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Sweethearts
based on this artwork by Joseph Bowler
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Just Breathe
Tom Holland x Female!Osterfield!Bisexual!Reader
Summary:Â Childbirth waits for no one, not even the Oscars.
Warnings:Â fluuuuuff, pregnant reader, mentions of childbirth, good press articles, BISEXUAL READER WOOOHOOO
Word Count:Â 1.5k words
Estimated Reading Time:Â 6 minutes
A/N:Â heeeeey look @peterspideyyâ @parkersblissâ that crazy idea i ranted to you about like six months ago finally got done! i canât believe i did it... this feels too good to be true, is the world gonna end or something?
MasterlistÂ
"I don't think this is a good idea."
"Me neither."
"Please, just stay here."
You looked up to your brother and husband, frowning as you smoothed your hand over the soft black fabric of your gown.
"I am not missing the Oscars, Tom. I've still got two weeks until I'm due, it'll be fine."
You sat down on the bed and looked dejectedly at your shoes, then proceeded to throw puppy dog eyes your brother's way until Harrison had no choice but to kneel and help you put on your comfortable trainers. There's no way you're putting on your heels at 37 weeks of pregnancy.
"But what if Baby decides to come sooner? You could go into labour at any moment!"
You rolled your eyes and only raised your arms so they could help you out of bed.
"You guys are being over-dramatic. Nothing's gonna happen. We're just going to the Oscars, we'll have a good time, and hopefully, I'll leave with a little statue under my arm."
With that, you waddled out of your hotel room, ready to get into the limo.
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"(Y/n)! It's so good to see you! You look radiant as always!"
You smiled at Kaitlyn, an interviewer you knew and trusted and rubbed your belly comfortingly.Â
"Thank you, I feel like a whale, but Baby'll be here soon so it's worth it."
She smiled and asked you a bunch of questions about your movie and how you were feeling about being nominated for Best Actress.
"But anyway, how far along are you now?"
"I'm a little over 37 weeks, they should be coming soon. Tom and Haz were actually really apprehensive about me coming here since I'm so close to my due date."
She smiled and looked over at the two men, obviously on edge.
"Well, I wish you all the best and I sincerely hope you win."
You hugged her goodbye and posed for a few more pictures before being led inside by your husband.
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"And now, for the moment you've all been waiting for..."
Everyone watched with bated breath as Brie Larson, last year's winner, got ready to announce who would take home the trophy.
"This year's winner, and taking home the Oscar for best actress in a leading role..."
Tom took your hand and you squeezed it tight, ready to applaud one of the other amazing actresses on their win.
"(Y/n) Holland, for her brilliant performance in Two Sides of the Same Coin!"
You felt like your heart was gonna beat out of your chest, run to that stage, kiss Brie, then promptly burst to flames out of sheer, unadulterated enthusiasm. Tom was hugging you and whispering how much you deserved it while your brother gently guided you to the podium. None of them would ever allow you to go up there on your own. Always one in front of you in case you trip forward and one behind you to catch you if you fall back.
Overprotective much?
As soon as you reached Brie, you hugged her tight (or as tight as you could with a human baby house separating you), taking the award while the two boys hugged her too.
"Holy Louis Tomlinson in a crop top."
The audience laughed, most of them already familiar with your strange One Direction inspired expressions.
"Wow, I didn't actually think I was gonna win this, everyone had such amazing performances. I-It's an honour, really. Two Sides of the Same Coin was a project very near and dear to my heart, so I'd like to thank the amazing Drew Barrymore, who wrote and directed the movie."
The room erupted in cheers and the woman smiled at you from her place on the front row.
"Bisexual representation is something we don't get very often, and when we do, it's always misjudged. So thank you for showing the world what bisexuality really is, and for giving me a chance to live out my dreams of kissing lots of people. This idiot tied me down too soon."
You pointed behind you at Tom, hearing his appalled squeak along with Harrison's guffaw of a laugh.Â
In other news, the baby was starting to inconvenience you slightly. Baby had been going crazy since last night (not that you'd tell the boys) and the Braxton-Hicks were killing you, but it only got worse now.
"I'd also like to thank my amazing costars, Zendaya, Bella Thorne, and Owen Patrick Joyner, it was awesome to make out with you all..."
The crowd laughed while you felt something trickle down your legs.
Oh.
OH.
You'll never live this down, that's for sure.
"Uh, before I finish can one of you idiots call the car and get them to come to the exit please and thank you? Now as I was saying-"
"Wait, why?"
You turned to your brother and smiled innocently.
"Oh, my water just broke."
The crowd cheered.
Tom screamed.
Harrison fell to the floor, unconscious.
You sighed.
"New plan, can anyone try to wake my brother while my hus-"Â
You looked at Tom, frantically doing small back and forths between you and his best friend, unsure of what to do.Â
"-While someone else calls the car because both of them are apparently useless."
"We need to get you to the hospital!"
His terrified scream could be heard all through the room, even with no mic.
"What? No! I need to finish my acceptance speech, then go back to the hotel to shower and maybe take a little nap and then go to the hospital. My water just broke, Thomas, we have time, calm your tits."
You turned back fully to the mic, facing the hysteric faces of the crowd, very entertained by the exchange.
"Now as I was saying, I want to thank the amazing team that worked on this movie, you're all amazing and it was such a good experience. I'd also like to thank my family for always being there for me and supporting me and Haz in our acting careers. Thank you to my brother, even if he's unconscious right now, he'll just watch it on Youtube later, for literally forcing me to go to the audition. And lastly, I'd like to thank my wonderful husband, who hopefully hasn't passed out yet, for always supporting me and being my biggest rock through everything. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to deliver a baby, you know, just normal Saturday night stuff."
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An Oscar in hand and another... down her legs?
(Y/n) Holland sure gave the Oscars something to be entertained by on this last Saturday. The wife of fellow actor Tom Holland looked radiant in her custom-made Valentino dress, looking ready for a night of fun.
(Y/n) was nominated for this year's Best Actress in a Leading Role award, alongside Meryl Streep, Margot Robbie, Cate Blanchett, and Tessa Thompson, but the Oscar went to her from her brilliant performance in Two Sides of the Same Coin. But it was during her acceptance speech that things got... slippery.
At 37 weeks of pregnancy, the Holland baby was ready to come at any minute, but apparently, theatrics run in the family. The actress was in the middle of her speech when she felt her water break, pausing in her talking to request a car be called.
You'd think her husband, Tom, and brother Harrison Osterfield, overprotective as they are, would be fully prepared! Unfortunately for them, and fortunately for our entertainment, they were not. Harrison went unconscious after hearing the news, dropping to the floor and earning himself a minor concussion, much to his sister's amusement
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@ynholland:Â "Don't worry, when you go into labour, I'll be with you every step of the way." Said Harrison Osterfield, then proceeded to pass out, get a minor concussion, and miss the whole delivery.đ Good job, little brođ
And just when you thought she couldn't get any better, she finishes her acceptance speech with: "Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to deliver a baby, you know, just normal Saturday night stuff." We have no choice but to stan this iconic queen!
But for the news you've all been waiting for, Oscar Robert Holland (yes, the middle name is a homage to Robert Downey Jr. himself, we're not crying, you are!) was born just twelve hours later. Tom let know through a beautiful Instagram picture that he is in fact "perfectly healthy and loved by everyone already".
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@tomholland2013: I present to you, my best creation to this date: Oscar Robert Holland. Thank you all for your prayers and kind messages, our boy is perfectly healthy and loved by everyone alreadyâ¤ď¸
But of course, Uncle Haz wouldn't stay behind.
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@hazosterfield:Â Since I know you've all been worried sick and desperate to know how the baby is... I'm doing just fine, it's just a minor concussion :) Oh and my godson's great too.
And just to prove that the Osterfields are indeed the royal family of comedy, we leave with this wonderful picture posted to the happy mum's very own Instagram.
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@ynholland:Â Guess I was so good they gave two Oscars instead of one ;)
-Written by Kaitlyn Storm
so anyway, Two Sides of the Same Coin is a movie idea i got a while ago and should maybe try to write one of these days but oh well or something. anyway, iâm not gonna rant about it here cause itâd be too long but i hope you enjoyed this and donât forget to like/comment/reblog if you feel like it!
-Love, Miah
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happy new year !
( this post is a little late, but it doesn't change the fact that i mean everything here HAHA <3 )
HI EVERYONE !! so, 2022 has just started, and i wanted to start off my year by thanking everyone on this account who made my 2021 amazing, and how i hope you will all stay with me throughout this year as well :>
so, 2021 was wild, to say the least. it's kinda surreal that i started this blog way back in april, and i never expected it to ever get this much attention. i'm so glad that my works make you guys happy, or that you enjoy them, or that you even feel the tiniest bit better after reading them. back when i first started, i never even dreamed that people would like my writing this much, to the point where i have over two thousand followers. i'm lucky to have so much support from all of you, and i want to say thank you for making my 2021 better :)
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( individual letters will be on @quillwithlove ! )
to my mutuals ; i may not interact w all of you as much as i'd like to, but rest assured that i'll do my best to remedy that in 2022! all our conversations leave me smiling, and i swear all of you are so talented it's almost magic ?! i love talking to you all, you never fail to cheer me up :D let's talk more this year !
to my anons ; thank u all so much for having so much patience with me LOL! i love u guys, it makes me so !(&%(Ă*% /pos to think that you actually like talking to me enough to write such fun and cute asks in my inbox frequently even though i take like a million years to reply đ (looking at u especially đ / đ / meteor nonnies, ily guys MWAH) ill try to reply quicker this year too !!
to my followers ; i've said this before but i'll say it again! i am so endlessly grateful for all of you :] from when i wake up to see someone's left a message in my askbox, or spam-liked my fics, or reblogged with their thoughts on it â it makes me so, so happy. i'm so glad you guys enjoy my silly little writings that i post on the internet, and i hope you will continue to enjoy my work in 2022 :]
to everyone who read/reads cynosure ; i love this series w my whole heart, and the positive reception it receives literally makes me so glad i was brave enough to post it. thank you so much for all your adorable and hilarious comments/reblogs, they always make my day. i really hope you all continue reading it until i post the finale this year! :D
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as for where this blog will be going in 2022, i plan to make it a lot more self-indulgent. recently i've been feeling quite pressured to post fics, and i feel quite guilty when i don't manage to write as often as other writing blogs i follow (no hate at all!! i think u guys are super cool hehe). i don't want to start associating this negative feeling w writing, especially since it's supposed to be something that i enjoy doing, and hence this year i'll be writing more of what i want, rather than what i think everyone will enjoy :) /nm
also, 2022 is going to be a big year for me; i've got my finals throughout may & june, then graduation, and another big event related to a traditional dance style i do towards the end of the year. i might not be able to post fics as often, so i'll try to focus a lot more on my series this year! i might also be publishing sugar baby a lot earlier than expected bc i have a lot of inspo for it LOL. as well as that, i'm going to try and be more active on my multifandom blog @icystqr as well :) so yeah, lots of plans for 2022 hehe >:D
it's going to be an exciting year for sure, so let's all take care and have an awesome time! ily guys so much, thank you for everything, and i hope you have a wonderful year ahead :) <3
âĄ, quill !
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holy hell, gamers, i finally reached one whole thousand followers! how bonkers is that! when i first made this blog in december 2018, i was just trying to start over in a new fandom. ive been active on tumblr for a looong time (since i was like 11, which is. not great, but we wont get into that). i cant remember quite why i decided to remake, but i never imagined getting a higher following than i did before, but i did! 1000 followers is bonkers, iâve never had a thousand of anything! i seriously cant thank each and every one of you enough, whether you followed me for 911 or for mcyt or for whatever!
now, since ive reached this absolutely bonkers milestone, im feeling particularly sappy! so under the cut, i have some friends and mutuals tagged who are super great n who are always an absolute pleasure to see on my dash! <3 again, thank you all so much! (ps, if weâre mutuals and i didnt tag u in this, that doesnt mean i dont love and appreciate you!! i mostly am just picking people to tag based off how often i see them on my dash! i love all of u so much <3)
⥠911 FRIENDS âĄ
(aka the ogs, aka the fire fam)
⥠@lovelessmotel âĄ
emily!! god, where do i even begin with how much i love and adore you!! i know youre one of my big sisters, but wow i am so proud of how much youve discovered yourself since weâve met!! like wow, look at this epic, gorgeous person whos one of MY close friends! im so lucky to be friends with you! thank you so much for being my friend, i appreciate you and all the sisterly advice youâve given me more than i can ever put into words!
⥠@eddiediaz-buckley âĄ
sav!! mom!! i love u so unbelievably much!! i am so unbelievably grateful for you and everything youve done for me! all the advice youve given me and all the times youve let me vent to you have been so important to me and i cannot thank you enough for all that. im soso appreciative of you and im so glad that i have someone as amazing as you as my mom/big sister (weâll never really figure out our fams family dynamics, will we?) (ps, whenever i go outside and have my keys with me, its always so comforting to feel the keychain you got me! its like my moms with me everywhere i go!)
⥠@liesoverthec âĄ
bonbonbonbon!!! i love you so much, you wouldnt BELIEVE how much i love you!!! im so glad we met bc you are so unbelievably kind!! there is a very good reason a nickname for u is bonbon bc you are just as sweet as candy!! maybe even more so!! i love having you as one of my big sisters, you give such wonderful advice and talking to you always makes me feel a million times better!! i love you and i am soso glad i get to call you my friend!
⥠@marauder-girl âĄ
sabsabsab!! i love u so much, u funky lil future lawyer!! im so proud of u and i can hardly believe ur gonna be my Lawyer big sister!!! thats so awesome!! i cant believe such a rad person is one of MY friends!! how lucky am i!! i love having you as one of my big sisters, youre so kind and funny and talented and your advice has always been so helpful to me too! thank you so much for being my friend and for always being there for me!!
⥠@nighting-gale17 âĄ
cait, my love, my wifey!!! wowowow i love u so much!!! im so glad weâre friends, you are so unbelievably lovely!! youre also so unbelievably talented like??? hey queen wanna hand some of ur writing ability over to the unfortunate (like me). iâm so glad weâre friends, youre so sweet and even tho we dont talk as much as we used to, i still have SO much love for you in my heart
⥠@africaneuropean âĄ
rae, my father!! i love u so much!! i know we havent talked at all in. who knows how long. but i still have so much love for u in my heart!! you are so iconic and cool and funny, im so glad i met you n became friends with you!! ur one of the coolest people i know, i hope i can be as cool and mysterious and wonderful as you one day
⥠@evaneddie âĄ
DHYL!!! dhyl pickle i love u so much!!! whenever u pop into my inbox with random nice messages, every part of me lights up!!! u are so kind to me and for what!! i miss talking to u as much as we used to, you are so sweet and you are such a good friend!! i love u n im SO proud of how far youve come with gif making, i still remember when u first started n youve gotten SO amazing at gifs lately!! i love u soso much n im so glad weâre friends, youre so awesome!!!
⥠@basil-the-writer âĄ
des!!! i love u so much!!! i know weâve never rly talked all that much but im glad we have interacted in the ways that we have!! u are so sweet n so talented!! like the fact that u have the patience for those lil video edits u do?? that is so cool!! all ur edits are so cool, i cannot imagine being able to make stuff like that without dying every single time. u are so cool n i love being able to call u my friend!!
⥠GRIFF âĄ
(aka griff)
⥠@yawnralphio âĄ
u get ur own section bc u are my only 911 friend who isnt an og, but thats ok bc u are so swaggy!! i love being friends with u griff, u are so cool and funny and i am so glad that u still want to be friends with me despite all of the horrifying things uâve learned about mcyt from me jdhfajkdhfa. i love u so much n i am so excited to get to know u more n get closer to u!!
⥠FRUITBLR âĄ
(aka mcyt friends)
⥠@fear-epidemic âĄ
atlas u are so swaggy and funny!! tumblr funny man!! im so glad weâre mutuals, i love u a whole lot. that one time u me n wilby played bed wars together was so fun even if weâre really bad! n that one time we played on the fruitblr server while on vc was so fun, i loved talking to u n playing with u so much, we gotta do that again sometime. i love u so much chapin n im so glad weâre friends!!
⥠@netheritedream âĄ
hari my beloved... i love u so much. like literally so much that its really embarassing. i am so glad u tagged me in that one follow forever post n put the offer on the table to let me join the server. i love being ur dumb lil husband!!! jus like actual fundy, i would risk it all to watch treasure planet with u. i love u sososo much, i wish i could live closer to u so i could actually talk to u more often </333 im going through severe withdrawal, pray for me. im gonna stop talking for now bc if i kept going on, this post would be several miles along n nobody has time for that </3 just know that i love u so much and i love having matching icons n i love being ur husband, i love u so much
⥠@sootswilbur âĄ
tommy... i care you so much. little bromther!!! im sososo glad weâre friends bc u are so kind to me all the time n u are so easy to talk to!! ur also so talented, ur writing n ur gifs are so amazing n im so proud of all the awesome stuff u make!! seeing u experiment more with ur gif sets n trying new things is so awesome n inspiring and i love seeing ur experiments work out!! i love u soso much n im so happy to be ur big brother!! (or one of them at least)
⥠@fruitbur âĄ
virgil my Other beloved... i love u so much!! u are one of the kindest people ive ever met n im so glad i met u!! i know ive already told u this before but ur tagging system is so sweet n i love seeing u reblog my posts bc im like âyay alastair is gonna tell me that he loves me in the tags :Dâ i also lovelovelove ur theme, i love the soft pink and the lil aesthetic board that u have pinned, its so nice to look at!!! ily sososo much <333
⥠@theartofmining âĄ
hey fruit ily. like genuinely, u are so unbelievably funny that u make my ribs hurt so much. i know weâre like never rly that serious but i love u so much. as much as i joke about hating u, i really am glad weâre friends n i really look forward to becoming better friends with u. i love u a whole lot rain, i love seeing u on my dash bc ur full of good takes n funny posts
⥠@sapnaplive âĄ
dream.... bonks our foreheads together... i care u so much. my other half!!! i love u with my whole little heart. u are soso cool and im so lucky to be able to call u my friend!! ur themes are always so cool, i wish i could be half as cool as them!!! ur art is also so epic like??? u are a triple threat: good at art, tumblr themes, AND minecraft building. and ur also so kind!!! u are one of the sweetest people i know, i love u so much and im so glad im friends with u!!
⥠@dreams-little-kitten âĄ
corn u are so weird and i mean that in the kindest way possible. u are so cryptic n i love that so much about u. ur like the wilbur to my philza sometimes and i think thats so awesome. that one time u came into my inbox to talk shit about that one cuphead boss was so funny and absurd, i loved that so much. i love You so much. i love how ur just so effortlessly funny, n im so glad i can be friends with u
⥠@dreamsmp âĄÂ
JEL!!!! i love u so much holy cow. u are so sweet!! all the time!!! ur also so talented, ur gifs always look so good!!! i love being friends with u, ur always so nice to me n u always leave rly nice tags when u reblog my gif sets that make me so happy!!! i think about that one time u rbed my fundy gif set n said âFUNDY GIFSâ and âGIFS BY FUNDYâ it made me so happy!!! i love u a whole lot, im so glad weâre friends :)
⥠@leaguelol âĄ
damien!! i love u so much u funky little cryptid!! i love when u pop into the gc just to share cryptic thoughts, u are so strange but i think thats so cool of u!!! i honestly see u kinda like a lil sibling, im always so proud of u when i see ur art on my dash!! u are so talented at art!! i love u so much n i love being ur friend, ur rly sweet n i love seeing u on my dash and in the gc!!
⥠@its5undy âĄ
idk why im putting u on this, ur my mortal enemy. jkjk, i actually love u a lot clay! i love joking around with u, ur so funny and for what. im so glad u joined the gc bc i love talking to you so much!! i still love that one time u reblogged that fwt gif set n tagged me in it moments after I reblogged it. i love that u thought about me, that rly warms my heart! i love being friends with u sososo much
⥠@cavalreee âĄ
oh hey, another great big fruit!! i dont think we talk all that often, which is a shame, bc ur so sweet!! and also so fucking funny, why is everyone in this friend group so fucking funny, its not fair. i love seeing u on my dash talking with ur other friends, u always have the funniest convos ever. also? ur desktop theme is SO epic, it threw me off the first time i saw it but its so swaggy, just like u!! i love u soso much azzie, n i hope we can talk more in the future bc ur so cool
⥠@technosoot âĄ
i love u even tho ur a br*t /j /j /j. jannat u are so unbelievably sweet. im so glad u joined the gc bc u are such a kind presence both in there and on my dash! u radiate very Warm, Friend energy. ur friend shaped. i love u so much n i love being friends with u!! im very eager to become closer friends with u bc u seem like a really amazing friend to have
⥠@sortasortaspicy âĄ
les where are u in the gc i miss u </3 i love u so much, u fit in so well from the very beginning n brought so much more fun and laughter into the gc. i dont know u all that well n i dont think weâve talked one on one like. at all. but id love to get closer to u bc ur so rad and ur so sweet!!
⥠EPIC PEOPLE âĄ
(aka mutuals who are so cool n id love to be friends with u pls talk to me)
@eurytherm ⥠@vampkings ⥠@weelbur ⥠@wilburtheesoot ⥠@quackityskarl ⥠@wimblrscoot ⥠@technofarmer ⥠@wooteena ⥠@bloodforblood ⥠@smpsapnap ⥠@literallynotfound ⥠@hearty-an0n ⥠@enderanboo ⥠@springbonniecpu ⥠@pandascanpvp ⥠@tommylnnits ⥠@strawberrygogy ⥠@timedeo ⥠@nymika-arts ⥠@h-isforhome ⥠@eboykarl ⥠@joe-alkaysani ⥠@betwecouldmakesome ⥠@squirrelstone ⥠@maddieandchimney
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2020 was an interesting year for me. In a year when everyone was told to stay in, I somehow traveled further than I ever have before. In a year when everyone longed to be closer, I moved away. Everything felt overwhelming and more than a few times, Iâve doubted whether I had the energy and skill to continue blogging.Â
So for everyone who helped me keep going, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! To each and every person who engage with my posts. I am grateful. Each reblog and like is like a boost of confidence that what Iâm doing is worth a second look.Â
Iâve been here for 5 years now... Iâve had friends come and go... and Tumblr can feel very lonely. So I feel gratitude towards so many people who interacted with me here. Iâm writing a note to a few special tumblr people who helped me a lot in 2020.
@suqakoo: Dude⌠youâre probably my longest Tumblr friend at this point. lmao Iâm always proud of how resilient and strong you are. How you bounce back and persist in creating despite what happens. Thank you for everything.Â
@sugaforyou: Hey, dear! You are seriously one of the most consistent and hardworking people Iâve worked with. I feel guilty to you often, honestly. But you never held it against me. I am always a message away.Â
@jung-koook: Sky, your support means so much to me. I always looked up to you with your content, but other than that, you are genuinely nice and always ready to help. I hope you keep strong with what youâre doing. Know that Iâll always support you.
@jjoon: Amy, I miss you. During those times when shit was hectic before I left my hometown, our short convos helped me. Iâm sure you donât know but those messages meant a lot to me.Â
@taemaknae: Nicole!!! Rant buddy. I believe in your art, I hope you keep believing in it too. Thank you for opening up to me and for trusting me with your honest opinions and thoughts. Cheers! To more mahadera moments in 2021! lmao
@faraahrose: Hey Farah! I donât know if you still visit Tumblr often, but I hope you and your baby boy are healthy and well. Thank you for supporting me always and for messaging with short happy quips hehehe.Â
@dreamcatchersdaughter: BRUH! lmao I love your energy! You always drop anything worth fangirling over on my dms and I love it. lmao Feel free to keep doing that hahahaha And I will do my best to fuel that fire hahaha P.S.: Kookie is a baby Slyth.Â
@dayummmdorisss: Hey Doris! You are one of my sweetest friends here on Tumblr. Youâre always willing to listen and fight whatever shit I have troubling me. You are an awesome, hooman. lmao Simply beautiful and amazing.Â
@milo-gin:  Milo, no matter how long we donât talk⌠know that you will forever be precious to me. Always, always, I wish for nothing more than your happiness, growth, and safety. I hold you so dearly in my heart⌠and I know whenever we talk again⌠it will be for 5 hours minimum lmaoÂ
@frankiegoesaway: To my gorgeous Frankie. Thank you for always pushing me to go beyond what Iâm afraid of. I show I care by doing the same hahahaha I genuinely wish this whole pandemic ends soon cause I need to meet you. Also, happy birthday, my dear! Put your left hand on your right shoulder, and your right hand on your left shoulder. Squeeze tight.Â
@me-melancholy: Ohmygod, my lovely bat. Iâm so glad to have met you, both on Tumblr and here in Poland. Youâre like my Serotonin booster. You remind me of autumn leaves and sunlight. Thank you for being such a generous cheerleader. I literally donât know if I could have gotten to where I am now from where I was last year without you. Thank you for always boosting me up when I doubt myself. I will forever be grateful for everything.
@sienne-k: Surprise! Sienne... feels weird to call you that now... hahaha Youâre like my shot of Oxytocin. Thank you for getting close, even if Iâve gotten used to pushing people away. I didnât realize it could feel warm fast. Thank you for helping calm me down when I need it. Iâm glad I posted that thing at the right time and you saw it exactly when you did. One minute late and I wouldnât have met you.Â
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What if... 10c
First off, right away, I know some were looking forward to a Mandorin wedding and Grogu joining them, but truth be told, the What If story would have ended up on 500k too if that was to happen, because the boys are still so very young and I love exploring their lives and their first times for everything too much to do a big time jump... So my deep apologies to the ones who were waiting for that, but hope that some sweet teenage feels can soothe the disappointment a little. And, yeah, while we might not reach that point in this fic, of course these two got married and adopted the little bean, just a bit later on in life <3
Second, this is a monster so beware of a chaotic mess of plenty of POVs behind the cut. The main story was Dulcyâs but here she shares it with the others. Beware of feels and maybe a familiar face or two ;)
And, again, THANK YOU to the supporters of this fic. I appreciate every kudos, re-read every comment a worrying amount of times and cherish the reblogs like beskar! (You guys have some of the best tags ever xD )Â
And Sprungich, this chapter is for you! <3 With the lovely coffee you provided, feel free to send me a message if there is a particular one-shot you would like to see happen! <3
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What if Dulsissia hadnât died, what if she had grabbed Corin and fled? What if she met Davarax? What ifâŚ
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10a Part 10b
Epilogue Everyone:
They have six entire months of just blissful happiness and fawning over their new family member, then Zev disappears. Again.
Dulsissia hates when she does that, but Davarax knows there is little they can do about it, except let her know that sheâs always welcome home.
After nine days without a word, Zevâsonya reappears.
Standing right outside the entrance door, her face a mask of defiance as usual, Zev sticks her chin out. âCan my friend stay here too?â
Davarax shrugs. âAre they in trouble?â
âYeah.â Zev replies. âHis family is a bunch of mean jerks. He needs a safe place.â
Instantly filled with empathy, Dulsissia steps up next to Davarax. âOf course, baby.â
âAwesome.â Zev turns and gestures for her friend to step forward. âI said they were cool. Come on.â
Davarax instantly places his hand on his blaster while Dulsissia looks like she wants to scream but sheâs too shocked to make any sound.
âThis is Mose.â Zevâsonya declares with a grin.
A massive Hutt glares at them.
The silence stretches out until Zevâsonya reaches out and smacks the Hutt across the stomach. âSay hello, idiot.â
âHello.â Mose grouses. A big drop of drool slides from his mouth.
Struggling to regain her words and the ability to form a comprehensible sentence, Dulsissia looks from one to the other until she ends up back with the Hutt. âUhm, hello. N-nice to meet you?â
âHe stays outside.â Davarax growls, not having that thing anywhere near where his children sleeps.
Zevâsonya frowns, but the Hutt nods and doesnât seem surprised by the order.
A good thirty minutes later, Dulsissia is shoulder by shoulder with Davarax as they stand there and look out at where Corin and the others are cautiously approaching the Hutt, driven by youthful curiosity and bravery.
âThatâs a Hutt.â Dulsissia says.
âMhm.â Davarax confirms.
They continue to stare for a while, then she speaks again, a little worried this time. âWhat⌠what do Hutts eat?â
The size of their new arrival says whatever they eat, there will have to be a lot of it. Davarax is not thrilled at the idea of having to get even more credits to feed a Hutt. âWhatever doesnât run fast enough, I think.â Davarax mutters. âBetter keep an eye on that one, ner riduur.â
Dulsissia studies the Hutt. âHe doesnât seem⌠evil?â
âHeâs a Hutt. Iâve seen what they can do.â Davarax declares in a hard voice. âThey have their reputation for a reason.â He lets out a soft breath. âIf he hurts one of our kids, heâll find out that we Mandalorians have ours for a reason too. I will skin him alive.â
âIf he hurts any one of them, you will have to get in line.â Dulsissia says. âBut he hasnât harmed anyone yet.â
To Davaraxâ irritation, she then walks over to join in on the welcoming committee. She introduces herself, tries to put on her polite smile and only shudders a little at the drool dropping from the creatureâs mouth and soaking his belly. âSo, tell me, how did you meet our Zev?â
The Hutt gives her a blank stare. âShe robbed me. I tried to kill her and she offered me a job.â
Dulsissia blinks. âOh.â
Zevâsonya grins.
Davarax is not amused.
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The day passes, so does the next and soon a week, and the Hutt does not harm anyone or try to eat any of them. Mose mostly keeps to himself. He sleeps in the shed Davarax and Din had set up for the speeder bikes, eats less than what a Hutt normally would and doesnât really speak unless spoken to.
Davarax doesnât relax, but he wonât end the Huttâs life before he gives him a reason to as Zevâsonya really seems attached to him for some reason, almost to the point where he rivals her friendship with Din. So he watches and waits.
While he has trained and taught no small amount of children, Davarax have no real experience with babies. They are mystical beings to him, beautiful little wonders with endless potential, and his daughter is very much that. She amazes him when she starts to crawl around with curious determination to explore the world without any sign of fear. If something scares her, she watches it and frowns, but she will not back away and only cries when in pain.
There are moments when Davarax fears his heart will physically burst with pride.
So the horror he feels when he takes his eyes off his daughter for just a moment to reply to a message from Dulsissia, who is on a supply run with Corin and Din, and finds her gone; there are no words to describe it.
Sheâs not walking yet, but that little girl crawls at lightspeed when she sees something she wants to investigate and something must have caught her eye.
Davarax runs, panic snapping at his heels when he sees the doors are open to let some of the breeze into the too warm house, and his hand goes to his blaster as he sees his precious daughter having made it just outside the entrance door and is struggling to sit up in front of the massive Hutt standing there.
Nonono! Davarax canât breathe, the fear is too strong and his fingers fumble at the hilt of his blaster and canât quite get a grip. Heâs never failed to draw his weapon before.
The girl reaches up and makes a curious coo.
Mose eases himself down, watches her for half a second, amused by her grabbing hands, then slowly reaches out and holds out a finger to her, which she eagerly takes a hold of and starts exploring.
Davaraxâ panicked run morphs into a slow trot and then an awkward halt. He canât quite believe what heâs seeing.
Unaware of being watched, Moseâs mouth eases ever so slightly into a faint smile. His big eyes give a slow blink with a benign softness that doesnât belong in a terrifying and cruel Hutt facing the offspring of the enemy.
And then he notices Davarax.
Mose quickly pulls himself back up into his usual towering posture, but him yanking his hand away unsettles the little girl and she topples backwards.
Another fierce jab of fear cuts into Davarax, but before he can do anything; Mose curls his tail behind her and prevents her from falling. He doesnât take his eyes off Davarax while he does it, keeps staring, keeps holding himself upright and a big glob of drool soon leaks from the corner of his mouth.
Davarax frowns. Heâs starting to put some pieces of a puzzle he didnât want to see together. That posture is not the Huttâs arrogance, as Davarax had concluded earlier, this is a defensive pose. This is an intimidation tactic to fend off attacks, not seek them out. And the drooling? Now that he thinks about it, Davarax can only remember the Hutt drooling around him and Dulcy.
-Heâs scared. The realization comes sudden and hits hard.
And shortly after it, a question arises. How old is he? Mose is far from the tallest Hutt Davarax has ever seen and his body mass is skinny compared to them, it kind of says oversized teenager or young adult. The life expectancy for a Hutt would make them slow developers, no? He might be older than Davarax and Dulcy put together, but still a kid by Hutt standards, and Davarax never once considered it. A Hutt foundling? Thatâs one for the legends.
Walking over, Davarax bends down and picks up his daughter, noting how Mose cautiously withdraws his tail and curls it protectively around himself. More drool is slipping from his mouth.
Somehow Zevâsonya had seen this side of Mose, or sensed it somehow, and decided to bring him home instead of leaving him to be devoured by the other Hutts. His baby daughter had shown Mose nothing but curiosity and trust. Davarax decides to do the same. He looks over at Mose, who is barely breathing, and nods towards the house. âYou can come in.â
For a second there is confusion on Moseâs face and then he mumbles; âThe shed is fine.â
A thick dollop of drool hits the ground with a splat. Thatâs going to be annoying indoors.
âItâs not. You are a guest here.â Davarax heads inside again but pauses in the doorway. âCome on.â
Mose cautiously does as heâs told. He carefully squeezes in through the door and follows Davarax down the hallway. Eyes flickering nervously from doorway to doorway, drooling non-stop and twitching fingers reveal how uncomfortable he is, but Davarax feels a pinch of actual guilt when he stops by the room he wants to place the Hutt in and he turns around to see Mose no longer going for the towering intimidation pose but actually shrinks and somewhat cowers anxiously. Inside the house, the Hutt is at a disadvantage. His movements are restrained and Davarax is armed.
âIâm not going to hurt you.â Davarax reassures him, hoisting his warbling daughter a little. âI know I havenât been the friendliest and I apologize. I thought that you⌠Well, I thought wrong. And Iâm sorry.â He turns and pushes the button to open the door to the room used for storing furniture. âIâll get the others to help clear it out, but you can fit in here, right?â
âThe shed is fine.â Mose mumbles.
âYeah, youâll fit in here.â Davarax then realizes something. âBut we donât really have Hutt beds. Will have to make one.â
âThe floor is fine.â Mose mumbles.
âIâll ask Barthor to set up some calculations. Itâs going to have to be strong.â Davarax sighs. âOkay, so what else will we need. Maybe-â
âWhatâs going on here?â Zevâsonyaâs voice is sharp. She stalks forward and places herself between him and Mose.
Davarax nods towards the open room. âWe need to get the others and clean this out. For Mose.â
Zevâsonya blinks with surprise and then, for the very first time, she gives Davarax a genuine and bright smile. âReally?â
Momentarily stunned by the sweet, happy side of her, usually hidden behind frowns and scowls, Davarax has to clear his throat. âYeah. Really. We canât have guests sleeping out in the shed.â
âThe shed is fine.â Mose mumbles.
âIâll get the others.â Zevâsonya declares and runs off.
Davarax watches her, gives a faint shake of his head in amazement, then looks over at the awkward and heavily drooling Hutt. He sighs with a faint smile. One more troubled youngster. Why not.
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Barthor is heading back to his speeder bike after finally getting his hands on the last computer chip he needs for his little project. Heâs parked right outside of the small town and it shouldnât take more than fifteen minutes before heâs back home.
It shouldnât, but it does.
Because as he steps outside the town walls, something wraps itself around his ankles, tightens and he drops like a roped tauntaun.
Training kicks in. Barthor instantly reaches for his blaster and his blade, seconds before heâs rolled over on his back to face his captor.
Blinking surprised, Barthor forgets to draw his weapons.
âHello.â A voice says.
âUhâŚâ Barthor replies. âHello?â
âThey say you are very clever. Is that true?â
Barthor doesnât do modesty. âI suppose so.â He gives his restrained ankles a pointed look. âIs that why you roped me? To ask me if Iâm clever?â
âMaybe.â There is a flick of a wrist and the rope loosens so he can free himself. âYour friends seem more brawn than brain, which made me curious about you.â
Barthor gets up, a little tense. âTheyâre more clever than this entire town put together.â
âLoyal too?â A thoughtful hum. âYou really are interesting, Barthor.â
âWait. How do you know my name.â Barthor takes a step forward as they step away. âW-whatâs your name?â
âKaleo.â
âDo you have to go?â Barthor shrugs a little. âYou canât just rope some guy, ask him if heâs clever, insult his family and then walk away without an explanation, you know?â
A soft laugh. âI told you; I find you interesting.â
âThe feeling is mutualâŚâ Barthor mumbles. Then he twitches when they step away again. âCan I see you again?â
âSure.â
âWhen?â
âWhen you find out where I live.â
Puzzled, Barthor shakes his head. âWhy canât you just tell me?â
âBecause youâre the clever one.â Is the reply. âYouâll figure it out.â
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With the constant adding to their family, it comes as quite the shock when they lose one.
Davarax, Din and Paz are at a marked on the neighbouring planet when Din suddenly goes from half-asleep to full alert and shaking with eagerness.
Before Davarax can ask him what is going on, Din runs off.
Itâs not difficult to track him down and when he does, Davarax instantly realizes why Din had reacted the way he did. He remembers the clothing on the corpses that littered the streets where heâd found Din and the man talking to Din right now is wearing that very thing.
Itâs Dinâs tribe. Whatâs left of it, anyway.
Itâs a handful of people who have set up some stalls at the end of a marketplace. A couple of kids are running around in outfits similar to the one Din had worn when Davarax had brought him back to the Covert that first time.
Din is talking in a language he barely remembers, struggles a bit with the words and pronunciation, but the smile on his face is something Davarax can count on one hand heâs seen in the Covert. And when they go back home, there is a distance in his eyes that wasnât there before and a heavy sadness settles in the pit of Davaraxâ stomach.
Back home, Din instantly seeks out Corin to tell him about what had happened and for once he is the one eagerly talking while Davarax and Paz exchange quiet looks.
For the next week, Davarax spends no small amount of hours checking out the story of these people wearing clothes from Dinâs tribe. He stalks and spies and learns as much about every individual as possible. He has to know they are who they say they are. He has to know they are good people.
They are.
Meanwhile, Dulsissia hugs Corin a little closer and a little more often that week, unable to explain to him why because she has a weak hope that she, Paz and Davarax might be wrong.
Theyâre not.
Din wants to go back and talk to them again and once he does, he learns that they are about to leave for the next planet on their path. After losing their home, they lead a rather nomadic life, searching for others from their tribe and lost relics to reclaim. They ask if Din will join them.
âPlease donât goâŚâ Corin asks, tears in his eyes, holding on to Dinâs arm as if he would float away into space if he didnât.
âItâs just six months.â Din reassures him. âThen we are coming back here a-and we could-â
âWhat if weâre gone by then?â Corin blurts out, absolutely miserable.
âThen Iâll find you.â Din promises, reaching out and placing his hand behind Corinâs neck. âIâll find you, okay?â He leans in and rests his forehead to his. âStay safe. Look after the others. And weâll talk again in six months.â
Silent tears running down his face, Corin gives a faint nod.
Din walks over to Dulsissia and lets her hug him, kiss his hair, squeeze his face and kiss his forehead with a patience heâs never show before. He even holds on to her a little longer than usual. Paz is furious and refuses to utter a word. Raga mutters for Din to look after himself. Zevâsonya is nowhere to be found. Barthor gives him a brief hug and wishes him luck.
Davarax waits a small distance away from the others. When Din walks over to him, Davarax has to clear his throat to speak. âYou got everything you need?â
Din nods.
A heavy silence hangs between them for a moment before Davarax tells him in a quiet voice; âIf you change your mind, if something happens, if⌠if anything, you send me a message and Iâll come for you. Day, night, one day from now, one week or a month, it doesnât matter. You always have a place here, Din.â
Din nods and looks away, trying to hide the tears in his eyes.
Davarax hesitates before speaking again. âDin, IâŚâ Iâm sorry. Iâm so sorry I failed you.
Din looks back at him.
âBe careful out there.â Davarax says, hating himself for his cowardice. âAnd remember, if you need us, if you need me, Iâm here. Always.â
Din nods again, a couple of tears breaking free and he turns and stalks towards where his tribe is waiting for him.
Dulsissia absently pulls Corin close as he heaves for air between the tears.
Paz turns and stalks back on board the Razor Crest, Raga follows, then Barthor, Dulsissia and Corin. Davarax is the last to leave, his eyes on Din for as long as he can see him...
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Corinâs heart is broken. His best friend is gone. No, not just best friend⌠He and Din was⌠Whatever they were, it was special. It was not like anything heâs ever felt for or with anyone else.
A heavy sadness settles over their family for a long, long time. They all miss Din and it feels like they are missing a limb.
His parents find distraction in his sister. Paz and Raga find comfort in each other. Zevâsonya runs off and does whatever she does. Barthor keeps heading into town to be with this Kaleo person. Corin is the only one who canât stop thinking about how Din isnât there any more.
None of the girls and boys in town can take his mind off Din. Nothing can.
Which is probably why Davarax agrees to let Corin come along on a bounty hunting job. Usually he goes alone on these, but Corin asks and after a brief discussion with his mother, Davarax agrees.
âYou do as I tell you. Understand? This is a hunt and they will do whatever it takes to escape. Including shooting us.â Davarax warns Corin as they enter the city to find their bounty.
âI understand.â Maybe getting shot at might cure the numb feeling inside?
It does. Once the first blaster shot flies by him, Corin yelps and flails and forgets all about being sad. He has to focus on surviving instead.
Davarax goes after their prey like a Corellian hound. Corin has gotten so used to seeing his mild and calm side that heâd almost forgotten how dangerous and brutal his dad can be if he wants to.
They chase after their bounty into an abandoned building so worn down it is barely standing.
âStay here.â Davarax orders and uses his jetpack to fly up the middle of the winding stairs.
Corin stays, but when he leans forward against the railing to look up to see if Davarax had caught his prize; the railing just gives in and Corin falls.
Luckily he doesnât drop more than a floor before he slams into the ground, but itâs enough to knock the air out of him and scramble his brain for a bit. (If not for his helmet, his brain would probably have been scattered all across the floorâŚ)
When his blurry sight clears up, Corin realizes that what he thought were white pillars are moving and he rolls over on his back with a startled sound to see the storm troopers walking towards him. He fumbles for his blaster, but a kick to his hand sends the weapon sliding across the floor and then a storm trooper is pointing their blaster right at his t-visor.
Corin closes his eyes and prepares to die.
âWait.â One of the troopers says. âWait. Stop. Wait.â
Corin opens one eye and sees one trooper grabbing the arm of the one aiming at him.
âLook. Thatâs a kid.â The trooper preventing the other from shooting says. âYou canât shoot a kid, man.â
âHeâs right.â A third trooper says, appearing next to them. âWe donât shoot kids, remember?â
âBut this one has seen us.â The one with the blaster growls.
âThe kid is not going to say anything.â The one who had prevented him from shooting says, then turns to Corin. âRight? Youâre not going to say anything? You never saw us, kid. Right?â
Corin nods. Sure. Whatever. Heâll agree to anything as long as they donât shoot him.
âPut the weapon down, Pat.â The third one says and takes off his helmet. Itâs a man in his early twenties with dark hair and tired eyes. âListen, kid, Iâm sorry. We thought you were someone else. You run along.â
Growling, the one called Pat reluctantly holsters his blaster. âYou better be right, Dee. If this kid gets us killed, I will never forgive you.â
The one who had stopped him from shooting reaches out a hand towards Corin. âCome on, kid. Upsy daisy.â
Dazed, not sure what the right thing to do is, Corin slowly reaches out and lets him pull him up on his feet. âT-thank youâŚâ
âDonât worry about it, kid. But you better get out of here.â The man says.
Dee puts his helmet back on. âDrop is right. Go.â
Corin takes one step, but then something heavy lands behind him.
âThere you are, little Mando.â Itâs the twiâlek man Davarax had been hired to hunt down.
Pat reaches out, grabs Corinâs shoulder and yanks him towards him and the others. âStay down, kid!â
A mess of blaster fire follows. Corin is boxed in by white armor as the three take up a defensive stance around him and he canât see what happens, just hears the battle. Itâs over within a minute.
When the storm troopers step away, Corin sees the twiâlek lying there, dead, with a blaster in his hand that heâd meant to use on Corin.
âSomeone will have heard that.â Dee says. âWe have to get out of here. If the others find us, itâs all over.â
âDo you think weâll get a trial?â Drop asks with a touch of hysterical humour.
âNo. Theyâll execute us in this shitty place.â Is Patâs deadpan reply.
Dee turns back to Corin. âGo. Hurry. You donât want to be here either if the imperial army decides to check out this place. And be careful.â
Corin opens his mouth to thank them when another heavy shape lands behind the storm troopers. An arm goes around Deeâs throat and heâs yanked back against unforgiving armor while Davarax lifts his blaster to fire at Pat. Drop instantly draws his own blaster.
âNo!â Corin runs to stand between them, his helmet nearly touching the muzzle of Davaraxâ blaster. âDonât shoot them!â
Davarax hesitates, ignoring Deeâs wheezing attempts to pull his arm away from his throat. âCorin, what is going on here?â
-
After the explaining is done, Davarax reluctantly lets go of Dee, who stumbles forward into the protective grasp of his friends and coughs there for a moment while Davarax yanks Corin over to his side just in case.
âWhat are three storm troopers doing down here?â Davarax asks, suspicious.
âI think they are desertersâŚâ Corin replies, looking at the three. âAm I right?â
âHand the kid a medal.â Drop says with a wry smile in his voice. âCorrect on the first try.â
Corin looks up at Davarax. âThey canât stay here. We have to help them, dad. Please?â
Davarax sighs.
And that is how he not only returns home with credits for a successful hunt and a revitalized Corin, but also with three ex-storm troopers in the cargo hold of the Razor Crest.
Dulsissia brings their daughter to greet them when the ship lands, only to freeze at the sight of what follows her husband and son off the ship.
âItâs okay, mom.â Corin reassures her. âTheyâre good guys. They saved my life.â
Dulsissia swallows down her fear and forces herself to put on a smile. As much as she hates that armor, she cannot hate men who has saved her son. âThen I am in your debt, sirs.â
While Davarax walks over and holds out his arms as the little girl eagerly reaches out for him, the storm troopers line up next to the ship and remove their helmets.
âYour son saved our lives in return, so I figure we are even, mâam.â Dee says.
Pat nods. The tallest of the three and with a semi-permanent scowl on his face.
Drop is staring at Dulsissia. âThat is true. And something else that is true is the fact that you have to be the most beautiful woman Iâve ever seen, my lady. You donât happen to need a new father to your charming son here?â
Davarax looks up from the toddler in his arms and his t-visor locks on Drop. âI think I changed my mind. Iâm going to shoot you after all.â
Dropâs eyebrows flies up. âOooh. You two areâŚ? Oh. Ah. My bad.â
Flattered, Dulsissia smiles at Davarax. âI like these guys.â
Davarax grunts. âYeah, Iâm definitely shooting them.â
He doesnât. Instead, the three are allowed to spend the night in the house and Davarax and Corin will head into town tomorrow to get them other clothes so they wonât be shot on sight. But the evening is spent with Davarax and Dee talking for hours over some strong smelling drink, speaking quietly and solemnly.
 Corin tries to eavesdrop, but he keeps getting distracted by Drop constantly trying to cheat to win the second round of the boardgame he had challenged just about everyone to join in on.
Paz, Raga and Barthor had all been a little bit taken back when three storm troopers walked into the house, but then Paz shrugged and decided to just go with it as it wasnât the weirdest thing heâd experienced since leaving the Covert. Raga and Barthor couldnât ague against that.
Zevâsonya and Mose have no opinion as they have disappeared again. Corin wonders what Din would think. He hates storm troopers. Din would probably never allow a storm trooper to stay with him.
The next day, in town, looking for clothing that will fit the men, Corin is not prepared to make another friend in such a short time.
âHi.â A voice says as Corin tries to decide between two different leather jackets for Dee and it startles him into jumping around to face the culprit.
The owner of the voice is a brightly smiling blond boy around Corinâs own age. He is broad shouldered and clearly no stranger to staying in shape, but his incredibly cheerful attitude drowns out almost everything else about him. âYou need help with that? Go with the left one. Way cooler.â
Corin blinks. âO-kay⌠Thank you?â
âNo problem.â The boy steps closer. âIâm Leo. Whatâs your name?â
âCorinâŚâ Corin decides Leo is right. The left one âisâ way cooler. He hangs back the other. âI havenât seen you around here before?â
âIâve just arrived with my family.â Leo happily shares. âMy mom brought my dad to this place. Heâs sick. Thereâs a doctor here that they say can help him.â
âOhâŚâ Corin shudders at the idea of either of his parents getting sick and it must be horrible not to have any friends in a new place during such a time. âSo, uh, Iâm looking to buy my, uh, uncles some clothes. All three of them. For their birthday. Today.â
Leo frowns a little. âTheyâre all born on the same day?â
âTheyâre triplets.â Corin lies with a tense smile. âYou wanna help me pick out the rest?â
Brightening again, Leo coughs once and then nods eagerly. âSure. Yeah. Awesome.â
-
Dulsissia is relieved to notice that things improve a little after that. The former troopers are eager to abandon their armor, which Davarax throws out of the airlock somewhere in space, and Dulsissia is pleased to discover a house for rent not too far away from their own where they can hide out and decide their next move. (Dee swears to pay them back and will not hear of anything else.)
Plus her son has made a new friend who seems to be able to cheer him up again, which makes Leo a very welcome guest in her eyes.
Paz bullies Leo a little but loses interest when itâs like kicking a defenceless Porg. Raga and Barthor both treat him with mild indifference. Davarax appears a little overwhelmed by the boyâs enthusiasm and habit of holding on to an uncomfortable subject, but her baby boy is finally laughing again and that is music to Dulsissiaâs ears.
A little over two months pass before the next incident occurs.
At the shooting range they had set up behind the house, Dulsissia aims her blaster at the target despite little hope of actually hitting it as long as Davaraxâ mouth is on her neck and his hand slides across her stomach to urge her to lean back against him. She fires and misses and doesnât care as that gives her the excuse to twist around a little to making him move his lips up to hers.
Dulsissia knows how important it is to be improving her aim, but her husband is so incredibly attractive, sweet, kind, caring and the best kisser ever, soâŚ
Davarax suddenly pulls away to prod at his vambrace. âSorry, IâŚâ He prods some more before stalking over to pick up his helmet. âJustâŚâ
Dulsissia waits while he puts his helmet back on and listens to the message heâd just received. Whomever had contacted him had to be someone of importance for him to react like this, so she feels worry instead of annoyance at the interruption.
A little while later, he removes his helmet and Davarax sends her a wide-eyed look. âItâs Din.â
âDin?â Dulsissiaâs worry triples. âIs he okay?â
âYeah.â Davarax replies, sounding a little dazed. Then a faint smile appears. âHe wants to come home.â
Getting Din back feels wonderfully right. Dulsissia feels no small amount of relief seeing the teenager again and find him looking healthy and unharmed. He even smiles when Paz hugs him a little too hard.
Everyone except the absent Zevâsonya and Mose are eager to welcome him home, especially Corin. Her sweet son has been climbing the walls since he heard Din was coming back and finally the two are reunited again.
âSo much has happened while you were gone.â Corin declares. âNemi is starting to walk. Barthor keeps sneaking off on dates with this person he thinks we donât know about. I went on a bounty hunting mission with Dad and met these three awesome dudes who saved my life and are now our neighbours. And I canât wait for you to meet Leo! Mom said I could invite him for dinner so you can say hello.â
âOur dear neighbours are coming over to dinner as well. I invited them.â Dulsissia adds, with a touch of glee as it makes Davarax groan. She knows he gets along really well with Dee, but Pat is too tense to relax around and Drop winds the youngsters up even more than hyper-sugar.
Din exhales with a faint smile that doesnât reach his eyes. âI guess I missed out on a lot, huh?â
Paz reaches out and smacks the back of his head. âThatâs what you get for leaving, idiot.â
Deliberately falling behind a bit while the teens stalk towards the house, Dulsissia hoists the toddler on her arm before looking over at the quiet Davarax walking next to her. Heâs watching Din.
âDid he tell you why he wanted to come back?â Dulsissia asks.
âNo.â Davarax replies, sounding uncomfortably solemn. âHe hasnât said much of anything.â
âYou think they were mean to him?â
âNo.â Davarax says again. âHe wasnât angry or scared or resentful or⌠or anything. Sad, if I was to make a guess. But he was quite determined to leave.â He sighs. âIf he wants us to know, Din will tell us in his own time.â
Dulsissia hopes heâs right.
-
They are going to have to move. The house is nowhere near big enough for all the souls who have come into their lives, but Dulsissia realizes that sheâs going to miss this place. Sheâs grown so very fond of it. There are so many good memories here. And they keep creating more.
Barthor is sitting by the kitchen table with Nemi on his lap, keeping her entertained and hiding from the lively ruckus in the living room where there is far too much activity and far too many people for his taste.
Dulsissia is mixing up some treats on a plate when Davarax appears to hover in the doorway to the kitchen.
âNeed some help?â He asks.
âNo, but thank you for asking, cyare.â Dulsissia replies. She glances back at him. âThings okay in there?â
Davarax leans his shoulder against the door frame and sighs. âI think having Drop and Leo in one room might cause a black hole to appear. That kind of energy is not natural.â
Giggling a little, Dulsissia adds some fruit to the plate as well. âLeo is a sweetheart.â She glances back at Davarax again and sees Paz hovering behind him and trying to sneak into the kitchen but is being blocked by the man. âAnd Drop is always welcome in our house.âÂ
Itâs mean of her to tease but it is kind of flattering to see Davaraxâ eyes narrow a little as heâs reminded of how interested Drop had been at the very first sight of her. Dulsissia purses her lips thoughtfully. âI wonder how he got his nickname?â
âProbably because his parent dropped him on his head while he was a baby.â Davarax mutters.
This is when Paz loses patience, wraps his arms around Davaraxâ waist and simply picks him up.
What follows is probably the most hilarious thing Dulsissia has ever seen in her entire life.
The raw shock and utter disbelief on Davaraxâ face as his arms and legs flail while heâs unceremoniously moved to the side and set back down again is something she will remember until the day she dies. Even after Paz has set him back on his feet and simply saunters into the kitchen to find himself something to drink, Davarax stumbles away from him and glues his back to the wall, looking horrified. Heâs not a small and frail man, by far, and probably hasnât been lifted since he was a child. If anything, Davarax is the one to pick other people up and move âthemâ out of his way.
But Paz is now quite a bit taller than him and heâs gaining muscle by the day. Davarax watches him warily as he saunters back out and even takes a step away so not to risk humiliation again.
âWelcome to my world.â Barthor mutters.
Dulsissia breaks down laughing, wishing she had a way to immortalize the look on Davaraxâ face.
Din greets Dee, Pat and Drop with polite distance, but he does brighten a bit when, to Dulsissiaâs surprise, Zevâsonya and Mose suddenly appear in the doorway.
âI heard you were coming back.â Zev says with a grin, reaching out a hand towards Din, and they pull each other close for a brief hug/bump against each other.
âI had to come back and make sure you stay out of trouble.â Din replies with a grin of his own.
Over by where Dulsissia and Corin are sitting, Leo grabs her sonâs arm with a soft gasp. âIs that your sister?â Unlike the gawking ex-troopers, he seems oblivious to the Hutt standing there as well.
Corin looks over at where Zevâsonya is bragging to Din about whatever she and Mose have been up to, nothing legal would be Dulsissiaâs guess, and Corin makes a face. âNo. Sheâs, uh, itâs complicated. She kind of lives here with us. Sometimes.â
Leo canât seem to take his eyes off her. âDude, you got to introduce me to her.â
Corin frowns. âWhy?â
âBecause Iâm going to marry her.â
Corin looks somewhere between amused and genuinely scared for Leoâs safety and sanity. âMaybe you shouldnât say that so she can hear itâŚâ
âIâm in love.â Leo breathes, still with his eyes glued on Zev. âCome on, man. Introduce me.â
Corin looks over at Dulsissia, who shrugs. If Leo wants to risk his life, who are they to deny him? And maybe, hopefully, that sweet boy can be a good, calming influence on the troubled girl?
Dulsissia leans back and watches as Corin and Leo walk over and the introduction is made. Itâs no surprise that Zevâsonyaâs immediate reaction is to scowl and throw her emotional walls up, but Leo isnât put off. Heâs gentle in his approach, careful, like heâs defusing a bomb, but heâs not scared.
Dulsissia is about to smile, but then she sees Dinâs face and she doesnât feel like smiling anymore.
Heâs looking at Leo with something dangerously close to hatred in his dark eyes.
-
When things wind down for the night, Dee, Drop and Pat agree to walk Leo home, despite the blondâs objections that heâs perfectly capable of getting there by himself. Dulsissia sends with them food and snacks, knowing theyâre still finding their footing as civilians, and doesnât know what makes her flush the hardest; Deeâs soft kindness, Patâs intense respect or Dropâs shameless flirting as they fight to thank her.
She looks over at where Corin and Leo are saying goodbye, the blond making Corin promise to be his best man at his and Zevâs wedding, and the two laugh before Corin gives him a gentle kovânyn and shoves Leo into Dropâs arms.
Din is nowhere to be found.
After they clean up, one by one they saunter off to their rooms.
Her riduur is one of the last to go. The long journey to get Din had Davarax start yawning early in the evening and now heâs close to falling asleep on his feet, so he only puts up a weak fight when Dulsissia orders him to bed while she finishes up the last bits of the cleaning.
Plus there are a couple of things she has to clear up before she has any chance of finding sleep.
Dulsissia piles food on a plate before heading to the backdoor and stepping outside the house.
Mose is lounging on the grass, staring up at the stars, but he carefully pushes himself up when he sees her approaching him. His gaze flicker cautiously from the plate to her face and back again.
âHere.â Dulsissia holds the plate out for him. If someone had told her that sheâd be worrying over the well-being of a Hutt when she was younger, she would have laughed her head off. âI noticed you didnât eat much earlier. You got to be hungry.â
Mose hesitates before slowly reaching out and accepting the plate. âThank you.â
But Mose isnât the only one who is on her mind tonight. âDo you know where Din is?â
Mose lifts his tail and points towards the Razor Crest.
Of course. His favourite place. Dulsissia sighs and pats Moseâs arm as she walks by him on the way to the ship. âEat up and then get some rest, baby.â
Mose watches her leave in silence.
The Razor Crestâs left ramp, the one out of sight of the house, is lowered and Dulsissia makes her way up it and into the ship. Once inside, she sees Din right away.
Heâs sitting on one of the fold-down seats in the cargo hold, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands.
âDin?â Dulsissia speaks softly, hoping not to scare him. âAre you okay?â
Jolting into an upright sitting position, Din stares wide-eyed at her. âDulcy. Yeah. Yeah, I-Iâm fine.â
Heâs lying. Itâs obvious. Sighing, she takes a step forward and gestures towards the seat next to him. âMind if I sit with you for a bit?â
âI donât mind.â Din looks cornered and almost a bit scared.
Sitting down, Dulsissia looks over and fights the urge to hug him close. âWant to tell me whatâs wrong?â
âNothingâs wrong.â The answer comes a little too fast and his voice is too weak for it to be true.
âYou can tell me, baby.â Dulsissia reassures him. âI promise I wonât tell anyone else.â
Din is about to say something but then he pauses and his eyes flicker for a moment before he asks, quietly, cautiously; âYou promise?â
Dulsissia places one of her hands over his and gives it a gentle squeeze. âI promise.â
Din hesitates, then takes a deep breath and looks towards the open ramp. âI just thought⌠I thought that being with my parents people, it would feel like home. I thought Iâd finally feel like I belonged. But⌠I didnât. All I could think about was going back to you guys.â
Her heart shivers with pain, but Dulsissia is careful to keep her voice free of it. âYou left because you didnât feel like you belonged with us?â
Din turns his gaze down to the floor. âYou feel like family to meâŚâ
There is something unspoken at the end there. Dulsissia squeezes his hand again. âBut?â
Din doesnât answer right away. He tenses up and his breathing becomes a bit laboured and choppy, as if trying to fight back a wave of emotions, but eventually he loses and Din looks up at her with tears in his eyes. âHe adopted Corin!â The tears begin to slide down Dinâs face. âHe found me, he saved my life and taught me almost everything I know, but he gave me away to those people and then adopts Corin. What is wrong with me? W-why doesnât he want meâŚ?â
âOh, babyâŚâ Dulsissia whispers and gently eases him into leaning over so she can hold him close, running a comforting hand up and down his back while his shoulders shake with grief. âSweet, sweet baby. There is nothing wrong with you. Nothing. Davarax simply thought youâd be happier with parents who could be with you instead of him who had to leave all the time. And he knew how dangerous his work was. It was not because he didnât love you. He does.â
âHeâs got you, Corin and Nemi now. He has his family.â Din whispers. âIf I hadnât come back, no one would have cared.â
âThatâs not true.â Dulsissia argues gently. âWe all missed you terribly.â
âYeah. I saw.â Dinâs voice takes on a sharp edge. âCorin missed me so terribly he replaced me with the first cute guy he could find.â
Petting the dark hair, Dulsissia sighs. âDin, Corin doesnât think of Leo that way at all. Theyâre just friends. You donât have to be jealous of Leo, trust me.â
Din pulls back to stare at her with a startled look, despite the tears still making his cheeks shine. âI didnât mean⌠Iâm not jealous.â
That makes Dulsissia smile a little. âYeah. You are.â She wipes away a tear from his face. âLeo is a nice boy, but he couldnât steal Corin away from you even if he wanted to.â
Din flushes and his gaze slides away, too embarrassed to meet hers.
âDin.â Dulsissia makes him look at her again. âYou have a home with us. You do belong with us. We all love you.â
That brings a faint smile to Dinâs face and he lets her pull him into another hug and this time, he hugs her back.
-
The conversation helps, but it doesnât solve everything.
Dulsissia can see the tension to Dinâs shoulders and the hint of anger in his eyes at times. And his patience becomes close to non-existent. Especially when it comes to Paz sliding right back into the role as his protector and supervisor.
âYou donât like those.â Paz says as Din reaches for some spicy spinach at dinner. He takes a hold of the tongs and puts some other vegetables on Dinâs plate instead. âHere.â
Dulsissia sees the spark in Dinâs eyes half a second before he explodes.
âMaybe Iâve started to like them!â Din shouts, making everyone turn to stare at him.
âYou donât like them!â Paz shouts back. âYou refused to eat them the day before you left, idiot!â
Davarax glares over at them. âHey! Tone it down. Now.â
Din grits his teeth and stares at his plate. Paz looks tense enough to want to punch him. But they leave it that. That day.
Because that is just the start. More shouting matches follow and the comments go from angry to mean as the tempers keep growing hotter and hotter.
When Din stalks off after bellowing that he regrets coming back, Dulsissia decides it has gone on long enough as she sees the hurt in Pazâ eyes. She inches over to the boy who now towers over her. âPazâŚ?â
Exhaling his anger, now just sad and tired, Paz looks over at her. âYeah?â
Dulsissia puts on her most innocent face. âI was wondering if I could ask you a huge favour?â
He shrugs. âSure.â While he was rumoured to be sullen and uncooperative at the Covert, Paz has always been incredibly amiable and helpful to her. Her sweet giant boy.
âIâve been super-busy lately, got a lot of projects going on and with my blaster training and⌠Well, you know how it is.â Dulsissia lets out a dramatic sigh. âI could really need a little help with Nemi.â
Paz actually smiles a little. âNo, you donât.â
âYeah, I do, actually.â Dulsissia insists, giving him her doe eyes. âIâm serious, Paz. I would really appreciate your help.â
âWhy me?â Paz asks. âWhy not Davarax or Corin?â
âDavarax, well, I donât want him to do more than his share. And Corin has his mind on other things these days. If you donât want to do it, thatâs fine. I can probably ask-â
âNo. Iâll do it.â Paz shoots in. âNo problem. Just let me know what you need me to do.â
Dulsissia almost smiles. She could have had a great career in the Imperial army with her evil genius.
âCyare?â Davaraxâ voice says, half a day later. His voice worrying sweet and high pitched.
âYes, cyare?â Dulsissia replies, curious.
He steps into the room where sheâs doing adjustments on her helmet. âDo you mind telling me why I come home to find that our daughter has been kidnapped by a 6â7 man-child who told me he would, and I quote; knock my helmet off if I woke her up after he just got her to sleep?â
Giggling, Dulsissia wanders over to give him a quick kiss on his stubbled cheek. âI asked him to help out.â
Davarax frowns. âWhy? Are you okay? I could-â
âDin and Paz have been fighting a lot lately. Din wants to stand on his own feet and Paz is too overprotective to let him so I decided to defuse things by directing Pazâ paternal instincts over to someone who wouldnât mind.â
Sighing, Davarax returns the sign of affection and places a light kiss on her forehead. âI love how you love these kids and how you want them all to get along, but those two? With their tempers and stubbornness, I fear they might be doomed to be butting heads while killing anyone who dares to hurt the other.â
Dulsissia fails to hold back a smug smile. âLetâs see, shall we?â
-
At dinner, Din sends Paz a defiant look as he reaches for the spinach again, ready to erupt the second Paz makes a comment, but ends up having to ease some over on his plate without a word as Paz is too busy tending to Nemi trying to rub her food into her hair to care what Din is doing.
(Din still doesnât like spinach and ends up just pushing it around on his plate with a frown.)
As days go by, Din tries to provoke one way and the other, determined to show he is the master of his own life and that Paz doesnât get to tell him what to do, but time and again; Paz is distracted by the child and ends up ignoring Din all together.
Ignoring him little too much, as it turns out. Because one day Dulsissia sees Din stare after Pazâ retreating back as he carries Nemi off to fetch the toys she wants and she sees the sad slump to Dinâs shoulders and the lost expression on his face. First Davarax, then Corin, and now Paz, Din thinks heâs lost them all.
Oh no. Her plan is working too well! Curse her evil genius.
Dulsissia considers interfering again, but luckily she doesnât have time to conjure up another plan before she gets to witness Din inch over to where Paz and her daughter are building with blocks on the floor. Din asks what theyâre up to, listens and nods and then cautiously offers to help.
Paz looks up at him, surprised, then lights up and gestures for him to sit down with them.
Together they watch over and help the little one. There is not a single harsh word between them.
âFineâŚâ Davarax mutters as he comes to a halt next to where Dulsissia is lurking and spying on them. âYou win. Your little trick is working.â He nuzzles her neck. âJedi witch.â
Quietly cackling, offering up her neck, Dulsissia feels unbearably smug. âNo trick. Just logic. You Mandalorians really do love to complicate things.â
But Dulsissiaâs evil plan do affect another victim when Paz and Raga are in the middle of another make-out session in the living room, which Dulsissia is pretty sure is just to annoy Davarax, and when her daughter makes an unhappy whine, Paz instantly breaks the kiss to see what is going on.
Barthor awkwardly adjusts the child in his arms but she is clearly still not pleased.
âYouâre holding her all wrong.â Paz states, taking a hold of Ragaâs hips, lifts her off his lap and sets her mindlessly aside so he can walk over to Barthor to show him what heâs doing wrong.
Raga rolls her eyes and flops down to lie on the sofa with a frustrated groan. She sends Dulsissia a glare.
Dulsissia responds with an apologetic smile.
Sheâs not forgiven.
Pleased that she had managed to salvage the friendship between Din and Paz, Dulsissia decides to take the chance. âDav?â She speaks into the darkness of the night as the two are curled up together in bed.
âMmh?â He mumbles against her shoulder.
âYou have to talk to Din.â
There is a moment of silence, then Davarax lifts his head to look down at her, what little he can see in the darkness. âIs he okay? Whatâs wrong? Did he tell you something?â
âI promised not to tell anyone.â Dulsissia replies. âJust⌠please talk to him.â
Davarax hesitates, then slowly lies back down again. He doesnât say anything, but he is awake for a long, long time after that.
-
All it takes is a simple question if Din wants to help him do some repairs on the Razor Crest and Davarax has the boy eagerly trotting along towards what he fears will be a rather uncomfortable conversation. Something is clearly wrong and odds are that itâs Davaraxâ own doing.
Davarax has a moment of soft affection when he sees the adoration in Dinâs eyes when he looks at the trusty old ship. He might be the only one who loves her as much as Davarax himself does.
They work in the cockpit in silence for a bit until Davarax manages to build up his courage.
Sighing, he wipes his oily hands on a horribly oily rag. âDin?â
âYeah, yeah, almost done.â Din replies, half-way under the control panel.
âJust⌠leave it for a bit.â Davarax says. âI want to talk to you.â
Dinâs body freezes. He breathes once, twice, then he inches out and looks up at where Davarax is sitting in the pilot seat. His face is awfully pale behind the smudges of oil. âShe told you.â
âNobody told me anything.â Davarax reassures him. âWhatever secrets you have, they are still yours. I just want to make sure youâre okay. A lot can happen in two months.â
Staring at him, studying his face, Din eventually relaxes a little as he canât see whatever he fears seeing in Davaraxâ eyes. He clears his throat, inches himself further out so he can sit up. âIâm fine.â
âYou hardly said a word the entire ride back home, Din. Youâve been fighting non-stop with Paz. I barely see you with Corin anymore. Youâre not fine.â Davarax says, firm but gentle. âWill you let me help?â
Frowning, Din stares at him and thereâs a touch of anger there. âSo now you care?â
Davarax blinks, not expecting that. âI always care.â And the snort Din gives at that feels like a slap to Davaraxâ face. He reaches out and places a hand on Dinâs shoulder, making him meet his eyes. âDin. I care.â
The teenager tries for a defiant stare, but there is hurt there and Davarax realizes this is why Dulcy had told him to talk to Din. Guilt settles on Davaraxâ shoulders and weighs him down so hard he can barely breathe. âYou think I donât care? Why? Because I let you leave?â
Din shrugs.
âI didnât want you to leave, Din. Of course I didnât. But you wanted to go, you wanted to be with them, and what you want is more important to me than what I want. It wasnât because I didnât care.â
âIt wouldnât be the first time you gave me awayâŚâ Din mumbles quietly, his gaze dropping to the floor.
Davarax opens and shuts his mouth a couple of times. Oh, the guilt is so heavy it hurts now. âDin, IâŚâ He gently squeezes the boyâs shoulder and makes him look back up at him again. âIâm sorry that didnât work out. I thought⌠I just thought that it would be better for you to have a steady family, someone who didnât leave all the time and who might not come back alive. I wasnât in a good place back then, Din. But I never stopped caring. I still care. I will always care.â
âYou have a new family now.â Din mumbles. âI have no one, because no one wants me.â
âHey.â Davarax places his other hand on Dinâs other shoulder, holding a little too tight but unable to stop himself âMy family? You are a part of that. You always will be. Nothing can ever change that. From the very first time I saw you, the second you gave me your trust, you were family to me.â
Dinâs eyes grow blank with tears and he smiles a little. âYeah?â
âYeah.â Davarax confirms, then leans a little closer to give him a pointed look. âYouâre the only one Iâd trust to look after the Razor Crest if I end up parking my slippers for good.â
Dinâs smile widens and turns genuine. âYeah?â
âYeah.â Davarax confirms again, now with a faint laugh. He gives him a light shake before he gets up and pulls Din up on his feet too so he can hug him close. Feeling Dinâs arms go around him in return and how tights he holds on makes Davaraxâ heart shrivel up with even more guilt. âIâm sorry, Din. Iâm sorry I let them adopt you. Iâm sorry you thought I didnât care whether you left or not. Iâll try to do better from now on. I promise.â
âSâokay.â Din mumbles, his face buried into Davaraxâ chest.
âYou forgive me?â
Din nods.
Davarax runs his hand over Dinâs smooth hair. He doesnât deserve his forgiveness after so many mistakes, but thatâs not his decision to make. All he can do is try to keep from making more and not have Din regret his kindness. âThank you.â
Din merely hugs him harder.
-
When Din and Davarax return to the house, Dulsissia is relieved to hear Din talking like he used to; relaxed and almost playful with his great hero by his side. Davarax is smiling too.
She hides in the kitchen, doesnât want to interfere, but sheâs dying to ask. It takes no small amount of will-power for her to just wait.
Finally Davarax walks into the kitchen.
She turns to face him, about to start talking, when his hands cup her face and he leans down to give her a couple of soft, lingering kisses on her lips, before kissing her forehead and just pulling her into a tight, lingering hug as he sighs.
âWhy do you put up with me?â Davarax asks.
âBecause youâre hot.â She replies. Then she leans back and looks up at him. âSo, you talked to him?â
âYeah.â Davarax gingerly eases a lock of her hair behind her ear. âThank you.â
Smiling, Dulsissia goes up on her toes to give him a soft kiss.
-
Luckily Leo is busy harassing Zev and Barthor is off to be with his mystery date, so Din gets to have Corin all to himself when they head into town to buy some supplies.
A lot has happened in the two months Din has been away, that much is clear by Leoâs arrival and them suddenly having three uncles now (who, Din had been horrified to learn, are in reality three storm troopers who have defected and will be shot if discovered.), yet the biggest change is the one heâs currently witnessing.
âTwo? Are you sure I canât get three for that price, Tahm?â Corin says to the shop-keeperâs daughter. He smiles, holds her gaze and even tilts his head a little. âPretty please?â
The girl giggles and flushes.
Corin reaches out and slides a finger along her jawline and leans a little closer as he lowers his voice. âPretty, pretty please?â
Din blinks. Corin is gorgeous. Heâs always been a good looking kid, sure, Din isnât blind and people have been talking, but over time Corin has gone from cute to gorgeous and⌠heâs clearly aware of it. There is nothing modest about the wink he gives that girl. Or the look he gives the young man who ends up selling them his wares to half of his original asking price.
âWhat was that?â Din asks as they load the bags up on the speeder bike.
âWhat was what?â Corin asks in return, fastening one bag.
âThat.â Din insists. âBack there. The⌠that. The thing. You did.â
Corin snorts a laugh before glancing over at Din with a wicked grin. âMaking them give me a discount? Leo taught me. Itâs easy. You should do it too.â
Din feels his face heat up. âI donât think IâŚâ
Corin steps over, a little too close, and looks at him with bright, earnest eyes. âYou could totally pull if off too, Din.â He touches Dinâs jawline with light fingertips and the skin burns.
âIâm notâŚâ Din swallows, his heart racing like crazy. âIâm not pretty. Like you.â
âAre you kidding me?â Corin laughs a little. âDin, youâre beautiful.â He leans in, gives Din a minor heart attack, and gently places his forehead to Dinâs before turning back to the speeder bike again.
Din can barely breathe.
âI think that was everything?â Corin says. âLetâs go.â He gets on the bike, looks over at Din when he doesnât move and raises his eyebrows. âDin?â
âYeahâŚâ Din croaks, forcing his legs to work. âOkayâŚâ He gets on the bike too.
-
âNo.â Zev snarls. âGo away.â
âCome on.â Leo whines, trailing after her. âOne date. If you still hate me after, I will leave you alone. Pretty please?â
âI cannot think of a single thing that would change my mind about hating you, so I see no point.â Zevâsonya declares, chin held high and refusing to look at him.
âI could surprise you.â Leo tempts her. He coughs a couple of times before continuing. âOne date, Zev. One!â
Zevâsonya wrinkles her nose. âYouâre just going to give me your cold.â
Leo shakes his head. âIâm not-â Suddenly his gaze shifts over to something behind her and he frowns.
By the time she has turned around to see what heâs staring at, Leo is already running towards the three brats ganging up on Mose and trying to provoke him into a fight. By the time sheâs caught up with him, Leo has already knocked one of the brats out.
The fight is over within minutes. Once Zevâsonya has made sure Mose is okay, hating how resigned he is to being hated and loving how Leo is huffing with offence on his behalf, she makes her choice.
âOne date.â Zevâsonya says.
Leo spins around to face her, eyes huge and jaw dropping. âReally?! Wait, why? Wait, I donât care.â
âOne.â She underlines.
Leo nearly nods his head off and she has to hide the smile threatening to break free.
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Din canât forget about it. Canât forget about watching Corin flaunting his good looks, the touch of his fingers and the kovânyn⌠He canât forget about it!
For years Corin has been his best friend. He felt so lucky to have him as his friend. He still does. But⌠it is getting harder and harder to be happy for Corin when others look at him the way Din does when Corin is not paying attention.
And after hearing Corin call âhimâ beautiful, after having his full attention like that, Din canât karking forget about it!
Din sits on Corinâs bed, thinking about this, when Corin enters the room again after heâd headed out to raid the kitchen for something to snack on. He returns victorious with a plate of cookies.
Sitting down on the bed as well, Corin places the plate between them and grins. âMom said no, but then I gave her the eyes and she folded. I am a genius.â
âHow⌠how do you do it?â Din asks, his pulse thrumming under his skin after daring to ask.
âAs I said,â Corin inches closer so his knee almost touches Dinâs, âitâs easy. All you have to do is keep eye contact.â He looks directly into Dinâs soul with those incredible eyes of his. âAdd a smile.â His lips curve into a smile that sends a frightful heat into Dinâs blood. âAnd if you really need to bring in the big gunsâŚâ Corin reaches out and places his hand on Dinâs knee. â...touch.â
Oh, Din swallows hard, struggles to find his voice. âI donât think⌠itâll work if I do that.â
âIt definitely will.â Corin reassures him. âYour face? You will get whatever you want.â
âWhatever I want?â Din asks, his pulse thrumming in his throat.
âDefinitely.â
âOkayâŚâ Din gathers his courage. âEye contact.â He moves a little closer, so their knees not only touch but cross each other a little. âSmile.â Din forces his mouth to shape into what he hopes is a careful but appealing smile. (He sees Corinâs gaze dart down to his lips for a second and it makes his hear jump.) âTouchâŚâ Din reaches up and carefully cups the side of Corinâs face, runs his thumb along his cheekbone. âLike this?â
A slight flush creeps into Corinâs cheeks. âI, uh, yeahâŚâ
Din is keenly aware of how heâs pushing his luck, but he canât make himself stop. âNow what?â
Corin is staring at him. âIt depends.â
âOn what?â
âOn what you want?â Corin almost whispers.
Din canât say it, couldnât say it to save his life, so he just looks at Corinâs lips with unspoken longing, hating himself for being such a coward. He just fears that if he gets a taste, he wonât survive seeing someone else kiss those lipsâŚ
âOkay.â Corin says, as if Din had spoken out loud, and before Din can ask him what he means; Corin leans in, tilts his head and gently touches his lips with his.
Din inhales sharply, startling Corin and causes him want to pull back, but Dinâs hand flies up to grab his shoulder and hold him there. And then Din is the one to move closer to touch his lips to Corinâs.
It is such a sweet feeling. Soft, warm, cautious and fragile, and utterly perfect.
âI missed you so muchâŚâ Corin whispers, eyes closed and lips brushing his as he speaks.
Dinâs throat snares up with a thousand feelings. âI missed you too. All the time.â They share another kiss before he can speak again. âCorin, I⌠I like you.â
That brings a soft laugh from Corin, startling Din a little into leaning back, but Corin merely grins at him. âI like you too, stupid. I kind of hoped we were past the obvious bit when we started kissing?â
Dinâs face flushes hot. âIâŚâ
âI kind of thought you did, was waiting for you to say something,â Corin says, shrugging one shoulder, âbut then you left and I thought that meant you didnât like me after all, but then you came back and⌠Well⌠â
âHow did you knowâŚ?â Din mumbles, dying of embarrassment. Heâd been so careful!
That makes Corin laugh again. âIt was pretty obvious, Din. Come on.â He leans close again and smirks. âYouâre always so nice to me. Not nice like with the others. Extra nice. And⌠you look at me a lot.â
Dinâs face is about to melt off his skull. âIâŚâ
Corin is dangerously close now. âYou want to look some more or should we go back to kissing?â
Din stutters.
Laughing, Corin sits back up and grabs a cookie. âIâm sorry.â He munches on the cookie. âIâll be good.â
Dinâs heart is beating a thousand beats a second. He canât stop staring. âYou donât have to.â He clears his throat. âBe good, that is. You can be⌠whatever you was just being. Thatâs⌠thatâs fine.â
Corin lowers the cookie. âYeahâŚ?â
âI-if you want to.â Din adds cautiously.
Corin eagerly leans closer. âI really, really want to.â
Din grins, a little more confident. âGood.â He moves closer, both of them ignoring the plate tumbling to the floor, reaching up to touch Corinâs face. âBecause I really want you to.â
Din is not a good kisser, he knows, itâs not something he has practised too much, but oh Corin is. Din follows his lead, moves his lips as softly and sweetly as he does, and canât decide whether heâs grateful for Corin knowing how to do this or viciously hating every person who has kissed him. In the end, it doesnât matter, Din is just weak with happiness.
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âObvious? What do mean it was obvious?â Din snaps, not expecting this kind of nonchalance from Paz when he confessed that he and Corin have become⌠a thing.
Paz shrugs, adjusting the wrapping around his left hand. âIt just was. Everyone could see it.â
âEveryone?â Din asks with utter disbelief.
âYup.â Raga confirms, delivering some hard hits that has the punching bag make a sound like it is groaning with pain. âEveryone.â
Din sinks down to sit on a crate, stunned by shock and horrible embarrassment. âBut you never said anything?â
âI wanted to.â Paz says. âBelieve me.â
âBut Dulcy told him not to.â Raga throws a vicious punch. âI think she and Davarax have a bet going on which of you would make the first move.â
Din hides his face in his hands and groans.
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Zevâsonya cannot believe sheâs agreed to this. It was a moment of madness, thatâs all. She got carried away after punching those jerks who bullied Mose and that blond idiot just happened to be there with his stupid date request.
What was she thinking?
Zevâsonya sighs as she looks at herself in the mirror. Sheâs clean, the clothes sheâs wearing are whole, all the daggers and blades are hidden, that is good enough, isnât it? Or do humans have other standards for this⌠dating thing?
She sees Moseâs reflection as he is standing behind her and scowls at the grin on his face.
âDonât.â Zevâsonya warns, but his grin only widens so she flees before he can say anything.
Leo had wanted to come and pick her up, but she refused and insisted on her meeting him by his house. Bad enough Mose knows, but if Din and the others learns of this⌠âdateâ, there would be no end to the comments.
Approaching the house, Zevâsonya is surprised to see Leo sitting on the stairs leading up to it. But the surprise morphs into unease as she feels an intense wave of⌠sadness wash over her. No, heâs not just sad. Itâs more. Deeper. More painful. Zevâsonya pauses in front of him, he doesnât even notice her presence, and braces herself. âLeo?â
Starting a little, he looks up and when seeing her; he tries to smile. âHey.â The boy is pale, there are dark smudges under his eyes and he looks miserable under his facade. âI, uh, Iâm sorry, Zev. I know I hassled you for this date, but, uh⌠I donât think I can go.â
Frowning, Zevâsonya crosses her arms. âWhat happened?â
Leoâs smile wavers. He swallows a couple of times before he can speak. âItâs, uh, itâs my dad, heâŚâ Another swallow. âHe died.â
Thatâs what sheâs feeling from him. Grief. Zevâsonya exhales, forgetting about being angry and defensive and she merely moves to sit down next to him. âIâm⌠Iâm sorry, Leo.â
He nods, turns to stare at the ground again. âWe knew it was a long shot. They said it couldnât be cured.â He carefully wipes at his left eye. âAt least you wonât have to go out with me now.â
Zevâsonya plucks at the fabric on the knee of her pants. âI can wait.â
Leo shakes his head. âNo.â He wipes at his other eye. âI, uh⌠Itâs better if we donât. Thereâs no point.â He clears his throat. âDonât worry. Itâs not contagious. I got it from working the mines with him.â
Startled, Zevâsonya looks over at Leo. âYouâre sick too?â
Now Leo nods.
Fear and horrible resignation, both seep from him and into her. He will die choking and gasping for air, thrashing, terrified, like his father.
Zevâsonya reaches out and places her hand on his neck, and after a second of surprised hesitation; Leo shudders once before he breaks into helpless tears. She eases him over and wraps her arms around him, her eyes narrowing with determination.
Heâs not going to die.
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Davarax is biting his lip as he watches Nemi wobble along the table with a firm grip on it with her tiny hands and a look of thoughtful concentration on her adorable face. He is so proud, watching her progress, that he could die. His heart is not designed to handle this kind of emotion. Heâs too happy.
âI need to talk to you.â Zevâsonya stalks into the room.
Nemi blinks, lets go and drops down on her behind to stare wide-eyed at the twiâlek.
Davarax stares at Zev too. She wants to talk to him? Why? Is she going to try to kill him again? She hasnât done that in a long time. He thought they were making progress when she smiled at him after Mose moved in. What has changed? Why is she angry with him now? âUh⌠Okay?â
After sheâs done explaining, Davarax almost wishes she had tried to kill him instead. It would have been easier to handle than failing her meek request and having to watch her have her heart broken when the boy dies. âI⌠Iâll ask around.â
Zevâsonya brightens with hope and that terrifies Davarax.
âZev.â He stops her from leaving. âI canât promise anything, okay? I will try, but it sounds like theyâve been looking pretty hard for a cure already.â
Her dark eyes flicker before she focuses on Davarax again and she shrugs. âYou got a good track record of saving kids. If anyone can save him, itâs you.â
Davarax stands there, staring, long after sheâs gone.
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At first Dulsissia is heartbroken when she learns that Leo is sick. That sweet, cheerful boy seemed like someone who would live forever. Hearing that heâd watched his own father die in such a terrible way makes her hug him for so long he gets a little worried.
Davarax sends out a message to every contact heâs ever made in his years as a bounty hunter and mercenary, but one by one they come back negative.
Itâs ironic that the one sliver of hope they get is from one direction they did not expect.
âYeah, Iâve heard of it.â Dee says. âThey call it Minerâs Lung.â
âIs there a cure for it?â Davarax asks, trying not to get his own hopes up.
Drop makes a face. âDepends on how advanced it is. Once it catches proper hold, when it gets in the blood, itâs basically impossible to weed it out.â
âTell us where to go.â Dulsissia says. âWe have to try.â
On board the Razor Crest, Dulsissia doesnât know what makes her smile the most; Zevâsonyaâs expression of utter disgust but not doing anything to stop Leo from holding her hand, or how at the very back of the ship; Din tries to hide how sneakily he reaches out for Corinâs hand.
The doctor refuses to see them until he hears âMottiâ. Dulsissia has absolutely no qualms about using her name to wring the arm of this horrible man to help Leo. No baby will be dying as long as there is something Dulsissia can do about it.
A complete medical scan, some tests run and a lot of frowning later, the doctor hands them a datapad with a treatment schedule that will last for about eighteen standard months and drugs that would knock out a fully grown Sarlacc. âThis should work, but I can give no guarantees. Itâs not like that boy has grown up on the most nutritious diet. His immune system is as poor as his family clearly was.â
Dulsissia takes the datapad, hands it over to Davarax, so she can step close to the doctor. âIf it fails, then I know who to hunt down. You should know, sir, we Mandalorians are very protective of our children. We take the loss of one very hard and will take our anger out on whomever is responsible for their death.â
The doctor goes pale. âIf heâs not showing any signs of improvement in two months, you better come back so we can make some adjustments to his medication.â
Dulsissia gives him a sweet smile. âLovely. Thank you.â
Davarax looks at her like he wants to propose all over again.
When they walk back to the Razor Crest, Dulsissia is eager to hold her daughter again but also canât help but to adore the sight of the group of teenagers ambling in front of her and Davarax. It feels like only yesterday they were mere youngsters and now they are snapping at the heels of adulthood.
Corin has his arm around Leoâs neck, laughing and tugging him into a mix of a hug and a headlock, while Din and Zevâsonya walk behind them and give identical shake of heads at the boisterous duo.
Paz is standing by the ramp to the Razor Crest, his back towards them, and Dulsissia wonders what heâs doing until she sees the hands sliding up to cup the back of his neck and she knows.
âFor the love ofâŚâ Davarax mutters. âThey will get brain damage from lack of oxygen soon.â
Dulsissia giggles.
âHey.â Davarax snaps, making Paz and Raga flinch apart. âDonât make me hose you two with cold water.â
Raga rolls her eyes. Paz clears his throat and glances over at Leo. âHow did it go?â
âWe got a plan and hopefully a cure.â Davarax replies.
âNice.â Raga replies, punching Leo in the arm and laughs at his yelp. âThe clan keeps growing.â
âLetâs go home.â Dulsissia says, entering the ship and heading over to where Mose is curled up with the sleeping Nemi in his arms. She has to smile at that sight as well. Itâs just too cute.
The little girl has everyone wrapped up around her little finger, but Mose maybe most of all. Who would have thought a Hutt could be such a softie?
âEverything okay?â Dulsissia asks, running a gentle hand over Nemiâs hair.
âSheâs good.â Mose confirms in an affectionate tone. âFell asleep ten minutes ago.â
The ride home is blissfully incident-free, which is why it is no big surprise the shock comes the day after they return home.
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Dulsissia opens the door and blinks at the sight that meets her.
Dez Vizla is standing there.
âI, uhâŚâ Dulsissia is suddenly awkwardly aware of standing there in Mandalorian armor, helmet off, and looking like the fraud she is. Luckily Davarax appears in the hallway, carrying their daughter, and he walks over to hover behind her.
âDez. What are you doing here?â
Dezâ t-visor shifts up from the little girl on Davaraxâ arm to his face. âYou had a child?â
âYes.â Dulsissia replies cautiously, placing a protective hand on the curious Nemiâs back.
âMom! Dad!â Corin shouts, stepping into the hallway with Din and Leo in tow. âWeâre heading over to Dee, Drop and Pat. Weâll be back for dinner.â
âFine.â Davarax shouts back.
Dez watches the three and tilts his head a little, a bit puzzled. âMore Foundlings, I see.â
Then Zevâsonya steps into the hallway to head into the kitchen and Dez says; âA Twiâlek?â
âWellâŚâ Davarax manages to say, before Dez flinches and places his hand on his blaster, and Dulsissia deducts that Mose has appeared behind them. âIt kind of just happened.â
Dulsissia keeps a wary eye on Dezâ hand on that blaster. âPlease donât draw that blaster. Mose is a part of the family.â She knows she has absolutely no chance of overpowering Dez Vizla, but she will not let him just threaten her family.
Dez rumbles before he reluctantly takes his hand off his weapon. He seems a little overwhelmed. âI just⌠I want to see my son.â
Davarax nods then points.
Dez turns his helmet and looks.
Walking towards them, oblivious to the visitor, Paz and Raga are entirely lost in each other. Paz has his arm around her shoulders, she has her arm around his waist, and instead of looking where theyâre going, they are staring at each other, making grinning comments and exchanging kisses.
Dulsissia hears Dez exhale and in that moment, she realizes that while the man might be cold (He hasnât seen Paz for years and he hasnât sent a word, not since they left) and that he can be cruel at times, heâs not entirely without a heart. At least not when it comes to his son.
Seconds after that, Paz and Raga both discover Dezâ presence and they come to a sudden halt not too far away. Both of them look extremely worried at the sight of Pazâ father.
âPaz.â Dez greets his son.
Paz gingerly removes his arm from around Raga, but she follows when he walks over to his father. âFather. What⌠What are you doing here?â
âI came to see my son.â Dez replies, reaching out to grab Pazâ shoulders, looking him up and down before snorting a laugh. âAnd what a sight!â
Paz manages a faint smile. Heâs taller than his father now and working on becoming as muscular as him.
Seeing the unease in the boyâs eyes makes Dulsissia frown and she looks up at Davarax, but he simply looks every bit as nervous as Paz. Clearly the awe-inspired fear that everyone in the Covert had towards Dez and most Vizlas didnât just apply below ground.
âAnd little Raga Saxon.â Dez drawls, turning his attention to the one next to his son. âNot so little anymore. Quite the warrior. Your mama said you were doing well. Iâm pleased to see sheâs right.â
Raga dares a careful smile and nods.
âVizlas and Saxons, it would be a powerful clan union.â Dez points out, now sounding smug.
Paz clears his throat. âWe⌠we took our helmets off, father. I donât think they care what two outcasts are doing.â
âDonât underestimate the influence your father has.â Dez gives Paz a couple of semi-harsh pets to the cheek. âAs far as they know, you removing your helmet is just a rumour.â
Paz frowns, looks down. âIâm not going to lie and pretend I didnât take it off. Iâm not a liar.â
Dez lowers his hand and his t-visor stares at his son in silence for several long seconds. âI seeâŚâ
An awkward tension follows and eventually Dulsissia steps forward, trying to put on her pleasant face that she used whenever rival families had to meet during the social events on Seswenna. âLetâs all go inside, shall we?â
Luckily her trick works.
Pazâ reply seems to have knocked Dez off balance a bit and he spends the next couple of hours talking to Davarax, just glancing over at his son as if he doesnât quite know how to approach him again. âI have to admit,â Dez says, having turned ignoring Dulsissia into an art form, âI did not expect to find you like this, Davarax. I didnât think youâd last long without the Covert. Without her.â
âHow is she?â Davarax asks, careful hope in his eyes for news about his sister.
Dez shrugs. âLike she always is.â
Davarax smiles a little and Dulsissia feels guilt wrapping around her heart. If not for her, Macero would not have sent the mercenary after Davarax, his helmet would have stayed on and he wouldnât have had to leave the Covert. Davarax being here is her fault. She wonders if he regrets saving her that day when theyâd met for the very first time.
No, he wouldnât regret something like that. But maybe he regrets bringing them to the Covert? Maybe he regrets letting her into his room that night?
When it is time for dinner and the others return to the house, Â Dez declares it is time for him to head back to the Covert. He says so with a final look over at his son, but Paz tenses up and stares at the floor, which leads to him merely offering Paz a formal goodbye and stalking out of house, ignoring the other children gawking at him.
Dulsissia walks over to Paz, touches his arm and gets his attention. âYou okay?â
He nods, but itâs not really convincing.
Din appears on Pazâ other side, shoves Raga away, and punches him in the shoulder. When that gets him an angry glare, Din speaks. âHeâs a douche. This is your home now. Trust me, leaving will only make you realize that. Weâre your family too.â
That actually makes Paz smile and to Dulsissiaâs delight, he pulls Din into a hug. Itâs so sweet. Itâs adorable. Itâs⌠She sighs when she sees Pazâ biceps starting to bulge and Din squawks angrily before he starts trying to battle his way to freedom before heâs squeezed flat.
âIâm hungry.â Barthor whines.
âLetâs go eat.â Dulsissia declares.
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That night, Dulsissia struggles to find sleep. All of her babies are in bed, safely tucked in, her husband is drowsing next to her, all is well, and yet there is an unease in her chest. She turns to look at Davarax. âDav.â
âMmh?â
âAre you awake?â
Davarax opens one eye to look at her. âIf I say no, will you go to sleep?â
Dulsissia grins.
Sighing, Davarax turns on his side, fluffs his pillow and settles to look at her. âWhatâs on your mind?â
She reaches out and fidgets with the collar of his shirt. âDo you regret it?â
That brings a confused frown to his face. âRegret what?â
âBringing us to the Covert.â Dulsissia rests her hand to his chest. âYou lost everything because of that one decision.â
âI didnât lose anything.â Davarax counters, reaching out and tucking a lock of her hair behind her ear. âI gained a family. You, the kids, that scary twiâlek, a genuine Hutt and even our three bothersome neighbours, I wouldnât trade this for the Dark Saber.â He leans over and gives her a soft kiss. âWithout you, Iâm scared to think where Iâd be today.â
Dulsissiaâs eyes well up with emotional tears as usual. âMy life was horrible before I met you, I know it would be horrible today without you.â
âNo regrets?â Davarax asks with a faint smile.
âNo regrets.â Dulsissia confirms, burrowing close to him and savours the sensation of his arms going around her.
âDav?â
âYes, Dulcy?â
âWill you help me take the Creed?â
âYes, cyare. It would be my honour.â
The unease in her chest is suddenly nowhere to be found and holding on to each other, they both slip into a peaceful sleep.
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A Love Letter I Have to My Lovely and Beloved Friendsâ
(I just know that 30 july was a national friendship day and today is like 31 july already at where I am but,,, just pretend that this is also for National Friendship Day đ¤ĄđŤ)
As you all know, it's been confirmed that I'll be going on a hiatus two days from now that I really don't know how long it will go on. So, with that in mind, I wished to leave this message to all the wonderful friends I've made while I was active here on Tumblr during quarantine.
I've started this writing blog a few months ago, to be precise, on May where life in quarantine was starting to become a norm. In the few months until now, I did my best to start writing and drawing more using all the free times that I have.
I wouldn't have expected this blog to grow so much in such a short time. To me, it was really mind blowing, seeing that there's a lot of other great content creators here on Tumblr. Yet, the 300+ people who stumbled upon my blog still decided to follow me.
I was really happy to have made many contents that I'm actually proud of posting. And I still can't believe there are people out there who love them. Seeing every one of your comments and reblogs and likes really, really, squeezed my heart and I couldn't be more thankful for your support.
And during these fun times, I was able to make friends with many amazing, talented, fantastic and all the good words I could find in the dictionary people on here. You all are a real gift to me and I hold you guys close to my heart.
I still can't believe I was able to befriend you guys though, like, y'all are so amazing and I was just here like squeaking my name to you like a shy mice lmao. =///= Anyways, thank you for all the good and fun times. Thank you for being with me and helping me with lots of things. Just, thank you for everything. (I'm writing this at 1am like it's sad hours yall I'm crying :')))
If you are ever feeling down, do not ever forget that, even if it's only me, I'll support you to the end of the world because you're just so amazing and fantastic. I love you and never let any hate that's thrown at you let you down because they aren't worth your time.
The people I'll be mentioning below are my dear friends or just people that I have been interacting with during the times I was online, little or not, I still consider you guys to be my friends (very self-proclaimed here sorry)and I'm still honoured by that fact.
@your-local-bnha-writer -Bean, you and your posts are always so wholesome and cute and I love them. Keep being amazing, and we may not interact much, but I still appreciate every little convos we had. Also, wish you luck on tpn, that shit hurted :')
@identifybby -Liaaaa, omg im so v v grateful we became friends. You've helped me with a tons of things and I can't thank you enough for everything you've done to me. You're just so amazing and thank you for always putting up with me, i love you sm.
@minteasketches -Mintea! You're such an amazing artist and I rlly enjoyed our conversations! You might not see this since you're off socmed but just wanna let u know that thank u for being my friends.
@yandere-of-your-dreams -Heyyy sis,, you're always such a sweet bean to me and showering me w love and i appreciate them, stay amazing and I'm sure you'll become an amazing writer.
@shotobabe -Ren, wifey, ilysm thank u for always being with me. You're such an awesome person and keep on being yourself. You're perfect and talented, don't let others tell you otherwise. AND while I'm gone, don't forget to drink lots of water okay? I won't be able to remind you while I'm on a hiatus, but please always remember to drink water. That'd be the first thing I'll ask you once I'm able to be online. And please try to eat more okay bb? I love u.
@takumipineapplexd -Taku! Amazing writer and amazing editor, yes I'm talking about you. You're amazing and keep on making cursed content and being crackhead, i love them.
@bnhabadass -We might not talk much, but I just want to let you know that you're so amazing and I look up to u v much. Literally had a heart attack when u commented on angel wings lmao.
@tomomoni -Mon, love, soft bean, I LOVE U. You've always been so wholesome and cute to every one of your followers and seeing ur interactions literally heals my heart. Your art is amazing so continue being amazing ilysm thank u for being an amazing advisor and listener, I'm v grateful for that. You have no idea how blessed I am to have you as a friend. Meeting you through turn on your airdrop's fanart was F A T E.
@kamabukokompachiro -First time u asked my permission to read my fanfic, I legit teared up. Thank u sm for asking, I couldn't be happier to know that my fic is worthy to be read over for a yt channel. Keep on being amazing and ily.
@kaminii -Kamiiiii, sweet child, you're always so matured and calm and I really adore and respect that part of you (unlike me im v childish and rash) You're an amazing writer and editor and ur aesthetic? 100/10. Love it. You're so talented despite being so young and I'm just, WOW. Ily and thank u for being friends w me. And please fix your sleeping schedule bb. It's rlly not good for your health, like please? Ily.
@katsucutie -I love you and your writing so v much, and I rlly enjoyed talking to you, discussing about Burn Book was rlly fun. I might not be able to know the ending since im gonna go on a hiatus but I'll be sure to catch up to it once im back. Keep being amazing and awesome.
@isolshi -CHERIE, I LOVE YOU AND YOU'RE AMAZING. Don't be so insecure about your writing. They're amazing. And you're also one of the sweetest and cute person I've met here. I always love teasing you cause your reaction is always so funny and cute. Keep being awesome. And please, please, please get enough sleep and drink LOTS of water. I legit would cry if you don't drink more water cher.
@mirakeul -BIANCAAAAA LOVE YOU'RE SO AMAZING AND SWEET LiKE--- please, I love talking to you and thank you so much for always reminding me to eat. Your calligraphy and handwriting are awesome, shshh i don't take criticism. Never stop writing, I love them. And please never forget I love you and you're my best friend okay?
@roxybefab -You've always been the first to ask me to be on my taglist and I'm so v happy because of that. Thank you for everything, and keep on being awesome. You can do this, ily.
@princessofdawn718 -Talking to you about Hamefura has been so fun! I haven't talked w many ppl about isekai so im rlly glad I could talk about them w you. Katarina x nicol ftw! Thanks for talking to me, it was such a pleasure rlly.
@softkodzuken -Maam your writing is A M A Z I N G. I love anon sm and you're rlly so sweet for always replying to every single comment on them. Don't be so insecure about them, they're amazing and i will always stand by that point. Wishing you the best of luck for Undercover!
@lolitsleia -Your art is *chef's kiss* i love them so much, I still can't believe you hadn't had more recognition like why?? Ur oc alex is the cutest thing ever and i love her. Thank you again for drawing Yuki. She looked really beautiful and cute in your drawing.
@samanthaa-leanne -We may not talk much, but when you first followed me back, my heart goes B O O M. You're so amazing and keep being like that. And uh,, good luck with Violet Evergarden if you ever plan to watch it. Prepare a couple of tissue boxes....or dozens.
@miyumtwins -Fellow android users! I first saw you through Bean's post about a tag game and i was like *gasp* another androiders..! I swear that one time i was interacting w you, I didn't actually meant to go off anon,, yes im dumb lmao. Anyways, you're rlly amazing and I'm rlly honoured to be followed by you.
@kawasuno -Your smau? 100/10. Your sense of humour 100/10. They're just so perfect *chef's kiss* I love every one of your updates and they always managed to put a smile on my face, i was like, how did you do that? My sense of humour is nonexistant, teach me your ways sensei. But anyways, you're rlly amazing and awesome. Keep up w that.
@kukusbabe -Tsu, I've never said this, but it's you. It's always been you all along. What i mean is, I've followed you first (i knew u through zara's flopping server yeah!) And when i looked at my dash and saw all your interactions w your moots, despite me haven't legally started haikyuu yet, i decided to follow all of them, soooo if it's not for you, we may not have met each other. Everyone in the kita family, Tsu is the MVP here muah. Also your aesthethic and writing and everything is so kajsjhendnd amazing i LOvE---
@iwaixiumi -King Nami, you're so awesome and amazing,, and I'm really glad to be able to interact w you. All those songs you recommend? Yeah, I'm going to listen and love all of them, thank u so much for the recs. Keep being amazing and to everyone reading this, PLEASE INTERACT WITH KING NAMI MORE SHE DOESN'T BITE---
@shoutodoki -Hello, you're so amazing and talented and im just,,, kekkdjfjdj when you followed me--- and when u figured out i was the anon talking about oboro i was OAKSJEJDDJ please, i was so honoured u know, like ???? Anyways, keep on writing what you love and your art maam? THEY'RE AMAZING LIKE BOTH YOUR ART AND WRITING IS SO KAJSJDJDN pliS im so v honoured to be able to talk to you.
@lisarillia -Please excuse me while I go shout in the corner of how much i LOVE your arts. They're amazing and being able to talk to you was a real pleasure. Keep on doing what you love. They'll be amazing no matter what i swear.
@cutiedrawsbnha -Cutie, honey, you're amazing and your art is so cute! Don't let what haters said get to you. You're going to grow into an amazing artist. If you give in and listen to what they said, you're going to end up like what they said so ignore them honey! I believe in you so keep shipping izuocha, todomomo, and kamijirou and making arts. Lotsa love!
@lilikags -Heeyyyy you sweet cute innocent bean! Don't ever stop writing what you love, you'll grow into a big blog soon enough, before you know it. Just keep making what you love, and as time pass by, I'm sure there will be many people who will find appreciate everything you do. I'm always supporting you.
@baeshijima -SOPHHHHH YOU SWEET CUTE CINNAMON ROLL WAKATOSHI'S WIFE EYE--- You have NO idea how much i love you,, you're so sweet and I honestly don't know what did i do to deserve you. Srsly you're a blessing to me. Thank you for the sweet daily reminder in my inbox, i love each and every one of them. Keep being so cute and wholesome, love you.
@shinsuque -ANAAAAA Thanks again for the Bakugou's memes! I may not be able to do it before i go on a hiatus though *sobbing* Keep being so awesome! I love seeing all your interactions and you're so amazing i honestly don't know why you followed me----
@semiluvr -LYDIA *SOBBING* THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR INVITING ME TO THE KITA FAMILY. Even though we've known each other in less than a week, it already felt like I had known you guys for so long like whotttt. Keep being an amazing and sweet person ily muah
@dumbass-lev -MOMMY, MUI, ILY THANK U FOR ALWAYS BEING SO SWEET YOU'RE AMAZING,,, u have no idea how happy (and also flustered) I am when i saw you asking you want to adopt me like,,, whot I've never been asked to be adopted online b4 so you asking that was a big surprise to me and just,,, remember that i love you and you're an amazing mommy. Hope i wasn't too much too handle as your child lol and thank u, for asking to invite me to the server. It has been a real pleasure to me to be there.
@pudding-head-kenma -DANIE!! We haven't talked much and I've only known you for a short time but I really love your detailed analysis. They're amazing and you're amazing. Thank you for being so sweet and cute. Ily.
@/đŚ nonoi -đŚ NONOIIII!!! IF YOU'RE SEEING THIS, I JUST WANNA TELL YOU THANK YOU FOR BEING MY EMOJI ANON! I love you you're so sweet and bb please please please don't forget me id cry,,,
@astereim -Rein!!! I know we just talked and all but you seem to be a reaally cool and amazing person,, we might not be able to interact much since I need to go prepare things b4 i go on my hiatus though, but just wanna let u know that ily!
@tokoyamis-luv -please don't come for my neck i haven't been active on the server Lol but anyways, zara, you're amazing and your simping for Kurapika is always fun to watxh. Also all the lin manuel edits are *chef's kiss* we may not talk much but i was rlly honoured to be able to interact w you, even a little bit.
@engel-hageshii - YOU, MAAM are a literal angel, and your comments on my fics always managed to make me smile so much. I love you, please never stop being such a sweetheart.
@laylahoran -I've always loved and appreciate every comments you make. I'm v happy I was able to create a content that you can love. You and engel has been some of my firsts followers and I'm really blessed to have you two.
@oyasenpai -Diemmy! You're so sweet and cute and seeing your interaction w my moots (kami) was what made me follow you. Don't let what others said bring you down, okay? Just do what you want because there're always many people supporting you for it.
Special message to the kita family server;
Meanwhile while you guys were talking about me there, I was just innocently scrolling through Tumblr, not knowing what kind of fate I'll be receiving đđđ No wonder I was sneezing so much đ¤§đ¤§đ¤§
So, I was just scrolling through the pinned messages and I saw tsu said "mui: can we invite hikari? Everyone here: kakskejdjdjdn" and i was just like,,, ??????? I wasn't expecting u guys to have that kind of reaction i--- yall have no idea how much i was grinning while I scroll through those messages. Thank you so much for inviting and accepting me, it's really fun to be with you guys and your crackhead energy đĽ°đĽ° Thank you to mui for suggesting you had no idea I was really really happy. đ Y'all are so amazing and sweet and cute and beautiful kakjdjdd
To all of my dear friends that I've mentioned above, I LOVE YOU LOTS YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW GRATEFUL I AM TO MET YOU GUYS. Quarantine time has been stressful for a lot of people, and Tumblr can sometimes (a lot of times) be kinda whack but I was really happy to met you guys during my time here. Our time together may have been short, but i feel like we've known each other for more than a year, no caps. I love you all very very much. Thank you for talking to me and befriending me. Remember to get enough sleep, drink lots of water, stay safe and healthy, eat enough meals and, take care of yourself. I love you guys.
And lastly, to everyone reading this, whether i know you or not, or interacted with you or not, or follow you or not, or you follow me or not, just REMEMBER that you are worth it and I love you. Keep on being awesome, and always remember to smile, laugh and live. Don't forget to always DRINK LOTS OF WATER, GET ENOUGH SLEEP, and EAT ENOUGH MEALS.
Signing off,
Hikari.
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Those callout blogs are a nuisance. All of those screen shots were taken out of context and all the "harassment" is just people talking about that person on their own blogs, after blocking them AND being blocked, and still being stalked and having the finger pointed at them by that person who is calling it harassment, despite circumventing blocks which is totally in their own power not to do. Why keep hate reading people after a two-way block? Then suicide bait and say those blogs made them get that far? I wouldn't be surprised if the callout blogs were run by the same person or someone close to them. Long story short- you are awesome, you did nothing wrong, and thank you for doing what you do. There is a reason these callouts have almost no notes on them, it is because people know what's up. I think that's a silver lining!
Yeah, Anon, that is...all very much what my take on this is. Some of us have been around, we know what this looks like, and there's been plenty of evidence I've found of harassment from the callout crew. If those few screenshots in my callout (achievement unlocked!) are "harassment" oh...oh, honey. No, taking issue with your behavior in a firm way isn't harassment, neither is multiple people trying to patiently, kindly help you out of your own damn mess. All that got myself and at least one other mun I saw doing so was posted up on the callout blog, so...from where is this harassment coming, exactly? lol amazing. Cognitive dissonance, on sale all week!
I will absolutely say, like I did on their childish ass reblogs, I'm very much not supportive of anon hate and other such behaviors. I do think some of those messages could have been worded better, but did they have to be? No. You post something inflammatory, you don't just expect to get ass pats of support for your bad behavior. They all use incredibly baiting, hostile language that is a problem when the OP of the rules does it, but their posts meant to be publicly consumed aren't supposed to trigger unwanted reactions. I don't feel, as someone on the spectrum, which is exactly why I tried to speak to Raven, I'm expecting anything extraordinary out of another working adult to know that this is pretty basic behavior. You act hatefully, people tend to react hatefully, you don't fix it by crying and being more hateful.
- AGAIN am in no way supporting anything legitimately unnecessary that was sent to Raven. I don't believe there is an excuse for that, outside of maybe...if she posted crush videos or something, then, yes, by all means, go anon hate away on people hurting real animals or children or the elderly lol but here? In the RPC? No, no, no. Never okay. I'm just saying, sometimes, we do get what we put out. We should be mindful of what we're selling if we don't want those goods returned to us. Like the OP of those rules said, "Look, I'm hateful, I was being intentionally hateful, it's fine." You know? -
No one else on tumblr is ND and might have some issues being too reactionary, no one can come across that shit independently of any of these muns they seem to want to sell as being some kind of evil RP clique and feel personally offended. Nope! Just their friend! Only one with permission.
And yeah, I definitely suspect that, at best, it's a handful of muns with too similar personal problems acting out justice and power they cannot achieve offline. Life is hard, being a young adult is hard, you are hyper-aware of being unable to immediately effect lasting change in your world, and it's kind of an unfortunate hallmark of the internet anymore that you see this being taken out in things like the RPC. It's still not necessary or acceptable, but maybe by explaining it, someone out there can recognize those feelings in themselves and not act on it. Point is, it's really common. Not the first time I've seen it on tumblr, would not be at all shocked.
I do not even know what to say about the potential suicide-baiting, an opinion you're absolutely entitled to. Since I did not see this transpire in action and do not know that meme mun, I don't feel like it's appropriate for me on this blog to imply they weren't serious. I don't want anyone out there to feel like their own statements aren't serious, you know? I will say, given forever of past observances, it is a bit convenient to the victimization she was peddling. Doesn't mean it couldn't be both...and I would really like to say, as a reminder to everyone: if you see a blog mentioning self-harm of any kind, whether you have a reason to believe they are being dramatic or not, report them. If they weren't serious, that's a really terrible thing they just did in using something like that. If they were serious, even someone you can't stand deserves this kind of help.
But yeah, anyways! I'm certain I'll continue to be vaguely bothered in reblogs and get some amazing anons for it lol so thank you! It's appreciated! As are all of the other messages, publicly or privately addressed. They mean a lot, as they always have! Because it means a lot to provide you all with the genuine positivity of being seen, to get to address ways of helping the community, and speak to all of you!
My whole point in this blog was to support the RPC being a better place for everyone by tackling the issues that made me a bit salty, in the many ways that we can do that together, but the interactions here have made me feel so much more hope about the RPC! Most of you really aren't about callouts or harassment, or even things like leaning on aesthetics at cost to accessibility. Most of you just want to be allowed to enjoy the hobby your own way, need to be seen every now and then. Some of you might need some new ideas, or to feel excited about writing again, and getting to watch that happening is great.
You're all awesome, thank you, so much!
And since this drama is the main topic of this blog right now lol...reminder to everyone: if you're going through a hard time and someone in the RPC is making it hard for you to enjoy your escapism? That's on them. Not you. If you did do anything you feel is wrong, apologize to the person you hurt, accept their response either way, and grow as a person. Block the bad anons, block the callout blogs, stay off blogs that are drama sources, and enjoy what you're here to do, RP.
And hey, if you feel like you need to vent or could use some advice, I'm not going to judge you. The words "freaky shit" will never leave my mouth. If you need a pickmeup, need to feel like you're not the only one who feels this way, search the #anonymous or #answered tag. You're definitely not alone, and chances are, I support you if you're trying your best - which looks different for all of us.
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Just a Simple Lie
Chapter 3
Pairing: Chris Evans x Reader
Description: Having worked on small independent films for the better part of a decade, your friend tells you about an opening for a script supervisor with a large studio. Wanting to advance your career, you apply and get an interview. The only downside, they prefer to hire crew who are married. Itâs just a simple lie, right?
Warnings: Cursing and Drinking
Word Count: About 3,000
A/N: This story is simply for fun. I know nothing about the personal lives of the two actors in this series and mean no harm. I am also totally guessing regarding the studio talk. Comments, reblogs, and likes are always welcome. Tag list is open, please send me an ask.
Internal thoughts are in italics.
Read chapter 2 here
Another week on set had passed as quickly as the last. There werenât any late night meetings with either leading man, which was fine by you. Sure, you had worked with both actors throughout the week, but mostly on set, or a quick drop by in your office.
Since set life was pretty busy, your social life was suffering quite a bit. You hadnât seen Joanna since the weekend before you started with the studio and she was pretty pissed.
âI work for fucking Sony, Y/N, and I make time for your ass,â she said flatly in the phone.
âWell, you like my ass. I mean, itâs pretty nice if I do say so myself.â
âYouâre lucky youâre funny,â she added.
âMhm.â
âAnywayâŚIâm picking you up in an hour.â
âJooo,â you whined. âSleeping in my bed sounds better. I just want to be lazy and watch a movie.â
âToo bad. I havenât seen my best friend in weeks and we need to catch up. Besides, I have news for you.â
âAlright, youâve piqued my interest. See you soon loser.â
Crawling out of bed and shimming out of your sweats, you dragged yourself into the bathroom to take a shower. Joannaâs idea of getting together usually involved alcohol, so you at least needed to look presentable.
Slipping on a cotton white dress with navy stripes and a pair of short brown boots, you called it good. The dress was comfortable and cute without much effort. You kept your makeup light, not only because you were feeling lazy, even after a long shower, but also because you were short on time. Running a quick hand through your hair a couple of times, your phone was buzzing with text messages.
Jo: Iâm here!!!!
You let out a chuckle at her enthusiasm and tossed your phone in your bag.
 Joanna parked her SUV on the side of a street that was lined with boutique shops. It definitely wasnât your normal area to drink or even shop, but who were you to argue? With work being as busy as it was and not to mention being the new girl, you had been pretty distant as of late.
âI just want to pop into this shop really quick, then weâll grab some tea afterwards,â Joanna said.
Tea?
The two of you enter a cozy shop that you didnât catch the name of as it was etched in the glass with curly letters. Your tired mind couldnât decipher quite what it said. Inside is cozy whites, pinks, blues, and yellows. Your mind finally catches up when you see a row of baby strollers.
Weâre in a baby store?
Joanna floats around the shop, squeezing stuffed animals, burp clothes, and blankets. Pretty much everything with texture. You follow behind her like a puppy, wondering why she needs to pick up something here. She eventually stops her searching at a table full of onesies. She picks up two, one in each hand. They are both white in color, but one has a giraffe on it while the other has a bunny.
âOkay. What gives?â you ask.
Still holding the onesies in both hands, she looks at you with wide eyes. âWhat?â she asks playfully.
Her eyes give her away and you can tell sheâs messing with you. Raising your eyes brows in return, you cross your arms and pop a hip out.
âI probably shouldnât say anything because itâs really early, but youâre my best friend and I need to tell someone.â She pauses for a moment and again your tired mind is just not following. âIâm pregnant!â she squeals. She drops the onesies on the table and shakes her hands in the air.
You stare at her contemplating what she just said. Pregnant. The word sounds funny in your mouth.
âOh my god. Youâre pregnant? Youâre pregnant!â
She chuckles at your enthusiasm as you start to jump up and down. You pull her into a hug and then pull back slightly, not wanting to hurt her.
âYou canât break me,â she said.
âShush,â you say, and pull her back in your arms. âGuess Iâll need to find new friends to drink with.â
Joanna smacks you on the butt. âSomeone needs to drink with Ian.â
 Filming was on schedule which was surprising. Generally, a film of this size would be behind, especially early in the shooting schedule. Granted, this was the largest project you had been a part of. Credit was due to the awesome director. He was amazing at communication with everyone including you. He often asked for your notes between scenes and sought out both Monicaâs and your opinions. Both Chris and Keanu were amazing, often getting the scene with one to two takes. There were only seven more shooting days before a week and a half break, then off to the cold of Vancouver.
 Your cellphone buzzed with a text, but that was nothing new between Monica, David, and the writing staff calling or texting all the time. Pushing away your laptop, you picked up the phone from your desk and leaned back in your chair.
Unknown number: Chocolate chip or peanut butter
âWhat?â you mumbled to yourself.
Y/N: Who is this?
Before you can even set your phone down, it buzzes again.
Unknow number: Just answer the question
âWho the fuck is this?â Apparently talking to yourself was your new thing.
Y/N: I need context here mysterious one.
Y/N: Ice cream, cookies, protein bars?
Unknown number: Cookies, obviously. This is serious.
You sighed and decided to play along with the dealer of sweet treats.
Y/N: Chocolate chip of course. But if frosted sugar cookies come into play, that wins.
Your phone rang not a second later with the unknown number.
âHello?â you said.
âSugar cookies?! Y/N, come on. No. Just no.â
âWho is this?â
âChris,â he said.
âChris...?â
âSeriously?â he questions. âEvans.â
âOh fuck. Sorry. Iâm sorry Chris.â
âYou should be. Sugar cookies,â he scoffed. âCome on!â
You let out a giggle. âI like what I like.â
âSo, chocolate chip?â he questions.
âYeah. What are you up to anyway?â
Iâm stealing a box from Craft Services,â he says it like itâs something he always does. Like itâs just normal to call you up and ask what you like.
âOkay,â you sigh. âNext question.â
âShoot.â
âHowâd you get my number?â
âI asked Monica. Figured you wouldnât mind.â
This was something you had to get used to apparently. Chris Evans has your number and you now have his too. Not that you would call him.
You hummed in response.
âSee you soon,â he said before disconnecting the call.
Chris is coming to your office. No big deal, heâs been here before, on your first day and one other time. This is fine. You can be normal.
You straightened up your small office. There wasnât much to clean. Mr. Fern was thriving, although youâd have to find a babysitter for him when you were in Canada. You had no pictures or artwork on your walls, but you did have a framed photo of your friend group sitting on your desk, along with a jar of pens in various colors and styles. There were three sizes of notepads, one in a beautiful rose tone with thick aged looking paper. The other two were lined like the type you would use in school. You were a minimalist at work, what could you say?
Twenty minutes later thereâs a knock at your door.
âItâs open,â you shout, just loud enough for the person to hear.
You knew Chris would be coming by, so you had time to mentally prepare, but he still makes you a little nervous. The man is attractive and heâs so personable. Youâre nervous with Keanu too, but heâs so much more serious. When the two of you do chat, which isnât a lot, itâs about national issues, whoâs your favorite poet, have you tried this or that brand of green label coffee? Okay, that last one is pretty low key, but still.
 âI bring peace and good tidings, but most importantly cookies.â Huge grin on his face.
In his hand, wrapped in a napkin, are three chocolate chip cookies. His hand is outstretched for you to take the cookies, but you donât. Eyes looking from his hand to his face and back again.
âThis isnât a box of cookies. I expected a box of cookies.â You shake your head for added effect. âAnd not even a frosted sugar cookie insight.â
âSugar cookie,â he says with such disgust. âY/N. I brought you chocolate. You should be thanking me!â
The smart ass in you, despite the newness with him, canât help but come out.
âYou can leave them there,â you say pointing to a free space on your desk. Eyes fixed on your laptop, not bothering him a glance.
He huffs out a laugh and plops himself down on the extra stationary chair next to your desk. He sets the cookies down, but picks one back up and takes a large bite out of it.
You swivel in your chair to face him and roll your eyes. âArenât those mine?â
âYou complained.â He shrugs his shoulders taking a second bite.
Rolling your eyes, you turn back to your laptop.
âThis is new,â he said.
Sparing him a glance, heâs picked up your framed five by seven group shot. Itâs from last New Yearâs Eve. Jemma had just moved into a new apartment, free of her roommate from hell as she liked to call her. You all brought booze and she invited a few guys she knew and some ladies from her work. It was a good time and you ended up crashing in her bathroom. It wasnât the best nightâs sleep youâve had.
âYeah, those are my best friends.â A smile appears on your face.
He smiles and nods his head, eyes scanning over the faces. âWhoâs who?â He angles the photo so that you both can see.
âWell, this here, with her lips attached to my cheek, is my very best friend Joanna.â You let out a giggle and he grins. âNext to her is her husband Ian. The gorgeous blonde is Jemma. And thatâs Travis.â You rush through the last one, remembering you told Chris your fiancĂŠâs name was Travis. Maybe he forgot. Hopefully.
âTravis? As in your fiancĂŠ Travis?â
âMhm.â Tight smile on your face.
Moving the picture closer to his face, he hums. âGood looking guy.â
âYeah, he is,â you reply.
âLooks kind of young though.â
Really? He is, but why bring that up?
âAre you calling me old?â you scoff, fake agitation in your voice.
âWhat?! Of course not. You make a lovely couple. Really,â he pleads. A sincere smile on his face.
You quirk your mouth to the side and sputter out a laugh. âIâm just fucking with you.â
Quickly covering your mouth with your hand. Can you say fuck to him? Itâs so unprofessional.
âMe and my mouth. Sorry,â you say, cringing slightly.
He erupts in a deep belly laugh, head thrown back, eyes closed.
âOh, my fucking god. You can say fuck all you want around me,â he says through bouts of laughter.
You let out a breath and relax.
âThat was hilarious,â he sighs, wiping tears from his eyes.
âYeah. Real funny,â you reply. âBut yes, Travis is a little bit younger than me.â
He holds up his hands defensively. âI promise Iâm not calling you a cougar; he just seems young.â
Truthfully, Travis did seem younger than he was. He was the serious film student, but on weekends, he was the eternal frat boy. Even now, seven years later heâs pushing thirty, but you wouldnât know it.
The next few days brought other unrequested sweet treats to your office. Chris no longer asked what you would like, instead heâd show up with something he thought youâd like, or rather what he liked. One day it was a cheese danish, then caramel corn, and finally a monster bar, which turned out to be a Rice Krispies Treat with extra marshmallows and M&Ms. You started to skip lunch knowing youâd be eating something very unhealthy. The two of you would keep the conversation light, generally about music or movies. You wondered if he was this friendly with other members of the crew. Â
 Washing your hair six times had done nothing. Jemma had promised the new color product she picked up was just temporary, but clearly that had not been true. You had been Jemmaâs guinea pig since the day you met her on set of one of the first movies you had worked on. She was a hair stylist and anytime she received a new product, she was trying it out on you. This time it was a semi-permanent purple hair dye. She had assured you it was more semi than permanent, but after washing it too many times, it had only slightly faded. Your only saving grace is the dye was only on the underside of your hair rather than your whole head as Jemma had wanted to do.
Walking into work was a little nerve wracking for you. In the industry, there is a plethora of personalities and styles, so purple hair isnât out of the ordinary, but it was quite the change for you. You wore your hair the same way every day. You dressed modestly and comfortably. Sneakers were the norm. You saved skinny jeans and cute dresses for your days off. Stepping out in purple hair was saying something.
A few wolf whistles from David and a couple of guys who worked in set design, you made it to your office relatively unscathed.
Todayâs scene would have you working side by side with Monica. Most days you were both on set, but usually not for long. The two of you had met in her office most of the day yesterday going over todayâs big love scene between Chrisâ character William and Maggieâs character Sophia. Chris was a professional and the few scenes that you had watched Maggie in were great. The two of you had no doubt they finish strong, no pun intended. Except you were wrong.
âCut!â Hugh, the director called.
It was the fourth take and everyone was starting to realize it just wasnât working. There were no problems with the lines and the actors were both following the stage directions, but something just wasnât right. The chemistry was just off.
âY/N.â Hugh called, motioning you over to him. âYou know this script better than anyone. Whatâs missing?â
You let out a long sigh. âItâs the two of them together. Donât get me wrong, they work well together, but Iâm not getting romantic tones from the two of them right now.â
Chris was watching you. His brow furrowed; arms crossed. Maggie was getting her hair touched up. Passionate hair took a lot of work.
âWill you go talk to him please?â he asked.
You nodded, clutching your script, you walked to him. Maggie was now occupied with makeup and Monica was currently speaking to her.
Chris uncrossed his arms and quirked one side of his mouth up. âItâs not working is it?â
âMâfraid not,â you replied.
He nudged his head to the left and took a few steps away from the rest of the crew. âWhat do you suggest?â
âWell, frankly, you just donât look like you love her. You barely look like you like her.â
He shrugged his shoulders and gestured with his hand for you to continue.
You licked your lips and moved in closer to him. Lifting up your script, you tapped on a section of the scene. âWhen it says William looks into Sophiaâs eyes passionately, you need to look at her like sheâs the one youâve been waiting for your whole life. Like if you didnât have her right now, in this moment, you wouldnât be able to breathe. And when it says he grabs her, donât grab her by her shoulders.â You looked up from the page to see Chris watching you. âWhat?â you questioned.
He shook his head and smiled. âDonât grab her by her shoulders?â
You could feel heat in your cheeks. You looked back down at the script because you had to look away. Him and those fucking eyes. Are these lashes even real?
âYeah, that comes off more as angry passion, but thatâs not what their love story is about. How about you try it with one hand cupping her cheek and one hand on the back of her head? But like, um. But maybe cup her cheek first and brush your thumb against it as well. And with your other hand, slowly slide it to her neck before the kiss.â
He nods his head again, his eyes downcast, thinking it over. âLike this?â he asks.
Suddenly, his hand is on your cheek and heâs staring in your eyes, thumb lightly brushing below your eye. His other hand softly touches the crook of your neck and he ever so softly brushes it to the back of your neck as he starts to lean in. Goosebumps erupt down your arms and you thank the gods youâre wearing a sweatshirt at this very moment so he canât see it.
âIs this good?â The deep timbers of his voice making you swoon.
You nod slowly, not wanting him to remove his hands at that moment. âUm,â you lick your lips again. âUh, ye-yeah. Thatâs exactly what I mean.â
He removes his hand and gives you a gentle closed lipped smile. âI think I got it.â He starts to turn around but then stops and turns back to you again. He tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. âThis is cute by the way.â
You give him a smirk and shake your head. âGo!â Crossing your arm, he salutes you with one hand.
Maybe you wouldnât kill Jemma after all.
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300 Writing Challenge
Hey everyone, Kallie here!Â
Thank you so much for 300 followers I really do appreciate every single one of you! So to celebrate my milestone, Iâm doing my first ever writing challenge. Iâm nervous to do this like I was nervous posting my first fanfiction here.Â
My awesome banner was made by my mom @criminal-cookiesâ Iâm so in love with it you wouldnât believe!! THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU!!!
And I want to thank @sebbbystaaanâ for the suggestion and all of her help! Youâre amazing hun and couldnât have done this without you!!!Â
Rules (READ ALL PLEASE)
- You donât have to follow me (although it would be awesome if you did)
- Iâd appreciate it if you could reblog so others can join the fun!
- It can be any Marvel character you want, just send an ask with which prompt you want and the character! (no anonymous)
- Youâre more than welcome to take more than one prompt if you do them all. Max 2 people for the same promptÂ
- Please add a read more if itâs more than 550 wordsÂ
- It can be any format you want (Social Media AU, Drabble, One shot, or a Series)
- No p*do, inc*est or noncon/dubconÂ
- Please tag anything you think may be a trigger
- Due date is 19th June 2020 so you have plenty of time!!
- When submitting please tag me @itsunclebuckyâ and use the tag #itsunclebuckyswritingchallenge so I can read them all!Â
- Thatâs it. If you have any questions, feel free to send me a message!! Letâs have some fun. :)Â
- If need be Iâll add more prompts!Â
Dialogue Prompts:
1. âI canât believe Iâm sitting in space jail with you of all people.â
2. âAre you even listening?â - âYes, it just takes me a while to process so much stupid all at once.â
3.âDamn right Iâm pretty.â - I said petty.â
- ( @mushyjellybeansâ with Bucky)
4. âI saw that. You just checked me out.â
5. âAre you stupid or stupid?â
6. âAre you scared?â - âNo. I have this terrified look on my face âcause Iâm so having so. Much. fun.âÂ
- ( @criminal-cookiesâ with Bucky)
7. âIâm no detective, of course. But I think this dead body might not be alive anymore.â
8. âYouâre an assassin?!â - âWeâve been friends for literally two days. Why are you so shocked?â - âI just thought Iâd get a normal friend for once.â - âWhat do you mean âfor onceâ?â
9. âIâm not great at the advice, can I interest you in a sarcastic comment?â
- ( @shakespeareanqueer)
10. âWhen did you become so smart?â - âWhen I stopped listening to you.â
- ( @nekoannie-chanâ with Steve)
- ( @captainchrisstanâ with Bucky)
11. âJust say it. Tell me that this was never going to work. Tell me youâre leaving.â - âNo. Iâm asking you to come with me.â
- ( @buckythewhitewolfxâ with Bucky)
12. âIsnât this illegal?â - âProbably.â
- ( @jobean12-blogâ with Bucky)
- ( @this-kitten-is-smittenâ with Bucky)
13. âI feel like everyone just forgot I exist.â
- ( @just-trying-to-survive-marvelâ with Steve)
14. âNo, Iâm not letting you go. Itâs too early to get out of bed.â
- ( @littledarlinwritesâ with Bucky)
15. âIâm not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.â
- ( @kitkatd7â with Bucky)
16. âWhat? Does that feel good?â
- ( @littledarlinwritesâ with Bucky)
- ( @ellie-scribbleâ with Bucky)
17. âJust pretend to be my date.â
- ( @sebastiansloserclubâ with Bucky)
18. âHowâs the meeting?â - âI want to stab everyone.â - âDonât get blood on your dress. We have dinner reservations at seven.â - âLove you for enabling me.â - âLove you too.â
- ( @constantakingâ with Bucky)
19. âAre you wearing my shirt?â -
( @sebbbystaaanâ with Peter Parker)
( @simsadventuresâ with Bucky Barnes)
20. âWe canât be friends anymore. I will always see you as something else.â
Movie Quote Prompts:
1. "That is my least vulnerable spot." - Casablanca
2. "I'm just one stomach flu away from my goal weight." - The Devil Wears Prada
- ( @godofplumsandthunderâ with Thor)
- ( @clorise1210â with Peter Parker)
3. "I'm about to do to you what Limp Bizkit did to music in the late '90s." - Deadpool
4. "'Greater good?' I am your wife! I'm the greatest good you're ever gonna get!" - The Incredibles
5. "Is that all he said?" - Lost in Translation
6. "Excuse me. I believe you have my stapler." - Office Space
7. "It's the first time I've ever seen you look ugly. And that makes me kind of happy." - Bridesmaids
8. "I learned a long time ago that worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere. - National Lampoon's Van Wilder
- ( @godofplumsandthunderâ with Bucky)
9. "Just when I think you couldn't possibly be any dumber, you go and do somethin' like this -- and totally redeem yourselfâ - Dumb and Dumber.
10. "Hey, don't knock masturbation. It's sex with someone I love." - Annie Hall
11. âIf you can dodge a wrench, you can dodge a ballâ- Dodgeball
12. âHe slimed me.â - Ghostbusters
13. âRoads? Where weâre going we donât need roads.â - Back to The Future
14. âYou can be my wingman anytime.â - Top Gun
15. âI Donât Get It.â - Big
Tagging some who may be interested: @simsadventuresâ @jobean12-blogâ @the-ss-horniest-book-clubâ @criminal-cookiesâ @littledarlinhavefaithinmeâ @emmandhercoffecrispâ @katbtracyâ @ninjabuckyâ @mushyjellybeansâ @sebbbystaaanâ @this-kitten-is-smittenâ @loricamebackâ @book-dragon-13â @your-highnessmarvelâ @sebastiansloserclubâ
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An Interruption in the 1st Law of Thermodynamics.
Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15, Chapter 16, Chapter 17, Chapter 18, Chapter 19, Chapter 20, Chapter 21, Chapter 22, Chapter 23, Chapter 24, Chapter 25, Chapter 26, Chapter 27, Â Chapter 28, Chapter 29, Chapter 30, Chapter 31, Chapter 32, Chapter 33, Chapter 34, Chapter 35, Â Chapter 36, Chapter 37, Chapter 38, Chapter 39, Chapter 40, Chapter 41, Chapter 42, Chapter 43, Chapter 44, Â Chapter 45, Chapter 46, Chapter 47, Chapter 48, Chapter 49, Chapter 50, Chapter 51 Chapter 52, Chapter 53, Chapter 54, Chapter 55, Chapter 56, Chapter 57, Chapter 58, Chapter 59
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(long) A/N: This story was born as a result of my procrastination. I wrote the first chapter instead of working on the paper for my PhD, an evening I was alone in the lab. I couldnât resist, because I could see Jamie right there in front of me, teasing Claire in the class. Now, a year and a half later, I have finished writing my paper and my PhD thesis, got my PhD and I prepare for the next stage of my life. I guess what I want to say is⌠It has been a journey.Â
I posted the first chapter as a one-shot and your feedback made me go on. Back then I knew the beginning and the end of this story and thought it would be about 20 chapters long. Well, these two kids had other plans. They had so much to do in between, to live together, that the story kept becoming longer and longer. And I loved it. I loved writing them. I really, really did.
When I was a few chapters in, I posted something about English not being my native language (as if that wasnât obvious -- I had just started writing in English). The amazing @theministerskat saw that post and sent me a dm offering to beta Thermo. She was the first person I talked to on Tumblr and has stayed with me since then, correcting approximately 124,472,539 wrong prepositions in the process. Kat, I hope you havenât regretted that dm. I canât thank you enough. Love you.
So, here we are. The last chapter! Thank you all for the love you have shown to this story. Thank you for your reblogs, comments and likes. Thank you for your messages. Thank you for being a part of this journey! Youâre amazing.
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Chapter 60. An Interruption in the 1st Law of Thermodynamics
Oxmas.
A little Christmas bubble in Oxford before the end of the term, created for the students to celebrate the holiday together. Even if it had to be a month early.Â
Music, colourful Christmas markets, trees going up on the streets -- even at the centre of the old Bodleian court. I could never have imagined the Bodleian court looking more beautiful, but apparently, everything looks better with a Christmas tree.
My legs were hurting from the midnight ice-skating Malva, Mary, and Maisri had dragged me to. The three Mâs of my Catastrophe, as I called them. But it was fun. A lot of fun. So much fun that I had forgotten myself for a while and laughed with all my heart.
Then Iâd remembered that I would never tell him how great midnight ice-skating with friends was.Â
Him. Sometimes it was difficult even to think of his name, let alone say it.
But life was going on and I was still at Oxford, with friends and our magical Christmas campus. Thinking about how terrible the holiday would be back at home, I decided that I owed it to myself to have a little bit of fun here.
I didnât want to think about the end of the term. I was supposed to go to the US and then to Lallybroch with Jamie. Lamb wouldn't be in Edinburgh, because when I announced my initial plans heâd decided that he wouldnât fly back. He was at a critical point in his research, heâd said.Â
Back then, it was fine. Lamb was happy and heâd eased my guilt for leaving him alone in a single phone call.Â
It was the reason I still hadn't told Lamb about Jamie. I didnât want him to come back because his little niece couldnât handle a break-up. And now, once the term was over, I would spend a month in Edinburgh alone, most probably studying for the next term. The ideal Christmas break. Just awesome.
âYouâre still in your pyjamas?â Malvaâs eyebrows shot up the moment she entered my dorm room.Â
âYes?â I asked confused, as I watched her walking towards me, shaking her head.
âToday is the event at Bodleianâs Old Schools Quad, remember? The one with the projections of maps on the buildings? You said you wanted to go!âÂ
I had said that, but then I forgot about it. It would be amazing, seeing the maps from the Bodleian Library collection projected onto the libraryâs historic buildings. I shot Malva an apologetic glance and got out of bed. âGive me ten minutes?â I implored, and headed towards my closet.Â
âWeâll wait for you outside,â she said, before I heard the door click shut.Â
I wore my favourite pair of jeans and a soft, warm sweater. Boots. A woollen scarf and a beanie, that meant I didnât have to put any effort into taming my unruly curls. In less than ten minutes, I joined Malva and Mary who were giggling at something next to the front door.Â
âWhat?â I asked, walking towards the entrance.Â
âWell, our little shy daisy here has something to tell you, Claire.â
My eyes shot from Malvaâs teasing smile to Maryâs blushing cheeks. âOh my God! What?â
âItâs nothing!â Mary exclaimed, much louder than normal. Startling herself with her raised voice, her next words came out in a whisper. âItâs nothing, nothing. Iâve only met him once.â
âHim? Who?â I inquired with a grin on my face.
âAlex,â Malva replied instead of Mary, batting her eyelashes and faking a swoon.
âWho is Alex, Mary?â
âThis guy,â Mary murmured. âI dropped my scarf last night and he picked it up and gave it back to me. He was so kind, and he smiledâŚâ
âAnd?â I pushed her, but Mary had hardly heard me, lost in her reverie.Â
âWe were walking in the same direction,â she continued, her voice dreamy. âAnd we talked, and I donât know how, but I didnât stutter at all. He had the most beautiful eyes, and heâs a fresher too.â
âWhich college?â Malva asked, chewing her lip. âWe should pay him a visit!â
âNnn-o, no, no.â Mary faltered. âAnd I donât know that, anyway. An older guy materialized next to us all of a sudden and told him they had to go. Alex looked at me and said --â
âTill next time,â Malva spoke, imitating a manâs low voice.
âYes, but not like that, you know,â Mary corrected, smiling and blushing even more. âBut he doesnât have my number and I-- I donât know howâŚâ
âCome on.â I linked her elbow with mine. âHe might be there tonight.â
I was sure Mary hadnât seen a single projection all night, her eyes scanning the crowd for him, for Alex. It was sweet and honest, and it made my heart hurt. So I focused my attention on the lights dancing on the hundred year old walls. The old and the new, in perfect conjunction. With my eyes on the Old School Quad buildings, I didnât notice another him until he was standing right next to me.Â
âThat interested in maps, are you?â Robertâs French accent stood out from the British ones around us. I hadnât seen him since that night at the bar, three days before. We had agreed to go out for drinks again, the way people always do when they say goodbye because they feel like they have to. He had my number and I had his from when we were back in Zambia, but, as expected, neither of us had called.
âItâs enchanting, isnât it?â I asked in a light voice as I moved my eyes over another projection.Â
He made a low, affirmative sound, but when I turned my head towards him, he was already looking at me again. âSo, how do you find your first Oxmas?â
Robert shrugged. âItâs weird, isnât it? The term hasnât finished and I still have to work on an essay for the 26th, but everyone is so cheery. And you know, the trees, the lightsâŚâ
âThey create a totally different atmosphere,â I finished his thought. âIt will be weird when itâs over, going back to the pre-Christmas mood.â
âDefinitely,â he agreed. âBut I like it.â
âWell, celebrating Christmas twice canât be bad.â
His eyes changed for a moment, and his mouth became a hard line. Before I had the chance to say something, he smiled.Â
âChristmas is not my favourite time of the year,â he explained softly.
I was ready to ask how that could be, but I stopped myself in time. His mother. Maybe Christmas brought back memories of family traditions, and his mother was an inextricable part of this time for him. As Ellen had been for Jamie. I wondered whether not having so many memories from my parents was beneficial from time to time. But then, I would give my soul for a few more moments with them.
I took a step towards Robert and squeezed his arm in solidarity. Neither of us spoke, but we didnât need to.
At some point, Malva disappeared and a bit later I felt someone pinching my arm.
âOuch!â I turned to look at Mary. âWhat?â She was blushing again, and when I looked next to her, I saw a skinny guy with brown hair and the sweetest smile who was blushing too.Â
âI didnât find him, but he found me,â Mary whispered to me, her eyes shining with happiness. âDo you mind if we leave?â
I bit my lip to stop the smile from growing wider on my face. âNo, of course not. Good luck!â I watched them until they disappeared into the crowd.Â
I spent the rest of the night standing next to Robert, admiring the projections, enjoying the comfortable silence between us, and letting the colours of light sneak into my heart.Â
âSo, whatâs the plan now?â he asked once the event was over. He looked around, searching for something. Or someone. âIt seems that my friends ditched me,â he observed a moment later.
I snorted. âYeah, mine too. Not big fans of maps, it seems.â
âBooze sounds better,â he commented.Â
âDoes it?â I wondered.Â
âOui. Join me for a pint?â Robert winked at me, then looked nonchalantly at the people leaving the library.
âYou know that once I take the beanie off, a jungle of curls will be waiting underneath it?â I half-joked, half-prepared him for what he would see.
Robert laughed, then looked at my beanie as if I was hiding a little monster underneath it.
âYouâre right,â he grimaced after a long moment of examination. âWe better just walk around.â
His grimace became sincere when he felt my blow to his arm. âYouâre an arse,â I added, for good measure.
âI think Iâve heard that one before,â he laughed, rubbing his arm. âThat hurt,â he grumbled. âYouâre paying for the drinks.â
âFine! But no hair jokes for the rest of the night!â
âDeal!â he said, tugging on a curl, stretching it out and watching it spring back.
We went to a crowded pub, sat at the only available table in a corner, but Robert didnât let me pay for the drinks. We talked about life in Oxford, the medical school and his courses on economics, and I tried hard to keep Jamie out of my mind, not to break down just because Robert had some common classes with him. Robert talked about his fatherâs business in France, and listened to my stories from my travels with Lamb. When we left, he announced that he would walk me back to my dorm, because it was late and he was a gentleman. Ignoring my snort at his description of himself, we started walking towards the dorms of Lady Margaretâs Hall.Â
It was much quieter now that the events were over, but students were still walking around, laughing, flirting, and giggling. The night was beautiful, and a few stars hung in the clear sky. I took a deep breath and tried to empty my head from all thoughts of my heartbreak. I had fun tonight, and I was allowed to. I was entitled to it.
When we arrived at my dorm, I turned to say goodnight only to find Robertâs face a few inches away from mine. My heart stopped when I felt his hot breath and smelled the peppermint in it, from drops heâd bought from a stall at the Christmas market. I held my breath in turn, knowing that it smelled exactly the same. I had eaten half his peppermint drops on our way back to my dorm.
I didnât know what I was supposed to do. Before I had time to think, Robert tilted his head closer to me, and the next moment he brushed his lips against mine. It was gentle. A start. An invitation for more.
And I freaked out.
I took a hurried step back, raising a hand to my lips and looking at him through wide eyes.
Robert frowned at me, then took a step back, too. âYouâre single, arenât you?â he implored, perplexed.
âHow?â I asked, not wanting to affirm his notion.
âHow did I know?â
I nodded.
âYou havenât mentioned him once tonight or the other night at the bar, youâre not constantly on your phone texting him and you didnât send him a picture from the event. Even though you loved it. It wasnât so hard to figure out,â he concluded and shrugged, his gaze falling on my lips again.
âI guess Iâm quite easy to read,â I murmured and heard him chuckle.Â
âI like that.â
I nodded again, not knowing what to say. The truth. I had to tell him the truth. I was never good at lies, anyway.Â
âRobert,â I started and his green eyes locked with mine. He was one of those people who didnât even have to try to look good. Robert was the definition of a handsome man. But that didnât matter at all. I took a deep breath and continued. âYouâre not wrong. Jamie and I, weâŚâ I swallowed, cursing myself for stumbling. âWe broke up. But Iâm not ready, and I donât want to move on before I am. It wouldnât be fair, to either of us.âÂ
Robert nodded and raised his chin, in defeat or acceptance I wasnât sure, but kept his eyes low on the ground. âI understand.â
âIâm sorry,â I mumbled, wanting him to look at me again. âIâm still in love with him.â
At that comment, Robert looked at me and gave me a wistful smile. He took a step towards me again and placed a warm, gentle hand on my cheek. His thumb caressed my cheekbone as he murmured something in French, so low that I wasnât able to catch it. âYouâre a good one, Claire,â he said, at last.Â
âI donât know about that,â I disagreed.Â
âI do,â he insisted, then took a step back and turned to leave. I stayed rooted in place. He had only taken two steps away before he turned back again, grinned at me, and said, âSee you around, Miss Bennet.â
As I walked up to my room, I wondered whether he was a good one. If I had made a huge mistake by stopping him, by not kissing him back. He was beautiful, smart and witty, even if he was a little bit more cocky and authoritative than I would like.Â
And yet, kissing him now didnât feel right.
Robert had a wonderful French accent, and all I wanted to hear was Jamieâs heavy Scottish one.
I fell onto my bed, hating Jamie for ruining my Oxmas, my chances for a future, my life. Hating myself for loving him so much.
Mary came back from her date after midnight. Alex had kissed her and her exhilaration permeated the thick layer of unhappiness that surrounded me. I was happy for her. I was glad she had found someone who was so like her, who could understand her, and care for her. Who didnât mind if she was shy or stuttered, and saw the lovely person she was.
By the time Mary fell asleep, I couldnât find it in me to be upset anymore. But I couldnât force myself to be happy either. I slipped into my semi-depressed state with ease, and when I realized sleep wasnât a choice anymore, I put on my thickest winter coat and headed out to the gardens.Â
I donât know how long I sat by the river, crying, while trying to stop my stupid heart from suffocating me. At last, I lay down on the cold grass, closed my eyes and wondered what kind of an idiot I would be if I ended up with pneumonia. Maybe that would be enough of a shock to delete Jamie from my mind.Â
Maybe.
I woke up with the dawn overtaking the night sky and a hand holding mine. My heart began beating faster and faster, and I closed my eyes again, trying to figure out what to do. This wasnât a womanâs hand. It wasnât Maryâs, or Malvaâs. It was a big, warm, male hand that seemed strangely familiar. But who was I to be sure about the familiarity of hands? I resolved to leap to my feet, take a look at the person lying beside me, and if I didnât know him, run back to my dorm as fast as I could.Â
But then he spoke. And his voice was a balm that soothed reality away.
âIf I lay here, if I just lay here, will you lie with me and just forget the world?â
My heart stopped and I felt my eyes grow abnormally wide as I opened them again. I tried to breathe, but I couldnât. I tried to react, to turn and look at him, but I was afraid that he was just a dream and the moment I turned he would dissolve into thin air. He had spoken to me in my dreams before. He had never been there when I had woken up.
âBut youâve never touched me,â I croaked with effort.Â
âWhat?â His whisper was barely audible. Tentative.
âYouâve never touched me in my dreams before.â
A chuckle. âYeah, bummer.â His voice quivered and a shiver ran down my spine. âI couldnât touch you in my dreams either, Sassenach, and I decided to do something about it.â
My whole body tensed.
The gall of him.
I sat up so quickly the world tilted on its axis for a few seconds. When I found my bearings again, I slowly turned to look at him.
God, he was beautiful. Those red curls, the bright blue eyes, the wide mouth. I suddenly realized why I couldnât kiss Robert. His soft brown locks, his shining green eyes, his full lips -- they were all wrong. Perfect, but wrong.Â
A small smile curled Jamieâs lips and I realized he was drinking me in too.Â
And then it hit me. The hurt, the desperation, the anger.Â
âWhat are you doing here.â It wasnât a question. It was an interrogation. I set my jaw, resolute to be rigid, determined not to cry.Â
âI had to see you,â he said in a low voice and moved to take my hand. I snatched it away from him.
âWhy? Are you trying to establish a new tradition? Do we have to see each other once a month now that weâre not together?â
âTwenty-six days,â he countered.Â
âWhat?â I asked incredulously.
âItâs been twenty-six days since that night.â
That night. I knew exactly how many days it had been. A part of me had died over the course of each one of those days. I kept my hard gaze on Jamie for a long moment, then stood up. âWell, you saw me. Now, goodbye, Jamie.â
âClaire!â he yelled, alarmed, as he sprang up and rushed to me. âWait.â He towered over me and grabbed my arm, afraid I would leave if he didnât have a proper hold on me. I didnât know if he was wrong about that. I wanted to get away, far away from him. Even looking at him hurt. âPlease, Sassenach.â
âWhat do you want?â Ice infused my tone.Â
âI need to talk to you.â
I didnât want to listen to him, and yet, I wished for him to tell me everything. I wanted to know his heart, his thoughts. I needed answers, so many answers, but just looking at him and knowing he had decided he didnât want to be mine was stealing my breath. He was here, but he wasnât my Jamie anymore.Â
I took a step to leave and heard him gasp, as if I had shot him. I froze in place, balling my hands into fists.Â
I was fighting with myself, struggling to find what I wanted, and how much more pain I could handle. I closed my eyes, trying to set my feelings in order before they could choke me.
I felt like I was four again, standing in the aisle with the chocolate bars at the grocery store and trying to choose one. It was one of the few memories I had with my dad, shopping together. I will never forget how I had stared and stared at the chocolates, licking my lips as if I were imagining their taste on my tongue, trying to decide which one I should put in our cart. And then, surprising myself, I had suddenly started crying. Soon my silent tears turned into wailing, bringing my dadâs attention back to me.Â
âWhat's wrong, Claire?â he had asked, eyebrows scrunched in a frown.Â
But I couldn't answer his question. I hadnât known what was wrong. I only knew that I wanted to do what he had asked and choose only one chocolate, but I also wanted to buy all of them. And I felt tired, too tired to decide. I only wanted my mum, because mum would know which chocolate was the best. So I kept crying, and crying, until my breath came in gasps, and my dad's face was blurry in front of me.Â
He had held my shoulders and pulled me into a hug, then, his big hand drawing circles on my back to soothe me.
âIn here,â he had said afterwards, tapping lightly on my chest, âSnuggle our feelings. And they are so many, sweetheart, that sometimes they don't talk to each other and try to get out of our chest all at once. And we start crying, because we are confused and we don't know how to feel. I want you to take a deep breath, stop crying, and tell me what's wrong.â
And with my father squatting in front of me, his hands tucking errand curls behind my ears, I had told him that I didn't know what I wanted.
I felt the same now, only that I was not four anymore, and I couldnât throw a fit. Jamie was here, standing in front of me, looking me through pleading eyes, and he was all the chocolates. And yet, I couldn't have him. I couldn't trust him, not anymore, but I didn't want to leave either. I couldn't.Â
So I inhaled. Exhaled. In and out, again and again, following my dadâs advice. My coat was soaked from lying on the grass for so many hours, and my hands felt like ice cubes. And I decided to listen to him.
âLetâs go find a bench. My arse is freezing.â
I started walking and heard him falling in step behind me, undoing the zipper of his insulated jacket. âHere,â he offered, catching up with me in two wide strides.Â
âIâm fine, thank you,â I dismissed him, keeping my chin high.
âPlease, Sassenach.â
âDonât call me that!â I hissed, breathing hard. He had decided that I was not his Sassenach before he made that video call. I was plain Claire to him now, and he had better deal with it.
âPlease, Claire,â he repeated, rectifying his slip.
I took his jacket begrudgingly and wore it. It was dry and warm, and it smelled like him.Â
Dammit.
Two minutes later we were sitting on a bench, watching the sky changing from a deep blue to a lighter one. It was beautiful. This would be one of my favourite moments with him if his surprise had happened a month ago. Now, however, I could feel the bitter taste of these twenty-six days in my throat every time I swallowed.
âIâll hear you.â
âCan I hold yer hands, please?â
âNo.â My voice was colder than my hands as I shoved them into his jacket pockets.
Jamie took a deep breath and ran a hand through his hair. It was such a simple gesture and so him, that I felt my heart clench inside my chest. âI miss ye, Claire,â he whispered. âEvery moment, every day.â
I resolved not to talk until he was done, and to keep any tears at bay. I would not cry. I would not.
âI miss ye when I wake up and I donât find yer text on my phone. I miss ye when the guys do something funny and I canât text you to laugh with you about it. I miss ye when I finish training and I canât call ye to see how yeâre doing. I miss ye when I go back to the dorm and canna talk to ye about my day. I wake up every day, knowing that no matter what happens I willna be happy, Claire... I canna think of myself without ye.â
Fuck my resolution. I had to speak.Â
âYou didnât seem to have any problem with that, twenty-six days ago,â I deadpanned.Â
âI was a fool.â Jamieâs voice trembled. âI thought⌠I thought breaking up would be hard, but weâd get over it and then everything would be easier for both of us. I could see ye struggling here, and I couldna even hug you when ye needed me, when ye were tired from long hours in the library. Ye couldna come to my races or be there to calm me down when I was stressed. Another guy in the team broke up with his girlfriend who lived in another State and he got over it, eventually. And we arena in different States, Claire. We live on different continents,â he explained as if that detail had eluded me. âI felt torn all the time, between ye and my life in the US. I ken that I was the one who changed our plans, I was the one who went to Michigan--â
âI never said anything about our plans. I never complained, and I supported your decision from the very first moment. I was the one who told you to go. That is not why we broke up. We broke up because you stopped believing in us. Because you wanted somebody who would be closer to you.â
âNo!â he protested, his gaze bore into mine with insistence and flame. âNo, not somebody. Not anybody. I wanted ye to be close to me, and I thought that if we were in a long-distance relationship for years the pain of not seeing each other would become too much, until we couldna take it anymore. Or what we had would become less. I thought that we would gradually fall apart, and I didna want that. I thought that we didna have any other option, Sassenach. Every time that ye missed one of my calls, or I missed yers, I became more sure of it. Then I thoughtâŚâ he trailed off.
âWhat? What else did you think, Jamie?â I prompted, impatient. He was a mess but I didnât feel merciful in that moment to go soft on him. Not after everything I had been through.
âI thought if we were destined to be together, maybe we would find each other again once ended up in the same country. But now I know, Claire. I dinna want to find ye again after how ever many years, and realize that ye donât want to be mine anymore. That there is a big part of yer life that I know nothing about. I dinna want to miss yer first day in the OR, or yer graduation. I dinna want to miss yer smiles after yer tutorials, even if I can only see them through a screen. I dinna ken what I was thinking when I believed I could do it without you, but I canât. I canât and I donât want to be without you.â
I huffed, partly because I didnât want to let his words have an impact on me. âTwenty-six days. Took you long enough.â
âI tried, at first. I tried to go on, to tuck you into a corner of my heart and keep living. But I couldnât, Sassenach, because all of my heart was yers. I could have come to find you after those first few days. And maybe I should have, but I didna, because I wanted to be sure. But no matter how hard I tried, living without ye didna become easier. It became harder. I kent how I was with ye, and now I ken how it is to live without ye. It sucks, Claire. Iâm miserable without ye. All I could think of this past month--â
âTwenty-six days,â I interrupted him.
He smiled, shaking his head. âI love ye. A Dhia, I love ye so much it hurts. Twenty-six days. All I could think of was ye, Sassenach. How I wanted to share everything with ye. How I needed to ken where ye are, what yeâre doing, and how ye feel. I missed ye with every breath I took. And now I ken that I canna go on without ye.â
Iâd resolved not to cry, but treacherous tears were rolling down my cheeks without asking for my permission.Â
âAnd how do I know that you wonât change your mind again? How can I trust you again, Jamie?â My question found its target in his heart, and I saw his sharp intake of breath from the impact. âYou broke my heart,â I whispered, as an explanation. âYou broke me.â
He looked down for a moment, but quickly locked his eyes on mine again. âI fucked up. I know I did. Forgive, mo nighean donn. Forgive me, please.â He paused for a moment, and extended his hand between us, palm facing up. He didnât remove it when I didnât move to take it, and he continued. âAll Iâm asking for is another chance. One chance, Sassenach. If yeâre not ready, if ye need time, I can wait. I will wait for as long as it takes.â
I didnât know what to say. I didnât think time would change how I felt. I loved him, I knew I did. But he had given up on us, yielding to his fears. He didnât believe we would make it through all the years of our separation. He had chosen a life without me and broke me in the process.
Well, and he regretted it. It was clear that he did. I could see it as much in the pain in his eyes as I could hear it in his voice when he spoke.Â
I watched Jamieâs chest rising and falling with every breath he took while he waited for me to say something. His hair was a mess from all the times he had run his hand through it. I wanted to fix it, and then run my fingers over his cheekbones, over the curve of his lips. And yet, I was frozen in my place. Not even to take his hand that lay on the bench between us.
âHow can we ever be the same again?â I asked, unsure. I started caving in, and I didnât know how to feel about it.
âI dinna want us to be the same. Dâye remember the first time I talked to ye?â he asked with a timid smile. âIn Mrs. Fitzâs class, ye were keeping notes on the first law of thermodynamics.â
I didnât know where he was going with that, but I stayed silent and let him go on.
âThe conservation of energy. Nothing is lost, Sassenach; only changed. And I donât care if we change, as long as we change together. This⌠Me without ye⌠It was an interruption in the first law of thermodynamics. Because I was lost. And thatâs against the laws of physics.â
I laughed. This was ridiculous. Jamie blushed, and then laughed with me.
âI ken what I want now, Claire. I want ye. I want us. And I will fight for us, if ye let me, because what we had -- what we have -- itâs true. Itâs truer than anything I will ever get. Itâs more than I could ever ask for.â
I kept my eyes on the river, the grass, the sky. I felt my heart beating faster in response to his words, as if each time he spoke he glued another of its broken parts back in place.
âAll Iâm asking for, is a chance,â Jamie implored. âA chance to prove myself to ye, mo ghraidh.âÂ
âA chance,â I murmured, trying to sort the tangle of emotions in my chest.
He came closer, now brave enough to take my hands out of my pockets and wrap them in his. âI know ye and ye know me. Yeâre the only person in the world that really knows me. Yeâre my heart and my soul Claire, and I canna leave without them, can I?â Without taking his eyes from me, he leaned into me and kissed me gently on the lips.Â
And damn him, it felt right. But I didnât kiss him back. I had more to say.
âYou didnât talk to me.â I kept my voice calm. âYou had all these thoughts in your head, and you left me here in the dark, thinking that everything was alright on your end. And when you made up your mind, you just called me to announce the verdict of a trial I didnât participate in.â
Jamie opened his mouth to reply, but closed it again. I guess there was nothing he could say that wouldnât be a lie. He had decided for both of us.
âThisâŚâ I started again. âThis is not how things work, how relationships work. If you have second thoughts, I need to know. If you need something Iâm not giving you, I need to know. If you believe that weâre fucking falling apart,â I finally barked, unable to keep the anger from my voice, âI. Need. To. Know.â
Jamie nodded, but I was far from finished. âWhat weâre trying to do is bloody hard. We need to talk, and talking includes the unpleasant discussions too. Iâm not going to try again without knowing that youâll do that.â
âI give ye my word, Claire. We will make this work. I will do anything I can to make sure it does.â
âWill you talk to me? Always?â There was no ice or blaze in my voice now. Just a question. A sincere question that demanded an honest answer.Â
âAlways,â Jamie vowed and leaned into me. âI will not give up on us, ever again,â he whispered on my lips, and I drank the words in.
I had trusted him with my heart before and he broke it. But he was right when he said that I knew him. And I knew heâd torn his own heart apart in the process too. I could still see the pain in the way his sweater hung a little too wide on him, in the black bags underneath his blue eyes. I looked into his eyes, those eyes I knew better than my own, and saw the truth in them.
âOne chance, Jamie Fraser. You wonât get another.â
âI willna need another. Yeâre mine and Iâm yers, and I will never let you go again.â
âPromise?â I asked, as if that would seal the deal. As if his promise would secure my happiness.
âPromise,â Jamie nodded emphatically, his eyes overflowing with tears that split when he closed them and kissed me again.
And this time, I kissed him back. It was long, and soft, and encompassing. It was an offering of his soul, and I took it, keeping it safe inside my chest. A treasure and a hostage.Â
âPlus,â Jamie said once we stopped to catch our breath. âI offer you a chance to torture me forever for making the worst mistake of my life.â
I laughed, cupped his cheeks and kissed him again.
I closed my eyes. Life was nothing but chances and choices. Decisions. Paths waiting for us to take them. A huge aisle with chocolate bars.Â
I looked towards the path in front of me and I saw Jamie and me together -- arguing, fighting, kissing, laughing. I saw a man who wasnât flawless, but was mine. I saw a future that wasnât perfect, but was real.Â
I saw happy moments and sad ones. I saw difficulties and dreams coming true. I saw us facing life with our hands clasped tightly together.Â
When I opened my eyes again, I saw a risk, but a risk worth taking.Â
âChallenge accepted, Jamie Fraser.âÂ
And just like that, the next chapter of our lives began.
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Sonette thanks you for an awesome 2019~
Hello my dear lovely moots and followers! 2019 is ending and I just want to thank everyone who stayed by my side. I appreciate all of you! You guys have made my 2019 amazing!
Plus 2019 was the year I met some of my moots irl đĽşđ and ate good food đ𤤠in my âhometownâ Anyways!!!!! Honorable mentions under the cut! And if I forgot you, I give you permission to yell at me đâđź
I know some of yâall do the tags alphabetically but like... Iâm kinda lazy lol (blame my messy side on infp-t traitđ
) and like I just wanna write little messages for my moots that I interact ever so often and I follow whatever shows up on my @âsÂ
First of all, I want to thank missus Rubyđ¤Â @changbeanie for letting me stay at her house and letting me borrow her wonderful couch 𼺠and let me tell you something, her couch is hella comfortable!! Thank you for the good food you cooked on my first night :o and the coconut milk!!!! Which I ended up buying every time Iâm at the Asian store :D Iâm gonna need your couch again this Feb lol (ăĽďżŁ 3 ̄)㼠The letters you send are soo cute and it always make me ugly sob (;´ŕźŕşśĐŕźŕşś`)
And thanks to Ruby I met her BFF SidđŚ(ice cream because good food was shared with you (oăâ˝ă)oâ) @softyhyunjin a.k.a my fave Hyunjin stan :D THANK YOU bb for putting them falsies on me cause idk how LOL I canât wait to see you and Ruby again on Feb! WE GONNA EAT GOOD FOOD AGAIN hehe
Ohh yessss!! I also met missus LeađşÂ @blushyunjins and missus Jerikađ @hanchanbin one of my fave Chan stan :D idek if theyâre gonna see this lol cause they are both busy women uwuăž(��Ďâ˘`)o but Iâm so glad I met you both and made my SoCal trip an unforgettable one!
Missus Aurorađ @seungminsmile my favorite SeungJin stan!! Thank you for getting me the Miroh (from what I remember but Iâm old soo, I have bad memory lol) album when you were in Korea and thank you for the Chan pc you traded me with hehe ďźďźžâďźžâďźďžď˝ź canât believe Iâm gonna see you again this Feb!!!
Missus Maddyđ (thereâs no pizza rolls so pizza will do i hope kdsfj) @hoodiehan I was so sad that I didnât get to see you at the concert in Pasadena, but hopefully I get to see you on Feb!! I also want to thank you for blessing my dash with news about skz and some random videos of them you find on twt lol and I want to thank you for all the hard work you put on straykidsupdate!
I also want to thank my first child who sadly deactivated :â(( LouđĽ I miss you and thank you for making my 2019 an unforgettable one with our weird video chats and messages đĽşđ
MISSUS AIMEEâ @arqueritefrost thank you for the letter you sent! YOU ALSO MADE ME UGLY SOB ಼_಼ thank you for always making my day and I guess thank you for attacking me with Chan posts (â´シдシ)ďž because I do the same to you hehe :D
KAITđ @yeaimfishboi my seester!!! I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE/MEET YOU ON FEB at SuperMâs concert!!!! Weâre finally meeting ahhhh and of course youâre gonna meet one of my BFFs sheâs chill sooo Iâm sure you two will get along!! But thank you for always checking up on me even though life can be busy. I love you so much!!
Missus Kashiđ° @chimneycloud another fellow Chan stan!! Thank you for making my 2019 days whenever you leave an ask or whenever you post AMAZING AND SEXIE GFX!! Youâre so talented and you inspire me to create more gfx!
ATE MORIđ @luvknow my fellow svt stan! I want to thank you for producing such beautiful and sexie ass fics!! You and of course missus Ruby inspire me to write more (but Iâve just been lazy lately and life has been busy or Iâm just procrastinating LOL) But anywayss ate, I honestly love calling you ate! And thank you for blessing my dash with your sexie selfies (´â˝`ĘâĄĆŞ)
QUEEN EMđ @realstraykids last year I was honored to be given a wonderful gift which was your beautiful header and beautiful icon which I will never forget! I know youâve been busy lately but whenever I see you post something whether it be a reblog or what not, it makes me happy because I am following such a talented and BEAUTIFUL human beingđĽşđ
Missus Falakđ @3noracha I JUST WANNA THANK YOU FOR BLESSING MY DASH WITH YOUR AMAZING GFX! And for being the best and amazing human ever! Youâre so nice and sweet and when I saw that you got your old url back I was all giddy and happy like ďźź((( ̄( ̄( ̄â˝ďżŁ) ̄) ̄)))ďź hehe
OKAY THIS IS GETTING LONG KFSDHB Iâm gonna stop here and just tag the rest that made my 2019!
@dimpleboyjeffery @00hj @iridescentbee @cold-eyes-made-ice @hyunjins-wife @cherryblossomchangbin @bangchcn @butterfly948
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Millennials - Part 6 -
Title: Millennials
Genre: Fluff, romance
Pairing: Kim Yugyeom x You
Summary: Life is made of stages and each of them is a hard push on the back, forcing you to forge ahead. Youâre facing your biggest crisis, and then thereâs him, who lives from day to day. Of course he does, he is just a kid.
Words: 3535
Warning: Small age difference. Yugyeom x Noona Reader.
Please check my masterlist and reblog for previous chapters!
- Part 6 -Â
Thereâs no such thing as sadness, Yugyeom thinks. Everything is good in life. The weather is perfect, everyone is beautiful, the food tastes better than usual and wow, when did his skin become so perfect?
He communicates with you via messages because youâre busy and honestly, he doesnât mind. You never wait for too long before answering, you agree to whatever he proposes and most importantly, youâll be seeing each other at work tonight.
Yugyeom had no idea he would ever be excited about going to work.
âLook, itâs our Don Juan.â Jackson is the first one to tease Yugyeom when he joins his friends the day after. Theyâre supposed to do some shopping and Bambam is currently trying to walk around, his arms full of extravagant clothing and jewellery.
âBam! Can you hurry the fuck up! I canât find anything interesting in that shop!â Jackson yells before turning around to find a cutely blinking Yugyeom. âAlso, donât leave me with the lovesick guy!â he finishes, his body leaning against a huge rack of belts.
âDo I look lovesick? Because I am. God, Iâm so in love.â Yugyeom sighs dramatically but his face shows nothing but pure bliss.
He cannot believe what is happening in his life. Nothing seems real, itâs like a dream dangerously close to end until he pinches his hand. Yugyeom has no idea how to function anymore but does he even care? What is reality even? He doesnât mind staring at the wall for hours if it means reminiscing the awesome kisses he gave you.
He certainly has no problem grinning to himself and feeling full just thinking about how your hands grabbed his with tenderness.
âYou look stupid.â Jackson concludes with a shrug as Bambam comes back with huge shopping bags and greets a dreamy Yugyeom.
âItâs okay.â Yugyeom doesnât mind being teased. He isnât even sure he is aware of his surroundings anymore. His feet are floating, taking his body wherever the hell it has to go and following his friends.
Itâs been one day and he is still not over the fact that he is dating his precious noona.
He will never have enough of your cute tone over the phone. He loves your shy reactions and embarrassment whenever he becomes cheesy and sweet.
Goodnight, Gyeomie.
He starts laughing whenever he thinks about the way you call him.
âHere he goes againâŚâ Bambam sighs as he puts the heavy bags into Jacksonâs car. His friend merely pats him on the back before whispering about weird kids.
Bambam observes him one last time and laughs when Yugyeom whines cutely in front of his phone.â¨
âSheâs so cute. Sheâs too cute I donât think Iâll survive. Sheâll be the end of me!â Yugyeom wails again, his long body colliding with the car seat.
âSTOP IT!â Both his friends warn him but he barely listens.
He is on cloud nine.
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The grocery shop is empty tonight. A huge storm is threatening the whole city, worrying its people and resulting in them staying in for the whole day. You had no trouble coming to work, which is fine but as youâre staring at the wall, youâre wondering if time is going to pass as slowly as it does, now.
The door opens, turning your attention from your book and the reminder of your sentimental status enters, smiley and careful.
You donât know how to act. Yugyeom is blooming, teeth showing because his smile is huge. He walks toward you and stops himself before he can lean for a kiss. He knows too much about you to act carelessly. Knowing you, you will probably tell him to be discreet.
â¨How can he? He wants to talk to everyone and tell them he is dating the perfect girl waiting behind the cash-register and who looks like she wants to murder everyone.
Yugyeom takes his jacket off and waves at you, his cheeks turning pink. âHi, noona.â
You nod, looking around the shop to make sure that the customer who just came in behind Yugyeom wonât see it. âHey, Yugyeom.â
Yugyeom stills, his smiles dying at the mention of his full name. You seem distant, cold even, but maybe youâre just shy? He lets it go for now, not eager to feel depressed when he should enjoy your presence.
âExcuse me?â The customer asks as he peeks from behind the aisle. You simply raise your head at Yugyeom when you donât see him move.
Is he going to stare at you all day? Gosh, itâs so embarrassing.
âCan you please go and see what he needs?â You ask, your tone harsher than intended and if you didnât go back to reading your book, you wouldnât have missed the pure look of hurt painting Yugyeomâs face.
He walks away, silent.
You hear him speak but he sounds dejected. Itâs not like you can do anything about it. You donât want to be this way but itâs out of your reach. Yugyeom makes you go soft and if you donât mind being mushy on the phone, reality is harder and turns you into that bitch Yugyeom doesnât deserve.
When the customer arrives, Yugyeom strolls to the storage room and decides to ignore you. You donât know what to do so you let him be. Itâs a pity, you both should enjoy the feeling of being together but because of you everything is ruined.â¨
After two hours of ignoring each other and him doing his best to hide into the storage room to apparently sort it out, you start freaking out. What if Yugyeom breaks up with you? What if he understands that youâre a bitch and will probably hurt him even more if he stays around you?
He was so sweet the day before with his flower and oh god, the way he kissed you back, how gentle he was.
You want to slap yourself so hard when you come back to your sense. You thank the last customer before she goes away and decide to go and see him.
Knowing Yugyeom, he must feel so sad about the situation.
You enter the storage you and he stops as soon as he sees you, arms full of tiny boxes. âDo you need something?â He asks, expectant and worried for what might probably come.â¨
What if you break up with him? What if you realised he will never be good enough for you and change your mind? He should have known; it was too good to be-
âIâm sorry.â You say calmly. âIâm sorry for acting weird and being cold. I justâŚitâs new to me, you know? I donât know how to act; I feel like I donât know how to be a good girlfriend so I push you away before I can embarrass myself some more.â You rub your face tiredly, mad at yourself for being the reason behind Yugyeomâs pouty face.
The latter says nothing and simply puts the boxes down on the floor, sighing.
He gets up and stares at you, his arms crossed over his chest and you understand he is mad at you.
But he isnât and it takes a second for him to reach for you and wrap his arms around your frustrated form.
âDonât think about it too much, Noona. If anything bothers you, just tell me.â He leans and hides in the crook of your neck, his breath tickling the sensitive skin. âI can understand. Iâm young but Iâm not stupid.â He jokes because he feels relieved and doesnât want you to feel too bad about the situation.
âI donât think youâre stupid, Gyeomie.â You sigh, as guilty as ever. He is still beating himself when youâre the one at fault.
Yugyeom squeals and parts from you just enough to see your face. âGod, itâs even better when you say it to my face.â He leans before you can even answer and kisses you.
It feels good. Yugyeom is the same gentle person, careful and caring as his long fingers cup you chin to deepen the kiss. You let him, your own hands grabbing his shirt to keep your balance as your knees go weak. He even hums into the kiss when his tongue shyly meets yours, not afraid to let you know how much he enjoys it.
His lips leave yours when he finds himself too overwhelmed and his fingers end in your hair, threading the locks in adoration. His eyes look at you with all the love they can hold and he smiles. âI have to practice later; do you want to come and watch me dance?â
You nod, eyes still closed but fluttering open when you hear him chuckle cutely.
The grocery shopâs door opens before he can kiss you again so he merely brushes his nose against yours affectionately before walking back into the shop.
You take a deep breath and try to focus on your breathing because your heart is melting.
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You ignore Nayaâs messages when you sit into the dance studio. She is teasing you non-stop, sending numerous times âyouâre so whippedâ along with a ton of emojis and youâre sure youâll kill her next time youâll see her annoying smiley face. Yugyeom went to change and youâre not sure youâre ready to see him dance but the place is empty and the atmosphere is so cosy. It feels like some really professional studio where talented crews come up with great choreographies.
Yugyeom arrives rapidly, his clothes drastically different and skin out in the open. He looks rather embarrassed for his face has never been so red and goes to the speaker to connect his phone, starting the upbeat music.
âJust tell me if you get bored, okay?â He says from where he stands in the middle of the room and you nod, legs crossed and eyes wide open.
What you see goes beyond your expectations. It takes a while but as soon as he starts moving, you see it, peeking from behind the floating top he is wearing.
Yugyeom has tattoos?
They seem to be everywhere, on his ribs, on his shoulders, they come and go with every move but arenât enough to make you forget about the way Yugyeom dances. He seems to be a totally different person, from the way his jaw clenches to how passionate his eyes are. His legs look even longer with every step he takes, his pace following the beat perfectly and matching the music heavenly.
â¨Suddenly, he looks like a man.
This duality amazes you. Earlier he looked like a lost boy in the middle of a crowd and now he seems in control of everything and uncaring of his surroundings. He doesnât even mind thrusting his hips in the air and even looks at you from time to time, smirking and looking more sensual than cute.
When the music stops, he makes it start all over again and does a whole different choreography, as amazing as the first one yet even more perfect.
You donât move, captivated and patient, like youâre in front of a mysterious movie. You could watch him for hours you decide, itâs so controlled and perfect.
He is breathless when he is done, but still glances at you to wait for your reaction. You can only clap, your hands now the only sound in the room and Yugyeom blushes again, his dark mode now off and baby boy side back.
âYouâre a great dancer. I didnât know you wereâŚthis good.â You muse, eyes shining and looking impressed.
Yugyeom merely shrugs. âSomethingâs off with that music. Iâm supposed to do an improvisation but Iâm struggling.â He smiles, grabbing the towel next to you and sitting.
You hum, nodding slowly. You donât know much about dancing but it doesnât look like he is struggling at all. âYouâre doing amazing, in my opinion. I donât know much about it but I loved it.â You lean to rest your head over his shoulder but he moves away, whining.
âIâm too sweaty, noona.â
You sigh. âItâs fine, Gyeomie.â
The later smiles sweetly at you. âYouâre saying this to get more kisses, arenât you? Youâve said it around twenty times already. Iâm too weak for this, noona.â He leans and stops before his lips can touch yours.
âBut you like it, right?â you mumble, looking at him. âAlso, you said you wanted to keep on calling me noona.â
âI like calling you noona. Youâre my noona, noona.â Yugyeom teases, biting his lip.
âIt does sound like a kink.â
He hums. âFor who? You or me? You look like you enjoy it, though.â
You smile, reaching up to get a kiss. âI do, I really do.â
The atmosphere is different. It went from being icy to being warm and you have to admit you prefer it that way. You donât know what the future will be, but you do know that you want him to keep smiling for you.
You sit properly when youâre done kissing him and you finally remember something youâve been waiting to ask. âSo, you have tattoos?â
Yugyeomâs face instantly change, his features turning a soft shade of pink and his hand aiming for his cheek, grabbing the burning skin. âYes, I-â he looks down, suddenly too self-conscious about his revealing tank top. âI always wear these when I practice, I forget I have those-â He stammers, obviously disturbed, âI hope you donât mindâŚ?â
You chuckle when you find his expectant gaze. He is too cute to be true. He must probably be thinking that youâre about to break up with him, again. âItâs fine, I like them. How many do you have? I can just see some parts peeking.â You look down and tilt your head, not daring enough to pull on the fabric to reveal what seems to be a flower on his ribcage.
Yugyeom gulps, not expecting to be showing his body after barely a day of relationship. âAh, well, if you want to seeâŚâ He raises on both knees and starts showing you the said flower. âThis one is a dandelion.â He pulls on the other side of his tank top to reveal a single sentence. âI also have this one.â He offers his shoulders and then stop, blinking cutely at you.
His hesitation surprises you. âWhatâs wrong?â
He smiles, the tip of his ears turning as red as tomatoes. âWell, the last one is on my back, I donât think I shouldâŚremove...â his arms fly in the air, mimicking weird moves.
You understand right away and opt for a bit of teasing to relax Yugyeom. âYou looked less embarrassed earlier with your hip moves.â
He laughs, head jerking back and acknowledging your remark. âAnyways! These are all I have. Do you have tattoos, noona?â
You shake your head, body now resting against the wall as Yugyeom goes back to a sitting position. He scares you when he claps his hands.
âLetâs take a selfie!â He takes his phone out of his pocket and raises an arm toward you. âI want to have a picture with you, noona.â
âIâm not photogenic.â You make a face but approach him nonetheless.
Yugyeom hushes you and proceeds to take a thousand pictures.
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The rest of the night goes by as fast as it started. You grab something to eat on your way out â Yugyeom doesnât seem to let you go back home â and walk around for a while. Itâs peaceful yet stressing, because you have to get used to the overly touchy Yugyeom and his constant need to show you how close he wants to be. He always has a hand around your shoulder and oh god does he have to keep on touching your nape with his way too long fingers?
You like it, you like it to the point of hating it. Nothing about Yugyeom makes you find a reason to refuse his kindness. Not even the cute smiles he offers, not even his gentleman side. You accept everything and it makes your brain cells battle for dominance over which one is going to win the fight of resistance.
â¨One side is obviously drowning into his kindness while the other one freaks out, frightened by the idea of committing to such a great human being.
Naturally, it makes you act like you have two personalities, one giggling when Yugyeom steals a kiss between two trees and another one not reacting when he does cute gesture to make you laugh.
Yugyeom looks puzzled but doesnât ask. You notice he fears your reactions every time he does something.
And itâs true. Yugyeom is freaking out.
He doesnât know if it must do with the fact that your relationship is new, or if youâre going to go back on full cold mood any second.
He leaves it at that when he finds himself in front of your doorstep. You barely kiss him before going inside. Itâs the end of a roller coaster he isnât sure he can keep on riding and despite his incredibly great mood earlier that day, he isnât sure he feels as delighted as he used to.
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âSheâs scared.â
Jinyoung doesnât know why he has to deal with a sulky Yugyeom in the middle of his bookstore. The young boy arrived earlier than expected with a sad face and wonât stop whining right onto his face.
âI donât think she wants to be with me. Sometimes she does look truly happy, but then something happens in her head and she turns cold.â Yugyeomâs body is limp on his friendâs counter, who is currently typing stuff on his computer, focused.
Jinyoung sighs after a while, crossing his arms over his chest. âTell her. I donât know what else to say and you will probably never believe anything I try to explain to you.â
Yugyeom scoffs, barely raising his head. âSo what do I do? I lost ten years of my life to confess only, what more do I need to do? Canât we just be happy and romantic and cute?â
âYouâre not 10 anymore. If you want your noona youâll have to fight for it.â Jinyoung laughs, âKim Yugyeom is discovering life, how interesting.â
âPlease, I wanted to see her tonight because itâs her day off and she told me she was busy. What kind of busy? Iâm her boyfriend. Well, it doesnât even feel like Iâm her boyfriend. Every time I feel like she is back on normal mode she does that shit again and itâs only been two days.â Yugyeom is frustrated. If he had to explain the situation, he would say itâs way too complicated. He knows nothing about dealing with his own feelings, especially this strong. If on top of that he must deal with a conflicted significant other, he might as well give up.
âIâm telling you,â Jinyoung points a finger to his friendâs forehead and pushes Yugyeomâs head away from his expensive wooden counter. âTalk to her.â
The latter nods, fingers tapping the furniture one last time before getting up. âAre you done yet? I need a drink.â
Jinyoung rolls his eyes. âYouâre so dramatic.â
Yugyeom feels burdened. He has no experience when it comes to complex relationships and has no clue about how to deal with such weird dynamics. He only knows about living without worrying about the future so of course he canât deal with you.â¨
He canât understand what more he can do, but he also doesnât know why you agreed on dating him.
Maybe you pitied him. Maybe you didnât want to hurt him?
The bar is crowded but Yugyeom barely pays attention. He sits and avoids Jinyoungâs remarks like his friend isnât even there. His mind is clouded by doubt; from the very first thing he should say to you next time he sees you to the possible outcome.
He looks around, barely thanking Jackson when he offers him a fresh beer.
âI donât think she doesnât want to be with you. She probably has a hard time accepting? I agree with Jinyoung, get that talk. Itâs the only way to know and reassure her if needed.â Jackson announces when Yugyeom stays quiet. He looks back at his friends and agrees, grabbing his beer and drinking softly.
âIt hurts to say this but,â Jinyoung leans on the table, âJackson is right.â
Jackson rolls his eyes dramatically, puffing. âI, too, can be a smart-ass.â
Yugyeom smiles at the two, turning around when a group of people start singing way too loudly.
âJust enjoy for tonight, youâll think about it-â Jackson pats his friend but slows his pace when he sees the way Yugyeomâs face turns shocked.
Jinyoung glances at the two, âWhatâs wrong?â
Yugyeom tilts his head, brows furrowed as he scoffs, bitter.
âSheâs here.â
âWhat?â Jinyoung raises from his chair to get a better view and Jackson starts looking around the room, clapping his hands.
âGreat, finish your drink and go talk to her!â
Yugyeom softly shakes his head, his eyes turning too dark to be considering any sort of normal discussion.
He doesnât get it.
Why the hell are you sitting and laughing with another guy?
âI donât think she wants to see me, right now.â
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June Angel Fish Awards
Every month all of you fantastic writers work your asses off to post some truly incredible stories. Our Angel Fish Awards are the way for all of us, as a community of writers and readers, to lift each other up and give praise to those who have captured our attention and deserve a few kind words.
The monthly Angel Fish Awards are peer-nominated, meaning ANYONE IN THE POND CAN NOMINATE ANY POND MEMBERâS FIC. While the Pond was founded to support the Guppies, everyone in this community deserves to be showered with love and feedback, and we hope that by opening this up as a Pond wide system, weâll be able to share the love as far as it can go.
NOTE: WEâVE BEEN HAVING OCCASIONAL PROBLEMS WITH ASKS GOING MISSING. Please use the Submit button when submitting your nominations and make sure youâre signed into Tumblr or your URL wonât show. (If the form asks for your name and email address, then youâre not signed in.) If you like, you can also send a message to Michelle or Mana to check and make sure we got your submission.
WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, HERE ARE JUNEâS ANGEL FISH AWARDS!
Nominated by @wingedcatninja and @mrswhozeewhatsis and @manawhaat
The Song Remains the Same (oneshot) by @sammit-janetÂ
@wingedcatninja said -Â This fic by @sammit-janet is the best case fic I have ever read. It has everything: drama, angst, a witch curse, perfect characterization. Reading it was like being inside an episode of Supernatural. And, without spoiling anything, the ending broke my heart. To quote my own comment when I reblogged it:
âI donât even know where to start. The story is fantastic. The prose is beautiful. The characterization is on point. The angst is delightfully painful. Itâs just overall amazing. Thank you for sharing this awesome piece of art.â
@mrswhozeewhatsis said -Â The painful ingenuity of the spell in this case fic is genius. Pure freaking genius! Painful as hell, but genius. Characterization is wonderful, as always, and my heart is a little more broken, but Iâm used to that with Sammit!! Brava!!!! *throws roses at you*
@manawhaat said-Â WOW! That was fucking awesome! We see witch spells so often and (maybe itâs bc of the genre Iâm reading but) theyâre always like lust spells of some sort, so it was super refreshing to see this kind of spell. This whole thing was just really well done, super interesting, perfectly in character and the realm of spn. And that last little bit. UGH! SO PERFECT! So Dean! So spot on! So fitting and heartbreaking and such a perfect little add on. I swear, this whole thing legit felt like I watched an episode of the show. This case fic is a perfect example of how I want every fic to read. I want the drama, the suspense, the emotion, the subtleties, the Winchesters as they truly are, this kind of gentle care for detail and attention to creating a realistic feel. I canât say it enough- this is fucking FANTASTIC!
Nominated by @wingedcatninja
Never Wanna Say Goodbye (oneshot) by @deanwinchesterswitch
This is deliciously painful angst that leaves you with tears in your eyes and a smile on your lips.
Nominated by @risingphoenix761
Salty Stockings (oneshot) by @slytherkins
Cute, hilarious, and just the right amount of crack. Also risque and suggestive. Did I mention this is hilarious? So much good stuff in a short fic, and imagine if anyone suggested Dean take this with him on a hunt!
Nominated by @manawhaat
True or False (oneshot) by @thegirlwhorunswithwinchesters
The way this starts instantly pulls you in. Thereâs so much pent up shit rattling through Dean and the way itâs reciprocated through Y/n is an amazing build. Thereâs so much emotion and vulnerability to this entire thing, and itâs done in a way thatâs completely believable and realistic for Dean. Fuck. Itâs smart and really just opens them both up in such a refreshing way that speaks of Deanâs bravery, even in the face of being raw and exposed to someone else. And the way the tables turn. *screeches and flaps on the floor* Be still my fucking heart! I fucking adore this and the way you approached this fic and premise. There are so many ways it could have gone wrong or lost its power and impact, but you fucking nailed it!
Covet (series) by @waywardjoy
Fucking Christ, this series stressed me the fuck out, but in the best way possible. The cliffhangers, the dark grittiness. The insanity! Fuck, I absolutely love it when stories are written in a way that completely immerse me in it. Itâs dark, like, really dark. Fuck. It just hurts.Â
The Beginning of The End (oneshot) by @deanwinchesterswitch
OW! There is a secret desperation in this that is absolutely brutal and tears your heart in two. The way Dean is written is eye-opening and really just drags you down into a depth of pain and grief that only a Winchester can feel. I feel like I should say something about the sex being hot, but I canât. Because to me itâs just so rough, borderline too rough, and so emotional. Which might sound weird, but in this situation and with the way everything is presented that scene is honest as fuck, very believable, and powerful. At some point things become more about the emotional release than they do being sexy, and this is a gorgeous example of that kind of repressed emotion roaring to life in âbottle it up foreverâ Dean Winchester. This fic hurts so good all the way through and in different ways. That in itself is a feat, so have so many layers in one story. Itâs anger and hurt and guilt and worry and all of it is wrapped so delicately together in this fucking stunning piece of art.Â
Born This Way (oneshot) by @evansrogerskitten
HAPPY PRIDE MOTHER FUCKERS!!!!!! This fuckinâ fic! Wow. This is the definition of the spn family. Thereâs so much love and support wrapped up in this story, in this fucking dream. I rarely get like, actually emotional reading fics (because Iâm a heartless bitch) but this has me sitting here clutching my chest with my eyes closed just full body squeeing and smiling and my gut is clenching with all the emotion. There is something to be said of the spn family being allies. This song, this setting, this family, and the moment youâve created here is so important and such a special thing! AND, as if the fic itself wasnât enough to make me burst into happy tears, the tweets at the bottom sure the fuck were! Honestly, everything about this is so spot on and believable and just fucking pure and good.
Castiel Imagine (drabble) by @webcricket
Holy hell, that Cas fic was not only incredibly fucking sensual and well done but it was just so full of amazing language. Fantastic! I feel like a lot of writers who try to beef up their language tend to use words that feel out of place, but your consistency and the way you weave them together made me slow down to savor every line and that was such a beautiful thing.
Nominated by @sorenmarie87
Life for Rent (series) by @winchest09
The series has just started but I canât wait to see where it goes. Â I love a good mobster!au and the set up so far has me wondering whatâs going to happen next.Â
What Research? (oneshot)Â by @becs-bunkerÂ
What do I say about this other than I loved it? Â I mean Sam has been busy and the reader just wants some attention from him. Of course, they accomplish what they set out to do and itâs worth the read. Â
Born This Way by @evansrogerskittenÂ
This was a fantastic fic. The reader has the casts approval and support, and the way they came out was fantastic. I almost cried, no lie. Ashâs fics are always fantastic but this hit me in an unsuspected way.Â
Once Upon A Dream (oneshot) by @welldonebeca
I havenât honestly seen that many Human!Gabe fics let alone Alpha!Gabe at that. Â The story is so sweet.
Fallen Productions (series) by @welldonebeca Â
I always admire authors who can write A/B/O but this mini series works its way through the original Team Free Will in a different way. Â
He Is (series) by @coffee-obsessed-writer
This whole series is super sweet. Each chapter shows just what Dean means to you, and Jen nails it in each of them.
Make You Feel My Love (series) by @sofreddieÂ
This was such a sweet A/B/O series. Â I love that Dean and the reader took their time, I mean Dean eased her through her earlier heats but I think it was sweet that it was just smut off the bat. Â
Nominated by @iflostreturntosteverogers
Almond Milk Lies (series) by @fictionalabyss Â
Mel is a fantastic writer đ
Nominated by @shy-violet-soulÂ
The Girl Next Door (series) by @luci-in-trenchcoatsÂ
An engaging AU, this writer keeps you hooked with well-paced timing & plot. Portrayal of characters is consistent with the show, which other fics struggle with when not in the SPN world. The story line is believable and genuine, and I enjoy the banter between the 2 main pairing-folks. Bravo!
Sunsets by @crispychrissyÂ
Damn. This work is so beautifully painful, or painfully beautiful, itâs hard to find words. I donât want to comment on a favorite part to avoid giving away the plot. But this writer has captured a lesser-written character powerfully and consistently, and hooks you in with strong imagery and pacing. Hold on to your heartstrings for this one.Â
Thank you all for the awesome work and great feedback!
As with the BFAs, these are not actual awards! This system is set up so everyone in the pond has a chance to share the love and promote a fic/author that has grabbed your attention. The more people that participate, and the more everyone remembers to submit their own fics after posting, the better this will be :D
THANK YOU ALL AGAIN, KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK, AND AS ALWAYS, HAPPY WRITING!
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