#ok imma start posting stuff on here again

[joker-ace]

I've been playing HSR and getting Welt as my first 5 star really solidified the "school field trip" vibe of the entire gameplay

#ok imma start posting stuff on here again #honkai star rail #hsr fanart #hsr #march 7th #dan heng #welt yang #hsr caelus #my art

[thatdeadaquarius]

-vine boom

I probably sent a lot of these now im so sorry lmfao 😅

You mentioned in one of the asks that some countries are like a prototype/based of our existing countries, like Germany=Mondstadt, Liyue=China, Inzauma=Japan....

So even though the language is more or less identical for you to make heads and tails in a conversation or writing in a book, the reverse side does not.

Creator!Reader who knows a couple of languages (plus points if they're atleast fluent or have a understanding of it despite not being able to speak said language) and being born from a country that doesnt have the same language as the countries Teyvat based off. Basically Spanish, Italian, Filipino, Scandinavian languages that also have their own way of writing.

Imagine feeling homesick and the only thing that keeps you occupied is the notebook and pen you have while the others converse in a meeting or in a hangout. You started writing in your tongue and re-reading it to relive memories.

Zhongli, AlHaitham, Albedo, Jean, maybe the Berry bros too (Diluc & Kaeya) get curious only to have a double-take and immediately thinks that maybe there is a forgotten land in Teyvat that has this language, I mean Morax stayed faithful to Liyue and Barbatos blessed his country with abundance of supplies and freedom. Teyvat gods and archons played favourites, so why wouldn't you as well? (Bonus: Khaenriah flashbacks) (also I know these arent enough characters but how should I know? I only have a handful of them and I ran out of Primos😭

The people from Akademiya though? I mean they went hard on theorizing and picking apart the language of their creator. Have you seen Matpat's descent to insanity the more FNAF continues to push out LoRe? Thats basically them because Teyvat doesn't have a country based on Creator's birth country. They're grasping nothing but air and dead ends and the only lead they have is you, but couldnt ask because you look so down and they cant bear to see Creator sad....

(NEW BANNER TOMORROW AND I DONT HAVE ENOGH PRIMOGEMS HALP---)

Rip Vine boom no primos 🙏 hope u got some more by this time bc i was so late to reply lol - DUDE IM SO READY FOR THE GORG KAVEH <333

BERRY BROS!! Thats it, thats the only way im gonna refer to them now.

Not super long to add onto ur bc UR SO SMART AND SUCH A GOOD WRITER VINEBOOM U SHOULD ALSO WRITE STUFF SO I CAN GO OBSESS OVER UR WRITING WITH A MILLION FERAL COMMENTS-!!!

(Cute owl house gif is like, metaphorially u and zhongli in this lol)

EDIT 8/23/23: So this may be inaccurate/not that good to my Hispanic Readers out there! Sorry about that, I'l make sure to do better in the future.

EDIT 1/1/24: Unfortunately there are even more issues here, and I'm really sorry about that. I expanded on it more in my Eldritch fanfic post in Part 2, but it was exoticism of me to use the word "Huangdi". I have since replaced it with "Emperor", and don't intend to just erase the mistake like it never happened. But I did change it in the headcanons for better readability. Again, I'm genuninely sorry about this, and will absolutely be watching out/doing better in the future. I hope you understand.

THIS SOUNDS SO SAD, LIKE THIS COULD DEF BE ANGST, ESP SINCE U HAVE NO FAMILIAR-ISH CULTURE TO TURN TO-

tbh im american and i def dont think theres a u.s. country- oh god at least I hope not, damn but im also familiar with mexican culture so i wouldnt miss the united states, but id miss mexican culture…

BUT!!

You have a lot of amazing people who care about you in Teyvat, so they won’t let you stew in ur homesickness for long

like random said, i could see it being small stuff

ok so imma just-

LATINO! READER TIME BABBYYYYY

(i do this bc its just the culture/language im more familiar with, but dont let that discourage anyone from requesting other cultures! I will def do my research, or ur welcome to tell me all about it so i can write it better! <3)

THAT BEING SAID IM MOSTLY WHITE PLS LMK IF SHIT IS WRONG/SPANISH IS WRONG BC IM STILL A BEGINNER MY BELOVED LATINES!

<3 YOU GUYS

♡

you’ve been in the game-turned-life world of Genshin Impact for nearly 6 months now, turns out time isnt wonky as hell like it is if you were playing the game, half bc u bribed Albedo with answers to his many questions about you if he figured out the time difference, and half bc of ur internal clock

people would notice the cuss words first lmao

like Xiao hearing u stubbing ur toe on the million and one steps up to Wangshu Inn, hijueputa!

or Keqing pointing out the words you coo at the dogs hanging out by the bridge outside the harbor,

un perrito tan buenoooo!! :’)

while most would just, " hmm, maybe a dialect of one of the other countries we havent heard…"

but Zhongli? he’s been ready for centuries in case the prophecy came true within his lifetime, afterall, many things changed while he’s been alive, not crazy to him that you might descend randomly

While everyone else was unprepared, bc u were like… the oldest deity, more legend than history, so ppl just thought Morax was a little overly faithful …so when it actually happened,, Morax was just smirking as he watched ur golden shooting star streak the night sky… while absolute pandemonium consumed the mortals and adepti in liyue lmao

(like that scene of Regina George in Mean Girls watching the student body break out into an all out brawl just smirking 😭 pls god look it up if u dont know what i mean- )

So Morax- Zhongli, has been ready for you, just in case, to pay attention to what kind of person you’d be, learn your favorite clothes/colors/offerings, see what things you’d like to talk about with him (hopefully for hours) etc.

He was observant, and with his memory, he practically gave himself headaches sometimes with how aware he was,

on one of those days he was overwhelmed by the mortal crowds, the smells, the market yelling, and all the change from what he thought he knew-

Zhongli noticed you in your own melancholy, and curious, he began to stroll just behind

You sit at Wanmin restaurant, still somber, and ask Xiangling to

“please try out these recipes? they’re from my world, and id really love to have something like them again..”

a true experimental chef as always, Xiangling quickly takes up your offer, and u follow her into the kitchens in the back (the restaurant is much more real than in game, they have gorgeous inside seating, all shades of red coloring the walls and lots of pretty latticework-)

Zhongli takes a seat finally, he has a usual table at this point he comes in so much coughtorunintoyoucough the staff know it's his and give him tea pretty quickly

the food, and the looks, makes it your favorite restaurant in Liyue, the Liuli Pavilion a little too fancy for casual dining, afterall, Zhongli would know

He’s tried to keep track of your favorite places to be in Liyue too, and kept his near full attention on what you say when he asks after your stays in Liyue (he hasn’t felt the need to pay that much attention or felt that much interest in conversation partners in… decades?)

So when you come out of the kitchen, throwing your head back and laughing, "Sí, sí! It all tastes so close Xiangling! Gracias, thank you!"

He wants… to know.

to know what those strange, but delicious looking, foods are all balanced on two big dinner plates

Xiangling carrying whatever you couldn’t just behind, a pitcher of white liquid, it smells, like cinnamon?

He raises a hand, and offers the extra seats at his table, (when did his tea go cold? he only just sat down, he couldn’t have spent that long thinking about you…)

You notice and look over, a giddy grin lighting up your face (…hmm, perhaps he needs to transform into his Exuvia form and let off some steam, his chest has warmed too much right now for him to just be sitting here…)

You plop into the seat beside him, but not before carefully placing the plates in front of both you and Zhongli

You scootch around until you’re turned towards him, as always, Zhongli looks… actually kind of, happy?

a small soft smile pulls at his lips, his eyes half-lidded as they meet yours, his usual red eyeliner framing his monolids perfectly, he looks like he’s been,, well, sculpted from stone, an artwork come to life

“…My Emperor? Could I trouble you to tell me about the dishes before us?”

the geo god’s pleasantly smooth and deep voice felt so soft asking you that, like he didn’t want to push you one direction or the other

“Oh! Right! Sorry, these are from my home country, back in my world, or at least, as close as Xiangling and I can get to them!”

Your smile brightens your face once more, clearing away any leftover stormclouds from your mood earlier, and as you launch into explaining (Xiangling had to get back to orders, so it’s just you two now)

You list it all, the quintessential: quesadillas, empanadas, tamales, chorizo (you had to combine at least 5 different spices to Mondstadt sausages to get anywhere close to the real thing) the dips obviously, salsa, queso, guacamole, and the easy street tacos, and finally the horchata, but also all the weird fruits Teyvat has with chile, like Sunsettias mixed with Harra from Sumeru or Lavender melons with Wolfhook berries… all surpringly pretty good

(the Sun-Harra combo tastes like mango, a sort of deeper taste of pineapple/kiwi and a sort of light orange taste? all with the nice addition of chile flavors, the Lavender melons and Wolfhooks helped imitate chamoy enough that your heart was satisfied)

…you realize you’ve just been talking about the last meal you had with your family/friends instead of the food after a bit, and Zhongli hasn’t said anything…

you trail off and look back over your shoulder (u were practically about to get your shirt in the imitation guac u were leaning so far over the table to point and talk)

you’re about to sheepishly apologize for taking over the conversation, and ask if he wants to try anything (Zhongli can handle spice so u dont have to worry abt that at least)

but as u finally see his face, u just stop, and dont end up saying anything

He’s just, looking at you.

his smile's not huge, but big enough to make his eyes look happy, and Zhongli’s just… looking at you.

You can’t describe the look he’s giving you, but you suddenly feel… a wave of shyness wash over your heart in your chest, because he’s looking almost like, maybe like, he’s sort of, waiting for you to keep talking, his tan skin warm in the golden rays of the sun beginning to set, you don’t know why you’re noticing any of these things, and he gently, slowly, makes a move to lean into your space a little

almost above your armrest, head inches from your shoulder, he finally moves to stop looking at you-

He looks like a painting as he looks down, his eyelashes almost sitting on his high cheekbones,

you have to move your head to looking at the table too as he moved so close,

you feel your shoulders reflexitively hitch upwards as you brushed the hair on the side of his head as you turned away

He looks around, and then moves his head, not his body, he’s still leaning toward you, to look you right in the eyes again

“Why did you stop? I haven’t said much, I apologize, but it’s only because I wanted to hear you without anything interrupting you.”

You cough a little strained, “Oh! Oh I get it now yeah, thanks-”

“I want to hear you more,” his black eyes begin to warm with gold, you can vaguely see the shape of his diamond pupil revealing itself, “I want to hear about… everything, if you’ll tell me? The language, the food, the drinks, your family, your dances, your country, I want to hear it all. Won’t you please let me hear your voice some more?”

♡

GOOOD LOOORDDDD, ITS SO LONGGGGG IM SO SORRRYYY 😭😭

OKAY IM MOSTLY SORRY THAT THIS SCENARIO HAPPENED??? IDK WHERE ZHONGLI CAME FROM- GOD IM SUBCONCIOUSLY IN LOVE WITH THAT MAN I GUESS, SORRY RANDOMANTICS-

uh, hope somebody got anything out of this, sorry abt the length, again,

also pls somebody tell me if what i said about culture/food was alright! If not I’ll def change it, pls dont let me keep it up if its inaccurate/wrong!!

Safe Travels you guys,

💀♒️

.°•.☆.•°.

♡ the beloveds ♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist / @thedevioussmirk

#fuck my tags ♡ #im so tired of putting them #idk why but my heads emptied of all i need to put <3 #UR HAVE SUCH GREAT IDEAS RANDOM!!! #i meant what i said before the gif! #genshin impact #genshin sagau #ask box open #sagau #my asks #genshin imagines #gender neutral reader #genshin isekai #genshin god reader #zhongli imagines #zhongli x reader #genshin impact sagau

[sugaroto]

Ok you know what's kinda funny about "Jackson's Diary", or rather "plot twist-y"?

So, ok, imma be honest, when I started the comic I thought it was bl or lgbt or something. Be it the art or the description or the fact that everything I read is gay, I thought this was some kind of enemies to lovers/as magic stuff is going on around the school or something

I really thought the 2 mains were gonna end up together

And I wasn't the only one who thought that cause a lot of the comments were talking about it

But no. Soon you realize they're all very straight, exer is still in love with his ex girlfriend and Jackson kinda gets in a love triangle with exer's ex and the girl exer bullied last year. Also it's set in like- the 80s? Soo. They probably don't know what gay is. (Or they ignore it yknow)

But....

"Wasn't David bi in the canvas version?" said the comments "Yeah he was I think he liked Exer"

So then I'm trying to figure out if he's bi, and some chapters later he's literally making heart eyes around exer but like, in the background

And he's not that important at the time so I'm like oh ok great he's the comedic relief stereotypical gay character?

And exer is like... straight and in love with David's twin sister so nothing will happen right?

Jokes on me

Like 100 chapters later and this is Exer's reaction to David saying they're friends

The gay panic

Had me fooled there honestly

Also ok, I know my post is focused around the gay romance here, but like the comic is really interesting I do recommend it

Jackson goes to a new school and he is the only one who can see some kind of "green magic" messing around with his daily life

Shit happens, he makes friends, he gets into love triangles as I mentioned before (not for that long, thankfully) he gets into fights and makes new friends again

The characters are all very interesting, I was gonna say nice, but then realized half of them are assholes, currently it seems like they're trying to be better people tho

And even though it's set in the 80s it seems most of the main characters were accepting of the lgbt ones (well ok so far 2 people know about it so yknow, ) the only assholes were some bullies literally called Rick and Marty who used gay as a slur or something like 50 chapters ago

Well, and I can't really say anything much without spoiling more, I've already talked enough about their sexualities I'm not telling you what's happening with the green stuff

#some background checks on the characters #Jackson just moved back here and lives with his foster family his tía and tío(aunt&uncle) along with Ronald some Russian guy who also lives #with them but i dont remember where he came from? like?is that some kind of Erasmus? foster? idk i forgot. He doesn’t speak much. BUT WHEN #HE DOES. that little κατινα knows too much. anyways. then we've got exer who lives with his dad and hes the popular guy at school #his best friend david who lives with dad and then there's David's twin- Brenda who lives with their mom #and Pamela who used to be friends with brenda but shit happened #in most recent chapters we met new characters like Timothy Ken and Lola? help i forgot her name #wait was his name ken or kev #whatever the other guy is named Timothy i know that #those 3 became close friends at detention. they've been there since like- last year #they did shit. wasn't their fault. i mean ok yeah it was- but it was an accident you know? they're good kids #oh there's also a cat named Lucy-fuurrr #and i need to go to sleep #jackson's diary #webtoon #comic #sugarenia talks #sugarenia thoughts

[r0tting-0r4ng3s]

Ok so here’s how this is gonna go from now on:

Seeing as this is my fourth acc, I’m not gonna be posting stuff, imma just lurk here.

If I get comfortable enough I MIGHT start posting but honestly I just want a community.

I’m so so so sorry, if y’all were my moots pls follow me again ):

#4nerex1a #4norexla #4nor3xia #4n0rexic #4n4blr #4n4m1a #4n4memes #4n4rexia #4n4t1ps #4n4tips #4nami4 #4namia #4narex1a #4norexia

[tired-biscuit]

i've just seen your posts on dash biscuit and its so sad you're feeling like that :( If i'm to tell you the honest truth biscuit, I don't remember how I found your account but i remember being so intrigued and hooked immediately - I went on to read your War General Kiba (to somewhat expose myself.. I am War General Kiba anon from around a month ago) bc your writing itched my brain so fuckin good !!

It makes me so sad that uni started recently for me and I have been so caught up I haven't gotten around to reblogging war general kiba because I haven't gotten the moment to write my thoughts regarding those:( they're sitting in my drafts. I decided I would read every single one of your fics a month ago (unfortunately I haven't been able to yet) - including the naruto thirst you elaborated on for me, and though I haven't gotten time to read it, THANK YOU SO MUCH BISCUIT for taking your time out to do that :( <3

You deserve every single one of those likes , but you deserve them alongside an equal amount of reblogs :/ i sincerely hope that these followers and whatnot pull their heads out of their ass and start reblogging - because if they don't, they're not going to have anything to read. bc biscuit you are such an amazing and talented writer, and it always blows my mind we get to read your masterpieces for free. FOR FREE!!!! that is so crazy like, this is stuff that could get you MILLIONS and we have the blessing from you to type a few words onto our screens and read it! like WOW thank you so much <3 🍁 anon

oh my gosh, you’re so sweet; imma start sobbing!

listen, you don’t have to apologize for not being able to read my fics; i get it, life happens and we get busy as people and fanfiction definitely is NOT everything there is to life! so please don’t say sorry for that because there is literally no need for it, like i said. YOU’RE GOOD!

it just grinds my gears that i’m not allowed to vent on here about this particular topic because some people will INSTANTLY jump the wagon to call me ungrateful. i get it, i get notes, but people usually don’t understand that likes don’t mean shit on here and that the majority of those notes are just that: likes. sure, i get a little notif that someone liked my story, but i have no clue what they thought about it based from that heart. i have no clue if they’ve even actually read it. to make matters even worse, it makes the post just straight up fucking die.

i spend hours and hours and hours writing, editing, rereading, tweaking the same story for ages. i could just not post it and keep it to myself, sure, but i enjoy interacting with my moots and my followers in general, and giving people that share my interest in the same characters something to read about, because let’s be real; kiba is niche af. i like feeding the kiba girlies because i barely had anything to eat a couple years back when it comes to him and i’ve worked my fucking ass off for those notes over the years, SO OF COURSE I APPRECIATE THEM, OK?

this debate, or whatever you wanna call it, has been circling around here for ages and it’s useless at this point, i think... writers, artists, creators of all sorts say “please say thank you for my creation that i made for YOU after you’ve asked, i beg” and people call us ungrateful or stuck up or whatever the fuck. i mean, do people seriously think i enjoy self-reblogging all the time and begging for interaction like that robin hood meme with the cup???????? no, i do it because it is the only way people will see my work before it disappears into the ether once again, ffs!!!!!!!!

ANYWAYS, i will write a drabble for your war general!kiba ask when i have the time, i promise! i just want to actually make it good and write like a proper story instead of just my thoughts because he is very dear to me and i am a perfectionist when it comes to my royalty AU and it makes me overthink and just… yeah! he has been sitting in the back of my head, clanking his heavy weapons impatiently, lmao.

I LOVE YOU!

#biscuit mail #🍁 anon

[remixunderdacover]

So… this is my first post. I’m new on here so umm I’m a TMNT fan. Anyways here goes nothing!

Mis spelled words

First time writer

Leo X FemReader

You where currently in the lair scrolling through TikTok on your phone trying to think of a way to ask Leo if you could sparr with him.

You peaked your head over your shoulder looking at Leo. "Hey Leo you got any social media accounts?" The blue banded turtle looked at you from the chair he is sitting in. "No not exactly"

"Ok no big deal just wondering" You look back at your phone as Leo comes to sit next to you. "You got an account? What do you post?"

Leo looks at your phone just watching you scroll through your FYP. "I don’t really post but when I do it’s just stuff with my friends" You click on your home bottom showing him your few videos on your account.

He just nods his head looking at what you show him. "Um Leo would it be ok if… I sparred with you?" You do your famous lip bit as you fiddle with your hands waiting for his response. "Yeah sure. I mean I don’t have an issue with it, just make sure your ready when you wanna." He rubbed his hands over his shorts before he looked back up at you.

You look at your phone checking the time as it read 6:03 pm. "Ok imma go to my apartment and change real quick then I’ll come back and we can sparr." You stand up as you start to walk out of the lair. Leo stayed in his seat. "Alright then I’ll wait for you to get back." You nod as you mark your way out of the lair.

You get to your apartment change into a gray crop top and some light green shorts. "If this is gonna happen more often I need to do shopping and get some really work out clothes."

As you walk back in the lair Leo isn’t in view only leading where you two should be meeting anyways.

You walk in the dojo seeing him stretching. "Ok I know I need to go shopping and get better work out clothes, but I hope this works at lest for today." Leo turned his head to face you as he started his arm stretches he looked you up and down noticing your crop top being a little on the short side and your shorts being a decent shade of green that suited you.

"Your fine for today it won’t bother me." His eyes go up and down again really look at your outfit. "Ya… your fine in that."

You blush a little at his complement for you and at the fact that he was actually checking you out, that was a new thing. Once you both finished your stretches you got into your fighting stance waiting for him to make a move.

"But hey if I hurt you or I get to ruff tell me." He cared, he didn’t wanna hurt you on y’alls first sparring match or any of them. "Ok but I must warn you Leonardo, I don’t go easy" You smirk.

Leo pushes forward with a punch as he comes at you, you push his fist away from you as you move out of the way. Surprised by your first move he continues.

He moves for another punch witch you move out of the way, he goes for a side kick witch you block. You round house him as he backs up. "Your pretty fast on your feet… respect." He nodes his head as he blocks another kick from you.

You duck as he moves with a back fist and a jump. Then you do a windmill kick spinning to go fast at him, that’s when you put your guard down and he pines you down with him being on top of you.

"Ok… I deserve that…" You wheeze bringing a smile on Leo’s face. "You know you should never let your guard down, especially when your fighting a skilled opponent."

"Oh wise leader I’m so sorry." You make a dramatic expression. "Please let me go for I will never make the mistake again…" You laugh at your own joke as Leo does the same.

You both make eye contact as Leo watched your e/c eyes watch his with the same movements as his do. His blue eyes just seem to light up at times this being one of them, you almost felt like those eyes of his could just take you to a calm place just as you where right now watching them.

That was until he spoke. "Can I kiss you?" You froze knowing what he said was not from a dream but real. "Oh! Uh… y- ya." He slowly leaned down ever so gently touching his lips to yours. *His hands loosen from your wrists allowing you to slid your hands to his biceps. He slowly sit up gently holding your face with his right hand pulling you up with him as he takes another kiss, now sitting up right he brings you in close pressing his chest to yours as he presses into the kiss a bit more.

As the kiss slowly parts Leo looks at you and those pretty e/c eyes of yours.

"Not a bad way to end a training session" I get a cocky grin on my face.

Leo shakes his head smiling "No it most definitely is not"

#tmnt bayverse #tmnt fandom #tmnt #tmnt 2014 #tmnt 2016

[glamorousruins]

Art Dump #2

continuation of this post!

sighs as I place this bad boy down

So I had this big idea of something I wanted to do for my mutuals. So basically, my love language is gift-giving, right? I wanted to draw a headshot and a little sketch page of the yuusonas/yuus (or just any character of my mutuals) and gift it to them!! Either for being my mutual and putting up with my incoherent daily screaming or whatever.

Now here's what happened:

Life happened, not enough time happened, and at one point I started to really dislike how I drew the current headshots :')))). My style had begun to change when I looked back on this and it bugged me so much that I'm currently abandoning this batch and starting from square one again orz.

Regardless, the characters (in order from left to right) belong to @ai-0uch, @twstlibrary, and @twstedstoryshop !! So sorry that I didn't do your characters justice

But anyway, if you want separate headshots of them lmk! Trust me, I'll do them right one-day orz

ok this is an older sketch but one of my favorite ones regardless

This was inspired by a concept by my homies @smalltasteofhoney and @187-mg!!! Blowing a kiss to you both <33

This sketch is a result of their Idia x reader x Cater fic and everything that went on in the discord server lmaooo I'm sorry but you cannot convince me that Idia is not a discord mod and Cater is scamming him by being his discord kitten. It's literally canon, Cater told me

anyways, it's ugly and old but Imma do a redraw of this one!! Fun fact, this was the first time I've ever drawn Idia lmao

Okay so under the cut will be the NSFW drawings! This does not include sexual stuff smh, I mean yandere, gore, blood, bruises, cuts, etc !! So please beware of that

Okay, so I mentioned in a post that Ru, my version of Yuu, tends to get in fights!! More often than not, he gets his ass beat

While I have to develop the lore more, there is this specific Savanaclaw student who particularly likes giving Ru a hard time. I just wanted to draw the aftermath of said fight! You'll see that his clothes are a bit burnt at some parts and that's because it's hard to win a fight where magic is being used against you

Especially if you are magic-less:')))

anyways, I'm not too happy with this one but it is what it is

SLASHER TREY SLASHER TREY AJUQWHGEVW

Okay so on the discord server we were talking about this one Micheal Myers fanart and how for some reason it gave off Trey vibes???

So I present to you: Micheal Myers!Trey~~~ Ok. So it's terribly obvious idk how to draw blood. I kinda gave up on this one because I couldn't get it in a way I'd like but it's alright. There is another version of Trey smirking at us but I didn't finish it

If anyone wants to see it then I'll finish that one though

please don't ask where his glasses are- idk where they are ok

YAN RUGGIE AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Ok so I was trying to draw Ace smiling for an ask but then it morphed into yandere Ruggie somehow??? I am actually still working on this one atm and this is currently my Latest drawing- I figured I'd share it anyways!!

I am in love with how it coming out so far... his eyes are my favorite part

he's just so... *swoons*

Anyways- that's all folks! Hope you enjoyed this little dump lmao

Hopefully, this can show that my art style is slowly getting better orz auaghhh. Though it's very obvious that I only like doing headshots/portrait-like drawings. And that's because I do!! I like making drawings as if they are a photo still in time that you're looking at. I like making the things I draw seem like a photo taken at random and my drawings are the result

This is also an excuse to not draw bodies but ignore that

#ruin nonsense #art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland art #mutuals #man i hope this shows that my art is improving... #some days it's rlly hard to like my art #but i think it's slowly getting to a place where I can enjoy it again #i am currently obsessed with the ruggie one though #god i love it sm #anyways #im working on fics rn!! #i just wanted to give some content in the mean time

[tavarillasgalen]

feeling depressed about the supreme court decision regarding student loans and ran across another “if you live with your parents as an adult, you’re a deadbeat underachiever” post, so

imma try and list the things i’ve accomplished/am proud of so far this year.

- got promoted at work

- lost 15 lbs

- broke up with my bf of 7 years

- have a better relationship with my family than i have since...  high school?

- going from an unhealthy lifestyle to working out regularly and eating mostly healthy

- almost paid off all debts that aren’t student loan-related, only a month or two left until the only debt i have is student loans, unless something happens (hopefully nothing does)

- finally moved my horse to a stable where i can trust the people to take care of her + have been able to see her much more frequently

- started working on my books to publish again

- working on web design/development certificate

- working on nutrition certificate

- doing French lessons every day

- started doing my hobbies again + trying new ones. learning that it is ok to do things just because you like them - they don’t need to make you money, they can just be fun.

- started going after things i’ve always wanted to do - like mounted archery and adult ballet classes.

- started... living. just in general. like, making plans for the future and everything, and taking steps to help my future self, like scheduling general wellchecks.

- working on forgiving myself for all the things i didn’t do or learn and the mistakes i made because i was so suicidal for so many years. i’ll get all depressed about where i’m at in life, and then i have to remind myself that like, up until just a couple of months ago, i wanted to die. i made no real effort at a life for myself or anything because i didn’t want to be here. it’s hard, because i feel so behind in so many ways. but i’m working on being kind to myself. my past self worked so hard at just... staying alive. and for years, that was the most difficult thing. and now that i actually want to live and have a good life, a successful life, a happy life, i’m learning things and doing things that people who have generally always wanted to live have been doing for forever. i can’t be mad at my past self for not doing any of this stuff when simply living was the hardest thing. yes, i’m late to the game in a lot of things, but... i think that if people knew why, they wouldn’t judge. but it is still hard, logically knowing all this, but still getting depressed and frustrated because of things my past self didn’t do that others at the same age were doing. i’m working on it, anyway.

- just generally, my mental health is so much better. i’m nowhere near as anxious and depressed as i was mere months ago. i’m kind of going through a depressive episode now, because while most people get seasonal depression in the winter, the summer months are always the worst for me. but i can do things by myself, i can talk to people, i don’t freeze and start shaking at the idea of something new, i actually want to live? i still get suicidal thoughts sometimes, but they’re a lot rarer than they used to be, and i have zero inclination to act on them.

and more.

so while i’m nowhere near where i want to be, i’m taking steps in the right direction. i’m actively working on my goals. i actually want to live. so that’s something.

#personal

[gothmoneyswag]

i know you left this as the tags on some old post but im interested in hearing your thoughts on d-vilman crybaby especially as someone who didnt read the original manga ^_^

yo ok so i haven't actually read the manga however. i have seen devilman crybaby and its got Issues imo. i can tend to break down most of my main complaints into 4 or 5 points. it might get a bit long so imma put it beneath the cut :) also because spoilers for specific things perhaps

possesion anime in general is kind of a hit or miss concept to me. imo the only "possession"/gets powers type anime i really care for is parasyte. tokyo ghoul didnt do much for me from what i saw, havent seen csm but it doesnt do much for me either. likewise devilman just... doesnt really do it for me as far as its premise and initial set up goes (side note: does code geass count here? i have so many thoughts on that series it wouldnt fit here but regardless)

i feel bad for saying this but i really do not like devilman crybaby's artstyle. like it just does not look good to me. im okay with different artstyles but this one just looks ugly. sorry

i feel like the story is just. poor. not good. it starts much too slow for how insane the story gets on later. if you take a show it influenced (evangelion), its pretty up front with its premise up front. i know people have made jokes for years about how eva gets weird and its a bait and switch but like.... not really? like at its core it is a mecha show about kids fighting aliens in robots and even with the character study stuff it doesnt veer that far from that initial premise. devilman crybaby has... a nightclub rave where akira gets posssessed so some white boy can play god while akira does good at track? like its not a strong start and it only gets worse from there. again, i know the reason the end of evangelion ends the way it does is BECAUSE of devilman but like. they just did not execute that ending correctly at all the final few episodes feels so constrained and so much happens in such a short period that it feels like the ultimate anticlimax. its hard for me to care about any of what happens because so much happens in so little time. its worthless and makes me feel nothing as a viewer. these bitches gay! good for them. good for them. what's not good for them is the story. cuz it sucks.

this ties in with my general distaste for the story but i also feel the characters are super weak. again, i feel nothing towards them and they all feel like cardboard cut outs with little personality to them at all. it all returns to nothing so i have no reason to care about them when theyre all gonna be killed off screen in the most contrived and terrible battle sequence maybe ever. ryo is the worst offender by far. his character fucking sucks dude. i dont think he even does anything in the story besides ruin akira's life and then sit in his ivory tower and act gay until the narrative decides "actually he was Satan the whole time!!" fuck you. and fuck those rap battle dudes too your bars fucking suck

i think a final point to end this on is that it is just far and away so much worse than everything it influenced. even if i read the manga or watched the original devilman, im pretty sure the story would remain much the same. and as such, there is literally not reason to watch devilman (much less crybaby) in 2023 when literally everything that came after it is better. i realize this is kind of a silly argument given how i listen to music but im standing by it. just watch evangelion. watch parasyte. watch berserk. play shin megami tensei. consume literally anything else that isn't this trite

i think that's all my main points. im sure i had more but i wrote this over the course of my day whenever id think of something else so. if i think of any more criticisms i had and forgot i'll reblog this and amend the post. sorry it's so long i just had way more to say that i originally thought. lol

#my post #asks #devilman #devilman crybaby #akira fudo #fudo akira #ryo asuka #not tagging this with the other anime i mentioned cuz that feels silly #also as i was looking up stuff for this post i remembered that one monogatari ass sequence with track meet and that one girl #like turning into a demon on live tv or something? #idk i just remember it being fucking stupid #nd that while being stupid i didnt think it was signifigant enough of a stupid thing to put into this mass of a post #yea. thats all i got. i think

[hedgyhog-lawly]

Nothing fancy just a lil fic I quickly wrote for Valentine's Day and wanted to share here (originally posted on Ao3 under the same name as here :)

Note : Ok so I wanted to write a cute lil fic for Valentine's Day... Here it is XD Don't mind the poor writing, I started to write this the 13th at 8pm,went to sleep like an hour and a half after, continued to write the 14th between my school lessons and finished the 15th in the morning in the bus to go to school and before starting classes sooo yea xD (yes imma blame my not so good writing on a lack of time even tho I could've started earlier or posted it later, shhh XD). So uh ye, enjoy I guess xD and don't get your hopes too high LMAO - ALSOOO I got the idea from a rp I did in the Servamp amino and I used stuff from that rp ^^ last thing- I know my paragraphs are shit lmaooo I didn't feel like spending too much time separating them oops, but I promise I'll try better next time xD

Summary:

It's Valentine's Day, and Hyde has a date. But what would happen if that girl didn't show up? What if Licht was the one to come, and what if Hyde had it all planned from the start?

A random hotel in Japan, 13th of February

Licht was playing piano, as usual. And Hyde was laying on his bed, bored, so bored. Initially, he had decided to listen to Licht's music, but the violent teen's temper (and Hyde's habit of teasing him about pretty much everything) had resulted in a fight between the two, which caused a lot of kicks aimed at the vampire , and resulted in Hyde being kicked out of the room by Licht with an angry "Don't you dare come in here again or I'll kick you through the window!". Rude. Hyde was only trying to entertain himself, after all! Since the pianist seemed to be unable to do anything but play,leaving him forced to stay around, it was only fair for him to use Licht for his entertainment!

He sighed, shifting to look out of the window at the town. Since he's been kicked out, he had already grown bored of his other usual occupations, and the only thing left was looking outside, spying on the people that were doing interesting stuff. Well, maybe not *that*interesting stuff, but at least more interesting than what he was doing, he thought with a sigh.

As he was looking at the people, he let his mind wander. The streets were prettier than usual, many shops seemed to offer discounts and a lot of people seemed in a hurry. He tilted his head, wondering why. Did he forget about some stupid holidays…? He continued to look at the streets and the people, a bit confused, before it hit him, his eyes widening. Valentine's Day, how could he forget! Well, it's not like he had someone to spend that day with…. He hummed, going back to watching the streets, silencing his thoughts about how it would've been nice to have someone, and that it could be a nice moment. No, Valentine's Day was stupid, like Licht would probably say. Not that he cared about Licht's opinion on the matter, though! He definitely didn't.

He was lost in thoughts, still watching. People outside seemed to have fun… not fair. He wanted to have fun as well! But when you're alone, sometimes, whatever you try to do, it's not fun. It's not like he can ask Licht, this stupid angel is always locked with his piano, though thinking about it, Licht is the one who needs to go out, more than Hyde does, even if he's bored out of his mind. After a bit, the sides of his lips curled into a smile. Yeah, Licht *really* needs to go out. And since Hyde is so *generous*, he'll help him. He sat up, trying to think. How could he make Licht go out? He thought, still absent-mindly looking at the street. Then, his smile widened. The perfect occasion to make Licht leave his piano was before his eyes, in the street! Valentine's Days… He'll need a bit of thinking to find a reason, but he'll find something. After all, it's not like he lacks time.

~Several hours later, in Crantz's hotel room~

[...] "See, Crantz, that's why you need to help me! Licht needs to spend some time outside, don't you think?!"

Crantz listened to him, a slight smile on his lips "So you want my help to set you a Valentine's Day date with Licht, that's it?" Hyde's brows furrowed and he said loudly "No, absolutely not! I just think he needs to see the outside world more so he won't go even crazier than he already is, and since he won't go out by himself, won't listen to me, and that Valentine's Day is right around the corner, it's the perfect logical plan!" Crantz hummed "and the only way you thought of to make him go out was to fake being forgotten by your date so Licht would pity you and come instead not to leave you alone?"

Hyde shrugged, nodding "It did sound like a pretty nice plan when I thought about it."

"what if he doesn't care and says it's well deserved?"

"he won't want to miss an opportunity to make fun of me" he rolled his eyes

Crantz laughed and nodded, and with that it was settled; he'd help Hyde, for the sake of making Licht see the outside world and… because he's seen something in Hyde, something that maybe was worth letting grow, he thought with a smile, as he heard Hyde walking in the music room.

Licht was finally forced to stop playing in the evening, when Crantz forced him to leave the music room to eat a proper meal. He wasn't very happy about it, since he'd decided to practice the whole evening. After the meal, Crantz said that he needed to "talk" to him. Licht sighed, expecting another lecture on how he should focus on other things than the piano or how he should try and get along better with Hyde, so he was rather surprised when Crantz mentioned Valentine's Day, saying that it was soon. He frowned, wondering why Crantz would want to talk about that, and didn't answer, looking at him with a raised brow. Crantz hummed, trying "Anyway.. Did you know that Hyde had a Valentine? He's going on a date". Licht's face stayed neutral but he internally frowned. Why the hell would Crantz make him come to say that? He didn't *care * what Hyde was doing on Valentine's Day, or with who! He huffed "What does that have to do with me? I don't care what the shit rat is doing!" Crantz looked around as if to check if anyone was around before answering "She's not coming". A smug smile appeared on Licht's face "Of course. She's realized he's a demon and want nothing to do with him anymore" he replied, seeming a bit too happy about it for someone who didn't care.

"I don't know the reason, but she's more likely not coming, that's why… I need you to do something. Can you go in place of that girl? If he's left alone on Valentine's Day because his date didn't show up, we won't see the end of it, and I want to have a bit of peace ". Licht frowned, processing the information" You want me to go on a date with him on Valentine's Day? What the hell, Crantz ! " he answered, seemingly disgusted, though the tip of his ears were slightly pink. Crantz shook his head" Well, it's more… saving him so he doesn't stay alone? I understand, you're thinking that it'll be embarrassing for you if the girl eventually shows up… "

Licht scoffed" If she shows up, I'll make her leave! "

Crantz grinned and Licht immediately added with a frown" as an angel, I can't let a human be fooled by that demon. That's why I'll come. To protect the girl if she comes. "

Crantz hid his laughters and nodded, then starting to explain to Licht all he needed to know about the hour the place…

Licht was sitting on his bed, frowning. So low of that demon to try and corrupt an innocent girl on Valentine's Day! He'll make him regret that, regardless of whether the girl was to come. He spent the rest of the evening talking about it, probably angrier than he should've been.

~~~~

Valentine's Day, in the morning

Hyde woke up early in the morning, in a good mood. It would be a good day, he felt it. He did everything he had to do, humming happily. On the other hand, Licht was in a bad mood. He was annoyed by the fact Hyde had a date, and even more annoyed that such an unimportant thing could bother him. 'is it really that unimportant though?' whispered a voice at the back of his mind, but he ignored it. Of course it wasn't important. Hyde could date anyone, he didn't care! The only reason he did would be to be sure he didn't trick innocent people into dating him, that's all.' is it the only reason?' he huffed. Of course it was. He rolled his eyes, even more annoyed than before, and left his room, hoping to stop thinking about dumb stuff.

During the day, Licht was particularly mean with Hyde, snapping at him and kicking way more often. And of course, Hyde, seeing that Licht seemed pissed off, couldn't resist annoying him even more. In the earlier afternoon, surprisingly, Licht left his piano, apparently planning to leave the hotel. Hyde, rather surprised, asked where he was going but was only answered with a "An angel doesn't need to tell where he goes to a demon. If you follow me I'll break your bones." Hyde smiled at the usual threat but decided not to follow him. After all, he'll see him enough in the evening, he thought with a slight smile.

Licht was in town, going from shop to shop,searching for a present to Hyde. Since he would show up to his date, he had to bring him a present. And since he was an angel, it had to be a nice present. That was the only reason why he'd been searching for some hours now. Not because he wanted to buy something nice for Hyde, or because he wanted to comfort him for being left alone. Of course not, that demon deserved it, he thought, frowning at the thought that Hyde had a date with someone else. He eventually stopped by a nice Caffè and decided to relax there for a bit, ordering some pastries.

He relaxed while eating, his mind wandering. He didn't really know what to buy for Hyde… What did that shit rat even like beside Shakespeare and being annoying-? He hummed, thinking. Usually, for Valentine's Day, people bought stuff like chocolate or sweets… He could buy Hyde chocolate, too. He frowned, remembering the chocolate boxes he'd seen: red and pink, heart shaped with ribbons,... Too lovey-dovey. And Hyde would tease him *forever* if he were to gift him such a thing. Though he'll probably appreciate it, given how cheesy he was, he thought, unconsciously smiling. He shrugged, deciding that he'll buy chocolate here. After all, they were pretty good. And he would know, he was eating one right now. And the bonus was, the box wouldn't scream 'see it's a heart-shaped box because you have my heart!'. He quietly finished eating and bought a chocolate box for Hyde, then going back to the hotel.

Hyde's been excited the whole day, looking forward to the "date" with Licht, even if he wouldn't admit it to anyone. No, he was just being a good Servamp by helping his eve relax, that's it! He was pacing in his room, wishing time would go faster. Meanwhile, Licht was in his own room, trying to work on a new piece. Trying was the good word, since he wasn't really able to concentrate. Thoughts at the back of his mind were preventing him from fully concentrating on his music. As usual, it was Hyde's fault ;it was what Licht told himself, despite Hyde not even being in the same room. But it was Hyde's fault anyway, since he was the one Licht couldn't stop thinking about. Or more precisely, his date. He didn't like the thought of Hyde wanting to date people, he thought, frowning. Why so? He asked himself. Licht wasn't one to hesitate or not get what he wanted, that's why he eventually put his notebook away, scanning his mind, willing to understand exactly what was bothering him and what he could do to feel peaceful again.

~~~

In the evening, at the restaurant

Hyde was sitting at the table, waiting. Crantz confirmed that Licht had accepted, but Hyde knew it was still possible that he wouldn't come. He was nervously fidgeting, starting to think it maybe wasn't a good idea. Even if Licht was to come, what was he supposed to do then? It would be awkward…. He sighed. He should've thought about it earlier. It was a bad idea.

Licht was in front of the restaurant, looking at Hyde. As Crantz said, the girl wasn't there and Hyde was alone at the table, looking nervous. He stayed there for some time, looking at him. He was wearing quite formal clothes, and his hair was styled. Eventually, he came in and walked to the table,but Hyde didn't immediately notice him. Licht frowned slightly, standing in front of the table. He eventually lightly kicked Hyde's leg "Your date isn't going to come, but this angel came so you wouldn't look too miserable, left alone on Valentine's Day". Hyde looked up at him and forced a smile "What do you mean, Lichtan~ ? She's obviously just late". He rolled his eyes "Cut the act, demon. You look shitty" his smile dropped and he shrugged "If you came here to 'save' me, you shouldn't be insulting me, y'know". Licht huffed, calling for the waiter with a swift motion "whatever. Be glad I'm gracing you with my presence, hedgehog." he then turned to the waiter, ordering food then making the waiter leave. Hyde pouted, complaining "You didn't even let me order!". The teen glared at him "Whatever. A demon like you doesn't deserve nice food." he then went silent until his food was brought, starting to eat.

Licht was quietly eating, appearing slightly bored and annoyed. In reality, he didn't know what to do. His interactions with Hyde usually always led to a fight, and it wasn't often that he actually had to talk to him. After all, Hyde should be the one making the conversation, since it was his fault that Licht was there, he stubbornly thought. Hyde was fidgeting, uneasy. For once, he really wanted to try and talk with Licht, have fun with him. But Licht glare was making him feel stressed, and it's like his brain was slowly disintegrating.

Licht's food was finished and he called the waiter again, ordering a dessert, once more not caring about letting Hyde order. He once more complained when the waiter left, but was immediately silenced when Licht threw a little box at him. He barely caught it, surprised. His eyes widened and he looked alternatively at Licht then at the box. "W-what is that?"

"You're supposed to give gifts on Valentine's Day, aren't you?" he shrugged

Hyde stared at the box, eyes wide

Licht's brows furrowed and he leaned over, as to take the box back "I'll just take it back if you don't want it, shit rat"

He shook his head, holding the box "I-I'll keep it!"

He looked down at the box, carefully opening it, smiling when he saw the chocolate. He noticed a little card and took it, laughing slightly when he read the words on it, that were saying 'for the lonely shit rat that can't even get a date'. He looked at Licht "So mean" he said, but he was smiling. Licht shrugged "That's true. And if she did come, I would've made her leave, so that you wouldn't have been able to trick her demon". Hyde grinned "Trick her? Don't be like that, Lichtan~ I didn't trick anybody, girls just loove me~!" he was very surprised by Licht's gift and was still uneasy, so he used the one thing he always did with Licht, tease him, in hope it would at least initiate a conversation between them. Not really a smart decision, but Hyde unfortunately didn't realize it. He went on to continue talking about how popular he was and things like that, and the more he talked the more Licht was pissed off. He quickly ate his dessert, the sweet taste of the strawberry shortcake replaced by bitterness and anger, until he just couldn't take it anymore. He stand up, eyes glowing with anger, his half finished dessert on the table "I'm finished, I'm leaving. Meet me outside if you're not a coward." he said coldly, promptly leaving, anger palpable in his steps. Hyde blinked, surprised, before a shiver ran through his body. He fucked up, he really did.

Licht was waiting outside, angry. He came here so that Hyde wouldn't be ridiculous by being left alone on Valentine's Day, he even got him a gift, and all that stupid demon did was complain and talk about popular he was with girls, could you fucking believe it?! If he'd stayed longer, he probably would've smashed his head into the table, he thought angrily. Hyde shouldn't have done that, especially when Licht has just realized that very day that he liked him. As in, more than he thought he ever would, in a special way; he loved him. And he has decided to confess, that's why he told him to meet him outside instead of simply leaving.

Hyde was walking out of the restaurant, a bit stressed about the reason why Licht would tell him to meet him outside. He took a deep breath and opened the door, trying to silence his thoughts. Licht was standing outside, waiting. He looked at Hyde with sharp eyes "What do you think Valentine's Day means, shit rat ?"

He blinked, surprised by the question, but answered anyway "It's a day to celebrate our loved ones and spend time with them"

"I came here to help you, stupid demon. But if you wanted a real Valentine's Day you should've said so and just leave, at least I wouldn't have had to endure such a shitty evening" he huffed

Hyde shook his head "N-no, I appreciate that you came to help me, really- And what do you even mean by 'a real Valentine's Day?'"

"with someone you like, rotten hedgehog. I have no regrets, but do you?" he narrowed his eyes. This was basically his first attempt at confessing, implying he didn't have any regrets because he'd spent this evening with a loved one: Hyde.

"Even if my date didn't come, it wasn't that bad of an evening" he joked, totally missing Licht's confession.

Licht stayed quiet for some time before saying "an angel doesn't fall in love with a demon. Do you know why?"

Hyde shrugged "I don't. After all, there is no reasons not to so"

Licht glared at him "It's because demons are dumb, low, half-hearted, shy away from important things and trick people. An angel is a pure being with pure feelings. Will you once more act like a demon?"

Hyde was staring at him, lost. What the hell was Licht on-?

He frowned, kicking him when he saw he didn't answer " Do not take my feelings lightly, shit rat! "

He slowly blinked, parroting "Your.. .feelings? "

Licht didn't answer and looked at him with piercing eyes

Hyde gasped, finally understanding, and his body moved, as if without his control, and he pulled Licht into a tight hug

Licht stiffened but didn't move, about to ask him why he did that and remind him that he still had to answered, but he didn't, words leaving his mind when Hyde whispered "I love you Lichtan"

His eyes widened and he said with a small voice "You…?"

Hyde nodded, still hugging him close "I do. Sorry for acting dumb the whole evening…"

Licht frowned "What about that girl then? Why did you plan a date with someone else if you love me, demon?"

Hyde stayed quiet for a moment then looked up at him "... There was no girl"

Licht frowned, confused, and Hyde added "It was all part of a plan I'd set up to have a Valentine's Day date with you" he said cheeks heating, and Licht felt an agreeable warmth settling in his chest "maybe you're not that bad of a demon, after all…" he looked at him with a slight smile, his icy eyes warming up. They looked at each other for some time, then Licht moved closer, softly kissing Hyde, moving away immediately after, face dusted a light pink " Let's go back at the hotel, this suit is uncomfortable"

Hyde was grinning happily, feeling butterflies "It makes you look even more handsome~"

Licht huffed but his cheek reddened "Shut up"

Hyde giggled and grabbed Licht's hand, going quiet

Licht smiled slightly, squeezing his hand "You better buy me a Valentine's gift, demon"

"I will"

ALRIGHT THAT'S IT HOPE U ENJOYED IT AT LEAST A LITTLE BYYYE

#hyde servamp #servamp licht #servamp #licht jekylland todoroki #lawless servamp #servamp lawless #lawless of greed #servamp hyde #greed pair #fic #fanfic #lawlicht

[yesitsmewhataboutit]

Not tryna start nun ofc but I just wanted to bring attention to this:

Some of y’all on here talking about spoilers and how people are terrible for spoiling (this is in general but imma focus on Stranger Things)

You all say that and stuff…. But still indirectly spoil it. I understand you probably don’t realize and it’s not intentional, but that’s way I’m saying this just so you realize

What am I talking about? Im talking about the conversations. Yes, you tag your posts as spoilers and stuff, but when you don’t say a spoiler you don’t tag it. Which should be ok right? Well… not really

And what I mean is when you’re on here talking about how upset you are, and how you’re mad at the writers and screw the writers…. But were also here the day before saying how much you want Eddie to live and how much you’ll be upset and how you love him and stuff…. That’s kinda the same thing ya know?

I haven’t watch episode 9. But I know he dies now. And that’s all from seeing you guys say u love him and how you’ll be upset, and then immediately showing how you’re upset and stuff. People can just put two and two together and guess it

Again, I know it wasn’t intentional And I’m not tryna call anyone out, I’m just saying it’s something to think about and consider for the future at least

#stranger things spoilers #st season 4 spoilers #yoko.mini rant

[thotsforvillainrights]

I wanna try the matchup thing! Ok, im a girl, short light brown hair, i like drawing, music, sweets and reading(your stuff mostly). And teddybears. I almost forgot them how dare i- anyway, im not sure what else to add so imma rattle off a few things. Im an introvert, favourite colors are purple and blue (mb green and yellow alongside those), i preffer baggy clother bc im a rather hairy girl, i have like maybe 3 true friends, and all my life i preffered the villians instead of the heroes, can you blame me tho? Im not sure what else to put here, and im also pretty sure there is enought stuff. No need to rush and have a good day! Love your posts! 🧸❤️

(Glad you enjoy my stuff! It may be a tiny bit short for the matchup but I tried my best to stretch it out some! Hope you like it!)

Match-Up #24

-I match you with Jin Bubaigawara-

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

-I feel as though you two had a special connection when you'd met each other and that you manages to grow close under a short period of time. It takes a lot of patience and time to be with somebody like Twice but I truly believe you stuck it out and held on even when things began to get rough occasionally. You'd probably met by accident (something along the lines of accidentally running into someone at a train station and connecting over a little thing like the sunset). Ever since then, you two have been in each others heart always. He probably ended up moving in with you when the time came since you insisted he get out of that cramped and moldy apartment he was festering in for so long. Besides, the rent and amenities was better in your part of the city compared to him. The day that he finished moving his stuff in, he felt a huge sense of pride wash over him. It was that special moment where you two got to share in coming together with each other. He gifted you a special bear he'd had customized himself for the occasion. After learning how much you liked bears he ended up making it his tradition. They've started being called the 'January Bear' since he'd get you one every year you two made it through dating (the first of January). Speaking of bears, he's taken to calling you a nickname according to it. Aside from this, you get a lot of joy out of being with this man. It's never really a dull moment with him around. It's like having more than one person in the house, especially when you catch him having full arguments and conversations with himself. Sometimes it's not all breezy and you have to support him when he's having a break down. It's probably the first time you'd seen a man like him cry so remember to be patient and not judge him during his rough times. Other than that, he's pretty much an all around fun guy to be with. He's loud, sometimes annoying, and very clingy when he feels like you're leaving the house for too long again. Who knows which of his halves is so attached to you but also…who cares? It's all love at the end of the day after all! He likes to be involved in your interest whether that's trying to draw with you or listening to your playlists and showing you his as well. He sneaks you sweets all the time, often hiding them around the house as a cute game to play with you when you try to find them. he may have to stop it though, considering one day you both lost a sweet and couldn't find it until a week later when the ants came. He's attracted to you in every kind of way. He loves your baggy outfits, and doesn't mind if you're hairy in any way. In his words "You're human aren't you? Humans have hair." He thinks it's cute you own a good deal of stuff that's correlating to your favorite colors and he tries to help build up on that by getting you more stuff as well. He can't wait for the day you introduce him to your friends! He's already introduced you to his. He knew he could trust you considering your stance on the villains point of view and whatnot. I think he mostly cherishes how much you see him as not another mess that isn't worth society cleaning up. He knows you see him as a person, a human…and as the man you love the most. To him, there's nothing worth more than that!

#match up

[fallen-angels-go-to-hell]

College blogs pt1

it's hilarious how I'm back to Tumblring even in college. it's like I said the carousel never stops.

i need to reach the problem of why i feel this way from the roots right ? so the problem is that i haven't found my group yet. which is like okay, it's alright, i'll make friends eventually or at least form a group eventually because right now i like the idea of being a bit here bit there with everyone. ok you know what- imma bullet point this shit. because i am so done with not being able to control my life and my feelings like wtf is with that? and i need to optimise my calendar a bit more properly. And i also need to set priorities.

Academics - I am a tad bit lagging behind and i need to cover everything asap- (solution: i am thinking of like properly writing everything down and like structuring academics for a while.)

Roommate- My roommate is a very weird person, i dont get her but neither can i like hate her. its like i dont get what she's doing with life. and i think the worse part is how secretive she is. like she keeps saying "nothing" and all that all the time and it's so fucking annoying. But the thing i need to realise is that my life is separate from her life. (solution- start being secretive to her too, make your own timetable, hang with your own friends.)

Friends- My mom keeps telling me to form a group in college and well the lack of one truly does hurt. the thing is that there are so many groups but I don't exactly fit in any purely based on personal choice- I don't know hm, this one is a bit tricky- I keep telling myself that it will happen once I get into clubs, but nah I don't know. i mean there are a few groups that technically i am a part of, like pizza vodka shots, or like the same tt group, or maybe ill make friends in snooker, and then there are the guys my roomate hangs out with but i dont exactly like associating with them, oo there is the marathi gang as well, m thinking if i should stick to arnav again- ( solution - wait for it to happen?)

Shreyas- I miss him so so much, and our time tables are so so hectic and it hurts me so so much. sigh i feel like we are gonna drift or break up and i dont think ill be able to recover from that, he's my everything and i wanna marry him and have kids with him. all my dreams come true only with him. I am kinda scared about our future too sometimes because sometimes he says that he wants to get into research, and id completely support him through that i just don't know how my job and his job would sync and especially if i wanna live outside,.... sometimes i feel like, hm idk, i wish it was easier, just a little bit easier sigh.

i have an exam tomorrow and m here venting my life out and i feel literally no better than i did at the start of this post, its maybe because m sick and stuff ? idk, i should go breakfast maybe ? i dont feel like breakfasting- i just feel really sick lmao

#college life #suck session #vent post #personal vent #wanna die #born to die #mine #i love you #i love him #kyo

[the-rxven-king]

hi i know i dont post much original content on here anymore or anything like that, but i did just go update my ko-fi with commission stuff and updated my gallery if anyone would like to go check it out! even just looking would mean a lot to me

heres a lil link for ya, thank you for your time

#the raven king speaks #i never got a lot of commissions in the first place and thats ok!!! but this is a gentle way to try again i guess #be gentle on myself cause i got really upset with myself the last go about this #which is why i stopped reblogging the post i made all that time ago #felt like i wasnt good enough but now i dont think i care all that much #like yea im always gonna doubt myself but the good that comes out of my art should outweigh the bad #and i need to just Do It instead of promising myself ill try again next week and just repeating it for literal years #so well try this. well start here #maybe try and make some more stuff to post??? try posting more #cause i. just dont post my art on tumblr anymore cause that kinda sucked too dfkngfj #lack of notes and all that. but once again. numbers shouldnt really matter as much #plus i have a whole art blog thats been sitting for like a year or two with only the vaguest updates #and next to no followers but once again!!! i no longer care!!! #this is for me. if people care about my art then theyll care and if they dont they dont! but i care for my art #and imma try and act like it #ill always have my days but i need to just get off my ass and make stuff and try stuff yknow #try more than i have been anyway. self doubt and lack of energy fuck off. please. i beg.

[claireunoia]

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𝘽𝙍𝙀𝘼𝙎𝙏 𝙒𝙊𝙍𝙎𝙃𝙄𝙋 | 𝙨. 𝙘𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙧𝙤𝙣

「 SYNOPSIS 」 / you’re the most insecure about your chest, sarah proves your doubting thoughts wrong and shows just how beautiful you are to her eyes ♡︎.

「 PAIRINGS 」 / sarah x fem!reader

「 WORD COUNT 」 / 1435 (omg y’all gettin fed again)

「 WARNINGS 」 / ANGST, A BIT OF SMUT, insecurities, self-body image issues, crying, lots of pet names, nipple play, tit sucking, some dirty talking, suggesting to sex in the end, i don’t remember writing any language in here but imma still warn it just in case, prob some typos, thats it?

➪ author’s notes : ❝ hi babes!! welcome to the 4th day of my kinktober !! this fic is kinda something personal for me and something based on my own personal issues i have with myself due to being flat chested but i want to put something out like this so other people out there that deals with this as a insecurity can read this and real validated, thats my mission besides posting for kinktober haha. i hope u guys enjoy this since this is alot more on the softer side and something different then i usually write bc its goin to be a lot of filth going on this month so i felt like switching the mood a bit while still being a bit dirty lmao. as always i love u so much! <333 ❞

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tonight was the obx’s, infamous annual bonfire.

as the skies darkened as time passed it was slowly getting close to that time for you and girlfriend, sarah to be there so you and her were currently getting ready and changed in her bedroom.

“baby! here you should try this on, i just know you’ll look so freakin’ perfect in it” sarah exclaims as she hands you one of her cute, green colored, lacy bralette with a bright smile adoring her face. you smiled a “ok” and took the clothing from her before turning to the tall, long mirror that stood against the wall of her room.

when sarah turned back around in her closet to find something else to give you to wear or for herself, you held the piece of lace material up in front of your eyes. frowning when you saw just how much bigger it was compared to your usual size of your chest due to the fact that your girlfriend’s boobs were way bigger than yours. deciding against the thought of telling sarah and killing her wonderful mood, you tried it on anyway. you removed the previous t-shirt sarah had given you just a couple of minutes ago and your bra. once you did that you took the bralette and started to put it on your body.

when you managed to get it on, you took one little glance at the mirror and didn’t like the image you were receiving back at all. the sight making your stomach swim in insecurity and a new found sadness.

you were always insecure about your breasts. mainly because they were just so much smaller than kie’s or your girlfriend sarah’s. seeing the way bikinis fit on them and seeing the way it fits on you makes you embarrassed, ashamed and spiteful at the way you look. you longed for bigger and fuller boobs, wanting to look good in certain clothes was a dream and be able to fit in simple stuff like a bralette as well.

the bralette itself was so, so cute, but once you put it on your mind changed. since your boobs were so small, it just barely fit into the cups of the top where your boobs were supposed to go, making the now loose, leftover fabric to just hang a bit in a little wrinkled bunch around that area.

“s… sarah, i think you should just wear this one” you called out in a whisper, making sure to add a forced chuckle at the end so you sound normal and not like you were about to cry a river.

you heard sarah whine a bit from the closet.

“why? i got it like so long ago so it shouldn’t be too big on- oh my gosh, y/n what’s wrong!” sarah interrupted her sentence in a shock gasp when she met your glistening eyes and slouch figure through the mirror when she walked away from her closet. immediately walking up to you in concern at the sight of your clearly upset expression.

you shake your head at the blonde girl, looking back at the mirror with a sigh before you drop your head down again.

“it doesn’t exactly look so good on me s’all” you forcefully chuckled, not wanting to tell her about how you’ve been feeling about yourself for quite a long time so u tried to cover up your emotions, which is something your currently failing at by the saddening, concerning look on your lovers face deepening anymore.

“babe, what’s really wrong?” sarah asked you, her hands coming up to grip the sides of your face into her palms softly. petting your hair as she looked over your face which was going through so many emotions at once.

“i- i, i hate how my chest looks. i hate it so much, sarah. every single time i look in the mirror just even wearing a simple shirt i want to cry at how flat it is”

“oh, baby…” sarah whispers sadly, her eyes tearing up at the way you describe yourself. a big part of her feels guilty about this, how come she could never see her own girlfriend going through such a struggle about her own body? she thinks over and over again before pulling you into a bone crushing, comforting embrace.

her arms holding you so tight.

“my love, how come you never told me you felt this way about yourself”

and that pushed you over the edge. finally letting out the couple of tears you’ve been holding in since you first had put on the bralette. with a small teary hiccup you responded back to her question.

“i didn’t want you to think of me differently” you cried silently, sarah giving you one last tight squeeze before pulling away from you. “y/n, i would never look at you differently okay?” not receiving an answer she called out again once more.

“okay?”

you nod at her, her fingers coming up to rub away your tears that fell down your cheeks and from up under your eyes.

“y/n, i can't even begin to explain just how gorgeous and beautiful you are. you’re down right so incredibly gorgeous okay? i love every single inch of you and your body so much, baby. flaws and all, okay? and who cares if your boobs are small love? small, big, everyone is different and is born differently and that absolutely doesn't mean it's a bad thing or something to hate. and plus i absolutely adore your boobs. they’re amazing and you’re amazing. please stop tearing yourself down like this, sweets. it hurts me so much to see you hating something so much about yourself when nothing is wrong with you in the beginning. i know no one is perfect but i know for sure that you are, i love you so much baby”

at her little speech, you cried and practically threw yourself at your girlfriend. hugging her like it was the last time you would ever be able to do it. “t-thank you so much, baby” you were speechless but you managed to get the words out profusely against the skin of her neck.

“you don’t have to thank me, babe” sarah cried with as well with a little teary giggle escaping her.

sarah pulled away from you to intently stare into your eyes, her soft hands then coming up to the lacy bralette to take it up and off of you. you let her but not without timidly asking her why she was taking it off of you.

“b-babe, what are you doing?”

“showing you just how beautiful you are to me, y/n” sarah replies with her pretty, bunny smile on display as she tossed the piece of clothing somewhere in the room before making direct contact with your exposed breast, holding the soft flesh of the mounds in her warm palms. you gasp softly in surprise of the sudden, so good feeling of sarah’s hands delicately massaging your breasts.

“such pretty breasts,” sarah states with a sincere look on her face, pressing a gentle kiss at your lips before bending down to take your nipple into her mouth. her other finger tracing the unattended bud, not wanting to leave anything out.

“b-baby” you whimpered, moving a strand of hair away and out of your face so you could look down at sarah latched and sucking at your nipple passionately, to already find her looking up at you with desire, so so much love swimming in her brown irises.

she pulled away from your nipple with a loud pop.

“such pretty nipples,” sarah whispers, eyes flickering up to yours after the words left her lips. finding your face scrunched up in pleasure, “gosh, you just look so frickin’ perfect” sarah thinks to herself.

without another word sarah takes your unattended breast into her mouth. her hand gently grasping the mound of flesh while she sucks at your areolas. her tongue running over your hardened bud while she did so. a little hum leaving her lips when she hears you moan out again and again at the feeling.

sarah once more pulls away from you with a even louder pop than earlier echoing and surrounding her bedroom along with your little whines and keens. sarah backs away from you and stares at how her spit made the skin of your chest glistened, her teeth pulling in her bottom lip as she rubbed and toyed at your sensitive, hard buds.

“lay down pretty girl, we’re missing the bonfire this time.”

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[blufox234isadumbname]

Why does no one ever talk about the abuse C!Tommy did to Dream? Tommy ruined everything C!Dream worked for when he first entered the world. He found it funny to break the rules and to drive C!Dream down a dark path. And then he hated it when c!Dream finally did something back. C!Tommy also murdered Dream twice. With every intention to kill him the third and final time… c!Dream isn’t perfect but c!Tommy practically caused his downfall but it doesn’t get talked about.

ok imma just- roll up my c!tommy apologist sleeves *ahem*

here's my response to this:

(All mention of members of the Dream SMP are characters, not the actual content creators behind them unless stated otherwise with the cc! tag, this is all within Minecraft roleplay and not reflective of the actual people

This also mentions the Exile Arc, which has themes of suicide and abusive relationships. If the subject is of discomfort, please scroll away)

I'm assuming that the first part is in reference to the early stages of the Dream SMP era, like in the same-ish month-long period when cc!Tommy joined (and officially when Tommy emerged to be a part of the slowly forming story at that point). This era of the Dream SMP is a little hard to gauge in terms of morals since the distinction of what's canon and non-canon just don't exist. At this point, it was before fully fleshed out characters were introduced, just the CCs as themselves messing around in a Minecraft server. Hence, a lot of the aspects, such as violence and psychological effects, of current DSMP lore aren't seen in the same serious regard during this era. It is still a part of lore but it's not to be really seen as "serious" - not unimportant but not exactly the most grounded in logic. Though, the word "abuse" is incredibly harsh to describe the early stages of the Dream SMP. It just implies Tommy deliberately causing trouble out of pure malice. The things that Tommy was at fault for don't refelct that kind of intention, most were the result of the first Disc War - which was instigated by Dream stealing the discs first. Other things were harmless pranks, not really meant to break someone's psyche. There was the conflict that occurred reflect the burning of Ponk's lemon tree but again no actual mind-breaking stuff happened on either Dream's end, just annoyance

Later on in the L'manburg era, again no sort of malice is shown. Dream was the one insistent on starting a war over L'Manburg's independence, Tommy has just pulled along and stood with Wilbur during the confrontations. The most consistent thing in the early eras of Dream SMP lore and early L'manburg is that Dream is seen to be the bad guy, though not as the malevolent force in more recent Dream SMP lore. He was more like a bully if anything, starting conflict to get what he needs and keep things under his control. Post-War and such had Dream be less of a threat and more of that one begrudging chaperone that hates a certain group of kids, also known as the L'manburgians. Dream was more cartoon villain than the careless monster he is presented during the more recent storylines.

So to say Tommy to be the reason for Dream's turn into a genuine and serious threat is false. If anything, Dream's own downfall through the storyline was mostly his own doing rather than someone else's. Again, the Disc War was started by Dream himself stealing the discs and holding them as leverage and the war for L'manburg's independence was caused by Dream's own insistence otherwise. No other force beckoned him to do so, just his own want to control the happenings on the SMP. Around Manburg's and Pogtopia's formation, Dream was acting out of interest of the SMP that he has power over, which included siding for the act of chaos and subsequent power that comes from it. Again, all out of his own volition, not a single person convinced him to not chase the promise of control. He could've just declined the Revival Book from Schlatt yet he accepted the bribe anyway. Same with letting Wilbur having the TNT and dethroning Eret.

It's already established during Tommy's Exile arc that Dream was already becoming a vile person, pushing away any close alliance aside from hiring Punz - even then, it was only a business relationship rather than one forged in close bond. All the things that led to Dream's descent into a more immoral person were his own choice. That included deliberately secluding and messing with Tommy during his exile. The entire arc was about the growing abusive relationship with Dream as the manipulator and Tommy as the victim. From destroying any armour and items Tommy had in order to prevent any way for retaliation, feigning friendliness to gain Tommy's trust and cutting off Tommy from any other source of support, Dream made the entirety of Exile a traumatic experience filled with conflicting feelings and depression. Even near the beginning, with the scene of Tommy looking down at lava in the Nether, Tommy already showed signs of decline in mental health. That was only further proven by the scene where Tommy attempted to jump off the dirt pillar.

Tommy had gone through hell yet managed to pull through, realised what he had experienced was abuse and headed off towards Technoblade's home in search of a better place of shelter. His leave from exile was healthy but doesn't diminish the sense of anger he had towards Dream. Even when his stance on Dream at the time was conflicting, still regressing back to the same belief Dream was his friend, he still held a hatred for Dream. That was further strengthened when he was able to overcome fears that stemmed from Exile, such as heights and Logstedshire itself. The finale to the Disc War began and Tommy was back to being played around by Dream, being threatened and forced to give up his items all over again. All the build-up then leads to almost everyone on the server entering through the Nether portal and Tommy finally getting revenge.

The scene where Dream was being killed until his last and final life wasn't just Tommy getting revenge, everyone else was backing him up. Most people on the server were fed up with Dream's doings, they all wanted Dream gone. It was only because Dream held something of importance, the Revival Book, that they wanted to spare him. Tommy's want to kill his abuser and enemy wasn't out of his own desire, it was fueled by everyone else's anger towards Dream too - which was further reinforced by the wall of important attachments that Dream intended to use against everyone else.

Moral ethics of whether death is justified in a Minecraft roleplay aside, Dream's death was simply akin to the downfall of any other villain. He was made within the story of that season to be unempathetic, with the lack of a perspective to see his side of things. It was a quality that made Dream a good villain in the first place, a villain you couldn't understand. A villain whose inner machinations were a mystery and thus made him much less like a pitiful human. To say that it was Tommy's fault that he became a villain is undercutting the purpose of Dream as a villain during that storyline of the season. It undervalues why he is a villain and genuine fear amongst others in the SMP. Additionally, saying Tommy was wrong for wanting to kill Dream undermines what he went through in exile. Disregarding the most important arc of the character just leaves an incomplete hole in him.

Hence, the reason that no one talks about Tommy being the downfall to Dream in becoming a villain is that it is untrue and completely devaluing to either character of what made them what they are in the story.

#consider this my response #this is practice for me because i have an analysis essay to do #i only write this because i had time on my hands and I like to write #dreamwastaken #c!dream #c!tommy #tommyinnit #dream smp #/rp #/dsmp #analysis thing #full writing #i dont get c!dream apologists sometimes #no hate to those specific people #i just find it strange how people can completely change the context of the story #i also find it veyr damaging to see c!tommy to be blamed for c!dreams downfall #because no one else can be blamed for your own mistakes #you got to own up to it and c!dream just doesnt #thats all really #i dont like this take #suicide mention #abuse mention