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fieldofdaisiies · 3 months

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Whispers of the Forgotten | pt. 1

pairing: azriel x reader | type: angst | words: 800 | masterlist

Bloody and broken your body slumps to the ground, his hands, the strong grip he had on you, still lingering like a phantom touch.

Ragged breath whoosh in and out of your lungs, the crisp air burning down your throat, your chest aching, like sharp claws are digging right into the flesh. You want to scream, but your mouth is too dry, your throat hurting too much. There is nothing but an endless void inside your heart and mind, and yet a whirlwind of fury starts to boil within.

The creaking of the door hinges is what makes you tip your head back, eyes burning, vision blurry due to the dust in them. But you see him. It’s not too late. You see his face once last time. The face you will remember forever - loathe forever.

"Azriel," you seethe, but your voice is hoarse and breaks before it can reach him. Or that’s what you think.

The young male‘s head whips towards you. He heard you. Or the swirling shadows always dancing around him heard you. They calm down, almost like they are waiting for what you are about to say.

You brace your bloody fists on the ground, knuckles white from how hard you curl your fingers towards your palms. Your gaze drops for a split second, landing on his scarred hands, gripping the bloody hunting knife tightly. That damn knife that caused you the flesh deep wound on your belly, now dripping with blood and soon puss.

"Yes," you breathe, trying to summon every little ounce of energy you have left. You force ypur eyes to meet his. "That’s right, Azriel." Your eyes lock with his. "And I’ll remember your damn name forever…" You push up, getting on your knees. "Until I do my last breathe. I will personally carve it into your grave stone. And you will remember my name. Forever."

Your teeth are bared, blood and drool running down your chin. "You will remember my name when I rip open your throat with my claws. You will remember my name when—"

"Let’s go, Az. Our job here is done. The High Lord expects us to be back by now."

Azriel is not alone. Someone is with him. Cassian, one of the best Illyrian warriors there are. Right now…his usual confidence is gone. He looks haunted, scared, impatient. He wants Azriel to come with him. Right in this moment.

But Azriel’s lingers. The male doesn’t move. Not even when Cassian clasps his shoulder - tightly.

Azriel's gaze is trained on you, eyes wide open.

"Az," Cassian warns, curling his gloved fingers around Azriel's biceps. "We need to leave."

Azriel snaps out of his trance and finally averts his gaze, without a look back, they leave, wind blowing through the prison, thrashing against the walls, howling.

You are alone. Cold. Bloody. Broken.

A cry parts your lips - full of fury and pain. You thrash your fists against the cool ground, moist with mould and grimy water.

You are trapped in a cell that seems to be suffocating you, its walls seeming to press inwards, the space getting narrower and narrower by the second.

You are locked in. Forever. Until the last day of your immortal life. Or until you go insane and forget even your own name.

Another scream leaves you. Your body is shaking, trembling with cold and hurt. Eventually, you lift your gaze to look around. There is just a small cot draped in a thin blanket and a weathered stool and nothing else. The walls are made of dark stone. Moss and lichen crawl up on them, making decay even more apparent in this place. They bear scars—scratches of beings who have been in this cell before you.

The air is heavy, thick with desperation. And it is cold. So damn cold, making you see your own breath.

You know this a place where spirits are broken, where the very essence of a person is eroded when you go insane. But your spirit won't be broken. You will get out.

Shadows dance across the walls and make you remember him.

Azriel. The shadowsinger. You will remember him forever. Until the day you die. Until the day you personally carve out his heart.

He left you in pieces and the shards for you to pick up with your already wounded hands.

He is going to pay for this. They all are.

Nothing is visible through the narrow, slit-like window that seems more like a mockery than a source of light. But you can hear a storm raging outside, branches and the wind hitting the walls of the Prison and it matches the storm brewing inside of you. You won't die here. You will get out of here. And you will get your payback. This is a promise.

A promise to Azriel. A promise to your mate.

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ecoamerica · 27 days

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luvanniiee · 2 months

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needy • h.hj •

pairings- gamer!hyunjin x fem!reader

synopsis- he always says he’ll get off in a few minutes or when he’s finished the round. leaving you with an ache only he can soothe.

warnings- SMUT!!!! teasing, unprotected sex (be smart bookie), oral (m and f receiving), slight masturbation (ur doing it),petnames, slight overstimulation, slight edging (he stops before he cums). some bratty behavior.

a/n: sorry for not posting in forever :(. butttt i just turned 19!!! WOOOOO!! anyways, hope yall enjoy this, please send more reqs, and also still accepting moots! and im also almost at 80 followers teehee i could cry. anyways much love!

youve been sitting on the couch for hours now. sitting behind hyunjin, trying to be patient and wait for him to finally finish the game so he could give you attention for what feels like the first time today. he didnt show any signs of getting off soon even though he said he’d be “finished in a few minutes”. whenever you ask him if hes finished, he would say “almost. give me a few more minutes”. and those minutes turned into hours.

you sighed unusually loud when you asked him one more time. “im almost done, im literally about to beat this level. just give me a few more minutes.” he said. “ugh, its been hours since you last said that, and im really needy right now. cant you just save it and finish later?” you said.

there really isnt an established dom/sub dynamic in the relationship. sometimes you would take control, and sometimes he would take the lead. so when he heard the slight brattiness in your tone, he paused the game to look at you. it was like he was warning you with his eyes. “i told you that im almost finished. now you can do either of these two things im gonna suggest. you can either find something to do until im finished or sit there like the good pretty girl you are and wait for me.” he said.

the firmness of his voice was enough to quiet you down, but it also added fuel to the fire between your legs. it was becoming unbearable. so when hyunjin turned back to the screen of his computer, you decided to slip your hands down there to relieve yourself until he was able to help.

it didnt take long for hyunjin to catch on to what was going on behind him. the sounds of your soft whimpers, and the sounds of your wet pussy were reaching his ears. “princess, are you touching yourself?” he asked softly. you stopped in your actions to brat out “yes, because you arent doing it.”

he turned in his chair to see that you were there on the couch, only in a shirt, panties on the floor, legs spread and fingers sticky. he swore he could cum right then at the sight. but he composed himself. he walks over to you, and lowers himself so you and him are eye to eye. he grips your thighs and kisses them softly. moving closer to where you really need him.

your breath getting gradually louder as he nears your pussy, but stops as soon as hes facing it. hyunjin blows cool air on your clit, the new sensation making you whine, and clench around nothing. he smiles knowing how much control he has over you right now.

he starts off by kissing around the folds softly, just enough to drive you insane. youre getting wetter everytime he presses his lips on you. then he moves to your clit and swirls his tongue around it. you were already riled up from playing with yourself, so you know it wont take long for you. he switches from kitten licks to flicking his tongue to tracing figure eight. all of this combined with his lock on your eyes is enough to send you over the edge. “im cumming!” you nearly scream out. “go ahead.” he says. and with that, you came with your whole body shaking from him continuing to eat you out. “aah- stop baby!” you whine.

but your whines fell upon deaf ears. it was apparent he wasnt gonna stop until he was ready. so you pushed his head away and he wiped his mouth clean.

“satisfied?” he asked. you shook your head no. “let me return the favor and then ill be satisfied.” you said back. so he sat down as you got up. you pulled his boxers down, as thats all he was wearing. his boxers and a long sleeve shirt. you give his tip a kiss. just to get him back for teasing you in the beginning. he hisses slightly when you lick it. “baby please.” he whined out. you looked him in the eye and smiled as you took him down your throat. his head thrown back against the cushion on the couch. hyunjin grabbed your head and thrusted his hips up softly when he felt you about to tease him again. with every thrust, he was panting and letting out small moans. “oh god, its so good, i wanna cum down your throat. but i wanna fuck you so bad now.” he moaned softly.

as he felt himself about to cum, he quickly took himself out of your mouth. you sat back on your feet and looked at him gather himself. “come here princess.” hyunjin said as he patted his lap. you knew what he wanted. so you climbed on top and slid yourself down on him slowly.

the stretch making you both moan. you gave him and yourself a moment to get ready. and slowly rocked yourself on him. hyunjin knows you talk the most shit when youre on top. “see baby, you couldve had this hours ago, if you werent playing the game all day.” you said. he rolled his eyes at you and gripped your hips to make you go faster. the slow pace was good but you both know that the faster pace is better.

“so tight for me, yeah? you been waiting for this, like a needy pretty girl.” hyunjin moaned in your ear. the raspiness of his voice was driving you insane. all you could do was moan back in response. he stilled your hips so he could adjust himself and thrust up into you. you let out a throaty moan as he was hitting your g-spot well. “s’good.” was all you could say. your mind going numb as he continued to thrust into you.

hyunjin felt you clenching around him, signaling that you were close. “close already? does it feel that good?” he said. you couldnt answer him, so you let your cries and whines do the talking. “go ahead love, cum for me.” he whispered in your ear. he leaned you back a little so he could rub your clit. the overstimulation he was giving you made your mind go blank.

“fuck…” was all you said as you came around him. shaking and screaming a little as he pounded into you harder so he could cum. he was close and you could feel it in the way his hips were losing rhythm. “baby…please let me cum inside…cant hold it anymore…” hyunjin whined. you were too far gone to speak so you just nodded. he wasted no time in filling you up. “fuck..baby!” he moaned loudly.

he started to slow down as he was riding his high out. both of you taking the time to catch a breath before kissing each other softly.

“next time hyunjin, dont make me wait.” you said.

“next time ill leave your needy ass high and dry.” he replied in the same cockiness.

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#stray kids smut #hyunjin smut #hyunjin x female reader #hyunjin x you #skz smut

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duhnova · 1 year

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I seriously LOVE your thoughts on the members, the way they sound soo accurate- can you do one for seokmin as well? Take your time, no pressure🤍

hiiii i hope they continue to sound accurate! i hope you enjoy ^^

soft & fluffy:

-he's one of the members that's a big cuddler as well! he always has to have his arms around you, and he will deadass try to walk with you while hugging you from behind because he doesn't want to let go.

-KISSER!!! SO MANY KISSES OMGOSH, he'll make it so obvious too that he wants to kiss you by staring at your lips - like you'll be talking and his eyes will go between yours and your mouth because he just really wants to kiss you (and he'll kiss you in-between him talking like: "i *kiss* love *kiss* you *kiss*")

-pouty and grumpy baby, he doesn't mean to be but sometimes if you're paying more attention to someone else he'll dramatically huff and go find a corner to pout in and he'll try so hard to "ignore" you (which consists of him trying to look away from you but the second you break out the nicknames he's cracking)

-he's very theatrical and he will ALWAYS find a way to make you laugh, he lives by "one laugh a day keeps the doctor away" but in his case he laughs and makes you laugh a million times a day so he thinks he's kept the doctors away forever (your laugh is also just his favorite thing in the world and he is very vocal about it)

thotty:

-shower sex? look, he loves it because 1. he gets to show off his strength, and 2. it makes aftercare a lot quicker and easier he thinks (also watching the way the water runs down your body drives him insane - and vice versa, something about the water droplets tracing his abs makes you wanna drop to your knees)

-he is such a service top and bottom like, service switch?, he loves to give and he will give you anything and everything you ask for (the head this man will give you is mind blowing and he will make you cum so many times!!! and if you decide to ride him? he's helping you ride/bucking up into you because his only thought is to make you cum first)

-he goes obsoletely insane over seeing your throat bulge with his cock, any chance he's given he's asking to fuck your mouth/throat because they way your eyes roll and your throat swallows around him makes him want to cry from the sheer pleasure (and lowkey he'd grab your neck while he fucks your throat so he can feel himself and squeeze /gently/ to add more pressure and stimulation)

-back!!! shots!!! his hand is on the back of your head and keeping you down while his hips are keeping your hips pinned to the bed as he delivers deep and hard thrusts (and he loves to lean down and kiss and bite at your shoulders while he fucks you from behind)

#seokmin smut #dk smut #seventeen smut #seokmin fluff #dk fluff #seventeen fluff #— [🍒] nova answers

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luvlyycy · 29 days

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hii andi !

idk if your requests are open or not, but i was wondering if you can write anything for lee (from tekken , ofc) ?

idc if it’s sfw or nsfw, i’m just craving him so bad omgomgomg

omg...for you anna... anything for you.. in this lee is older than you and kinda sugar daddy-ish vibes,— its really just me rambling. (sfw at first but gradually becomes nsfw lol) nsfw under cut !!!!!!

Lee spoils you. He gives you anything you want, that necklace you want? It's already on your bed. Hell, a puppy dog? He's asking you whether you want a female doggy or a male, what breed you want, and what you want to name the dog so he can get custom-made water 'n food bowls.

He loves taking you on dates, always the romantic type. He reserves the whole restaurant so the both of you are alone, and he orders the whole menu— just so you can eat what you want without worries. If you don't wanna go out and stay in, guess what? He'll cook for you. It doesn't bother him that he has maids to cook for you, but he wants to do it for you— he wants it to be special for you, because he loves you.

Something even better is if you have anything that needs to be paid. He'll pay for it. All of it. He finds it cute that you want to be independent and pay for it yourself,,, but— he's going to inevitably pay for it all because, why would he let his princess work?

To elaborate, he doesn't let you do anything. Not because he doesn't think you can do it yourself but because you're his Princess. He goes to work while you stay snuggled up in bed. If you let him, he'll choose your clothes for the day, only choosing the most comfortable clothes you own. Lee also never lets you pay anything at all, in fact you suspect that he switched your card with one of his.

His princess treatment also translates into how he treats you during sex. He makes you dependent on him and makes sure that you're always the one receiving pleasure rather than him. He'll finger your pussy until you're trying to pull away— lick at your sticky clit until you're holding back your squirt.

You're just so adorable he can't help himself. Even when he fucks you it's about you, and always will be. Lee will rock his cock into you slowly, fingers expertly rubbing circles on your sensitive clit as he does so. He'll suck on your nipples, blow on them until they're hard and rubbing against his chest.

It drives him insane, the way you scrunch up your face in pleasure, or the way you grab onto his shoulders when you're on the brink of cumming. Fuck, it makes him dizzy. Especially when you cry out his name— it's almost as if an angel is calling him. Albeit, feeling as if the heavens are calling when he's fucking into your delicious cunt is a bit, sacrilegious, it still feels that way to him. He'll go out of his way to fuck you harder, the blunt tip of his cock hitting against your cervix— just so you can leave those red marks on his back.. the ones he shows off to everyone every chance he gets.

He can't put into words how much he loves you, your body, your smile, your laugh, your— and so on. If he could it would take decades just so he could pick and point out each and every little detail that he loves about you. Even if he is older than you by a few years, he doesn't mind— he doesn't care that you can possibly be seen as a gold digger, in his eyes you are already his wife, and he plans to make it official.

"Aahh, Princess, you feel amazing. G'nna make sure your cunt remembers me forever, yeah? I'll have to keep fucking her.. Fuuu—ck. I love you so much..So.. so much.."

#ahem #pushing my giver!lee chaolan agenda #《 asks. 》#《 answered 》#lee chaolan smut #lee chaolan #tekken smut #tekken 8 smut #tekken #tekken 8 #smut #tekken lee #tekken lee smut #lee smut #chaolan lee #chaolan lee smut #tekken 7 #tekken 7 smut

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crying-fantasies · 3 months

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Different versions: Blitzwing

G1/IDW mess

He was a very much organic hater before, now most bots would say he has a very insane fixation over you, who somehow ended up being his conjunx endurae, some still ask if he is treating you in any way because he is Blitzwing for crying out loud, no one wanted to frag him to begin with among his own species.

Yet again, what he could have is some kind of infatuation result of you two being in the constant threatening presence of Earth military, and being in a state terrible enough it ended with you taking pity on him, taking care of him, and it doesn't matter if you are human, mech or a thing, anyone could want to be cared for or being patched up when you get to rock bottom.

He only got Sabersky because he saw on human media (afternoon soap operas) that having a child makes the couple stay together forever and ever, out of it, he sometimes wants to kill his own energon and circuits with his bare servos to have you back to himself, but he reconsiders everytime he is really going to do it to appreciate how much the kiddo looks like you, the kid's only saving grace since he is weak as fuck.

TFAnimated

If he could sing this could have been a musical special of "I won't say I'm in love" between Icy and Hothead while Random proclaims poetic verses over the way you exude sweat and how much he wants to taste it with a lovesick expressions out of Yandere simulator itself that most of the time are intercepted as heated incomprehensible dead sentences, Random is sorry you look so scared of him while the other two are happy with the outcome.

They are not, not really, because you tend to go look for whoever can try to protect you, and it is also a low blow to this ego (egos?) since who could protect you better than him? Still, it's a long ride to even think he can say anything face to face, having in mind Icy hasn't uttered a word in front of you since he realized in what utter mess he got into by liking a human, Hothead shouts profanities more times than he really talks to you in order to have you as away of him possible (he gets nervous okay?) and don't even get started in how Random squeals like a toy everytime he sees you.

You only try to escape because he terrifies you.

Shattered Glass

As quiet as he gets to be he did meet you at some point and also did have an interesting relationship, it started more as a pair of friends, than then became something similar to an Amica, but destiny is cruel for making you be born and live in a planet such as earth that is only half on fire on the best days, even when he tries to think in other ways, it doesn't really matter, he tells himself so, as your life was bound to flicker like a taunt line from the very beginning.

He only follows Earth's grieving traditions and puts flowers on the collapsed building that once was part of the human resistance last stands, the place you contacted him for the last time before the Autobots bombarded the place to their very basement, he can still remember when the first explosion took place, your screams of fear and the first foundations collapsing before every connection is lost, some other mech would have erased such a painful memory from their memory banks in order to remain sane, but he really can't stop from hearing your: "Hope to see you soon, Blitzwing"; he misses you dearly, there are times when he wishes you could have been able to read his EMF to know how much he wanted to start courting you.

#reader insert #x reader #tf mtmte #transformers x reader #angst #transformers #transformers idw #transformers x human reader #transformers animated #tfa blitzwing #shattered glass #SG Blitzwing #idw transformers #idw Blitzwing

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tinytinyblogs · 6 months

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Tell me you love me

Look at him and see how he offers you his entire world, something you never asked for.

⚠yandere theme⚠

Ateez masterlist here

"You are the most amazing person I know, and my desire for you grows stronger every day."

Seonghwa attached himself to you like a magnet the moment he entered your life. To be honest, you don't really remember how you two got so close. Maybe it's because you never really thought about it, and you just let him slip into your life. His cheesy words are something you always hear, always. But there's something off about him, to be honest. Something behind his words that suggests he actually means them. Every word that comes out of his mouth is a true feeling from his heart, but you just haven't realized it yet. He knows he's deeply insane, and he blames it all on you. Because you've made him so obsessed with you.

You have a magical aura that Seonghwa feels drawn to like a moth to a flame. When he looks at you, he sees no one else. Spending time with you makes his heart swell with joy. Your laughter is a balm to his weary soul, and you bring color and light into his life. If you've made him so lovesick, doesn't that mean you have a responsibility to him? He doesn't need to ask for it, but he knows that he will make you his, no matter what. On a perfect day, with a bright sun shining and a gentle breeze blowing, Seonghwa's attention is focused solely on you. His precious mind is racing with thoughts of you, and how he can make you a part of his life. As he looks at you, his smile slowly spreads across his face, until it reaches its fullest bloom.

"Please, don't leave. You could only ever date me, Y/N. No one else could be right for you. If it's not me, you couldn't go with them."

Seonghwa could hear his precious heart breaking into a million pieces as you told him that someone had asked you out on a date and you had said yes. You didn't even think about him. You laughed when you heard him begging you not to go, thinking he was just joking around like he always did. But Seonghwa was dead serious. He had never felt so much pain in his life. He loved you more than anything in the world, and he couldn't bear the thought of you going on a date with someone else. He knew that if you went, he would lose you forever. But you didn't care about his feelings. You were too caught up in your own excitement about going on a date. You didn't even realize how much you were hurting him.

His eyes turn red, and you realize that he's beyond insane. He's locked you away from the world, saying it's for your own good, laughing maniacally like the villain in a story. Seonghwa finally has you to himself, and he's not going to let you go. He wanted you to come to him willingly, but you made it difficult, so he took matters into his own hands. He'll eliminate anyone who gets in his way. His mind begins to create his own happy story with you, the love story he's always wanted. He believes that you love him as much as he loves you, even if it's not quite as much yet. But he believes that you will eventually love him with your whole heart.

"Y/N, it's important to think carefully before you speak to your loved ones. Some things are better left unsaid."

Scream and cry all you want, "monster." Call him every name you can think of. He'll let you. He'll place his hand harshly on your cheek to remind you that you could get hurt if you keep acting like a brat. Crazy? Who do you think made him like that? You, obviously. Monster? Do you think he doesn't know that? He knows himself very well, but he's willing to be a monster if it means having you. And see? Now you're here with him. Say "let me go," and he'll untie your rope so you can move freely under his arm and hug him. He'd love that. But if you want to go home, know that this place is already a home for both of you, even if it seems like a prison or hell.

You say "I will never love you, never." But those are the wrong words. He lets you know that, with a little violence, so you'll never repeat them. It breaks his heart when you reject his love and treat it like nothing. You should know that no one will ever love you as much as he does. If you still don't believe it, he'll keep making it clear to you until you never say those words again. "You will, you will love me like I do to you." He leaves you all alone in that dark room, crying like a mess until you run out your tears. You are left with the word love, but it doesn't feel sweet like it's always written about in love stories or heartwarming romance movies. No, his love feels like pain. But that's what you deserve for letting him stay in your life.

"I don't get it. You say I'm important to you, but you still make me feel that I'm not worth your time"

He doesn't understand why you can't make this easy for him. Why do there have to be tears? He doesn't care about anything else but you. You're his world, and he can't let his world hate him. He needs to be patient, though. He's good at waiting, especially if it means that you'll love him in the end. He's not giving you any other choice. The prison he's put you in now will be your new home sweet home. You'll get used to it. he gives you your favorite food, whatever you love, and whatever you want. He knows you like the back of his hand. He knows every single thing about you. You wonder how he could know everything about you, but it's simple: he always has his eyes on you, always.

The sweetest thing he does for you makes you want to vomit and gives you a headache. You feel so disgusted by all the love he gives you, but he never stops showering you with all the love he can. You are forced to walk on broken glass, bloodied and in pain, for a man who promises to love you but never gives you any other choice. He only gives you the choice to behave or get hurt. For Seonghwa, even simple things bring happiness. You make him feel on top of the world, while you slowly forget what happiness is and become numb.

"Tell me you love me, over and over again y/n."

💬 Oops, I didn't realize I'd left this story unfinished in my drafts for so long. Should I write a similar story for another member?

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akazzzaa · 3 months

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Hello! Today I rewatched Titanic for the hundredth time, so I had an idea:

https://youtu.be/3CfB23kVtdQ?si=0Nb9KzYVZkgMtIyq

do you know this scene in Titanic? In any case, here it is, if you haven't seen this movie (I highly recommend it, crying every time Imao)

So, imagine that Rose is a character (inosuke) and Jack is the reader (their s/o) begins to die/or turn into a demon, they are both very hurt, the character understandably end up next to the reader at this moment in a hope to stop the process, but then both realize that nothing helps, and before going completely crazy/or die, the reader begins to calm down characters (just repeat lines from this scene lol) How would the characters react? I want some angsssss yeahh

P.S. If it's not difficult, briefly describe how the characters will behave after the death of their s/o(I prefer romantic)

So sorry for my English is so bad!!! I am not speaking it, hope you having a good day/night!!

Titanic is a great movie! Havnt watched it in years though: /.

This took me so long to write I'm so sorry, I hope I wrote this to your liking- I did switch the dialogue up a bit to fit the story more

Summary- Reader gets transformed into a demon and Inosuke is heavily injured.

Genre - Slight fluff but mostly Angst

Warnings- Reader being transformed to a demon. Reader death.

Inosuke's heart pounded in his chest as he watched you convulsing, the signs of demon transformation taking hold. Desperation clawed at his throat as he dropped to his knees beside you, clutching the fading warmth of your hand.

"No, no, (Y/N), stay with me!" Inosuke pleaded, his voice raw with pain, taking his mask off to see you better. He frantically searched for any way to halt the inevitable transformation, but the demonic blood surged through your veins like a torrent.

Tears stung Inosuke's eyes as he whispered, "I won't let you go, not like this."

But despite his desperate attempts, the transformation continued, and your agonized cries filled the air. Inosuke's chest tightened with despair, realizing that he was losing the person he loved to the demons.

In the final moments, as you teetered on the brink of insanity, your eyes met. The love and connection they shared echoed in that fleeting gaze. Your's voice, strained and ethereal, broke the silence.

"I-Inosuke... It's okay. I love you."

''Dont you do that. Dont you say your goodbyes! Not yet!''

''Im getting cold- I dont feel well''

''Listen (Y/N), we can fix this okay!? We can keep you safe like Gonpachiro and his sister! Yeah.. we can do that yeah?''

''I cant feel my body, I just feel... hungry''

''Yopu cant- you have to survive, you cant give up. No matter what happens''

You couldt say anything

''PROMISE ME. PROMISE ME NOW''

''I- I promise..''

Inosuke's heart shattered, his own screams joining yours in a song of grief and despair. He clutched onto you, unable to accept the inevitable. But the darkness claimed you. You couldn't live like this. He raised both his katanas into the air, striking down in one blow.

Inosuke was left with a heavy emptiness. The world seemed devoid of colour, and each breath felt like a struggle. He was haunted by the memory of your final moments.

The ache of loss echoed in every step, every breath. Inosuke, once fierce and untamed, became a mere shell of his former self. He couldn't bring himself to move on, forever tethered to the memory of your love.

In the quiet moments, Inosuke would visit the place where they shared their most cherished memories, whispering words to the wind as if you could hear. The ache never truly left him, a constant companion in the void left by your absence.

And so, Inosuke wandered through life, a lone warrior with a heart forever scarred by the tragic love that once burned bright.

#kny #kny x reader #inoske #inosuke hashibira #inosuke x reader #demon slayer #demon slayer inosuke #tanjiro #nezuko #inosuke hashiriba #kny inosuke

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royalsunshinehotel · 1 year

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Hello! I loved your tyler sfw alphabet, so if it'd be possible could you do the nsfw alphabet for him too? No pressure though!

A/N: TYLER IS AGED UP TYLER IS AGED UP THIS IS AFTER HE'S BEEN AN ADULT FOR A LITTLE WHILE, AS HUNTER DOOHAN IS 29. Also, petition to get his husband a cameo on Wednesday season 2, I think they deserve it.

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A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

I feel like Tyler gets a bit possessive. He'll wipe you down, calm you down, and make sure the two of you have a cuddly nest to recover in.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

The Hyde and Tyler are both big fans of your neck. He loves to bite it and mark it, for the sake of possession. Tyler likes it because people know you're taken, and the Hyde likes it because biting is fun yummy yum. He likes his chest because it's like the perfect size for you to rest on too.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

I bet the Hyde has a breeding kink, and Tyler leans the fuck in. If he's an endangered species, that's definitely a part of the conversation while he's fucking you, and regardless of if you have a uterus or not, you will be bred within an inch of your sanity. Get a safe word. Goddamn.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

This is tough, I feel like the Hyde is his dirty secret initially, but when you make friends with the Hyde, there's not much else to know. He's a cat purring in your lap, because he loves you and only you. Forever.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

I feel like medium. You're definitely the first person Tyler's been with since his Hyde was activated. He had a few partners before, when he was human 100%, but you're the first one he wants to make it work with.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Tyler's a big fan of missionary, no shock here, he likes watching your eyes roll back when he takes you, and he likes being able to see you react to all of the dirty things he tells you.

The Hyde definitely wants you on all fours. It gives him room to grab, squeeze, and handle you any way he wants. Sometimes you jiggle, and the Hyde goes insane.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

More serious usually. He'll get goofy once in a blue moon, but it's not often.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

The Hyde kinda looks like Golem from LOTR to me, so I'm gonna go ahead and say the carpet is sparse. Tyler's got nice hair though, he will get hella bedhead and it will get stick-upy and that's fun.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Very much. Whether things are more calm, or whether he's trying to work off some tension, it always feels like it's just the two of you.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Tyler can and has worn you out before, so Jacking off is totally regular and comfortable. It gives you a break and keeps him calm.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Tyler is fun. You can slap, choke, pull on his hair, and he'll be just fine. He absolutely loves to get you overstimulated and strung-out on his dick, and he can be a bit mean and condescending when it's just the two of you.

As for the Hyde, predator/prey is always a go-to, followed by restraints and blindfolds, biting, and a crying kink. The crying goes hand and hand with the over stimulation and the mean/degrading remarks.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Crypts, his room, your room, the woods, and his car. His car is his favorite, you like the woods because no matter how far you run from the Hyde, Tyler somehow always makes sure there are blankets/pillows available for when he catches you.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

The Hyde kind of runs this department. The wind could blow the right direction and he'll pull you away from whatever your doing. It could be anything, we don't know enough about Hydes just yet.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Sharing, Voyeurism, he'd never actually slap you or choke you. Tyler is a good egg, and I think he'd draw a line there.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

I feel like if you ask nice, Tyler will let you go down on him in a leisurely fashion. It's a practice in control, and it always makes him happy to see you down on him just :) hanging out. On the flipside though, I feel like the Hyde wants your wrists tied, sitting on Tyler's face, cumming until you cry.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

I feel like faster/rough because this initially starts as a workout for him, something to help curb the blood lust. However, Tyler is totally capable of doing slow and sensual, it's usually harder to come by.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

It kind of escalates quickly? If he wants to sink his teeth into you, he can make it quick, but you'll be spent for the day. You will definitely have to bail on whatever you were doing before.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

I don't think Tyler would experiment much. It already takes a lot of focus to keep the Hyde under control, he wouldn't want to do anything too extra (besides the aforementioned kinks)

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Physically, I don't think the Hyde has a limit. If your a normie or an outcast, you qualify as a human and he's able to go until your broken in half. The communication between the two of you has to be excellent.

T- TOYS

Tyler and The Hyde don't really have strong opinions on toys. I feel like if you have any in your collection before you start seeing him, he wouldn't say no to incorporating them into your routine, but his one condition is, he always has to be inside of you in some capacity when the toys are in use.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Tyler/The Hyde definitely likes to make his relationship with you known, but you have to be an actual nightmare to get him to tease you. Tease? Only for disciplinary purposes.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Tyler would give a lot of grunts and growls. He's not paying attention to himself enough to think about what he's doing, so this leaves a lot of opportunity for swearing and dirty talking. He'll be out of his mind spitting absolute filth, and the volume doesn't even matter.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

I feel like Tyler is big on skin-to-skin contact. Like any time the two of you are alone for a prolonged period of time, sex or no sex, your going to be pressed against him as much as physically possible. Cockwarming? That's optional.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

I feel like the Soft White Boy effect still applies here. We've got Tyler, a 5'10 white male, who takes the girls he likes on dates in crypts, and looks like he'd fly out of the window if you drove in a convertible on the interstate. He's too unassuming to have just an average dick.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

High. Substantially so. I feel like the Hyde's urge to maim and kill can be curbed by an active sex life with you. For him, it's an alright workout that curbs the blood lust, but there are times where you have to tell him to handle it himself, as you're exhausted.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

I feel like constantly keeping his alter ego down, under control, can be a bit more tiring than he lets on. So when he's with you, guards are down, he's comfortable, I feel like he knocks out quickly. Like once he knows your taken care of, he'll be out until the next morning.

#Kill me #put me out of my misery #tyler galpin #tyler galpin smut #hunter doohan #:)#wednesday netflix #he is still my sweet cheese #my son #my goodtime boy #this is my baby boy your honor #not edited #written in one sitting

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bwabys-scenarios · 5 months

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(Hey thanks you answering my question)

I understand what you mean and you don’t have to write for everybody in the show but I think if you don’t feel comfortable or like a certain character you should say something or put it in your bio because not to long ago it only say that you write for hunter x hunter and maybe people will stop ask I think people thinking that you write for all the characters because you never say at first that you didn’t write for them.

Another thing I noticed is when someone is trying to say sorry to you and saying what they did wrong and asking for forgiveness and even saying you don’t have to forgive them you straight up didn’t forgive them and then started talking how they were fat which I think is wrong and I looked over some of your other responses to people and you were just plain rude and I think you’re not really understanding that maybe they were just trying to apologize.

And yes I do understand getting really bad text messages or just messages from people telling you to die or other horrible things you should just close request and you’re messages all together and just write what you wanna write because no one is telling you to keep them open and like you say your already thinking about it so just do it and please don’t leave I really love your work

See its messages like these that just blow my mind, like you must be an actual child or just plain stupid.

If you have a problem with me responding rudely to someone that SENT ME DEATH THREATS then idk cry about it? Like fuck I’m not a saint. Imagine being death threats over fanfiction, you’d probably be pissed off too.

Also, the person who “apologized” sent a message an HOUR before saying they wish I died when I was sick. The message was IN THE POST I MADE. Maybe instead of victim blaming, find something better to do with your time.

Also, I didn’t call them fat maliciously. Fat isn’t a bad word, and I was POINTING OUT HYPOCRISY. They called me fat maliciously, and honestly if they can’t take the heat they should stop sending me awful shit. If they don’t like me pointing out that they are ALSO fat(IM FAT), then maybe they shouldn’t use fat as an insult and send me death threats?? Idk if you just can’t properly read, because holy shit I was not insulting them, I was just saying we WERE BOTH FAT so that their insults also applied to them. Idk if I can explain this any clearer, if you can’t understand find someone in your life to explain.

I don’t forgive them because they aren’t sorry. They sent me more awful messages an HOUR before they sent the apology. Like I’m sorry but if you’re still sending me death threats an hour before you apologize I’m not gonna think you’re very sorry. They aren’t and never will be forgiven. If they are truly sorry they will LEAVE ME ALONE.

You’re right, I could just close my inbox forever, and fuck I’m thinking about it because of stupid people like you. You’re trying to paint me as some big asshole when I responded “meanly” TO SOMEONE THAT SENT ME DEATH THREATS. Are you insane?? Ofc I’m not going to be nice to someone like that. Wtf is wrong with you, seriously. You have no sympathy, and honestly now I’m assuming you’re just the same person that sent me death threats. I’m gonna block you, so 🙏

In conclusion, fuck anyone that even remotely defends the person that sent me death threats. Weird as hell!! I’m not responding to messages like this anymore.?

#anon answered #fatphobia tw

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ashysmultifandomcatdump · 5 months

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Why Fist Thingy is (or is in cahoots with) Walkie Talkie theory (and also my Actual Thoughts about Walkie Talkie)

here to tell you guys mytheory on why FIST THINGY IS THE SECRET INANIMATE INSANITY INVITATIONAL VILLAIN!!!!!! read it. (contains spoilers for iii17!!!)

(just wanna preface this with the fact this is mostly a joke!!! i thought of this while rewatching the whole show back in october and decided the new episode would be a time to post about it. did it for the funnies and the slightest chance there may be some merit to it)

Ok first item on the agenda this is gonna get wild so strap in tight or else it may blow your seatbelts off: iii has introduced the concept of fist thingy being sentient, doing things a non-sentient object would not do

this is something that the show has NEVER hinted at before, making it seem almost as if they’ve added this in specifically for a reason..an EVIL reason?!?! suspicious!!!

second! we have fist thingy Sending Contestants To Indefinite Island. we know it has to be intentional on fist thingy’s part, since it’s done consistently, HOWEVER. it is completely without mephone’s knowledge—until iii10, he had no idea about indefinite island at all and he did not give fist thingy the direction to send eliminated contestant characters there. which means that someone ELSE has to have done it—whoever is behind walkie talkie .. or fist thingy itself, perhaps ?! mysterious!!!

next up here at spot number three we have the springy connection. now that it has been confirmed that springy and walkie talkie Are Indeed working together, there is something Verrrrrry interesting i was thinking…what sort of object is fist thingy? a boxing glove. now, what do springy’s mitten-covered hands look like when curled into a fist (!!!), and particularly in this image at the end of the ep? THAT’S RIGHT, BOXING GLOVES!!! curious!!!

but ashy! i hear you cry out. this is all so farfetched! what reason would fist thingy have to be walkie talkie in the first place? well imagine this little ones. fist thingy is just like mephone. overly attached to the show. been here since the early days and wants it to go on forever. however it was mostly left behind in s2, save for a few scarce appearances—so it’s desperate for any chances to stay in use in s3 it finally finds a voice through the use of a walkie talkie (don’t. Don’t question how.) and tries to keep it going as much as it can because once it’s over—what use is it going to be anymore? also hey if you wanna add in the “something bad happens to every cohost” thing then fist thingy has a reason to hate the floor specifically—it’s shown frustration over not being able to send him away

or, Alternatively, it’s the other way around. what i mean is fist thingy still isn’t sentient but was hijacked and is being controlled by walkie talkie—still is walkie talkie, but not technically actually walkie talkie or just in cahoots with walkie talkie! either way it has to be one of them, because fist thingy wouldn’t just be sending contestants to indefinite island for no reason BUT YEAH!!! end of my awesome theory unless i remember some other point hope you enjoyed …

honestly it could end up being something Similar to this but with one major detail different. that’s what happened last time when i predicted bot in april 2021 but thought they were meeple made

if you want my Actual Thoughts behind walkie talkie. who it is, i don’t know exactly. but she’s definitely a kinda metaphor or stand-in for like, The Corporation, the way capitalism affects art, you know—the whole ai art metaphor as well as the whole deal with springy

she’s someone who wants to Profit from the show, i think. which is why she’s so desperate to keep it going like mephone is—not that she holds any sentimental value towards it, but because it’s popular, she wants to make it her cash cow and milk it dry and mephone is a person who would let it happen

she Could be from meeple, i suppose, but i don’t really think so? we’ll see. although she doesn’t appear to have any relations with it cobs Did enjoy profiting off of the show without mephone’s knowledge, aside from that though there doesn’t appear to be much reason to see them as the same this is just a Different corporation. a different capitalism, i guess! while cobs would orchestrate fights and such to make the show more exciting and adam begged for bow to stay because viewers liked her, walkie talkie doesn’t seem to really care about entertainment value. she doesn’t care about the art. she prefers quantity over quality and to get that quantity, to get The Money, she has to keep the show running for as long as she can, way past what’s natural. 2 different kinds of corporate meddling

the show has sponsorships. MAYBE THE LIFERING SPONSORS MEANT SOMETHING AFTER ALL!!! springy wants to sell a contestant as a mascot to endlessly profit off of them

etc etc this has gotten very long …im excited to see the finale!!! what is walkie talkie’s DEAL!!

#inanimate insanity #inanimate insanity invitational #ii #iii #theory #ii fist thingy #ii walkie talkie

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the-fiction-witch · 5 months

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The Bride In Black P79- 83

Media IRl X Vampires

Character Thomas Brodie Sangster

Couple Thomas X Reader

Rating Sweet AF

I sat in bed book in hand trying my best not to giggle at the absurdity of it all. Thomas was on the bed with me his arms wrapped around me tight enough to almost cut off my circulation pressing kisses all over me as he muttered sweet things.

"Thomas, what on earth is the matter?" I asked pushing him back a little revealing he was almost teary-eyed

"I have to leave, I have to go and spend the night in the little cottage without my darling" he pouts

"so? You've spent the night away from me before?"

"I know but, this is our last night before our beautiful wedding," he says

"we're getting married tomorrow that's why you can't be here with me"

"But I wanna spend our last night unmarried together"

"Well, you can't that's the rule. you agreed to this months ago"

"but I wanna be with you to snuggle and kiss, talk about the life we are going to have together"

"We have plenty of time for that tomorrow night, It's one night Thomas you'll be fine without me"

"I know... I'll just be cold out in the cottage without my little bed warmer to cuddle up to?"

"Then throw a log on the fire"

"But I'll miss you so badly, I won't have anyone to cuddle"

"I'll miss you too Thomas, but it's one night I'm sure you'll be okay for one night just cuddle your pillow. in the morning we will meet in the garden and have our wonderful wedding"

"Ummm then you and I will be married, we will be one and I get to be with my beautiful y/n forever" he cooes laying his head in my lap "I can't wait till tomorrow"

"Neither can I Thomas" I smiled stroking his hair

"I love you so much, I can't help but cry imagining you in a wedding dress" He smiled

"You do?"

"I can't imagine how beautiful you're going to look."

"I'm positive you are going to look insanely handsome"

"You think I will?"

"Of course, you will"

"I know our wedding will be beautiful. and it's only a few hours away" he cooes sitting up "I can't wait for you to be my wife. for you to become one of us. So I can be yours" he smiled stroking my cheeks and rubbing his nose on my own

"Awww that's so sweet Thomas" I smiled

"I'm gonna cry"

"When?"

"When I see you in your beautiful dress"

"How do you know?"

"I just know" he smiled "After your process and the party? did you want to come back for cuddles?"

"Of course, I would have thought you'd be eager for something else? on our wedding night"

"well after that"

"Yes we will have cuddles, and chats" I giggled

"we can chat all about the life we're going to live together" He smiled

"Like what?"

"Well, what sort of thing we'll do on our wedding night"

"well that's a surprise, Thomas"

"oooohhh? is it now?"

"Very much a secret"

"Fine" he pouts "What about our honeymoon?"

"Well just lots of snuggly time in our lovely house"

"Perfect"

"Did you wanna wear your wedding dress for our painting?"

"I think so that sounds lovely"

"but we will have to be careful, I might not be able to see you in your dress ever after our wedding it might remind me and make me cry"

"awww that's sweet Thomas" I cooed

"How long do you think it'll be till we start to try for a baby?" He cooes "After our wedding?"

"I don't know, how long would you like to wait?"

"as long as you like darling. it's up to you"

"Well, a little while. But not too long" I giggled

"Oh? Boy or girl? first?"

"Little boy"

"a baby boy first?"

"Yeah, a little blonde boy"

"Awwww that's so sweet I will do my best to supply the required materials"

"I'm sure you will"

"You wouldn't want a little girl?"

"Not first. boys first girls later"

"I'd like a little girl?"

"Yeah?"

"Ummmm a little girly to spoil. A sweet little girl. who looks like her mother" he cooed blowing me a little kiss

"That's sweet Thomas. Go on take your things and get set up in the cottage for tonight, and I'll see you in the morning"

"Alright," he sighed getting out of bed and getting his bag over his shoulder "I'll miss you so much"

"I'll miss you too Thomas, but I'll see you tomorrow morning"

"I know, I love you so much I'll see you tomorrow"

I giggled "I love you too, see you in the morning" I smiled giving him a sweet kiss

"I'll see you at the alter"

"I'll see you at the alter" I smiled letting our hands be dragged apart as he left the room heading out the house to spend the night in the cottage with jack ready for our wedding tomorrow afternoon.

It sounds strange but I really missed Thomas. I found the bed was far too big without him, I did feel rather cold without him her to cuddle with and his pillow was not a good substitute even if it smelt of him the proportions were all wrong, and it didn't have the cosy like corners I can rub my nose in like Thomas does. But it's only for one night, at first light tomorrow I'll be up with a hundred jobs to do ready for the wedding tomorrow. I just tried to get some sleep relying on all the jobs in mind hoping it would drum me to sleep but it didn't. It just made me worry about everything running my necklace pendant up and down its chain as I laid on Thomas's pillow. Not even like I had him here to cuddle to calm me down. I smiled, tucking the covers around me, unable to stop imagining our sweet wedding would be in the morning.

I jumped a little as I heard a strange sound like ... moving around beyond the door to the suite.

I tried not to let it bother me just pulling the covers closer trying to get some rest.

I heard it again and for a moment sat up in bed curious if I was imagining the creaks and cracks of the wooden floorboards. But I was almost positive. It couldn't be my imagination.

I heard the door click open and panic rushed through me.

It then occurred to me the obvious answer was likely just Thomas having snuck back into the room unable to sleep without me and honestly if it was I wouldn't mind him staying for a cuddle till morning.

But his mother in an old red dress appeared at the foot of the bed with a candle in hand.

"Natalie?"

"Follow me" she says handing me a dark red cloak I nodded and slipped it on not wanting to ask questions as she put one of her own on. She headed out the room so I grabbed a candle, put on my slippers and followed her through the house. She didn't say a word to me but I knew better than to ask. She lead me down to the library and I noticed her looking for a book so I spoke up

"What's going on?"

"All will be clear. Soon enough" she says "come on their waiting for us"

"Thomas?" I asked

"Thomas can't know of what happens tonight" she says as she pushed open the conservatory door

I didn't press further, following her out the conservatory and out into the garden the dark sky looming low without a moon to light us. The sounds of owls and other such nightly creatures all that I could hear beyond my own fearful breathing. I held my necklace tightly absentmindedly moving the pendant back and forth as she led me deeper and deeper into the gardens.

I stopped so giggly seeing our wedding space set up for the morning with the sweet wooden arch at the altar covered in roses the chairs already laid out but she continued on so I followed her still. She led me behind the house to a space on the grounds that I had never been to, it was a little grey building with an old greenhouse style roof a black gate surrounding it. She pushed open the gate and began to walk inside where the door was open and light was flooding out.

I followed her nervously inside, seeing a dusty dirt floor within, ivy growing up the walls, cobwebs lingering about the place.

I noticed immediately beside the door was a stone surrounded by red roses. I continued on noticing I wasn't alone,

Natalie met here with others in the same long cloaks. All of which I recognized, ava, Martin and Oliver. All of them are family members. They all stood at the back of this building by a stone and a large deep hole.

I didn't want to go over fearful of what could be going on

"It's alright y/n. Come forward" ava reassured

Nervously I walked on past stones before reaching the end of this open hole.

And I was agasp.

My heart is racing.

My breath is sharp.

Tears running down my face.

This stone that they all stood around... held my name.

'y/n y/l/n'

A large grave dug before it, and inside the grave...

Was my own body.

It was like looking in a mirror.

My body laid in the dirt, my hair scattered about me in sweet curls, my skin pale but my face had lipstick and eyeshadow to give illustration of their being life still in me. In one of my little blue dresses with a black rose held to my chest.

"Wh-what is this? What's going on?" I cried, my panic overwhelming me causing me to drop to the floor hyperventilating as I saw my own body in my own grave.

"Oh for-" Natalie began

"Don't. Let me" Oliver interrupted "I understand what she's feeling better then anyone" he says coming kneel beside me "I'm sorry y/n. I know this is scary"

"What's going on? Oliver what is this?"

"This... is the family crypt."

"Crypt?"

"Where those of us who have left this world remain" Natalie explained

"Whats- what's that got to do with me?"

"y/n. Tomorrow you and Thomas will marry and in your process you'll become one, and be welcomed into this family just as I was. But this... this is a very important step"

"Why am I buried? Oliver. Why am I buried?"

"Because you have to be." He says "For Thomas to give you an immortal life. You have to give up you mortal life" he explained

"What?"

"When you become a Sangster you give up your name. Your mortality. Your life. When you become a Sangster you gain an immortal life and the skills and senses of a vampire. But to live forever you have to give up the mortal life you once had" he explained

"So... I have to die. In the eyes of the outside world. In order to have an immortal life here?"

"That's right. I mean if you didn't surely people would come looking for you, or ask questions about how you'd lived this long. Everyone in the family put a body in the ground with their name when they joined the family. I did too." He explained

"This is the allegiance and the secret you swear to this family and it's secret" Natalie explained "to become a Sangster"

"And if someday you do lose your immortal life you will be laid to rest here in the family crypt" ava explained "as one of us."

"It's just a word on a stone, a body in the ground. To swear you are a part of this family and to let the life you had go."

"...okay. what do I have to do?"

"You have to be the first to bury the body" Natalie says

I nodded taking the shovel from Martin unable to stop staring at my body

"Are you... sure y/n?" ava asks

"I am." I nodded "I have to admit... I don't think I liked the life I lived. I'm more then willing to bury it for an immortal life with Thomas" I smiled I took a bit of the dirt from the pile and admittedly froze up watching the tiny bits fall down onto my body but I turned it over letting it fall, I did two more before Martin took it from my hands

"Very good my lady" he says before continuing himself

ava gave me a tight hug and Natalie little more than an accepting nod.

But Oliver held me close and smiled at me "it'll be nice for us two. I know I've always got someone who understands"

"Yeah definitely."

"I'll see you tomorrow y/n. Enjoy your last night not being a Sangster" he chuckled before he headed inside too

I waited holding my candle watching as Martin finished burying the body unable to stop staring at the stone

"This is one of those curses of immortality you mentioned?"

"It is. To live forever you have to die" he says tapping the pile of dirt "it's just best not to think about it" he says "you best get to bed my lady, you wouldn't want to be tried for your wedding" he says as he too left and headed inside.

I dragged my eyes away looking at the other stones, seeing one for Oliver, one for Mark Thomas and ava's father. Even one together for henry and Marceline Thomas and ava's grandparents. It was strange but I understood it had to be this way. I headed out and walked through the gardens to get back to the suite.

I woke up to the bright sweet sound of the alarm bringing me into the world after last night. I pushed myself up and stretched myself a little seeing it was still dark outside. I made the bed as I got out of it and set myself some music on and ran myself a hot steamy bath. With bubbles, bath salts, muscle soak, and a nice shimmer bath bomb all of it with a sweet rose scent. Making sure to turn my rollers on and get my vanity set up as it ran, Once the bath had been run I turned it off and threw my nightie into the laundry basket climbing into the nice hot water letting it relax my every muscle. I grabbed my wash cloth and scrubbed every last inch of me within an inch of my life once the water began to go cold and I was as clean as I could physically be. I climbed out wrapping a towel and my robe around me tightly heading to my vanity. I got my little tub and filled it with hot water and some nice Epsom salt, even a few rose petals sitting my feet inside. I got a sweet rose face mask sitting it against my skin at times rolling it against my skin with a little rock roller I had. I grabbed my curlers slowly moving the hot rollers into my hair making sure they wouldn't move in the process. I had already shaped and filed my nails yesterday so I grabbed my cuticle oil giving them a good slavour while I waited out my time on my face mask and my toes. Once my time was up I moved the tub away and pealed the mask off like a layer of lizard skin tossing it away immediately. By then my hands were ready so I did a base coat, then a nice muted blue I had picked out painting it down my natural nails, then once that was dry a sweet matte black gradient at its most at the tip of my nail. Of course wrapping the tip and adding a thick top coat in order to keep it nice without chipping given the busy day ahead. By the time it was nice and dry my rollers were almost cooled down so I sprayed a good heap of setting spray on my head in the hope to keep the curls tight. I very careful did my make up as it is not something I have much skill with but I did my best not using to much as to still see my natural skin as well as my freckles, I did a well blended eyeshadow black in my outer eye into a light almost white grey with some black and grey skimmer across it along with a small but sharp eyeliner with not much of a tail or flick. I contemplated fake lashes but they seemed a little much so I did a few coats of mascara making sure it is a good waterproof kind as I imagine I will be full of tears. I tested two or three lipsticks holding them to my face but often didn't think they looked right, before I found the sweet dark blood red matte lipstick that I knew would fit perfectly just dark enough to not look strange but just light enough for some sweet colour. I checked the time and knew it was now time to get dressed.

I went to my wardrobe picking out a sweet black pair of panties that were cute but comfortable airing more on the comfortable side given. I'm marrying a vampire, we will be mated for all our immortal life, and he's a virgin. Let's be honest, I don't need to impress anyone. I got myself the bra that matched the panties making sure not to have it too tight but adjusting the straps a little to make sure it looked nice slipping on a nice pair of tights having a mild fight with them as I did. I slipped on my little black shoes with barely more than two inches of wedge heel, a little strap around my ankle and then I turned my attention to my dress.

It immediately made me smile.

It had a tight corset style bodice with a sweetheart neckline, the bodice sculpted with intricate filigree in a dark silvery grey that was almost unnoticeable from the black of the dress but shimmered when it caught the light. Tulle ran across the sweetheart neckline hiding my bust and hanging off my shoulders with sweet silver flecks also almost unnoticeable, from the bodice down this long flowing tulle ball gown that stopped just at my ankles to allow me to see my feet this too had the slightly flecks of silver shimmer in the other wise black fabric I looked at myself in the mirror and even with my hair still in its curlers I had to fight my urge to cry.

No. We can't cry. Not yet. Haven't even seen thomas yet.

I moved around mostly swishing my skirt around before slowly going over to my vanity Again I pulled each curler out of my hair and gave it a gentle comb keeping the sweet curled waves I pinned up some of the hair near the front so it wouldn't affect my face pinning it up and setting one of the sweet juniper roses from the garden on top of the pins having to clip it there to make sure it kept still. I have myself a spray of all required sprays, hairspray, deodorant, setting spray and of course my perfume.

I put my necklace on letting it hand sweetly and I took my bouquet in my hands eight of the beautiful juniper roses, various small babies breath flowers, lavender and lilac all together in a sweet bouquet with red ribbon around it to tie them up it hanging down low. I held my breath holding my flowers closer as I turned for a moment unable to look at my reflection but I looked up and couldn't help my smiles.

"My goodness." A voice spoke up I looked and saw Natalie had just opened the door in her pale red dress her hand to her diamond necklace

"Hi" I blushed

"You look beautiful my dear." She smiled

"Thank you. Just wish my family could have seen it"

"In sure they are in tears looking at you now" she says "and are thrilled for you to be becoming a part of our family." She smiled "and I am, ecstatic that a wonderful girl like you will be a part of our family, I couldn't have asked for someone better for my thomas"

"You mean that?"

"I do. Truly" she nods "shall we?"

"Okay" I nodded "I'm ready"

I held my breath a little as Natalie led me down out of the house and into the garden we walked through the green grass beside the hedges and flowers. Side by side we stopped just around the corner from our set up wedding space and she smiled, tapping my hand and heading off without saying a word. I did my best not to blush or to cry as I waited the mere seconds felt for hours rushing by until I heard the sweet violin music begin. At first I found myself unable to move until I let out a clear sign holding my flowers tightly as I took my step. The first couple on the grass until I reached the little wooden red walk way down the center. At first I kept my eyes closed, slowly walking hearing slight gasps below the music. I couldn't wait anymore so I opened my eyes to see the most perfect sight that could be imagined.

The grey sky loomed over us, but bright enough to still be sweet. The hedges in a circle around everything taller than everyone at over six feet tall. The sweet green grass across the ground with the little wooden reed walk way in the center. Either side of the walkway where the small brown wooden chairs with black and red draped fabric across them where all our guests sat, them all looking at me surprised. Slightly behind me was the small quartet of violins to play our sweet music. At the end of the walkway close to the hedge was the large wooden arch covered in red roses, lavender flowers, lilac flowers, and ivy. And there he stood waiting staring at the hedge so I couldn't see much of him. Jack Jack stood beside him in all grey, his eyes wide. I saw him whisper something to Thomas but I wasn't sure what it was. I slowly made my way down spotting Oliver and Ava both smiling so widely, I saw his mother and their aunt Luna. His mother seemed happy already teary and Luna gave me a look of a smirk that made me blush a little. For a second I was nervous being so close to him I moved beside him and gave his shoulder a tap.

He had his eyes closed but nervously fiddled with his fingers as he turned on his heels to face me so I made sure I was facing him too. He wore well shined red leather shoes, blood red suit pants with a black belt, a black button down with the top button undone, a red waistcoat with black buttons, and a red and black slightly textured jacket that perfectly matched his whole outfit, his hair perfectly sat and sculpted. He let out a breath and opened his eyes immediately tearing up and sniffling unable to hide his wide smile

"Hi Thomas" I smiled

"... Hi." He smiled now crying

"Don't you'll make me cry" I whined playfully

"I'm sorry - I'm sorry, I thought I'd last longer than that. Look at you. Your more beautiful than I ever could have imagined" he smiled fighting his tears

"You look insanely handsome"

"I did my best. I don't think I even compare to you my darling, my sweet little Y/n" he smiled "Shall we begin?"

"Um hum" I nodded

He offered his hand so I happily took it,

Jack got the book from the side. I believe it was a copy of Sherlock or something that he had simply passed our wedding script in but it looked the part "we welcome everyone here today in this place of sweetness, to join together two who wish to share an eternity. To join together mortality and immortality to be one. To share one heart, one soul and one infinite life together. From this day on they will walk through hand in hand without the cold wither of time passing. To swear to one another everything without secret, without silence, without fear or concern." He explained "anyone in this place who has reason, concern, or a voice not yet heard who believes this joining to be false the floor is open now and it never will again" he said and there was nothing not a word was spoken "very well. You should know your words'' he looks to me so I nodded

"I Y/n Y/l/N swear that I will stand by your side until time runs out. I will protect you from any and all that may wish to harm you, I promise to give you the freedom to make your path but give advice when this may be bleak, I promise to hold our secret close and protected, and to stay with you until the sun itself burns out. I give you my heart. Utterly and completely. For I love you Thomas and I promise I always will" I smiled looking to jack

"Right, sorry?" He says handing over the sweet ring gold inside and a matte black on the outside I took it and gently squeezed my and before slipping it on his finger

"Awwww Y/n" he said having to dry his tears

"I, Thomas sangster swear, that I will stand with you until the end of time. I will protect you from all those who may harm you. I promise to give you freedom but I will always be by your side to advise you. I will stay with you in your arms until the end of all things. I give you my heart, my soul and all of my external life and love, for Y/n you are the woman I was meant to be with and now I stand with you I know truly I was made for you and no matter what happens I will love you beyond measure of time" he smiled taking the same ring from Jack giving my hand a kiss before slipping the ring on my finger to sit with my engagement ring

"That's beautiful Thomas"

"Will you take this man, in all his flaws and faults, to be with heart as soul for eternity?"

"I do" I blushed holding back my tears

"Will you take this woman in all her flaws and faults to be with heart and soul for all eternity?"

"I do" Thomas nods squeezing my hand

"Then so it shall be, now and forever. Husband and wife. Mr and Mrs sangster" he smiled

We both couldn't stop smiling as everyone began to applaud and cheer but everyone jumped as immediately there was a violent cracking across the sky, the whole garden shaking and illuminating for a split second as thunder and lightning snapped and the moment they did a drop. Then two. Then three. Then four. And before anyone could move the rain was battering the garden knocking the flowers and grass everyone in panic quickly rushing for cover from the intense rain.

And even though I was in my wedding dress I didn't care and neither did Thomas. He pulled me close into a sweet kiss feeling the heat and the rush of emotions making me cry tears flooding down my cheeks along with the rain unable to hold back my emotions that it was finally true we were married. He was even crying too, pulling me tighter and tighter to him.

Till we each pulled back letting the rain wash over us completely

"I have never been more in love with you then I am in this very moment" I smiled

"I didn't think it was possible for me to love you anymore. I have proven myself wrong today" he smiled "you look so beautiful, my beautiful wife"

"It is finally true" I smiled holding his hand "come on or we'll catch a cold" I told him he nodded and we walked down the little pathway hand in hand.

We walked hand in hand, across the rainy paths of the house all the way to the small stone chapel we had been to before. We waited as everyone filed in and found their seats unable to stop our kisses and cuddles; he would barely let me go for a second.

"I don't know what to say to you, I'm just so happy. So happy it's true. We're married. You're my wife." He smiled tears slowly falling

"Ohh thomas" I giggled wiping his tears away and giving him a little kiss "It's alright you don't have to say anything, I know how long you've waited for this"

"It was worth it. Every moment of it. To wait for you, My perfect y/n" he smiled stroking my cheek "I love you so much"

"I love you too" I smiled

"Are you ready?"

"I am" I nodded

"Okay," he nodded and held my hand softly giving my hand a sweet kiss before we headed inside but this time we went to the altar and fear washed over me like an ocean wave seeing the slab of stone. The same slug-like man stood there waiting for us "You have joined this family by law, now you must join it by blood. Do you swear to this family, its secret forever more?"

"I do" I nodded

"Do you join us... willingly?"

"I do"

He offered the slab so I let out a breath and laid down fixing my dress a little so I was comfortable. Thomas stood beside me and gently held my hand.

The priest loomed over me with the knife in hand and thomas turned white admittedly I gulped as I saw it.

"No" thomas snapped "I'll do it" He says taking the knife in hand looking down at me nervously "I'm sorry y/n"

"It's okay" I nodded doing my best not to look, he took my hands and ran the blade across my skin opening up my skin I did my best not to scream to show my pain to much but it hurt so much

"It doesn't hurt too bad doesn't darling?"

"It's fine thomas" I lied trying to make him feel a little better even if tears started uncontrollably running down my cheeks, they took my blood and began to pass it around all the while my vision got fuzzier, slowly getting darker my body feeling so weak and cold. My vision completely fading.

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Yandere aespa reaction to you wanting to break up

Karina

"You can't just leave-" Karina would be too panicked to add a real justification to her words, besides, her facial expression was all she needed- or so she thought.

"Yes. Yes I can-" you sigh, snatching back the shirt from Karina's hands as you plunge it deep into your suitcase, somewhere into the unknown of other fabrics crafted into affordable clothes. "-And I will"

"No- you can't do this to us-" Karina sobed out, "-who would protect you?" Her go to response.

"I can learn, it's time I stop relying on others to help me through the tough parts of life" you say, zipping up the suitcase with a small smile "I'm starting fresh, without any help this time"

Karina watched as you grabbed the few loaded bags and suitcases before leaving the door.. and all she could do is stand, stand as she helplessly watched the love of her life slip right through her fingers.

Giselle

"No" Giselle says breathlessly with a slack jaw- too grounded to say anymore than she already has. "No"

"No, what? No to the end of us? Me moving out or us never seeing eachother again because right now, I'm not in the mood for this- for this little facade you put on to intimate me. I'm grown for God's sake Giselle, I want my own life without being bounded to the house all the flipping time"

She only looks at you, blinks once- twice even before opening her ajar mouth "No-"

"No, what?" You cry, too baffled and frustrated to respond in any other way.

"You are not leaving. You are staying here. With me. Forever…" by now her entire aura had changed and the atmosphere had grown immensely heavier as the air around you seemed denser and harder to withhold against. "Understand…?"

Winter

"Excuse me?" Her eyes seemed to echo the silence of death as her brain flipped a switch, the switch. It was like looking at a one way road to a severe punishment- maybe even death if you're lucky to escape the pain she's about to bring down on your ass.

"You what?" She cocks a twisted grin your way, eyes twitching as she steps closer to you, hands clenched tighter than clams "say it again darling- say it-" she's taunting you almost, pulling on your nerves as your jaw was evidently clenching now. "Say.. it- Now god damn it Y/n, say it!" She now yelled, grabbing your shoulders and pushing you up against the closest wall possible.

She hummed at your whimpering sight, a mental picture being taken so she could remember your perfectly intact face, as if she'd even ruin that anyway. She has many ideas planned up, each one excitingly better than the last.

It was up to you- you could've just responded…

Ningning

"W-what?" She blinked, staring at you with rounded eyes and her teeth chattering lightly- she was about to cry. "You what?"

The pang in your heart was painful to say the least but she's just too- too… she's just too protective, she gives you no real chance of independence and it's beginning to drive quickly insane.

By now, however, her hands were shaking too, a low blow to her heart has caused such a fuss over a few months' relationship. How?

"Y/n- n-n-no! You can't leave me- I'll do better... I just... I just" She's stumped, too worried and panicked to say anything more than a few words that express her sorrow. "Y/n-" she says your name almost needingly, like she needs you- like you're her life support.

"Tough-" your tone was harsher than intended, enabling a new emotional state to arise in your newly former lover- anger. Despite Ningning being all happy-go-lucky around you, this was new so it was safe to say it scared you… alot.

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SONG CHALLENGE

Share at least 5 10 songs that you associate with or remind you of your muse ! Repost , don’t reblog !

ARTHUR RIMBAUD !

1. FLOWERS FOR MOM — WE SKEEM

Wake up , 6 in the morning , Dad just left , Mama’s still snoring , go out in the garden despite the forewarning , pick yellow flowers to show I’m adoring . Mama says she loves them , puts them in the bag , I guess that’s a stern difference from when she’ll call her son a fag . Don’t mean to be a drag , I’d like to plant a different flag , but this tapestry you left for me is putting joy on dirty rags . Gather flowers for Mom , try to write a nice song , let the memories sway , here is where we began , let the memory stand & plant the dismay . Get the flowers for Mom go ahead play song with a cliché trope , so the story begins it won’t cover the sins that remove my hope .

The earliest memories that I think that I have , are of my mother screaming at me as I cry for my dad . See I never put this thing into a journal with ink , it’s just a memory that has always crept up when I think . Dad was beatin’ on Mama ; Mom protected my brothers , but when it came to me , my only shielding was the covers . A victim of my circumstance reminded her of Dad , I never really had a chance , to her my soul itself was bad . I don’t mean to complain , but once upon a loser , I started as a kid to who his family was an intruder . When labelled as an outcast by people who were strangers , I saw it as the usual & never sensed the danger . The truth flows in my veins , I’ll always be a loser , I thought myself insane to compensate for my abusers , & when the truth felt sour , I picked my mother flowers , I liked the quiet of alone & that way for hours .

2. MONOPHOBIA — ACE OF HEARTS

If you had to choose between being unhappy or alone would you know which to choose ? If you woke up the next morning & you didn’t have a past , did it mean that your wish came true ? Since I had to ask you if your words are still true , don’t you think I should just know ? Lapses in your breathing while my head is ringing , heard this voice & it asked me : “ Have you ever wanted to feel anything at all ? ”

I guess we ran out of time & then next is love . Counting on the clock , it’s true , feels like purgatory , ending of our story . I can still say “ I love you . ” I want to be happy & I’m sure you agree . Tell me why is it so hard ?

3. HOPE UR OKAY — OLIVIA RODRIGO

We don’t talk much , but I just gotta say , I miss you & I hope that you’re okay . Address the letters to the holes in my butterfly wings . Nothing’s forever , nothing’s as good as it seems ; & when the clouds won’t iron out , & the monsters creep into your house , & every door is hard to close . Well I hope you know how proud I am you were created , with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred . But , God , I hope you’re happier today . ‘Cause I love you & I hope that you’re okay .

4. HIT ME — WE SKEEM

Turns out everybody hates me , only ten & I reel in hazing , I would say this stuff don’t faze me , but I ain’t crazy ! Well , not yet , maybe ? Set the stage for a brand new drama , skinny boy with a vengeful momma , all the stuff they say at church , it kinda hurt , but my mom spews worse ! So go out & get scorned , then go home & get more , my true self looks deformed , I try my best but I can’t conform ! But here's a trick to deal with little pricks — a blow to the face only hurts a bit of you predict the hit , bitch I’m inviting it !

I ain’t making friends , I know how this ends , dealer gave me tens so HIT ME HIT ME HIT ME ! You say that I’ll break , boy this money’s fake , I’d rather give so take & hit me hit me hit me hit me ! Come on , come all to the main attraction , the little man made for your satisfaction ! Hit me once & feel the action , tear me down to patch your lacking . I'm not real , I pretend to be , nobody knows him , not even me . At ten years old trade identity for self-deprecating energy !

5. WHEN THE SUN LOVES THE MOON — REINAEIRY

When the sun loves the moon , even the ocean feels her pull . Oh , & the stars align every night , to spell out their love in tiny bright lights . Oh , when the sun loves the moon , never touching but never far . Oh , at the break of day , a summer’s ray . A moonlit night that casts away …

Their love remains , their love remains . Oh , oh , oh . Oh , oh , when the sun loves the moon … Her golden light , her silver hues . A beautiful song , oh , how they long , for dawn …

6. EVERYTHING’S ALRIGHT — LAURA SHIGIHARA

Short steps , deep breath , everything is alright . Chin up , I can’t … step into the spotlight . He said ‘ I’m sad ’ somehow without any words . I just stood there , searching for an answer . Why do my words always lose their meaning ? What I feel , what I say , there’s such a rift between them . He said , ‘ I can’t really seem to read you . ’ I just stood there , never know what I should do .

When this world is no more , the moon is all we’ll see . I’ll ask you to fly away with me . Until the stars all fall down , they empty from the sky . But I don’t mind , if you’re with me , then everything’s alright .

7. EVERY TIME THE RAIN COMES DOWN — ANNA BLUE

You’re fighting a demon , your heart keeps on bleeding , you’re feeling so close to the edge . Don’t jump . You’re losing your temper , you want to surrender , I’m talking you down from the ledge . Come take my hand . You won’t go lonely into this fight , or you just hold me , we will survive .

All your tears are in vain , & it drives you insane . 'Cause nobody cares if you cry , but I'll be there . Deep inside , there's a riot . I feel that you're tired . You don't wanna live a lie , I'm there for you . Every time the rain comes down , when the rain comes down . I’m the one who’ll be around , the one who’ll be around . I’ll become a part of you & share your pain .

8. ARTIFICIAL — WE SKEEM

Thinking back , everything felt right . No phone to check , just mask & morning light . Everything is looking wonderful & simplistic . Perhaps it’s just a memory but it seems so realistic . Throw on a CDR I mixed for when I’m driving far , ‘ Hello , Goodbye ’ & P.O.D. the tonal shifts don’t bother me . I’m a confused & sappy teen , an Emo kid or is it Scene ? I guess I’m somewhere in between . Depression & anxiety . There’s no time , no rust is showing . Feeling scared but never showing , so embarrassed just by knowing , we were kids we were kids before overflowing . Looking outward , it’s artificial , remember all the things that made us feel potential . Focus inward , it’s superficial , we’re never going to sleep , no , we took this dismissal .

But I’m still stuck inside this ever - rotting body , excuse me while I drown myself on my ever gaudy hobbies . Throw on some music I finished just an hour ago , play it on repeat ‘til the tape breaks in my stereo . I barely hear it now while fighting thoughts so cynical of all those pesky memories of trying to drown in swimming pools . Sometimes memories will tell you all was light or dark blue , neither one is true when your life’s always been the same way . You lie to get through your day , no matter how your mood sways . You’ll pretend you’re okay , every up or down phase , but the joy you’re longing for is lost in pockets of your mental age .

9. A SHOT IN THE DARK — WITHIN TEMPTATION

I've been left out alone like a damn criminal , I've been praying for help cause I can't take it all . I'm not done , it’s not over . Now I'm fighting this war since the day of the fall , & I'm desperately holding on to it all . But I'm lost . I'm so damn lost . Oh I wish it was over , & I wish you were here . Still I'm hoping that somehow …

Cause your soul is on fire . A shot in the dark . What did they aim for when they missed your heart ? I breathe underwater , it's all in my hands . What can I do ? Don't let it fall apart . A shot in the dark .

10. SMOKE SIGNALS — CAVETOWN

I know I’m a freak , ripped the Band - Aid , broke the peace , took the lock but lost the key . Guess I set you free . I hope you’ve found a place to sleep , I know you’re bound to think of me . You can come home to me when you’re ready , I left the gate unlocked for you . ‘Til then I’m sending out smoke signals , hoping I’ll see yours too .

When the dust has set , settled up & done our debts , nothing left to go collect . If you’re feeling spent , when it’s heavy on your chest , when you think there’s nothing left . You can come home to me when you’re ready , I left the gate unlocked for you . ‘Til then I’m sending out smoke signals , hoping I’ll see yours too . I miss you .

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