#to my irl mutuals pls look away

[darby-rowe]

༊*·˚ princely.

coriolanus snow x dark!fem!reader

word count 1.5k cw dark themes, NONCON SOMNOPHILIA, dead dove do not eat, reader has a gross internal monologue, handjob, coriolanus is unaware of his assault, not proofread notes hey! i don't condone anything described in this fic irl! what the reader does here is gross and is literally assault. PLEASE HEED THE CONTENT WARNINGS BECAUSE SHIT GETS WEIRD! got it? good. then pls enjoy ♡ wanna give a quick thanks to my mutual @shellxrls for inspiring me to write more dark content, and for encouraging me to post this. if it wasn't for her, this fic would have never seen the light of day.

Your fingernails grip so hard into the blanket you fear you may rip the soft fleece from its stitches. Staring down at the beautiful boy sleeping next to you in your bed, looking so utterly soft and peaceful. You watch his chest rise up and down slowly with each breath he takes, studying how his muscles move beneath his skin. His soft blonde curls sprawl delicately across his face. You didn’t even know it was possible to look so princely while you slept, but Coriolanus Snow was living proof.

You had previously allowed Coriolanus to stay at your apartment for a few days while his place went under renovations, courtesy of his newfound inheritance of the Pinths’ fortune. He was your best friend after all, so who were you to deny him hospitality?

But on the first night of him sleeping in your bed, you find yourself questioning every aspect of your moral compass now that you had him beside you looking so vulnerable. Your fingers twitch. The temptation is nearly killing you. He’s most likely deep within some kind of dream, so…

Before your mind comprehends what you’re doing, your hand is on his smooth, toned chest, feeling him breathe underneath your touch. You want to pull your hand away, to stop before you start, but your hand feels as if it’s stuck to his smooth skin. What’s happening? Why aren’t you stopping yourself? Oh god, Coryo looks so hot when he sleeps. Is he dreaming? Is he dreaming about you? If he’s dreaming about you, then surely that means he’s into you, so he wouldn’t mind if you were to just—

Before you could realize what you’re doing, your hand is moving further down south Coriolanus’s torso, heeding every single physical and verbal cue that could indicate he’s waking up. You bite down hard on your lip — almost a bit too hard — as your hand approaches closer and closer to the waistband of his boxers. So crisply pristine, a pearly white color, almost too perfect. Did he not have a single pair of ruined underwear? Surely he must have a pair in the hamper with his cum stains painting the front. Maybe even multiple pairs. Yeah, multiple pairs of ruined underwear caused by Coriolanus’s physiology. The thought makes your pussy throb, and you look down as you thumb the waistband of his boxers.

But you decide to not venture towards the promised land just yet. Instead, you ghost your fingertips over the print of Coriolanus’s large cock. You have to swallow hard as your mouth waters, frantically flicking your eyes back and forth from his face to your hands. You think to yourself, is it too late to turn back? Could you still save yourself from the horrifying embarrassment of getting caught touching your friend in his sleep?

A small groan escapes his throat, and at the speed of light you retract your hand and wait for further instruction. Coriolanus does not open his eyes, but you still wait a few moments before putting your hand back.

Oh, Coryo. Oh sweet, princely, beautiful Coryo — if only he could see how pretty he looks right now resting his soft curls on your pillows, then maybe he’ll understand why you’re doing what you’re doing. Just can’t help myself, you think.

You really begin to think about the circumstances. You’re a hot girl. You’re insanely hot with a sharp tongue and even sharper brain. You have ambitions, goals, and fully thought out plans for the future. You’re perfect girlfriend and wife material. Would Coriolanus really be bothered by someone like you touching him in his sleep? In fact, he would probably be grateful.

Ugh, no! What? Stop thinking like that. You’re so full of yourself you’re choking on your own ego. You’re a violator. A venomous pervert. A venomous, conniving, irresistibly hot pervert.

You sigh to yourself. Your brain just keeps thinking in circles and in circles and in circles and in circles. You can’t be doing this. Just a little won’t hurt? This is as far as you’ll go. He won’t even mind at all because you notice the way he looks at you like you’re a lamb for the slaughter. This isn’t right. You can’t be doing this. Just a little won’t hurt?

The room temperature rises. A lining of sweat appears on your hairline as you continue to lightly ghost your fingers over the print of Coriolanus’s hardening cock. He’s starting to make noises more frequently. He must be dreaming now.

You dare to whisper, see if maybe your voice will bleed into his dreams. You’re dying to know how he’ll react. Ever so softly, his name escapes your lips like a delicate puff of smoke from inhaling a cigarette.

“Coryo,”

You wait.

You wait for a moan, a sigh, a physical response.

Nothing.

You say a silent prayer to yourself before leaning in closer, attempting to manipulate his dreams once more.

“Coryo, I’m here,”

You perk up as a tiny moan escapes Coriolanus’s mouth, and even more exciting, his cock twitches beneath your fingertips.

This was your sign to keep going.

Carefully, you retract your hand and drool a generous amount of saliva onto your fingers and in the palm of your hand before slipping your hand underneath the waistband of his boxers. And as your fingers made contact with his hardening cock, you shiver.

Your entire body flares up with goosebumps and your pussy throbs and aches almost instantly. You have to take a moment to yourself before you begin stroking him, to just hold his shaft within your perverted, filthy hand. Your heart is beating so fast that you’re afraid you might pass out before you can indulge in the fun.

Your hand trembles as you begin to stroke him, keeping a light yet generous grip as you pump his cock up and down. He’s beginning to moan more loud than before, and more frequently. You think to yourself about how you could cum right then and there just from feeling his dick and listening to him moan.

It’s dark in your bedroom, but your eyes adjusted a while ago, giving you a fair view of Coriolanus’s cock in your hand. You swipe your thumb across his slit, and for a moment you stop as a sharp gasp emits from the sleeping boy. But when he shows no sign of waking up, you continue.

“So big…” you whisper to yourself, voice barely audible. You feel his cock begin to leak with pre-cum and you slick up his shaft with his own bodily juices, making your hand pump his cock more smoothly as you pick up the pace.

You wonder to yourself if you could even get away with straddling his hips to sit down on his dick, slowly impaling yourself as your tight pussy envelops him in his sleep. How would he react? You can picture it now: you, stripped of your panties and nightgown, tits bouncing up and down as you ride his cock. Eventually, he’ll stir awake to the image of your hot body on top of him, moaning and whimpering sweetly. And he won’t fight back, oh no. Because you’ve seen the way he looks at you — you don’t think he knows how you study the way he licks his lips as he eyes you up and down. Your pussy is on his mind 24/7. He’s obsessed with you. You’re surprised he hasn’t tried to touch you in your sleep. You’d welcome the sentiment, though, as your eyes would slowly flutter open to the sight of Coriolanus pounding his cock into you. You wouldn’t tell him to stop.

Would he tell you to stop?

You’d like to think so. But you can’t afford to think of alternate versions of this night as your hand is now thoroughly pumping his cock in a proper handjob. Coriolanus mewls and twitches in his sleep, and your mind can’t begin to comprehend how hot he looks completely at your mercy.

“Pretty, so pretty,” you whisper. “Don’t even know I’m fisting your fucking cock, yeah? Wish this was my pussy? Wish I was fucking you in your sleep instead of giving you this lousy handjob?”

You don’t know what comes over you as you lean down to kiss his sleeping lips, and before you know it, he’s lazily grunting as he spills his cum all over your hand.

And you’re so turned on you feel more as if you have to pee more than anything. Your pussy pulsates as you feel his cock throb underneath your hand, and you have to practically force yourself to pull your hand away and lay back down.

Mere seconds after his orgasm, you feel and hear Coriolanus stir and wake up. He mumbles a curse word under his breath as he assesses his sticky situation.

You just lay there, with your hand still covered in his cum, as a deep, dark dread fills your chest. Someone pours liquid lead into your heart as reality settles back in for you.

What have I done?

darby-rowe, 2024. do not plagiarize my content, nor distribute my content onto any other website like AO3, etc. my writing is exclusive to tumblr only.

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[roseillith]

Pls don’t hurt yourself. Deleting a blog is one thing but pls don’t hurt yourself. So sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. You put so much joy and beauty into the world via this blog im one of many recipients of that and no matter how you feel you look like externally, i and many others get a chance to see your soul and it’s beautiful, expansive, smart, inspirational and full of humour! As a black person I also sometimes feel alienated and off key when my fam speak ga of twi around me and yet haven’t taught me, sometimes I feel so disconnected from everyone and feel like I’m floating away with nothing to hold me, no anchor to any sort of real meaningful life. Betrayal from friends or from love, broken heartedness, loneliness strike but still there is a lil bit of light, there is the wind blowing on my face, a glass of water, a favourite song, some sun. There are small joys that remind us we are not alone. And You are not alone and I hope that one day soon you receive all the joy light and good energy you put into this harsh world. Pls don’t give up. We love you, keep your head up

tyvm I appreciate your message deeply, I feel a constant push n pull whenever I log on & post on here, the things that I’ve posted recently (including this) has made feel ashamed in that I have spilled out all of my thoughts n feelings out on this public platform, the same place that I’ve been constructing as way to separate my physical& literal self and run towards things that I have stored inside me, all of the stuff the I carry along with me whenever I’m out in public, that I know I can’t share w/ any nigga that I know out there instead I try to avert my eyes from all other dudes out there cuz I know I don’t fit in and feel physically gross when I’m around w/ a bunch of dudes, me failing to be a man in general and avoid man-to-man convos irl and instead retreating those inner stuff into the girl that I want to be, the kind of girl where I know I can apply all the totality of myself out there into the world.

Now I’m just staring at this public persona that I have made of myself feeling increasingly distant day-to-day and I wonder why I put all my all into this blog w/ gifs,pics,anime stuff, film stuff, music stuff etc. when I can’t muster up the courage to talk about all that shit outside out aloud without having to be disgusted from hearing the sound of my voice or/and how the person/s I’m saying it to is even viewing me physically & as a person/“grown up man” having the courage to go out and transition to the girl that I can see in the distance.

The one rule I had when making this blog was to never spill out my personal shit of actually being a man irl who’s found solace and significant more ease in being a woman online cuz I know that if I ever did that it would be embarrassing & the end for me personally, I wouldn't be able to look myself in the eye, all the shit that I had posted on here it all being a lie to me, and worse of all I never really took in any support from anyone else here I had this lone wolf-esque mentality where I always try and not get close to anybody I was mutuals w/, never share anything abt my personal shit, always looking through the window seeing other ppl chill with others, and when I look at myself on here I’m feel still as alone as I do irl & tbh much of it is my fault from not being able to put myself out there and feeling disassociated from myself in whatever I do on here and irl

#answered #txt

[chryblossomjjk]

bts fic recommendations | 03.07.23

→ hi friends! this is a little segment i do every tuesday (reviewsday get it, aren’t i funny, pls tell me how funny i am) where i read and review two-three fics. as a content creator, i know how big of a role other creators play in your growth, therefore, i want to do my part in making sure everyone gets the recognition they deserve! so with that being said, please check out the amazing fics listed below. make sure to like, reblog, and leave feedback! ♡ #reviewsday #kikirecs

stardust - @euphoricfilter (jjk x reader | fluff, smut, f2l)

summary:  if jungkook would have known an unintentional orgasm would have led to this, then he would have begged you to work out with him sooner.

naur bby when i tell you i loved this from the first paragraph...

"If every living being’s foundation is made of stardust, scattered when born, then Jungkook thinks the two of you were made from the same star."

and the way you continued the analogy throughout was pure literature gold (or should i say diamond teehee). its stuff like this that i read and im like damn, the moots are really out here posting fics that could easily be published best sellers for fucking free!! how lucky are we!!!

OOF AND THE PILLOW PRINCESS COMMENT HAD ME LOOKING AROUND THE ROOM BLUSHING BC HOW DOES HE KNOW ME LIKE THAT I FELT CALLED OUT LMAO

and the whole workout scene hits even better after his workout live like i legit was able to visual everything... and sex in the mirror will never not be top tier :')

i love this jungkook dearly. this is how i imagine irl jk yk? just that hopeless romantic vibe, feeling that he has someone on this earth that is meant for him and he's meant for them. thats encapsulated so beautifully in this fic. such beautiful writing, thank you for blessing us with this fucking masterpiece!!

knee high socks - @minniesvenus (jjk x reader | smut, college au)

summary: after being obsessed with you and your knee high socks for forever, jungkook can't believe that you finally notice him.

okay so do you ever just hear a song or smell a smell that feels so incredibly nostalgic and fills your head with dreamy thoughts and stars and stuff... that's exactly how i felt while reading this! like i just kept thinking of the arctic monkeys song and the way you characterized jungkook's crush is just so authentic. its just that pure school crush feeling where you anticpate seeing this person and the more time you see them you pick up on little things and it makes you fall even deeper oof. there's just something so fimilair about the way you wrote this and it's probably one of the most realistic depictions i've seen of the natural progression of a crush like uGH THE FUCKING TALENT !!!

and it makes you root for him so much like i was internally cheering for him when she asked him to sit next to him. it was so fucking wholesome and sweet i screamed

and then shit got unwholesome real quick whew

her giving him praise actually made me so happy though! like you definitely inspired me to write more of that bc its so refreshing and cute!! and the smut was saur naughty but so sweet bc she was just guiding him through the motions and once again it just felt so natural which is no easy feet!! like you really hit the nail on the head with this one and it will be added to my comfort fic list asap!! so so so lovely!!

in the seom: love for dummies - @thvhoe (jjk x reader | smut, fluff, angst, fwb, college au, camping au)

summary: always the friend, never the girlfriend. jeon jungkook doesn't date. at least that's what he thought until he met you, a chemistry student who seemed to have it all—except for love. meeting at a mutual friends frat party, you hit it off right away. however, due to both of your stubbornness, it has never progressed beyond being friends with benefits. the annual camping trip with your friend group was supposed to be the turning point in your relationship with jungkook. but what happens when your best friend of 18 years unexpectedly comes back from busan and confesses to you, further complicating matters?

OoF WHAT A FUCKING OPENING SCENE LMAO!! i was horny from fucking JUMP!!! and kook juggling between pet names and not knowing what to call her made me giggle but always made me extremely soft like aw :') <3

and y/n really whipped that fuckboy into shape we love to see it!! he better buy gifts n work for the coochie!!! >:(

"Pookie🩶: Can't sleep. Send me a pic of your boobies?"

this had me cackling bc this behavior is saur... annoyingly endearing like he legit is a big baby and i love him lmao even though unholy he is extremely cute.

^y/n and i both having immaculate taste and listening to ditto

and i am so thankful things turned out well for this pairing. i felt so sad for him like ugh the protectiveness and worry over her. he was generally just so wholesome throughout this entire fic. def a fav protrayal of jungkook. thank you so much for sharing this beautiful peice with us my love!

#reviewsday #kikirecs #jungkook #bts jungkook #jeon jungkook #jungkook smut #jungkook x reader #jungkook imagine #jungkook scenario #jungkook au #bts fanfic #bts fic recs #bts #bangtan #jungkook x y/n

[vamossainz55]

Moonlight Ch. 8 | Carlos Sainz Jr. x Reader

a/n: okay, a day late, but guys, bare with me. this is a lot (i know i say it but tbh i have not been letting anyone catch a break lmao). warnings are pretty heavy? or this chapter is probably just the heaviest in general. i really hated writing most of it (just because i was getting my scheduled writers block) and was struggling but i really hope you enjoy <3, i really put all my heart (and tears) in this one.

as always constructive criticism is greatly appreciated <3

warnings: 18+ // angst, a lot of self deprication lowkey? abandonment issues lowkey? smut tho, like pretty heavy and explicit (oral, p in v, unprotected sex but pls wrap it irl guys 💀. neck grabbing, degradation, name calling, quite kinky ngl so please look away if it isnt your thing and just skip the part. if you are under 18 pleas please stay away!), also cheating, like straight up cheating and mentions of cheating. oops. sorry not sorry .

link to masterlist + summary

link to chapter 7

Chapter 8 (6.4k words)

The two weeks had been a rollercoaster of emotions, Carlos was still imprinted into your brain and no matter how many nights you slept next to Bastien, all you could think about was the press of Carlos’ skin against yours. 

You try your best to wash the feeling away, or hope that late nights with Bastien would get the driver out of your mind, but you soon learn this is useless. It’s frustrating, and you feel the need to scream. 

Being away hadn’t helped at all, it had only made your mind wander more. You wondered what would have happened with Carlos, what the driver was feeling, was he also thinking of you as much as you were thinking of him?

All the thoughts came with bitterness too though, because all you could also think about was why the two of you had broken up. It was always mutually agreed but the more you thought about it the more upset you felt, at the end of the day Carlos was the one who broke up with you. 

It wasn’t fair. 

You had finally gotten over Carlos and somehow he had crawled back into your mind and made himself at home. Was he to blame though? You had practically opened the door and welcomed him in. 

To make matters worse, Bastien was not making it any of this easier. He would bring up Carlos at every opportunity, holding it against you for every little thing. You felt hopeless, and although you understood why Bastien felt the way he did it only made you feel even further away from him. The only times you both didn’t argue was when you were in bed, sharing fevered kisses with your hands roaming on each other's bodies. 

The moment you arrive back in the UK you feel even worse than when you left. The excitement of the season starting had worn off and all you felt was dread.

You were dreading being away from Bastien, and even worse you were dreading being around Carlos. Bastien had made it loud and clear before you left that you both needed some distance and you promised him you would maintain some space from the Spaniard. 

That’s why you decline Carlos’ offer to drive you to the office for the briefing two days before your flight to Melbourne. 

You arrive late to the meeting because of this, having pushed yourself to go after swallowing down the anxiety that had built inside you. You see Carlos and Lando sitting in the front and there’s a chair next to Carlos who instantly gives you a smile before patting the empty spot. You give him a quick smile before making a beeline to the back of the room, missing the drop of his smile as soon as you look away. 

The sight of him was already making you feel sick. 

The planning team is nice and you’re impressed with how detailed they are, planning the trip to the T. You’re taking down notes in your notebook to make sure you have everything written down for the trip before you feel a shift next to you. To your surprise you find Carlos sitting down next to you. 

“Hey,” he murmurs in a low voice and you instantly start feeling a bit nervous. 

“Hey,” you say trying to sound as dismissive as possible but Carlos nudges your side with his arm, making you look over at him again. 

“You okay? Why were you late?” He asks and you’re still focused on taking down your notes. 

“Missed the bus,” you murmur, still not looking up at Carlos. You’re about to flip to the next page when Carlos stops you, grabbing the notebook from you and putting it on his lap. 

“Y/n,” he says and you’re taking a deep breath. “What’s up? I thought we were good.” He says and you shrug. 

“We are, I just wanna make sure I have everything noted down.” You’re properly looking at him now and he’s leaning close to you because of how you were both whispering to each other. 

“You’re avoiding me now, I’m not dumb.” Carlos argues, moving the notebook away from you as soon as you try to take it from him. You give him a stern look, one that says stop it but he doesn’t give it back, simply holding it further away from you. 

“Can we talk about this later?” You ask, not wanting to have the conversation infront of dozens of people. 

Carlos looks sceptical as soon as you say this and he lets out a sigh before nodding. You expect him to give the notebook back as you extend your hand out for him to return it but he simply shakes his head. 

“Not until we talk.” He says before he’s getting up with your notebook to sit back next to Lando, not caring about the heads that were turning to look at him. 

Later turns out to be later in the evening much to your dismay. Tom apparently had a few things he had to catch you up to and you had told Carlos that you both could just talk before your flight to Melbourne but you’re quick to realise as you’re leaving the office that Carlos was still there. 

He was sitting by the lobby, arms on his knees as he scrolled through his phone with his head down. For a second you wonder whether you can sneak out without him noticing you but your footsteps prompt him to look up. 

“Ah- thought you were never going to finish. Let’s go? I’ll drive you home.” He says as he’s getting up. You realise his hand is nicely wrapped around your notebook still and you wonder how long he had sat there and waited for you by himself. 

For a moment you consider taking the ride from Carlos but you’re soon hearing a soft nagging voice in your head that sounds too much like Bastien that has you glued to the floor, not walking to the door. Carlos takes a second to notice this before he’s turning to you. He’s halfway to the exit and he can’t help but to furrow his brows. 

“What’s up? You don’t want me to drive you home now?” He asks and you simply shake your head, knowing that you need to already start to set boundaries. It wasn’t fair for both Bastien and Carlos. Sure, you knew Carlos was just offering a ride, but you needed to draw the line already.

“I should go home by myself.” You say and Carlos looks confused, looking at you and waiting for you to explain further. You take a deep breath to prepare yourself to speak. 

“I talked to Bastien about what happened,” You explain, looking around to see whether there was anybody around. “I think it’s better if we keep some distance. I love Bastien and I don’t want to make him uncomfortable or jeopardise our relationship.”

It takes a moment for Carlos to process the words, and he’s looking at you as if he’s waiting for you to say the punchline of the joke. When he realises you’re being serious he runs his hand through his hair. “Come on y/n, you’re kidding right?” he chuckles a bit, and there’s a cold edge to his voice that creates a sour taste in your mouth. “We’re friends no?” He asks and you have to look away from his eyes. 

“Carlos,” You sigh out, and you’re crossing your arms over your chest. Frankly, you don’t know how to answer Carlos’ question. Sure you were friends, but you both knew there were other feelings going around. 

“If we’re just friends it shouldn’t be a problem that I hang out with you.” Carlos says and he’s coming a bit closer to you. “Unless you feel differently,” His voice lowers a bit, just to make sure if anyone passed they wouldn’t be able to hear your conversation. “Did that morning mean anything to you?” Carlos practically murmurs and he’s so close there’s a shiver that goes down your spine and you force yourself to step away. 

“I don’t want to talk about that Carlos.” You say, taking another step away, this time towards the door. Carlos decided to stop you though, reaching out to grab your wrist and you feel a jolt of electricity spark up your body as he holds onto you. 

“Let me just drive you home.” Carlos says searching for your eyes. “We need to talk about this, y/n.” He insists and you shake your head. You didn’t want to talk about it, you knew that it was just going to only do your head in and open up questions that could just stay closed.

“There’s nothing to talk about Carlos.” You murmur and you try to step away but Carlos is still holding your wrist. 

“That’s not true.” Carlos says, and you’re startling to feel a bit annoyed at how much Carlos was pressing on this, still holding onto your wrist. Could he not just leave the topic alone? 

“What do you even want to talk about, hm?” You ask and your voice is louder than you expected but you’re too nervous to stop yourself. “You want to get back together?” 

Carlos’ eyes go wide, not expecting you to say that and he gently pulls you closer, “Lower your voice a bit y/n.” He says and you’re scoffing, looking at him. You don’t know what comes over you but you suddenly feel both hurt and angry. 

“Oh, I see. Now you don’t want people to know we were together?” You say and this time Carlos pulls you to one of the hallways, covering your mouth in the process. 

You roll your eyes as you stumble with him into the hallway, and once the door is shut you push his arm away. 

Carlos looks pissed. “What’s wrong with you?” He asks and you almost laugh at his question and he can’t help but frown a bit at your reaction. Why couldn’t he let old topics rest?

“I think you forgot how things ended Carlos. You broke up with me. You said you needed to focus on racing, I was clearly just a distraction.” You say, clearly upset that you even had to bring up the conversation. “I have a boyfriend now, and we are doing just fine. Sure we have had our ups and downs but it’s fine these things happen. Barcelona happened but honestly- it was nothing Carlos. Nothing happened for a reason.” You don’t know where the words are coming from and you’re not sure if you mean every single one but you’re surprised with how sure you sounded. Carlos looks stunned and his lack of response has you even more emotional.

“We broke up because you left me Carlos” You say angrily. “You have no right to be messing with my brain now. So quit it.” For a second you consider just walking off and leaving but Carlos is standing in front of the door, soon speaking up. 

“I’m messing with your brain? You’re the one that walked back into my life, and don’t act like you didn’t know or mean what you were doing in my hotel room. I know you.” Carlos says and this time he is stepping closer to you but you stand your ground, not stepping back. His hair is tousled and his face is red from how frustrated he’s getting too. You can’t believe you forgot how good he looked when he was mad. 

“I am trying to make something out of my life Carlos. It’s not like I had a choice as to which team I wanted to go to.” You say in annoyance. “I shouldn’t have gone into your stupid hotel room. I regret doing that, it shouldn't have gotten that far.”

Carlos is coming closer and despite you both arguing he’s looking at you feverishly and this time you have to take a step back. This doesn’t stop Carlos from following your steps though and stepping closer to you until your back is against the wall. He’s standing right in front of you, barely leaving any space between you both and your mind is taking you back to the hotel.

You suddenly realise how clammy your hands feel and how flushed your cheeks are and the way Carlos is looking at you is making you squirm.

“What did you say hm? That you regret it?” Carlos asks and his voice is so strong and firm that it has your stomach turning. 

You almost don’t find the voice to speak, simply murmuring a small “yeah”.

You don’t sound confident at all in your answer and Carlos’ eyes are dropping to your lips. You didn’t regret what had happened. More than anything, a part of you regretted stopping it.

“Hm? Tell me then, what do you regret? Sitting on my lap? Letting me run my hands on your pretty thighs?” Carlos asks and his voice is so low that you feel his words go straight to your core and your whole body is starting to feel like it was on fire. He knew what he was doing. Because frankly, if anybody knew you it was Carlos.

He takes this opportunity to come even closer, leaning to your ear and his breath is hot against your skin. “Could you feel me under you?” Carlos asks and you can feel his lips brush your lobe as he smirks at the sound of your breath hitching. 

Carlos takes this moment to trail kisses down your neck, your lack of answer giving him enough confidence to go for it. Despite his strong words his kisses are gentle and you can’t help but shut your eyes and let out a soft breath at how warm and wet his mouth felt on your skin. 

“I’m not hearing you say it,” Carlos murmurs as his teeth gently graze your skin. “Do you regret it or not princess? I need an answer.” Carlos asks demandingly and you hate how his words are affecting you. 

“No I don’t regret it,” You murmur and you feel Carlos smirk against your skin, that bastard. 

Before you know it his lips are on yours and no matter how hard you told yourself not to kiss back you couldn’t. Your arms are wrapping around his neck and the kisses are feverish and needy and god you had missed his lips. 

You can feel his hands roaming around, going from your sides to your waist and he’s then leaning a bit down, grabbing the back of your thighs. It’s quick and easy and your legs instantly  wrap around his waist as he presses your back against the wall. 

You’re almost light headed by the time you pull away from kissing him, and you’re both a bit breathless. You swipe your tongue over your bottom lip and you look at Carlos to find him looking almost as gone as you felt.

“Fuck,” Carlos says, shifting his grip on you as you move your arms from his neck, cupping his cheeks. He’s looking up at you with his big hazel eyes that you fell inlove with years ago and you feel stupid. You were definitely going to regret this because you definitely weren’t thinking with your head. 

“If we do this we’re only doing this once Carlos, I’m not leaving Bastien” You warn him and for a second you can see the glimpse of disappointment flash in Carlos’ eyes but it’s gone as soon as it comes. 

“Then we should make it worth it, no?” Carlos says already trailing kisses down your neck again. 

It’s wrong in every way possible but it isn’t stopping any of you as you both sneak into an empty meeting room. Carlos grabs a chair to press against the door, making sure it’s blocking the door handle and the sight of it has you remembering your teenage years with him. 

By the time he turns around you’re seated on the edge of the main desk, legs swinging as you watch him come closer. Carlos holds your knees for a second before pushing them apart to stand between your legs and his hand is soon going to your neck, pushing your head up to look at him. 

“I don’t care if you say I only have this one time. I’m gonna make sure you come back.” He says without a single bit of hesitance and he’s soon tugging at your shirt, getting you to lift your arms up. He throws your shirt to the side, not concerned at all about it before he’s kissing over your collarbones and you’re letting out a shaky breath, fingers threading in his hair. 

“Carlos no marks,” You say but this seems to do the polar opposite as you feel his teeth graze your skin once more. This time he’s taking his time, sucking at your skin and pressing his tongue flat against it before looking over it with a sense of pride. “Fuck, Carlos.” You breathe out, letting out a moan when Carlos moves to the most sensitive part of your neck, making sure to leave the darkest mark there. 

You can tell that he loves the way you’re body is reacting to him. The way he can tell that he still knows you so well, probably still knows you best. “Still the same hm?” Carlos asks and you’re letting out a shaky breath as you tell yourself to tell Carlos to stop marking you up. You don’t though. 

“Piss off,” You murmur as Carlos continues kissing down and this time over your chest. He goes to remove your bra but you stop him. 

Carlos rolls his eyes, moving his hands away as he comes up to give you another kiss. He pulls away and he rubs his thumb over the already forming marks he had left behind. “I couldn’t help myself,” he says, pressing into one of them and you can’t help but wince. “It’s your fault your little boyfriend didn’t leave anything. You were with him for two weeks. If you were mine I’d make sure everyone knows.” Carlos says before he’s slowly helping you undo your pants. 

“Well, if you wanted me to be yours you shouldn’t have broken up with me then,” You say snarkily as you kick off your shoes and Carlos is pushing you to lay onto the desk and you easily follow his movements, soon getting your pants off as you stare at the ceiling. The desk feels cold and hard against your body which only makes every touch Carlos leaves behind burn hotter against your skin. 

“You want to be a smartass now?” Carlos asks and his fingers are toying with the lace of your panties, soon hooking his fingers to give them a snap. “I can stop.” He challenges, and even though you know he won’t you’re not willing to risk it. 

“Don’t stop.” You say and you can hear Carlos’ cocky chuckle. 

“Come on, have you forgotten your manners?” He asks as his fingers hook under the side of your panties again. He doesn’t pull them down though, waiting for you to say something and you can’t help but lift your hips hoping that it would encourage him. 

“Y/n, what do you say when you want something?” Carlos asks and you can hear the smirk he was practically wearing and you grit your teeth. 

“Please don’t stop.” You finally say, the heat in your core being too much for you. 

“Good girl,” Carlos says and you hate how your heart practically leaps at the praise. He’s soon pulling your panties off, grabbing you by your ankles so you’re suddenly at the edge of the table. You groan at the sudden movement and you’re pushing yourself up on your arms, about to tell Carlos off when you feel him suddenly kiss you on the inside of your thighs. 

Your eyes travel to where Carlos now is, kneeling in front of you with his arms on your legs to keep them open and the sight has you blushing. Carlos is so focused, trailing kisses and soon leaving even more marks into your skin that has you letting out small hisses. 

“I’m going to ruin you ,” Carlos whispers against your skin that is soon sending a shiver down your spine. Before you know it he’s getting closer to where you want him most, and it’s embarrassing how you arch your back. 

“You’re so wet darling,” He says as his index finger goes to rub one of your folds. You hate how smug he sounds but you can’t help the way you clench around nothing, already anticipating Carlos to do something. 

“Carlos fucking do something.” You say, hands already itching to touch yourself but Carlos moves your hands away.

“Now, did we forget the magic words again?” Carlos asks as he uses his other finger to continue teasing you. He’s still rubbing at your lips, using his fingers to pull them apart slightly and to give a light blow. “Seems like nobody’s made you beg in a while.”

The way you whimper has him grinning. “Please,” You mumble, fists balled up as you felt yourself only getting wetter. 

“Louder darling. Don’t be shy.” Carlos says and you can’t help but curse. 

“Please Carlos,” You say again. You let out a soft moan as soon as his fingers sink in and for a second you feel a wave of relief but the moment you feel his mouth on you you’re cursing, hand going to his hair to shamelessly pull him closer.

“Fuck,” You breath out and Carlos is relentless, pumping his fingers quickly as his tongue is toying with your clit. Your mind is spinning and you can’t help but to press your body closer to him, letting out a string of moans and whimpers. He only seems to take this as encouragement.

“Carlos,” you moan out, unapologetically loud and Carlos is suddenly getting rougher and you’re sure your grip on his hair is becoming tighter. 

It takes all your will to not scream when your orgasm washes over you, and for a second you feel like you’re seeing stars. Your arm goes to cover your own mouth as you let out a cry, and the way Carlos grips onto your thigh with his free hand just lets you know that he’s definitely going to leave a mark. 

You’re panting, leaning onto your arms as you watch Carlos slowly get up on his feet. The sight of him has your legs twitching because he’s licking his fingers before he’s swiping his tongue over his lips. You’re a bit out of it, and if you were being honest, you do not remember the last time someone had made you feel that way. 

You only snap back into it when Carlos holds your neck again and he gives your throat a squeeze. The dazed look you give him as him smirking.

This time he presses his thumb against the tip of your chin, soon pressing down to get you to open your mouth. You’re pliant under him, body still floating and mind still hazed from your orgasm that you’re not giving him back snarky remarks.

As soon as your lips part Carlos is pressing his thumb into your mouth and you instinctively wrap your lips around it, circling your tongue around the pad. You’re looking him straight in the eyes and Carlos is staring down at you with dark and hungry eyes, refusing to break eye contact. 

“You’re such a fucking whore,” Carlos says as he drags his thumb over your bottom lip. You part your lips again, looking up at Carlos and he’s soon leaning above you. “I let you finish once and you’re suddenly all quiet hm? I bet you’d let me do anything.” Carlos says and he grips the side of your cheeks, making sure your mouth stays open before he’s landing a ball of spit in your mouth. 

“I love it when a bitch knows her place.” The moan you let out is embarrassing but you don’t care because Carlos is already kissing you again, and this time he’s undoing his belt and his pants, simply letting them fall around his ankles with his boxers. 

“Mierda,” Carlos curses because you don’t even think twice before your hand is already wrapped around him, the feeling of your skin dragging against him making him already twitch in your hand. 

“I forgot how big you are,” You say, using your thumb to spread his precum over the tip before you’re using it to pump him. You almost feel bad with how hard he is and you slowly move off the desk. Carlos takes a slow step back, groaning as soon as you go on your knees in front of him. 

Soon his hand is holding the back of your head as you’re taking him in his mouth and he’s letting out small groans and praises. “You’re doing so- fuck- so good darling,” He’s panting out and the way you look up at him has his cock twitching in your mouth. His hips instinctively buckle and he’s soon hitting the back of your throat and you splutter a bit, tears beginning to collect in your eyes. Instead of pulling away though you relax your throat and Carlos takes this as a sign. He’s gripping the back of your head tightly and snapping his hips moaning at the sound of him fucking your mouth. It’s messy, and rough, but despite tears streaming down your cheeks the small moans and gasps you’re letting out are spurring him on further. 

“Fuck,” Carlos groans, you’re sure he’s about to come with the way his thrusts are getting sporadic and you try to tighten your throat around him but he stops you by gripping your hair so tight that you let out a broken cry. It’s loud and the pain is too much and this seems to snap Carlos out of whatever trance he was in. He apologises quickly, soon pulling out of your mouth and crouching down. “Sorry- fuck- I didn’t want to finish off that way.” Carlos is panting and his eyes are searching yours for confirmation that you were okay. You give him a small nod, not trusting your voice with how raw your throat felt. Soon he’s helping you up and sitting on the table and the sudden tension from before is gone, instead his touches feel gentle. 

“You’re good?” He double checks and you nod, his hands are cupping your cheeks again before he’s giving you a kiss. It’s soft and it’s sweet and it has your mind spinning even more. 

“Okay, okay, I’m sorry.” Carlos says just in case before he’s rubbing your sides. “Is it okay if we continue?” Carlos asks. 

“Yeah,” You murmur, wincing at how hoarse your throat sounded. Carlos nods and his hands go over your thighs before giving them a gentle squeeze. 

“Tell me if you need me to stop.” Carlos says before pulling you closer again. He keeps one hand on your thigh to keep you steady as he lines himself up. Unlike before this is slow and Carlos is taking his time and there’s a weird tug at your heart. 

“Fuck,” You breathe out when Carlos finally presses in. Despite him having stretched you out he still felt so big. Your arms shake a little and you whimper when Carlos uses his arm to pull you closer to him as he pushes deeper as well. 

“You’re so fucking tight y/n.” Carlos breathes out and he’s bottoming out and you feel so full you might pass out. “You need to relax or I’m not going to last.” Carlos says and he’s looking at you so intently, eyes going over every single feature on your face. He’s leaning down to give you a kiss and you can’t help but meet him halfway. 

The kiss is softer than any other kiss you both shared before and you feel like you’re melting into him. “You’re so beautiful y/n.” Carlos whispers against your lips, as if it was a secret for the both of you. 

Once you’re relaxed enough you feel him moving his hips but his lips are still close to yours, stealing kisses every here and there as he slowly begins to pick up his thrusts. Despite this though the thrusts are still slow and dragged out, but he’s rubbing into you just right that you’re letting out soft breathy moans that are mixing in the air along with Carlos’. 

The atmosphere is heavy and there’s a weird weight in your chest as you watch Carlos, head falling back as soon he hits the right spot. “Carlos there please,” You whimper out and that’s enough encouragement for Carlos to finally pick up the pace. 

“Tell me who fucks you best?” Carlos asks, and his hand is wrapping itself again around your neck and you’re letting out a small but broken whine. “Stop fucking you for two years and you’ve gone all soft now hm?”

You can’t think straight, all of Carlos’ words are turning into gibberish in your mind. You only manage to snap back into it when Carlos gives your throat a gentle squeeze.

“I said, who fucks you best?” He asks again and you blink at him, completely dazed.

“Y-You,” You moan out.

Before you know it you’re whimpering and squirming under him, feeling yourself get closer and closer. At this point your arms are around his neck and he takes the opportunity to lift you up slightly, thrusting his hips as he holds you in place.

The room filling with the sounds of both of your moans and the sound of your skin slapping against each other, both of you either forgetting or no longer caring that you were still in the office. 

“Carlos- Carlos- I’m close.” You gasp out and Carlos shifts a bit, letting go of your neck before his fingers go down, toying with your clit and you can’t help but let out a cry, back arching. 

“Don’t come until I tell you to.” He pants out as his thrusts pick up even faster and somehow feel even deeper and you’re letting out a string of moans. His fingers soon move faster and you’re soon begging for him to let you come. 

It’s only when you’re blubbering nonsense that Carlos is saying “Come for me, show me how good I make you feel.” as his touches get rougher and that’s enough to have you unravelling yourself again, screaming out his name as your nails dig into his shoulders. 

You’re still riding out your high when Carlos groans, cock twitching in between thrusts. You can’t help but let out a groan at the feeling of Carlos coming inside of you and Carlos drags his hips a few more times before he’s gently setting you onto the table and pulling out of you. He keeps you close though, wrapping his arms around you as you both recollect yourselves.

You’re both panting, breathless and exhausted and you’re almost putty as Carlos takes off his shirt to wipe at your legs and body. He catches you from falling onto your back and you hold onto him, still slightly dazed.

“I can’t believe we did that.” You murmur out, and you’re embarassed at how little you could think right now. Carlos is shaking his head in disbelief too. 

“Me neither.” Carlos says. He’s holding his shirt awkwardly for a bit, and it’s clear that he’s thinking about something but he just doesn’t want to say it. It takes you a bit to notice.

“Spit it out,” you tell him, knowing him well enough already. 

He lets out a sigh before he’s speaking up. “You’re gonna hate me but I’m gonna need you to go get my extra clothes in the changing rooms.” He says and you can only look at him in disbelief. 

“What? Did you want me to use your shirt?” Carlos says and you know you’re practically useless right now but the little pride you had left didn’t want Carlos to know how out of it you were (although you’re pretty sure he knew). If any confirmation was needed, your legs almost buckle the moment your feet hit the ground and Carlos needs to quickly catch you. He’s grinning from ear to ear.

If Carlos was trying to hide his smugness, he was doing a damn awful job doing so. 

—————— 

Carlos ended up getting the shirt that he needed himself as you just sat in the meeting room to get some time to recover. You both are relieved that the office is almost empty and you both manage to sneak out undetected, the tension is heavy between you both though, to the point that you don’t even realise Tom in the parking lot, up until you both reach Carlos’ car. 

“What are you two doing here?” He’s by his car holding his own bag, clearly ready to go home. You take a deep breath, ready to play it cool before turning to Tom.

“Uhm-“ Carlos starts off but he’s looking at you in panic and you try your best not to kick him then and there. 

“Carlos offered to drop me off so he decided to go to the gym when he was waiting and I ended up having to wait for him.” You explain giving Tom a shrug. You felt bad for lying- but this was definitely not the moment to be saying the truth. 

Tom looks a bit sceptical, mainly eyeing Carlos’ deer in the headlights expression but he soon nods anyway. “Ah okay- I’ll see you both at the airport then?” He asks and you’re both nodding, ready to cut the conversation short. 

Once Tom is in the car you both go into Carlos’. You tiredly watch Carlos put on his seatbelt just as Tom drives off and you think Carlos is going to start the car but decides to speak up instead. 

“For the record, I didn’t want to break up with you.” Carlos says and you’re quick to tense up. 

“Carlos, I thought we were over this.” You murmur and Carlos shakes his head. You rub your temples, a bit frustrated. 

“You still did it though.” You say and your stomach is twisting and turning at the conversation, you didn’t want to hear what Carlos had to say. “You literally came over, slept with me, and broke up with me the next morning.” 

“You said we were fine when I broke it off.” Carlos says and for a second he sounds offended, and you can’t help but scoff. 

“Of course I did Carlos. What else was I supposed to do?” You say and you’re looking away to look outside of the window. You had never told anyone how Carlos and you had broken up, always being the type to hold your head up and suck it up. He was the only person you had been able to open up to and the moment he had broken up with you you felt like you were left alone by yourself. 

“I couldn’t tell you Carlos. I felt like I didn’t know who you were.” You murmur. He’s slowly reaching his hand to your thigh but you move your leg away. “Stop,” 

“I’m sorry,” He says and it sounds so sincere that you can’t even look at him. “I’m really sorry.” 

“I was young and naive, I knew it was wrong, but I wasn’t thinking.” He explains. “We were barely talking at the end, I was so busy with racing, and you were studying, and I- I also didn’t want to burden you. When I came over that night I wanted to break it off right there but I couldn’t,” Carlos sighs shakily and you can hear the regret in his voice. 

“It’s selfish but I just wanted one more night with you.” Carlos mumbles. “I loved you. Even now y/n, I,” He says before taking a deep breath. For a second you want him to say it, you want to hear the words, but you realise you’re not ready for that again. You don’t want to give him another opportunity to break your heart when it already took you so much time to rebuild it. 

“Don’t,” You murmur. “Please don’t say it Carlos. I don’t want to hear it. I can’t hear it.” You say and you’re looking up to the car’s ceiling, feeling your eyes water slightly. 

“What do you want then?” Carlos murmurs and you let out a shaky sigh finally looking over him. He looks remorseful, and you know his words are sincere- but they weren’t enough.

“I told you before, I want to stay with Bastien.” You murmur. “I know it might sound stupid to you but- I will try to figure it out with him.” 

“And us?” Carlos asks and you shake your head. 

“We can’t be friends Carlos. I thought we could, but we can’t. Look at what we just did. I don’t blame Bastien for not being comfortable with you around me, I’m not going to argue with him about that.” You say apologetically. The disappointment in Carlos’ face is clear as daylight but he nods anyway. 

“Why did you do it then?” Why did you sleep with me? You know is what he means to say. 

“I needed closure.” You murmur and that answer seems to be sufficient because Carlos finally nods, starting the car. 

The drive is quiet this time and your head is pressed against the window as you watch the streets pass by. You don’t feel guilty, but you realise you weren’t feeling anything right now. 

You only speak up when Carlos is pulling into the gates of your building and you’re pointing to the empty parking space. “Do you mind coming up?” You ask softly, “I have to give back your shirt.” You say and Carlos doesn’t even look at you as he nods and slowly reverses the car. 

The silence is loud as you both make your way to the building and up the elevator. You don’t have much to say as you both walk to your apartment door. Carlos steps in behind you, quietly closing the door and you excuse yourself before going to your bedroom, looking for the shirt in your half unpacked luggage. 

You’re digging through the luggage when you hear your phone ring and you go quickly to check it, the moment you see the text you laugh. 

It’s not the first time that this has happened. That you get a text from a random girl, along with an apology and explaining that she spent a night (or multiple) with Bastien before finding out he had a girlfriend. 

Bastien never told you- and you never confronted him. Call it naïve but a part of you thought that Bastien would stop, but by the fourth person- you really doubted that was going to happen. You just sat down and stayed quiet though because for the most part, he made you happy. 

If you were being honest, you just didn’t want to be left again. 

You were not even mad now. You just felt stupid that you were letting yourself be in this situation. But looking at yourself now, were you really any better?  

The moment you grab Carlos’ shirt though you feel your heart in your throat and you’re clenching your jaw. You force yourself to calm down before you’re getting up, reminding yourself that Carlos was in the livingroom. You could respond to the girl afterwards. 

When you come back Carlos is by one of your shelves looking over the photos that you have perched up. You realise he’s looking at some of your old highschool photos with your friends, and you know that he’s slipped there in the picture somewhere. You soon see his gaze travel to a photo of you and Bastien though and his face falls a bit. 

“Hey,” You say softly, which prompts him to turn around. His eyes fall from your face to your hand where you’re holding his shirt. 

“Here,” You’re stepping towards him, holding your hand out. Carlos gives you a small tight lipped smile as he takes the shirt from you and he looks over you quietly. 

“Does he make you happy at least?” He asks and you look at him, surprised that he’d ask you that question. “Regardless to us and what we are- just make sure he makes you happy.” Carlos says and you give him a small nod. 

“There’s a few things we need to work on, but he makes me happy. I believe it will work out.” You’re lying through your teeth, but Carlos nods at your words anyways. 

“I’ll see you in the airport?” You’re gently getting him to the door, not knowing how much longer you could keep yourself composed for. 

“Mhm, are you sure you don’t want a ride there?” Carlos tries and you give him a forced smile before politely declining the offer. 

“I’m good, thank you though Carlos.” There’s a a weird hole in your chest but you try not to think about it too much, opening the door for Carlos.

“Alright, alright. Bye Y/N.” He says as he steps out of your apartment. You give him a small nod and a wave. 

“Bye Carlos.” You say and the moment you shut the door you’re letting out a shaky breath, going to the bathroom in hopes to wash everything away.

fin.

Link to chapter 9!

i hope you all enjoyed! put my whole heart in it. would love to know what you guys think and how you feel about it. are you surprised that reader knew all along about bastien??? i also hope it provides a bit more insight about how reader is feeling/thinking. and apologies for all the angst !! feel like this chapter is bittersweet hehe.

ps. this is my first time writing smut and posting (for f1 at least) so I sincerely apologize if it isnt giving 🫠

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Uhh hi!! Just saw your post in my tl and I really love your sora design!! You might know me from emo tho, im one of her/their friends— sorry if its makes you uncomfortable but uh yeah, what's your opinion about the newest season/series of ninjago??

Oh hello!! It’s nice to meet you! Emo’s a great mutual friend to have, love ‘em to death 💜💜

It doesn’t make me uncomfy at all! I have SO many opinions on Ninjago and no one irl to ramble to lol

Solid RGB siblings content. We love to see it. The hug? God, Ough, that was beautiful. But also all the ribbing at each other. They’re so cute 🥺

“Kai??” “I made a huge mistake!!” “I’m gonna kill you!!” Was so incredibly sibling of Kai and nya

The introduction of Arin and Sora was very cute imo. I love that we got so much content of Sora this season but I hope the next one is more about Arin. He was sidelined a lot in this one 😔

The addition of lloyd following them bc he thought Arin was one of the ninja was a fantastic way of getting them into the same place naturally

SPEAKING OF LLOYD

MY CRINGEFAIL SON??? What was he even DOING this season???? His BEST, that’s what.

The beard gag was so transmasc swag of him honestly

Um. I want them to Dragon Ball Z lloyd more. By which I mean continue boosting his powers to ridiculous extents. We got two of those this season iirc and I am THRIVING

Imperium City being so. Like That. Holy fuck. Girl that’s fascism with a feminist twist. Like we stan a girlboss but not when they’re giving that energy fr

Soras entire story and arc I’m sobbing??? That’s so. I’m holding her.

Killing her parents killing her parents killing her parents

Dude bring Oni Lloyd back or I’m gonna riot. You can’t leave the oni Lloyd arc unfinished forever. Let him go batshit

Or at very least let him come to terms with his anger and maybe even harness a more peaceful and controlled version of his oni side !!! Lloyd has so much to be angry at and crystallized acknowleged that and then didnt see it through.

Um. The giant fucking dragon in the tank????? Fire as FUCK dude

GIVE BACK COLE AND JAY I MISS THEM. THE NINJA MISS THEM

I stand by my post where I said Zane should have been found via falcon honestly trapping him in the basement felt weird like. Girl. Context pls?

It also felt somewhat demeaning like hm youre leaning away from his inherent humanity and only acknowledging his robotic traits

The dragons were all diversely designed and that goes hard

The “stay calm” bit with Lloyd and wu had so much potential and it kinda just. Sat there and looked pretty.

Arin was really just fantastic I love him so much.

OH. LLOYD TELLING ARIN HE HAS A FAMILY,,, guys holy fuck they are The Same and Different

Lloyd expanding the RGB gang AS WE SPEAK

Whoever said “Lloyd is to Arin what Kai is to Lloyd” you’re RIGHT

ALRIGHT that’s everything off the top of my head I think? I probably forgot a whole ton. Thanks so much for asking about it!!

#Ninjago #ninjago spoilers #dragons rising #dragons rising spoilers #ninjago dragons rising #Ninjago dragons rising spoilers

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describe your favorite mutuals & their bias/biases <3

omg i always feel so much pressure for these cuz i have quite a handful of moots but i shall try my best !! thanks for ur ask anonie o7

@justalildumpling & na jaemin — both just uber delulu and mutual orgasm donors 😭😭 their astrology/horoscope reading says they'd be good for marriage, but i think WE r a much better match 😚 anyways, i love u j my beloved wife and soulmate !!

@jaehunnyy & jung wooyoung — bro i didn't know which teezer to pick for u 😭😭 but since the craze lately has been mr wooyo 😗 chip is just the sweetest and most wholesome bean ever?? (except lately 🤡 woosan is getting to her) but she deserves the absolute world

@winterchimez & lee sangyeon — my parents !!! absolutely adore ally :')) she's always encouraging my shenanigans and one of the most supportive people on this app. i feel like every day i learn that we have another thing in common w each other LOL

@ethereal-engene & lee jihoon — NO CUZ EKFNEKDK when i tell u ash looks like woozi (゜-゜) im not even kidding, they both look SO good in specs and i love ash sm, she GETS ME and im so convinced we're like actually long lost relatives 😭😭 the way she puts up w my shit and supports me all the time :')

@loveliestfelix & choi yeonjun — omg no because nana is supermodel material?? supermodel gf and bf say HUH???? her writing is something to fall head over heels in love w !! my beloved angst queen 🫂 ilysm im always thinking of u <3

@tranquilpetrichor & (i wanna say) yoon keeho??? — eris i just realized i don't really stan some of the groups u do and i haven't seen u talk abt ur biases recently 😔 SO PLS DO TELL ME ABT THEM !! but i wanted to include u here bc it didn't feel right without u 😭 but she's so underrated and one of the chillest people ever, and a literal ballerina like 😳 that shits hard bro

@zzoguri & ji changmin/kim sunwoo — MY FELLOW KYUBODAN MONI AHHWHDINEJDJD they are AMAZING at writing??? i guarantee u will fall in love w their style, and they're also just so easy to vibe w and talk to 🤧🤧 hope to get to know u even better bestie :'))

@haet-sal & ju haknyeon — CAKECEYYYYY 😩😩😩 ik the ship name is hakcey/hickey LMAO but cake 😎 anyways LMAO lacey is prob who i aspire to be?? 😭 like u guys don't understand how pretty this girl is and the fact that she's SO COOL TOO?? i feel like i'd be so intimidated by u irl tbh 😳

@goldenhypen & jake sim — my canadian counterpart and chinese 04 twin 💖💖💖 i miss u sm omg i will always uphold that em is one of, if not, THEE nicest person on this app. like if u touch her I HURT YOU 😐🔪 she is sooo so compassionate and caring and just wah i love u sm i hope ur doing alright :'))

@sseastar & byun euijoo (i think? im sorry i don't stan &team 😔) — yet another author here who's style of writing absolutely blows me away skdnkendk like the slice of life ghibli movie vibe of her writing makes me SING and she's also a very cool woman in stem™ </3 she's also so soft and sweet, and i only have the most tender of thoughts toward her

@hqrana & omg im so bad i know eric sohn for sure 😭 — we actually haven't talked about many other groups besides tbz and svt skdnekdk OKAY BUT MY MARVEL MOOT !!! i treasure noa so much, like what a star and the way we literally have so many fandoms in common??? for the longest time (and still) i look forward to interacting w her just cuz she is absolutely SO fun to talk to 💖 ly bff

#sungbeam strikes again #lovely anon <3 #moot ❧ #okay that took longer than i thought it would 😭😭 i just realized a lot of u prob know my biases but idk urs 💔💔

[ddeonudepressions]

It's the season of love! and you know what that means, time to find yourself a valentine! and who better than one of your beloved mutuals? answer these questions, and the mutual with the most mentions your tumblr valentine:

Mutual you can always rely on?

Mutual who never misses a post?

Mutual you share the most interests with?

Mutual you have the most in common with?

Mutual you look up to?

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

Spouse material mutual?

Mutual with the best personality?

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

thank u anon but pls show urself im being nice ‼️

Mutual you can always rely on?

@redm4ri @dearhee @taejays @tyunni and @mazeinthemiroh

(idk i just feel like they'll listen well yk)

mutual who never misses a post?

@ everyone cuz i never post to start with

mutual you share the most interest with?

@simplygyuu LITERALLY ALL WE TALK ABOUT IS BEOMGYU AUS AND SOB TOGETHER

mutual you have the most in common with?

@ everyone ig??? idk everyone is like similar to me im a way and is funny just like me fr

mutual you look up to?

@haknom @blossomnct @hanniluvi @hannikz @mazeinthemiroh @sunoksunny @dearhee

@simplygyuu if i could write like them i would dissappear literally love their works sm

mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

hmm id say @redm4ri @simplygyuu @syrxiee2 @slytherinhobi i feel like we'd have sm fun together LMFAOO

spouse materiel mutual?

@redm4ri @simplygyuu @syrxiee2

my baes kinda?

mutual with best personality?

@ me i am perfect smd

mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

@ me again and everyone cuz im only moots with funny people/hj and @tyunni @yenqa @viyqe

mutual you'd have a crush on if u knew irl?

@wonieleles so prettyyyc😭😭

@redm4ri online ans irl

mutual u can not live without?

@ everyone ❤️

literally have so much fun with everyone and i love everyone equally i just randomly remembered these moots off the top of my head 😭😭

no fr joining walmart enha literally made me so happy thx guys ❤️❤️

[yyunari]

It's the season of love! and you know what that means, time to find yourself a valentine! and who better than one of your beloved mutuals? answer these questions, and the mutual with the most mentions your tumblr valentine:

Mutual you can always rely on?

Mutual who never misses a post?

Mutual you share the most interests with?

Mutual you were most surprised to become moots with?

Mutual that gives the best advice?

Mutual you have the most in common with?

Mutual who has the best jokes?

Mutual you look up to or admire?

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

Mutual you most want to be classmates/friends irl with?

Spouse material mutual?

Mutual with the best personality?

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

Mutual with the prettiest theme?

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

Mutual you want to get to know better?

Mutual you can always rely on?

@muhwaa MY 4LIFER!!!! icb it’s almost our 2 year anniversary 😵 the way im closer to u than i am to my irl friends is crazy like ur the only bitch i consistently facetime every day bc yk U da Bomb anyways imy bro can u answer my ft

Mutual you share the most interests with?

@muhwaa the way we became friends bc of wattpad and genshin ✊

Mutual you were most surprised to become moots with?

@lunaflvms LUNAAAAA i swear when we became mutuals i was like😱😱

@sungbeam idt we’ve ever talked (idk i have bad memory) but i love ur works and i read them a lot and when u followed me back i was like WOAH!! that’s crazy

@iichaeyj i was actually surprised when u followed me back and we talked for a bit <33

Mutual that gives the best advice?

@muhwaa ofc ur the one i talk to when literally anything happens most of our daily fts r just me talking abt what happens in school

Mutual you have the most in common with?

@muhwaa HAIIIIIII

@yeongwonie HI YEONA IMY the more i think abt it the more we have in common which is rly cool anw text me soon🤗

Mutual who has the best jokes?

@muhwaa THE FUNNIEST PERSON ON THIS APP SHE JSUT DOESNT SHOW IT👹

Mutual you look up to or admire?

@muhwaa ur sm better than i was at ur age and i gen think u have sm potential in the future which is why i wanna help u get there😊😊😊

@cutieseo HI FAE i rly admire how kind and outgoing u come off on this app, and how easy it is to talk to u 🤗🤗

@amakumos even b4 we became mutuals i admired u and ur works and then when we started talking i was like WOAH ur rly funny😱

@hoori ELLYYYYY we’ve been friends for like 3 years???? THATS CRAZY anw ever since u reached out to me on wp to be friends i’ve always admired u and ur writing and imysm call soon pls🤗

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

@muhwaa except we both don’t like the forest so instead of a cottage we’re moving to a big city like nyc or smt

Mutual you most want to be classmates/friends irl with?

@muhwaa WE WOULD BE CRAYYY like when we went to the weeknd + txt concerts tgth it was wilddddd we did sm and like it was sm fun

@yeongwonie i’ll move to u bc i like the area u live 😜

Spouse material mutual?

@justanne CALL SOKN PLS

Mutual with the best personality?

@muhwaa UR THE BEST PERSON EVER URBLIEK THE BEST AND U PUT UP WITH ALL MY SHIT like we’ve fought a lot but like it worked bc we work😜

@koakyuu OMG IM SO SORRY I THINK IVE BEEN GHOSTING U ON INSTA BUT I LOST MY PASSWORD TO THAT ACCOUNT SO I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO GO ON IT 🙁 anw imysm we should talk again soon <33

@cutieseo @wonieleles @mellow-midzy @shoyotime u guys r so genuinely kind and even tho we don’t talk a lot i like the occasional asks/replies u guys send !!

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

@muhwaa our texts r so funny this goes without saying.

Mutual with the prettiest theme?

@muhwaa 🤗🤗🤗 I LOVE HAERIN r u going to change it bc i rly like what it is rn

@seungstarss lwk idk if u know we’re mutuals but UR THEME IS SO PRETTY i luv it sm🫶🫶🫶

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

@justanne i already have a crush on u😍😍😍😍😍 i miss the ooga boogas🙁

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

@muhwaa my lifeline. the jungwon to my jay. the soobin to my yeonjun. Da L Bomb.

Mutual you want to get to know better?

@haknom @urszn @trsrina @vuiom @eundiarys @mokiverse @hanniluvi @aerisfy @tzyuki @seungiepup hiiiiii 🤗🤗🤗

#i feel like i forgot some ppl but i appreciate all my mutuals 😻😻 #i have sm mutuals i wanna talk to more😘 #*ೃ༄ ♡ ˚ ──── ( lovely mutuals ! )

[escapenightmare]

It's the season of love! and you know what that means, time to find yourself a valentine! and who better than one of your beloved mutuals? answer these questions, and the mutual with the most mentions your tumblr valentine:

Mutual you can always rely on?

Mutual who never misses a post?

Mutual you share the most interests with?

Mutual you have the most in common with?

Mutual you look up to?

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

Spouse material mutual?

Mutual with the best personality?

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

i'll try to give explanations 😭

mutual you can always rely on? @ the whole of uravicheese except for @uxavity cause she's literally dead fr atp

mutual who never misses a post? @rae-main @jogeto

mutual you share the most interests with? @shotorozu — basically introduced me to three quarters of the anime, manga and music i'm obsessed with at the moment

mutual you have the most in common with? @rae-main cause she told me to put her when i told her idk who to put here

mutual you look up to? @rineotin — help idek if u're gonna see this but u're lowkey my role model alright, @/xybi too but it's been over an year since she deactivated i think :( and @veenxys cause i love ur writing they always have me swooning and i just think u're an admirable person in general oh and @earthtooz we became mutuals just today but u seem so cool pls

mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with? @fallenssun u have very much fairy n cottagecore vibes !! @izukus-gf BAE u haven't posted in almost an year but i still wanna run away with u

spouse material mutual? @igumie pls marry me (i'd say @fallenssun too but u're my amazing mom <3) @jogeto MY VALENTINE

mutual with the best personality? @popkorrn pls we've talked less than a week n i like u so much already (@rae-main @uravichii <- was threatened to add them) + most of my mutuals honestly

mutual that never fails to make you laugh? @uravichii appears out of nowhere in the group, makes a joke and leaves. contrary to popular belief that her humor is that of a lame grandma.

mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl? @coxaris EMO BAE do i have to sya anything we have our enemies to lovers slow burn 50k ao3 fanfic coming up

mutual you absolutely cannot live without? @mizumoues the absolute love of my life <3 JK i'll say my closest mutuals :)

#i loved doing this wtf #send more <3

[star-sim]

oh wise vanya please help me apparently my year of dignity and male-lessness decided to spice things up and now i’m in a Dilemma!

a bit (a lot) of context: so around two and a half years ago there was this guy who liked me and then confessed to me, at the time i liked him a little too but i think it was mainly because i liked the idea of liking someone and someone liking me?? if that makes sense.

so he confessed to me one day and i was like “oh i like you too lol” because i literally did Not know what to do in that situation and then it was lowkey awk because we mutually avoided each other at school 💀 we were really young tho BUT THEN like a month and a half later he was said he didn’t like me anymore (HE SENT THAT OVER TEXT LMFAO…) and i responded with “okay” (i realized that i didn’t really like him at that point too so i was kind of relieved tbh) it wasn’t even a relationship because bffr we didn’t even hold hands so why was bro being all like “let’s break up 😐” like… were we ever even together be honest

it was VERY awkward after that like lmao we wouldn’t even make eye contact but then a few months later we became close friends because we were friends before (idek how atp); then he moved away during the summer because he was going to some boarding school & we still kept in contact up until last summer

he got a girlfriend in may of last year?? and ever since then i’d been VERY distant like i didn’t talk to him at ALL because i have to uphold the girl code… apparently he told his girlfriend about me though and i’ve heard from a mutual friend that she doesn’t like me that much and disliked me even more after she found out that he had a saved folder of me in his photos (that’s on him tho bc wtf 💀 that’s kind of a Red Flag of him)

anyways back to today… i opened my snapchat after 8263872 days of being dormant and apparently he texted me for the first time since JUNE three weeks ago and i unknowingly left him on sent 💀💀

now i could either: a) open his message because honestly i am morbidly curious or b) leave his message to marinate forever and leave him on sent indefinitely

which would be more girlboss because i am done w men irl 😐 send help pls

ASH!!!!

liking someone purely bc you like the idea of liking someone and them liking you back is SO REAL

UGHH he is so middle school boy love.... the "let's break up" over text when the most ygs did was probably look at each other.... pukes

youre such a girl's girl, youre SO realness for not talking to him for the sake of girl code... ugh im sorry controversial opinion it irks me when ppl are angry at their s/o's ex... like u didnt even do anything to her, is it a crime to exist. if anything, she should be mad at HIM??? like who is the one keeping pictures of their ex? not you, so why are you literally the subject of her anger. ever since new years i've been trying to tone down my d1 hater tendencies but ouuuu that makes me to annoyed on your behalf like LEAVE HER ALONE 😡

i say... open the message. see what this bitchass has to say. i'm also kinda curious too. whether or not you respond is up to you, but if youre worried about girl code, i don't see an issue? he's the one doing shady stuff, your entire existence is not tied to him and your actions are independent of him, if that's hard for him or his gf to see then they clearly aren't mature does it kill them to use critical thinking

but if you DO leave him on sent... it would be pretty funny

everyone ditch his ass he deserves no one!!!!!

#star-sim #vanya-talks #★: ash !!

[mossmurdock]

moss!! i am dropping by with some good music and new year wishes! 🎶🎉 thank you so much for being part of my 2023 🥹 i love your writing and am always so amazed by the aus and ideas you come up with!!! you are so incredibly creative and talented!!!

as a year end pick, my favourite read from you is quite literally maybe everything you write... i always see your little blurbs and drabbles and think wow. this is so well written. what a lovely take. i love this.

if i may ask!! 🥺 (pls feel free not to answer if uncomfy!!) how was 2023 for you? what’s a favourite thing (anything) you discovered this year? do you have any reflections from the past year? any resolutions for the next? 🥹

AHH SEL<33 thank u so much for being part of my 2023 as well!! u have no idea how much i appreciate it, you're so very kind and wonderful and it really brighten my day being able to look at your blog and reading all your writing.

thank u so much for reading my work :')) you're such a talented writer and hearing that from you makes me jump around fr,,,,SHAKING YOU RIGHT NOW

and 2023 for me was honestly such a mixed bag! i moved away from a lot of good irl friend (literally people ive considered best friends for years) but then i met some of the greatest people!! i discovered a lot of new music as well WHICH IVE BEEN LOVING I LOVE GOOD SOUNDS!

i was super glad for last year, adjusting to things have never been too easy but now im forced to and its uncomfortable sometimes but its making me such a better person!

this is going to sound so corny but im also so super glad for all the new mutuals i made this year, evry1 is so sweet and i love this community with my whole heart i really do!! im so glad to be a part of it. a resolution of mine is def to branch out in my communication more since i tend to sort of fade away at times :)

sel i hoe this year goes so well for you!! u deserve every good thing coming for you and i hope u grow and flourish and accomplish so many things<3 every time i visit your blog it feels like the sun and i truly appreciate ur presence here and how u share your words <3333

#THIS GOT SO LONG AND A BIT SAPPY LMAO #BUT THANK U SO MUCH !! HAPPY NEW YEAR !! #(this was v late tho so sorry LOL) #moss answers

[corpseprxnce]

we've been mutuals for a while now and every time i see youre upset i feel so helpless cuz i dont know what to do!! but i want you to feel better gahh!!! ;;; i genuinely care about you please know im always here sending my happy fuzzy thoughts... and ive seen you before youre quite handsome!!! if you weren't so far away i would love to have drinks with you even if it was just as friends!!

Pls don't worry about me, I'll be alright. I just get myself worked up and sad, but I cope with it ig aha.

It's honestly lovely that you care about me (even tho I'm guessing we've never spoken based on what you've said) - thank you for your happy fuzzy thoughts!

Thanks for saying that last bit too! I look better in pics than irl I think lol, but still, thank you! I wish I had more people to get drinks with, that would be lovely I'm sure!

#ask me things #ask #asks #answered #send anons #anon ask #anons #anon

[gyunivrse]

It's the season of love! and you know what that means, time to find yourself a valentine! and who better than one of your beloved mutuals? answer these questions, and the mutual with the most mentions your tumblr valentine:

Mutual you can always rely on?

Mutual who never misses a post?

Mutual you share the most interests with?

Mutual you have the most in common with?

Mutual you look up to?

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

Spouse material mutual?

Mutual with the best personality?

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

this is so cute omg 😭😭 THIS IS ALL PLATONIC BUT HELLO GUYS there won't be a lot of people to tag yet because i'm still getting to know everyone on here so 😶‍🌫️ also i don't have a lot of moots that i interact with a whole lot so these are gonna be some repetitive answers 💀

mutual you can always rely on?

@impureperhaps !! she lets me come to her with all of my random questions and she was the first person that i met on tumblr, so she has shown me around the app and given me plenty of advice 😭 recently, i've gone to her for everything, even the important stuff bc she's just so easy to talk to 💔

mutual who never misses a post?

@impureperhaps (again) !! AS SOON AS I POST SHE LIKES IT AND that's when i know she's typing up a long reblog so i just sit there and get all excited 😭 and @gyurecs has reblogged a lot of the stuff i've written and left the sweetest tags 😭 fr makes my day

mutual you share the most interests with? + mutual you have the most in common with?

i think @elestrenstar and @impureperhaps are definitely the first ppl that come to mind for both of these questions because i connected with the two of them so quickly 😭

mutual you look up to?

@impureperhaps again hello... yerin is rlly beginning to feel like a big sister to me and we just became friends a couple months ago 😭 i love her energy and her writing, she's honestly the best

also @heart2beom because oh my god the emotions that i feel when i READ THE THINGS THAT SHE WRITES. pls i aspire to write like she does 💔 she's so talented

mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with

@elestrenstar @impureperhaps ella and yerin again bro.. i'm just gonna stop talking IK IT WOULD BE WAY TOO FUN AND CHAOTIC IF WE HAD A LITTLE COTTAGE TOGETHER

spouse material mutual?

okay this i do not know. WE'RE ALL PRETTY MUCH CHILDREN 💀 wikihow to become moots with taehyun bc then i would have an answer

mutual with the best personality?

@elestrenstar you're so funny and half of the time it isn't even intentional and you have the most comfortable energy ever + @impureperhaps you might be one of the sweetest ppl i've ever met 💔

mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

@elestrenstar I'M NOT LYING WHEN I SAY YOU'RE HILARIOUS you make me wheeze at my phone in public like an idiot with the random ella things that you do

mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

@elestrenstar omg oops how did that get there guys autocorrect is so crazy 😦 I'M KIDDING GUYS or am i the world shall never know

mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

@impureperhaps i will forever live for the encouragement and feedback that you give me 🙏🏻 you are the best and i literally get noticably happier when i see that you've messaged me or reblogged something that i've posted 😭 the big sibling i never had fr

don't take this too seriously guys but i am also using this as my opportunity to be cheesy bc i don't get to do that often 🤭🤭

#answered #anon ask #moots <3

[moonstrider9904]

Flowing Rivers

One Year of Moonlight - a celebration by moonstrider9904

Summary: Clair and Crosshair have spent the beginning of their married life in their home, but they've decided to continue their honeymoon far away from their village, next to the rivers that flow from their familiar lake.

{Read Moonlight: A Crosshair love story} {AO3 link}

{Read Gravitation, sequel to Moonlight} {My Masterlist}

Tags: SMUt 18+ Minors DNI. So much fluff and sappy romance. Honeymoons and marriage. Outdoor making out, morning sex, oral female and male receiving, unprotected vaginal sex (wear protection irl pls), light nipple play, mutual masturbation (male and female), creampie, aftercare.

Word count: 5.2k

Songs: everything, half moon glow, bayou

A/N: This one shot happens after chapter 14 of Moonlight and after chapter 1 of Gravitation, for those of you following along. If you haven't read Moonlight or Gravitation yet, I invite you to do so!! You don't have to have read them before reading this oneshot, but you'd certainly enjoy it more if you have read Moonlight beforehand.

Also... you guys know how much I love this story. One year later, I still consider Moonlight my magnum opus and I'm massively happy to have the opportunity to write more for this alternate universe of mine. Thank you to everyone who has read and commented in the past year, I'm delighted that this story can provide as much comfort to you as it can for me. Thank you!

The water ran delicately past their bodies, entwined together as if they’d become one, the way they had done so metaphorically merely days before. The moon shone above them, bathing them in her light as if she watched over them in pride, as if she were the one being in the universe who had wanted them to love each other.

Though the moon wasn’t completely full the way it had been when they got married, her light still illuminated the night enough for them to see each other in the silver moonbeams. Ethereal specks that reflected from the flowing water lit their skin, though they would only see them whenever they would pause to look each other in the eyes, letting their gazes wander down the other’s skin.

Crosshair knew he wanted to look more at her, to observe her under the gentle moonlight that marked her so clearly in his heart, but Clair refused to let him go. She wouldn’t keep her lips away from him for longer than she had to, and she’d be happy if she could kiss any spot of Crosshair’s skin if only to feel his warmth, to taste him, to love him.

As his new bride kissed his neck, Crosshair chuckled deep in his chest as his hands wandered over to the backs of her thighs, lifting her from the water to sit her down on one of the rocks at the edge of the river. The new position made her kissing come to a stop, and Crosshair finally let himself look at her figure, smiling tenderly at her as he took in every ounce of her beauty.

“Cross…” Clair whispered into the darkness as she reached her hands to his shoulders and slid them around his upper back, ready to kiss him again.

The way she spoke his name was music to his ears; Crosshair smiled just before her lips touched his, he’d have to be mad to deny a kiss from the woman he loved. He indulged her and ran his hands over her skin, naked and damp from being submerged in the river. Perched on that rock, Clair was slightly taller than him, and Crosshair felt her grinning into the kiss at that fact as she ran her hands through his silver curls, until her kissing became stronger, as passionate as it could ever be.

“My love,” Crosshair spoke into the kiss.

Clair moaned gently in response, still refusing to leave his lips if it wasn’t necessary. But Crosshair knew it was getting late, and the night would soon grow too cold for either of them to bear inside the river.

Even far away from the war, it was still Crosshair’s sworn oath to protect Clair.

With an adoring smile, Crosshair backed away from Clair, his hands cupping her cheeks tenderly for her to look at him. His smile widened in disbelief as he saw that pair of gleaming brown eyes, so brown they were almost black, watching him with the same amount of love, with an eagerness to be with him.

“It’s late,” Crosshair said. “I need to get you inside.”

“I’m not tired,” Clair said and leaned in to kiss him again, but with a soft laugh, Crosshair stopped her.

“Dumpling,” he mused, settling to give her one more peck on her lips before decisively wrapping his arms around her and lifting her in his arms, carrying her out of the river. “Please trust me.”

Clair let herself be carried by him, feeling a sudden wave of drowsiness engulf her body as her weight sank fully onto Crosshair’s body. She felt as he set her down on the grass; somehow, her feet managed to keep her stable as Crosshair took the negligé she’d been wearing and wrapped her in it, gifting her his own towel to keep him warm.

With an arm wrapped around her, Crosshair led the way to their temporary home, a tiny cottage that couldn’t have been a better honeymoon house. Half as big as their own home and with only one story, it was just as beautiful as the spot they’d chosen to make their life in, the perfect retreat for whenever they wanted to get away from the village.

Crosshair took Clair to their bedroom at the back of the cottage and he watched her unwrap the towel from herself, leaving her in her delicate negligé, hugging the curves of her body. She smiled sweetly when she caught him staring at her, to which Crosshair merely snickered before heading over to make sure every light in the cottage was turned off.

Once he verified everything was turned off and locked up, Crosshair returned to the bedroom, expecting to see Clair waiting for him on the bed, perhaps posing to entice him for another session of passionate love making, but when Crosshair walked into the room, he stopped in his tracks and chuckled as quietly as he could so as to not wake her.

Clair lay in the bed curled up on the side she’d chosen, and from the look of it, she hadn’t even tried to adopt any suggestive poses. She hugged one of the many spare pillows and her back rose and fell steadily with her breath, her body completely merged to the cozy bed.

Crosshair smiled at her. After the wedding and barely having slept in the duration of their honeymoon until then, of course she’d be exhausted. He only hoped not to wake her as he carried out his final routine before going to sleep, and after he dressed and turned the light off, he carefully removed the pillow from her grip, finally crawling into the bed with her. Without waking, Clair’s arms wrapped around him, and Crosshair heard her exhale in her slumber as though she were relaxing, as though she’d found peace.

He couldn’t bring himself to sleep just yet. With his arms wrapped around her, he felt the warmth of her body passing onto him, his forehead resting on hers as he watched sleeping peacefully next to him. In that beautiful silence, Crosshair felt himself filled with a familiar emotion, one he’d felt back on Coruscant the first time he’d slept with her, the same one he felt the first night they slept at the cottage, their new home. He felt his chest swelling with pride, with happiness, with a love he would never be able to express in words, he felt his heart nearing the point it would burst.

He loved that woman so damn much.

With that thought, Crosshair eventually closed his eyes too, and gradually, the night grew even older. The moon set and retired, and in its place rose the sun, its golden light turned gray through the thick coat of rain clouds that had formed over those few hours.

Farther up north than their home, the place of their honeymoon was considerably colder than what they were used to. Though Clair loved the cold, she’d never be immune to it, and by the time Crosshair woke with her still huddled in his arms, he realized she had changed the delicate silk negligé for a pair of cotton pants and an oversized, cozy sweater, one white with blue stripes on the lower half that she had been gifted for the wedding.

Crosshair chuckled softly as Clair began to stir awake, and when her brown eyes opened, she looked up at him puzzled, wondering what could have caused his amusement.

He looked down at his wife. “Are we cozy?”

Clair nuzzled into Crosshair’s chest as she yawned, nodding her response. “I was cold.”

“No kidding,” Crosshair chuckled, his arms tightening around her so he could roll her over to his other side and position himself on top of her, caging her body to the mattress with his arms. “You look so fucking adorable, darlin’.”

Clair yelped when Crosshair lowered himself to kiss her, and she gave a nervous giggle before placing her hands on his chest, stopping him.

“Cross, I’ve got morning breath,” she chuckled.

“Not a problem for me, dumpling,” Crosshair crooned. “Wouldn’t be the first time we’ve done it first thing in the morning.”

After hearing his words, Clair let herself relax back onto the bed, causing him to chuckle.

“Now, how many times do I have to tell you that you’re perfect to me?” Crosshair said as he began to pepper her giggling features with kisses. “Besides, I want you now, with your sleepy eyes and messy hair and cute sweater.”

“Wow, didn’t think you’d like it this much,” Clair wiggled her eyebrows at him.

“I wouldn’t mind if you kept it on for what I’m about to do,” Crosshair smirked back at her.

“Oh?” She feigned her innocence. “And what are you about to do?”

Crosshair growled the way he knew drove her crazy, and he gave her hips a tug to bring her closer to him. Clair yelped and giggled in surprise, her gaze switching from the tender morning haze to a playful lust.

He lowered himself down again and finally kissed her plump lips, losing herself in her taste and the way her soft, curvy body felt underneath him. Meanwhile, Clair ran her hands up and down his back, her fingers coursing over the soft black long-sleeved shirt he wore until she found the rim at his lower back and lifted it, her established signal for whenever she wanted him to undress. Crosshair knew it all too well, and in a quick pause, he removed his shirt and hummed proudly as Clair eyed him with hunger just before resuming the kiss.

Crosshair then trailed his kisses down. He felt the yarn of her sweater under his fingertips, lost in the sensation and in how beautiful she looked until he was down between her legs. He wrapped his fingers around the edge of her pants and removed them to then do the same to her panties, and carefully, he spread her legs, giving himself the perfect access to her cunt.

He eyed her hungrily, her folds already gleaming with arousal. The hitching of Clair’s breath when he traced his tongue over her clit was music to his ears, and Crosshair gave the sensitive bud a series of light, quick flicks, allowing himself to get drunk in her taste.

The pitter-patter of the rain outside harmonized with her soft moans, tender whimpers that intensified when Crosshair switched from quick flicks to broader, slower strokes ranging on as much of her folds as he could, and slowly, his hands trailed up her skin. While one remained at her hip, the other one slithered up her torso, underneath her cozy sweater, far up enough to find her breast.

She moaned louder as he squeezed her breast and gently pinched and stroked her hard nipple, causing her hips to rut gently against his tongue as Crosshair continued to devour her like his finest meal. Her head fell back onto the pillows as she found his hand, stroking it through the fabric while he continued massaging her breast, until she finally let it brush downwards to let her fingers brush the silver curls just above his nape.

Crosshair groaned, sending deep vibrations through her pussy, making her whimper. He groaned again as he slipped his tongue down her entrance and licked whatever he could of her inner walls, making her hips quiver gently. Clair breathed in quicker, needier pants while her hips continued to rut against him and, lost in her taste, Crosshair buried his face in her pussy and ate her out with fervor and a raw thirst only she could satisfy.

“Cross?” She whimpered helplessly, the pitch of her voice so high it gave away how close she was to her release.

Her husband chuckled into her flesh and sent more of those sweet vibrations down her nerves, and when her hand moved up to the back of his head and gave his hair a firmer tug, Crosshair gave a raw, guttural growl into her that sent enough vibration to tip her over the edge. He heard her moan loudly as her body squirmed, her back arching off the mattress as she kept tugging on Crosshair’s silver hair.

With a growl, Crosshair resurfaced from her folds, licking the remaining arousal from his lips before looking at her with seductive eyes—they both knew he wasn’t done with her yet. He crawled back up, a sensual smile captivating her as he removed his trousers. Crosshair took his cock in one of his hands and began pumping, noticing how Clair’s gaze lingered on the sight as her tongue slightly stuck out from her lips.

He chuckled. “You like this, don’t you?”

Clair moaned slightly and nodded, feeling her pussy tingle obscenely at the sight of her man pumping himself. Proudly, Crosshair kneeled on the bed and arched back a bit, giving her a better view as he continued to work his own cock slowly, his eyes leering, making it hard for her to decide between looking at his cock and meeting eyes with him.

As she watched him, Clair knew that she needed to feel any sort of stimulus, any sensation she could grasp at. Having Crosshair in front of her, touching himself while he looked at her like that, it was making her needier than she’d ever dare to admit. Slowly, Clair took her fingers down between her legs and rubbed circles on her clit, giving Crosshair a little show in return that he would clearly enjoy.

“Come for me,” Crosshair whispered to her.

Sensitive from the orgasm he’d already given her, Clair knew that would be an easy task. She already felt that delicious heat pooling between her legs, and with his brown eyes staring dangerously into her, Clair knew she’d slip away at any moment. Her release was just within her grasp, until finally, with her gaze quickly switching between Crosshair’s eyes and his cock, a second orgasm took over her body and drew the sweetest noises from her, making her body quiver and squirm against the pillows.

“Fuck,” Crosshair groaned as he kept himself from his own release, even though the sight of Clair touching herself was nearly impossible to resist. He retrieved his hand from his cock, knowing not to be too lustful, and meanwhile, Clair caught her breath as her body rested back on the pillows, her gaze absently wandering over Crosshair’s body.

Her eyes settled on his cock, still hard, gleaming with precum. Clair’s mouth watered at the sight, and she mustered her strength to crawl over to him and take it in her hand, parting her lips around his girth.

Crosshair hissed, taking her messy hair in his hand and fisting it while she bobbed her head back and forth. She moaned and sent vibrations down his shaft the way he would do to her, and her big brown eyes looked up at him in the way she knew would easily throw him over his edge. Crosshair grit his teeth and cursed under his breath, delaying his release as long as he possibly could—he was only a man, a mortal man, and he’d do close to anything to feel his wife sucking him off the way she was now.

“Goddammit, I love you, Clair,” Crosshair growled as he let go of her hair and watched as the waves fell down her sides before gently cupping her chin, making her look at him. “I want to cum inside you.”

Clair let him out of her mouth and trailed kisses up his v-line, his abdomen, his chest, until she finally arrived at his lips and kissed him passionately. She rested her hands firmly on his chest and pushed against him, making Crosshair lie back on the mattress while she straddled him and finally removed the big, cozy sweater from her upper body.

It was getting far too hot for it.

Crosshair grinned seductively and felt himself throbbing at the sight of Clair perching herself up and positioning herself over his cock, until finally she slid herself down, letting his cock disappear into her. Every sensation hit Crosshair at once, from the warmth and wetness of her pussy around his cock, to the sight of Clair’s bare torso, her breasts, perky, falling softly before her chest.

Clair smiled at him, playful, seductive, using her own lust to her advantage. The way she bared her teeth at him in the suggestive grin of hers always had him thirsting, pledging himself to whatever she desired to do to him.

And normally, Crosshair would take her up on that. He’d taunt her, he’d grin back at her, enticing her to do the dirtiest, unholiest things to his body, to use him if she wanted to, but that morning proved different. Perhaps it was the aura of their honeymoon, or the way he had utterly felt and sworn his love for her that night, or how soft and adorable she felt in his arms when she wore oversized sweaters, but Crosshair just wanted to feel her close to him, he wanted to set aside the playtime for a while and be with her.

As she rocked her hips on his cock, Crosshair could feel her wanting to pick up the pace. He reached out and held her wrists with a gentle touch and brought her gaze onto him, and Clair felt both surprised and overwhelmed with tenderness at the softness of his eyes.

“Come here,” he said softly.

Clair bent over and rested her forearms on his chest, her lips hovering close to his as she slowly rocked back and forth on his cock. The angle made him penetrate her deeper, making them moan in unison as they kept eye contact for as long as they could. Crosshair slid his arms around her body as though he could possibly hold her any closer, he just wanted her.

“Fuck, I love you,” Crosshair hummed just before lowering his lips and capturing hers in a kiss.

Clair moaned into his lips and slid her hands up his chest to cup his jaw, and she softened at the tender warmth of his skin, amazed by the mercy and tenderness this man could hold when he’d been a soldier before. Clair had seen him at his worst; she’d seen him struggle with his emotions, she’d seen him threaten to shoot anyone who threatened her, she’d seen him wounded.

She’d seen the motives Crosshair had to be that arrogant, sullen sniper, and yet, when he was held by her at that moment, he was the manifestation of that gentle moonlight he insisted was her own.

Clair had paused for a moment if only to look at him, to engrave his beauty in her memory, until she finally resumed rocking her hips, kissing him one more time.

Crosshair held her thighs and helped her rock faster, eager to feel that delicious burst of pleasure alongside her. He wanted to hear her moan and say his name, he wanted to be the one to make her feel that, and to aid his intention, Crosshair flipped Clair over, her back on the mattress with his body looming above her.

He inserted himself again and fucked her slowly to let her feel every sensation. Crosshair watched as Clair’s eyes filled with bliss, heard as her moans became higher pitched and breathier, he felt her arms tighten around him to bring him closer to her, sealing all the space between them in one final, ardent kiss before her walls tightened around him and she was moaning out his name.

He knew he had to feel his lips on her, and as she moaned into the room, Crosshair found her neck and gently kissed and sucked, grunting into her skin until he released inside her and relaxed his body onto hers, still planting lazy kisses on her.

After they panted and recovered their breath, Crosshair carefully pulled out of her. Having just woken up and exerted himself like that, he didn’t feel as fresh as he could have, but he managed to get up from the bed and walk into the bathroom for damp cloths to clean himself and his bride, though when he returned to the bed, he saw Clair already sitting up and reaching for her clothes.

“Where are you going?” He asked her.

“Have to start the day sometime,” she replied, “or do you want to skip your breakfast?”

“Wait,” Crosshair hummed as he took a seat on the mattress and pulled her close to him, and taking the cloth, he wiped her down carefully like polishing a rare piece of gold.

Clair smiled softly. “Cross, I…”

“Hm?”

She blushed. “I love when you do that.”

“When I clean you after sex?” He raised a brow.

“Yes,” Clair replied. “It makes me feel small and cared for, and loved… I don’t know how to explain it.”

Crosshair chuckled deep in his chest and leaned in for a kiss. “I do love and care for you, Clair.”

“Crosshair…” she gave him a dreamy smile.

“Needless to say, none of this leaves this room,” Crosshair said as he got up. “If you tell Bree and Lav, they’ll tell my brothers and I’ll never live it down.”

“Would that really be so bad?” Clair laughed.

“Yes.”

She laughed and finally got up from the bed as well, stopping to gently kiss Crosshair on the cheek before making her way to the little wardrobe on the wall, from where she picked a red dress printed with golden flowers. Crosshair watched her as she put it on and caught himself smiling—they were married now, and yet, at times Clair would still surprise him with how beautiful she could be.

But Crosshair then looked out the window and registered the steady rain fall outside; he’d learned to love the rain, but that day at least, it quite literally rained on his plans.

“You’re deep in thought,” Clair broke the silence. “Aren’t you cold?”

He figured he’d try to find a way to make it work before giving up on it. “I’m going outside.”

“Not naked, hopefully,” Clair teased. “You’ll catch a cold.”

Crosshair snickered and went to the wardrobe to get clothes for himself. “No, not naked.”

“What do you want to go out for?” She asked him. “If you simply want to take a walk in the rain, I’d love to go with you.”

As much as he’d delight in a rainy walk with his wife, Crosshair hesitated. “I’m going to get firewood.”

“Berry pie, all that wood is gonna be damp,” she said as she put a different sweater over her to keep her warm. “It won’t do much for lighting a fire tonight, and we still have enough for one day.”

“Still,” he said.

At that moment, Clair remembered she knew him better than that, and whatever he was up to, he’d rather be left to his own devices with it. Still, she wouldn’t blatantly play along—she’d learned he heavily disliked that.

“Okay then,” Clair said. “I’ll be baking in the meantime, unless you want me to wait for you.”

Crosshair felt at ease again and smiled at her. “No, my love. Bake, I know you want to.”

She walked up to him when he finished dressing and wrapped her arms around him, nuzzling his chest and delighting in the thick yarn of his gray sweater.

“I’ll make your favorite,” she spoke, her voice muffled.

He laughed and hugged her tightly, bending over to kiss her forehead. “Have fun.”

Crosshair and Clair walked out of the bedroom together. Passing by the kitchen, he gave Clair another kiss before setting out to the outside, not paying much mind to the rain other than it had completely drenched the spot he’d chosen for the surprise.

As much as Clair liked the rain, he didn’t think she’d appreciate a luncheon with soggy food and dripping eyelashes. However, as Crosshair looked around, using his observation abilities to the fullest, Crosshair recognized some large posts behind the cottage that hadn’t been fully put away. With rain falling on his fase, he made his way quietly, careful not to attract Clair’s attention. He figured she’d be busy baking for a while, which gave gim time to figure something out.

Looking at the posts, they seemed to be ready to assemble. They weren’t horribly rusty or corroded, which would make them easy to work with, and if Crosshair could just get enough leaves over them once they were assembled, he’d be able to form some sort of tent. The leaves would certainly make it easier to set up a couple lanterns. As for the table and chairs, they’d easily fit inside.

He just needed to go about it quietly.

*

Clair could very easily get lost in baking, but even she managed to notice Crosshair had been gone a while.

It wasn’t until she was ready to get the honey and blueberry pie out of the oven and the Little cottage smelled utterly delicious when the door finally opened, revealing a damp Crosshair who gave only the slightest shivers.

Clair was concerned, but for all of that, she had to stifle a laugh.

“You look like Bean after I bathe him,” Clair giggled. “Your spirit animal really is a cat.”

Crosshair closed the door behind him and grumbled as he walked to the back of the room. “I’m going to take a bath.”

“What in the world were you doing?!” Clair carefully set the pie down on the table to cool and closed the oven before hurrying into the bedroom after Crosshair.

“No questions asked,” he said from inside the bathroom.

“I really wish you’d tell me what you’re up to,” Clair leaned on the bathroom’s closed door. “I could help you.”

“No.”

She rolled her eyes playfully. “Suit yourself. Pie’s ready, by the way.”

“I know, it smells great.”

Clair chuckled; she loved whenever Crosshair acted like a grump, particularly whenever that hidden softness of his would shine through.

She then returned to the kitchen to check on the pie; it was taking every ounce of her self-control not to eat a generous slice of it by herself, but she decided to wait for her husband to do so. In the meantime, she put water to boil on a kettle for tea and started cleaning up the kitchen, knowing it was never too early to tidy up whenever baking was involved. The minutes slid by, and eventually, the gentle rain ceased to fall from the sky and the clouds began to clear up, letting some hints of sunlight shine through them.

Clair was looking out the window, smiling at the beauty of nature, when in the background she heard Crosshair readying himself and pacing across the little cottage, darting towards the entrance.

“Crosshair?” Clair called.

“Don’t slice the pie yet,” he said back. “I’ll be back for you in a bit.”

He was as mysterious as ever, but Clair knew to trust him. She finished brewing the tea, and her instincts told her to cover up the pie with a little towel. She figured Crosshair’s little plan involved taking it outside.

In little time, Crosshair returned, breathing deeply as though to center himself before meeting Clair’s eyes again.

“Okay, now you can come,” he told her.

Clair took the pie and followed Crosshair’s lead. Outside, the hazy sunlight reflected in little specs from the fallen rain and dew drops, and the air was fresh and clean, possibly more than any other place in the known galaxy.

With one hand clutching the pie, Clair held Crosshair’s hand with the other as he carefully led her down the wet path, until in the distance, nearing the edge of the river where they’d been the previous night, Clair noticed a little tent of leaves that wasn’t there before, and Crosshair was leading her to it.

“Is this what you were doing?” Clair asked him.

Crosshair didn’t answer, he merely continued to lead her down the path until they had to step from it onto the grass. He did so first and held his arm out for Clair to take it, making sure nothing could go wrong.

“Watch your step,” he said quietly.

They walked around the little tent and Clair finally got a glimpse of its front, sighing as the sight took her breath away.

Four wooden and varnished poles half a meter taller than Crosshair stood on each corner and joined in the middle of the square they formed making for a pyramid-shaped roof, and Clair was astonished at how Crosshair had managed to coat the empty spaces with leaves, branches and even a few flowers.

He’d done all of that in the rain.

And the tent of leaves wasn’t all of it. Inside of it was a table with two chairs, all of them completely dry—Clair assumed he’d done that once the rain had stopped—with plates, forks, and knives. The center of the table had two lanterns, and from the leaf roof hung another four lanterns that gave the place a warm, almost magical lighting.

“Crosshair…” She sighed.

He gently took the pie from her hands and uncovered it, setting it in the middle.

“Take a seat,” Crosshair said softly.

Before she could think about sitting down, Clair turned around to face Crosshair and wrapped her arms around him to pull him into a warm embrace. She snuggled into his chest the way she loved to do and held him silently, peacefully, with the sounds of nature and the wind in the background. He gently kissed the top of her head in return and held onto her arms, and that was when Clair looked up at him again.

“You did all this in the pouring rain?” She asked.

“Well, I was hoping it wouldn’t rain,” Crosshair replied.

“You could have delayed it,” Clair hummed, clearly touched by the effort he’d put into the gesture.

“I…” Crosshair hesitated. “I wanted you to—”

“I love it,” she smiled brightly at him. “Every bit of it. I love you.”

He smiled at her in his own smooth manner, and he took a hand to gently brush a few strands of hair from her face.

“I love you too,” he said.

Clair squeezed him in her arms and then let go of him to take one of the two seats inside the tent of leaves, after which she got to slicing the blueberry and honey pie she’d baked. Crosshair watched with a serene smile as she did what she loved best and placed a slice on each of the plates set out, and he couldn’t resist wrapping his arms around her as soon as he sat down next to her, holding her close to him, breathing in her scent.

He thought back to every time he held her the way he did now, he knew that in every moment, he loved her just as much, if not more. They were husband and wife now, they were Crosshair and Clair, they’d gotten past meager differences, bad moods, and threats to their life.

As far as he knew, if he could hold her, spoil her, and love her like that for the rest of his life, Crosshair would be a happy man, and he’d never ask for more.

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Bestie I'm not going to say, let's keep it a secret until I sell the info to Dispatch 😜

Some singers and actors mostly, London is suuuuuch a small places and many celebs hang out together so it's quite easy to run into them or have mutual friends. One of my friends went to school with miss Dua, another one lived next to Adele - Adele used to buy her cigarettes jdydushejshshs. I have some hooking up stories, but honestly everyone made out/slept with everyone at this point 🙈

Appa......... Yeah thanxx I hate it! Or the oppa kink, Seonghwa sweetie I'm so sorry they do this to you 😭 also oppa? Nice try, I'm a noona, lmao. I hink a lot of people want hardcore stuff because it's not something they get irl and apparently being vanilla is boring and uncool :/

The teacher assistant AU is much better I like it too. Maybe not the most professional thing to do but not ILLEGAL JAIL TIME

The white outfits were really uhmmmm 😵 I can't say I looked away though...

Omg, I usually hate the reverse gender argument but seriously?! Imagine saying this about female idols, some creeps do obviously and women need to wear uncomfortable and skimpy clothes a lot anyways, but still sexualisation is sexualisation.

I know the cheekies :( I even talked about them recently, at that time I didn't even realise how hollow his face was, I noticed he looked more skinny tho. But compared to now, even if Hwa doesn't actually weigh much more since he's slim anyway, the cheeks look so full, round Hwa is the best Hwa! I feel this because I'm skinny and even the smallest weigh loss is noticeable especially on my face and my ribs and it was the same in his case.

https://twitter.com/hwalovezone/status/1498346591308206083?t=B8s-uEXvwjYKtR5sGBvuKQ&s=19

Pls spare some for me I wanna be fed too! 😋

I'm all 👂🏼👂🏼 and 👁👁 I need some siren stuff, doesn't matter who's the creature though merman Hwa is something so personal to me. Play Atlantis by Shinee <3

But tell me he doesn't look like their son, the perfect combo?! I mean minus the incest, but well that's how they rolled in the ancient times akudkajdjsjsjsjsks

Forgot to talk about the cowboy photoshoot further, but I'm still not over their Don't Stop piratey one and do you remember the Noir thing?!?! Why is Universe kinda serving with the photos and shows, damn I hate that app but Ateez is always doing something with them and at least we can cry over their messages too. Or spam them with cat emojis and love confessions 🤗 so I'm lowkey grateful

I hope you get to see SVT! Don't know about the tickets cause prices for Stray Kids were INSAAAAANE, but fingers crossed for some not so expensive ones. And they better perform Aju Nice, if not,.PLEDIS OPEN UP 🔪

Actually Pledis open up anyways I wanna fight

Oooooh Straya, noice! I like all the big cities, because let's be honest there isn't much to do in smaller towns in Australia unless you like dangerous animals and dry weather... I'll put my guide goggles on, but I need to refresh my memory, feels like ages since I last went there 😭 Adelaide is really cool I didn't expect to like it as much, Brisbane has some fun city beaches. - DV 💖

hello hi!!!

Bestie I'm not going to say, let's keep it a secret until I sell the info to Dispatch 😜

Some singers and actors mostly, London is suuuuuch a small places and many celebs hang out together so it's quite easy to run into them or have mutual friends. One of my friends went to school with miss Dua, another one lived next to Adele - Adele used to buy her cigarettes jdydushejshshs. I have some hooking up stories, but honestly everyone made out/slept with everyone at this point 🙈

HELLO??? MISS ADELE FBWNDBWM not DULA PEEP stop it 🤚🏼 AUTOGRAPHS SEND AN AUTOGRAPH ID BEG ON MY KNEES wow miss adele buy me cigarettes too why not <3 😭😭 THATS SO TRUE everyone knows everyone,,, aren’t they all technically family bc in london everyone’s kind of related- 😭😭🤚🏼

Appa......... Yeah thanxx I hate it! Or the oppa kink, Seonghwa sweetie I'm so sorry they do this to you 😭 also oppa? Nice try, I'm a noona, lmao. I hink a lot of people want hardcore stuff because it's not something they get irl and apparently being vanilla is boring and uncool :/

APPA LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 the only reason i fear to meet seonghwa is if he starts to pull the oppa shit,, im running the opposite direction 😭😭😭 yEAAAHH vanilla is kind of better in so many ways bc sometimes in hardcore ur so in character u forget everything but with vanilla it’s nice and cozy and ur laughing and what not,, vanilla >> no bc vanilla can be hot too?? the tension?? BRAMHDKWHDQK

The teacher assistant AU is much better I like it too. Maybe not the most professional thing to do but not ILLEGAL JAIL TIME

YES YES !!! HDJWJ U WILL NEVER CATCH ME WRITING ANYTHING JAIL TIME unless milf but that one’s reasonable ☺️

The white outfits were really uhmmmm 😵 I can't say I looked away though...

Omg, I usually hate the reverse gender argument but seriously?! Imagine saying this about female idols, some creeps do obviously and women need to wear uncomfortable and skimpy clothes a lot anyways, but still sexualisation is sexualisation.

YEAH!!! i think some fans just take it to a whole new level but those same ones be tweeting “who’s the first to come to your mind when i say daddy in ateez?” “im gonna lick his abs from top to bottom” 😭😭😭😭 like bro practice what u preach?? if ur rly worried about the whole ordeal, you are also the one who contributes to it one way or another 😭😭

I know the cheekies :( I even talked about them recently, at that time I didn't even realise how hollow his face was, I noticed he looked more skinny tho. But compared to now, even if Hwa doesn't actually weigh much more since he's slim anyway, the cheeks look so full, round Hwa is the best Hwa! I feel this because I'm skinny and even the smallest weigh loss is noticeable especially on my face and my ribs and it was the same in his case.

GOD I LOVE FULL CHEEKS HWA so mf round i will eat them. yeah! his face was rly hollow and the blond/grey-ash hair just kind of accentuated it more,, god bless the belly chain but we don’t need it hwa 😭😭😭 AHHHH fast metabolism??? a blessing and a curse literally,,, me too me too 😭🤚🏼

https://twitter.com/hwalovezone/status/1498346591308206083?t=B8s-uEXvwjYKtR5sGBvuKQ&s=19

Pls spare some for me I wanna be fed too! 😋

BESTIE GET IN LINE 🔫

I'm all 👂🏼👂🏼 and 👁👁 I need some siren stuff, doesn't matter who's the creature though merman Hwa is something so personal to me. Play Atlantis by Shinee <3

👁👁 i would like to say,,, the siren yn is a top <3 mister hwa is very flustered,, HE IS LIKE SOME SORT OF A MERMAN— accidentally finds out he can breathe under water,,, he’s like a halfie? half human half water,, like a cucumber?? LMFAOOOO???

But tell me he doesn't look like their son, the perfect combo?! I mean minus the incest, but well that's how they rolled in the ancient times akudkajdjsjsjsjsks

NO HE LITERALLY DOES????????????? GET OUT ANON DO NOT DO THIS TO ME I CANNOT HAVE A NEW WIP I ALREADY HAVE A NEW ONE 😭😭😭 but i have a san wip as a semi-hades

Forgot to talk about the cowboy photoshoot further, but I'm still not over their Don't Stop piratey one and do you remember the Noir thing?!?! Why is Universe kinda serving with the photos and shows, damn I hate that app but Ateez is always doing something with them and at least we can cry over their messages too. Or spam them with cat emojis and love confessions 🤗 so I'm lowkey grateful

u know what,, i think we’re never over the noir ones. we saw the hwa man spread and the way I ERUPTED THAT DAY FBWMDNMA noir >>>> BUT THOSE VOGUE PHOTOS WHERE THE TIDDIES 😩😮‍💨

I hope you get to see SVT! Don't know about the tickets cause prices for Stray Kids were INSAAAAANE, but fingers crossed for some not so expensive ones. And they better perform Aju Nice, if not,.PLEDIS OPEN UP 🔪

bestie 😭😭 the tickets open june but resale and offfical arena sites say 1 ticket for $259 and with tax $331 😀😀😀 hybe really out to loot,, idk how the actual ones will be but this is wILD AND FOR ONE TICKET??? NO FR AJU NICE IS THE ONLY REASON ILL SPEND,,, if nct comes and the tickets are cheaper 😭😭 but i want to see horanghae live so bad

Actually Pledis open up anyways I wanna fight

yeah no fr, add hybe too, i just wanna talk 🤨

Oooooh Straya, noice! I like all the big cities, because let's be honest there isn't much to do in smaller towns in Australia unless you like dangerous animals and dry weather... I'll put my guide goggles on, but I need to refresh my memory, feels like ages since I last went there 😭 Adelaide is really cool I didn't expect to like it as much, Brisbane has some fun city beaches. - DV 💖

BDMQJDKW DANGEROUS ANIMALS IS ONE REASON IM HESITATING,, it’s like god put every animal from hell there??? and for what??? and aussies just play with them??? just like that?? 🔫 aH NO WORRIES !!! adelaide seems like a hidden gem, the buildings are super pretty !!! brisbane, going to that gold coast to drown in that deep water <33

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

[kizetherz]

Hello!! ೃ⁀ ✭

Welcome to my hidden little tumblr blog! My name is kizether (pronounced kizz - ee - ther) but i also simply go by kiz or pheo! I’m an artist and I’m trying to pick up writing as a hobby as well. I’m working on my own story with my own fictional world building and original characters called Far Away From Here (or FAFH) and that’s pretty much my main focus for both art and writing! :) So far, I’m not active with posting on here; I’m busy with school and life and general but I’d really like to try!! I’m trying to expose myself to public spaces both irl and on the internet after YEARS of bein shy w/ social anxiety, so this is me attempting n’ tryin to commit! that bein said, PLEASE be patient w/ me if you’re willing, i beg 😭🙏🤎

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✭ simple info ab me! ✭

✭ i’m 17 but i turn 18 in a month!

✭ as i stated, i’m an artist!! and i’m also startin to write more as well! i’m VERY passionate about storytelling and my story in general (fafh) and i LOVE my characters!! like fafh is my BIGGEST SPECIAL INTEREST AUUH I’M ALWAYS HAPPY TO TALK AB IT!! you’re always free to ramble about your own story work or interests in general too idm! :D

✭ i really want to make more artist friends/mutuals here online!! preferably those who have similar interests! (check personal carrd for interests if ur curious)

✭ i’m genderfluid!! i view myself in a soft masculine way (if that makes any sense idk), but i have many feminine phases too! i consider myself to be pretty androgynous sometimes tbh. my peak gender expression deep down is just old man clothing like HONESTLY I LOVE OLD MEN (mainly the fictional sweet ones tbh 💀) AND i rlly love stuff like frills n’ all that founding father/grandpa type drip as i hear ppl call it 😭 i wear anything i like irl tho :)

✭ i’m multiracial n’ all that! idk how to word it correctly, but basically i’m black, german, puerto rican, creole, native american, and mexican!

✭ my fav colors r green and brown!! i also love gold, white, black, and crimson!!

✭ my fav animals r cats, snakes, and capybaras! i also love sea creatures like sea slugs n isopods!

✭ i LOVE shrimp fried rice, chicken, and coffee. my fav things ever tbh. and chocolate.

✭ I RLLY LOVE VOCALOID MY FAVS R MIKU, RIN, AND SOME PPL DONT COUNT HER AS A VOCALOID SINCE SHE’S ORIGINALLY AN UTAU BUT I LOOOVE TETO!! MY FAV VOCALOID ARTIST EVER IS KIKUOO, KIKUO LIKERS PLS INTERACT (vocaloid likers in general too)

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🤎🤎🤎 art blog: @kizetherart 🤎🤎🤎

simple/“professional” carrd: https://nevermaglo.ju.mp/#

PERSONAL CARRD!! (OOOO YOU WANNA CHECK IT OUT SO BAAAD 🌀🌀🌀🌀): https://kizether.carrd.co/

toyhouse (not too much yet im actually so sorry BUT i DO rlly wanna get to it one day!): https://toyhou.se/kizether

discord: @kizether (im bad at talking to most ppl but if we happen to click then bare w/ me bc i rlly DO wanna meet cool new ppl who i can relate to 🙏)

link to the introduction/lore doc of my story Far Away From Here (still a wip but has a good amount of info so far, will be updated eventually obv) (pls read mainly if you’re a fiction nerd like i am and you like stuff like angels n demons n adventure n magic n dimension travel n cool world building n all that!!): https://docs.google.com/document/u/0/d/1jxUyl70eHYGpe4m1LKTd2dOWbkFTE486F2l7pW4IqeQ/mobilebasic

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THANKS FOR VIEWING THIS!! <3 hopefully this inspired you to follow n’ everything, if not, no pressure i still hope u had fun reading ab me n’ getting to look at my stuff! 🤷‍♂️ i hope you have a great day, friend!★

also im RLLY srry if this is long,, i rlly do enjoy yappin ab myself and my stuff whenever i get the chance 💀

#kizether #kizetherz #introduction #intro post #YAY #digital artist #artist #small artist #artists on tumblr #writer #writers on tumblr #paranormal writer #fiction writer #idk what else to tag #im pretty cool imo #thanks for lookin :)