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Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022) Review
Doctor Strange WISHES he was everything everywhere all at once. But nope. That strange fella is NOTHING! He’s NOWHERE! He’s....what’s the opposite of ‘all at once’? Later? Dribs and drabs? Oh I dunno, you get what I mean. Multiverse shmultiverse!
Plot: An aging Chinese immigrant is swept up in an insane adventure, where she alone can save the world by exploring other universes connecting with the lives she could have led.
The only things I’ve watched prior to this of the directors’ Dan Kwan and Daniel Scheinert (who collectively call themselves the Daniels) works was the 2016 Swiss Army Man that featured Paul Dano hanging out with Daniel Radcliffe’s farting corpse, and back then I should’ve expected that these two will not limit themselves there upon how much weirdness they can cram into one movie. So now we get A24′s Everything Everywhere All At Once, that brings us the real multiverse of madness, no shade towards Doctor Strange with the same name. Look, it’s difficult not to compare these two movies seeing as they both released so close to one another and happen to handle the concept of the multiversal theory. Oh, and there’s also that little factor of star Jamie Lee Curtis starting a social media feud against Doctor Strange showing that she is errr... very passionate about being part of Everything Everywhere All At Once. Throwing around comments how her film “out marvels any Marvel movie they put out there” or how Doctor Strange did a “copycat” poster, or comparing dick sizes, sorry, budget sizes of the two movies. “COMPETITIVE? Fuck YES. I wasn’t head cheerleader in high school for nothing” screams Curtis, and I’m not going to lie, I am living for her self proclaimed internet war against Marvel. Totally unnecessary but 100% entertaining. Anyway, my lovely fiancée brought my attention to Curtis’ vocal proclamations and we both agreed we should go see her “little MOVIE THAT COULD AND CAN AND IS CRUSHING the box office” and see if her words had much ground. And yes, Doctor Strange in the Multiverse of Madness left a bit of a sour taste in our mouths after seeing it, so we were hoping for some better multiversal mayhem.
To put it simply, Everything Everywhere All At Once is amazing! It’s difficult to talk about what its about, since the title is very accurate with the movie being this beautiful blend of ideas and genres. It’s a science fiction, a black comedy, a drama, a fantasy, a martial arts film, a family film, absurdism and even an animation at one point. It’s got moments of real emotion, like truly some scenes at the end really got to me and I didn’t tear, but gosh was I close. It’s also really funny, but it’s the kind of humour I was shocked to see in a film. You know when you’re with your mates and you talk hypotheticals or outlandish scenarios that you find absolutely hysterical but then if some stranger heard you they’d think you were a total wacko. Well this movie is filled with those kind of ridiculous moments and concepts and that was a cause for some very solid comedy. Not the laugh-out-loud kind of humour, but the kind where you’re like “WHAT??” and “did they actually just do that??”. I’m not gonna spoil any of these moments, but I’m just gonna say hot dogs and Ratatouille. Once you see this film and see it you should, you will know what I am referring to.
For all its wackiness and bizarreness, this movie at its heart is filled with thought-provoking, emotionally resonant themes about family, existentialism and the role we play in the universe, let alone the multiverse. The idea of acceptance and staying true to who you are and not having regrets for the choices you’ve made, will make, or have not made, at the end of the day you are you, I am I, he is he and honestly I’ve lost my train of thought. I don’t know where I was going with this. Regardless, this movie gives you the feels and it gives you the thoughts. However bringing it back to the multiversal concept, the film does something truly unique and original with that idea. Instead of simply having the main character Evelyn (played superbly by Michelle Yeoh by the way) jump from one reality to another and doing whatever she wants, the entire idea here is that you can not necessarily go into a different universe, but you can’t connect with your alternate self and develop skills from that alter-ego to then use in your own reality. Naturally the more alternate selves you meld with the more reality begins to distort and you begin questioning which reality was the original one, but I must say this take on the multiverse, though I still have a few questions on certain technicalities, was a very cathartic experience to watch. But what adds to the brilliance is that even though we get a lot of multiversal madness and randomness, it all still managed to connect to the movie’s central themes. Even the most weirdest oddities still in some capacity build up towards the overall story and its characters. Its both disorganised yet so interconnected and to the point.
Everything Everywhere All At Once is a wildly original feature filled to the brim with unique visual gags, and its truly one of the more unrepeatably eccentric films to come in cinemas this year. I forgot to even mention the cast, they are all great. Michelle Yeoh, Ke Huy Quan, James Hong, Stephanie Hsu and Jamie Lee Curtis all do their part. Heck even Jenny Slate who I usually find annoying is used to good use here. This movie is sensational and the only knit pick I have is that the first 30 minutes are hard to get through. It’s a lot of fast talking and very sporadic and I was confused for a good ol’ while but then once I got onto the movie’s eccentric level I bought into it fully. I’m sure once I re-watch it I’ll be able to enjoy even those first 30 minutes. But nothing is disputing the fact Everything Everywhere All At Once is remarkably unique and entertaining. And hell, I may just absolutely love it. Yet in a different universe I probably hate it. In another one I haven’t even seen it. In another universe I simply don’t exist. In another, the universe isn’t even a thing and gosh golly I feel I am experiencing EXISTENTIALISM!!!
Overall score: 8/10
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April 16, 2019 11:00 AM CST
Should I write and possibly finally update The Fiancée?
OR
Should I read my new Padmé Amidala book, Queen’s Shadow by @ekjohnston that I got at Star Wars Celebration Chicago 2019?
OR
#gg speaks#reylo#reylo fanfiction#star wars#star wars novel#padme amidala#ek johnston#decisions decisions#hmm#or am i just gonna fart around on social media all day?#🤔🤔🤔#my writing
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Nursing Home au
Patton works at the nursing home as a registered nurse, because the man truly cares for people.
He oversees the activities of the rest of the nursing staff, and he’s always keeping them in high spirits.
There’s a vacancy for a nursing aide. Who could possibly fill that position?
It’s Virgil.
At first, Patton honestly doesn’t think Virgil should have been hired there.
Patton had seen Virgil during the hiring process, and his personality didn’t seem like a … good fit. Too closed-off and kinda gruff, and probably not a good bedside manner, right?
Plus there was that criminal record to consider …
But the nursing home administrator hires him anyway, and Virgil joins the staff.
Patton keeps a close eye on Virgil.
Yes he feels guilty, but even Patton isn’t free from prejudices.
Virgil goes about his work very meticulously.
He arrives five minutes early every day, without fail.
He never complains about the tasks he’s been given, just quietly accepts them in a way that makes Patton and the others wonder what he’s really thinking.
He doesn’t talk casually with the other staff much, giving short answers whenever prompted.
Patton worries about the staff’s morale as a team.
Surprisingly, he starts hearing a lot of praise about Virgil. Not from the other staff members, but from the patients themselves.
One of them, a man named Roman, sounds like he’s complaining about him.
“And then he started criticizing my favorite movies!”
“I’m so sorry sir, I’ll talk to him about that.”
“What are you talking about? Kid had some good points. I like him.”
Patton starts subtly bringing up Virgil in conversations while visiting with the patients. For some, he doesn’t even have to warm up to the subject. They stop him in the hallway.
“Patton hun, you know that new boy with the eye-makeup?”
“Yes ma’am, that would be Virgil.”
“He’s so sweet. He helped me with my phone, it’s one of those smart ones? It wasn’t working right, and he fixed it. He’s a smart boy.”
The biggest sign is when one patient—Logan Crofters, who’s a notorious nitpicker—actually voices his approval of Virgil.
“He’s not an idiot,” is all Logan says on the matter, which coming from him, it’s high praise.
Patton doesn’t really understand yet why the patients have taken such a liking to him, but he endeavors to try harder to see who Virgil really is. Mostly he’s glad that his first impression seems to be wrong.
Virgil, for his part, doesn’t understand why the patients like him either.
He just knows that they do.
One of them goes out of their way to call him over to ask for his opinion on what color scarf to knit for their granddaughter.
Another one makes a point to introduce him to their visiting family.
Lots of them seem to like to talk his ear off in general and give him life advice.
Virgil doesn’t really mind it. He’s not used to people wanting to talk to him so much, and to be honest he could use some of the advice.
And the stories they have to share are kinda wild.
He likes bantering with the one old dude, Roman.
“I’ll have you know I’ve killed many a dragon witch in my day.”
“Was this before or after you went senile?”
“Brat.”
“Old fart.”
And then there’s Logan, the elderly man in a wheelchair. He’s probably the smartest man Virgil has ever talked to.
“You’d be surprised how many people assume I’m stupid.”
“You’re in a wheelchair, not braindead dude.”
“Yes, but I am old and crippled, and many people cannot separate physical inadequacy from mentality.”
“Well most people are idiots.”
Logan shows off his dentures in a rare grin.
After those two, there’s Remus.
Even the other staff members warn Virgil in advance about him.
It takes Virgil a month into working there to realize that he’s Roman’s brother.
It really should have been obvious.
“Virgil, where would you bury a body?”
“Why bury it when you can just burn it? Or feed it to some pigs; they’ll eat anything.”
“… oh, I like you.”
Okay, not so obvious, because Remus is a crazy old coot. But he’s got a lot of ideas and grand stories like Roman, only darker themed.
Virgil is convinced Remus is fucking with him to get a reaction out of him.
“He only says all that to get a rise out of you,” Logan confirms.
Challenge accepted.
Virgil continues being a bomb ass nurse.
He’s always super self conscious around his superior, Patton.
He knows Patton is wary of him and Virgil is terrified of messing up in front of him.
Or messing up in general. Poor babe really is too hard on himself.
Even the patients worry about him from time to time.
“You getting enough sleep at night, son? Ya got bags under your eyes!”
“That’s makeup, sir. You know that’s my makeup.”
“Hahaha, but it was funny, right? But seriously, are you sleeping enough?”
And Virgil can’t count how many times they’ve thrown food at him.
“You’re too skinny. You need to eat more.”
“I already eat a lot. I’ve got a high metabolism.”
“Is that one of those social media sites?”
“Roman, if you don’t stop acting stupid—”
“Kidding! I have an Instagram after all. Which you should totally follow me, by the way.”
It’s like suddenly being adopted and Virgil is now the grandson to many old folk.
He’s not even surprised when someone tries to set him up with one of their grandchildren.
What does surprise him is that it’s Logan.
“You should meet my grandson, Remy. Judging from what I’ve observed of your personality, you two would be compatible.”
“Huh, that’s funny, Roman’s got a grandson named Remy too.”
“Yes, Remy is both our grandson.”
“Wait, what?”
“We used to be married, Roman and I. Didn’t you know he was my ex-husband?”
Somehow Virgil has missed that.
But he is so going to grill them for details, because Roman with Logan?
Roman jumps on board when Virgil brings it up.
“Yes! Remy! You would be perfect for him! I can’t believe I didn’t think of it first!”
Virgil laughs it off because they can’t be serious.
Of course, they’re very serious.
Virgil is doing his rounds when he walks into Roman’s room and a guy not too far off from his own age standing there in a leather jacket and shades.
“Oh, you are cute,” the guy says in a way that lets Virgil know that he’s clearly heard about Virgil before.
Roman is exceedingly proud.
Virgil officially meets Remy, the grandson.
It’s awkward.
By the end of it, Virgil apparently has a date after work that he swears he doesn’t remember agreeing to.
Remy’s waiting for him in the lobby.
“You ready for the night of your life, babe?”
“…”
“Wait, you’re walking the opposite direction. Come back.”
Virgil goes out to eat with Remy.
Remy actually apologizes for his grandfathers.
“They’re cool old gay dudes, but they can be really pushy. They’ve been complaining about me being single for like yeaaars. Um, maybe I like being single?”
“Do you?”
“Okay, a bitch is lonely, but gurl, I can find a man or whoever on my own, amirite?”
“Why’d you agree to this then?”
“’Cause you really are cute and seem cool. Plus can we just talk about your aesthetic for a sec? What products do you use on your hair? The purple dye is perf.”
It’s not really a date.
But Virgil might have made a friend out of it, at least.
Virgil finds himself talking about it the next day with Patton.
It just sort of happens.
“They set me up with their grandson.”
“Oh Remy? You’ve met him?”
“Yeah…”
“Well? How’d it go?”
“Uh … I’m not sure? Like, I’m pretty sure we established it wasn’t really a date. But I think we might …”
“Might what?”
“Be … friends?”
“That’s nice, Virgil,” Patton says in a way that Virgil can tell he means it.
Virgil shrugs. “Yeah, I don’t know what I’m gonna tell his granddads though. Their gonna jump on me as soon as they see me. God old people love to gossip more than teenagers.”
“Just try to let them down easy, okay? They really adore Remy and just want him to be happy.”
It’s the first conversation Virgil has with him that doesn’t make him nervous.
The days go by and Virgil is starting to feel like he’s really settling in.
He still doesn’t understand why the patients like him so much.
Not until Patton finally sheds some insight.
It’s a busy enough day, and then Remus has one of his episodes.
He’s screaming and the other staff members who are more experienced with dealing with him are trying to settle him down.
Virgil hears the commotion from down the hall and comes running into the day room where all the patients gather and visit or watch tv.
“He gets like this sometimes,” Logan tells him. Roman sits silently beside him holding his hand, lips pressed in a thin white line and eyes not looking away from the chaotic scene.
Remus is throwing things at the nurses, yelling something about how the lights are trying to eat him.
“It’s best to stay back, Virgil,” Logan tells him.
Virgil doesn’t listen.
He goes and turns off the lights.
There’s still enough sunlight filtering in through the windows, enough to see. But everyone looks around.
Virgil pushes through the other staff.
He nudges Patton aside who had been attempting to console him.
Patton wants to pull him back. Remus is in a vulnerable state of mind right now and it could be bad for either of them.
But Virgil leans in and starts talking in a low voice to Remus.
And … it’s working.
Remus’s screams taper off.
He doesn’t look any less confused or scared. Just subdued.
“I want to go,” he says, eyes looking through everyone there. “Want to go back to my room now. Want to go back.”
“Okay, we can go, Remus. Let’s go,” Virgil says and guides him out.
It’s a slow process, but they make it to his room, Patton hovering close the entire way.
They give Remus a mild sedative to help him relax.
When Virgil walks out of the room, Roman is standing there.
He doesn’t say anything to Virgil, but he claps a hand on his shoulder.
There’s gratitude glistening in his eyes.
Roman goes into the room.
Virgil leaves for the break room. He’s definitely earned a break.
Plus his hands are kind of shaking, but shhhhh, don’t tell anyone.
After a long time, Patton comes into the room.
He sits at the table with Virgil.
“He’ll be fine,” Patton assures him.
“I didn’t say I was worried for him.”
Patton smiles and shakes his head.
“They all love you, you know?” he surprises Virgil by saying. “The patients. You do a lot of good by them.”
Virgil shrugs. “I don’t see why. I’m just me. Just doing my job. Nothing special.”
“You treat them like people.”
Patton leans closer over the table. Virgil doesn’t look away.
“You listen to them. And you talk to them, like they’re people. And for them, these people who have lost a lot of their independence and are often left forgotten here by even their own families—that’s worth a lot.”
Virgil doesn’t know if he believes all that.
But it’s a nice thought.
#sanders sides#patton#patton sanders#virgil#virgil sanders#roman#roman sanders#logan#logan sanders#remus#remus sanders#remy#remy sanders#nursing home au
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Tag game~
Rules: answer the questions and tag people you'd like to get to know better.
Tagged by @mctoilette, this was fun thank you <3
What do you prefer to be called name-wise?
Kateh
When is your birthday?
9/11... I mean i was actually born years before the event but it’s still big oofs all around when i tell people my birthday klsfdjkl
Where do you live?
Alabama... I promise it’s not Like That, at least where I’m at--
Three thing you are doing right now?
thinking about getting some food
regretting the fact that i accidentally lowkey started some fandom discourse
this tag meme--
Four fandoms that have piqued your interest?
Whether you mean actual fandoms or media rn it’s just Astro Boy and Dragon Ball. There are others but they are dormant at the moment lmao
How has the pandemic been treating you?
Not great tbh. I have lost a lot of shit through this pandemic, but I don’t even remotely wanna get into that rn.
A song you cant stop listening to right now?
Nothing at the moment, my audio time has been used mostly for true crime documentaries and dog videos lmao
How old are you?
25! An old fart by tumblr standards, i should be doing taxes 24/7 yet here i am shitposting about cartoons lmao
That said, if you are a minor and uncomfortable with following me or me following you, I totally understand and you are free to unfollow/block me if you so desire
School, University, Occupation, other?
I work at the front desk of a library! Or at least I would be if we weren’t in a pandemic, now i’m just basically getting paid to check the mail once a week :T
Do you prefer heat or cold?
Cold, but not so cold that it fuckin dries out my entire face and nose and mouth like it is now--
Name one fact others may not know about you?
I lowkey like to collect rare and foreign coins! I don’t run into them very often, it’s usually if my dad finds something on a train or something but I have a lil jar of assorted coins from different countries and such
Are you shy?
Shy is an understatement. I have straight up social anxiety. It’s gotten better at least in the sense that I can ask for help or have polite conversation and not horribly overthink my every word but like I’m so fucking bad at reaching out to make friends, I just attempt to project “i wanna be friends” energy really hard and hope someone notices and talks to me first :’)
If we get to know each other well enough tho I will probably die for you
Pronouns?
they/them
Biggest pet peeves?
When people wait until they can’t take it anymore and blow up at me for doing something wrong. Like if I fucked up, let me know at that moment before I go making it an ingrained habit because I didn’t realize I was doing anything wrong! I can’t read minds! Just tell me if I’ve fucked up and I‘ll fix it, I promise!
What is your favourite "dere" type?
I know this is a horribly unpopular opinion but I unironically like yanderes as a character trope.That said if you’re trying to do that shit for real, don’t. That’s fucked up.
Rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be.
Right now it’s like a 4, but in general I’d give it a solid 7
What's your main blog?
You’re lookin at it, pal~
List your side blogs and what they're used for.
@outofcontextcobalt which I haven’t actually posted content to in like 78 years, but it’s just kind of a dumping ground for all of my weird cobalt screenshots (of which there are many). If I ever come back to it though I may just rebrand it as Cobalt of the Day as an excuse to post less weird screenshots sometimes also lmao
Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?
Not to sound like one of those “I just tell it how it is” people, but I’m generally not gonna lie to you about how I feel about something. I can admittedly be a little blunt or overly critical in my feelings and opinions, but I don’t ever mean for it to be rude or harsh. If I do ever say some shit that hurts your feelings by all means let me know and I’ll own up to it and dial shit back a little in the future.
Tagging: anyone who wants to, just say I tagged you lmao
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no one asked but im fuckin emo about relationships and communities online in 2020 so im going to go on a rambling essay like only someone with unmedicated ADHD can
When I turned 13 I was allowed to have My Own Computer With Internet in my room. The first thing I did was find and join an online forum about video games (this was early 2000′s, forums were a thing). I made over 100 posts my first DAY because I was so excited to talk to other people who liked video games and stuff and could talk about how actually I learned in biology that one of the ocarina of time bosses being a giant single-celled amoeba is unscientific.
Like, before I was allowed to be On The Internet TM, I talked to friends at school about video games by forcing my 3 friends to play the games I wanted to talk about, and then we would talk about them. And even once I joined these online spaces, it was totally different because everyone got to kind of just pick their own name and their own image to represent them so it was like a totally different, separate life.
Growing up, having these online communities where I had a sort of anonymity but still could interact with and meet people and form really close relationships, in addition to niche IRL friendships, was really important. I didn’t really have a lot of drama in IRL friend groups but boy there was forum drama and I feel like I got a lot of exposure to social interactions and stuff that way. I feel like I got the Authentic Teen Experience TM more online than in person.
(My first relationship was an online relationship with someone I met on this forum. Not to entirely derail, but it started out as a ‘joke’ and we pretended to be dating, and I have like insanely long AIM chat logs of the whole event to prove it.)
Anyway, I think I would be having an easier time with this if the forum had just gone under 10 years ago like all the rest of them did, but it has kind of been on life support this whole time and is still alive, and I’m having a LOT of feelings about it.
I really don’t want to talk about details here, I kind of don’t even care about them anymore, it’s just sad that this forum more exists as an animated corpse of what once was that a lot of us old farts still log onto every now and then, but there’s no real effort or desire to re-invest into trying to keep it alive or fresh and live on as a space new people might want to come to. I’m a mod of one of the sub-forums because I was modded 10 years ago and there’s no one to replace me. And now we are at a place where a known racist asshole is possibly going to be banned and somehow that is a line some people are mad we might cross.
At this point, I am tempted to just log off and never log back on again. I would be legitimately interested if there was a desire to re-invest in this community and make it welcoming to people who might stumble across it seeking refuge from all the huge corporate viral social media sites; somewhere they could call home if they managed to come across it and want to make an account. I’d be willing to put in the work to help draft new community guidelines, assist with elections or appointments for new mods, whatever it might take to make it feel like the place belongs to anyone who wants to be there.
But as it stands now, the only mods are people who were modded 10 years ago, the newest new member joined 2 years ago, and almost no one wants to start any topics that touch anything serious because some dickwad is gonna come in and talk about how actually SJWs are ruining america or some shit.
I don’t like feeling like a part of this site that sort of just exists as a nod to some heyday from like 15+ years ago. I’m ready to let it go, but I would rather either pull the plug on it or try to make significant changes so it has a chance to be a refuge to someone else. As it is now, it just seems kind of sad.
I’m DOUBLE emo about it because I am really really frustrated by the fact that in 2020 it seems like there is NO way to engage with people that isn’t being filtered by corporate-owned social media platforms, and they are less interested in helping people form healthy relationships and more interested in what can go viral and make them more money.
I can’t imagine being a teen right now trying to form friendships in this landscape. I had hoped to make an effort to go back to this small forum this past year to kind of get that small niche interaction but.. well, you know, now This. I’m just frustrated all around.
I still have a few outlets. I live with my roommate of like 10 years, I have a girlfriend (who lives in texas RIP), I have made a lot of friends in the Tales of Symphonia speedrun community and a few from cosplay, I have a couple IRL friend circles. But... I don’t know; I am missing this kind of purely online, niche community. And maybe that’s fine and they just don’t exist anymore, but that was such a huge part of my social sphere growing up that I don’t really know how to make up for that now?
I miss doodling some amateurish fanart, posting it on DeviantArt as a host and then putting it on this forum where like 2-3 friends who were also amateurish artists would comment on how nice the shading was and post their own art in their own art threads. Now it feels like, okay I can put it on twitter or wherever but I’m competing with professionals who do this for a living.
I need to find new communities that are healthy for me, and I am trying to grapple with the fact that it definitely will look different from how it did in 2006, but that’s okay if I can still meet people and grow from it.
[EDIT: I did try the fandom discord server thing but wew... man any server with overlike 50 people in it just turns into the equivalent of a subreddit real fast. I dunno. If your sole engagement with these people is about how much you both like X thing, it stops being meaningful pretty fast I think? Maybe I’m just being old and grouchy. But I’ve left or muted virtually every fandom specific discord I’m in. The only ones I’m active on are the Tales Speedrun discord and uhhhh... hm that’s about it.]
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(cont.) . If Dean really had a problem with Renee speaking about his personal life they probably would, I don’t know, talk about it like a married couple, which is what they are. Don’t act like you’re a “better fan” because you think you know who Renee is just off her presence on social media.
Naive stans are still at it. This is the last time I’m gonna respond to you cuz idiots like you usually think they are right if they are ignored. Embarrassing people like you is fun for me, but it clogs my blog and my followers are not here for stupid shit. The second part of this anon was so fucking stupid I’m not gonna even bother posting it here. As for a response for you…
I would like to ask some questions. How old are you? Did you get a chance to fully grow into a proper human being with a proper mind you sometimes, I don’t know like to use? Why do you sound like you live in some kind of a bubble? Do you have any idea how real life actually works? How there are negative and positive aspects of everything and not everything is as pure as the actual concept is?
Here’s the thing. You stupid fucking stans keep talking in circles, not even trying to make an effort and get the actual point. You live in a fantasy world and cry like babies if someone remind you that your fictions are just that, fictions. I’ll be nice and lay down some truths bout life here for you, even though there is a 99% chance you will once again fail to understand it. I still feel like you are in a desperate need for a rude awakening so here we go.
People make mistakes. Bad marriages are a thing. Abusive/Toxic relationships are a harsh fucking reality. These celebs don’t always make it just cuz they are married or ‘choose’ each other. Brad and Angelina were couples goals but where are they now? Johnny Depp and Amber Heard were ‘married’ but a year later we found out it was an abusive relationship so how come being ‘married’ didn’t stop that? Seth and his fiancee were the best couple in the world and what happened to them?
What the fuck do you think a marriage is? Does it give you a certificate that you apparently are an angel and can do no wrong? Don’t people make wrong choices? Don’t people with low self esteem settle down with someone they probably think are the best they can do and their other half happens to be manipulative and keep telling them they are lucky they choose to be with them and they cannot find anyone else who can put up with them? Cuz, hello?? That is something that actually happens. There are men, there are women who take advantage of people with low self esteem and mistreat them in a marriage and a relationship and the other half puts up with it cuz they don’t know any better. Life is not a bed of roses. Shitty things happen. Shitty people exists. Who mistreat their ‘husbands’ and ‘wives’ even though they are ‘married’. Just cuz one person is linked to another doesn’t make them untouchable. You are gonna get judged on how you act, what you say and what you do. Not what your husband or wife does. Cuz in real life, being a husband and wife doesn’t mean you have got a certificate for your relationship being perfect or pure. Also, people let others abuse or disrespect them when they love someone. Doesn’t make it right. You can be upset or angry at your husband/wife, you can feel they are disrespecting you but you might put up with it cuz you don’t want to fucking fight all the time. IT STILL DOESN’T MAKE IT RIGHT. And all of this, its not even in regard to Dean/Renee. Its the fucking real life in general I’m talking bout.
You guys keep throwing bitch fits if I mention Renee but then you sent me stupid anons and MAKE me talk bout her then get upset even further. What am I suppose to do? Not expose you as a fool? Not embarrass you until you run away and cry in your mama’s lap? Listen, if my opinion is so important to you and you cannot stop getting your feeling hurt over it, maybe you need to ask yourself why is that so. I speak with logic, you blind stans can’t counter me so you keep doing what you do, and that’s whine like utter brats.
I AM a better Dean fan. Your sweet Renee’s internet presence IS her whole life. She loves to discuss her marriage and what goes on in it with strangers online more than she probably does with her actual husband. Lmao, you stans need to start listening to her, follow her stuff. Cuz she’ll let you in her married life all the way. From when she and Dean have sex and what her dogs do when they are getting it on to when they first had sex and what Dean thinks bout her pukes and farts and periods and boobs and what he does when she run to him and cry bout ‘online hate’. In her own words he tells her NOT TO GO ON INTERNET. So yeah, according to her own mouth Dean has several times told her to stop living on her phone but she loves the attention too much.
There is a very simple example. Renee said she loves making Dean take pictures with her when there is a camera around cuz then he cannot say no, implying he doesn’t like it but she loves forcing him in doing so cuz if he doesn’t he’ll look like an asshole or abusive since he’s a man. She also only shoves a camera in his face when they are out in public. For blind sheep that might be adorable, but for people with sensible brains that’s manipulative. If you are allowed to call it ‘adorable’, people are allowed to call it shady. Not everyone’s gonna perceive things like you. There are people with superior brain cells than you. We are not gonna apologize for that.
If stupid stans are allowed to assume they are ‘oh so in love’ just by few pictures, people are allowed to assume things by what actually comes out of her mouth on her several podcasts where she loves making very personal and invasive comments. You guys should get out of your homes and start living your own lives instead of trying to live through these couples you ‘stan’ for.
Renee has several times said she’s an open book, she HAS to be on internet and get that validation. You cannot have it both ways. Both her and her stans need to understand this. She can play a victim all she wants, her stans can be brainless sheep all they want. Doesn’t change the fact that she brought it upon herself and the obsessively creepy Deanee fanbase need to stop bullying others for seeing things for how they are. Also your queen actually loves the attention, so its a win win for her anyways. But you didn’t know that now did you? Cuz funny thing is you don’t even follow the people you are always bending backwards in order to defend. If anything, it makes you pretty damn pathetic.
At the end of the day, hating Renee gives me no pleasure. Dean married her and I like Dean and want him to be happy, so I hope she genuinely makes him happy. But its not hard to judge her considering how much she loves to overshare. I used to listen to her pod, follow her on twitter cuz I liked her. But in the end all of that made me dislike her and her relationship with Dean. If she had kept her mouth shut, I would still be rooting hard for them as a couple cuz visually they do look good and Dean knows how to keep his shit private. The impression I get from her is that Dean’s a possession to her. And that’s the bottomline. I’m entitled to feel how I feel.
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social media platforms have us all wrapped around their fingers. tumblr adds new ways to advertise final fantasy every other month, facebook inserts ads right in the middle of videos now not to mention all the privacy breaches, and twitter is just an echo chamber of nazis and jordan peterson fanboys like the seagulls off finding nemo except racist, but what am I gonna do, NOT watch that buzzfeed tasty video about the bacon-avocado-cheddar-buffalo-doughball i’ve seen ten times and i’m never going to recreate? NOT post my great selfie on instagram right above the ad for instagram itself? NOT go substitute tweeting for real human interaction? i COULD, but WILL i? no, i won’t, and i probably wouldn’t no matter how many ads i’m assaulted with every day, because that’s just my life now! one day i’m going to have to watch a 30-second ad for fucking alexa or something before posting on tumblr and guess what? i’ll be here still posting some stupid shit like ‘is it unhealthy to fart in the bathtub’ and ‘science please tell me why some cheeses taste better shredded’ and you’re all going to be right there with me, watching an ad for chevrolet to like and reply ‘lmao mood’
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Because I’m a jerk how about all 99? :P
I hate you Mason. 1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? Burnin Up by jonas brothers
Faith by George Michael
Without Love from the Hairspray Movie Soundtrack
TKO By Justin Timberlake
Mirrors by Justin Timberlake
2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Gal Gadot
3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. “When you’re ready, let me know, and I’ll see how well you’ve done.” - Brisinger
4: What do you think about most? Depends on the day
5: What does your latest text message from someone else say? “Oh yeah.” Shout out to Nic
6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on? with clothes
7: What’s your strangest talent? That I don’t have a talent
8: Girls… are great and valid; Boys… are great and valid
9: Ever had a poem or song written about you? Not that I know of
10: When is the last time you played the air guitar? I was in middle school. Accidentally farted in the middle of the room in girl scouts trying to be cool doing that. Haven’t done it since.
11: Do you have any strange phobias? Hate crowded places, don’t like stuff with a bunch of holes, hate snakes, mainly claustrophobia and social phobia
12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? a nasal spray
13: What’s your religion? very loose catholic
14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Walking, exploring a place, talking on the phone
15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind it. Don’t like how I look in photos I didn’t take myself.
16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? Shinedown
17: What was the last lie you told? That I would be getting decorations for something today. I meant it when I said it tho.
18: Do you believe in karma? Yes. I believe what you put out into the world is what you receive. Whether or not that is specifically karma who knows.
19: What does your URL mean? It means Kylo Ren is a little bitch and that The Last Jedi never existed
20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? W: overthinking S: Passion
21: Who is your celebrity crush? Chris Pine atm
22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Nope. It makes playing Never Have I Ever really easy
23: How do you vent your anger? Talking to a friend, posting on a sub social media account
24: Do you have a collection of anything? Fairies, makeup, wonder woman and batman items
25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Phone. Conversation is more natural and unfiltered
26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become? Very much so yes
27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? Styrofoam - I love the sound of my fan or the sound of someone laughing
28: What’s your biggest “what if”?What if I stayed in my first school
29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yes and Yes
30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. R: makeup drawer L: Wall
31: Smell the air. What do you smell? Air. I smell air. Miss me with that hippie shit
32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to? A club in Tampa
33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East Coast.
34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Justin Timberlake
35: To you, what is the meaning of life? 42
36: Define Art. Anything you want it to be
37: Do you believe in luck? Sort of?
38: What’s the weather like right now? Cooler side. Kinda nice tho
39: What time is it? 1:20 am. Fuck you.
40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? Yes and no
41: What was the last book you read? Still in the middle of Brisinger bc I am forever cursed to never finish that series. No spoilers
42: Do you like the smell of gasoline? No
43: Do you have any nicknames? Kari, Rina, Lord of the Universe
44: What was the last film you saw? Just came back from seeing Game Night. It was good.
45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? Sprained my ankle one time.
46: Have you ever caught a butterfly? Yes! He died.
47: Do you have any obsessions right now? Kakashi tbh
48: What’s your sexual orientation? Straight
49: Ever had a rumour spread about you? Yep that I was falsely in love with someone I was not.
50: Do you believe in magic? No.
51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? Yes
52: What is your astrological sign? Cancer. I’m an emotional bitch.
53: Do you save money or spend it? Both
54: What’s the last thing you purchased? Candy for a movie
55: Love or lust? Love. 100%
56: In a relationship? Not at the moment
57: How many relationships have you had? Official? One. Non official? 3
58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue? I tried. No.
59: Where were you yesterday? School, work and home
60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? My blanket
61: Are you wearing socks right now? Nope. Bare feet.
62: What’s your favourite animal? Meerkat
63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? That’s manipulation I don’t encourage that spam snapchat with selfies
64: Where is your best friend? Hopefully sleeping bc it’s nearly fucking 2am
65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. how about no
66: What is your heritage? Hispanic
67: What were you doing last night at 12AM? Sleeping like I should be doing right now
68: What do you think is Satan’s last name? Pussy
69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off? I am a child of God.
70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? Yes I would love another hot mess friend.
71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? Call someone nearby to help and explain the situation
72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
a) family and close friends b) go see all the people I want to see c) of course who doesn’t fear death
73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love. In order to love you need trust so love.
74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Burnin Up by the Jonas Brothers or Get Low by Lil Jon
75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? Not happening
76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Trust, Love and Communication
77: How can I win your heart? Win my family’s heart
78: Can insanity bring on more creativity? Yes bc there are less social restrictions
79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? To leave the first school - also to go to San Antonio last summer
80: What size shoes do you wear? 8-9
81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone? She loved Wonder Woman.
82: What is your favourite word? Fuck
83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. family
84: What is a saying you say a lot? “Listen”
85: What’s the last song you listened to? Say Something by JT
86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours? Pink, Black, Green
87: What is your current desktop picture? Picture of Abby Cadabby from Sesame Street reading a muppets version of harry potter
88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? The asshole in power in Venezuela
89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Depends on who it is
90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Cry because mummies have been a fear since childhood
91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
Photographic memory when needed
92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Either a very recent Saturday. Or a moment in San Antonio where I was just in the hotel room being the happiest I had felt in years.
93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Ever riding Falcon’s Fury
94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Nick Jonas despite knowing it would be awful
95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
New York or Chicago
96: Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not atm
97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?
Yep. Tried swallowing pen ink and it made me puke
98: Ever been on a plane?
Yep this past summer
99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
Be kind to one another.
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30 questions tag!!
Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 30 people. I was tagged by my favorite Australian Goddess, @serensama
1) Nickname: I go by my main nickname - Jackie. Others include Jack, JG, Ki Ki, Mama, Babe, Babes, Nurse lady, hey you, hoe, slut, etc
2) Gender: Female
3) Star Sign: Sagittarius; Dragon for Chinese Zodiac
4) Height: 5′3, I am smol
5) Time: 2:17 pm
6) Birthday: December 15th
7) Favorite Bands: I have way, way too many!! I can’t just just pick one. Here’s a random list - Linkin Park, Metric, Paramore, Fleetwood Mac, Pvris, Florence + the Machine, Brand New, TOTO, Evanescence, Taking Back Sunday,
8) Favorite Solo Artists: Please see the above, I have no chill and can’t pick just one. To name some randoms - Lana del Rey, Halsey, Hozier, David Bowie, Ed Sheeran, Jack White, Kesha, Adele, Sia, etc etc etc
9) Song Stuck In My Head: 🎵 ITS GONNA TAKE A LOT TO TAKE ME AWAY FROM YOU - THERE’S NOTHING THAT A HUNDRED MEN OR MORE COULD EVER DO 🎵
Hahah but for real, besides Africa, which is forever stuck in my head, I had “You and I” by Pvris looping on repeat.
10) Last Movie I Watched: I had Victor Frankenstein playing in the background while I was farting around on Tumblr yesterday.
11) Last Show I Watched: I’ve been watching Assassination Classroom all day.
12) When Did I Create My Blog: I apparently started it in May 2014, but I didn’t really start being active until September 2016.
13) What Do I Post: So much random garbage, haha. Stuff about shows i’m into, books i’m into, games i’m into. Sometimes I post my writing, but mostly I reblog the writing (and art for that matter) of people far more talented than me. Shit posts. Memes. It’s a dumpster fire in here, y’all.
14) Last Thing I Googled: “voice actor of Karma Akabane”, haha. His voice sounded so familiar but I couldn’t place it - turns out he does the voice of Obi in Snow White with the Red Hair, which I watched last weekend.
15) Do you have other blogs: Nope. I’m too lazy. Y’all gotta put up with the dumpster fire.
16) Do you get asks: Occasionally, yes! I’ve gotten more in the last few days than I think I’ve ever gotten, which is pretty dope. I love talking to everyone!
17) Why did you choose this blog name: I wasn’t sure how tumblr worked, and I didn’t know if I wanted anyone I knew IRL to find my blog, haha. All of my usernames for other social media have my name in them, so I was trying to think of something different. I then stumbled across an old quote by F. Scott Fitzgerald - “They slipped briskly into an intimacy from which they never recovered.” From there, I became “illneverrecover”. I don’t have the heart to change it.
18) Blogs you are following: oh god, so many blogs. Any time I find a new anime/show/book/game I like, I end up following 5-10 blogs from that fandom. The majority are probably MysMe blogs, though.
19) Followers: 245, which blows my mind. It seems like just the other day I only had 100 porn spam blogs following me.
20) Favorite Colors: Purple, black, grey, red.
21) Average hours of sleep: Ugh, probably 6-7 during the week, 8-9 during the weekend if tiny human lets me sleep.
22) Lucky Number: 15!
23) Instruments: I can’t play anything proficiently, honestly. I learned to play some piano by ear, but I took voice lessons for years. I haven’t been in a class for over 10 years though, now.
24) What I’m Wearing: my Slytherin jogger sweatpants, and one of my husbands oversized long sleeved t-shirts :) Comfy lazy Sunday.
25) How Many Blankets I Sleep With: Just one. In the summer we use a quilt & the winter we use a down comforter.
26) Dream Job: To sit around, drink wine, read books, and make sassy commentary. ALAS, this is not a real job, so I’ve been told. If I had to pick a real one - something with music! (though I have to say, being a nurse is also one of my dream jobs and I do love it).
27) Dream Trip: I really want to do a Europe Trip, hit all the countries, see everything there is to see. Japan is another biggie, and is my husbands’ dream vacation. AUSTRALIA AFTER PICKING UP MY GURLS @feelsgood-anon and @zenscrotch SO WE CAN HAVE A WINE & PJ PARTY AT @serensama‘s HOUSE!
28) Favorite Food: Yes. All of it.
29) Nationality: American - my heritage makes me European mutt, essentially
30) Favorite Song Now: ‘One More Light’ by Linkin Park
I’m just gonna tag people who I think would want to participate, or those who I’d love to get to know better :) Feel free to ignore this if tag games aren’t your thing! <3 @zombolouge @feelsgood-anon @celeste-draws @forever-ender @brakeyourbones @zenscrotch @sinfulinsecret @omgawkward @squirrel-nut-zippers @incubeebirb @all-my-cuffs-have-buttons @la-saffron @promiscuous-jalapeno @cass-darling @n3sh3r0x @betyoucantfindmehaha
#i'm sorry i'm sure you guys are all sick of me tagging you#i just like to get to know people#and i am a sucker for tag games#30 questions tag#jackie gets tagged#jackie jabbers#please feel free to ignore
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I'm having a "bad brain day" so I'm gonna binge watch some (presumably shitty) teenage tv, and you never know, I might enjoy it. So I'm seeing Free Rein on Netflix and I'm gonna give it a watch: here are my thoughts below the cut (it gets long, sorry). I should also note that I know next to nothing about horses or horse riding. Also there are probably spoilers ahead.
Ep1:
Nice scenery
She looks uncomfortable, like they've just put her on a horse and told her to smile
Why is Zoe Scottish
Wait nvm
Oh hey, Zoe's cute
The grandad is brilliant I already love him
Ah, no father. Same
Why is there just shit on the side of the road, there are no animals around and I doubt the horses would go to the side of the road to poo
Why does he still have kids drawings on his cupboards?
Digging the teapot
Ah, layered tops. Typical teenage fashion
"The light will come through again" needing that today
Haha "what's a wifi"
At least they represent Jetlag though
Ah yes, one daughter goes missing - send the other one out to look for her. What could possibly go wrong.
Ooh, that acting wasn't great. Though the blonde is actually quite a good actress
Ooh, Raven. Ooh, foreshadowing (I guess)
K but this isn't the type of thing Austen would write
Why is Marcus like 25, the others are like 12 what
He's not even that attractive? (Says the bisexual who is more into women rn)
Horsome - the new fetch
Ah yes, get off the bike, that makes sense
Oh look a wild horse, who'd've ever thought???
Oh wow! Wild horse who is only understood by outcast? This is groundbreaking!
(Jk I'm kinda into this ngl)
An actual Scottish person!
Who's the guy with the cheekbones and why is he so shifty
What happened to the bike?
Oh Derek is obviously in love with the main stable person
Ah yes, stop looking for your sister and go chat to a horse
Bitch number one has arrived
Of course she owns the horse. That makes sense
They've called him hot Marcus jesus what is this
Cheekbones is stealing. Stop being shifty.
Welp theres the first continuity error I've spotted
Cheekbones is stalking now, apparently
Cheekbones is about to be falling in love, I'm calling it
He's also like, twenty tho
Oh shit what why is she being stalked now??
Ep2:
This is clearly a dream though
Are jelly shoes back in fashion? Sweet
I refuse to believe she could hear him from that distance and a closed window
I predict a love triangle
I mean cheekbones has a point
That wasn't a long conversation, like, that woulda taken an hour for me how does the mother do that?
Ah, ye olde fart joke
Bitch number one pulling the "I have lots of money" card
So they're putting cheekbones and Zoe together. I mean I can live with that
Oh my god cheekbones don't be such an arse
You'd think the mother would have worried if her other daughter didn't turn up the the pier where they agreed to meet?
Let's read mum's old diary! That can never go wrong!
They're literally stalking hot Marcus? Thats a?? Wee bit weird???
They're actually letting Mia go on Raven? Wow
Bob is kinda cute actually
I mean... she kinda deserved to fall not gonna lie
Bet Zoe is gonna make the magazine cover. Would serve Mia right lmao
Ok that's kinda cute, cheekbones. At least we know you're human
Wait what? Is cheekbone's name Pin?
WHAT SORT OF A NAME IS PIN?!
And the mother doesn't want the daughter to be riding. That makes a lot of sense. Totally.
Did she even peel those carrots?
Why has no one noticed she's wearing someone else's hoodie?
THANK YOOOOU
Oh shit, cheekbones is stealing the sedatives. No one saw that coming
Ep3:
K but she didn't say you couldn't go to the stables?
Rosie is honestly brilliant
Grandpa and I are on the same wavelength
Pin cam - idk man surely you could just... talk to him?
How could Marcus tell it was too small?? He wasn't looking at her???
Oh my god. Tie up your hair
Of course she's a prodigy, why wouldn't she be
They actually have a secret hip hop dance routine?? I wanna see that not gonna lie
The pun and finger guns have me. This kid is my new favourite character
Rosie, much though I like you, that is a total breach of privacy
Told you Pin cam would backfire
Now Marcus is going to find out about her "recording him"
It's only £10? I wanna go to pony camp.
Bet cheekbones is gonna go into where she just went
Called it
There must be a more subtle way to break into the medicine cabinet than with a screwdriver?
He's obviously not a horse thief? Medicine thief sure, horse thief nah
And I suppose that's Raven telling her it wasn't him, because that makes perfect sense
Ugh Mia calm down
Tbh maybe the parents would be better off separated? But like idk
It's the police, for why
Of course it was firefly that got stolen. I kinda feel for Mia and her bad acting.
Ep4:
How come is Pin allowed to come back even though he was stealing sedatives? That's still kinda illegal?
You're not banned from the stables though, are you Zoe
Rosie you sarcastic legend
She has a point though, what if she breaks her leg
Why is everyone attracted to Marcus?
Puns
Oh look, it pin
.....why do I dress the same way as Pin?
Who in their right mind needs three horses?
Pin is ignoring her - quite right honestly
Ah yes, subtly eavesdropping
I bet Elliot isn't even E
Ben is great
Ben and Rosie are in love. I've decided.
If course Pin is leading the hack
Mr Cheekbones! That's totally who he is! I called it!
He clearly doesn't want to talk, like... maybe let Pin get over the whole getting arrested thing? Idk
Why Becky? I don't understand?
Ah yes, follow the broody horse guy who was stealing sedatives, that can't possibly go wrong and is obviously the best option
Wait so Zoe followed Pin to his house and is now demanding he tells her what he has in the weird crate thing? Wow
And it's a horse. Wow. It's not like this is a horse show or anything
Called it, not a horse thief
Pin’s actually kinda sweet
Wait
Am I attracted to Pin?
I think I'm attracted to Pin
Shit
Decent cinematography there though
Ghost pony is a brilliant story
Wow Mia is such a dick
Now, this can go one of two ways. And I confidently predict Mia is gonna tell Zoe's mum she's not allowed to ride
Called it
Ep5:
Well the riding crop thing Is obviously the mother's
Oh yeah, Marcus is a character
How did anyone actually get close enough to Raven to braid his tail?
Savaaaaaaage
Ugh "like electricity" ughhh
What happened to Rosie?
Grandpa is brilliant and I love him
Why would fixing a radio make it up to Pin? I don't understand?
Those leather trousers though....
They're actually kinda cute together.... what is this
I ship it?
I still find Pin vaguely attractive and idk why
Oh hey Marcus, you're here as Love Interest #2
Oh no, I feel a bit bad for Rosie, I hope she doesn't get bullied
I'm emotionally attached
What is this
Why am I hooked on this television programme
Why
She can't seriously be intending to stay the whole night in the hay? It gets cold at night how're they gonna survive?
Oh actually Rosie might do okay. Cool
Who is gonna clean up all those crisps though?
Ghost pony, again
Pebbles?! Brilliant
I love Becky.
This can not end well
Definition of me on social media
She has five horses? Who needs five horses??
It's gonna be Rosie and crew, not horse thieves
..., that was unexpected
I am also relieved to find out there is no ghost pony
Look at them, stealing the horse.
Or not
Ep6:
Oh yeah, time zones are a thing
Rosie is not a subtle eavesdropper
Ah, a horse show. Why didn't I expect that
£15,000. Enough to, say, help this stable that is running low on money which we have been repeatedly told from the first episode? Let me guess, another, rival stable always wins and there's no way they could never pull it off?
Holloway Riding School. Called it
Can Becky just give away food?
"Keeping you entertained is easy" is it though????
Mate listen to his teachings.
You need your foundations in place before you can get any good?
"Let me go over the jump" "no" *does it* "wow well done"
Ugh she's gonna ride raven
Bet it doesn't go well
That's very Rube Goldberg not gonna lie
One little ride around the paddock will hurt
There's a race? The quads are gonna win
Bob was not made for speed.
And there goes Raven
Because obviously.
Pin looks worried because he has a crush on Zoe. Obviously
And yet Marcus is gonna get all the glory
That cringey ADR
Marcus has a point though, the basics are important
We're unlocking Maggie's backstory
She can't still be upset about a horse that died over 15 years ago?
I ship Becky and Jade not gonna lie
Ugh team lists. I'm calling it Zoe will have made it on despite not even trying out
Yup.
Wait she's reserve on Raven? Why? That's not a good move?
Ep 7:
Mia is such a bitch
Ok Raven doesn't like water, and I confidently predict this is an important plot point
Ooooh Mia just got rejected
So now the Ghost Pony is Emerald
Zoe you are so naive Marcus is asking you to the dance
Becky I love you and the mystery tortilla
Mia hasn't made the cover, I can predict.
I do feel a bit bad for Mia with her not very good father who isn't really there for her
That colour of green is a really nice colour of green. It brings out Pin's eyes. Ew, stop, why am I like this
Pin stop
Is zoe about to be murdered?
I thought the ghost pony was called Pebbles?
Why has Ted suddenly warmed up to Zoe?
Unlocking Raven's backstory
Pins name is actually Peter. Huh
It's nice that the moor pony is getting better enough to eat an apple
She's not on the cover
Pin likes Zoe and I ship it
Tedward
She's on her way to Steel (lol) his heart
Perfect - let the horse who is scared of water jump the water jump what could go wrong. Throw in an inexperienced rider into the mix and it's a perfect combination.
Wait this is actually kinda sweet
A funeral for Emerald is lovely
But the name Edward begins with an E so maybe E wasn't just Emerald
You could fall. IN LOVE. WITH PIN. OH MY GOD PLS
Wait what
Why has the photographer never heard of brightfields
Mia is so stuck up but I quite like her
I definitely did not need to take a 20 minute break just trying to find out how old Freddy Carter was, jesus.
Throwing stones at the windows, teenage stereotypes
They're cute
Ah, he couldn't say Peter, hence the Pin
Oh my god heartbreaking
Now they're going to the dance. Nice one
Oh god is Mia gonna do something to sabotage Zoe and Pin?
Holy shit is Ghost Pony real?
Ep8:
I actually quite like that yellow dress, not gonna lie
I love Becky and so does Jade
It's totally a date don't lie to yourself Zoe
Mia can get tae
Pin don't listen to her
She wouldn't tell you if it wasn't true though would she, Pin you imbecile
Rosie stop sabotaging, your mother is allowed to have friends
Oh shit they were a couple
Wait
What if it turns out Pin and Zoe are siblings
Wait no I'm thinking too much into this
Pin calm it
Marcus be happy
Pin... just.........
bob wyd
They're married.
"I already did" I mean....,
How are they upset by that?
Literally just talk to each other? This would make everything so much easier?
And Raven is still scared of water. Don't blame him, honestly
Ben and Rosie are evil geniuses
Becky is adorable and thinks safety goggles would help prevent death
She also thinks carrots glow in the dark
Wait how does Maggie know about the whole boys thing
Offscreen I guess
I mean I wouldn't wear that dress, but I guess it's okay?
Rosie fixing lights is not going to end well
Yup.
Where did ted come from? How did he get there so fast?
I mean Zoe actually pulls off that dress
Has Becky been murdered?
Oh yeah, Becky has a blog
I don't necessarily understand how or why a ghost pony is scary
Oh wait it's a person
Is it the horse thieves
It is the horse thieves
Why did they wait until dark? That would have been a long time to wait to capture the horse thief
Derek is a brilliant character
Who is very obviously in love with Sam
That barn actually looks pretty good
Pin went with Mia? That's surprising
Ted and Maggie are cute
Ben and Rosie are also cute
Derek and Sam are also a little bit cute
Piiiin don't be a diiiick
Those shoes don't really go with that outfit tho...
Rosie is in the spotlight though and I'm sure she's loving it
Mia go and just stop
Ooh thunder
Marcus is following Zoe who is following Pin who is going home
Oh wait Pin and Zoe are arguing in the rain. I may not be familiar with tropes but I'm pretty sure that they're about to kiss
And they're cute and I ship them
Marcus is just casually watching around the corner. Like a stalker
Was not expecting that?
Of course this is when the horse thieves take Raven
Ok but shouting after him is hardly gonna do anything?
Ep9:
I mean... it wasn't even her horse
That's so Raven
Wait they have security camera surely the thief will be ca- oh there was a power cut
But there was a back up generator?
Wait but Zoe is supposed to ride on Raven in the show? Assuming she has to
Rosie is so extra
Oh my god just like... idk kiss
That highlight tho
"That's what I love about you" pin, do continue
Pin you genius
So now they're off to look for this horse
Why didn't they just have this chat at the stables before they left and saved time?
"If the storm comes in again turn back" so the storm is gonna come in again and one or more of them aren't gonna turn back. Ok
"I am scared of the tooth fairy! What does she need all those teeth for? What's her plan?" Same Becky
Ben and Rosie have a handshake, this is cute
What is her plan
Becky is me with every single person I have a crush on
This is a significant character development for Mia
Ok so the only group not turning back is mia, susie, and Zoe
This is not going to end well
Mia.... Zoe can't control the weather?
That recording is in no way convincing
Wait how big is this island???
Either Mia or Zoe is going to get hurt
Ghost pony?
I mean this is just a bad horror movie now
Oh shit, firefly?
And Mia got hurt. Okay.
Wait so if Mia's hurt, she can't do the show?
Wait so the dad just turned up?
I like that there has been a character development now we sorta understand Mia's actions
So Mia can't ride
Wait what
Who is this and why is she here
Why is that so ominous
Ep10:
Rosie is so done with England
Sam is being pretty chill
Oh never mind
Marcus also has a crush
Still a Pin supporter tho
Rosie is brilliant
I would wear every single outfit pin has worn this season, not gonna lie
Becky is not helpful
And a raven horseshoe? Really?
Wait... nah never mind
Wow the mystery lady from the jaguar was just suuuuper rude to pin
I'm with Ted - it's totally what he thinks
Oh shit wait is Sam a horse thief?
Oh she is! Okay
That was a twist
I did not see that one coming
Don't just ignore Pin?
So now she just tells her that Raven is still on the island? Okay
Yaaas Pin! Go with her!
What signal? You can't just say wait for my signal and then not say what the signal is?
Wait but Zoe is getting the stolen horse and can't ride
Wait pin what are you doing
Oh the horseshoe
Wait if Mia could have ridden anyway, why put Zoe on?
I get the whole sprained ankle thing but she's just doing it?
Oh look, clever parallels between Mia doing the show and Zoe escaping
But what happened to Pin
And Rosie, where is Rosie
Oh look, water
Any bets Raven overcomes his fear and makes it across
Well look at that!
Also there's pin, he looks so proud
Dereeeeeek how do you feel
Oh no, pin don't feel bad. It's only Marcus... well actually..
"Derek" "its officer wrigley" savaaaaage
Wait.... his last name is wrigley?!
Is this their secret hip hop routine?! Oh my god this is brilliant!
I'm calling it - they've won
Yeah
Everyone has just left Mia lmao
Pin didn't even ride why is he there?
SUSIE HAD A BOYFRIEND ALL ALONG
IM SHOOK
if there was a scout at the riding school, they wouldn't send a letter if they didn't let him in?
Of course he got in that just makes sense?
Why would they send him a letter telling him he didn't get in if he was scouted?? It makes no sense????
And they kissed. Wow. There was like, no build up for that, Zoe and Pin, however....
Wait so Zoe is still not interested?
And now she's going to Pin?
Throwback to the singing teapot
It Pin
Oh that was actually pretty funny? I guess? Nice one Pin
Wait what's happening
Haha Lavinia
Ah, back to old Raven/Midnight Blue i guess
What do you want her to do Pin, I don't???
Ok so this is not a satisfying ending
Pin... are you literally stealing a horse right now?
Okay this is a lovely scene and all but how realistic is this
"I won't let you" you can't stop her???
Wait what
Okay so she can stay in England or go to America
She's gonna stay
They'll get renewed for a season two and she'll stay
And fall in love with pin
Because reasons
Should I stay or should I go now
Of course Mia is gonna buy the stables.
To summarise: That wasn't as bad as I was expecting it to be - I actually quite enjoyed it.
#free rein#liveblog#i guess#I watched over four hours of this show in one sitting#I just thought I would post this here as like#a note to self? idk#long post
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Yesterday was a very different feeling. I decided to meet a friend in person who I had been chatting online for a year. Akiila and I met on tinder. When we realized how much we had in common, we began following each other on social media. I have no idea how we matched up back then in the first place because he was living in New Zealand during the time.
We talked a lot about traveling since he was born in Sri Lanka and his parents sent him to live with his aunt in New Zealand (when a tsunami hit Sri Lanka causing devastation). We both love to travel and see the world and he was in the process of moving to Windsor Ontario, Canada for school, therefore he asked me a lot of questions about what to pack in terms of weather since the climate in the U.S. Detroit area is relatively the same.
We went through a very dry phase where we didn’t talk hardly ever. I was seeing someone and he was highly interested in a French girl who led him on only to later put him in the friend zone. 2 weeks ago on my spring getaway in SC, surprisingly we had a ton of contact via snapchat. I can’t remember exactly what started all of it. I think he randomly messaged me one night asking me how I’m doing.
We would stay up all night snapping each other/ using video chat on whatsapp and facebook messenger etc. His accent is amazing. I can honestly listen to it all day everyday. Being born in Sri Lanka and raised in New Zealand, you can only imagine what his dialect sounds like <3 We talked about everything and nothing. I remember telling him over the phone how I felt like I could talk to him about anything and I felt so comfortable talking to him. That’s when he said “don’t take this the wrong way, but do you think it’s easier to talk to me because we’ve never met? The whole concept of talking to a stranger in a judgement free zone?” I had never thought about it that way. We talked more and more until he invited me to spend a day with him in Windsor. I said yes. I was both nervous and excited in a sense that I knew I would have to cross the border, which is not exactly my thing lol).
So yesterday I left my house at Noon and Got to Windsor after 1. Half of the battle was trying to find each other. I couldn’t come to his apartment because I don’t have a parking pass. He doesn’t have a car, nor does his new phone have wifi/data and he can’t make phone calls unless he has a wifi connection. I have a car, but once I crossed the border, my phone went to roaming, in that I am technically in a different country. So I used as much data as I could and he made sure to stay in his apartment until I was parked at our meeting place for sure. Then he would get started my way, after getting my message. He made sure to meet me at a spot where he would have wifi. I walked nearly a mile to the spot he was located in that he said “I can’t move, this is the only spot where I can communicate with you”. I finally reached his spot by the river and he was laying in the grass on the top of a hill. He had a cute purple backpack on. I called his name and he came up to me. We didn’t hug, nor shake hands. It was very much so awkward.
We began chatting about what we wanted to do. We decided to go downtown. I drove. I broke the ice as soon as we got in the car and suggested we grab drinks. Windsor is such a strange place to me. Walking through town was like a ghost town. It’s like we were the only ones out. We went to the only bar that was open, called Leftys. There was one worker in the whole building. A rasta white girl with long locs and piercings. I ordered a vodka soda and he ordered a pitcher or beer. After we got a good buzz going, we were done having intellectual convos and on to sillyness. His sense of humor is so dry and mine is so silly and when you mix them, you’re onto something. We were both laughing really hard at one point. Eventually we got hungry and left to get food since this strange place didn’t serve food. We got Mediterranean food. Still tipsy and silly. He wanted to go back and get more drinks and of course I wasn’t gonna say no to that.
Everything was kinda cloudy from that point on, but I vaguely remember him asking me “so what do you think about all of this?” I was confused on what he meant. He asked me how it felt meeting in person and I blurted out that I was attracted to him. I asked him to sit next to me. He came across the booth and sat close to me putting his arm around me. He goes “awww so sweet” and kisses me on the forehead. I asked for another kiss and we began making out and cuddling. The bartender came over and gave us the bill. We left immediately and went to go find a hotel. All of a sudden, walking around town with him felt right. We felt like an item and we were holding hands. Walking in the parking structure, as soon as we turned the corner, he grabbed my hand and said “co’mere girl”. He put his hands around my waist and started kissing me. I put my arms around his neck and we madeout until we heard people coming.
It took us a while to find a room. When we finally did, we were both very sober but still feeling in love. I’ve never had foreplay so passionate in my entire life. It was so refreshing. A lot of sensual loving. Eventually we did it, and it turned into something that we kept doing over and over again. We would get tired, take a break, maybe a nap and then have more sex. Out of all of it, cuddling was my favorite part. I felt so loved I guess. He is so cuddly, smells amazing and those moments made me realize he’s such a man. Gorgeous ethnic man with tattoos. Just beautiful. He would make such dry humor at the perfect moments. At one point he even farted on me. That’s when you know you feel comfortable around someone.
Yesterday I felt like I had a best friend and like we had known each other for ever. He begged me to stay the night with him but I really needed to get home. I knew that I was no match for the border to USA and the anticipation gave me great anxiety.
Dropping him off at his place was a strange vibe. All I could really say is it was nice to meet him. I was afraid to tell him that I missed him already. I told him to be safe instead. He said “we’ll probably never see each other again. You take care”. I looked in his eyes, he grabbed my face and gave me a goodbye kiss.
:( ughh I feel like I will be ok, but right now I’m not sure if I am. I’m used to this whole foreign love affair stuff but you can never truly be ready for goodbyes. I love him and overall, I’m glad I decided to put my pride aside and go see him while I had the chance.
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8/31/2020
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We're tapping into surpassing expectations from the most successful people in the modern day and honing in on new foresight, methodologies and clairvoyance. You never knew this is your transformation station with your host, Greg Favazza
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GREG
[00:00:24] I have been overwhelmed, as you can tell my shit's not even up in the background. Cause I had to re wipe the computer because this brand new computer I bought somehow got a fucking virus on there and fucked everything up. So I had to delete that. I've been. I'm writing two books. I've finally finished my design for my third book.
That's going to fucking punch a hole in Stephen Kobe's work, where I'm going to go. I am going to take those next seven habits to a whole new fucking level.
LARRY
Wow. I need to be patenting this shit, but I believe that cost like around 200 bucks. I just can't spend it. However, there's no, you, you could always, uh, print the concept of it up and then mail it to yourself.
And keep the envelope sealed and you have a postmark on it. So it's better than nothing at all. That's genius. That's fucking genius. Yeah. I mean, I've, I've heard that. That's one way to deal with that. I, again, when push comes to shove, I don't know how valid, but at least you have here. Well, when did you come up with it?
GREG
Cause here's when I came up with it. Okay. Yeah, I came up with the bouts, I want to say four months ago, and I've just been, I'm trying to work on numerous things and I'm creating a course for podcasting. I'm creating a course for your transformation station that will. Open up people's minds on creating a character similar to mine, because it stuck with me.
GREG
When you told me about my character, it's like, this is what I want my character to be out in the world. Cause I feel like men today need to adopt a higher standard of themselves. And I feel like that will actually ripple out into people's actions. It will impact those to the people that they're interacting with and it will just continue to disperse.
GREG
If people were to just act like that. And I think just having that as a good giveaway, as far as you do this course, you take, you vowed this, this little cheat sheet that I have, all this stuff that I've been creating, finding it will be great to get people on the email list. It will be great to continue to.
Grow with your transformation station. And then also we're doing a podcasting course. We're going into that as far as, or I'll do stuff to review as far as reviewing my microphone, reviewing my camera. And I want you to participate with that because you get a lot of knowledge on that and it's just for, it's just different ways for you and I to continue to grow.
With your transformation station, but also to grow with our audience. Like I haven't connected with them. I haven't done shit with them. And it's just, it's really important that I start doing that today. It's something that I just noticed, you know, a couple of my coaches in the voiceover world, uh, tell me that I need to.
I have and participate in a real social presence. And I just, it, at the end of the day, that's when I think, Oh shit, I didn't do anything. Anyway. What's really interesting.
Greg is in the last two weeks, I've been more social media oriented than I've been in several years. And I will tell you about myself.
Facebook business page, you know, the professional page, fan page, whatever you call it. Okay. I hate it night just under 2000, uh, interactions, uh, which was up from the previous month. Uh, and, and this was over a seven day period. It was like a thousand, 2000%. It was crazy just from participating a little bit.
And I mean, a very small amount with those people that, um, stumbled onto me every now and then I was surprised what a difference it makes. So yes, the point of coming back to what you spoke of is, is that interaction. Yes. Um, people really, they, they they're into that. It's definitely something that I have struggled all my life with and I believe doing this will help me grow and be able to get the message out to people.
[00:05:06] I know we, I know I have a lot of great valuable information to offer this world is just this. Internal barrier that I put between myself and everybody else holds me back. And I know it's just, I created it. It's nothing, nothing more than that. Thinking that, Oh God, if people know that I'm human, then I'm fine.
You know that you are human and, you know, I'm curious, like, what do you, what do you even talk about with your audience as far as that goes to work or live sessions as we go? So I am sure. Sure. So here here's what, um, For example, yesterday was a beautiful morning. I woke up, had my breakfast, my coffee, uh, and I got dressed on Saturdays in tower Grove park, which is just a block or two away from me.
There's a farmer's market and I needed it. I was out of local honey. So, uh, I figured I'll just walk over to the farmer's market and pick that up. And anything else that I really don't need, but I want. Um, so way over once I got into the park, I still have, you know, a good mile, three quarters of a mile to go to where the farmer's market is.
Anyway. Uh, I just turned on my phone and I didn't have a steak or anything. I mean, I'm holding it out here and walking, trying not to, the trails, all crooked and broken. So trying to make sure I don't fall like an imbecile. Uh, and then I can't get up because of my age. And then I have to push my button around my neck, you know, I followed it.
I can't, what is that call or that thing? Like your hip, you can't get up. I figured. Great. And so I was just, I just kind of went on and said, Hey, it's a great morning. I'm going to the farmer's market. I'm going to pick up some high, you know, and people respond to authenticity and just. You know, it was short, I don't think it was two minutes.
Maybe it was two minutes later that day I went back on line and they didn't go. I think this is, I did go live on this one and I think it was the first one I'd ever gone live on. Um, I had been thinking about what am I going to do for dinner? And it was two o'clock in the afternoon, but as I said in the video, just being authentic old people, you know, at two o'clock in the afternoon, they start thinking about what are we gonna do for dinner tonight?
So I was thinking I'm going to have this pasta, but, um, for weight control purposes or actually, you know, portion control, I did, I would actually look at the box of pasta to determine what. A portion is. And so I talked about that. A portion of pasta is two ounces. I mean, that's nothing, it's actually 56 grams, which is two ounces.
There's 28 grams of amounts. Anyway. So I showed them what it looks like. It's three quarters of a cup of dry pasta. And it was even more terrible when I actually made it for dinner and then put the cooked pasta into a pasta bowl. And I mean, I kept looking at her like, where's my pasta, you know what I mean?
Just like four pieces of it. And, but I will tell you, what's interesting is when I was done with dinner. Can I just, I had a little salad, one slice of garlic toast in my pasta. I noticed fall by the end. Weren't you? I was satisfied and I wasn't miserable and uncomfortable and burping and farting. And did, Oh, I didn't eat so much.
And then later too, I can enjoy a couple cooks. Jeez. Cause I had the room. So anyway, but I talked about that. It's amazing how many people popped in and watched it and commented on it. And again, it might've been two and a half minutes long. So I'm curious about that. Did you make, did you make it appealing to you and also trick your brain in a way, as far as.
Setting this pasta and a smaller dish versus an average dish. I feel like, like all the silverware, all the tableware we buy is for extremely large portion sizes. I think that's why we're all beasts in America today because it reads acceptable. That is such a great point. And what I, what I did is I have a digital scale.
Because like I I'm a coffee nut. So if I try a new bean, you can't really go by your scoop. You go by the weight of the beans, how much weight you need for the water you use anyway. So. I actually weighed out two ounces of pasta. I weighed out in grams cause that's how it was listened. So I weighed out 56 grams of pasta.
I was just using little medium shells because I like those. Uh, and, and I put them in what I call a rice bowl. Just like getting ready to cook them. So I wouldn't have to deal with it. Uh, you know, when I got ready for dinner, I just threw it into a pot with boiling water and his great Fazio's meat sauce. Um, and, and then I just put it in a regular pasta bowl, pasta kind of bowl.
But, um, what you say is so true, um, It's mostly marketing. I think that's affected the way everything's supersized in how we expect stuff to be super-sized in the old days, pre COVID when you'd go into a really nice restaurant and you order something on the menu and they would bring it. And I mean, it looked really pretty.
But, you know, you got like medallions of beef and there's like three bites of beef, you know, instead of if it's you and me and we're going to go a charcoal grill, a steak outside, you know, we're going to go get a 12 or 16 ounce steak and slap it on the grill, man. People really, I mean, assuming you have something else to eat with it, you know, you only need three or four ounces of beef.
When you sit down and eat anyway, I don't mean to get off on that. But what you said is absolutely correct. Also with the fact that like, I mean, we're not using, I guess people aren't used to the fact that yes, we adapted. We don't, we don't go how it used to back then, where we would have to survive. Off one meal that would last us for days.
Now there's an abundance of food. I believe it's just way too much as the fact that we can go to a grocery store and get anything we want at any time of the day. And we do, we even have to go to the grocery store with a cell phone and Instacart. We'll bring whatever the fuck we want. I'm guilty. I'm guilty.
Do it again. So we do that. Or sedentary, you know, we're not moving and people wonder how come there's so many people with aches, pains, diseases, illness, they don't feel good. They have no energy and they're overweight, fucking Amazon and Instacart and fucking, yeah. What do you call that place that delivers food?
[00:12:40]Uber eats. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh, door dash or door dash. You know that shit. Huh? But not with fucking reminders. Say, Oh, we got a special for you today. That's you covered? You know, and you get a free cookie if you, you know, do it in the next 12 seconds. Oh my God. And I get a free cookie. Yeah. But the other thing is.
That's all fine and dandy. If we'll each make ourselves move and get some physical exercise every day. All of that's okay. But if we're not in addition to that, if we're not getting out and being physical and enjoying the way our bodies are put together, which requires movement to stay in. Optimal shape, you know, just like a car.
If you don't start it for five or six days and you wonder how come the battery's dead. Cause it's meant to be turned on and the alternator is going to keep it all char you know, however that stuff works. I don't know. But. Yeah, we need to, uh, exercise is so important as to what we do each day and how we feel and how our bodies work.
Yes. So anyway, I'll get off that soap box. No, no, you can keep going. Cause right now you're buying me time as I try to figure out. Cause right now we're live on YouTube and I'm trying to get us live on fucking Facebook and, uh, So, do you have a special software or a special piece of hardware that allows you to stream from, for example, YouTube, and then it streams out live to other platforms.
All right. I have a buddy who actually specializes in that in live streaming, but no, I do not have that. I'm actually utilizing zoom. Okay. Yeah. Provide you with three avenues to get out there. And this is the first time I've ever used it before. Is it working pretty smoothly or fucking YouTube? I believe so.
I mean, I'm trying to think. I don't even know. It's just showing a picture of your face with the lazy eye going. So it looks like, yeah, it looks like it's your left one. Oh yeah. That's probably because I always forget to look at my webcam. Like I looked down here where you are. But then that makes everything go down here versus.
Especially when I'm talking, I need to be looking, I suppose, into the camera, which is really not placed in a good place. That's part of why it looks like I have a lazy eye. So w lazy. Yeah, this is what's interesting to me. Cause I was, I was thinking about this today as far as, why do people have a lazy eye?
And then you really gotta look into it a little deeper as far as, okay. Is there a vision off by chance? Let's say w. Somebody has like a 20, 20 and the other one and the other, one's like a hundred by 20. I don't know. I don't know that it's astigmatism and yeah, that's my issue. Uh, but generally with one eye that's lazy.
It's like, is that the one that's that's straining all the time? Like that's a shitty eye and the other eye is good because it's constant. Like open and just kind of relax. Well, several years ago I had LASIK surgery. So none of that's really true. What you're seeing is. The end result of two things, one a just average web cam.
Uh, and two, like I said, where my camera's placed and what I have to do is concentrate on looking directly at the camera lens. But if the camera lens is off axis, it's like when your microphone's off axis, depending on your microphone. Your voice will sound considerably different when you're off axis, you will appear in things that will appear totally different.
And especially on this camera, when I move, whatever I move the movements all messed up. So as I moved my eyes, you know, it looks funny like this. Okay. So I think as I look at the television, the television, the computer monitor, um, it's this right eye that looks funky. Uh, no I'm done. Devily listening to it. No, that I know that.
And I'm just, you know, talking as you're trying to make these adjustments so that too you'll have the whatever adjustments you need. And as I told somebody yesterday, Um, I like to talk. And so what I've determined is, you know, we all have about 50,000 words. We speak a day over a normal day, most people.
So what about those people that can't, and don't talk for physical reasons and mental reasons somebody has to use up their 50,000 words. Otherwise those 50,000 words are still hanging. And need to be used. And if too many of them are hanging around in the ether, well, then our ether will get all clogged up with these unused words.
So I use everybody's words that don't use their words. That's why I talk so much. I believe it's my excuse for today. Good excuse. And the fact, I liked that as far as people that need to use up this ether, the fact that they don't do it, do you think that creates some sort of anxiety? The fact it's just.
Energy that's inside them. That's not being expressed that they really don't know how to express it. And that's why they get uncomfortable. That's why they're just like awkward kinds of things going on. But then you're coming in kind of just to feed off that energy because that's what I do, use it, um, in an effort to, to.
Utilize all my pent up energy that I could otherwise not use. Um, yeah. For people who chime in right now, they hear you saying, just using your pent up energy. I think that consent is a red flag on how you are a creeper. Oh, well, you know, there's probably many people that find that I am angry. Yeah. But I think part of it, part of that has to do with the fact that we're usually in the mornings.
I like to get out of the shower and just put on my London fog, trench coat, and a big fedora. And I like walking around, outside in public and every now and then when it seems appropriate, opening up my trench coat, um, and people honk and scream and wave and throw stuff and you know, others give me thumbs, thumbs up.
So I don't know. Maybe I have a little creepster to me. No, but, but that's what makes it okay. I like to be weird. Like I want to approach a situation in public and do it in the most abnormal fashion where I can break people's autopilot. I feel like if I can do that, then I made an impact in somebody's day because.
No shutting their brain off. They're dissociating just to get through their day. And I don't want them to do that. I want them to not suffer, but I want them to embrace this awkward, never before seen experience. And did their life because they need that more than anything right now, because that's a way to grow.
And I will tell you back in the day when I was in the corporate world and I'd go into office buildings and walk into an elevator, the door would open and there'd be five or six people, you know, all facing out naturally and all very quiet. So here's how you break it. You are sitting in an elevator. I walk into the elevator and I don't turn around.
[00:20:20] So I'm facing everybody that's facing out. And I don't say anything. I just look, you know, like around it, everybody's standing there and somebody will say something and it'll break the ice, but it's really funny. The expressions you mean? Yeah. You can see in their mind. Why isn't this fuck turning around.
He needs to be, I don't want to be looking at him. We're all supposed to look at the door until it opens and then leave. And it's really funny when you do stuff like that. The responses you get. And generally it's a lot of smiles and laughing and that's always fun. Yeah. Or just ripping ass in the middle of that 32nd, like enclosed room for a second and just have them like, Whoa.
Exactly. Or again, the opposite too is true. You know, you were just in a long business meeting and you got in the elevator and nobody's in the elevator with you and you really got to kind of, or, well, you know, the middle of the day, nobody else is going to be getting in here. And I only got to go down six floors.
So, you know, you let it rip. And the next floor, the door opens and somebody walks in, they know it's you, there's no dog. Yeah, just cut out. They guy just got far and got out on the floor. Yeah. Own that shit. When that happens, you gotta embrace it and just be good. I think people are really weird and awkward. I think if you own it, it would actually make you a more respectable individual.
Absolutely. When they walk in. Sorry about the stink. I just farted. I didn't think anybody else would get him here. There we go. If you can hold your breath for 42 seconds, we'll make it to the lobby. Just this light. Oh shit. Oh, that's weird. Whoa. Stop it on this. Fix that. Okay. Display up to no. Hi, non video.
Are you still there? No, I left. Oh, you got, you got really quiet. Like I just fucked something up. No, not at all. I just decided to take a breather every now and then I actually do that. I don't try to do it often. So it says like everything's running on like all three platforms. However, I'm only seeing we're live on YouTube, which isn't showing.
Facebook at all. So on the Facebook page, is that your transformation station? Facebook page? I'll grab it up here on my cell phone. Yeah. Yeah. And I added you as a, a fucking editor. So you have the ability to do anything on there. But I'm going to copy a link to YouTube, the streaming link. I will post that on the page as well.
Right.
Sometimes I have really fat fingers, I believe. I think that just happens with age. Thank you. Uh, you know, I was wishing you could come up with so many things, but you chose to tell it comes with age. I thought I liked the fact that it shows your creepy face when it's the initial YouTube streaming, like part it's going to look, I'm going to post it just because.
Yes. Cause it's just, it's really funny looking it's like, Whoa, really see the premier cause most wanted right here. Exactly. Exactly. Okay. Now I'm actually on the transformation station page. Ah, dammit. I posted on my personal page. We gotta fix that. So I don't want you on there and too late you're there.
See here. What do you listen to in the background? We live there, where we went to your post, to your post office, to your eyes. Your personal Facebook page. Yay. I just posted on that. Were there, but none, but that's the, this is just YouTube. That's the YouTube link that I copied, right? Oh, so this is not what I'm seeing.
No, no, no, no. This is live. If you click on it, it'll take you to YouTube. I think what I need to do is through your Facebook page. So I think we're streaming. Let me. And it shows zoom, so that's right. Yeah. I don't know. Okay. Maybe it's a plane. Yeah. I just switched back to YouTube, but here's your, hang on this, if you, I don't know.
Yeah. I can see that. I know. I don't know what to do. That's a weird guy. That's there. The guy that looks like Brad Pitt that's. Yes. No. Yeah. That's what, yeah. People confuse us all the time. It's embarrassing. Actually. It's quite exhausting. You have to literally wear a hat and fucking, just sunglasses. Yeah.
And you need a pen. Could you do it? I don't want to disappoint people. So I go ahead and give them the autograph. Wish I had that experience. How does that, like when you wake up and you piss XL, you know, I'll tell you. I see us there. Page, but I don't know if it's, so I just switched it now. Now it's on your transformation station.
I'm going to put it on the group next. I know. I should have, I had this set up. I really did. And this is confusing cause I was actually going to try to do this before, not today, but I mean, before. Last week, actually. Okay. That is confusing because you're 90 years old. I want to listen to it any other way. I couldn't use it so easily.
It's unbelievable. I just want to put a VCR in front of you and watch you struggle. Well, let me tell you. Yeah. And there's people listening to you on CR. You know, what's that you just stuck in that big slot? Mmm. Yeah, no, it's funny. My, my daughter was telling me it was a few years ago when my grandsons were a little bit younger, but she was cleaning out some old stuff.
Um, and there was a box of, uh, videotape and you, one of my grandchildren said, WhatsApp, mom. And, you know, she goes, well, you know, it's a video tape. It's like a movie. Oh, cool. Let's watch it. We don't have a VCR player anymore. We see our players who still have DVD players, but you know, today really, if you don't have one, do you really need one?
You know, everything, you can stream everything or find it in a video, an MPV MP for. Format or whatever. So, you know what I was thinking, I think this would be like a great like idea for like a TV show is to actually have like a competition between, let's say a one year old putting in like the little like boxes or the little squares into the square hole, the little circles into the circle hole.
And then we have like a, what do you call it? Maybe like them. Like a 15 year old trying to learn stick shift. Okay. So we do that. We timed that and then we do an older man say 32 37, trying to figure out a fucking Rubik's cube. And then we have your ass right there on there, trying to work like a DVD player.
Right. Who is the first one that is able to get to the end of the taskings? I think that would be really interesting. It's like that. What is it? American gladiators where people go through obstacle courses. So this would be like, Techno something. Um, you know, uh, I think that interesting cancer is this group here.
I don't know how to pull it out. They updated this Facebook app, mud jigger, and I'm trying to, Oh, they did. But they did actually get to this and it's like, no, What is going on here. Fuck. I will get to our Facebook page. No problem.
Right. So what are you even up to this weekend? Anything exciting, extraordinary, uh, before we even go into that, cause I don't want to, let's go into what the plans are with your transformation station. Um, I have been, I have sucked so badly at entertaining with the audience. Just you have to engage when you're running this sofa, soulful social influence.
I would say lifestyle this podcast, and I want the audience to know that I've been working extremely hard. I'm writing three different books. One will actually be focusing, excuse me, around your transformation station. And. That'll allow you to adopt these principles that you can apply to your character and move forward with a higher self awareness in yourself, but able to recognize the flaws in other people.
So you can distinguish people that will help you in life versus people that will only bring you down. And then the other book. That is focusing with a podcasting course. I've learned so much as far as I started researching how to podcast back in November, 2019 and. I'm the guy who spends every day from morning tonight on how to do something.
And I have links to everything. I got links to fucking Britain. Like this podcast is going globally in 17 different countries. Excellent. And we're in 32 different States of the U S and that is me being at the bare minimum because I'm trying to write a book. I'm trying to create this online course for your transformation station, as well as another course for podcasting yet, I haven't even come up with the names for it.
[00:30:44] I'm just right now, creating these stupid slides, recording these videos of myself, which is extremely exhausting. And then I got links to. Over like 60 days, different locations where you can publish a podcast. I actually have more than 60 in the world, actually. How many places you can, but I know people will find that very interesting and want to know more and that'll be put out there.
As well as you and I doing a product review over equipment on how we can just inspire the world to stop buying this useless crap that Amazon's populating with. Oh, this is the number one seller. Get this one. This one's fantastic microphone. No, no, no, no. There's a reason why it's number one seller is because people that bought it returned it and it's just complete nonsense with all these comments reviews.
Yeah. And you know what, what's really interesting. When you talk about microphones or you talk about a camera or you talk about a light, or you talk about a nutritional stuff supplement, or you talk about a body weight exercise, or the latest fad in anything, you know, there's no one best thing of anything.
So, what I'm suggesting is, for example, in voiceover, one of the most common questions you'll see on different, uh, Forums or Facebook groups, whatever you want to call them is what's the best microphone to get or video people. What's the best camera to get? Or, you know, if, if you're wanting to get a bicycle, you know, what's the best road bike to get?
Well, you know, it depends. It depends on your size. It depends on your voice. If it's a microphone, it depends on your recording area. It depends on your lighting. If it's a camera, there's no best of anything, but then people don't want to hear that depends that there's a gray area because to me that makes me mad because I want a fucking microphone.
Now I'm impatient. I'm an impulsive individual. I want it. I like that. I'm the guy at the store that suffers when I come across an impulse little section in the middle of the aisle. Ooh, what is it? Candy. I didn't want it, but now I do. Yeah, absolutely. So that's why I think when you talk about reviews, the reviews, I really like, and respect and believe are the best or not the, the.
You know, opening box recommendation, you know, this is the only smartphone to have. This is the best smartphone. No, you need to have three smartphones there, or you need to have three microphones there and review them and review why you really liked this one for this purpose and this one for this purpose and this one for this purpose.
And then my question is, and what you can address in those is, you know, what are you going to do with this microphone, Greg? Are you going to be on the street, interviewing people with noisy traffic behind you? No, I'm going to talk to myself and my lonely little place. That's what I'm going to do. Do you have a good recording environment?
So that's, that's when it depends, but you don't have to tell people. It depends. You can take it. Three popular uses of microphones today, you know? And like you wouldn't have this microphone that I'm using for a podcast microphone. Cause it doesn't, it could do. Okay. But you want a large diaphragm. Make our phone, just like when you start talking about DSLR is for doing video, you know, do you want a full frame or, you know, one of those small frame chips?
Yes. It, it, so it does, depending on the kind of work you're in or the play you're going to do, do with so much of this technical equipment, just like, well, should I get a Mac or a PC? Well, first of all, what's your budget. That's a big question, you know? Yes. And even at that, you also Linux, I mean, as far as open sources, it's definitely technologically advanced to understand that like with my research, as far as podcasting I've actually come up with so much information within this book that I'm writing.
That it will expand to every platform it's marketing, it's advertising. You're utilizing RSS feeds you utilizing similar software with the same end state goal. And that's what your transformation, that's what your transformation station is about. As well as this book of podcasting, where it's a universal standard that you can apply from one focus, being podcasting to another focus, being on, being a YouTube influencer to another focus.
That's all. Useful stuff and it's all out there and it's all fucking free yet. We were all buying this shit because people will say, Oh, I have all the special answers and all this nonsense when really it's out there. If you know how to look, if you know how to research, do you know how to read and take time and learn what you're actually trying to find?
You can find it. You can, but most people too, the reason why. Having the knowledge and putting the knowledge into a book or a podcast or whatever media you may use. It is people, you know, they don't want to take that time to learn. They want to grab a book and read or watch a video and learn how to change my words.
Um, you know, whatever it is, wanted time, same time and information are the two. Two commodities that are so important today. And of those two, there's only one that's really unique and that's time, because time is the only asset that everybody shares equally. Nobody gets any more or any less time each day, assuming you make it through the day, you get 24 hours just like everybody else.
And how can you use that time? What makes a difference to you and really the world around you? Um, because again, you know, this minute we're in right now, we'll never be here again and it'll be gone. Why is that? Why, why, why are we losing time every day? Why can't we have that many back? Tell me about that.
Well, and again, I don't know that we can't, at least in the dimensions in this part of the universe that we live in. Uh, you know,
unless you have that time machine and you don't get it back saying that that doesn't exist or won't Larry, are you suffering the oddball effect at this point where you get too old, you start to look back at all the good times you've had. Yeah. Yeah. That was the oddball that's as you get old, I don't believe that to be an oddball cause my old friends were constantly sharing in the algae romance.
And you remember when, back in, you know, three, uh, you know, that kind of stuff, but I'm an oddball. So I have oddball events going on. Most every day in my life. Um, and I'm so thankful for those, because if I wasn't on the spectrum, if each of us weren't on a spectrum of some sort, it'd be a really boring place.
We'd live there. You know, if we were all bots. Um, you know, although we'd have different algorithms, but you know, no, I'm weird. I just, I can't handle how normal people function. Like I'm, if we're standing in line waiting for something to happen, I'm the dude that's thinking about random things that could be possibly happening.
Right. It's like, what if, okay. I'm in a convenience store or something. I'm number five in line. I'm already going through. These thoughts in my head, like, okay, if somebody were to come into this building with the fucking AR it starts shooting the place up, how would I react to this situation when I just run towards that individual, take those bullets into the chest and keep trying to go forward or what I put this old woman that's next city next, or standing next to me, pick her ass up.
Right. And then use her as a shield throw with her. So I'm going to ask at the dude, take the weapon, or even a sense would have a horse where to just Gallop in from the rear out of the storage room, you know, like what the fuck is a Clydesdale doing in seven 11? Yes. The whole situation quicker, faster and easier.
And you call those individually mandatory. It's like half man, half horse. Oh, what if I was one of those, like those shoes, motorcycles that, uh, Progressive or Geico. There we go, we're back. Yeah. I'm trying to do five different things at once and I'm just going to say, fuck it. With Facebook. We have YouTube.
[00:40:37] Why I'm going, right. You just, do you have one monitor going or do you have two? I have two monitors. Set up. Oh man. I wish I had my other computer next to me because then I can just jump on that and see what the fuck is happening. Gotcha. And how you were monitoring all this video was. Yeah, no, I, I was set up before, but I had a virus on my fucking computer and it's like, dude, like this is 2020.
How the fuck you let this shit happen to you? And. Put a mask on each one of your computers, viruses. I'm just.
That is definitely perfect timing to use that. So what do you think about what's happening today? Do you think it's complete nonsense? We've had this conversation in our last recording, but I just really want to go over it again because it's really fucking hilarious to me. I don't know why it's there when you're talking about the situation you're talking about the COVID.
Yes. Yes. The COVID no Cummins, real Cummins. Very real. Are the people's approach to dealing with it? Yes. Are, this is unreal. It's it's uh, Do you think the mask actually even holds anything back because it's just, if you, if you follow the science of it, um, you know, there's special lighting that science has used so that they can see particles and stuff.
And so when they, when we're like, I'm talking right now, of course it's just me in my studio. Uh, but. Droplets are coming out of my breath and they are given the right light. And I don't understand the technology behind it, but these chemists are scientists that are constantly analyzing stuff. And, you know, they use carbon dating to tell you, well, this bone is 5,300 years old.
I mean, the science is there that they can look at the, the size of, and the amount of, and how far your droplets go. When they put a mask on, unless it's in 99, which most people don't wear out to the retail stores. But if it's anything other than that, yeah. Droplets are still going to get out, but far fewer droplets get out and they don't travel, but a couple inches.
And so if you're six feet away from somebody they're not gonna. Get one of your droplets. So from that standpoint, wearing masks, number one, again, if you follow the science, the scientists major. Well-respected scientific minds and organizations have found that if we now in the end of the year, I think it was 60 to 80, 60 to 80% of our country would wear masks.
So it's not even everybody, just 60 to 80%. The people wore masks when they couldn't socially distance. Yes. If that took place, we could lower, we could save approximately 70,000 lives between now and the end of the year. Now some might say, well, 70 thousands of drops in the bucket. It is, but if one of those 70,000 people were your significant other, your child, your mother, your brother, your best friend, you know, to put a mask on why would I not?
To make a political statement. That's absurd. If I could save a life, I would, you know, when I'm driving my car, if somebody is in the crosswalk, walking across the street against a red light, Well, legally, I should just run them over. They shouldn't be in the fucking crosswalk. Yeah. In the middle of the road.
Right in there, again, throwing a tantrum out in the middle of the road, trying to get there, getting people's attention. I mean, the prompt, I hate the fact that I would have to stop because these individuals want to stand in the middle of the highway. Well, that's protesting. Totally. I mean, that's, now I'm going to still run them over.
It doesn't matter where we're running them over there. I, you know, And again, that's, you know, that's why there's vanilla, strawberry and chocolate ice cream. Everybody's got their own way to approach things. Like I said, in my humble opinion, um, I wear a mask when I go outside, not for me, but for somebody else.
And I get tested every week. You know, why is that on Wednesday? Uh, because I, well, I have a bubble and, and you know, my family and those closest to me and we have our bubbles, if you will. Um, we all step outside of our bubbles. Yeah. But I mean, I always have my mask on when I walk into the grocery store, you know, wherever, um, I can't socially distance.
And, uh, but, uh, you know, you just never know if you're walking around with COBIT I don't. And again, I'm a symptom. I don't have any symptoms, but again, Wednesday I'll be back at Walgreens getting, you know, sticking. I don't stick that fuck that, you know, swab up my nose until you, um, and you know, three, four hours, I get the email that says, Hey, negative, cool.
Then I just know I don't have it, but again, next hour I could have it depending on, you know, and because COVID, here's the other thing. Um, you know, I hear people debate about how serious COVID is, and I don't know if it is or not. I know that 180,000 people have died from it. Would they have died?
Otherwise? I don't know. Did they have other issues? I don't know. Probably, but here's the thing, right? It's called a novel virus because the world's never seen it before. So nobody really knows how it works. That's why at the beginning of this thing, which really was back in December, but you know, if you listened to 45, as in, in his administrations, it really didn't, they didn't know about it until January or February.
And then we only had 15 cases and no deaths and it'll disappear magically. And if it doesn't, all you gotta do is take a Lysol enema and you'll be okay, or inject Lysol into your system and that'll take care of it. Um, the fact is we don't know how it acts and we don't even know if. If you have the antigens, because you've had it, how that will affect your immune system.
We don't know shit about it. It's only a few months old for the whole world, since it appeared back in December of 19, you know, well with five G are you familiar with that? And possible like side effects that could have on our own health? Well now, okay. I'm, I'm done, you know, reading. Um, about five G I never really bought into any of the microwave damages to health relative to cell phones, cell phone technology.
I personally seldom keep one up to my ear. I'm generally on ear buds. Excuse me. Or, um, speakerphone five G E in Ghana. I don't know. I just think that our overall exposure to five G. It is far less damaging than our overall exposure to the ship. That's in the air from the carbon emissions that are out there and an ultraviolet ultraviolet.
I gotta stop playing with it. So, you know, look, if, if we tried to isolate ourselves from everything that can hurt us, I mean, we'd live in a cave and die probably at age 30, most of us. Right. So we have to take each risk. Each person has to evaluate. Their risk tolerance and in what they're willing to, to expose themselves to then make their own decisions.
But when it comes to public safety, when it comes to, um, a mask. Everybody should be wearing a mask. I had a spectrum come to my house last week, a couple of different times. And again, they're coming Monday. They fucking hate you. Don't they? We do. And I want to, I want to touch one thing on that and get your opinion, but let me finish this story.
You know, I look, there's a knock at the door. It's the technician. I knew that because you know, spectrum says he'll be there in 12 seconds and sure. If there's a knock at the door, I look out the window. And the dude standing there without a mask, he's a stranger. I don't know where he goes at night, how his family's act and he's going to be in my house less than six feet away from me breathing and touching things.
I don't know. And I just yelled at him through the door. I go, do you have a mask? I said, where's your mask? And he goes, do you want me to wear one. Yeah, fuck. Yes. You know, and I got mine here. I'm going to put mine on you. Put yours on it. Dumb. Fuck. Literally use a come up there. Like, you know, what's going on outside right now.
Yeah, no. Does it help? I think it helps. I feel safer when I'm in close proximity, especially to strangers that, you know, so you believe you believe in this. I believe that you minimize exposure. You minimize your risk. I think. Everybody has different risk tolerances, but everybody minimizes the risks that they're not comfortable dealing with, whether it's financial risk, whether it's safety risk, whether it's health risk.
I mean, I lived my whole life, never using a fucking rubber. I don't even know how to put one on or, you know, instructions in those packages, how to put a rubber on. Larry. Are you Catholic? No. Okay. I definitely know that it's definitely a Catholic thing. That's what our family, like, that's what any of us Catholics that I knew in high school said that they, um, they use, you know, Pull out.
[00:50:12] Yes, it was not, but it does matter. Like I said, my, my point is my risk tolerance and I wasn't talking about pregnancy. I was talking about venereal disease, but again, when I was a kid, You know, there was just a couple, there were no herpes, there was no AIDS. There was no committee, you know? So you got gonorrhea. civilians should go back to you, get a couple shots and you get, well, yeah, the outcome is still detrimental to your own perception, truth of a child or.
COVID, you know, definitely leads somewhere into a different state of mind. Yeah, exactly. And again, I guess the point I was making is risk tolerance. You know, w what, how much risk can you tolerate in every aspect of your life? We go to a restaurant pre COVID. How many people thought about the number of restaurant people?
If you piss him off, spit in your food before they deliver it a lot, or. If you've never been in the restaurant business as a waitstaff or owner or chef or whatever, you need to realize that while they meet minimum health standards to keep their. Doors open again, pre COVID and now even more so, but if you go back into a restaurant kitchen, I mean, for the most part you look around, you're probably not going to go back to that restaurant, even a fine restaurant.
I mean, it's 30, it's weird how employees are doing shit. You see an employee come out of the bathroom. Did they wash their hands? My own nail. You know, uh, so every day we, we, we deal with risk and, and, and I was just talking to my sister about it earlier today on the phone because she wants to fly to New York to see her grandkids and her son.
And she gets behind, I don't want to be on a plane and she's seven years older than me. And, and I go, you know, what, if you stop and think about it, it's probably okay, you're going to have a mask. They're not seeing people in the middle of, you know, in the middle. See, you know, it's a three hour flight from her place to New York.
Uh, it, you know, you gotta decide, is it worth it? And she has a whole bunch of other medical issues, you know, is that risk worth it, or just wait a couple months and have Jeff and the kids come visit you, you know, cause to. If she goes to New York, according to law, she would have to quarantine for 14 days.
And then she could visit, she could quarantine in their house, I suppose. Why does she have the quarantine just tell the brain I saw she's good. Well, yeah. I mean, as long as you, you know, inject it into your yourself and take a handful of that drug that fuck it is. Yeah. Now it's a movie. You'd be good at mostly, like I said, the UV light up your ass in a, in a Clorox bleach if I'm old.
You're anything it does for me. You know, it's, uh, it keeps you feeling clean all day. No, like going through a carwash in a weirder way. Okay. You're going to tell me, okay. You go ahead. You go ahead. You answer that. You send me the question. I'll answer. So here's the question. How do I know if I have fiber optic internet?
Okay. The, so now this is interesting. So if somebody tells you, you do, usually people will take that as okay. I believe you, because you work for this company, so we don't have, it goes without questioning. We don't challenge that information that's being presented, which definitely could ripple out as far as what's happening right now.
Well, so here's my question, you know, if. My speed was anywhere close to 940 Mbps. Right. It wouldn't matter to me, but when my speed is 19 and the PS, what the fuck is Mbps? I don't know what that means per second. And what does that matter to me? Well, okay. So when you pay $110 a month, because you're allegedly getting one gig 1000.
You're getting 1000 megabits per second. Yes. What a gig is, right? It's a thousand megabits. So, um, and, and you pay $110 a month for that, but you only receive 19 megabits. So you're receiving less than 2% of what they promised you in, what you paid for. When it's that slow. I got a question. Is it really fiber optics, number one, number two.
Um, how do you take regular coaxial cable that has no fiber optic tubes in it or pipes, whatever you want to call those things, the light codes through how light goes through regular coaxial cable? Okay. So it wasn't me coming up. As I listened to you, what I'm going to be Googling as you speak here.
Excellent. Um, and then when I Google it, according to what I could find in my area of spectrum, it doesn't have fiber optics yet. That's what they sold me. And the speed is so slow. If it was half of what they promised, I'd allow myself to get screwed up the ass. Um, but on purpose, On purpose. Yeah. Okay.
And over if they could consistently deliver half of what they promise, they're delivering two and three and 5%, but I'm paying a hundred percent. What I propose to them is here's the deal at the end of each month at the end of each billing cycle. Okay, whatever speed you actually delivered to my abode.
Okay. Whatever percentage of that speed is to the 940 Mbps, you promised me is the percentage of the $110 a month that I'll pay you. And they all know it doesn't work like that. And he'll really cause the fucking Amron Amarin in the electricity and the gas company. That's how they charge. You know, they just charge me for the electricity.
I just charge me for the speed that you deliver. Wait, are you doing budget billing though? Cause they have that feature we're right, but it doesn't matter. That's still budget billing on, on the electric bill and gas bill. It's still based on your usage. All they do is they look at your usage historically.
They average it out over 12 months. Then at the end of the whole 12 months cycle, you make adjustments. Okay. But I mean, they don't, it's not a flat rate charge. It's a flat rate payment system, you know, to make budgeting easier and the gas. In the winter months, when you get stupid gas bills, average it out in the summer where, you know, they're just charging the minimum $35 a month.
Cause you're hooked up. Um, same with the electricity, you know, in the summer when you're going to use a lot of, yeah. Air conditioning and you get stupid bills, but in the winter, all the only thing that's really costs me a lot is, is you're heating, uh, primarily gas in this area. But, but all I'm saying is there's nobody for me to check with and determine if I have the fiber optic that you promise me other than the people that sell it to me.
Right. Well then also you can do is basically what you just described with Amarin as far as they look back on your history, as far as you can use that method, looking back on what you've been receiving, recording it, and somehow showing proof to that, that this is what I've been getting. Why the fuck am I not getting what you promised me when I'm painted at this price?
Exactly. But that, that, that involves then our legal system and, and the FCC and the attorney general making a complaint, uh, and dealing with that, uh, when really I like here, here's my favorite example. Yeah. Akron would have to agree to that billing. Otherwise they say, you know what, we'll just discontinue service and you go elsewhere, you know, I mean, if you don't like it go elsewhere, you saw our terms and conditions.
You read them. Barely fucking read when you're 90 years old. Yeah, exactly. I mean, you need to fucking magnifying glass, the size of the world to see some of those fine print. And then you don't understand that a Philadelphia lawyer wrote it and then it doesn't matter. Or cause they're not responsible.
They're not accountable for it. Yeah, we just think about this. Okay. Walk into Ruth. Chris. This is pre COVID. So you walk into Ruth Chris or, or, you know, the Capital city grill, whatever your favorite steakhouse is, and you sit down and you order an eight ounce Philemon Yon. Of the finest prime age beef they have, and it's $125 again with the fucking steak layer.
I'm getting hungry. Now I know this, the waitress in 40 minutes, the waitress brings out this little, well done crispy piece of meat that looks like, you know, the size of a bugger that came out of your nose and it's hamburger. And she starts walking away and you go, Whoa, excuse me, just for a second. What's this, she has a piece of hamburger, but I ordered, and I see here on the bill, you charged me $125 for a filet mignon.
Yeah, well, no, I'm not gonna do it. That's what doing, you know, I mean, they're, they're charging me for Philemon Yon. It's the fastest service available to residential places here in my zip code. And they're delivering whatever the fuck they want. We've been working on it almost 10 days now. Four times a day.
[01:00:23] I do two different speed tests on my internet, just so I have this paper trail when I make a stink, you know, and I'll make a stink. I'm making a stink with them now. They don't even answer my phone calls anymore. Now I go, fuck yourself all over. Call it, dude. Oh my God. You know, you take it, give it to the brand.
That's exactly. What's fucking happening too. Cause I would be doing it if I was working there like this fucking man, what did you know? Here's what's really cool though. Greg, if you delivered half of what you promised, I wouldn't be calling up. It's true. You know? I mean, that's, I'm not asking for some special, you know, I'm asking for what you promised in your terms and conditions, except if you read the terms and conditions, which unfortunately being old and just nothing but time.
I actually read to make sure I wasn't out of line and I am. If you read Spectrum's terms and conditions, they're just like every other internet service provider around, they say we can't promise or guarantee any rate of speed. Interesting. Wouldn't that be cool. Not think about this. In your whole life, just take a wild ass.
Guess it doesn't matter how accurate they are, but try to be closed in your whole life. About how many, about how many commercial airline flights have you been on? I want to say at most 12, were they pretty good flights? I mean, you know, you got some of them, we were over military flights, they were shitty. I wanted to kill myself on those, not literally, but metaphorically and the commercial flights, you were on the commercial flights, more so than the military.
That's something different, but the commercial flights, if I told you, and it was a fact and you believe the fare that 50% of all commercial airline flights will crash and burn it, killing everybody on board. Would you still be apt to get on those 12 flights? No, it wouldn't bother me one bit. Do to get on him.
And, uh, yeah, I guess I'm just fucked up in the head. Like that word. No, I mean, some people, like I said, we talked about risk tolerance briefly a few minutes ago. A lot of people, because people read statistics of how safe it is to fly today. And I believe it is right. I mean, think of here. Think of this. How many people do you actually know whose homes have burned down to the ground?
Two. Okay. I know too. And I'm just, this is just a guess, cause you may or may not be aware of this, but out of all the people, you know, that have a mortgage on their home, how many people do you guess have fire insurance? Oh, It's a loaded question. Yeah. I literally present a table with anybody they hire and we'll force place fire insurance on your property if you don't have it, because you agree to keep it insured.
Okay. So, uh huh. Percent of those people have fire insurance unless they let it lapse. And the mortgage lender doesn't know about it yet. But out of all those people, you know, I mean, it's a fraction of a percentage of whose houses burned down to the ground. You just, it doesn't happen the same with commercial airline flights, the same, primarily with prescriptions.
If the people filling people's prescriptions only got it half right. Half the time they gave him the wrong dose, the wrong medication. I heard that's pretty frequent. That happens pretty frequently with them. It's 50%. I mean, yeah, it could happen 60, 70, 80%. All I'm saying is that. Pharmacists have accountability to provide you with the correct medicine.
The commercial airlines have accountability because if you've ever followed any of the major crashes of commercial airlines, where they killed 230 people. Um, you know, it's a three year investigation to figure out what the fuck went wrong, you know? And, and then the airline has to pay out tens of hundreds of millions of dollars in settlements.
Cause there's accountability. You fuck up. There's accountability. Yes. In the military, you fuck up. There's accountability in everyday life. You fuck up a speed. You you, you know, you're, you got 63 in a 45 miles out there's accountability, but with internet service providers, there's no accountability. Why is that?
Well, we're going to charge you a hundred dollars to call it one giga service, 940 Mbps, but you say you're only getting 20. Okay. You still always $110, even though we didn't even. Do half of what we promise. All right. I gotta get off that soap box. Yeah. Yeah. And then when you say what statistics, I mean, half the population isn't, isn't even a statistic individual, like when it comes to numbers, Holy shit.
Like you are drowning me in my own. As transgressions, Natalie, just like what? Those were. All those statistics or atmosphere leak expressions. I just made them up. It's all good. It's all good though. I forgive you. Yeah, no, it's part of being old. You just fucking can do whatever you want. Like just drive fast and then you get pulled over and you're like, I'm old.
I don't know what I'm doing. Dementia. I forgot there was a speed limit. Sorry, you ran over three people. I'm sorry. I was playing the game of five points, 10 points. Don't you know, that game. Well, yeah, there are people whose lives are more valuable than others, you know, obviously look at the world we live in today.
Yes.
I didn't mean to take us way off topic, but I was just, I'm curious, you know, if anybody is watching this and wants to make comments at some point in time, I'd really like to know how one. Can know if they're really getting fiber optic service, whether it's from spectrum or anybody else. I don't know that there are other providers here in st.
Louis residential. I know business is something different, but I can't. I mean, I'm not going to pay for business service, especially seeing what I get in residential service, but these people need, um, you know, to be punished. Somehow, you know, but there's no way to punish him. You know, I, I agree. Um, I need to stop playing with these buttons over here.
Like literally I get over. I just go because it's just like, I second guess, like it says we're live on YouTube and I'm not seeing too much happening. It's like, but then there's this button like upload video or go live, but it's like, wait, it says we're going there. Yeah. So if you're on YouTube, yeah. If you already pushed to go live, you're alive.
If you push the upload, um, I don't know if it'll keep this stream going, but it will be looking for you to upload a video that's on your. Computer somewhere, somewhere. I think, I think it's definitely working because I just pressed this button and it shows me talking right now, explaining what I'm explaining to you.
And I'm like, Holy shit, I'm fucking losing my mind. But is that you? Or is that somebody else? It looks like you, it could be anything. Cause it's like, it's what we perceive as our own reality. Like, try to look at this, like we're. Our bodies are like a vessel. We are submarines underwater. Literally. We don't know if there's water surrounding us.
Can we just open the hatch and find out, I mean, there's that possibility that we open it, we might drown and die. So what do we rely on that tells us what's happening around us? Our own perception, our little, little tools inside there. That's scanned. Well, but,
and you know, you know that we all live in a yellow submarine, a yellow submarine, a yellow submarine. Why is it yellow? I dunno if you know that or not, but I don't know. I don't know what's happening now, Larry. Yeah. Well, it's true. The Beatles said we all live in a yellow somewhere. That's yes, we must because the Beatles would never be.
Not to us for double negative. That's fucking wonderful. So no, what you said about the submarine? It, it really got it, uh, really hit a special area in my brain. When you said they could we open up the hatch and would water come pouring in or is there any even water outside of us? How do we know until you, um, you know, which is interesting.
I've often wanted to get a submarine with screen door hatches and see if it would still be able to sink and rise. And if the water would come in through the screens or stay out because it's a submarine, so there should be no water in it. Know that it's not supposed to go into a submarine, whether there's a screen as a hatch or being steel.
Pneumatically sealed hatch. Yeah. I'm thinking like the old school ones where you can just kind of like to twist and then push it outward. But then all that pressure, I don't know. Do you think there's somebody strong enough to be, you know, if you're 300 feet down and you got the, the hatch undone and no water came pouring in.
[01:10:23] Would be able to push that hatch open against all the water pressure. That's 300 feet down. I think if we could take, I'll say our nigger in his prime, when he was Conan the barbarian, we bring him into this situation and have them open that I think he might be able to get it. Do you think you, do you think you would need Rocky Balboa's help?
Yes, but Robbie, I don't know if he can get up there. He's kind of short unless we give him like a little step. Yes he is. Yeah. Well, you know, probably now I will tell you I'm gonna make something up potentially, but I wouldn't be surprised if it's not true, but 45 is stronger than anybody in the world. I bet he.
And Arnold could do that together now. So they have the strength to do that, like strength as in connections or strength, as in,
Yeah, let's go into that. As far as width 45, who, who is 45, just so you know, For everybody who's listening. Cause when we're saying that it's like, what the fuck are you talking about? That wouldn't be the 45th president of the United States. Yes, that is correct. I guess I'm not going to say his name. I would not, um, give him that.
Uh, but if somebody needs to, if they, if you Google 45th president of the United States, his name will pop up. Yes. Uh, I'm pretty sure, unfortunately. And why do you, why do we, what is your own view on 45? I think we can pick that up based on not saying his name, but we would love to go into your own specifics as far as why you feel the way that you do?
Was there something personal? Was there something w w what, what is the takeaway? Can we all happen? This. And again, this is just one old guy's opinion, everybody news junkie, but I am a news junkie. Um, and something in this is gonna be a direct answer to your question. I liked very early on on today's episode, you mentioned you discussed your character.
Okay. 45. Is devoid of anything like character. It has no character. And I will tell you that if you look up the three most important leaderships or the five or seven most important characteristics of a leader, Okay. 45. Doesn't have one of them, but you'll find stuff that's like maybe in a boy scout oath.
I mean, to be a leader, number one, you gotta eat the last leaders. Fucking Ryan, let me tell you, 45 is the first at the table, you know, and he's elbow when people out of there, you know, cause he's going to eat first. Fuck you guys. No. All right. So he doesn't, he doesn't eat last. He doesn't respect truth because he never speaks it.
He doesn't respect facts because he just makes stuff up. Now, again, all politicians lie, actually, everybody in the world lies. And if you know somebody that says, no, I don't want it. I never tell why they're lying. Everybody has told and continues to tell lies of certain degrees of magnanimity. But every time you open your mouth that you lie and you lie about shit, you don't even have to lie about.
That's what I'm telling you comes out of 45 to be a leader and be surrounded by people that are frightened, that if they tell you the real facts about many different topics that you're putting your job at risk, because 45 doesn't want to hear that. He only wants to hear what he wants to hear. Don't tell me that shit about the coded shit.
Tell me something good. So I went online and I asked him, tell me about something good, Larry, I'm going to talk over you for just one second. I found the top 10 leadership traits that a. Individuals should obtain or strive for, and I didn't just type that in to see what first self-help bullshit would actually pop up.
But I went into what the military kind of requires. Cause I think that's kind of a, somebody, anybody should be striving for something much bigger than themselves. And, uh, dependability is number one, the integrity, making a decision. Being skillful of that professionalism, teamwork, drive, building to understand direction, organization, safety skills, and adaptability.
So it looks like he has one. He is one of those 10. He does have drive. I don't like this one either. I wonder if I'm going to find a date, it doesn't matter. Whatever, whichever I promise you. I've already done the search. I wouldn't have said that if I hadn't done the search several times, I mean, I've looked at hundreds of books, articles, white papers.
Dissertations case studies. What makes a leader? What doesn't make a leader, the five, the seven, the three, the most important qualities of a leader. So does this make you an expert? Larry? What can you, the definition of what an expert is? Absolutely. I probably. No more than the average guy about what I'm talking about only because I sit here and go down these rabbit holes and do the research.
And if in fact, the research I use is, is accurate and objective to some degree. Um, yeah, I would say that the majority of people, uh, leaders of course do authors of course do psychologists do. Um, but we're all experts when it comes to. You know, can I tell you what I could get a census of a hundred random people on the street would say is the five most important characteristics in a leader?
Yeah, I know what they are in, like I said, 80, 85% of random people that I would walk up to the street and say, tell me the five most important characteristics for a good leader, you know, 80% of time, I'll be right on with those five. And I will promise you. I will promise you that 45 doesn't have one. One of those five characteristics.
Now you brought up driving. He does have drive and that's important for a leader. Yes. I want to just update the listeners with actual good characteristics. When we look into army values, I've definitely researched and. Took to heart over a long period of my time. And that comes down to loyalty duty, respect, selfless service, honor, integrity and personal courage.
Now I would like you guys to imagine that 45 possess that. Fuck. No. Yeah. And here's the other piece of 45, especially when you start talking about military and comparing his leadership qualities to leadership, uh, values, uh, and best practices in the military recognize here's a guy that during the height of the Vietnam war, conflict, whatever you want to call it, this is a guy who paid or his family paid.
Some shyster type doctor said he had bone spurs, which he doesn't so that he could avoid the draft. Now, I don't know what you call that when it comes to character other than full lack thereof. But so here's a guy you can't, it's really hard to compare. Somebody to military values when the guy was scared to death to be anywhere part of a military, you know, he paid somebody to make up a lie about a physical condition.
That he didn't even have bone spurs on his feet. And that's what kept him out of the draft. Um, interesting. I'm trying to think it wasn't Cassius clay, Muhammad Ali. He didn't, he tried to avoid the draft as well. Oh, probably. I'm just saying, you know, and a lot of people, you know, uh, I have nothing against him, but I would have ended up in Canada, but I'm also not president of the United States.
You know, this is true. And I also have one value every now and then I tell the truth and I have another value. I mean, I, I respect people. I don't, you know, constantly, you know, hack on people that are my enemies, you know, or hack on people that don't believe the way I believe or hack on people. Because they look different.
You know, I, I mean, And like I said, most important. I'm not president. It doesn't matter what anybody else does. It doesn't matter what past presidents did or do that might still be alive. He's president now. And he's what people are supposed to emulate. You know, when I was growing up, parents would constantly, you know, when the president of United States appeared on television, A lot of times from the oval office talking about nonpolitical shit, but crises that are going on, you know, your parents looking at you now, you don't, you want to be like him when you grow up.
Well, yeah, but how many parents can look at 45 and say to their five year old son or daughter don't you want to be like the orange baby when you grow up? You know, they want to sit there and have orange makeup alone and fake hair. But more importantly than physical characteristics of the fat slob that doesn't take care of himself physically as the past four or five presidents did.
I mean, Reagan wouldn't be overweight. He was fed, he rode around in horses and picked up bales of hay and shit. Could you imagine ready to pick up a bale or him wearing
blue jeans that I just say, Oh my God. Um, I think I may have, cause like, yeah. Yeah, like twitches and shit. Let me look at you. You're getting all excited. Like you just met your first girlfriend. You're all just all happy, add in different ways for that. Um, I'm actually on my second one, you know, after, uh, 70 years, that's not bad.
No, it's something kind of creepy and weird, but okay. Yeah. Now, I'm even thinking maybe I can find one that I might be able to have physical intimacy with. Um, but you know, I know a lot of virgins that are still virgins at 70. Um, so, uh, it's not so unusual. Uh, Anyway. Uh that's so don't get me started on Trump.
You got me started. Dammit. You said his name again? You're in trouble. Well, yeah, they'll let you know how, how off my center I am and I'll, I'll pay dearly for that. I have a, a, a little short, multi strand whip with little, um, Hooks on the end of it. When we get done, I'm going to go outside, take my shirt off and flagellate my back until I rip the skin.
If we're punishing myself for, ah, you're giving me chills down my spine because I can just imagine that happening. Yeah. I'll record it and put it up on the internet. You can definitely have that as bonus content to people who say, who actually subscribed to the Patreon page. There you go. We try to upload videos.
I'm working out the kinks. I just, I really want to apologize as to everybody cause I'm struggling at doing this, but I am not quitting. I am trying to run all the social media. I'm trying to run the podcasting, the videos, the patriarch on the courses I'm working on writing the books. It's just like. Right.
When the fuck do you take a break? I don't take a break and I have two puppies and they drive me nuts because, okay. My question Greg is when can we expect to see maybe your first, your first book? I want to stay within. I want to give, I want to give it a month. I'm going to say one month or less in case something happens, I always want to plan for the worst, just because of theirs.
It's life shit happens. Absolutely. To having the availability of, of actually. Taking part of your expertise, you are knowledge, uh, learning about character and then yet in a totally different, uh, module, if you will, uh, learning about podcasting, how to put it together, how to know all the ins and outs, how you get it.
Oh, they're in the, what do they call them? Podcast players like, Oh, Oh. So if we were to look at the technical terms, it's called an aggregator or Icatcher or another one, but it is a directory. Those are ones that you do not pay that will host your show for you. There are so many in it and it's like, I feel honored because I.
Can just utilize all of these different search engines and go past the 20% that Google actually allows us to. So I can bypass that and find shit that's all over the place. And that will be all linked into. The podcasting book that I found, I'm an I I'm going above and beyond. This book will have more links than any book you will ever come across and it will link you to free shit.
If you were, I was doing research on actually how much it costs to pay somebody to do your podcasting for you. You're looking at 50 bucks too. As much as they want to charge you to host your show, to host an episode. And that's based on their quality, which I don't want to rely on somebody to do because I'm weird.
I like things done. Right. That's why I rather do it. And I found every single source. You could do that for free when people are charging this shit. And it just makes me mad because I'm a victim of that I'm spending money left and right when I shouldn't be, when there's things out there that are free for us.
Yeah. Well that that'll be valuable information, especially today because so many people have things they want to share with others, whether it's specifically in your community or. Um, outside of their community expose, whatever it is to whoever's interested, um, in podcasting is, is conceptually. It's pretty simple.
I mean, it's, it looks like we're just, you know, talking on the microphone and it's out on the internet. It's just, you push a couple buttons and boom. It happens. It doesn't. Um, as you were experiencing earlier today, checking, are we vibe? Is this stream there? Um, and that's just one tiny facet of it. The important part is what you just mentioned, make sure that it's out there so people can find it.
Um, and make sure you're doing some relevant stuff that people want, um, exactly adapting to the needs of what people want and how we, how we deliver content. I mean, it's now becoming a live streaming anxiety and. Me. I don't like being in front of the camera. I was just who I was as a kid. I was a fat kid back in the day, you know, just the youngest of seven.
Right. I always got my feelings hurt, you know, and it's something that I have to go through. Those are past transgressions and those are just things in your head that you hold to you don't that, that haunt you to this day. And it's just something. I was in the fucking military. I did so much shit. There's nothing.
There's not a stupid thought. It's not going to hold me back. Right. Kick that thoughts ass, just shove it down. Well, do you, how do you feel some of those childhood memories and events have helped shape the character you are today? I would say it definitely. Made me a very resilient person, but also able to dissociate from reality to push myself much further than any individual I've come across.
I'm able to get lost in my head and think more complexly and understand the connection to different things that may seem completely irrelevant, but somehow I can find a way to. Bypass that and connect it. And then would that ability to make those connections? I can almost paint like a memory palace where I can learn new things and start storing things between those connections and make like them.
Weird mind map of a bucking spiderweb kind of thing. Wow. That's impressive. Well, it's weird, but I think if you can transfer that in, in your piece, on your character, uh, so many people can benefit from that because we all have our idiosyncrasies. Yes, we all have our fears. We have stuff that's from childhood stuff.
We, and it is, you know, deep in our. Brain and thought and negative it's negative shit. It holds us back unless we can find a way to overcome that. And unless we find a way to, yeah. You know, I'm scared to be on camera, but I'm gonna, you know, put my big boy pants on and do it. Fuck. Yeah. I need to, for other people so that other people won't have to deal with shit that I dealt with, that is, you know, just negative shit.
You don't need to. So that will be extremely helpful in I, for one, I'm looking forward to seeing that me too, and it POS it provides people an outlet to fuel questions that they can't articulate in their own heads, as far as things that are happening. And they just aren't aware of the things that are happening, that we can spark that thought as far as why didn't I think of that or.
That really makes a lot of sense. Now I have some place. I have something to base the situation off of where I can do research on my own time. That's what I love about your transformation station is to be able to be a voice for those that don't have the voice. Exactly. Exactly. And we need so much more of that today.
Uh, I can tell you as an old guy, how important that is, but it doesn't really make sense to a lot of people until they get to a point where 40 or 50 years ago, they wished they would have had that information, had the ability to, uh, overcome so many of the. The fears or the things that just hold us back from being all we can be.
Oh, I'll leave you with one final thought. Cause I'm looking at the time and I've got a three 30 appointment, a meeting that I've got to be at. Oh, beautiful.
What I believe now. Yeah. We've talked about this. I'm very spiritual. I'm not religious, but I'm very spiritual. And so in, in that spirituality, what I truly believe is that each one of us is meant to take advantage of all the abundance that's here in this universe. Um, but the vast majority of us don't take advantage of it.
We don't feel that we're worthy. We don't do what's necessary to take. I mean, it's not going to be handed to us, you know? Oh, here's all the abundance we promised you. No, I mean, you got to go out and grab it and you gotta work for it. But if you know you're worthy and you're willing to work hard for it, uh, with a burning desire, I call it a burning in your belly.
Yes. Then you can have it. Uh, you can have all of that abundance, any and all, all of it. And that's what we're supposed to do. I think it's just purely opinion. That's what we're supposed to do while we're here in this part of the universe, um, that we see in this physical. Nature, uh, and a combination really of the physical stuff we see, feel and smell the stuff our mind does, and then the stuff, stuff, our heart and soul and spirit does.
And it's all combined, and this is not getting religious, but it, yeah, spiritual, but I think it's real, you know, we see it everywhere from. You know, the protozoa, the little oneself thing too, to us and beyond outer space, to, you know, stuff that's so big, we might not be able to imagine, uh, that's all there available for us in with that.
Cause I thought I'll be quiet. Uh, yeah. And talk to you. Well, in the next couple of days, kind of wrap some of this stuff up that we need to wrap up on. Yeah. Using these things, uh, efficiently, effectively. Yes. Quality. You want consistency? We'll get it down. Instancy and. Topic transitioning to a new season where we will take new approaches.
Exactly. Exactly. And I look forward to that and I know as we build people that are following us around and listening to our craziness, that they'll appreciate that. So hopefully they'll make a leave comments for you and you can respond or at least if nothing else, I guess the tried saying is they can leave their thumbs up, print and subscribe, you know, probably nothing bad will happen.
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Czerka Home Entertainment releases “Don't Kriff With The King”
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The holofilm premiered and the reviews have been fairly decent, however not all critics were fond of the followup holo to “Rising of the Tide”.
(Make sure to read to the end as a potential opportunity to be in future vids comes up!)
Use the pirated link above to watch this horror show without paying for such a cinematic atrocity
I'm sure most of you dear readers have heard of the latest holofilm release by the late writer/director Aulter Balo'Ghrint. If you haven't, I envy you. Critics applaud it as a holo-cinematic masterpiece but me, an intellectual citizen of the galaxy, can accurately and properly call it what it is; a monstrous eye sore of a disasterpiece. I mean, yes, we can all agree that the visuals were absolutely stunning works of art, no contest. But the plot? The characters? The ultra progressivist undertones? All a stain mocking the established canon of the 1313 cinematic universe.
First, and possibly the most glaring issue is the overbearing and hippocratic use of non human species for the entirety of the holofilm's casting. I get it, it's been centuries since holofilm was christened as an art across the galaxy and minority species are still struggling to get cast in major roles, but there is a limit to such shameless anti-human initiatives. How am I supposed to find my escapism in a world without humans? I'm no Hothflake like these pseudo-political filmmakers but there is no way I can connect to cast of entirely non-human species. And then they throw all their Gizka footing, ultra inclusive, incessantly overbearing sensitive political correctness out the window with everything about the villian played by Sopak Teks. I mean they literally LITERALLY named the character "Gross Dude" and as if that's not offensive enough to the entirety of the Quarren species, they have the "beloved" anti-hero The Bull King - an absurd name to begin with - openly mock his appearance in the holofilm. Now look who is being insensitive and offensive.
Speaking of this "Bull King", I mean the entire character is a trope in and of itself. He's the macho male equivalent of a Spacey-Sue. No real man can fly a hoverboard, whilst winning a blaster shootout, doding bolts left and right, make witty one-liners without missing a beat and only by the grace of a glancing shot unleash the mother of all lazily written deus ex machina bantha poodoo trump cards to win the day. It's absurd, it's one dimensional and it lacks any intrigue. Like he's suddenly a good guy because he has a droid dog as a best friend? Please. Sheev only follows him around because it's programmed to be his friend and is the only existence in the galaxy that can tolerate his whiny brat attitude.
Then there's that other thing. It's nothing major. Only decades of built up 1313 cinematic lore that's utterly thrown out the window. I mean come on. Nobody with half a brain really believes a Quarren would let their speeder get taken out by a mutt shaking like he just climbed out of a Dagobah swamp. It's been established time and time again that this is a species that would never give up that easy. But no, a new writer at the helm decides he's just gonna throw all the fan expectations out the window, take a big dump on decades of devotion and galaxy changing lore to go out of his way with this woefully underwhelming plot twist. If you can even call the major climaxes wet fart of a fizzle a twist. Sopak's character just outright lets his speeder crash like that? No way. Not my canon. He would have taken control of the vessel, he would have jumped to safety if he had to, but he would never have given up so easily. Who ever let director Ghrint write this mess and put it to motion should be fired. No, that's too easy. They should be jettisoned from an airlock into deep space. This movie ruined my childhood. I'm honest to glob going to have my own memory wiped of every 1313 series holomovie just because of how this one terrible pile of space garbage ruined them all.
So it's time to cast blame. I'd say throw your rage at the writer and director, mister Balo'Ghrint himself. He made this misery come to life. He knew he would piss of half the fan base, and you never mess with the fanbase. But it wasn't just him. After the already controversial release of 'Rising of the Tide' you'd think Horizon Media's executives would have been smart enough to cut ties with that space brained moron. Yet here we are, another blatant failure on their part. So that leads us to point a finger at the one and only executive producer, miss Vesha Syphex. I mean thank kriff she moved on to be a Czerka exec. Least she can claim this was a mistake of the past, since 'Don't Kriff With The King' was made was made years ago and she's since left that production company in the dust. Oh wait, Czerka Home Entertainment released this relic from the past in their latest Czerkterian Collection? Why, that would make Syphex just as accountable for this vile insult to holocinema being added to the official 1313 canon. Come on people. We have so much great material to work with from the old extended galaxy works that were deemed "uncanon" when Czerka bought production rights from now defunct Horizon Media. They could have drawn from any of those perfect stories instead of throwing actual vitriol onto my datascreen. I would gladly pay to see the Magnificent Seventeen Bantha Wizards come to life. That was my favorite book when I was 4. Or make a story about Spoonful, the adorable force sensitive spoon that rose to galactic power in issue #77 of the holomag Forceful Four.
I propose, dear true fans of 1313, that you join me in boycotting Czerka Home Entertainment and this new lore we're being forced fed. Do not pay to see this torture. In fact, I've even attached a holonet page where you can pirate the holovideo without giving a single credit to those pandering progressivists, thinking it's their place to force such blatant wimpy beliefs at us. I don't need social correctness, I need good stories. Stories that make the galaxy great again.
Zero out of five, would NOT kriff with this king.
#NotMyQuarren #BoycottCzerka #GhrintTheKriffOut #GladHeisGone #FireVeshaSyphex #StillBetterThanTheLastGoodGuy #CzerkaJerk #REEEEEEEEEEEEEE #Make1313GreatAgain
#NotSatire
------ A follow up from Czerka Home Entertainment's press division --------
Following the massive and not at all divisive reception of our latest release, we have given the greenlight to the production of a multiple season holonet show directed by Arri Jones, a man somehow mysteriously sharing an identical mind to to the late Aulter Balo'Ghrint, seeing as how he was the best director in all 1313 cinematic history. We are now allowing him entirely free reign on a new Telos IV based series. However, he has remarked that production relies solely on the desire of locals to be cast in the roles for the show to proceed. Contact him directly for more info, though bare in mind, production may take multiple years [rl months] and editing even longer [likely one month+ for editing per episode, unless we go the route of just pumping out movies] and all actors and actresses will be compensated accordingly for their work.
[[IM me, Arri Jones (perry.spizel), either inworld or in Discord, if you wish to take part in this endeavor with me. Will all be rp'ed out IC with credit rewards. Certain roles may take months to complete, others just days, all depends on what you want to do. Not even sure if other people like this stuff, so really it comes down to that. If ya'll want more, we can make more. If not, I'm happy with what I've done :D Cheers!]]
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[day 145] - next steps
Of course, as usual, fuck everything about this administration. I came across some jokes/image macros/general anxiety on twitter centering around Robert Mueller and the potential that the president just ups and fires him for no reason other than that he is upset there is an ongoing investigation into his 2016 campaign. (Mind you, he is already officially campaigning for the 2020 presidency, so shouldn’t that also be scrutinized through the same microscope?) I felt the same thing when I was unsure if this meme was just about the possibility/rumor put out there by some right-wing media goofus [portmanteau of Goon and Doofus, or perhaps Goof and Doofus] that the president was thinking this, or if it already happened. Putting the obvious problems that creates aside (that would be it right? Like congress would have to do something about the president, right?), the simple dread that falls on me from any sort of news/rumor/fart from this administration is absolutely paralyzing.
I wish this whole thing could go away. I wish people didn’t need to stress about this anymore - the fear they or their loved one will be deported, that they will lose their healthcare, that the world is thrown into a global conflict over inconsequential details. But I’m gonna wake up tomorrow morning and nothing will have changed. Nothing will be better; nothing will be moving along. The absurdist humor of it all gets me thru it every day [fuck, I just remembered the environment/planet will be lost because of petty children in power], day by day, but its no way to live.
So I have to focus on myself [which in itself is probably the wrong way of going about this period in history, to turn inward, but I can only allow this to cover my professional, outward life.]
There’s this job position I came across today. The job is in Boston, at a somewhat reputable publication. Widely read/regarded in the region, and I think the role is the next natural step for my career path. I’ve spent a lot of time fact-checking articles, dissecting and examining every bit of reporting. I understand the main tenets of what goes into a good article, what is needed for bother long-form and the general content that would be expected of me. I haven’t produced that stuff at the pace that is needed in today’s world, and that’s the next challenge for me. Upping my abilities, focusing on my work. Not just focusing, but being engrossed in it. [To beat a dead horse, though, but this daily torrent of national political news makes that all pretty hard. To actually do my work as I’m given it.]
Those are my thoughts/concerns about the role itself. I feel completely qualified to step right into it, but I know it’ll take me a bit of time to adjust to the specific responsibilities. As would any new job does, though. I shouldn’t let that discourage me.
My main draw is that the job is in Boston. A full-time job with a salary, and presumably some benefits, opens a lot more doors for me. I’ll be able to move out of my parents house; I’ll be able to move to a great city/community; I’ll be able to move back towards some old friends and build upon those old relationships; I’ll feel free to do new things and meet new people as I choose, and feel comfortable to present my life/world to them (i.e. not living with my parents and holding no free space at all). Those are the social benefits of the job - if I get it, I haven’t even applied yet. Professionally, I will take another step up the ladder; meet new people to be associated with; gain a lot more opportunities to write (which is what I want to do day in and day out - just write. And writing begets better writing. Better writing begets great writing.); discover new stories and conflicts and characters.
Of course, beyond the anxiety over adjusting to a new job and responsibilities, I’m struggling with the prospect of being rejected. I shouldn’t even let that bother me in this endeavour; it is not the pinnacle of my dreams. This is not what I need to do with my life, work as a writer for this publication. It is simply a means to my end. And I also recognize I’m not the perfect/ideal candidate for this position, and I shouldn’t think I screwed up if I’m rejected. It will be a learning experience either way.
That’s my fear of rejection. My fear of the unknown I guess is worrying over the responsibilities associated with the job, as well as if I’ll be bait-and-switched on what the job actually is. But that’s just being cynical.
My fear of success, though, is really stupid. Fear of success is such an illogical thought process to enter one’s mind, that it paralyzes you from shock. I worry that, by going to another regional pub, I’ll be type-casted into this field of general fluff content that serves no greater purpose but to sell ad space. I’d love to write (and publish) stuff about greater questions and themes that intrigue me, and that’s what I hope to eventually accomplish thru fiction. (But I do need to pay bills.) Still, I don’t want to feel like I’m getting sidetracked career-wise. [total aside - i sorta hate myself for thinking of my career first and foremost. Is this what I’ve become? An employee?] I want to go to journalism school, I want to get an MFA, I want to see the world and not work for a year. Student Loans are weighing down on me, however. I don’t even have that heavy of a burden, compared to a lot of other students. I will probably pay less than $40k by the time I’m done paying everything back, and that’s the absolute max ($40k). Plus, I don’t have to pay it all at once; I can pay it off very slowly.
But I don’t want to travel, or go to grad school, or do something artistic with this cloud of debt on top of me. Perhaps that’s the wrong way to approach it, because most people are in overall debt, and everyone is in debt to someone or some institution. Still, once when I pay off my debt will I feel like I’m an adult. Not only graduate from college, but fulfill my financial obligations as well. [such a square phrase just there. I am a fucking employee.]
I can’t strive to be perfect, though. I will have problems, I will have struggles. I just have to give myself a chance to fuck up.
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