#it came as an intrusive thought

[kindredzindred]

I forgot to post this

#kinzoodles #HEHEHEEH #Present Mic #Hizashi Yamada #yamada hizashi #it came as an intrusive thought #>:) #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mha

[belazarts]

😘🫰

#i actually drew this a while ago #so i predicted suit kafka🙏 #it came to me in a intrusive thought #himeko is just marking her property #as she should #kafka looks like that but she's enjoying herself very much #she's just a bastard #kiss marks #kafhime #honkai star rail #kafka #himeko #art #my art #hsr

[swpdz000]

what if instead of stealing his keycard with high skulduggery i just swap all his files with goku pictures like what about it then

#degrees of lewdity #dol #shrimp is drawing #harper the doctor #this came to me in a form of an intrusive thought

[orionsangel86]

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#I know this is gonna come across as a bit pathetic #but I was already feeling a bit untethered today #wondering if I actually have a purpose here #ever since I came back to tumblr after my 4 month break I've felt very alone here #it feels a bit like everyone moved on without me #and I dunno i guess I hoped I'd be able to dive right back in again and just start engaging and enjoying it #but honestly I have been plagued with anxiety and intrusive thoughts about not being wanted #and the last thing I needed was some asshole anon #I'm already wondering if people are finding my event annoying #like maybe i should just shut up and quit #but I really fucking like doing this stuff I just wish I didn't feel so isolated #I'm being stupid i know #you should never trust how you feel about yourself after 9pm #but bleurgh its a horrible feeling #shut up saz

[a03heralding]

Instead of editing the fanfic I’ve been fiending over for the last two weeks I yassified Withers 💀

(He does have lashes u just have to zoom in)

#this came to me in an intrusive thought #help #bg3 #baldurs gate #baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 withers #karlach #karlach cliffgate #bg3 karlach #halsin #shadowheart #lae’zel #minthara #astarion #tav #shitposting #gale waterdeep #bg3 gale

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Riddle me this Batman: did last night truly meant nothing to you?

#idk what this is #this post came in the form of a persistent intrusive thought #riddlebat #edward nygma #edward nigma #batman #bruce wayne #riddler

[martyryo]

mid au idea appealing only to me

#artists on tumblr #illustration #digital art #doodle #fight club #the narrator fight club #tyler durden #marla singer #alright so #those are all still very raw ideas but something is brewing in my brain #tw: suicide mention #all this thing came up from the drawing with the narrator smiling #in this au he doesn't suffer from insomnia and he has a good view on life #at some point he notices to experience during the day an increasing amount of intrusive thoughts #worried he might be suicidal he goes to a psychiatrist but after various session the guy tells him to attend one of those therapy groups #yk like the movie knfjknkajnf #there he meets marla who joined the group after a suicide attempt following a long period of drug abuse #(this is also including the marla bettering herself to care for the stray cat previously depicted on my blog huhu) #he's really annoying to her but with time she grows some affection towards him #after a while during a job trip he meets Tyler on a plane #in this au he's a very unlikable and edgy person lacking the charisma he has in the og fight club #they end up becoming friends and Tyler pushes the narrator in various risky activities #from the start he states that he's only an hallucination his brain created and nothing that they engage in is real #truth is he's an entity trying to make him off himself so he can get control over his body #ik this is very wattpad 2016 but #these ideas are growing on me #suggestions appreciated ehehfnefrkjg #also sorry for the shitty english #writing in tags doesn't help but didn't want a wall of text 🤭

[noborune]

Pete would be into heartstopper I just know it

#bully #Gary smith #jimmy hopkins #pete kowalski #bully fanart #art #heartstopper #this came to me like an intrusive thought

[respect-the-hyphen]

tw: violent intrusive thoughts

i just had the weirdest intrusive thought. saw a safety pin on my kitchen table and thought about safety pinning my eye lid???? uhm okay brain i think you might want to take a break and drink your juice box

#spiderman #spider man #marvel spiderman #mcu #marvel #marvel cinematic universe #marvel mcu #spider speaking #peter parker #queue #intrusive thoughts #this is real btw #i have no idea where that came from

[spider-man-2o99]

makes you read vulture 2099 again makes you read vulture 2099 again makes you read vulture 2099 again makes  you read vulture 2099 again makes you read vulture 2099 again

#talking tag #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #vulture 2099 #marvel #comics #comic panels #something something idk man i justt enjoy these issues theyre Fun #whag do u want from me. the bungled potential is tantalizing when i Want to indulge in ripping and tearing into canon? #as i always say lmao vulture 2099 COULD be a really interesting character. like. the Potential's there #reinforces how Lucky mig was that he came from a life of having as many privileges as he had when he got mutated... and that nobody Saw It. #plus yknow. can also serve as a narrative Mirror for migs worst fears abt himself! what would YOU do if ur intrusive thoughts made manifest- #--called YOU a coward and a capitalist pawn 4 not wanting 2 kill and eat people . and all while wearing THOSE tassled PANTS.... #idk man just something real neat 2 me abt how vulture is the only villain mig kills On Purpose and even then he Runs b4 he hits the ground. #his anger burns out so Fast. he cant even like. make himself watch the Cannibal Gang Boss get turned into street pizza yknow #he feels worse about killing the VULTURE than he ever really did about killing the specialist because he actively CHOSE to do it this time #cutting the specialist's throat w/ his talons was just an Accident caused by him lashing out against an enemy determined 2 Kill Him y/k #yeah it still caused him a great amnt of Distress to accidentally Kill Someone but he does not spend any panels shedding tears over the guy. #but the vulture. the VULTURE stays on his mind for the next 30 issues AT LEAST...... #god this miserable little man. great power and greater guilt and responsibility both a burden and inherent.

[just-sp-in-inginthevoid]

Mikey has intrusive thoughts in the final timeline, that's just how it is.

He spent an entire life with the curse and his dark impulses, the habits don't go away even if he isn't cursed anymore.

He hates them, of course he does, but what can he do to push them away? There's nothing. He endures them. He sees a knife, he sees Draken, Emma, Kazutora, Sanzu, anyone, and thinks about how he could kill them. How he knows in some timeline, in some shape or form, he did kill them, how technically it wouldn't mean much since him and Takemichi can go back. Would Takemichi still stay by his side? He doesn't want to kill them. He doesn't want to kill anyone again. That's why he went to search for South anyway, wasn't it? He doesn't know what he went to go save South. Perhaps because he'd have become a problem anyway? Or is it because South is the only one close enough to understand how it is? There's too much him and South have in common, they can understand each other in a way Takemichi or anyone else will never understand.

He lets the thoughts come and go.

He thinks about scarring Sanzu again. (He hates it.) He tries to focus on the happiness that comes with seeing Sanzu without any scars on his face. (He remembers how it feels to tear apart his skin. How the blood stained their clothes and faces. How he scrubs his entire body in the bathtub, how he almost ripped his hands apart with how hard he tried to make the blood go. The guilt never truly left. Even when Sanzu has no scars and nobody but him to remember it.)

He wonders where's the line that will make Takemichi stop forgiving him. How far can he go? How far did he go in past timelines he has no memories of? What awful crimes has he committed? Will he feel any amount of guilt if he ever gets to know about them? Or would he simply feel a dull numbness? Would he care? He spent an entire life wishing to care and not being able to.

He talks about these thoughts with Takemichi sometimes, mostly at night. They got used at doing sleepovers - it was the only way they found to talk about how to save everyone without having to be wary about Baji and Sanzu (or anyone else, but it was those two at first) listening to them. There was still the risk of them waking up in the middle of the night (Senju as well) and interrupt them, but it was better than nothing. Sleepovers where it was only him and Takemichi were still the best when it came to come up with plan for the future.

The sleepovers became less and less important as they grew older and did what they had to, but they never stopped. What would they? They were friends.

And Mikey couldn't talk with anyone else about his darkest thoughts. Granted, he didn't like to tell Takemichi he caught himself fantasizing about bashing his face in, but Takemichi knew about his mind. Takemichi also already died by his own hands. He's used to tell Takemichi what's on his mind - Takemichi kind of conditioned him to - and Takemichi does the same. They can't tell the others. The others don't know. The others don't remember. The others can only ask how they knew what was their favorite dish when they never told either Mikey or Takemichi.

(The others can only wonder why Mikey and Takemichi sometimes look at them and see ghosts. The remains of someone who isn't there and won't ever be anymore. Mikey doesn't wonder why, but he knows how it feels - Takemichi does it randomly when he looks at him.)

Mikey remembers South's least breath under him. He remembers how close he was to do the same to Kazutora. He doesn't remember what Takemichi talks about when nobody else can hear but them. He never set foot in Manila. No tattoo ever adorned his body.

He only has memories of Shinichiro, Baji, Emma, Izana, Draken, South dying. Sometimes he wonders if he should kill the others just to see how it is. (Could he truly make Takemichi have to go through it again? He wishes he could remember all the timelines Takemichi has been in. Takemichi says it's best he doesn't.)

Death lost its meaning a long time ago. He lost too many loved-ones (now breathing and well and missing someone who is alive never ceases to be weird) to remember how it is to grieve. There's nothing but a ball of hollowness in his chest when he thinks of death.

If anyone dies, him and Takemichi can go back. They can go back as long as they want to. They could become immortal if they really think about it. Maybe try to become Japan number 1. (He knows it's a bad idea. He knows Takemichi will never accept. But it took a while before Mikey found something else he could do in his life. A real job. Looking back, motor-racer should have been an obvious choice. But he had just left his past life and, truly, it never crossed his mind that he should one day leave delinquency behind. He only knew how to fall.)

Time became a very foreign concept to them. And so is death.

Takemichi remembers more deaths than he does. They talk about it, like everything else. Takemichi still refrains from saying too much - he leaves as many details as he can and tries not to cry. Mikey thought it was not to upset him at first, then he realized Takemichi wanted someone else to know without having to cry. Mikey sometimes wonder, if Takemichi is tired of crying.

Overall, it's fine, everything's fine. Mikey is new to time leap, new to remember another version of someone that he will never meet again, new to this so-called normal life, new to being able to stop himself from acting on his intrusive thoughts, but next to the joy of everybody he loves being alive, it's nothing. A bit bittersweet (from time to time he wish he could talk to the version of his brother who killed for him - but he prefers his brother not having more traumas than he already has. Even if he really wish they could've talked at least once) but it's fine.

It's a happy ending, overall. Even if his mind is still not right, even if him and Takemichi can only rely on each other, even if they did not save everyone the best they could (Mikey is very sorry for Kakucho but he's also very selfish and he cannot found the want to go back and prevent Kakucho from becoming an orphan. Izana needs Kakucho. Who can tell if their relationship would be the same if Kakucho wasn't an orphan, too? Mikey knows he's a hypocrite, because he could know. Him and Takemichi can alter the timeline as much as they want. But Mikey doesn't want to risk it. So he goes back in time to save Akane from her death, but he doesn't go back to prevent Kakucho from loosing his family. Takemichi's confusion and realization, mixed with understanding and a bit of anger when they didn't go back after shaking hands is still on his mind. Because deep down, even if he wishes Kakucho to be happy, he first and foremost wishes Izana to be. And they can't take Kakucho away from Izana. They can't.), even with all of that... It's a happy ending. Illegal activities are far behind them, everyone deals with their life and traumas the best they can (best they ever did, and there are less traumas to deal with - at least him and Takemichi prevented some), everyone is alive...

It's a good life. One Mikey never thought he would have.

And he thinks about killing them from time to time. And he thinks about their previous death from time to time. And he thinks about how he will have to one day let them go, because nobody escapes death. But that's how life is, and he learnt to deal with it.

His mind is not without dark places, but he learnt to be happy again.

#this came to me so i wrote it down. idk what it is. but Mikey in the final timeline has intrusive thoughts and still has some issues #tr spoilers #tokrev spoilers #tokyo revengers spoilers #tok rev spoilers #tr #tokrev #tok rev #tokyo revengers #manjiro sano #mikey sano #final timeline

[chuchayucca]

We’re sleeping on Dexter’s possible friendships and the angst that comes with them

#I headcanon when the adults grow up with Dexter. They didn’t notice his strange mannerism until young adulthood #But by that point Dexter had distanced himself from them completely out of fear they will learn about his needs #+ the fear of his intrusive thoughts becoming real (I imagine there were multiple times he almost came close to killing someone) #He sometime hangs around with old friends but he’s very secretive and selective #When he still was alive. the new reputation he developed was the nice exterminator everyone grew up with who is a bit werid #His close friends were Frank. Jaune. Rick. and Richard #spooky month dexter #spooky month #dexter erotoph #ChuchaYucca.text #spooky month headcanons

[sciralta]

#do not ask it came to me in an intrusive thought #playchoices #choices #kiss of death #choices kiss of death #choices kod

[offul-83]

Barnaby but he's evil

Tryhard horror redesign by me (all jokes aside I'm really proud of this!)

Edited with polish

Song referenced is feathers by Man Man

#Art #art #my art #fan art #redesign #sfw furry #welcome home #welcome home barnaby #barnaby b beagle #clownillustrations #This came from an au from an intrusive thought I had where wally unsuccessfully gets neutered and bloody damage is done #This guy says it's tradition #This version of the character is nothing like the original #horror #Cujo inspired #tw dark content #not for kids

[eldritchamy]

maybe YOU wouldn't believe your eyes if ten million fireflies.

rip to you but I'm different.

#this is like two different memes that are 3 or 4 years too late #but idc I was listening to a mashup of Brain Stew and Fireflies and this popped in my head #it would not surprise me if a post with this exact text was made like 3.5 years ago #if so I'm sorry to the op of that post cause this came to me like an intrusive thought

[kakitysax]

Autism isn’t parasitic, alien, robotic, or otherwise other, it’s human and no autistic person should be made to feel like their disability or how it presents itself makes them less than human. However, every Autistic person ever is allowed use these terms to describe themself and their experience. Hope this helps!!!

#my autism is a tadpole that swam unnoticed in my brain until we turned fourteen and it started to grow legs. #problem is if I say that to a right winger they’ll go ‘and the tadpole came from a vaccine’ and it’s like no. no. #it’s me it’s all me it’s a part of me and I’m human #I’m describing an internal experience in metaphorical language #it FEELS other and intrusive sometimes due to my frustration but I know that to be untrue #and it is by expressing that that I can then reaffirm that I am whole to myself #anyway. just some late night thoughts. #autism