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koushuwu · 1 year

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First Kisses

Iwaizumi Hajime x reader x Oikawa Tooru | 2,122 words | just a soft little first kiss story that may very well turn into the start of a beautiful poly relationship. she/her pronouns. use of petnames. mentions of alcohol consumptions.

The bass was pumping in the room next to the kitchen where you stood with your two best friends, Oikawa Tooru and Iwaizumi Hajime. Okay so maybe not just best friends. You might like the both of them a little more than that, but they didn’t know that, and they didn’t need to know that. Hajime had his phone in his hand when it happened. Leaned back against the kitchen counter on one side of the room, while you were leaned against the other. Tooru’s eyes widened when he noticed someone moving towards the kitchen from the main sitting room where the party was raging. His attention snapped to you.

“I need you to kiss me, like right now.” Tooru exclaimed stepping closer, into your personal space. Not that you minded, you were usually always close. You’d been the kinds of friends to be very physically close since you were kids.

“What?” you asked and laughed a little to hide the blush that threatened to creep up across your face.

“Now, my ex is coming this way!” you could literallt see the panic and haste in his eyes. Something his ex would definitely notice too, if she got too close. Maybe it was the alcohol in your system, or maybe it was just because you really just wanted to, but you grabbed a fistful of his shirt.

“Okay,” you grinned at him and pulled him in. The little sound that escaped him had you chuckling against his lips. As startled as he may have been at first, it only took him a moment to recover. His hand slid up into your hair as he deepened the kiss. Moving even closer. His body was against yours and your hands were trapped between the two of you, placed flat on his chest.

“She’s gone,” Iwaizumi’s voice sounded. Reluctantly Oikawa pulled away, pecking you on the lips just once more for good measure. Your gaze flicked to Iwaizumi who was still standing against the opposite counter, eyes fixed on his phone. You looked back to Oikawa with slightly swollen lips, as he looked out the door, where his ex was indeed nowhere to be seen anymore.

“Shit. Thank you so much, Love, I’m sorry,” Oikawa started, and for a moment you felt your heart clench. Right. You was just helping him. “I don’t know what I would’ve done without you! No one has my back like you do,” he cooed and despite the heavy feeling in your chest, you couldn’t help bit smile at him and shake your head.

“Really? Not even your precious Iwa-chan~” you asked mocking the way Oikawa always whined the name of our shared best friend.

“He would never—”

“Yes I would,” Iwaizumi cut Oikawa off, scrolling on his phone. Hajime glanced up from his phone before looking back down at it.

“Wait what?” Oikawa asked, utterly stunned. And you couldn’t stop the soft laughter rippling from your throat. “You would?”

“Of course I would.” Iwaizumi shrugged as if it was nothing. “We’re best friends, plus you’re hot. So why wouldn’t I?”

“Prove it,” You found yourself saying, before you even consciously considered chiming in.

“Okay,” Iwaizumi said, shrugging once more and quickly locking his phone. He shoved off of the counter and slipped his phone into his back pocket, stepping up to Oikawa, who had suddenly gone a shade paler than normal. A smirk formed on Iwaizumi’s face when he took the last step, reaching up and slipping a hand into Oikawa’s hair.

“Iwa-chan, my hair,” Oikawa all but whined, but Iwaizumi’s lips just stretched wider.

“Shut up,” he told him, but his words lacked all malicious intend. “This okay?” Hajime asked when he pulled Oikawa into him.

“I—” Oikawa gulped. You could see it on his throat. “Okay,” he breathed, hands coming up to settle on Iwaizumi’s biceps.

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.” Iwaizumi pulled Oikawa even closer by the hair, wrapped his other arm around Oikawa’s middle and pressed their lips together.

You felt my own smile grow wider as you watched Iwaizumi confidently sliding his lips across Oikawa’s. As you watched him swipe his tongue across Oikawa’s lower lip, and how their tongues danced. Maybe you should be ashamed for gawking at them at this moment, but you weren’t. Maybe that was also the alcohol, but you weren’t the least bit ashamed or awkward. You watched them, and your grin blew even wider when Oikawa literally moaned into Iwaizumi’s mouth. And that’s when Iwaizumi broke the kiss. Grinning just as wide as you were from watching them, down at Oikawa.

“Damn, Hajime, looks like you practiced a lot since that time we kissed,” you told him, half in awe and half teasing. Iwaizumi turned his head and shot me a wink as he stepped back from Oikawa.

“Of course I have,” Iwaizumi grinned. “I promised you I’d make you swoon with my kissing one day, didn’t I?”

“I didn’t think you’d remember that. Or that you’d actually want to uphold that promise,” You laughed back, it’d been a silly promise but it seemed like you weren’t the only one who’d remembered the words he’d said to you that day when he had had his very first kiss. With you. With anyone actually.

“I don’t go back on a promise, Pretty.” Iwaizumi’s tone was serious and you knew that it was true. He really never backed out on a promise. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Oikawa looking from Iwaizumi to you and then back. “You know that,” Hajime said. He saw it too, there was no doubt about that.

“I’ll look forward to it then,” You told him. Only half joking.

“Wait, wait, wait!” Oikawa broke in, finally seeming to have regained control over his voice. “You two kissed?” He was in awe, eyebrows drawn together as you and Hajime watched him.

“Stop that, your forehead’s going to wrinkle,” Iwaizumi scolded. “And yes,” he added nonchalantly. It wasn’t that big of a deal. Except it was. For the both of you. Because it had been a big deal. Iwaizumi had confessed his feelings for you but you had both agreed that the time wasn’t right. “She was my first,” he then added, and Oikawa’s jaw dropped.

“And where was I during all this? Why haven’t I kissed any of you before now?”

“You didn’t ask,” you said and Iwaizumi shrugged.

“I’m asking now!?” Oikawa’s eyes were wide as he looked back and forth. His lips pursed into a little pout and his arms crossed over his chest.

“For more kisses?” Iwaizumi asked and eyed up our shared best friend, a grin plastered on his face, and he took a step closer to Oikawa, who in turn took a step back, flush deepening.

“Yes!” Oikawa exclaimed before even thinking about what Iwaizumi had said. Then his eyes widened even further, if that was even possible. Hands grabbing at the hem of his own shirt as he scrambled to save face. “I mean no— Yes, but that’s not what I meant. Where was I? Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Like she said. You didn’t ask.” Iwaizumi shrugged.

“I actually thought you knew,” you told him and shrugged as well. And you really did. Thinking back, you had never actually talked about it, but somehow you had just expected him to know. To sense it somehow. “I guess it never really came up.” You grabbed onto the counter behind you and hoisted yourself up, planting your ass on the tabletop.

“This is actually unfair,” Oikawa whined.

“What? That we kissed?” Iwaizumi lightly swatted Oikawa on the side of his head. “You kissed her too, dummy!”

“Yes, but you never told me,” Oikawa went on, tipping from one foot to the other. He didn’t even moan about his hair or how Iwaizumi was being mean for hitting him, and that’s how the both of you knew for sure, that Oikawa was out of it. “And now you’ve both seen me kissing, but I haven’t seen you kissing yet, and that’s not fair—”

“I’m sorry, are you pissed because you haven’t seen us kiss?” you interrupted.

“Yes!”

“What?”

“I don’t know,” Oikawa sighed. You could see him trying to collect himself. He wasn’t mad, but something was nagging him for sure. Iwaizumi and you both watched him and waited for him to speak. And when he did, his voice was calm again. He’d collected himself. “I just— We’ve always shared everything, and I somehow feel like I’ve missed out on something here.”

“Because you haven’t seen us kiss?” Iwaizumi raised a brow at Oikawa.

“Yes.” Oikawa nodded resolutely.

“You want us to kiss?”

“Yes.”

“Right now?”

“Yes!”

“Okay.” Iwaizumi shrugged.

“Okay?” Oikawa took a step back, physically accentuating how taken aback he was by Iwaizumi’s nonchalant reaction to his request.

“Yeah, okay.” He shrugged again, and then looked to you. “Bug?” There was question in his eye as he uttered the nickname he’d had for you since you were kids, because even though he probably knew that you weren’t going to say no, he still wanted you to acknowledge your consent.

“Well, come and get me then,” you wiggled your finger at Iwaizumi, a joking streak to your smile, as you beckoned him closer. Iwaizumi shook his head, laughing to himself at the silliness of your actions. But then he stepped up to you, put his hands on my thighs and gently pushed them apart, making room for himself to stand between them.

“Hi,” he said, moving in all the way, your noses touching.

“Hi.” You giggled at your best friend, placing your hands on his biceps. Man, he’d already grown a lot by then, since that first time. In turn, one of Iwaizumi’s hands slid up to your hip, and he closed the gap between you. His lips fell into place against yours. They were wet with his own and Oikawa’s saliva, and they slid against yours in soft motions.

Iwaizumi angled his head slightly to deepen the kiss. You felt myself smiling into the kiss when he pressed closer. That’s when he smirked and pulled away for a second. He looked into your eyes, placed a hand in your hair like he had with Oikawa and moved back in. He kissed you like he meant it. His tongue asking for entrance that you instantly granted him, welcoming him with your own. And with a soft little whine that would have embarrassed you, if it had happened with anyone but Iwaizumi. He really had practiced, and he was really good. Nothing like the shy Iwaizumi who had no idea what he was doing. Back then he’d followed you lead. Now he’d taken the lead and damn was he leading you well.

The sound of Oikawa clearing his throat had Iwaizumi pulling back. At first he held your gaze with a tiny glint of something new yet familia shining in his eyes. But before you could really decipher it, he turned to look at Oikawa. You followed his example and there Oikawa stood, flustered and hands clenching and unclenching at his sides. His mouth opened and closed as if he wanted to say something but didn’t know what exactly.

“Yes?” you urged him softly.

“Is—” Oikawa started, face still a little flustered. “Is this how the first one went?”

“God no, we were young, Iwa’s girlfriend just broke up with him, because he wouldn’t kiss her.” You glanced at Iwaizumi whose ears were turning lightly pink. Only just a tint. “I offered that he could try it with me, so it wouldn’t be so scary next time, and that was mostly it.”

“As if it being with you made it any less scary,” Iwaizumi commented. “But I couldn’t very well pass up on that opportunity, now could I?”

“Why not?”

“I think you know why. And so does he,” Iwaizumi gestured to Oikawa who was breathlessly watching the scene unfold. Iwaizumi turned his head and watched Oikawa for a moment, seemingly searching for something before turning back to look at you. “Because I was in love with you. Still am. And so is he.” Once again, Iwaizumi gestured to Oikawa who choked down a nervous laugh.

“Not much use in denying it, is there?” The laugh finally made its way over Oikawa’s lips. Iwaizumi looked at him again.

“Well I’m in love with you too, so there’s that on out in the open.”

“What?” There was no weirdness behind the words. Simply a soft confusion. A soft, yet hopeful confusion, that slipped the attention neither of me nor Iwaizumi. And that was also the start of what would eventually become lots of talk about feeling and how and if you were to do anything about these feelings that you were all harboring towards each other.

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c1nn4-bunny · 5 months

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In case anyone wanted an update on my mental state atm

I'm so normal and okay about him (I'm in the Anger stage of grief, okay.)

I've always really hated reading x reader stuff (I'm a trans guy... who ends up interested in male characters... I'm sure you can assume why I'd be a bit miffed about the gender ratio on those, right. And how some/most gn!reader ones are just straight up lies or afterthoughts for what was very clearly meant to be a x female!reader — apart from the fact gn!reader fics in general are rare to see) but istg I'll fuckin do it. I WILL force myself to mentally correct everything if I have to !!!

#i have such a hatred toward x reader fics you have no idea okay #like its a rational one considering my circumstances but eugh #horrible that hes making me genuinely consider... r e a d i n g #> Crushes on bookworm boy who likes reading > Mad that he has to read #my time being a Wheatley simp did nothing but teach me that the only way to get ANY sort of #male or gender neutral reader fics was to literally sell my sould to satan or scroll for days on end to the tiniest caverns of a page #addition to the clearly not disguised gn!reader ones: last minute change from very obviously a ship fic #yeah hi i see you and your barely disguised ship-fic masquerading as an x reader. im strangling you actually <3 #mini-mae was always so pissed off about it again ESPECIALLY during the wheatley simp era because come the fuck ON #the only expection ive made for gn! clearly being female is that Nigel smut fic I have saved simply because it's so funny to me #its so old and the creator only made it because a friend asked and I love that. so many typos and grammatical errors and. I love it #i want to remaster it as an homage because it's simply that funny. HELL MY SILLY SELFSHIP NIGEL IS BASED ON THEIR DESCRIPTION FOR HIM!#with added details ofc. the original draft of him is meh. i like my decision to accidentally make his hair longer with each drawing #BUT YEAH ive been joking about rewriting for a year now. ill do it eventually lmao <333 #anyway uh rant over Cashew is ruining my brain im going to go scroll some tags now... and maybe check some sites...#c1nn4bunny.txt

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void-kissed · 1 year

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don’t mind me changing both of my blog titles to Luna quotes, hehe

#I love her okay #a call from the void #heart of the void #love: dark dreamer (luna)#selfship: void‑kissed (luna/adriana)#I’ve really wanted to make another lunadri render but I haven’t really had the time or an idea of what to make..#but hey doing this was fun at least #the one on my primary blog is what she says after the gym battle with her when she gives the player the TM for dark pulse #and the one on this blog is the quote that’s listed right at the start of her wiki page and I think also on the actual reborn website #so you could call it her “character quote’’ or something #but I think it fits well as the title of a selfship blog since it’s to do with love in some way #selfshipping

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jasontoddssuper · 8 months

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I was feeling sillay and my tism was acting up so i made this!

This is me having fun,people with weird anti-selfship mentalities please just scroll past

Unlike most other sidekicks,Summer Kent wasn't introduced in a run of his mentor to be brought back later.Instead,he premired in his own series in 1983 with the writers purpose with him being to show what it would be like for Clark to take Bruce's route and adopt an orphan to raise them as both his own child and a protege.He gained what were called 'mixed reviews' but in reality was just a mix of love from black,latino,queer and autistic comic fans,female ones especially,and hatred from bigoted ones.Summer has gone through multiple,let's say,'seasonal changes' personality and design wise and this was made to help you read on when,how and why!

Sparks:Secret Origins-The solo series in question!43 solid issues,a great introduction into his character and let's you get a good grip on what he was like as Sparks,as well as his familial relathionships and longest running friendships

The New Teen Titans-A major recurring character in this run due to Dick and Kory's mentorship of him(be warned of secondhand embarrasment when it comes to his self-aware crush on Dick showing and him thinking he's just jealous of Kory when he's actually crushing on her too)

A Death in the Family-For the final interactions between him and Jason before Jason's death

The Last Day of Summer-His accidental death at the hands of Mr Freeze,DC's response to people saying Sparks and Robin don't work without eachother

Ember's Ashes-His ressurection and journey to herohood.70 issues of character development and not a single page was wasted as he grew from an angry,violent and gothic little girl to a bubbly and openly kind young adult with a love for femininity in a transgender way as he realized his genderfluidity.This coming of age tale includes his first relathionship with none other than Rose Wilson,Deathstroke's daughter and the fourth Ravager,which ends on odd but good terms.(See also Death of Superman and Reign of the Supermen as they heavily overlap with this run,including him gaining his kryptonian name as 'Va-El',given to him by a newly ressurected Clark)

Steel(1994)-Same situation as NTT,him being mentored by the protagonist and appearing as a major supporting character as a result

Superboy(1994)-Summer trifels with his greatest battle yet:Being the oldest sister to a teenage boy.Hilarity,sibling and parental angst and bonding ensue in this series,along with Summer teaching Kon-El how to make his way in the world and beating up a couple of predators in the process and him giving him some Kryptonian hybrid powers tips in thanks.Here and in Ember's Ashes is when the rest of the Superkids(Chris/Lor-Zod,Mia/Cir-El and Jon Lane or 'Laney')join the Superfamilia

Young Justice(1998)-44 to 45 and 48 to 55.Pops up in World without Young Justice as otherworld Jason's s/o,a childhood friends to lovers hero/civillian romance,and the gang convinces Kon to get him to tag along as a 'dorky babysistter' as the Boy of Steel put it after seeing how strong he is in action.This is the first time Summer thinks about mentoring younger heroes other than his adoptive siblings

Robin(1993) and Batgirl(2000)-128 to 130 and 26-38 + 53-62.Summer said 'fuck Tim,Jason's MY Robin' before they even met and Stephanie didn't get any better off until them and Cass decided to team up and now they're girl best friends(actually platonic for them and Summer,the regular meaning for Stephcass)

Lost Days-He's on Jason's mind a lot during this run if Jaysumm is your thing

Supergirls-Starring the Superfam girls as an ensemble cast,this rotates between 'Girl Power media that's actually pretty feminist and fun' and 'Weird,weird and MORE weird'(and that adds on to the feminism and fun).This includes a special crossover issue where Summer and Mia get Cassie Sandsmark to re-embrace her butchness

Under The Red Hood-Sparks and Robin finally reunite but not like they expected!Summer is heartbroken at his best friend's new found darkness and wants to save him from it but Jason just wants to patch things up.And they both get what they want in:

Ember/Red Hood-World's...strangest...ROMANCE⁉We get to see this lovebird and loverfang take the first steps to finally getting together in this 29 issue wildride!Much romance,comedy,inner torment and rubbing off on eachother(not like that!!Mind out of the gutter,people!)gets done but sadly no actual kissing

Tiny Titans-Shows up pretty often thanks to being Superman's oldest kid and the second Superkid to debut in canon,usually as an mc and is in a comedic love square with Jason,Eddie and Rose as the center

We are Robin-3-9.Gets very close to the 12 year old Duke Thomas and to his gang to a lesser extent and is the reason he gets adopted by Bruce and made the official 5th Robin(Overlaps with Ember/Red Hood)

The Bird and The Dragon-Mini 13 issue series of him and Damian becoming found siblings and him Damian's first friend(Overlaps with Ember/Red Hood and Batgirl(2009))

Batgirl(2009)-Appears in every other issue so it's best to just read all 60 of them!Many epic black girl friendship momence between Summer and Stephanie + Jason comes in from time to time to cause problems on purpose(and to flirt with Summer)

Red Hood and the Outlaws-Summer finally joins a team and never like he thought he would.Jason's influence on him turned him into a different person again like when they were sidekicks but this time making him into the brightly destructive vigilante Ignite,hated by Metropolis once more for his antiheroics and turning over a new leaf because of it!This 92 issue series brings back familiar faces from Jason and Summer's pasts and tons of new ones,stacked with fantasy elements,trauma,jokes,epic fights,genuine bonding that a good chunk of them don't care to admit to,fanservice that caters to bisexuals and Jaysumm's canonization!But only near the end because ✨drama✨

The lineup for this team is:Jason Todd as Red Hood and briefly a Star Sapphire,Eddie Bloomberg as Red Devil,Rose Wilson as Ravager and eventually Willow,Summer Kent as Ignite,Artemis of Bana-Mighdall simply as 'Artemis',Kyle Rayner as Green Lantern,Pepper Jackson(@moonage-gaydream)as Star Sapphire and Thaddeus Thawne as Inertia.The team technically disbands by the end but they all remain best friends and keep in touch!

Gotham Academy:Second Semester and Gotham Academy/Lumberjanes-Major support once more(and main character in the latter)but this time finally in the mentor role!Maps and he in particular are linked(This is a special tool that will help us later)

All New Teen Titans-Damian's Teen Titans generation has come and their mentors are Jason still as Red Hood,Duke as The Signal,Stephanie freshly new at being Batwoman and Summer as Superman,taking over his Papí's mantle in the meantime as Clark is in a coma from rescuing Jon from Ultraman.Damian's lineup is him(Shadowbird),Maya Ducard(Nobody),Surren Darga(Fang),Jon Kent(Superboy),Nell Little(Batgirl),Maps Mizoguchi(7th Robin),Colin Wilkes(Abuse)and Kathy Branden(Beacon)

Their adventures are much more light-hearted than the Outlaws' but no less impressive and their bonds are all over the place in both bad and good ways and by the end,they've become family(Jason and Summer taking on the 'Team Parents' role and with additional romances in Damimaps,Surnell and Mayakathy).This run is 55 issues and lasts two years in-universe

New Ember Days-An ongoing slice of life epilogue that shows him being as beloved as Clark after going back to Ember,with a slightly adjusted costume(thank Jason for the pink domino mask,same as the black one for Ignite)and eventually comes up to him and Jason having their first bio kid after getting married,a girl named October with a mix of Kryptofang and Lazarus Pit dna and a bright attitude and love for most things.Action is frequent in this one and as always,humor is too

Wayne Family Adventures-He gets passing mentions in the earlier episodes and debuts in Dirty Little Secret,where Damian discovers him and Jason are dating while looking for Jason's weakness and returns in Belonging to comfort Stephanie after a call from her and does the same for Jason in Strong Enough while visiting Wayne Manor,slowly becoming a major recurring character from then on

Dead Sidekicks Force-Completely optional,this is an au that dives into what would've happened if Summer,Jason,Stephanie and Damian got even closer earlier and decided to form the titulary team as based on them being 'Dead Sidekicks' and recruting honorary members as they went along.Similar to the animated Teen Titans adaption in tone and to a lesser extent in artstyle too

That's about it for comics but for animation and video game fans,he also has big roles in the Utrh movie adaption,Ditf 2020,Lego Batman:Family Matters,the aformentioned Teen Titans cartoon(which has Dragon Rose as canon since they're both Dick's age in it and there being no Jason),the Injustice game series and Lego DC Supervillains and will be in season 2 of Batwheels along with Clark and Lois!

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lowkeyremi · 1 month

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MAYA MY SWEETS !! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و i wanted to pop in here and ask a lil question for yousss cuz im curious !!

do you have any selfships ?? if so, what are the shipnames ?? i wanna know all about them if you do !! <333

hey hey lene!! I usually don't talk about my selfships bc I think about being judged but yes I have some!! (I'll give my favs with whys then the others will just be the ship names <3)

MHA

MAYOTA (me and aizawa!!)

oh lord I could talk about him for HOURS. we have the same birthday which I absolutely love. I met him at a hero convention, which he didn't want to even go to, but present mic dragged him to it. He wasn't getting many at his booth but I stopped by because I was sooooo excited!!! (he is my favorite hero after all) He was surprised I knew so much about him bc he's an underground hero, but I have my ways hehe. I gave him my number and he told me not to get my hopes up. It didn't really matter because now there's a ring on mah finger :D

HAIKYUU

ATSUMAYA (me and atsumu)

We met at a college party. I came with my friend as a plus one. We hit it off pretty well even though Tsumu had one too many drinks. Out of nowhere he just blurts, "You look like my future wife." Of course I didn't say anything cuz I was trying to process that sentence. He tried to cover it up saying he was drunk out of his mind and didn't mean it. I was curious as to whether he meant it or not so I went along with it, "I guess that makes you my future husband."

MAYAJIMA (sounds so silly... me and ushijima)

I was studying abroad in Japan and he was impressed with my Japanese skills. Since he's a pro volleyball player he asked me to teach him English, so he'd be well equipped with helpful words and phrases. I am not a great teacher though so we both struggled lmaooo.

SATAYA (me and tendou)

We met in high school!! He's just so funny and my kind of person. Understands my humor and we both loved teasing Shirabu and Semi :3 I just know we'd get into all kinds of trouble. Also I taste test his new chocolate flavors!!!

MAYOOMI (me and omi)

Gosh I was a pest to him at first. Annoyed him to no end I tell you. It was unintentional in the beginning, but soon teasing and messing with him became my love language. I knew he was okay with it from the way his ears would turn red. Most of his face was covered by his mask but I could still tell when he was flustered. Did I mention he's blocked and unblocked my number on numerous occasions? Yeah he loves me lol.

KNY

TOMIYA (me and giyuu)

He's just too pretty and it was hard to talk to him bc I felt like I couldn't!! I approached him first (even though I was scared) and that's when we started talking. I thought we would end up being just really good friends but he was on the same page as me.

OBAYA (me and obanai)

I didn't really talk to him because he was closed off and close to mitsuri. When shinobu was treating me once; she was talking to someone I couldn't see who it was, but I knew the voice. (I was only half conscious) It turns out he'd come to see if I was alright after my mission. He started having Kaburamaru leave me little gifts he'd find during missions or make. One day when Kaburamaru had brought me something I gave the snake a love letter to give to Obanai.

JJK

MAYOSO (me and choso)

he wanted to kill me at first :((( cuz i'm just a human :(( BUT something about me just reminded him of what it's like to have a family which is why he kept me around and ended up falling in love. He liked that warm feeling in his heart even though he couldn't put a name to that feeling. (i'll give him a hint: it starts with an L and ends with an E)

NANAYA (me and nanami)

Nanami is such a sweetheart. We met on a dating app 0-0 yeah... he was lonely and I was too. I told him how I thought I'd end up getting catfished bc there was absolutely no way some as fine as Nanami would actually be interested in me! But yes, we go on many more dates after our first little dinner date.

Honorable mentions:

MAYASHA (me and sasha braus)

ERAYA (me and eren)

CONAYA (me and connie)

MAYANTA (me and sero)

MAYAKEN (me and draken)

MAYO (me and ryo kurokiba)

there are more I just can't think of them off the top of my head :P

#haikyuu #jjk #haikyuu!!#jujutsu kaisen #bnha #mha #tokyo rev #remi answers #lene asks <3 #self ship #self ships #self shipping #demon slayer #kny #kimetsu no yaiba

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companionwolf · 8 months

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Hello all! I've consolidated the responses so far to my call for 'core selfship / ficto experiences' in relation to my 'having a f/o' solo journaling ttrpg project-- I want to let you all see what's been offered so far and also explain a bit more about what a solo journaling ttrpg is! (:

That explanation and the ideas offered below the cut, because otherwise this is a long post. For anyone this post breaks on, please forgive me.

To start, what's a ttrpg? It's short of table top role-playing game, sometimes called a physical game. If you've ever heard of Dungeons and Dragons (D&D), you know what a table top game is!

For those who haven't, table top games are basically like if you took playing pretend and gave it some rules-- or didn't. The world of TTRPG games is vast and encompasses a wide range of games from super crunchy structured rules with Lots of dice and math to games that are less than one page and super loose and free-form-- some don't even use dice!

The difference here is that most people think you need a group to play tabletop games. And if that's the experience you want, that's true. However, clever gamers have made rules and ways to play games by themselves! Some people emulate the person who runs the game using a generator, while others do games more guided by prompts. This latter one is what I'm doing-- it's called a journaling game.

Journaling games have a basic core of the idea that you / your character journals their experiences as they play (or after, if you don't want to interrupt your flow). Usually the main mechanic is generating prompts off a list using dice or card pulls, but some of these games also include mechanics like ticking boxes off, gathering resources, and making choices.

I'm still trying to figure out what mechanics I want in my game. Obviously there will prompts, but everything else I'm workshopping-- right now I've been gathering data, in the form of looking at other solo games for how they handle their gameplay. Sadly none of the things I've looked at quite fit what I want, but they're useful enough that I've began a design document.

In terms of themes - I want to touch on longing, distance, intimacy (not essentially romantic), and self love/etc. I'm also toying with the concept of a eventual expansion that allows you to play as your F/O, but I need a base game first, so that's just an idea right now.

Anyway, here's what folks have suggested as ideas so far --

- longing yearning etc

- knowing there will never be physicality / hearing their voice / etc

- loving someone you cannot touch/etc

- the self love aspect

- imagines, headcanons, etc

- interacting with f/os source

- community or lack of

- dealing with feeling shame/etc or being picked on/etc for selfshipping

- dealing with jealously/difficulty 'sharing'

- aking things related to your f/o (example: wedding albums)

- easy source eod joy and comfort

- knowing songs and art f/o would like

- finding things that are stressful LESS so because talking about it with f/o would help

- the cute guilty pride of 'I like this character' 'me too I actually self ship with them'

- having a friend who understands when no one else is around (even if they are from media)

- daydreaming

- trying to get yourself to dream about them

- always knowing exactly what to commission someone for

- spending money on f/o related things (merch, other items that remind you of them, comms)

- selfship when the relationship is something you'd never want irl

- using selfship to figure out what you want (in a relationship for example)

- social aspect (assumptions people make, the selfship community)

- dreams about your f/o

- f/os helping against self negativity

- feeling like they're present in your life (and or imagning them with you)

- feeling insecure (bc you can't get confirmation f/o returns/would return feelings)

- freedom of headcanon and making S/Is

- becoming in a way part of another world

- never lacking someone to talk to

- the painful remembrance that f/o is not real and cannot really do X for you (X = have your back, for example)

- self generated serotonin

- becoming familiar with the shape of their face

- getting your daydreaming muscles back up to strength

- analyzing songs through a new lens

- feeling both love and loneliness in the community

- writing letters to your f/o (maybe even writing some 'back' from them?")

- buying clothes to say you stole from them

- feeling your f/o loves you no matter what and will be there for you always

- gaining comfort from your f/o on bad days

- being able to tell f/o anything, from interests others may find weird to traumas and beyond

- f/o helping you overcome anxiety and boosting self esteem

- creating because of your f/o (art writing etc)

- re above: selfship as a creative outlet

- the interplay of selfship and kin

- relating something mundane to your f/o and thus it becomes special

- using your f/o to motivate yourself ('f/o would want me to take care of myself')

- self made f/os aka OC f/os rather than media ones

- seeing your f/o get bashed or misinterpred

- fear of ridicule

- daydreaming but it becomes problematic (ie it interrupts getting important tasks done etc)

#wolf barking #selfship #self ship #selfshipper #self shipping #selfshipping #f/o #fictional other #tags for visibility #feel free to reblog (:#selfship ttrpg #f/o tag

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dunetevenn · 4 months

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Hi everyone

A bit of a long-ish post today because I wanted to talk about my selfship/AU of the 2000 italian kid cartoon called «Monster Mash» (I already shared the sketch earlier on this blog but I finally finished it)

If you don't know the original movie (you can find it on youtube or on archives.org in better quality), here's the wikipedia page (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monster_Mash_(2000_film))

So it was one of my favorite childhood movie for years, and around halloween I got back to it, being focused on the movie for a few weeks (I still love it and watch it sometimes now). And it kinda revived my affection for one of the character (Drac), who was a huge crush of mine when I was a kid.

I created a quick self-insert for the original universe, but my mind quickly got interested in a few AUs. While I didn't do any art for the main universe or for my second AU, I was more invested into my Vampire Hunter storyline, which I'm about to tell you about in this post. If you just want the drawing it's okay, thanks for the attention

PS: pose base/inspiration by AdorkaStock "Frienemies" (https://www.deviantart.com/adorkastock/art/Frienemies-926193644)

So the context of this AU is the following:

There was always tension between monsters and humans, and one day a battle finally exploded, lasting for years. The monsters have been significantly numbered down by the humans, but they are still fighting. They're just staying hidden for the moment, plotting to get their revenge and imprisoned members free.

My character is named Swan (they/he). They're a monster hunter, recruted by the King (at least that's the version Swann is allowed to tell) to kill the last vampires in the kingdom. Amongst these vampires, their King, Drac, is the main target. Why vampires in particular? Well, strangely nobody really knows.

Swann is sent to track them down, which he does, and makes a first attempt to fight Drac. It failed, since the king of vampires was aware of a potential personal attack from the human king. But Swann doesn't give up. They're trying to get the closest possible to Drac, without his guards around. Once they manage to meet alone, Swann makes a suggestion to Drac: they cannot leave the vampires free here, but they can pretend to win the mission by helping them escape the kingdom and keeping the secret. Drac was surprised, but refused. He and the other monsters will stay and fight back. Swann tries to convince him, making it clear that they don't want to participate more in the massacre. Sadly, with the uncooperation of the vampire king, they have no other choice but keep fighting until one of them wins. However, this encounter changed something, making Drac more curious about this strange decision from someone sent to kill them, and already killed multiple monsters. They kept fighting, but it was less with the actual intention to end lives and more with a desperate attempt to make them go away. The big turn was when Swann saved Drac's life, from a guard of the human king trying to get recognition as a hero. Before the crucifix could hit his chest, Swann swooped in and attacked the guard. By seeing them, the guard was menacing to warn the king about the betrayal, but he was quickly shut down by the duo and sent to the other vampires.

Drac kept the incident secret from the other vampires, at Swann's demand. But this night, they actually became friends. And, this friendship evolved, hiding behind the fights, hiding from both humans and vampires, even from other monsters. Developping a secret romance, never claimed by words, but affirmated by the nights they starting spending intimately (ah yeah s3x plays a huge part in their love story).

And there you have it, a very quick explaination of what this Vampire Hunter story is. Hope it wasn't too badly written, because I know my writing sucks (that's why I never write fanfictions).

Anyway, if you read everything, I'm really happy that you took the time for it, and if you didn't, that's fine it's still nice that you stopped by even if it was just for the art.

#artists on tumblr #traditional art #drawing #art #self insert #self ship #monster mash 2000 #drac monster mash #au #self insert x canon #self ship community #self insert x fictional other #strike of dagger and fang

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moving-to-dreamwinged · 6 months

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hello mei 😊 how are you today? i want to start this ask off by saying how surprised i was when you first followed me! pleasantly though of course :) ive made efforts to make my account as private as possible out of shyness but im so happy you followed me because you are such a pleasure to have on the dash 😊

i love how you keep your main f/o a secret… i admire it so much..! i have a secret f/o myself but she is by no means a main f/o and i dont post about her that much really!

ANYWAY. i have a few questions if youd be comfortable answering :) i know the nature of having a secret f/o can make answering questions hard… but i will try my best to ask questions you can answer vaguely while hopefully not giving anything away about him :)

first… when did you realise you loved him? and… do you have a story attached to your ship? if so, did it take long for the two of you to fall in love? or was it relatively fast?

@stop-the-dams

OH MY GOSH HI!!!! YOU !!!!! i'm so sorry this is so late i think my inbox is eating th asks or something idfk BUT!!!

you are too sweet what the heck!!!!! /pos :'DDD omg yes apologies if my following was startling initially but i'll be so honest gorillaz is my fav band so i was soosososo excited to see a murdoc self shipper!!!! i know the lore pretty decently if u ever want to gush or discuss or anything, and i love seeing your posts as well!! hes v lucky to have u ;3

and thank you for the kind words AAAH sometimes i feel so invalid for keeping things secret so that really means a lot!! i'd be more than happy to answer though, those are such thoughtful questions im smiling ADHASUFDHD

cutting this up bc i rambled quite a bit im afraid...

anywayssss i actually saw my f/o for the first time on my damn TIKTOK FOR YOU PAGE which is. so goofy but i was like omg who is that :0 nd i eventually got into his source bc of him, so i guess i just liked him from the start as silly as that sounds :'3

as far as a story, i havent really thought of one but there is kind of an au that i play around w sometimes!! i like to headcanon that we wer both like. lowkey pining after first meet but both too oblivious to realize it LMFSKDJF . so i guess a mix of both lolz :)

ANYWAYSSS sorry that was insanely long but i would love to hear about ur selfship lore as well, if youre comfortable!! ur relationship seems so devoted n genuine , im curious to hear more abt how it happened (no pressure tho ofc!!) thanks again this was so sweet!!!<3

#. 🗯 asks #.mutuals #SMILES SO BIG I LOVED ANSWERING THIS #lore dump 🔥#f/o #self ship

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monochromatictoad · 5 months

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oooooo just saw the dark selfship ask game!

I have to say pretty much all questions are super intriguing hmmm, 📄, 🦄, 💭 AAND 💕 pretty please :3c

Imma do this for Huge Man!

📄 Are both characters on the same page about the relationship or is there a disconnect?

It's.... Debatable? It's hard to state whether Huge Man actually feels anything for, well, anyone or anything. He doesn't show much in the way of emotions. My s/i for him is also a member of the Bureau for Anomalies, so even their feelings are debatable. He saved them from another Anomaly, which is what granted them to further observing him and letting the Bureau allow him around the area. If he does feel emotions, he would probably be fairly close to the Yandere dynamic.

🦄 Why do you choose to have this relationship darker instead of fluffy? Do you feel that it could be fluffy if you wanted to write it that way?

Honestly, it's just because of how I see Huge Man. He's a unique intruder that kills you if you mess up reporting him. Maybe it could be fluffy, but he just doesn't seem like the fluffy type.

💭 What scenario do you return to when you think about this selfship? How does it make you feel?

I keep going back to SCP style dynamic, where some SCPs are allowed to have time outside of their containment, but only with approved people. That's how my S/I and Huge Man interact with the world.

💕 Do you think that your f/o and s/i love each other? Why or why not would you use that word?

Again, debatable. I personally see it as one of two ways.

1. My S/I latches onto Huge Man mentally and emotionally, knowing damn well he is actually incapable of feeling the same way as they do.

2. Huge Man does have feelings for them, but it manifests as him becoming incredibly possessive and outright yandere over them. Where they go, he follows.

So actual love is very debatable, but it's probably the closest that an anomaly could get to feeling the human concept of love.

#snailmail #still fleshing out my dynamic with Huge Man #💪huge man💪

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dandyshucks · 3 months

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okay i didnt show the counselor any of my selfship art (except that one digital piece i did of julian and star bc i have plausible deniability w that one) but i did show her the one page of Just Guz that I've drawn where its a bunch of wrestling poses djsksl and she said "that actually looks like a real guy!" when I said "he's uhh a fictional character,, from uhmm pokemon i think,,, but I made him into a wrestler here haha" DBDJDKL and now im just feeling like :]

^ me when someone who doesnt know my fictional bf tells me that he looks like a real guy !!!!!

#:] !!!!!!!#hes a real guy now !!!! djdksl #im just hehehe kicking my feet ... it just tells me i did a good job drawing him and redesigning him :3 #and thats such high praise to me fjfkdl i like my character art to feel real !!!!! even better when its my fictional bf teehee #i feel like i need to go jump around in the snow to chill out bc im just so overly pleased abt this SBDJDML #dandy.cmd

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automatonkisser · 11 months

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thinking about just wiping my main blog and using it purely as a page to redirect people to my selfship blog because i only really feel like focusing on this one at this point but....there are still some posts on there (mainly selfship related stuff from when before i made this blog) that i kind of want to keep but i feel like it's gonna take waaay too long to actually search for all of them to try and preserve them </3

#i mean. maybe i'll just rb some of my drawings & writing on here and just delete the rest #i'm not sure if i could find most of these posts w how broken tumblr's search function is anyway hfjgjh #💘.txt

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cfrog · 7 months

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OC-tober Day 1: Fav OC

[full prompt list]

I'm gonna have to award the title of "current favorite" to Rat. I'm sort of taking a break from drawing LEDDlabs, but I am still thinking about that guy so much. Have some rambles.

I cycle through which of the lab rats is my fav, I wouldn't say either of them is more favorite over the others. They take turns. And right now, it's Rat's turn. Which is good, cause it means he finally got some songs over on my neocities. Good for him!

[Woe, Rat be upon ye]

I've always loved writing about immortal beings, they're just such unique sorts of characters. The threat of death influences so much of a normal character's motivation, so when you remove that, you end up with some real freaks. I think Rat is the closest an immortal character has gotten to what I would do with eternal life: mind my business, enjoy some art, and take a lot of naps. Not that his life is entirely worry-free. Rat also has one of my favorite moral dilemmas to write, the idea of a "good" demon. The implications of existing as a being explicitly intended for evil deeds, and choosing to act differently. The consequences of that choice, objectively "correct" from our perspective, but. Is it really a good thing? Does it matter in the end? Who knows :3c

Writing Rat also comes with one of my other favorite activities, worldbuilding. Specifically what demons are and how they work. I don't have, like. LOTR level of lore. It's pretty minimal right now, I've got just enough figured out to tell Rat's story. But since the main source of demon knowledge in-comic is gonna be from Rat, and he's the most unreliable and unhelpful source of information ever, I can lie and leave out whatever I need to. Even Astaroth is probably only going to be around for a handful of pages, being locked to a single room. She isn't exactly helpful or clear either.

Rat's uncooperative personality also helps me with writing about his "past lives" (i collect info for these on TH if you didnt know). Like, Rat is never going to share any of his old names. Because that's deadnaming? Because he genuinely forgot? Maybe. But it's mostly because I don't feel like coming up with 20 more names. I have two old Rat names, and that's more than enough. I don't want to refer to Rats of the past by other names because I feel like it'd distance them too much. I call them "past lives" but I don't want to give the wrong impression, they're all Rat. it's always been the same guy, continually living for hundreds of years. If LEDDlabs had an actual fandom I fully believe someone would onceler-style selfship some Rats. Like a true tumblr sexyman.

We'll see how much I write for the rest of these. I feel like this was a lot.

#i got a single yes on that last post 👍 oc time #oc-tober #bweirdoctober #my ocs #my oc talk #ledd's lab rats #lab rat #i was just writing stuff out for the chapter where rat brings up the demon thing. the other two dont start the story knowing that.#its a very fun interaction cause ollie has no idea what a demon is while moe is vaguely religious and having a crisis.#ollie: ok. this means nothing to me #moe: hell is real?????

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solitaireships · 5 months

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99! - @selfrinsert

Your Best American Girl - Mitski

So this one is actually really difficult to apply to a selfship bcs of the meaning behind the song. Basically it’s about loving someone, but the differing backgrounds of the two people (specifically that one is Asian and one is white) gets in the way of the relationship so that it can’t last. And part of the reason it can’t last is bcs the Asian woman is trying to erase that part of her to conform to the idea of what an American girl should be, with that not being sustainable bcs it’s erasing part of who you are. This is a messy explanation tho, so I’d recommend anyone who wants to know more check out the Genius page for this song to see some deeper analysis of it and quotes from Mitski on it

But with all of that, this one is hard for me bcs I’m Asian (Korean specifically), but I’m also mixed and was raised without a ton of connection to my culture bcs my grandmother never passed that down. So I feel kinda weird claiming this song as something for me, even if it’s a thing I can relate to on some levels, but with that erasure of identity to conform to white American standards having further down my family tree and making it so that as an adult I’m working on trying to connect with my culture more

Anyway, I know I technically have more of a claim so to speak to this song than the countless completely white people who use it for ship stuff. I’m just kinda over explaining bcs of how often this song being about that is forgotten/ignored, and I want the approach I’m taking to talking about it here to be clear. If I’m assigning this to a ship, I’d give it to Xenia and Alexander. Alexander’s white, and he spent his whole life in Russia, while Xenia’s an American immigrant who shares my background of being 1/4 Korean and 3/4 white. They have very different backgrounds bcs of those cultural difference, but a key difference from the song is that they’re able to make things work by acknowledging these differences and trying to understand each other’s view based on them. I also like to think that Alexander would be happy to help Xenia explore her identity and reclaim parts of it that she’s lost down her family tree

send me a number 1-100 and i will tell you what that song is from my spotify wrapped and which selfship it applies to

#asks #selfrinsert #thank you!#🎖️#🎖️ doomed by the narrative #🔎 xenia #sorry this one came with an essay about the song meaning and my personal background and challenges w/ cultural identity lol

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lake-archive · 5 months

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Surprise Kiss

I never wrote 900+ words faster in my goddamn life. Also this is super mega self indulgent so uh... Erm... Don't mind me. DON'T LOOK AT ME! BLAME THIS MAN! HE IS MESSING WITH MY MIND AND I NEED HIM TO STOP! I MUST NOT WANT TO IMAGINE KISSING HIM FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! AAA!

AO3 Link - Fling Posse Selfship / Yumeship Masterlist

Fandom: Hypnosis Mic

Characters: Ann Wolff (OC), Gentaro Yumeno

Pairing: Genann (Gentaro/Ann)

Words: 928

This was… Something different. What would one expect inside a book store? To pick out a book and look into it, perhaps read, and yet… The sudden twist coming was something which was just unbearable for Ann. Or rather, they had not expected it and now were in a literal panic. And it all had started rather normally.

Much to their surprise they had encountered Yumeno, him having entered that book store. When spotting Ann it was the usual greeting before he explained himself.

“I wish to spy on the competition.” It had been his first response, leaving them puzzled for a second before he added his signature line. “Well, that’s a lie.” Of course it was… They were not even surprised despite the sigh.

What he actually had been here for was to look at some texts for some inspiration, inquiring about some material to work with. Sometimes it can strike during consumption and they knew exactly what he meant… Well, to the extreme degree as they were known for drawing inspiration from the tiniest of moments, a habit Ann found extremely difficult to control. And yet, their visit was not as much fun. In fact, they had just been here to look for a book they will have to read for one of their classes, an unavoidable matter. And the book was not exactly from an author they were looking forward to reading yet again. But the classes demanded it and that was something they just had to live with. Yet they delayed the inevitable by browsing through all types of books instead, most seeming more interesting than the one they had to read at hand. Something about… Hmm… Honestly, they had no idea anymore, the summary itself sounded so boring. Something about love again and something which prevented the lovers from ever being together, a tragedy of some sorts. But the writing itself was usually such a snooze, they just didn’t feel like it. And not like the premise had never been done before… It had been recycled so many times, it was not even funny. Anything else would do, literally anything! Heck, they would rather reread anything from Goethe, only having done so back then because their father loves his works. They themself… Well, he was important but… Hah, maybe they were just too young for that or something. That might be it…

They had even mumbled about this as a response to the well known author, only hearing an amused chuckle at first yet they had not paid too much attention. They were busy reading through the pages of some other story they found ten times more interesting, maybe a bit too entertained by it. They had not even paid attention to anything else and thus the next move had suddenly come out of nowhere for them.

It started simple, Yumeno having grabbed one of their hands and forcing them to close the book. “Now, I think that is not the book thou art looking for. “ He commented as the book had practically closed itself by then. They were hit with the reality yet again by that point.

“Eh!? Ah— W… Was it?” Yet they knew despite their rather meek answer and soft tone. “Right, that… Is the wrong book. Heh…”

“I assume it is this one thou are looking for?”

For some reason they had thrown out their common sense by then, knowing that this man should not be trusted almost every time verbally. And yet, they just wanted to get this goddamn book and get out of here and thus turned their head rather quickly, full of hope… But that hope quickly came crashing down, so fast in fact that they had no time to react.

Next thing they knew was him suddenly pulling them a little closer before covering the side facing the public eye and window with the book he had pulled out all open, making it anyone’s guess what was occurring next. And if they had guessed a kiss… That was correct.

Because before knowing it they had found his lips against theirs, making them freeze in utter shock. It was not something they had an idea just how to react to as they were processing that this was actually happening. Yes, this was happening. A kiss. A sudden kiss, right on the lips. No warning, no asking, no gesture. He just went for it, right for the kill, and they were heating up from it as their arms were shaking. They held something back yet not sure what, too busy keeping themself under control as their heartbeat went utterly fast. It may as well have been racing, slightly exhausting them. Just the feelings of his lips… It should not have such an effect on them and yet—

But before that thought could go any further he had pulled back all of a sudden, placing the book away from the side and right back onto the shelf they stood in front of, him first acting as if nothing out of the ordinary had happened. But he knew as he turned back with a smirk shortly after, and there it was again. “Nevermind, I lied.”

That was the last thing they had heard because due to their burning red face they squealed for even just a short moment before suddenly turning away and dashing out of the small store without warning. They couldn’t think straight, not about anything really. But there was one final thought which had crossed their mind shortly after while running…

‘Yumeno–Sensei is a massive prick!’

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void-kissed · 1 year

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okay you know what screw it

(The post got long, so it’s going under a readmore)

(And to clarify, it is not an April Fools’ thing, I’m not going out of my way to do anything for that today)

It is time for a crush reveal! My most recently-acquired crush is none other than Zero, from the Endwalker expansion of Final Fantasy XIV. As one of my friends was getting into the game and talking about it to me a lot back in February, I ended up falling down a rabbit hole on the wiki at the start to try and more properly understand some of what they were talking about. This ended up going in entirely the wrong direction, as in the process I stumbled across a very pretty lady in Zero.

Here she is courtesy of a screenshot I found online! She was apparently specifically designed based on the idea of “a genderless character with beautiful androgynous features”, aaaand I can definitely say that “beautiful” is an apt word to use for her, if you ask me ^-^

she’s so cool

..To be honest, maybe I should probably just call this an official romantic F/O reveal, haha. I do think I want to romantically selfship with her, after all, and even though I do not have her game myself (or necessarily want to get it, for sheer enormity/having multiple friends playing it but all on different servers/expense/laptop storage/etc. reasons), I have watched multiple of the cutscenes that she’s in and read through her wiki page and everything, so.. that’s allowed, right? I don’t have a name for the selfship itself yet, though. So I’ll probably keep her as a crush for that reason.

..In any case, you can probably guess that I’d be using my newest self-insert, Lorenza, to selfship with her. As a reminder, Lorenza is the voidsent avatar of K’pheli Tia (my friend Simon’s self-insert!), who made a pact with her during the first part of the game to bring her into the world of the Source and help him in battle in return for aether - he isn’t actually officially a Reaper until much later in the story when he finds out those are an actual thing, but she essentially is just tagging along with him and the rest of the party for most of the game so far. She’d start becoming a more prevalent character during the events of Endwalker that deal with the Thirteenth, since that’s the world she’s from.

This is what Lorenza looks like! Being a voidsent - so, like a demon, to put it into a less FFXIV-specific context - she initially has a rather ominous appearance, and would be known only as Colombina. However, after spending enough time on the Source - which isn’t flooded with darkness like her home world of the Thirteenth - she starts regaining more of the Thirteenth’s-equivalent-to-Miqo’te traits she had before that flood of darkness actually happened, and decides she wants to go by her original name of Lorenza again. (Since she isn’t from the Source, that’s why her name doesn’t fit that world’s typical naming conventions, haha)

I promise she is not as evil as she looks. She’s generally quite chaotic, especially compared to Zero, but does also have a dry and sometimes deadpan-sounding sense of humour, like I can sometimes.

Thank you for taking the time to read this if you’ve done so!!!

#a call from the void #heart of the void #selfshipping #I.. don’t really know whether to tag as a crush or a romantic F/O ahaha #I think I will use the crush tag for now simply because I don’t have a name for the selfship yet??#???: final memoriate (zero)#self‑insert: wings of the void (lorenza)#gaaaah I’ve been awake for like two hours and I’m still tired #I also haven’t actually gotten out of bed yet oops #but I should do that so I can eat #shoutout to the sandals I gave alectra for serving as placeholder footwear for like five different self-inserts at this point

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kingmintyreturns · 8 months

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Heya! I just found your punch-out au fic on a recommended page and I love it to bits! It's such and interesting concept and already a great story! Even if it never continues, it's definitely gonna be something I re-read.

Also your art is cool as hell! I love the way you mix the different designs Sandman's had over the years into a cohesive design that looks really unique while staying true to the spirit of his character!

(And your selfship is so cute and you're actually the coolest for getting on cringetopia)

Aww thank you! honestly, getting into the writing process without any knowledge of structure or pacing killed me. I've been practicing quite a bit in my free time. I'm not sure if i can guarantee a continuation since i realized that i came up with the plot after suffering a few losses and identity issues and thematically, it least plotting it out (and later, selfshipping) gave me the catharsis i needed.

sometimes you get to a point with a character that it feels disingenuous to put them in certain situations like a children's plaything. Darius (mr. Sandman) in particular has grown and evolved into something bigger than punch out to me, which i don't expect to make sense to anyone but a few assorted creatives, spirituals, selfshippers and neurodivergent people. i just let him take me where he wants to go. i can't puppet him.

maybe that sounds crazy, but i don't mind. i've genuinely become a healthier person through this coping mechanism. i was diagnosed with autism a month ago, and while sometimes i still doubt, there's no doubt that my special interest has helped me process and start to heal from things i otherwise wouldn't have. i have some creative and supportive friends to thank for that too.

but i digress--thank you for the compliments! it means a lot to me that people still care about something that's brought me so much joy over the years. people may find some of my interpretations to be a bit eccentric, but i don't mind. I've had lots of people agree with me that fat is a good look on sandman.

my hope is that by being myself unapologetically, i can give at least one person out there the space to do so too. it didn't phase me one bit to get on cringetopia--i laughed my ass off. better that they go after me than someone more vulnerable.

i used to be really scared and think that all of my deepest desires, ideas and sensibilities were stupid and shameful. if i hadn't been open here, there's a chance I'd have been much more hurt by their remarks. now, it feels like it rolls right off my back when someone is mean. i might even laugh along; if you take yourself too seriously, you'll never be happy!

i wear the label "cringe" with pride--it means i am unbothered, authentic, and irreverent. i think if we were all willing to be a bit more cringe, people would feel a helluva lot more connected than they do now.

#i wrote you a novel anon lmao #thank you again!!!

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