#For the Love of All the Fucks please notify me of typos

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is there anyway for us to know what each of their magic is? like we know that virge has fear and lightning magic, but what about everyone elses?

you dont have to answer, i just really enjoy the story line and the writting, and i wanted to know a bit more about the characters :)

First off: Sorry it took me so long to answer this, tumblr did not notify me that I had an ask.

Second: Please excuse any typos I'm still on vacation and using my phone to type. I finished writing this right after getting back from vacation and am running on little sleep.

Third: thank you so much! I always love hearing that people like my writing especially the story line and I'm so glad you want to know more about the characters!

Fourth: I don't have all of the character's powers fully fleshed out, but let's see what I can tell you.

More below the cut because this got looong

Okay, so you've got Virgil's lightning and fear magic down.

The fear magic doesn't work on other witches who have protections up or someone whose mind has been warded somehow (not easy to do). He can sense people's fears and insert new fears into someone. The most concentrated fear he can give people is fear of himself. General and simple fears can be given from a distance. The more complex the fear, the closer he has to be until it reaches the point that he has to be touching the person. A permanent phobia also requires touch.

Using mental magic on someone also depends on whether or not they're another magic user, how strong their protections are (if they have any), how receptive they are to the magic, how often the witch has used mental magic on them in the past, and how familiar the witch is with them. For example, it gets easier for Virgil to share complex fears with Janus as the story progresses.

Virgil can also take fears away which he doesn't do often. He believes that fear is vital to a person's survival and that taking it away can have disastrous consequences. He will, however, lessen detrimental fears and phobias sometimes.

In addition, Virgil can cause anxiety and panic attacks, but he can't get rid of them. At least, not entirely. He can push them off for later. This doesn't always work for him.

Virgil's lightning magic is pretty straightforward. He can turn any cloud into a storm cloud and maybe even move clouds around to summon lightning from (I can't decide if that last part is overkill). His body is also a source of lightning with more electricity than average being generated from his body. He can shoot blots of lightning from himself and can electrocute people with touch.

Janus's magic is deception, healing, and secret-keeping.

Deception magic includes illusions, lie detection, and manipulation.

Janus's illusions can affect all five senses and can be nearly impossible to "see" through when he's at full power. At full power, they can withstand skepticism making it so that even when you know they aren't real they won't go away. Smell and taste are the easiest illusions with sound coming in third and sight and touch being the hardest.

Lie detection is complicated. It tells Janus how much of a lie something is as well as which parts are a lie. Not just lies he hears, but ones he sees, too. To an extent. Janus knows you're in disguise. He can also sense illusions.

Janus's manipulation is convincing people of things that aren't real. He specializes in comforting lies, though he can be vicious when he wants to be. It's great for getting his brothers out of trouble when they fuck up.

Janus's healing magic's speed depends on the severity of the wound. He can patch up just about anything. All it takes is touch and a bit of concentration. He insists on kissing Virgil to heal him because he's a dramatic gay.

Secret keeping magic consists of silencing and suppression magic.

Yes, silencing magic includes covering one's mouth with their own hand. What can I say, that's a classic. Janus can put a lock on certain facts, words, and concepts so that the person in question can't say them or communicate them in any other way. If they try the hand thing happens. The hand over their mouth isn't what's stopping them, it's symbolic.

I haven't worked out distances for silencing magic.

Suppression magic is exactly what it sounds like. It suppresses memories. Depending on various variables such as distance, Janus's health, protections, etc. the suppressed memories can sometimes be triggered into being remembered. He can also know what a person's suppressed memories are (if he looks for them) and can unsuppress them.

A side note on mental magic: it's amazing how easily a fae can use their witch magic on someone if they have their name. Rules get bent and sometimes broken when combining witch magic and name magic.

Both of the twins have creation magic. They can create things out of thin air, though most of the time it takes a good amount of concentration. Some things that they've created many times and are more familiar with are easier to create. Hence, Roman only creating a duplicate of his sword during his fight with Virgil.

The things the twins create have to be imagined very specifically or else they won't turn out right if they get made at all. They can't just make a house, they have to know where each brick is and what it's made of. They need to know what kind of wood the doors are made of, exactly how big the fireplace is, what glue is holding the wallpaper up, etc.

Roman specializes in creating fanciful things while Remus specializes in creating more taboo things. Hence, their monikers. It's really just personal preference, they can each make anything they can imagine.

Remus also has mind reading/telepathic magic. Mind reading can be a bit more complicated than most people think. Some people think in images. Some people can't mentally visualize things. Some people don't think much at all. However a person thinks Remus can tap into their thoughts.

Remus can also push his own thoughts into other people's minds giving them literal intrusive thoughts. He does not always use this power for good.

Like most mental magic Remus can't use this magic on people who have protections in place or are warded.

In addition to creation magic Roman has magic related to hopes, dreams, and romance.

Not only does he know people's hopes, dreams, and romantic feelings he can manipulate them, too. Roman can build hopes and dreams and destroy them just as easily. He can be cupid or make you fall out of love with just skin-to-skin contact and a bit of focus. (Honestly I think Roman's powers are the most terrifying).

Patton has empathic and unreality magic.

Patton can sense other people's emotions even through protections. Protections can, however, stop him from manipulating emotion. Long distance it's temporary, but with physical contact he can do permanent damage.

Patton's empathic magic only works for certain emotions. Basically happiness and sadness as well as most emotions related to those two. I think.

Like Virgil, Patton understands the importance of feeling emotions - even the "bad" ones (he's a fucking hypocrite but what can you do) so he doesn't tend to go around eliminating people's sadness. Just tries to reign it in a little. But like with Virgil he can only put off his own sadness for later. I haven't decided if the same thing happens when he does it to other people.

Unreality magic is quite terrifying. It's making things cease to exist. Just gone. Forever. I hate to compare it to Thanos's snap but that's basically what it is. And yes, he can do it to people, but it takes a lot out of him.

Logan's magic I've thought about the least. It definitely includes some kind of magic that allows him to learn things faster and/or easier. And he has negation magic. He can negate anyone else's magic.

Remy actually wasn't born a witch. His magic was a faerie godfather gift from Thomas. As such, he only has one type of magic. Sleep magic.

Remy controls people's ability to sleep. I haven't thought very far into the details of that.

Thomas has many kinds of magic. Dude's a magic hoarder. No, really. The magic he was born with? Magic theft. He has the ability to steal other witchs' magic. Once he takes it they don't have it anymore. If he takes all of their magic they are no longer witches and they lose everything that came with the classification including immortality.

Okay, I'm really tired right now and this has gotten ridiculously long so I'm ending it here. I have one more post to make tonight and then I'm headed to bed. Forgive me for not proofreading most of this

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[videcoeur]

OOC + Rules

Name: Julie

Nicknames: Julie or Vide

Age: 34

Pronouns: Any but It

Orientation: Ace (sex positive)/demiromantic

Birthday: 05/09

Zodiac: Taurus

Timezone: EST (GMT-4)

RP Experience: 20+ years

Triggers: Suicide/SH (IRL only)

Squicks: Fat shaming, (irl) Preg talks

Important Note: 18+ only

MORE ABOUT ME

My native language is French (Canadian). Typos and mistakes in English are common. If that bothers you, I understand and wish you the best!

I am no longer a freelance content writer but I still work 40 hours a week and have several hobbies that I try to keep up with and severly fails.I Know Not™ what self restraint is so I have 300 fantrolls, 100+ fandomless ocs and several canon muses.

DESPITE MY PROFICIENCY AT CREATING NEW CHARACTERS, I PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY CANNOT MAINTAIN MORE THAN ONE BLOG.I CAN FUCK AROUND AND FIND OUT WITH OVER 500 DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES BUT NOT 2+ BLOGS, SUE ME.

I’m usually super friendly and welcoming, but I don’t talk a lot. I struggle with social anxiety, so I’ll talk to you through tags but most likely won’t initiate convos on Discord and stuff. I don’t ignore/hate you, social interactions just drain me.

I aspire to become an author and have begun to write several stories, but work+rp+art is stealing 99 percent of my time. Maybe someday I’ll sit down to finish them. All you need to know about me is that I LOVE WRITING.

I would love to go on and on but uh I’m not super good at talking about myself. And now, onto the rules.

DNI

MINORS.

ANYONE WHO HAS SKEWED, NON-INCLUSIVE VIEWS TOWARD THE LGBT COMMUNITY.

RACISTS.

TRUMP SUPPORTERS (yes, even if he’s out of office, and yes it matters even if this is just fictional barbies we’re throwing at each other)

IRL PEDOPHILIA APOLOGISTS

COMPULSIVE/PATHOLOGICAL LIARS, SUICIDE BAITERS, MANIPULATORS.

PEOPLE WHO POST A CALLOUT A WEEK. I DO NOT PARTICIPATE IN CALLOUT CULTURE, UNLESS A CALLOUT IS BUILT ON SOLID EVIDENCE.

General Roleplay Rules

Don’t feel obligated to pick a muse! If you don’t, I’ll pick one for you c: Just specify if you are interested in OCs or not in your ask, though, if you are a canon muse! If you specify no oc’s, I’ll pick a canon muse from your fandom if I have one available c: I am also SUPER THRILLED about crossovers and oc/canon interactions c:

No godmodding, no forced shipping, no killing unless discussed first, etc.

Mun =/= Muse

Don’t reblog asks for new roleplays, make a new post please! 

I rp on discord on demand. You have a direct link to my discord on the home page, but please, let me know before adding me.

I DON’T MIND ROLEPLAYING WITHOUT SPRITES/ICONS

I GREATLY PREFER PARAGRAPH/LITERATE ROLEPLAY to crack and one liners.

Good grammar is appreciated but English is not my native language so I’m not too picky. Just make sure you are readable.I usually give everyone a chance but I reserve the right to drop a roleplay/partner. I will politely notify you if that’s the case.

Shipping

I do not instaship nor do I do pre-established stuff. I just can’t. My muses are their own and will fuck up a perfect plotline no matter how much I want them to stay in their lane. I will try if we’re friends and you understand this might not work.

Due to past experiences that left me very uncomfortable, I will not practice ship exclusivity. If the thought of me being a multishipper bothers you, please do not attempt to ship with me. Thank you for understanding.

Triggers

There might be triggers appearing from time to time on this blog. Nsfw and triggers will be tagged/readmore’d. I do what I want, this is my adult blog in my adult space. Of course, if you want specific things tagged, let me know. I usually am pretty good with tagging, but if something I don’t tag need a tag, just ask/IM me about it.

PLEASE TAG IRL SUICIDAL POSTS, SELF HARM POSTS AND ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH SUICIDE IN GENERAL. I ALSO APPRECIATE TAGGING #PREGNANCY AND ANY DISCOURSE RELATED TO BODY SHAMING, BODY POLICING OR FETISHISTIC BODIES DISCOURSE WITH #BODYCOURSE, #JULIE DON’T LOOK, OR #VIDE DON’T LOOK. I MIGHT UNFOLLOW IF THESE THINGS ARE NOT TAGGED, FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH, AT LEAST UNTIL THE DISCOURSE IS OVER.

Following/Unfollowing/Blocking

IF YOU UNFOLLOW ME, I WILL UNFOLLOW YOU AS WELL.

Not out of spite, I just take it as a sign you are not interested in roleplaying with me and would rather keep my dash for mutuals! As a side note,

IF I BLOCK YOU DON’T BLOCK-EVADE TO ASK ME WHY I BLOCKED YOU.

I block for a multitude of reasons and I do not owe you an explanation. I block liberally and curate my experience, I encourage everyone to do the same. However, I don’t usually do that to people I’ve been interacting with for a while. I will always talk to someone first if something bothers me before blocking. If we never interacted and I block you…deal with it.

Drama & Callouts

Please don’t come to me if you have drama with anyone else, unless it’s serious claims that you can back up. I might be 30+ years old, but I’m credulous and I’m quick to act on emotions. I’m trying to fix that, but it won’t be done in a day. If you have beef with someone, don’t include me in it UNLESS IT’S SERIOUS AND YOU CAN BACK IT UP.

Thank you for understanding.

Reblog Karma 

never thought I’d put this down as a rule but PLEASE, DO NOT USE ME AS A MEMES SOURCE. Reblog Karma is a bitch and I will not notice if you occasionally reblog memes from me without sending anything, but if you do it for let’s say, 2 months straight and never try to interact with me, I will notice. Reblog from the source instead.

Changed my mind about this. I’m so little online that it really doesn’t matter anymore if you rb from me without sending anything. It used to bother me but not anymore considering I don’t have as much time as before to rp.

Interactions & Replies

Activity will vary according to my schedule. If it’s been more than a month since my last reply, feel free to notify me because sometimes it’s tumblr not showing me replies. I can take a while to reply though, fair warning.

Please do not flirt with me OOC, I’m happily taken and it kinda makes me uncomfortable.

ALL MY MUSES, EXCEPT HITOSHI SHINSO FROM BNHA, ARE 18+. Shinso also has a verse where he is 21 because I highly prefer roleplaying adult characters. The reason I age him up is not for NSFW, but because I am more comfortable thinking of my characters as adults. However, since he is underage in his canon, I will not be having any NSFW interaction with him, even in his adult verse.

ONE LAST RULE, IF YOU ARE A MINOR, PLEASE DO NOT FOLLOW ME.

I have nothing against you as a person, I would just prefer not to interact with someone who's over a decade younger than me. Just like a 30+ years old wouldn't hang with teens IRL, I don't do it online either. I also do not interact with people whose age (or adult status) is not indicated on their blog. To understand what I mean when I say no interaction with minors, please read THIS POST.

I don’t think I have any more rules. And I don’t have a password so if you are reading this, thank you for reading my rules!

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[versdan]

Forever (Natasha Romanoff x Reader)

request: hey! if you are still taking requests can I request a fluffy nat fic where she’s like nervous all day about proposing? love ya x

A/N: this is...so...cute I’m soft and it’s pretty early to be soft too so thanks lmao 😭 jk jk. I hope y’all enjoy & sorry for any typos! Requests are open!

pairings: Natasha Romanoff x Reader

please don’t plagerize any of my work!!

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“Fuck, I’m doing this. I’m really doing this Wanda” Natasha told Wanda while sipping on her drink at the bar of Tony’s party. Wanda smiled at her and patted her shoulder.

“You’ve got this, don’t worry” she said, before taking a sip from her cup. They both had turned to look at you laughing across the room at Rhodes reinacting how he is with the suit on.

“I’m so nervous. What happens if she says no?” Natasha said, turning back around to the bar with a worried look on her face and a growing pit in her stomach. The courage went as fast as it came.

You and Natasha had been together for a little over a year and it was all going great. Natasha knew you were someone that she wanted to spend her whole life with after first getting to know each other, you guys just clicked. Recently, Natasha had bought an engagement ring and she just hoped you felt the same way she did about spending your lives together.

Wanda rolled her eyes at Natasha rambling off. Nat had asked Tony to throw the party as a celebration for after the proposal but now she was wondering if it was all wrong to do that. She had been pacing all day going back and forth from overthinking. If you say no, then the party would have been thrown for no reason after all.

“Nat, you need to stop overthinking. You’ve been talking about this moment for how long? Like a month? You guys are both meant for each other and it’s pretty obvious” Wanda chuckled as Natasha looked at her.

“You’re right, I’m over thinking it. It’s gonna be alright. Thanks Wanda” she smiled at Wanda, pulling her in for a hug. Wanda engulfed her back before pulling away and seeing you step outside onto the balcony.

“I think it’s your time to shine” Wanda said motioning to you out on the balcony. Natasha looked at your figure before looking back at Wanda.

Wanda nodded her head in encouragement and winked, handing her the ring box Natasha had given her earlier to hold onto since she had no pockets. “Go get em’ tiger” she smiled as Natasha smiled back before heading outside. Wanda had notified everyone that Natasha was about to propose.

You had stepped outside to get some fresh air after laughing so hard at Rhodeys stories. It felt nice on your skin as it had become hot in there. You heard someone behind you step out. Turning you saw your girlfriend, Natasha and a smile came onto your face.

“Hey babe” you smiled at her as she came up next to you, placing and arm around your waist. You placed your head on her shoulder while looking at the city view with all the gleaming lights.

“I love the city, Nat. I mean it has its cons but” you paused, looking up at her and smiling, “you can’t get a view like this anywhere else” you finished, pecking her cheek and looking up at her.

She smiled slightly but stayed silent, feeling the pit of nervousness in her stomach growing. The ring box sat in her other hand which only made her more nervous. You sensed something was wrong and stood up straighter, still looking at her.

“Is everything alright, Nat?” You asked as she pulled her arm away from you waist, turning her body to face you. She stood there silent still as you tried to read her face for any emotion.

“Nat, say something you’re making me nervous” you chuckled as Natasha looked up at you and giving you a small smile. She slowly got down onto one knee, bringing her hands together, cupping the ring in between them.

You looked at her with wide eyes, shocked that this was happening but nonetheless exploding with emotions inside. You didn’t know but everyone was watching the entire interaction from inside. Wanda was smiling, in awe at what she was witnessing.

“(Y/N), I’ve been pacing all morning and afternoon waiting for this moment and I might ramble off so just bare with me” Natasha said as you let out a small chuckle, tears starting to form in your eyes.

“The moment I met you, we clicked. I knew something was bound to happen with us, whether it be being best friends or end up in this situation here. You’ve helped me more than you can imagine, told me corny jokes to cheer me up and even made me your secret soup that no one has ever had, which might I say I am honored” she joked as you laughed.

“I love you more than you can imagine and I want nothing more than to be your spouse and you as mine. So” she paused, opening the box to show a ring with three diamonds on it, the center one being a bit bigger than the other. You gasped as you saw the ring, it was beautiful. A tear slipped down your cheek looking back up at Natasha.

“Will you do me the honor and marry me?” Natasha said as you covered your mouth, nodding your head slowly up and down.

“Yes. Yes!!” You laughed at her as Natasha shot up from her kneeling position and engulfed you in a hug. Everyone from the inside cheered loudly that it caused you both to pull away and look at them and laugh. You turn back to Natasha and pull her in for a kiss. The amount of happiness you felt at the moment only made you feel ontop of the world.

Natasha pulled away, smiling before slipping the ring onto your finger. You looked at your hand, admiring the ring. You looked back up at Natasha, grabbing her face in between your hands, smiling.

“I love you, Natasha. So much” you said, before pecking her lips and engulfing her in a hug. She hugged you back, placing a kiss on your shoulder. Everything did turn out alright and she knew you both would be together for as long as time stood. Forever.

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IM SOFT BYE

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[bluesprng]

「♱」 soulmates ² ♡ jeongin y.

request ↴ part two of soulmates | first part writer ↴ jellie a/n ↴ this was not proof read ( may not make sense, may have a shit ton of mistakes/typos ) and probably seems like a huge cluster fuck; the time skip is hella bad ( I actually thought of doing a tiny filler chapter, just to show the shit they got up to lmao ). Triggers include mention of character death, suicide- and by all means, find my inbox to bitch me out for this s h i t chapter. I’m so sorry. Hopefully chapter 3 will be better! ( 4 chapters in total. ) I haven’t slept in 3 days, cut me some slack.

‘It’s apartment E2 on the fifth floor.. There’s only two doors so it should be pretty easy to get the right one.’

Standing in front of the the door, you eyed the gold plated ‘E2′ that adorned it. He was right, it hadn’t been hard as each floor only had two apartments, but none of that mattered when anxiety was bubbling in your gut.

Raising your hand up to knock, the door flew open to reveal a grinning blonde. ‘Hey there, love! Sorry, we get notified of when people are on our floor and well, you didn’t seem like you were ever going to knock.’

You stared in shock at the unfamiliar face only to blink a few times and mutter out an apology. The latter waved his hand and stepped aside, gesturing you in. ‘You’re here to see Jeongin, yeah? He’s in the computer room,’ he began, leading you along, ‘I’m Felix, by the way. His roommate.’

‘Uh.. Y/n.’

It wasn’t hard to warm up to the male as he seemed so friendly, but you didn’t stay that relaxed for too long. When you spotted Jeongin, you felt your gut begin to twist once again. ‘I’ll leave you two to talk.. Let me know if you need anything.’ Felix showed what looked to be a sympathetic smile before leaving the room.

It was silent for a few seconds before the male was closing something on the screen and turning to you. ‘Sorry, I’m behind on some homework.. I’m Jeongin, you know that but uh, nice to meet you. You can sit down, if you want.’

‘Nice to meet you, too.’ Hesitating, you moved to sit down, fiddling with your fingers. You’d taken notice of the picture on the wall; it was in a gold frame and seemed to be Jeongin and Hyunjin in the park. Despite never meeting him, you let a frown form on your lips.

‘Here,’ he stated softly, holding out what looked to be a photo album, ‘this was his. He was a fan of pictures.. you’ll find some flowers in there, too. Er, they were, they were to his soulmate once they met. I’m.. sorry.’

Staring down at the book, you began to look through the pages quietly. Some were of him alone, groups of friends, food, scenery.. and in between pages were different flowers. Tears began welling along your waterline; ‘Ah, I feel stupid. I’ve never even met him- do I even have the right to cry?’

Jeongin shifted from his chair to join you on the small couch, carefully winding an arm around your shoulders. ‘It’s not stupid. You’ve got every right to cry for him- he was technically made for you, you know..? We all get it. My soulmate didn’t want me. Felix.. ah.. he was an arms length away from saving his soulmate from.. jumping,’ he furrowed his brow, ‘A friend of ours, Chris, his soulmate loved someone else.’

‘I’m so sorry,’ you whispered and closed the book, turning your attention to look at the blonde male. ‘How did.. Hyunjin go..?’ Part of you didn’t want the answer- the thought itself made you want to puke, but you needed to know.

‘He got in a car accident. Chris was driving him to one of those.. soulmate meet type things? Those weird festivals.’

Your heart sank. ‘If I had sought him out earlier, he would still be here. I could have.. I could have saved him!’

Tears began flowing down your cheeks as you started sobbing, curling your arms to hug the book to your chest. Jeongin parted his lips to say something but found himself just hugging you close, rubbing your arm. ‘Don’t think that.. Please. Maybe things would have gone differently, but- but if he was meant to go then..’

He trailed off, clearing his throat and swallowing his own urge to cry. ‘He wasn’t the type of person who’d want you to think like this. I’m sure he’s looking down at us right now, panicking his little heart out because you’re crying.. he wouldn’t want you to be crying, Y/n. It’s okay, really.’

You found comfort in the words and relished in his attempt to make you feel better; it helped, but you couldn’t help feeling at fault. If you’d taken interest much sooner, he’d still be alive. Maybe Jeongin was right though, maybe this was all just supposed to happen.

‘If you want, you can stay tonight..? Stay in his room and go through his stuff. None of us have managed to clean it out yet. Only if you want to. We’re strangers and all, so..’

‘I’d really like that, actually.. It’ll be nice to be around people who were close to him.’

‘Great, I’ll let Lix know. Also, it’s really nice to see you.. I didn’t think you’d show up with the circumstances. I think it may be good for you, but also for us. We don’t often have guests outside of our small circle.’

Before you could respond, another voice joined in and you both looked up to find Felix peeking into the room. ‘Not trying to interrupt, I just wanted to see what you wanted to order for dinner? Chris won’t be home early enough to cook.’

Jeongin seemed to falter at the idea of ordering food and pursed his lips. ‘We can’t keep ordering shitty food, Lix.. we really need to learn to cook.’

‘I can cook, if you’d like?’

Their attention was on you automatically. ‘You don’t have to do that, it would be rude of us to-’

‘They offered, shut up. Do you really want to order out, Jeong?’ The older showed pleading eyes, hoping his roommate would just agree. Without Chris, they didn’t get much home cooked food and Felix was pretty sure he’d rather die than eat more take out.

A chuckle fell from your lips, gently nudging the male beside you. ‘I’ll cook. It’s not a big deal. I like to cook.’

‘..Okay, okay.’

Setting the table, you listened to Felix complain about his hands, earning a few chuckles from not only yourself but Jeongin. It was cute how he got a little whiny over the littlest of things.

‘Is he always like this?’

The youngest gave a small nod. ‘He does his best to keep his spirits high because of what he studies. Felix is studying to be a child advocate lawyer.. He has to read over a lot of sensitive cases, so he has to keep himself up or those things will send him crashing down.’

‘Oh,’ you mumbled and looked over at the mentioned male, frowning a little, ‘It takes a lot to go into that kind of field.’

‘Yeah, it does but, he’s got one of the biggest, sweetest hearts.. he’ll be okay.’ He placed a reassuring squeeze to your shoulder and set the last napkin down, joining the latter in bringing the food to the table.

After getting lost in your thoughts, you found your voice. ‘What do you study, Jeongin..?’

‘Professional writing.’ He hesitated as he set a bowl on the table, fingers tapping against the warm surface; he was debating an explanation. ‘Hyunjin often helped me proof read my writings for school.. He told me I should pursue it because I was so good. So, I decided to.’

Despite knowing his name would cause you to overthink, you smiled at the idea. ‘That’s really sweet.’

‘Mhmm. What about you? Do you go to college?’

‘Not yet. I want to study naturopathy.. or herbalism. I really like the medical use of plants and herbs.’ You were met with a fond smile and a raised eyebrow.

‘Is that so? Huh.. makes sense.’ Jeongin mused, ‘He loved plants. Actually, he helped with the garden on the roof.’

The words peeked your interest but for the second time in the day, you were interrupted; this time from an unfamiliar voice. ‘Who the hell is that?’

Everyone turned to see a third boy with blonde-ish hair and you were pretty close to having a mental breakdown. ‘Okay, do you guys have some.. hair color pact or something?’

The new face didn’t seem amused as he walked through to drop a bag on the counter, eyeing you like some type of plagued being.

‘This is Y/n- you know.. the Y/n,’ Felix chimed in, moving around the counter to snoop through the bag, much to the latter’s annoyance but he didn’t stop him. No one seemed to really want to answer your question, though it wasn’t needed as the younger pulled a box out.

‘Actually, it looks like Minho won’t have blonde hair for much longer!’

It was a box of silver hair dye, much to everyone’s surprise. Well, you were more curious about the male himself, not the fact that he was going to be changing his hair color.

‘I came by to see if one of you would mind helping me out.. I heard Chris wouldn’t be home until late.’ Minho shrugged before looking towards you once more, ‘I’m Minho, if you hadn’t caught on and you can save the introduction, I know who you are.’

Well, isn’t he pleasant you thought with pursed lips until Jeongin nudged your side. ‘That’s the one who I told you about. Chris and Minho are- were soulmates, but Minho is with someone else. They don’t often end up in the same room together,’ he began explaining in a hushed tone, ‘It’s not that they don’t get along, it’s more of.. they get along too well, for obvious reasons, but Chris is a little more sensitive about the whole topic.’

You nodded slowly as you listened, feeling bad about the situation, but you also weren’t involved, so you didn’t ask further. ‘I see..’

‘So, why are you here?’

Your attention went to the oldest and you shifted in your spot, feeling small under his gaze. It felt like he was trying to tear you apart with his eyes. ‘I came to speak with Jeongin about Hyunjin.’

He tensed at the name but just rolled his eyes and grabbed the box of dye, disappearing down the hall into one of the rooms. Felix offered you an apologetic gaze before following him. The third male just sighed, taking a seat at the table with every intention on eating, not caring who joined or who didn’t. ‘Ignore him. Minho has always had an attitude problem..’

‘He always hates your guests? How fun.’

Settling down at the table, you both began to converse amongst yourselves, easily clicking and finding topics that didn’t include someone crying or getting pissed off.

You found that you’d easily fall in sync with the boys, finding a friend in each.. except maybe Minho.

one year later

‘I’m gonna miss you.’ Felix frowned as his arms wound tightly around you, swaying you both as he sniffled.

You let out a small laugh and squeezed him in your arms before nudging him back. ‘You’re coming back in six months, Lix, I’ll be here when you get back.’

He huffed. ‘What if you aren’t? It’s going to feel so weird not seeing you guys every morning.. What am I supposed to do? What if my roommate hates me?’

A few snorts and chuckles left the small group as you reached to pinch his freckled cheek.

‘Jisung seemed like a really sweet kid when you skyped him, so I wouldn’t worry too much.. besides, who could possibly hate you? Just go and have fun,’ Chris cooed over him, ‘Not too much fun.. make sure you study and do good in your classes!’

‘Don’t forget about us.. and you better call and message us when you can.’ Minho was next, hugging the boy close, ‘We’re going to miss you, loser.’

You tucked yourself into Jeongin’s side as he used one arm to hug his now strawberry haired friend, sighing. ‘Gonna miss you, Lix. Take care of yourself, okay?’

Felix rubbed at his eyes as his friends said goodbye and he couldn’t seem to calm down, but his flight was being called and he needed to go. With one last shouted ‘goodbye, i love you guys!’ the Aussie was off and you were all left to return to the apartment.

It felt weird. Over the past year, you’d gotten closest to Felix, despite your blooming relationship with Jeongin. It would feel empty without the bright boy around. You found yourself pretty close with Chris, often helping out with cooking and cleaning. Minho, however, even after so long, barely spoke to you and looked utterly disgusted when you tried to initiate conversations.

Life was moderately good.. but you wondered just how long that would last.

Returning, you found yourself falling onto the couch with a yawn, having gotten very little sleep before; you blamed Felix with his last minute packing. The youngest joined you, lightly pushing his fingers through your hair. ‘You should get some rest.. I’ll wake you up with dinner is getting started.’

You let out a sound of protest and squirmed to rest your cheek on his thigh. ‘I don’t want to sleep. Hey.. can I ask you something?’

He hummed in acknowledgement, letting you know he was listening.

‘Do you think.. he would be mad at us for this..? For.. dating?’

The question felt stupid; made you feel utterly ridiculous, but you were dating your lost soulmate’s best friend. That sounded pretty shitty in your mind. Jeongin wasn’t very quick to reply, either.

‘I don’t think he would be mad. I think he would have wanted us to move on.. besides, we found a piece of him in each other. I told you I believe in destiny and paths.. Which means, in my head, this is how it was supposed to go for us.’

‘Or he’s up there thinking you’re both assholes for dating each other, knowing he was your best friend and Y/n’s soulmate. It’s kind of gross.’ Minho sneered as he walked through the living room to the kitchen, ignoring the existence of Chris entirely.

The words made you sink further on the couch, hiding your face in your boyfriend’s thigh. He shot Minho’s retreating figure a glare, gently patting your back; ‘I’ll repeat the same words I told you the day we met; ignore him, he has an attitude issue.’

‘Is he right?’

‘Absolutely not. I know for a fact you don’t really believe him... he just has a way of making people feel like utter shit.. but, he’s family.’ A weak chuckle followed his words as he shifted to get more comfortable on the couch, closing his eyes. ‘Just get some rest, okay? Don’t linger on the bad thoughts, babe.’

You relished in the pet name and gave a small nod, nuzzling close to his warmth and closing your eyes. Maybe he was right; maybe this was what the world had planned for you all along.

Sadly, the following months thought otherwise and you found yourself back at square one. Someone gone and someone changing your life.. for better or maybe for worse.

#jellie #stray kids #skz #stray kids scenarios #stray kids imagines #kpop #kpop drabbles #kpop scenarios #jeongin #yang jeongin #i.n #lee know #lee minho #bang chan #felix #lee felix

[opsecretsanta2019]

FAQs (mobile-friendly)

This is a mobile-friendly copy of the FAQs page for easy reference, accurate as of 24 October 2019. For the most updated version, please check the FAQs page in browser or on desktop.

FAQs below the cut! Mobile-friendly rules here.

Where is the application form?

It’s linked in the rules page. Please read the rules before applying, thanks!

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What is this?

It’s a one piece holiday gift exchange on tumblr!

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When are the deadlines?

15 Nov – Applications close. 22 Nov – Santas assigned. 27 Nov – Santas confirm assignments. 25 Dec to 31 Dec – Post the gifts! 5 Jan 2020 – Tell me if you didn’t get your gift. 9 Jan 2020 – Backup santas notified. 31 Jan 2020 – Backup santa gifts posted!

The close of each day is 11:59pm HKT (GMT + 8h). Please note that my timezone is ahead of most countries.

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How do I join?

To enter, you must read the rules and complete the application form linked on the rules page.

You must send in the application form before 15th NOVEMBER 2019 at 11:59pm HKT (GMT+8h).

If you apply, please commit to creating and giving a gift.

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What’s this password thing you have in the application? What password?

If you don’t know the password, please read the entire rules page carefully from top to bottom. For easy reference, here’s a link to the rules and the mobile-friendly rules.

Applications with an incorrect password will be rejected during santa/ giftee assignments, even if applicants received the response email.

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Oh no! I made a mistake in my application form/ I got the password wrong/ I left out something. What do I do?

You can edit your application anytime before applications close on 15 November 2019 (2359h HKT). You should have received a response email with the edit link.

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I made a typo on my password. Will I be rejected/ do I need to edit my application?

Nah, that’s fine, I’m willing to accept typos. Your application will get denied if the answer clearly shows that you don’t know the password.

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Who sees the information I put in my application?

The middle section with your preferences will be copy-pasted and sent word-for-word to your santa. Your santa will also get your tumblr URL/ username. If you addressed any comments to your santa in your miscellaneous comment section, I’ll pass those along too.

Only the mods will see your email and other details. For now, that’s only me (@codedredalert) and @narramin. Since the volume of work got overwhelming, I got her on board as a mod.

She’s a close friend I trust, and while I don’t think we’ll have anyone else joining us as a moderator, If you’re very concerned about other people finding out about your email address and other application details, maybe give this event a miss.

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What do I have to do when I post my gift?

Mention the name of your giftee in the post (like this: @url). Also mention @opsecretsanta2019 in the post.

Tag #opsecretsanta2019 and any appropriate compulsory warning tags (#n/sfw, #graphic violence, #major character death, #noncon or dubcon, #underage , #chose not to use warnings , #no warnings apply).

Consider writing a nice message to the giftee to go along with the gift, if you like. 

If it is Not Safe For Work, please put it in a read-more and tag it appropriately.

Send me a link to your post! I will be re-blogging all gifts under #finished gifts.

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How do you select Secret Santas?

I sort participants by naughty and nice into a SFW group and a NSFW group. After that, both groups are separately put through a random generator. Once giftees are drawn from the generator, I will manually check to make sure santas/ giftees share at least one mutual interest.

You should not be giving to the same person you’re receiving from.

What does it mean if I’m in the NSFW group?

If you choose NSFW, it means you are okay with making or receiving NSFW content AND are at least 21 years of age.

You do not have to create a NSFW gift if you don’t feel like it. You may or may not receive a NSFW gift.

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Can I make/ receive NSFW?

To potentially receive or send NSFW material, you must be 21 years or older when applications close on 15 November 2019 2359h.

If you make something NSFW for your giftee, please put it under a read more and tag it appropriately. If your NSFW gift is/ could be flagged, please post it on another site and provide a link in a tumblr post.

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Why must I be 21+ to receive/ give NSFW? I’m an adult in my country.

I don’t want drama/ legal issues about adults sending NSFW to minors. 21 is the highest age of majority as far as I’m aware, so that’s what I set it as to cover everyone. Sorry, kiddo.

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I’m not 21+ yet but I will be by the time applications close. Can I still say I’m 21+?

Happy early birthday, I hope you have a great time! Please go ahead and put yourself on the NSFW list if you want. I’ll take the cut-off for age limit at the point where applications close aka 15 November 2019 2359h HKT.

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What is considered NSFW?

NSFW components for the purposes of this event (loosely based on the R rating guidelines of the Motion Picture Association of America):

      (1) Violence: Canon-typical depictions of violence are generally SFW (eg. brawls, blood, stabbing). However, violence that is detailed, realistic, extreme or persistent would make a work NSFW.

       (2) Language/ Profanity / Swearing: Generally, swearing is SFW, but you’re encouraged to keep it mild. You have a maximum of one (1) singular “fuck” to give in a SFW work. Use it wisely. Excessive or extremely graphic swearing would make a work NSFW.

       (3) Drugs/ Substance Abuse:

       Canon-typical depiction of smoking is SFW (eg. chain smoking or smoking several cigarettes/cigars at once is SFW). However, smoking/ nicotine addiction that is detailed, realistic, extreme or persistent would make a work NSFW.

       Canon-typical drinking of large amounts of alcohol is SFW. However, alcoholism/ alcohol addiction that is detailed, realistic, extreme or persistent would make a work NSFW.

       Mention of drugs used in a medical context is SFW. Otherwise, any drug use or mention of drug use would make a work NSFW.

      (4) Nudity and sexual content:

       Nudity that is depicted visually (eg. art) is NSFW, regardless of whether it is sexual or not. Please post a censored/ partial preview of the art and link the full piece on another site. (Tumblr might flag it otherwise lol.)

       Non-visual nudity (eg. writing) is NSFW if it is sexually-oriented. Please ensure that it is under a read-more.

       All sexual content is NSFW regardless of medium.

       Hugs, kisses and cuddling are SFW.

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Can I opt to be in the NSFW list, but still say I don’t want to receive/ create a certain type of NSFW (eg. specifically not sexual content, or drug abuse)?

Yup! Generally, giving more information in your application is better. It’s good to be clear and upfront about your likes and dislikes. It helps me a lot in deciding if I need to re-roll when I double-check your random match. It helps your santa know what not to give you too.

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Is ____ pairing/ content/ gen allowed?

As long as they’re canon One Piece characters, yes. This event aims to be as inclusive as possible. Just make sure you tag appropriately.

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Are OCs/ self-insert/ Y/N fic allowed?

Sorry, nope. I’m sure you and your OCs are lovely, however, this is a One Piece event, so please only feature canon One Piece characters.

You CAN sneak in a little extra cameo if you really want. Eg. a random person in the background/ a random shopkeeper in your fic. But the focus must be on canon One Piece characters.

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I personally consider ____ content problematic. Will you allow it?

The compulsory warning tags (following those on Ao3) generally cover a wide range of potentially offensive content. Please be responsible for your own content regulation by blacklisting the necessary tags. I cannot be responsible for everyone’s content consumption.

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I’m personally triggered by _____. Can you tag it?

Your personal triggers will already be accounted for in the application form and the information sent to your santa. So, this shouldn’t be a problem for your gift. Also, there are the compulsory warning tags for you to blacklist if necessary.

If you think there is still a very high chance that other people’s gifts will have your trigger, send me an ask off-anon proposing (1) a feasible identification system and (2) a tag name. We’ll see if we can work something out.

I promise to hear you out. However, I will exercise my discretion as to whether it is feasible for me to impose your request on every post on this blog. If your request requires a moral judgment or a lot of work on my part, I am less likely to impose your request.

It’s not possible for me to please everyone. I’ve done my best to cover the generally-accepted warnings. Thanks in advance for your understanding.

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What kinds of gifts are allowed?

Anything digital as long as you personally created it for your giftee!

SUGGESTED minimum guidelines for different types of content are below (feel free to go above and beyond if your heart desires):

  –  Art – 1 artwork, sketches are okay as long as characters are recognisable

  – AMVs – 30 seconds. Please use only official art/ anime/ movies as your base.

  – Animations – 3 seconds, sketches are okay as long as characters are recognisable

  –  Animatics – 30 seconds, sketches are okay as long as characters are recognisable

  – Edits – 2 edits of good image quality. Please use only official art as your base.

  –  Fanfiction – 100 words (prose), 20 words (poetry)

  –  GIFsets – 2 gifs of good image quality. Please use only official art/ anime/ movies as your base.

  –  Music cover – 1 minute. Please cover only official One Piece songs/ motifs.

 –   Playlist –   10 songs. Please try to find out about your giftee’s music taste and cater to that if possible.

  –   Podfic/ audio reading –   You MUST get permission in writing from the fic author before making the recording. In your recording, you MUST clearly state the original author, the title of the original fic, and the website where the original fic can be found. In your post, you MUST give LINKED credit to both the original author AND the original fic.

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Do I need to meet a minimum for my gift?

There are suggested minimum guidelines for different types of content, but there are no strict minimums. The gift creation for this event is intended to be very achievable, stress-free, and accessible even to first-time creators.

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Do I have to follow a winter theme in the gift?

Nope. Anything goes! Just try to do something you think your giftee would like according to the information you were given.

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Can I send something in the mail?

Sorry, please don’t. This exchange is digital-only.

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Hey I'm a writer who uses Ao3. Is there an Ao3 collection for this event which I can add my gift to?

Yup, here’s the link to the opsecretsanta2019 Ao3 collection. Please feel free to add your fic(s) to the Ao3 collection during the posting period (aka 25 December 2019 to 31 December 2019). It would be good if you could drop me a message on tumblr when you do.

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I don’t know what an Ao3 collection is/ how to submit works to an Ao3 collection/ how to specify gift recipients etc?

Here are the Ao3 Collections FAQs.

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I’m not very good at art/ writing/ etc.

That’s okay! As long as you put your heart into it, you’re welcome aboard! 

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I want to join but I’m shy/ intimidated generally/ by my giftee/ by everyone’s expectations.

Hey, it’s alright, we’re all nakama in the same anime pirate boat here to enjoy some holiday time. Just try your best and have fun!

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I didn't receive my response email?

Ah, the automated emails have a daily limit, sorry. You can send me a message and I'll send you a copy manually. Thanks!

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When and how will I get my Secret Santa assignment?

On or before 22 November, I will contact you via your tumblr blog. Please keep your askbox/ submit box open between 14 November 2019 and 23 November 2019.

If I can’t reach you on tumblr, I will use the email you provide in the application.

If you applied on time, but did not receive a giftee assignment, please contact me.

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When should I send my gift to my Secret Santa?

Any time on or between 25 December 2019 and 31 December 2019.

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Can I let my giftee know who I am?

Only once you post your gift. In other words, yes but not earlier than 25 December 2019.

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Can I contact my giftee to clarify things about the gift?

Yes but you cannot reveal your identity before you post your gift (eg. use anon asks). If you can’t contact your giftee via tumblr, just do your best with the information you have.

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What if my giftee doesn’t have anon asks on/ doesn’t respond?

If you can’t contact your giftee anonymously via tumblr, just do your best with the information you have. Most people wrote detailed applications, so this should be workable.

If giftees are feeling up to it, consider keeping anon asks open for the duration of this event so santas can make clarifications if they need to. It might mean that the gift turns out more to your personal taste.

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Can the mods contact my giftee to ask things for me?

We’d love to but we can’t afford to take on the extra workload of being the go-between for everyone’s giftee questions.

You will get your giftee’s tumblr URL. Feel free to check out your giftee’s tumblr and see if they accept anon asks. Please respect their personal rules on interacting if you send asks.

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Oops! Something has come up and I can’t participate!

If you have to drop out, please do it before 15 November 2019 if possible. I want to make sure every participant receives a gift.

If you have to drop out after 15 November 2019, please send me an ask. I will assign backup santas.

Please note that if you drop out or are deemed to have dropped out, you may or may not receive any gift.

Please note that if you don’t confirm participation by 27 November 2019, you are deemed to have dropped out.

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Oh no, I missed the confirmation deadline (27 November 2019)! But I can confirm now though I’m late! Please please please will you still make sure I get a gift?

If you confirm late but before 15 December 2019, maybe, but at my discretion. If a replacement/ backup santa has already been assigned, likely no.

If you confirm on or after 15 December 2019, no. It’s up to luck whether you get one or not. May the odds be ever in your favour.

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I don’t use tumblr much/ my tumblr is dead, but I will be contactable and post on tumblr for this event. Is that okay?

Yup! As long as you communicate and post according to the timelines, it’s okay.

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How many mods are there?

Two. The older posts like this one use mostly “I”, since I started this event alone, but beacuse of the number of participants and the workload I got another person on board.

My art/ writing/ main is @codedredalert, and the second mod’s writing/ cursed/ main is @narramin.

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Have you, the mods, ever run an event like this before?

Nope. I, Red, have participated in maybe two. Take that as you will.

Suggestions and advice from experienced people are welcome! I may not be able to use/ implement them in this event, but the learning is appreciated.

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Are you, the mods, going to be participating as a giftee/ santa? I want a chance to get content from you/ give you things.

Awww thank you, that’s so sweet. Alas, I am just your humble mod. I’ll have my work cut out for me running the event and some major IRL things. Anyways, I'll be doing the matchups so I feel like I ought not to participate.

I’ll step in as a backup santa/ pinch hitter if necessary.

Since narramin leveled up from being a humble participant/ backup santa to moderator, she will be still participating, but due to her own request she won’t know her own santa. Needless to say, her santa will be randomised too. 

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Will you read/ comment on all the gift works?

I would like to, but I don’t want to make promises unless I’m sure I can keep them. I,,,,, will try.

Currently, I’m considering reblogging with functional tags first and slowly going through to add the fun comment tags later. I think I could make that work.

I would be in a better position to talk about this after applications close and the matchups and drop-outs are finalised. Thanks for your understanding.

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Is this event affiliated with _____?

Nope, it’s just us, alone, in this coffin-boat built from our own hubris.

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I don’t like your bad jokes and your weird western pirate talk. Can you stop?

Does Zoro have a sense of direction?

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The question I wanted to ask isn’t answered here?

Thank you so much for reading the questions before asking. Please feel free to send an ask to this blog or an email to [email protected] .

#important #opsecretsanta2019

[kxrdej]

A year in review of the guys I dated this year

First of all, I would like to thank my ex-boyfriend Shaun for ending our relationship because without him this post would not be possible. Hi Shaun wish you well sorry for accidentally changing your name to dickhead on messenger. I don’t have a good enough reason as to why I did that besides the fact I thought it was funny, and I forgot messenger notifies you when people are given nicknames *slowly dies from regret*. I don’t know why I’m doing this but I’m bored as fuck, tipsy and I don’t have any plans for NYE so fuck it. Here we go: 

1. Nathan, you were my first ever date after I broke up with ex so I hope you feel fucking special. I would also like to apologise for sleeping with you on our first date. In all honesty I did not plan that all (maybe just a little bit) but I  thought you would not actually like me at all so I just said to myself “meh, why not”. That hook up wasn’t that bad to be honest, wish it lasted longer (hehe) but I rate it. You were great at the start, and then you kept on making up excuses every fucking time I wanted to do something with you so I got the hint (even though you said you wanted to see me again but ok). I’m still a bit salty after you told me you were so busy one night and you said that you couldn't speak to me at all but as soon as I went online on League of Legends I saw you playing which kind of triggered me a bit. No hard feelings though, I still think I went on a date too early when I was still a few months fresh off a break up. 

2. Ben, BEN…..BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNN!!! I honestly fucking think we would’ve been together if you stayed in Swansea after you graduated and if you didn’t leave for China. That coffee date is probably still one of my favourite dates I’ve ever been on. I know we still talk and shit and I tell you some of my problems over Snapchat even though you’re like a million fucking miles away from me but just come back to Swansea for fuck sake. 

3. Okay I’m pretty sure it was George next (I think). Our date was nice, and we sort of clicked because we’re both basic Starbucks bitches. I don’t know who’s idea was it to go and have Jamaican food but that definitely was a good one. I think the highlight of that day was when the waiter thought I was chatting up a girl on my phone when he saw my screen when I was paying (lmao), and both of us just stared at each other like what the fuck is going on. We still talk from time to time, wish we could hang out more but you live in Bay now and I can’t be asked for that (jk). 

4. Jon, I don’t know if we ever classed our date as either romantic or friendly but I’ll talk about you anyway. I miss you! You’re so funny even though you knew I couldn’t understand you sometimes (Birmingham accent for those of you who are wondering). Even though our date wasn’t necessarily going to lead to anything serious I still really had fun! That Mumbles date was 10/10. I can’t remember if we went on more dates  but I know we “met up” a few times after that…..I definitely had a good time during them as well though! Haha. 

5. Wahaca boy, I honestly can’t even remember your name because I only went on a date with you because I really wanted to find an excuse to eat at Wahaca. Sorry m8. You weren’t for me but you were nice just little bit too nice for my liking. (Edit - I REMEMBER HIS NAME WAS SIMEON)

6. For the sake of discretion, and I don’t want to disrespect you because you’re not out; I shall call you Nick. We didn’t really go on dates but we planned to after our fuck sessions. The reason why I placed you on this list is because we had a thing but it was complicated I get it. I just wished you weren’t such an utter fucking twat to me near the end like I should’ve listened when you told me to “stay away” from you every time you drunk texted me. Saying that, I would like to apologise for being a rude to you at the end too. The only reason why I was like that was because I wanted to get back at you. I don’t regret watching Guardian’s of The Galaxy 2 without you if I’m honest, and I know it made you upset after I did that. You kind of deserved that one. You didn’t have to block me on everything though you dickhead (lol). I don’t know if you’ll ever read this but I’d like you to know you’re still my best fuck ayye lmao. 

7. Jason. Don’t say “I love you” on the first date. 

8. Luke, we never went on a date but you clearly have some issues. We were speaking for at least 3 weeks and I felt like I was already going out with an over controlling piece of shit. You threw you’re fucking phone and broke it because you didn’t have signal when you we’re on the phone to me. I’m so fucking glad I confronted you at the end after you got mad at me for “being too tired” and not wanting to speak to you that night. Jesus Christ. 

9. Owain, I know you knew as well that there was something missing during the few weeks we went on dates. I’m glad we managed to talk it out like adults and I’m happy you enjoyed the beach date I planned. Also, I know you told me to plan the same thing for another guy because it was good but you’ll be disappointed to hear I have yet to bring out the beach date after you. 

10. Rob, I’m not even going to waste time on you. Bye bitch. If anyone is reading this and they’re on Swansea Grindr, if you ever meet a guy named Rob who had just came back from Australia PLEASE STAY AWAY. 

11. Chris, the only thing we had in common was that Rob was dating you the same time he was dating me lmao. You were nice but you come off a bit too stuck up for me. Even though you said you wanted to be friends, I do not know why you gave me boring one worded answers on messenger every time I tried to talk to you. Are you just that boring when you’re replying? or are you just a twat? 

12. Ryan, I really enjoyed our Las Iguanas date not gonna lie! I don’t know why you still spoke to me after I mistaken the jug of water as vodka (I know). Why did we stop speaking? You were great! Ryan if you ever get to read this I’d like you to know you are my type on paper but you said you fell asleep during the first episode of Game of Thrones and that you haven’t seen any Marvel films so you kind of killed yourself there (I’m kidding).

13. Rhys, or was it Rice? Reece? Daddy? Zaddy? I still hate you for moving to Mexico (I’m kidding). I’m sorry, I know I looked really bad going on a date a few weeks after you left. Our dates were great. You’re great. I secretly wished you didn’t find a job for January but well done I’m proud of you senor. Thanks for introducing me to Drag Race. You basically turned me into basic gay queen and I appreciate that. Also, muchisimas gracias por tu tiempo. I haven’t used it on my dissertation supervisor yet but I will one day!

14. Last but not the least, Tom. I legitimately thought you were the one. Clearly I was wrong as I’m sat here during new year’s eve writing this cringe Tumblr post. I really do want you to know I’m not mad at you, and that I understand completely as to why you broke it off. You made made my whole December. We genuinely got along so well. You’re the first person that’s ever convinced me in 9 years to go ice skating again so you were pretty fucking special to me. I still feel bad that you paid for most of our dates but I really really appreciated it when you did. Also, I know you secretly hated when I’d surprise pay for some our dates ;). I just wished you communicated with me more, you know, during that week.I know you said you wanted to keep in touch but it’ll probably take me awhile to talk you again. I’m not going to lie and say I don’t miss you because I do. For some reason, this affected me more than when my ex’s broke up with me (sorry Shaun, and Cory). If you do read this, you can keep using my Spotify.

I probably had some really shit grammar during some of those but I never claimed to be good at writing. Also, I’ve had a few drinks before writing this so my head is a bit fuzzy. Also, don’t take this seriously I appreciate every one of the guys I’ve met this year even though a few of you are scum. If I missed out someone then most likely the date was forgettable. Sorry! 

Happy new year bitches! Here’s to a single, career driven, no time for men because I can live without one (for the mean time) 2018. 

(Edit - So I’m reading this again on new year’s day, back to my senses, no longer drinking 2 cups of Prosecco every 10 minutes, and I’m clearly noticing a lot of grammatical errors, typos, missing words etc. (SORRY ABOUT THAT). I made a few small changes to some of them to make it flow a bit better. I don’t really know why half-tipsy me addressed the whole thing to them rather than in third person but I guessed I wanted closure since half of you I ghosted, or I got ghosted. Also, for those of you who really know me you guys know I’m an intimate person. 

Anyway, I just wanted to say if you’re going through the same thing as I am and you’re in this cycle of non-stop dating, meeting, sleeping with guys or girls until you find the one and you’re struggling at it. Look I honestly get it. It’s fucking TOUGH AS SHIT. If only everything was as simple as ‘Hang the DJ’ (my favourite ever Black Mirror episode btw I cried a few times because relatable). It’s really not the end of world, and I know its lonely to be alone (unless you like you’re own company like me 90% of the time) but we’ll eventually find that person. It hurts you know that gut sinking feeling you get every time that new person decides to break it off, and you’re just sat there like “here we fucking go again back to square fucking one”. If you guys get me haha. If you’ve experienced the same thing or you’re going through a similar thing right now, I can’t give you good enough advice on how to get rid of it because you can’t unless you’re a robot or you’ve mastered the art of getting rid of feelings (teach me pls if you can). It’s all on time I guess. These guys/girls that you meet or go on dates with that decide to break it off with you after a few weeks. They’re just obstacles that you shouldn’t stress upon. I know everyone has gone through the same cycle of looking at your phone, checking their log in times, last active, snapchat location during or even after they’re dating that person (Hi Tom) but stop you’re doing nothing else besides hurting yourself. If you think that person is toying with you at the end then they’re not worth it. These people who just jump and jump on girls or guys, and just speaking to them just to sleep with them, or because they have nothing else to do besides adding you to their trophies, they’re not worth it. Stay away from dating apps (As I swipe through Tinder) they can be toxic (Grindr). Meet someone in real life. It’s hard but probably its better I don’t know. It’s hard to meet guys irl if you’re gay (lol). So if you’re going through the same thing as I am just hang in there, and be patient. It’s okay to feel shitty because I do but its okay we’ll get through. That anxiety you get of feeling unwanted I get it. Dan Harmon, the guy who made Rick and Morty, said some pretty good advice the past week. He said “Feelings are real, but they’re not reality”.  Focus on YOURSELF. Give yourself the time, effort, and attention you deserve. The best relief to all of this for me was spending time with my friends, and talking to them. So I advice you to do that too or eat. Eating is good.)

Also, if anyone is interested in what went down between me, Rob, and Chris. I’ll maybe write another post if people are interested. 

#newyear #2018 #lgbt #lgbtq #gay #relationship #advice #dating

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Perfect Perfidy Pt.3

Find Part 1 here and Part 2 here and Part 4 here!!!!!!!!! PART 5!!! Part 6 (final)

Wow, I just posted and I am very happy and I hope you are too. Pls enjoy this trash made by your trash writer person thing <3 (pls notify of typos)

Once you and Jumin were inside the penthouse the effect of the drugs had almost completely worn off, although you did stagger from time to time, you walked over to the kitchen eager to get a cool drink of water as you saw Jumin dialling a number on his phone.

“Why on earth did you go to such lengths?”

You overheard Jumin’s conversation from the kitchen and decided to listen.

“I specifically said, keep an eye out for her and make sure she’s safe!” Jumin yelled, whoever he was talking to definitely did something terrible.

“At what point in time, may I ask, was drugging her allowed? I asked for her to be brought back to me safe, why is it that a security company does not understand the meaning of safe!”

Your eyes widened, this conversation was about you and how you had apparently been drugged by Jumin’s security. You watched as he ran a hand through his soft black hair and dropped his phone on the kitchen counter, his movements were smooth and elegant, something you missed about him. You put your empty glass in the sink and found yourself craving a hot bath, you remembered Jumin owned a spa bath so you decided to use it then get your ass out of this hell hole.

You didn't know where Jumin had gone, but as long as he wasn't in the way you were fine, you made your way to the bathroom and filled up the bath, pouring in random soaps that smelt good to soothe your growing headache, once it was filled up you had stripped down and stepped in. There was a small hand towel which you had found and used it as a pillow for your head, your mind began to drift, you hadn't been there in ages and it seems so long ago that you used to call this place your home.

Your muscles relaxed until you decided that you needed to get out of here, you had drunk too much and you could feel your energy slipping away with the need to sleep growing stronger. You drained the bath and wrapped a towel around yourself, hoping your belongings were still in their previous place.

You walked into the bedroom and checked your drawers, thanking the lord that your stuff was still here. You hurriedly slipped some clothes on and made your way to the bedroom door, but Jumin was standing outside leaning against the wall.

“Where do you think you’re going?” He questioned

“I'm going home, Jumin” You said as you tried to walk past but he stepped in front of you.

“I just got you back and you're trying to run away from me? I'm not going to let you leave”

“What? You haven’t gotten me back, I just happen to be in your house due to some circumstances”

“No, you're back and I'm not going to let you leave again, one whole month and I haven't seen or heard from you” Jumin said quietly as he neared you causing you to back up as well.

“Please let me go, I don't want to be here”

“I don’t care MC, you’re mine”

Your eyes widened as you looked up at Jumin, his face had darkened and his eyes were staring into yours, you knew he could get possessive but not this much. You glanced behind you and saw the bed, you couldn't back away anymore and he was less than 5 centimetres away from you.

Jumin grabbed your chin and forced you to look at him, fear travelled through your nerves, but you were comforted by his close proximity. As he looked at you and you looked at him you noticed how his mouth drooped and his eyes had slight bags under them, you scoffed, he did this to himself. You felt his hand leave your chin before both his hands rest on your shoulders, he frowned.

“You lost weight, have you not been taking care of yourself?”

You stayed silent, he was always like this, somehow he noticed everything around him and wouldn't hold back to fix it. Suddenly the hands that were on your shoulders shoved you down harshly onto the bed, but you brought your legs up and shoved your knee into his stomach, he rolled off you and you took that opportunity to run out, you quickly grabbed your belongings but you were suddenly tackled to the ground causing everything to spill all over the cold tile, including you.

“You’re not going to leave me MC”

“As if I would fucking listen to your cheating ass” you said as you tried to wiggle out from under him.

“Have you fallen in love with Zen? Is that what it is?”

You were shocked into silence, how dare he accuse you of falling in love with someone else when you had seen with you own eyes that he seemed to be doing the exact same thing.

“Jumin, you have no right to say that to me right now and even if I was in love with him can you blame me? I saw your dick in some other bitch and you think you can question me on who I love? I’ve never hated someone as much as you”.

You feel Jumin freeze above you making you feel as if you have crossed an imaginary boundary but you didn’t care how he felt since it didn't seem he cared about you and your own feelings. You flipped onto your back and looked up at his face, something wet fell on your cheek and brushed his hanging hair away so you could look him in the eyes. Jumin was crying, you weren't sure whether to comfort him or leave so you just lay there waiting for something to happen.

“Tell me you didn't mean that MC” Jumin said as he looked up at you with watery eyes.

“Tell me that you don't hate me, please” He pleaded once again.

“Are you kidding? Why would I not hate you right now, I hate you so much, I wish I nev-”

Your head cracked to the side with a sting in your left cheek, an iron taste spread over your tongue, Jumin had slapped you and made you bleed. You spat the blood out onto the floor before you were about to shove him off but he got up himself and backed away.

“MC, I'm so sorry, please just stay with me, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry my darl- I just don't know what to do anymore, please jus-”

You got up from the floor and slapped him back, you didn't say or do anything to let him know what was going on in your mind. Jumin looked at the floor not daring to look you in the eye, he didn't even look up as you walked away into the bedroom so you could get rid of your blood stained shirt.

You quickly put on on of your old sweatshirts and left, checking your back pocket for your phone you walked out of the bedroom but ran into Jumin again.

“MC please I'm so sorry” he fell to his knees in front of you “I can explain myself, please give me some time, you know I don’t know how to deal with these emotions, please I'm begging you, you're the best thing to ever happen to me, I can't let you leave.”

You pushed him off of you and sped out of there, his footsteps not far behind.

“Jumin leave me alone, i need some time to think” you started to let your tears fall, you were so used to Jumin being strong and resilient, it hurt to see him like this, he was kneeling in front of you again with swollen eyes, tears rolling down his face and his hair stuck to his forehead, although you knew you didn't look any better.

The both of you stayed there like that until the elevator doors opened behind you, you wiped your eyes and turned around to see the sight of V. The sight of him was like seeing the first ray of sunshine after three days of hurricanes.

You turned around and glanced at Jumin before asking V “Please take me away from here”.

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