fall out boy but the thing is i dont know if theyve never heard of fall out boy or if they just dont know theyve heard of fall out boy. and youre thinking, well thats easy. list some singles. ok. which singles. because trying to figure out which fall out boy single someone is most likely to have heard is like throwing a dart at a map. do i start with sugar? centuries? light em up? thanks for the memories? if they dont know any of these songs does that tell me theyve never heard a fall out boy song? no. it tells me theyve never heard those ones. dance dance, this aint a scene, the phoenix, uma thurman, i don't care. and still someones gonna come out the gate swinging to pull the rug from under me and tell me a week later they did actually know fall out boy. theyve heard the last of the real ones.

#dils declares #i pick the safe obvious choices and its NEVER FUCKING THAT. #one time i was bonding with my godbrothers girlfriend over our love of alt music #and i was like oh my favourite bands fall out boy #and she was like i dont really like fob theyre too new #she did not realise that the band formed in 2001 and released their major label debut in 2003. #this is what im dealing with.