Matthias Helvar at 11 years old: Grishas are evils, cruel and demoniacs, I will extermined them all.
Matthias Helvar at 21 years old working as Grishas trainer at the Little Palace: okay kids, that’s not bad but remember that the most important things is taken your hands free, so you will use your powers. You have to be quickly to move your hands so you will stopping more hearts, throw fireballs or summon a waves and defeat as many Drüskelle as possibile.
Something about Zoya saying love doesn't heal you but it makes you stronger if you face hardships together. and the love gets stronger. Nikolai and Zoya weren't there to fix or heal each other they still have insecurities and scars but they accepted each other they way they were. they did make each other stronger by being there for one another. whether it is Zoya helping Nikolai move forward when he's hopeless, ensuring him he didn't fail them or Nikolai promising Zoya to help her bloom or being a light in their darkest hour. They keep each other marching. For Zoya (and Nikolai ig) the definition of love is moving each other forward no what the circumstances are. No matter how hard it gets they keep moving together and i love that.
Unpopular opinion but I don't want soc#3, not because one of the Crows will die - I don't mind that if it's done in a beautiful and meaningful way- but because if they continue the plot from Rule of Wolves then a Crow would die doing something for the fucking Darkling, and and I don't think I could see any of my faves stop breathing for that abusive bitch cow
Morning Doodle: "...you could have pretty much any girl you want.” “A Shu princess? A Kerch banker’s daughter?” “Or a Ravkan heiress or a Grisha like Zoya.” “Zoya? I make it a policy never to seduce anyone prettier than I am.” Leigh Bardugo's Ruin and Rising Ch 10
now that we know s&b s2 is happening... hear me out: y'all remember the teaser for season one being the stag? what if the teaser for season two is a wide shot of sturmhond's ship, with the 'mighty young captain, bold on the sea...' song being sung in the style of the season one theme song in the background? brb i'm gonna go faint <3
I imagine Nina and Matthias that after the victory of Ravka on Fjerda in the war, arriving at the peace negotiations, where Brum and a group of Drüskelle are presents, hand in hand, in hangover, greetings with:
the fact that nikolai thought “because i am greedy for the sight of you” in response to zoya saying “you have barely looked at me”.
i can’t express how much this contrast hit me. he wants to look at her so much that he does not do it at all. because he knows he would not be able to stop, because he knows he cannot, and the longing to look at her is so unbereable that he can’t stand it, like she is the sun and is shining to bright to stand to stare at her, and the only thing he can do to bear this desire is to run from it. because he would spend his life drinking in the sight of her, and she’s there in pain because he won’t meet her eyes. and he cannot tell her this, but he can tell her he sees her suffering and he can try to make amend. and he does.
“i am looking at you now”
i will never stop shedding all my tears on this paragraph
"How could you be sure I spoke Suli?" she called after him.
"That was a spin of Makker's Wheel. Lucky for me, my number came up."
"One day your luck will run out, Mister Brekker."
"Then I'll just have to make some more." He paused and turned to look back over his shoulder at her. "The Suli never forget their own, General Nazyalensky. Just like crows."
Rule of Wolves, CHAPTER 28
Morning Doodle: "'Of course you do,' said Adrik. 'If you can find a way to put a sunny spin on something, you will.' It was true. Leoni was like cheer in a bottle—and not even months in Fjerda had dimmed her shine." Leigh Bardugo's King of Scars Ch 3
Ok but we NEED to talk about this interview with Leigh Bardugo and SJM. The interviewer asks what character is their favourite from each other's series, and Sarah answers Mal is her favourite in shadow and bone because "he is so hot" and "makes her sweaty".
Now, Mal is between the ages of 17 and 18 in the trilogy, just like Alina. This interview was 5 years ago, and Sarah was 30. So, basically this is a 30 year old grown woman talking about feeling attracted to a character while he is literally a teenager in the books. This, when most of her work is targeted as YA and sold for actual teens.
What makes it even worse is that Leigh opened up about being a victim of SA as a child not long ago. She's there having to listen to an adult YA writer go off about how she feels sexually attracted to her teen character.
She laughs but she seems to be unconfortable, then follows with a "isn't she classy" in a tone that doesn't actually suggested it being the case.
Don't come at me with "he is just a character" or "he doesn't exist" thing. Yeah, is obvious Mal doesn't exist, but the point is that she still imagines him as a teen in her head and feels attracted to that image. Leigh writed Mal and Alina as teenagers/kids because that's what they were. If that was a man in his 30s saying he though 17-18 Alina was "super hot" and talking about him sweating thinking about her, I bet there would be a lot more people talking about it. I'm just not ok with an author who writes for teens talking about feeling something for one, even if he is fictional, because the idea she has on her mind of him and is drawn to is still of a child.
I'm not trying to cancel her or anything, but I don't want to hear people asking why Leigh stopped being friends with Sarah after a while. And this is not the first time that someothing of this nature happened. There was also the whole soap thing, that they tried to brush under the rugs, together with the fact that her books should have been always targeted as adult and not YA considering their content, even her ex best friend Susan Dennard talked about this (which I want so say preach since not every author talks about those things). I'm also tired of seeing adults talking about having attraction towards teenagers and everybody pretending like is normal, when it truly isn't, in any type of context.