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starryfree · 7 hours
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Hybe/MHJ update
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Hybe is on the top left, MHJ on the upper right and the energy of the public down below.
Hybe is definitely thinking that she’s a snake and very manipulative. That she’s someone who’s a pathological liar (not saying she is or isn’t but this is what hybe believes). They think she’s being petty over this and blowing things out of proportion. They also think she’s very cunning and that they underestimated her. Hybe also thinks she’s petty over well they think she’s coming after a female hybe employee for no reason? Could be blonde but could just be someone that mhj thought was gonna follow her to ador? Maybe a trainee or staff that she thought she could take with her to ador but then hybe snatched them up and mhj thinks this girl has no loyalty?
She believes that hybe didn’t really follow through on their word and she believes everything she said in her press conference (about them lying and misleading her). She did believe in hybe and that they could’ve been different from her other company’s that she worked with. Now she’s realizing that big corporations really shouldn’t be trusted. They promised her something but they reneged on it. I think she might be telling the truth. Hybe promised her something big? But now they’re like “well actually….”. So she’s upset. Might be money related?
The public thinks this is all so childish and pathetic. Like two children throwing the biggest tantrums trying to outdo the other person. I wouldn’t be surprised if the public gets over this stuff quickly.
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Bang PD - 6 of wands - he thinks he’s untouchable. He’s a very prideful man. It’s giving leo energy. He thinks nobody can come at him and go against him. He’s very success oriented and will whatever it takes to get there. I’m seeing someone who’s yelling “alright team! Let’s do this” but then only the other people are working and he’s just there giving orders. He thinks he knows it all and is always right.
Park Jiwon (CEO of HYBE) - 6 of pentacles - he’s a very straight businessman. Very dull tbh. He’s the one pushing for a mediation between everyone. He’s also trying to look over contracts and agreements. He strikes me as a pushover tbh.
Min Heejin - 10 of wands - she really feels betrayed. And that she’s dealing with a lot at the moment. She feels like she’s been stabbed in the back after everything she’s done for them. I do believe she believes everything she said and did at her press conference.
HYBE staff - 8 of swords - they really can’t do or say anything much tbh. Their hands are tied. They’ve also been told to stay out of it. I see a bunch of people shrugging.
Ador staff - 3 of pentacles - are some of them already looking for other jobs? Other companies or other hybe labels? But they’re open to working with hybe or whoever to smooth things over.
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The Newjeans girlies - 2 of wands - they’re conflicted. They don’t know what to do or who to side with. They’re very upset though. They’re angry that they’re in this position. But they don’t seem to be blaming anyone?
Their parents - 4 of wands - they’re also being told to stay out of it but they don’t really want to speak up? They’re not that type of people anyways. They’re mainly concerned about the health and safety of the girls.
Newjeans and hybe - the empress - they do mean what they say when they want to prioritize the health and well-being of the girls. They want to provide them with the best care possible. They believe that hybe wants the best for them.
Newjeans and min heejin - they also believe her and that she has good intentions towards them. They believe what she’s saying and that she wants a good outcome for them.
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The outcome:
The sun, queen of wands rx, 5 of cups, wealthy man, change rx and court house.
More high profile attention? She doesn’t want to leave? But she’s not gonna get what she wants/is asking for from hybe? People might be disappointed that she won’t leave? Bang pd/hybe might threaten her like “if you don’t budge on this issue and do what we want you to, see you in court”.
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babyfairy · 8 months
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i hate that i can’t even ride the high from my concert because my life is so consistently depressing and hellish lmao 🙃 it’s depressing to come back down to reality after such a good day. like it really makes me realize how joyless my life has become. everything just blurs together
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harmoonix · 9 months
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[♡ Romantic • Astrology Notes ♡]
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🌹 ~ Take me back to the night we met ~ 🌹
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♡ Moon - Venus aspects are so romantic and so in love when they get into a relationship, they can fall easily in love and will see the life in pink with no mistakes, just love
♡ Moon - Saturn aspects can be shy at the first date, they are kind and lovely to be around but shy around new people (esp if they have a crush on them)
♡ Juno sextile/trine/conj Jupiter will have a very fortunate and lucky relationship with their spouses, everything can feel so good when you are around your partner
♡ Jupiter in Libra/Leo/Scorpio/Taurus gives an very romantic spicy spouse, especially in the Vedic chart. Your spouse might like to spice the things up
♡ Juno sextile/trine/conj Neptune can create a special bound with their spouse, it is so sweet actually..I imagine this aspect as "We are mated for life" even if you break up your mind is still gonna think a lot at them
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♡ Jupiter in Virgo/Pisces/Cancer gives an very supportive and emotional bounded spouse, someone who can be very caring and affectionate with you
♡ Venus in Scorpio/Taurus/Cancer/Aries can get pretty posesive and sometimes even jealous, they can also be protective over their loved ones
♡ Venus/Juno in Sagittarius & Aquarius need freedom in a relationship, don't try to restrict them or to make them feel like they are in a prison because it can hurt them so much, just let them be themselves
♡ Juno sextile/trine/conj Mars can have an very intense relationship with their spouses, pretty sexual and sensual, aswell as someone of them two can be a bit over dominant
♡ Mars or Pluto in the 7th house in your Juno Persona Chart can have the same effect, your relationship can get so intense and sexual you two will like experimenting things together and you can be possessive of eachother
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♡ Juno trine/sextile/conj Midheaven [MC] the relationship can be pretty liked by everyone around you and aswell it can be supported, also your spouse can help you in your career/workplace
♡ Juno/Venus in the 6th house/10th house can met their partners through their career, job, or workplace you can even work both in the same place and met there
♡ Mercury - Mars aspects have such a hot voice in them, they can talk very fast while you understand nothing about what they said but still listening to their voice IS HOt
♡ Mercury - Juno aspects can signify that your spouse voice can be really enchanting or that they might just have a very beautiful voice
♡ Juno/Venus aspecting Saturn or in Capricorn would probably get an very mature spouse, someone who is very serious about their relationships and also someone very loyal
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♡ You know already..Juno/Venus/Moon in the 7th house are confirmed placements for having extremely beautiful relationships
♡ An empty 7th house is not an bad placement at all, it just means that you don't prioritize relationships that much in your life. There is also a theory that empty houses were already learned in a past life so there is not much focus in that area in your current life + (Maybe your 7th house is empty because there are not planets in there but FOR sure there are some asteroids in your 7th house trust me ❤️🤌🏼)
♡ Fire Signs [Aries, Leo, Sagittarius] in your 7th house are bringing passion and sensuality in your relationship
♡ Earth Signs [Taurus, Capricorn, Virgo] in your 7th house are bringing stability and respect in your relationship
♡ Water Signs [Pisces, Scorpio, Cancer] in your 7th house are bringing feelings and emotional hounding in your relationship
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♡ Air Signs in [Aquarius, Gemini, Libra] in your 7th house are bringing great communication and understanding eachother feeling in your relationship
♡ Libra/Pisces/Scorpio and Leo Moons can often find themselves being clingy and affectionate to their partners, they can annoy them pretty much aswell but for good reasons they just want love and attention
♡ Jupiter in Leo Degrees (5°, 17°, 29°) can actually have have an well known spouse as their partner, they can be pretty known by the people around it doesn't always have to be in online
♡ Jupiter in Aquarius Degrees (11°, 23°) can mer their spouses online or in their friend circle, they can be the type of "friends to lovers" kind of thing and get can clingy fast aswell
♡ Jupiter in the 8th/5th house and their life full of pleasures and passions are so WOW, these natives can get luck at having a passionate relationship and good pleasure in bed
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♡ Jupiter in the 9th house actually have a really big chance at meeting their spouses in college/school something like "high school sweethearts" if you know that term, is usually when 2 people fall in love during the school and remain forever
♡ Moon - Pluto often can have flashbacks of the things that happened in their past relationships something like "Is 3 AM and all I think about is you" they can also have triggers
♡ Saturn in the 7th house/8th house/12th house is a great placement for those who want to get into a serious relationship, these natives are very loyal and caring with their partners
♡ Sun in the 7th house/Sun rulling over the 7th house can be relied on relationships, they are focusing so much on relationships and on finding the right partner, they want to have that unique love
♡Taurus/Libra in the 4th house might get very lovely partners, in a way Venus is blessing their home and makes them lucky in finding good love and harmony in their household (Applying if you have Venus in the 4th house aswell)
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❤️ Who doesn't like romantic posts?? They are full of love and romanticism 🫶🏼 Is giving a very lovely vibe ❤️🫶🏼
🫶🏼 Have a good day full of light and warm energy to everyone who is reading the notes ❤️🫶🏼🥳
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stickandthorn · 1 month
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I was thinking about that post about redemption I just reblogged, and I think it’s worth pointing out just how difficult and time consuming it would to de-radicalize or “redeem” Lilliana. And I think Essek’s redemption in campaign 2 is actually a really good example of what I’m talking about.
First of all, what the Nein did to redeem Essek was not slowly and politely talk him through why what he did was wrong. They didn’t even know he did anything wrong. What they did was continually reach out to him and give him a support system of friends he did not have before. Notably, friends who he could be comfortable sharing his worldview around: he was an atheist* in a theocratic society who had to hide his worldview in order to have any social, academic, or governmental standing. The mighty nein were probably the first people he could be himself around, and creating a change in his personal life is what led to a change in his ideology. Notably, he did most of the actual deconstructing of his ideology on his own, some before the big betrayal reveal and a lot after. The Nein helped with that directly a little, but the main thing they did was offer him a personal connection he had stakes in, and a people in his life with different world views he hadn’t seen up close before.
This is pretty true to life, in the real world, most people who leave radical or bigoted groups leave at least partially because of a change in their personal life. Even if they do leave because of someone directly challenging their worldview, it’s usually someone they care about who challenges them in a non-aggressive way. It’s still personal.
Secondly, this took a lot of time. I can’t remember exactly how long they spent in the Dynasty, but they befriended Essek over a really long period of in game and out of game time. The cast spent actual real world hours talking pretty much one on one with Essek, and the party spent weeks, maybe even months slowly getting to know him and bringing this support structure into his life. Essek spent even longer actually thinking through and deconstructing on his own. The change in his worldview between the ship and the outpost really shows this, he did a lot of the thinking that led him to change by himself over a lot of time we weren’t there for. They could not have gotten him to actually change his mindset, fully realize what he did was wrong of his own free will, in anything approaching a short amount of time. This was a time consuming process.
All this to say: this is the kind of effort it would take to legitimately de-radicalize Lilliana. She has been in the Vanguard for ~25 years, she most likely joined when she was in her early to mid 20s, and she gave up all personal connections, even her daughter and her husband to join. Not only has her entire ideology been built around this being the right thing to do, her entire personal life is contained within the Vanguard. It’s most likely where she gets any housing or money or really anything from. It is her whole life, and she believes wholeheartedly in it. The level of time and effort it took to get Essek to organically change his mind is most likely the level it would take to get Lilliana to change hers, if not more.
And they don’t have that time. Lilliana is actively doing harm now, she is helping the Vanguard release Predathos right now, they simply do not have the time to redeem her. It sucks, but pragmatically speaking, it is simply not worth the time and effort. Essek gave away the beacons in the past, but also, the Nein did not know he did that for their early friendship. If the Nein had known, they probably would not have put in all the work it took to get him to change. They probably couldn’t have. Lilliana might be able to be redeemed in theory, but so can a lot of people who do very bad things. Focusing on that redemption process is prioritizing Imogen’s complicated feelings over the harsh reality that this is a war, and Lilliana is a key figure in that war doing a great deal of harm. It sucks, but I do think it’s time to move on, and I think Imogen is now leaning that way.
*atheist is a loose term here, it’s hard to be an atheist in a world where gods are proven to exist, but it gets the point across
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tortademaracuya · 2 years
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Every week I try my best to rush things and help with parts that are not mine so we can pass the class and everytime im let down because no one wants to fucking work
#i tried...so hard...to do as much as i could very early even though i could have worked on other stuff#just so the others could have an easier time with their parts#and yet of course once again they left everything for the night before#i hope they die and go to hell#im so tired#i dont even have the energy to get mad at them im just. disappointed. in me being such a fucking idiot#i should just give up. i dont know why i keep trying#i cant complain because everyone will just tell me 'well then fix it yourself' i cant i was barely able to get the drawing program working#maybe im tired of always fixing everything for everyone else. why. i never get anything in return#i just get sadder and sadder while i have to see others try to play victlms and oh how hard they have it even though they never do shit#i cant trust next week will be better#they will just not work again. and then we will not have the opportunity for a second chance#and then i'll have to spend all the winter holiday working while those two just stare at me and act like of course we will work this time :)#its. embarrasing. i cant enter that class. this is so embarrasing#a lot of the stuff i did wasnt even added so it feels like i worked for nothing#im so tired and sure those two jerks are sleeping like nothing while im over here going manic at the thought of how bad everythings gonna go#and you know whats worse? i know its because they keep waiting for me to swoop in and do everything#they tried to convince me to do stuff and then when i said i didnt have the means tried to rope me into using theirs#yknow. do the job THEY could do while they prioritized something else#who cares about me. poor poor them have so many deadlines and are sad and whatever the fuck excuse they like to throw#im sad af too and im still trying. you guys arent helping. no ones helping#haunted.txt
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yanderes-galore · 2 months
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I was going to do this at some point but others also wanted it... so! CatNap time! This is my version like with DogDay, so maybe read that one first to understand my AU? Pure brainrot, barely proofread, there may be mistakes.
🌙Yandere! CatNap Concept🌙
🐱(My Version)🐱
Pairing: Platonic
Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Stalking, Possessive behavior, Violence, Overprotective behavior, Drugging/Gassing, CatNap watches you sleep, Manipulation, Slight sadism, Blood, Implied murder, Slight gore, Forced companionship.
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I'm just going to say this, the first thing I read about CatNap is he likes watching his friends sleep.
So that's how this starts.
As usual, CatNap has a cartoon/plush form and a monster form in my AU.
I talk a bit more about this in the DogDay concept.
CatNap, in his more innocent plush form, is docile, gentle, bashful, and highly impressionable according to the wiki.
CatNap can have an eerie presence but he is usually very calming.
He prioritizes proper rest, especially towards you.
When left all alone in Playcare, he becomes a hunting beast who worships The Prototype.
He's not Theo in this version, he's his own thing.
He's sadistic and enjoys the hunt in his more beastly form.
However... he isn't heartless... as in this concept he cares for you a lot.
Let's use this concept just to discuss his overall behavior like I did in the last one.
CatNap's plush/cartoon form still manages to get up to just about the waist of an adult on two legs.
Although the cat also likes to roam on four legs.
CatNap has a lavender smell in his fur, a scent known to calm and put others to sleep.
Although... that isn't exactly what he uses to put you to sleep.
Like in canon, CatNap has the ability to release Poppy Gas from his lungs.
Said gas creates hallucinations and even puts the target asleep.
CatNap likes it when his best friend sleeps....
So, the purple cat often likes to crawl on your lap, release some of the gas, and puts you to sleep as he nuzzles into you with a purr.
Yes, I feel I want to make CatNap purr in my version.
CatNap likes to wrap his long tail around you and follows you around loyally.
He wants to make you happy, healthy, and full of energy!
The only way to do that is a good night's sleep, right?
So let him help you.
CatNap definitely also uses his lavender scent to calm you, too.
He just wants his friend to hold him and sleep...
He'll watch over you like a good friend should.
Then there's the monster form.
He's still very dedicated to you, even when he roams the area like a stalking cat.
CatNap watches over you like a hawk, a caretaker at heart.
In his larger form he looks more unnerving, crawling on all fours like huge hunting cat.
He carefully stalks prey (and you) in the shadows, disorienting them with Poppy Gas before striking.
Unlike DogDay he doesn't bother hiding his predatory nature.
He doesn't care if blood or bits of flesh stain his purple fur when he eats.
His lavender scent still lingers despite the dirty blood smell when he's near you.
The large cat often tries to curl around you in his larger form, purring softly as he encourages you to sleep.
If you try to leave his long tail prevents it... he'll even give you Poppy Gas if you still struggle.
If you think about it... CatNap would be very similar to Moon from FNAF... except CatNap is more... religious?
Speaking of that, CatNap may view you as a gift from The Prototype.
His god has rewarded him for his loyalty!
He'll cherish you as his Best Friend....
CatNap would not hurt you as he views you as his gift and Best Friend.
He often swaps between his smaller cartoon/plush form and his monster form.
If he isn't on a hunt and doesn't want to scare you... he'll swap to his more docile form and encourage you to hold him.
Admittedly... his purr and lavender scent is enough to make you want to sleep anyways.
CatNap is mostly sadistic towards others, like DogDay and the other Critters if they were still alive somehow.
CatNap is possessive of his newfound pal.
He growls and hisses when you try to leave or if you mention any other Toy Mascot.
Even if you did escape, CatNap is hot on your tail, stalking you from the shadows.
Next thing you know the room you're in fills with red mist... you start to hallucinate... the last thing you see before you collapse is the monstrous form of a predatory cat.
Then you wake up back where you once were... with a purple plush cat wrapped in your arms purring away.
It looks like you aren't leaving the claws of CatNap after all....
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theloveinc · 10 months
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any hobie and/or miguel icks? 😟
whoever sent this: thank you + i ADORE you. i hope you don't mind i'm switching up the formatting/style a it in comparison to my older icks... shorter list, more detailed <3
(warning: some fem terms used at the end, such as “mama!”)
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Miguel O'Hara
- This guy... has some long ass toenails. Type of toenails that poke you at night in bed, and tear holes in his socks.
It's maybe somewhat related to the claw thing he's got going on? Has a lot stronger and faster-growing nails than the average person... but the real problem here is that he's TERRIBLE about clipping them. Claims it doesn't bother him even remotely and that you're the one overreacting when you ask him to... but hardly anything gets through to him about it. You probably even offer to do it for him one day, thinking the offer of a foot massage would sway his thinking and that it'd actually work... but he fought you on that just as easy...!!!
...which is how you came to the conclusion that you have a man who'll even argue w/ you over toenails. Petty boy.
- Miguel is also tired 24/7. AND yeah, it's pretty hard to be un-sympathetic towards that, but he's tired in the... I'm-gonna-prioritize-this-one-last-email-over-saying-goodnight-to-you way. Which gets real irritating when you're asking him to help you out w/ anything, like cleaning up or answering a question or JUST HAVING A DAMN CONVERSATION W/ YOU and he's using "I'm tired" as an excuse when his response is shitty or distracted.
Like one of those stupid guys whose always squinting at their damn iPad when you ask what he wants for dinner... which is ironic given that he'll get snippy at you for not giving him your full, entire attention whenever he wants it. Type of man to start picking imaginary lint off your head when you're simply trying to finish up a text before engaging him so that you aren't distracted.
- Odd about Lyla. Not that he loves her or anything, but she'll like pop up to give him updates about whatever even if you're MID-MAKEOUT session and he won't change that setting. Pulling away from your lips all pouty and squinty only to glare at his watch for thirty seconds before trying to go right back into kissing you.
No. No sir.
(Lyla will also always say something to or-but-usually-and about you, which... Okay, she's an AI and doesn't Get It... but it's still weird because it feels like someone you don't know just walked into the room.)
- Picks his nose when he's too busy to find a tissue, and forgets to sanitize his hands after. Denies this when you tell him.. but you've witnessed this multiple times (he's weirdly kind of whiney for a dude and lazy for a workaholic LOL).
Hobie Brown
- Lovely boyfriend because he doesn't give a crap about your appearance or the idea of needing to "look nice" for a man... but also stupid, nuisance boyfriend because this means he doesn't give one hoot if you try to get all gussied up for him. Nags you about wasting time getting ready because he doesn't need you to do all that instead of just saying "THANK YOU, YOU LOOK NICE." Even probably complains about you feeding into gender stereotypes or w/e when you do something like shave your legs or pluck your eyebrows😭
You try to talk to him about this, ask if he even cares that you tried to look nice, and he skirts around admitting it because he has an argument for everything. "'oughta know I think you're pretty either way"-ass when you just spent an hour trying to look all good for him.
- Tries to share the most obscure music with you... which is like, sweet in concept, but weird when it actually happens since it's never like a generic love song but an eleven minute underground jam session.
Which isn't to say he has bad taste in music, usually it's fine if not fantastic... but you try to tell him you don't want to listen to some dude's first draft of himself banging on a drum set for a full album and he's like: "tsk."
HOBIE. TSK??? FUCKING TSK????????? WHAT ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE????????
(He'll also use his to get out of listening to your music. Claiming his "inconsistency" is why he liked your playlist yesterday but not today. Stop!!!)
- And you know I gotta say it, he's a punk, after all: absolutely refuses to clean his favorite leather jacket, and it smells RANK. He's genuinely sentimental about it, though... and if you even try to bring up cleaning it somehow (even if very gently), he's acting like you betrayed him. Goes through the five stages of grief over you asking him not to wear it on one of your dates, and teases you by TALKING to it:
"Mumma didn't mean that, jackie. She just doesn't understand our lifestyle, does she?" while giving you a (lighthearted) stink eye.
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lucrezianoin · 7 months
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Astarion-centric fics recs (49 fanfics)
I will divide them by ship. They are all complete unless specified. Also, if a fic is not here it does not mean that I did not like it, I could have forgotten it or just not seen it given that there is a lot of Astarion content!
Just make sure to read all the tags warnings when you open the AO3 page. I added the non-ship focused but Cazador focused ones at the end.
Also it feels weird to rec my own fics, but in case you want to read astarion h/c I am writing you can find me here at LadyRagnelle (for now all DarkUrge or Tav/Astarion).
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Regarding if this reclist might be useful for you... there are a lot of Astarion fics, a lot of tags used and a lot of preferences! I have a very particular preference for a specific kind of fic (h/c, whump, softness, mainly) and in the case of Astarion I tend to not read nsfw, usually. So if you have been around my blog and you think we might share fics preferences... maybe these are the fics for you too! I will update this post with time.
I am trying to add a small description to all the fics, but I prioritized adding the links, so some of them do not have a description yet, but they were beloved in my bookmarks.
GEN (no ship)
Prying eyes (unsupermarket) - One of my absolute favorite. Karlach and Astarion share one of Astarion's nightmares (thanks to the tadpoles).
Reflecting endless down the hall (Asidian) - Each chapter is dedicated to one of the companions and the way they interact with Astarion, each chapter connected to a part of his past and trauma.
TAV (OR DARK URGE)/ASTARION
After all that I can do for them is done (votiveviscera)
To Aid and be aided (Beppoberry) - Post Cazador, taking care of each other.
Between the lines (Slothquisitor) - Amazing story about Tav gifting Astarion books.
Broken mechanism (laquearia) - Character study on Astarion's "Don't touch me".
Copper blood and silver hearts (netherprince)
The darkest corner of Baldur's Gate (Nebulad)
(Don't) lose your head (CL34R)
Don't you hear me praying? (ridgeline) - Short haunting story about Astarion's trauma.
And his pretty hand hold my leash (osiris_ryes) - one of the few nsfw fics in this rec list. This has some amazing Dark Urge writing and manages to use nsfw scene without ignoring the consent issues present in the game.
Hold me without hurting (fairbutnotsomaiden) - Astarion disassociates, Tav is kind.
I could feel my life begin (Flowercitti)
I have a good place to hide (Flowercitti)
I know how this will end (MyFandomCausesHanaji) - Amazing Dark Urge story about Durge trying to stop themselves from killing Astarion - and reliving the same day over and over.
A long dead pulse (enthugger) - Post-Cazador, Tav takes care of Astarion.
Made / Unmade (Adaphyl)
Mortal shortfall (titasylase) - Giving a gift to Astarion + act 1 angst, perfect combination.
Not something that I was but what I played (WitchyBee)
Out of wine and flowers (enthugger)
Porcelain (cweepa) - Astarion is sick, and he really cares about how he looks. Absolutely stunning story full of very delicate hurt/comfort and angst. I've reread this so many times.
Savages (cweepa) - Astarion finds a kitten.
Seducere (Tlon) - This is THE fanfic. I remember waiting every night for the new chapter. It narrates Astarion's past and his present in the game. Heartbreaking and haunting.
Specter (justfortune) - post game fanfic about Tav and Astarion's new life together, with some interesting concepts about personal space and sharing life.
Suck the rot right out of my bloodstream (Flowercitti) - I love Flowercitti's stories so so much. This one is specifically about consent. Please, read all their fics.
Vanity items (Flowyen) - Incomplete fic, but still amazing. Just Astarion receiving genuine compliments.
You only feel it when it’s lost (gettin’ through still has a cost) (Flowercitti) - Flowercitti's Tav takes care of Astarion after Cazador.
The way you are (imprinted on a page) (cryptidvaquero) - Tav draws Astarion as a gift.
Was it something you ate (Anoke)
Water down what I call being grateful (Flowercitti) - This fic was written for one of my prompts. I will be eternally grateful because I love stories that deal with looking right through Astarion's seductions.
HALSIN/ASTARION
Animal I have become (Ulfrsmal)
Free (Faetality)
Handmande (BerlinBelin) - One of my favourite, absolutely stunning series about touch starved Astarion trying to ask (with difficulty) fo non-sexual intimacy.
Known in its aching (BerlinBerlin) - sick fic with so much tenderness.
Never gonna fall for (modern love) (Dwinkle) - Halsin offers Astarion his blood.
Through sneers and words snide (BerlinBelin)
HALSIN/TAV/ASTARION
Working on it (casswathever) - Very well written series with multiple fics, I particularly loved the relationship discussions.
WYLL/ASTARION
To die with you (WaterSeraphim)
A dream of sweet things (Asidian) - delicious h/c, trust issues and some nightmares too.
Innocence died screaming (Flowercitti) - Wyllstarion fic that starts from Astarion's past with Cazador, from his turning into a spawn. Ongoing.
KARLACH/ASTARION
Repairs (Asidian) - Heartbreakingly angsty fic about Karlach finding her touch again and Astarion expecting their first night to go a certain way.
The Things you miss (Asidian) - A very sweet fic about Karlach and Astarion interacting.
ASTARION/SEBASTIAN
A lyric on your tongue (justfortune) - Sebastian and Astarion meet.
GALE/ASTARION
The heat is only skin deep (ThatKorka)
POLY
Sharing (Asidian) - a touch of angst, touch starved characters, act 1 spoilers so slightly present consent issues.
CAZADOR-FOCUSED (no secondary ship)
Fake it (deerna)
Lost and never found (arenathesia)
Thou art mine (sophos) - The story of Astarion learning how to keep Cazador happy.
your reflection can't offer a word (to the bliss of not knowing yourself) (undermounts)
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Hello! Can I request something with pre relationship fluff with Azriel? Maybe something where everyone else can see the attraction between them but they’re clueless or in denial?
Thanks! ❤️
I’m writing this as a blurb because I just had so many random ideas LOL. I hope this is okay! 
Okay Azriel would be smitten by you, and you by him, but like the entire IC could just see it because of the special treatment you got in every little thing and Azriel literally didn’t treat anyone else like this. Princess treatment fr without even officially being his princess. 
He would be so caring and kind to you, a complete gentlebat, holding doors open, pulling your chair out for you, will offer to carry whatever you are carrying for you, etc…
He would basically be your personal escort while visiting other courts, going out, or just while strolling through Velaris. He would always be beside you but he would purposefully slow his stride to fall back a bit, making sure he could look at all of your surroundings, sending glares to anyone who seemed like a threat. Even if the threat is literally just the butcher at the local meat market holding a knife that was casually pointed at you in conversation. Azriel gave the man a death stare behind you and you were left wondering why the conversation ended so abruptly…
It got to the point where even Rhys felt abandoned by his Spymaster. Azriel had always prioritized guarding his High Lord, his brother, but now he was giving all of his attention to you. (He would act mildly offended but didn’t really care he just thought it was funny because Azriel used to always be so attentive. And also Rhys adores you so it’s fine.)
Now, everyone in the IC, in fact, everyone in Velaris, knows that Azriel does not like to be touched. Like it takes a lot for him to be comfortable with someone touching him and he’ll tolerate it but you won’t ever see him going out of his way to touch someone unless absolutely necessary. However, when it comes to you, he finds any excuse to touch you or have you touch him. It’s like he wants to recover all the physical touch he’s avoided his whole life through you. He would never openly admit this, no, not until later on but something in him begs to feel your skin.
For example, when he puts his leathers on he’ll make some random ass excuse to get you to put your hands on him. “I think I’ve got all my buckles in place, could you double check for me?”. When Cass heard him say this he was about to burst laughing, because for mothers sake, Azriel had been buckling and unbuckling his leathers for centuries and had never asked anyone to double check, it was literally muscle memory at this point. Of course, Az sent Cass a death glare that dared him to say something so Cass held in his laugh, raised his hands and walked away. But he definitely told Nesta, and then Nesta told Feyre, and of course, Feyre told Rhys. Rhys told Mor, and soon everyone was overly aware of the excuses you guys made just to touch each other. When Azriel asked you to double check his leathers, you thought it was a great idea and asked him to do the same for you.
Azriel took this job very seriously, his gloved hands would roam your body, checking each and every pocket, lace, buckle, button. He would make sure everything was perfectly in place. He never groped and never overstepped his boundaries, just very diligently ran his hands through every part of your body. It would be hard to keep your cheeks from blushing and your belly from fluttering, it was also hard to cover up how much it turned you on to have him look after you. And oh gods, when he got to the holsters around your thigh….. Let’s just say thank the mother that Azriel was so concentrated in his task that he didn;t realize how visibly flustered you were. But everyone else definitely noticed.
It basically became a routine for you both before any mission to touch every inch of each other's body. So much so that Azriel now just couldn’t let you go on mission without doing an “inspection”, as he liked to call it, and he wouldn't leave on any until you checked him. You just really really cared about each other's gear being properly set., definitely wasn’t just an excuse to feel each other up. 
The whole IC truly found it hilarious and would talk about it behind y’alls back. It was just so obvious to everyone how infatuated you were with each other, so obvious to everyone except the two of you.
Azriel also kind of assigned himself your personal flyer. One time you asked Cass to fly you over to the house of wind and Azriel’s heart just about broke. You didn’t ask him because he was busy doing some work and Cass was just lounging around but he took it sooo personally. Of course he never told you that, instead he took it out on Cass by not speaking to him for a day LOL. From that day on he made sure to always ask you if you need a lift before waiting for you to ask. 
He was also playful around you, one might even say goofy, a rare sight for anyone that had known Azriel. If you were ever spaced out he would nudge you a bit with his wing, making you stumble a bit. You would send him a glare and he would have a smirk on his face. 
Or if you were super concentrated on a book or something and he wanted your attention he would flap his wings, sending a gust of wind to mess up the pages. You would huff in annoyance, shut the book, and look at him, only to find him reading his own book acting like he didn’t just do that. 
But you would also get him back, with the help of his shadows of course. Like when you were feeling playful, you would maybe take one of daggers or something and then you would run off and hide, a few of his shadows helping you find the darkest hiding spot and never snitching on you. That was another thing no one else had seen, his shadows fully listening to anyone other than him ?? Like hello ??? How did Azriel not realize what that meant ?? But he was just so blissfully comfortable around you and everything seemed so normal, that he never really gave it a second thought. He always knew the only reason he was a Shadowsinger was because the shadows allowed it so he just kind of accepted it. 
Most of all though, the IC was grateful for the friendship (soon to be more in their opinion) that you and Azriel had nurtured. They would abstain from teasing him because you were just so good for Azriel. It became a regular occurrence to find Azriel napping by you, or the both of you snoozing on the couch, your head or feet on his lap or maybe even his on yours, when Mor saw him sleeping on you that one time she audibly gasped. She was so giddy with excitement that she ran to tell the others. They all came one by one, so as to not spook the shadows, to take a peek and all their hearts melted a little more. 
He felt so relaxed around you that he just dozed off quite easily now. And they all saw the gradual disappearance of the bags under his eyes. Everyone knew Azriel barely slept but now he seemed to fall asleep so easily whenever he was near you. He just felt safe. You had always been a napper and he had finally caught on to the art of napping.
Another thing everyone started noticing was that Azriel was cooking a whole lot more than usual. He was always a good cook, Rhys and Cass would recall every now and then how they probably would have lived off beans and oatmeal during their younger years if it hadn’t been for Azriel’s cooking. His mom had always cooked him comforting meals, one of the few comforts she could afford her son given the environment he grew up in, so Azriel had always seen cooking as a way of showing someone he cared.
So even though Azriel would cook for everyone from time to time, he started doing it more frequently and everyone could see it was all for you. He would make enough food for everyone in the IC but in their opinion, it wasn’t a coincidence that he always asked you what you were craving, never asked them, always cooked your favorite meals, and always, always, prepared your plate first. 
He would always serve your plate the way you liked it, and would have you wait at the table while he brought it for you. He never served himself first, not even the High Lord or the High Lady. They found it incredibly amusing how he treated you like royalty and basically ignored them when you were around. (Not that they expected that treatment from him, but it was certainly funny to see Azriel go from overly observant of everything and everyone to basically having tunnel vision for you.)
And it wasn’t just big meals it was like anytime he was cooking for himself he would make you something too, a snack, a dessert, a juice, a tea literally he just started including you.
Now, he wasn’t the only one to do these sweet things for you, you definitely had your own ways of cluelessly showing your devotion for him. Like you would get him oils, and soaps, and salts to help him relax. “Okay AZ, this one’s for sleep, this one’s for sore muscles, this one’s to help you concentrate…” and you would make sure to jot down everything so he wouldn’t get them mixed up and could get the best use out of them. One time it even prompted Cass to ask Nesta where his smellies were after you had been out in the town with her and had picked up all the goodies… Now that caused a whole scene, meanwhile you and Az were in your own little world smelling all the tiny bottles.
You would also polish all his weapons whenever you had some down time. Or you would read a book and take little notes along the margins and then you would give it to him, sharing all the thoughts you wrote down in those pages. He would then write his own notes and give it back to you, because you were each other's confidants, best friends, crushes (still not time to admit that), and very obviously (to everyone excluding the both of you), mates. 
I could literally keep going LOL but I’ll stop now. Basically Azriel is just protective and caring and loving towards you and the rest of the IC notices everything he does for you and the effect you’ve had on him and they are patiently waiting for y’all to finally kiSS. Feyre and Cass have a bet going on when the bond will snap and who will feel it first.
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asstrolo · 2 years
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𝒮𝒶𝓉𝓊𝓇𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒟𝑒𝓁𝒶𝓎𝓈.
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Saturn delays things.
(this post was made according to my own personal opinion and personal experience with people that have some of these placements, what i say here is not all set in stone and can vary from person to person, it's for entertainment purposes only!)
Saturn is the Father, and also The Devil in Tarot. He is meant to teach hard-to-take valuable lessons and has a firm hand in realism. What must be done, and, if not accomplished in a certain time, He will meet a person with even more hard lessons until they learn, mature and accomplish what is meant for them. Saturn is also very well-known for delaying or complicating something if the person is not ready, or hasn't gone through enough lessons to understand what is that they truly want and what they truly need; and how to get it. In this next post you should look for your house placement, as Saturn is a generational planet, many people will have the same sign, but not the same house placement, which is way more important when it comes to Saturn!
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Saturn in 1st house: Saturn here is quite not what it seems, a person with this placement deals with unwanted advice about their appearance practically all their lives. It's really hard for them to accept more masculine or feminine parts of themselves and they are always thinking about how they are seen by people, if they look intimidating or approachable, these people call a lot the attention thanks to their body, even if they don't intend to, they can appear thin or taller and they might have dark hair even if they're blonde or redhead. It's important for them to look a certain way as it's probable that they develop a little later than their peers and they have a hard time accepting their own appearance as "normal", they tend to try and change their looks to be more digestible or more correct, they have a hard time dealing with, either the softest parts of themselves or the darkest parts of their personality, in these people's lives there was always a person commenting on their choices and judging them, so they in turn try to look perfect enough to not encourage any commentary at all. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is your lack of autonomy on your own body, learn to have a relationship with yourself and your body and try to understand what is it that you like, how would you like to look, your appearance and how you decide to present yourself, something that has always been difficult to express thanks to, maybe strict parents or judgmental parents, it's important that you learn to rely on your own judgment when it comes to your own life.
Saturn in 2nd house: Saturn here talks about, you guessed it, finances and comfortability, people with this placement have a really hard time getting comfortable, finding a place where they can just let loose as they might be needed at all times by a lot of people, or they just don't feel like they can ever rest. These people might have a hard time with finances as they can't save money or live the day to day, it always seems like there are things to get paid and what's more important; they can't or don't know how to take care of themselves, these are the type of people you always see working and never having days off, of course it can vary and not everyone is the same, but they tend to not know how to balance work/finances and commodities/time for self, they could've been around very irresponsible people that always needed somebody else to take care of them, they can be over materialistic to a fault as they might be this way for traumatic events where they maybe did not had too much growing up and, as they got older they were able to live life in better conditions, they don't know how to prioritize themselves or their personal space, or they over indulge in self-care and forget their duties. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is how you lack grounding, you will be living always thinking too much on one thing and never give time to important, real issues, you probably grew up in a place that it was way too chaotic as well, and you need to balance your life and your fantasies, it's important that you don't get defensive when told something you don't like as you are prone to live in a bubble and almost no one can access it.
Saturn in 3rd house: Saturn here is very difficult when it comes to the outside, let's not forget that air houses are social houses and this placement makes a person's way of interacting with others and communicating in general very difficult, they might be ostracized and ignored when is their turn to speak, they deal with low sense of worth and their words can be too complex for people their age to understand, they have a unique way of communicating and can be misunderstood on the daily, their life might've been filled with people that are better speakers than them, they could've had siblings that they were compared to all the time and these same siblings could make them feel even more inferior, they can have periods of time where they think they are not smart enough to do anything, or they believe other people just don't understand them because they're not eloquent enough, they also failed to try and understand other people when they don't like the topic or discussion, these people are very picky and rely on their own experience, they could, even accidently, push other's away as they don't think anyone will ever understand them. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is your difficulty to communicate your needs or interests as you feel nobody will care or listen to them, you will have to face this and speak up even if it's terrifying or you feel like you will get judged, it's important that you practice your speeches and write as this could be a kind of catharsis when you can't find the right words.
Saturn in 4th house: Saturn in here is extremely complex, not quite like having Saturn aspecting the Moon, but just as difficult as it can be, this placement opens many doors to traumatic events in childhood that will follow the person until adulthood, these people have experienced a lot of emotional distress and negligence from parents since a young age, making them the center of the house as the home could not function correctly without them. This kind of responsibility shapes the person into someone very serious when it comes to family matters, it's very probable that they have an unconventional family and it's not something they like or share much with others, this kind of experience makes them want to act as soon as a problem is presented in front of them, as they can't help but want to fix it, then turn around and think that they are the only ones to help or that they must help themselves, thus creating this weird victimhood where they feel alone doing all the job but being the one that offers help even if they weren't asked to. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is compromising and the need to get involved in issues that aren't your own, you must learn to cater to your own needs and your own wounds before trying to help other people, it's very important for you to find yourself outside of your family too, to look for ways to help other people without it damaging you emotionally or mentally.
Saturn in 5th house: Saturn in here presents the idea of celibacy, hard lessons in love and a complicated childhood or relationship with children, however, it is the house of pleasure, and in here the person that has it has a complicated relationship with it, this person is very self-contained and tends to restrain themselves a lot when it comes to exploring themselves, their desires and sexuality, these people also tend to come from a family that doesn't allow the person to experiment or makes them feel bad/guilty for having sexual or romantic desires, they could've been the odd one out both in friend groups and with their family, not quite fitting with their beliefs but also not fitting in with the outside, on the other hand this person could've had a childhood that was very restrictive and weren't allowed to do much, so as they got older they try and experiment carelessly and it ends up in dangerous sex life, as unprotected sex or hooking up with anyone, doing things recklessly without considering consequences, but for the most part this placement talks about someone who has been forced to suppress their own desires either because of their family, their environment, or their own self-contained personality. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is a fear of openness and of experimenting, a fear of being seen as too much for asking for things that you always wanted, as you get older you will understand that not everything you desire is wrong or bad or disgusting.
Saturn in 6th house: Saturn here is in a place of constant anxiety, people with this placement deal with a lot of negative self-talk on everything they do, this person thinks it's normal to feel extremely nervous on a daily basis, the reason for this might be that they have experienced disagreement and arguments first-hand, as people are constantly trying to correct them, making them smaller and try to shut them down, other's see them as "easy prey" and they might be right, this person will try to do everything how it's supposed to be done and might come off as stuck-up, but is only because they do not want to fail, they have a big fear of failure and feel like people are always waiting on them to be perfect at all times. These people possibly dealt with attracting the wrong attention their whole lives, meaning; they will try really hard to do something well and get so used to this, that when they fail, society won't let this slide, it's kind of weird how other's are always expecting this person to fail, since the 6th house is the house of enemies, it's no shocker if they had even adults disagreeing with them when they were kids. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is to learn not to care what other's think of you, but even more important is to have a positive mind and accept that failure is a part of life, is important for you to learn that mistakes bring in new possibilities and that you don't need to prove anything to anyone as long as you are sure of your own abilities, you need to learn to control your negative thinking as it could affect everything else in your life, not only your work.
Saturn in 7th house: Saturn here is completely interior, despite it being in the house of marriage and partnerships, it conceptualizes the idea of learning to love oneself before loving another individual, in groups of people this person doesn't feel restrained or threatened or uncomfortable, when it's a one-on-one relationship, everything changes. This placement needs a really big push to settle down into a romantic relationship, they need mental stimulation and they need the security only a marriage can guarantee sometimes, they don't do well in sporadic relationships as they might try them out but see no fulfillment in these, they could've grown up in a place where they have a very intense relationship either with the father or the mother, where it was hard for them to trust one person to be in their side, these people are often asked to be married at a young age as they seem to have everything figured out by their twenties, but it's all just a façade as they have no clue how they feel about anything they are experiencing, they need to sit down and think about their emotions towards people all the time, so they can understand them. Yes, people feel instantly drawn to them, and in turns, this person will give them a cold shoulder, not because they're mean but because they are very careful with who they let in their lives, a simple nice conversation won't do. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is, obviously about relationships, you will be going through a lot of unhealthy relationships until you learn that some people are just not worth trying for, to rely on your intuition when you meet people, unlike all the other houses, this one specifically would be protected by Saturn at a great extent, since the planet itself will rid the person of people they don't need in their lives, although a blessing in disguise, the person can feel very lonely a lot of the time.
Saturn in 8th house: Saturn here talks about inheritance and transformation of the self, but it also talks about intimacy and sexuality, often people with this placement are virgin until their late teen years and also come from an important family background, in which they are expected to follow certain traditions, if not from the parents but the grandparents. They probably grow up in a very disciplined environment or around people with very intense emotions, around people who don't know how to control these emotions so they try to control them instead, these people also could've been around adults more of their life or were treated as such, given a lot of responsibility or adults sharing their secrets and worries with them. They have a difficult time loosing up and they tend to be virgin or practice celibacy for long periods in their lives, it's not weird that they go through a lot of transformations relating their sense of self and how they see the world as Saturn in this house will make the person prone to changes and challenges that are hard to go through, reinventing themselves specially in the way people see them and how they interact with the most hidden parts of themselves. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is how to learn to not obsess over things and accept that change is inevitable, it's important for you to learn to be vulnerable without being intense, to get out of your comfort zone and to be able to grow outside of your familiar bubble before you're faced with something that will force you to do so, to not be so fatalistic and to try and connect with mysticism more.
Saturn in 9th house: Saturn here it's not like the rest, it does speak of religion and spirituality, but it also speaks about someone who has a blind belief in somebody else, people with this placement could've grown up with parents that were constantly lying and making things up to paint themselves as the opposite of what they actually were, these people have a special interest for the unknown and tend to gravitate towards spirituality when they need a push, when they feel like life isn't what they thought would be. They tend to idealize situations and people that are not at all what they seem, they have a complicated relationship with reality as they are very cultured and intelligent people but they usually ignore their own intuition and also go after the easy option. These people are well-known and have a "leader" kind of presence, however, they can let themselves be for too long as they believe they have all the time in the world to figure out what they want to do with their life, or, for instance it's not unusual that their plans are being delayed as wanting to finish school or go to university, these people would also have a difficult time with believing things out of their own control, they tend to feel unlucky and at the same time they have a nihilist kind of mentality. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is your lack of self-trust when making decisions, always wanting other people to solve your problems or avoid worrying for anything, you will face a lot of delays when it comes to opportunities and education and spirituality or religion might be something you are skeptical about, you need to learn to be patient and not give up when something doesn't work out the first time, it's important that you take time to better your abilities.
Saturn in 10th house: Saturn in here it's in it's own house, along with the eleventh house, the planet might feel the most comfortable in this house and it will make the person's lessons more noticeable or easy to get through, however, this house speaks of reputation and money and how a person sees their self-worth through their work, the person with this placement will have a very clear idea of their abilities and capacity but at the same time they will still search for approval, it's possible their childhood was marked by the father or male figure in their life as they were taught a lot of harsh lessons since a very young age and don't take things for granted, these people could look up to them or want to try and be better that the father, meaning, they could try and do the job the father figure never accomplished, this person is a generational curse breaker as they will try their hardest to give their family or have a better life for themselves, to these people it's important to have a set of goals to accomplish, very dedicated. They are always looking behind them and trying to be better than their past selves, the good thing about these people is they have the ability to look inwards and recognize their flaws, the bad thing is they might not know how to work in group and want to control and deal with everything on their own, they don't know how to ask for help and might use independency as a trauma response. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is your lack of awareness when it comes to other people, your very extremist way of seeing things and how you are always thinking of the past or the future, inability to enjoy the moment and emotional dissatisfaction, it's important that you try to let other's in to your world, and to learn to work with people rather than doing everything alone. If you don't have someone you can celebrate your accomplishments with, what's the point?
Saturn in 11th house: Saturn here, like with the tenth house, it also feels comfortable since this house is the house of Aquarius, a sign ruled by the same planet, and the person that has this placement might find it easier to go through some lessons in their life and are very self-aware of their surroundings, almost to a fault, they can become very cold and analytical when dealing with people, specially groups of people, they probably grew up in a household were others rarely visited or their parents were very lonely people, since a very young age these people were used to being alone but it can be the case of being forced to grow up too quickly and could never relate to people their own age. This person has a hard time dealing with rejection and can often feel alienated by their own peers, groups of people can intimidate them as they've had bad experiences, they have very unique ideas and personalities so it's difficult for them to relate to others or find their group of friends, they tend to focus too much on how they are perceived and what kind of people they hang out with, that sometimes they can see their friends as a means to an end, they were probably seen as less important when they were younger and are obsessed with making a name for themselves. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is how you are always comparing yourself to other people's achievements, your self-awareness can become too much sometimes that it will be impossible for you to relax and you will want to have everything with little to no effort, it's important that you don't compare yourself to others and learn to have patience when it comes to your goals, that you must mature enough. This placement grants you a lot of popularity and recognition in the long run as long as you let go of this lone wolf kind of mentality.
Saturn in 12th house: Saturn in here makes it difficult for the person to totally relax and let go of their worries, much like the sixth house, people with this placement experience a great deal of pain and responsibility from a young age, they could become very passive and non-confrontational, they could've been expected to always be available and they have a hard time saying no to things, they truly feel like it's their responsibility to help people, growing up they could've dealt with very explosive parents, an absent father or parents who passed away, as the paternal and maternal figure for these people growing up wasn't really present, they could resort to siblings or external families, these people deal with a lot of negative thoughts and negative thinking, they have a special interest in kids or pets, they have a very well developed intuition and they could've experienced very scary paranormal things growing up, they have close relatives that probably passed away and they can feel their presence, this person is someone who could be very in tune with their emotions or suppress everything they feel, they are very sensitive and susceptive to other's energies it's hard for them not to fall into addictions, when they like something or someone very much, it's possible they don't know how to control themselves and get obsessed with that thing or person, they fail to see the bigger picture most of the time. The delay you will be facing until your late twenties is your constant need to want to help people instead of helping yourself, how you fail to see the signs when something turns toxic or isn't serving you anymore, it's important that you don't prolongue bad situations in your life and learn to be more self-reliant and to try and heal yourself first.
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nenchainzz · 2 months
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𝒟𝒾𝓁𝓊𝒸'𝓈 ℒ𝓊𝓈𝓉𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒟𝑒𝓈𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈
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Diluc Ragnvindr x Fem!Reader
Warnings: vaginal fingering, temperature play, missionary, masturbation, body worship, uniform kink, cunnilingus, teasing, vibrator mention, butt plug mention, exhibitionism, cock description
NSFW Alphabet
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A = Aftercare = Diluc’s aftercare is very proper and very attentive. He will immediately check in with you and make sure you’re okay before anything else. He will grab you some tea and a small snack or bring you to a warm bath - whatever it is you need, he’ll provide.
B = Body Part = On himself, he’d say either his arms or back - both for the same reason. That reason being held on or marked up by you. For you, it’s a tough choice for him. He really loves everything about you. However, if he had to choose, he would say you’re face. He loves watching it change from excited to pleasure-filled or watching your brows knit together when you cum - he loves it all.
C = Cum = He doesn’t have any specific preference on where his cum ends up. He loves seeing it on or in you anywhere. You drenched in his cum - he just loves it. With your cum he loves it on his tongue or on his fingers - feels so intimate to him.
D = Dirty Secret = He does use his vision occasionally with some temperature play, but never enough to hurt you. He just likes when your pussy can’t get enough of his fingers when they’re hot.
E = Experience = He’s fairly experienced but nothing too crazy. He knows how to treat you and knows what places to use to his advantage.
F = Favorite Position = His favorite position is most likely missionary. He loves the feeling of control he gets to have, and being able to see your reactions is amazing, too.
G = Goofy = He’s not very joky and is more serious in the moment, but your laughter is infectious to him, so if you start to laugh, he will join in.
H = Hair = He takes good care of himself, and lemme just say the red happy trail is the sexiest thing ever known to man istg.
I = Intimacy = He’s very romantic with you, prioritizing your pleasure every time. He loves taking his sweet time with you and giving you anything you desire. He’ll kiss you all over and gush about your beauty like Shakespeare’s levels of praise from him.
J = Jack Off = He doesn’t really jerk off. You’ve never caught him or anything, so he must never really do it. He says it’s because you’re in his life, so there’s no need.
K = Kink = Body worship because he’s so devoted to you in every way. Bit of a uniform kink. And, of course, temperature play.
L = Location = He loves fucking you in his home - so there’s perfect privacy, and he takes his time with you.
M = Motivation = Something that really gets him going is seeing you all dressed up for a fancy event. He’ll become all red, and his cock will beg to fuck you.
N = No = He would never hurt you seriously - like if either of you wanted to “hurt,” it would not be that serious.
O = Oral = He does prefer slightly to attend to you, so he’s more of a giver. He uses his slick tongue and hot fingers to his advantage.
P = Pace = He goes for a medium when it comes to pace because being slow doesn’t really do much for either of you and if he goes fast, he might cum too fast and not be able to enjoy you fully.
Q = Quickie = He does really do them. However, if you tease him enough, he’ll indulge.
R = Risk = He doesn’t really take any risks or experiment that much, but if it’s something you’re very interested in, he’s willing to look into it or maybe even try it.
S = Stamina = He’s got a lot of stamina and loves fucking you through so many orgasms (something he unapologetically loves).
T = Toys = He uses them only on you, whether that be a vibrator or a cute butt plug. Everything is for you.
U = Unfair = He doesn’t really tease unless you’ve been a bit bad. You’re the one who’s the tease mostly.
V = Volume = He’s not very loud and grunts (with some moans thrown in) only to you. He finds it slightly embarrassing, actually.
W = Wild Card = One time, you convinced him to fuck you in the Favonius Library after hours, and you guys were nearly caught by Lisa (but she fr did not care, lmao).
X = X-Ray = He’s packing about 8 inches with a pale shaft and flushed tip.
Y = Yearning = His sex drive isn’t too high, but he will mostly indulge you every time you ask.
Z = Zzz = He always waits until you fall asleep because he believes it’s what a gentleman does. He’ll wait for your talking to cease and your breathing to soften until he’s ready to fall asleep beside you.
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hey if its not much may i ask svt and prioritizing their s/o for the rest of the members? i think that's hoshi, dino, vernon and jun thank you so much! btw I love your work its written so well!!
svt + prioritizing their s/o (pt 3)
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➔ warnings: brief food mention || 0.9k words ➔ notes: fluff ; thank you so much for your patience! it's been like two months...I've been so busy lately :') and the stress hasn't been helpful when it comes to writing, but I'm slowly figuring things out at work and I'm excited to wrap up these reactions. thank you for loving my posts—I hope that you'll reblog them :)
JUNHUI: it's his day off, and he should be sleeping...according to you, at least. if you ask him, though, he'd tell you that he's doing exactly what he should be doing, and that's taking care of you. when he crawled into bed—at some ungodly hour that he half paid attention to—you were still on your laptop, typing away at a slideshow that only half of your coworkers will care about. he doesn't know what time you finally slid into bed with him, but it felt like seconds between you accidentally jostling him awake and his alarm blaring beside his ear. time to get up, he thinks to himself, but there's no inward sigh, no lamenting the fact that he's just another cog in the wheel. no, this morning, he wakes up light on his feet and slips out of the blanket as quietly as he can. then he gets to work. plugs in your laptop again because he knows that the battery is old and loses charge overnight. re-organizes your shoes so that the other pairs are put away and your lucky pair is right by the door, ready for you to put on. tucks a granola bar into the side of your bag as a surprise because you always check there first for your pens. jun is a quiet lover, one that melts into the crevices of your life and makes you remember that you are loved.
SOONYOUNG: "pass me your plate," he says, looming over the table with an outstretched hand. "how much do you want?" he keeps his other hand on the rotating turntable, preventing it from moving, and you want to shrink in your seat with how everyone's eyes land on you. there's no judgment, but you still feel the warmth of embarrassment. "just a little bit of everything," you murmur, fiddling with your chopsticks as he obliges. no one makes a fuss about it, and as soon as he sets your plate down, he takes a seat and lets everyone get food before he serves himself. he's the type to put himself last when it comes to these things, preferring to take care of the younger ones before himself, but it'll be a cold day in hell before he lets you do the same. you tried to sit out once, patiently waiting for the boys to get their fill before you dug in. at the time, you didn't realize that they never really stop eating. as soon as soonyoung noticed you hovering at the edge, unsure of how to jump in, he started swatting away hands so that you help yourself. now he's taken it upon himself to always serve you first, even though you tell him that he doesn't have to do it. he doesn't respond. he just plucks food from his plate and puts it on yours, and you realize that you'll never win this argument.
VERNON: he always opens and responds to the links you send in a timely fashion. sometimes it's just a haha, maybe an emoji, and other times it's a quick paragraph of his thoughts. to be honest, this is such an overlooked act of love because it takes a lot of energy to watch something when you're tired and busy—and you know he's tired and busy—but he pushes through for you. "you can watch it later," you tell him once. you just sent him an Instagram reel about cats, and two minutes later, you hear the audio coming from his phone. he just shrugs and reacts to it with a laughing emoji, even though he kept a straight face the whole time. "I might forget later," he says, reaching over to pinch your cheek, and leaves it as his only explanation, as if it's truly as simple as that. you can't bring yourself to do the same, though, and he's understanding when you finally respond to his links a week later, spamming his notifications. "sorry for the late response," you say at the very end, but he doesn't let you feel bad about it. when your thoughts and emotions are preoccupied, even a thirty second meme feels like an energy sapper and he gets it. he just does things because they're no big deal to him, but he doesn't want you to feel obligated to reciprocate.
CHAN: he's on his feet as soon as you need something. sometimes, it seems like he's his group's little errand boy, but no, he loves doing things for the important people in his life. (honestly, the entire group is if "acts of service" were people.) regardless of where you are—be it beside him or across the room—he always keeps an eye on your expressions and body language. "hey, chan, have you seen my—" you glance around your feet. "water?" in moments, he's at the table, pouring you another glass. "you put your cup away earlier." it's little things like this that make you feel appreciated, but you wonder if it's too much at times. not for you, but for him—is he really enjoying himself if he's always trying to take care of you? "of course," he says when you ask. he's in the middle of rolling up your sleeves since he noticed them dropping. when he's earnest like this, you can see the adoration in his gaze. if you address this in public, though, he just hides a chuckle, swiping his nose with his thumb. a confident hair flick as he says, "all in a day's work for the world's best boyfriend." the fake smugness all crumbles when you agree with him, though. he'll just sink his face into his hands with a few wait a minute's between giggles.
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I've gotta admit, the take that Ed and Stede are "running away" from their problems at the end of s2 absolutely baffles me.
The thesis statement of this show, as we know, is "a lot of the things we are taught about being a man are wrong." Harmful ideas of what it means to be a man are at the core of Ed and Stede's issues with themselves: Stede struggle to feel like as much of a man despite loving softer things, Ed's feeling forced into a hyper-masculine caricature of himself. These are the core problems at the heart of these characters, obviously there's more to it but when you boil it down that's what we're working with. This is why Stede's trying to live up the ideal pirate image in s2e7 is important; he's getting a taste of what he thought he wanted so he can choose to leave it behind for what's really important. Ed, too, is still struggling at the end of the season with figuring out who Ed is, once he can break free from the Blackbeard persona.
What would be solved by sailing away, planning to continue as pirates at the end of s2? How would that be addressing their problems or helping them live more authentically? Ed has wanted to leave piracy since we met him, and yes, Stede enjoys piracy, but the idea that piracy is the true and right end-state for him is a very basic reading of the text I think.
Ed and Stede making the decision to try building a life together in their new shack isn't running away from their problems - it's Stede prioritizing Ed over a life of piracy, because piracy isn't what he wanted in the first place. He wanted to be a part of something, he wanted to marry for love, he wanted to be appreciated for who he is. It's Ed finally realizing in the finale that he can use violence as a tool to protect the people he loves, but he's also allowed to step away from it. Will the inn idea work out? Maybe. Maybe not. Who cares? It's not the inn that's important, really, it's that they're both choosing to commit to each other and taking this step towards living more authentically.
We already know exactly what "running away from their problems" would look like, and it's the plan Ed proposed in s1e9. He wanted to run away to China so their old lives could be "gone, dead, never were." Ed just wanted to forget about his past, and Stede was riddled with guilt - wherever they go, there they are. The difference between that plan at the end of s1 and Ed and Stede's new plan at the end of the s2 is, first of all, they're both all in and they know it, and, secondly, they're both getting a lot better at meeting themselves where they're at.
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elysianholly · 3 months
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This fucking guy
My villain origin story is people claiming that Riley's biggest crime in the series was being boring. He wasn't just boring. He was a passive-aggressive chauvinist who the show bent over backward to defend. A while back on Reddit, I made a list of reasons why Riley sucks. This is that list, and I'm adding to it.
The only reason he punches Parker is because Parker is mouthing off about a girl Riley likes. Everything about this interaction suggests that Riley has heard him say similar before, and hasn't cared until the woman in question was someone he had a vested interest in.
He calls Buffy stupid for not wanting to date him (if this guy slid into your DMs and called you stupid for turning him down, lbr, this would not lead into a healthy, lasting romance)
He immediately puts himself in competition with Buffy. Even at his most inoffensive, he says things like "I don't even know if I could take you."
He has an inherently chauvinistic view of the world (established in The Initiative)
He is upset that Buffy had a significant relationship before she knew him and assumes Buffy boinked Angel in The Yoko Factor
He uses abuser language to excuse his shitty behavior like, "I love you so much I can't think straight."
He decides that Buffy doesn't love him all by himself
When he decides that Buffy doesn't love him, he confides in Xander and doesn't communicate his relationship issues with Buffy
He wants to help Buffy but only in jobs that are "manly." In No Place Like Home, for instance, he nopes out when Buffy suggests he help with the spell to identify what might be wrong with Joyce. Even if there wasn't a lot for him to do, he could, idk, stick around to be moral support for his partner who is trying to figure out what might be attacking her mother. That seems like a pretty standard partner thing to do.
He gets upset that Buffy "doesn't get all worked up over him" the way she did with Angel when "getting all worked up" in CONTEXT means "isn't constantly miserable."
He is sad boi at Buffy in OoMM for also prioritizing her mother's health after she believes Riley is healed rather than sticking around to play nursemaid
He wants Buffy to show emotion over Joyce at a time when Buffy literally cannot (if you've never had a parent in the hospital with a life-threatening illness, maybe you don't know that there are times/places to break down and "in the hospital" where you're supposed to be strong isn't one of them)
He doesn't care that his girlfriend's mother is sick, possibly with something life-threatening; he cares that he got to be the hero of the piece, the shoulder for Buffy to cry on. His only reaction to any of that was to be hurt that Buffy didn't respond the way he thought she should; no concern for her well-being or Joyce's, just Riley getting his feelings hurt because he wasn't the center of Buffy's universe or the rock for her to lean on when all went to pieces
This is further confirmed by the way he just doesn't mention Joyce's absence at all in As You Were. When he leaves Sunnydale, it's after Joyce has had a successful operation. He returns and she's not there and no questions? No condolences? It's because he doesn't care.
He doesn't ask about Buffy's death when she lets him know she died.
He starts separating himself from the Scoobies and then gets mad for not being included
He literally cheats on Buffy with vampire sex workers (there are people who say they were not sex workers, but in a show where monsters are metaphors, you have to be especially dense or willfully obtuse to not realize this is what they are)
Riley intentionally puts himself in a position where he might be killed or turned specifically to SPITE BUFFY, which demonstrates his lack of consideration for what she might have to do later if things go bad
Riley blames Buffy for being roofied by Dracula (again, monsters as metaphor)
He never apologizes or owns that he was unfaithful
He blames his infidelity on Buffy, actually
The first time Buffy learns Riley isn't happy, she's told she should've seen it, which is classic victim blaming and happens from Xander AND Riley (and a good amount of fans who want to excuse that behavior)
He is fine with torturing sentient creatures, and in fact had a stake made specifically so he could torture vampires without killing them
He goes behind Buffy's back all the time
Riley was not boring. If he were boring, he would be inoffensive. Dull to watch but not rage-inducing. But he is rage-inducing because, despite all the passive-aggressive gaslighting bullshit he gets away with, people in this fandom still believe he was "Buffy's best boyfriend." That she was to blame for the deterioration of this relationship. That he was the healthiest of the Buffyverse men. The show does, too. That's why Xander (Wh*don's mouthpiece) gives that sanctimonious little speech to Buffy (the audience in this case) in Into the Woods to scold us for not treating Riley better. Then they double down in As You Were to make Buffy fawn all over herself to let this gaslighting asshole off the hook for everything he put her through.
Riley's sin is not being boring. It's that he was actually awful. Wh*don himself once called Riley a "healthy relationship" for Buffy, and if that doesn't tell you something, there's no talking to you.
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I love ur Frederick Headcanons!! Can we please get some sfw and nsfw hcs for him??
Happy holidays ;)
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-Frederick is one of those partners who isn’t around a lot. He’s often wholly consumed by music and spends long hours sat at the piano. He keeps a private music room and is strict about people coming in when he’s working. He needs focus. He struggles with prioritizing anything over his music, especially when he’s obsessed with perfecting a particular song. This will a life-long struggle for Frederick, but it is something he’s willing to make an effort towards correcting when he’s in love.
-Refer to his general headcanons post for specifics about his disorders; he requires a lot of grace and accommodation in a relationship. It’s almost certain that you’ll be putting more emotional labor into the relationship because Frederick has to put so much into just regulating himself. He’s easily overwhelmed, and has an avoidant attachment style due to his communication skills breaking down when he’s frantic enough. The best advice I can give is to establish a plan of action with Frederick that you can use on his worst days to help him.
-He’s not a “fun” or “spontaneous” socialite. He’s tired of changing who he is for social settings, of pushing his looks and playing sweet to gain favor. He still has to sometimes…which is why he doesn’t like when his partner suggests activities that would also require it. He doesn’t even want to have get-togethers with your friends, though he is willing to meet them after you’ve been together for a while. He’s not keen on spending a lot of time with them, mind you, mostly because it reminds him that he doesn’t have anyone in his side of things to introduce you to.
-In line with the above, with the exception of performances and networking, Frederick is a homebodied introvert. His date night ideas are often set on your property. A picnic in your garden, maybe? Stargazing? When he has the funds, he likes to hire a private chef to come prepare a nice dinner for you both. He’ll occasionally invite you into his music room to play for you, as well. Any song you’d like! Even if he doesn’t like it. You’re always the first to hear his new songs, and he often dedicates new ones to you.
-Frederick isn’t a bad housemate to have, which is fortunate since he’s there so much. Because he was disowned by his family, he’s had to develop some skills people of his birth typically don’t. He helps with the chores, cleans, and is a fair cook. He still occasionally needs help with little things, but those are few and far between. He yearns to go back to the days of not having to do these things himself.
-Frederick likes when you give him the option of being the dominant partner. That is, he likes when you look to him for decision-making. He does his best to be fair and consider both your opinions, if they differ, and he feels that you deferring to him like that means you have faith in his judgement. This goes for little things too, like just asking him to order for you when you’re out for dinner.
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-Some of you may hate me for this…but I look at this man and think “foot fetish.” He’s certainly not a pervert about it, but you’ll notice over time that he compliments your shoes a lot (especially heels) and admires any pedicures you show off just a little too intensely. You’re in luck if you like a good foot massage because that’s a go-to foreplay for him. He’s not going to complain about some shapely legs, either.
-Frederick has a very slight oral fixation, too. He’s down for a bit food play as long as it’s not something too difficult to clean up, and he enjoys giving oral. He has a habit of humming songs while going down on his partner; he says it helps him keep a steady rhythm, but honestly who cares because the vibrations from that feel amazing.
-Aside from those, Frederick is pretty vanilla. Due partially to the amount of stress his mental illness causes, he’s not in the mood for sex as often as others. When he is in the mood, he’s more of a “make love” kinda guy. He likes to have romance, to set the mood. Foreplay tends to be several hours long with plenty of sweet flirting, gentle touches, and any other means of building anticipation. He’s not rough in the bedroom at all, and prefers simple, face-to-face positions like missionary.
-He’s always going to have some underlying fears of being used for his looks, so he prefers to be in charge in the bedroom. If you want him to submit to you, he can be convinced, but he needs a lot of reassurance as aftercare or else he’ll silently grow paranoid. (This is also why he’s such a romantic in the bedroom. He needs obvious reminders that love is involved in this act and not just lust.)
-Frederick loses track of time a lot and is used to isolating, but spending a longer period away from him is a sure-fire way to make him desperate for you. You’re going to be gone for a month to visit family? Well, no worries, he’ll be fine…until the last three days. Then, like a switch is flipped, he’s a man starved to the brink of death for his love.
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"I know someone who can" (Part 2)
1610!Miles x Confused-Black-Fem!Reader
Genre: Friends-to-lovers, Fluff, lil bit of angst
Warnings: Cursing, Google Translated Spanish, That's it I think lemme know if I missed sum 🤷🏾‍♀️
Songs that it's based on: Let Me Love You By Mario, Don't By Bryson Tiller
Summary: Basically, you get into a lil argument with your man (Jaleel) and run to Miles. You tell him that it's been like this for a while and he isn't having any of that. He tells you that you deserve better, luckily he knows someone who can provide better 😉
Prev: He said as he continued speed walking the streets of Brooklyn, New York, with you wrapped in his warmth. He wanted to get to his apartment as soon as possible to make sure you're ok, you took note of that. Jaleel was wrong about a lot of things, but maybe he was right about this. Maybe you do wanna be with Miles...?
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You and Miles approached the stoop of his apartment. He sighed, taking his keys out of his coat pocket.
"Hey...I uh- I know that my parents are gonna be a little much on you since they really like you. But, if you don't feel like talking, just nudge me a little bit and we can go straight to my room, ok?"
He asked, with a genuine look of care in his eyes. This 'friendship' always felt better than any of the relationships you were in. You always felt like Morales genuinely raised your standards in men, he was always insisting on making sure your needs were prioritized over his own. Everyone always joked that you guys were soulmates, but only now do you finally understand what they were saying.
"Ok. Thanks again, Miles. For just....always being here for me."
"No, problem. It's my job!"
He exclaims, before opening the door. You two walk up a flight of stairs and make it to the apartment door, before he stops and checks on you one last time.
"Are you 100% sure that you wanna talk to them? We can honestly just walk past. I wanna make sure you're ok, mami."
Miles says, searching your eyes for any sign of discomfort.
"Yea, I'm sure. I love your parents!"
You say, before he opens the door. The familiar scent of Chinese take-out fills your nostrils. You also hear the sounds of the TV in the living room, you weren't really paying attention, but from what you could gather it sounded like the news. As soon as you two walked in, Rio and Jeff snapped their heads over to the front door. They instantly became relaxed when they saw you and Miles together.
"Hey, Y/N! Come gimme a hug, mama!"
Said Rio, with a genuine smile on her face.
"Hey, Mrs. Morales!"
You say, excitedly before Walking over to her. When she pulled you in for a tight hug, she had a faint scent of Vanilla. You took notice of the familiar scent.
"Oh, you're wearing the lotion that Miles and I bought you for Christmas! It smells really good."
You mentioned.
"Yes, I am. You have a great attention to detail, hija! Take notes."
(Daughter)
She jokingly whisper shouted to her son, leaving a very flustered teenage boy.
"Ma!"
"Oh, lighten up. I'm only joking, unless you want me to be serious."
She said, wiggling her eyebrows in Miles and Jeff's direction. Jeff chuckled and finished dapping up his son. You two switched parents, you making your way over to Jeff, and Miles making his way over to Rio. You gave him a side hug.
"Hey, hun. How's your mom doing?"
He asked, since he went to high school with your mom.
"She's good, I'll tell her that you asked."
"Ok, that's good. So....why were you walking with my son?"
Jeff asked, making Miles shoot his head in your direction. Jeff chuckled at his son's attentiveness to your every move.
"You know, that's how it started with your mom, son. Just taking her on walks, going over each other's houses, always wanting to hang out."
Jeff said, before walking over to Rio and placing his hands on her shoulders, leaving you and Miles standing awkwardly next to each other.
"Yea, what's that thing that you kids are saying now-a-days? You need to show her your 'W rizz', man!"
Rio said, making Miles grimace. You started chuckling, making Miles lighten up.
"Alright, that's enough of that! We're gonna go into my room, bye!"
Miles said before Rio called out saying that the Chinese food was in the fridge incase you two were hungry. He walked into his room and closed the door. You took your shoes off and sat on the bed.
"I'm so sorry about them, they just like the idea of me getting with someone."
You chuckled.
"Yea, I get that. My mom says the same thing about the two of us."
He smiled.
"So, do you still wanna talk about why I caught you crying? We don't have to if you don't want to."
"No, it's ok. I-"
You sighed thinking about the experience.
"It was Jaleel."
Miles sighed.
"This dude again, Y/N you deserve so much better. You can't keep letting him treat you like this."
"I know, I know. That's why I said I was done. He was pressing me about my story on IG and he was saying that I was showing off for other guys. I told him that he was just acting really insecure, and he flipped out and called me 'his bitch'. So I got up, said 'I'm done' and I left."
There was a silence before Miles replied.
"Wait, but you know that leaves so much room for assumption, right? All you did was say 'I'm done', Ma. You gotta text him or something and tell him you wanna break u- wait, you do wanna break up, right?"
You sighed and took a few seconds to think about that question. Of course you didn't want to be in a relationship with Jaleel, but you still wanted someone to be with. You still wanted to feel loved.
"Of course I wanna break up with him. There's no question about that, I just don't wanna be single. I want someone to treat me nice and love me. I just don't know anyone who can care for me like that."
You obviously knew someone who could care for you like that, and his name was Miles Morales. He's the only guy in your life who would genuinely give you the type of relationship and respect you want. And as if Miles just read your mind, he sat down on his bed, next to you. He grabbed your chin, making you meet his gaze.
"I know someone who can."
He said, before slowly approaching your lips.
"Wait, Miles. Everyone's gonna start a bunch of rumors and shit if I get with you an hour after a break up."
You say, bullshitting. You knew that you did not care about what those people thought. You knew that you were really just scared to kiss miles. He's one of your closest friends and you didn't wanna lose that if the two of you broke up.
"Then, tell me to stop."
He said, before placing one of his hands on your waist and kissing your neck. The feeling of the kisses were slow and passionate like he's been waiting for so long to finally get his lips hands on you. You knew deep down that you couldn't tell him to stop, as you've been waiting for this moment too.
"Exactly."
The cocky boy said, before moving his head up to kiss your lips. You kissed him back, with the same slow, long-awaited energy that he had. You put your hands around his neck, and he kept his arms on your waist. Slightly rubbing and massaging the skin around your thighs. Your guys' lips moved in sync, Miles' lips being soft with a faint taste of the mint Chapstick you bought him for his stocking.
He pressed the tip of his tongue against your bottom lip, waiting for you to grant him entrance. You open your mouth slightly, allowing him enough room to stick his tounge inside of your mouth, the two of you moving your tounges together like waves crashing in an ocean. It was like a collision of longing, passion, and care all at the same time. The two of you were writing poetry with your mouths, finishing an untold story. You two were so lost in the kiss and movement of each other's hands until...
*bzz*
Miles groaned, before pulling away, annoyed.
"Mami, who's calling you?"
Miles asked with slightly swollen lips. You grabbed your purse and reached inside for your phone, an slightly audible gasp came from your mouth when you saw the Caller ID.
"It's Jaleel."
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OMG TEAAAAA! Anyway, hoped yall liked it because I'm lowk bad at writing kissing scenes so I just yapped and said a bunch of shi that would sound good in theory 😭😭 anyway I kinda forgot to ask if yall wanted a tag list for fics, so.....doing it now! If u wanna be in the tag list, lemme know!
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