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hobilluvvr · 3 years

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lost ocean troubles | 2

college au! sub!armin x dom!reader

words - 2.7k

warnings - vomit, blood, mentions of abuse , injuries

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so incredibly sorry for this late update but testing season is approaching and I need to study sadly :/ this part is very rough with spelling errors and grammar but will be revised later !

please enjoy this update and constructive criticism is always welcomed :D . If you want to be added to the tag list please don’t hesitate to ask !

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The flowers had this magnificent pale blue color to them, the sun hitting them just at the right angle and the sage leaves accented the stem, the weight of the beautiful petals making the stem slightly wilt downwards .

this piqued armins interest, so much so that he walked towards them , feet trudding against the soft sand. As he comes close the overwhelming smell of coconut with a hint of sea saltseasalt overwhelmes his senses, his nose srunching up in question, the scent resembling of clean linen,a quite odd observation , even more so for a flower .

Just as he reaches to pick the flower up, the sun all of the sudden blazes furiously, the rays bouncing everywhere and blinding armin, now groaning as he squirms in abrupt discomfort. His feet dig at the sand … or what was the sand… the feeling of plush fabric instead meeting his skin, surrounding his body in comfort and warmth.

Snuggling further into this random source of heat, the sudden realization hits him. His eyes open the tiniest bit and he stops for a moment … this isnt the beach… in fact he’s laying on a bed… an unknown bed

At this his body jolts upward and armin frantically looks around his surroundings, the white pillows and the grey blanket not correlating in his mind as his. ‘This isnt my room’ the panic quickly sets in, quickly throwing the blanket aside and standing up abruptly which proves to be a grave mistake as a headache and the urge to vomit surges up his throat.

He clutches his stomach as he runs to the bathroom ,quickly kneeling over the toilet, emptying the contents of his stomach, the acidity already making his throat burn angrily. The sound of quick footsteps echo the walls and he goes to turn his head towards the door when the second round of bile threatens to escape his throat.

His ingers clutch the toilet ,violently puking when a second presence is felt . armin feels someone kneel next to him and gently rub at his back

“Its okay , its okay ,let it all out “ you push his bangs away from his face while the other hand rubs at his back . armin lifts his head up ,groaning as he moves away from the toilet feeling his head throb way too violently.

You hand him the cup of water and pain killer you set down when you entered the bathroom

“Here take this, dont move too much . your head is most likely killing you” he takes the items and pops the pill in his mouth quickly downing it with the water. When he sets the cup down he looks at you ,eyes squinting, clearly confused

“Where am i ?”

You chuckle lightly, standing up and lean against the counter “you dont remember anything do you huh?” the boy sitting on the floor thinking ...

Suddenly armin visibly stiffens, his cheeks flushing “uh w-ww di-idnt do i-it ,rig-ght?” his eyes all of the sudden finding great interest on the floor tiles .

You give him a light smile and laugh even louder this time “no, no we didnt ,dont worry about that. Here cmon” you reach out a hand to lift him up off the floor

He takes your hand sheepishly ,shoulders relaxing in relief, his red cheeks calming down “ then what happened? Why am i here ?” he asks following you out of the bathroom and into the room.

You cringe at the events that happened the previous night and you wonder if you should tell him everything. You head over to your drawers and open them, turning your back to the stumbling boy “well you got extremely wasted and this creep saw that you were alone and he tried messing with you but i took care of it”

your hands clench harshly at the shirt you were holding thinking about the old fuck. God humans can be pieces of shit

“Oh.” armins bit his lip and he desperately tried to remember exactly what happened , your answer being quite vague , but this did nothing but make his head throb once again . wincing in pain he goes to lifts his hand up to hold his head when he notices the bandages around his wrists ‘what happened ?did i get injured ?’

After picking out what you needed , you turned to face him and you catch his line of sight , looking at his wrists . as if you heard what his thoughts you say “ the perv was being really aggressive towards you and he injured you quite badly but i brought you up to my apartment and fixed you up a bit “giving him a warm smile you hold out the clothes you had previously searched for

“ here , take this and clean your self up a bit then i can take you home, yeah ? you got a little bit of a stain forming on you “ you chuckle, head nodding towards the vomit on the shirt before walking out ,leaving him in the room alone

His eyes widen at your comment immediately rushing to the bathroom and sure enough his vomit is all over the shirt , the mirror reminding him of his earlier commotion . armin sighs in embarrassment ,blue eyes scanning his appearance, finally now knowing how much of a hot mess he looks like . he notices another bandage on his face, his cheek specifically , a bit of blood staining the white bandage along with another few scratches all over his face.

His finger traces around his facial injuries ‘wow, what exaclty happened last night ?’

He shakes his head , not wanting his head to pound again, instead just focusing his attention on the shirt you gave him noticing that it looks similar to the dirty one he is wearing currently.

‘Oh god …..dont tell me …. Im wearing her clothes ‘ the realization hits him and his ears turn an angry shade of red. ‘God how much more of a burden can he be to you ?’ he groans before closing the bathroom door

…

As soon as you close the door , your eyes land on a very dishevled eren leaving his room , hand shielding his squinting eyes away from the harsh sunlight “what happened ? i heard what sounded like someone vomiting” his morning voice rasping out, following you to the kitchen and sitting down on the kitchen bar stool

“Oh he woke up and well... , you know how hangovers are like “ you open the fridge , scanning the interior “wait why is the fridge empty ? i thought i told you it was your turn to go grocery shopping this time ? what happened ? “ you frown turning towards him, crossing your arms

Eren only yawns and stretches his body, not seeming to mind that you were glaring holes at him “dont you remember ? i couldnt go so you said we’d go together after we ate something yesterday but then you got too caught up fighting someone if i recall correctly ” he confidently said, fingers tapping at his chin , eyes meeting yours, glaring back.

You sigh giving up “ ahh yeah i remember now….” you take a quick glance around the kitchen and see nothing of nutritional value “ the hell are we going to eat then ? and why didnt you clean up the medical supplies from last night ?” you badger him looking at the medical supplies messily strewn all over the counter

Eren scrunches his face , hand running through his bedhair, still groggy from just waking up a few minutes ago “ we can always just doordash something” he picks up the bottle of rubbing alcohol remebering how you carried armin into the apartment when he passed out and set him on the couch leaving eren to tend to his wounds.

Just as armin was falling , passing out after just vomiting all over you , you quickly grab at his waist and preventing him from hitting his head on the floor . the stench of the vomit was awfully intense and you scrunch your nose trying to stop the smell from affecting you “ can you be any faster over there ? you tease seeing him struggle with the keys , his fumbling being weirdly endearing somehow

“Im trying , im trying. I swear this cold is messing me up or something “ he puffs out now fumbling with inserting the key right . you roll your eyes upon seeing this , giving a light chuckle before reaching a hand underneath the blonde boys legs and bringing them towards your chest, effectively lifting him up bridal style.

You walk into the apartment and set the boy softly onto the couch before looking down to the mess that your clothes are in , heading towards the bathroom “ hey eren could you patch him up for me ? i have to clean myself up before he’s not the only one with body fluids all over the floor.” you smirk

Eren scoffs “dont you go throwing up on me , you hear ? i just mopped the floors yesterday and im sure as hell not letting you mess my hard work up “ he hears your distant laugh down the hallway , before the sound of boots fade, leaving him alone with the boy

Eren looks at the boy slowly sliding down on the couch and ultimately sighs before going to the cabinet where all the medical supplies are stored. He opens it while lowly muttering “just cause my dad was a doctor and he taught me a few things doesnt mean i have to tend to everyones wounds “

Grabbing a few bandages and bandaids, and rubbing alcohol, he grabs a stool and places it in front of the boy. ‘Your injuries shouldnt be that bad ‘ he thinks before he lifts the boy and positions him upright. Immediately the sight of scarce blood and vomit greets erens eyes . eren winces in slight sympathy and disgust before he wipes armins face clean with the cloth he has in hand and disinfecting the wounds next

The rubbing alcohol stirred a reaction out of the blonde boy seeing as he squirmed in discomfort , the position he was put in faltering, falling into the nearest thing, which so happened to be erens chest, more specifically his neck

Eren was flustered ,not knowing what to do he freezes , his ears turning red upon feeling the shallow breath of the boy on, his sensitive neck . Eren looks down and he admires the peaceful features on the petite boy .’he looks so peaceful, pretty even ‘ eren stares for a bit before he snaps out of it and pushes the boy off his chest , tending to his wounds , doing what he first came to do.

“ i left the supplies out because i knew i would have to tend to your wounds too “ he gets up , walking to the other side of the bar, heading where you are

You squint your eyes in visible confusion “ my wounds ? what are you talking about ?” he scoffs rolling his eyes, “dont play dumb with me , you beat up someone to a bloody pulp and dont expect any damage to your hands, more specifically your damn knuckles ? “

He reaches down, grabbing your hand and lifting them up as to make a point “look at this “ you look down towards your hand and the sight of multi colored bruises,blood and even some open skin greets you.

“ you didnt let me tend to them yesterday so let me do it now “ you meet eyes and his are practically pleading you, but before you get to open your mouth to say anything, you hear rustling and you look behind eren to see what it is .

Armin is awkwardly standing there in the living room, the clean shirt you gave him reaching his knees , and the sweatpants a bit too baggy . you have to physically stop yourself from cooing , the sight being way too adorable for you to handle this early in the morning

Eren senses his presence as well , turning around , both of you guys forgetting about your previous conversation . you clear your throat, sensing some sort of tension in the room “ hey youre finally out ! i was going to make you something to eat but turns out the fridge is empty “ you rub your neck sheepishly , making a mental note to go grocery shopping asap .

Armins eyes widen at this , his hands extending and quickly shaking “ oh no no , please you dont have to, i dont want to be more of a bother than i already am ,” he shyly looks down at the floor , swinging his body , slightly nervous

You smile seeing his cute habit of not making eye contact, fetching your car keys off the wall “ well i bet youre missing your home right ? i can drive you home now if you want “ you also grab the plastic bag off the floor by the corridor

Armin seems to stiffen again , eren now chuckling , his hands stuffed in his sweatpants , noticing how the blonde boy seems way to nervous around you guys . armin looks at eren momentarily before he looks at the floor again ‘ how the hell do you guys look so good this early in the morning ‘ he thinks ‘ meanwhile here he is looking all messed up ‘

“I actually dont live too far away, i can walk home by myself “ armin lies straight out of his teeth , clearly not doing it well judging by the look of your face . youre not convinced seeing as the whole reason why he’s here in the first place was because he was wandering alone.

“ id feel much better knowing that someone is walking you home , i dont want a repeat of what happened yesterday .” you bite your lip, now staring more intensely at the boy in front of you

Armin mentally groans ‘ damn you and your kindness, why cant you get the hint that he doesnt want to hassle you any longer ?’

“Well um … “ he pauses, intensely thinking of a solution that doesnt involve him burdening you guys any further when he hears some shuffling and then someone handing a phone to him. Armin looks up and green eyes stare back at him

“Do you have anyone you can call ? a friend maybe to come pick you up ? “ eren suggests , reading right through the boy

“ o-oh y-yes i do umm thank you , for your phone i mean “ armin scrambles to take the phone and calls his roommate , knowing for sure she is freaking out about his whereabouts

He hands the phone back to eren and shuffles his feet “ luckily she is around the area and can pick me up in 5 minutes , i can wait outside …” you ponder for a second at this suggestions , before ultimately nodding

“Yeah sounds like a solid plan , okay , here take this bag before you head out “ you hand it over and armin looks at you and tilts his head slightly “ its your clothes from last night , i washed them and folded them , oh and your bag is also inside “ you explain while he peeks at the contents inside grief striking his face

‘How much exaclty did you do for him , he’s the worst guest ever in history , throwing up all over your bathroom ‘ he cringes at the thought. He's definitely gonna think about this experience at night,when he reminisces about all the embarrassing moments he's had in his lifetime

“Thank you guys so much for all youve done , i really do appreciate it “ armin rubs at his nape laughing out softly “ well i should get going “ he goes to the entrance, hand on the knob

“Yeah absolutely no problem , take care pretty boy ! “ you say waving , smiling brightly when you see his cheeks flush once more , eren just nodding goodbye . he waves a small goodbye before leaving , closing the door gently . sighing in relief when he got out.

Armin walks out into the street and sure enough there is his roommate , waiting and the look on her face looks not so pleasantly happy .he knows what is going to happen. he opens the car door ready to hear her badgering soon enough

“Look , mikasa , i can ex-” not so shortly as he begins his sentence, she yells out

“WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOUVE BEEN ? DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED SICK I WAS WHEN YOU DIDNT PICK UP MY MANY PHONE CALLS ? ARE THOSE BANDAGES IM SEEING? “ armin winced at her reprimations, slowly sinking further into the passenger seat as she kept rambling, knowing that he has to face her wrath for the whole drive home .

he still has no clue as to what exactly happened last night, the only thing he can do is hope his memories would come back soon and clear up his many questions

#sub eren jaegar #sub!armin #sub aot #sub!aot #armin arlert #sub! eren #armin fic #sub eren #sub armin

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hwangsies · 3 years

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SILVER SOLUTION

(part 2 of galvanising green, read part 1 first!)

pairing: slytherin!hyunjin x slytherin!reader

summary: you dont know where you stand with hyunjin after the greenhouse incident, getting grouped together in potions class might give the both of you some clarity.

warnings: swearing, smut as in: heavy petting, some bathtub fun, praise kink i guess, pretty tame and very fluffy

3.6 k words,

enjoy <3

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“class, listen up” your potions professor claps his hands together “today we’re making amortentia upon a special request from ms weasley” he smiles at victoire, who’s standing next to you behind labtable.

Potions is your only class you have together this year so you’re always exited for it, especially cause she excels in almost every class.

“mom told me she only realised that she liked dad through making this in class” she whispers to you as the professor keeps telling the class about the ingredients.

“mhh” you nod, pretending to be interested, but you simply cant be. Not when hyunjin is staring holes into the back of your head.

You turn around slightly just to see him at the table diagonally behind you, propped up with elbows on the table and locking eyes with you.

He clears his throat and straightens up to look over at his partner, james , when you catch him.

You sigh as the professor tells the class to begin, victoire already starting to chop up some rose thorns.

“hey, can you grab the pearldust and measure it?” she rips you out of your thoughts about if you were to harsh to the blonde boy that’s been on your mind for the past week.

“uhh- yea” you mumble, grabbing the little sliver bag that’s labelled as ‘pearl dust’.

“how much of this?” you ask before victoire points at the measurements in the book that’s laying infront of her on the table.

After about 20 minutes of mixing the ingredients you suddenly hear a loud clinging of someone dropping a glass, followed by yelling.

You turn around to see hyunjin and james at each others throats, fellow classmates quickly jumping in to get them off of each other.

“hey!” your professor comes running “this kind of behaviour is not acceptable in my classroom! I forbid it!” he says sternly.

Hyunjin and james breathing heavily as they nod apologetically.

The professor looks around before his eyes land on victoire “ms weasly would you be so kind to switch places with mr hwang?” he asks but you know its more of an order than a request.

“uh-“ your best friend looks over at you before a small grin tugs at her lips “yea of course” she chirps.

Your eyes widen as she leaves you alone, turning back around to your concoction to mix the fluid before hyunjin appears in your peripheral.

“hey” he says in a small voice, you just nod, eyes trained on the liquid that’s slowly gaining a pearly sheen.

“you’re still not gonna talk to me?” he asks, watching the silver liquid in the big pot as well.

“I said everything I had to say” you answer blankly.

“well I didn’t” he rebuttals, at which your eyes jump up diagonally to meet his.

“what did you and james fight about?” you ask, ignoring his statement before.

“that’s private” he says almost immediately after you stop speaking, at which you huff.

“that’s great, hwang. i love talking to you when you get defensive” you say sarcastically, continuously stirring the potion.

He exhales irritatedly “then why do you always bring up stuff that you know I don’t want to talk about?”

“because, shocker hyunjin the world doesn’t revolve around you” you turn to him, gesturing with the hand that isn’t stirring the liquid “also jesus christ how much aftershave did you put on?” you scrunch up your nose.

He furrows his brows at you before scoffing “you’re the one to talk, your perfume is stinking up this place” he shakes his head as he looks away from you.

“excuse me?” you turn to him.

“yea- as soon as I got here all I could freaking sme-“ he stops himself and his expression softens as he looks from the liquid in pot back to your face.

“what?” you ask, still infuriated as you look over to see the silver spiralling steam coming out of the pot, signalling that the amortentia is working.

“wow!” your professor comes over and applauds “that’s looking really good kids!”

You feel the blood rush to your head when you lock eyes with hyunjin again.

“I don’t feel too good professor I need to go to the bathroom” you quickly excuse yourself before storming out of the classroom, not waiting for an answer.

Hyunjin is quick to tell him that he’ll go check on you before running after you.

“y/n” he yells down the hall “can you stop running away from me? its getting old” he pants as he catches up with you.

“I never told you to follow me” you snap back, not stopping “leave me alone”

“no” he grabs your wrist to stop you, looking into your eyes when he succeeds “I like you, a lot”

“and I know that you like me back” his eyes are soft when he looks into yours.

“so for as long as you smell my aftershave and I smell your perfume in the amortentia I will run after you” you swallow when he closes in on your personal space.

“it doesn’t matter what I smell because I don’t know if i can trust you” you say quietly.

“I understand, but what can I do to change that?” he asks seriously, you shrug your shoulders.

Hyunjin gnaws at his lower lip, sliding his hand down your wrist to enclose your smaller hand in his.

“how about I can be your boyfriend for like 2 weeks, as a test run” you chuckle and shake your head.

“no-no listen” he pleads.

“yea- okay” you signal him to keep going.

“and if you don’t want me after that we’ll just stop, no pressure no anything, we don’t even have to tell people” he proposes.

“you don’t want to tell people because you don’t want other girls to know?” you ask teasingly.

“I- no-“ he sighs when he sees your grin.

At the same moment the door to the classroom open and the whole class comes out for their lunch break.

Hyunjin looks at you before looking back at them.

“what?” you ask, but he doesn’t answer you.

“hey!” he shouts at the fellow students including james and victoire “I like her!” he points at you.

“oh my god” you whisper, burying your face in your hand embarrassedly.

“a lot!!” he continues before looking down at you “she’s smart and funny and not to mention incredibly beautiful”

“get a room” someone yells before the students laugh and move past the two of you.

“I don’t care about other girls” he turns to you again “please?”

You inhale deeply before nodding “okay”

His pretty lips form into a big smile as his hands find your waist over your cloak.

“so does that mean I’m your boyfriend now?” he pulls you closer to his body, grinning from ear to ear, his eyes turning into crescents.

“14 days test trial boyfriend, sure” you grin back as he slowly leans down.

“but” you say, making him stop his actions “you’ll need to earn the first kiss as my boyfriend” you softly tap your index finger against his lips.

He groans playfully and buries his face into your neck “okay” he mumbles “whatever you want” he presses a kiss to your cheek as you grin victoriously.

"are you ever going to tell me why you and james fought in class two days ago?"

"It's not that serious" hyunjin shakes his head, not looking up from the notes on his lap.

"okay" you hum, pushing you hair back when a breeze of wind rushes through hagrids pumpkin field.

You observe the tall blond boy sitting on one of the huge pumpkins next to the one you're sitting on.

"did it possibly have to do with the big griffyndor vs slytherin quidditch match coming up?" you absently tap your feather against the tough skin of the pumpkin.

He sighs, looking up at you "yea"

"Scouts are coming and seekers aren't needed as much as other players, you know, since there's only one in each team" he runs a hand through his hair.

"so we know only one of us could possibly get scouted" you lock eyes.

"you dont know that" you try cheering him up "what if they think the both of you are amazing?"

Hyunjin chuckles "that's sweet of you but even if they did, they'd probably pick james because of his name"

You frown.

"Not that he isnt talented or anything but, you know" he shrugs.

"no, baby dont think like that. I've seen you play, you're amazing, anyone with eyes sees that" hyunjins eyes crinkle up as his pretty lips stretch into a smile.

He pushes himself off of his pumpkin to lean against yours.

"you just called me baby for the first time" he tilts up his chin, locking eyes with you.

"thats the only thing you took from my emotional speech just now?" you snicker, leaning down to boop his nose with yours.

"wanna kiss you so bad right now" hyunjin mumbles, biting his lower lip.

"hmm" you hum "not yet"

"Hey kids, listen i'm all for young love but please not on my pumpkins" hagrid shouts from his window.

"shit" hyunjin laughs.

"sorry hagrid"

"you came" hyunjin beams at you, gracefully landing on his feet next to you on one of the high tribunes.

"you asked me to" you tilt your head, as he steps closer.

"yea but it's only a practice game so-"

"i'm still gonna support my boyfriend" you grin, getting on your toes a little to kiss his cheek.

He blushes a little, his cheeks matching the faint redness of his nose, which you attribute to the cold weather; you swear it's the cutest thing he's ever done.

"are you blushing" tease him, cradling his cheeks in your hands.

"am not" he huffs sarcastically at which you giggle and press another kiss to his cheek.

"ay hwang! we dont have all day" a male voice calls for your boyfriend.

He looks back briefly to nod at his teammate .

"come with me after practice? i wanna show you something" he requests.

"yea, okay" you smile.

"okay, have fun watchig, babe" he drops a kiss to your cheek before turning his back to you.

"wait" you hold his arm "you forgot something"

"what?" hyunjin frowns.

"this" you place your hands on his cheeks once more and pull him flush to yourself, slotting your lips against his.

You hear his broom hitting the ground, a second later his hands encase your waist, pulling you closer.

The faint sound of hyunjins teammates hollering is the last thing you hear before his tongue prods at the seam of your lips.

The blood rushing to your ears keeps you from hearing anything but your tongues chasing each other.

You only seperate from each other when a high pitched whistle fills the air.

"fuck" he breathes, grinning before dropping a last kiss to your lips.

"continue this later?" youbite your lip as he picks up his broom.

"definetely" he winks before pushing himself off the ground to meet his teammates hovering in the middle of the field.

"that was so hot" you jump at victoires voice.

"what the fuck" you hold your chest as you turn around to see your bestfriend take a seat on the tribunes.

"how much did you see?" you adjust your green-white scarf as you sit down next to her.

"enough babe, that was a sexy girl move" she fiddles at you scarf as well.

You laugh "yea?"

"hell yea, look" she points up at hyunjin, where him and his teammates are still talking, one of them pushing hyunjins shoulder playfully.

"they are totally jealous of him" she squeals "and i'm totally jealous of you" she squints her green eyes teasingly.

“i can’t believe they let you use the prefects bathroom” you awe as you look around the spacious room with high walls and windows, where he had taken you after practice.

"one of the perks when you're the star of the slytherin quidditch team" hyunjin grins, dropping his slytherin coat to the ground.

He walks over to the gigantic bathtub and turns on the water, glancing over at you.

"luke warm or hot?" his hand rests on the tab.

"huh?" your head snaps over at him.

He chuckles "the bathwater"

"oh, uh hot" you nod.

"fitting" hyunjin grins, mumbling.

"Hm?" you lock eyes as you take off your coat and mimick hyunjin in dropping it to the ground.

"nothing" he giggles, walking over to you and wrapping his arms around your waist.

"take it off" he whispers against your lips, his fingers tugging at your shirt.

You comply and get rid of your clothes.

"Ooh" you sound as you step inside the big tub thats filled to the brim with bubbles.

"good?" hyunjin asks as he takes your hand to help you inside, he himself already sat down.

"great" you close your eyes as his arms envelope you from behind, leaning back against his chest.

“so what’d you think of seeing me play?” he whispers after a few minutes of comfortable silence.

“fishing for compliments are we?” you joke.

“ha ha” he murmurs against your neck, making goosebumps spread over your legs which doesn’t go unnoticed by him when his hand runs up your thigh.

“feels nice?” hyunjin runs his nose against the shell of your ear.

“hmh” you nod, closing your eyes when you feel his lips on his neck, tongue darting out to taste your skin.

“this?” he whispers, one of his large hands palming your breast, pinching your nipple as the other hand softly travels over your mound.

You open your eyes “hyunjin”

“hm?” he continues to kiss at your neck.

“wait a second, please” you say, moving from your spot from between his legs.

“whats going on?” hyunjin asks concernedly, reaching for your arm, urging you to stradde him.

“I just feel like I have to tell you this” you say, playing with his hair at the back of his head.

“what are you so nervous about baby” he huffs, smiling when you shake your head.

“I- I don’t know” you sigh, his hands soothing up your back.

“I” you exhale shakily “I’m a virgin”

“huh?” he blinks, his eyes threatening to pop out of his skull.

“I mean I- I didn’t know” he runs his hands down your arms to take your hands in his “but I really don’t care if that’s what you were scared of”

“well, kind of” you grow a little smaller out of embarrassment.

“hey” he chuckles, pulling you a little higher on his lap “you didn’t actually think I’d laugh at you or something, did you?” he gets more serious.

“I don’t know, you always called me ‘miss goody shoes’” you mumble, pushing some hair behind his ear.

“baby I was joking” he cups your face “you know just like little boys who pull the little girls pigtails because that’s the only way they know how to get their attention”

You scoff “you never actually pulled on my hair though”

“yea, cause I don’t know if you’re into that yet” he quips, your jaw going slack.

“you little sh-“ you slap his shoulder, the water sloshing and some bubbles flying into the air as hyunjins laughter fills the room.

“I’m kidding” he laughs, catching your hand in his.

“I’m kidding” he whispers again when leaning in to press his lips to yours.

“you are my good girl though” he whispers against your lips, your heart stuttering at his words and your core clenching.

He bites his lip as if he knows what effect he has on you, you part your lips to say something but instead of words coming out, a little whimper tumbles from your lips.

“cute” he giggles before slotting his lips against yours, a groan tearing from his throat when you suck at his lower lip.

His arms circling your waist to pull your chest flush against his warm one, a groan tears from his throat when you suck on his lower lip.

You loop your arms around his neck and angle your head to deepen the kiss, gasping a little when you feel his erection poke against you pubic bone.

“sorry” he smiles coyly, reaching down to adjust himself.

“don’t worry I don’t want to wait forever, you know i-“ you explain.

“hey, you don’t have to explain yourself to me, we’ll do whatever you want, I lo-“ he cuts himself off.

“you?” you repeat after him questioningly.

“I” he laughs “shit, uhm” his fingers draw circles on the skin of your hips.

"I've had a crush on you for like half a year now" he chuckles.

"huh?" you lock eyes.

"yea" he grins "remember when that one ravenclaw asshole called you a muggleblood and you let him have it six ways from sunday?" you giggle as you remember the incident.

"I got detention for that" you smile at him.

"yea but only because you turned his nose into a rhinos horn" he laughs with you.

“anyways, that’s when I was like… damn she’s cool as hell” he recalls, tucking a wet strand of your hair behind your hear.

“why did you never talk to me?” you ask, running your finger over his toned chest.

“I wanted to but you always seemed to avoid me and I didn’t want to annoy you” hyunjin closes his eyes, feigning regret.

“I had a crush on you so I was scared to be around you” you confess “but to be fair every girl in this grade has a crush on you” you roll your eyes playfully.

“well you’re the one in this bathtub with me right now” he grins, leaning forward to place a kiss on your collarbone.

You hum “yea I am”, when hyunjin licks at the base of your throat before gently sucking at the soft skin.

“wanna turn around again?” he cocks up one of his eyebrows.

“why?” you grin “so you can feel me up better?”

“exactly” he kisses your lips before you comply to his wish.

You lie your head back against his shoulder as he presses kisses to your temple, lifting one of your hands to caress the side of his face.

“how are these bubbles not dissolving?” you think out loud.

“magic” hyunjin whispers, kissing the skin under your ear.

You giggle when his hands move down your sides.

“can I touch you?” he asks quietly, kissing the slope of your neck.

“please” you mewl.

“you’re so perfect baby” hyunjin says, palming both of your breasts before moving one hand in between your legs, which you instinctively spread for him.

You can feel an amused puff of air against your neck “see? you are my good little girl”

Your stomach tightens in arousal when he brushes two fingers through your folds.

“aren’t you?” he mumbles against your skin after sucking a bruise onto your neck.

“yes” you moan when he draws circles over your clit.

“hyunjin” you whimper, the warmth in your core spreading into your limbs.

“I’ll make you feel good, baby” he rasps, his fingers picking up the pace.

You grab onto his bicep as you throw your head back, pleasure booming behind your lid as hyunjin suckles on your earlobe.

“fuck” you cry out.

“that’s it baby” he urges you on, rubbing at your sanity as you try not to fall into him completely.

“I’m close” you mutter, bucking your hips up to meet the friction of his fingers.

“come for me, babygirl” he whispers “I got you baby”

The knot in your stomach snaps and spikes of pleasure flood through your system as high pitched moans tear from your throat.

Hyunjin slows down his fingers when your legs start trembling and you gasp for air.

“good fucking girl” he chuckles, gently rubbing your folds before you hold his hand still, the overstimulation setting in.

“fuck” you groan before he tilts your head up to catch your lips with his.

Humming into the kiss before you break it, hyunjin bites his lip as he grins down at you.

You can feel the blood rushing through your face and quickly bury it in the crook of his neck; his throat vibrating with laughter.

“don’t go shy on me now, pretty girl” he mumbles, fingers dancing over your stomach.

“sorry” you giggle before looking up to kiss him again.

“don’t be sorry, you’re perfect” he kisses you back.

After getting out of the tub first and wrapping a towel around his hips, hyunjin helps you get out and wraps a towel around you and rubbing you dry vigorously.

“baby ow” you laugh and take the towel from him.

“sorry” he giggles, cradling your cheeks in his hands and pressing a wet smooch to your lips.

“eww” you laugh but he holds your face still in his hands “don’t ew your boyfriend”

You smile “apropos boyfriend”

“yea?” he releases your face, pushing some hair out of his face.

“I think I want to upgrade you from test trial boyfriend to real boyfriend” you say sheepishly, looking down.

“only if you’re up for it though, I don’t want you to leave me hanging-“

“yes” he interrupts you “I am up for it, like… super up for it” he steps even closer.

“really?” you ask as you wrap the large towel around your torso.

“yes!” he chuckles, kissing your cheek before moving to the other one before attacking your nose.

“okay! okay” you squeal.

“does that mean you’ll come to the game as my girlfriend and cheer me on and stuff?” he grins, wiggling his brows cutely.

“yes, yes I will” you promise before locking lips again.

a/n: hi there! thank u for being so patient with me! i was rly crammed up with life lol. anyways i feel like this was kinda lack luster, but i intend on writing a thrid part as the finale of a trilogy i guess lol.

so thank you sm for reading if you’ve made it this far, lots of love to you <3

(also unedited so pls dont come for me im tireddd lol)

#this was so bad iowdepfh #but i dont wanna keep yall waiting for so long ah im sorry #im a faliure lolz #stray kids #skz #stray kids smut #skz smut #skz hogwarts!au #hyunjin smut #hwang hyunjin #slytherin!hyunjin #hyunjin hogwarts!au #stray kids hogwarts!au #hyunjin fluff #silver solution

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concentrateandpush · 4 years

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“I can’t help it”

Falling pregnant so fast wasn't a good plan, but Rory and his Mom's have been so good to me and taken me in when I've really needed help. The fact that one of his mom's Lena, recently gave birth really settles my mind and the other one, Liv is 30 weeks pregnant.

I've really started to get some intense cramping tonight, Rory is asleep next to me and he worked all day so I can't wake him up. I go downstairs to get a glass of water and hear the baby cry upstairs, so I run back up with my drink to check on her, it's the least I can do for Lena and Liv. I go in and rock her standing for a few seconds before feeling a gush of fluids between my legs. "Ohh shit" I say softly looking into the babies eyes.

I sit in the nursing chair and rock Cassie back to sleep before putting her in her crib again and going to fetch some paper towels. Half way to the bathroom I feel myself cramping again and my body instinctively squats down, holding on to the banister at the top of the stairs. I take long, deep breaths and hum a little on the out breaths. The contraction lasts longer than the last and I then go to the bathroom then return to the nursery to wipe up my waters real quick.

After doing that I go back to our room and see Rory asleep, fast asleep. I decide to sit on the desk chair and sit with my legs crossed. My legs being open releases some pressure, but still makes me feel like I need to squat or something.

A half hour goes by, 4 contractions later and I decide to walk around the room a little, but an intense contraction catches me off guard and I squat to the floor, holding the end of the bed for support. My legs are widened and I have a big baggy shirt on. I reach down and bite my lip, feeling between my legs for the baby. I can't reach far enough inside myself so I decide to get on all fours.

At this point, my whole body is throbbing. "Baby, just hang in there, a little while longer" I whisper and bite my lip as I get another contraction. They're on top of each other. I cant get a break.

There's so much pressure and I want to push so bad, but I cant do it with out knowing I'm ready. One push wont hurt, surely? I decide to try to push to see what happens. I wait for a contraction and stay on my hands and knees, once its here I bite my lip and bare down, pushing ever so slightly and letting out a low guttural groan. It felt so good but hurt more than anything I've ever felt.

I feel the next contraction already and decide baby is ready to come, I look up at Rory who is still sleeping and I hold my underbelly, spreading my legs apart further. "Here we go baby" I whisper before giving a big push and with out allowing it, I scream a blood curdling roar.

Before I know it Rory's Mom's have run into the room and are either side of me. "Sweetheart, what are you doing? You're not pushing yet are you?" Lena asks as she kneels next to me. "I have to, I can’t help it" I cry as I feel another contraction. "Uggghhhh" I moan loudly as I try my best to push baby down. "Yeah she's going for it" Lena says before Liv gets up and wakes Rory "Your girlfriend is pushing your baby out and you're sleeping, get up!" She shouts, cradling her 30 week pregnant belly.

I see Rory coming over and sitting behind me, he's half asleep, but he leans my body back on his and I lean my head back on his shoulder. "Babe, I cant do this, I cant do it" I cry shaking my head. "If anyone can do this, it's you" Rory whispers and kisses my head.

I look up at Liv and I feel her finger inside me, pressing down "here, Beth, I need you to push where my finger is" she says sternly and I nod, take a deep breath and press my chin to my chest. "Nnnggggg" I cry as I grit my teeth, holding it as long as I can before letting out the breath and spluttering everywhere "oh god, ohh fuck" I moan.

"Let's get you up and squatting, let your body work for you a little" Lena says softly as Rory helps me up into a squat, holding me under my arms. "Ohhhhh fuck" I moan loudly, already feeling the need to push. I reach down and pull my legs, Rory holding all of my body weight, I try to open up my legs as far as I can and I bare down, crying and silently pushing, this is when they start to realise how much pain I'm in.

"Her body is so small, Mom, can she do it?" I hear Rory ask Lena. She nods and I feel her hands roam inside me "oh god, get out, get it out of me!" I cry loudly and I feel my body starting to exhaust. "Help me, someone just pull her out, just pull her" I cry, clearly struggling and just begging for relief.

"Okay, let's get her on the bed, Rory, you grab one leg, Liv, the other, pull them as far as you can get them" Lena demands as I get carried to the bed and I feel them pull my legs "oh woah, stop, too far!" I cry and hold my groin crying, feeling like my body is being torn apart.

"Okay, the head is huge, Beth, listen to me, I need you to give me all you've got, you will tear but we can get that fixed" Lena says calmly. "Oh please, just, please" I cry. I dont know what I'm begging for at this point, but I need help. The next thing I see is Olivia coming over, she sits close to Rory and starts talking quietly to him "in front of you?!" He says disgusted before reaching down and starting to stimulate my nipples.

I moan a little through pleasure before realising that it's helping me alot. "Babe, dont stop" I moan before giving a deep, hard push. "Can you see anything yet?" I grunt and start again "nnngggggaah" I cry out looking at Lena. She looks up and smiles "keep that coming sweetheart, the heads showing" she smiles and rubs my thigh.

All I feel is this intense urge to really bare down and push, so I move onto my knees, barely taking notice of what's going on around me and I push, letting out a long, moan that ends in a scream. "Beth, Beth listen to me, I know there is no contraction, but i need you to push" Lena says sternly and I nod, hearing the urgency in her voice. I push as hard as I can, gritting my teeth and clenching my fists "I cant, I cant" I moan and Lena looks at Olivia seriously.

"Beth, the baby isnt getting much oxygen, I need the head out so that I can get the chord over the head" she explains and I nod, falling onto my hands as this primal urge comes over me. "Mmmmmphhhh" I moan, I open my legs under me and push again, even harder "Ohhhhhhhhh, come on baby, work with mommy" I whisper.

"That's it Beth, one more push for the head then we can take it a little easier" she nods. "Nnnggggaahh" I groan, my eyes tearing up and my face turning red. I hear a gush of fluid pour out and I try to see what's happening. I feel the chord being pulled and a bite my lip a little "everything okay back there?" I ask and all I hear is baby cry. I smile and let a cry out "Mommy's gonna push you out now baby girl" I say confidently.

"I need to stand" I say soflty before feeling everyone bringing me to my feet. I reach between my legs with both hands and smile "hello you" I laugh. I feel a contraction coming and with the push, I feel myself squatting lower and my body trying to get me to open my legs more. "I've got you babe" Rory whispers "Push our baby out" he smiles.

"Ooughhhhhh" I moan and take a quick breath before going at it again and letting out a blood curdling scream. I feel a hot, slimy movement between my legs and I see Lena look at me, crying "You did it, Beth, you're a Mom" she whispers as she puts baby on my chest.

#giving birth #birthstory #birth #birtherotica #childbirtherotica #labor #pregnancy

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kfireforall · 3 years

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Kundalini Awakening Diet and Lifestyle

- For those who have it flowing in themselves already -

by Chrism

Yes organic foods as much as is possible. No caffeine. No high fructose corn syrups. No really hot spices. No cigarettes. Alcohol is also best to surrender. If you can grow some of your food even better. Coconut milk and or water is helpful for the vitamin combination and well as the electrolytes. As is watermelon. It is individual for everyone as well. Follow what your Kundalini guides you to have. If you are to eat meat try to get wild game if you can or at least organic meats. Eat the meat even if you have been vegetarian for many years. Kundalini uses it to transform the body. Do not resist this. Same with the plants if you mainly eat meat. Always thank the plants and animals that give of themselves for your benefit. Lifestyle is to become all of the noble qualities as much of your conscious time as you can become. Loving, forgiving, tolerant, gracious, patient, trustful and trustworthy, diligent, joyful, compassionate, disciplined, considerate and kind, strong and courageous, fearless, discerning, intelligent, non egotistical, honest and truthful among others. This relates to why a person is even given the gift of grace. Become that healer, that saint in the populations. Give of your love and your care for others especially strangers. Let yourself feel the Kundalini as it brings itself to and through you every second of your life as it is the Kundalini that is taking you into the next levels of the human divine. Nothing else can really matter but your bond with God in this sense. This is what I do as well. Become that person that is the new expression of humanity on this planet. Let the Kundalini come into you in stronger and stronger waves of grace. Go out of your way to encourage its greater presence within you "as much as you can." Take the Shaktipat. Come to a seminar. Meet other awakened people and begin, in a greater way, to merge into the divine channel that is opening itself within you. - blessings and grace to you all!

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RAW FOOD AND KUNDALINI / FRUIT Pre Kundalini go with what you feel is best for you in this regard. Teach your ego consciousness to feel and discern that which your higher consciousness is communicating via the intuitive processes. When Kundalini comes your surrender to her in this way will be complete and that which is given to you from the Kundalini will dictate what is and what isnt consumed. In regards to preparing the way through nutrition. Balance is best and with respect to how others view the Kundalini, I feel it is best to have balance in what is consumed. Root vegetables and yes melon for the kidneys and adrenals but not just any melon "Watermelon" is the one that I will recommend. Meats are not forbidden in my offerings of Kundalini preparation. Meat is always an option and the Kundalini itself will give this option to some and then retract it the very next week or in a similar time period. Vegetarianism is also given and this must also be adhered to or avoided as is determined by the actual Kundalini within a person. Before hand it is also a good and viable preparatory choice. Follow the personal intuition. Celibacy is a personal choice. Kundalini in the activated or awakened state once again will take control of these expressions. But for the inculcation of an awakening or activation sexual conduct is not prohibited. The love of a person for another must be part of the equation. - blessings -chrism

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Are You Eating Enough Alkaline Foods to Maintain Vital Health?

This chart provides information that shows the contribution of various food

substances to the acidifying of body fluids, and ultimately, to the urine,

saliva, and blood. In general, it is important to eat a diet that contains foods

from both sides of the chart.

Allergic reactions and other forms of stress tend to produce acids in the body.

The presence of high acidity indicates that more of your foods should be

selected from the alkalizing group.

You may find it useful to check your pH using our Personal pH Test Kit in order

to find out if your selection is providing the desired balance.

People vary, but for most, the ideal diet is 75 percent alkalizing and 25 percent acidifying foods by volume.

ALKALIZING FOODS VEGETABLES

Garlic

Asparagus

Fermented Veggies

Watercress

Beets

Broccoli

Brussel sprouts

Cabbage

Carrot

Cauliflower

Celery

Chard

Chlorella

Collard Greens

Cucumber

Eggplant

Kale

Kohlrabi

Lettuce

Mushrooms

Mustard Greens

Dulce

Dandelions

Edible Flowers

Onions

Parsnips (high glycemic)

Peas

Peppers

Pumpkin

Rutabaga

Sea Veggies

Spirulina

Sprouts

Squashes

Alfalfa

Barley Grass

Wheat Grass

Wild Greens

Nightshade Veggies

FRUITS

Apple

Apricot

Avocado

Banana (high glycemic)

Cantaloupe

Cherries

Currants

Dates/Figs

Grapes

Grapefruit

Lime

Honeydew Melon

Nectarine

Orange

Lemon

Peach

Pear

Pineapple

All Berries

Tangerine

Tomato

Tropical Fruits

Watermelon

PROTEIN

Eggs

Whey Protein Powder

Cottage Cheese

Chicken Breast

Yogurt

Almonds

Chestnuts

Tofu (fermented)

Flax Seeds

Pumpkin Seeds

Tempeh (fermented)

Squash Seeds

Sunflower Seeds

Millet

Sprouted Seeds

Nuts

OTHER

Apple Cider Vinegar

Bee Pollen

Lecithin Granules

Probiotic Cultures

Green Juices

Veggies Juices

Fresh Fruit Juice

Organic Milk

(unpasteurized)

Mineral Water

Alkaline Antioxidant Water

Green Tea

Herbal Tea

Dandelion Tea

Ginseng Tea

Banchi Tea

Kombucha

SWEETENERS

Stevia

SPICES/SEASONINGS

Cinnamon

Curry

Ginger

Mustard

Chili Pepper

Sea Salt

Miso

Tamari

All Herbs

ORIENTAL VEGETABLES

Maitake

Daikon

Dandelion Root

Shitake

Kombu

Reishi

Nori

Umeboshi

Wakame

Sea Veggies

ACIDIFYING FOODS FATS & OILS

Avocado Oil

Canola Oil

Corn Oil

Hemp Seed Oil

Flax Oil

Lard

Olive Oil

Safflower Oil

Sesame Oil

Sunflower Oil

FRUITS

Cranberries

GRAINS

Rice Cakes

Wheat Cakes

Amaranth

Barley

Buckwheat

Corn

Oats (rolled)

Quinoa

Rice (all)

Rye

Spelt

Kamut

Wheat

Hemp Seed Flour

DAIRY

Cheese, Cow

Cheese, Goat

Cheese, Processed

Cheese, Sheep

Milk

Butter

NUTS & BUTTERS

Cashews

Brazil Nuts

Peanuts

Peanut Butter

Pecans

Tahini

Walnuts

ANIMAL PROTEIN

Beef

Carp

Clams

Fish

Lamb

Lobster

Mussels

Oyster

Pork

Rabbit

Salmon

Shrimp

Scallops

Tuna

Turkey

Venison

PASTA (WHITE)

Noodles

Macaroni

Spaghetti

OTHER

Distilled Vinegar

Wheat Germ

Potatoes

DRUGS & CHEMICALS

Chemicals

Drugs, Medicinal

Drugs, Psychedelic

Pesticides

Herbicides

ALCOHOL

Beer

Spirits

Hard Liquor

Wine

BEANS & LEGUMES

Black Beans

Chick Peas

Green Peas

Kidney Beans

Lentils

Lima Beans

Pinto Beans

Red Beans

Soy Beans

Soy Milk

White Beans

Rice Milk

Almond Milk

-chrism

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ajokeformur-ray · 3 years

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I watched Joker tonight and typed out my thoughts as they occurred to me. Unedited; typos are guaranteed. I did this a few months ago and really enjoyed looking back at my thought process and I wanted to do it again so that I can look back and know that what I feel is real and true in my darkest times.

You're welcome to skip this; it's under a cut for ease of doing so. Warnings for occasional sexual comment lmao. There’s no self shipping in this, I don’t think.

word count: 2, 575.

I’M SOBBING and I’ve only just pressed play.

Heart squeeze Chest much ow

THERE HE IS

✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

Nooooo baby omg don’t pretend - let yourself hurt if it hurts. Don’t pretend.

Carnival Carnival Carnivalllllllll 😍😍😍😍😍

I am a Simp for one clown and his name is Carnival

Someone help him, I????

That sign hit Arthur as hard as my love for him did ksksksk

MY EYES BE LEAKIN💔💔💔💔💔

bb nooooo

Oh honey let me kiss those bruises and replace the marks of violence with love, hm? You’re safe with me.

Breathe, my love. Don’t fight the laughter. Let it out, let yourself go.

Screams into a pillow because????? much sad must kiss

“have you been keeping up with your journal?” LIKE HE HAS TIME

oHHHHH boi’s close to losing his shit

Do it, Artie. Give ‘em hell.

“I think I did” YOU TELL HER!!💖💖💖

I want to be his cigarette. Where’s Satan??? I got a new deal for my blackened soul which he took at half price😂😂😂😂

I’d have my hand between the door and his head so fuckin fast I swear

“I just don’t wanna feel so bad anymore” yep SAME

ohhhh peekaboo🥺🥺🥺

this makes me giggle ksksksk i watch this scene when i feel sad bc it always makes me happy for the time it’s on

he’s so good with kids; he doesn’t have to try and think about what’s funny, he just does it, he’s himself and it works

FUCK OFF LADY CAN’T YOU SEE HE’S STRUGGLING????

give

him

back

his

card

casually wrinkling my nose against tears lmao

ohhh the way he looks up at those stairs from the bottom

i can feel his exhaustion

me too, my love

step step step step

god i wanna get him the fuck outta gotham

and into my arms and a soft, warm blanket

“eat. you need to eat” LITERALLY WHAT I TELL MYSELF EVERY DAY IN HIS VOICE BC OTHERWISE I JUST WOULDNT EAT???? I’m losing so much weight asdfghjk its not enough tho

SUPAH RATS

Did Arthur come up w that joke or was it actually a Murray joke????

HIS VOICE IS SO SOFT IM CRY??🥺🥺🥺🥺

“I WAS PUT HERE TO SPREAD JOY AND LAUGHTER”

YOU DO BABY, YOU DO!!!! EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!

go deepthroat a cactus randall - youre already a bit of a prick so🙃🙃🙃

“THE GUYS THINNK YOU’RE A FREAK BUT I LIKE YOU”

HOYT. YOU CAN GO SIT ON A CACTUS TOO

FUCK OFF

😡😡😡😡

“WHY WOULD ANYONE STEAL A SIGN”//”WHY DOES ANYONE DO ANYTIHNG?” HOYT YOU’RE SO FUCKING ILLOGICAL HERE IM????? ERIKA DOES NOT (ALSO WILL NOT LMAO IM A STUBBORN BIITCH) COMPUTE

Can arthur fuck me like he pounds the trash/????🥵🥵👀

those dark curls.... that crooked tooth... must kiss.🥺🥺🥺

pennys casual cruelty makes me so fucking angry

foreshadowingggggg ~ *JAZZ HANDS*

ugh the way he dances with that gun im👀🥵🥵🥵

he enjoys the power of it and his breathing gets deeper asdfghjk

clumsy baby omggggg i just COOED 🥺🥺🥺🥺

okay maybe im stupid but i genuinely dont understand this “senior who needs to graduate” skit i’m??? how is being an intro to western civ student funny im???? someone explain???

but also dont bc fuck that guy lmao arthur’s hilarious

true millenial humour (and brit humour lmao we’re dark asf)

THE WAY ARTIE TWIRLS HIS FINGERS AROUND HIS HAIR AND DANCES IN HIS SEAT IM???🥺🥺🥺

wanna curl up on his lap at night when hes writing and go to sleep with a

blanket around our bodies🥺🥺🥺🥺

when arthur wears a shirt at home you KNOW it’s a daydream

THAT CROOKED TOOTH IM WANT KISS.

WAIT IS IT CALLED STAND UP COMEDY BC YOU STAND UP... AND ITS COMEDY???

23 FUCKING YEARS, PEOPLE... TO REALISE THAT🙄

WHEN CARNIVAL CAME ON SCREEN I NTHE HOSPITAL I MADE A PORNOGRAPHIC NOISE LMAO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

IF YOURE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT, SHOOT MURRAY

WOOPS WRONG LYRICS

😂

“doctor of laughter”🥺🥺🥺🥺

doctor i have a case of the Big Sad can you... do an exam? 😉😏

NO BB DONT BEAT YOUR HEAD UP THERES PRECIOUS CARGO IN THERE

in what world does chucking cold greasy chips in a girls hair being “nice”???

lmao fuck these guys

ohhh honey breathe. dont fight it, my love, just breathe.

my heart’s breaking for you, you sweet thing🥺🥺🥺

i love you so so so so so so so much ugh you’re an actual fucking angel

just breathe darling

i need to get you a cup of tea with honey in it, your throat must be so sore

ohhhh baby im so sorry

i’d take every single punch if i could

i’d die for you

i wish i could protect you

i wish i could look after you

and take all those hits

and kill those guys for you

im so sorry

sobbingggg

YES GOOD MAN THANK YOUUU

KILL THOSE ASSHOLES LMAO DESERVED IT

yeah i have a grey morality... im similar to deadpool in that way tbh

carnival comin’ to kill your insecurities

8 bullets in a 6 chamber???? mm-hm

DONT FORGET YOUR BAG THATS EVIDENCE

AND THE WIG

RUN BABY RUNNNNNNN

GO GO GO GOOOOOOOOOOOO

RUN LIKE THE WIND BULLSEYE

THE SOUND OF HIS FEET SLAPPING THE PAVEMENT IM👀

OOOOOH JOKER’S WAKIN’ UUUUUUP

fuck he’s so hypnotic

the way he runs his hand down his lower stomach asdfghj🥵

must kiss the inner tendons on his wrists and lick the blood off his face

must kiss

he moves like water

fuck hes so fluid

bathroom scene = the scene in which my heart and vagina clench at the same time

im WANT

T POSEEEEEEEE

“i still owe you for that, dont i?”

PUNCH OUT IS MY FAVOURITE THING E V E R

D O N T S M I LE

UGH I FUCKING HATE being told to smile if i don’t fucking want to so BIG mood

PLEASE SHUSH ME THE WAY YOU JUST SHUSHED PENNY IM???

but also dont lmao bc i’ll think you’re mad at me and i’ll hide in the bedroom for the rest of the day lmao i’m sensitive✨✨✨

i wanna sit on his lap and still his bouncing knees

“thats not funny”

fuck off penny yes it is

I JUST CHOKED ON MY COFFEE IM???

“but i do” god the P O W E R

ugh that fucking sexist piece of shit comedian can choke “women look at sex like buying a car” 🤢🤮🤢🤢🤮

chauvinistic pigs can die thanks

his lil trip upstage im cry🥺🥺🥺

ohhh baby. just breathe, darling. it’s okay to be scared. dont fight it. just breathe.

he and i both cover our mouths when we laugh/smile in the exact same way and it makes me feel closer to him

how can they think hes laughing at himself when hes literally gagging????

people only see what they wanna

the Penny imitation is👌👌👌

s m i l e

i remember when i came home from seeing this for the first time, i got home and dropped to my knees to cry in the bathroom. it was such an emotional release and so much love and i played smile to try to make myself smile but i only made myself cry harder lmaooooo ~

smile and thats life are my go-to songs if i gotta cheer tf up

danger sign = neither works

he looks so soft after his “date”🥺🥺🥺

“thats life” yeah but murray you dont even leave the studio so how do you know????

ngl arthur’s anger scares me.

anyone so much as raise their voice at me and i’ll cry really bad and i will shut myself away for the rest of the day and quiet anger terrifies me so his banging abt in the kitchen would freak me tf out😲

angry bb😭

he controls his anger so fast though omgggg ~

that soft please sends me

idk where it sends me lmao

down below probably

BARE FACED CARNIVAL OMG THIS SCENE IS SO CUTE

I LOVE THE MATCHING COLOURS ON ARTHUR AND BRUCE TOO ???

okay but the implication that arthur always carries a clown nose on him is🥺🥺🥺

hes such a good clown im?????

lmao im enjoying the show more than bruce is skskskk

arthur’s lil chuckle makes me🥺

his HUMMING im??? soft?????

his brows are so strong and dark omggg ~ he’s so beautiful

OKAY i’ll be honest i’ve seen this alfred/bruce scene and the thomas bathroom scene later on and the penny flashback scene a 100 times and i still dont fucking understand what did or didnt happen regarding arthur’s parentage im????

ive seen interpretations to say he is thomas’ son and some to say he isnt and i still cant decide so? im stupid i guess 🙃

“a clown thing?” the s a s s

“it’s exit only” yeah so’s my ass🙃

if i was there in the hospital room i woulda turned that tv off as soon as i realised what clip was gonna play

murray’s cruelty is d i s g u s t i n g

lmao hes an asshole

arthurs lil clap from joyyyyy ~ 🥺🥺🥺

did i say murray???

i meant m u r r a t

🙃🙃🙃

sneaky baby

wayne hall either has super bad security or arthurs v quick on his feet

🤔🤔🤔🤔

he looks so good in red omggg ~

f o r e s h a d o w i n g

arthurs smile when hes watching chaplin is how he smiles when we all gush to each other abt him and ourselves!!!

hes so cuuuuuute🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰

“told me what”

ohhhh honey🥺🥺 im so sorry. “crazy” is a trigger word for arthur; it made him start laughing in the bathroom with thomas

“touch my son again ill fucking kill you” yeah?? touch my arthur again and i’ll fucking kill you🙃🙃🙃🙃

^^^ that ones a joke do not come at me

the clerk in arkham was nice to arthur - he, gary and sophie are the good gothamites.

none of it was enough to stop his descent into joker, though, and i’d even say it was too late right at the beginning of the film, too...

his sock puppet thingy “they cut all those” is such a Joker thing to doooo ~

the way arthur’s laughing in the hall at arkham turns into sobbing is gut-wrenching omg the poor thing😭

i wanna hug him and protect him and help him to process this in a healthy way

sweetheart, if i could take all of your pain and put it onto me... i so would. i’d do it in a heartbeat.

i wanna get you into a hot shower, make you some food and sit and listen to you. we can either sit in silence or you can talk to me, my love, and you will be heard and understood and loved.

“i had a bad day”

IT’S OKAY I DIDNT NEED MY HEART ANYWAY OMG YOU POOR SWEET INNOCENT THING IM LOVE YOU🥺💔

THAT ENTIRE LATE NIGHT SCENE LAUGH/SOBBING GOT ME -

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

i just wanna hold you and protect you and help you and love you

I’m so fucking sorry, darling. i wish i could take it all away from you

“i havent been happy one minute of my entire fucking life”

NO ONE SHOULD LOOK THAT ANGELIC AFTER COMMITING MATRICIDE IM????

get

that

fucking

gun

away

from

your

face

boi dont test me ill fucking go feral or - no, tell you what, i’ll point the gun at me and see how you like it

im looking respectfully at the green speckled undies scene....👀👀👀

“coming” 😏😏😏

“my mum died im celebrating” and “i stopped taking my medication” and you STILL stayed in the apartment with Arthur????? dudes those are 🚨🚨🚨 signs

woe betide anyone who underestimates arthur fleck lmaoooo

randalls death scene makes me laugh every time omg i feel so vindictive

get WRECKED

i wanna lick the blood off his face. i really want to

ngl i think i have a blood kink...

“dont look just go” ME WITH MY ACNE WHEN I SEE IT IN THE MIRROR 😂😂😂😂

JOKERJOKERJOKERJOKER

ASDFGHJKL

ERIKA.EXE HAS STOPPED WORKING

JOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERRRRRR

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 MY BABY MY MAN OMG THERE HE IS IM CRY???????😭🥺😭🥺😭🥺

my mind is literally blank rn im just staring and crying and smiling so hard my face hurts????? im love him so so so so much

sweet thing’s so used to pain he gets HIT BY A CAR AND KEEPS GOING????

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

hghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

euirrrrrrgkjbgkfbirsghigrbugr

*incoherent keyboardsmash to portray utter love*

ohhh baby no dont cry. oh honey😭 i wanna sit on your lap and kiss your tears away

“i love dr sally”

you have a WIFE at home

“DO YOU REMEMBER?” THAT WAS YOUR CUE TO APOLOGISE LMAO GET FUCKED MURRAT

he’s so CUTE

omgggg ~

my hearts gonna give out its SQUEEZING SO HARD IT HURTS

YOU MOCK THEM, BABY!!! THEY GOT IT COMING

“i wanna get it right” hes so passionate

my comments have deceased in number bc im just too starstruck and in love to even think clearly lmao

jokers all i know rn and this is the most peaceful ive felt in WEEKS

im sobbing

ugh fuck this hurts so BAD

youre speaking the truth, darling. im so so proud of you and i love you so much

“THEY COULDNT CARRY A TUNE TO SAVE THEIR LIVES” LMAO INSIDE JOKESSS

literally sobbing right now ugh what the fuck youre in so much pain and in the middle of a breakdown and no one saw you

ugh baby im so sorry, you deserve so much better

you tried so hard and you were gonna fall no matter what

IN THE WHITE ROOM

“hi” baby they cant hear you but im COOING 🥺🥺🥺🥺

you’re so fucking cute

say the word and ill burn gotham to the fucking ground for you

i wanna sit atop that car and cradle your head in my lap and wipe the blood off your face and help you stand up and be there for you and and and😭😭😭😭😭😭 i love you so so so much.

i’d be so much worse off without you in my life. you brought a splash of colour which has never dimmed or faded. it never will.

b l o o d s m i l e

im wearing my inside on the outside now and it still hurts

angel💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

i see you and your pain. i love you.

i see you, angel.

his genuine laughter is🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

that cute lil “ksksks” he does im🥺🥺🥺

i always laugh with him omg the two of us are laughing together ugh its the closest i will ever get to sharing in his joy

t h a t ‘s l i f e

i love the hallway daaaaaaaaaaaaaance ~

them hips dont lie😉😉😉

i love you i love you i love you i love you omg the sun’s like a halo ugh i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you im singing along to thats life while i type out how much i love you at 220am lmaooooo ~

i l o v e y o u

#erileck #<- ref tag #arthur fleck #joker 2019 #erika talks

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wackapedia · 3 years

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Hello, My Alien! || Part 6: Never Said Goodbye

Taehyung X Reader

Y/n is traveling to Terran-03 to find her soulmate, Taehyung who is also from her home planet. Two aliens in one roof, what could go wrong?Fluff, a dash of angst, crack, and alien things

Hello My Alien Masterlist

You wake up lying on a metal plate in a dark room. You arms are strapped against the bed while a wired contraption is attached to your head. In the distance, a figure observes the screen beside you. He notices you're awake and proceeds to step into the light, revealing himself to be the man who used a stun wire on you. Manager Jun-ho. "What is this, what are you doing?" Panic rises to your throat. "I must say..." He begins, speaking in your native tongue, "I came here to Terran-03 looking for Dar'arians, and hell, did I hit the kriffing jackpot." "Did you try looking for Dar'arians in, I don't know, maybe the Dar'ar quadrant?" You bite back. Jun-ho laughs. "Princess has a smart mouth, huh?" Jun-ho shucks his long sleeved coat to reveal the fine red feathers on his arms. "You're a Leretian?" Your voice laced with disbelief. Jun-ho's eyelids shut before opening again to reveal his red irises. "I am General Niyoz of the Leretian Federation." He reveals. His crimson eyes stare into yours. "The disgraced general himself. I'm flattered. What do you want from me?" You attempt to mask your surprise. "About a week ago, my sensors detected a special Dar'arian here in Terran-03. Kim Taehyung. We Leretians have devised a method to strengthen our forces, make super-soldiers of our people, thus restoring the balance of the galaxy. But then I stumble upon another Dar'arian. Of royal bloodline, no less. The stars have truly aligned for me..." Jun-ho, or Niyoz, manipulates the machine connected to the embedded needle on your arm. The clear tube fills with your transparent blood which turns into a light purple upon exposure to oxygen. You try to calm yourself at the feeling of your life fluid being drained from you. White specks appear at the corner of your vision, causing you to feel dizzy. -------- "Oh? Why is Tannie out in the hallway?" Jungkook notices as soon as the elevator doors open to Taehyung's floor. "Maybe Tannie escaped.." Hoseok poses. "Noona, its us!" Jungkook knocks on the hardwood door of Taehyung's apartment. "Noona, We brought you lunch!" Hoseok adds. No answer. Just Yeontan's barking and frantic scratching at the door. "Hyung, she's not your Noona..." Jungkook tells his hyung. "Yeah, but she doesn’t know that.." "No, only I get to call her that! Think of something else." Jungkook pouts. "Your royal highness!!" Hoseok continues knocking. "Let me call Taehyung." Jungkook fishes for his phone, dialing Taehyung's number. "Taehyungie~, we're here and she wont open!" Hoseok's cheerful voice carries through. "Is that Yeontan? Why is he so loud?" Taehyung presses his phone closer to his ear. "He was out in the hallway when we arrived. Hyung, I think something's wrong..." Jungkook's worried voice causes Taehyung to panic. "I'll be right there." "Its been an hour, only Yeontan is responding!" Was the first thing Jungkook says as soon as Taehyung arrives. He immediately unlocks the door and as Yeontan bolts into the room. "What happened, Tannie? Where is she?" Hoseok tries to calm the distressed dog who wouldn’t stop barking. Taehyung enters the room to find nothing amiss. His things are in place, your tools are on the table, the shower door is left open. Your wet clothes are littered on the bathroom floor. He notices your kironide charm among the wet material of your used shirt. The charm still glows, and the paint didn’t wash out. "Tannie, can you follow her scent?" Taehyung asks his loyal dog. Yeontan barks again, dashing out into the elevator as the three idols follow him out. ------- "You got what you want, now let me go.." Your weak protests fall on deaf ears as Niyoz infuses your now purple blood into his system, sitting in front of a large console. "Do you want my gratitude, princess?" He sarcastically answers, flexing his arm as his body absorbs your life fluid. "Ah, damn it." Niyoz observes one console screen and presses a combination of buttons on the console. Just then, you feel your surroundings tilt to one side. This certainly isnt just you being dizzy, as the equipment beside you sways and the tools tip over the durasteel floor. This is when you realize that the console in front of him is a piloting computer. And you are on a ship. Exerting yourself is probably a bad decision when you’re almost drained out of your life fluids but the panic within you causes your body tissues to contract against your restraints. "Where are we going?" Your head stirs at Niyoz turbulently maneuvering the ship. "Why, back to Leretia, of course! The imperial council will be pleased with you." The Leretian's eyes grow pale as the blood infusion continues, even when he's manning the ship. You remain helpless against the steel platform, zoning out of consciousness once more. ------ Jungkook, Hoseok, Taehyung, and Yeontan quickly piles themselves in the elevator. Hoseok jams the ground floor button but Yeontan protests by using the only method he can use. Biting. "YAH TANNIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" Hoseok's voice is too loud for the small compartment of the elevator. "Tannie, should we go up?" Taehyung questions his dog face to face. He's not sure if he imagined it but Yeontan nods. "Up? Which floor?" Jungkook's finger hovers over the six buttons on top of their current floor. Yeontan is picked up to sniff on the buttons of the elevator. His little paw presses the rooftop button. "This is absolutely insane." Hoseok mumbles, pulling out his ringing phone from his pocket. "Jimin-ah! Yes, I'm with Taehyung. We don't know, she's missing. We're on our way to the rooftop of Tae's apartment building because Yeontan said so. Mmhmm. We'll wait for you guys on the rooftop, I guess." Hoseok finishes the call. "See how insane that sounded?" The elevator dings, signaling their arrival. Before them, a large bean-shaped orbiter floats a few feet above the apartment building. "No. Way." Jungkook walks straight toward it. "This is so cool!" He reaches out to try to touch the rough edge of the orbiter. "Jungkook, no!" Taehyung passes his dog to his hyung to pull the younger one away from the orbiter. "JEON JUNGKOOK!!" Seokjin and the rest of the boys emerge from the second elevator. They all rush to pull back the maknae. But it was too late. The orbiter's thrusters tilt downwards, blowing hot air down the surface. It then speeds up beyond the atmosphere, travelling almost as fast as light, leaving them all on the rooftop. The wind impact blows off everyone, making them flinch. "Ah, Did her beacon finally beep back?" Yoongi disturbs the shock and silence of everyone on the rooftop. "Looks like it. She couldn’t drop by to say goodbye." Namjoon comments. "No, hyung. There was never a beacon." Taehyung answers. On his palm was your Kironide charm. A real Kironide mineral, acquired only by the noble-born people of his species.

#kim taehyung #taehyung x reader #kim taehyung x reader #taehyung fluff #taehyung angst

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fiftyshadesgrl · 4 years

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Dean listened to the ringing on the other end of the phone. "Come on baby. Pick up. Please." You had been gone for three days and the winchesters were no closer to finding you than they were 72 hours ago. When your voicemail picked up dean slammed his fist down on the steering wheel, causing sam to jump in the passenger seat. "Damn it!"

Sam placed a hand on his brothers shoulder just to have it shrugged off. "Dean, we'll find her. Shes tough, probably tougher than both of us put together. She knows we will find her."

"What if we dont sammy? What if..." dean couldnt bring himself to say the words. He couldnt - no he wouldnt say it. Sam was right, you were tough. The most badass woman hes ever had the honor to meet and bow share his life with. He will get you back, if he has to open up purgatory or hell or whereever he had to go, you would be found.

A flutter of wings startled both the winchesters as cas appeared in the backseat. "Tell me good news." Dean glanced over his shoulder.

Cas scooted forward, "i dont have any good news." Dean losed his eyes and gritted his teeth. "I found where shes being held."

Deans eyes snapped open, "what the hell cas, thats great news." Cas' brows furrowed, aas dean stared at him. "So? Where is she?"

"Three towns over, an old saw mill that has been abandoned for close to fifty years."

Sam shifted, "gradys saw mill. I know where thats at. South west of here."

Dean spun the car around in the other direction and floored it. Babys engine roaring as she was pushed almost to the max. "Hold on baby. Im coming."

(Y/N)'s POV

I could hear the wind howling through the broken window, chilling my almost naked body. My body shook with cold and trembled because of my muscles ached from being trussed up by hands for so long. These vamps that had me here showed no mercy, which i didnt expect anything more from them. I was a hunter, they knew it and now i was in their grasp.

I wished i had let dean accompany me when i went out for a supply run that day. Maybe i wouldnt have screwed up if he had been by my side. The chains quietly clinked above my head as i moved my hands with the little bit of strength i had left. My arms and shoulders screamed in pain as i tried to move and as always it turned out unsuccessful.

I was weak not only from being strung up like a piece of meat in a butcher shop, but also from blood loss. The vamps had bern feeding from me almost every time they came in torture me. I had bites on my inner thighs, neck, and wrists. Bruises covered my body along with shallow cuts. Im surprised i hadnt got frost bite yet from how cold i was. My face was swollen from the beatings i had recieved and my jaw felt like it was broke. The gag that was in my mouth didnt help the pain either.

My stomach churned when i heard the lock on the door click and it creak open. The one person who hadnt hurt me yet walked in. She was a young woman probably in her early twenties with blonde hair pulled into a ponytail. She brought in another bag of IV fluids and replaced the old bag that was empty.

She wasnt like the vamps, her eyes held kindness and pity in them as she looked at me. "Im so sorry." She whispered, "i dont have a choice, i have to do this." I shook my head at her as i tried to talk around the gag and the pain in my jaw.

"Hows our guest? Shes well, i hope." The vamps voice came from the door her head spun towards him as he walked in the room.

"Shes not going to last much longer in these conditions." The woman said as she visibly shrunk away from the vamps touch.

"You are a trained nurse my dear. Im sure you can keep her alive for a while longer." Said the male vamp.

"She...shes hypothermic and anemic. I-i dont have the proper medical equipment here for that."

The vamp circled her like prey, brushing a stray hair behind her ear just before his hand went around her neck. "If you want to see your daughter again, i suggest you keep her alive." Her faced started turning dark red as she struggled for air. "Understand?"

She barely nodded and the vamp smiled sadistically before letting her go. She stbled backwards, falling to one knee as she gasped for air. "Now hook her back up to the monitors and get everything ready." The young woman glanced at me briefly before she got a swift kick to the ribs. "Now!" Roared the man. She scrambled forward towards me, she sakily hooked me up to the heart monitor and placed a blood pressure cuff on my arm.

"Now, while my trusty nurse is preparing for some more fun lets see if youre ready to talk." He pulled the gag from my mouth, i groaned as a pain shot through my jaw and up my face. "How do we open purgatory?" I kept my head down, knowing what was coming if i didnt answer but i didnt care. I will never tell them what they want.

He yanked my head backwards to stare into his eyes. "I wont ask you again." His fist connected with my face causing the pain in the left side of my face to intensify and blood to drip from my mouth. Blow after blow i stayed silent until i heard the nurse speak suddenly.

"I dont have any more of the antibiodics or adrenaline. I need more IV fluids for her as well." For some reason i felt that she was just trying to distract this vamp from killing me.

"That is a problem isnt it." The man walked over to her.

"I can get some more though. A quick run into town, no more than forty five minutes tops." She said quickly.

He brushed his fingers against her cheek, "you wouldnt be trying to escape on me now are ya? Lets not forget..."

"I know," she cut him off, "you have my daughter. Im not going to run, i will not risk her safety."

"Good girl. You have thirty minutes." The man said as the woman ran from the room leaving me and the vamp alone. "You have lady luck on your side today, next time we meet you wont be so lucky." He shoved the gag back in my mouth making me wince in pain.

I held the tears in until i heard the door shut and the lock turn. 'Cas, please if you can hear me. Tell dean i love him and im sorry.' I whispered in my mind. I kept praying to cas over and over and maybe just maybe they will find me.

A/N : this is a preview to a new two to three part series i have been writing. Feedback is always appreciated and if you want tagged let me know.

@holylulusworld @tftumblin @an-unhealthy-obsession @jesseswartzwelder @justanotherwinchester @kingdomkey13 @nikki082489 @tcquotes-blog @thequeenreaders @aubageddon91 @imaginesforthepeople

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#deanxreader #spn #deanwinchester #deanwinchesterxreader #angst #spnfanfic #jensenackles

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leesunnies · 5 years

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TASK 001 - THE LIFE AND THE TIMES OF : 𝐿𝐸𝐸 ' 𝒮𝒰𝒩 ' 𝐻𝒴𝒰𝒩𝒲𝒪𝒪

GENERAL INFO

full name: lee hyunwoo nickname(s): sun, sunny gender & pronouns: cismale, he/him sexual & romantic orientation: bisexual & biromantic age & dob: twenty-two, may 4th 1997 birthplace/hometown: seattle, usa parents/siblings: aimee lee (mother), joseph lee (father pet(s): never has had a pet astrological sign: taurus dominant hand: right handed, but plays sports left handed handwriting style: neat and clean. all letters capitalized, small print ( ex. ) language(s) known/spoken: english (first language), korean (completely fluent), japanese (reading & writing only) religion: agnostic, but very spiritual current living arrangements: small studio apartment in a nicer side of daegu, parents fully pay for occupation/major: part time barista, part time youtuber, full time film student

PHYSICAL

picture reference: blood type: ab nationality: american skin tone/color: pale from his lack of time outside, but still a yellow undertoned tan birthmarks & scars: scars on his knuckles from boxing and mma as a kid height: 6’0” build: athletic and toned, but is leaning more towards a soft body (muscular but less defined) hair color: naturally dark brown, currently blonde hair length: a few inches past needing a haircut. longer on the top then the sides, the sides touch his ears eye color: dark amber brown diet: coffee and bagels are the main part of his diet, he does eat both meat and vegetables exercise & level of fitness: tries to work out more, but has currently fallen out of it due to school how’s their posture ( or lack thereof )?: stands straight, but tends to slouch when he sits typical style of dress: anything currently in trend, fashion isnt his main priority. he typically wears hoodies, tshirts, and sweatpants body modifications: helix, conch, triple lobe, tracheas, on both ears

MANNERISMS

how does your muse walk?: slowly, but long strides, an air of relaxation and peace in his movements how does your muse talk?: his korean is very casual but slightly forced, english is very laid back and casual what accent/dialect does your muse talk with?: no specific dialect in his korean, but his english is very pacific northwest united states how would you describe the tone of their voice? are they loud or quiet?: depending on his level of excitement he can be either very loud or very soft what does their laugh sound like?: lots of breathy gasps for air, and snorts how does your muse typically smell?: versace dylan blue or azzaro wanted depending on which cologne he decides to wear what kind of air do they carry?: very comforting and calming, he prides himself on being a soothing person do they have a(ny) catchphrase(s)?: common vine quotes, a few are “what the fuck richard” “bb grill” “ah fuck, i can’t believe you’ve done this” and this list goes on and on what are their nervous ticks?: bites his nails, taps his leg/and or pen/pencil

PSYCHOLOGY

what makes your muse happiest?: puppies, or any baby animal, he loves them to death what upsets them the most?: being abandoned/lied to what are their hobbies? how frequent do/can they do them?: he mixes music, doesn’t do it as often as he’d like but its very fun for him. he also likes to play basketball, but again doesn’t do it as often as he’d like. do they have any guilty pleasures?: those videos of dogs and children being reunited with their military parents, also greys anatomy, and basically any other drama. is your muse an extrovert or an introvert? neither?: ambivert, he has tendencies of both do they have high or low self-esteem? what about confidence?: pretty decent self esteem, he knows hes attractive, but he doubts his personality are they easily stressed and how do they normally respond to it?: not very easily stressed, if hes ever stressed he resorts to marijuana and alcohol what is your muses worst fear?: being abandoned, stems from childhood trauma what is your muses biggest dream?: to make it big in the film industry, whether as an editor, producer, or score/soundtrack designer is your muse a morning person or a night dragon?: night dragon all the way, he’s never fully awake till after noon how intelligent is your muse? do they acknowledge it?: rather common intelligence in stuff like maths and science, but smarter in english, music, and history. he doesn’t really brag about his knowledge describe their sense of humor: very dry, shows like the office and parks and rec, darker humor like shameless, and he is very vine oriented

RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES

are they currently in any sexual or romantic relationships?: no romantic, but he has ideals and people he would date, he’s very sexually fluid and will have sex with just about anyone what is their experience with relationships?: several bad relationships in his younger years, is afraid to commit although he likes the idea of being committed how does your muse view the idea of friends with benefits? have they ever had one? would they ever?: an easy way to release stress, likes being able to have a person with chemistry he can rely on how important is sex to your muse?: mildly important, he has to appease himself just about every night, but he could go a month without sex what are their biggest turn on and turn offs?: turn ons for him are very physical, for girls he likes smaller petite bodies, red or blonde hair, but for men he likes usually taller than him and muscular, facial hair and slight amounts of body hair. his turn offs are fairly easy, unhygienic, rude, and over cocky-ness does your muse find it easy to make friends?: yes ! he loves having friends, even if he doesn’t actually have things in common how important is friendship to them?: having friends is the only way he’s able to stay sane quantity or quality of friends?: he prefers quality, but he doesn’t mind quantity how important is family?: low on the list of things important to him are they close to their family? why or why not ?: not close to his parents, but on good terms, they had a slight falling out after his family kicked his nanny out at fifteen.

FAVORITES

activity: producing music & films animal: dog beverage: tequila, or dr pepper book: impulse by ellen hopkins color: navy designer: armani food: hamburger all the way, simple flower: tiger lily’s gem: opal holiday: halloween mode of transportation: flying, but usually on bike movie: labyrinth musical artist: tobi lou, logic, denzel curry, to list a few quote / saying: “when life gives you lemons, throw them back” scenery: wooded mountains scent: the smell of pumpkin and cinnamon weather: overcast, but slightly warm vacation destination: hawaii

ATTITUDES

greatest dream: to be famous greatest fear: being abandoned most at ease when: listening to his favorite records least as ease when: having to talk about his past worst possible thing that could happen: his parents completely drop him biggest achievement: 100,000 subscribers on youtube biggest regret: not telling his first boyfriend he loved him most embarrassing moment: accidentally insinuating a fourteen year old was drinking hard liquor to a partners parent biggest secret: his partying tendencies to his parents, also his sexuality to them top priorities: keeping him and his friends happy

#daegu:task #- [ task ]#the gif gave me the MOST STRUGGLES #but i wanted to have fun in photoshop #bc i havent in a wile #i think i liked to template i used hhh #ive also been watching the act #i'll respond to messages and everything tmrw hhhh #i have to work 2pm-7pm and i'll be eating with my mom and grandmas so it'll probably be around 9 till im back on !!!#i'll be messaging though hopefully all day bc my manager working tomorrow is rlly Chill #nanite guys i rlly wanna see all of these i love them all

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mommydragon-of-all · 6 years

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The Crimson Storm

Soren was flying through the battlefield.

Twisting, spinning, rolling, pouncing, tearing through the biggest clusters like a tornado of flashing blades and explosions, bodies dropping in his path like struck trees, dead before they hit the ground.

The wind carried his excited bursts of laughter across the field, and it sounded so different from the usual infectious, hearty melody ringing clear through taverns and camps, dancing above, unmistakable for all who knew him. This sound was crisp and cutting, rattling the bones, like a peculiar thunder to the flash of his electric blades. It was the exact opposite of the soothing warm bubbles lifting the roofs of Haven’s rooms, easing the weights from shoulders. Some of the support fire faltered a bit as soon as Soren landed in the grove. Although the active stun field was closely limited to the blades in his hands, it almost seemed like he had the shock wave of a true thunderstorm. Deadly to those within its perimeters and giving shivers to those that watched from afar.

The startled cries of the enemy and the sounds of battle were a symphony to Soren’s ears, and he was *dancing*, riding the height, the rush of battle, and his blood was *singing*.

He brought a crimson storm over the bone dry grass field, painting a vivid picture of devastation on the sun bleached canvas. It soaked the thick paint up just as greedily as Soren’s senses did, and he was drunk on it. In the heat of battle and high on the scent of blood, he didn’t see his enemies as people anymore, he saw *prey*, he saw *play*.

Whoever thought it was a desperately stupid idea to enter this fight head on with just Soren as melee fighter supported by mages and archers from above, as this unexpected encounter found their group in such unbalanced constitution, was severely mistaken. It was just crazy. And they didn’t know yet how perfectly “crazy” worked for Soren…

Oh it was so long since he got to properly dance with his blades, he was starting to get itchy. Soren didn’t even wait out the flood of retreat arguments against his instant elaborate plan of “Lets get them.” He flashed a mad grin and literally jumped in the middle of the Trouble, then took that title for himself.

All that blood made his wide grin stand out even brighter, his sharp canines seem even longer, the glint in his eyes sharper. He didn’t just feel like a majestic predator loose on a pack of wolves turned into a flock of prey, in their eyes he very much looked like one. Many of them froze for seconds upon sight of him, even before his lightning enchanted blades reached them. A deadly mistake. They rarely had any more time to react, not that that helped them much. Soren was untouchable in his drive, evading and striking without a break in his fluid whirlwind, each movement a continuation of the last. He was ziping across the battlefield several times over, not staying in the same spot for two seconds, bodies lining his trail, the raining blood filling his footprints.

Between the shitstorm Soren kicked up and the arrows and magic blasting down, soon there were none of the enemy left standing.

The last one got an arrow in the knee before Soren reached him and promptly fell on his ass in pain and sock, wide eyes freezing on Soren. His whole body seemed to shrink more and more with each step Soren took towards him.

With the battlefield falling quiet Soren dropped his momentum, and he was approaching slowly, taking long, hip-swinging cat steps towards his last prey: prone and waiting, for lead perhaps? Soren tilted his head to the side with cold curiosity. *‘Didn’t it know how to dance?’* A chuckle bubbled up Soren’s throat. He spun his bloodied blades playfully and stopped in front of his shivering prey, swaying weightlessly on his long legs, eager, assessing. This prey didn’t seem like planning to move anytime soon. How boring. It appeared to have trouble breathing too, despite only sporting a minor wound -a little red bloom on a grey clad leg- and has gotten as pale as the dry grass under it, but Soren liked the crimson better. There was not nearly enough crimson over here.

However Soren could smell it thick and potent and alluring in the air, could feel it everywhere, cooling rapidly, only this last one’s veins still pumping fresh rivers of it. Soren drew a long breath through his nose, savoring it with slightly dropping eyelids and quietly humming in appreciation, though it might have come out as a faint growl. He unconsciously licked his lips. His canines felt even sharper than usual when his tongue dragged over them -without being mindful of the pressure- and it sent an odd shiver of excitement through him.

But he had much better “fangs” for this hunt, he remembered. Unfortunately he did have to use his sharp teeth as weapon before in a desperate situation. Soren grimaced. It was not a fun memory. (despite loving the taste of blood in general, and lacking the slightest bit of regret over it all) He took a long, satisfying lick along one of his blades though, completely unbothered by the flickers of lightning cracking over it, gloving emerald irises never leaving his last target.

The blood carried the distinct flavor of mined lyrium. He felt the sudden urge to lick his blades clean, and let this sorry excuse of a prey lay fainted by the time he is done, or maybe die of a heart attack – certainly looking not far from either possibility, but where was the fun in that. His blood would turn sluggish. A total waste not even worth a glance.

Chasing the last one always changed the key, it was always when he realized the game was almost over, too soon, always too soon. The last one was the one he paid the most attention to, that he played with the longest, indulging them in a pace more their level, prolonging the fun a bit more, even if it meant sacrificing the thrill of speed.

They usually lived as many minutes more as they were interesting, as much as they thought they actually had a chance, of escaping or fighting back, even if they were almost always so underwhelmingly clumsy and shaky, so far from matching up to Soren’s deadly fluent lead. What a pity. But sometimes they were amusing enough to pay for the extra time and attention, to make up for the dropped speed. Apparently not this one though.

Soren flicked his wrist and slowly raised the blade with an elegant swipe, head tipping in light musing about the best angle to choose for the broadest splatter of beautiful crimson, when he felt a firm but gentle hand on his arm.

He blinked, as if waking from a trace, momentarily confused. He wasnt startled by it, nor was he alerted before it reached him, there were no alarm bells springing him to action, no kicked in reflexes. Which meant, when his sharpened senses registered the approach - familiar steps, maybe even voice, scent - some part of his clouded brain must have filed it as trusted and dismissed it. (Not bothering to alert his consciousness with the unnecessary information. Nothing to be wary of, nothing to protect from.)

He watched the familiar hand guide his arm back down and felt every drop of bloodlust leave him in a rush. He got almost disoriented for a second from the sudden deflate. But then his gaze, drawn further by a warm bright flutter in the wind, reached Hadiden’s face and he was grounded again.

… (Keep reading here if the line isnt working like on phones usually)

.. .

A blink broke the moment suspended in time, and Soren inhaled sharply, eyes widening.

Fuck, he almost wasted their last breathing chance of getting information out of this great mess. He was part of a bigger thing now, they needed to know all kind of stuff . This was no random bandit horde, no local incident to be cleared and be done with it.

Yet he got carried away, as per usual. Moreover, he “flashed his fangs”, quite literally, so disturbingly and undeniably. He turned his head down and away from Hadiden. His eyes stung a bit for a second for some reason but he blinked it away. It was strange. Shit, he didn’t want *Hadiden* to see this… this monstrous, cruel side of him. He didn’t know why, but he didn’t. Or rather, he refused to acknowledge it. He usually had no problems with going full savage beast in a battle for the whole world to behold, having wild fun and tearing the enemy apart, bathing in their blood and riding the height, grinning like a wolf above their ripped corpses without an ounce of sorry. His smoldering, more animalistic, wild sides, ready to blow into fire at the first wrong wind catching into it weren’t particularly well received across Thedas. Having your instincts and stuff boosted had its downsides. However he lived an unapologetic life, he wasn’t proud of things like his cruelty or brutality. And at this moment, in the presence of this beautiful, kind and caring man he couldn’t help but want to be more worthy of the warm hand on his arm.

For the first time in his life he outright *feared* judgment from someone, feared to be feared. He found himself desperately wanting to be trusted, to prove to Hadiden that there was no side of him, no matter how ugly, that would turn against him, that would harm him.

People often were taken aback when they saw Soren in battle. Some might utter how they would have never imagined him kill so brutally and lightly after how much compassion he showed towards everyone and their mother. But it was really simple. Threats were different. When a persons status turned into enemy there was no mercy left to give, they become prey or obstacles to destroy.

The bloodlust… the bloodlust was a bit more complicated. Even Soren himself didn’t know how much of it was original trait and how much it was amplified by all the blood magic jobs done on his body, all the boosts on his basics. A common side effect of enhancing blood manipulation seemed to be the slight general enhancement of the whole package too, the body being such a wonderful complex, which came as a nice bonus on things like hearing or instincts and reflexes, but a real bummer on things like touch, from the fucking sand itches to the joyrides of feeling pain on totally new scales. Soren needed to work on evasion seriously and go through another, stepped up pain tolerance training –like the original wasn’t HELL- so he wouldnt kneel over from less than appropriate level of injuries…. Only quality pleasures made up for that royal pain in the… well. That train of thought just turned towards awkward. But mostly everything had its up and downsides. The surprise distance upgrade to his sight that came with the night vision enhancement was neat, though the bioluminescence his irises gained was not exactly helpful to stealth.

Anyways, it was all part of him now and he owned it, he refused to regret any of it, or be defined by it. He also came to peace with his “darker” sides and urges and learned to accept himself and acknowledge his own needs and know his borders and edges.

He normally wouldn’t try to suppress a part of himself and pretend it didn’t exist just because it was… undesired, but he felt a sharp pang of longing to be accepted, to never become feared by this wonderful person.

Part of him would always remain a beast, but maybe he didn’t want to be a wild one anymore.

Suddenly, having a leash sounded a lot less like loosing freedom and a lot more like having an anchor, someone to belong to. He liked that thought. He liked it too much, and it was damn scary.

Following that spark of longing, old warning bells shook him off that rail. He straightened up fully, taking a deep breath and forcing a small smile on his lips. He spoke up before Hadiden could voice whatever he was thinking behind that gaze, the gaze that practically burned Soren even as he carefully avoided the smallest glimpse towards it. He wasn’t ready to know what emotions it carried, for being judged, or answering concerned or accusing questions or being scolded or… or *something*, so with a tone hopefully light and easy, he cut ahead to avoid being cut -just like in battle.

“Ah, right, this is the last one, isn’t it? Im gonna… ehm… go look what the others might have on them of use and let you question this one.”

Damn, he almost stuttered. He never stuttered, under no circumstances. Not in front of anyone but who he was infatu…… Anyways, true that he often got distracted mid-sentence or something, not for lack of finding what to say, but new floods of thoughts getting stuck on each other on the way out or changing course abruptly. But this… This was unusual and he had to get away before he dared think too much about it.

With that he turned and left, not once daring to look back at Hadiden, but with his eyes downcast he caught a good glimpse of the enemies face, shaking on the ground in shock, terrified out of his mind, like an apprentice about to fail his harrowing. He looked about ready to sell his own mother to the man who relived him of Soren’s presence. Oh, looks like his rampage proved to be useful for Hadiden after all. Self-satisfied, he smirked before his turn broke his sight on the prone enemy and it shrieked, covering impossibly more, seemingly tumbling himself to the next stage of shock.

Soren barely took a few steps when he could hear the guy start spilling without question, tripping over his own words in a high pitched rush. Soren huffed. Yep, having a beast *on leash* certainly could have its benefits on both ends of it.

….

It was later, while he relived a still twitching corpse of the weight of coins and some other valuables, that his wandering thoughts peeked back and he remembered … there was no tremble in that hand on his arm. A spark of hesitant hope glinted in his chest, not giving a shit about his flaring fears or shouting wisdom born from experience or the worry for the big signs of a force never before encountered.

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ajabsusbjsbsbanns · 7 years

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Fruity Ferrets These are a Semi open species. You must contact the creator (me) in order to make one. I must confirm yours so i can add you to a list of the current ones. Fruit ferrets are a strange species of ferret. They take on a pastel colour and always have strange banded markings. They all grow small leaves and photosynthesize to live. although they can survive without food, they thrive better with it. They can drink either dairy, juices (concentrated) or water. They can eat anything from small prey animals and kibble to parfaits and other food. they prefer meats though as they are omnivours. They have a lot of personality and are very different from animal to animal. These animals will shed their fur and develope a muted coat of their natural coat during winter. If they are not kept in a war home or warm place then these ferrets will also stop producing fruit over winter in order to store energy. Instead they will hunt. This is why its important to keep your ferret warm so they dont stop producing fruit. If they do go into a dormant period of growth while inside of not out hunting, they can develope health issues. Their blood and saliva can become thicker and clot which can kill them. Fruit ferrets have a strange squeel as their call. They are relatively vocal and can be as loud as a small dogs bark. They can breed with either gender and can be female, male, neither, etc. They have live births with litters of up to 7. They are less likely to breed with fruits of another kind however they can develope diseases and mutations from inbreeding. Most ferrets have solid suagr as their paw pads however they can sometimes have mutations causing them to have either: berry skin, large seeds or even no paw pads. Their tails can vary and can be somewhat hard to breed the one you want. Its relatively easy to breed a twig or vine tail. A miniture tree or solid fruit however are harder. And a furry tail is pretty rare of a trait. Certain symbols or markings are also desirable and quite uncommon to breed. Fruity ferrets are a typically domestic breed of ferret. this is an umbrella breed. they actually come in smaller "sub breeds". -Pure bred -Smoothie -milk shake -leafy Depedning on their diet and heritage, they will have seperate apperances. Pure bred: Pure bred are quite uncommon. These ferrets are around the size of a european polecat and are quite hard to domesticate. They're shy and sometimes aggressive and hard to train. However once domesticated they will cling to their adoptor. they usually only cling to two people and wont really become close with a family. Pure bred ferrets have long thick vines that entangle their body. They grow thorns which need to be trimmed similar to claws. do NOT dethorn a ferret. this has serious health risks and can cause death. These ferrets grow fruit on their vines. The fruit sprouts from random small pores on their bodies. The fruit grows about once every month to two months and can be picked and eaten. The fruit can grow to be about the size of their head and must be picked at this point. If it isnt picked then the fruit will continue to grow and evenutally rot. When this happens the ferrets can contract mold. These ferrets have very thin liquidy blood as well as thin sticky saliva. Their bodily fluids are made of fruit juice and are extremelly sticky and sour. Its not recommened that you drink it though. Their blood and flesh have pits and seeds in it. Every second generation is typically a pure bred despite the breeding pair. Smoothie ferrets: Smoothie ferrets come from their parents breeding with other fruits. (IE. If a purebred strawberry breed with a pure bred banana then you get a banana strawberry smoothie ferret). They have thin, pale vines that spider along their bodies. they in turn wont grow fruit. Instead their vines carry a strange "fruit smoothie" through their body. These vines will fill up and sometimes may clog. because of this they need to be emptied once every two weeks. The liquid that comes out of these is drinkable. These ferrets are around the size of a stoat. They are really only domestic. They are hardly found in the wild since most pure bred's avoid each other. These ferrets are more laidback and enjoy company, aswell as being with their owners. These ferrets have thick saliva and thick blood. milkshake ferrets: these ferrets are bred when their parents ingest a diet mainly consisting of dairy. This dilutes their blood with more milk and makes it thicker. Due to it being easiest to feed them dairy products, alot of the time breedings will result in milkshake ferrets. Their coats are very pale and dull. These ferrets are strickly domestic. They can not survive in the wild due to their mutation. They require dairy in their diets and cannot survive without it. They have thin, thite vines that carry fluid throughout their body. They also clot easy due to their think bodily fluids. They need constant care and checkups. These ferrets are around the size of a least weasel. Leafy ferrets: Leafy ferrets are a mutation where the parents both had small growth chance. These ferrets wont grow fruit and instead will grow flowers. These ferrets have a greenish tint and natural colouring. They can thrive in the wild and are quite uncommon as domestic pets actually. Most people have no interest in them. However some people will raise them due to a love for the bright colours they grow. These ferrets are skiddish and quite. They rarely bond to people and enjoy their alone time. they also require time outside and a large area to themselves. These ferrets are around the size of a beech marten. These ferrets also use their flowers and greenish tint to their fur to blend in. Society: Fruit ferrets are a large market for meat and fruit industries. Often bought and used for their sweet meat and tasty fruit. The slaughter of them is legal but shunned. Mills for breeding are also common. this is illegal. Often two pure breds will be bred repeatedly. This has huge risks. The offspring will often have health issues and wont live long. The fruit industry also benefits from the existance of fruit ferrets. It is legal for them to keep them, though its not very humane. Fruit ferrets are kept in large, cramped cages and are left to grow fruit. they are over fed in order to grow larger fruit. This causes them to have bone problems from the weight of their fruit. Once they've exhausted the growth of fruit they are given to butchers so they use the meat. Alot of rescue ferrets will often be injured or missing a limb due to the way they are treated. Health issues: As mentioned befor, fruit ferrets have alot of health issues. Along with natural health issues that come with ferrets, they also have other issues. One of them being a leafy mutation. Most leafy mutations are healthy, although some can come underdeveloped and will often have full green bodies with small vines. Over breeding or inbreeding can cause the offspring to have over rippening or lack of rippening. This results in the fruit becoming sour and having impacts on the aggression and over-all health of the ferret. Infestation is also common. Bugs and parasites can cling to the leaves and eat the vines, leaves, and fruit of the ferrets. Although fruit ferrets dont require alot of food, they DO need their leaves to survive. Their vines can be cut/eaten and rot. this will result in death. Fruit ferrets are also susceptible to any type of fruit diseases. One particularily nasty disease for fruit ferrets is mold. Mold is common when not cared for and if it spreads it can kill the ferret. It causes them to become very aggitated and their fur will darker. The mold, if left uncared for, can grow and consume the body in mold spores. These arent harmful to humans but they are contagious for the ferrets and can result in death. It will also cause loss of eyesight, hearing, drowsyness, vomiting, and other typical signs of diseases. a list of open pure bred fruits are: (any with brackets is how many can exist for the time being) -Blueberry (1/1) -apricot (0/1) -assai (0/1) -avocado (0/1) -banana (0/1) -black greapes (0/1) -blackberry (0/1) -blood orange (0/1) -cantaloupe (0/1) -cherry (0/1) -chokecherry -clementine orange (0/1) -coconut (0/1) -cranberry (0/1) -date (0/1) -dragon fruit (0/1) -durian (0/1) -fig (0/1) -golden raspberry (0/1) -grapefruit (0/1) -grapple (0/1) -green apple (any type) (0/??) -green grapes (0/1) -kiwi (0/1) -kumquat (0/1) -lemon (0/1) -lime (0/1) -lychee (0/1) -mandrin orange (0/1) -mango (0/1) -nectarine (0/1) -papaya (0/1) -passion fruit (0/1) -peach (0/1) -pear (0/1) -pineapple (miniature) (0/1) -plum (0/1) -pomegranate (0/1) -purple raspberry (0/1) -red apple (any type) (0/??) -red grapefruit (0/1) -red grapes (0/1) -red raspberry (0/1) -saskatoon berry (0/1) -starfruit (0/1) -sugarbaby (0/1) -tomato (0/1) -vanilla (0/1) -watermelon (0/1) RULES: here are the rules for creating one. 1. You MUST ask me about the fruit you'd like. I'm limiting the amount of each fruit so I can keep track of my species. 2. Tell me the type you'd like. Pure breds are kinda... Uncommon. 3. You are allowed 3 uncommon traits. This includes being a pure bred. 4. Rares are Closed. You may not use rare traits. 5. You may not breed your fruit ferrets unless I say so. 6. You may not sell adoptables unless I say so. I don't want a bunch of pure breds suddenly becoming a thing because two people bred theirs. 7. Tag them to #fruityferretschar not #fruityferretsinfo (that tag is for the info on them.) 8. Tag me on your ferret once you're done so I can approve of the design. 9. That's it :3 have fun REMINDER: you MUST CONTACT ME on what you want. Whether it's a smoothie or any. And that pure breds are UNCOMMON!!!! I may even make them rare if enough people want them. (I promise I don't bite. Just ask about a ferret type and I'll chat.)

#long post//#splattered paint #my species #eye strain//#sparkledog #closed species #body horror//#food//#shut up Matt #kidcore #scenecore #sparklecore #rainbowcore

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humxnatheart · 7 years

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"NO!!"

the sun sits carefully on the edge of the horizon, buildings beyond reach careful to conceal the beautiful dying star as it readies itself to be swallowed. onyx eyes are narrowed playfully in peggy’s direction, a mere smirk toying at his full lips as he gazes at her. “ i suppose you could call this a success.” he remarks gently voice low for just the two of them as they wait, helicopter due to land within the next fifteen minutes. it wasn’t usual for them to be successful like this, to slip through a mission easily and almost mechanically. her figure is light up by orange fire, consuming her entirely and he’s left to gaze at her – the image stealing his attention completely and burning itself into the depths of his memory. perhaps this was the moment it clicked, the moment he’d allow himself to simply say that he did in fact love her – shamelessly at that. adored her beyond belief and relsihed the small quirks she had about her. the dedication she held and the astonishing ability she had to love where many others couldnt. its these things he could easily say caught his heart, picking up the fragments despite the threat to cut herself on the edges. gingerly replacing them one by one, day by day and slowly placing her own to fit where others couldnt. she was magnificent to him, and at this moment even the sun as it glowed behind her still couldnt out shine the small smile she flashed to him.

it explains why the pain didnt register at first, only the way her beautiful face morphed into one of horror before him. his own eyes widening not for himself but for her – in question as to why she shifted so quickly, but its clear when the ringing in his ears draw him to his own present. the pain bursting in his lungs bright and searing, radiating along his ribs and spine – eager to seep into his nerves and viens and it rocks him entirely. he’s taken to his knees when more gun shots ring out, excepts this time it isnt his assliant its peggy. weapon branded and aimed without hesitation as the sound of fire takes over the sunset scene. he’s thrown forward as another searing bullet lodges itself in his lower back, hand splayed onto the concerte of the roof to catch himself. dark eyes are squeezed shut as stars dance behind his eye lids, the gut wrenching pain familiar but all too new. there was never a moment he’d find himself use to the sensation of his nerves catching fire, burning down every limb and over each piece of flesh. lips part desperately to scrap back air, much like a fish out of water nothing helps. teeth grind together as his opposing hand gingerly reaches to touch his chest, gaze slowly falling to feel the wound seeping his shirt. his voice is lost and buried within his chest now unable to process any syllable or sound, head heavy as it hangs wearily. fingertips desperately digging into the fabric of his shirt as the pain strikes once more, shooting up his chest. shoulders ushered forward, blood slowly filling its way up his throat before being spat onto the concrete. staining the ground around, hand giving up and allowing his form to crash onto his forearm. teeth stained red as air attempts to drag itself through his throat only to be replaced by blood, a wretching cough sending more blood to splatter against the cold ground. he’s contorted features drawn forward in pain and his mind nothing but blank and white hot pain that dims at the edges of his vision, the once bright orange sunset now nothing more than a muddied and blurred smear of paint on the dimming canvas before him. he can hear peggy’s voice somewhere around him, his lips parting to answer her – but he cant find the energy to do so. he cant find the energy to even lift his head and look up at her, he’s suddenly too tired and too riddled by the pain that is snaking around his body and seizing every portion of his body. each wave of pain fresh but slowly dimming darker each time, his mind fading after each blow. its all too quick that his eyes have fallen shut, lips no longer parting to capture air desperately but merely parted as blood drips thickly from them. body crumpling over onto the cold concrete as the heavy whips of a helicopter draw in, he’s motionless – he’s frozen a statue of what life use to be fluid in his now shell of a body.

mind gone – the only memory left to run behind his eye lids is peggy. each moment he spent with her, flashing forward to the final scene – her form outshining the sun even at its most beautiful moment.

#im praying this made sense and that YOU FEEL WHAT I FEEL CAUSE I CANT!#bcstgirl

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tallat-of-thralls · 5 years

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Bad Place; I prayed to any God that would listen

Warning: This isnt intended to be a short post. I have struggled this week and im going to share some of the things Ostera and my brain forced me to confront.

Trigger: i talk about blood a lot in mildly gruesome detail and depressing thoughts paired with it.

***The end has a Tl;Dr***

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For me, my severe health problems have always been pivotal in my life. From perspective, to ability, to routine and foremost my faith.

Skipping over the mouthful of medical terms, i struggle with these ailments chronically and some are cyclic. The major chronic symptoms is constant nerve pain, nerve damage in my deformed legs and abdominal issues as a result from atypical neuro-function. The cyclic is a bleeding disorder that causes severe bruising, unusual bleeding from mundane cuts, and bursting veins/capillaries in shallow areas like my sinuses (this causes me to bleed from the eyes, nose, and mouth.)

Doctors cant really explain it. Everyone in my life is frustrated to the point of ignoring it and blaming something that im doing or not doing that results in this disarray.

As a child, this really pushed me to Faith and religion. I prayed and prayed and prayed on a daily basis to be healthy and 'normal'. To do normal kid things like have friends or join a sport.

All these things made difficult just by enduring my problems.

The worse my health grew, the more i would cry out to whatever God would hear me. I would have episodes at church; theyd force me to sit in the back and I wasn't welcome at youth group.

This last Monday (march 18 2019), i experienced one of the worst facial hemorrhaging i have had since before quitting my job last year. It pushed me back in a dark place bringing up all the alienation, futility, pain, and ostracization i had endured for the last 20yrs. I was not well. Mentally or physically.

When i was a kid, watching national geographics allowed me to tack the word "stigmata" to these cyclic bleedings. Something to hang this nuance on and a code word to use when speaking about it to my mom in public. It was both horrifying an embarrassing for her and me.

In all the times i had prayed in this detriment i only ever experienced relief when my body was going into shock from blood loss.

The most prominent in my memory was sitting upon the bathroom floor of guest restroom of the ground floor. I had been there for hours, holding a moist rag that had been rung out for umth time. The counter, the sink, the shower and toilet basin ran red with watered down blood. My head had been hanging over the toilet long enough that i when i turned my head to look at my cat my neck creaked like springs in an old mattress.

It had been a long night. I was momentarily alone while my mom prepared my sister for school and packed the bag to take me to the hospital for the 3rd or 4th time that month.

I cried. I hadnt been to school in over three weeks. I didnt want to play catch-up again. I didnt want to go to the hospital again. I wanted to stop bleeding. So, while I was alone, tears running red down my grey cheeks, i prayed to any god that would listen.

I thought if i had prayed hard enough that maybe i would feel the warm embrace of a healing touch, see a light that would deliver my broken body to a place of healing and recovery. Maybe even as little as not feeling completely cut off from the rest of the world.

I was met with silence. A trail of blood ran over my little knuckles to drip steadily into the toilet basin. I was audibly crying this time. My face rag needed to be wrung out again and i was too weak to stand.

I didnt feel healing warmth. No delivery. No presence. Nothing.

All i felt was cold and sterility. The chilled tiles beneath my bare, pallid and, deformed legs. The warm moisture of the blood soaked rag. Only the muted ringing in my ears of shock setting in. I smelt only the iron tang that plagued my entirety. I felt alone, abandoned, separate, numb, and agony.

I was 8yrs old. Thats the first time and not even close to the last time I felt that sensation.

The doubt, the despair, the bitterness, the resentment, and the self-loathing grew little by little every year. My ailments continued, they fluctuated in severity and to this day i still struggle. Il

My struggle is with my identity. I Don't know who or what i am. I dont know Why i was forsaken like that. I dont know what to do half the time because its still not gone.

I struggle with my faith. I believe nothing exists, everything is pointless, there are no Gods, no magic, no sense. Were all dead. The universe is gone and their is just the lingering echo of suffering and pain before that fades too. Hopelessness.

And contradictory and paradoxically, everything that ever was has always been and always will be. Gods, devils, spirits, multiple realms of existence, magic, and many beings and their forms exist at all times. That time is fluid and not linear. We expirience ourselves as eachother in a subjective manner. The thought and the will is what manifests our being and our lives. Therefore believing in ourselves, in our Gods, our power and our magic is what fuels existence indefinitely for the universe only sustains because we believe it will.

I destroy myself and recreate it over and over and over and over again. Each time these severe problems arise i am confronted with my mortality and the reality or falsehood of the situation.

I apologize to those whom i had overwhelmed (both irl and on here) with this most recent conflict .

Im alive~ish and can pass as a 'normal' human so there is that in some respect but at the same time i feel disconnected from my power, my sense, my surroundings, and myself.

The secondary point is, i enjoy reading peoples personal experiences with their deities, their incarnations, their higher selves, and other preternatural happenings. I enjoy listening to their mundane tales of what happened during the day and their struggles. It makes me feel connected.

Tl;DR

You telling me about your life makes me feel connected to you.

So, though i have felt isolated, alone, alienated in the past just know that i will listen to your woes and accomplishments. And if desired, I will respond to the best of my ability. It is what i would do for myself if i had met my 8yrold self.

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#witch #witchblr #witchcraft #witches #i'm sorry #i apologize in advance #struggling #health #mood #faith #personal experience #personal #i will listen

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ku-rp · 6 years

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ʀᴇᴠɪᴇᴡɪɴɢ ᴀᴘᴘʟɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ; ᴀᴘᴘʟɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛᴇᴅ !

Congratulations EIJI KYOU, we are delighted to announce your acceptance into Korea University!

If you haven’t already, please create your twitter account and follow the admins. If you fail to do so within 48 hours, your spot will be given to another student. (remember to link back to this post on your twitter profile)

Faceclaim: Yuto Adachi of Pentagon

Name: Eiji Kyou

Nickname: that guy, the blue (occasionally red) prince

Age: 21 y/o

Year: Fourth

Major: Bachelor’s degree Major in Philosophy of Law

Fraternity: Alpha Tau Gamma (President)

Room number: 001

Clubs:

University debate society ( President )

University Science and Technology Research Guild ( legal advisor )

Part time job: Korean Intellectual Property Office

Favourite song:

Dogma - The Gazette Premiere Gymnopedie - Erik Satie

Favourite quote:

"For the common folks are like the leaves of a tree, and live and die unnoticed.” ― L. Frank Baum “I know that. What’s your point?” ― Tite Kubo “People think that I must be a very strange person. This is not correct. I have the heart of a small boy. It is in a glass jar on my desk.” ― Stephen King

Personality:

Just like everything in his life, Kyou studied how to have the appropriate personality. It’s always a pleasurable sight to see the look at the faces of freshmen whenever they find out who is the President of the prestige Alpha Tau Gamma brotherhood, not expecting the person to be not as wild as his brethren. However, during his stay in the house, Kyou has made sure that those born into wealth will be acting as such, only allowing “barbaric” actions when under influence (or when he isnt around, to be honest).

Kyou is a person that in default, without sin. He has learned to wake up necessary parts of person only when it is advantageous for the house and/or himself.

Wrath The birth of the “red” prince is a show of dominance and power. It was when Kyou was at the end of his second year of undergraduate program, in the first few months after being the president of Alpha Tau Gamma. He was given the position of the former president a few months early for the latter to focus on his incoming graduating year matters (and the brotherhood weirdly having no junior members that were… responsible at the time), and it seemed that other members will no simply obey a someone younger than them, nevertheless a soft looking bitch.

It was two hours past lights out when Kyou found out that there are some seniors still up and getting high in the yard. Ten minutes later and the other members were taking pictures and videos from their rooms and the yard of the two seniors getting beaten up to unconsciousness.

It’s not that he’s powerful or anything, heck- Kyou probably can’t open a jar of pickles. However he has been taught of a way to use an opponent’s strength against them, a fluid dance that is lethal yet mesmerizing to watch.

Lust It’s not so rare that the Alpha’s parties sometimes get a little out of hand and maybe there are times when the party goes to even the President’s room, a place untouched by anyone except the vice president.

It is when Kyou is somewhat human, when his cranial desires are on the steering wheel with alcohol as fuel and his reason in the backseat. However, it is not in his nature to get undressed during the act or actually sleep beside the person. He is infamous for not sleeping with the same person twice with rare exemptions, and for staying up all night studying while waiting for the person to wake up, get dressed, and go home.

Gluttony The part of Kyou rarest awake, gluttony, isn’t only applicable for food, but all excessive intake of anything. Obsession or addiction, one could say.

But even him and all his 18 years of being trained to be perfect is not invulnerable to worldly pleasures of pizza. Just saying.

Greed and Pride Working together, these enable Kyou to be hungry for perfection and nothing but prestige and high honor for his house, albeit the well-established (and to be honest, well-evidenced) stereotype against them.

Kyou is a person who does everything in high excellence, thus waking up these personalities are a rare occurrence, contrary to one might believe. He had his mother’s soft personality, and only when Kyou feels like he is being belittled that he has his father’s stubbornness, greed for nothing less than perfection and pride that one should be careful to never challenge

Envy Lover of rare things, Kyou has a passion for the concept of being unparalleled. He would spend excessively to be the only one who has a certain item, buying all and disposing the copies and keeping only one.

Making sure there is no master higher than him, this is the personality that isn’t woken up by Kyou but instead wakes up on its own and lights the fire within the blue prince to take any god damn measure to get what he wants.

Sloth The part of Kyou that haven’t waken up even once since it first slept. For obvious reasons.

Background:

Once upon a time, there were twins, a young boy and girl, that lived on top of a hill. It was a small mansion that their parents gave them, and here they lived loved and adored by many for their ethereal perfection. Eyes that had the innocence of a child and the piercing stare of a predator, voices that spoke like honey. Their every move was fluid and graceful, that no dance would ever compare.

The young lad grew to be one of the most intelligent person in the vicinity, her personal collection of books are visited by scholars all around the world. The young lady stayed outside of the castle more than her brother, her skill in reading behavior and public speaking recognized even outside their small town.

But they were getting older and still had no families to their name. The two were well sought after, even people from different towns and high profile ones, however no one was able to make their hearts skip a beat.

“Tell me, brother. Why is there no one that parallels you? I am desperate for a child to bear and a husband to submit to, but humans are full of faults. I do not wish to be wed with a person who acts barbaric.” the female twin asked one night, her long hair being combed by the brother in their garden.

“You are not alone in that thought. I do not wish to be wed with a person that is significantly inferior to me, a wife should be a man’s counsel. I need a person who can understand scholarly problems.” the man replied.

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“What would we name him?” She then again asked, her hair being combed by her brother in their gardens while the newborn lad is sucking on her tit.

“People would come for us for what we did, but it is for the better good. The world needs someone who will bear our blood without this fault-full tainting him. A pristine child, free from the barbaric and idiotic genes.”

An offering to knowledge, Eiji Kyou.

For the rest of the world, it was an act of sin. Two decades later, the twins would be held mentally incapacitated, and their only son sent miles away from them. However everything was kept secret by the government, everything can be hushed by money anyways.

Eiji Kyou grew up just as closed off as his parents. They were his teachers before he entered college, being taught privately in their library. He was taught religion by his father, pointing out the flaws in every belief and discipline that ever existed. He was taught etiquette by his mother, reminding him to abandon opinion and prioritize aesthetic. Everything that he is, a spitting image of what his parents could’ve been if they were born in one body.

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When he first got enrolled in the university, some say that the person whom they’ll call the blue prince later on had the aura of being ethereal both in a good and bad way. Like he had no faults, making him seem unworldly and not human. However, Kyou learned about this and studied how to loosen up and be clumsy at times, his mother’s voice echoing in his head.

“The first step in persuading is being relatable. Be too fault-less and they won’t consider you as their own. Remember, do not be perfect. Instead, do everything perfectly.”

And perfectly he did his job. Knowledge is there, but where’s the sacrifice? His parents are living as freemen. When David sinned, it was Solomon who paid the price. When Solomon sinned, it was Jeroboam and Rehoboam who paid the price.

When the twins sinned, it was Kyou who paid the price. Being perfect means being sin-less, a process that Kyou went through his entire childhood to be the perfect human being that his parents expected of him. Free from the manifestations of the seven sins, by turning them into separate personalities and forcing these entities inside him sleep. But the world is vast and tempting, Kyou isn’t an exemption.

Some may claim to see the Alpha President being different than usual, one even claimed to be beaten up by the man. Who knows, maybe it’s a lie or maybe one of them woke up from their slumber.

#ku: accepted #adachi yuto #pentagon #yuto

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doye1-blog · 7 years

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Giving Your Hands a Beauty Makeover

One of the first ways aging rears its ugly head is on our face and our hands. Some women begin showing extreme signs of aging on their hands, even in their youth. Theres a trend thats helping bring awareness to the need to care for your hand health early on selfies! Engagement ring selfies have become quite popular lately. Everyone from the girl next door to famous celebrities are getting in on this trend. From Instagram to Pinterest, these photos of a womans hand showing off her engagement ring are popping up everywhere. Magazines are doing their part to help keep these selfies popular by offering articles that cover how to hold the hand to which type of lighting is best. Youll see tons of tips on choosing a nail color for an engagement selfie to how to make your hands look smooth and clear even as dramatic as letting the blood drain out of your hands by raising them high in the air before lowering them and quickly taking the photo. Some future brides are even having hand lift surgery to get rid of wrinkles and prominent veins! And its not just engagement ring selfies making us self-conscious about the wear and tear of our hands. Anytime we take notice of our hands while holding a glass, for instance, it can cause alarm when you see wrinkles and discoloration. There are ways to take care of your hands and keep them looking youthful without resorting to surgery.

The Link Between Nutrition and Hand Beauty

If youre wanting to give your hands a beauty makeover without resorting to surgery or expensive treatments, you need to start by changing what impacts your skin from the inside out. The first thing that youll want to take a look at is the way that you eat. Nutrition affects every part of your body, but especially your hands. More than any other are of your body thats covered by skin, your hands deal with the most irritants and are exposed to more things that can harm the skin. So you have to make sure that they have the nutrients that they need to repair the skin. You also need to make sure that theyre well protected from toxins. Taking care of your hands by making sure your body has the right nutrients can give your skin a long lasting youthful appearance. A healthy diet is instrumental in keeping the skin soft and glowing, but there are specific foods that are designed to offer beneficial boosts to the hands. These foods can be enjoyed as part of a meal plan and some of them can be used as topical applications, so that the skin on your hands can directly absorb the nutrients. One of the issues with hand beauty is that because your hands are exposed to so much, the natural oils in the skin can easily become dried out. When the oils in the skin are depleted, you end up with dry skin that makes your hands look older than they actually are. Plus, dry skin can make your hands look patchy if you dont treat it properly. Youll want to start by adding plenty of avocados to your diet. This food is natures way of making sure you have great looking hands. Thats because avocados are loaded with biotin, an ingredient thats specifically known to ward off dry skin. You can add this food to your diet to get the benefit of the vitamins internally to help your skin, but you can mash up avocados and make a hand mask to help heal any problem areas you might have on your hands with dry skin or brittle nails. The vitamins and minerals soothe the skin and help your hands feel soft and look younger. Eggs are another food youll want to have in your diet. They contain biotin, plus, eggs also contain ingredients that are known to keep skin safe from dangerous changes caused by sun or other damaging elements. Because all of the benefits of green tea are touted practically everywhere, you might have seen some information on how helpful this tea can be for the body. But what you might not know is that green tea is helpful for rejuvenating skin. The tea contains micronutrients, which help fight disease and protect the skin. Your hands undergo damage simply from day to day use, so you want a food that helps keep that damage at bay. There is wonderful food that can help to prevent damage, including damage from the sun and that food is tomatoes. Not only do they contain lycopene, which helps lower cancer risk, but they contain nutrients that help tighten the skin. Of course, an ounce of prevention goes a long way - and you want to do all that you can to keep the skin looking soft. Its always best to go on the offensive rather than defensive. For that reason, make sure that you have plenty of salmon in your diet. The compound carotenoid in salmon promotes skin restoration so that skin can return to the softness and the smoothness that it once had. Collagen is what helps your skin look smooth. Its a protein instrumental in keeping the tissues connected. Its basically the glue of the body and when it weakens, especially on the skin, youll notice looser skin and more wrinkles. Thankfully, nature provides a collagen stimulating food that you can eat to help improve the elasticity of your skin. This food is pomegranates and it can be ingested orally or applied topically to the skin as a mask. When you apply pomegranate directly to the skin, it can alleviate dry skin and heal troubled areas. If youre looking to dial back the age of your skin, youll need to have some nuts. Nuts are a good source of Omega 3 fatty acids. Walnuts are high in Omega 3 and incorporating these into your daily diet can bring back the soft, supple skin you want to have restored. You might think of beans as simply offering plenty of protein when you eat them. Its true that beans are loaded with protein, but theyre also loaded with the capability to repair damaged skin because the consumption of beans is helpful in the creation of amino acids. Amino acids are what the body uses to fix areas of the body, including on the skin, that have undergone any kind of damage. Plus, eating beans boosts the production of collagen. Its important that you eat natural, skin healing and collagen boosting foods from your youth on up to keep your skin looking healthy or to restore it.

Your Skin Is Thirsty - Why Hydration Matters

You might have been told that your body needs to have between 6-8 glasses of 8 ounce water every day. This advice is true because without enough water, the bodys functions are impaired. Keeping your body hydrated helps it get rid of waste. It helps your body be able to turn the food you eat into fuel and it even aids in the way your blood circulates through every part of your body. But as good as water is for your overall body health, its also extremely important for your skin. When you make sure that you get enough water intake, your skin has a healthier glow. It also reduces the look of aging. Your skin is the bodys largest organ and many people dont realize that like other organs that are within the body, skin can be damaged by not enough water intake. Thats because it uses water to perform all of its functions, including repair. A lack of hydration impedes the repair process. When this repair process is hampered, you end up with skin that has dry patches. When your skin has a lack of hydration, it will show up as wrinkles, sometimes aging you twenty years or more in an instant. The less hydrated you are, the more wrinkles youll end up developing. Most people dont realize that your body uses up the water you give it. This water is used up for a variety of reasons. Its easy to assume that if you go the gym and get in a hard workout, that you need to rehydrate the body. Plenty of people will take care to replenish lost fluids after they work out. But going to the gym isnt the only way your body loses water that affects your skin. If you walk out in the sun, even if youre only out a few minutes, you lose water. If you exert any kind of effort around your house or around the office or even out doing fun activities that dont seem strenuous, youre still losing water. And heres what happens when you do stop to take in water. Because the body is made with a built in survival mechanism, when it needs hydration, any water that you do give it will be funneled directly to the internal organs needed to keep you alive. And if you dont drink enough to give your organs what they need, guess where they take the moisture from? Your skin, including your hands. The body will actually remove what moisture your skin does contain and reroute it to your organs. This means that when it comes to getting hydrated, if youre not doing enough, your skin is last in line. So when you replenish, if you dont give your body all that it needs for the other organs, your skin doesnt get any at all. That means that your hands end up looking dry, flaky, wrinkled and older than they normally would. When you drink enough water, the skin on your hands is softer and younger looking. Plus, it fights wrinkles and other signs of aging. Youll want to make sure that your skin is hydrated on the inside as well as on the outside.

The Moisture Your Hands Need

Besides drinking enough water, youll want to make sure that your hands are getting the moisture they need from the outside as well. Its a common mistake to think that the hands need to be moisturized once a day to help make them stay soft and young looking. The truth is that hands have to be moisturized repeatedly throughout your day. Thats because of all the things your hands come in contact with that can damage the skin. A moisturizer not only restores the skin, but can also act as a barrier. Most people apply moisturizer after a bath - and you should do that because when you bathe, youre removing the oils from your skin that help keep it hydrated. Whenever your hands come in contact with water, theres potential for oil loss, and for the skin to become red, irritated, dry and develop other unsightly problems. You want to avoid things that cause the skin on your hands to dry out. This means making sure that you dont wash your hands too often (meaning more than is necessary). It also means that you dont use hand cleansers that contain alcohol. Hand cleansers that contain alcohol can damage your skin because alcohol dries out the oils. Liquid hand soaps are some of the worst culprits at causing the hands to dry out if they contain alcohol. Even if its not listed on the ingredients, it can still contain alcohol if it has fragrances. To be on the safe side, if you wash your hands using liquid soap, then youll want to buy products that are clearly labeled as alcohol and fragrance free. If you hand wash any dishes, youll also want to make sure that your dish soap is alcohol and fragrance free. Any type of cleaner or abrasive product can make your hands look dry, appear red and chapped and lead to damage - including wrinkles. So always wear gloves when your hands are going to be exposed to any products like that. Since water strips the hands of its natural oils, whenever they come in contact with water, apply moisturizer right afterward. This might have you reapplying the lotion several times a day, but it will protect your skin as well as having the potential to restore any damage. Dont use cheap moisturizes that contain ingredients that can do more harm than good. Look for creams that contain retinol or antioxidants or Vitamin C. All of these ingredients are helpful at protecting and restoring the skin on your hands.

Why Your Hands Need Sun Protection

Sun damage can really do a number on how your hands look. Exposure to the sun is one of the major reasons you can develop sun spots on your hands. Its also the reason that you can develop wrinkles on the hands as well as on other areas of the body. When you spend time in the sun, the ultraviolet rays go to work breaking down the elasticity of the skin on the backs of your hands. This breaking down is a result of the fibers being damaged. Once these fibers are damaged, youll notice that the skin on your hands looked saggy and wrinkled. You can have both shallow and deep wrinkles as a result of sun damage. You can also develop freckles as well as a change in the overall evenness of your skin tone. Your skin can take on a yellow appearance as a result of the sun damage. As the collagen tissue in the hands is exposed to the sun, the collagen breakdown will continue. Because the body is built for survival against sun damage, it goes to work trying to darken the pigmentation of your skin. This is why the skin on your hands will tan when exposed to the sun. Its your bodys way of trying to hold on to the collagen as well as the hydration. Its not just being at the beach that can cause sun damage to your hands. You can get it from being out in the yard, from taking a walk and even while driving your car. Anywhere that you are, if your hands are going to be exposed to the suns rays for fifteen minutes, then you need to apply sunscreen. You need one with mineral zinc oxide that has an SPF of at least 30. There are therapies that can restore the vitality to sun damaged hands. Some of these therapies can be invasive and painful. Most of them are expensive and time consuming. Your best bet to protecting your hands from sun damage is always prevention. Take good care of your hand health as you would your face, even if youre still young. You can find many hand-specific beauty products that are meant to help your body repair the damage thats been done to it during the day, such as rehydrating it and protecting it from toxins and damaging sun rays. If you do have a selfie event coming up, like engagement ring pictures, then you can do as many preventative measures as possible, and use concealers for things like unsightly veins, if necessary.

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