#who only EVER thinks about yourself and makes HUGE FUCKING DEALS out of everything

[levitiquee]

“I hate it.”

You looked up at him, gritting your teeth through the words. You were angry, so so angry. Furious, enraged, aggravated. Who does he think he is, that fucking Jaeger?

Eren’s last letter finally came through. The one where he says he was going to raid Liberio and asked the scouts for help. Or did he? With or without help, he said. The audacity.

After all the shit you and the others had to go through, the huge reports trying to explain why he went missing, answering the higher ups about his disappearance, trying to justify it, seeking up excuses. Then he has the fucking nerve to send these letters.

You had stormed out right after Hange read out the words, not even bothering to ask to be excused. You were tired of dealing with that emo teenage brat.

But Levi gave no reaction to the sharpness of your tone, already aware of the cause of your temper. He was there in the room, his expression had tightened just as yours had. And he must’ve followed you right after.

He always does.

Without a word, he lowered himself down on the step beside you.

“This is filthy.” He scrunched his nose. “Couldn’t have found a better place?”

“I didn’t ask you to sit here.” You grumbled, rolling your eyes. You just kind of took the first isolated corner you could find. Sure, the stairs were filthy, but that was the last thing on your mind.

“Why did you follow me anyways?” You asked.

“I didn’t follow you.” Levi sighs, stretching his leg to kick a piece of rock. It flew all the way over to a wall, making soft little sounds on the pavement as it impacted. “I needed air. He pissed me off.”

You let out a noise in agreement. That’s one thing you can both agree on. Eren Jaeger was an absolute piece of shit with a talent to irritate like no other.

“Next time I’m seeing him,” You mumbled darkly. “I’m breaking a couple bones, I swear.”

“That was actually my plan, but I’d let you have the honors as well.”

“You should’ve hit him harder all those years ago, back in the courtroom.”

“Definitely.”

That made you smile.

But it was the absolute seriousness of his expression that made you crack. The stony face, with an even more stoic tone. He actually seemed to be considering the idea. As if you and him were merely discussing the weather instead of the best way to beat up an adolescent boy. Without even meaning to, you were grinning, a snort escaping you making Levi glance at you with the side of his eyes. He frowned.

“I’m serious.”

“I know you are.” You smiled. “That’s why it’s funny.” Poor Eren, he’s had it coming.”

Finally, you felt the anger go down.

It’s always like that. You get angry, you get emotional, but when you turn around, Levi’s always there, in his own strange little way, a hand on your shoulder and shooting you a look. Or times like this when you’re upset and pissed, and he just sits with you and goes along with everything you say until you feel better.

You leaned back, letting yourself fall back on your arms, kicking your legs and stretching them. Your shoulders hurt from how stiff they’ve been from the tension until now. You tilted your head to look at him.

“Look at us, making plans about how to beat up a kid half our age. What have we come to?”

“Our fucking limit.” Levi grumbled, but the scowl lessened, his brows straightening slightly at your calmer tone. His own shoulders relaxed. “He deserves it at this point.”

You grinned. Sure, you can’t really hit Eren right now, but the idea does make you feel better. For the time being at least, you’ll have to cope by daydreaming.

But you were so tired, you think. Very so.

Why is it that you could never stop running?

Eren’s shit was only the least of it, but it’s been so hard. Being a scout was never supposed to be easy. But ever since Erwin and the others died, nothing's been the same. You could hardly celebrate the success at retaking wall maria when the price to pay was the blood of everyone you knew. Even witnessing the wonder that is the sea for the first time hadn’t been as thrilling as you thought, how could it when you know there’s a whole other world beyond it, and that they want you dead? Stepping in Marley and realizing all that you’ve been kept away from, a life you couldn’t even imagine. It must be nice to live without being so terrified, scared for you and scared for your friends, you had thought. Must be nice to live without having the rest of the world label you as devils and to take the peace for granted.

You wished you could just catch a fucking break. Maybe forever.

You sighed.

“Levi.”

He gave a lazy glance. “What?”

“Let’s run away.” You muttered softly under your breath. Eyes focused on the ground. “Me and you. And Hange, if they want to come.” You sighed, pausing a little. “I hate it. I hate all of it. I’m sure you do too.”

With that, you turned to look at him, right in those silver eyes of his. They looked almost blue here in the moonlight. Was it just you or was even the wind holding its breath?

“This isn’t what I signed up for Lev. I thought I was going to fight titans, not humans.”

“What..” He asked, staring at you unblinking, almost confused. And surprised. And something else you couldn’t quite place. “What are you on about?”

“So, let’s go.”

“What?”

“I’m serious. Somewhere far away. We could just get up and leave right now.”

“..now?”

Levi gaped, struggling to find something to say. Your light tone indicated that it was a joke but yet, there was something in your eyes. A glimmer of something. That made him think that maybe it wasn’t a joke after all.

You grinned. “Leave this to the kids. They don’t listen to us either way. Let’s go and start another life.”

And for a moment, there was silence. You stared at him as he did the same, eyes boring into each other, unspoken words and unconfessed truths thrumming in the air between.

And just for that moment, you considered it. You really, really considered it. Just saying it out loud.

To tell him what you never did. What you’ve been hiding from him for so long.

Would that be so bad?

What if you did run away after all?

You sighed.

“Jeez, Levi.” You finally looked away, peeling your eyes off of him. “Relax. You look like I’m about to drag you from here at gunpoint. It was a joke.”

Levi was quick to duck his head away as well. “I know.” He mumbled. “I know. I’m not that fucking dense.”

“Were you hoping I was serious?” You pulled your knees up to his chest, letting your head rest on them to look at him, a grin forming.

He did. But he couldn’t say that, could he?

“You are the last person I’d willingly choose to spend my life with.” He scowled.

“That’s cruel.” You gasped dramatically, feigning hurt and giving him a mock glare. “We get along fine.”

“You’re missing the part where I want to choke one or two dozen times a day.”

“Kinky.”

“Fuck off.”

“Okay, but, think about it,” You pressed your lips together with the effort to hold the grin together, trying your best to look serious. How could you when he looked so incredulous? It only made you want to fuck around with him a little more. “You could be a farmer or some shit. I could be the pretty housewife. Some peace and calm.”

“You as a housewife?” Levi snorted, amusement gleaming in his eyes at the thought. “Peace and calm at the same place where you are?”

“Well,” You shrugged, “You could be the pretty housewife then. I won’t mind.”

“I think I'll stick to being a squad captain, thanks.”

"You're no fun."

"Shut the fuck up.''

The giggle finally escaped you, unable to hold it in any longer. And little after, you were laughing, clutching your sides, making the mistake of looking at his very offended face and then you were laughing so hard you could hardly breathe. Soon, even Levi’s face softened, the corners of his mouth quirking up just a little.

“HEYYY YOU TWO!”

Hange yells, appearing out of nowhere and startling the shit out of the two of you, making you almost choke. They flopped themselves down between you, wrapping their arms around both of your shoulders, squeezing hard and letting their head drop. “Nice of you to leave me alone with those children. Gave me a headache.”

“You’re the commander after all.” You said coughing, trying to get your breathing back to normal.

“Next time, can you at least say hello before you proceed to crush us to death?” Levi grumbled, squirming under Hange’s grasp.

“No.” They reply to Levi. “But jeez.. I say one word and Mikasa gets all defensive. Why is everyone acting like it’s my fault?” Hange pouts.

“Aw Hange.” You pat their back, laughing.

“I want to smack Eren.”

“Don’t we all?” Levi muttered quietly under his breath.

“Me and Levi booked him first.” You said. “You can have the rest if anything remains.”

“Aw man. No fair.”

Hange pulled a face. And then they pulled the two of you closer, until all 3 of you were practically squishing against each other.

You let your eyes fall shut, soaking in the warmth. And Levi, even Levi— who’s always complaining about Hange’s very physical manners—didn’t complain anymore. And the three of you just stayed like that, leaning against each other in silence. The presence of the other was enough itself.

Then Hange spoke, so quietly you would’ve barely heard it if you weren’t so close.

“How long do you think until it’s over?”

You pondered over the question a little while, thinking about it. Then you sighed.

“Who knows? Will it ever really be over?”

Hange exhaled softly, pausing. They looked up, the moonlight glinting off their glasses. There were a lot of stars tonight.

“Think Erwin’s getting amusement watching us be miserable?” They muttered.

It was Levi to answer this time.

"Yes."

#I CANT WRITE SOMETHING SHORT TO SAVE MY LIFE #IT WAS MEANT TO BE SMTH SMALL #i write a lot when I'm sad ig #they dont necessarily end up good but I write lengthy shit anyways #also this is based on a real convo #i am certain they shit talked ab eren a lot during the timeskip #lmao #Here's a lil smth #levi ackerman #levi #aot #captain levi #levi heichou #snk #aot fandom #levi x reader #aot fanfiction #snk fanfiction #aot levi x reader #captain levi x reader #levi x reader imagine #levi x reader imagines #levi x y/n #levi x you #aot levi #aot levi ackerman #levi x hange #levi fluff #hange zoe #hange

[oh-koenig-my-koenig]

concert, part 1

part 1 here (cw: age gap)

👑 (king): can I come pick you up? Me: yeah, sure, I’m almost ready 👑 (king): good, be there in 10

I look down at his text, smiling to myself, then I get myself ready. Checking my makeup, checking if I have everything in my little bag. Then I wait for him, nervously tapping my foot, thinking about our interactions over the last week.

I haven't seen him since the bar, we've just been texting and my god. He isn’t the biggest texter, but he never fails to answer a single one of my messages. Setting a new standard for sure.

My first message he answered within five minutes, making it a deal and asking me for the details on the concert. And then I had to send him all of my favourite songs, not just by Lorna Shore, but all the bands I talked about that he didn’t yet know. We were just talking about all the topics we could think about.

Like I wanted to know what accent it was that laced through his words when talking English and he told me that he actually was from Austria. I’ve never met someone who was from this country, so naturally I was curious. Especially why he lived here then and didn’t go back to Austria for his leave, which he just answered with a simple “I don’t have anything to go back to.” I didn’t want to pry, so I left it at that.

And he asked me what I did for a living and all my little hobbies. I could talk about those all day long, so there was a lot of back and forth (maybe a little bit more back from me than it was forth from him). I still was curious about his job as well, but I was too afraid to be called nosy again.

By the third day I got confident enough to accompany my messages with pictures. And no, not that kind of pictures. I just snap moments during my day and just them to him. My morning coffee, some scenery from my commute, a screengrab from the game I’m playing in the evening. Because I want to show what’s going on during my day.

It’s nice. It feels nice to talk to him. And we’re still kind of shy, holding back, but some of the texts even get flirty. My favourite thing to do during last week was to call him old every chance I got. Just to get a rise out of him.

I can’t help but feel that the last message has a double entendre. Like I should be the one worrying about keeping up. With him.

The doorbell rings and I go to open my door. It swings open and I almost rear back when his hulking figure towers over me. My god, I have forgotten how huge he is. I mean, I only saw it once when he got up from the table.

He's wearing the same worn leatherjacket and a shirt underneath. A Lorna Shore shirt. He got it right on time for the concert. I know because he sent me a picture when the package arrived.

"Hi.", I say looking up at him.

"Hi yourself.", he answers with a smile. "Looking good."

"Thanks.", I say as I do a little twirl for him, my skirt swaying while I do the turn. When I land on my two feet again, my DocMartens stomping onto the floor, I see his gaze wander up my body.

His lids are hooded, his mouth is slightly opened and I can see the row of strong teeth blink through. Our eyes meet and I feel a zap of excitement running down my spine. It just got harder to breathe. Because he looks at me like I would taste good. It’s actually making me a bit nervous. And I don’t think anybody ever looked at me like that.

“What?”, I throw in his direction, swaying from one foot to the other.

"Nothing…” is all he says, shaking his head. But it doesn’t feel like nothing. “Come on, let's get going. You have the tickets?", he asks.

I point at the little bag clasped to my belt. "Got everything in here." He nods and gestures me to exit the flat. I do so and lock the door behind me, following him down to the street where his car is parked.

It’s a Mercedes G-wagon. A fucking G-wagon. I don’t know which car I suspected, but I guess not this one. Although it makes sense when I see him right next to it. The kind of military look of the car, the colour (black, of course), it being quite an expensive brand, but also an older model, judging from the wear on the outside. Also a spacious enough car for a big man like him.

He stops at the passenger side and opens the door for me. And I can't help but melt a little. The gentlemanly gesture with him looking just like he looks. The big stature, the worn leatherjacket with the tattooed hands showing, the slight aura of danger around him that makes much more sense since I know he’s a soldier, that part of him not fully vanishing even when he’s on leave. The timid smile he gives me when I thank him for holding the door open for me emphasizing the contrast between his hard looking exterior and the softer core.

He waits for me to climb up into the seat, shutting the door for me and going around the car, to the driver's side. I snuggle into the leather of the car seat and look around a bit. His scent engulfs me, a warm, manly note, and I suppress a sigh. This man is just too much, and I'm going to a concert with him.

He gets in and starts the car which also turns on the sound system and a flurry of guitar sounds, drums and the distinguished voice of Chuck Schuldiner blasts from the speakers. I recognize the song instantly. "Oh, I love Spirit Crusher. The whole album actually."

He grins at me. "I thought so, that's why I put it on." He hands me the CD sleeve. "I bought this when I was like... maybe 16 or 17?"

"Oh my god, really?", I exclaim, inspecting the case. I turn to him pointing at the release date on the back, a mischievous grin forming on my lips. "That's the year I was born."

He sighs and rolls his eyes, snatching the CD case from me. "Yeah, yeah, we've already established that I'm old, ancient even." I bite back a laugh, doing a bad job at it. He leans forward, inching closer to my face. “Now what’s so funny, huh?”

I shake my head still grinning. “Nothing.” I pause for effect. “Old man.”, I add teasingly.

His gaze is burning into me. “Uh-huh, ain’t that right.” The slightly threatening undertone is not lost on me and it makes me shift in my seat.

He doesn’t say anything else, just pulls out of the parking space, and drives us to the concert location. The atmosphere gets a little bit more relaxed when he asks me about how work has been today (because we haven’t texted about that yet). I go on a rant because work really has been kicking my ass lately and my boss keeps getting on my nerves. So the car ride to the venue is filled with me explaining all of the details of what’s going on which would’ve have been too much to type out.

I’m still complaining about my boss’s antics when we enter the tall concert building. I show our tickets to the security guys at the entrance and they check us for stuff that you can’t bring into the venue. Well, they check me without hesitation, the security lady patting me down and taking a look into the little bag I have with me.

The security guy that has the pleasure of checking him hesitates for more than just a bit and I can see the little grin on König’s face as he’s towering over him, almost a head taller, and looking the most intimidating I’ve seen him yet.

“Don’t worry, he doesn't bite.”, I joke with the security guard who rolls his eyes, but finally goes to pat down the big guy.

König’s grin turns mischievous, looking down at him while he’s being checked. “Only if asked to.”, he says, glancing at me. And then he fucking winks. And I almost trip over my own feet. I steady myself, going down the stairs, taking a deep breath to calm myself down. Because that planted an image in my head I wasn’t ready for.

He catches up to me. “I’ll drop my jacket off and then we can get a beer?”, he suggests and I nod, following his lead. His hand drops to the small of my back, guiding me as we maneuver through the crowds of people. And I try to ignore how this light touch is making me feel.

We get in line at the bar and something I wanted to talk to him about burns at the tip of my tongue. Especially now that I’ve seen the expression on his face when somebody pushes past me, accidently brushing against me.

“Can you promise me something?”, I ask, putting on my nicest face to heighten the chances of him agreeing to it.

His lips curl into a sly smile when he sees the way I’m looking at him. “That depends on what you want me to promise.”

“Please don't stomp on any of the people if they bump into me.”, I tell him.

“Hm, I don't know if I can promise that.”, he answers with an honest tone in his voice, but the mischief in his eyes is telling a different story. “I have to look out for my concert companion, don’t I?”

“Well, can you at least leave them in one piece? I wanna leave the concert a free woman and not an accomplice to murder.”, I explain, not even taking myself seriously.

He laughs. “I think, we can arrange that.” He playfully nudges me with his arm and I almost topple over because I didn’t expect that. An “Oh shit” drops from his lips while his hands reach for my waist to steady me, and my first reaction is to hold onto him. His arm to be exact. My fingers grab onto his lower arms and I can feel the strong cords of muscle beneath my fingertips. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to-“, he says.

I shake my head, interrupting him. “Don’t apologize, it takes more to break me.” Which sounds completely wrong and dirty in my mind, now that I think about it. But the sentence already left my lips. He doesn’t say anything, but I can feel his heated gaze on me, even when I don’t look up at him, still holding onto his arm when we reach the front of the line. Ordering beers that he pays for, just like we agreed to. I snatch up the two glasses and head to a quieter corner.

König isn't a big talker, although he seems more relaxed now, so it's still mostly me yapping about stuff that comes to my mind while we wait for the concert to start, him asking questions in between, nodding along, listening, and sipping his beer.

"I'm sorry, I feel like I’m talking too much.", I finally interrupt myself, smiling up at him apologetically.

He shakes his head. "No, it's fine, don't worry about it. I like hearing you talk." And his words make me blush and actually shut up for a brief moment where I can just smile into my beer and bask in the compliment.

“I think they’re starting soon, you want to go in?”, he asks me, smiling down at me.

“Yes, we can do that.”, I nod and we make our way into the hall. It’s already packed, but with König it’s easy because the crowd parts, looking up at the tall man when he passes. We find a spot that’s more in the back of the room, so he doesn’t obstruct the view of too many people.

I stand right in front of him, looking up at him, to see him scanning the people around us, observing every little bit that’s going on. His arm wraps around my waist, in theory a small little gesture. But his touch makes me light up, his fingertips softly digging into my hips. His fingers stroking ever so slightly, skimming over the fabric of my skirt, seemingly not even thinking about it. And I take the chance to lean myself against him, feigning the same innocence as he does.

Suddenly, the symphonic part of 'Welcome Back, O’ Sleeping Dreamer' starts playing over the speaker and the concert begins. I smile up at him and jump up and down all excited, pulling at his shirt to get his reaction. He laughs, even though I don’t hear the sound because the whole room erupts in cheers and shouts, only getting louder when the band comes on stage and the drums and guitars set in.

I get the impression that he’s enjoying it as well and the smile on my face gets even wider when he starts headbanging with the crowd. And it makes me happy to see him like that. The music sweeps me up and carries me away and I start to move with the harsh sounds blasting from the speakers.

What I don't know or see is the way he's looking at me when I scream the lyrics from the top of my lungs. How mesmerized he seems when I jump and mosh to the next song, dancing without a care in the world. How my wild and energetic euphoria of being at a concert infects him, even if he's still being a bit self-conscious.

It's been a long time since he actually has been to a concert. And he hasn't been all too sure why he even offered to go with me other than seizing the opportunity to see me again. But right now, standing in the crowd experiencing the thrill of live music once again, he remembers why he enjoyed it so much when he was younger.

to be continued - the concert is not over yet!

part 3 or more stuff in the Masterlist

#metalhead!könig #she likes the dark #könig #könig cod #könig mw2 #konig #konig cod #konig mw2 #könig fanfiction #cod mw2 smut #könig smut #konig smut #cod smut #könig x reader #tw: age gap

[luv-elixir]

❧ Body Electric ☙

Stepfather Leon S. Kennedy x reader

Word count : 7.4K

18+ Content warnings : Stepcest, manipulation, power imbalance, naïve/insecure reader, age gap, corruption, c*m-fetish, slight size kink, slapping, spitting, degradation, stepdad!Leon, stepdaughter!reader, reader has a tiny electra complex. (Slight mentions of reader being verbally abused by mother along with mommy/daddy issues.) Porn with plot.

THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION! I DO NOT CONDONE ANY OF THE ACTIONS WRITTEN BELOW; ALL THAT IS WRITTEN IS PURE FICTION AND FANTASY!

Summertime was always a weird time for you.

When you were a child, your parents would just send you off to a camp to avoid dealing with you for a while, and when you were sent back home, you’d hide in your room while they fought for hours on end.

Even after they got divorced, the arguments seemed to never end. A constant battle over who would have the responsibility of caring for you all summer finally being settled when your grandmother offered to take you in until the season was over.

Now, as a university student, you would be spending your summer at your mother and her new husband, Mr. Kennedy's, home.

Interactions with both your parents had been scarce when you started university. You simply just didn't have the time or energy for them to berate you with your hectic schedule. It was no surprise to hear your mother had been dating; with your father getting married a few years prior and her having a few boyfriends here and there, you couldn’t bring yourself to care about her love life. You did start caring when she told you she was engaged.

It came as a huge shock when you finally met the mystery man.

He was handsome.

Everything about him was striking; he was an Adonis, simply too beautiful to be human. So beautiful that you nearly forgot your mother was right there and that the only reason you met was because he was to marry her.

How could your mother draw a man like him into her iron-clad grip? He was charming, caring, attentive, conscientious, and frankly too good for a woman like her, or anyone for that matter. Leon Scott Kennedy was simply too good to be true.

You truly had no idea how they had gotten into a relationship. Hell, you didn't even know your mother wanted to get married again. It was all a huge question mark for you. The only thing you were sure of was his name, age, and your affinity for him.

The wedding happened exactly three months after you met. You knew it was wrong, but you couldn’t help the sinful thoughts you had as they married. He just looked so handsome in his suit that you couldn’t help but fantasize about his big hands touching you, ignoring the wedding band tying him to your mother.

Laying in bed that night, furiously rubbing your aching clit, you moaned his name and thought of how you wished he was yours instead of your mother's. But more importantly, you tried to pull your head out of the clouds and make yourself remember that it would never happen.

Little did you know that all those countless nights you spent fantasizing about him, he was thinking of you too. It was his fucking honeymoon and he couldn’t stop thinking of you. Jerking himself off, thinking of your alluring face and delicate body. He couldn’t resist using the image of a little beauty like yourself to get him off, even while the beauty’s mother slept right beside him…

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You are so fucking naive and clueless to not realize how obvious you were being with your crush on your stepfather. It was clear as day to any man who had ever been lusted over that you liked Leon more than a stepdaughter should.

Of course Leon knew; he knew from the moment he saw that shyness show up in your beautiful eyes when he first introduced himself that you had a crush, and damn, he is more than happy about it.

Every time his precious stepdaughter and his wife left home he would snoop through his sweet angel's room. It started out small—just quick peeks, leaving everything alone—but overtime it began to escalate.

Leon only does it because he cares; he wants to make sure his precious baby is happy and isn’t getting into any trouble. At least that was his justification. He knew you were quite a covert girl; being raised Catholic and raised by sanctimonious (hypocritical) parents, you were never one to step out of line, fearing the wrath of your parents. Being sent to an all-girls Catholic school, your interactions with boys and men had been few and limited; he was sure the only friends you had who were boys were your family members. You were hardly ever allowed to go out without the supervision of your mother, but it still didn’t hurt to check. After all, you are now one of his responsibilities.

When Leon would go through your drawers to see the clothes you hid from your mother that you bought at cheap second-hand stores, knowing that she would scream and berate you for owning a skirt that goes above the knee, he would imagine how beautiful you must look in them and how happy you must be wearing something you truly liked, even if you could only wear it in the safety of your room; it made his heart flutter.

His favorite thing to do in your room was to read your diaries. He thought it was so adorable how you kept every single one that you’ve ever had. It was a big invasion of privacy, but you didn’t even bother to hide your most recent one, and he just couldn’t resist. Reading them was exhilarating; learning more about you and what goes on in your little head made him feel closer to you. Leon just wants to know so he can protect you better, understand you better, and learn to love you better.

He thought it was adorable how you’d write about almost every interaction he’s ever had with you, like the time he bought you your favorite singer's vinyl records and a Polaroid camera after you asked your mother if you could buy them yourself a few days prior and she refused to let you. You jumped into his arms, hugging him with all your heart and giving him infinite ‘thank you so much, Mr. Kennedy’s." It was the touchiest you’ve ever been with him, and your perfume lingers on the shirt he has tucked away, refusing to wash your scent from it.

One of Leon’s favorite diary entries of yours was the one where you first met. He loved it so much that he snapped a photo of it just so he could read it whenever he wanted.

February 1st

I just got back from dinner with mom and her fiancé, Leon Kennedy <3 I called him Mr. Kennedy all night even though he insisted I call him Leon cause I got so nervous and just couldn’t look him in the eye. He was so freaking handsome, he has the prettiest eyes. I never thought a man could be so handsome. It’s not fair how mom has him, she doesn’t deserve him. Gosh he’s just so handsome, I wanted him to just take me in his arms and kiss me like in the movies !!! I hate that his heart belongs to mom, how come she gets to have a man like Leon instead of some ugly fat bald dude ?? I know it’s so wrong but I can’t help but like him, he was so nice to me tonight my heart is still pounding. He even gave me a nickname ! He said I look like a doll and called me doll face more than my name, gosh my heart is fluttering just thinking about it !!! If anyone finds out I’ll just die, this is so so so wrong but I can’t help it. I know he’s going to be my stepfather but I want him to look at me with his pretty eyes, I want him to hold my hand, I want him to be the one to hold me, I want him to say I love you to me, I want to be the one marrying him instead of my contemptible mother !!! I know it’s perverse and dirty but I wish he wanted me instead of her.

Leon loved it. He loved seeing the vicious, possessive, dirty side of you.

What he loved even more was reading your entries about how much you wanted him to love on you, even if it was rather on the innocent side. Just something about you writing down your fantasies made his cock stir, reading things like-

May 26th

I’ve been with mom and Leon for 2 days, my stuff is all moved into the house and it basically looks the same.

I saw Leon <3 and mom through the kitchen window while I was reading in the backyard kissing and he had his hand on her neck but then she yanked it away and rolled her eyes before leaving. If I were her I’d let him do what he wanted to me. If I knew how to french kiss I’d do it with him all the time, let him wrap his hand around my neck while I sit in his lap and just french kiss for hours. All my friends have done it before but I’ve only gotten the tiniest of pecks. I know it’s sinful to like my stepdad but fantasy never hurt anyone ??

-Leon would teach you how to french kiss and so much more.

Digging through your panty drawer, his eyes widened. Instead of seeing your usual cotton underwear with cute patterns, he instead saw a pair of lace white panties with a pink bow at the bottom of the drawer as an attempt to hide it away. This was clearly meant to be a set of sorts. He felt his heart nearly burst as he sifted through your bras to get to the bottom, only to find the matching white lace bra with a pink bow in the middle.

Why the fuck did you have these?

Was there someone you were going to wear them for?

He needed answers and he needed them now. He hadn’t read your diary yet so he hoped that the answer could be in there. Snatching it from your desk, his eyes frantically scanned through the pages until he found what he was looking for.

June 3rd

Mom let grandmother take me out shopping with her and I had a really good time !! I do miss spending summers there but getting to see Leon makes up for it hehe :) I really do wish mom would let me see grandmother more often though. She took me to the mall and she got me a bikini and a pair of actual proper lingerie !!! I know it might be weird for her to buy me that but she told me every girl needs a proper pair and mom would kill me if I asked her and I just wanted to have something to make me feel pretty even if no one knows I have it. It feels good to be a little more normal, it sucks that all the other girls get to show off their pretty swimsuits and wear pretty lingerie while i look like a chump in my stupid one piece bathing suit and stupid cotton underwear and ugly bras. Mom says it’s gross to have these things even though I saw the receipt from a lingerie store on the table right before her honeymoon, what a hypocrite. I had to sneak it in wearing both the bikini and bra under my normal clothes haha, I’m even wearing my new garments as I’m writing this. I think I’ll even change into my bikini in a little bit just for fun. It was a good day :).

Jesus you are so fucking cute

Relief washed over him instantly, but his heart cracked. You're such a beautiful girl, and you didn’t even know it. He saw the way boys and men would look at you; he even saw the jealousy in your own mother's eyes. How did you not know that you were drop-dead gorgeous? With beauty like yours, you could wear rags and still be the most beautiful thing to walk the earth. You looked exactly like a doll, you didn't need lingerie or bikinis to be pretty.

Leon knew from reading all your journals that the reason you felt this way was because of your upbringing; your parents weren’t exactly ones to instill confidence but preferred to tear you down and keep you in a constant state of vacillation so you’d have to constantly rely on them.

A notification dragged him from his thoughts—a text from your mother saying that you’d both be home in 5 minutes—as he began to clean he kept thinking of how beautiful you looked in your pretty lingerie and how he would be getting to actually see you in it soon.

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This was absolutely perfect.

The moment the words left your mother's mouth, Leon felt the blood rush to his pants. When he glanced at you sitting on the sofa and saw you squish your thighs together, he knew you felt the same heat too.

It was like the stars aligned; your mother would leave for her close friends bachelorette party week abroad in Mexico and leave you and Leon all alone. Fate was truly on both your sides.

Until he heard your mothers voice say-

"You could always spend the week at your father's if you don’t want to stay here with Leon, honey. We can drop you off the night before I leave. Would you rather do that?"

Fuck, maybe you would say you wanted to be with your father.

"No, no, it’s alright. I want to be here with all my stuff and adjust to the new house better; I'm still getting used to it."

Another wave of relief washed over him.

“Okay honey, are you okay with that Leon?”

“Oh, yeah, of course. I’ll be working most of it anyway.”

A lie, he would immediately call the DSO to tell them he’d be taking the entire week off.

Leon glanced at you once again to see you looking at your lap trying to hide the smile forming on your pretty lips.

This week he’s finally going to make you his.

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Your poor heart was about to pound out of your chest. Leon had taken your mother to the airport three and a half hours ago for her flight, and all you could do was pace around Leon’s home. What was taking him so long to come back? Chalking it up to airports being a pain you continued pacing. Knowing you and Leon would be alone for the week made the feeling of anxiety coursing through your veins increase.

You tried your best to look nice, taking the time to make your hair look pretty and putting on more makeup than usual now that your mother couldn’t tell you to wipe it off. Rebelling even more, you put on a cute sundress that would send your parents into cardiac arrest if they were here to see you wearing it.

It really did feel nice to doll yourself up.

Finally, when you finished and looked at the large mirror in the hallway to admire your work, it hit you. You were doing all this for your own mother's husband. You did this to impress your stepfather. What the hell is the matter with you? This is wrong, and dirty, and nasty. Even if he wasn’t tied to your mother why would ever want a puny girl like you?

Damn it, you should’ve just spent the week with your father and stepmother, even if you’d be miserable. You’d probably just be a nuisance to Leon anyway; he’ll probably just spend the week avoiding you. God, why didn’t you just bite the bullet and go to your father's? You should’ve never agreed to stay the week, it was doomed from the start.

Being so drowned in your thoughts you only heard the door being unlocked when it was too late…

CRAP

“Hey doll, I’m back from the airport!”

The door is about 1/4 open.

CRAP CRAP CRAP

What can you do? Running to your room won’t work; the staircase is directly in front of the door. Hiding isn’t worth the risk of getting caught and looking more stupid than you already do. You don’t know the house well enough, so if there is a blind spot where you can sneak off to so you can quickly get changed, you definitely don’t know it.

Too late.

Leon is now standing two and a half feet in front of you.

Nervously smoothing the bottom of your dress, all you could do was look down at his shoes as his eyes practically burned holes into you.

“Wow. You look very nice today.”

You felt your face get hot as embarrassment washed over you. Is he mocking you? His voice didn’t sound mocking but you never know. Even if he is you can’t just stand there like an idiot!!! Say something, anything!!!

“Thanks, Mr. Kennedy.”

You mentally slap yourself.

Was THAT really the best you could do??? At least you didn’t stutter. Raising your head, you finally meet his eyes and see how sincere they are.

“I’ve told you hundreds of times to call me Leon sweetheart.”

He won’t admit it out loud to you yet, but he secretly loves your formality. He gets a little rush every time you call him “Mr. Kennedy” and “sir”. His wife raised such a polite young woman, he can’t wait to see what else he can get you to call him.

“Are you hungry doll? I’ll order or make you whatever you want.” He has his very big hand on your shoulder rubbing soothing circles on your skin and you feel electricity all throughout your body.

“I’m okay right now Mr. Kenn- Leon. But thank you for offering.” He moves his hand to rub your shoulder and you want the moment to linger as long as possible.

“Okay doll, I’m gonna go take a quick shower.” His very big hand leaves all too soon, “After I’m done I’ll meet you in the game room so we can do something fun tonight, you okay spending some time with me sweetheart?”

You felt a jolt of excitement at his offer, “Okay, I’ll be waiting there for you!”

With one last smile to one another you both head your separate ways.

You felt so happy that Leon wanted to spend his time with you instead of just going out or staying in his room to avoid you, you knew it was wrong to want his attention but you just couldn’t help it. He was the one who offered, and you were raised to always be polite and accept invitations, your parents only had themselves to blame. Why should you care about her feelings when she’s never cared about yours? After all it was your mother’s choice to leave her husband all alone so she could have her fun, so why shouldn’t you indulge yourself and have your own fun too?

During your epiphany, Leon was in the shower stroking his cock, thinking of you standing there in your pretty little dress, looking more vulnerable than a deer in headlights. It took everything in him not to push you to the floor and stuff your tiny pussy full of his big cock. He wondered if you had your regular Sanrio cotton panties or your lingerie on underneath?

He imagined your little whines and whimpers, saying how he’s too big and won’t fit so he only fucks you with half his length until he can stretch you out more, how sexy you would look riding him. Thinking of how you’d shyly guide his hand to wrap around your neck as he fucks you into oblivion.

Did you even know the effect you had on him? he thought of you every second of the day. he saw your angelic face everytime he closed his eyes, had constant dreams of you. He thought of how much happier he’d be if you had been his bride instead of your mother. Hell you’d probably faint from embarrassment if you knew even a sliver of his fantasies about you.

Wrapping a towel around his waist Leon couldn’t help but smirk as he thinks of all the things he would be doing to his precious stepdaughter tonight.

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Sitting cross-legged on the floor, trying to shuffle a deck of cards, the TV played an Impractical Jokers re-run softly in the background as Leon finally came downstairs.

Swallowing the lump in your throat, secretly admire how good he looked. He wore gray sweatpants and a long-sleeve shirt that clung to him deliciously tight, showing off his muscles beautifully. Having felt self-conscious in your dress and the sun having set, you changed into your sleep shirt and shorts while Leon was gone, and he loved it. Your thin pajamas hugged your figure so well that he had to look away before his cock hardened.

Now all he had to do was execute his plan. First he’d put in a scary movie (a classic way to get a girl to cling onto her beau), gain your trust, and finally he’d fuck the shit out of you.

“Hey doll, thanks for holding up,” Reaching over to turn off the lamp, he cheekily smiles at you “What do you say we watch a movie? I know a good scary one I think you’d like.”

Nervousness crept into you as you toyed with your shorts, “Oh I’ve never really seen a horror movie before, my parents have never let me… but I want to watch it though!”

‘A night of firsts’ Leon thought. “I’ll put it on, it’s an older movie but it’s a classic. Why don’t you come up here and sit next to me sweetheart?” He patted the spot next to him on the sofa, “Don’t want you to be all by yourself down there.”

Shyly, you got up, Leon gently grabbed your hand and sat you next to him. You hadn’t been this close to him since he bought you those gifts a couple weeks ago; you nearly forgot how he was even more handsome up close and personal. Picking at your fingernails, you waited anxiously as the movie began. Putting his arm around your shoulder, he somehow made you get even closer to him, his cologne and shampoo invading your senses. Rubbing his hand up and down your arm, he could feel the goosebumps forming on your soft skin.

25 minutes had passed, and you had practically molded yourself into his side. The movie was scary, of course, but you couldn’t blame snuggling into Leon on just being scared. You knew exactly what you were doing, and as long as Leon was okay with it, you’d keep doing it. This was your only opportunity to get a taste of what it was like to be with him, and goddamn, you were going to take it.

When a jump scare happened you let out a small scream and hid your face in his neck, clinging to him tightly. The cogs turned in Leon’s brain; everything was going according to plan.

Sliding his arm down to your waist he held your head with his other hand, “You scared baby?”

Your heart beat faster at the pet name, “A little bit…”

“You shouldn’t be sweetheart,” He caresses your face. “I’m right here to protect you.”

His breath was fanning your face; you were so close to him that you could see every beautiful, unique detail that marked his skin.

The lump suddenly comes back to your throat.

“You’re so angelic,” he tugs you even closer than you were before, “look just like a doll.”

Blush spreads across your face, kissing the palm of Leon’s big hand you sheepishly put one hand on his chest and the other on one of his big arms, tracing gentle circles with your small fingers. “Do you really mean that Leon?”

“Course I mean it baby,” placing you on his lap, he made sure to position you so you’d feel his hard cock under your cunt, “most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen.”

A tiny smirk appeared on your lips, “More beautiful than my mother?”

His cock was pulsing hearing that come from your pouty lips.

“Especially more beautiful than her,” you began pressing tiny kisses to his jaw, “can see the envy in her eyes every time she looks at you.”

And with that he dove in and kissed you. It felt electrifying as he slipped his tongue into your hot mouth, pressing it as deep as he can go. You whined when he pulled away, quickly giving him a small peck.

"Fuck, doll face" he sighs, scattering gentle pecks on your neck, “You like how I kiss you, hm?" his big hands wander down to your ass, giving it a firm squeeze and making you moan.

"A-ah, Leon," you whimper, his hands not leaving your ass. Leon just smirks and pulls your body closer to him. He leans down to kiss your lips once more, but it was rougher. He wraps his arm around your body, tugging you firmer, while his other hand cups your cheek. Leon’s in control of the kiss, you just try your best to keep up with him. You whined once again when he pulled away, a string of saliva connecting you both together.

“You finally got a real kiss, and now you can’t get enough, can you, dirty girl?” He wiped the spit from your lips with his finger, placing it in his mouth to taste both your mixtures. Your cheeks were flushed red from how turned on you are for him.

“Let’s continue this in the bedroom nasty girl,” picking you up bridal style he carried you up the stairs,“gonna need more room to do what I want to you.”

Making a beeline for your bedroom, upon entry giving you a chaste kiss before guiding you to stand between his legs.

“Be a good girl and take my cock out.”

You just nodded your head, obeying him immediately. You'd done some research, so you weren't as naïve as you had been before, and you were hoping he'd give you the chance to show him what you learned. Leon began removing his shirt as you began to scoot down, by the look of an evident bulge, you could tell his cock was gonna be big. Leon watches you with hazy eyes, petting your hair softly.

You felt your heart rate go faster from the thought of seeing his cock right in front of your face. Quickly tugging his sweatpants and boxers down his hard cock slaps against his stomach and bobs forward, the thick tip smearing your cheek with his precum.

Leon reaches for your face to wipe it off but you grab his wrist and lower it. Your mouth is watering. He’s so thick and long, how was he supposed to fit in your mouth let alone your pussy?

With no plan at all, you leaned forward and enveloped the head of his cock between your pretty lips. He hissed at the sudden contact, your tongue tasting his precum beading at the tip. It was a little salty, but hearing Leon’s deep groan of pleasure, you’d learn to love the taste.

You released his length for a moment with a pop and spat on him, watching your saliva trickle down his heavy cock. Taking your small hand you pumped it up and down, spreading your spit all around his fat cock.

“Holy shit! Where the hell did you learn to do that, doll?”

You blushed, letting out a small giggle, and licked his tip, “Watched a porno, wanted to learn how before I did it to you.”

Opening your mouth to slip his cock back in before he could respond, you tried to take as much of him as you could. He moaned, eyes fluttering closed as you eagerly began to suck his cock. His grip in your hair tightened and the tinge of pain had you gushing into your panties. You whimpered around him, clenching your thighs together to help ease the pressure between your legs.

He let you suck on him, lathering his member in your spit until you reached the point where you couldn't handle anymore of his cock in your mouth.

"C'mon angel, try to take more of daddy in that slutty throat," He growled, you choked but did your best to relax your throat to allow him to fuck your mouth. Your panties were soaked and sticking to you, having your handsome stepfather use your throat as he pleased was a turn on.

"Look at that. Bad little girl aren't you? You're my bad, naughty girl." Leon mocks, watching tears drip down your cheeks.

You sucked him off like your life depended on it, slurping and moaning around his big cock. Using your hand on what your mouth couldn’t reach to try and make him cum.

"Fuck my love, you're doing so damn good. Sucking your Daddy's cock so good." he moans, hand still gripping your hair, encouraging you to take him deeper once again. The gagging sent shivers down his spine.

Saliva continuously dripped down your chin, "So messy for your daddy, my baby" he suddenly pulled out, leaving you a panting mess before him.

Lifting you in his arms he tenderly kissed your forehead, "Did such a good job sucking me off angel, always knew you were secretly a whore. Love how sloppy you are, can’t wait to teach you how to deep-throat me."

Your body shivers from how deep and alluring his voice sounded, “Anything for you.” you practically moan, quickly you pressed a kiss to Leon’s nose and tried to wriggle out of his arms.

Confused Leon gently put you down, sat back on your bed, and waited to see what you were going to do. “Keep pumping your cock!” You quickly went over to your dresser and grabbed the Polaroid camera he got you. He almost had a heart attack hearing what came out of your mouth.

“I want you to cum on my face and take a photo of it. Is that okay with you?”

Leon practically snatched the camera from you, “Shit doll, didn’t know you were this nasty. Hurry up and suck me off so I can fuck you after this.” he quickly pushed you to your knees.

He shoved your head on his cock, becoming impatient. He just wanted to feel your tight mouth on him again. His free hand tangled in your hair once more as he started to push himself further in your mouth. Your eyes instantly teary as he reached your gag-reflex, making your throat burn. Looking down at your pretty face made his self-control snap and he lifted his hips up, forcing his whole cock down your throat. Two more thrusts and he pulled out, his hot cum spurting all over your face.

Snapping two photos on the camera he placed the three items on the floor and lifted you up on the bed, "Open that pretty mouth again for me, my love." You instantly do what he tells you, allowing him to spit in your mouth and without being told to, you swallow happily.

Gathering his cum on your fingers you happily lick them clean, “I’ll be right back, I’m just gonna go wash my face real quick!” and Leon waits patiently, stewing in anticipation.

Re-entering your room Leon saw that you ditched your pajamas and now only wore the lingerie he found in your room just days ago.

You truly are the most beautiful girl he’s ever seen.

"C’mere baby girl, come here." Leon coos and pulls your body close to him. You straddle his lap, feeling his cock beneath your folds. He wraps his strong arms around you, his face inches from yours. He clutches your throat with one hand, squeezing it.

He presses a sloppy kiss to your swollen lips, "Ready for me to finally fuck you, my baby?”

You nod your head the best you can. "Please, want it so bad daddy"

"You think you can take my cock?"

You hate how flustered he can make you. You only nod and lean in for another kiss, letting Leon take control of it once again.

“I can take it. Promise I can.”

“Okay doll,” he nips at your jaw, “just gotta prep you first.”

Prep?

Every coherent thought leaves your mind as you watch him unclip your bra, exposing you to him. Before you can cover yourself, Leon snatches your wrist with his hand and shoots you a warning look before kissing and sucking at your sensitive breasts. Holding onto him as he laid you on your back, you waited to see his next move.

His hand cups your panty-clad cunt and you jolt, panicking at the sensation your legs closed on instinct, Leon growled, "Open your fucking legs or I’ll leave right now..."

You whimpered, startled by Leon’s tone as he pushed them back open. Leon smiled, pecking your lips quickly, "Be a good girl, doll..."

Feeling you up, he stroked your clothed pussy with his fingers softly. Your little hand reached for his free one, putting his pointer and middle finger to your lips you began to suck on them. He pressed his fingers harder on your cunt, specifically on your cute little clit making you moan around his digits.

"You feel good, angel?" Leon asked softly as you nodded, feeling relaxed you kept your legs open no longer needing Leon to help keep them spread. But Leon was going too slow and you were starting to get frustrated.

"M-more..." You quietly begged him, making him chuckle darkly. Leon could see your hips thrusting up harder into his hand, wanting more friction as you became more desperate.

"Such a cute doll, aren't you?" Dazed, eyes barely open, mouth slightly gaped, a little drool from when you sucked his fingers in the corners of your sweet mouth. ‘She looks so fuckable.’

He was tempted to just shove his fat cock inside your tight virgin cunt and make you take it, no matter how much it hurt, and he would have if it was anyone else. But you aren’t just anyone; you're his stepdaughter, his precious baby who deserves to have her pussy fingered and eaten out, so he pushes the thought out of his mind.

Leon just wants to fuck you stupid, "Let's get these off you..." Taking a look at your cunt, he noticed your panties had a wet spot on them that seemed to be getting bigger.

"Look at that, baby... So wet..." His fingers touched the wet patch, feeling the stickiness on his fingertips, he bent down, "Fuck, you smell so good my love..."

Leon took off your ruined panties and he could feel the hunger devour him right then and there. Saliva gathered in his mouth, a voice in his head telling him to just dive in and eat your little cunt like it was the last thing he'll ever have.

So he listened.

Leon dove in without a warning, his tongue collecting the juices that seep out of your cunt as you screamed, "L-Leon!!!"

"So sweet. Taste so fucking sweet..." He growled as he sucked the puffy little nub in between his lips, softly biting it and making you thrash underneath him, arching your back as you called out his name, "You're just a little skank, aren't you?"

"N-not a skank, Leon! Feels... Feels w-weird..." you whimper and grab onto his hair, Leon didn't stop sucking, licking, he gave his all as you felt tears starting to form in the corner of your eyes.

"Just a dumb fucking bitch. Nasty little slut that loves how her stepfather plays with her pussy." He collected his saliva inside his mouth and spits on your cunt, making you more of a mess as his fingers roam your entrance.

Without a warning his fingers start ramming inside you—moving them rapidly up and down, hitting the spots you didn't even know existed. You couldn’t think straight, not when he spat on your cunt and made you know how good it felt to have your pussy doted on. You were crying, wanting him to slow down but despite it hurting, you still wanted more.

He moved his tongue and fingers in sync, rubbing your swollen clit at a fast pace trying to get his good girl to cum as fast as he can and repeat the process over and over again. Leon wanted to make the bed drenched with your cum.

Leon could feel your walls clenching on his fingers, restraining his movements he knew you were close. Then he went harder and harder, pressing down on the puffy nub as you screamed, the tears on your face evident.

"You gonna cum, aren't you, babydoll? Are you gonna be a good girl for me? You deserve this so much, baby. Watched you for so long, been dreaming of this day since I met you" He slaps you across your face, savoring the moment, "That's right, doll... Let the whole neighborhood know how good I'm making you feel. Show daddy know how much of a whore you are."

Leon’s right, you really are a slut.

Stars clouded your vision. The knot in your stomach made you feel like you were going to pee, feeling it coiling in your belly, it grows bigger and bigger.

Suddenly something so unexpected happens that shocked you both. Leon can feel the gush of stream hitting him as you twitch in his grasp, moaning so loud he knows the neighbors will hear it. The clear stream of liquid told its tale and Leon knows exactly what it is.

"L-Leon!" your thighs shook frantically as you cried, he could only smirk seeing you squirt all over his hands and mouth.

"Good fucking girl," he gives a few gentle slaps to your aching pussy "Gonna make you my own personal porn star, doll face. Bet you’d fuckin’ love that."

You just stare at him with heart eyes. Grabbing the back of his head to make him lean down, you licked from his chin back up to his lips so you could taste yourself.

Leaning back he kisses your forehead, “It’s going to hurt a little more cause you have such a tight cunt, but I’ll go slow. I promise,” he says with furrowed brows.

You loop your arms around his neck, and nod, hoping that the he can see the adoration you feel for him in your eyes. Leon nods back stiffly as his eyes flit to your lips before kissing you hard, once again. Though this time, while his lips are on yours, one of his hands reaches between you both, gripping the base of his cock. He rubs it between your folds, the tip brushing against your clit making you moan, high pitched and sweet into his mouth. 

You brace yourself for the stretch of his big cock. When he finally bottoms out, you gasp, your nails digging into his shoulders where your hands were rested. He hisses, and your brows furrow with worry when you feel the tiny pricks of blood oozing out.

“I’m sorry,” you panic, tears prickling your eyes from both the pain of your hymen breaking and the fear of hurting him. “Are you mad? Are you okay? I didn’t mean to hurt you, I’m so sorry,” you softly cry.

Here Leon is, balls deep in the wettest, tightest pussy he’s ever had, and you’re asking him if he’s mad at you. As if a few little fingernail scratches could actually hurt him. He laughs a little, trying not to move before you’ve adjusted to him being inside of you. “You could punch me in the face and I’d still adore you. I’m fine,” he says as he pecks your nose.

To make you forget about it he leans forward and groans, wrapping a hand around your throat as he starts slowly fucking you. "That’s my good girl," he chuckles, hearing his balls slap against you, "taking this huge dick like a whore."

"Yes, yes, r-right there daddy! Hurts so good!" his words were made you blush red, turned on from the way he was spoke to you. You love it — you love surrendering yourself to him, letting him do whatever he wants with your body, loved to let him use you like a sex toy.

"Yeah? My little bitch loves how I fuck her hard with my cock?" You don't even need to answer because he can feel it. He sees his cock protruding against your stomach, your pussy too little to accommodate his big dick.

The hand that was once wrapped around your neck moves up to your face as he forces two fingers inside your wet mouth.

Your eyes roll back, choking as he went past your gag reflex.

"It’s s-so big," you mumble around his digits, your saliva coating his fingers as you swirled your tongue around them. “Love it so much,”

"Dick too big to fit inside this little cunt. such a little baby I’ve got here." He gives a light slap to your puffy clit, “Can see it moving in your stomach, babydoll. My cock is the only one you need. Know it hurts but you’re gonna take it like a big girl, yeah?”

You quickly reply, pussy clenching, "Yes, just p-please don’t stop," you say through his fingers, batting your eyelashes.

His lips curve up in a smile, loving how cute you said that, "Mhm, 'course you love it. My little cum-slut can't get enough of her stepdads big cock."

You two were a hot, moaning messes. Looking up at him pathetically Leon’s cock throbs at the sight of you all used, your face flushed. "Want to cum, sweet girl?"

Wanton moans filled the room as you nodded your head.

“Only way I’ll let you is if you tell me what I want to hear," he squishes your cheeks together, “Wanna hear you say that this is your daddy’s pussy and that you belong to him and him only. Say it and I’ll make you cum, babydoll.”

Your cunt squeezes him tightly, you love how he only wants you for himself.

“M-my pussy is daddy’s, and I o-only belong to him!”

He slaps your cheek harder than he did before and soothes you with a sloppy kiss.

His thrusts gets rougher, pounding right into your sweet spot before he sends you to a hard, body-shaking climax. Your vision blurs, seeing stars as your pussy squirts your cum onto his dick. "There we go, baby. Cum on daddy’s cock – fucking little minx!."

You only have the energy to moan, brain dead at the staggering orgasm.

He comes undone right after, hot strings of cum coating your tight walls. Pulling out, he groans when he sees both of your mixed cum oozing out of your cunt and onto your comforter.

Leaning down he places his long fingers in your messy pussy, shoving his cum back inside.

"C’mere, my love," he plants his hands on your stomach and lays you on his chest, kissing your hairline.

You both lay still for a couple minutes, catching your breath. You listen to his heartbeat come back to a steady pace as he rubs your back and shoulders up and down, kissing your head every once in a while.

“Did I hurt you, sweetheart?” Leon says breaking the comfortable silence.

Nuzzling further in his chest you hold him tighter, “M’fine Leon, just sore.”

You hear his heartbeat quicken again.

“Did such a good job baby, thank you for letting me do this to you.” He tugs your head back, pressing a long kiss to your swollen lips.

You feel your heart stop as he moves you and gets up from your bed. You grab his hand and he lets out a small laugh, giving it a kiss, “M’not going anywhere doll, just gonna put my pants back on and get you some clean panties.”

A small smile spreads across your face, relieved he wasn’t leaving you all alone. When he comes back he holds you as tight as he can without suffocating you.

Holding his jaw, he can barely hear you whisper a scared “Thought you were gonna abandon me.”

You’d never have to worry about him leaving you.

“Wouldn’t dream of it doll face” he squeezes your throat, “I’m never letting you go, whether you like it or not...”

#leon kennedy x reader #leon scott kennedy x reader #leon s kennedy x reader #resident evil x reader #leon kennedy #leon scott kennedy

[momochiikawa]

soft genshin x gn reader headcanons.

characters: Kaveh, Alhaitham, Lumine, Aether, Eula, Ei, Diluc, Cyno

cw: like one swear in lumine's headcanons.

Kaveh

HE. LOVES. YOU. SO. FUCKING. MUCH

he giggles and kicks his feet whenever he thinks about you.

when you kiss him, kaveh literally melts. buys you matching stuff <3. if you want to cuddle with him, he'll drop everything he's doing just to spend time with you. lets you brush his hair!!! thinks about you literally 24/7.rants to you, about how awful alhaithams taste in furniture is, and how cruel he is to take his keys on "accident." if you buy him anything, he'll treasure it, and NEVER lets it get dirty.

Alhaitham

shows his love towards you by helping you with your work or giving you solutions for your problems.kiss him on the neck and he will get SOO flustered by it <3333. when you two sleep together he'll hold you so close you can feel his hot breath on your neck <3 (goodluck trying to get out.) you're the only one who's allowed to interrupt his rest time. he may not be the best at comforting you, but will hold you whenever you want him to.

Lumine

WILL PROTECT YOU WITH HER LIFE!!!! as a reward for defeating an enemy she wants a kiss <3. will tell you stories about different worlds, late into the night. paimon tells her to shut the fuck up. will get you anything, she would trade paimon for it. loves your smile the most and will do everything it takes to make it last forever.

Aether

so cute!!

gives you kisses you on the forehead. cooks for you!! and paimon. he'll introduce you to ALL of his friends (goodluck with traveling thru every nation.) he gets super shy if you hold him by the waist (please do) <33 .shoos paimon away when you two want alone time. compasate it by buying her food. he has chubby cheeks and they're sooooo squishy!!!!

he's just a cutie patootie

Eula

congrats! you just gained yourself a bodyguard! will call you babygirl/boy/person(?). very impressed if you manage to raise her claymore. teaches you how to make a moonpie <3 (very patient.) sometimes she puts her cold hands on your bare shoulders to startle you. isn't really cuddly but she enjoys being the little spoon sometimes <3

Ei

oh lord. very veryyy overprotective. won't let you go anywhere alone. (she's scared you'll leave like her friends and sister :[ ). make sure to bring some sweets for her!! she'll reward you with lots of kisses <3. if anyone ever dares to disrespect you, the shogun will deal with them. thinks it's cute when you lay down on her thighs.

Diluc

:hearteyes:

huge simp for you. doesn't give a fuck about anyone else. thinks about you 24/7. very very bad at flirting(you have to initiate everything.) likes when you hold his arm. the best heat pack ever, you won't even need a blanket when cuddling with him

Cyno

your TCG sessions take like 7 hours.can go from serious to silly very quickly. bed talk takes 2 hours. PLEASE laugh at his jokes, he's trying. loves tickling your tummy (poke his ribs in return.) sometimes he thumps his headwear against your forehead while you two kiss

just a silly little guy

#genshin cyno #cyno headcanons #cyno x gender neutral reader #gender neutral s/o #gender neutral language #diluc x reader #diluc ragnvindr #diluc headcanons #lumine #lumine headcanons #lumine x y/n #aether #aether x reader #aether x y/n #alhaitham #alhaitham x y/n #kaveh #kaveh x reader #genshin impact #genshin headcanons #eula x you #eula x y/n #raiden shogun #raiden ei #ei x y/n #cyno x you #cyno x reader #cyno #genshin x reader #genshin x you

[kairi101]

The Father and Father Figures (Pt. 1)

pairings: rafe cameron x mom!reader, (platonic!topper x reader and platonic!kelce x reader in the next parts)

warnings: mentions of abuse, angst, fluff, swearing, semi short, not proofread or edited at all

Summary: after your abusive babydaddy kicked you out, you had no choice but to return to your old friends. But later the past comes back to haunt you.

A/n: This is my first fic im posting on here, so feedback/requests are greatly appreciated. Pt 2 in a few days <3

part 2

After your soon to be babydaddy found out you were pregnant, he took everything from you. Every expensive item he's ever bought you now belonged to him. You reached out to your parents for help, but they were more concerned over the fact you got pregnant out of wedlock. They claimed "You are an embarrassment to the y/l/n legacy." That brings you here, a month later, on the balcony of Tanny Hill with all of your belongings in a single backpack. Not suprisingly, Rafe Cameron was completely passed out on the couch with the remnants of a party.

You begin picking up cups full of who knows what, trying to let Rafe sleep by not making much noise. but your attempt to let him sleep quickly failed as your clumsy self tripped over air and landed right on top of the Cameron boy.

"what the hell" he mumbles sleepily as he rubs his eyes with his left arm. he looks down to the added weight on top of him "y/n?"

"Hi" you try to pull off your tumble by tightly embracing him.

"Bear, what are you doing here?" he smiles and you do as well but at the childhood nickname. His big arms wrap around you gently. You look up and he sees your tear stained face, his smile going away quicker than it came. "oh please don't cry, if it's your dick head of a boyfriend again I'll kill that guy, i swear."

"no, we broke up like a month ago" you sigh.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" He asks, slightly upset over the fact you never mentioned it to him despite communicating the past few weeks.

"rafe im pregnant" you practically whisper. Rafe stares at you for a moment, eyes wide in shock as tears flow down your face despite his plea not to. "I don't know what to do, he kicked me out and my parents pretty much disinherited me and i-"

"Y/n" he says as he sits up, making you sit up as well "We'll figure this out together, okay? I won't let you go at this alone" His words only made you sob even harder but only because, well, rafe is notorious for being the biggest asshole on the island. But he never was to you. he always was there for you, despite all the shit he goes through himself.

You back away from his embrace and had to come clean with him "Rafe, I appreciate your offer, but I really don't think having you around a baby is the best idea" you question. "You're still on drugs and drinking and i really don't think you'd be the best influence on a child or me."

He takes a deep breath to keep his temper under control "Fuck, y/n I just want to help. I'll change for you. I'd do fucking anything for you."

"that is so toxic listen to yourself." you chuckle "You don't need to change who you are because of me."

"I know i don't need to but i just really want to, please give me a chance"

"Rafe-"

"y/n" he begs with those striking blue eyes that you just cant bring yourself to say no to

"fine you have 7 months" you caved.

He smiles as he tells you "I'll make it the best seven months of your life" He ruffles your hair and you scrunch your nose. Rafe leans back to look at you, making sure you're okay, your tears still falling but a smile plastered on your face. "you're too adorable to ever have to go through all that shit he put you through"

"I still have no place to stay" you mumble almost to yourself.

"Stay with me. I'm sure Ward wouldn't mind having you back here; he still talks about you." That didn't surprise you either because Ward trusted you with Rafe, which is a pretty huge deal.

"Oh yeah? what does he say about me?" Rafe's face turns slightly pink as he diverts eye contact with you. oh my god is he blushing?

"Nothing he just says you're a good influence on me, shit like that." You knew he was lying but you decided to not say anything, so you just nodded. He stands up and reaches his hand out to help you up.

"I'm still fully capable of helping myself up, but thanks" you grin as you take his hand.

"Anything for you, bear" He smiles and leads you up the stairs to his room. "You can stay in my room, the beds all yours I'll either sleep on the couch or on the floor"

"You don't have to do that, Rafe" You say in an attempt to be humble, but you knew Rafe wasn't giving you a choice.

"I know i don't y/n, I just really really want to help out, okay?" you hesitantly nod "In fact, we're going shopping tomorrow" he says picking you up and gently throwing you on the bed.

"Rafe" you giggle staring into his eyes. You just stare at each other for what felt like eternity, but rafe eventually ruins the moment and heads towards the door.

"I'm going downstairs to clean up. you should probably sleep y/n, no offense you look exhausted."

"No, Rafe, stay" you scooch over making a space for him. He doesn't hesitate and slides next to you so you're facing each other. You come closer towards him to bury your head in his chest, and doze off. And as soon as you're asleep, Rafe kisses the top of your head and one of his large hands finds your back, pulling you impossibly closer.

a/n: the ending kinda sucks but oh well. lmk if u wanna be tagged in pt 2

#rafe x reader #outerbanks rafe #rafe fanfiction #rafe cameron #rafe cameron x reader #rafe outer banks #rafe x y/n #rafe imagine #rafe cameron imagine

[enid-rhees]

Platonic Carl x best friend reader who's super insecure about her body/weight. One day Carl finds out and comforts her about it. Reader also has feelings for Enid, but Enid doesn't pay much attention to reader (Enid secretly has a huge crush on reader, and avoids her because of that). Reader thinks it's because she's not pretty enough for Enid. But one day gains the confidence to ask Enid out (thanks to Carl's help).

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wing-man || platonic!carl grimes x fem!reader / enid rhee x fem!reader

warnings: a bit of angst, reader dealing with body insecurities

a/n: aaa another Carl req :D !! i absolutely adore him sm, so i loved writing this sm :] i hope you enjoy anon, tysm for requesting!

you knew you shouldn’t, but you can’t help it.

every time you walk past the mirror in your room, you can’t help but stop in front of it, and just stare in sorrow. you hated the way you looked. you didn’t know why you constantly brought yourself down by doing this. you just couldn’t help it.

you couldn’t help but stare at every insecurity you spotted on yourself, the thoughts in your head only making it worse. tears pricked at your eyes and you quickly wiped them away, but they kept spilling from your eyes and trailing down your cheeks. you wrapped your arms around yourself to hide your figure and looked back at the mirror.

the clothes you wore — you hated the way they looked on you. so you walked over to your closet and started to dig through the limited clothes you had. they were all over your floor within minutes, and you were crying all over again in the last outfit you put on.

why didn’t you look pretty? why couldn’t you look pretty like- like Enid?

Enid. she was the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen. she had the most mesmerizing smile, eyes, everything. and yes, you would admit it right now, you liked her, a lot.

but, you would never have her. Enid barely paid attention to you in the first place. you’ve had very few, small conversations with her, but they were nothing more than that. she would never like someone like you, you weren’t half as pretty as she was, you knew it.

there were even times Enid actively avoided you, so you were pretty sure that proved all of your points.

you sat on the floor in front of your mirror and cried into your hands. you didn’t realize that your cries were loud, because you jumped when a pair of hands grabbed yours. Carl sat in front of you, his eyes wide and frantic. “Y/N? what’s wrong?” you shook your head and tried to wipe your eyes but Carl still held onto you. “don’t do that, what’s wrong? please, tell me.” he pleaded.

“i hate the way i look!” you snapped, and Carl softly let go of your hands. “i hate everything about myself. none of my clothes look good, this mirror is a fucking nightmare. i just want to be pretty.” you cried out, not even realizing half of the words that spilled out of your mouth just then. “no one wants someone like me.” you added, voice going raspy.

“none of that is true.” Carl spoke firmly. you looked up at him and wiped away the rest of your tears. “you’re just saying that, Carl.” you spoke in a whisper.

“i’m not. you are the perfect the way you are, Y/N. there’s not a single flaw on you. i really think that you are absolutely perfect, in every way. in and out.” a small smile made its way to your lips and you reached your hands out to pull him in a hug.

Carl held you so tightly, rubbing his hands up and down your back. you held him even tighter, his hugs had always calmed you down, ever since you two were young. you met him at the Quarry, all those years ago, and instantly became best friends.

whenever you got scared after a hoard of walkers, or after a fight and you had trouble calming down from it, Carl was always there to take you in his arms and hold you until you felt safe. you couldn’t have asked to find anyone better than him in the middle of this shitty, new world.

“i’m still never going to find someone looking like this,” you spoke, your words muffled by his flannel. “you’re wrong again.” he said.

“i’m not.” you said back. you then removed yourself from his arms and leaned again the wall behind you. “the only person i want doesn’t even pay attention to me.”

“who?” Carl asked. he moved forward, getting closer to you as if you were about to tell him the biggest secret you knew in the school bathroom. you shifted in your place, “Enid.” you whispered.

“Enid?” he repeated back in a whisper. you nodded. you’ve never really told Carl you liked girls, it never came up in conversation and you had no reason to bring it up. but now you did, and you trusted him with that knowledge.

“we’ve only talked a few times.” you told him, “but besides that she… ignores me. and it’s not like she’s trying to hide it, she walks away when i show up. she doesn’t like me. Enid would never want to be with someone like me.” tears started to pool around your eyes again, but you quickly wiped them away before they could fall.

“i don’t think she hates you,” Carl said softly. “let me help you.” you furrowed your eyebrows and let out a small laugh. “with what, exactly?”

Carl shrugged, “asking her out.” your eyes widened as you stared at him like he was insane, “are you insane?!”

“no! you should go for it! you never know what the outcome could be. come on, i’ll be your wing-man!” you couldn’t help but laugh at Carl’s preposterous offer. “yeah, you’re insane. never in a million fucking years, Grimes. because if she rejects me then i will literally never show my face here again.” you said with not even an ounce of humor in your words.

Carl rolled his eyes, “okay, now you’re being dramatic. relax for a moment and think about it. i know that there’s a huge risk to this, but with the world we’re in now… don’t you want to take the chance you have? i mean… you never know what can even happen tomorrow.”

you knew what he was implying, and the slightest thought about it made your chest tighten. “okay.” you ended up saying. “fine, but you better be a goddamn good wing-man or i’m finding a new best friend.”

Carl snorted, “right, we both know that’s not true you asshole.” he said, lightly hitting your shoulder. you took hold of his hat and moved it down to cover his face while pushing him away, laughing just as much as him.

“from the few times you spoke to Enid, what was it about?” Carl asked you. you thought for a moment, staring at the wall in front of you.

“comics.” you stated first, “she likes comics. there was a day i was sitting by the end of the fence, reading one of yours, and she came up to me first. and then there was a few other times. but that was it.”

Carl nodded and paced the floor of his bedroom. it was almost comical, how into this Carl really was. you wanted to laugh, but he would just give you another lecture on why this was important.

“what else?” he asked. this time, you really had to think. there wasn’t much else you and Enid talked about. but… there was one thing. but you remembered Enid telling you that no one knows, so you weren’t sure if you could tell Carl.

“…can you promise not to tell anyone else? Enid told me no one knows… so.” Carl nodded, “of course, yeah.”

“she goes into the woods a lot. she invited me to go with her at one point… but i wasn’t sure how i felt going out there. but she does it nearly everyday for hours.”

Carl then stopped in his tracks and you watched as he began to think hard. “that’s it.” he said. you raised your eyebrows, “what’s it?” he walked over to his drawer and pulled out a bent comic and handed it to you.

“i don’t need that one anymore. here’s the plan, okay? i’ll help you find a new outfit, and by the way, you look great in everything you own. we’ll find a new outfit, you go outside with this comic and find Enid. you ask if she would like to go out into the woods, or wherever she goes, and you’ll give her the comic then. she questions you, and then you confess.”

you stared at him with shock. “wow, okay.” you responded, nodding slightly. “does that sound good? too much? not enough?” Carl questioned, and you put your hand up to stop his rambling.

“no, it’s perfect, Carl.” you told him. you stood up from his bed and took the comic from his hand. you turned it over and read the front. “oh- Carl, she loves this comic. she has a whole collection of them. this is perfect.”

“that makes this even better then. come on, let’s find an outfit.” Carl took you back to your own room and started to dig through your clothes. he picked up one shirt and a pair of jeans, and then slipped off his own flannel. “i know you like this one. you can wear it today. but try this on.” Carl left your room after that, giving you no choice but to try on the clothes.

you slipped the shirt and jeans on and pulled Carl’s flannel over the shirt. you looked in the mirror and sighed, you still didn’t think you looked good. it just felt… wrong.

Carl knocked on your door, and you jumped out of your thoughts. “come in.” you called out. Carl smiled when he walked in, “you look great!” you pouted and looked back at the mirror, “i don’t. i just… i really don’t think I’m generally attractive, Carl. i don’t know if i can do this.”

“stop.” he said immediately, “you may not see it, but you really, genuinely look perfect. but everyone else sees it, i promise you. you can do this, okay? don’t back down, i promise it’s going to be okay.” he held onto your shoulders and his voice soothed you, slowing down your racing heart.

you nodded and took a deep breath, “okay… okay.” you whispered to yourself. Carl still held onto your shoulders as he pushed you out of your bedroom and down by the front door. he handed you the comic again and you folded it to place in your back pocket.

“you got this, okay?” he whispered. you nodded again. Carl pulled you into another hug and the two of you stayed like that for a few moments. “thank you, Carl.” you told him.

“thank me when you come back with a girlfriend, yeah?” you smiled and hit his shoulder. “okay, go.” Carl said, opening the front door and pushing you out of it, closing it before you can turn around.

you sighed. you were really about to do this. this was really happening. okay… okay. you closed your eyes and sucked in a deep breath, exhaling heavily. you began to walk down the sidewalk, turning your head in every direction in hopes to see Enid somewhere.

you then looked over at the gate, and spotted her getting ready to climb over it. “okay.” you whispered to yourself, and began walking over to it. as you got closer, you jogged over to her before she started to climb. “hey… Enid.” you spoke, a little out of breath. she held onto the bars of the gate and looked over at you, “Y/N.” she said in surprise.

your heart started to race, “mind if i join you?” you asked, and a small smile then appeared on Enid’s lips. “no, not at all. come on.” she reached out her hand, and you took it in yours. you were sure she could feel how hot your hand was now that she was holding it, and you were hoping she wouldn’t say anything about it.

Enid pulled you up on the gate and you started to climb with her. when you made it to the top, Enid jumped first, and she looked up at you. “i’m here if you fall.” she called out. you jumped down and you felt Enid’s hands briefly touch your waist. “good?” Enid asked, and you nodded, face burning at her touch.

Enid started to walk and you followed her. “why did you want to come with?” Enid asked, breaking the awkward silence between the two of you. “um,” you looked down at the ground as you tried to figure out what to say, other than the truth.

“we haven’t talked in a bit, wanted to catch up with you.” you ended up saying, alright you weren’t quite sure if that would work. Enid nodded, “yeah, i guess it has been a bit. sorry about that.”

you shook your head, “don’t apologize. we all got shit going on.” you told her. “where are we going?” you questioned.

“there’s a spot i like to sit at. we’re almost there.” she said simply. after another few minutes, the two of you stood in front of an open area in the woods with a few branches lying in the ground. Enid walked over to it and sat on one of the branches, so you followed her and sat next to her.

Enid smiled awkwardly, “i really don’t… do much out here. i just like to sit here in silence away from everyone and read comics.” she looked down at her hands, fumbling with her fingers nervously.

“that’s okay… i actually had something i wanted to give you.” you told her, and it felt like time had stopped when she looked up at you. god, she was so beautiful. “for me?” she asked in disbelief, another smile growing on her lips.

you couldn’t help but smile back, confidence slowly taking over you, “yeah! i uh, i noticed you had this collection and i happened to have one of the comics… and me and Carl haven’t really read it. so, it should definitely be yours.” you reached into your back pocket and took the comic out.

Enid’s eyes widened at the sight of it. “oh my god.” she mumbled. she took it out of your hands and began examining it front to back, and flipped through the pages. “this is one of the last ones i needed.” Enid told you, her hand going over her mouth. “thank you so much.”

“it’s no problem, really.” you told her, scratching your neck. you couldn’t help but admire her as she smiled down at the comic. her smile was so contagious, you didn’t want to look away. you couldn’t look away.

“there has to be another reason you gave this to me… it can’t just be because of my collection. this is.. really- this means a lot, Y/N.”

your words almost got caught in your throat as you looked at her. “right- um..” you laughed nervously. “i didn’t only ask to come with because i wanted to catch up with you. i-i wanted to tell you something as well.” you could hear your own heart pounding, and you swore it was going to rip right out of your chest if it beat any faster.

you’ve never felt more nervous. “what is it?” Enid asked, turning her whole body towards you. you breathed in deeply. “i really… really like you, Enid.” you whispered. you watched as Enid froze.

“and this is probably the dumbest thing i’ll ever do, because there’s no way that… someone as beautiful and kind as you… would ever like someone like me. but you’re constantly on my mind, Enid, and i couldn’t keep it in any longer. i’m sorry if this made you-“ you were cut off with lips on yours. your eyes widened briefly before you closed them in utter relief. her lips felt so good on yours.

your body relaxed under her touch, her hands were softly holding onto your waist as you kissed. Enid pulled away first, but didn’t pull away too far from you. she laughed breathlessly, “you know, you didn’t need a whole plan to confess. i would’ve taken any opportunity to do this.” she mumbled, unable to take her eyes off your lips.

you bought a hand on the back of her head and pulled her back into you. Enid happily kissed you back. “and by the way,” she whispered against your lips. “you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever met. everything about you… is just absolutely perfect. don’t ever for a second think otherwise.”

“okay.” you whispered, feeling tears prick at your eyes. Enid kissed you again, her fingers drawing little shapes into the skin of your waist.

#divider creds : cafekitsune #carl grimes x reader #carl grimes x fem!reader #carl grimes x platonic!reader #the walking dead #twd #the walking dead x reader #twd x reader #twd x fem!reader #the walking dead x fem!reader #enid rhee #twd enid #enid twd #enid rhee x reader #enid rhee x fem!reader #enid the walking dead

[therunawaykind]

Sweet Release

Pairing: Zooey Kern x Fem!Reader

Word Count: 3.9k

Genre: Smut

Warnings: 18+ ONLY/MINORS DNI. Swearing, fingering, bottom!reader, top!Zooey, strap use (r receiving), praise, cheating, alcohol consumption, slight age gap but legal!

A/N: So this is the rather rushed oneshot that I wanted to get out today because as you may have seen already today is my birthday! This WIP has also been sitting in my WIP list for months so it's about time I wrote it. So I wanted to give you all a little present from me to you....even though it really should be the other way around 🤨 but anywho. I apologise in advance if there are mistakes regarding typos and grammar and just purely if my writing isn't up to standard as I said I did ever so slightly rush it a bit I feel. But nevertheless, I do hope you all enjoy the birthday gift from me to you.

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Ms Zooey Kern, The nurse, the carer, is probably one of the most attractive young women you’ve ever laid your eyes on who also happens to be your brother’s fiancee. It was a double-edged sword your liking to the woman. Not only was she kind and considerate to your brother whenever you were around, but she was also so fucking attentive all the time. Making sure to include you in conversation and catch up with you regarding college or literally anything going on in your life. 

From what you knew and saw between the couple everything was happy and smooth sailing between the two of them. But that may not exactly be the case. 

You were hoping tonight would help you in some way to get over this infatuation you had with Zooey. After all, tonight was your 21st supposed to be the age where you have your very first drink but let’s be completely honest here…you’ve dabbled in drinking some alcoholic beverages here and there before whether your family knew it or not. Talking about family your parents decided to go away for a week to celebrate your 21st earlier knowing you’d probably prefer a party in the comfort of your own home with all your friends without your parents being around. Which was appreciated hugely by you and promised them when they came home everything would be exactly the same considering you didn’t exactly have a massive friend group. They got on too well with your parents to even think about damaging or breaking something, that was a wrath they never wanted to have to deal with or encounter.  

So here you are pouring a drink of yourself listening to the music in the background and the ever so slightly muffled conversations amongst all of your friends. Earlier in the day you and text and had a call with your brother where he was unsure if he would be able to make it due to work….or so he was saying. He did mention however there was a huge possibility that Zooey could make an appearance that she had a card and present from the both of them and something just from her which she refused to tell him what it was. You didn’t dwell on it too much thinking it was just her being extra nice by it being a milestone birthday of yours. 

As you were sat in between your friends on the sofa you all heard the faint knocking on the door. You raise your eyebrows in surprise as all your friend furrow there's “were you expecting anybody else Y/N/N?” 

“Eh not that I’m aware of my brother was unsure if he was gonna make it, he did mention the possibility of Zooey making an appearance though.” Your voice grew faint as you walked away from your friends towards the door. As you heard the knocking again “I’m coming, I’m coming.” When you pulled the door open to your surprise you saw both your brother and Zooey, “well this is a surprise. I thought you said you couldn’t make it and that it’d just be Zooey?” 

He rolls his eyes as he ruffles your hair “alright sis at least act like you’re happy to see me huh?” 

“No no I am, I just wasn’t expecting it.” 

He smiles softly down at you and gives you a hug just as your attempting to fix the hair that he messed up. “I know sis, I just wanted it to be a surprise I know we haven’t seen each other a lot recently. But Happy Birthday and I want you to know that I am super freaking proud of you and everything you’re doing in college.” 

You nod slowly and clear your throat in an attempt to clear your eyes of any tears. As he walks away and into the house he pats you on the back which leaves you with Zooey and you not knowing if she is gonna go in for a hug or a handshake. Instinctively you put out your hand Zooey scoffs playfully as she grabs your hand and pulls you over to her and embraces you in a long hug. “Happy Birthday Y/N.” 

As you place your arms around Zooey’s waist you mumble quietly “Thanks Zooey and it means a lot that you came you didn’t have to.” 

“Oh stop it, of course, I had to Y/N, you’re special to me and you mean a lot to me.” 

You nod sheepishly at her response, only now realising there is no space between the both of your bodies in this hug. You pull back from her rather nervously and cough “I guess I should leave you to get back to my brother.” As your eyes uneasily scan around the room you miss the fact that Zooey takes this moment to run her eyes up and down your body checking you out and biting her lip subtly. She clears her throat as she approaches you and whispers “I’ll tell you this because your brother forgot but he did invite a few of his friends to join so there would be others here he could talk to rather than bugging your friends with stupid talk they probably don’t wanna listen to.”

Your eyes scan her face as she talks as you try your hardest and absolute best to not linger on her lips, going unnoticed by you is Zooey’s hand running around your waist and down your side, she moves it back subtly and lets her hand rest on your ass. Not helping herself in any way but groans internally. 

“Thank you for telling me Zooey, it’s probably better off for you two anyway. You don’t have to sit around and probably listen to our stupid talk.” Zooey nods hastily as she hands you a bag which includes what you can only assume are your brother and Zooey’s card and present. “Again thank you Zooey much appreciated, you didn’t have to do that.” 

“Nonsense Y/N, you mean a lot to both of us we had to get you something to celebrate this milestone. Besides, I have my own gift to give you but you’ll get that later.” As Zooey walks off she places small little taps on your ass, unbeknownst to yourself your eyes move up and down her body and stay glued to her waist, hips and ass she saunters off smirking to yourself knowing she’s swaying her hips more and rather exaggerating her movements. 

Zooey was playing a very dangerous game and she knew that. But what could she do, she couldn’t help it if things were rapidly going to shit with your brother. Well, she could help, but….maybe she just didn’t want to. 

You weren’t sure how much time had passed but you were happily buzzed right now. Not overly and sloppily drunk where you wouldn’t remember anything. Just the right amount of tipsy. As you scanned the room you saw Zooey and your brother in a group talking to his friends that joined earlier and all of your friends were talking with each other. Once you knew everyone had drinks and was busy you decided to go upstairs and use the bathroom in your room. Unknown to you as you started ascending the stairs it was like a sense that Zooey had that told her you were on the move as she saw you go upstairs.

Zooey placed her hand on your brother’s forearm softly as she muttered “I’m just going to use the bathroom.” He nodded in response and placed a quick kiss on the top of her head before she quickly yet subtly went up the stairs after you. Her eyes darted to every door along the hallway looking for any indication of what room you went into. She cheered slightly as she saw the door to your room slightly ajar, slipping in between the gap closing the door softly and locking it. Zooey laid her head against the door as she took a deep breath. 

At the sound of your bathroom door closing, Zooey jumped and cursed under her breath. As you turned around you stopped your movements “Oh hey Zooey what are you doing in here?”  You watch as she turns around slowly shoving her hands into her back pockets as she swallows dryly “I thought it would be a good time for you to get your birthday present specifically from me.” 

You chuckle nervously “and that needs to be done alone just the two of us?” The rate at which your heart rate picked up was alarming it felt like it was gonna burst out of your chest. Zooey nodded slowly but confidently “yes, yes it did.” You wet your lips slightly with your tongue as you see Zooey start to approach grabbing your hands slowly and pulling you over nearer your bed. “Have I ever told you just how cute you are and look in this skirt tonight?” You shake your head slowly in retaliation.

“Oh, that’s a shame I should’ve done that sweetie.” 

If you couldn’t guess what this gift was that was specifically from her before you most certainly could now. “Well maybe cute isn’t the right word….maybe more so hot….dare I say even sexy?” she questions as her voice drops down low. It was as if you were stuck in a trance you couldn’t move as you felt her hands roam around your body. It was easily noticeable to you and Zooey that your breathing changed instantly. 

You couldn’t help but gulp as you felt her hands move down your sides and down onto your thighs. Your eyes darted around the room as you heard her humming to herself “Y’know you have very soft skin Y/N.” You clear your throat and nod hesitantly “Thank you? I guess?” As you hear a chuckle pass Zooey’s lips you clench your eyes shut. Zooey feels you tense up as her hands land on the back of your thighs just underneath your ass as her fingers start to draw random shapes and tapping randomly against the skin that isn’t being hidden by your underwear. Zooey slowly starts tugging on the hem of your underwear “y’know it’s been very hard for me to keep my hands to myself and not act flirty towards such an attractive young woman.” 

A shaky breath passes your lips “Zooey what is this, what are you doing?” 

She smirks up at you as she leaves her hands placed on your ass “I’m doing exactly what I said I would. I’m giving you the birthday present, especially from me.”  

“Zooey…b-but what about my brother?” 

She can’t help but gulp at the mention of your brother…her fiancee. “That’s nothing you have to worry about Y/N. I’ll deal with it.” You stare at her and take a deep breath nodding hesitantly and saying pretty much inaudibly “okay.” 

“But I do need you to do one thing for me Y/N.” 

“What’s that?” 

“Consent. So are you okay with this happening right now and are you sober for this to happen?” 

You nod as soon as you hear her finish, but quickly know what you have to do as soon as you see Zooey arch her eyebrow. “Yes I am okay with this happening right now, and I’m pretty sure the second I saw you in my room I sobered right up due to my shock.” Hearing Zooey laugh at that statement you can’t help but chuckle slightly in return. 

“Good, that’s all I needed to know.” As soon as those words leave her mouth she leans in as close as possible placing her lips against yours. The instant her lips were on yours it felt like you had melted into a puddle with how soft her lips were and how delicately she was kissing you. Zooey can’t help but smile into the kiss as you place your hands over her shoulder holding onto the back of her neck and shirt in an attempt to keep yourself standing. 

Removing one of her hands from your ass she places it on your stomach and gently pushes you backwards in a bid to get you lying down on your bed. Zooey inhales deeply as she starts to lie on top of you though being mindful to not place all of her weight on top of you. As you drape your arms over her shoulders again as she situates yourself, you can’t help but raise your eyebrows in surprise when you feel something press against the top of your thigh. You take a deep breath as you clear your throat nervously “Ehhh Zooey…..did I just feel….what I think it is?” 

Zooey attempts her absolute best to hide the smirk as she starts placing kisses along your jawline and down your neck as she mumbles into your neck “You’ll find out soon enough hun.” 

You can’t help but roll your eyes and groan at her response, which swiftly ends up in her retaliating and biting your neck with what can only be the intent of leaving a mark. “Zooey I swear if that leaves a mark.” 

“It’ll be fine, you’ll be fine. It’s getting colder just wear something that’ll cover them…layers are also good.” Throwing your head back against the pillows as you let her continue placing delicate languid kisses against your sensitive skin. Both of you feel the rise and fall of your chest get increasingly quicker the more time she spends kissing your neck and her tongue running along the delicate skin and marks that she made. Taking note of your head thrown backwards Zooey makes sure to slowly move her hands down your body as she subtly moves them up your legs towards your underwear.

To make sure you’re distracted she moves her kisses back up along your jaw and starts kissing you insistently nipping and biting at your bottom lip and making sure to soothe any bites with her tongue. 

With your mouth slightly agape she slowly slips her tongue into your mouth humming at the lingering taste of alcohol she gets from your mouth and the subtle taste of you she can get at the same time. Zooey pulls back ever so slightly as she mumbles against your lips “as much as I would love to take my time with you as if we have all the time in the world. We do not have that pleasure at this moment in time hopefully….maybe somewhere down the line we’ll have the pleasure to take however long we want Y/N/N.” 

As she looks at you briefly to gauge your reaction she grins when she sees the small nod and a whisper of “yeah sure okay.” She leans down and places and lingering kiss against your lips and mutters “you’re the best.” Zooey taking advantage of your slight distraction with the feeling of her lips pressing against any part of your skin that was visible to her, as well as the feeling of her hands making their way up your thighs and attempting to subtly remove your underwear as you just basked in everything relating to Zooey. 

The small groan that escaped Zooey’s mouth couldn’t be stopped as soon as she felt the wet patch on your underwear as she started pulling them down your legs taking note of the goosebumps that were visible on your legs. Once she finally got your underwear off with your very little to no help she paused slightly as she was going to throw them onto the floor, she bit her bottom lip as she stared at the undergarments in her hand going through all her options. Taking a deep breath she tucked them into her back pocket messily letting quite a lot of it hang out over her pocket as she went back to focusing on you. 

Pushing up your top slightly kissing along your stomach as she bunched your skirt up around your waist. As you were just enjoying and letting Zooey do whatever she wanted, was when you realised she had froze and stopped herself the second she bunched up your skirt. You propped yourself up on your elbows as you opened your eyes, whilst slowly moving your hand down to Zooey’s hair and running your fingers through it. “Everything okay Zooey?” 

Clearing her throat, Zooey looked up at you quite sheepishly and nodded “yeah everything is fine. I’m just going, to be honest with you Y/N/N I didn’t think you were going to be as wet as you are.” She glances back down briefly after her statement fingers slightly spreading the entrance to your core as she takes note of the wetness glistening due to the light coming in from the window. Seeing you still slightly tense with her free hand she pushes you back down gently by your stomach as she places multiple pecks against the skin showing “everything is perfect Y/N, just lay back and relax.” 

Glancing at you from the corner of her eye simultaneously moves her thumb over your clit starting to rub small circles around the bundle of nerves as she pushes two of her fingers into your core. She smirks at the strangled noise that gets caught in the back of your throat at all of the sensations Zooey is spreading throughout your body. Slowing the pace of her thumb circling your clit to make sure you don’t reach your high too soon, adjusting her position slightly by propping herself up on her forearm right beside your head as she stares down at you paying close attention to all of the expressions when she hits certain points with her fingers. 

As much as she would love to hear all your whimpers and moans at your full potential she was far too aware of the group of people that were just downstairs, that could walk up the stairs at any moment and catch the both of you.

Much to her dismay not being able to savour and enjoy to her fullest potential what was occurring between you two at this moment in time. Pressing against a more sensitive part of your walls, grinning as she sees your hips writhing beneath her. Sitting back onto her knees as smoothly as she can making sure to keep the movement of her fingers constant as she situates herself. 

Feeling Zooey hit all of the right spots constantly is both amazing and complete and utter torture for you, down to the fact you both knew even if it wasn’t said you’d have to keep as quiet as physically possible due to everyone downstairs. If your lip or hands didn’t have some sort of cut or mark by the end of this night you’d be very impressed and rather shocked by it all. Grabbing on tightly to the pillows placed behind you and the bed covers underneath you at the sudden feeling of the tip of Zooey’s strap-on slowly teasing against your core as she slowly pushes it into you. Sighing softly as you feel her slide the whole length of the strap into you. 

Placing your hand over your mouth as you muffle out “fucking hell Zooey, a little heads up would’ve been nice.” She can’t help but giggle slightly at your comment as she bites her bottom lip and shrugs. “It was a surprise, if I told you about it, it would’ve ruined the whole element of what a surprise actually is.” You chuckle slightly as you look up at her and roll your eyes, grabbing her shirt and pulling her down towards you placing long intense kisses against her lips running your tongue along her lips and pressing against hers in her mouth. 

Eyes rolling to the back of your head with the feeling of Zooey’s strap moving in and out of you constantly. As if knowing Zooey’s next move as she places her hand on the top of your thigh, you wrap both of your legs around your waist ultimately trapping her. Zooey laughs slightly as she falls forward due to your movement placing her hands by the side of your head “shit Y/N.”  chuckling and panting softly into her mouth in pleasure as you feel her hips moving against the back of your thighs. Due to Zooey’s fast and rough thrusts, your body jerks up the bed getting closer to the headboard, hearing it starting to hit against the wall as you mumble out between moans “Zooey, the headboard.” Zooey glances up briefly as she wraps one of her hands on the headboard to stop it. 

Placing her head in the crook grunting softly due to the thrusts of her hips speeding up and slowing down in random intervals just to prolong your reaching your high just that bit longer. Whispering softly into your ear “you’re doing great Y/N/N being so quiet for the both of us so no one will notice.”  The only response you could muster was a small whimper from the back of your throat and your hand dragging down the length of her back and grabbing onto her shirt. Hearing faint mutterings downstairs Zooey starts thrusting faster, feeling your thighs start to tense around her waist she quickly presses her thumb onto your clit in tight and fast circles. Gripping onto Zooey’s shirt tighter as you start biting down on the fist of your free hand feeling the coil starting to tighten as your hips start to rut against Zooey and her thrusts. 

“Zooey…fuck…..yes.” Both of you trying to restrain yourselves from reaching your full volume and potential. Slowly noticing the sweat building up on certain parts of your body between the two of you, feeling tops stick on your stomach and chests. The beads of sweat slowly descending down Zooey’s forehead as she places soft delicate kisses on your neck as she feels the slight stutter of her own hips. 

The feeling of your thighs trembling and your whole body tensing and the quiet gasp that leaves your mouth at Zooey pressing down against your clit harder and thrusting in one last time as she feels her own thighs twitching. Both of your legs and the arm that’s draped around Zooey’s back fall limply on the bed as you attempt to get your breath back. Pulling the strap out of you as gently as she can.

She smiles down at you as she watches the rise and fall of your chest with your eyes closed, as she takes off the strap and throws it to the side. Leaning down closer to you and placing soft kisses all around your face and lips as she mumbles “I hate to break up this lil moment but before we go back downstairs we better clear ourselves back up.” 

You nod weakly and swallow dryly “you should go first…to clean yourself and leave first. Maybe even walk into the bathroom down the hall and come back out just so ya know….people don’t get suspicious.” 

Zooey grins down at you softly as she places a lingering kiss on your every so slightly swollen yet soft lips. “Happy Birthday Y/N/N. I hope you liked your surprise present.” 

You laugh softly at her response as you see her get up off the bed picking up the toy to sneak out to the other bathroom. Staring up at the ceiling smiling to yourself softly, realising what just happened groaning and placing both hands over your face.

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[niuniente]

I have to give you huge props for deciding to interrupt your comic for the Grimm / Pearl romance. I don't think a lot of people would do that, or have your go with the flow style of creating.l I do miss Alrick a bit but I know he will come back in due time XD I am curious if he will end up interacting with pearl or Grimm more. Even tho Grimm likes murder and violence more than Alrick, they both seem to feel similarly about Death Head higher ups, the mask less.

Do you have any advice for folks who struggle with perfectionism and self esteem with creating? I've been trying to get back into some form of creative work for awhile but it's been hard. I wish I too could just go with the flow and stop caring about how good my work is, or comparing it to others.

I think the only way to beat down the need for perfectionism and self-esteem is just to beat it down. To realize that there IS NOT just two or three accepted art styles that exists but genuinely thousands! If you try to fit in into 2-3 art styles, you will never discover what is your true style. That comes out from just drawing and enjoying the process. Sure, it takes time. It took me about 7 years to learn to draw the way that I wasn't upset after I looked my art like years later. I still see mistakes in them but they don't bother me anymore - it doesn't matter.

I have found helpful also looking at professional comic artist and their styles. How many perfect styles there are? How many of them draw everything perfectly with no messiness, mistakes, odd proportions, weird expressions etc which pop out occasionally or are implemented in their art style? And yet, they are successful and people like their stories?

Is this face, head or expression anatomically correct? No. None of those three are. Has it made Jujutsu Kaisen any less for success and readers enjoying it and the characters? Absolutely not!

So why should you beat yourself up for not getting it perfect when people earning their living with art don't do it perfectly either?

I personally always think about Billy Idol and what he did in his career as a punk musician. When he was a nobody solo artist, he decided to go to USA and become famous there with punk. Too bad that just recently, the most well-known and super famous punk band Sex Pistols had came back from USA because they flopped there completely. USA was NOT ready for punk. Did it stop Idol from going? No. He went there.

In the USA, wherever he went, all record labels said him the same things: 1) We have punk here. No radio station will ever play any of your songs and you will never get a record deal from anyone. You need to change your music genre. 2) We don't like British English here. Learn to sign with American English. 3) Change your style and hair because you're one fucking ugly bastard. No one will give you a record deal because the way you look, and no one will ever come to your gigs to see a man as fugly as you are. Idol thinks "Well, if learning American accent helps, I'll do it. The rest I won't change. It is who I am and what I love to do and how I do my music. It stays."

The fugly bastard is still performing. Became one of the biggest artist on the 80's. Made punk music radio friendly. His gigs were sold out. He was the 80's sex symbol and his music videos (and Idol himself) were sold with sex to female fans. His still got the ugly white hair which was supposed to stop him from ever getting any music deals.

So. Stay true to who you are. Keep creating. Even if no one drew the same way you to, keep drawing! Even if everyone drew with the exact same style as you do, keep drawing! Look at art, look outside of the (fandom) normal art you see - what styles exists? How you can do art in many ways. Go to art museums, go to see things which don't even make sense to you - you have now seen a new way of doing things.

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[zunniva]

Three's company

An Eddie x fem (oc) that warps into a steddie x fem. If you're not that comfortable with the idea of graphic sexual activity depicting two men...don't read this whole thing. I think you'll figure out when to stop reading. But if you like yourself some smut hope you'll like it

WARNINGS sexual activities, strong language, mention of alcohol and drug use

I'd always had these two best friends, total opposites on the social hierarchy in our school. On the one side I had the golden child, basketball playing, pretty boy with the awesome hair King Steve Harrington and on the other side was freak of nature, drug dealing, DnD playing bad boy Eddie Munson.

Or well Steve graduated already and is now working at the video store with his partner in crime Robin.

So now it's me and Eddie trying to survive our final year of high school. Well I'm in my final year and so is Eddie just that he's in his THIRD final year. We always joked around saying that Eddie would never leave high school because then he would never get laid again. High school girls were the only ones gullible enough to fall for his bad boy crap. He's really the sweetest dude you'll ever meet...but you know...reputation man! Anyway, Eddie always used to laugh at this and agree that it might be just so, but lately he's been a bit strange when we try to tease him. Not laughing, just a smile and then changing the subject. Steve and I started to think he might have found a girl and doesn't want to share that with us for some reason.

We hang out quite a lot, sometimes at Eddies in his uncles trailer, sometimes at my trailer just next door from Edds...very rarely at Steve's house, his parents don't like the reputation Eddie has gotten in later years so we end up hanging out with him and Robin at the video store instead. That's always great fun, usually those nights are a “Who can help Robin make fun of Steve the most” competition. Winner gets a free movie! Steve has, since his girlfriend Nancy broke up with him, been obsessed with picking up girls. So making fun of him isn't even a sport at this point, it's just too easy!

I've been a bit down the last few weeks, the three of us always used to talk about absolutely EVERYTHING including feelings and such. We've been 100% honest with each other. Or well... I've ALMOST always been that honest with them. I haven't told them I crushed SO HARD on Steve growing up. In middle school I had this huge crush on him, but then when high school rolled around and he became Mr Popular and started hanging out with those sort of people I kind of lost those feelings. That's far from my type. Then he was just my friend again and I was sincerely happy when he met Nancy because she was not in that crowd at all. No jealousy or anything, I was over him as a guy you know.

But then at the end of last year I started noticing myself staring at Eddie quite a lot more than before... Had he always been so tall? And had he really been muscular like this? Not in a big bulky way just lean and his arms OMG! And those tattoos he had gotten...geez man. HOT! Was I crushing on him now? I let those thoughts simmer for a week or so and then... Yeah I was... Fuck... I was SO crushing on Eddie and this was stronger than any feelings for a guy I had before. Still haven't gone away these feelings, if anything they're stronger now. He's grown up so much over the summer, or maybe I have? And therefore I'm now noticing him as a man more? It still doesn't matter... Edd's been acting so strange lately as I mentioned before, I can't help but fear I'm losing my best friend.

We've been invited to a party the three of us, or well Steve's a given, I get to come by association to Steve and Eddie doesn't really get invited so much as asked to come and make deals. No one really wants him at the party as a proper guest, he's so scary?!

I decided I needed a little alone time with my boys before so I invited them over for some pre-party drinks and a smoke. We'd be hanging out for a bit then catch a ride with Eddie to the party, he didn't drink much when “doing business” for fear of getting ripped off.

When I hear a knock at my door I'm almost all done. Not wearing a top yet but whet the hell it's just my boys who cares if one of them sees my bra. I open the door and there's Eddie outside. Instantly he gets agitated and start some rant about I need to learn to manage my time so they wouldn't always need to wait for me... Eh...weird? Yeah I am a time optimist sure and I can be late at times. But we're having drinks and we're not leaving for another like 2 hours...I did not get the attitude at all.

“Dude, how long do you think getting a top from my closet takes? We're chilling having some beers, relax man, I think you'll be on time to make good money. Besides Steve's not even here yet” I smile, give him a hug and plant a beer in his hand. The hug isn't the usual soft, warm Eddie hug I love. It's stiff and uncomfortable, which I find strange. What the hell is going on?

“Yeah what ever, just thought if you invite someone over you'd be done instead of running around half naked like this, it's just rude. I mean...you wearing that tonight?” he takes a seat on the couch, not looking at me. I turn blood red all over... yeah I know I've put on some weight lately but he needn't be so cruel about it. He never used to care. “Am I that repulsive?” I think as I run in to my bedroom to finish getting dressed. I hear a knock and then I hear Steve come in to the living room. The tone in Eddies voice changes and he sounds like his old self. Well so ok... it WAS me. I want to cry.

I look in the mirror, ok so my ass and tits has grown this past year or so, and these leather pants are a really tight fit these days. But I mean I don't think I look to bad even with only a bra on top. But apparently I do. I've always been chubby, always the “Yeah she's funny but she ain't pretty” or the “good enough to fuck, not pretty enough to love” kind of girl. I've made my peace with that. I mean I had my guys always boosting me with compliments even if none of them wanted me in that way. Apparently now that's all changed...

I stare at myself for a few seconds, then I decide that if Eddie is so repulsed by me then that's on him. Maybe there's some guy with poor judgement to use and then dispose of at the party. I put on a top that I know makes my tits “look awesome” Steve told me so himself, and I trust that man with tit-opinions. But I can't help being super self-conscious as I go back out to join them

“Hey bestie! Looking hot, on the prowl tonight?” Steve comes up to me giving me a tight hug.

“Yeah I thought you could share some of your magic oh wise one” I say and make a bow holding my arms out like I'm worshipping at his feet.

“With that outfit you don't need any advise from me, am I right Munson?” Steve looks at Eddie with a great big smile and a wink. Eddie looks up, glances over at me

“What ever you say man” then he turns his head away from me again. Steve looks back at me raises an eyebrow.

“Yeah I don't know” I whisper sadly, he hugs me again and whispers in my ear

“Munson's a fool you look hot. Maybe he got dumped by that imaginary girlfriend of his” then he smiles at me and hands me a beer. I laugh and nod. We join Eddie, me on the floor and Steve on the couch. Whatever I did I didn't want to make it worse by getting to close to him.

As the beers and weed Eddie brought go in the tensions drop and he's a little more like him self again. I am very surprised he took a hit with us AND drank beer. I trust him to drive though...foolish of me I know but better him than Steve. He has NO limits so he's flat out drunk as a skunk by the time we're leaving. Sitting between me and Eddie in the van singing “Wake me up before you go go” much to mine and Eddies annoyance. We're both more rock orientated. Wham isn't really our thing. But we laugh at Steve who's really in a groove.

“WAAAAKE ME UP BEFORE YOU GO GOOO *hicup* heeeey sing along my pretties. I love you both so muuuuch... I'm so wasted, what if I can't score tonight?”

“Great that you have your priorities straight Stevie-boy” Eddie laughs “I don't think you need to worry dude, you come in there and the panties start dropping by themselves”

I laugh and reach out to give Eddie a high five, he ignores me. My heart sinks, what the actual hell have I done wrong?

“C'mon dude don't leave our girl hanging that's rude” Steve tries to sound stern but fails as the words are followed by another *hicup hicup*

Eddie sighs and gives my hand a small tap, Steve nods as if he is now pleased with everything.

We get to the party and Eddie disappears into the crowd instantly. Me and Steve go in together talking about everything and nothing as you do when you're drunk

“Hey...what if *hicup* Edds got the hots for you but don't wanna admit it?” Steve smiles as if he's solved a mystery of a lifetime.

“Yeah right Steve, that's probably it and I guess I'll be prom queen too this year” I punch Steve, we have a laugh about the thought of stone cool Eddie Munson, a guy we've both known since we were kids would somehow have fallen in love with me AND began hating me all at the same time.

“Seems he barely wants me as a friend any more let alone anything else” I say and I feel like crying again.

“To be fair to the poor guy if he has the hots for you, you can't really blame him. You did some fucking amazing growing up this past year, hell even I would fuck you” Steve has no real filter when he's drunk. But I do appreciate the compliment.

“Thanks sweetie but I think your skill set is better used on ANY other girl in here” I say and kiss him on the cheek “Now go get lucky, if I don't see you again tonight happy humping” we high five and he disappears into the crowd. I look around and I see Robin and Nancy standing by the kitchen I make my way over to them, at least two more people in here I like.

“Heeeey girl! Hell you're looking hot tonight” Robin is so sweet, she came out as lesbian last year to a select few people, me included, so any compliment from her is worth 10 from the likes of Steve. They're standing talking to this really cute guy I've never seen before.

“Hey Robin, hey Nancy. You're both gorgeous as always” I say and give them each a hug. “Who's this?” I ask and turn towards the strange guy

“Oh sorry, this is Chris. My cousin visiting from New York. Thought he needed some small town charm” Robin says.

“Charm? You call this cesspool of freaks and fucking assholes 'small town charm'? More like 'Hello and welcome to The Hellmouth, Satan will see you in 10'...” I say, so ok maybe my mood and the whole Eddie thing is making me bitter as fuck tonight. They all stare at me... “Well am I WRONG?” I say

“No...but that was a bit...creative even for you” Robin smiles and pulls me off to the side “What's wrong sweetie you seem upset?”

“Nah it's probably nothing just something's weird with Eddie and I don't know what I did wrong. Making me a little aloof” I tell her and smile at her “just a tiny wreck at the moment, buuuut I'll be ok when I get a drink in my hand and maybe a chat with that cute cousin of yours” I continue and wink at her

“Haha go for it! He's single and ready to mingle...geez that was cheesy even for me” she laughs and we go back and join Chris and Nancy.

“So Chris, sorry about that. I'm Jessica, Jess for short, I am not as bad as I just seemed there. Temporary insanity” I give him a showstopping smile. He smiles back at me, raises his cup

“Hey, I've heard a lot about you from Robin. Insanity is ok, we all have it from time to time. So where are the famous guys I hear you're attached to the hip with. They leave you stranded tonight?”

I laugh and I put my hand on his arm very softly and I toss my hair back. My go to move, always works.

“Well as you can tell they successfully separated us, FINALLY!” I smile again give a small giggle “But Steve is around here somewhere finding the trophy of the night so I don't think we'll be seeing him for a while and Eddie is...” I say and turn to point in Eddies direction. I meet Eddies gaze from across the room and his eyes that are usually a pretty lightish brown colour are BLACK and look to be burning from the inside as he stares at us.

“Ahem...yeah Eddie's the long haired rocker guy over there” I manage to continue.

“The one who wants to kill me for talking to his girl” Chris says with a meaning nod at Eddie. “Yeah he's NOT just your friend and if he says so he's lying” he smiles knowingly and continues “I'm not here to fuck anything up seeing as I'm like here for a few days. You talk to that guy because he is clearly having all sorts of feelings for you. Have a great evening and good luck with...ehm...that” then he once again makes a small nod towards the corner. He then leaves with Nancy to go mingle. I turn to Robin

“Well...sweetie he's not wrong. Eddie's got it bad for you we all see it. I think you guys need to have a talk”

I'm so confused, first Steve saying something like this and now Robin AND a complete stranger. What am I missing? Nothing about Eddie's behaviour tonight, besides the jealous look he gave Chris, would suggest he even likes me any more. I look over at Eddie but he's gone now. Well business before pleasure is his motto so he's probably just left the room to try and find other “customers”. I'm not feeling this party any more I wanna go home. I grab my bag and my jacket and I slip out the back door.

“You and tonights conquest leaving so soon?” I hear from the darkness. Eddie's voice is strange, so sarcastic almost mean sounding. We thrive on sarcasm the three of us but we VERY rarely use it on each other, and we've never been mean to one another. Apparently until now

“What the fuck Edd, why are you hiding in the dark like some creep? Scared the shit out of me! And what the hell is this shit about a conquest? You mean the guy who introduced himself, took one look at your moody ass and then left? Robin's cousin? Yeah sure... he turned invisible and now we're leaving. Leave me the fuck alone with your mood swings Munson.” I've had it with his attitude now. This wasn't MY Eddie, and that pissed me off the most. I stare him down then I turn and leave.

“Wait... Jess... I'm sorry. I'm done here for tonight. Can I at least drive you home. Wouldn't feel right making you walk home in those shoes” I hear him smile and his voice is back to being my Eddie. I look at him. I nod and we go back to the van and head home. I get the silent treatmen all the way home. When he parks outside his and his uncles trailer I turn to him, I can't do this crap any more I need to ask

“What the hell did I do wrong? Why are you being such an ass to me? Yeah I know I gained weight and stuff but hell you didn't have to be so mean to me. You've been so weird for weeks now. Distancing yourself from ME of all people more and more. It's killing me not knowing how I fucked up...” I can feel the tears threatening to burst out of me and I bite the inside of my cheeks so hard I can taste blood so that I won't start crying.

“You... Just fucking leave it!” he says with a strained voice the he bursts out of the van and runs inside leaving me sitting there like I've just been hit with a fucking baseball bat right in the gut.

Now there's no stopping it, I begin to cry. One of those heart wrenching sobbing cries that just seem like they're draining you from the inside. So I've lost my best friend and I have no clue why or what I have done. But clearly I messed up bad. This must be what a real panic attack feels like. I can't catch my breath and the sobs won't subside. I scream as the panic gets me. Usually, any time I'm sad I go see Eddie. He is my all, my ride or die, my PERSON. Steve is good for boosting the ego and making you laugh and he's a best friend in another way. But Eddie is my rock ever since we were kids I liked Eddie just a little bit better, our personalities clicked deeper in some way. He knows when I need to talk and when I need quiet cuddle time on the couch watching a movie. And what? Now that's gone?

I somehow get inside my trailer still crying so hard my insides ache. I undress completely and sit down on the floor of the shower, turning the water on and letting it drench me and clean up the mess that I am. I don't know how long I sit there but the water is cold when I snap out of it and turn it off. I wrap myself with a towel and I take out the hairdryer. I might be a mess but I do not need the disaster that is my hair if I fall asleep with it wet. I stare at myself in the mirror, maybe it's time to take my aunt up on her offer to move in with her in Texas. Because if this is what life will be like from now on, I will not be able to get through another year in the same school as Eddie. The tears start again but this time they're just slowly dripping down my face. I don't have any energy left to cry as hard as my mind would like to. I finally manage to get out of the bathroom and head for my bedroom. I scream bloody murder as I enter the dark room and see a figure on my bed, all I have is my hairbrush in my hand so I throw that with as much force as I have left in me straight into the darkness towards the figure. I hear that I hit something then I hear a familiar voice

“OUCH what the hell Jess!?”

“Edd? What the HELL yourself, why are you lurking in the dark like some perv?! AGAIN” I turn on the lights and I see Eddie sitting there on the bed rubbing his forehead where a big red mark is slowly forming telling me I did hit a bullseye with my brush. I also see I broke the skin because blood is slowly running down the side of his face. Oh God now I feel bad. It's then I realise as I stand there looking at him that his eyes are red, like he's been crying almost as bad as I have. I see the blood beginning to form a big stain on his shoulder so I hurry up to him with some paper tissues from my dresser.

“God I'm sorry Edd...” I kneel down between his legs and I put the tissue up against the cut. “Wait I'll get a band aid.” I run back to the bathroom and get my first aid kit. Head back to him, kneel down again and start looking for something to fix him up. I find some wound cleansing wipes and a band aid. I wipe off the blood, put the band aid on the cut and I reach up and put a small kiss on his cheek. I can feel and hear that he stopped breathing. I am suddenly VERY aware that I have both hands on his thighs leaning up against him wearing nothing but a ridiculously small towel that doesn't hide much more than it absolutely needs to. I try to ignore this and I look at him, I raise one of my hands up to his face and let my fingers slide over his forehead, feeling to see if I've made any more bumps and bruises. Had his skin always been this smooth? The atmosphere in here has changed, I can feel it and I am sure Eddie can feel it. Seeing as he can't look me in the eyes but he blushes every time he tries to look down due to the towel situation happening right in front of him.

“Why didn't you knock Ed?” I sigh at him “this was unnecessary you know” I look him straight in the eyes.

“I did...knock. But you didn't hear me so I just let myself in. Had some crap in my eye...they were watering.... light became annoying to I turned them off thinking I'd have time to turn them on again before you were out of the shower.” he smiles at me and my stomach does a flip... Oh this was SO NOT the time to remember the feelings I've been having for him lately! Not … the... time

I smile back, clear my throat “Sorry about the brush Edd...but you scared me” I'm starting to feel so very uncomfortable and self-conscious “dressed” like this kneeling between the legs of the guy I have a crush on. But at the same time it is kind of turning me on knowing I'm this close to him wearing next to nothing. But it's just Eddie, my ride or die Edd! What am I thinking...or well, what am I wishing for really? He made it very clear to me tonight that he does not like what my body looks like now. I get up from the floor and start to head back into the bathroom.

“Where are you going? Please stay with me” his voice is thick and I turn around to see him sitting on my bead tears running down his face.

“Oh my god Eddie, what's wrong love?” I know I was just an equal mess myself no more than 30 minutes ago but my nurturing side can't take one of my guys being upset. That takes over and I need to make him feel better because he is my Eddie, whether he still wants to be or not. And no one leaves this house feeling sad!

I sit back down next to him on my bed and wrap my arms around him and hug him as tightly as I can.

He sobs “ I've been the most unimaginable ass to you all night and I didn't mean to be. When I saw you getting out of the van and I heard you crying out there it broke me. So I followed you back here, I came in right after you had shut the door to the bathroom. I've been sitting here listening to you cry...feeling like the biggest freak for being the one making you feel like this. I am so sorry Jess...please SO sorry” he cries for real now and I can feel myself tearing up again.

“But why Ed? Please tell me what I did wrong, why don't you want to be my person any more?” The tears are running down my face and I put my hands up to my face “I know the weight thing is off putting to some but I never thought you'd care Edd...and I never ever thought you'd be mean about it”

He has stopped sobbing as I speak, I hear him gasp at my last words

“Nooo Jess... no I never... Oh fuck... I did sound like that earlier didn't I. Oh my god sweetheart no I never meant anything like that I promise! I just don't know how to tell you...” and he falls silent again.

“But Ed...we talk about everything? Why don't you know how to say whatever...this is?” I ask him and a horrifying thought hits me. “Shit! Are you sick? You're not fucking dying are you?”

“Dying? No, not any time soon if I can help it. Or well for a short while tonight I sorta felt like I was to be totally honest with you” he says and I don't understand a thing.

His hand shoots up to his head and he ruffles his hair, sighs and says

“Ok fuck it I'll just say it... I think I've fallen in love...” he searches my face for the reaction he seems to dread. I just let out a long sigh

“LOVE!? Well that's great Edd! I'm happy for you...but why would you be this weird telling me about it? I'm not possessive you know that...and why would that turn you into the biggest ass around?” I say and smile at him

“Ehm...I've fallen in love with my friend...my best friend” the tears that had stopped start to trickle down his face again. My brain is totally malfunctioning, how had I not seen any hints.

“You've fallen in love with Steve? Why haven't you told me you think you're gay? Were you scared I'd dissociate from you or tell him about it?” there is no other option in my head than this, he must be talking about Steve.

He looks at me like I'm some kind of idiot “Nooo... not Steve, yeah sure guy's really hot and all, and yeah I'd most likely fuck him but he's not the one”

My brain finally finds some kind of power source because it kicks in to drive and what Eddie is REALLY saying sinks in

“Oh...” I fall silent, this isn't real. Did him and Steve decide to prank me in the cruellest way ever? I can't speak and the silence is becoming very uncomfortable

“Jess... please say SOMETHING... Tell me to fuck off or whatever but please don't go quiet on me” he begs me . I look down and I see his hand, his very masculine sexy hand resting on my thigh just inches away from where the towel sits. The touch feels like it's burning my skin. Fuck, yeah I do have the hots for Eddie... I inhale sharply and get off the bed and start walking out of the room. Then I change my mind, stop and turn back around towards Eddie on the bed. So this guy, my best friend in the whole world, as well as the guy I've crushed on for the last 6 months or so, he is sitting here saying he's fallen in love...with me? And I what? I'm going to tell myself I'm not in love with him too? I'm going to pretend his hand on my thigh didn't just make me insanely horny? When did he become this sexy MAN? Ok fuck it... it really is a go big or go home moment.

I still don't say a word to him, I just look straight at him and let my towel fall to the floor. I walk up to him, stopping when I'm so close I can feel his knees against my legs. His eyes are burning again, but with a different kind of fire. He just stares at me

“Jess...I...”

I shush him and I place one leg on either side of his and sit down in his lap. I let my hands run up his arms up to his awesome hair where I bury them in his locks. I lower my head and I kiss him very softly, since I don't know if this is something he actually wants to do. I hear him let out a coarse moan and his hands are on my ass pulling me closer to him and he kisses me back, pressing his lips so hard against mine it kind of hurts. There's so much passion in his kiss it takes my breath away. “Holy fuck Munson is an unbelievable kisser” I think to myself, this thought paired with the unexpected turn this took makes me giggle.

Eddie stops kissing me, looks at me “What? This was your initiative and now you're laughing at me? I suck that bad at this?” he says panting. I shake my head, still not sure my voice will hold. I kiss him again, deeper this time and he answers my kiss, but with less frustration this time. His hands are still on my ass grabbing as much flesh as they can hold. Suddenly I feel self-conscious again. I think Eddie feels me tensing up a bit as his hands begin to move on my ass.

“Don't you even DARE think what I know you're thinking. I love this ass! Fuck when you came to the door tonight wearing those tight pants I almost came on the spot. I had to throw myself on the couch or you'd notice the fucking hard-on extravaganza you gave me. Trust me you are NOT putting me off the slightest, in fact your size is one of the things I fell in love with first. I was in total chock when school started and you came back from holidays looking like THIS, I've been sporting a semi every day at school” he talks, kissing my lips or my neck in between words. His fingers have moved in on my ass so they grace the very edges of my pussy. Carefully, like he's not sure he really is allowed to go there. I finally find my voice again.

“Hey Munson, don't you think you might be a bit overdressed for the occasion?” I whisper in his ear. He smiles at me

“Might be so, but you see this stunning, sexy girl is pinning me to the bed so I really can't do shit about it right now” he purrs at me sending shivers down my spine “but see if you move just for a short while, you can sit down again and I do think you'll like the seat a lot better then” his voice is coarse and his breathing is heavy. I get off his lap and sit down on the bed

“Strip for me...show me that sexy body of yours. I've been dying to see it for months now” I coo at him

The look of utter chock he gives me “MONTHS? You mean we could have done this months ago? Then why the fuck didn't you just pin me against a locker and tell me to fuck you if you wanted me too?”

I laugh “Well...how was I supposed to know you wouldn't just laugh at me and think I was joking? Not like you hinted at liking me either there Eddie” I let my eyes wander over his body “But right now I do not give a good god damn about that...you need to get naked now”

His eyes stare intensely at me as he begins to undress, agonizingly slow if you ask me. When he's down to just wearing his boxers I'm in awe. What the actual hell...

“When the fuck did you become this sexy beast Munson? You realise you look so god damn good it almost hurts my eyes right?” He look so shy all of a sudden, like he doesn't really believe me.

“Stop...you don't have to put it on that thick...” he looks like he's about to change his mind and get dressed again. Can't have that! I get up from the bed and I press my body close to his, take his hand and I place it right between my thighs. Right smack on my pussy. I say with a low voice

“Eddie babe, does this feel like someone that isn't insanely attracted to you right now? Trust me when I say you are the sexiest guy I've had the pleasure to look at...EVER” at first he's frozen like he can't believe this is real then he snaps out of it and his fingers begin to explore my folds.

He growls in my ear “You mean to tell me that all of this is for me? Mine to use?” two of his fingers has found their way in me now and I moan loudly. “Ooooh good girl...I don't like 'em quiet girls. I want to hear when I do a good job” he kisses my neck and his free hand has found my tits now. “Fucking perfection” he murmurs. I cant take this I need to see what I'M working with. I drop to my knees taking his boxers with me. His cock springs free and I just stare and hear myself go “Yeeeessss” I can't help it I lick my lips.

“Fuck Jess, I don't know if that made me scared or more horny. You look like you're going to devour me whole” Eddie is looking down at me all flushed with black eyes. I keep that eye contact as I let the tip of his cock slip in between my lips. I can taste the drop of pre-cum I had seen when I let it free. Oh God he tastes and feels amazing. I take him in deeper, all the while maintaining eye contact. Eddie tries to keep looking at me but when I've taken him in whole he can't stand it and he leans his head back and lets out a coarse deep moan as he grabs my hair with his hands. “What the hell are you doing to me girl!? I don't think I've ever been this hard” he fucks my mouth, but not too rough and lucky for me he doesn't seem to be the kind of guys that gets off on gagging, I hate that... He pulls out abruptly and says

“For the love of God get on the bed I need to taste you NOW” I sit there, kneeling on the floor. I smile a mischievous smile and I put my hand between my legs letting one finger slip in to my wet pussy. I pull it out, it's glistening with my juices. I stand up and I put my finger in Eddies mouth, he first seems paralysed by that move, then he gets his groove back and he sucks on my finger

“Mmmmm hell Jess, you taste amazing. But I would very much like to eat your pussy like the dessert it is not just get a small taste test” he pushes me over on to the bed and motions for me to get comfortable before he gets on my bed with me and positions himself between my legs. Laying down so he's in the perfect place. He lets his hand slide over the sensitive skin of my inner thighs, then up over my stomach, grabbing my tits and then go back down to spread my legs even more so his head can move in to do the work. At first his tongue is just playing on the outsides of my folds ever so softly. Driving me crazy of course, damn tease. Then he plunges in in between my folds and find my clit. He alternates sucking on it and licking it, it's like a fucking vibrator in speed at times. I moan and move my hips, God damn where did he learn to do this!? Who taught him? I must send her flowers! Then I feel him putting his fingers in me as he continues working my clit with passion. “Oooooooh fucking hell Edd I'm gonna coooooome” I scream as he sends me off into the most amazing orgasm to date.

“Good giiiiirl...damn you squeeze my fingers so good. Can't wait to feel that around my cock love...yeaaah keep coming sweetheart....good...so fucking good” Yup I seem to have a praise kink, can't stop coming as I hear him talk like that. I writhe and moan like I'm possessed.

“Edd...I need... Fuck me” I pant I so desperately want to feel him inside of me.

“Wait...I need to find...” he reaches for his jeans “No, no you don't been on the pill for about a year” he looks at me, grins and grabs his cock and plunges it in to me, he lets out a growling low scream as he does. I let out an equal sound, fuck this guy was made for me. He doesn't start moving right away, he's just looking down at the scene under him

“Damn...you have no idea how fucking good you feel around my cock and how fucking sexy you look filled up by me” he reaches up and takes my breasts in his hands and then he slowly starts to make long strokes in and out of me. I can't fucking take this it feels to unreal. I start moving my hips to meet his every move. “That's a good girl...that feels amazing...keep moving like that. Fuck I'm going to fill you to the brim babe”

He keeps up the slow deep strokes for a little while but then I feel him changing the rhythm and begin to move faster. Is this what heaven feels like? Being railed by Eddie Munson? Then sign me up for life. The pace is fast and hard now, no more talking just moans, heavy breathing and sweaty bodies. I reach down and start playing with my clit and Eddie purrs at me “Oh yeah that's amazing please rub it so you come all over my cock. I want to feel you squeeze me dry babe. Come for me again” He slows down just a bit so he can watch me rub myself as he fucks me. I feel that good, sweet tension building again. Travelling from somewhere in my gut down to my pussy as I come again, just as hard as last time and my screams are just as loud “Fuuuuuck yeeeeeah Eddie...come... come in me please...” he grabs my hips, lifts them up and goes God damn jack hammer on me. It doesn't take long before he lets out a guttural scream and I feel him releasing inside of me, his cock throbbing inside. He lets out a deep sigh and collapses on top of me.

“Are you fucking real? Is this real? Or is it one of my dreams again?” I hear him mumble all out of breath. I can't get a word out I can barely catch my breath. But I get what he's saying this does seem to good to be true. He rolls off me and pulls me in so he can spoon me. “Wanna try to get some sleep babe? I feel like doing much more of this but I need more energy for that” he nuzzles in to my neck and sighs with contentment.

“I need sleep too Ed, but first I kind of need to...you know empty myself of the big load someone put in me” I say and giggle as I wiggle free of him and get out of bed.

“Aww I and was hoping you'd wanna keep it” he chuckles

“Hey...you can refill me any time you want” I wiggle my ass at him and go to the bathroom. In there all the pent up feelings from weeks back catch me like a fucking train and I just let out a scream and pass out.

When I wake up a hysterical Eddie AND Wayne, his uncle, are sitting on the floor beside me in my small bathroom. “What...happened” I can't remember anything but being so happy, oh fuck and naked, when I came in here. I look down someone, most likely Eddie, has put a t-shirt on me and a pair of shorts. That's at least a relief. I like Wayne but that might be a bit too much for our relationship to handle me being butt naked on the floor passed out.

“I don't know what happened... You came in here, I hear a scream and a loud thud and then I find you passed out on the floor. Did I hurt you somehow?” Eddie is in tears. I see Wayne looking at Eddie then he looks at me then back at Eddie a big smile breaks his frowning face

“Took you two damn long enough” he snarls, he's friendly but can sound very grumpy “I don't know either sweetie. Eddie just came home in panic screaming about you being unconscious in the bathroom and thinking he did something... I didn't fully understand until just now. But you ok Jess? Feeling sick or hurt in any way? Do we need to call an ambulance?”

“No, thank you Wayne. I think I'll be fine. I just need to get off this floor and maybe have something to drink... If you wouldn't mind could you make me a cup of tea? I'd ask Eddie but I'm afraid I'd have to wait forever then before he figures out how to boil water” me and Wayne have always had this bit going about how useless Eddie is in a kitchen.

Wayne roars with laughter and gets up. “Sure thing sweetie, 1 sugar and some milk right?”

“Perfect Wayne you're a rock star” I say and smile at him. He leaves and Eddie is still crying in pure fear that I'm hurt. I sit up and I put my hand on his chest “Eddie...babe?” He looks up at me “I'm ok, really I am. I'm not hurt or anything. I'll tell you all about it once Wayne leaves and we're alone. But you didn't hurt me not even a little bit. You just made me feel so fucking good nothing else. Ok? You hear me?” he nods and wipes his eyes and nose on his sleeve. He at least managed to get himself descent to before running in and getting Wayne.

We get up from the floor and Eddie holds me as we go out in to the living room. I snuggle down in the couch under a blanket. “You do realise that cuddling is like mandatory now right?” I say and lift the blanket at Eddie. He smiles and sits down in the corner so I can lean on his chest. Wayne comes with the tea and he looks at us with a smile.

“Happy you two finally figured THAT out at least...been living with this mopey bastard for months now. Seen what's wrong but didn't think it was my thing to meddle in... congrats” he says and then he just turns and leaves out the door.

“Uhmmm... Mopey bastard? You've been moody around everyone for months because you figured out you loved me? Instead of telling me you've made me feel awful for weeks thinking I pissed you off and not knowing why or how? Eddie? You do realise that's insane right? That's kind of what got me to collapse now too I think. I've been a tense mess thinking I was losing my best friend for weeks now, pressure just building. And then we go and do this... Call that a pressure release if I ever saw one. I think It just got a bit much for my body...guess I needed a reset. But I AM fine I promise. Just tired and SO satisfied. But I still am somewhat angry with you for putting me through all of this. And yes I KNOW I could just as easily have told you how I felt but I haven't the confidence to think I could be loved by anyone, let alone by you. You know the whole 'good enough to fuck, but not pretty enough to love' bullshit that ass told me like a year ago. That shit really stuck” The words just flow out of me, there's no stopping them. I can't look at Eddie but he keeps his arms around me softly caressing my hands with his fingers. He sighs

“It hasn't really been months... I've liked you as more than a friend since even before you had your insane crush on Steve. But I've always told myself that you're too good for me... the freak. So I've just swallowed my pride and acted the best friend. Through all the guys, all the tears. I wanted to actually KILL that guy who said that to you. I was so sad for you then, I cried myself to sleep for a week after you told us that. Just wanting to tell you how wrong he was and that I would never feel like that, that I would love you no matter what. But by then I was just scared, you became this awesome young woman you are now with all the attitude and the sex appeal. I buried the feelings even deeper. Then you came home from that holiday at your aunts and I fell head over heals. There was no kidding myself any longer I fucking loved you with all my heart. But you seemed so much more mature and I got scared again. I just couldn't hide what I felt any longer so I started acting out instead, thought that if I made you dislike me I wouldn't have to be so near you and in so much pain. I know, I know that's a fucking mess of thoughts. But then...well then tonight happened and well you know the rest...” he falls silent and still

“I never told you I had a crush on Steve...” I say “can we perhaps take equal blame in this becoming such a mess? Like a 50/50 deal?” I lean my head back and pull Eddies head in for a kiss. He smiles

“Nah but I'll settle for a 60/40 in your favour. And yeah... You weren't as discrete as you thought back then. Both me and Steve knew but we didn't want to embarrass you” Oh fuck...

“We should have just made that into some sort of threesome, you having a crush on me, me having a crush on Steve and Steve well Steve is Steve” I say with a giggle, I notice a small almost silent gasp from Eddie when I mention a threesome and Steve in the same sentence. I get to thinking about that comment he made earlier, that Steve was hot and that he'd fuck him but he wasn't the one. “Is Eddie hot for Steve? Is he perhaps bisexual?” I think to myself. Well if he is I just hope he'll tell me himself some day, no need to snoop around that now. Not after pouring his heart out to me. I yawn

“Should we try that sleep idea of yours now? I just wanna lay down and fall asleep on your chest hearing your heartbeat, like we used to do before” I say and get up from the couch and take Eddies hand. We decide to head over to his place, his bed is bigger and more comfortable than mine. We go over to his trailer, quietly so we don't disturb Wayne who's gone to bed. We walk to the bedroom, undress again and crawl into bed. I lay down with my head on Eddies listening to his heart beating. Like I'd done so many times before, but this time was different. “From now everything is going to be different. But much, much better” I think to myself before I fall fast asleep on the hottest guy alive.

I wake up as the sun shines in through the blinds in Eddies room. I haven't slept this well in weeks. Eddie is fast asleep, one arm over my chest gripping one breast and one leg over my hip. I can feel that he's been having some interesting dreams, something hard and warm is pressing against my ass. I smile, this is unreal, I have Eddie Munson's morning wood poking my ass. Again, the absurdity of this strikes me and I want to laugh. I wiggle free from his embrace and I sneak out to the toilet. Being very sober again I start thinking... What if last night was just some spur of the moment drunken thing? What if he's not that interested today. SHIT! “You need to start working on your confidence here, he spilled his guts last night telling you how he felt and now you doubt him?” I shake my head at my own intrusive thoughts. I wash my hands and I go back to the bedroom. Eddie has moved so he's now on his back, the sign of happy dreams laying rock hard on his stomach. I can't stop staring... I had that in me? Oh my fucking GOD! I appreciate this view even more now in the morning light, with sober eyes. I crawl back into bed and I lay down on top of him straddling him so his cock is now wedged in between my thighs. I start kissing his neck and moving my hips so that his cock slides into my folds. I sit up and start moving back and forth so I drag my now soaking wet pussy all over his shaft. He moans and shifts as he's starting to wake up. His hands move up to my ass and he smiles, still half asleep.

“Mmmmm Jess...just like that” his voice is coarse and I think he's fully awake. But then he jolts his eyes open and stare at me “ooooo shit...oh fuck...this wasn't one of my usual dreams...”

“Sorry to wake you up like this, you want me to stop?” I tease as I keep sliding my pussy up and down his cock.

“Don't you fucking dare!” he grabs me and pulls me down so that he can kiss me hungrily. Then he shifts his attention to my breasts, kissing them, biting then, sucking them. He's so preoccupied with that he doesn't realise I lift my hips slightly, move my hand down and guide him in. When I sink down on his hard cock he lets out a growl like sound.

“Fuuuuck...I love when you wake me up! This beats any dream I've EVER had about you” he starts meeting my movements with his hips filling me up all the way.

I sit up and place my hands on his chest “Dream about me a lot there Munson?” I ask with a purr as I start riding him harder.

“Every fucking night you've made me cum in my boxers. Ever since I was like 13” he's started to breathe heavier now meeting my every stroke with a frenzy. I can feel that I'm about to come soon, I reach down and begin to work my clit with my fingers.

“God you're so hot. Please come on me...good girl” he growls at me. Both of his hand reach around to grab my ass, I keep playing with myself as he fucks me SO good. I feel the tension rise and spill over the edge

“Eddieeeee fuuuuuck” I moan trying to NOT scream and alert Wayne. Don't need him running in thinking I'm passing out again. I come so hard around Eddies cock it feels like I make a dent at the base. I collapse down making my ass pout more and this sends Eddie in to more of a frenzy and he starts fucking me with a violent pace. Slamming his cock into me, his hands holding my ass. Then with a guttural moan he lets go

“Fuuuuuck Jess...you're amazing...” a few more strokes then he pulls out and I feel his cum spilling out all over him. I couldn't care less, I am in a complete state of bliss. I did not need to worry, last night was a one time thing apparently. I smile and look up at his face, red and sweaty but looking satisfied.

“Morning babe” I whisper

“Oh good fucking morning to you too sweetheart! Never ever sleep anywhere else from now on” he's still out of breath. He smiles at me and kisses me deeply.

We lay like this for a little while then Eddie strokes my hair and says

“You wanna hit the shower with me? Someone left some sticky stuff all over me and I might need some help cleaning it off”

“How rude to leave sticky stuff all over you, you should really talk to whoever did that” I smile and I hear him chuckle.

“Yeah I'll take it up with them.” he slaps my ass “c'mon sweet cheeks let's go” I laugh and roll off him, seeing that he was right. There is a sticky mess left behind. We get out of bed and head to the bathroom.

“But what about Wayne?” I ask, not being completely fine with the idea he might hear us or walk in on us in the shower.

“Oh he left early this morning, he's off on a fishing trip for like a week. So we can use this whole place and every surface in it aaaaall week long... Well if you want to” Eddie looks at me, now kind of shy.

“A whole week of nothing but this and not having to worry about being quiet? Where do I sign?” I wrap my arms around him and guide him into the shower. We alternate between actually showering and making out. It's amazing just kissing him. We finish and wrap up in towels.

“You hungry sweetheart? I can make us breakfast?”

“You? Eddie Munson? Make breakfast...you trying to kill me now that you've had your way with me?” I giggle. He slaps my ass and frowns

“That's mean! Now that I finally have you? You think I'm trying to kill you? For your information I make kick-ass pancakes!”

“Ok, prove it!” I say and I go back to the bedroom to get dressed and to dry my hair. “But you're cooking wearing that towel because damn man you're sexy” I smile and sway my hips at him as I walk away. I can hear him take a deep breath in and whisper under his breath

“God damn girl you're killing me” then he turns and heads towards the kitchen. When I'm done and come in to the kitchen to join him he's just about done with breakfast. He's set the table, made pancakes and he's wearing a apron....and NOTHING MORE. The towel is draped over one of the chairs. Well...now I have no idea if I'm hungrier for him or the food. I just stand there and stare at him. Ass out looking absolutely scrumptious, hair in a bun and the muscles on his arms flexing as he moves things around.

“Fuck Eddie... How did you turn out this perfect?” I say as he turns to me when he hears me swallowing loudly at the sight of him.

“I don't know about perfect babe, but thank you.... Heeey are you eyeing me or the food there girl?” He laughs at me. He reaches out his hand at me and leads me to the table. “Take a seat darling, breakfast is served” he kisses me and continues with a whisper in my ear sending shivers down my spine “and dessert is served on the couch when we're done” he looks down and I follow his gaze. Under the apron a unmistakeable bulge has formed.

“Wow...again? Horny all the time Munson?” I let my hand slide in under the apron and grab what's under there. He smiles and says with a grumbling voice

“Not normally, this is all you doing this to me” he lets his tongue slide from my ear down my neck and I shiver “but first we eat then we take care of this” he whispers and moves away from me. I let out a small “aww” which makes him laugh softly. “guess I'm not the only horny one in here” he smiles at me and takes a seat.

I sit down opposite him and I finally take a real look at the food he's made. It looks delicious! I am surprised, every time I've been over it's either been me or Wayne cooking. I have never seen Eddie make anything, ever...

“How...” I begin

“Hey! Be nice now! Who do you think makes food for me when Wayne's at work all night long? I'm not as useless as you two always make me out to be. I have some skills” he smiles at me and gives me a wink

“Oh I've come to notice that...some seriously impressive skills too. But this? This is just icing on the cake babe. You can fuck AND cook? I'm never letting you go now!” I dig in to the foos and it IS delicious, best pancakes I've had in a long time.

Eddie just sits there looking at me with a goofy smile on his face, I feel self conscious all of a sudden and I stop eating. Do I look funny? He thinks I'm gluttonous?

“What?” I ask

“You're never letting me go are you? I like that” he keeps smiling at me and then he starts eating too. I let out a sigh, it wasn't about me eating. I continue devouring the pancakes, realising I hadn't eaten a thing since yesterday afternoon. When we're both full I get up and start clearing the table.

“What are you doing, you needn't do that” Eddie gets up.

“You cooked for me, the least I can do is help clean up. You go sit down on the couch and get my dessert ready” I say with a smirk. He gasps at me

“Ooooh that's my girl, I'll do as you wish princess. Hurry up then” he unties the apron and pulls it over his head. He's now completely naked as he prances off to wait for me on the couch. I loose all train of thought for a second, what the hell was I doing? All I can think of is how good his ass looks. I shake my head to snap out of it and I don't think I've ever cleared a table this fast in my life. As I head over to the couch I start undressing as I walk keeping steady eye contact with Eddie as I do. I can see his cock waking up and rising. He takes it in his hand and slowly start stroking it as he watches me. I stop in front of him and I pull down my pants and kneel between his legs. I look up at him, his face is flustered and his breathing heavy

“Well hello there, can I help you with this?” I say and smile. He slides down a bit on the couch and lets go of his erection

“Be my guest” I let my hand slide up his thighs and I lean in and let the tip of my tongue play on the head of his cock. He draws in a deep breath and his hands move up to my hair. I take him in my mouth and I hear him moan. I take him as deep as I can and I let my tongue move along the shaft with every stroke. He's really loud now and I love it! He's slid so far down now that his ass and balls are out over the edge of the couch. I let one hand slide on the inside if his thigh up towards his balls. I cup them in my hand and gently massage them as I keep sucking him with long slow motions. Then I notice something, every time I move my hand on his balls my fingers almost grace his asshole, and when they do he's ever so slightly meeting them with his movements. Does he want me to? I release his cock from my mouth now licking the length of the shaft, I let my tongue go lower and I lick his balls. The sound he makes now are loud, but at the same time a bit hesitant. Like he's not sure if he likes it, or maybe more if he SHOULD like it. I suck his balls into my mouth and I let my tongue play around them in my mouth. I let my tongue out and stretch it down below the balls, Eddie whimpers.

“Edd...would you like me to...try with your ass?” I say... he gasps...then I hear

“I...yeah...I like to put a finger in there sometimes when I get myself off...” he's blood red. I think about this for like a second and I get an image in my head of Eddie with one hand around his cock and the other is fingerfucking his own ass... and I moan and feel myself getting even wetter. Fucking hell that's hot! Didn't know that was a thing I'd like... Hey you learn something new every day. I smile at him and I let my head go even lower. I start by softly placing some kisses on his cheeks, he moans hesitantly. Then I lick them, moaning increased. I let my tongue play around the hole, he tenses just for a second then I feel him relaxing. I lick him for real now, taking inspiration from how he handles my pussy. I lick him until I feel he's really wet and relaxed, then I take one finger and I place it on the hole. He stiffens again

“You...you don't have to if it freaks you out” he's blood red in the face again.

“Eddie babe, if you like it then I like it because it turns me on to turn you on, just let me know if I'm doing something wrong” I say with a low voice and I feel him relax again. I go back to what I was doing. I let one finger slowly enter his asshole, it's so warm in there...and surprisingly soft. He lifts one of his legs up and places it on the couch so I can access better. I start moving my finger in and out, “like he does with me” I think. I can hear now that he is enjoying this. I look at his fingers, they're so much bigger than mine. I pull my finger out and I “lube” his hole up again with more spit. Then I take two fingers and press at the opening, I look up at him and he meets my eye

“This ok Edd?” I whisper, he just nods. I carefully push two fingers in and start fucking him with them. I sit up more on my knees and I take his cock in my mouth again. I swear he almost screams now

“Fucking hell Jess... Yeeeesss...keep that up...oh fuck me” I don't think I've ever been this horny. With my free hand I reach down and I start playing with myself. My goal is now to make him cum SO hard in my mouth with my fingers in his ass. I get off so hard on this thought I actually come before he does. I moan loudly around his cock and can feel that tightening in his balls, but from the inside of his ass. He lets out a ROAR as he squirts down my throat and I feel the muscles in his ass convulse around my fingers. God is this what it feels like when I come on his cock then I see the fascination! He's panting heavy, fully relaxed with his eyes closed. I smile to myself as I lick the leftover cum from his dick and slowly pull my fingers out of the warmth of his tight ass.

“Be right back” I say and I go to the bathroom to wash my hands. I look at myself in the mirror and think “That was the most intense thing I've experienced, and it was with Eddie” I go back to the living room, he's is still in the same position on the couch.

“Hey sexy, wanna go back to the bed and cuddle?” I ask him and hold out my hand. He looks up at me, he looks mortified. My heart sinks. “Hey...babe, did I do something wrong? Did I hurt you?”

“Hurt me? Did it seem like you did?” he smiles but the smile doesn't reach his eyes

“Well it seems like I did something that wasn't good Edd...” I say

“I just...did you really like that or did you just do it for me?” his voice is low and full of shame.

“Edd, love. I meant it when I said that if you like it I like it because it turns me on to turn you on. And to be honest...that was SO FUCKING HOT! I came before you did...” I give him a big reassuring smile. He just gawks at me

“You...you came? From...fucking me in the ass? Really, you didn't mind?” He sounds a little more reassured now

“No I did not mind Edd, not at all. In fact I would very much like to explore this with you. You gave me ideas” I purr and wink at him. Which is totally true, he did give me ideas. I just might need to slow down the introduction of those ideas. Wouldn't wanna scare the poor guy. He gasps and blushes.

“Ehm...I think I would very much like that. And I'm sure I'll love those ideas of yours, you made me insanely curious now babe” he stands up and takes my hand. “Shall we do the cuddling now? I feel absolutely beat for some reason. He winks at me.

“Strange you seemed so lively just moments ago when you came in me and ON me” I say and lead him off to the bedroom

“Oh fuck, you dirty girl...” this makes me weak to my knees. God I love when he says things like that, and I'll hopefully have forever to have him say it too.

“Yes I am Eddie Munson, and I am your dirty girl so you better tell me all your inner most desires” I say as I lay down on the bed and spread my arms out for him to come lie down and cuddle me.

“I think we'll go for one thing at the time here babe” he whispers in my ear as he lies down and turn me so we spoon real close. I can feel shivers all over, so there's more? One thing at the time? I wonder what else turns him on? I make myself comfortable against him and we doze off again. When I come to again Eddie isn't in the bed any more. I wait for a little while thinking he's in the bathroom. But I can't hear anything from in there. I get up and put on one of Eddies Hellfire shirts that's on the floor next to the bed. I go out into the living room and I see him on the couch... head in his hands CRYING!

“Edd... babe? What's wrong? Talk to me...” I say and kneel in front of him. He just shakes his head and won't look at me. “Eddie Munson! Now you fucking look at me and use your words! You're freaking me out!” I say

He lets out a deep sigh and looks at me, he must have been crying for quite some time? Did he get up as soon as I drifted off to sleep? I can see that he's trying to put his thoughts in order so he can share them with me. I know the look. I wait just looking at him with a soft smile. I'm softly rubbing my hands up and down his arms. “Please Edd, talk to me”

“I... I... I feel so bad for liking that so much. I feel emasculated almost... What's wrong with me? And how could you have liked it? I can't...” he begins to cry again.

“Eddie sweetie, there's nothing wrong with you. Nothing at all. We all like different things when it comes to sex, and the best thing is when you find someone who doesn't judge” I say meaningly and look at him “I've found you now and you found me... have I ever been judgemental towards you before? Before we knew this part about each other? Why would you think I'd judge you on what turns you on Edd? Do I seem like that kind of person to you? Fuck, nothing we've done so far has made me go 'hell no' it's quite the opposite it's all made me go 'HELL YEAH' I want to explore every idea, every kink, every inclination we can come up with. But I want to explore them WITH you! But you gotta let me in babe. And you got to cut yourself some slack and not be so hard on yourself, I love you you know, have done for a long time. And that's long before I knew what a sex god you truly are” that last part did get me a smile from that teary face. Eddie grabs my face between his hands and kisses me.

“You know you're fucking amazing right? Why didn't I man up and tell you how I felt sooner. I've loved you for so long, I just feared that this would make you regret...that this would be a deal breaker. Who'd want a boyfriend who likes to be fingered while getting a blowjob...” he smiles

“I'd take that boyfriend any day if he'll have me” I kiss him “can we shut off the waterworks now and accept that I'm here to stay...curiosities in the bedroom or not” he nod and dries his eyes. He moves over on the couch, picks up the blanket and asks me to get under it with him. We cuddle down on the couch, just talking about anything end everything like we've always done. Suddenly there's a knock at the door

“Hey it's Steve, you guys alive?”

“Fuck I need to put something on for fucks sake” I giggle “let me get to the bedroom before letting him in please”

“You've got my shirt on?” Eddie looks surprised

“Yeah...but no underwear” I laugh and run off to the bedroom. I hear him chuckle as he goes to open the door.

“Hey man! You good from last night?” I hear Eddie ask Steve. I quickly put on a pair of joggers I have laying around in a drawer in Eddies room. I've left them there ages ago as a “in case of emergency” option. They are a bit small these days but not uncomfortably so. I go back out to the living room.

“Stevie the Wham man him self! How was your night?” he looks puzzled

“Wham...man?” he looks at me then Eddie

“You sang 'Wake me up before you go go' obnoxiously loud all the way to the party last night man” Eddie says and laughs

“Fuuuuuck I thought that was part of a dream” Steve face palms himself and sighs.

“Nah man, it wasn't... it was however entertaining” I say and hug him

“Thanks...I think... But hey, did you two make up? There was some weirdness THAT I do remember” Steve looks from me to Eddie with a concerned face

“Yeah, you could say that we did make up... once last night... and twice today...” Eddie winks at him and I gasp... what the hell? But then I think that who else to tell first, besides Wayne who kinda figured it out him self, but Steve.

“Ha...good one Munson...” Steve laughs then looks at us, we just look back at him. Faces serious, I lift one eyebrow and smile at Steve. “NO FUCKING WAY?? The two of you? Hooked up? Three times since last night? The hell Jess, I thought I was the apple of your eye” he comes over and grabs us both and pull us in to give us a great big hug.

“Well... Steve that was quite some years ago... Don't get me wrong I love you but not that way... I do however love Edd...that way” I say and I smile at Eddie who just beams back at me.

“Hey I told you last night Munson had the hots for you...but did you believe me? Noooo of course you didn't” Steve glares at me

“Yeah yeah, you told me, Robin told me, fucking Chris told me and he doesn't even know us AT ALL...” I shrug and throw my arms out. Eddie stares at us

“You...knew?” he asks Steve “and Robin knew? And...Chris, her fucking cousin knew?” Eddie is looking more and more bewildered

“Yeah me and Robin were talking about it the other day that you were always watching Jess, no matter what you were doing you always kept one eye on her. And dude... your pants are too tight to hide a semi...” Steve smiles knowingly at Eddie who blushes violently

“How was I the only one to miss this?” I say “I mean...even a semi on this guy is impressive” I wink at Eddie, when I look over at Steve I see him eyeing Eddies parts with a curious look... what the actual hell? Both of them?

“Stop...geez Jess...” Eddie blushes even more.

“Oh own it love, you're packing! You should be proud” I kiss him and put my hand down the back pocket of his jeans giving his cheek a squeeze. Steve is watching this exchange with a curious look, still trying to look at Edds package but discretely so we won't notice. Which of course is all I CAN notice now. Eddie puts one arm around me and pulls me closer kissing me back.

“So you two are officially a thing now then I take it?” Steve sits down on the couch

“Yeah, I mean I am...” I look at Eddie

“Hell yeah...in my dreams I've been with her for months so” Eddie sits down as well and then he pulls me down on to his lap. I giggle

“Well fuck then I'm really happy for you guys! Imagine that...the two of you bumping uglies” Steve chuckles

“Thanks man...” I say and we all laugh at his choice of words. We continue with the topic of how the party turned out for King Steve.

“Well you know me I don't like to brag” Steve says and I almost choke on air

“YOU don't like to brag? Steve...sweetheart bragging is your oxygen...who the fuck you think you're talking to here?” Eddie roars with laughter as I stare at Steve.

“Yeah... ok... Found a new one last night” Steve looks pleased

“Girls are not things Steven... we've discussed this before. You met some one new last night?” Eddie pokes Steve on the leg looking at him with a stern face.

“Ok, I met some one new... you happy? She's apparently Chrissy's something rather... didn't listen, to busy staring at her tits.” Steve is very predictable, that's why I'm so curious about the sneaky glances at Edds privates. Maybe Stevie-boy has a secret as well. “They were no where near as awesome as yours were last night though Jess!” I laugh always with the compliments

“Thanks darling, glad to hear it” I say

“Hey back off their MY tits now” Eddie grabs a hold of them and glares at Steve who looks like a fool, eyes big and mouth wide open.

“Ehmm...ok... sorry Edd. But could you like....release them? Distracting as hell...” he shifts a little in his seat. Eddie smiles, gives my tits a small squeeze then lets them go. Weird tension in the air for a bit then we just continue the story of King Steve and “the new one” like nothing happened. Steve stays for a couple of hours then he leaves to give Dustin and his gang a ride somewhere. Me and Eddie turn on the TV and lay down on the couch, me resting my head on his stomach just above his crotch. It gets really warm and Eddie takes off his jeans so he's only wearing boxers. I lay back down and we continue watching TV.

“Guess what I suspect...” I can't help myself any longer “I think our Steve is bi-curious... he couldn't keep his eyes away from your stuff all night. Thought he was sneaky but I saw him. I also think he might have the hots for one or both of us... did you see that uncomfortable shift he did when you grabbed my tits. Think it was his turn to sport a semi” I didn't say this to provoke a reaction from Edd I just wanted to share what I saw. When I mentioned Steve sporting a semi I feel something twitching near my neck. “Oh wow... Eddie's liking this?” I think to myself. I let my hand slide up and cup his awakening cock, Eddie moans deep in his chest. I slide my hand inside his boxers and start stroking him. I kiss his happy trail and let my tongue play in the hairs going down towards my new happy place.

“Lift” I say and tug at his boxers, he lifts his ass up and I pull them down. I take him in my mouth and he groans loudly.

“Wait, undress and lay down so I can eat your pussy at the same time” he says with a growling voice. I draw a deep breath and moan. I hurry to my feet and strip naked, while I do this Eddie takes off his clothes as well and lie down on his back. I straddle his face and place my mouth back around his cock. He moans

“Yeeeeah that's my good girl” then he lets his tongue slip into my folds to find my clit. He slips two fingers in me and start scissoring them inside me as his tongue and mouth work my clit. This is heaven but I really need to feel him fill me up. So I let go of his cock with a plopping suck

“Edd I LOVE what you're doing but I want this cock in me right fucking now” he stops working my pussy and I hear the smile on his voice

“Thought you'd never ask babe, how do you want me?”

I get off his face and I stand on all fours on the couch arching my back and pouting my ass out. He gets the hint immediately and lets out a guttural moan

“Fuck yeah babe” then he plunges his cock in me with a roar. I scream out the instant pleasure. Fuck he feels even bigger in this position. He rams me hard and fast, he leans over and purrs in my ear “I want you to play with yourself and come all over me can you do that for me?” I let out a long moan and reach in between my legs and find my clit with my fingers. I start rubbing it as Eddie fucks me like a jack-hammer. I can feel my orgasm building, he does this so fucking good!

“Edd...” I pant “Could you try something?”

“Anything babe” he slows down the pace and bends down kissing me on the back

“Could you put a finger in my ass? I wanna know what you felt” I moan, I hear him gasp and I can swear his cock grew. He growls and I hear him putting something in his mouth really slobbering. Then I feel him spitting on my ass, and I let out a growl. I can feel his finger slowly enter my ass as he makes long slow strokes with his cock in my pussy. It feels a little weird but also sooo good having his finger penetrating my ass. Then he picks up the pace with his cock making his finger move as well. I almost black out from the insane orgasm that hits me. I was probably heard all over the trailer park, I screamed so loud. Holy shit that was intense. I hear Eddie moan

“Oh my fucking God babe, that was amazing. Mind if I come now? Don't think I can hold back any longer”

“Yes babe, come please. In me, on me, whatever you want” I moan and I hear the guttural moan I've come to love. Then I feel him abruptly pulling out and then I feel his warm cum all over my ass. Dripping down between my cheeks, onto my pussy and onto the couch. Eddie slumps over on my back panting.

“Fucking hell sweetheart, I didn't think I had any more cum in me after the previous times. But you have some kind of magic touch I guess” he kisses my back and my neck. Then he stands up and reaches out for me “Shower?”

“I think that might be a good idea, then I think I might need something to eat” I say to him and take his hand following him to the shower. We take a quick shower then we decide that we could actually use some fresh air today. I go back to my place and get some clothes and Eddie cleans up after our latest couch party.

We meet outside by Eddies van about 15 min later.

“What do you want to eat then? Besides me?” I give Eddie a mischievous smile he chuckles

“Well if I thought it was possible I'd try to survive on that pussy alone, that's how awesome it is!” he kisses me “But how about pizza instead, and a movie?”

“Sounds perfect!” we get in the van and head into town. We decide that Eddie gets the pizza and I get the movie. I go in to the movie store and see that Robin is working tonight

“Hey Robin” I say as I enter.

“OH MY GOD! Steve called! You hooked up with Eddie THREE times?”

“Hahaha... Four if we're keeping track... Steve left and we got bored” I say and laugh at the expression on Robins face. I walk over to the Horror section and browse the cassettes.

“Heeeeey... I need more than that! How is he? Not that I'm at all interested in the goods per say but you know... curious” Robin jumps up on the counter placing herself cross-legged on it and staring at me intensely. I pretend to browse for a couple of more seconds before I pick “Chopping Mall” I know Eddie hasn't seen this yet and neither have I. I turn to Robin with a grin “He is mind blowing! I can tell you that much... He sure knows what he's doing and he's packing some serious junk” She grimaces.

“Thank you for that, I both wanted to know that and didn't want to know that. I guess your sex life with Munson is like that Schrödinger's cat” she laughs. “So where's lover boy now?”

“Getting pizza, I was left in charge of the movie, aren't you glad I was. You wouldn't have gotten anything out of Eddie” we laugh at this and she agrees that it was lucky I got movie duty. We continue laughing then we hear a voice

“You laughing at me?” Eddie walks in with the pizza, coming straight up to me putting one arm around me and placing a kiss on my neck

“Awww that's so sweet I almost feel sick... but congrats to you both! Eddie you won the lottery... Jess you could probably do better” she winks at Eddie.

“Hey I'm not disagreeing with you AT ALL” Eddie says and hugs me “unless you wanna eat here with Robin we should go before the pizza gets cold” he says.

“Sure babe, I'll call you later Robin” we say good bye and head out to the van. We get back to Eddies where we enjoy the pizza and the movie in silence. That's what's so good about Eddie, we don't need to talk to have a good time. We can sit in silence and still be totally comfortable with each other. When the pizza is eaten and the movie is over we're both half asleep. I can't move I'm so tired, I feel Eddies strong arms lifting me up and carrying me to the bedroom... how the hell did he manage that?

“I'm too heavy...” I mutter

“Don't be silly, aren't I Eddie the Freak? Maybe I am freakishly strong? Ever think about that princess?” he kisses the top of my head as he continues to carry me in to the bed. We snuggle down under the covers and fall asleep. I dream, I dream very dirty dreams about my boys. My boys having their way with me...and having their way with each other. God I need to calm the fuck down with these thoughts, just because Steve was curiously eyeing Eddies junk doesn't mean he wants to try 'em out! Get a grip woman! I wake up in a sweat, heart pounding and I feel like I've been drinking heavily the night before...and I need to pee. I get out of bed and go to the bathroom. When I'm done I go to the kitchen to get some water, as I turn to go back to the bedroom I hear Eddie moaning. “Oh my... what's he up to?” I think to myself and smile. I stop in the door and watch Eddie, he's fast asleep but apparently dreaming very spicy dreams. His cock is rock hard, with pre-cum dripping down from it so these dreams must have been going for a while. I get so turned on by just looking at him in this state I stay standing in the doorway, one hand on my breast and one hand between my legs.

“Ahhh..fuck Jess... mmmm... Yeah suck that...” Well, well Eddie talks in his sleep... “Mmmmm... yeah suck Steve... no leave some for me” and this is where my jaw dropped. Steve? We're doing Steve in Edds dreams? Well hell yeah! Why not? This makes me even more horny and I start circling my clit with my fingers at at faster pace. Eddie is writhing in the bed, pre-cum oozing out of his cock. Suddenly he jerks awake and pants heavily. His arms fly out to the side of him, he looks around and sees me in the door. Fingers deep in my pussy, face flustered.

“Fuck that's hot! I think I dreamt of that” he looks down “apparently I did...wanna help me finish this off?” he starts to stroke his big hard-on while watching me. I smile and crawl up into the bed next to him. I lower my head and take him as deep as I can in one go. He lets out a coarse growl “Fuckin' hell Jess” he grabs my hair and roars when he comes in my mouth in like 5 seconds. He lies there just panting, stroking my hair for a bit then he looks down at me and smiles “Move up babe, sit on my face please. I wanna return the favour SO bad”

“That might be the way you die you know... Crushed under my fat ass” I giggle but do as I'm told.

“Oh but what a way to die” I hear as I lower myself down on his face. He eats me like I'm his last meal in this world and I scream out my pleasure as the orgasm hit me. Wave after wave I just don't stop coming. The thought of Eddie with Steve even if it was just in his dreams has made me crazy.

I collapse to the side and even feel a bit dizzy.

“Hell Jess, that was fucking awesome. You came soooo hard for me, good girl” he kisses me on the ass and pulls me in to spoon him. “ I must have made a good impression sleeping with my cock out” he says “can't really remember what I dreamt though, must have been good. Long time since I woke up that close to shooting my load, thanks for the help by the way” he purrs in my ear. I debate whether or not to tell him what he said in his sleep.

“You don't remember ANY details? I mean it must have been a really good one considering the state of you when I came from the kitchen” I say

“Probably about you though babe, usually when I dream those kinds of dreams they've been about you. But I wake up in a wet spot” he chuckles “good thing I woke up to have you help me... SO much better... believe me” he hugs me tightly. Oh fuck it... I'll tell him, just need to get the thoughts out.

“Ehm... I kinda know what you dreamt... I think” I say under my breath

“You do? How? You read minds sweetheart?” I can hear him smiling

“Nah... you kinda... talk in your sleep... apparently” I smile

“I do? Cool... was it about you” he grabs my tits and kiss me on the neck.

“Yeah... it was, but not just me” here goes nothing “Steve was apparently there too” I hear a gasp and his hand which was massaging my breast freezes. “I was obviously giving you both head...” he relaxes again “but you needed me to save you some of Steves cock... I think you were helping me with that” the silence is deafening. Eddie isn't moving a muscle now, I wiggle around to face him. He's pale and looks scared. I look him deep in the eyes and I kiss him. “You do realise I did NOT mind that right? Think I would have been that hot for you if I did?” I smile and he looks at me with a bewildered look in his beautiful eyes.

“You... THAT'S what got you so hot and bothered? Me helping you to go down on Steve?” the tone in his voice is sceptical.

“I've been having these images in my head of you two together all day, ever since I saw him looking at your junk Edd. I just... I like the idea of us three...sharing each other... in every way. Never ever crossed my mind before but something about today planted a very dirty little seed in here” I say and point at my head. Eddie gives a small moan, closes his eyes and leans his head in so our foreheads are touching.

“This wasn't the first dream like that one... They come from time to time, usually it's just you but sometimes...sometimes Steve's there too. Those are the really wet dreams. When I wake up in a fucking pool of my own cum. I don't know Jess... I don't know if I might be, what did you call Steve, bi-curious... or if I'm just flat out bisexual...” he sounds so lost my heart bleeds for him “I love you though!” he quickly adds like I would have doubted that in any way. I kiss his forehead, then I kiss his nose and then I kiss him for real. He pulls me close and holds me so tight I almost lose my breath.

“I don't mind if you want or if you're curious about doing Steve, and I know you love me. Hell I'm curious what it would be like to have you both...” I say then adding in a whisper “and to watch you have a go with each other” the arms that hold me have started wandering over my back down towards my ass, gripping it tight. Eddie moans in my ear

“Your really are one of a kind you know that, look at what you've done” I can feel what I've “done” to him without looking. I can feel the twitch of his cock growing against my stomach. Damn he's got some libido this guy

“Hold that thought please” I say and I hurry out of bed and start to dress

“Oook? This is a bit strange babe. What's up... more than me?” Edd is lying on the bed watching me with a surprised look.

“I promise this will be good or I hope it'll be good... but I'll be right back. Don't go anywhere... and don't lose that” I say and nod towards his hard-on. He chuckles and nods at me. I run out and over to my own trailer. I hurry in to my bedroom and open my bedside table. I smile and think to myself “Well this had better work out the way you imagine or you might be humiliated for ever” I grab what I was looking for and head back to Edds. I come back in to the bedroom, Eddie's still on the bed, still hard. Smiling at me

“You good babe?” he asks

“Yes I am... and hopefully you'll be VERY good soon enough... Would you please close your eyes” I say as I undress again, Eddie watching me closely stroking his cock and smiling.

“Ooooh... damn... ok” he smiles but I can see his smile is vaguely concerned.

“Don't worry babe you think I'd do something you didn't like?” I crawl up into the bed and kiss him deeply.

“No I trust you” he says and I see his smile relax. He closes his eyes and I take out a blindfold, I put it on him, he gasps.

“See... I don't want you to get too curious and take any sneak peeks” I whisper in his ear tracing my tongue down his neck giving him goosebumps all over. “Edd, did you really like it when I fucked your ass with my fingers or were you just saying that to please me?” I continue. He moans

“I liked it... I liked it very much” he says under his breath.

“Good...because I want to try something. You tell me if this is pushing you too far Edd. I don't want to make you feel bad” I say and I kiss him again

“I trust you...” is all he says, his breathing is heavy and I can see the glistening of pre-cum on the tip of his cock. “He's really excited” I think. I start to trail kisses down his body, letting my tongue play in the hairs going down towards his cock. I keep going down and I pay some attention to his hard-on. Stroking it, kissing it, licking it and sucking it in to the hilt. The man under me is squirming and moaning like a mad man.

“Babe, would you please put your legs up for me so I get better access to that amazing ass of yours” I beg him and he lets out a moan that sound more like a mix between a grunt and a low scream. He is a good boy and does as he's asked. I wiggle down so I'm face to...well ass with him and I let my tongue play on his inner thighs. Eddie is grabbing the sheets now, really in his own world. I lick his balls, then I let my tongue go where I had planned for it to go all along. I fuck his ass with it just to really lube the hole up good. Then I take one finger and slowly penetrate him, he groans. I spit on my fingers and I push another one in. I start moving faster, fucking him with my fingers. “Here goes nothing” I think and I take out what I went home to get. One of my smaller dildos, I don't use it much because I find it too small to feel good for me but maybe... I suck on it making it wet with my saliva

“Edd babe... Can I try something on you?” I say with a husky voice

“Right now you can do whatever you want as long as it feels this good” he groans. Ok well here we go. I take out my fingers, licking his asshole again to lube it up once more then I put the tip of the dildo on the opening. Eddie tenses a little but I kiss his inner thighs mumbling “This is so hot Edd, but let me know if it hurts, please try to relax” he does relax and I press the dildo slowly in him, stretching out his hole more than we've ever done before, and going deeper than my fingers could have ever reached. When I'm in as far as I feel I can go whilst still being able to hold on to the bottom of the dildo I crawl up and I remove the blindfold and I kiss him passionately. He opens his eyes and they're black with that smoulder in them. Oh he's so fucking hot. I go back down to concentrate on his ass again, Eddies eyes watching me, his mouth open and his breathing heavy. I spit on the shaft of the dildo to make sure it's going to glide smoothly I look up at Edd. He gasps and nods, no words. I start moving the dildo slowly in and out with long strokes, Edd begins to moan louder. Good sign! I pick up the pace some and he gets louder still. This is driving me insane, I put my free hand to good use fingering myself. I'm actually fucking Edd with a dildo! Oh my fucking God this is hot, who knew...

“AHHHHH JESS FUUUUUCK” I see Eddies cock start to pulsate and he shoots thick,white cum like a fountain all over his chest. I see this and I'm pushed over the edge myself, I come all over my own fingers as I watch the man I love have his first anal orgasm. Even in my dazed state I have the presence of mind to crawl out of bed and get some paper tissues. “Hey there might be a mess pulling that out” I think to myself looking at the dildo still sticking out of Eddies ass. I carefully pull it out, it's not too bad mess wise. I take it and I go to the bathroom and clean it off right away. Then I return to Eddie who is still just a panting, hot mess on the bed. I take some more tissues and I wipe off the cum he covered himself with. Then I lay down next to him and put my head on his chest listening to his heart beating.

“Am I dead? Feels like I might be...” I hear from above “that...that was... unreal babe. Thank heavens for that dirty mind of yours” he kisses the top of my head and I smile.

“Well if you ask anyone else in this town heaven had nothing to do with that” I laugh and I hear Eddie join in

“No that's very true love... so thank YOU then for having such an awesome dirty mind” he says.

“You're very welcome, I very much enjoyed that” I purr and look up at him

“Did it look like I didn't?” he grins at me “I don't think I've ever covered myself with cum, nor have I ever come without touching my dick at all.. fucking mind blowing” Eddie sounds amazed and very very happy. Maybe I'll soon be able to present the next part of my idea... The real deal...

“But hey, not to be a buzz-kill here Edd but it's Monday morning we need to get ready for school” I say and tug at him to get up

“Noooo, can't we just stay here in blissful ignorance for the rest of our lives?” he whines a little. School isn't really Eddie Munsons deal.

“Oh c'mon, at least now you don't have to pine over me in the hallways” I say teasing him “now you have me and who knows the janitors closet might be a snug fit for a quickie before lunch” I add and he looks instantly more excited about the day.

“Oh you're on babe! Shower first then breakfast or the other way around?” he rolls out of bed and I sigh looking at his naked body.

“Lets eat then I need to go home to change. I'll shower there since we both need the hairdryer” I smile and give him a wink.

“Ooh not just a pretty face, clever also” he teases and kisses me. I head out into the kitchen and decide since it's still very early eggs and bacon is a good way to get some energy back from this weekend. I begin cooking and Eddie joins me, coming up behind me giving me a tight hug and kissing my neck. Then he starts setting the table. We eat and talk through our respective days. We decide to meet up at 11 when we both have some free time in our schedule “for some quality brainstorming” as Eddie puts it while winking at me. I head back to my place for a shower and some fresh clothes. Then we meet up at the van and head for school. Time just doesn't fucking move this morning. It's like 9:30 for what feels like hours! Then the bell rings it's finally 10:50 and I now have 30 minutes before my next class, I head towards the janitors closet not seeing Edd anywhere. Did he forget? I stand outside it looking at my watch when suddenly an arm shoots out from inside the closet pulling me in. Eddies lips crash into mine and he kisses me ferociously

“Fuuuuuck I missed you” he growls “turn around and drop your pants I need to fuck you hard NOW!” I let out a long moan and do as I'm told as fast as I can, I've been thinking of this all morning so I'm wet all through my panties already. I lean forward slightly and Eddie plunges his hard cock right in with a groan. He wasn't kidding when he said he needed to fuck me hard. Jesus fucking Christ this is intense. We fall over in some kind of spasmic pile of body parts when we once again time our orgasms perfectly, how is he this good? I giggle

“You're completely pussy drunk Munson, that was amazing”

He's behind me on the floor panting

“Only your pussy would make me this much of a slave babe, fuck you're great”

“I am a great fuck, yes” I giggle, Eddie lets out a laugh and slaps my ass.

“Get dressed again oh great one and I'll see you at Hellfire for lunch?”

“Of course. I'll be needing food after this. I feel drained”

We kiss and sneak back out into the hallway, luckily not many people are still around as classes are about to start again. We run our separate ways and I get to class seconds late, but happy as hell.

The rest of the day passes without much of interest, Hellfire Club is planning some big campaign this week. So I spend lunch sitting just looking at Eddie and listening to the guys make their plans. We're careful not to be too obvious about us just yet, we decided to live in our little bubble alone for a little while longer. Afternoon classes are as boring as ever, but I have Eddie and this mornings events to replay in my mind. I almost miss my last class of the day getting stuck in thoughts at my locker. Then the last bell of the day FINALLY rings and I run out to the van to meet Edd and go home. He's standing there talking to Chrissy, laughing and seemingly having a really good time. I feel a dark cloud roll in over my head and that jolt of insecurity I always feel around the pretty cheerleaders. I slow down my pace and then I come to a halt about 10 yards away. Waiting and watching the two of them. Eddie spots me and waves

“Hey Jess, ready to go?” he beams at me and Chrissy turns around and looks at me with a smile. She's actually one of the nice ones... I don't mind her, I just feel like a cow in her presence... I walk up to them

“Hey Edd...yeah ready when you are. Hey Chrissy” I go for the trusted “fake it 'til you make it” attitude. I give her a smile, hoping it looks normal enough. I can see Eddie looking at me suspiciously but Chrissy doesn't seem to think anything is weird.

“Hey Jessica, you look nice today” she's one of the only ones who still calls me Jessica.

“Thank you, so do you” I say “as always” I add.

“Aww you're so sweet, thank you. Well Eddie I'll talk to you tomorrow then” she beams at Edd then leaves with a smile

“Tomorrow?” I ask inquisitively

“Yeah... she wants some... ehmmm... goods” he whispers. I rise an eyebrow...

“I did not expect that answer” I say truthfully

“What did you think? I saw your face babe, you're worth a hundred of her. Plus you're a thousand times sexier and more beautiful” he says looking deep into my eyes putting one hand on the side of my face and letting his thumb caress my jaw. “Never ever forget I've loved you for years I wouldn't trade you for anyone ever”

“Sexier and more beautiful than Chrissy Cunningham? You really need to get your eyesight checked weirdo” I say and take his thumb in my mouth and give it a quick suck, making Edds eyes black with arousal.

“A thousand times” he purrs at me looking intensely at my lips around his thumb “Fuck Jess, what are you doing to me? Get in the fucking van so I can take you home”

I giggle and hop in the front seat, Eddie runs around to the drivers seat and starts the van, full throttle and we're home before I know what the hell happened, I didn't even know this old pile of junk could go that fast. We run inside and the rest of that evening is spent in bed. Eddie does good on his promise to use every space available in the trailer for fucking me during the rest of Waynes absence. By Thursday when Eddie has his Hellfire campaign I've hatched an idea. Good thing he's off for the whole evening or he might lock me up and throw away the key.

“Can't you come with me? I'd love you there as a sexy good luck charm babe” Eddie hits me with his best puppy dog eyes.

“Hey, I think we might survive a few hours without each other babe, and I really need to catch up on homework. Some of us would actually like to graduate with some descent grades” I wink at him. I wasn't going to tell him that I've been doing my homework during breaks and in the mornings before he wakes up. I need him to think I'll be doing nothing out of the ordinary tonight.

“Such a good girl... But ok I accept that. But I will be missing you...and thinking about you” he says and kisses me.

“Don't let that filthy mind of yours wander too far... It might make for an interesting campaign if the dm is off in the bathroom jerking off thinking of his VERY sexy girlfriend instead of doing his job” I let my hand slide back and grab his ass. He moans

“MY filthy mind? My mind is as pure as snow I'll have you know” he smiles at me gesturing a halo around his head

“Yeah right and I'm mother Theresa... now go you freak or you'll be late. I'll be in my trailer when you get back. You'll come over?” I ask as Eddie's laughing at my mother Theresa joke.

“Try and stop me” he says, smacks my ass and leaves. Wayne, who's been back for a couple of hours comes in to the kitchen as Eddies van leaves.

“Well sweetheart, he making you happy? Did I say how glad I am you two finally figured i out that you're meant to be? I couldn't ask for anyone better for my Edd” he smiles one of his rare smiles at me and I feel my heart overflow with warmth for this man. I go up to him and give him a hug

“Thank you Wayne. Means a lot to hear that, and yeah he's perfect! Wish I could stay but I need to get home and try and get some homework out of the way. See you later” he nods at me and goes to sit down and watch TV.

I leave and head to my trailer, it feels so empty. I've spent almost a week, pretty much every hour of the day with Edd now. Feels weird being alone, I make some food and I sit down in front of the TV for a while. I look at the time, it's 6:30. I have around 3 hours give or take before Edd is back. I pick up the phone, dial Steves number and wait.

“Hello?”

“Hey stranger, what you doin'?”

“Hey Jess... Not much just got home from work. You?” Steve sounds genuinely happy to hear from me

“Not much, Edd has Hellfire tonight so I'm alone and bored. Wanna come over?”

“Sure, be there in 15. Can't have my best girl being alone and bored” he chuckles and we hang up. Now lets hope I'm not totally off in my suspicions. I check the fridge, yeah I have some beers left from the party last weekend and some cokes. I get out a bag of chips, put them in a bowl and take it to the couch. I sit down and wait for Steve to come around. Takes about 10 minuets and there's a knock at the door

“Come on in it's open” I yell. Steve comes in smiling at me

“Hey girl, happy to hear from you. Thought you drowned in Munsons cum or something you've both been so quiet all week”

“Gross Steve” I say “but close enough” I add and he roars with laughter.

“So you two are it now? It's good?” he asks and sits down on the couch with me grabbing a hand full of chips. He looks curious, he's so much like a girlfriend that way. Wants all the gritty details handed on a platter.

“Yup, all good... perfect even! Not out in school yet but I guess it's just a matter of time. I've seen Dustin studying us very intensely the last couple of days” I say “How about you, any news? How's Chrissy's whatever doing?” I continue with a smirk knowing well that Steve never keeps his party hook-ups for long.

“Oh...her... Nah not as fun as I thought” he shrugs

“Shocker Steve” I say and laugh “So no one new?”

“Nah... saw you two and thought maybe I ought to wait and try to find that... looked nice” he sounds a little defeated. I take his hand and squeeze it

“Well Steve... There's only one of me and I'm sorry Edd got there first” I smile at him, he gives a small laugh

“Ah fuck... Time share?” he winks at me. Maybe this is the moment... if I don't at least try I'll never know...

“Steve...please don't take this the wrong way but... are you interested in me or Edd? Or both of us? I saw you after I made that remark about him not being able to hide a semi, you we're eyeing his cock very closely. Was that genuine interest or just curiosity?” he looks at me, jaw dropped, completely silent. Then he clears his throat

“Well... I mean... I don't know. Maybe... all of the above” he blushes. I don't think I've ever seen fucking Steve Harrington blush.

“So if I asked you to join me and Edd... You'd say?” I look at him, he looks stunned

“Ehhh... join you? As in...sex?” I nod “well... I'd say yes I guess...” more blushing

“I haven't told Edd about this, and if he seems to be against it when he comes home please NEVER tell him I ratted him out?” I beg Steve, he nods at me and assures me he's not going to say anything. I continue “I've found out that Edd dreams of us three together frequently... as in him fucking me, you fucking me, I give you both head.... and... you guys doing each other as well” this was it, make or break it was out “this is something I've been thinking about since he told me, and I have to say I've never been so horny as when I think of me and Edd giving you head...or Edd fucking me from behind while you're fucking him...” I watch Steves expressions trying to figure out the reaction. We're both silent for what feels like an eternity then Steve lets out a long sigh

“I'd want that too... all of it...” he looks down “I think I've had the hots for both of you for a while just not wanting to admit it. But when you squeezed his ass and kissed him I got such a boner, I just wanted to be in the middle making out with either one of you. I did mean what I said before the party. You look damn good these days and I would SO like to fuck you Jess.”

I just smile, this was exactly what I hoped for.

“Ok so I don't know if Edd will be ok with this, it might just be that he wants it to stay a fantasy then we'll have to respect that” I say and Steve agrees “but what I would like to do is have you watch us here on the couch... then maybe join us as in having me be the focus this first time. If that goes well maybe we can try and shift focus next time” Steve looks like he's about to explode in his jeans I can see the bulge, very impressive by the way.

“I don't think I'll push Edd to this tonight, but I'll bring it up with him. Then I'll call you tomorrow after school or maybe come in to the video store?”

“Sounds like a plan, whatever I get to do is awesome by me... would be lying if I said that I wasn't hoping for all of it” Steve smiles and shifts trying to make himself more comfortable.

“Oh me too Steve, me too” I say to assure him this is no joke to me. I nod at his bulging jeans “That looks quite impressive Harrington, hope to see it out and about soon”

“Oh...thank you...” he seems almost embarrassed at the compliment “before this goes out of hand can we talk about something else” he chuckles a little and I looks at the time seeing that yeah he's right. I change the subject to school and the fact that Chrissy does deals with Eddie.

“Chrissy Cunningham? She's a client of Edds? Fuck me that's random” Steve looks as confused as I felt when Edd told me. “She just seems so wholesome...like ALL THE FUCKING TIME” Steve laughs

“Yeah I know right, and what's this crap calling me Jessica still? No one has called me that since kindergarten” I laugh “but then again...if you're the girlfriend of Jason carver maybe you need something to get you through the misery... imagine the two of them hooking up... I bet he focuses more on himself than her, like literally flexing in the mirror with a hard-on... poor girl” we laugh at this and make up ridiculous scenarios concerning Chrissy and Jason's sex life. We hear the van coming home, the door to Eddies trailer opening....then opening again a few minutes later. Then there's a knock at my door and Eddie walks in.

“Hey babe... Oh Steve hey man good to see you!” Eddie seems surprised but happy to see us both.

“Hey dude, how was Hellfire?” Steve smiles at him looking completely neutral like I hadn't just told him the guy that just walked in wanted to have sex with him. I'm impressed with Steves poker face, I really am.

“Hey babe, successful campaign? Or were you distracted” I ask and wink at him with a suggestive smile. He comes up to us and sits down next to me on the couch, puts a hand on my thigh, kisses me and chuckles.

“Yeah good campaign, was a bit distracted in the beginning can't lie. But then, sorry babe but the game got to intense to think about anything else”

“Awww and here I thinking I'm all you can think about” I smile and give him a pinch on the arm.

“Nope, DnD and weed is in there too... granted it's less of that and more of you these days”

“I agree with Robin, you two are too cute... almost sickening. I'm gonna leave. Have a great night and I'll see you tomorrow Jess.” he gets up from the couch and heads out the door.

“I'm glad you didn't have to spend all evening alone” Eddie kisses me

“Yeah I was just about done with homework when he called and asked if I was busy, he was bored. So we've been chatting away the evening. Can you imagine... he didn't have another date with the girl from the party” I say

“NO!? What... I am so shocked right now” Eddie laughs “any food left I'm starving? Mike was in charge of snacks tonight and apparently Mrs Wheeler's on a diet so they can't have any tasty stuff at all in their house now and Nancy wouldn't stop at the store” Eddie chuckles and I join in. Poor guys

“Yeah I saved you some mac 'n' cheese, want me to heat it up for you babe?”

“You do know I've figured out how the stove works right? I did make you pancakes remember? Or are we getting old?” he makes a face at me

“Oh watch that mouth of yours Munson or this old lady might not let you have dessert” I stick out my tongue at him. He giggles says he's SO sorry he'll behave. Then we watch TV while he eats, he tells me about the campaign. He gets up and goes to the kitchen to clean up, I follow him and come up behind him. I reach my arms around his hips and unzip his jeans

“I've been waiting all evening for dessert...” I stick my hand down his boxers and grip his cock. I feel it starting to grow instantly. Eddie moans

“You'll be the death of me babe” he turns around and grabs me by the hips and lifts me up on the counter like I weigh nothing. He starts kissing me as his hands begin to unbutton my top, freeing my tits. He grabs them and plays with the nipples before starting to kiss them. “God I love these tits! And they're all mine!” he then proceeds to kiss my chest down to my stomach. He wiggles my sweatpants off and buries his head between my thighs. He begins eating my pussy, like it really is dessert. I grab the top of his head and moan loudly. He's so fucking good at this!!! He slips his fingers into me and start to move them while continuing to work my clit with his amazing mouth and tongue. I feel the tension building “That's my good girl, gonna come on my fingers babe? Or do you wanna come on my cock? Been wanting you all evening so this is going to be quick once I'm in ya” he purrs against my pussy.

I'm panting and moaning “cock” is all I can get out. I can feel him smiling against my wet pussy.

“Your wish is my command babe” he says and stands up,dropping his boxers and positioning himself between my legs. He teases me first, just dragging the tip of his cock against my folds. Then he finally penetrates me with a growl. He makes s few long slow strokes when I suddenly just want to try it...

“Edd...can you please fuck my ass” I moan, he gasps

“Really?” I nod and I feel him pull out. Since he knows the feeling he's very thorough, he spits on my pussy letting it drip down to my ass, he begins with his finger, then two fingers. It hurts a little at first then it's just good. He uses more saliva and then I feel the tip of his cock against my tight asshole “Let me know if I hurt you” he mumbles. He slowly pushes in, very slowly. It doesn't hurt that bad considering the size of him. I hear him gritting his teeth trying not to rush this “Fucking hell, you have any idea how amazing this ass is? God... I'm trying so hard not to just fuck you raw right now” his voice is coarse and so sexy. He starts to slowly move in and out as he hits half of his length. It feels nothing like I thought it would, it feels better! I reach down and start playing with my clit, Eddie moans loudly “Such a good fucking girl, make me feel what it's like to fuck your ass when you come” I can feel myself closing in

“Edd...fingers in pussy...please” he moans and pushes two fingers in my pussy as he's picking up the pace in my ass. I scream out my orgasm as it hits like a ton of bricks.

“Fuuuuuck... it's like being stuck in a vice babe...your ass is fucking squeezing my cock off...” he finishes with a grunting moan just a few strokes later. Kissing me and grabbing my tits.

“Wow...just wow babe” he pants as he carefully pulls out of my ass. He helps me down from the counter and embraces me. “God I love you so fucking much, what the hell did I do to deserve you falling in love with me too?”

“Likewise weirdo! Maybe the universe just thought it was our turn now” I kiss him then I go to the bathroom, I can feel cum sipping out of my ass. Kind of want to empty myself and take a shower. I get in and then I hear Eddie coming in and undressing. He joins me in the hot water, kissing me on my neck and upper back. I love this man SO much! We dry off and head in to my bedroom, tonight we stay here even if my bed is smaller than Edd's. We lay there cuddling, me with my head on his chest. I need to bring it up soon before we fall asleep.

“Hey Edd”

“Mhmmm” he's slumbering already.

“Could you wake up just for a second please I need to ask you something” I say

“Yeah ok, awake! What's up babe” he says and shakes his head.

“I've been thinking, you can say no I won't get upset... But could we ask Steve to watch us...have sex...” Eddie just looks at me

“Steve watch us have sex? Just watch?” the tone in his voice is curious

“Yes... I mean... If we feel like it maybe... I don't know...help out as well?” I look at him

“I'd be ok with that babe... I thought you understood that already” he blushes “I mean...the dreams and stuff”

“Well... dreaming is one thing, actually getting a third person to join is another. I needed to ask in case you only wanted things to stay a fantasy...” I say and kiss his chest

“Can we just go for watch first? Not sure I'm brave enough yet to have Steve...you know join in.” Eddie smiles

“Of course... I'm seeing him and Robin tomorrow after school. If I get a chance I'll...run it by him” I say and Eddie nods and kisses my head. I hear his heart beat has increased when we talked about this, good he's as excited as I am. We fall asleep and wake up to the alarm blasting. Another day in paradise!

This day is painfully slow, I don't get to see Eddie more than at lunch and then we can't really sneak off, Hellfire needs his attention. So I just sit and admire his looks and savour the moment. Later on when I'm about to leave school for the day Dustin comes up to me in the hallway

“So does Eddie know you have feelings for him? Or do you actually think you're discrete...cuz you're not” he chuckles...oh fuck it

“Well... considering we've basically lived together for over a week and he told me as late as this morning he loved me I'm guessing he suspects the feeling is mutual at least...”

“OH!? And here I am thinking I was the first to notice...so you're...a thing already?! That's great congrats, now maybe he can be more concentrated when planning Hellfire business when he doesn't constantly pine over you” Dustin smiles

I laugh “Pine over me? Really?”

“Oh God yes... he was awful for a while. Didn't think we knew, but it was so obvious he was crazy about you. Come to think of it he has been in a much better mood this week, we should have known” Dustin looks deep in thought

“He did think you had your suspicions, he told me so the other day. I'm glad he's in a better mood now, for all of our sakes. He was an ass to me as well before coming clean about how he felt” I share “well I need to run, meeting Steve and Robin at the video store soon. Have a great weekend Dustin!”

“You too Jess, tell Steve and Robin I said hi”

“Will do!” I run out to catch the bus that leaves for town. I see Edd heading towards the small patch of wood behind the school. That's usually where he does most of his deals when he's not at a party doing business. I wave at him before I get on the bus, he waves back and blows me a kiss. I smile “if all the people in town that are scared of him knew what a sweet goofball he really is” I think to myself as I get on the bus. 10 minutes later I exit the bus in town and head for the video store. Robin smiles at me when I enter

“My babe! Where HAVE you been this week?” she proclaims making the few people in there look up

“I've been at school...” I say “and under, in front of and on top of Eddie” I add lower with a wink

“Ewwww...but also grats sounds like you two really like each other” she makes a face the smiles at me. “He picking you up or you need a ride? I'm off in 20” she asks

“Edd is picking me up in like 30, but thank you sweetie. Some other day?”

“Any time, any time”

“So where's your partner in crime then? Hitting on girls by the romance isle?” I ask and look around

“No, strangest thing... he hasn't hit on a single girl all day... I think he's sick. I sent him in the back to get the new orders unpacked...don't wanna catch anything” she laughs. We keep on speculating what could be ailing our local Casanova since he is not, as Robin puts it, “Casanova-ing” any more. I do have my suspicions but I'm not telling. 20 minutes goes by and Robin yells

“YO STEVE! I'm off you need to get your ass out here now, keep Jess company until Munson gets here” she smiles at me, hugs me and says “Don't let him trick you into staying and keeping an eye on things while he runs off ok? Have a great weekend with the boyfrieeeeend”

“Wouldn't dream of it... second Edd gets here I'm off. You have an amazing weekend too, might swing by tomorrow for a movie, you working?” I say

“Yup, what else would I be doing on a Saturday” she smiles and gives a sigh, She leaves and I jump up on the counter to wait for Steve, or Edd, which ever one turns up first. I hear Steve coming from the back and I turn on the counter and smile at him.

“Hey there, so apparently you're sick...not hitting on any girls all day. What could it be that's keeping you?” I wink at him

“Hehe...yeah no idea... Must be some new idea I'm trying out” he smirks

“Yeah? How's it working out for ya?” can't help teasing him a little

“You tell me Jess... how IS it working out?” he looks around to see if there's anyone else in the store at the moment “So you talk to him?”

“I did... I think you should swing by tonight after work. Maybe take a hit with us, get relaxed and watch something interesting...perhaps” the look on his face is priceless

“Yeah?” he lowers his voice just in case “so I'm watching? Can I touch myself while I watch you guys?”

“I'd say that at least I am expecting you to, maybe that'll make Edd more into things” I say starting to imagine Steve on the couch cock in hand watching me and Edd and I feel how wet I get in an instant. I blush

“Where did your mind go now?” Steve smirks again and makes a meaning nod towards his crotch. “believe me when I say that I've been jerking off constantly since I got home from your place last night... fuck I'm up to like 5 times today at work...”

“STEVE....you left Robin out here alone to go jerk off at the idea of fucking me and Edd?” I whisper and feel my entire body tingle with excitement

“Yeah... I mean... God, you can't spring that kind of idea on a guy and expect him to leave his junk alone” he whispers back. We hear the door open and then a familiar voice

“You filling my girls head with all sorts of naughty stuff are you Harrington?” Eddie strolls over to us, looking Steve straight in the eye “I say keep going...will make for a more pleasant evening don't you think?” then he grabs my waist and helps me down from the counter. “I guess plans have been made?” he looks at me I smile and nod.

Then he does something I didn't expect which shook me...in a good way. He takes my hand and goes behind the counter so we're next to Steve, who looks at me puzzled. I shrug, I also thought we were leaving. Eddie places me with my ass towards Steve and then he fucking lifts my skirt and pull my panties to the side

“Since I am a gentleman, and I know she's dying to tease you Harrington. Here you go, feel that pussy...put a finger or two in there, see what you think” he kisses me and bends me over slightly, I gasp and then I let out a moan. Steve is gobsmacked... he looks at Eddie, then he looks at my semi bare ass with my pussy showing, dripping wet. He looks around then I feel his hand touching my ass before sliding two fingers in me with a coarse moan. I think I'm going to pass out... My nails dig in to Eddies leather jacket, too good...this is too good. Steves eyes are wide open and his breathing is heavy

“Fucking hell man... You get to finger this every day and night? Daaaamn” he pulls his fingers out of me and sticks them in his mouth “tastes as sweet as she looks too Munson”

“Yeah man, nice huh? See you later...then you can do more than that to her” he fucking lifts me up and carries me out of the store on his shoulder, smacking my ass before putting me down on the side walk nest to the van. I'm so shocked I can't speak... I open the door and get in, Eddie gets in the drivers seat and we head home.

“The fuck Edd? Warn a girl why don't ya...” I say when my brain finally starts working again

“I'm sorry...you mad? You sound mad...” Eddie sounds regretful and looks nervous

“Noooo absolutely not Edd, just very surprised. This morning we agreed on him watching if he wanted now he's gonna get to do stuff?” I say

“Yeah...well... thoughts been brewing all day, been having a boner for hours. All I could think of was seeing you impaled by Steve... railed by us both. Him in the pussy, me in the ass...and hell... I couldn't help myself. You sure you're not mad at me for that thing back there?” he looks over at me. I take his right hand and I move it in between my legs, my panties are soaked.

“Feel like I have any objections to that stunt you just pulled? I feel sorry for poor Steve though... 2 more hours before closing with a rock hard boner” I giggle “at least I have you to help me with this” I move on his hand feeling the pressure through the fabric. He pulls his hand away and smiles a devilish smile at me

“Nah babe, tonight we wait. No getting off until Steve comes. Then we'll take turns making you come all fucking night long” I think I might die from this...

“Oh...” my brain malfunctioned I can't find words. All I can do is smile. We arrive at Eddies trailer. He says

“I need to help Wayne out with some stuff, then I'm delivering some of todays orders. I should be back before Steve comes but if I'm late please do start without me... I like the idea of coming home to you having Steve already working on you”

“What's gotten in to you Munson... you're so... assertive today, I love it by the way.” I kiss him deeply feeling like I might come just from him looking at me at this point.

“Let's just say I've been thinking a lot about this today. I tried the idea of some other dude fucking you that made me violently ill, fucking green with jealousy. But thinking about you with Steve? None of that, just felt my dick throbbing in my pants. I WANT to share you with Steve, but not with anyone else. So I said to myself 'well Munson go big or go home' and when I saw you two whispering through the window well the devil on my shoulder got to work” he kisses me back and runs his hand up my thigh. “See you later babe, hopefully on your back on the couch” one more kiss then he exits the van and head in to the trailer he shares with his uncle.

What the actual HELL... I get out of the van and on very shaky legs make my way to my own trailer. I go inside and I collapse on the floor laughing. I think that there was a bit too much tension there... I sit there for like 5 minutes giggling to myself then I get up and go to the phone. I dial the number of the video store

“Family Video, this is Steve”

“Hey...”

“Fuuuuck” he lets out a guttural sound “that was INTENSE Jess...what the hell was that? Not that I mind but really c'mon am I supposed to get through this shift knowing THAT'S what's waiting for me later? I can't fucking leave the safety of the counter here... boner won't go down” he chuckles

“I don't fucking know... Edd just said he'd been thinking about you fucking me all day and that he wants to share me with you, not with anyone else only you... and that he might be late coming back tonight he needed to drop off some sales. I was thinking maybe you can get some pizza on your way over here. I need food...but right now my whole body is in an uproar...can't eat” I giggle “loved the fingers though Steve...very good technique” I hang up, but not before hearing a gasp and a cursing Steve on the other end.

I decide a cold shower, a beer and then a nap is the best course of action at this time. The shower helped...a tiny bit. The beer made me somewhat relaxed. I crawl on to my bed and fall asleep faster than I thought I would, I wake up and it feels like my mind just shut me off for an hour. I feel a lot better, more calm, cool and collected. I wanna look good tonight, then I remember. I bought a dress like 3 months ago but I've been too self conscious to wear it. It's low cut in the front, tits look awesome in it! Robin said so, she helped me pick it out for a date that never happened. It's dark green and goes down right below the knee, kind of form fitting. According to Robin “giving me the fucking best hourglass shape she's ever seen” so I guess that might be an option then? I get the dress and try it on. Yeah ass and tits have gone up a size since buying this...but I do look good... I think this whole “Eddie worshipping my body” deal has made me more confident in how I look. I brush my hair, put on some of the very fancy perfume my parents bought me before they died. I only use that on the rarest of occasions. It's pretty much all I have left of them. That and this place I call home. I look at myself again, yeah I do look good! I go back in to the living room and sit down on the couch to wait for whoever arrives first. Edd or Steve. I feel tingly all over...this night will change EVERYTHING. That's when it hits me...what if this ruins our friendship? I feel sick... should I cancel? What if this is a mistake and Steve starts avoiding us, or just me, after? I feel like I'm going to panic, and this time I am all alone I can't even go over to Eddies... what am I going to say to Wayne? “Hey can you help calm me down, I'm panicking about fucking your nephew and our best friend tonight” this actually breaks my freak out a little and I start giggling at the thought of Waynes shocked face. I start pacing in the living room, then I go back and stand in front of the mirror once more. I take a deep breath and tell myself to snap out of it, I take one more look at myself and nod at my reflection. I hear a car door slam shut and my nerves seem to have relocated to the outside of my skin.

I head back to the couch, turn on the TV and sit down. I need to look like I haven't just spent too much time freaking out about something I initiated. Everything's quiet outside, I start to think I imagined hearing the car door. I go up to the window and peek outside, there's Steve by his car seemingly frozen in his step. “Oh fuck no, he's regretting coming here” I think and feel a knot forming in my stomach. I open the door and step out on to the stairs.

“Hey Steve... what you doin' there?” he flinches and looks at me

“Oh...hey I...” he drags his hand through his hair and smiles at me “I got too fucking

nervous so I kinda froze”

“Steve... if you don't want to do this I...well we're ok with it, we can just hang out like we've always done. You're still my Stevie-boy and I love you” I reach my hand out towards him

“Nah... it's just that... I'm afraid I want this too much, you know... might be lightning speed” he gives a nervous chuckle.

“Then I take that as a compliment and we wait for it to...ehmmm...recharge” I giggle and he looks up looking a little more relaxed “You do realise I'm nervous too Steve, hell I think even cocky Munson has nerves about this” he sighs and beams at me, finally able to move he takes two long steps and is right next to me taking my hand.

“Good... I thought you two seemed so confident in this you'd think I was a pussy for being this nervous”

“Hey Harrington, the only pussy here is mine! Aaaand as you might remember...that is not nervous about this” I smirk at him and lead him in to the trailer.

I tell him to make himself comfortable on the couch and I go grab us a couple of beers, just to take the edge off a little. I turn around and..yeah he did as he was told. On my couch is an almost naked Steve, wearing nothing but boxers and a smile. I almost drop the beers

“Oh my! Well... straight to the point there Steve, I like it” I give him a flirty look

“Yeah...I mean... this ok? I thought why beat around the bush you know, this is where were going anyways so?” he smiles and pats the couch next to him for me to join him. I set the beer cans down on the table and sit down next to him close enough to feel the heat radiating from his naked body. I can't help to stare. I mean sure I've seen Steve in boxers, or well in like shorts at the beach. Not the same setting, not the same vibe. I try to figure out when my guys went from being goofy boys to these sexy grown ass men!? Steve is tall, slim and his chest hair is as impressive as the hair on his head. SEXY. AS. HELL

I can feel my juices quite literally start flowing as I eye him like a giant candy bar. I can see that my gaze turns him on, the unmistakeable sign is in his boxers. Straining against the fabric ready to be released. I raise one eyebrow and smirk at him

“Well I don't have to ask if you're ready for this do I?” I lean over and I put one hand on his cock, I can feel it's impressive. Maybe not as big as Eddies but fuck that it's big enough to satisfy me... and I hope Eddie too if I get my way. I start stroking him on the outside of his boxers, I can see a wet spot forming where he's leaking pre-cum into the fabric. He moans and his hands run up my thighs

“Did I tell you how fucking sexy this dress makes you look? If I could fuck you without taking it off I would...but I'm pretty sure I would ruin it shooting my load all over you. Too bad Munson's gonna miss seeing you in it because I'm insisting you get out of it right fucking now” he growls at me

“Hold that thought” I say and I get up and go over to the dresser I have as a TV stand. I get out my Polaroid camera. “Snap some photos of me, then we can at least show him that way” I say and smile. I pose for a couple of photos, last one being me having dropped the dress standing wearing only the set of new underwear I bought just for today. A sexy deep purple lace number.

“No more photos, need touching now” Steve puts the camera and the snapshots on the table and reach for me. Pulling me in so I end up standing between his legs. He runs his hands over my back, down to my ass squeezing the cheeks hard, up my back again, over to the front where his hand cup my breasts. “Fucking amazing... best tits ever” he mumbles as he places kisses all over my chest and belly. He looks up at me and with intense eye contact he lets his tongue run over my mound on top of my panties. His hand travelling down grabbing my ass and pulling me even closer making his tongue press against my clit through the lace.

“Damn you smell so good... And you're so fucking wet, been thinking about this all day getting yourself off?” he asks with a sexy smile

“Oh I wanted to, but Edd told me no getting off until you came over. I was to save that for you” I purr while running my hands over his head grabbing his hair pushing his face back into my pussy.

“Mmmm... smart move Munson” he says muffled by my pussy but the vibrations his voice makes are incredible, OR I'm just on the verge of a melt down from being horny all day.

“Steve” my voice is nothing more than a hiss “I need to see you now, feel you”

“Your wish is my command” he says and lets me go, he stands up and drops his boxers and I let out a pleased guttural moan as I see his cock. It's gorgeous, bigger than it felt a moment ago. I let my hand slide down his chest, down to his rock-hard erection. I grip it and begin stroking it slowly while I kiss his neck and draw in his scent. He smells good, not Eddie amazing, but really really good. I feel him shiver with arousal and he groans

“Sit down Steve” he does as he's told instantly. I straddle him on the couch, still wearing the lace panties. I want to keep them on for Eddie to enjoy too. I begin rubbing myself up and down Steves cock, loving the friction it creates. His hands have grabbed my ass cheeks, fingers digging in to the flesh. He kisses my breasts then starts sucking them, nibbling at my nipples.

“If this wasn't fucking everything I fantasised about I'd be jealous as fuck right now...but this is the hottest damn thing I've ever seen” Eddies voice interrupts us and I beam at him

“Welcome, undress and join please” I pant as I keep moving my hips on Steves lap.

“Oh try and fucking stop me babe” Eddie is already down to his boxers letting them drop and that wonderful cock springs free. He must have either watched us for a bit or been imagining what he's see when arriving by the looks of the pre-cum oozing from his cock.

He comes up behind me grabbing my ass and looking down “Fucking LOVE the lace babe but you gotta lose them now. Me and Harrington wanna go to town on ya, right big boy?” he looks down over my shoulder at Steve who's just smiling back at him

“Hell yeah! You've got one sexy girl here Munson, thanks for sharing” Steve says as I get up from his lap to take off the panties. Steve grabs the waistband and slowly pull the panties down while letting his tongue follow in their path. I'm now completely naked, soon to be pinned between two sexy guys. I'll wake up soon, right? Steve plunges his tongue in between my folds as I feel Eddies fingers penetrating me from behind. I scream out my pleasure, this is unreal. I hear Eddies husky voice in my ear

“Sit back down and take Harringtons cock like a good girl...then I'm gonna fuck your ass as he rails your pussy” I straddle Steves lap, meeting his eyes as he turns his head up to watch me when he drives his cock in me. I let out a long groan as he fills me up, he feels amazing.

“Fucking hell Jess... this pussy... oh my God” he grabs my hips as I start to ride him “how the fuck are you not permanently inside her Munson? I'd never leave if I had this around” Steve moans

“Oh I try to go there as much as I can... amazing isn't she? And you just wait til you feel her ass...and her mouth. Unless you got a taste of that before I came home” Eddie is standing behind me stroking his big cock just watching as I'm fucked senseless by Steve. Then he lets out a “Fuck I need to come in now, could you slow down for a second there big boy...don't wanna hurt our girl here” Steve stops me by digging his fingers in to my hips and pinning me down. I feel Eddies hair grace the top of my ass as he leans in. I feel his tongue against my asshole, lubing it up with his spit. Then one of his fingers enters me and I let out a growling moan. He fingers me for a bit, first one finger then two getting me ready for his cock. He spits on his hand, lubing up his cock before pressing it against my tight hole. I growl with excitement. Slowly slowly he penetrates me letting out a long deep moan when he hits bottom. We say still for a bit just getting me used to the feeling. Then I can't wait any longer I start moving, grinding on Steves cock.

“Holy shiiiiit...fuuuuuck” I scream out the orgasm that hits me out of fucking nowhere like a freight train.

“Oh good girl... two cocks is the way to go I see. Feels good right Steve? She feels fucking awesome when she squeezes your cock when she comes am I right?” Eddie murmurs, Steve is panting and moaning like crazy

“Fucking hell man... this pussy is the best I've ever felt... I'm so close...can I pick up the pace now... I just wanna fuck you sooo hard” Steve grunts in my ear kissing my neck and grabbing my tits.

“Fuck me... both of you just go fucking crazy... I need your cum... fill me” I beg and they oblige. I've never felt anything like this. Steves cock is jack hammering in my pussy, juices quite literally splashing around it. Eddie is taking it a bit slower but is still going strong in my ass. I feel the tension growing again, I'm going to come again.

“Yeah, I can feel it...you're coming again aren't you... such a good fucking girl” Eddie purrs. Once again I let out a guttural scream as the orgasm hits me. Steve joins me, I feel his cock pulsating letting his warm cum fill me. A couple of seconds later I feel Eddies hands around my as grip SO tight and I hear a primal roar from him as he releases in my ass. The room falls silent apart from our combined panting. I feel them both pull out of me and the cum dripping from both my holes, I'm going to have some cleaning to do later. Eddie lifts me up, kisses me deeply and carries me to the bathroom. He sets me down and kisses me again.

“Such a dirty girl, I love you so fucking much. That was amazing. Take a shower and come to the bedroom. Me and Harrington can clean up in the kitchen”

“Edd... I love you too... and that was intense beyond words. Promise me one thing though”

He looks at me and nods “Don't start without me” I smile and kiss him before I get in the shower to clean off the cum running down my legs. Eddie chuckles

“I make no promises, fuck Steve looks good enough to eat I might just jump his bones, but I'll be a good boy and wait for you love” he says when I pout at him. He slaps my ass before I close the shower door then he leaves and joins Steve in the other room. I can hear them talking, the walls in these trailers are paper thin.

“So Steve, how was it? Satisfied?” I can hear by Eddies tone of voice that he is giving Steve one of his really awesome smiles

“Satisfied? If I were any more satisfied I'd be dead... how the fuck have we not done this before? She's fucking perfect dude”

“Oh I know... and we're not done yet... are we?” I hear the undertone in Eddies question, the feeling around to see if there might be an interest in him as well. “I mean we've got more exploring to do...”

“Yeah... we do... don't we Edd” and there it was, the thing I most wanted to hear. I might actually get to see the love of my life getting railed by a guy and seeing him fucking loving it. I speed my shower up not wanting to miss a thing outside. I dry off and leave the bathroom, I tip toe so that I can sneak up on them. I just want to look at them, I hear they're still in the kitchen talking. I sneak up to the archway and I position myself against it to watch them. Eddie's on the counter and Steve's standing in front of him, they're just having some small talk while waiting to hear the door open to the bathroom I guess. They're magnificent to look at the both of them, my brain can't fully process this much sexiness at once.

I see that Eddie has spotted me standing there, the look in his eyes go from just a neutral one to the smouldering mischievous one I love. I can feel my pussy starting to throb, he's up to something now. Steve still hasn't seen me he's with his back to me, AMAZING ass by the way. Eddie sees me eyeing Steves ass and raises an eyebrow and gives a small smile. I feel that heavy wet feeling between my legs, can't help myself I reach down and start fingering myself. Eddie's eyes light up, oh he's loving this.

“Well Harrington, how about you and me then?” he shoots a quick glance at me and then stares at Steve

“Huh? You and me? As in...?” Steve sounds confused but also kind of suspenseful.

“Well... I do believe Jess gave you some indications as to... you and me? Am I wrong?” Eddie grabs Steve with his legs around his waist and pulls him in towards him. He then proceeds to put one hand on his neck and go in for a kiss.

At first I see Steve tensing up and I think “Fuck no” but then re relaxes and grab Edd by the neck and kiss him back, deeply and hungrily. “Never mind” I think to myself as I continue watching them, the kisses get deeper and the hands start exploring... and cocks wake up again. I almost scream out of pure arousal. But I want Steve to think they're alone just for a little longer, just to see what happens. I keep playing with my pussy which is now so wet the juices are running down my legs. I bite my bottom lip to keep from moaning too loudly.

The two of them stop kissing and just look at each other panting, I see Edd sneaking a glance at me.

“Well I must say that is a pretty impressive tool you have there Steve, no wonder our girl enjoyed you so much. I'm going to be bold enough to say I wanna try it out to of you're up for it” the smile he gives Steve makes my knees weak, think it has about the same effect on Steve because he just looks stunned. Like his brain can't find any words...at all

“Uhhh... try...how?” I hear Steve finally being able to say in a low guttural voice

“Any way you'll let me Stevie-boy” Edd purrs at him while letting his hands play on the hairs on Steves chest. I can see Steve shiver from the touch and look down, smiling and say

“Well... you don't look too bad there yourself Munson” he must have found his inner stud again because before I think Edd is even suspecting there might be some touching Steve lets his hand grip Eddies cock and he starts stroking it. Edd lets out a groan and lets his head tilt back. Now I can't help myself I let out a loud moan. Steve flinches and lets go of Eddie

“Nah hell no Steve keep going that's so fucking hot” I say as he looks over seeing me standing in the arch playing with myself. He smiles, not looking away from me his hand goes back to stroking Eddies hard cock.

“You like this? Me jerking your boyfriends fat cock? Wanna help or just watch? Didn't you wanna help Edd suck ME off? What if we start with Munson instead?” he smiles and reaches his free hand out to me. My mind goes haywire, is he suggesting what I think he is? I can see that Eddie is wondering the same thing, sitting on the counter having his cock worked on my his best friend. I don't think he suspected things to go like this, but he doesn't seem sad about it. I go up to them, taking Steves hand. He drags me closer, kisses my neck and puts my hand around his hand. We're now double jerking Eddies cock and I let out a deep moan.

“Fuck this is hot!” I look up at Eddie who is watching our hands working his rock hard erection. He growls and lifts his hips slightly

“Suck it babe...please”

I lean forward and lick the tip of his cock, tasting the pre-cum already coming out of it. I take the head in my mouth and let my tongue play around it before I let him go in deep in my mouth. I take him in as far as I can and he groans

“Fuck your mouth is heaven babe” Eddies hand grabs my hair as I continue sucking him. Steve is just watching, stroking his own rock hard cock, then I hear

“Wanna let me try?” I hear Eddie gasp and I let go of his cock with a plopping sound.

“Ooooh I would LOVE to... C'mon taste this sweet cock, I promise it's addictive” I purr at him. Eddie's eyes are now stuck on watching Steve who leans in to taste his cock. Steve licks his lips then he lets his tongue lightly play against Eddies tip. Playfully testing, tasting, exploring. Eddie moans but doesn't move, “no scaring the newbie” I think and I almost start giggling but I restrain myself. Steve becomes more confident and he tries taking the head in his mouth, circling his tongue like he saw me doing. He starts sucking, not as deep as me but good enough by the sounds coming from Eddie. I'm almost exploding where I stand. I need to get some of this action. I lean back in and I say with a low voice

“wanna share some of that Steve? We'll double up with our tongues, see if we can't make Munson scream”

“Mhmm” is the only answer I get as Steve has his mouth full. He lets go and we simultaneously use our tongues licking Eddies shaft, I go down and lick his balls as Steve takes him in his mouth again. I suck Edds balls in to my mouth and let my tongue play around them, I can feel them tightening and I hear Eddies breathing getting faster and his moans louder. I moan “ooooh Steve he's about to blow, I want some too” Steve stops sucking and we go back to licking the shaft

“C'mon babe, come on our faces...but you got to watch when you do” I murmur

Eddie looks down at us as I hear a low guttural scream working it's way out of him, then he shoots his load all over our faces. He grabs a fistful of hair in each hand, one from each of us as he squirts over and over, drenching our faces with his cum. I smile a great big smile and lick my lips “ That was amazing my babes”

“God fucking damn that was better than I could have ever imagined” Eddie is panting on the counter looking like he's about to pass out “but hell...now we need to work on Harrington babe. You up for that?”

“Oh hell yeah I am, question is... is Steve up for it?” I smile and look over to the guy on my left. Steve gasps and looks from me to Edd.

“Up for... that being done to me? Wanna kill me? Ah fuck I don't care then I'd die happy... let me just clean off and then you can do whatever you want to me” he says and smiles. He stands up and goes to the bathroom. I stand up to and put my hands on Eddies thighs

“Wanna kiss a girl with a face full of cum or should I clean off first?” I smile. Eddie just smiles back and crashes his lips into mine, kissing me deeply and purring against my lips.

“That was amazing babe, thank you for being a freak” he says

“Don't mention it, I took inspiration from the other local freak” I say and wink at him. Then I turn over to the kitchen sink and I let the water clean off all the sticky cum from my face, need it fresh for a new load. I hear Eddie chuckle at my remark about him being a freak, he jumps down from the counter and slaps my ass.

“Meet you two in the bedroom” he says and walks off. I dry my face and follow him. As I pass the bathroom Steve comes out and I grab his hand and drag him along. As we come up to the bed I push Steve down on his back and get in to the bed beside him. Eddie is already in the bed on his other side.

“Well Stevie-boy, I'd say you're up but I can see that's an understatement. Someone exited to have two mouths working him?” Eddie says and smiles with a look at Steves massive hard-on twitching at us.

“I don't think I've ever been this exited...” Steve swallows loudly as me and Edd look at each other and lower our heads towards the waiting cock. In unison our tongues shoot out and lick the tip. Eddie starts licking down the shaft as I take Steves cock in my mouth and start sucking. He growls

“Fucking hell Munson you weren't lying about this mouth” he grabs my head and helps me set a pace. Eddie smiles

“Yeah I told you, let's just hope I don't disappoint then” he continues working the lower part of the shaft with his tongue before going down starting to lick Steves balls.

I let go of Steves cock and I whisper in Edds ear

“C'mon babe I want to see you take him now I want to see you swallow Steves load” this makes Eddie moan and sends a shiver through him. He lifts his head and licks his lips. He takes Steves cock in his hand stroking it a couple of times before he lowers his head and takes him in his mouth. Me and Steve moan in unison now. Eddie begins to suck Steve as I take over the balls. I lick and suck them, just like I did Edds. “Eddie really has good technique” I think to myself and moan. Steve's eyes are rolling in his head, his guttural moans are getting louder and louder. I feel the tightening and I release his balls so that I can watch Eddie take the load. Steve has grabbed Eddies head with both hands now while meeting his sucking with his hips. Then with a deep coarse scream he releases down Eddies throat. Eddie swallows to best of his abilities, some cum dripping down the side of his mouth. I lean in and I lick it off.

“I want to taste too... mmm... Steve tastes good am I right babe?” I purr

“He sure does” Eddie smiles at me and kisses me, letting his tongue go deep in my mouth so I can have what's left of Steves cum. I suck his tongue and he moans. “Damn babe if I had known you wanted a taste that bad I would have saved some more instead of swallowing it all”

“I'll take the next one” I smirk and wink at him, he chuckles. “Hey Steve you alive up there?” I giggle

“I don't fucking know...” he's panting like he's run a marathon...or two “how the actual HELL are you two even real?” he asks and looks down at the two of us still lying between his legs smiling up at him.

“Don't know...magic?” I say and giggle, suddenly feeling how tired I am. This has been a suspenseful day. I yawn

“Awww our girl's sleepy Steve, you wanna stay or you going home and we'll see you tomorrow night?” Eddie asks.

“I would LOVE to stay but I have work in the morning, and I think if I stay I won't get a full nights rest. And let me tell you after this... I'm in need of that” Steve smiles at us. I crawl up and place a kiss on Steves lips

“Thanks for tonight Stevie-boy, I love you”

“Love you too sweetie, you're not so bad either Munson” Steve chuckles and Eddie laughs

“Wow thanks man, I'd say you don't suck either but I KNOW that's a lie”

I sigh with relief, nothing seems to have changed. We're still good, I still have my boys. Even if I might HAVE my boys in other ways from now on. I feel myself drifting off, Steve kisses my head and I feel him get out of bed, After that I'm out! I wake up, it's dark and I hear Eddie sleeping next to me with one arm underneath me and the other over me. I wiggle free and get up, I need to pee and have a drink. I feel very satisfied and happy, this night was a success! Now if I could just get Steve to fuck Eddie I'll be in heaven! I smile as I crawl back into bed, sliding in between Eddies arms again. Feeling loved and safe. I fall back to sleep in an instant.

When I wake up the sun is high in the sky and Eddie isn't in the bed. I hear him mucking about in the kitchen, singing along to something on the radio. I stretch out and feel very well rested. I get up and go out to see what he's up to out there. As I open the door I'm met by the smell of coffee and pancakes. I love that he's learned to cook, I feel spoiled and I can't be happier!

“Morning you sexy beast!” I say as I enter the kitchen

“Sexy beast? That sounds more like Hairy Harrington” Eddie says and laughs “breakfast is served...or brunch I guess, I was just about to come wake you up with kisses ans coffee” he says

“Well damn, wait just a second I'll run back and fall asleep again then. I didn't want to miss that” I say with pretend hurt

“Awww...you know kisses and coffee is always offered to you any time” Eddie hands me a mug and covers my face with kisses “I had a fucking awesome night last night, you really are one of a kind. Never ever leave me”

“I wouldn't dream of it! I had the best time also, you two made my knees weak and my head spin” I kiss him back deeply “but what was this about brunch? The smell of pancakes is amazing, you spoil me babe...don't stop” I smile and take Eddies hand and head for the table. Which he of course has set, when the hell did he become so domestic? We eat and talk about the events of last night, both agreeing that Steve was more in to things than we thought he'd be.

“Now I just hope I'll get to see him rail you babe” I say and Eddie damn near spits his coffee all over me

“Fuuuuck woman you have some seriously dirty ideas, you really want to see that?” he looks at me with a curious face

“Hell yeah! I wanna see him put that big dick of his in you...really pin you to the mattress. Make you squirm underneath him...while I sit on your face and make you eat my pussy as Steve fucks your ass and cums deep inside you...” Eddie's stopped breathing, he looks like he's having a stroke. I can almost hear his brain processing what I just said. There's complete silence and I begin to think I might have gone too far this time. Then he just stands up, jumps the fucking table and drags me down on the floor. His hands are everywhere at once. Oh my God! This is turning me on insanely fast! He rips my panties and plunges his rock hard cock in me. I hadn't even noticed he took any clothes off. He crashes his lips into mine, kissing me hungrily. His hands find their way under my t-shirt squeezing my tits.

“I FUCKING LOVE your dirty mind” he growls while he fucks me hard like he's desperate to feel me, like it's the last time. I scream out the pleasure he gives me

“Fuuuuck Edd... fuuuuuck” I can feel the tension before the release. I come hard around his cock and he groans and fills me with his seed at the same time.

“Wow Edd... ALWAYS make me brunch” I pant and Eddie laughs where he's slumped on top of me. He looks up at me and gives me a kiss

“I'm sorry I couldn't stop myself... I should have made sure you were ready, I didn't hurt you did I?” he says with a soft voice

“God no! Did it feel like I thought it was bad in any way? Fucking seeing you lunge at me from across the table made me instantly wet, no worries there Edd. I'm fucking ready for you all day every day” I kiss the top of his head and hug him tight.

“Mmmm naughty” I hear him purr against my chest before he gets up and helps me to my feet “you go hit the shower and I'll clean this off then I'll join you” he says and gives me a kiss. “Then I think we should go in to town and go tease Stevie-boy, what do you say?” he chuckles

“Ooooh my second favourite Steve activity” I say and giggle, Eddie laughs and smacks my ass before I head in to the bathroom. I hear him clean the table then he comes in to the bathroom and gets in the shower with me.

“I need to get my stuff over here...this shit does nothing for my luscious locks” he says and laughs pointing at my shampoo bottle.

“Oh sorry Mr I need my special products to make my hair perfect” I laugh and Eddie lets out a “hmpf” and starts tickling me. I scream

“Yeah that's for teasing me about my locks babe”

We finish showering and get ready to head out. I didn't tell Eddie but I “forgot” underwear under my dress...ops... In case he was planning another one of his stunts when we see Steve today. Might as well be prepared. Or perhaps I should surprise them with a small show. I smile to myself. Eddie looks at me

“What's that smile about? You planning something?”

“Nah just happy I have you babe” I say sounding sweet and innocent

“Awww sweetheart! Likewise” he says and takes my hand and kisses it. Good he bought it I think and smile even wider. We listen to Metallica and sing along to the songs as we head in to town. Eddie sounds amazing as always, me not so much...

We park the van and head for Family video. We see Robin is manning the register again, that must mean Steve is in the back again today. We go in and Robin gives us a beaming smile

“Hey my sweeties, how are you this fine day?”

“Great Robin, how are you? You seem very cheerful... something happen?” I ask her

“Oh nothing much...except” she lowers her voice “I have a hot date tonight” and then she lets out a squeal and claps her hands. I laugh

“Wow that's awesome Robin! Congrats...that girl you mentioned a while back?”

“Yup that's the one! I'm so excited...and nervous...and a little nauseous. Everything at once you know” she says then she does a little dance I giggle at her

“So Steve unpacking stuff again today?” I ask

“No, he's on his break right now. He's in the back if you wanna go say hi” Robin smiles at a customer that just came in. We nod and head to the back room.

Steve's sitting at the table having a coke flipping through a magazine when we come in. He looks up and his face lights up.

“Hey there” he looks behind us to see if Robin's with us when he sees she's not he gets to his feet and grabs us both. Gives us each a hungry kiss and says with a coarse voice “thanks for last night, fuck that was amazing”

“Hello to you to Steve, I like this form of greeting. New Family video policy?” Eddie chuckles

“Yeah, wouldn't that be something” Steve laughs “can't you just see me manhandling Jason Carver when he comes in to get his Friday night movie?”

“Ewww...please I was just getting in to this, don't ruin it” I say and make a face at Steve who roars with laughter at me. He swoops me up in his arms and spins around. I see Eddies reaction and I know my surprise worked like a charm.

“Heeeeey wait a minute... Steve stop and hold her just like that” he says and that mischievous look in his eyes is back. Steve looks at me confused, I just smile. He stops and turn towards Eddie with me still in his arms. Eddie closes in and without taking his eyes off me sticks his hand in under my skirt as I squeal. “Oh we have a very naughty girl here Steve...no panties what so ever”

Steves eyes are gigantic as he looks down at me

“You came in here commando? The fuck Jess, you trying to get me fired?” I can hear the smile on his voice so I don't take offence by this. He sets me down on the table and turns around to check if Robin is anywhere near by. But her head can still be seen turned away from us at the front of the store. He then turns his attention to me again, letting his hands slide up my thighs in under my skirt. Eddie stands beside him looking out the small window on the door, keeping an eye out for Robin.

“Damn it Munson you're right, nothing here stopping us...” he licks his lips as I feel him pushing two fingers in me. I mewl loudly, he puts the other hand over my mouth “No, no sweetie not a sound. I just wanna feel you for a bit. Then Munson can take you home and make you wish you're screaming MY name.” he slips one more finger in and he fucks me to an inch of my sanity. Then he abruptly stops takes his fingers out of me, pulls my skirt down over my knees, looks at Eddie and extends his fingers at him. Eddie gives a devilish smile and takes his fingers in his mouth and sucks them clean of my juices. If I wasn't sitting down I'd be a puddle on the floor.

“Fuck you guys will be the death of me” Steve groans and fixes his jeans which seem a few sizes too small suddenly “now go before Robin starts wondering how long my break is going to be. I need a second or more to you know...cool down” He smiles and gives me a passionate kiss “see you later” then he does the same with Eddie and my heart nearly stops. Eddie smiles and clears his throat and fixes his own jeans as well.

“I might need a small cooling off moment my self before going out there. I'll just go put my hands under some cold water. Be right back babe you go out and talk to Robin” I give the two of them a beaming smile and a little laugh.

“Well sometimes it's soooo good to be a girl. No apparent signs” I say and walk back into the front to talk to Robin, as I turn my back on them I lift my skirt and wiggle my ass at them.

“Fuckin tease” I hear Steve murmur and Eddie agreeing. I giggle to myself. Robin turns around when she hears me coming.

“You tell him his break is over now? Was he sitting there flipping through magazines with that stupid grin on his face again?”

“Yeah I told him you we're in dying need of help out here. Actually he WAS doing exactly that” I laugh “been doing that a lot lately?”

“Yeah, damn annoying if you ask me. All day, like he's on another planet...fucking alien. If I didn't know better I'd say he's in love.” she scoffs “but that's a far stretch considering his idea of a long term commitment after Nancy is like 2 dates.” she laughs at her own conclusion in the matter. I just smile

“Yeah, Stevie-boy isn't the likeliest to fall in love. When was the last girl he had? The one at the party wasn't it?”

“Yeah, and she didn't score too high I get it. Nah...maybe he's just going insane for real” Robin shrugs and turn her attention to me. “What about you? You look flustered are you feeling ok?” she looks worried

“What? No, I'm ok...just you know that break room of yours is very hot, and...well big body I get warm easily” I give a small laugh all the while thinking “Fuuuck maybe I ought to have taken a moment too”

“Oh c'mon girl you're not that big. But yeah that is a compact space, it does get pretty warm in there and you were three people in there.” she looks at me “You look better already, cooler out here?”

“Yeah much better temperature out here” I smile

“Where'd Munson go by the way?” she just now realised Eddie wasn't by my side.

“Toilet” I say, I mean I wasn't lying so

“Ah, ok.” just then Eddie comes back out to us. He smiles at Robin and gives me a kiss on the cheek.

“You girls ought to try that some time. Pissing like a God is good for the soul” he gives us a showstopping smile

“Really Munson? That was necessary why?” Robin makes a disgusted face and Eddie laughs

“Just for the pure joy of it Buckley nothing more” he winks at her, she rolls her eyes and sighs at him. We stay and chat a while with Robin, and Steve who finally comes out of hiding as Robin puts it. Then Eddie slaps my ass and says

“Nope babe this won't do! We still need to hit the liquor store and the grocery store, I have a list from Wayne as well. He must be wondering if we ran away with his cash by now”

We leave with a bye to Robin and a VERY meaningful look at Steve who gives a small nod and a discrete smile. A promise for later. I can feel my insides tingle as I think about what happened in the back room, and I can tell by the look Eddie gives me that it's fresh in his mind as well. We go and get what we're supposed to both from our list and from Waynes. The owner of the liquor store eyes Waynes list and then he looks at Eddie.

“Has Wayne developed a drinking problem? Wasn't long ago he bought booze...you mean to tell me he needs more?” Eddie isn't 21 yet so Wayne always sends a note with him to this particular store, the proprietor is a friend of his. Since Wayne works nights he's rarely awake to go himself, and as a thank you he lets Eddie buy what he wants to, within limits.

“He had some work buddies over last weekend, that was a wet night if you know what I mean. They were shitfaced the lot of them. Had to take one guy home by 11.” Eddie laughs

and this seems to be what needed to be said because Eddie gets his “order for Wayne” pays and we leave.

We then hit the grocery store and then we head home. Eddie goes in to his and Waynes trailer to drop off the stuff he bought for them and to get some fresh clothes and yeah...his hair products. I teased him relentlessly for it when he mumbled to himself not to forget them.

I head in to my place and put away my stuff. Then I go take a shower and I go lay down on the bed. Didn't feel tired but somehow I fall asleep. I don't know how long I slept when I wake up. I can tell it's quite a bit later because it's gotten just a bit dark in my bedroom. I almost scream out loud when I turn and see Eddie on the bed next to me, I must have been fast asleep if I didn't notice him coming in and lying down. He's also sleeping with the sweetest smile on his face. I carefully get out of bed and go out into the kitchen thinking I might start making dinner. If he can surprise me with breakfast and brunch when I wake up I'll make him dinner for when he wakes up. Then I hear a car door outside so I look up at the clock. Damn it's later than I thought, that must be Steve. I look down, I'm completely naked... Oh well he won't mind. So I jump up on the counter facing the door and I wait. I hear a knock and Steve opens the door. He just stares...not a sound coming over his lips.

“Would you come in and close the door, don't need the whole trailer park to see my pussy” I say and smirk. Steve flinches and hastily closes the door and locks it behind him.

“Wow...hello...” he smiles and begins to undress at once not taking his eyes off me for a second. I feel how I get wetter by the second as Steves body emerges from underneath his clothes.

“Well hello there sexy, come here often?” I say and I spread my legs wide for him. He grins at me and lets out a coarse moan.

“This is how every workday needs to end I swear to God!” he takes two steps and he's right between my legs. Sliding his hands up my thighs and kissing my breasts “where the hell is Munson? How is he missing THIS?” he finds my clit with his fingers and starts playing with it. I moan in his ear

“Eddie's sleeping, why don't we sneak in there really really quietly and wake him up in a really good way”

“Fuck yeah!” Steve purrs, he leans down and sucks my clit in between his lips and pushing two fingers in me making me shiver all over. Then he pulls out, licks his fingers, winks at me and helps me down. “Lets go” he says and leads me in to the bedroom.

We carefully lay down on either side of Eddie on the bed. Luckily for us he must have taken a shower to before getting in with me, he's butt naked too. I whisper in Steves ear as quietly as I can.

“Steve...I don't know if you'd be up for this. But I would really like to see you fuck Edd...like REALLY like it” I hear a deep intake of air and Steve moans quietly

“Think he'd let me?”

“Oh I know he would, we've talked about it” I say and I feel Steve getting goosebumps all over as he lets out a long deep growl.

“You have some kind of lube or?” I nod, I bought some today when Eddie wasn't looking just to surprise him. I take out the bottle and Steve smiles. I can see he's already very excited, his cock is twitching and I see the tip is getting wet. I moan softly.

I squirt out some lube on the tip of Steves cock and tell him to make himself ready. I bend down and take Eddies cock in my mouth feeling it awaken almost instantly. He stirs and blinks his eyes. Then his mind registers what he's seeing. Me with his hardening cock down my throat and Steve standing on his knees stroking his rock hard cock that is slippery from lube just looking at Eddies ass. The semi hard cock in my mouth turns solid in a second and Eddie groans loudly

“Fuuuuuck I wanna wake up in this bed every fucking day. It's always a treat! What you got there Stevie-boy, is that for me or for Jess? He spreads his legs and pulls his knees up so his ass is better exposed. I take that as an invite and I squirt some lube on my fingers and I slowly push one in, Eddie wasn't expecting that and he growls. “Wooow Jess, you've bought the good stuff. Oh fuck that glides in easy, give me another one” I'm not late to do as he begs. I put on some more lube and I push another finger in. Then I feel it, Steve is using his lubed fingers to enter my ass, guess the sight of my ass between Eddies legs was too good to pass up. I moan and Eddie looks pleased. “Yeah fuck my girls ass while you wait for her to make mine ready for you big boy. Can't wait to feel you press that cock in me” Steve groans and starts fucking my ass faster with his finger, he has bigger hands than Eddie I can feel that. I feel that Eddie seems very relaxed now and I purr at Steve

“Now big boy, you're up. Please put that delicious cock in my boyfriend” I feel him taking his finger out of my ass, giving his cock another couple of strokes. I squirt some more lube on Eddies asshole and I sit back and watch as Steve takes my place between Eddies legs. He grits his teeth trying to hold back knowing very well he is bigger than my fingers. Eddie is flustered and breathing heavily. His cock is twitching on his belly leaking pre-cum so that a small puddle has formed in his bellybutton. I lean forward and lick it up then I take his cock in my mouth. I tilt my head so I can look up at Steve while sucking Eddies dick. He groans and pushes the head of his cock on Eddies tight hole. I see it slowly entering making Eddie squirm and moan loudly. Steve is taking his time, even if I can tell he just wants to push in to the hilt in one go and fuck Eddie like a crazy man. Eddie pants and grabs my hair with one hand and reaches down my ass with the other one.

“Sit on my face babe, sit on my face so I can eat you out while you jerk me and Steve fuuuuuuucks meeee OH GOD DAMN!” he cries out as Steve hits bottom. Steve stays still for me to get up and straddle Eddies face. He immediately starts eating my pussy like it's his last meal and I scream it feels so good! I lean forward and I kiss Steve deeply as my hand works Eddies cock. Steve starts to move in and out of Eddies ass, very slowly at first. But when he feels Edd relaxing more he picks up the pace. I have the BEST view sitting on Eddies face looking down as he is fucked by a big dick. Eddie is writhing beneath us now, moaning loudly in to my pussy making it feel even better from the vibrations. Steve is fucking Eddie like there's no tomorrow, Eddie is almost screaming into my pussy as he is working my clit like a maniac. And me... I'm just in heaven. I let go and I come like I've never come before, Eddie is squeezing my ass as I release all over his face.

“Fuck yeah babe, good giiiirl. That's what seeing me being fucked does to you? We need to do this more often....ooooooh fuuuuuck man...I'm close too” I can feel he is close, the cock in my hand is throbbing and I can actually SEE the tightening of his balls. Then he lets himself go. He comes all over himself and over me, squirt after squirt as he lets out a long coarse groan. Steve is close too I can hear it he is panting and moaning, his grip on Eddies legs tightening.

“Fuuuuuck man your ass... fuuuuuck here it cooooomes” and he cries out in a long deep moan as he fills Eddies ass with his warm cum. As he emptied himself completely he falls over on his side sounding like he's having a real struggle breathing but smiling like a mad man. I've slid off Eddies face and I'm lying nest to him panting but SO satisfied. This was all I expected it to be. I look at Eddie who's beaming at me

“So this is what it's like... I understand why you're a fan! I love you thank you for being a dirty freak” he kisses me then he looks over at Steve “and thank you for being one too” Steve smiles back at us

“Thank you both for letting me find out I am one! This was mindbogglingly good, not to be rude though Edd... I'd love to do this again but I think I'm more of a pussy guy.” he chuckles

“Who isn't? Good thing we have the best of the best here to share then” Eddie says and smiles kissing me. Steve wholeheartedly agree.

We lay there talking about everything beneath the stars. Not just sex, but life in general. We get up I make us dinner and we watch some TV. Then we have some more sex, a little more mellow this time. We talk about how we're going to go on from here. We all agree that we're not in love with each other, I mean me and Eddie are in love and Steves loves us as a friend. That hasn't changed at all, and whenever we want another in the mix we just call Steve and he'll be right over.

A few months down the line I get a call from my aunt, she asks me if it would be ok if my cousin comes to stay with me for a while. She wanted to celebrate my graduation and maybe see if she could get a summer job ANYWHERE but Texas. Sure, I mean why not. I like her a lot and I think I might have an idea for her.

Eddie and I graduate, one with better grades than the other. No surprise there, and Eddie being himself does exactly what he'd always said he would do on graduation. He flipped the headmaster off and snatched the diploma and ran out of the auditorium. Giving Steve a high five as he passes him! He gets a standing ovation from his friends, as he should.

My cousin arrived a couple of days before graduation and her and Eddie get along perfectly. As I suspected , and hoped they would. He even agrees with me on one very specific detail. See my cousin Leia is a metalhead just like Eddie. If you didn't know then you would most likely think they were brother and sister, twins even. They look so much alike, I want to try and set her up with Steve. Eddie loves the idea, saying that even he can see the resemblance between them, and that Steve ought to like that about her. Giving me a smile that sends me right back to the events of last time us three had some fun together. I grin at him saying that he shouldn't get any ideas, I am NOT bringing my cousin in to the mix. He assures me that was not on his mind, even he's not that weird. Then he laughs and pulls me closer.

“I love you, and that's enough woman for a lifetime babe! Steve is just a toy for special occasions. But lets try and get him a woman of a lifetime too, it's the best!” then he kisses me deeply and slaps my ass.

I talk to Leia the night after graduation, like feeling around a little...is she straight? Gay? What's her deal? She giggles at me

“The fuck Jess, you trying to set me up or what?”

“Actually...yeah... just wanted to know what you like... dick or pussy?” I laugh and she looks shocked

“Wow cus, didn't peg you for being that outspoken. You changed, for the better I must say! Ok so who is it? You peaked my interest here” she sits down on my bed

“Steve” I say “Harrington, you met briefly at graduation today” I say watching her think about all the people she met that day

“The one with the awesome hair...but kinda preppy? That's who you see me with? Well ok dude's very hot I'll give you that, but he seems...you know boring” she says

“Nah, Steve's great. Not boring, looks preppy yeah but from what I've heard he's anything but when it counts” I say and smirk at her, she needn't know that I have first hand experience...

“Oh really! Hmmm...interesting. Ok what the hell I'll give him a chance. You think he'll go for me though? I'm not your average pretty girl...” she looks a bit self-conscious

���No worries there Leia, you're a hot piece of action! He'd be so lucky” I hug her reassuringly “and I'll fucking tell him that”

We laugh about it and I tell her all the dirt on Steve...or well... all the dirt she needs to know. We have a great time and then Eddie comes over. I tell him we have the green light to set Steve up with Leia. He high fives her and says that that's the best decision she's made after coming here. Steve needs a girl to educate him in the finer things in life. Metallica and Ozzy Osbourne

“I love the guy but his taste in music is a fucking disaster... I don't have the tools to... ahem... change his mind like you do” then he plops himself down behind me on the bed and wraps his arms around me pulling me closer “like this one here changing me completely... I was such a loser before she got her hands on me” he kisses my neck and I giggle. Leia just smiles at us

“Fuck I want what you have guys, you're so disgustingly happy”

“Hear that Munson... she sounds like Robin and looks like you. Steve ought to love her just from that alone... and I mean she's related to ME so that should be the icing on the cake” we laugh at this and decide that tomorrow I'll invite Steve over for a party and we'll see if they hit it off or not.

“I think this will be the beginning of something beautiful” Eddie looks pleased.

We spend the rest of the evening watching TV and talking about Leia's life in Texas our lives here. Whether or not she might consider staying here for longer if things work out with Steve. She says she wouldn't mind, that both the climate and the people here in Hawkins suits her better than Texas ever did.

As we say our good nights and I crawl in to bed I hear a small knock at my window. I frown, who the hell? I open the blinds and there's Eddie.

“Edd babe, you couldn't stay away even for a few nights?” I say as I open the window and he climbs in

“Noooo... can't sleep without your ass to cuddle” he says and pulls me in groping my ass and squeezing it hard making me gasp.

“Edd, we can't... She's right outside on the couch, she'll hear and I don't want that”

“I can be soooo quiet babe, and if I tell you to be I know you can too” his hands are already starting to undress me. He pulls my pyjama bottoms down and then he kneels in front of me letting his tongue play over my belly. “Not a sound babe, you hear me? I won't continue if you so much as squeak” he says and stares up at me. I nod and he gives me a devilish smile. Then he attacks my pussy with his tongue making me have to bite my knuckles to keep from moaning loudly. He licks me and flicks my clit with the tip of his tongue, letting one hand work it's way up between my legs so he can push them open a bit more and slide a couple of finger in me. I stand there one hand in my mouth biting down hard to keep from making any sound and the other hand on Eddies head grabbing a handful of hair pressing him closer to me.

“I wanna fuck you so bad right now...but we both know that bed of yours creaks. Mind riding me silly on the floor?” Eddie whispers when he pulls his mouth away for a second but still fucking me with his fingers. I can't do anything but nod “That's my good girl” he pulls his fingers out of me and I sigh deeply. I look down at my hand and I have fucking broken the skin when biting down. Eddie sees it too and he looks at me “For fucks sake Jess, I'm sorry...I didn't think you'd be that obedient babe...does it hurt? Go get that cleaned off and I'll be right here on the floor waiting with my cock ready to impale you”

I smile and I pull my pyjama bottoms up and sneak out in to the bathroom, I can hear Leia has fallen asleep. She snores softly in the darkness. I clean off the small bite marks on my hand and put a band aid on them. Then I sneak back in to my bedroom where a fully naked Eddie is laying on the floor. Pillows behind his head with his cock in his hand slowly stroking it.

“Fucking hell Edd...” I whisper as I undress as quickly as possible. I go up to him and I stand over him one leg on either side oh him and I let my fingers play in my folds. His eyes intensely following my every move

“That's a good girl, show me where you want me. Oh God I made you wet babe, you're fucking dripping down on me” he whispers and I see he's right. Drops of my juices fall and land on his stomach, this makes me even hornier for him. I kneel down and place myself over his cock slowly rubbing my soaking wet folds over his length. Now it's his turn to bite his knuckles

“Not a sound babe, wasn't that what you told me? Let me fuck you like there's no tomorrow” I whisper softly as I slide the tip of his cock in between my folds and let him come in to my warmth. I slide down on him feeling him fill me up and hitting bottom before I start moving up and down his rock hard cock. I roll my hips with every downstroke. His eyes are rolling back in his head and I can see he is fighting the urge to groan out loud, I know he loves this and so do I. I'm having a hard time myself not just screaming his name right now feeling him hit bottom every time I sit down. I slide my hand down and start circling my clit with my fingers feeling the orgasm closing in. How the fuck am I going to come on this cock without making a sound. I lean down and I grab Eddies neck with my free hand and I yank him up in a sitting position. I plunge my lips onto his and I kiss him hungrily as I feel myself tipping over the edge and release all over him. I let out a long sigh and I bury my head in the fold of his neck and I bite down on his skin as I come. He gasps and grabs my ass and his fingers dig in to my flesh as he comes in me filling me up with his warm cum. He kisses my neck and hisses

“Fucking hell... I think you drew blood there my little vampire” I giggle in to his neck

“I'm so sorry babe but that was the only way to keep from screaming your name when you felt that damn good inside of me” I say and I move his hair to look at what damage I have done to him. There is an obvious bite mark on his neck but I didn't break the skin “No blood love just a token of my love on your neck” I whisper in his ear, he smiles at me

“Well you did really good keeping quiet babe, but I must say I like it more when I get to hear you enjoy yourself”

“Oh likewise... making you moan is my favourite hobby” I say as I lift myself off him so he can slide out and we can move to the bed and get some sleep. “I need to go clean off a little” I say and kiss him

“I'm going to join you, need to wash off a bit to someone came good on me” me motions down and I see I fucking gushed all over him, there's even a wet spot on the floor where we sat. I giggle

“Maybe we should have put down a towel, didn't think you'd get me that wet” I kiss him and take him by the hand as we sneak out into the bathroom to clean off. Then we head back to bed and slide down under the covers and fall asleep. We're woken up by Leia's voice in the morning

“Did you fucking crawl in through the window after I fell asleep? You know you could have just stayed from the beginning, it's not like I don't know you sleep together. Get up now I made breakfast” then she laughs and goes back in to the kitchen. Me and Eddie giggle and he gives me a hug from behind

“You heard the other metalhead... breakfast” he says and jumps out of bed and starts to dress.

“Come back I want a kiss and a bit of a snuggle before I eat” I say and reach out to pull him back. He pretends to resist but falls over back into bed. I crawl on top of him and kiss him then I lay my head on his chest and breath in the smell that is HIM. “Love you freak” I say

He wraps his arms around me real tight and kisses the top of my head “God I love you too weirdo...but...hungry” he moans and I laugh and roll off him.

“Ok, ok get dressed and go eat I'll be right behind you” I say and he beams at me getting out of bed and putting his shirt on and heading for the kitchen. I get up and I pick out a dress today, I wanna look nice when I convince Steve I have THE girl for him. I go out to join the two of them already in some deep discussion about the latest Metallica album. Leia made eggs, bacon, toast and coffee... Maybe I need a housekeeper I think to myself and giggle. They look up at me

“What?” Leia asks

“I just thought that I might need a housekeeper this is nice being spoilt like this”

“What the hell?! I make you pancakes all the time, why is this different I never get an offer to be a housekeeper” Eddie scuffs and pouts

“Awww sweetie I have another use for you” I say and kiss him, this puts a smile back on his face and Leia makes a grimace.

“Sickening...absolutely sickening how cute you two are” she shakes her head and continues eating. Eddie smiles and squeezes my thigh under the table. I know he loves to hear that we're cute together. Eddie and Leia are going to go job hunting today and I'm going to Family Video to talk to Steve. I already have a job lined up at City Hall. I'm going to work in their archives, keeping track of files, getting things for people that need to look something up etc. I found it in the paper the week before graduation and I applied. Haven't told Eddie I got it yet, I've said I'm waiting to hear back from a few places and that's why I'm taking on Steve today instead of jobs. I ride in with them and head on over to the video store.

“Hola chica! Isn't it nice being an responsible adult now that you've graduated?” Robin calls out when I enter.

“Responsible what? Never heard of it...have you?” I tease

“Ouch... But ok...no” she laughs “What no Munson today? What gives?”

“Him and my cousin are job hunting today. I'm set so I thought I'd come here and hang out with the only two other friends I have....which by the looks of it is only one today. No Steve?”

“You're set? You got the job at City Hall? Oh my God congratulations sweetie! We NEED to celebrate! Steve? Oh, no he's somewhere out back. We just got a new shipment in. Wait a sec” she hops down from the counter and goes in the back and I hear her shout

“HEY DINGUS! Jess is here come out of hiding” then she comes back out to me.

Doesn't take long for Steve to appear in the back door. He smiles at me and comes up and gives me a hug

“Hey! So how's adult life? Pain right?”

“Again with the adult thing... Would sound so much better coming from someone who actually knows what it's like” I say and make a face at him

“Damn... did you hear that Robin? She called me immature...or something” he looks fake hurt

“Yeah...she did the same to me... guess that's what happens when you get a hoytie toytie job at City Hall” Robin snorts and Steve stares at me

“YOU GOT IT!!! Wow Jess grats! We're celebrating right? Tonight?” he looks at me and I see that glimmer in his eyes and I know what he's thinking in ways of celebrating.

“Yeah... me and Edd we're thinking of having a small party tonight. But DON'T say anything when he gets here about the job. He thinks the party is for my cousin who just got here he doesn't know I got the job yet. Speaking of which.... Steeeve you love me right?”

He looks at me confused “Yeah... what do you need?”

“I don't need you to do anything but I want you to... meet my cousin I think you'll really like her. You saw her briefly at graduation” I give him my sweetest smile

“Hell yeah! A girl for Steve I'm in rooting all the way!” Robin claps her hands excitedly. Steve looks at me with a look that is hard to read

“Uhmm... yeah I guess I could meet her if you think I'll like her. I don't recall her I'm sorry I was talking to so many people that day” he gives me a apologetic smile

“Oh no worries, she remembered you though...thought you were hot” I wink at him and Robin lets out a long ooooh. Steve blushes

“She did? Cool” yup there it was I got his attention.

“Eddie and Leia, that's her name, will be here in a while. Then you'll get to meet her properly! They're out job hunting. Mind if I stick around here with you guys?” I ask and I see Steve is busy trying to remember who she is

“Nah it's cool you can stay out here with me while STEVE continues with the new shipment” Robin shouts Steves name to snap him out of his own mind

“Yeah, yeah you stay I go” he mumbles and leaves for the back again.

“You really messed with that mind of his now... There won't be any more unpacking out back today, he'll just stay standing wrecking his brain to figure out who your cousin is” Robin laughs

“I know, I'm sorry” I laugh. We talk about my new job, what having Leia here feels like. Since it's Friday there's quite a lot of customers coming in to get the weekend movies. Then I see Eddies van park outside and I feel those butterflies. Robin looks at me

“Still? Like it's been months and you still look at him like you've just met” she smiles then she sees Leia “The fuck? They related too? They look like the same person...wow”

“Yup, we decided Steve's gonna love her. She sounds like you, looks like Eddie and is related to me so she's a trifecta of awesomeness” I laugh

“Looks like Eddie? That's a selling point with Steve?” she looks surprised

“Well she's never not going to be related to me and I figured Steve wouldn't go for her as much if she sounds like Eddie and looks like you...sorry I love you but to Steve you're a sister. I mean I know he thinks Eddie looks good, he said so once. Drunk as a skunk but still” that's a nice way to put it that won't make Robin too curious.

“Hahahaha yeah I guess you're totally right there. Better to look like Munson and sound like me. So Steve thinks Eddie looks good...well I guess he does. If you're in to guys” she smiles making a mental note to tease Steve later

“Don't make him feel bad about it Robin... it was just a drunken thing trying to make me feel better about liking Eddie” I say and she nods

“Yeah ok, I guess I would have said it too in that situation” she hugs me. The bell on the door goes off and Eddie and Leia come in.

“Babe! I've missed you...this one is not a good substitute... She's meeeean” he pouts and Leia laughs

“What! I just said I didn't have your love coloured glasses on so he couldn't get away with any old crap” she shrugs and smiles at us “Hi I'm Leia, Jess's cousin” she shakes hand s with Robin who actually blushes

“Hi, Robin... You're very pretty...oh...wait...sorry... I like your look” what the hell Robin's never this awkward

“Thanks! Doesn't make me look to much like this douche though right?” Leia points at Eddie

“See babe...mean” he comes up and throws himself into my arms

“Aww there, there” I say and stroke his head “I'll make it better later” then I kiss his forehead. Leia looks at Robin and rolls her eyes

“Fucking sickening am I right?”

“I knoooow right? So sweet it makes you gag” Robin's snapped out of her awkwardness apparently. We hear the door in the back slam and I look at Eddie

“Ok this is it” I whisper he nods at me. Leia and Robin are talking and having a good time when we see Steve coming out from the back room. He stops dead in his tracks just staring at Leia, then he stares at us and back at her. I can see he's getting nervous, his hand darts up to his head and he runs his fingers through his hair. It's his thing when his nerves gets the better of him.

“Hey Steve, come meet my cousin Leia” I say and he flinches and I see a pink tint hit his cheeks.

“Oh, yeah... Hi... Steve is me” he waves at her and gives the weirdest looking smile I've ever seen

“Hell man...you alright?” Eddie roars at him and me, Robin and Leia laugh as well

“Fuck” we hear him say under his breath then he sighs and looks up again “Sorry, hi I'm Steve. Nice to meet you Leia.”

“Nice to meet you too, Steve. That's you” she says and winks at him

“Yeah... that happens sometimes... especially when I meet pretty girls” there's King Steve again, me and Eddie look at each other and smile.

“Oh, thank you. I mean I assume you mean me because you've met the only other girls in here before. I'm just not used to guys looking like you getting nervous s'all” I hear Eddie whisper in my ear “oooh she's good” I nod at him and smile. Robin looks over at us and raises an eyebrow to say she's also impressed.

“So Steve, you coming to this party these two are throwing me tonight?” Leia continues

“Party... yeah of course I'll be there. When and where?” Steve turns to me

“My place, like 7ish” I say and smile

“Count me in, you coming to Rob?”

“If they'll have me I'm there” Robin smiles

“Great I'll drive, pick you up at like 6:30 then” Steve's beaming now.

“You do that Steve” Robin smiles at Leia and winks at her. Leia smirks back at her.

“Yeah we better head out if we're having company tonight” I say “see you guys later then” Leia waves at the two of them, Eddie takes a bow and I smile. Right before I get to the door Steve grabs me pulls me in to hug me and whispers in my ear

“Thank you” there and then I knew I did good, he likes her and I know just the reason why

“You're welcome sweetie, this is the best I could do for you. Eddie with a pussy” I whisper back and he gasps

“Minx... why'd you have to say that. How am I gonna get through this day now? Huh? Think she'll like me though?”

“I know she does” I whisper and then I pull away blowing them both a kiss and head out the door. I get to the van and Edd and Leia are both looking at me

“What was that?” Eddie smiles he has his suspicions I see

“He just thanked me for introducing him to someone this fine” I say and smile at Leia who has the common decency to blush

“Oh c'mon he did not say that” she starts

“Yeah he actually did, and he's worried you won't like him back so I kinda said you already did because you remembered him from graduation. Soooo... happy humping Friday I guess” I smirk at her

“HA! Yeah right... I don't think he'll wanna fuck me right away. My personality might be to much for him in the long run”

“Hey... he's best friends with that one” I say and I nod over to Eddie grinning in the drivers seat.

“Yup, 10 years and counting. I think he'll survive anything you throw at him... or you in to some really fucked up shit in the bedroom?” Eddie smirks at her

“Thank you... yeah I'm a straight up weirdo in the sheets... dude I'm 19...haven't had the opportunity enough times to develop any weird kinks...” Eddie laughs so hard he almost drives off the road.

“I like her babe, she'll be perfect for Stevie-boy!” he says and dries his tears of laughter.

We head to the grocery store to pick up some stuff for the party. Then we head home, Eddie goes in to beg Wayne to get us some alcohol. Which he is reluctant to do. But when I go over and tell him we're just going to stay at my place and celebrate graduation and Leia's arrival he caves and goes in to town for us. That and I gave him some money to get himself a bottle of his favourite whiskey. That was probably the thing that convinced him the most.

We tidy up the place and Leia shows off her culinary skills when she makes us a whole Texas BBQ dinner pulling out all the stops. Eddie is still muttering in his corner

“I can cook too you know” I kiss him and say

“I know babe, but look at that food... I mean... really?” he sighs and has to agree that nothing he can make would be even close to that delicious.

“I'm lucky she's your cousin...or I'd be out in a heartbeat” he mumbles

“Nah babe, she's the great cook but you're the AWESOME cock remember that” I purr in his ear and that makes him smile widely at me

“Baaabe, thank you... He loves you too” he whispers back and pulls me closer

“HEY! None of that now! Fucking do something useful” Leia scolds us playfully. We finish what little is left to do then we get ourselves some beers and sit down in the couch to wait for Wayne to come back. He arrives 10 minutes later with the things we ordered. We give him a big plate of food and he grumpily thanks Leia and gives her a half hug and a smile.

“Damn he likes you!” Eddie smiles

“That's him liking someone? Wow... he's not much for emotions is he?” she says and looks at Wayne as he heads back home looking at the plate of food smiling to himself.

“Nope, that skipped a generation I got it all” he says and throws himself at me kissing my face all over

“Yeah yeah we know” Leia sighs “wanna go sit outside. This place needs some fresh air, and so do I” we agree and we go out and sit down at the table outside and eat the amazing food Leia made us. Eddie's bandmates from Corroded Coffin are the first to arrive. They all comment how Eddie never said he had a twin and that it was weird how they could be so much alike when Leia was so pretty and he was not. We all laugh at this and agree that maybe Leia would be a better frontman in the band...maybe they'd even get some people to their gigs with her as lead. Eddie mutters something about ungrateful asses, but he's smiling. Dustin and Mike come over, they're a bit young for this as I said to Eddie but he assures me they're not drinking and if they do he'll call Nancy to get them. I agree to them staying, they're fun so ok then. We see Steves car turning in to the trailer park and I see Leia's cheeks turn pink. Yeah she likes him I can tell.

Steve and Robin get out of the car and the first thing Robin blurts out is

“Oh my god, lucky I came here...you two are drowning in dick here...” everyone stares at her...you could hear a pin drop then a roar unleashes as Eddie loses it completely

“Fucking hell Buckley I love you...what a weird and totally random thing to say instead of hello” everyone is laughing now and Robin is a darker shade of beetroot in the face. I hug her and say

“Sweetie... we've talked about this... Maybe not say EVERYTHING that pops into your mind” she gives me a nervous giggle

“I don't know what that was... I just saw you two amongst all these guys and well... there you go...brain fart” Leia comes up to us and gives Robin a hug too

“That was the best thing I've ever heard. You're a fucking rock star Robin! Lets get you a drink” they leave and go inside to get e drink. Steve comes up to me

“Hey Jess, I look ok? I asked Robin...she's teased me about it since we left her house...” I look him over, frown, hmm a bit

“Yes, I'd say you look fuckable. But wait... Hey Edd c'mere” Eddie excuses himself from the other guys and comes up to us

“Hey Steve, what can I do for you babe?” he says and I lean in and I whisper in his ear.

He eyes Steve up and down a big grin over his face “Yeah definitely babe, what you said” then he winks at Steve and goes back to the others.

“Yeah, thanks...” Steve blushes “not exactly what I was thinking of but I'll take it”

“Steve, it's me here... that was EXACTLY what you wanted to know. She fucking blushed when she saw you arriving so...yeah I'd say go for it. Eddie and me are sleeping at his place tonight so the trailer and Leia is... available” I tell him in a low voice so that the other s don't catch on and ruin things for him. He lets out a small gasp

“You think she'd do that? With me? I mean... you know why I felt instantly drawn to her...but like... she's into me too? For real?”

“Hey King Steve, what the hell is this insecure shit? You rule remember that! Use your magic dude, it's been too long... and yeah she's into you” I push him towards the door and follow him inside. We head over to where Robin and Leia are standing and I see Leia looking at Steve and blushing again. I smile at Robin who glances at Leia sees what I see and nod.

“Yeah, I'm gonna go outside now before the tension in here becomes unbearable...and I'm taking Jess with me. You two have fun” Robin grabs me the second we get to them and drags me back outside. I laugh

“Poor them, both so nervous and then you pull that on them... Good girl!”

“Well knowing Steve he's all cocky until push comes to shove then he's just a babbling fool. Better leave him to do that on his own instead” she smirks at me. We join the guys outside and Eddie raises an eyebrow at me questioning. I nod at him and smile. We stay outside quite a while and no sight of Steve and Leia yet. It's getting a bit chilly so we decide to head inside. When I open the door I see Steve and Leia pull apart on the couch and I giggle. I just look at them and I nod reassuringly, I won't say anything. Leia looks happy as hell and Steve is beaming. Oh I did good! When everyone is seated somewhere and talking, having a good time I steal Eddie away for a moment.

“Hey babe” I kiss him deeply “guess what I saw when I opened the door for us all earlier... The plan worked” Eddie looks at me then he gets it and he laughs

“Yeah? Good boy Steve! So kissing or heavier stuff?”

“Nah just kissing but you and I are staying at your place tonight” I smirk and give him a wink

“Hell yeah, I'm not listening to that” he chuckles

“Oh and another thing babe... I got the job at City Hall” I say and kiss him again

“WHAT!?” he lifts me up and spins me around “That's fucking awesome babe! Now I can be a housewife like I always wanted” he giggles and kisses me down my neck grabbing my ass and squeezing it tight.

“Of course you can, I'll bring home the bacon and you just stay here looking pretty and satisfy my every need when I get home” I say and press my tits against his chest making him gasp. Then I pull away and head back to the living room

“Tease” I hear behind me as I feel a slap on my ass.

The party was fun,but by 2 am everyone starts to drop off and leave. Even Robin went home, she got a ride with one of Eddies bandmates. Only me, Eddie, Steve and Leia are left sitting in the living room.

“So ok, new sheets are in the cupboard opposite the bathroom and condom's are in the upper drawer in my bedside table” I say and take Eddies hand “Let's leave these two to do what they've been waiting for all fucking night” Eddie smiles and gets up. Slaps Steve on the side of the head and chuckles

“Fuck her brains out Stevie-boy, I know you have it in ya”

The two of them look like they've been struck by lightning then they blush and can't look at each other let alone us.

“Oh c'mon... seriously? You want her and she wants you... Didn't look like you were having a bad time when I interrupted you here on the couch earlier... fucking get going now! Happy humping see you in the morning” I say and me and Eddie leave to go to bed at his place. When we shut the door behind us we both start to giggle uncontrollably and as we walk away I say

“I know you have it in ya? Really Eddie I almost fell over there... I thought Steve was going to die. I think he thought you were going to tell her”

“I knoooow I saw that too, pale as a ghost. But I think this is going to be awesome for them both they look so cute together... I mean they're no match for us but cute enough” He hugs me from behind and kisses my neck.

“No one is as cute as us Edd, and no one has the cock I have to play with! So I fucking win at life” I push my ass out so it presses against his cock. I can feel it growing in his jeans.

“Oooh you dirty girl, fuck I love you. Hurry up and get inside so I can drive this cock down your throat!” he growls at me. I moan and prick up the pace. We sneak in so we don't wake up Wayne, but we see the bottle of whiskey on the table is almost empty so we know he's not waking up any time soon.

“Shower first babe, wanna join me?” I say and Eddie purrs in my ear

“Yeah...gladly. I can help get you all kinds of wet and slippery” I giggle and we head for the shower. There's some steamy touching in there but I want the bed so I can really have my way with Eddie's body. We dry off and walk to the bedroom arms wrapped around each other kissing. Since we haven't slept here for a while the room is a bit stuffy so I go and open the window a bit. Then we hear it...

“Oh hell they did what we told them at least” Eddie chuckles as the unmistakeable sounds of some great sex sounds through the night. “but babe we can do better than that” he grins and throws me on the bed.

“If we do better than that we WILL wake up Wayne” I giggle “just you concentrate on filling me with your cum and we'll leave the loud screams to those two” I say and look deep into Eddies eyes. He moans

“Oh I'll fill you right up... don't you worry your sexy ass about that”

He straddles me and moves up so he's sitting on my chest cock out right in front of me. I lick my lips and he groans

“Take it... take as much as you can”

I open my mouth for him and he sticks the tip in so I can suck off the pre-cum already oozing out of him. Then he pushes in further and further keeping eye contact with me all the while. His hand grabs my hair as his cock I all down my throat and I feel his pubes on my nose. He pulls out and then he starts to fuck my mouth, not as deep as that first stroke because he knows I hate to gag. I grab his ass and help him with the pace. He moans coarsely as he fucks my face. He looks down at me

“Fucking hell this is hot, seeing you like that with my cock I that deep in your mouth. But I wanna go deep somewhere else babe, I guess the lube is in your place?” he pulls his cock out of my mouth and I whine, I like sucking him.

“Yeah it is... I didn't think of that sorry” I say

“Babe, we did just fine before you bought it remember” he kisses me deeply and slides down the bed kissing my body as he goes. He lifts my legs and places them on his shoulders, then he licks the length of my pussy down towards my ass.

“Yessss Eddie... I remember... ooooh fuuuuck... yeah eat me” he licks my folds and works my clit with tongue and mouth then he moved further down and starts licking my ass. He slides one finger in there lubing it up good with his spit, then two fingers, then three! He stretches my ass so that I can take him in. I squirm in his arms, I want to feel him inside me so bad

“Edd....fuck me... fuck my ass” I pant and he puts my legs down from his shoulders and he positions himself so that he can press his cock in to my tight asshole. Slowly, slowly he enters, I feel him spitting down on his cock to lube it more. Finally he hits bottom and he growls.

“Jess... this ass... fuuuuuck” he grabs my hands with one of his and pins them above my head then he grabs my tits with the other one as he starts to move faster in my ass. He impales me completely and I feel dizzy from the pleasure, I look up at him and the fire in those smouldering eyes is so full of heat and love I almost wanna cry. But then he lets go of my tits and starts circling his thumb on my clit and pushing two fingers in my pussy. Fuck crying! I'm screaming now! I come so hard I feel like I pass out for a second. When I come back Eddie is moaning louder and louder fucking me as hard as I can take it

“Come for me babe, come in my ass I wanna feel you fill my ass with your cum...please Eddie” I moan and he pushes in hard one last time with a growl and I feel the throbbing of his cock releasing in me. He falls over to the side of me panting

“I still can't believe I get to do this with you” he says “ I still think I might wake up and it's just one of the old daydreams I used to have about you” he pulls me in and kisses me

“Still? After all this time? You better start believing babe because if you haven't figured it out yet I'm not going anywhere” I say and I roll out of bed to go clean myself so I don't make a sticky mess in the bed. I hear him chuckle at me

“I just fucked that ass...yay me!” I hear from the bed and I laugh, sometimes he's just such a fucking idiot. I clean off and go beck to bed and lay down and let Eddies strong arms wrap around me. We fall asleep almost instantly.

When we wake up the sun is shining in through the open window and we can hear Wayne talking to someone in the other room. I stretch and I realise I'm alone in the bed. Oh, Eddie woke up before me. I get up and I get dressed and head out in to the kitchen. There's Wayne and Eddie drinking coffee.

“Morning my men” I say and smile at them. I even get a smile from Wayne.

“Morning babe, there's coffee. You looked so peaceful I didn't wanna wake you up” Eddie smiles at me.

“Been up for a long time?” I ask

“Nah about 30 minutes...both of us” Eddie chuckles, Wayne smiles

“Yeah...that whiskey hit good last night” he grunts “Thanks sweetie” he adds

“You're welcome Wayne. Seen those two?” I ask Eddie motioning towards my trailer

“Nope no sightings as of yet” he smiles Wayne looks confused “Jess set up Steve with her cousin, and things went well...you know” Eddie explains

“Oh, well good for him! Well, her too I suppose...but mostly him, he's been looking lonely since the two of you...well... became this” he says “she's a very pretty girl, she might be able to do better” he chuckles. We laugh and agree with him. We sit there and talk to Wayne some more, I tell him about getting the job he's very happy for me. Then we head outside to get some air and wait for signs of life from my place. We don't have to wait long before the door opens and Leia bursts out the door and runs up to me throwing herself around my neck. At first I panic thinking Steve hurt her and she's upset. But she just goes

“Thank you! Thank you! THANK YOU!” then she throws herself around Eddies neck and does the same and runs back to my trailer.

“Uhmmm... I'm going to guess last night was... a success” I say and we break down laughing. We sit there laughing a bit then Steve and Leia come out from my trailer holding hands looking...so fucking cute. Even Eddie lets out a “Awww look at them” before I do.

“Well... I take it you took my advice?” I ask

“Yeah... we took your advice... 5 times over” Leia giggles and Steve groans

“They might not need to know everything” he says

“Of course we do...c'mon we wanna hear about length, girth, stamina and technique” Eddie says “Lets hear it Leia, he did good or do I need to have a talk with him about the birds and the bees” I love Eddie, not even hinting that he knew all of this already from his own personal point of view. Leia blushes and wraps one arm around Steves waist

“He did VERY good...” she beams and Steve looks embarrassed

“Oh Stevie-boy, don't be like that. We're just teasing. I didn't think you'd suck... you wouldn't have gotten the rep you have from being bad in the sack dude” Eddie chuckles

“Fuck Munson... Making me sound like a fucking Casanova here...” Steve blushes

“Don't worry babe, Robin did that last night I already knew you used to be a ladies man...” Leia reaches up and kisses him, he looks stunned. Then he looks at me

“I didn't know... Robin had some alone time with her before you and I came in. She didn't say what they talked about... But then I guess it was you” I smirk at him

“I'm going to go with Steve to his place... Let you have your home back” Leia smiles at me and I feel so happy I could burst. I hug her and tell her that she just smiles and says she feels the same. She walks back to the trailer to get her stuff and when she's out of reach Steve looks at us

“So... thank you both. For not telling her... and Jess...you were right”

“About what?” I say

“That there” he looks back at the girl now disappearing in to the trailer “IS Munson with a pussy...”

Eddie roars “You said that?” he looks at me

“Weeell... I might have said something in the lines of the best I could do finding him an Eddie with a pussy” I give him a mischievous smile

“I fucking love you babe.” Eddie laughs

“I love you too, both of you! Maybe I can have what you have now... If she'll have me for longer than a weekend” Steve says

“Oh I think you're set for life there Stevie-boy” Eddie punches him softly on the arm “Gonna miss you joining us though, I did like that dick of yours...I think we both did” Eddie squeezes my ass

“We sure did, but it's Leia's dick now. We had out time with it” I reach up and kiss Steve on the cheek “Love you Steve and I'm so happy I could do this for you”

Eddie stands and pulls Steve in for a hug

“Congrats man, she's a keeper. I mean she's me with a pussy you won the fucking lottery man” Eddie smiles at him and Steve chuckles

“Yeah I did didn't I”

Leia comes back with her things and they leave. Me and Eddie sit in the sunlight for a little longer. I feel like everything's going to be just fine in this my little corner of the world

END

#eddie munson #steddie x fem #eddie x steve #eddie x fem #eddie munson smut #steve harrington smut

[prettygreenpills]

Aunt - T. S., P. G.

characters: Thomas Shelby, Polly Gray, fem!reader

rundown: you are Thomas´s and Ada´s sister and it is Polly´s funeral, he helps you get through it

warnings: SPOILER ALLERT (s6), mentions of death, mentions of murder, anxiety attack, etc.

A/n: this is my only work about polly´s dead. the rest of my works about her will include polly from the 1st or the 2nd season. I can´t help, I just love how she was at the beginning. Don´t judge

“Aren´t you cold?” Thomas asked you as he looked down at you and you shook your head no. Both of you continued in walking on the path which was leading to the place you didn´t really want to be at, but you had to. She was your aunt.

You realized how your hand started shaking and you looked down at it. Your brother was faster than you and he took your hand into his, gently squeezing it, trying to tell you that everything was going to be okay. But you didn´t believe that phrase.

As you arrived to the place where the huge caravan stood, shiver ran down your spine. Looking up at the huge wooden caravan, you knew that your aunt´s body was in there with all of her things, portraits, pictures and everything she had ever had. You looked onto the ground and onto your foot, trying to not think about how did your aunt look in there.

“Hey,” Thomas whispered to you and you looked up at him. Realizing that you were squeezing his hand a little too hard, you loosened your grip around his hand. Trying to pull your hand away even.

“Mhm?”

“It is alright,” Thomas whispered to you and you realized how Ada was making her way towards you. Oh god, she looked just like your aunt when she was in Ada´s age. That thought made your lips curve into a dangerous shape and you sobbed quietly, trying to not cry so much.

“Hi,” Ada whispered as she reached you and looked at Thomas. You didn´t need to look up at her to know what she was doing. You saw only her fingers she was playing with and it was enough for you. You didn´t want to remind yourself of the woman who meant so much to you and couldn´t be there for you anymore.

“Hi Ada,” Thomas said and you hoped it would be enough for her and you didn´t need to talk. Swallowing became even harder than before and you closed your eyes to deal with the pain in your chest - the pain your aunt left after she was killed.

Nobody expected you to talk. Everyone knew that you loved Polly as if she was your mother you have never got to meet. Ada let out a quiet sigh and she stood next to Thomas from the other side, giving you the space you needed.

Standing there all zoned out, you refused on looking up at the faces you were pretty sure were watching you. You didn´t even look at Michael who was standing across from you. Knowing that something bad was going on between him and your brother, you cut the connections even sooner.

“Aren´t you cold?” Thomas asked you and you just shook your head no. Someone walked closer to the caravan, not getting your eyes on them. When warmth hit your face, that could only mean that the caravan was on fire already and a tear rolled down on your cheek.

Your lungs started to shake together with your stomach. You weren´t sure if you were about to throw up or faint. Feeling a little sick, you gulped loudly, hanging on your brother´s arm.

“Y/n?”

“Mhm?” You asked him back, swallowing. Your legs started to feel weak and everything inside of you started shaking. Your lungs became heavier than before and the air felt thicker.

“Come,” Thomas pulled you a little and he walked aside with you, followed with Ada. When you were even a little away from your family, you started taking deep breaths and you closed your eyes shut. “Y/n, open your eyes.”

“Can´t Tom, c-can´t-” you shook your head and kept them closed. Someone´s arm arrived to your shoulder and it felt really warm and big. It had to be Thomas.

“Breath Y/n, breath,” Thomas kept talking to you and if you didn´t want to faint, you had to listen to him.

“They killed her. They fucking killed her,” you shook your head and your weak voice rang in Thomas´s ears. “T-They-”

“Shh Y/n,” Thomas tried to sush you and he pulled you onto his chest. You grabbed his body and tried to hold him close, feeling the scent of fire from him, not the flower scent. His hands were not as soft and your aunt´s hands. He couldn´t comfort like she could. But you didn´t want to loose him just like you lost her.

“Tommy they killed her-”

“I know Y/n, I know,” he couldn´t say anything else, just this. Then he took a deeper breath and you didn´t even try to open your eyes. “They will regret it Y/n. They will regret taking Polly from us,” he said and pressed a kiss onto the side of your head. The kiss was a... a Thomas kiss. Nothing soft, but you could still feel the emotions spreading on your skin.

When the shaking of your body slowed down and you could take a more proper breath than before, your breathing was still fast. You pressed your hands against your chest and shut your eyes even more.

A pair of warm hands covered yours, what calmed you down a little. And then, the following few seconds, when nothing was happening, you could calm yourself down a little, you could focus on your breathing and on that you were really cold.

“Better?” Ada asked from you and you looked around. Everything what has been a little smudged before was now turning clean and you took another deep breath to make sure you weren´t dreaming.

But sadly, you weren´t.

“I think,” you whispered and then closed your eyes once more. You opened them immediately and looked at your brother. He nodded his head and helped you with standing up straight. His muscular hand held you on your legs and Ada brushed the hair out of your face.

“Tell me when you´re ready,” Thomas whispered to you and you knew what did you have to do. You swallowed really hardly and with your head still bowed, you didn´t want to look up there yet.

When you found the strength in yourself, you lifted your chin. The caravan was still there, but it was burning already. The smoke was rising into the air, really slowly, as if Polly Gray wanted to stay for a little longer.

A shaky breath left from your mouth, making your brother worried. And your sister as well. When they both looked at you, you just closed your eyes with a little nod to let them know that everything was alright and they seemed to believe you.

The moment of the realization hit you as soon as you realized the burned wood of the caravan. Knowing that the woman wouldn´t come back ever again, a tear rolled down on your cheek and you took Thomas´s hand, squeezing it a little. He understood why did you squeeze it and sighed quietly.

“Ada we will go,” he said to his sister and turned away from her with you. As the tears started falling from your eyes every few seconds, you refused to let out a sound, but a sob escaped you anyways. As Thomas led you to his car and opened the doors for you, you started crying even more and got into the car.

The ride was silent. The hole which was created in your heart was slowly spreading into your whole body. All you wanted to do was to see her smile for the last time, to kiss you goodnight for the last time. But all you could do was look up at the sky and wish for her to rest easy.

“We are going home now and we will get some hot chocolate, hm?” Thomas asked you and you didn´t answer him verbally, just nodded your head, hoping that he would see and take it as an answer. He started the car and put it into reverse, while your eyes were still fixed on the caravan. As you started to tear up again, you quickly wiped your cheeks, trying to not cry again.

You loved your aunt as if she had been your mother. She had helped you with everything she could. And now, you didn´t have her by your side and you had to do all the decisions all alone. Looking up at the sky where the smoke disappeared, you hoped in that your aunt found peace and would take care of you from up there

#PollyGray #pollyshelby #peakyblinders #pollyshelbygray #fluff #angst #fanfiction #oneshot #ynshelby #thomasshelby #shelbyfamily #adashelby #arturshelby

[clemjolichose]

Okay, I finally wrote on @quodekash 's demus/dukeceit prompt. The thing is: it's wrecked and maybe too personal. So hear me out: Roman is an antagonist here and the words he says are words spoken by my own sister in the very same situation as Remus was in. I was a depressed child and I'm now a depressed adult, and it fucked me up as bad as I write it. This one-shot is *extremely* self-indulgent and probably has no sense.

TW: discussing death, suicide, blood, mental illness, self-harm, (familial) abuse, sanism/ableism, mental hospital, sex (mention of genitals) and please tell me if I'm missing any.

Enjoy ❤

My mother never told me why my heart, my blood-pumping organ, one day floated into the clouds never to be seen again.

My brother, my twin, we have the same face, the same eyes, the same body and sometimes the same mind, but not the same heart. He was always telling me to eat mine out, whatever the situation was. Drawing, singing, performing, dancing, writing... It was like what I did never was good enough, and when I tried to complain I was only silenced. So that I did: I ate my heart out. Bottled up all my resentment towards my own blood. I knew our mother would never admit Roman is her favourite, I knew I would never be enough while they would never say it out loud. And maybe it is true, maybe I'm not good enough, deserving of all the praise and love and awards Roman has received through his life. I'm stuck with being Peter Pan's shadow no matter how hard I'm trying to escape. I guess that what I do isn't good, nor sane.

I remember drawing eyes and crosses and tears and writing shit on a piece of paper out of boredom, it didn't really mean anything, it looked like a shit tons of crap that made no sense; to me it was the most self-representative drawing I had ever made. But what do I know? I was just a brainless teen that couldn't even draw a straight line. It's not that I can't, it's really that I don't want to. Huge difference there. So I was writing and drawing and scraching tge paper trying to paint my emotions because boredom just makes you do shit like that, it makes you think about your heart, and when you find emptiness, there's a void for your thoughts to fill. And oh boy, they filled it so well... And then I looked at my work, an artwork I could finally be proud of, a masterpiece that looked like me... I felt content, happy even. I felt calmer and found myself smiling, and this smile had faltered as soon as my brother looked at the paper. He snorted and shouted with arrogance:

"Stop drawing that, it's freaking me out. Mom and dad will throw you in a mental hospital! It's ugly anyway."

What monster would say that to their friend? Because I truly believed, once upon a time, that we were friends. Not so much anymore, huh? And when my parents acquiesced, I knew I needed to get out as soon as possible. I felt unsafe and unreasonably angry. At what? Everything. It was all bullshit anyway. Love your family? They would eat your flesh if it was covered in candy, and mine must have been delicious. Hatred settled in the cavity of my chest, slowly taking out the love I once felt for them. It's still there to this day, the love, and maybe I would forgive them as soon as I get an apology. Or not even an apology, you know? Maybe I would try to comply to their standards again if I ever see them once more. But that's why I left, right? I left to never deal with their shit again, to live my true self and who cares if it's someone of madness? I don't! I actually love it. I love thinking about arson and getting to draw their house on fire. I love feeling suicidal- well, not good phrasing, but hear me out: feeling suicidal is not great, but being able to put words and drawings upon it? And then feeling relieved because the very image of yourself bleeding out that was stuck in your head for days on end while you couldn't get out of bed was finally realised in some ways? Best feeling in the world.

Not quite, though. There is an even better feeling I got to indulge myself in: being mentally ill with someone who cares.

I met Janus when I finally got out of the house. I was 20, with no clothes and only my drawing stuff, trying to live my own life instead of someone else's because being the brother of Prince Roman™️ wasn't meant for me, and I think it's not meant for anyone. Life is an ass but at least it sometimes gives you a dick to ride on, non-sexually. Pleasant metaphors aren't my strong suit.

But at least Janus doesn't mind. He doesn't mind anything I do, in fact. From the first time I met him and through years of intimacy, he never judged me for the blood, the tears and the urge to rip my skin off and crack my skull open (or his, affectionately). He's supporting me, actually. When I'm at a low point because depression is a bitch, when I start hallucinating monsters more terrifying than my own imagination, when all is black, he is the one to put a brush or a pencil in my hand and to toss me in front of a white blank canva, where I can represent anything. What a dream. What a dream, right? A dream, it's just a dream, it must be a dream, it has to be a dream, it cannot be anything but a dream, a fucking dream, ah! But he holds me oh so gently, he talls to me slowly, and stroke my hair like my mother should have, and he tells me I'm real. I'm real. Am I? It's "cogito ergo sum" after all, not "morior ergo sum". How can I be sure? He kisses me, on my forehead, on my temple, on my cheek, on my nose, on my jaw, on my neck, on my chest, on my hands, on my lips, he would have kissed my feet if I didn't have my boots on, and he says:

"Do you even want to? You can float. You can be a god."

I know it's a lie but this is what's comforting. It's lies that never disguise themselves around me, it's destructive imagination that matches mine in the most fucked up and beautiful ways, it's the doors to Heaven slightly opening in front of me because a creature of God loves me and I can love it back. The snake who tempted was once a loving being, too. It gives me hope, it gives me ideas that do not rely solely on my pain - though it is my greatest muse - and how would great poets have written their masterpiece if they weren't a little bit dying too? People say I have a peculiar way of thinking, in a strange, scary way, just like my parents said, just like my brothers shouted and his voice still resonates in my ears to this day. At least, now, it is covered in the sweet praises of Janus, it is nothing but muffled echos of distant wailing, hushed by the need to hear my sweet lover describing my latest drawing without using "madness", "demented" or "hospital". And I thought it was untrue, but it really takes one person to make a world, a world of freedom and oh my God I can be myself, oh Lord I can love, oh Jesus I can hate because those who have wronged me were the ones judging while I was a lost lamb. There is something divine in a love that heals even the most wrecked soul, a heartless one, that awaits to rejoice with its blood-pumping organ every single day withoit crossing the bridge yet. Now is not the time. Tomorrow? Maybe. Let's wait and see.

#sanders sides #tss #ts sides #ts art #remus x janus #remus sanders #janus sanders #demus #dukeceit #tw death #tw sex #tw suicide #tw blood #tw abuse #tw self destructive behavior #tw psychological abuse #tw sanism

[narcissa-black-supermacy]

My tuuuuurn!

3, 24, and 34!

Aaaaaaaaand go!

3. 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

this is.....so hard. i don't enjoy watching anything tbh, i'm not a very visual person ;;;w;;; i'm the kind of boring friend who falls asleep at the movies. can i do books instead? please? thanks <3

"The Hobbit" By Tolkien: literally never ever ever will get tired of this book, I used to re-read it twice a month as a kid. I just love-- everything about it. shaped my perception on storytelling so much (and i HATE the Hobbit movies with a passion, i hope they evaporate)

"Master and Margarita" by Bulgakov: also one of the most influential books I read. I think this is where my love for chaos in writing started. literally every time i re-read it i find a dozen little details i haven't noticed.

"The Three Musketeers" by Dumas: my first time was when my father read it to me as a kid in Arabic, and it was the first time a book made me cry for days, like absolutely break down in tears. i still cry every time I read it.

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

a bit shallow of me, but for finding financial stability more than anything.

i grew up in a village that didn't have electricity and running water half the time, and even after we fled the country our situation was always very bad, i had to drop out of school to work full time at like 14.

so the fact that i don't have to compare prices on fucking bread when i shop today and just take whatever i want is a huge deal for me, i will never ever take it for granted.

34. any pet peeves?

i think... people easily dismissing their family, especially their parents.

like, i get that there are extreme cases, i'm not talking about that. but in my experience, when people cut off ties with family it's more often than not over absolutely stupid stuff that could be easily solved if the two sides just sat down with a therapist and talked.

it might be a controversial opinion in this era of songs like "family line" and "matilda" that glorify found family over blood, but i do believe in "blood is thicker than water". you only have one mum and dad and your siblings and children are irreplaceable. unless you genuinely did everything in your power to make amends and they chronically refuse to get better, you will always feel incomplete without them.

#thank you for these questions <33 #asks #personal

[samscrying]

I owe an apology, not to anyone but myself.

For months I let myself be brutally hurt by a man who did nothing for me, I made it my fault and never let myself realise that I am not the only human with faults.

It's so incredibly hard to realise that someone you idolized from the second you met them is the very thing that is destroying you.

The day I met you was a day that changed my life in a way no one could have ever predicted. In the true fashion of a teenage romance, we met through a simple snapchat, you asking me if I liked ur Santa hey in the middle of August, this hat later came into my possession. You lived far from me, but it wasn't impossible, my family lived in the same city as you, visitation was very possible.

Saying I love you was second nature, everything was so wonderful, I was some incapacitated by your charm, you made me feel like someone finally understood me. Soon we finally met, we didn't do much, a lot of sex honesty, I met some of your friends, and even though it wasn't much, it was amazing. Soon after the problems began. You didn't tell me things, I didn't know where you were, I didn't know if you were safe, I'd go hours without hearing from you without knowing why, your friends began to hate me for no reason, of course I later found out this was because you were telling them bad things about me, leaving out all the good, making me a monster to some of the most important and influential people in your life.

You cried for me one night, one January night, I was mad at you over something, and you sat outside your friends house and cried on the phone to me, begging me to stay. I don't even remember what the fight was about, but in that moment you cared about me, and of course I stayed.

You knew that I'm bipolar, and you often demonized me for it. You would become accusing of me during manic periods, saying I was going to cheat or dump you. When depressed, you treated me like a chore, you didn't want to deal with me and my intense emotions that you always knew I had. No matter how many times I tried to explain my situation to you I don't think you ever fully understood.

You were a liar. You were a fucking liar. You lied to me possibly every day, you lied to me one night in particular, telling me you were out with your brother and your friend late into the night, you didn't answer your phone for hours. That night was hard for me, I had a lot on my mind and you weren't there for me. When you finially called me back you sounded perfect, so in love, ready to help me. I later found out that that night you cheated on me. You so easily covers yourself up, and when I confronted you, I was so blind with the potential of what you could be that I didn't even hesitate to stay with you. I should have left right then.

I soon found out I was going to move to your city with my mother, we were so over joyed to finially be able to be together whenever we wanted, so overjoyed that you couldn't take it and broke up with me. I was fucking dystroyed. My whole world collapsed on me, without you I knew nothing, just short of a year of being with you and now I knew nothing. I didn't know who I was without you, I didn't know what it meant to be independent or alone, but it was okay because I didn't have to find out, in your usual indesisive nature, you called me a week later saying how stupid you were, how much you loved me. I don't think I had ever received such a beautiful phone call. Our redemption arc, it wasn't over, you were still mine, everything was going to be okay. You made the resin for you leaving my fault, you said I was too clingy, I was obsessive and crazy, when in reality I was just curious and desired to be in your life. Nonetheless, I believed you and promised I would change.

Soon I moved, I saw you all the time, it was just like when we first got together, gorgeous, beautiful, raw love. You'd recently switched schools, which meant you had new friends, this was a huge relief for me as your old friends had hated me, for reasons I still didn't know why at the time. But little did I know you were telling these friends the same bad things about me. I used to never understand why you did that, but now I know it was so that someone would be on your side, so you would have people that would support you if you decided to leave me, people who would agree if you called me crazy, people who thought I was the problem.

In the same fashion as always, we were quick to get back to our regular routine, see eachother and be happy and in love, be separated and have a problem start again, fight and cry, see eachother and fix it, just for it to start again two days after. You told people I was crazy, and guenuinly I believe you drove me a little crazy. It was always the same handful of issues, you always promised to change it, I'd always believe you, and you never would. The hardest part of all of it was I always always always knew you fully well could change, but in the end I just wasn't the person that you wanted to change for, I wonder if you ever will change for someone.

One February day, nearly a year and half in, you came over, and for some reason I had this bad feeling, that night you held me in your arms as I cried, I expressed my worries that you might leave me, you comforted me, told me how much you loved me, how you would never leave me. And as in your usual fashion, you fucking lied again. Two days later, you texted me and short, five lined text saying you didn't love me. It was over. And of course at this time you were with all of your friends, the friends that hated me and often egged you on to get you to leave me, I guess they finally got to you.

I can still vividly remember the absolute dread that filled my body. I couldn't move, I took a few minutes to fully register it, and then I guenuinly screamed. You made me scream and cry and hit my head repeatedly, I riped out my hair and choked on my own sobs, I cried untill my tear ducts were dry. You refused to call me. You refused to explain. You didn't want me. It was over. That moment made me suicidal for the first time in a long time, I auctually contemplated leaving everything behind because I couldn't imagine living without you. And once again I was empty, alone, no clue who I was. And as per fucking always you texted me shortly after asking for me back. But this time I didn't give in.

I came to learn you, after our break up you spent a few weeks toying with my feelings, changing between wanting me and hating me. I started to realise you didn't like it when I stood up for myself, I never had before and I finally began to. I saw what you were doing. You needed the control of me. You liked knowing I was so helplessly under you spell, you kept hurting me because I never fucking did anything about it, but you breaking up with me made me finially change that.

You nearly broke me completely, and I'm proud to say I don't love you any more. You hurt me more then anyone or anything ever has, you pushed me to my limit every day and I stayed because I was so convinced that you were the only one who would ever love me. I thought this because that was the narritive you pushed into my head, you told me I was a bad person, you made up story's that I was awful and I believed them even though I was there, and never witnessed it. You were witholding of love, and then would suddenly treat me like the most important thing in the world. I'd be lying to say I wouldn't do it again. I would experience that beautiful torture of love again if I went back in time, but I wouldn't want it forever. I thank you for teaching me to love myself first, to not put another person before myself, especially not for a person that treats me how you did. You showed me exactly the type of boy to stay away from.

When we broke up you said you are convinced that twenty years from now we will meet up and it will be amazing and it will work out. But I pray that dosent happen. I hope our paths never ever cross again, because I am done with you. I have heald from you, but you will always have scars on my heart. If I met you twenty years from now, I wouldnt give you another chance, because you already used them, I didn't give you one or two chances, I gave you millions and you never improved. I will never forget the way I cried over you nearly every night and more importantly I will never forget the way you let me cry, you were never ever fucking there when I needed you.

I am a new person now. I live in a new home that dosent have memories of you in it. I go out almost every day now, instead of being couped up in my room crying over you. I dress how I want, instead of thinking of how you would be mad at me for dressing how I do. I'm dating an amazing boy who treats me right, he takes me on dates, which you never did, he cares about me in the sweetest way, he's healing a heart that he's didn't break, and he is showing me how I should have always been treated. I'm happy. I'm happy without you. I never thought that was possible, but now I could never imagine my life with you still in it. You held me back, thank you for freeing me, I know without your push I would have stayed under your spell for a very long time. Thank you for throwing me away, because you threw me into the start of a beautiful life.

I am so sorry that I allowed myself to be treated like that, I promise I will never be so blind again.

[medicinemane]

Well, I'm getting to do therapy, ultra mega super fucking extreme edition for my mom today

She's having a fucking breakdown cause GOP cost cutting means medicaid is being a bitch and being like if you're on medicare you no longer qualify for medicaid unless you can work and then and only then will we let you do a buy in

It's bullshit, it sucks, it's a stupid and broken system and someone being on disability should count as any work, but she's having one of the most extreme fucking breakdowns of all time over it

Like we're talking going on about how it's all her fault that the cats died who were living in the trailer cause of how toxic she let that place become, or that she's an utterly selfish person... and I'm sat here having to find ways to spin shit because she puts me in a position where in order to get her functional... what? I say "yeah, pretty much"?

Then she's like "I apologize for anything I've ever done to you", not accepted and never will be. You're doing shit to me right this fucking second with this

There's no atonement and that's kind of tough shit, and maybe if you wanted atonement don't make me parent you right now

I'm having to talk her down from being suicidal, cause I'm fucking Machiavellian with shit and I need that disability check to keep coming in

She's crying and just having the biggest breakdown she's probably had since one of my worst memories which I'm actively working to suppress cause I can't deal with it right now. She's fucking going over the various ghost shit and apologizing for it, and it's like I don't fucking care, stop fucking trying to pure and make yourself the horror that made everything awful... you're pretending to take responsibility, but what you're really doing is demanding I absolve you of everything

You know, the shit she's saying and the shit I was saying yesterday aren't that different. We both think we're hugely worthless pieces of shit who are totally unlovable (and my grandma is probably to blame for both mindsets)

Difference is that for as much as I downplayed it and said it didn't even count as cleaning, I was fucking moving like 10 boxes around to try and get things in a state where I can figure out how to clean shit, where as she's a totally nonfunctional mess

Like as much as everyone seems to want to bitch about when I'm... literally just trying to share how not ok I'm doing as best I fucking can, even when I'm at my lowest I'm still trying to work on shit

...also, one thing that's different between her and me is I've never been emotionally incestuous with my kid to the point where the very concept of family makes them sick, made them be my parent, and am now forcing them to be my therapist despite the fact the emotionally engaging with them is one of the single most destructive things I can do

I don't know... I'm real shit today, I'm gonna have to be in the car for like 4 but really more like 6 hours with her cause of the way she drives, cause I've got to go see family today and it's gotta be today cause that's when my uncle's around

I'm basically... fucking animating myself, like I'm in that state where you're not letting yourself fall apart cause you gotta hold it together cause you don't have a choice (oh, and I haven't fucking slept cause right when I was gonna go to bed I got summoned to come play therapist)

I'm shit right now, and I was already in a bad way... and in fact I'm doing so badly that I can't even maintain my normal fucking facades and politeness... nope, turns out that's not true and in fact my facades run deeper than I do and I 100% am still not gonna say certain things

But yeah, it's a shit day, one of the worst in a while cause it's probably the worst my mom's been in like... two decades... so that's fucking great huh?

Bonus, this bullshit with medicaid has cut her therapy sessions

If anyone gets to be pissed at them it's me, and I fucking am pissed, they can go fuck themselves, and everyone who votes to cute medicaid can know that I personally dislike them immensely

Unlike my mom though I'm not a literal fucking 12 year old (not even kidding, her problem is she's emotionally still like 12 or 14, she's literally fucking stunted there). Unlike her... I fucking function even when I'm doing bad

But serious, I was awful yesterday, just absolutely one of my low points. Only reason maybe I seem better today is basically the emotional equivalent of adrenaline

I'd be falling apart right now except for the part where I never actually fall apart or have breakdowns

#mm tag so i can find things later #and frankly I have to keep biting back telling you all to go fuck yourselves on the grounds that I'm just... full of fucking anger right no #like just brimming with it and not able to let even a bit of it show #had to kick all my cats out because I really don't think I'm safe to be around right now #like I've got an extremely short fuse except for the fact I'm not allowed to blow my top #and frankly... I've got various reasons I'm pissed off... but as I said up there... can't actually fucking say what's on my mind #most I can do is gesture towards the thought of telling everyone to go fuck themselves #can't actually do it and wouldn't want to do it without explaining why #and turns out I can't explain why because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings #but yeah... I'm real bad and I'm probably only going to get worse here #but it's also kind of tough shit cause I gotta clean; I gotta learn to install a faucet... and apparently my mom's about to be down too #so... not that she really fucking ever helps even in prime condition; but I'm about to get even less help #so there it is; and frankly I doubt I'm gonna get a damn bit of support

[niragixpsych]

Bats mate when they're in their winter habitat, and the male wakes the female up with a bite into her neck for that. And they're not monogamous. Anyway, I wouldn't want to have sex as a bat. Why even. There's no appeal, and I don't know anyone who would want that.

Guess those are compliments. Thanks, I know all those things but I like to hear it though. And it's true, I don't reveal a lot about myself usually. You seem to be quite secretive about yourself, too. People who are like that have the most interesting things to hide. And mostly it isn't something that's easy to swallow.

What about a combination of fucking and fighting?

My protective and possessive veins are huge so to a big amount I enjoy it to be responsible for others. It's probably something people can sense, too, so they follow me. It only becomes problematic if they fall for me while I merely feel like their guard or a fatherly figure if you wanna call it like that. Believe me, enough people are so much in need for a straw that saves them from drowning, they would trust everyone who just use the right words and promises. But guess you're not like that, huh? Or you like manipulating others to some amount?

It's interesting in the first place you wouldn't strictly refuse the idea of having anyone dominate you. Being open to that is a huge deal since submitting to someone requires you letting your guards down and be vulnerable. Honestly, I would struggle if someone tried to dominate me because I'm not mentally ready for it.

Having sex as a bat doesn't sound appealing so I think you're better off not wanting to try it out. Why make it more complicated and less intense if you can simply have sex in your human form? But maybe there is something you enjoy doing while being a bat... like flying for example. I'm not quite sure what else could be enjoyable in animal form. Maybe that's because I only can turn into a flame... who knows.

I think it's stupid to reveal everything about yourself after meeting someone. You can't know what type of person they are and whether they might try to use the knowledge they gain against you. Plus, I find it personally more intriguing to take my time to really get to know someone... if people would really want to get to know me that is. People that seem interested in the beginning usually leave once they realize I'm not a good or a sane person. And maybe some things aren't meant to be shared... because they're too much.

The combination of fucking and fighting is very appealing.

I consider myself possessive too and who knows maybe I would be capable to feel protective of other people if I was feeling connected to them. And I can imagine things become awkward if people that fell for you realize this is one sided. It's up to them whether they can accept it and stay in your life or they can't and then it's better to leave.

I usually speak my mind freely, I'm not the type of guy to lie if I hate someone's guts. But I guess you could say I can manipulate people in a way that they only see the version of myself I want them to see. It's a good way to make people keep their distance. Also there are parts of myself I dislike.

I wouldn't strictly refuse the idea because I'm certain that no one would ever try to dominate me. Also those were simply my general thoughts about it. I can't really see myself submitting to someone in any shape or form at the moment. No one ever dared to try... and maybe that means I'm not the type that someone wants to break. Let the wild beast run wild so to speak.

#anemia rp #fuji. #niragi interaction

[kirbycrouch]

living with bpd has to be one of the hardest things i have to deal with. i cant even begin to count the amount of friendships and friend groups ive lost and pushed away because of my unstable emotions and my inability to talk about my feelings and be vulnerable with people. i fucking hate being vulnerable, i hate talking about my feelings. but also i guess its just that i never really learned *how* to talk about my feelings. my whole life i was yelled at and told im "ruining everything" and am being "selfish" or "self centered" or that im a "burden" whenever i talked about my feelings or showed emotion. you see, my family has always been huge on their image and reputation, anything that could possibly make them look bad was seen as a problem, and thats why my family always ostracized me and saw me as a problem. when i got bullied all throughout grade school and high school my parents would blame it on me and would tell me "why is it only you that has these problems?? no one else in the family had these problems!!" and thats around when the first time i attempted to kill myself, but even then my parents tried so hard to hide the reason why i was in the hospital and told everyone its from "allergies" even though i was there for two weeks. sure theyre nicer to me now, but the damage was already done. truthfully though im used to always getting the short end of the stick and losing everything, or having things just. not. go. my. way. on top of me having bpd and being autistic and honestly at this point probably schizophrenic too with how fucking often i experience hallucinations and paranoid delusions, i also found out that i have pcos the other day right before my birthday, which my birthday also sucked but at this point it was too late for me to have a good birthday in the first place. i have to deal with having chronic mental and physical illnesses for the rest of my life that not only affect my personality but affect my physical appearance and health too. im not desirable physically or emotionally. everything i liked about myself is being taken away from me. and it doesnt help that i keep pushing away the people that care about me because of how fucking unstable and stupid i am. i lost everything. and i really cant even be upset because its all my own fault. i just continuously self sabotage myself. but i guess its not only my own fault because how cant i be scared? not that long ago i got banned from a college club, lost a whole group of friends, because i reported my rapist/abuser and they called me a liar. my rapist/abuser was "banned" too but we all know that i was only told that so i wouldnt report the club or "expose" them or whatever even though regardless no one will fucking believe me. when i was raped in high school someone i thought i could trust told everyone and i got called a "whore" and a "slut" throughout the whole 4 years there, not to mention he was in most of my classes despite me fucking begging the school to take him out of my classes or to change my schedule so i dont have to fucking see him everyday. of course they didnt listen, though. why would they? a few weeks ago my therapist literally told me "next time this happens you should keep it to yourself because no one believed you the last two times" and that just. broke me. but i cant even really be upset because shes right. no one believed me, and if it ever happened again still no one would believe me. no one ever takes my side, ive been alone and lonely my whole life, but its mostly my fault that im like this so who am i to get upset over my own actions. i dont know how much longer i can handle any of this, i thought things were getting better for me but i feel myself falling down the hole again. i really want to end it all. i dont have hope for things ever getting better for me. some people are just given a bad set of cards and theres no way they could ever win, and i think im one of those people, so i should just give up.

#rant