#this kind of door

[fandomsandfeminism]

On Saturday, in New York, a group of friends pulled into a strangers driveway to turn their car around. The homeowner came outside, shot at them, and killed one of the 20 year old women in the car.

Last Thursday, in Kansas City, a 16 year old boy ended up at the wrong address by mistake trying to pick up his younger siblings. He rang the doorbell. The homeowner shot him in the head. He is, miraculously, alive and recovering.

Yesterday, in Texas, a group of high school cheerleaders stopped at a grocery store on their way home. One of them opened the door to the wrong car by mistake, realized her mistake, and quickly retreated and found her friends car nearby. The man in the car followed her and shot at the group. 2 were shot. One remains hospitalized.

In less than a week- 3 people, doing normal, nonmalicious, nonthreatening, everyday things. Turning around in a driveway, ringing the wrong doorbell, going up to the wrong car by mistake. And with no escalation, no warning, it turns to gun fire.

It's a terrible intersection of easy access to firearms and an entitlement to use violence against others. All 3 of these recent incidents were so unprovoked and unjustifiable, and the core thread remains the same.

A man who felt entitled to use violence and had the means to do so with a firearm.

I don't even know what to say.

#gun control obviously #but even that feels like too little #we need gun control #but we also need I dunno some...something more #because what kind of society creates this #what kind of culture allows it #the entitlement to leap straight to deadly force before you even speak to a person #to shoot at a stranger through your front door or car window without warning #just what in fucking hell

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 4: Deranged Bedfellows

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4.5)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #lan wangji #nie huaisang #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #This is the *first* part of what was supposed to be a much longer comic (LWJ's morning routine in full). #I'll finish the remaining part as a reblog to this post! I just think this is the funnier chunk. #Lan Wangji absolutely is the kind of person who has a perfect internal alarm clock for when it is time to get up. #He already has a dedicated sleep schedule. He is accurate within 10 seconds of 5am every day. #I think the Jiang disciples are most likely used to waking up around 6:00-7:00am #But the allure of having a guaranteed time keeper getting you up in the morning is worth the earlier hour. #I imagine they started outside lwj's door and slowly moved closer as the weeks went on. #Now LWJ has to cope with being way too warm in the night from all the extra body heat. #LWJ is not a fan of this but they scamper off immediately after he wakes up and they at least show initiative to follow routine. #NHS joins in only because he is a chronically heavy sleeper and needs this level of intervention to get up early. #His boldness would be a death sentence in the cloud recesses but here? Whole new game. #Yungmeng Jiang isn't a lawless land. It's just a land with different laws. #And one of those laws is to forcefully domesticate the catboy coded Lan boy through any means necessary. #Completely different tangent: I drew the thumbnail for this before I did comic 134. I then realized they had the same visual gag. #So I had to space this one out so it didn't seem like I repeated the waking up joke. That's my secret and all of you have to keep it. #And in my land the law is that snitches get itches (telepathically transfers hives onto your body)

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #catherine tate #ncuti gatwa #i finished reading the giggle novelisation today!!! ;A; #it was by far the best out of the 3 novels #having it written in the toymaker's pov was so good #and then when they were going through the doors and it turned into a choose your adventure kind of story for a bit #that was excellent!!! #though i think i got stuck in a loop and then had to go back and read each chapter in order lol #and then the doctor buying a house..... giving the sun room to wilf.... #and they're all the noble-temple-doctor family...... PLEASE #;A;!!!! #and again i'm quite sure someone must have made this gifset before #but here's my version :)))) #ANYWAYS I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AHHHHH #MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!! NEW DW TOMORROW :')

[egophiliac]

What was your favorite of the flashbacks in Silver’s walk?

the acorn bracelet is VERY good, but I really really love Malleus humming (hummalleus? hummus?) to Silver. especially now that the song has Context. >:) we are in a soup of angst and I'm here with a spoon in each hand and a silly straw that leads directly to my brain.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #(sorry for being a while i was taking a bit of a socials break) #i think this is the same scene that opens with lilia singing meleanor's lullaby to silver #before malleus walked through the door and lilia went 'here have a baby BYEEEE' #mmm yes. delightful. #and i know i've already talked about it but malleus' immediate reaction being 'gross. what is this.' is still great #sometimes he really is just a dumb teenager and i love it #i also love the spoon scene a lot for being kind of the ur-example of cute fluffy ao3 domestic diasomnias. but that's in sebek's map so #(i think most of the domestic life stuff is actually in sebek's) #(all that sugar-sweetness would dissolve under silver's tears)

[tapakah0]

Animation commission I guess...

Um... ha-ha, okay, it has been stuck in my head for the whole month, but if I will keep it any more I will explode, I need to busy my brain even more I'd like to take an animation commission. Like, a fully colored, shaded, with lightning, with in-betweens, with the clean line (and background). Up to 5 seconds depending on what you want to get I guess the price may start from 250$ and be higher or less depending on complexity of the details, character or movement (<- of course everything will be negotiated) I never took such commissions before so please be patient with me since I might spend even months ha-ha (really wanna beat this fear of taking something more complex) But I will do my best since it will be first experimental time for me 1. Payment via Boosty after acceptance of the sketch animation (very rough idea) 2. I think I can draw mostly anything (but won't 18+, guro and I can decline something if I feel like I will not like to do it) 3. You must have a reference of the character, I'm not ready to work with something that doesn't have a ref to start working right away 4. Please, properly think of what you'd like to see, I will not make 3 different rough animations of different ideas because you suddenly had another idea ;~;; 5. Note me in dms if you'd like to take commission... (I'd like to move to discord later since it's more comfortable in here) Uh... I have only this as a more or less proper example (it was based on amazing storyboard by yeye23)

Okay, I'll just leave it here if someone really will be interested and will delete if it if it will be decided.... I just feel like my brain is dying if I don't have an enjoyable/stressful more complicated work on a side that demands an attention from me. Have a nice day

#I just... #I have what to do #Plenty of what to do #But it doesn't stress me enough to make my brain work #Such kind of commissions give me both a boost of work and enjoyment because of the process #So... yeah ah my brain is very much lacking it right now #And I think it will be interesting to finally do something complicated again but more properly #from the very beginning #I need an experience while I have time to pay attention to it #commission #I'm still not very confident to take money for these kind of works so I need to understand what pricing is okay for what I'm able to do wit #animation... #*opens the door* #*leaves the stage* #hahhh my dear life why did you give me such a lazy brain...

[hotluncheddie]

eddie loves the public library, once he moved in with wayne he would regularly bring home a stack of books and devour them. wayne had barely gotten his head around the last lot eddie regaled him with, before eddie was onto talking about the next.

eddie using the school library sometimes, though it had nothing on the public one. would watch as steve harrington slumped in during lunchtimes, face bruised, just looking for somewhere quiet.

eddie in the library, secretly spying on steve harrington on saturday. there with a brown curly haired kid. eddie uses dustin speaking a little too loudly about dnd as an excuse to go talk to them. show them where the best dragon books were kept. heart clenching over secretly catching steves warm smile as dustin gets exited.

the librarians of hawkins being some of his few supporters during that terrible week. having the same learned faith in him as wayne - that hurting someone just wasn't in eddies nature.

librarian eddie - crushing on but always being too embarrassed to talk to the guy who comes in for the audio books.

fantasy writer eddie dedicating his first novel to all public library employees across the country, and steve.

#just #eddie bookworm munson #he gets bookworm tattooed across his fingers like frank iero #hes kind and patient to everyone who comes through the library doors #he loves stories #loves to share #sweet guy #eddie munson #steddie #hotlunch #ideas

[booasaur]

Special Ops: Lioness - 1x07

#specialopslionessedit #special ops lioness #special ops: lioness #aaliyah amrohi #cruz manuelos #stephanie nur #laysla de oliveira #special ops lioness 1x07 #special ops lioness spoilers #aaliyah x cruz #femslash related stuff #muslim lgbt #god this ep was kind of perfect for what you'd expect at this stage of a spy/target story? #wow #it was hot it was heartbreaking #the conflict coming from cruz fully being into this #the dressing room scene and then them arriving here so single-minded #cruz scoping out the rooms and already taking her shoes off #aaliyah trying to be more patient but as soon as that door clicks the way she swings around #it's funny and sweet and sexy but so temporary :(

[corrodedcoughin]

thinking about how if Eddie was cornered for a fight he’d probably play to his strengths and try to freak out his attackers by bouncing around like old timey boxers, looking like a kangaroo and punching the air while saying ‘oh you wanna go??? You wanna go??? Well let me tell you! There’s going to be three hits!!! Me hitting you, you hitting the floor and the ambulance hitting 80 when it takes you to the hospital. That’s right. The old left, right, goodnight. The ol’ razzle dazzle!’

And the guys just…leave? Because what is this guy doing? And why is he moving like that?

Eddie munson: 1, bullies: 42. Things are finally looking up.

What Eddie doesn’t know is that Steve Harrington was standing just off to the side and waved the bullies on when he saw it all kick off. Not wanting to interrupt Eddie’s…technique…he did what he could without raising suspicions

#PLEASE someone say they know what I’m #talking about. like the kind of fight where he’s bouncing around being distracting then he’d like tap the guy on the nose and the guy is #like ‘wtf????’ and Eddie is all ‘see!! get any close and you’ll never make it out alive!!!’ #and Steve was watching the whole thing from the gym doors readying to swoop in but turns out eddie didn’t need him #idk I have the exact video in my head but it might not exist #’whhyyy I OUGHTTA’ Eddie being a dramatic jam #eddie munson #stranger things #steve harrington #steddie #oh girly I know it’s a flop but it’s funny to ME

[canisalbus]

ASS MAN VASCO?????

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#I'm just the kind of sleep deprived atm where a lot of things sound more funny than they're supposed to be #and I read this in in the tone of ass man door hand hook car door vasco or something and burst out laughing #answered #dynacats

[angelxd-3303]

If I had a nickel for every time 2023 had me shipping a blonde with family issues and soul crushing expectations with a sad man wit the biggest, wettest puppy eyes ever... I'd have two nickels.

Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice, right?

Please let this poor man sleep.

#traditional art #fnaf movie #fnaf movie vanessa #fnaf movie mike #fnaf movie abby #fnaf #Vanessa showed Mike human kindness and now he and his sis are her problem #she fed the stray cat and he brought his baby sibling to her door lol #she definitely lets mike sleep in her lap. #also references to goldenheart bc those idiots livebin my head rent free

[iwasbored777]

Yes, Miles was respectful enough to pull his hand away when Gwen was hesitating but he also waited a little before he sat beside her, he didn't rush into anything, he only gets closer, slowly, when she says "it really is always so great to talk to you" cuz he was waiting for her confirmation that his company makes her happy a.k.a. comfortable and that it's ok for him to do it

#how come boys weren't so respectful in my school #i had a boy open the door for me once and i almost passed out #like what kind of dark magic is this #miles morales #gwen stacy #gwiles #ghostflower #spider man across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spiderverse

[15-lizards]

It fucks that there are so many characters that are an antithesis to one of The Seven while still embodying their traits and technically representing them. Cersei is the Mother in that she only has love for her own children, but no mercy or any sense of nurturing. Tywin represents the Father’s protection, his justice, but that justice is always unfair, and serves only him, not even his own children. I have a Rolodex of all the knights that warp the values of the Warrior. Jamie and Arthur have to break one vow to stay true to another. Sandor is vile and cruel and dishonorable, but still protective of the innocent. Tyrion does his best to mend the broken city and protect its people like the Smith would do, but is also actively destabilizing things and fucking shit up for his own personal gain. Margaery had managed to maintain being the idea of the Maiden while being married three times, and hiding her plotting under the guise of innocence and virtue. Bran is a young Crone, his wisdom and foresight forced upon him instead of being obtained naturally through age. And Arya is a wanderer with no identity, a killer who takes life at random. But unlike the Stranger, Arya is still Arya, no matter how she tries to hide herself. She is a scared girl with a bias, not killing unthinkingly but rather in order to enact her revenge and seek justice, the opposite of what Death would do. Anyways these kinds of foils absolutely fuck

#asoiaf #AND the crone let the first raven in the world when she peered through the door of death like??? bran is so Crone kinnie #everyone always like arya stranger and yeah she is sometimes but she’s also an 11 y/o who kills ppl bc she needs vengeance of some kind #her ass is NOT unbiased and unmerciful like Death

[inkkill]

#albedo #kaeya #kaeya alberich #genshin #genshin impact #kaebedo #kind of? #I have a lot of feelings #about them and about this door #and place #anyways :D #albedo fanart #kaeya fanart #genshin fanart #art

[bitchliteraria1906]

Random thought:

Loki and Mobius find a hurt stray cat. It's agressive, bites, doesn't trust anyone, etc. But Mobius insists on taking it in, and Loki gives in.

None of them has ever had an actual pet before, but they try. They let the cat hide when they get home and don't pressure it to come out. They get food and water and leave it close by.

Mobius is the one who gets the cat's trust first though, and it's actually kind of sudden? One day Loki gets home and the little hairball is just curled up in Mobius's lap.

He's actually kind of impressed.

"What did you do?"

"Nothing specific. I guess the poor thing just needed to feel safe."

"This 'poor thing' has bitten and scratched both of us several times."

"Scared animals do that, Loki. Not very different from people."

A small moment of silence, and suddenly Mobius is smirking, and Loki knows exactly where this is going.

"You know, now that I think about it..."

"Don't."

"I guess I just have experience with hurt and scared little things who act like they're angry when they just need care."

"Don't you dare compare me to this creature."

"I wasn't going to, but hey, you said it."

"I hate you."

#loki #loki tv show #mobius #mobius m mobius #mobius mcu #loki laufeyson #loki odinson #lokius #random thoughts #i mean come on #mobius would #he just would #i just know he calls Loki kitten behind closed doors #i just know he does #headcanon #kind of #more like an alternative universe scenario #i might write this

[cupophrogs]

I know it's random as hell, but I gotta ask, does drew listen to lady gaga on his phone? I was listening and he have the chaotic vibe of her songs

Yes actually! However

The Doobie Brothers are far better to boogie to!

#y’all have no idea how much I love the Doobie Brothers #Black Water is one of my favorite songs y’all cannot understand #/vpos #also the D’s being genuinly happy? uninterrupted by the persisting horrors just beyond the statue door? #dw I’ll ruin it in a minute here LMAO #I LVOE drawing characters boogeying #it’s a simple kind of joy with (in my opinion) the sweetest kind of platonic intimacy #just a couple of guys being silly and having fun together #what’s better than that? #absolutely nothing I tell you #phrart #art #ask the three d’s #the three d’s #ask drew #Drew poppy playtime #dogday poppy playtime #dogday #daddy long legs poppy playtime #daddy long legs #poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime fanart #the doobie brothers #bro I stg the volume of Drew’s hair changes every time I draw him #smh my head