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iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia · 11 months

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if the mc had issues with disassociation how would the m6 help keep them grounded?

The Arcana HCs: M6 helping MC with disassociation

~ ah, the perfect opportunity for some fluffy headcanons. learning to live inside your own body full-time can be tricky and overwhelming, so have some comfort my dears! - brainrot ~

Julian

He's the type of person to completely fixate on something to the point of tuning everything else out, so he just assumes you're zoning out too at first

Until he spends more time with you and starts to realize that there's more going on

He takes a doctor's approach, figuring out different ways to measure how you're doing and help you ground

One of the ways he tests how disassociated you are is telling you an extravagant story and watching how you react. How long does it take for you to either play into or call him on his BS?

Cycles through different approaches recommended in medical research to find what works best to ground you

He's very good at guiding you through one minute meditations, gently placing a cool hand over your eyes and telling you to focus on your face, your jaw, your shoulders, etc

If he notices you're completely out of it in public, he'll make your excuses for you and guide you somewhere more private to check in on you

Asra

Safe touch. So much touch

They're pretty clued in to you, but Faust picks up on your state faster than you do most of the time. She'll alert Asra if they haven't noticed yet, sliding across your shoulders for a squeeze

He takes a very subtle approach to grounding you unless you're both alone

It'll mostly be pushing at your heart's bond, helping you find and hold onto a mental tether for your body while they hold your hand

If you're home or alone, he'll use some simple spells to make your surroundings more engaging, maybe some colorful whorls to watch or a glowing light to hold

They also like using their own body to engage you, to the extent that you're comfortable with it. They'll hold you to their heartbeat and give you their hands to squeeze and play with

They love zoning out too, so if you're in a good mental space they'll pull you into a pillow pile and spend the afternoon staring at the ceiling with you

Nadia

Being as perceptive as she is, she gets her own understanding of what's going on before you describe it to her

The way she sees it, it's like your mind kicks itself into a detached, dreamlike state while your body is still awake

Which saddens her, because she thinks your body is fantastic and you deserve to enjoy your life without anything in the way

If it's in public, she'll keep a sharp eye on you and run her hand along your arm, waiting for a good moment to ground you without pulling too much attention to you

In more private settings, she's much freer

She'll call attention to different parts of your body, the way she's holding your hands, the carpet under your feet, the perfumed oils she's holding under your nose

She does struggle a bit with feeling rejected at first, when she's talking to you and she watches the way your eyes grow distant

But she understands where you're coming from, and is always ready to guide you back to her where you belong

Muriel

He noticed you regularly dissociating right off the bat. It takes one to know one

Though he didn't really think to try helping you ground yourself until he saw Inanna responding the same way she does for him

He immediately recognized her behavioral patterns, the way she kept poking her cold, wet nose into your hands and face and leaning all of her warm, furry weight into you

If it's nice out, he'll take you on a walk through the woods and hand you a few light, sensory things to hold for him, like a feather or patch of moss or smooth rock

If it's better to stay in he'll invite you to make something with him, maybe basket weaving or wrapping a new grip on one of his tools

Won't let you carve or do anything involving a knife, just to be safe

Very good at reading whether being out of touch is actually a safe thing for you right now, and follows through accordingly

If you're in public then he'll take your hand and leave with you (he didn't really want to be there either)

Portia

She's the quickest to notice when you're not listening anymore, though at first she assumed it was because she wasn't interesting enough

Once she knows what's going on, she's always prepared and knows exactly what to do to make things easier for you to ground yourself

As observant as she is, she's not very confident in her abilities to actually ground you, but she'll be present and encouraging the whole time

If you're in public, she'll cover for you until she can get you somewhere safer and quieter

She'll make you feel cozy and safe - fuzzy blankets, a hot or cold drink depending on the weather, a music box to listen to, whatever stimulates your senses without being overwhelming

Pepi is so helpful. She'll climb on your lap, knead whatever she can reach, and purr as loudly as she can

Lots of hugs and hand holding

Lucio

He assumes it's perfectly normal

Shell shock, that's what all the medics on the field called it. If you want to spend the day staring at the wall, he'll just entertain himself until you're back to reality

When you apologize for being out of it all day he's surprised, and even more so when you tell him it's not an ideal thing to do

Very ready to help you ground yourself, but he's still working on his patience and shaking your shoulders while he tells you "alright, it's safe, you can come back now" doesn't work that well

Until Mercedes and Melchior get involved. They'll lick your face, push their furry bodies against you, and yip and whine until you're feeling better

Since they do so well, Lucio figures he can leave you in their capable paws and focus on keeping you safe instead

You two will eventually discover that sparring is a very effective method of grounding, and you'll end up doing that together every afternoon

#ask arcana brainrot #the arcana #the arcana headcanons #the arcana hc #asra the arcana #julian the arcana #nadia the arcana #muriel the arcana #portia the arcana #lucio the arcana #the arcana game #the arcana fluff #asra alnazar #julian devorak #nadia satrinava #muriel of the kokhuri #portia devorak #lucio morgasson

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eccentricceltfromaz2 · 8 months

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I've been saying this for years. The first time I grew my own garden it was a 10'x20' space in a community garden funded by the city it was in, it was completely across town from where I lived, I had to travel 30 minutes to get there. I paid the city $125 a year, for two years to garden there. But I tell you what, that garden filled my freezer completely every year and that doesn't include the fresh food we ate during those years. I ate a lot of it and gave a ton away, to friends and family. I also started a small side hustle from the refrigerator pickles I was making, that rivaled the claussen pickles at the store. I had cucumbers coming out of my ears. That 10'x20' space gave more cucumbers, tomatoes, chives, squash, beans, luffas, chile peppers, bell peppers, kitchen herbs, greens, and about 18 watermelons that I knew what to do with. Just that little space fed alot of families and pickle junkies for quite a while. I still have luffas from that time, I used for a dish sponge/ scour. One tiny little piece will last for over a year to scour dishes. The lessons I learned from those years were that scarcity is a bs lie that rich and famous people tell because they are detached from reality. Either they really believe it or they are lying to you. And that land is where wealth is made. That little spot of dirt made me a killing in pickles and saved me money from buying groceries at the stores. There is an abundance of resources that these lunatics believe should only belongs to them to sell to us at a marked up price.

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bonefall · 11 months

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Do you have any plans for Moth Flight in your au? I always felt like she had a lot of potential, but her super edition…. Oh it’s bad. God forbid a disabled, young, single mom try to raise children and have a job at the same time. Too bad there was no one to help her when things got stressful, like you know, her clanmates… No women should have a job and children at the same time ever again.

If it wasn’t obvious that was sarcasm, Moth Flight’s story has awful implications. But! In BB Clerics Not being allowed to have kits wasn’t a law until the Ripple Era, it used to just be a personal vow and was a bit taboo. So I’m interested in of Moth Flight still had something to do with the creation of the vow itself? And just in general if you have any plans to fix her story or if you’re just throwing the whole thing out. (Which would be completely understandable.) I just think there IS potential there in her story, especially in BB where the Clerics Vow is actually ACKNOWLEDGED to not make sense and be bad. It could be interesting for the idea to rise from such a hyper specific, awful situation. The Clans having altered her story so much over the years that it went from the truth, “the first Cleric was a young, single mother of four, trying to raise her children while morning her husband and convincing the other Clans that they needed Clerics. The odds were against her.” To the perfect, Cleric’s Vow supporting lie, “the first Cleric had kits. She was unable to balance raising them and caring for her Clanmates. She taught the Clans a valuable lesson, a Clerics first and only duty should be healing and worshiping StarClan. Kits only get in the way of that duty.”

Idk, I just feel like there’s still an interesting story to tell somewhere through all of Moth Flight’s super edition’s bs. In the hands of a better writer who doesn’t ACTUALLY believe that Moth Flight’s genuinely tragic life means that all women who have jobs can never have children or get married again.

There's HUUGE overhauls here. I spoke about it eons ago during the last wave where I was discussing my changes to BB!DOTC, but let me give you the fragments thus far.

It's VERY different. Get ready for Moth Flight to be a completely different character.

MOTH FLIGHT'S VOW

She is no longer the child of Wind Runner. In fact...

She's the daughter of Wind Runner's shitty ex, Branch

Moth's other dad is Cloud Flight (prev. Cloud Spots). Since the Great Battle, Cloud has been wandering between the 5 groups as a sort of traveling doctor. It's a lot of work, there's only him and Dapple and an overwhelming amount of cats who need his skilled paws

So Moth Flight has always been a bit detached from people. I want her to actually have ADHD this time around, instead of it vanishing when it isn't convenient.

She kind of has Military Base Kid energy, hopping place to place with unresolved mental health issues. She probably bites ppl because I love weird girls

"papas can i bring my leeches" "honey no"

Cloud really wanted to train her to be a Medic the way he is, but... she has to learn how to do it her own way.

Branch doesn't help he's a goof and mostly interested in playing games with his baby.

I want to portray Branch as someone who's flighty, not another example of "before the Tribe cats came we were uncivilized heathens without society"

I also don't like his original narrative purpose to give Wind Runner trust issues that don't matter. If she had trust issues, what exactly was all that "please let me join ur group" about??

BB!Wind Runner is a breakaway from the River Kingdom, and the leader of the loosely united Moor cats. She created the Wind Coalition and is its intense, notoriously ruthless leader

So something eventually calls Cloud to do his work for the Wind Coalition

Branch: *SWEATS*

Cloud Flight: "..............branch. what did you Do"

Branch: "youre not allowed to be mad at me"

Cloud Flight: "tell me what you did and then we'll see if im mad at you"

The take might be controversial, but I do like the way that Windstar has problems with Moth Flight for no reason. I wanted to preserve it while removing it being yet another case of motherly child neglect, and more of a case of Wind Runner holding unfair grudges. I think it's good drama

Moth Flight's love of nature, herbs, and the natural world eventually prompts her to follow a Hairstreak Butterfly to the Moonstone. It leads her through the winding tunnels, a path that only Clerics will know how to navigate in the future, to the shimmering chamber in the middle.

Through her special connection to StarClan, drawing off the early cultural view of their ancestors as nature spirits (the fact that they are star spirits is a Park Cat contribution and all 5 leaders have their lives by this point), Moth Flight is able to come into her own as a holy speaker and healer. She begins to blur the line between holiness and healing, marked by how Clanmew has only one word for both concepts.

Hairstreak Butterflies also become known as a "herald" type of butterfly. I could get into the linguistics of this, but the old Tribemew word for moth/butterfly becomes the Clanmew word for sacred butterflies.

Micah is not supremely important anymore, but he's there. He doesn't become a healer in MFV, he's just Moth's mate.

But things begin to go wrong when her kittens are born.

All four children are born with a high connection to StarClan, just like their mother.

She takes it on herself to train them, as Cloud Flight had done with her, wiser from understanding that they would learn in their own ways.

Dapple and Cloud Flight never have this connection to star spirits, and they're growing old. Cloud is ready to retire, Dapple dies in some way before she's able to train a replacement

It begins to cause panic in the groups. It was bad with only two healers, but now everything is stretched even thinner.

SkyClan, notoriously violent, is the first to make the move. Skystar was not above the practice of Kit Stealing, taking Misty's kittens and giving them to Petal Claw for her loyalty ages ago.

Kit Stealing wouldn't become common until the creation of the Law of Loyalty, which is only a few years away, but it did exist before then.

They want a Mothkin kitten.

The Wind Coalition, of course, moves to fight and protect them. They call on ThunderClan, who can usually be relied upon

ThunderClan's request... they also want a Mothkin kitten. They need doctors too.

The River Kingdom and ShadowClan are also moving to take a kitten

EVERYONE needs a doctor, and they will fight and kill to get one. They all begin to realize... if they don't separate, there will be blood. People they love will die, and they'll be ripped apart anyway

Moth Flight, seeing this, BURNING with sorrow and fury at the violence of the Clans but knowing there is no other option, tells her children to make her a promise.

"That there will be no Mothkin after you. That you will never take a mate, or give your kidnappers more children. That you will remember that they were willing to kill their own families to steal you, and that you will be loyal the pursuit of life, virtue, and your sacred ability to heal above the cruel commands of the treacherous Clans."

Having accepted this, the family calls for an end to the fighting. Each child chooses a Clan to go to, and has their name changed.

ThunderClan: Spider Flight -> Spider Flight (no change)

SkyClan: Honey Flight -> Honey Pelt

RiverClan: Bubble Flight -> Bubbling Stream

ShadowClan: Blue Flight -> Blue Whisker

They're being shuffled based on which Clan they go to because it always bothered me that their names don't match their Clans, and also Spider Paw going to RiverClan when he has a phobia of water is insulting and I said no

So, TL;DR, this is a completely different story because DOTC is the one arc that I don't value "fixing." It needs a complete overhaul, imo.

This one would take place after Thunderstar's Justice, which immediately follows the First Battle. In terms of timeline, first is Hollyleaf's Century, 30 years later BB!DOTC begins and lasts several years, a few months after the First Battle begins Thunderstar's Justice, and then Moth Flight's Vow follows a year later.

#Moth Flight's Vow #BB!DOTC #Better bones au

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wendytestabrat · 4 months

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why cartman sees through kyle’s bs when no one else does

i feel like the reason why cartman can easily see how phony and hypocrticial kyle is bc of his sociopathicness and how he lacks empathy. kyle is always going on all these tangents bitching about all these issues going on in the world and how strongly he feels abt injustices and shit, so cartman just doesn’t give a fuck about anything kyle is saying and it all flies over his head LOL. kyle is rlly quick to try to pull on everyone’s heartstrings about shit that’s wrong, fucked up, or sad and i feel like this easily gets to some of the other characters, because well they actually do have a moral conscious. it can be easy for the other kids to be persuaded by kyle or manipulated by what he’s saying bc when he brings up an issue they feel bad too and don’t wanna seem like heartless assholes who don’t care. the fact that cartman is able to completely emotionally detach himself & think more rationally whenever kyle is ranting about shit is his superpower LOL. like yeah it’s fucked up how selfish and ignorant cartman can be that he doesn’t care or feel bad about certain things, but this makes it EASY for him to see through kyle’s bs and how deceitful kyle rlly is LOL. he’s not paying attention to the issue at hand kyle is getting all worked up about (nor does he give a flying fuck) or getting emotionally entangled in it, he just notices how kyle behaves and pays attention to his actions and not the words coming out of his mouth. all cartman sees is a rlly fucking crazy person that will go to extreme lengths to get his way, which is honestly how I just see kyle too LOL. like honestly i feel like i’ve developed a lot of sociopathic tendencies in recent years bc i know how to just completely turn off my empathy and not feel bad and look at shit rationally in situations where everyone else gets worked up about how horrible something is. i don’t lack empathy, i just reached a point in my life where it’s easier for me to just detach from shit and not care at all than to care too much, bc i can def swing the opposite direction and get WAYYY too emotionally invested in shit or try to help too much LOL. and I feel like all the bitchass fans who worship everything kyle does are people who feel bad way too easily and get worked up over EVERYTHING too, so they agree with everything kyle says and the actions he takes. but it def takes having a rational mind and learning not to care too much about every little problem in the world (bc life sucks and then you die get over it) to truly see whether or not someone is ACTUALLY good or does the right thing. that’s why it’s sooo easy for me to see through people’s hypocrisy when someone pretends to do good but they’re rlly just awful LOL. and i feel like cartman is able to easily do this too with kyle bc he just gives 0 shits about any sense of morality or what’s wrong in the world. he sees all of the horrible actions kyle takes, how he can lie, act pretentious, and just be downright selfish and cruel to the people around him in order to get his way.

#south park #kyman #KYMANRANTGARBAGE

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homestucksimplified · 10 months

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The 12 Classes of Breath.

“Breath is the Aspect of freedom and flexibility, of the element of air, of going with the flow, movement. Breath Players tend to be more detached from reality, and most of them are in search for the liberty that they crave. They’re usually very positive-minded, or are just unaware of the stress they are holding. A character who reminds me of this Breath characteristic is Mr. Peanutbutter from Bojack Horseman. Breath Players’ main theme in their journey will be freedom, and often times they will be leaders or have to deal with leadership”.

“Breath has that “protagonist” vibe at the same time that it has the “ignored side character” one. John and Tavros holding that Aspect makes that even more true. It is a very unpredictable Aspect, and I believe the players are as well. The bad side of Breath might come from detachment from important things, from people and situations. The players might also be absent-minded, gullible, and sometimes avoidant”.

“Breath is the opposite Aspect to “Blood”, which shares its leadership characteristics but is about the opposite of freedom”.

Sburb Players each have a combination of an Aspect and a Class. Aspects are understood to represent what a player’s goals and actions in life are caused by. A Class is within an Aspect and understood to represent the way they deal with their Aspect.

The Sburb Classes are Maid, Page, Mage, Knight, Rogue, Sylph, Seer, Thief, Heir, Bard, Prince, and Witch. (Lord and Muse*)

(*Classes Lord and Muse seem to only be possible in either Cherub society or in two-player sessions. They are very absolute and it’s rare for a human to identify with their descriptions. I will have to leave them out here and only write about the remaining twelve :)

Adding the Classes to the Aspect of Breath will result in twelve God Tiers. My analyses of them are as follows:

1st God Tier: Witch of Breath

Witch is the Active Class of manipulation. Witches are known to “control” their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Witch of Breath, specifically, would be realistic about most things, but mostly about their sense of freedom and independence. They would, of course, manipulate their and other people’s liberty and would lead with that power of manipulation. Witches are rebellious, and rebelling through Breath can be being controlling of their schedules, their plans, never having plan Bs and disliking routines AND lack of routine both, switching between the two chaotically and in a way nobody understands. I can see Witches of Breath being demanding bosses, leaders, wanting order but not being able to express it well. Others may look at them and think “Jesus, what an organized mess of a person”, but they thrive on their own messy ideas.

Witches of Breath will rebel against fluidity, relying on always being busy, not wanting to change. Their struggles might be, for a very specific example, moving houses and schools a lot as a kid, to the point where they can’t stand all of that movement anymore. The way a Breath Player is treated seems to affect most of their personality, since they are very malleable. Their relationship with people in their early lives might be the cause of their messy selves. That is neither a good not a bad thing, and a Witch will have to learn to control their need for control, in this case about freedom and flexibility.

2nd God Tier: Heir of Breath

Heir is the Passive Class of manipulation. Heirs are known to “influence” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. An Heir of Breath, specifically, would be extremely free from the reins of control, the opposite to a Witch of Breath. They would be flexible, detached, but somewhat terrible listeners. Heirs are known to “become” their own Aspect, and so would be the epitome of liberty and even air. You may look at an Heir of Breath and only see good, because they are usually unaware of their issues and don’t know how to concretely observe them. Actually, they are unaware of or struggling with the concreteness of most things. They are not used to being realistic, have their heads in the clouds, and might only notice the bad things when it is already too late. But Heirs of Breath are manipulators too, they just do it in a passive and pretty subtle way. Maybe they are good at convincing people not through words but through just acting the way they do. Instead of doing or demanding what they want like a Witch would do, they simply would be seen doing it and would influence people that way. This would make them good leaders, leaders by example, and it’s natural for them to just… inspire. Some of them might doubt that, though, but don’t care much about it.

An Heir of Breath has to be careful to not let themselves go too much. They can be easy to convince as well, being easygoing. And they must learn how their freedom works and what their struggles with it are, and what they can do to change. They will overall want to be independent people.

Heir of Breath is a canon Homestuck God Tier. John Egbert is the character that holds that title.

3rd God Tier: Mage of Breath

Mage is the Active Class of knowledge. Mages are known to “understand” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Mage of Breath, specifically, would simply understand just about how much liberty is safe and appropriate for them. They would be well-organized with their time and relationships, or at least will wing those things way better than most people would. Mages are doomed to know stuff about their Aspect. In Breath, that could be as literal as being good at breathing techniques. Mages of Breath wouldn’t have difficulty breathing when they are anxious, but they would be anxious. Breath is a pretty relaxed Aspect, but when you know relaxation and how it goes, everything gets a little less placid.

Mages will usually suffer from the information they know. I take that as being worried about their independence all the time, scared that they’ll have to fight for it, anticipating any loss of freedom. Mages of Breath have difficulty balancing their trust in relationships, they know people have the capacity of holding others down and they will focus a lot on that knowledge. I can see them even being scared of getting a pet if they never had one, afraid they might get stuck, submitting themselves to yet more rules in the world they consider so stiff.

But they would be stiff too. Stiff about freedom, that is. I can see them being indecisive, not able to stick to a routine at all and sometimes allowing themselves to be taken through life by just “winging it”. However, they would always be aware of what they were doing. Mages are always aware.

4th God Tier: Seer of Breath

Seer is the Passive Class of knowledge. Seers are known to “study” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Seer of Breath, specifically, would be overall interested in the idea of freedom for themselves, focused on their goals and subtly working toward them. They would love learning about other places, traveling far away, and would likely not worry about it as much as a Mage (Active Class) would. Studying Breath, it can mean even being a pulmonologist. Isn’t that cool? But it also represents learning the patterns of all that happens that they’re unhappy with, so that they can find a better way to live for their objectives.

Seer is not an Active Class, so its characteristics are sometimes abstract and confusing. But a Seer of Breath really wouldn’t be bothered by confusion. They would try to discover what that confusion means for them, always interested in their wandering minds. They’d be alert about wandering, too. And would thrive from liberty, from being able to do anything they want whenever they want. They’d teach themselves about the flight inside them.

5th God Tier: Thief of Breath

Thief is the Active Class of stealing. Thieves are known to “take” from their Aspect and through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Thief of Breath, specifically, would be hard to convince, realistic, but a bit entitled in general. They would have issues sharing, much more than the rest of Breath Players, since their title literally means “taking the freedom for yourself”. A Thief of Breath may be extremely stubborn, hard to deal with at first. But they would be really confident and dedicated to what they craved. They just don’t want to be held down. And they might seem uncaring for some but they just have a singular way of dealing with the world.

In more literal ways, I wonder if a Thief of Breath would have a history with choking or controlling their breathing. Maybe they grew up training how long they could stay underwater, maybe they accidentally drowned or choked someone as a kid (or non-accidentally???), something that has to do with stealing breath. Or maybe it is more abstract than that, and Thieves of Breath have a tendency to fill in the free time in other people’s lives, perhaps being clingy or dependent on someone, asking for a lot of favors and so. Maybe they’d pay others to do their job for them.

6th God Tier: Rogue of Breath

Rogue is the Passive Class of stealing. Rogues are known to “redistribute” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Rogue of Breath, specifically, would tend to be helpful. Sometimes they’d help without meaning to. Being the title of “getting freedom and giving it to others”, I can see them being skilled in soothing people, good at giving advice, or at least slightly better than all the other Classes of Breath. Being giving of their freedom, I can see them offering to do people’s jobs for them, the opposite of its Active counterpart “Thief of Breath”. A Rogue will usually doubt their potential a little, so maybe they’d do that as a way to be considered useful, as their own positive way of conquering positivity for themselves. A Rogue of Breath might fill themselves with chores and create a routine to follow meticulously. Not saying they’d be good at that. But they would doubt their capacity to be productive through a relaxed non-scheduled schedule. Sticking to rules and order just sounds to them like the right thing to do.

They’d still be very detached. Rogues of Breath would sometimes hurt others through their lack of paying attention. But that would happen to many Classes of Breath.

Rogue of Breath is a canon Homestuck God Tier. Rufioh Nitram is the character that holds that title.

7th God Tier: Knight of Breath

Knight is the Active Class of utilizing. Knights are known to “handle” their Aspect and through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Knight of Breath, specifically, would have trouble with others controlling them, but would get used to it. Being a Knight means fighting for, so they would fight for freedom nonetheless, the passive acceptance not being able to stop their active dispute.

Knights of Breath may have had a past with controlling guardians, or maybe too many rules at school and rules they didn’t agree with at all. They will become independent early and through their own action and desire. That will be what’s in their head: achieving freedom and not being kept under anyone’s wings. These Knights might be stubborn. But most Knights are. But they wouldn’t work under the guidances of a King, they would be the ones controlling themselves. Breath is about flying, after all. These guys would be ruthless about it.

In literal terms, I can see Kights of Breath protecting others. Their ways of protection might be aloof and unpredictable, but they work that way. They’d be good at motivating others to follow their dreams, to let go of whatever might be weighing them down.

8th God Tier: Page of Breath

Page is the Passive Class of utilizing. Pages are known to “rise” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Page of Breath, specifically, would have a complicated relationship with control. Like Knights, Pages of Breath will have had experiences with others weighing on them or trying to tell them what to do, but unlike Knights, they are passive in argument and not as skilled in fighting for themselves.

Pages usually have some self-worth issues relating to their Aspect, which makes them exaggerate in everything they think they are able to do. In Breath, that can be reminding all the time that they are free, that they are independent and under their own guidance. It can be doing their best to be positive, but often being caught in the spider’s web. Pages have a lot of potential, and a Page of Breath might become unstoppable if well-developed. I can see them becoming their happiest selves after working through their fears and past issues.

Page of Breath is a canon Homestuck God Tier. Tavros Nitram is the character that holds that title.

9th God Tier: Maid of Breath

Maid is the Active Class of construction. Maids are known to “create” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Maid of Breath, specifically, would be more dependent on others, at least before personal development. They would trust other people more than themselves, especially when it was about liberty and flows. They would obey a lot, and probably wouldn’t notice they’re taking their individuality away. I can see them being controlled, under a lot of rules, maybe dealing with some form of emotional attachment to certain people or things. But with time they learn to let go and that they need freedom, peace with no reins holding them back. They fickle with everything for a while, but later learn how to balance independence and bonds. They create Breath, so they create their sense of security through freedom. I can see them being a little hot-headed at times, tired of being mistreated.

If one Breath Class sounds like they’d have asthma, then it’s Maid. Using an inhaler is basically creating breath, isn’t it? I like it when God Tiers are literal, so I’d love to see an asthmatic who is a Maid of Breath.

10th God Tier: Sylph of Breath

Sylph is the Passive Class of construction. Sylphs are known to “build” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Sylph of Breath, specifically, would be really tempted to make time for themselves, to train themselves and their independence, to travel a lot or at least want to travel a lot. They wouldn’t really be fans of responsibility, and guiding themselves would be easier through freedom and lack of routine. Sylphs may take a while to build up their objectives, but they are extremely focused and good with progress. I can see Sylphs of Breath, specifically, being into Yoga, but as a student, not a teacher. Yoga is focused on breathing, so passive creation of breath is like… kind of an Yoga thing. But that is just one little part of the various characteristics these Breath Players would have. I can also see them subtly leaving situations, going home without anyone noticing, having good stealth skills. They’d be able to bond with some Void Players about that, especially also Sylphs!

Literal sylphs are also air creatures. So Sylphs of Breath are double times air creatures. This makes them extremely flexible, “flowy”, if that makes sense. Easy to deal with.

11th God Tier: Prince of Breath

Prince is the Active Class of destruction. Princes are known to “wreck” their Aspect and through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Prince of Breath, specifically, would be very aggressive about their search for freedom, burning down situations sometimes, before they could even come up with a plan B. They would try to deny a lot of responsibilities, believing they can do everything their own way, that they can follow their own rules and that they will work. Princes may try to deny and think they can control their Aspect, but Breath will always come back to them. They will always crave that freedom and flexibility, not being as skilled in planning and bonding as they wished they were. They may get into a lot of small fights with friends, since they cannot understand how they don’t feel attached as other people do, as they are “supposed to feel”. They can be negligent of others and things when trying to make up for what they dislike. They will accidentally worsen situations when they get destructive.

These Princes would be rebels. They would be used to anarchy in all kinds of ways. They are really likely to be into political anarchy, by the way.

12th God Tier: Bard of Breath

Bard is the Passive Class of destruction. Bards are known to “deconstruct” their Aspect or through their Aspect, both literally and figuratively. A Bard of Breath, specifically, would be avoidant of responsibilities, but also unaware to live a life of full freedom. They would have issues with positivity, probably be the least optimistic of Breath Players. And they would try to take themselves away from what their Aspect is about, so flexibility, inspiration, independence…

I can see Bards of Breath, instead of depending on someone, having someone depend on them. Maybe they’d thrive at that, believing that they are lucky for something like that, that they should take advantage of that tight bond that they are not otherwise used to. They would be really misguided in life, following things they believe are right but getting lost in the way, of course, avoiding and deconstructing freedom. Sometimes they wouldn’t do it on purpose, it is just the way their brain guides them.

#sburb #god tier #classes #breath #maid of breath #page of breath #mage of breath #knight of breath #rogue of breath #sylph of breath #seer of breath #thief of breath #heir of breath #bard of breath #prince of breath #witch of breath #homestuck

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nayatarot777 · 2 years

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🧚🏾‍♀️ Daily Messages 🧚🏾‍♀️ ~ pac

*photos are not mine*

✨ pile 1 ✨

I’m feeling like a lot of you have put your materialistic/physical manifestations on pause. If not you, then the universe has stepped in to force you to put your physical manifestations that you’re working towards on the back burner. The reason for this is because it’s time to go inwards and focus on your inner reality instead of your outer.

You may be wanting to rush ahead and just get your physical work done, but it’s not the time for that right now. You’ve done enough to really plant the seeds to your desires and they’ve grown a considerable amount. The universe is gracing you with a period of rest. Mental rest or communicative rest specifically.

Now is a great time to slow down and spend time in your own energy. Meditation will prove to be extremely beneficial for you guys. There’s something within you that you’re going to be made aware of. Something that may even be causing blocks that your physical manifestations are having to work around, and I’m seeing that it’s mainly a particular mindset.

You’ve done all the work and invested all of the time that you’ve needed to, but this mindset could be one that affects how you feel about your capabilities to actually achieve the end result, despite seeing your seeds slowly but surely coming to fruition. Take some time to stabilise yourself mentally, and to stabilise the view that you have about yourself and your work in order to get your mind right 🤍

✨ pile 2 ✨

I’m seeing that you guys are focusing diligently on something. Physical energy or creative energy. It could be fitness, it could be art, music - whatever the case is, it’s opening up so many opportunities for you. I see so many ships coming in. Maybe even literal travel opportunities for some of you (mainly short distance to different cities, towns, or states).

I’m even picking up on a lot of focus on emotional work, and for those of you who that resonates with, you’re going to find it a lot easier to be emotionally open and available with those around you.

The creative energy that I’m feeling is strongly linked to your inner child. You guys could be focusing on a lot more play. A lot more adventure. If not, then Spirit is urging you to, because when you act on impulse (within reason) from the mindset of your inner child, all of the opportunities that you’ve been waiting for will come in. Some of you are really focusing on a project that you want to bring blessings in from, and your childlike energy is your best friend right now.

Whatever you’re working on, work on it as if you’re a child who’s spending time just playing.

Please try to not take things so seriously, and see this as play instead of work. Make it fun for yourself and take away the feeling of this being a responsibility in order to really excel forward with this 🤍

✨ pile 3 ✨

TW: trauma

Heavy shadow work with this pile. I feel like a lot of you are looking back at trauma and painful experiences from a higher perspective. You might be emotionally detached from these experiences currently, as a way to focus on learning from them and seeing the bigger picture.

I just heard “judgement” and felt a pressure being lifted, so a lot of you are realising that the guilt and blame that you’ve been holding onto is not yours to hold. I’m certain that most of you are setting the record straight within yourself. You were not wrong for making your feelings and opinions to someone known, just because they got triggered for being called out on their bs. You were not in the wrong and didn’t do anything to make these people hurt you in whatever way that they did.

I think there’s a major wound here surrounding communication. I feel like a lot of you have really been shamed for defending yourself and for calling things out that are more than unfair to you, resulting in you being gaslit into believing that you shouldn’t have in the first place. This was most likely a consistent thing since childhood, from your family or friends that were energetically vampiric. Not anymore. You’re seeing these situations and these people for who and what they are. You’re turning your pain into strength.

Your throat chakra is strengthening and opening up even more. Silently too. You’re probably going to surprise people when you start speaking up for yourself even more than you already have. And these people got triggered in the past by your communication because you spoke nothing but the truth. Good. Give them the Hell that they thought that they could avoid and don’t back down 🤍

#pick a card #pick a photo #pick a picture #psychic readings #pac #pac reading #divination #tarot #tarot reading #daily tarot

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I'm not sure if this is super relevant (it's also late af and I'm recovering from covid) but I saw your post about that touched on having native ancestry but no direct ties to the culture, as well as no true culture otherwise to call your own, and it reminded me of a convo I had with some friends the other day where we discussed something that seems similar? Basically we talked about how badly a lot of American white people try to cling onto their (usually) very old ancestors' cultures and why. Sometimes it's for certified Yikes reasons (like white supremacists trying to co-op the entirety of Scandinavian culture) but other times they genuinely feel so rightfully disconnected from the mass-produced BS of American "culture", and that's why they (as well as occasionally POC) chase after cultures they don't have direct ties to. I myself have attempted to connect with my grandparents' cultures because they were forced to go from Unacceptable White to Acceptable White the second they landed in America, which meant all their cultural things were tossed away. It makes me sad for obvious reasons, but I also have to wonder if America may have been in at least a *slightly* better place had Europeans not also went through their own (though obviously much less severe) forced assimilation.

Maybe I'm not explaining it well, but my point is it's much harder to convince 20 different cultural groups to unite against a perceived evil than it is to convince 1 "cornbread purebred 'murican" cultural group to hate multiple ethnicities for no good reason. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I think there might actually be a good reason to encourage white Americans to try and reconnect with their ancestors' culture, even if they'll likely be rejected by occupants of that current culture. It's easy to fall into extremism if someone has nothing to ground them that makes them feel whole or at least partially complete.

Idk, sorry if this doesn't make sense, I'm kind of just rambling but also wanting your opinion on all of this?

I think what you said about it being easier to divide 20 communities than uniting then was a profound observation given the nature of white supremacy and even the silly online politics we can observe.

Because it's how a lot of countries work, especially the USA which is infamous for Cointelpro and its other methods of trying to sabotage communities from the inside out. Then making them hate everyone else's community, because they suck right?

And I think it's also very prevalent in even anarchist/leftist circles when we look at the constant infighting, the discourse within the queer community, etc. Even people trying to fight these systems fall prey to it's ideology when unaware of how it affects even their behaviors.

Coupled with the loud silence where education on workers rights and the many other rights movements besides the civil rights movements should be? I never learned about stonewall in school; did you? There is a blatant lack of education on Any recent movement that started with solidarity. What they do teach about any of it is deeply watered down and simplified and detached from the present- if not complete misinformation.

Like they really are trying to raise a bunch of blank slates who won't question a fascist or white supremacist rise to power until it was too late. Meanwhile they'd be convenient little drones for the capitalists.

And I think, yeah. If white people want to find community in what their ancestors had that's Certainly better than trying to find it by supporting and being around people who believe in whatever the fuck all that *gestures above* is without question.

#asked #answered #whiteness

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Villain!Aizawa au

First and foremost, he’s absolutely done with the hero society bs

He’s still the protective dad but dilled up to a 1000%

Ends justify the means

Cold, analytical, detached (like not stoic but straight up doesn't emote)

->Not when it comes to children, absolutely has a parental instinct that goes haywire when it comes to kids and his students, after his shitty ass childhood he overcompensates by helping every kid he sees even mildly distressed (But he would be caught dead before addmiting it)

He comes from a wealthy family, quirkist family that was disgusted with his out-of-the-left-field quirk, that has sent him to foster care(which is apparently super shitty in Japan)

He wanted to become a hero out of spite bc people called him a villain when he was a kid (worked out really well for you buddy)

->Shirakumo’s death was the last nail in the coffin of his hero career (it shattered his worldview so much that he didn’t even want to think ab it)

He graduated from UA at the top of his class and with a shiny new hero license that he promptly ignored. Using his knowledge from basically living on the streets he decided to disappear from the radar and go into villainy bc–

He knew he couldn’t bring any change to the hero society as an Underground hero(didn’t even think about teaching, in the canon, it’s Nemuri who dragged him in so here he doesn’t consider it either)

He’s well aware of and hates the rampant inequality and senseless death (of young heros) caused by the greed of the industry that’s why:

He wants to change the way it works, even if he’ll have to get his hands dirty

By the time of the 1A hell class year he successfully took over a big part of the criminal underworld and made it quite orderly and logical (don’t ask me how yet but he built his imperium on loyalty and respect, ppl r just scared shitless of him (the mystery he created around himself) and everyone who joined his cause knows the golden rule “treat people like you want to be treated”. Aizawa awards loyalty and punishes disloyalty(anyone who goes against his rule of conduct)).

Seeing as this wasn’t enough decided to go a step further and start infiltrating the government and the hero commission itself

He started teaching at UA to get the favour of Nedzu, one of the most influential people in the whole of Japan

In this au Aizawa disappeared off the face of the earth after graduation, at which his friendship with Yamada and Kayama was already strained after Shirakumo’s death. When he suddenly joined the teaching staff after 7 years they didn’t recognize him, he was like a different person who once again wasn’t looking for any meaningful connections and this time succeeded at keeping everyone at arm's length.

Aizawa is slightly more put together in this, he learned to weaponize his looks, and he knows how he wants people to perceive him and dresses accordingly. So he doesn’t exactly look like a “homeless hobo in a trashbag” when in his “hero” gear (it’s just a tactical suit, he refused to put any kind of effort into the hero bullshit) but looks competent and threatening.

He nearly always wears his mask (spare capture weapon that acts as protection), the only time you see him without it is when he’s undercover or going to get groceries(he wears sunglasses then, listen at least one of his facial features has to be hidden at any time).

He basically never sleeps, by day a teacher and by night a criminal overlord-*cough*-underground hero.

He is technically the UA traitor, though not the one they are looking for :)

Now onto the fun part;

Students are SUPER curious about him, though he scares most of them

Rarely he gets phone calls during class, he always steps out to answer them(in code ofc, and he answers cause everyone knows to not bother him unless it’s important)

1A was extremely disappointed when the dorms were established and he continued wearing his mask 24/7 (listen the dorms are too fun and have too much potential for me to let them go)

Shinsou and Midoriya have seen his face

Shinsou saw it a few years back when Aizawa scared off his bullies

Midoriya saw it at the USJ when Aizawa used his primary capture weapon to deflect Shigaraki's attack (which fucked up his elbow in canon) and had to use his spare one as the primary one got disintegrated

USJ happens, but it goes differently, it happens a week into the classes(the sports festival happens a round a month after the school year starts). Aizawa is a bit blindsided by it, he knew that some new group of villains was congregating but he honestly didn’t expect them to do anything for a few more weeks.

he was absolutely pissed when he learned that it was about All Might

He doesn’t get smushed into a pie because a)he didn’t get injured by Shiggy so he was able to jump away from the nomu b)his own reinforcements arrive to act as a diversion exactly at that second.

He is so pissed after the whole ordeal, all his focus goes into obliterating the villains who were stupid enough to attack his students

#aizawa shōta #mha aizawa #shouta aizawa #eraserhead #bnha #barbs v!aizawa au #mha fanfiction #?#i don't know what will come out of this #some art for sure >:)#my hero academia aizawa #this is very self indulgent #but it's so much fun so bite me #aizawa shouta #villain aizawa #villain!aizawa

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PAC - ❤️‍🔥 What Are You Looking For In a Relationship? - August 2022

Pile 1 - Green 💚:

Venus - Sagittarius - 12th House

- The attraction of insights to understand your faith.

- Pleasure from the wisdom of hidden tendencies.

- Good times resulting from the understanding of large institutions or overwhelming events.

Page of Swords - Knight of Swords - 3 Cups

Dreaming Way: Stork, Mountain, Man & Bear

Additional energy: Neptune & Aries

You crave someone larger than life, someone that will make you understand the answers to your philosophical questions and why nothing before them ever worked out. A soulmate, one with fire 🔥 in them, motivation, ambition, excitement. When they are happy you want to physically feel their happiness, sadness, anger, lust. Power, intelligence, communication & passion are traits you desire. Every fire sign is out here and there is heavy air energy as well, a fire/air person may be exactly who you’re looking for. You’re definitely a dreamer, the kind that wishes for a true soulmate, but you want someone that takes ACTION on those dreams and actually follows them. With that being said, you also crave stability and someone responsible, someone that’s been through enough bs in their lives already that they’ve learned and grown from it. Something real. An adventure that doesn’t end with someone you can depend on.

Some of you are single parents, could be between 1-3 kids. More than anything you want honest & open communication, a love of ideas and sharing them. Someone that finishes your sentences and even your ideas, and makes them even better than you could have thought of. Romance, passion, and honesty are the keys to happiness, and you’ve realized it’s not one more than the other. You won’t settle for anything less than a connection you feel is -the- one, a soulmate. Your Dreaming Way cards point again towards children, with Mountain attached. You may find it hard to find a stable person because you have kids, they have kids, or your ex was this mountain in your way. Having children may have proven difficult for you and it’s what you want the most, or your ex didn’t want any and you do, so that’s now #1 on your priority list for singles. Children with a stable person, man or woman. Man could be you, your person, a father figure, someone that’s instilled this goal of what a “man” should be in a very orthodox family sense, that’s what you want. But…with Sagittarius, and 12th house here, it’s so much more than that as well. This is the whole package, depth, fun, and commitment. Up until now you may have repeatedly chosen people that weren’t ready for all of this, and caused the Mountain between you, them, and your goals. If so, you’ve realized how to spot that type, they’ve had a powerful impact on your psyche and you’ll never fall for another like that again. A small side story I’m getting is not with children, but rather multiple partners you desire, a poly lifestyle, one that is free, communicated and agreed upon, there’s a level of detachment here with swords, excitement, passion, and still a deep commitment, just more of you. Children of or between people may have caused an issue with this lifestyle before if that’s the case. If the sign is to be taken literally, Neptune actually enters Aries for the next 12 years in 2025, some of you may not meet this person you desire until then.

Pile 2 - Orange 🧡:

Saturn - Sagittarius - 2nd House

- Be realistic about your highest ideals patiently.

- Be concerned about the rules of what you want.

- You must wait before you can get it out to the world and get what you need.

8 Pentacles - Ace of Swords - Queen of Swords

Dreaming Way: Stork, Birds, Lady

Additional energy: Sun & Libra

Definitely Libra energy here with their court card as well, you could end up with one, be one, or value fairness, balance, truth and working things out with communication. The opposite energy, Aries, is here too and it’s coming up as more of a burden to you. Someone that takes charge and controls your decisions isn’t what your looking for, you don’t want a “boss”, or someone that’s out for themselves over others, you want an equal partner. Or, considering the flow in this read, you could be the one that is more Aries or Aries rising, you’re the dominant career focused person and you want someone more domestic and giving to your needs.

The other story I have here is no matter which gender, you want someone that wants to parent in a stay at home way, either gender, it’s part of your personal value system with 2nd House. You don’t want to work, or you don’t want your person to. Children are here, whether you have them or want them. You may feel that having “two bosses” or two workers in one house is a burden on the family dynamic, and your cards indicate that though you may want this, it may not be realistic for you to do. If this one is your story then you’re likely to have to give in a little on this one, your person may not want to give up their career or they/you can’t afford to run a family on one income. You could also be the one that wants to work from home. Something is not working out there. Your Dreaming Way cards match the cards above them. If children aren’t involved, Stork is progress, movement forward, good news and it’s connected to 8 Pentacles and communication. You want communication more than anything else in a relationship, and it looks like you’ll get that with no issues, but you may have to compromise on some deeply ingrained family values due to money, unless you want to compromise your freedom altogether, which you don’t want either. In some way, that will be inevitable. Sagittarius placements may be difficult for you to deal with, or a sense of giving or receiving freedom, especially in terms of money or resources. You may have dealt with controlling people in the past. At least one of you in this pile are that person yourself. You have this idea of loving being a providing/serving dynamic and will realize this will have to change somewhere along the line. You & your person will have to decide how to move forward together, there’s no room for demands or control here, that’s the balanced part of a fair & balanced relationship, and that’s what you want after all.

Pile 3 - Blue 💙:

Neptune - Aries - 1st House

- The idealization of energies to meet the challenge of who you are.

- Confusion regarding your desires regarding your desires 😆 ???

- Sacrifice resulting from the honesty and strength of your actions.

6 Swords - Knight of Wands - Page of Pentacles

Dreaming Way: Tree, Coffin, Garden, Scythe

Additional energy: Sun & Sagittarius

You could be an Aries or have Aries in your chart, your person could as well, I’m also getting Taurus & Sagittarius. You seem to be in something currently already, but this person only upsets you and continues to do so, it’s like they’re on a loop. These oracle cards show there’s growth, and it dies, and then there is growth, and it dies. These deaths tear you apart, when it’s great it’s amazing and when it’s bad it’s the worst thing ever. Your dream is confidently taking the reins of your own life, being a leader that directs how things are going to go. You seem to be confused by what you would actually say, what you would do, or where you would go if you could. You could know that you want to passionately take charge in some other direction, but don’t know what that may actually be. You could be looking for someone more sure of themselves than you are. It’s like thinking you’ll know what you want based on what they want, which is good for compatibility (with anyone) but could cause problems later if you base your whole life on someone else’s goals.

I get a very young energy from this pile, some of you don’t know who you even are yet and need the time and space to discover that for yourselves. Family & friends can help, they know you best. The only thing you are sure of is that you are tired of temporary people, or those that are afraid of commitment. They’re in and out, in and out, is it good is it bad, are they coming or going, is it something you said or did? No. You have goals (loosely) and you want to start planning for your future in a more solid and practical way. You know that reciprocity and equal give and take is what is necessary in a relationship, you could be trying to model after your parents in some way (a good way). It feels like you’re still involved with the past stuff, the in and out person needs to find the door locked before it’s possible, but it looks like your goal for 10 Cups is what you’ll not rest until you find. Just try not to morph yourself into someone you’re not to seem attractive or appealing to someone, or simply because someone else is that way. I get a chameleon vibe from this pile and it’s because of a lack of self confidence…which means you can be easily taken advantage of if you’re not careful 😕

Pile 4 - Yellow 💛:

Mars - Scorpio - 4th House

- Energize the extraordinary power of prayer as you did in the past.

- Confront the highest and lowest aspects of your home base or family.

- Force yourself to control the situation and do what makes you feel secure.

8 Swords - 9 Wands - The Hanged Man

Dreaming Way: House, Choices, Sun

Additional energy: Mercury & Cancer

These signs may be your person, they may be a family member that has caused you pain, they may also be yourself or just describe this energy. Spirit is not even responding in the way that I hoped they would for all of these, but there must be a reason. They don’t want you to focus on relationships, because you’ve been through hell. Either a father figure or a partner has abandoned the family dynamic you’re a part of, and you’ve been left in a lot of pain, with a lot of questions that are unanswered, with a feeling that you can’t do anything about it. Relationship wise, you’re afraid of them, or carrying this on into another connection with the same results. I’m kind of getting the feeling that if you rush into another one, that’s what would happen. The same thing. It’s a cycle that will continue until you force it to break, by going through a dark night of the soul, seeing the truth of your family dynamics for every shadow and hidden or unsaid thing that exists, and how that same pattern has played out in your own life. What is your role? It can’t be everything of course, but you do have a role, there is something you’ve done recently that is the same as either something in the past or something your family member has done.

This can be a karmic lesson. But until you face it, see things clearly, learn, heal, and refuse to continue in this way, you’ll still feel trapped in this cycle of abandonment issues, a weary battle scarred state, and a lot of fear. Mercury in Cancer can be saying that your head and your thoughts are being manipulated by family, or affected, directed, impressioned upon, not your own. It can also be saying you’re an emotional thinker, and emotions tend to cloud things like logic and practicality. For some it’s the literal placement. Your oracle cards are all positive. Whatever this home situation is has caused major blocks in your life, you’re being told to take control of your own part in whatever this is, and make -your- own decisions moving forward. No guilt, no sideways tactics, no manipulation, there are a lot of choices available to you and all of them will make you happy with Sun here. Relationships aren’t the focus, happiness is, but first you have to take your own power back from someone else you’ve given it to, whether literally or emotionally or what have you. There’s a feeling that you’ll find exactly who you need once you decide what you want and get moving in that direction. A side note, don’t compare your journey to anyone else’s. Everyone has a struggle they don’t talk about, everyone has felt pain, and everyone meets different goals on different parts of their path at all ages, you’re doing just fine.

Pile 5 - Red ❤️:

Uranus - Aquarius - 6th House

- An unusual example of genius to experiment with service to others.

- A different way of looking at the discoveries of what is good for us.

- An unexpected change resulting from the eccentricity of your work.

7 Swords - Strength - 6 Pentacles

Dreaming Way: Clover, Book, Child

Additional energy: Uranus & Sagittarius

You want someone that values what you do for a living, because whatever it is you do holds a lot of weight over your life. It could be relating to children, for a small percentage, it could cause for you to be kinda unreliable when it comes to relationships because your main priority is work. This is an energy of being called at all hours of the night and never really being able to *plan* anything in stone, you’re needed and it’s necessary. If you do something off the wall as a career, same thing, you want someone that understands and respects what you do. Children are involved in your life in some way, through work or experience, or you tend to want an independent life free of children at home, and that’s something that keeps you at a pause when it comes to any sort of dating. You’re an independent and career-oriented person, not a domestic caregiver, it’s just who you are, and you could feel your life and career are too chaotic for any of that anyway. It’s just not what you want.

Because of these things, you hold yourself back from giving fully or trying to get serious with anyone, it’s like you give up before even getting started. There is a lot of Aquarius energy here, even more with double Uranus, Taurus, Virgo, Leo, heavy fixed energy. This may be you or your person, or it describes your mentality of this is how it is and it’s staying that way. It has to. Either they’re on board or bye, there is no extra time to waste on casual, and you’re not committed enough for serious. It’s kind of a double edged sword there. You are extremely lucky and love to learn, you probably want someone within your field of work, or at least someone that understands what’s going on in your world, it’s definitely not a traditional career. Could be a writer, doctor, secret spy 😎 idk, there is something unscheduled and untethered about this. Either your desired person is equally chaotic in their work, involved in similar work, OR they’re the more fixed signs, they’re the solid and stable to your chaos. Some of you may not even really want a relationship, you just feel you should have one, and if so just wait until it feels right to you. Some of you only want a sneaky fling that you keep quiet and don’t really commit to, just to have someone around.

Pile 6 - Pink 💖:

Uranus - Sagittarius - 1st House

- Stir up the situation by using your highest ideals immediately.

- Be open to new ideas about the rules of the way you project yourself.

- Invent a way to get it out to the world and do it on your own.

3 Swords - 4 Swords - 8 Wands

Dreaming Way: Fox, Stork, Sun

Additional energy: Mars & Pisces

Here we have the fkboy/girl group. Both sides of the situation, the victims of temporary lovers and the lovers themselves will be here. If you are someone that rushes in and out of romantic entanglements with no commitment or care, many options on the table, then this message is a warning that you are the conniving and mischievous character, and you could end up with a baby because of it. For the other side of that coin, those with a history of attracting these folks, Spirit is asking you to look at how you present yourself, because you’re mirroring these people to attract them. There is a very spontaneous and up for anything energy in you, multiple options or people you’re dating or interested in. Mostly, you’re not being taken seriously because you’re not taking others seriously at the start, or you aren’t letting it be known up front that serious is what you want. At least half the people here don’t want that.

There is a group of people here that have been hurt by this personality and want to rush into something new as fast as possible to get over who hurt them prior. There’s a note here that you may be taken advantage of or it can end in pregnancy, could be both. Be very careful. In the cases of babies, that is something that will make you very happy, regardless of circumstances. It will all happen very fast in those situations. For most of you, this is Spirit saying to take a step back from this impulsive, passionate and loosely guarded fun *for tonight* energy, because Mars Pisces is acting with emotion, romance, much much depth. The jokester on the surface is bringing you jokesters. Some of that depth and dreamy romanticism is more the style of what you truly want…but you won’t entertain someone boring either, that’s certain. This is the Mutable pile, Sagittarius, Gemini and Pisces, plus heavy Libra are all here. If you take the time to plan what you really want, you’ll attract it. Don’t just fly by your pants and impulses 🤩 You could think you want someone like that, but they turn into Fox, deception, sneaky sly behaviors and aren’t faithful. Once you take a break, get serious and really plan what you want for yourself, moving forward should be much easier to get what you want, and it could all happen so fast your head might spin. It’s like Spirit is on standby waiting for you to just say the right words, from the right mindset & with the right intentions, more mature and authentic intentions, and it can be yours the next day.

#PAC #august 2022 #relationships #love #romance #dating #pick a card

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betweendisorders · 2 years

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currently thinking about sunny’s growth and journey to heal and hgldhg

forewarning these are all early thoughts (both early as in i have not thought about this as much as you would expect and early as in it is Morning Hours) so don’t expect too much

here’s the thing; sunny’s journey in the game might be intended to be forgiving himself. in my not-so-professional opinion, though, this is bs. he does not forgive himself, i daresay. i think his journey is far more about acceptance than forgiveness, which is just as important, especially as a first step, but. like. it is not forgiveness bestie are you kidding me

has he been thinking about this for four years? yes. but a; i’m not completely convinced four years would be enough time to recover from that even if you were actively healing, b; he was a child when this happened, literally twelve at most, and c; he did not spend those years healing. he spent them hiding

he wasn’t grieving. he was never grieving. he hasn’t had any time to grieve, because he’s been too busy pretending like everything was ok. he’s been in the denial stage for FOUR YEARS because he was a literal child when it happened. an impressionable child, with more love for his sister than he knew what to do with and a very active imagination that made for an oh-so attractive hiding place

the idea that he has forgiven himself is ridiculous. realizing fully what happened, accepting what he did, and realizing that he needs to start trying to move on is incredibly important in and of itself, though

it’s important to realize what sunny has already done on his own. a; he has calm down. he has focus, and persist, and overcome. these are important. it’s unclear if these are techniques that he used as a kid or if he’s only developing them as the game goes on, but these are a very good start to healing (keep in mind, i am not a therapist). he’s learning grounding techniques, he’s making them up himself in fact, and this is a good foundation for beginning to trust himself, which is a good foundation for beginning to actually process his trauma.

except. uh. i’m not confident sunny actually sees this as himself, and thus i’m not confident that this is a good basis for trusting himself

because it’s mari’s voice that he hears when he uses calm down.

so; lessons sunny has to learn before he can even start to heal properly, according to me, a not-professional;

a - his grounding techniques are his own doing. he’s smart, and he’s capable, and he’s learning how to deal with the symptoms of his trauma himself. sunny can trust his instincts, and they are his instincts, and not just mari looking after him. though, if mari was actually the one who taught him these grounding techniques, he might honestly need to learn some new ones to detach himself from that. which might be an issue, because he might want to hold onto what few untainted scraps he has of mari’s memory left... this one is going to be a whole thing, isn’t it.

b - he has to start distinguishing fantasy from reality. once he can do this properly, he can start trusting his perceptions again. i’m not sure exactly how he’s going to manage this, seeing as how i’m not exactly sure what’s causing the hallucinations, but he needs to pass this step regardless

c - he has to realize that forgiveness can only come from within. his friends forgiving him (while i do think is likely, and would help A LOT) is not the most important step, much less the only important one. he has to process his grief on his own; he has to take these steps of his own volition, hopefully starting with seeking counseling/therapy on his own. with that being said;

d - he can trust his friends to support him. sunny needs a stable support network, and now that his friends know the truth, having them forgive him and truly be there for him as he heals would be incredible. this would probably take some time, though - which is ok. he has basil. except, uh

e - i’m not even going to START unpacking his whole thing with basil, but something probably needs to happen there. that is a whole Hot Mess and i need to start thinking about it more

and there’s probably a lot more i’m missing, but uh. yea. sunny’s therapist has their work cut out for them

#Omori #omori spoilers #spoilers #omori sunny #sunflower??#analysis #psychology #grief tw #angst?#recovery #thoughts #rambles

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reflections-in-a-critical-eye · 1 year

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I'm the anon asking if I'm tripping about Tae

The way you expressed yourself made me giggle

For the past 2-3 years..my personality has been being Army

The type of Army who was so butthurt at anyone criticising the guys

The type of Army who just went along with the hive mentality of Bangtan are perfect...not even human...so how dare you....then after dreamers...twitter became too toxic to the point I realized its affecting my mental health and I was like hold up...why is my whole life just about Bangtan when they can literally never do anything of "significance" for you...of course they offer me entertainment,comfort, support,positive emotions etc but like this experience was some type of...you are wasting your youth days by always being chronically online and not doing anything else....it was like a spell was lifted...I was like okay...so if I voice out my opinion on some of the things this fandom does...all they can do is just call me an anti and tell people to.block me...it's like being Army is being hired to always be working 24/7 ....ooooh...you can't claim you're Army if you don't love all 7 of them...it's like when strangers from the Internet tell you you aren't a real Army because you don't subscribe to our bullshit is suddenly the biggest mistake of your life and you cease to exist...the thing that makes me mad at Bangtan is that they are aware how this fandom has been catapulting to so much immaturity that makes them unapproachable if we are honest but they still cater to them and put up a front...

Reading your blogs made me start questioning things and the appeal of treating them like gods just started dissipating....Army loves to make it seem like Bangtan are the top of the top but if you look at it...esp these days(not at all including the solo work so far...I love JITB from start to finish and some songs on Indigo)...is they give us generic content and they know the fans themselves will bully other people to gobble it up...I'd really love to hear them being so deep about their creative processes...after all this enlightenment...the only person whom I can't seem to rid the divine aura is Jimin but he also has a negative side to him...but I think with him..I've come to experience what true unconditional love is...same as JK but JK I've learnt to humanize him in my mind

As for the other members...I love them...they are all so multidimensional....My soul just doesn't like Tae for so many reasons....and when you're from a mindset like mine...I used to feel really guilty for not liking him and I always exaggerated my affection for him on the timeline to somehow mask my dislike...but its been a journey learning how to detach from this toxic mindset and treat them like the human beings that they are....thank you for creating this space where you are so open minded and allow discourse with people who can see through the bs....

I just wonder when they will take responsibility of how their fandom is getting out of hand in a very high rate...Army's are one of the most vile people on twitter and I understand with some things it's needed but damn😭

Chapter two just made me realized I might be a solo stan and not as ot7 as I thought....but thank you for responding to me....I kinda needed that pov to stop making myself feel guilty....but then again...there is no one human being who is perfect....there might be so many grammatical mistakes..I'm sorry 😭💛

I will asssume you're probably aware how this sounds, right? You got out of a cult. Replace army and bts with whatever cult is out there and it would apply.

I know my post hit a nerve. And some others in the past. And I can see that in all the asks in my inbox. Which surprises me, although it shouldn't. Because I'm not the type of person that needs to hear it from others first in order to say something. Maybe it has to do with age, personality, the fact that this is the internet and I really don't give a shit because it's only a small fraction of my life? But others do, which is ultimately, a bit unfortunate. Because it shouldn't be like that. But the fandom at large is so close-minded that those who don't subscribe to the cult mentality or who figure out along the way how absurd it is, are pushed aside and worse. You cannot be part of it if you don't think the same way. It's authoritive and totalitarian and jesus christ, do we need that in a music fandom when the world is as fucked up as it is? Is it worth it? Is it worth it to be misogynistic, to become an informant snitching and gathering information so the small-time leaders of report accounts can do their cancel spread sheet? Is it worth it to doxx people for whatever the fuck reason? Why on earth would anyone want to be a part of that? And then you have the ignorant on purpose army who took to heart "see nothing, hear nothing" and made it their slogan. They don't like "speak nothing" cause they suddenly get a voice when it's time to all say in a choir "all shippers are the same". Spineless people.

Spineless people who the PR job for BTS for free and they love their free labor while they don't stop for one second before buying in massses every little thing the company puts out. A late stage capitalist nightmare.

And about that creative process as a group? Well it's certainly impossible to talk about something in the last few years when they only released subpar music. What would be so deep about Butter when RM managed to say it has fruit vibes? They can complain about feeling burned out and how it wasn't a fruitful period. But they did it and they got a lot of money from those songs. Time to treat them as adults and not just as "our boys".

#bmt asks #bts #bts army #bts fandom #bts fandom discourse

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kingsis · 11 months

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Oh right I should probably like. List traits that sunbird has that differs from regular spam

He shows his eyes, like near constantly. He chooses to do this simply because he trusts the MC, and for others he can simply hide them like normal.

Always been short. Not a headcanon technically but some people make BS spam slightly taller. No. Sunbird has been 4' forever and he has been pissed about it forever.

Bonus for the last one, his heels are 4". In both neo and normal form. At least in neo form he's 10' so it's not so noticeable.

Knows how to make addi tea. Doesn't do it often, but he's capable. He learned how to make a bunch of drinks actually, but that's all he knows how to do. Good luck trying to teach him how to cook without burning the house down.

Mechanic at heart. Trying very hard to repair at least 1 cungadero. It's not going well.

Surprisingly well kept, but that's bc the dump doesn't have normal trash. It's all documents or downloads. They don't have a smell. On particularly bad days he probably flops on a pile and thinks abt things.

Joints are detachable, but it's very painful to do so. Eldritch horrors contained within? Snapping it back into place is equally as painful. (The horrors enjoy your presence btw)

Getting a soul isn't part of the original plan, and truthfully he didn't even think about it until you showed up. Congrats! You're on his watch list now.

Steals from the Addisons often. Doesn't care. Honestly he does it on purpose. Petty revenge never tasted so sweet.

Secretly wishes his hair would turn back to white. After being tainted by Them, it's just another reminder of how horribly he fucked up.

Strong. Really strong! He's capable of lifting around 250lbs. Reason being, he's super dense. He's around 200lbs himself, even with his small stature. It's exaggerated even more in sneo form.

And very good at battling. (He's got one of the highest attack stats for a "normal" enemy, not to mention we don't know his true fighting style.) Beating him was a lost cause for the Addisons.

#melon talks #fic: rfas #none of this is really spoilery but yknow. read at ur own risk #sunbird is mostly on model but. some things are self indulgent #headcanon

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khodorkovskaya · 1 year

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12.01.23

sooo a lot of confusing things happened.

i went to see puss in boots yesterday and the hype is so worth it! im obsessed! it was so good!!!

and guess who i invited to the cinema with me...............

yeah, i know, i don't understand either. i texted him when i was on the train from luzern and he said yes. and so we went together.

(i was being weird on the phone with my parents about it so now they think that i have a secret lover lol. like idk i just can't lie to my parents so when they asked me who i went to the cinema with i was like "nobody!!!!" and it sounded very sspicious. so yeah, they believe that im seeing someone new now. but no lol. im just back on my bs.)

after the film we decided to go get a drink (i had green tea) and we had a very strange conversation. i told him about the books ive been reading and how im slowly making my way through kundera's "immortality" but i don't understand any of it. and then we talked about immortality (bc it was also a theme in puss in boots!) in relation to fame and who gets to be famous and who will always be left in the shadows. and then we said something along the lines of "extraordinary people get to be famous and normal people don't". and then i started telling him about how i think that it didn't work out between us bc we're not normal and we need normality to balance things out.

he said that his first relationship was with a normal person and, even though she was amazing, the relationship was boring. and he said that when he realised that i was crazy he found it charming. and it made me blush.

but anyway i started telling him about my zurich friend and my normal boyfriend fantasy and how i just want to fall in love with a normal person and be normal and hold hands. and he said that my zurich friend is very far from normal and how what we had was actually a normal relationship and i was too spoiled to realise it. he predicts that im gonna realise it in the future bc im gonna meet a lot of shitty guys and regret leaving him. but it will be a good learning experience for me.

and yeah he said that im not making sense and im speaking nonsense. and i think he's right bc ever since i isolated myself from society ive just been a bit insane. like im slowly descending into madness which i think is good for me bc i really need to think and analyse things. but at the same time ive become detached from reality. and now i have all these theories about wanting a normal boyfriend and hating the balkans.

then okay girlies bear with me... i missed my last tram and..... slept over at his place... yikes, i know i know.... but he promised we were gonna sleep in different beds (spoiler: we didn't) and we were just gonna drink tea and chat (spoiler: we didn't just drink tea and chat). and uhh im not gonna go into the details but i didn't feel really good. i just felt like... annoyed i guess is the best word to describe it.

i asked him if we could be friends bc i really want to be friends with him. i want to see his future spouse and kids and i want him to see mine. and i want us to be best friends until we die. but he said that if it's definitely over between us as a couple, we're not gonna see each other again. and it made me sad. why so harsh? why can't we just admit that it doesn't work and stay friends? he wouldn't give me an answer.

this morning we talked a bit more about our relationship and normality and stuff. and he said that in order to be a better and more mature person and actually learn from the past, i need to face my fears and confront him. and we can try to be bf/gf again but make an effort this time. and if it doesn't work, at least we would've tried.

so i was thinking about that for the whole day today. weighing the pros and cons and trying to understand what is "délire" and what is actually reasonable. i feel like im missing something in my brain, i swear. why do i never know what's right and wrong? what do i want and what do i not want? i feel like im disabled or something idk.

and then all of a sudden my dad (who i haven't heard from in a while) messages me like "call me now". he's in india now and i thought it was something urgent. so i called him. and the call lasted only 10 minutes (usually he goes on and on about conspiracy theories for like an hour). and this is what he said:

"you need to get back together with B!!! he's a good man. and it's rare in our day and age. there's a slavic genocide going on. and you guys have a problem with homosexuals in europe. and B represents gender values and he's a real man, which is so rare! sure, nobody's perfect i mean look at me. but B has more pros than cons. sure he's lazy, maybe he even goes to see other hoes from time to time. but nobody is perfect and your clock is ticking. you're 23 and healthy, it's the best time to have a child! if you're still unmarried at 30, people are gonna look at you weird. marriage is a status symbol, you know, it doesn't mean anything. you can get divorced. but being divorced at 30 is so much better than never having been married. it shows that you're a serious woman. and you should try to get back with him. organise a theatrical performance or something, i don't know. and tell him that the wedding's in may so he will be keeping busy organising everything. it's better to do things you regret, than regretting not doing things. okay bye!"

what the fuck.

#he's the one who was being racist towards B after we broke up #saying that it didn't work out bc of his ethnicity #and now #???#january

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