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multiplicity-positivity · 6 months

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hello, host of the system that sent that first ask about not being sure about how normal is it to find out you're plural in your early 20s, joined by 3 alters; we've come to seek some advice/positivity/comfort/kindness in times of great stress. we recently came out to a friend who also is a system, but things didn't go well at all and they have cut us all off, not without being furious, unwelcoming and in disbelief beforehand. not going into details about the things that were said (and some of their anger was justified, for we didn't make ourselves known sooner out of fear of, unsurprisingly, this kind of outcome) but it has affected us greatly; i (the host) have been not entirely lucid and our co-host (the eldest alter and the only one who can understand the elusive trauma holder in our system) is nowhere to be seen; they have never been absent like this before, and we're afraid that the rage/disgust that was directed towards us has made them go dormant, because last time someone in our system went dormant (long before i was aware of these guys), they came out with no recollection of their first time here; only their exomemories remained. we're hurting badly, and scared that there is no place for us in the world, that the suffering/trauma i as a host have been through is not enough and that we're not safe at all for they could very well find this ask (although it's highly unlikely because they have gripes with plural spaces).

we apologize if it got wordy, we just want to feel safe after all this.

-🌙 (reviewed by 🐻, 🌀 and ❄)

hey, gosh, we are so incredibly sorry y’all had to go through something like this. it seems like y’all have a lot on your plate right now, and being rejected and cut off by a friend (and fellow system, no less!) must be incredibly painful. we truly are so sorry y’all are having to go through something like this.

we’d like to share with y’all a post we made fairly recently on dormancy, with a focus on coping with the temporary loss of a headmate.

your co-host likely will not be gone forever, but it makes sense to feel lost, confused, and hurt by their absence. we hope that y’all can try to have patience, grieve in whatever ways make you feel most comfortable, and try to just sit with your emotions for a while. it’s okay to feel sad. it’s okay to feel angry. there are no wrong emotions, and it makes sense to feel hurt and overwhelmed when a headmate goes dormant like this.

about your friend…

please know that you did nothing wrong by trying to come out to your friend about your system. in addition, you keeping your system from them for so long does not in any way justify their response to their anger. it can be incredibly dangerous and terrifying revealing your system to someone else, and that is private information that you do not owe anyone. as a system themself, they should understand this. but even if they don’t, that doesn’t make it less true. it is okay to keep your system a secret for as long as you need to in order to keep your system safe and comfortable. again, you do not owe anyone this information about yourself. your friend becoming angry due to you keeping your system hidden from them is fine - there are no bad emotions and we can’t control what feelings we have in the moment. what is not justifiable at all, in our opinion, was how they reacted by cutting y’all off and directing their rage and disgust towards y’all. in fact, choosing to react in that way to us seems hateful and unkind, and they obviously have some work they need to do in order to become a better person/system.

about your feelings regarding your trauma and place in this world…

please know that you belong in this world and in the plural community as you are - no changes necessary. you are so loved, and you absolutely belong here, no doubt about it. not everyone is going to be willing to accept you or your system for who y’all are, and ultimately, that’s on them for being closed-minded and unwilling to listen and understand. we truly hope that soon you will find your people, that soon you will find yourself surrounded by folks who love each and every member of your system and are happy to accept y’all for who y’all are. we mean this with every ounce of our strength.

many traumatized individuals worry that their trauma “wasn’t bad enough” or that “someone else has had it worse.” in disorders like did and osdd, the important factor that causes these disorders to form is repeated trauma in childhood that causes the child to dissociate regularly as a result. that’s it. there’s no set of traumas that are “bad enough” for these disorders to form. if a child regularly has to dissociate to cope, if they’re not receiving adequate support from a caregiver, if they’re having to rely on themselves for emotional processing… chances are, they may end up with a dissociative disorder. even something as minor as being given a brief time out can cause a child to dissociate if they’re already prone to dissociation and cannot reliably rely on their caregivers for support. so, please trust us when we say, yes, your trauma was enough. it was enough, and you never, ever should have had to suffer the way you did. even if you think it was minor… we don’t agree. no child should be traumatized. for a child with little to no support, there is no such thing as “minor trauma.” every trauma may seem huge and have a major impact on their lives, especially if they have to deal with the aftermath alone.

anon, we are wishing your whole system peace, rest, recovery, and self acceptance. please know that you’re not alone, and you are loved just the way you are. we will never doubt your system here, and you will always be welcome here on our blog and in the plural community as a whole. in fact, the plural community is made brighter and more vibrant due to your presence in it. your friend is really missing out by choosing to let go of your friendship due to your choice to be honest and vulnerable.

we hope this helps, even if it’s just a little bit. we’re sorry this got so long-winded. please don’t hesitate to reach out to us if there’s anything we can do to help y’all in the future. please take care of each other - we really are wishing y’all the best!

🐢 kip and 💫 parker

#long post #trauma #self doubt #rejection

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imxthexhandler · 1 year

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Where in the world is Ephiny

OOC: So, it’s been a minute.

I didn’t mean to go poof. Just...had a LOT happen.

Below the cut if anyone wants to read, tw: hospitalizations (not me), death (not me), depression, social anxiety (those two me)

My favorite uncle died Saturday. He’d been sick on/off since late last year, this was his second hospitalization, but he was taking an upward turn, so I honestly did think he was going to make it out.

I know he was just tired.

I know he was. I know it’s better he’s not suffering, that he’s no longer sick, he’s no longer hooked up to machines, because I know that’s the last thing he wanted.

But God damn, do I miss him.

Well, anyway, suddenly, last week, my aunt told my mom that if she wanted to come see him, she’d better do it that weekend. So, cue me having to juggle things around, thankfully didn’t buy a ticket for the Ant-Man and the Wasp meet-up event my friends were doing, change my off day, and just...I am very blessed with whom I work for now. Because if I was still at the courthouse? They wouldn’t have allowed it.

So, I did my first overnight babysitting gig in two years. My sister, bless her, was okay with it. I know that was so off from her usual routine, and for someone like her on the autism spectrum, I know it’s a major stress and anxiety trigger. Very proud of her.

So yeah, they took him off the ventilator and the other machines. Per my aunt, he went very quickly and peacefully, my mom got a chance to tell him goodbye, she told him how much I loved him, and my cousin was able to make it in with his daughters.

My parents came back Sunday afternoon. Then, yesterday (I took it off from work because we didn’t know originally when my parents would be back--and honestly, I needed that day), my father’s face swelled up, his tongue too. So he had my mother drive him to the E.R...only to not want to wait there because it was completely filled, and the swelling was finally going down after he took two Zyrtec. So they came home, and my poor mother ended up banging up her knee.

Needless to say, my nerves are shot. I haven’t been sleeping well. I just...I feel everything and nothing all at once.

And I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting everyone on here. I really am sorry. I just haven’t had the drive, and even when I have, I feel like I’m just a horrible partner and writer so why bother? I feel like my partners hate me, and I know y’all don’t (at least, I hope not), it’s just my anxiety talking. I know it’s not true, but it’s like I got this damned imp sitting on my shoulder, whispering in my ear that I’m worthless. In other words, got a lot to talk about at therapy next month.

I’m going to post up some Valentine’s day memes first. If anyone wants something, just hit me up--comment on here, send me an ask, send me an IM. This counts for both romantic AND platonic. Even if our muses have NEVER interacted, hit me up for Amelia to give yours some cookies.

Take care, everyone, happy archer’s day!

#Out of field reports

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nami-moittli · 1 year

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Oh? It’s been so long since I’ve made that post that I’ve fallen out of my appmon phase, but I’m happy to fall back in for awhile to talk about him!

First off, like I said in the tags of the post this person commented on, my oc is more of a headcanon character of sorts, and I have included him in my appmon Gacha meme videos, so if you watch those, you might understand him, but you don’t have to.

Anyway, my oc/hc character is based off Yuujin, and (spoilers if you haven’t finished appmon) his backstory is basically that Hajime and Rei (though Rei does it begrudgingly, only because Hajime, Haru and Hackmon are telling him to) bring back Yuujin by grabbing the last latest version of Yuujin before YJ-14, so probably like, YJ-12 or something. And everyone’s happy bc Yuujin’s back and Haru & Ai are happy.

Though, of course, our revived version of Yuujin, is younger than Yuujin. And because model YJ-14 is stuck and dead in the dark web, they can’t get back those few years of memories back.

I imagine that in the hypothetical second season where revived!Yuujin exists, he would be suffering in the background from all the stress and inconsistencies that came from missing those years. I mean, he suddenly gained a whole new friend group, two of which (plus those not in the know, like Watson) would be a few years older than him. Also, not to mention all of the weird shit that went down during the appmon runtime, like, the appmon. And the fact that he’s an AI. And the fact he died. So, yeah.

I like to think that Yuu(our revived Yuujin) would be living with the Katsura’s, mainly because Rei still doesn’t fully trust him, and they(Rei, Hajime and Hackmon) need to be there in case Yuu’s old Leviathan code kicks back in, so, that’s fun (I will admit that I feel bad for Rei though, cause now he has to deal with being, basically the owner of a orphanage at this point)

And, anyways, after slowly showing the buildup of, everything, on Yuu’s back, he runs away.

Everyone immediately is worried (even Rei, bc by that point, while he might not admit it, Yuu grew on him) and starts looking for him.

They eventually find him, and that’s when Yuu tells them all (or at least, those who found him) that he feels, like he’s not even “Yuujin” anymore. Because, sure, he may look and act like Yuujin, but he doesn’t have those core memories that all his ‘friends’ keep bringing up. He doesn’t even remember meeting them! And it makes him feel, like he’s not “Yuujin.”

That’s when Yuu starts going by “Yuu” or, more specifically, Yuu Katsura (bc yes).

Everyone apologizes for making him feel that way and Yuu comes back. Only, a little different, as he’s now in an even younger body, so instead of being Astora’s age, he now looks like he’s Hajime’s.

Why? (Bc when I first came up with him he was Hajime’s age before I realized it didn’t make sense) bc he wanted to try and get a “fresh start” at being who he decided he wanted to be, and not “Yuujin”

Of course, his identity crisis isn’t over by that point, in fact it had only really just begun, and the rest of his story is Yuu trying to be comfortable in his own skin.

(And when he’s finally getting a hold of himself, Yuujin comes back-)

And yeah, that’s basically Yuu’s backstory. Sorry if that didn’t make much sense, or felt out of order. But yeah, that’s my appmon oc/hc character. I do have an actual appmon oc, being an oc who’s an appmon, and she’s Ai’s buddy! Though I still haven’t figured out her design just yet.

Anyways, hope y’all liked that. Just some rambling. Bye now, ig?

#appmon #digimon universe appli monsters #digimon oc #appmon oc #yuu katsura #headcanon #yuujin oozora #digimon original character

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spellbook-gayboy · 2 years

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Cape-Watch Monthly Bulletin- September 2022

Hey, y’all! I’m your host, Christina Cabello, closing out the month with another Cape-Watch Monthly Bulletin! The start of the fall season is just as busy as any other for our heroes, and the biggest events of the month are shown down below for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy!

Anyone Catch the Earthquake?

This month’s list begins on quite the weird note. Last week, a massive seismic event in the southern Pacific Ocean rocked residents in Oceania and Southeast Asia. It was a couple of days before a representative from the International Seismological Centre would explain: According to the data they had managed to compile, the event was triggered by something rising out of the water (yes, they used that exact wording). They also determined that the most likely origin was Point Nemo, also known as the furthest point from any major landmass. Surprisingly, information on such a gigantic occurrence was sparse, with not even major world leaders possessing any information even close to substantial. However, the San Diego superhero Magic Man did have an explanation to offer, stating:

‘For reasons I’m not at liberty to discuss, I can’t fully explain what exactly happened at Point Nemo. The long and short of it is someone woke up a god, and I put it back to sleep. And before you ask, yes, it is actually a god, just... not one of ours. I wish I could explain more, but I really can’t.’

Usually, I’d have some witty remark to add or some other statement to make, but I’m afraid not. Honestly, I debated even putting this one to print, but I felt you folks needed to hear about this. If you’re feeling stressed or anxious from this news, I can wholeheartedly suggest that you call the National Distress/Anguish Helpline, either through their website at www.ndahelp.com or through telephone by calling (281) 249-3307.

Canadian Hero Speaks Out on Systemic Corporate Sexism

Moving on, our next story has quite the message! A little under two weeks ago, the US branch of the superhero megacorporation Capes Incorporated was rocked when one of its newest members, the Ottawa-born crimefighter Knockout, publicly accused shareholders and members of upper management of perpetuating a system of misogyny within the company. According to the claims, which are due to be detailed in a full article coming soon, the female hero was ‘coerced into wearing fake breasts by shareholders and received threats of disciplinary action from upper management when she refused to comply’. While Knockout refused to comment, her fellow Canadian Capes Inc. member Kid Thor had this to say:

‘It’s disgusting, just absolutely disgusting! You’d hope in this day and age that a woman shouldn’t have to suffer through this kind of degrading and unfair treatment, superhero or not. I don’t know what she’ll do next, but if I was her? I’d sue those motherf**kers for every goddamn cent they’re worth! Sorry, it’s just... unbelievable!’

This incident, important though it is, is far from the first time Capes Inc. has been the target of criticism. One of the earliest examples, and by far one of the most egregious, was in 1978. The company was taken to court by Sister Siren, an African American hero and employee, who alleged that she had been fired not for excessive collateral damage as the defendants stated, but due to her marriage to a white co-worker, which could constitute racial discrimination contrary to Loving v Virginia, the Supreme Court ruling that outlaws discrimination based on interracial marriages. After months of heavy legal debate and tens of thousands in legal fees, the company was found to be in violation of the Equal Protection and Due Process Clauses of the Fourteenth Amendment to the U.S. Constitution and ended up with a hefty fine of $175,000 (almost $1.5 million in today’s money), as well as being forced to award Sister Siren the severance package she had been denied before. Other incidents have occurred since then, but let this example serve as a reminder of just how shady this company may actually be. Let’s also hope that Knockout can get the justice she so deserves.

Yet Another Alien Invasion

On a much more everyday note, I doubt many of you will be surprised to learn that Earth recently became the target of yet another alien invasion, which thankfully occurred far from any civilization, arriving in the middle of the Rub’ al-Khali desert in Saudi Arabia. The invaders weren’t any of the usual suspects, but instead a mysterious pink humanoid race piloting craft resembling something out of an old science fiction comic. Despite their unassuming appearance, they were still fierce and numerous enough to need the full attention of both the Guardians of the Globe and the local division of Capes Incorporated headquartered in Riyadh.

While no less dangerous, these aliens are far from the first to try and conquer the world. The first recorded incident in recent history occurred as far back as 1952, when massive insectoid creatures came close to completely destroying the city of Wilmington, Delaware before the original Guardians intervened. A far more subtle attack happened much later in 1978, when many small towns across rural Kansas and Colorado became infested by a race locally known as ‘the body-snatchers’. Finally, it was a little over a year ago that the Flaxans, a highly advanced and extremely invasive race led a brutal invasion that killed hundreds and left thousands more injured, proving more than a match for the Teen Team and only thwarted by the sudden intervention of Omni-Man. Whatever comes next, let’s hope it isn’t as nearly as big, and much more out the way.

Did Not See That One Coming

Our final story for this month comes yet again from the popular biweekly Twitch broadcast ‘Recipes with Rae’, which sees the titular size-changing heroine prepare all manner of meals ranging from old-timey to otherworldly, often while enjoying the company of other crimefighters. This fortnight’s stream had Shrinking Rae joined by recurring guest and fellow Guardian of the Globe Dupli-Kate as the pair made (or rather, attempted to make) the traditional French dish of ratatouille.

Things went as they usually did, with witty banter and dirty pots galore. However, things took a turn when Dupli-Kate announced she had to leave for unknown reasons, which resulted in a surprising goodbye kiss that was decidedly not platonic, given a slightly comedic edge when Rae finally realised that their private moment had just been shown to over four million people. Regardless, the heroine took to Twitter to clarify the situation, revealing that the two had in fact been dating for a little under three months before the impromptu reveal, receiving a flood of support from fans and fellow heroes alike.

This news becomes particularly comedic when remembering that these two aren’t the only members of the Guardians who came out as members of the LGBTQ+ community, as team member Rex Splode also publicly revealed his relationship with the solo hero Invincible during New York Pride, not to mention the status of past members, from War Woman’s open membership in the lesbian community to rumours surrounding founders such as Frontline and The Immortal. This is also the case within the heroines’ immediate families, as Dupli-Kate’s brother and former teen hero Multi-Paul is himself romantically involved with the Californian super Magic Man. While it may seem premature to say, it wouldn’t surprise me if people started taking bets on which Guardian would be the next to leave the closet.

And that’s all, folks! Once again, a big thanks to our readers and donators, as you guys help keep the lights on around here, and we’ll be seeing next time with the October edition of the Cape-Watch Monthly Bulletin! Remember: stay safe, stay hydrated, and tune in next month for more of the biggest superhero stories around!

#had to post this early due to scheduling #invincible #invincible show #invincible amazon #invincible oc #Christina cabello #Cape-Watch

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niohkurikara · 5 months

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Creating My First Vector Graphic Asset! + A Rough Overestimation and Journey in learning Illustrator

TW //// Body Dysmorphia, Anorexia, ED

Hey y’all, I’m back with another update on my progress on my time in my Uni’s VCDM-230 course. Today’s content might be a little bit on the heavy side, so I wanted to include a trigger warning in case someone struggling with the issues came across this post while in a state that can’t handle it’s contents. I’d like to provide context on my chosen disease and what I hoped to accomplish in the project. I chose Body Dysmorphia due to my prior experiences of dealing with close friends suffering from BDD. These disorders would literally eat my friends alive and I would feel helpless as all I could do was stay with them and check on them and their mental health from time to time. It was, and still is, a jarring feeling seeing them push themselves towards an endless goal I can’t understand but only hope to sympathize with while still stressing the importance of maintaining their health. With my design, I had hoped to showcase a stylized extreme to stress the gravity to those not only familiar with the disorder, but to those unaware as well. But to digress, for the last two weeks, students were assigned with picking a disease or disorder to research, draft a report paper on, and eventually design a infographic poster on to present in class. I had thought I’d lighten the stress load of designing by first drafting the design in my art book as a sketch, and then simply trace the design in Illustrator. Well this task turned out to be anything but simple. Lines wouldn’t go where I wanted them, trying to conjoin lines would completely overwrite one, I couldn’t manage to color in sections, and my canvas was too big because I couldn’t adjust it in inches. I had to take a break and visit my Professor’s office just to let her know: I hate Illustrator. With her aid, I managed to fix some of the errors, such as learning the power of of the swatches tab, and get back on track but I can tell I still have a lot to learn. I won’t let this discourage me from finishing my project, but I’ll probably dread going back to the application (and I’m definitely coloring this asset in Ps, save me Paint Bucket Tool!(Sorry Professor)). I’m unsure if I can upload my finished projects while I’m still in my course, but I’d love to share the end result with you all some day!

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spikeisawesome456 · 1 year

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Bro I'm sorry your poll sucks so bad why is it so unfunny and quirky lol random and also why are only Three of the options actually sauces. All the other answers could be combined into one

Honestly, I’m more sorry that you’re so miserable that you felt the need to harass a stranger on the internet for no real reason, honestly. Seriously, though, what did you gain from sending this? Did it make you feel good to be rude to someone? Did it make you go “ahh yes, I totally did the right thing here, trying to make someone feel bad for creating a harmless poll on the Internet”? Just live and let live, my dude. Stop taking things so seriously. It’s literally just a poll, one I didn’t intend on making it past my immediate circle on Tumblr. I used the sense of humor I have (which I don’t care if you find unfunny, I like it and that’s what matters) since it’s my poll. If you don’t like it, make your own poll.

Also, I didn’t just add ‘3 options.’ I added the options that I wanted to know about. I added ketchup since it’s common, ranch since that’s the sauce I use, and then I added mayo as a joke. The other choices are ways of eating chicken nuggets that I’ve seen, such as eating them plain (also how I eat them), mixing sauces together to make a new sauce, not eating chicken nuggets at all, not caring about what kind of sauce, and an extra option for others to just click on to see the result. The only way I could have changed my poll would have been to change the heading, saying “which way do you like to eat your chicken nuggets,” maybe combined the three sauces into “with some kind of sauce,” and left it at that. But you can’t change polls and I didn’t think it would leave my immediate circle, so… don’t know what you want me to do here, really.

Also, since I can tell you REALLY like my polls, I’m going to make one just for you, anon. As a treat. :-)

#Seriously though #Why send this to someone?#It’s so unnecessary #I may be ‘unfunny’ but at least I’ve never sent some a message online just trying to hurt their feelings #Think before you shed something my dude #Also I know this honestly isn’t that bad in terms of anon hate #I just don’t usually get any and it’s annoying to get any over a silly poll #Part of me thinks I should just not make anymore polls but honestly?#If I want to I will #I’m not going to let some miserable human online try and stop me from doing whatever I want #I work with kids and one thing I always try to show them is that it’s okay to be who you are no matter what anyone says #Wear elaborate Halloween costumes #Wear a fancy dress just to go to work in #Do a silly dance just because it makes you feel happy #Don’t worry about ‘being cringe’ or ‘looking ridiculous’#Just… be who you are and if people judge you? That’s on them. Not you #¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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bitchpleasebitchthankyou · 1 year

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Miss Manners on: Covid Exposure

Q: I'm writing for clarification on the etiquette of notifying friends and colleagues about a COVID-19 exposure. I recently became infected with a very mild case. The large organization I work for has strict protocols around reporting positive test results, all of which I diligently observed. My uncertainty surrounds notifying my friends and colleagues -- outside the formal channels -- that I had exposed them. I landed on text messages and phone calls, considering the matter too urgent for email. I essentially said, "Good morning. I've tested positive for COVID-19. Last week during our meeting, I probably exposed you." Should I have apologized? I didn't knowingly expose them, but I do feel somewhat guilty and I am delivering bad news, so "I'm sorry" wouldn't seem amiss. I haven't gotten any complaints, but I do feel that this is uncharted etiquette territory to some extent.

Miss Manners says: Yes, you should apologize. There are strange notions about apologies floating around these days. Some people do not believe they should apologize for damage they caused if they did not do it on purpose. Others, who did purposeful damage, believe that this can be instantly canceled by an apology alone. Miss Manners presumes that you did not expose others to illness by behaving recklessly, so you should not feel guilty about the exposure itself. But you should feel bad about possibly causing suffering. You wouldn't like it if the person who stomped on your foot merely barked, "Hey, I didn't do it on purpose." Apologies are in order.

Your Head Bitch says: Yes, indeed you should apologize. What you needn’t do is self-flagellate, something your Head Bitch struggled with herself over the summer when she tested positive. As Miss M says, if you do something to someone, even inadvertently, it deserves an apology. So what I would go with is: “Dear Peter, I’m sorry to be writing to say I may have exposed you to covid during our lunch yesterday -- I just tested positive today. I’ve been taking all necessary precautions and felt entirely fine when we met up, but it seems somehow it slipped through my net. My apologies in advance for any stress, worry or discomfort this may cause you, it was of course unconsciously done. I hope this is alarmist and that you will be well, but I wanted to make you aware. [Name].” This shares the info you need to, gets your apologies out there, and then you can both move forward whatever may happen. We used to give each other colds all the time, so it shall be in the future as well. All we can do is our best, and sometimes something still gets through -- that’s what the vaccines are for. Say you’re sorry, but don’t dwell, that’s just life. All of us will have it at some point, so extend the same courtesy -- and grace, if you’re on the other side -- that you yourself would want to receive. Now rest up and get well soon.

Get tested, isolate as necessary, and take care of yourselves and others, y’all! We’re all getting through this together.

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darkcircles4lyfe · 3 years

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Death to All Might, Rebirth to Yagi Toshinori

So about All Might. I’ve been extremely wary of talking about what could happen to him because straight up saying “I don’t think he’s gonna die” is asking the universe to spite me. Plus it also feels like a room full of people turning to stare at me as if I said the Sun isn’t a star. Man has death flags everywhere, I know.

But, okay, *Bill Nye voice* consider the following:

Mr. Yagi here, if he overheard everything, just received the final nail in the coffin on his career. His time as the symbol of peace is not only over, it was in fact partially responsible for the current state of things, since he once did so much on his own that his absence now makes heroes and civilians alike ill-prepared to cope. I think it was very apt for that one guy to be wearing an All Might shirt--he was acting as a mouthpiece for the latent societal problems embedded in All Might’s legacy.

We know already that he’s been feeling useless. I love this scene and although I’m not gonna talk about it right this second, remember what Aizawa says about just “being here” being enough:

And we know from conversations with Inko that Toshinori is also reframed his purpose around looking after Izuku. But in the end, Izuku rejected his help, and it was his classmates instead who were able to save him. Now the very progress of humanity is rejecting him too. You may me wondering how on Earth I don’t see the logical conclusion of all this being his death. Hold on. It actually has a lot to do with the fact that we’re all expecting it. Nighteye himself saw it, and despite any contrary convictions anyone might have, the plot doesn’t seem to be veering away from that end. All Might Is Gonna Die, says absolutely everything.

It’s occurring to me that I have previous experience with this kind of plotline that probably little to no one else in this fandom shares, being that I’ve read a certain book series in which the main character is told in no uncertain terms that he will die (no, I’m not talking about hp). The series in question is T*e Und*rland Chronicl*s (censoring so it doesn’t get put in their side of tumblr) and I’m sorry but I’m about to go on a shameless tangent about it and spoil the ending for you.

So in this series there is a prophecy in every book, each one having something to do with war and conflict, and so far all of them have been right. In the last book [mc] finds out that it’s prophesied that he will be killed. Lots of the things in the prophecies are convoluted and metaphorical, but no, this one literally says “when the [mc’s title] has been killed.” He spends the whole book coming to terms with this, and he gives into it, only to find himself waking up in the hospital instead. “Wow, plot twist. /s” you may be thinking, and yeah sure, the mc in a kids book survived, big shocker. But it doesn't end there. After the war, there are peace talks, but they escalate until the two sides are on the verge of declaring war again. And [mc], bless him, has just been caught in the middle of all of this the entire time. He’s sick as shit of fighting, of watching the suffering and death of people he cares about. He draws his sword against both of them angrily, gives a speech saying he won’t take a side, and then promptly breaks his sword across his knee: “There. [mc’s title in the prophecies] is dead. I killed him.” He’s giving a huge middle finger to everyone there, to the man who wrote the prophecies, to the entire fucked up culture of it all. And so something that was taken literally turns out to be metaphorical. That is, if you still believe in the prophecies at all.

Hopefully you’re catching my drift here. What I’m saying is, even though this other series has nothing to do with bnha, it goes to show sometimes it’s the most absolute certainties that are red herrings, and a “death” can consequently be a symbolic one. In All Might’s case, it could be the death of hero society and a rejection of his own past. In other words, character development for Toshinori himself that reflects on the way the world is changing, too. Also there’s the fact that the mc from that other series I’m trying not to name has an honorary title, and I’m imagining that role he occupied “dying” could correspond to something that amounts to, “All Might is dead. I (Yagi Toshinori) killed him.”

And here’s another thing: we also have to ask ourselves what good a dead Toshinori is to Izuku, narratively speaking. Yes, Izuku has spent his whole life idolizing even the more toxic parts of All Might, and his idealized vision of his hero does need to “die.” But how about Toshinori as a father figure? Izuku regretting that his last interaction with Toshinori was to reject his help may drive home the fact that he shouldn’t go off on his own, but at this point it’s kinda redundant. If anything it would negate some of the progress that was just made because it’d make him extra paranoid about losing other people too. To be honest, the whole “Uncle Ben” trope, the mentor/father figure who dies and gives the mc a reason to do better, is so tired. Experiencing the death of a loved one really doesn’t deserve to be romanticized like that. I might as well admit that I’m speaking from experience, and let me tell you, losing someone you love suddenly, when you weren’t around, and with unfinished business--it makes you paranoid as hell that it will happen again. It literally gives me nightmares. Y’all, I cannot stress enough that trauma does not equal character development. Granted, just because I know this doesn’t mean Horikoshi does, but in general he does seem to lead his characters toward healing.

Okay, back to the present. Toshinori is turning away from UA. He likely feels useless and rejected. We can infer that what happens next will involve Stain, and we have a couple of extra clues to go with it: Stain considers All Might a true hero, and has stated that he would let All Might kill him. And since Horikoshi loves his parallels, we also have this fight between Endeavor and this random villain who admires him so much that he wants to die by Endeavor’s hand:

This suggests a confrontation in which Stain challenges All Might to live up to himself as he once was, so that as a hero he can vanquish Stain and symbolically overcome society's perversion of that role. But based on what All Might has learned about the system he upheld, Stain is wrong. All Might is not a “true hero” in the sense that the societal issues Stain witnessed exist not in spite of All Might, but (in part) because of him, because he took too much of the responsibility for himself.

Stain probably had no idea about the personal cost of All Might’s lonely burden until after the fact. Maybe he’s seeing it now. So then perhaps the confrontation would be more about Stain claiming he’s just as fake as the rest. Either way, Toshinori has the opportunity to denounce himself and be rid of “All Might,” to stop living in his own shadow. Nighteye’s vision has been defied before, and I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if the combination of society shifting + Toshinori’s own conviction is enough to do it again and work fate in his favor.

He is not All Might. He is Yagi Toshinori: quirkless, worn down, and directionless except for his dedication to Izuku. If he survives his interaction with Stain, he can resolve his imperfect mentorship by confessing about his shortcomings and simply supporting Izuku as a part of his family, not as his teacher (as Aizawa said, just “being there”). And that’s how you really get character development, for both of them. I mean, shit, imagine Toshinori straight up telling Izuku to stop calling him All Might.

#disclaimer: I have a lot of emotional investment in dadmight #so I am hella biased #but hopefully I also have some unique insight to share #all might #yagi toshinori #bnha #mha #bnha meta #bnha 325 #bnha 326 #lin speaks

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tender-rosiey · 2 years

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Heyooo, i have been reading your blog for months now and I really like it (I’m in love with your writings)

Soo i just wanted to ask if you could do headcannons for Kunikida and Akutagawa who has a pregnant s/o

Thank you, have a nice day/night. Be careful and stay healthy

❥ Kunikida and Akutgawa with a pregnant s/o

ᴀ/ɴ: I am so happy that you like my writings lovely, sorry I took some time to finish your request but I hope it’s up to your liking as well 🥺💕 have a wonderful days as well and make sure to prioritize your health over all, okay? <3

KUNIKIDA DOPPO

Pls he would be so strict

Even more than usual

But it’s fine and dandy cause you know it’s for your own sake, yeah it might go overboard sometimes

Like that one time that you were merely trying to open a jar and he took it from you worried that it might “stress” you too much

Sweetheart she isn’t made of glass

On the cute side, he would always give you a kiss on the forehead after he helps you or stops from doing something

“We don’t want to endanger you or the baby under any circumstances, okay? If you need anything just call me.”

“What if you have an important meeting?”

“…I would leave it for you; you already know that.”

He watches your diet too because you need to be healthy so you don’t suffer in any form and that the baby grows healthily

“Today’s breakfast is Greek yogurt, tofu, eggs and peanut butter.”

“Doppo, that just sounds like threw anything you found in the kitchen into my breakfast—“

“This is from my research, don’t doubt it.”

Omelette with cheese was in the website as well but I figured it would be too much for y’all

He is always sure to make stressful people dazai away so it won’t affect you

But unfortunately for him what dazai wants dazai gets

And he wants quality time with you and the unborn child because he is the self-proclaimed “godfather”

Kunikida shudders at the idea of his child adopting Dazai’s pranking antics, just imagine having two of dazai and he doesn’t who would be more shameless and reckless

A 4 year old child or a adult-sized 4 year old child

He would be so gentle through your pregnancy though it’s so sweet

Even when he hugs you, you can barely feel his arms and when he kisses you it makes you feel like glass on the brink of shattering

Now ahem

“Cravings and Mood-swings”

That was a chapter in life that kunikida may have not prepared for properly this time

He would to try to convince you otherwise if you are craving something at 3 fucking am and tell you both to just go back to sleep cause y’all have work tomorrow

And yes kunikida prefers that you come to the agency so he can be able to protect you; plus there are a lot of capable fighters in the agency who wouldn’t let harm come your way

As for the um mood swings

One day you were crying while burying your face in chest and he was comforting you like a good husband does

But suddenly he saw you hold a pot with one hand and start screaming about his “unfairness” as you put it at least

“YOU ARE TOO KIND AND SWEET DOPPO NO WONDER EVERYONE FALLS FOR YOU WHY WONT THEY KNOW YOU ARE MINE?”

“Dear please, you know even if the world throws itself in me, I will come back to you.”

“…can we kiss?”

“Why are you so polite all of a sudden?”

“Fuck you.”

“That’s more like it.”

The detective agency protects you with their life, like away from anything related to kunikida; they treasure you a lot :D

Kenji loves talking to the baby bump

Speaking of baby bumps

When you are asleep kunikida would just place his hand on your bump

He still can’t believe that he is going to be a dad like WOAH

One day it hits him hard and he just refuses to let go of you all morning until he remembers it’s work day 👩‍🦯

Also he already has a list for the names he would like the baby to have

AKUTAGAWA RYUUNOSUKE:

Going to be honest with you guys here but I don’t think enthusiasm will be his reaction

I think it would be more of confused and restricted?? I am trying to find the right word

Like he would be emotionally conflicted because with what’s he has seen and been accustomed to he believes he will be a shit father

So it’s more of a fear that he won’t be the dad that his child deserves

And that fear will come out in the shape of angry responses such as telling you to shut up when you ramble

Slowly he starts to understand that you have no role in his inner conflicts and that you don’t deserve to be treated less than perfect and starts accepting the situation

Hence, why he starts to try initiating affection and tries to do stuff for you

I believe he is generally and organized person so chores are always done and you have nothing to do

Double that when you are pregnant

He will also start being more gentle as well

He will try to cope with your cravings and mood swings to the best of his abilities

He takes it as a challenge like how he did with trying to get the best tissue for dazai’s buttocks

As for the mood swings, he would be so confused like you mad, sad, happy or horny

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM HIM

So he just randomly pats your head even when you are mad and because your are caught off guard by the display of affection you calm down

Now

Akutagawa aint soft or shit, yes he may love you and be gentle and loving and yada yada

But I don’t see him doing anything to the baby bump other than staring at it

It’s not he doesn’t like it but like “ayo that’s mine?? i made my wife pregnant?”

He also starts to imagine scenarios of him and the baby and maybe you sometimes 🙄

Also he swore an oath to not let a single hand be laid on you specially while you are pregnant

Tachihara just tried to touch just a small baby poke

And he damn nearly got his hand cut off

Also Higuchi announced herself as the godmother and she always brings you the stuff you need with aku

She gets the stuff and he gives them to you because he is sorta clueless like that

Other times he just goes by himself like a big boy and buys what you want

Istg I could swear that I am not biased towards any character and then you would find a character with a whole ass page for a headcanon and another with merely a few sentences

Forgive me aku

Also about not having soft moments

I see him randomly waking you up in the middle of the night because of his shifting

And you will find his head laid beside your bump and his hand on it gently

SO THATS WHY YOUR STOMACH FELT EVEN HEAVIER THAN USUAL

He starts to think of names pretty early too

I think he would want to name it something either related to strength or light(after your convincing) like hikari

He would try to indirectly ask his superiors or more like chuuya for advice and names as well because apparently he wise 🤔

I don’t know if this counts as spoilers or not

But you know how Akutagawa is always coughing, naturally there must be an illness he has

Following that, I believe his mind be occupied that his illness might hold him back from being there for his child or restrict him from doing stuff with them and fully give them the father figure they deserve

That’s also why you found him in the balcony of your apartment staring at the sky

“Ryuu, what’s the matter?”

“…I afraid that the day I part from this world because of my disease would be damaging for the kid.”

Mind you, he isn’t normally open about what he feels but about this certain topic he felt that I’d he told you he would feel better

And fortunately it did

You guys just continued the night hand in hand, one of you imagining their life when the baby comes and the other is craving mayonnaise on strawberries and cheese

“Ryuu can you get some—“

“On it.”

Also this isn’t proofread so if you find anything then ignore it before I post angst again

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the-moons-ace-card · 2 years

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Ok, so IDK how many of y’all know her, but Nicque Marina did a series on TikTok a while back in which Vlad and Aizawa switched classes for a while. For context, go check that out. It’s also on YouTube, for those of you who don’t have TikTok

I like to imagine some of the kids from 1B calling their friends from 1A to talk about it.

And by that, I mean mostly 1B begging for 1A to get their teacher back. Either that, or looking for survival advice. Allow me to elaborate

...

Setsuna: GURL!! How the fUCK do you deal with this crazy ass every day???

Mina: Ya just get used to it, sweetie

Setsuna: I’M NOT SURE IF I CAN!! I DON’T THINK ANY OF US CAN!! COME GET HIM BACK!!

Mina: We don’t get a say!!

Mina: Besides, I’m really digging Dad King

Setsuna: Did- Did you just call him dAD KING??

Mina: You say that as though Monoma doesn’t

Setsuna:

Setsuna: Touché

...

Shihai: Fumikage Tokoyami

Fumikage: Shihai Kuroiro

Shihai: I’ve reached out to discuss the disturbance in the education system

Fumikage: Was it Mineta again? Do we need to perform another exorci-

Shihai: What? No, not the purple gremlin. I’m talking about our assigned mentors

Fumikage: Ah, yes. Vlad and Aizawa switching classes

Dark Shadow: Suffer, bitch

Shihai: Wha- HEY!

Dark Shadow: Consider it payback for the time you hijacked my body!

Shihai: That was ONE TIME for a TRAINING EXERCISE!!

Dark Shadow: Doesn’t matter!!

Fumikage: OFF TOPIC!! What about it, Kuroiro?

Shihai: What strengths have the darkness provided you with to be able to withstand Aizawa?

Fumikage: It’s not a matter of what the darkness has provided me with, more so about my lack of fear

Shihai: Fear of what?

Fumikage: The other side. I simply embrace the fact that I may one day meet it sooner than anticipated

Shihai: Soooo you’re just ... cool with potentially dying?

Fumikage: Indeed

Shihai:

Shihai: Thanks for the advice

...

Nirengeki: Your teacher has been beating us to the ground. I’m the vice class rep, you’re the class rep, there must be SOMETHING we can do!!

Tenya: Shoda, for the last time, the most we can do is stand by and wait for Principal Nezu to switch teachers again

Nirengeki: I have overheard some of my peers discussing potential drop out! This needs to stop! At the rate we’re going at, we’re gonna lose half the class!

Tenya: That is actually quite concerning. Perhaps we should get Yaoyorozu and Kendo to join us on stepping in

Nirengeki: I would suggest talking to Principal Nezu, but I have a feeling he would just soak in our misery

Tenya: Then maybe we should turn to whoever put Principal Nezu in charge

Nirengeki: Who would that be?

Tenya: No idea, but now that I think about it, they’re probably not sane, either

Nirengeki: Pardon my language, but my class is fucked

Tenya: As much I shouldn’t endorse profanity, yes, I agree.

...

Yosetsu: YAOYOROZU, I NEED HELP!!

Yao-Momo: With what?

Yosetsu: THE TEACHER SWAP!!

Yao-Momo: Ohhhh, that, um ... sorry, but ... there really isn’t much we can do

Yosetsu, on the verge of tears: THERE’S GOTTA BE SOMETHING YOU OR IIDA COULD DO!! YOU’RE THE CLASS REPS!!

Yao-Momo: That doesn’t necessarily mean anything!! I want to help you guys, but I’m not sure how!!

Yosetsu, struggling to keep it together: **sigh** Thanks, anyway ... hope you’re doing well with Vlad

Yao-Momo: I am. It’s nice to have a break

Yosetsu: And I can’t wait for that life back

Yao-Momo: It’ll happen eventually. You’ll see

Yosetsu, calming down: Thanks, Yaoyorozu

...

Manga: HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO IT?!

Toru: I DON’T KNOW, BUT I’M SORRY AIZAWA IS PUTTING YOU THROUGH HELL!!!

Manga: Tell me you’re at least enjoying Vlad’s class?

Toru: Are you kidding?! FUCK YEAH I AM!! I have never felt so stress-free in a LONG time!!

Manga: As much as I am glad to hear that, I’M NOT SURE HOW MUCH MORE OF AIZAWA I CAN TAKE!!

Toru: You can do this, Fukidashi!! I’ll cheer you on if it will help!!

Manga: P L E A S E ! !

Manga: I HAVEN’T HAD MORAL SUPPORT IN SO LONG!!

Toru: I GOTCHU BRO!!

...

Juzo: Recommended student to recommended student, can I have some advice?

Shoto: Um ... sure?

Juzo: As we know, there isn’t much we can do about this whole teacher swap thing

Juzo: But can you at least give me some tips on how to maybe at least not provoke him to throw a live grenade at us every damn day?

Shoto: You don’t

Juzo: ... w h a t ?

Shoto: I said you don’t

Juzo: No no no, I heard you

Juzo: But ... WHAT?! What do you mean “you don’t?”

Shoto: Aizawa is completely merciless. You guys are doomed. Just embrace the trauma with open arms. Trust me, I learned this at a young age

Juzo: I- ... W H A T ? !

Shoto: Sounds like you don’t believe me. Well, it all started when-

Juzo: Oooookay, sounds like you need Vlad more than all of us combined, so ... just enjoy him while this lasts, man

...

Togaru: OI!! BLASTY!!

Katsuki: THE FUCK YOU WANT, BUG FACE?!

Togaru: CAME TO TALK ABOUT THE TEACHER SWAP!!

Katsuki: HAH?! WHAT, DO YOU WANT TO BITCH LIKE THE REST OF YOUR BITCH-ASS CLASSMATES?!

Togaru: WHAT?! NO!! I JUST WANTED TO SEE HOW YOU WERE HANDLING VLAD!!

Katsuki: I DON’T HAVE TO ADMIT SHIT!!

Togaru: THAT BAD, HUH?! WELL NOW YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!!

Katsuki: H A H ? !

Togaru: EVER SINCE AIZAWA TOOK OVER, THIS CLASS HAS BEEN FUCKING AWESOME!! NO IDEA WHY MY CLASS IS SO BOTHERED!! THIS IS SOME KICK ASS SHIT!! SOME REAL FUCKING CHALLENGES, FINALLY!!

Katsuki: **smirks** SOMEONE GETS IT FINALLY!!

Togaru: HELL YEAH!! YOU CAN KEEP VLAD, SINCE YOUR CLASS CLEARLY SEEMS TO BE ENJOYING IT!!

Katsuki: FUCK NO!! ENJOY YOUR VACATION WHILE IT LASTS!! WE BOTH KNOW THEY GOTTA SWITCH BACK EVENTUALLY!!

Togaru: F U C K

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cuddlesslut · 3 years

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Part Five: Friends

Atsumu x fem reader, Suna x fem reader , Hinata x fem reader

A/N: ahh this took me so long to write sorry guys! Been having a tough few days. But we are back in the game. So This chapter is mainly the relationship between Hinata and YN! I love Hinata so much im actually thinking about making another series with him after this one is done. Let me know if y’all would be interested. I decided to put a little NSFW scene in but there is a warning.

Warnings: Angst, some fluff, Smut. And more Angst.

Part Four: Chance Encounters

Part Six: Promises

The night you spent with Hinata is no less than amazing. You don’t remember passing out, but your eyes open from your groggy sleep. It takes you a moment to register that this is not your room. Your eyes widened realizing you had stayed the night which was not something you’d had planned on. You take in your surroundings Hinata lays behind you and arm draped over your waist. Your heart speeds up as you understand how close he is to you, his face nuzzled close to your neck. You could feel his light snores. Oh my goodness! You screamed in your head IM IN A MANS BED! AND HES CUDDLING ME! You had never slept with anyone other than Atsumu let alone cuddled. So this was a lot to process. The hardest thing to understand was why it felt so nice in his arms. You quickly shook that thought out of you mind, you probably were just touched starved you rationalized. That’s why you lie to yourself when his grip on your waist tightens and he pulls you closer to his chest, saying it doesn’t make your heart flutter your just nervous.

“Good morning,” he smiles his voice gruff from sleep. “What time is it,” he questions seeing that you had already been awake for a moment.

“I’m not sure,” you admitt rubbing your head, a twinge of pain zinging threw you. You were slightly startled when he leaned over your body reaching for his phone on the nightstand. A heat creeped onto your cheeks at the proximity of your naked bodies only a sheet separating him from your sight. Although the tenderness between your legs showed that you two had been plenty close the prior night. Thinking of some the activities that transpired last night caused more embarrassment to consume you. You did things with this complete stranger that had taken you forever to work yourself up to with Tsumu. You body was sore from the multiple rounds the ginger had put you through, his stamina was insane, although you couldn’t complain he aimed to please. He laid back down in his spot next to you checking his phone.

“It’s about to be 9:30, he yawns rubbing the sleep from his warm chestnut eyes. You peek over at him getting a better look of his physique in the daylight. Your eyes widened because damn was he hot. He laid on his side propped up on one elbow as he stared at the screen of his device. Your eyes trailed down his exposed chest and abdomen his defined abs and pecks on full display for you. As you look farther down the blanket falls carelessly over his lap one leg peeking out. You raised an eyebrow at the little peek of a tan line you could see. You were broke from you trance as he asks you a question.

“You wanna go get some breakfast?,” your eyes widened “ I’d offer to cook but my fridge is still pretty empty and plus my cooking sucks I’d hate to make you suffer through that,” he chuckled. It was too much this is supposed to be just sex, and breakfast sounds to much like a date, too domestic. You sit up quickly holding the sheet to your chest.

“Ah no I can’t, i-I uhhh need to go,” you stammered looking around the room for your clothes.

“Hey, hey it’s fine,” he try’s to calm you seeing how anxious you are. “you stay right here I’ll go grab your clothes and let you get changed,” he said standing pulling a pair of boxers on. You nodded and steadied your breathing as he went to gather your outfit from last night.

“There you go that should be everything,” he laid the pile on the bed next to you, “uhh sorry about your underwear,” he smiled nervously reaching his hand up to rub the back of his neck. You looked down at the pair of torn lace panties siting at the top of the pile.

You returned an embarrassed smile, “it’s okay,” you assure him.

“Well I’ll be in the kitchen making some coffee, uh the restroom is right out the door to the left if you need it, uhh take your time,” he said excusing himself to give you some privacy.

You take a moment to breath before you start to dress yourself. It felt a little strange to not have on underwear but you guess it’s a small price to pay for the pleasure you felt last night. You won’t lie you definitely needed that stress relief. You quickly finished putting yourself together before exiting the room seeing Hinata standing there at the counter full of confidence for being in only boxers with coffee mug in hand you notice his smile that never seems to stray far from his face just as present.

“Would you like a cup,” he asked gesturing to the still half full pot of coffee.

You smile politely smile before shaking your head no. “Uh I need to get going I have class today, but ..” you trail off trying to figure out how to word what needs to come next. “umm look thank for the offer for breakfast and you know for last night,” he breaks into a big smirk at the mention of last night’s activities. “ but I’m not looking for a relationship so it’s probably best we leave it off here,” still smiling, yet not as big as before, he nods. You breath a sigh of relief.

“No worries I get it.”

“Well in that case, goodbye Shoyo, see ya,” you gave a small wave before exiting his apartment.

Hopefully, Hinata thinks to himself wanting to in deed see you again.

As much as you swore it was a one time occurrence you kept finding yourself back in Shoyo's bed. It was always the same you’d head to your bar, sit in your usual spot, order your usual drink and before long you’d see the orange haired man take his seat next to you. The first time you saw him after your lust filled night together was rather awkward. You were surprised when he sat to you and struck up a conversation like you hadn’t had a one night stand just last week. But the chatting was always so easy going you honestly didn’t mind having him around. Plus with him there less men were trying to chat you up. That second time you met him you told yourself you’d keep your pants on but a couple drinks and several laughs later you’d find yourself in his bed with the ginger in between your legs. You could never find it in yourself to be angry at yourself afterwards ,And while this started happening more frequently it was rare you’d stay the night like that first time. Usually getting an Uber home after getting dicked down. You couldn’t lie it was exhilarating being with Shoyo. Although if you were still pretty hammered Hinata would insist you stay not wanting something bad to happen on your way home. He’d offer you his bed while he opted for the couch. Eventually your routine changed you both swapped numbers and soon enough you weren’t meeting at the bar before heading to his place you weren’t needing the aid of alcohol to loosen you up before finding yourself in his bed... or his shower or really any surface in his apartment. You were both insatiable. In time you weren’t rushing away immediately after. Choosing to indulge him , you’ve come to realize that Hinata really enjoyed cuddling and aftercare. Always lighting up when you’d let him pamper you after a particularly rough or extensive session. He’d gladly spoil you after every round but you were still hesitant on to much intimacy. But occasionally you’d satisfy his want for cuddles. Although you’d deny it you rather enjoyed laying in his embrace feeling the rhythm of his heartbeat lull you to sleep. That was another change you no longer accepted him sleeping on the couch when you stayed overnight not wanting to be an inconvenience but also knowing he’d never allow you to take the couch you stopped him one night stating that you’d like him to stay. His eyes lit up as he pounced back into the bed.

But you stayed firm in the fact that you weren’t looking for a relationship and he assured you that he understood and was okay with the arrangement. And that’s how it’s been for the last two months. It had been seven months since your relationship with Atsumu had ended and you would have never guessed that in seven month you’d be in a casual friends with benefits relationship with Hinata. And that’s what you would call yourselves, Hinata was your friend and you his. You steadily got to know each other more and more about each other’s lives. You were a little concerned when you found out it wasn’t solely beach volleyball he played but you put your worries to the side volleyball was a big enough sport. Right? All in all you’d say slowly but surely you were getting happier. You found yourself thinking of you know who less, and some of the pain was starting to subside. Although that distrust was still there. You were still broken. As close as you and Sho got there was still part of you that couldn’t trust yet. How did you know he wouldn’t get bored of you just like the setter had. You weren’t ready to put yourself up to get hurt again. You wanted to trust Hinata he was an amazing guy so kind and understanding never pushing you past what you were comfortable with. He constantly looked out for you checking on you during some of your intense study sessions as you readied for finals always making sure you were taking care of yourself and not overworking. If you stayed over he’d always make sure to set an extra alarm so you wouldn’t be late for class or work. It meant so much to you how much he cared but you just couldn’t believe in it , you had believed that Atsumu cared about you yet that was a lie. Who’s to say this wouldn’t end up just the same. That’s why you wanted to just be friends, a small part still kept a window of hope open that one day it may be more but it wouldn’t be fair to Hinata to bring up any of this while filled with so much uncertainty.

NSFW below if you’d rather not read it skip the first three paragraphs.

You laid there breaths ragged as Hinata pinned you to the bed your legs pressed to your chest as he pounded into you relentlessly. This was his favorite position he loved being so close to you being able to see all of the pleasure in your face as he worked your body over, your tits bouncing to the rhythm he set.

“Sho,” you moaned your thoughts clouded as he built up yet another orgasm, this was your third one since you had stepped foot into his bedroom.

“What’s that baby?” He smirks as he see you struggle to form words. He loved making you like this. Eyes crossed as you gasped for air, craving the release he’d give you. “Fuck beautiful you know how much I love it when your so fucked out you can’t speak straight,” he laughed. You smile at him happy to provide him with what he likes. Hinata was getting lost in his lust. He freed one of your legs letting it rest against his shoulder as he grabbed his headboard for a better angle as he started drilling into you. A loud whimper ripped threw you. You felt so full as his cock reached so deep into you. You knew you were done for and Sho could tell as well , “ that’s it beautiful go ahead and cum for me, fuck your so gorgeous like this,” he groaned as he followed you into his own release spilling himself into the condom.

You laid there breathless. Hinata stood disposing of the used rubber, he exited the room going to grab a soft wet rag and a glass of water making sure to clean and rehydrate you before climbing back into bed and pulling you onto his chest. You both laid there for a while catching you breath, your head resting on his chest arm wrapped around him as you nuzzled further into him. You could feel his heartbeat start to stabilize. He trailed one his hand up and down your back in a very soothing pattern. It felt amazing honestly laying here with him was better than anything you had ever experienced with Tsumu.

You couldn’t see it but Hinata laid there with the goofiest grin as much as he loved sex with you this was his favorite part. Holding you in his arms so tight calming you while you are still so vulnerable. He wishes it could be like this all the time. That he could wrap his arms around you at anytime to hold you whenever he wants, to wake up to your beautiful bed head. He pushes those thoughts to the side as much as he wants you to be his he knows you aren’t ready and the last thing he’d want to do is rush you. You had told him a while back about your ex and everything he had put you threw and how betrayed you were by his actions. You never told him who your ex was and he didn’t ask it wasn’t his place you’d tell him if he needed to know and he knew that. He hated how much your ex had broken you but all he wanted to do was to do his best to fix the damage done. As much as he wanted to be able to call you his , he was happy to wait.

You were finally back to normal but you weren’t ready to leave his embrace. You decided to strike up a some casual pillow talk. You asked him about his day, how his morning run had went. He asked if you were excited about graduation seeing as it was only a month away. You told him about some annoying customers you had at the cafe this morning. You were smiling up at him laughing at the story story he was telling when his eyes lit up!

“That’s right I haven’t told you yet but I made it through try outs!” He boasted. “ I made the team!” You could see the happiness radiating off of him. For some reason you got an unsettling feeling in your gut. You put it to the side.

“THATS AMAZING SHO!” You yelled launching forward wrapping him in a tight hug. “What team?”

“I’ll be playing for the MSBY Black Jackels,” he grins. You feel everything slow down. The words are still processing in your mind. No it can’t be! Why? Why did it have to be his team! Out of all the teams in Japan why did Hinata have to go to the one who’s starting setter ruined you. Suddenly all of the thoughts and memories of Atsumu that had been hidden from you recently came crashing back to you. You wanted nothing to do with him. You couldn’t do it, for the same reason you had pushed away all of your friends and uprooted your life you couldn’t do this, you couldn’t let him back into your life you weren’t nearly ready for him to be in anyway connected to your life. All of the these overwhelming thoughts at were crashing over you were interrupted when Hinata asked his question. One you knew the answer to but couldn’t give to him.

“We have a game next week, would you come watch me play?” He smiled at you. You looked up at him saddness in your eyes. You quickly stood up gathering and putting on your clothes. Stammering for a response. Hinata sat up in alarm at your sudden actions he could sense something wasn’t right. He waits for you to speak seeing you try to form your words. Now fully dressed. You looked up at him his normally smiling face wasn’t there instead it was a face of worry.

“ I-I can’t Shoyo, I can’t go to your game,” you looked around grabbing your purse and phone, “I need to go Sho.” Hinata was now standing he was so confused everything was just fine what had gone wrong. Had he pushed you to far? Was inviting you to his game to intimate?

“Wait YN,” he said reaching for you he need to know you were okay.

“ I’m so so sorry Shoyo I just need to leave, I’m so sorry,” you said frantically looking into his eyes trying to truly express your sincerity in your apology. It wasn’t his fault. He was just excited about his dream and here you were ruining the moment. You always ruin everything you chastised yourself. With one last woeful look you were gone out the door. Hinata was left there in utter confusion. He let out a sigh before sitting back down on the bed letting out a groan of frustration.

You closed the door to your apartment with a thud finally allowing the tears you were keeping in to flow free. You kicked off your shoes before throwing yourself onto your bed. You let out a scream of frustration into your pillow as sobs over came you. The exhaustion of the day took you over and soon you were out like a light.

You woke up a couple hours later it was only around seven o’clock and your stomach was growling. This wasn’t going to be a good night. You look at your phone seeing several texts and a missed call from the ginger. You let out a groan, first you needed food and then you needed booze. You went to your bathroom taking a quick shower finally cleaning your post sex body. Before putting on a simple outfit. You slipped out your apartment door and out into the Tokyo night. You stopped at one of your favorite food stalls getting a small bowl of ramen to warm your tired soul. Normally you’d head to your Usual bar but you couldn’t there was the chance of running into Shoyo there and that’s not something you were ready for. You pulled out your phone finding a bar not to far out of your area, it had a sleeker vibe but maybe a little change would be good. So with that you head straight there. Its more crowded than what you were used to. It had a more lively crowd than you local bar. There were couples dancing and large groups of friends standing around and laughing. You head to the bar starting off with two shots straight back to back. Tonight wasn’t a night you wanted to go easy. You sat down at the bar nursing the drinking you had just ordered. You thought back to the incident with Hinata, he must hate you, you figured. He was always there for you yet one mention of you ex and you couldn’t even suck it up to be happy for him. You hated that. He deserved better than what you gave him. You were getting lost in your thoughts letting you mind go down a rabbit hole. Finally you looked up from your drink eyes scanning the bar. And that’s when it happens your eyes lock onto each other from the other side of the bar. It felt like all the air in your lungs suddenly evaporated. It felt unreal like you weren’t really seeing him standing there. He looked just as stunned like he had just seen a ghost. He snaps out of his first and when he starts to walk towards you it finally hits you that it’s really him. You finally breath and when you do his name leaves your lips.

“Suna,”

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Leap of Faith~ Part 10

Luke Patterson x Reggie’s sister!Reader

A/N: Thus wraps up the series! Thank you for all the support and love you’ve given me throughout this, you couldn’t have been a better audience! Please let me know what your thoughts and feel free to drop on by and read some of my other fics if you haven’t. I’m planning a Reggie series that hopefully will be good, ummmm yeah! I can’t say it will be cause i haven’t written yet, but we’ll see! Thank you again for everything and I hope y’all like the ending? Maybe? :)

WC: 5.5K

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“No music is worth making if we’re not making it with you two.” You closed your eyes, letting the feeling of being this close to Luke linger in your mind before you opened your eyes and locked on with his. “No regrets.” He whispered and you nodded, slowly pulling yourself from his grip. Luke grew confused, reaching forward to hold you again.

“Then I’m sorry for what I’m about to do.” Your eyes moved about the three boys and Julie before you were gone.

“Y/N!” Your brother yelled out at your absence, hoping by any chance you didn’t truly leave them before saying goodbye. “Y/N!”

“Reggie.” Alex mumbled out his name, holding his stomach in pain and Reggie’s already tear-filled eyes snapped to his and the tears started falling.

“Where’d she go?” His voice cracked. “She just left- Where’d she go?” No one provided him with an answer. “Luke?”

“I don’t know.” Luke’s eyes hadn’t moved from the very last spot he was able to look into yours, his own tears now springing free.

“Do you think she’s coming back?” Reggie asked despite knowing you wouldn’t. He couldn’t help but hope you would. He was dying and he needed to say goodbye to you. Earlier, he thought he could just leave and you’d never know the difference, but now, he needed to say goodbye to you.

Another round of jolts hit the three ghost boys.

“You’ve got to go!” Julie cried out. She thought she couldn’t handle seeing the boys in such pain with you by her side, but now that you were gone, she had no one to help convince them. The boys laid on the floor, none of them knowing if they were in too much pain to stand or just gave up trying. Julie fell to her knees next to them. “Please, just go to Caleb.”

“I never told Y/N how I felt.” Luke’s eyes were closed as he wiped away the tears quickly, his mind focused solely on you. No regrets, he told you. Well, now he had one. He had no clue where you were or what you were doing and he just wanted you here with him. He wanted to say goodbye. He wanted Reggie to say goodbye, and Alex. He wanted to know that with whatever happened to them, you knew the truth.

Luke’s thoughts of you were interrupted by a feeling inside him. It was much different than the jolts. Instead of bringing them pain and agony, this feeling was nothing but relief and for the first time since Luke was on stage, he felt like he could breathe again.

“What’s happening?” Reggie whispered as Luke opened his eyes, seeing himself as well as his friends glowing. Everyone was silent, tears still falling as they held their breaths.

“I feel stronger.” Luke rose off the floor, looking down at himself as Reggie and Alex stood up with him.

“I don’t feel as weak anymore.” Reggie glanced between his friends with a skip of relief in his voice.

“Me neither.” Alex smiled briefly. “Not that, you know, I was ever weak.” He earned a chuckle out of his friends.

Julie watched on in disbelief. One second ago, they were all dying, and now, out of nowhere, they were strong again. The boys felt the change in their wrists all at once as they held up their arms and pushed their sleeves out of the way, except for Luke. They let out small gasps as the stamp that has caused them so much pain and suffering emitted a light before slowly lifting from their skin into the air. With no information on what was happening, the four of them watched as the stamp fizzled into nothing, right along with Caleb’s control over them.

“What do you think that means?” Julie broke the silence before the boys laughed happily, looking amongst themselves before Julie.

“I think the band’s back.” Luke told her and out of pure happiness, Julie jumped into their arms. Her arms pulled Alex and Reggie into the hug as her body met Luke. The boys didn’t hesitate to hug back, not catching onto the plain and obvious fact that Julie was touching them.

Julie caught on, however. She pulled away, looking at how her hands rested on Reggie and Alex’s shoulders to bring them close. “How can I touch you?” She gasped out, testing to make sure she could feel them under her hands.

“I don’t know.”

“Maybe we could try that hug thing again?” Alex asked rather blushingly, a way to celebrate not being completely dead from the universe. The other three obliged and dove into another hug full of laughs and smiles until Luke pulled away slowly, breaking the other’s hold on him.

“Luke?” Julie asked after seeing his face fall. “What’s wrong?”

He looked at her before his eyes moved to Reggie. “‘I’m sorry for what I’m about to do.’” He said and the boy furrowed his brows, not catching onto what Luke was talking about. Luke let out an exasperated sigh. “It’s what Y/N said to me before she left.”

“You think my sister had something to do with this?” Luke stayed silent, but Reggie knew what he was thinking. “No. No, she wouldn’t do that.”

“Reggie-“

“No!” He denied again, turning around to face away from the boys and Julie. As he did so, his eyes landed on your jacket once again that you’d taken off in exchange for your new one, draped across the back of the couch. He shook his head and felt tears cloud his eyes again.

“Maybe it wasn’t her.” Alex moved to Reggie, putting a hand on his shoulder to comfort him. Reggie turned to him, silently asking him if he believed his words. “Maybe she just left because she couldn’t be here.”

Reggie nodded for a moment before shaking his head. “There’s no way Y/N just left.” Reggie whispered before falling into the chair next to him, feeling Luke’s hand land on his other shoulder. “What did she do?”

Alex looked to Luke, seeing him in a state of deep thinking much like Reggie and while Alex was desperately worried about you, he knew neither boy was alright after your absence and possible connection to them being free. He looked to Julie, hoping she could offer help but as he looked up, his eyes scanned past her to the entrance of the studio.

His heart skipped in his chest. “Willie?” He called out before dropping a hold on Reggie’s shoulder and running to the boy, their bodies colliding together only a second before their arms pulled the other as close as possible.

“You’re okay.” Willie whispered out in thanks as he buried his face in Alex’s shoulder, feeling Alex do the same to him. Willie was the first to pull away, his hand slipping into Alex’s perfectly as he pulled him to where Reggie, Luke, and Julie were. He looked to the girl who looked surprised to see him. “You must be Julie.”

“I am.” She nodded. “You must be Willie, and I’m not even going to question how I can see you right now.”

Willie gulped. “Well, I might have an answer to that.” The four of them furrowed their brows at him. Willie sat Alex down on the couch and sat next to him, Julie and Luke slowly falling into seats as well since Reggie was already sitting, still fretting over you. The skater took a deep breath. “Y/N showed up at the club.” He looked around the room, gaging their reactions as Alex’s grip on his hand tightened. “She made a deal with Caleb.”

Your friends listened to Willie explain everything, from you showing up and demanding to speak to Caleb, to him listening with his ear pressed against the door as you practically gave your soul to him in exchange for the four of them, and to your very first performance at the club, something Willie couldn’t stay for as he ghosted out to find the boys.

“She gave herself up for us?” Luke clarified; his eyes locked on the floor as he imagined you doing exactly what Willie described. He felt sick. You did the very last thing Luke could’ve wanted. He wanted you to be happy and stay with Julie and both of you think the boys crossed over, now Caleb had your soul and forced you to be a part of his band for eternity. “We’ve got to save her.”

“You can’t.” Willie reminded him. “Caleb’s too powerful.”

“There has to be something we can do.” Reggie agreed with Luke. There was no way he was going to leave you, his sister, in the hands of Caleb.

“There’s not.” Willie refused to lift his eyes to look at them. “I’m sorry.” Alex squeezed his hand, but Willie still couldn’t look at him.

“It’s not your fault. And it’s not Y/N’s either, she was just trying to save us.”

Luke’s leg was bouncing as he jumped up and started pacing, finding Alex’s habit very head-clearing. “We can’t just leave her there.” His voice was stressed as he talked through his pain, not the same physical pain from the jolt but a pain in his heart that hurt a hundred times more.

Heads turned at the sound of Ray shouting outside of the studio, probably sticking his head through the gate. He shouted Julie’s name before telling her they were waiting for her to celebrate. Julie’s eyes widened as she remembered she was supposed to celebrate with her family who was oblivious to the situation.

“I’ll be there in a minute!” She shouted back before looking at the boys. “I have to go.” Her stomach fell. “I can’t really tell him my friend who’s been dead for 25 years traded herself to a ghost club to save my band.” She was upset and everyone could see but it wasn’t as if Julie could do much. They didn’t know what she could see or do in the ghost club. She started to stand up before hesitating, putting a hand on Luke’s shoulder. “Get her back.” She told him and he nodded, reaching up to grab her hand briefly before she wiped away her tears, trying to fix herself up before she went inside.

When she was gone, the boys sat in silence for a few seconds before Reggie stood up and took a deep breath. “So, what’s the plan to save my sister?”

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You weren’t sure if the fatigue you faced as you sat backstage was from the 4 songs you just performed or from trying not to cry, but the longer you sat there, the harder it was to hold back your emotions. You were exhausted as you pulled yourself up, kicking off the heels Caleb put you into and finding a little corner you could collapse on the ground. The moment you hit the ground, you let your sobs rack through you.

You never got to say goodbye to your friends. You just left them there crying. You didn’t even know if Caleb really let them go or if… or if you were too late. You haven’t seen Willie since you asked him to bring you to Caleb and that was the only hope you had.

“Y/N!” You heard Caleb sing out your name, only making you suck in a breath, swiping under your face to see the makeup you were wearing hadn’t smeared. “Y/N!” He called again and you tried to stand up, ignoring the wobble of your legs under you. Caleb came around the corner and your eyes narrowed at the smile on his face. “There you are!”

“What, did I run away before another song could start? My bad.” You started walking away from him, your heels hitting your sides as you carried them, no longer wanting to wear them.

Caleb appeared in front of you with a smirk as you stopped walking and clenched your jaw. He offered a forced laugh and put his hand on your shoulder to turn you around. “I was going to show you to your dressing room.”

“How thoughtful of you.” you grumbled as he brought you to a backstage area that resembled the many dressing rooms you’ve been in before. This one had to be one of the nicer ones, you’ll admit that. You let your eyes scan over the room from the vanity in front of you to the line of costumes by the door to the plate of fries that sat on the table. You eyed the plate carefully, wondering why it was there before Caleb laughed quietly at you.

“Try some.” He gestured to the fries before picking one up and eating it himself with satisfaction. You’d forgotten the boys mentioned food here being something ghosts could eat.

“I don’t want any.” You turned your back to Caleb and the food as you walked to the mirror, finally seeing what you looked like after your little transformation.

“Well, I’ll leave you to get comfortable.” He said before heading to the door. He stopped in the door, meeting your gaze as you looked through the mirror. He didn’t say anything, but the smirk on his face was enough and when the door was closed, you allowed yourself to sit in the chair placed perfectly in front of the mirror.

Your eyes drifted across your appearance. The dress that clung to your body enough to look flattering and the makeup that made you look more like a showgirl than a teenager. You didn’t look like you. Pulling open the drawers under the mirror, you found makeup wipes and quickly wiped them across your face, trying your best to get all the makeup off until you could look in the mirror and see yourself. At that point, you needed to get out of this dress. You were going to try and find the most comfortable-looking costume to change, but your eyes landed on a certain outfit hung up that made you knot your brows.

You grabbed it slowly, pulling it out to see a tank top with the Sunset Curve logo printed on the front, a shirt you definitely didn’t own, along with a pair of ripped black jeans. What caused you to pause entirely was your leather jacket sitting on a hanger next to the outfit along with a note from Caleb.

For your comfort. Enjoy.

You scoffed. Sure, you were thankful for the change of clothes, but nothing could make you enjoy this place. Not performing, not a plate of fries or your private dressing room, and definitely not clothes. But it wasn’t like you could back out of the deal.

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“Let’s just go get her!” Luke held back his shout after the millionth hour of trying to figure out a plan.

The other 3 boys, as well as Julie, groaned at him. “We can’t!” Alex reminded him and Reggie who was nodding his head in agreement with Luke.

“And why not?”

“Because she got the stamp.” Willie mumbled, his head resting back on the couch as he stared up at the ceiling. “If you just take her, the stamp could still-“

“Kill her?” Reggie interrupted with worry and Willie gave him a sad look before nodding. “So, there’s really nothing we can do?” When no one answered him, Reggie knew it was pointless. You were gone. “Can I-“ He stopped himself, glancing at his friends, “Is there a way we could say goodbye? For real?” He asked Willie and the skater thought about, how he would go about it but ultimately, he nodded.

“I’ll see what I can do.”

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Willie was pacing back and forth in front of the Hollywood Ghost Club, trying to work out the plan in his head. He was just about to head inside before he was stopped by Caleb appearing in front of him.

“Caleb!” He gasped out, jumping backward as the man looked at him unimpressed.

“I believe I let you leave. Why could you possibly be back?” Caleb raised a brow at him and Willie gulped.

“Well, I-“ He cut himself off, the fear of working under Caleb returning and he wanted to poof away. Then he thought of Alex, of how Alex seemed so hopeful to at least see you again and know you were okay and he knew he couldn’t just give up because he was afraid. “It’s about Y/N.”

“What about her?”

“The band wants to say goodbye to her.” Willie held his head up, making Caleb smirk.

“Is that all?” Caleb asked and Willie’s face faltered for a second before he nodded. “No.” Willie’s face fell entirely as Caleb started to turn back to the door.

“5 minutes!” Willie pleaded and Caleb stopped moving. Willie thought he was going to keep walking until his back straightened and he looked over his shoulder at the boy.

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You were crashed on the couch, staring at the ceiling above you and imagining it was the stars, back to last night when you thought you were saying goodbye to your family, the last time you felt peace. A knock broke through your silence as you groaned and pushed yourself up only to open the door to see Caleb standing there.

“What do you want?” you let him into the room, moving to lean on the wall next to the door.

“I have a surprise.” Caleb smiled at you. “I hope this will help you realize we’re not enemies here.” His hands fell on your shoulders and the smile he offered you unnerved you. You had no clue what he was giving you and that scared you. “You have 5 minutes.” He stepped back, giving you another smile before waving his hand and snapping toward the middle of your room.

Your breath stopped as Reggie, and Alex all appeared out of nowhere. The sound of the door closing as Caleb stepped out knocked you from your frozen stance as you launched yourself into Reggie’s hold.

Tears were already starting down your face as he cradled your head against him, his arms wrapped around you so tight that you were sure you weren’t breathing, but it was fine because technically you were already dead.

“You’re here.” You whispered to him, squeezing him tight to reassure yourself that your brother and the others were really here. “You’re all here.”

“Did you think we were just going to let you leave without saying goodbye?” Alex asked, holding back his cries. You pulled your head up, looking over to him and smiling as your tears fell.

“Where’s Julie?” You knew the answer as soon as you asked it and you shook your head to tell them so. Caleb couldn’t bring Julie in here because she, thankfully, wasn’t a ghost. “I’m really sorry. For everything.” You told them, glancing between Reggie and Alex. You couldn’t bring yourself to look at Luke, if you did, you didn’t know what you would say. “I couldn’t let you guys die.”

“So, you gave yourself up to Caleb?” Reggie asked as he pulled back, wiping away the tears on your face and not caring about the ones on his own. You looked into his eyes, feeling your heart sink as you nod.

“I couldn’t let you guys die.” You repeated before Reggie pulled you into his arms again. When he was done, you moved to Alex, seeing him fight the waterworks and he’s no doubt struggling. You spared him, slipping into his hug as he held you quickly, his face buried against your shoulder and you knew he was trying to wipe his eyes behind your back.

You were starting to lose track of the time as you realized you were almost through your time and you couldn’t help the cry that escaped as you looked at the clock. Now it was time for the hardest goodbye, the only person you never got to say everything you’ve wanted to.

Luke stood there as you said goodbye to everyone except him, as you looked at everyone except him, as you spoke to everyone except him and he didn’t know how he held himself together for that long. You were right there in his arms reach and Luke didn’t know what to do or to say.

Your eyes met and the tears Luke had let fall free felt heavy on his cheeks as you stepped closer. Your eyes flickered down to his hands enough for him to bring his to yours. When you felt his touch against your hand, your fingers fell into place between his and Luke and you stepped even closer, the room falling absolute silent. You just stared at each other, no words or goodbyes being said until you threw your arms around his neck and his went around your waist to hold each other close.

You thought you were going to break in your brother’s hold but it was nothing compared to the way you sobbed into Luke’s shoulder, feeling him do the same. It was as if his touch opened the floodgates and there was no way you could close them.

“I’m sorry.” Luke managed to choke out as he buried his face in your shoulder, his eyes closing but doing nothing to stop the tears that slipped past.

“Why are you sorry? You did nothing wrong.” You pulled away to look in his eyes, your hand cupping his cheek softly, your fingers dancing against his skin as Luke shook his head.

“I should have told you something a long time ago.” Your head tilted as you tried to figure out the meaning behind what he was saying, but you didn’t know how much longer you could hold your secrets in for every second the clock ticked behind you, you felt your mind going crazy.

“I have something I need to tell you, too.” You told him and Luke nodded, tightening his grip on your hand.

“C-Can I go first?” He stammered and you gulped before nodding, glancing at the clock before meeting his eyes. When you did, you recognized the look in his eyes. It was the same one you wore when you looked at him.

Luke didn’t say anything. His mouth hung slightly open, but he didn’t know how to express the feelings he held for you. He wanted to listen to Alex and Reggie’s advice and just blurt out ‘I love you’, but it didn’t feel like enough. So, he thought and he remembered a time he truly knew he was in love with you, when the two of you were connected beyond anything he had felt with anyone.

Step into my world, Bittersweet love story ‘bout a girl,

Your breath hitched as Luke started singing, the same song you sang together just days ago. You were so lost in each other that you forgot the rest of the world existed. It was just you two.

Shook me to the core, Voice like an angel, I've never heard before,

Your hand threaded with his again as you stepped back, slowly falling into the trance of Luke and you once again. Reggie, Alex, Caleb, the ghost club; everything faded away until it was just you two staring into each other’s eyes and never wanting to look away.

Here in front of me, Shining so much brighter than I have ever seen,

When you started singing, your feelings put into the song, Luke knew Reggie was right. Your feelings were the same as his and Luke waited all this time for nothing, he could have told you the truth a long time ago. But now is better than never. With his one hand still holding yours and his other wrapped around your waist, Luke let his forehead fall against yours.

Life can be so mean, But when he goes, I know he doesn't leave,

Your voice cracked as Luke and you started to sing together and you barely got a few words into the next verse before you stopped and cried out and said what you’ve wanted to say for years.

“I’m in love with you.”

For a moment in the room, amongst the four heartbroken teenage ghosts, it was as if time froze. Your eyes were closed and your head dipped in relief. Had your eyes been opened, you would’ve seen Luke’s eyes light up and his lips pull into the soft smile you’ve fallen in love with. Instead, you only heard him whisper back, “I’m in love with you, too” before his lips hit yours.

The kiss shared between the two of you was effortless and it was simple. You didn’t have to think with him. Luke’s grip on you never faltered, pulling you close to him as he let go of your hand to cup the bottom of your jaw toward the back of your neck, tugging you closer to him as his fingers gently tangled in your hair. You lost yourself in the feeling, kissing Luke back with everything you had in you.

You didn’t want to pull away, you wanted to stay here in this bliss forever, but the feeling in your wrist like a dull pain that was more an annoyance wasn’t going away. So, you pulled away.

Luke and you locked eyes with matching smiles, both heartbeats beating fast in your chests until you heard either Alex or Reggie gasp, you weren’t sure which. “Y/N.” Reggie said before he was at your side, scaring you with his speed.

“What? What’s wrong?” You asked as he grabbed the wrist that caused your distraction as your eyes doubled. The stamp was slowly rising off you, shining as it grew in the air, and just like when you watched Caleb free the boys, it disintegrated.

You looked up to your brother first, your wrist still in his hand as he slowly smiled and you couldn’t help the laugh of relief that escaped from your smile. Then you looked to Alex, who stood with a dropped jaw and eyes locked on your wrist but you could see his breathing skip as he understood what this meant. Finally, you turned to Luke. His eyes were glued to the side of your face since the stamp was gone. He didn’t know how to feel right now. You’re safe. You’re free. You’re in love with him.

You pulled your wrist from your brother and jumped in Luke’s arms, your legs going around his waist as he spun you around. When your feet hit the ground again, you moved your face in front of his as he smiled. “I love you.” he repeated, wanting you to know he didn’t just say it because he thought he’d never see you again. He said it because he truly meant it.

“I love you too.” You whispered, pushing your hand through his hair. You were leaning in about to kiss him before Alex cleared his throat, causing the three of you to look at him.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to disrupt this beautiful moment you’ve got going on, but maybe this is something you can continue back home? Not in the ghost club that could trap us forever?”

Alex was right and the four of you took each other’s hands and disappeared, seconds before Caleb rushed back in, well aware of the fact that somehow, you’ve lost your stamp.

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You’ve never been more thankful to be back in Julie’s studio before in your life. Relief was written across everyone’s faces and you leaned into Luke’s side and his arm went around your shoulder as he pressed a kiss onto your temple. With a look up at him and a warm smile on your face, you quickly finished that kiss Alex interrupted before it could start.

You both giggled, cheeks flaring as you’ve come to term that things are going to be different from now on, but a good different, nonetheless. Reggie pulled you away from Luke, getting a hug that wasn’t sad and you reciprocated right away, your brother’s hugs always making you feel at home.

“I’m so glad you’re alright.” He said when you separated and you nodded frantically.

“I’m so glad we’re all alright. I mean, I can’t imagine how awful this night could’ve been if it had gone any other way.” You looked around, seeing the three boys nodding their heads in agreement before you paused. “Where’s Julie?”

None of them knew, but you had a small guess on where’d she’d be. You teleported to her room, standing at the foot of the bed as you looked at the crying younger girl on the bed, her head buried in the pillows and your heart ached for her. “You cryin’ over me, Jules?”

Her head snapped around so fast you were certain she had whiplash. She didn’t acknowledge any pain of the action before she leaped out of the bed and into a hug with you. You laughed out, happy to see the tears had stopped as you hugged her back. “You’re okay!” She cried out and you squeezed her before you tensed.

“Wait, a minute, how can I-“

“Freaky, right?” Julie interrupted you and your eyes widened. “It happened with the boys earlier too, after you had…” She trailed off, her eyes glancing down to your wrist before flickering back up to your eyes.

You smiled at her, bringing a hand up to cup her cheek, and shook your head. “It’s not there. I’m free.”

“No one made a deal this time, right?”

You laughed again and shook your head, unable to keep the smile on your face at bay. “No. No, this time it was something else.” You thought about Luke and your kiss, how it erased the stamp and Julie cocked her head, wanting to know what was going through yours. “I’ll tell you later. Um, first I have to apologize.”

Her face softened and her hand fell on top of yours still pressed against her cheek. “You don’t have to do that, Y/N. You did what you thought was best was the boys. Just like you always do.”

“I shouldn’t have left you like that. I shouldn’t have left any of you like that.”

“Y/N.” Julie cut you off, knowing you were going to spiral in apologies. “Thank you for not leaving me.” You gave her a nod before another hug, basking in the first time you were able to touch and hug your friend. “Now come on,” she pulled back, moving to grab some tissues to wipe her tears as well as yours. “I’m sure the boys are waiting for you in the studio.” Julie stuck her elbow out and you quickly locked it with yours before the two of you skipped quickly out of the house and into the studio. Willie was there again and, in your presence, he smiled and stepped forward.

“Thank you.” He said and it was more than enough for you as you glanced down to his hand interlocked with Alex’s and you couldn’t help but smirk.

“Don’t mention it, Willie.” You told him, giving him a fist bump that Willie happily returned. Luke surprised you as he snuck up behind you, pulling your back against his chest and his arms went around your waist.

You chuckled, turning to look over your shoulder and you kissed him, only to pull away and see a giddy Julie trying to hide her surprise. You had a little to catch her up with.

“Okay! Okay!” You shouted, putting your hands in the air as everyone paid attention to you. “I know tonight has been… less than ideal-“

“That’s one way to put it.” Your brother interrupted you and you lightheartedly glared at him.

“I know tonight has been less than ideal, but I do believe we had a damn good performance at The Orpheum and I, for one, would like to celebrate that.” There were cheers from your friends as you migrated to the seats. Luke, Reggie and you took the couch with you in the middle and leaning back against Luke and your legs resting on your brother’s lap. Luke’s arms were wrapped around you comfortably and as your band celebrated, the two of you snuck kisses, which when you were sometimes caught by your brother, earned you both remarks about him not wanting to see his sister and best friend making out, but Luke and you only responded with more kisses. Willie and Alex were sitting on the floor close enough that when one moved, the other did as well. Julie was perched on the chair next to Luke, right where you could reach out and grab her leg or hand to get her attention, and with the levels of laughs and conversations in the room, it was something you had to do quite a bit.

You all stayed there for hours, even Julie who was the only one who needed sleep. Soon though, she was slumped in the chair and your conversation was taken down in volume to allow her the sleep she needed and deserved.

You didn’t know what awaited you if you ever crossed over, but you could imagine if it brought you peace and happiness then it would feel like this moment with your family. Life, and death, was a leap of faith, but for them, you’d jump a thousand times.

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sunarintoes · 3 years

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Street racer!bf/gf headcanons

Note: this is set in the world of adkor - an ongoing series featuring the haikyuu characters as street racers! However you don’t actually have to read it to understand these headcanons (they’re just regular bf hcs with a bit of spice)

Includes: the main trio of love interests - Oikawa, Iwaizumi and Kiyoko

✗ As a bf he would honestly love for you to attend his races but would honestly be really scared for you. Like he wouldn't want you to be at the bleachers or a checkpoint alone because he knows he’s in a sketchy crowd and wants to prioritise your safety!

✗ So during the races where he’s not with you, you chill in Seijoh’s clubroom with the managers and everyone else who’s not racing or working. There you watch the race live on the large flatscreen that’s been divided into 12 sections - each broadcasting a different checkpoint or area.

✗ OMG!!! He would definitely want to see you try on his uniform - wear his helmet or his jacket and he would literally melt for you <3333 Iwa my beloved. Not that he’d ever really admit that he liked it, but you’d know by the way his face heats up and he becomes a stuttering mess.

✗ Speaking of wearing his uniform- omg he would absolutely die for you to wear a jacket or a hoodie of his to the races!! And honestly why wouldn't you? It smells good, it's comfy and if we’re being completely honest… you look hot in it!

✗ Iwa is not the irresponsible type (*cough* Oikawa *cough*) so he would not! Absolutely never allow you to sit in the passenger seat while he drives in a race - even if you are a racer yourself.

✗ Howeverrrr, if it’s just a chill day with the two of you, he’ll take you for a spin in his car - speed down the streets of Miyagi at obscure hours of the night or perhaps the break of dawn.

✗ Dates are so cute and fun with him! He’ll drive you to cool places that are probably abandoned or restricted/off limits and then he’ll treat you to a cute picnic.

✗ Every so often he posts pics of you with sappy captions on instagram. His instagram is mainly just car stuff though lol :P

✗ Tries to keep you away from Oiks but you end up becoming besties with him <3, he’ll never admit it but he loves that the two people he cherishes most are close with each other

✗ Following adkor plot, if Yn ends up with Iwa he’ll likely be a bit jealous if they ever interact with Oikawa (because Oiks also fancies Yn for those who don't know). This may cause a strain on his relationship with Oikawa but also Oiks’ relationship with you/Yn. Eventually he’ll get over himself and become less insecure but it will take time.

✗ He’s also jealous of Kiyoko, she’s so pretty and kind and loving and caring and best of all? She’s safe. Kiyoko does not endanger her life and she rarely yells and she’s just so peaceful. He just can't understand how he is so polar opposite to your ex and it makes him insecure - he’ll most likely be cold and distant towards her to deal with himself.

✗ You've definitely made out in the backseat of his car :)

✗ Oh! Also he lets you choose his air freshener. Calls it his “good luck charm.”

✗ How cute <3

✗ This salty class A bitch

✗ My misunderstood and emotionally vulnerable baby 🥺

✗ Ok I literally love Oiks he is so fun to write

✗ Oh yeah you both definitely got off on the wrong hand (like Yn!)

✗ Y’all hated each other and were so fkn spiteful but it’s okay now

✗ You’re each other’s emotional support buddy. A shoulder to cry on. He needs it and you do too (i mean, why else would you be here?)

✗ He has definitely taken you on a race before - you sat in the passenger side and it's all g don't worry bb you were geared up to the max - helmet and all.

✗ Homie gets so jealous

✗ Of everyone might I add. He gets both more jealous with Iwa and less jealous. It's hard to explain but he trusts Iwa with his whole heart and knows that he’ll never pull anything but at the same time he just can’t help that he’s insecure. He really hates it, he hates that horrible bubbling feeling of green fire that burns his throat like venom and he hates that it yanks at his heart strings and controls him as if he were a marionette but he just can’t help himself from suffering from it. Thats why he started going to therapy

✗ When you notice that he’s jealous - and trust me, you will, all you have to do is delicately lace his fingers with yours and wrap your other arm around his; maybe place a light kiss on it - preferably his shoulder if you can reach. This simple action is enough to calm him down and remind him that your love belongs to him - nobody else.

✗ Dates are wild and passionate. He zooms along the streets of Miyagi with a grin so large and so carefree you can't help but fall in love all over again with how at peace and genuine he’s being. He has one hand on the steering wheel and the other around you, occasionally he looks over to wink but then he turns back and and lets the wind from his open window run uncontrollably through his already unruly hair. This, ladies, gentlemen and esteemed guests, is a sight so beautiful and genuine that it would be burned into your irises as a core memory if you will - something unforgettable.

✗ Y’all have fucked in his car without a doubt 😳 sorry bb I don't make the rules; he does.

✗ Oh and, wear his jacket. He fucking loves to watch you parade around in something he owns :)

✗ Kiyo my beloved <3

✗ She’s so soft for you

✗ Honestly she’s surprised that you’re back with her, she thought that she’d never get a second chance and that you had already moved on from her but turns out she’s wrong as you're currently resting your head on her lap (cute)

✗ When everyone’s racing you two sit together in the Karasuno team room and cuddle while you watch the race go down on the large flatscreen.

✗ You definitely eat snacks while you watch because duh, who wouldn't? The race makes you so nervous that you just have to sink your teeth into something to prevent your nerves from short circuiting.

✗ She holds your hand like she’s gripping onto you for dear life while you watch the races - she says it's because she’s nervous, which is true, but she’s also scared that you’ll leave her so she wants to hold you tight to prevent that from happening.

✗ Dates are so cute, you go to small cafes and she does her manager stuff while you stress and rip your hair off over the complexities of building an environmentally friendly car. Honestly the whole time she sneaks glances at you and blushes at how cute you are when you’re stressed out. She won't admit it though.

✗ PLEASE PLEASE reassure her that you don't feel any negative emotions towards her and that you love her. She needs it.

✗ Okay if we’re not following adkor’s plot and you're a street racer yourself then she is going to be so worried for you! She will constantly check up on you before your race and hold you in a hug so tight you swear you’re going to die from lack of oxygen; though she only does this behind your team’s garage/locker room/club room because she gags at PDA

✗ Definitely gives you the same type of hug after you finish the race.

✗ I think she would melt if you wore some of her clothes or even an accessory.

✗ Omg please drape her scarf over her and say “don't want you getting a cold now- or maybe i do because then id get to snuggly the hell out of you ;)”

✗ Kiyoko best girl and bisexual icon. Date her for warmth and happiness <3

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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 3 years

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How about B, I, L, U, V for our big boi Theo? :3c

Sure thing, bub!! Theo hcs coming right up! 💙💙💙💙

I really hope you like them!!!! :3c

Fluff ABCs Template here for requests

Body -- What is his favorite part of her body?

Do y’all have any idea how hard it is for me to answer this letter without making this horny hours.

ANYWAY losing my mind because my instinct was to respond with “her tears.” And then my brain was like. Minnie that’s not a part of the body…that’s not how any of this works…But let’s pretend for a moment like I am valid, shall we?

No cap, I die on this hill. And my answer comes in two parts. The first reason tears destroy him like nothing else is because of how much she feels for the van Gogh brothers tbh. I think Theodorus is very accustomed to their situation being seen through a lens of indifference, a kind of “oh well, what can be done ¯\_(ツ)_/¯” especially. While he may argue that he’s used to it, he’s full of shit. It hurts every time–even more so because people are being dismissive about the person he loves most in the world (other than her, of course.) He’ll be silent for the most part, usually pretty stoic if those things come up, but the way her eyes glisten with tears just undoes him. He feels stupid to be so affected, but it’s something else entirely when somebody actually gives a damn. Somehow it's harder to keep his composure under that gaze...

The second reason is more about teasing. He can’t resist getting a reaction out of her sometimes, or seeing her brought to frustrated tears. That lovely blush overtaking the tips of her ears and face, to say nothing if it happens during nsfw hours. They make her face shine, a visible manifestation of all the emotion he tries so hard to deny–to run from–that it just moves him like nothing else. Where he can't find words or proper expression, she always does. Leonardo said once that a single glance at that man and you can tell he’s in love with art. And he was right, save that that kind of passion can be found in him again in moments like this. Alone, driving her to madness and pleasure.

It’s the part of him that belongs to her, and her alone.

Injury -- How would he act if she got hurt?

Lmao call Vincent instead of Theo if you actually want anything productive to be done about it.

I’m KIDDING mostly but to be honest I think he has a hard time hiding his distress when MC is hurt. If it’s something small he’ll try to play it off as mild irritation, muttering about oblivious hondjes and how she needs to be more careful. If it’s something like a bruise or a bandaged cut–maybe she bumped into something–he’ll just clumsily try to pat the pain away. Don’t try to hide it from him either because he has eyes like a hawk and will expose you. He’ll be a dumdum but it’s really sweet because he’ll be so gentle over such a tiny wound (it always amuses Dazai so much) that all the men will have to kind of hold back laughter. They don’t mean to mock the guy but he takes it so seriously it’s a little bit funny. Vincent is so unironically proud of him for being sensitive though and it’s enough to make a girl cry TwT

If it’s a very serious injury I am sorry but you are getting nothing but probably a panic attack from him. He doesn’t really do well with even the slightest suggestion of losing a loved one, so if she breaks a bone or experiences excessive bleeding–whatever the risk may be to her life–he is fighting to stay in control of his body’s response. He’s trying so hard to be strong for her, but he can hardly breathe and his vision is a little fuzzy and did they say she would be unconscious for a few days? Needless to say he’s a bit of a mess. Ideally, Vincent would do his best to help the guy stabilize while he waits for things to improve, but it’s touch and go for a bit there.

When she wakes up, he needs as much gentleness as she does in many respects. The stress attacks and constant distress have just resulted in so much tension and exhaustion, he doesn’t even have the energy for any verbal swipes at anyone. (I was going to say “he’s just a big puppy” but the irony hit me so hard I literally couldn’t finish typing the sentence). He just really needs lots of kisses and hand holds and promises she isn’t going anywhere, completely unprompted. Not to be emo (WAKE ME UP) but he really needs to be brought back to life slowly, in a way. He’ll get better with some time and assurance that she’s going to make it, but oTL hondje please, he can only take so many heart attacks in one lifetime.

Love -- How does he show her he loves her?

He does not.

I’m KIDDING but I stand by the fact that he’s more of a show than tell type of guy. He has a really, really hard time verbalizing everything that he feels, so I think the person he loves would ideally have to keep that in mind. He’s lowkey but very classy, imo. Gets surprise flowers every once in a while, buys groceries after work all the time if she needs things at home, always reliable with taking care of their finances (and in general). I feel like the thing about Theodorus is that he’s the quiet romantic; he won’t smooth talk or endlessly go on about love, but when she needs him? He’s there. Come hell or high water. When things are hard, when things feel impossible, when life just feels like one slap in the face after another–he’s warm and there and steady, leading her by the hand.

He's very proactive about just about anything other than expressing his feelings directly, so write that down--

Upset --How does he act when she's upset?

LMFAO catch him crashing at Vincent’s place tonight, no thanks murderous hondje ain’t it for me, sorry sweaty.

All jokes aside, I think he’s the type of guy who just has no idea how to handle it. I mean she’s the one that’s usually pretty stable emotionally, so when she isn’t it tends to be a big deal–the cause of her foul mood has got to be sizable. While he may be stymied upfront, will most likely go after the root cause of her distress and kill it with a hammer when her back is turned. Nobody upsets his hondje (unless it’s him) and gets away with it. The man has two modes: kill and more kill, and so he uses the second one as necessary in these situations.

That being said, it doesn't mean he's completely bereft of sensitivity. If it's a more sorrowful kind of upset, he'll try to make time for a lot of cuddling and pampering. Get her things she likes to eat/drink, rub her back gently, put on a movie she likes (even if it's boring to him). He hopes that some care and a few little distractions will be enough to calm her soon. He loves his hondje best when she's smiling, after all ùwú

Vaunt -- What is he proud of? Does he like to show her off?

Oh my goddddddd. Bih. If this man suffers from a cardinal sin, it’s pride I swear. Even if he’s Mr. Bad Mood Stink Face he will literally never say a bad word about her. There are so many people convinced he’s deadass got some kind of disorder because he has scary face, but also looks so delighted at the same time it's terrifying. Gets all puffed up about what a hard worker she is, how talented, how he couldn’t have done any of this without her. Even when he’s roaring drunk, now he just rambles on and cries about how much he loves her and Vincent and it’s beyond hilarious. Would throw down for her, would die for her, would steal a clown’s balloon for her–you name it.

She can do absolutely no wrong, so write that down.

Has a love hate relationship with showing her off (in the more blatant way) though because. Homewrecking. Does she look lovely in that dress? Undoubtedly so. If he sees one more gross lustful/covetous gaze directed at her though, he’s just gonna leave with her in tow. (He would throw hands but she doesn't like that.) Y’all know the whole Lord of The Rings’ “My p r e c i o u s” thing? That’s his vibe LMFAO. Depending on his mood he will either be like "hell yeah that's my wife you jealous bih, I'm the luckiest guy ever ik now buzz off" or he will just get more and more lowkey steamed until they leave.

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